#i was able to reconnect with old friends and hobbies and joys and even religion again

[gamchawizzy]

lately i've been looking back a lot on how college was a traumatising time in my life, but there were some genuinely wonderful people there who inspired me constantly and taught me newer perspectives and ideas i would have never been able to discover outside of my bubble

i never had the chance to learn enough or hang out much with them due to my unfortunate situation at the time. isolation made me distrustful and paranoid, not to mention how i turned easily exhausted in social situations. i see these people in better places now and i'm so incredibly happy for them, but it also gave me reflection on the things that were stolen from me during those formative years.

i can only hope to move forward in better ways and remind myself it's never too late to build something out of myself. one day i'll catch up.

[lostsoulsdailyrambles]

Things that keep me breathing.

1. New music to be released by artists you like

2. New adventures your haven't experienced (have you jumped in any puddles recently?)

3. The possibility of a future pet

4. Your ultimate favourite movie could not have been released yet

5. They're going to release a new season of that show you like

6. Someone was made to love you out there, maybe they're searching for you the same way you long for them.

7. The longer you live the more chance you get to see good things happen in the world

8. There are so many different outfits and clothes you haven't tried wearing yet

9. So many songs you haven't listened to yet, your new favourite could be a day away

10. Think of the way you could bring light to others with your story of survival, the story of a warrior

11. Someone new and exciting is going to enter your life, they're going to open up a whole new world for you soon. Stay here for that

12. The feeling of freshly washed sheets on your skin after a late night shower.

13. Falling asleep to the sound of the car radio, watching the moon rise into the sky.

14. All the concerts you haven't been too

15. All the campfires you haven't gotten to sing around yet, all the smores you're going to eat

16. The feeling of a cold glass of water after a long day outside in the summer

17. All the smiles you'll put on people's faces

18. Holding that diploma or degree in your hand one day

19. Participating in the fight to make everyone equal.

20. Standing up for your beliefs

21. Finding your favourite candle scent

22. First kisses. Kisses of any kind.

23. Going home and taking a nap after a long day of socializing

24. Surprise money in the pockets of your favourite jeans

25. Watching the sky move in puddles as you walk past them

26. You'll learn new things, discover new things, things that can completely transform you

27. That feeling when the YouTube video finally loads.

28. More little victories, like not spilling any juice when pouring yourself a glass to drink in the morning

29. Buying a new cute bra. Or that feeling of refreshment you get when you swap out an old toothbrush for a new one.

30. The brief sense of renewal after you've deep cleaned your face.

31. All the people who are praying for you, even if you're not religious, or you don't feel loved. I promise you someone's praying for you by name.

32. Have you ever seen a picture of those really fluffy dogs that are always smiling? Whether you answer yes or no, there are so many pictures of those dogs you haven't seen yet.

33. Building pillow forts and blanket forts no matter what age you are.

34. You have changed somebody's life for the better, even if you don't feel like it. That stranger who you smiled at? You effected them.

35. Singing in the shower. Singing Christmas carols. Singing your favourite song home alone. Singing.

36. All the hobbies you haven't picked up yet.

37. All the lessons you have to teach others who need to learn them.

38. Taking off your socks for bed.

39. All those smile inducing photographs you have yet to take

40. When was the last time you had a snow cone? Too long ago. Imagine all the delicious snow cones you'll eat in the future.

41. The classic pacman games, the nostalgia the music gives you

42. All the lakes you haven't swam in yet, the docks you haven't jumped off of in that bathing suit that makes you feel amazing.

43. Finding that perfect pair of jeans

44. Being alive to witness the cure for cancer be discovered.

45. The extra hour you gain when the clocks get changed

46. All those languages you haven't learned yet.

47. Grinning so hard your cheeks hurt. And you don't even realize it until you're laying in bed that night.

48. The doodles you have yet to create

49. The internet friends you're going to make

50. Staring at Christmas lights reflecting on the snow.

51. All the Halloweens you haven't decorated for yet.

52. All those trips to the thrift stores you haven't gone on yet, all those hella cute shirts for 2 dollars you're going to buy.

53. You could learn about a new religion in the future, discover new things about how strong you are.

54. Music boxes. The nostalgia they hold.

55. The fact that cute animals exist

56. When you lay down after hard work and you feel all the muscles in your back relax

57. The reflection of your laptops light on the walls of your bedroom late at night. The silent serenity.

58. You are gonna get to buy a cool set of matching furniture in the future.

59. You might get to be here when they invent that thing where you can smell the video you're watching through your screen.

60. Start a coin collection, make it your goal to collect a coin from every country in the world. Now imagine having a coin collection that cool.

61. Getting to name a future pet Or heck if you're up for it... A future kid!

62. How many butterflies have you seen in your life? Not enough! There are so many more beautiful butterflies and animals too see.

63. Soft paint brushes.

64. All the books you haven't read yet (or inspiring lyrics you havent heard)

65. The sound of rain outside your window as you close your eyes to sleep.

66. Brushing cats. Hey it may sound weird, but it's satisfying and cats love it. Happy cats = cute cats

67. The alphabet song. Maybe it's just me, but it's so full of joy.

68. Finding out weird things about people (like how the alphabet song makes them happy)

69. Funny jokes with underlying meaning ;)

70. Watching lava lamps, in complete silence.

71. Imagine all the sunsets you have yet to watch. Cheesie, but it's really surreal to watch the sky change.

72. The satisfying click of a light switch.

73. That feeling of freedom you get after doing a deep clean of your room.

74. The fact that, no matter if you believe it or not, someone cares. I care.

75. One day you won't be pulling all nighters for essays. Ever again.

76. All the vinyls you don't own yet

77. All the games that haven't been released yet, thousands that you could fall in love with playing.

78. The possibility that one day, you could own your own house. And if you already do, think off all the interior decorating you have yet to do.

79. Finding that most comfortable sweater, the one that you could spend days in without shame

80. I care enough to take the time to write a list of all the things that keep me going, in hopes that I could bring you some hope.

81. Watching people in a relaxed state, the calm that radiates off of someone who's at utter peace is amazing.

82. All the new haircuts you haven't tried yet

83. The possibility that one day you could wake up to the love of your life, and all the glory of their morning hair. And if that's not something you want, then the fact that you can still see love in the world without romance.

84. The satisfaction of reconnecting to your WiFi after you have to do that thing where you unplug It, then re plug it when it stops working.

85. Freezies and popsicles in the summer

86. The future garden you haven't planted yet

87. All those recipes you haven't tried yet.

88. Running your hands through your freshly washed hair. Or on your freshly shaven legs/face/anything

89. The fact that the human mind is so complex that it's capable of such deep emotions like love(platonic or romantic), all the things you haven't learned about emotions yet. Or how our brain works.

90. The way you feel handing the cashier the exact amount of change.

91. Talking to nice retail workers. No matter what your conversation is about.

92. All those ice cream flavours you haven't tried

93. All the instruments you can't play yet... All the songs you're gonna learn.

94. The fact that tie dye exists. How cool?!?!

95. Pulling on clothes that just came out of the dryer and are still warm.

96. That feeling of accomplishment when you find the energy to practice self care.

97. The smell of popcorn in the microwave.

98. The feeling when your stomach hurts from laughter.

99. The fact that I was able to come up with 99 positive things.