#i want to watch episode 2 but it’s past midnight here and i’m scared lol

[diamantdog]

what i learned from watching revenant episode 1 is i’ve been living my life right by never accepting guests and never answering phone calls 😌

[basement-office-log]

Some Thoughts about BTS...

So... this is basically, the story of how I got in and out of the BTS fandom. (Okay not exactly out because I’m still casually following them nowadays)

How I discovered them is ironically, like many of you, through youtube. It was just before the Run era I guess??? (around the end of 2015). Like somewhen between the Dope and Run era that I got in the fandom.

I guess I can consider myself as one of those depressed fans (lol), I actually remembered there was a option in the BTS fan survey around their BS&T era(???) that said “are you the kind of person that is easily depressed” and I ticked yes.

Almost instantaneously, I fell for the song “Butterfly” it was just the prologue that released back then. The MV was beautifully made, with a sad happy yet depressed undertone, perfectly described how I’m feeling back then.

I first noticed I’m depressed back then in 2015 (let’s be honest, college makes everyone depressed), more like “ahh so this is what being depressed is”. 

And what now... I’m writing this after a tiring long day at work so things may jump back and forth... 

Both their HYYH albums, I had gone through countless late nights listening the tracks on repeat, those are still my favourite albums up till today. Beapsae, instead of partying, that was the song that kept me awake till 5 a.m. ahh those memories... Same with Dope, I did not read the english lyrics until the hundredth repeat lmao. I was actually expecting the song to be about how cool I am, come to oppa and I’ll make you the princess kind of lyrics but ehh boi you surprised me with those raps hmmm....... 

And... Jungkook, I did not like him when I first got into the fandom, to be honest. Because he’s younger than me and also he’s the center, main vocal of the group, despite the youngest. I remembered I was like, wow cocky brat isn’t it. Hehhhhhh but I grew to like him over time anyway, he’s cute, talented, good looking and all but still, it would be hella a headache if I were to have a younger brother like him.

It took me a year to like Jungkook because... The more I look at stuff, he’s just a regular boy, growing up, working hard, trying not to disappoint his parents and people around him. In a sense, aren’t we all just like that? There really is no reason to hate. 

Another member is Jimin. He’s another member that I don’t quite like when I just got in the fandom. We all know that he acted a bit flirtatious during his debut days, up to the Danger era, honestly, his eye make-up makes me feeling uncomfortable to look at him. That’s the first thing. The appearance and the way he acts, in no way I’m trying to say he’s ugly, because if I were to compare myself to him, umm I probably looked like a bum lol.

It took me a lot longer to like Jimin, it’s until the Spring Day era that I thought, alright Jimin is charismatic and cute, admit it. Hah yea... Now, this is when the second stage of not liking Jimin comes. I started to fear him. It’s weird I know, why would I scared of “the mochi of BTS” Let me tell you why.

It’s scary to see how hard a person can work, that his goal is probably more important than his life. It makes me think that I am not and will not be a person like this, living is more important than what I am achieving. I wouldn’t want to risk my life doing things, however important that thing might be. Well people said, you will never achieve your goal like this if you don’t put your life on it. But I don’t care about that, but at the same time I’m feeling guilty about that. 

It might be a Korean thing, we all know Koreans worked insanely hard because of society standards. Or it also could be a Jimin thing, Nevertheless, this man have my respect. The respect that I keeps me away from accepting him.

I’m kind of in the neutral range with Suga, J-hope and Jin like they are cool, fantastic, great people. 

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This is almost 24 hours later, since the last paragraph. Again, a long and tiring day, after work, prolly a few minutes away from losing consciousness (a.k.a. falling asleep lol)

This shit is going to be very VERY long, nah it doesn’t matter because no one is going to read this anyway, even if I tagged BTS below, I’m writing this for myself.

I’ll just briefly talk about RM and V before going into my main topic today, (all because I cut myself off yesterday to hit the hay ekkk).

Rapmon bro, the reason why I decided to look into this group is because of his mixtape. I have 2 of his tracks in my old phone back then, everything was gone when my phone literally died a few months back. (The whole album is available for free download anyway so its all good) I have no interest in hip hop or whatsoever back then, but I became interested in hip-hop just a little after listening to his mixtape album. He is really someone I look up to, honestly, it’s no easy job to be a leader, not just in idol groups but just in every field in general. I tried becoming one because my mother always expect me to be one, after a few attempts (it was back in high school by the way) I thought it’s just not my thing, I’m more of a following instruction kind of person, I do my part and make sure everyone is okay. But that doesn’t mean that I don’t want to become a leader like person. In the future, maybe... But my depression went really downhill these days, so I’m not sure if that day will come. But I do aspire to become someone like him.

V or I prefer calling him Tae. He is my first bias. His existence just screams “RELATABLE” to me, (minus his looks) He seemed to be struggling with words whenever he tries to say something. That also is something I had to deal with on a daily basis. It’s like when you have good looks, everything you did is cute, but for me, it’s more like an annoyance. So I tried to keep quiet as much as possible. Nevertheless, I just hope that I will meet someone that will understand the way I talk like the other BTS members did with Tae, have a best friend like Jimin and... yea.

BTS hmm the annual sit and talk for part of their BTS Festa thingy, it’s called the Dinner Party this year hmm cool. I stopped watching after the first 30 minutes, for the exact reason why I also did not watch more than 5 minutes of last year’s sit and talk.

We all know that, they had achieved tremendous success for the past few years. A lot of their songs often circle around their hardships and what fuck the haters?? If that make sense. Whenever they have talks like this, I always bail myself out there, and yea I never install Vlive back after I got this new phone because there really is no reason to catch every live and Run BTS episodes now.

This was not long before the DNA era, I always found myself having thoughts like:

“So you have started to avoid BTS hmm?” Yea right, took me a while to admit. I used to not miss a single notification. There is no more random videos on the BangtanTV channel as they get more and more popular, there is just backstages and really just back stages and behind the scenes of their daily schedules and tours. It shows that they are working hard, really hard. Which leads me to the next question.

“It feels uncomfortable isn’t it, comparing yourself to a worldwide famous group of artist?” Hmph. I worked hard, really hard. I even live by the motto, do or die. But that doesn’t seemed to be enough. People around me, always told me that I should push myself more. I DID, I REALLY DID, BUT WHY CAN’T YOU SEE IT.

“But BTS can, why can’t you?” I’m just going to work harder, I tell myself. I don’t have to face the same pressure as BTS did, I’m having it way more easier. But at the same time, there is seven of them in BTS, but there is only one me.

The voice at the back of my head, you are not helping.

I swiped away all notifications from BangtanTV ever since. 

Because seeing them having each other around reminds me how am I not going to have friends like this, how I’m never going to achieve this much. But mostly it reminds me how lonely I am.

By the time the Mic Drop remix released, I started having what I called the depressive episodes. I think I’m going to describe them as a waking nightmare, all the thoughts in my head are killing each other, fighting for the limited space in my head. Which ever thought that dominate my mind is the winner. I stared into blankness, tears and snots all over my face, hyperventilating while finding excuses to tell people what happened to me if anyone ever sees me. 

Honestly I don’t think people is going to read this... but the tag is down there just for the slightest hope that people that come across this will know that, ahh there are people like this out there too... Some of you might think, this is pathetic, attention seeking but at the end of the day, I just want some closure for myself. I need to admit that, no matter how much interviews I watch, how much memes I’ve seen everyday, they are not going to be my friends. They will forever be the people in screens, and I belong to the 97% of the population that will lead a normal life.

Here I am, the Fake Love era that comes to a close. I can’t even bring myself to listen to the whole album, because chances are, some of the lyrics are going to trigger the shit out of me. Same goes with Suga’s mixtape, J-hope’s mixtape.

I really miss the days where they made simple love songs like the ones in the Dark and Wild album. Blanket Kick is my personal favourite. 

I’m sure there are still a lot more that I had in mind but I just forget what is it about to include in this. I’ll get a part 2 done when there is time. 

BTS now just feels like the popular kids I went to school with, now graduated from a school named ARMY, they are like the ex-classmates I bump into once in a while. Thank you, for the best 3 years in my life. I had lots of laughter, times that I forgot about my sadness and your warm words that took me through difficult times. You are the reason that I survived until today and also the trigger of some of my episodes. 

SInce it’s already past midnight, I wanted to say Happy 5th debut anniversary, stay healthy (to both BTS and ARMY out there) be happy and may you all be reaching higher and higher till you celebrate your 10th anniversary. (or maybe longer)

*Just a sidenote, as a Malaysian fan, I’m just going to keep calling Rapmon, Rapmon because RM is our effin currency, I don’t want to be reminded of money issues whenever I thought of you. As far as I know, you do have a beautiful name as your mother definitely did not named you Rap Monster. It’s just that stage name exist for a reason. And I think I know at least 5 Jins in real life, so the wide shoulder hyung is just going to be Kim Seok Jin in my head haha yea.

[urdearestmom]

100 Questions

Tagged by @bob-newby-superhero thanks!!

1. What is your nickname? Sari, Sarita, Sarinha

2. How old are you? 18

3. What is your birth month? December

4. What is your zodiac sign? Sagittarius

5. What is your favourite colour? Green!

6. What’s your lucky number? 17 because it’s my birthday lmao

7. Do you have any pets? No but I really want a cat. Everyone in my family has dogs

8. Where are you from? I’m Luso-Canadian (my family is from Portugal but we live in Canada)

9. How tall are you? My driver’s license says 160 cm but the doctor told me 163. Either way, around 5’3”

10. What shoe size are you? Uhh depends on the shoe but usually 6.5-7

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? Many, but I always wear the same shit lol

12. Are you random? Sometimes, I guess

13. Last person you texted? I texted myself pictures from my mom’s phone. Last message in general was to @eljane-hoppers

14. Are you psychic in any way? Haha sometimes I think I am, but my mom is more >:^)

15. Last TV show watched? Saw an episode of Four Weddings on TLC this morning

16. Favourite movie? The Book Thief or The Greatest Showman

17. Favourite show from your childhood? iCarly!! Used to watch it religiously after school every day it was on

18. Do you want children? Yes, but definitely not right now lmao

19. Do you want a church wedding? Kind of yeah. It’ll depend on who I end up marrying but it’d probably be some kind of disgrace if I didn’t get married in a church

20. What is your religion? I am Catholic

21. Have you ever been to the hospital? Yup tons of times, whether for myself or other people

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? Nope, I am a Child of God™

23. How is life? Could be better, probably, but it’s pretty chill right now

24. Baths or showers? Showers, but I also really like baths

25. What colour socks are you wearing? Bold of you to assume I’m wearing socks at all

26. Have you ever been famous? I mean if you google my name the results are me. I was on CBC because I was in the national spelling bee in 2012

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? I feel like it’d be fun and cool for a while but then I’d get tired of it. I don’t like having people all up in my business and that seems like what life is like for big celebrities :/ But having a lot of influence would be awesome

28. What type of music do you like? Literally anything except country music (I’m not all that into rap/trap music either, but I can appreciate it from time to time) here’s a playlist of my favourite stuff it’s like seven hours long but if you go through it you’ll see it’s really all kinds :)

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? Maybe and I don’t remember? My childhood was a questionable era

30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2, both under my head

31. What position do you usually sleep in? I usually fall asleep on my side but I almost always wake up on my back so I don’t actually know how I’m sleeping

32. How big is your house? 2 stories and a basement

33. What do you typically have for breakfast? Cup of milk with something else, usually a bowl of cereal or bread/croissant with Nutella

34. Have you ever left the country? YeET I’ve been to Portugal a bunch of times, Spain once, and to France on a 5-hour layover but we didn’t leave the airport and I don’t remember it anyway ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

35. Have you ever tried archery? Does it count if it was on Wii Sports? And yeah once and I was terrible at it

36. Do you like anyone? I think so and it sucks because he’s my friend :(

37. Favourite swear word? Probably fuck, I say it a lot. But I also say shit a lot so I mean idrk

38. When do you fall asleep? Oof regularly past midnight, but the time varies

39. Do you have any scars? A giant burn mark on my leg and a very faint lil thing on my right hand from this time I accidentally did an entire flip in my driveway

40. Sexual orientation? Was previously sure I was straight but I’m kind of starting to question that?

41. Are you a good liar? I like to think that I’m a very convincing actress

42. What languages would you like to learn? Mm I already speak Portuguese (if you ever wanna learn something hmu), and I learned some French because that’s mandatory in Canada but I dropped it and I want to get back into it. So, French! I also learned some German this year and I might continue with it. Also maybe Spanish, I can already understand some

43. Top 10 songs? Umm

Love Is A Battlefield - Pat Benatar

Rock You Like A Hurricane - Scorpions

Theme From New York, New York - Frank Sinatra

True Faith - New Order

Age Of Consent - New Order

A Million Dreams - The Greatest Showman OST

Second Waltz - Dmitri Shostakovich

Power Of Love - Celine Dion

Johnny B. Goode - Chuck Berry

Halo - Beyonce

44. Do you like your country? Canada? Yeah, I love it except for the stupid ass weather. I get sick every fucking time the season changes

45. Do you have friends from the web? Yeeee!! They’re all awesome people

46. What is your personality type? INFP- there’s more info here if you want to know what that means

47. Hogwarts House? Ravenclaw ftw bitches

48. Can you curl your tongue? Yesssss

49. Pick one fictional character you can relate to? Buzzfeed told me that, based on my music taste, I am “a student of classic rock like School of Rock’s Dewey Finn” (but actually HA I KNEW THERE WAS A REASON I LOVED JACK BLACK IN THAT MOVIE)

50. Left or right handed? Righttttt

51. Are you scared of spiders? They don’t scare me as much as induce some kind of panic, but it really depends what kind of spider. Really little ones are actually kind of cute, but big spiders send me into cardiac arrest

52. Favourite food? Akjsnfskd PASTA

53. Favourite foreign food? Idk man I’m already picky af with my food. If I live in Canada does that make the Portuguese food I eat on a daily basis foreign because if so I loooooove me some fuckin barbecued chicken

54. Are you a clean or messy person? Fairly clean. If I wasn’t my mother would hurt me lol

55. If you could switch your gender for a day, what would you do? Idk probably figure out how to pee standing up, maybe make use of the ability to lie on my stomach without hurting my chest :)

56. What colour underwear? I think this is turquoise

57. How long does it take for you to get ready? Depends what I’m getting ready for. On a regular day, ten minutes tops. If I’m going out to an event it can be upwards of an hour; sometimes less, sometimes more

58. Do you have much of an ego? Idk if it’s ego so much as me being confident in myself. Anyone who has a problem with me and decides to be rude about it can suck my non-existent dick

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? I try to suck them but it never lasts for long, I almost always bite them unless I’m really concentrating on not biting

60. Do you talk to yourself? Lmfao only ALL THE TIME

61. Do you sing to yourself? Yeee

62. Are you a good singer? I don’t think I’ll blow out your eardrums but I know I’m not the best either. I’ll just say I’m not terrible

63. Biggest Fears? Heights and deep water

64. Are you a gossip? I live for drama does that make me a gossip

65. Are you a grammar nazi? Yeah if I’m talking to someone I’m very comfortable with (my cousin for example) or if I’m trying to be petty

66. Do you have long or short hair? Long! I’m growing it out so I can be really dramatic and chop it all off later (also thinking of donating it)

67. Can you name all 50 states of America? I can name almost all of them but I always forget a few. I think it’s pretty good considering I was never taught American geography

68. Favourite school subject? Instrumental music and history were my favourites

69. Extrovert or Introvert? Idk I guess extroverted introvert? Is that a thing???? I’m really awkward and panicky in social situations with people I don’t know but if I have friends around I’m just here to have the time of my life

70. Have you ever been scuba diving? No

71. What makes you nervous? Having to talk to people I don’t know (it literally makes me panic it’s horrible)

72. Are you scared of the dark? Sometimes, yeah

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? Lmao ok this depends on who the person is and if I’m in that kind of mood (but when I was a kid I used to correct my teachers)

74. Are you ticklish? Yes very

75. Have you ever started a rumour? No

76. Have you ever been out of your home country? Yes, I’ve been to Portugal a bunch of times, Spain once, and France on a layover

77. Have you ever drank underage? Chugged a cup of beer by accident when I was 6 oops

78. Have you ever done drugs? No but even if I had I don’t think I would say it here unless it was something minor like weed

79. What do you fantasize about? Travelling the world!!!!! And like, being a successful adult because right now I have no idea what the actual fuck I’m doing with my life

80. How many piercings do you have? Two, one in each ear

81. Can you roll your Rs? You gotta in Portuguese! I’m also fairly sure my French and German pronunciations are pretty much on point most of the time so I can do those types of R sounds as well

82. How fast can you type? Pretty fast on my phone and not slow on my laptop either (when you’re a writer you end up learning to type faster than you thought you would lol)

83. How fast can you run? Oof I’m not slow when I first start off but that only goes for like max 10 seconds

84. What colour is your hair? Dark brown

85. What colour are your eyes? Also dark brown

86. What are you allergic to? Bigots

87. Do you keep a journal? I have a diary I’ve had since I was like 10 but I don’t write in it very often. I also have a notebook where I write down fic ideas and outline plots

88. Are you depressed about anything? I actually think I might have seasonal depression or something but I’m not sure

89. Do you like your age? Yeah I guess being 18 is cool

90. What makes you angry? People who refuse to listen to reason

91. Do you like your own name? Yes it means princess!

92. Did you ever get a foreign object up your nose? No but I ate lead once

93. Do you want a boy or a girl for a child? No preference as long as it is alive and healthy

94. What talents do you have? Uhh I can play two instruments and will be learning a third does that count? I just remembered I can also balance a spoon on my nose

95. Sun or moon? Moon

96. How did you get your name? My mom had a friend named Sara when she was a kid and she always liked the name so here I am having been named Sara

97. Are you religious? Kind of? I don’t go to church very often but I think I believe in God (I believe that there’s something, at least). I’ve also received all the Sacraments that I can (as of right now that’s baptism, first communion, and confirmation)

98. Have you ever been to a therapist? Nope

99. Colour of your bedspread? Right now it’s just plain white

100. Colour of your room? Bright green!

Yeet I’m finished! Took forever ‘cause I kept getting interrupted but oh well

tagging: @eljane-hoppers @hannahberrie @mikeywheelerr @queer-deckovskij

[softhobies]

RULES: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people

tagged by @heartsbian (actual loml thank you)

i tag: @damnwilds @danwildsofficial @naminyard @battlefieldheart @daddariossmile @ffsmagnusbane @bramgreenfclds @lailadermctt (and if anyone else wants to do this feel free to consider yourself tagged or if you want message me and i’ll add you lmao)

THE LAST…

1. drink: water

2. phone call: unknown number

3. text message: from my mum: “i guess”

4. song you listened to: and the crowd goes by mudslide crush

5. time you cried: idk?? i cry too much lmao

HAVE YOU EVER… (PT.1)

6. … dated someone twice: no

7. … kissed someone and regretted it: no

8. … been cheated on: no

9. … lost someone special: to death? no. drifting apart? i guess.

10. … been depressed: always

11. … gotten drunk and thrown up: uuuhhhh yeah

FAVORITE COLORS

12. black

13. red

14. idk?? white, grey, blue, purple... changes

IN THE LAST YEAR, HAVE YOU…

15. … made new friends: yep!

16. … fallen out of love: i don’t think so

17. … laughed until you cried: of course

18. … found out someone was talking about you: probably but i don’t remember

19. … met someone who changed you: hmmm i don’t think so??

20. … found out who your friends are: 99% of my friends have been made in the past year so?? maybe?? i’m working on it

21. … kissed someone on your facebook list: nope

GENERAL

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: idk i hardly use it?? but it was full of people i used to know but yeah i don’t talk to any of them except like my immediate family irl now lmao

23. do you have any pets: no :(

24. do you want to change your name: uuhhhh yeah like alex isn’t my legal name and it’d be nice to not have to sign my legal name or go by it at doctors bc i’m too scared to correct anyone lmao

25. what did you do for your last birthday: i think i mostly just soaked up whatever attention i got on here and stressed over tr*mp bc my bday is on inauguration day?? also i annoyed family and may have watched a couple episodes of vld with my bro

26. what time did you wake up: like 12:30am lmao

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping i guess

28. name something you can’t wait for: uuhhh happiness?? idk 

29. ??? there is no 29 lol

30. ……. no 30 either

31. what are you listening to right now: she’s so gone - lemonade mouth (uuhhh i’m listening to the album if you couldn’t tell by my answers lmao)

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: i’d assume so?? only one that comes to my mind tho is tom in mysme but he’s not real lmao

33. something that is getting on your nerves: my shit sleeping schedule like i’m trying to fix it but i suck at sleeping and ugh

34. most visited website: probably tumblr lmao

35. hair color: black but naturally it’s blonde

36. long or short hair: short bless up

37. ??? she’s gone

38. ……. not here either

39. piercings: 2 in each ear and 2 in my lip for now

40. blood type: i honestly have no clue?? p sure it wasn’t o but that’s all i remember so uuhhh oops

41. nicknames: i just go by alex

42. relationship status: single forever

43. zodiac: aquarius (or capricorn idk i’m a cusp but i’ve always went with aquarius and i refuse to change now)

44. pronouns: they/them

45. favorite tv show: idk?? b99 is p good

46. tattoos: none but i want a ton one day

47. right or left-handed

48. surgery: i don’t think i’ve had any

49. piercings: ?? already answered

50. sport: i don’t play or watch anything really?? at least, not anymore

51. vacation: anywhere and everywhere

52. pair of trainers: idk i hardly ever where any?? probably have some somewhere tho

MORE GENERAL

53. eating: fav food = cheese calzones at old chicago but like if you mean am i eating? no? but i ate leftover hamburger helper within the last hour so

54. fave drink: water

55. what you’re up to: answering this but after i’m going to try queuing a ton of posts while i wait for my phone to charge completely

56. waiting for: happiness?? but uuhhh short term i guess attention (aka my friends sleep at night like most people and i’m l o n e l y)

57. what do i want: happiness again but also money and maybe a purpose

58. do you ever want to get married: kind of?? i kind of don’t believe in love for me really but i have this dream wedding so like?? i’m down marrying just for the tax benefits lmao i just want that spooky wedding

59. career: don’t have one and don’t know what i wanna do yet so rip

WHICH IS BETTER

60. hugs or kisses?

61. lips or eyes?

62. shorter or taller?

63. older or younger? keeping it crossed out bc?? what does this mean?? idk but the only options i can come up with idc

64. nice arms or nice stomach? (i guess? just barely idc mostly)

65. hook up or relationship?

66. troublemaker or hesitant? (to a point)

HAVE YOU EVER… (PT.2)

67. … kissed a stranger: nope

68. … drank hard liquor: a lot (unhealthy coping for the lose)

69. … lost glasses/contact lenses: oh god yes?? lost glasses in a hotel once and have lost so many contact lenses it’s ridiculous i suck lmao

70. … turned someone down: yeah but i think both the times the people asked me out as a joke?? i heard one guy planning it and the other i just kind of assumed the guys friends were asking me out bc pulling a prank on their friend 

71. … sex on the first day: uuhhhh how about sex never lmao no thanks

72. … broken someone’s heart: not that i know

73. … had your heart broken: uuhhh by my ex bff a billion times lmao

74. … been arrested: nope bless

75. … cried when someone died: not genuinely, no

76. … fallen for a friend: yep

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

77. … yourself: not anymore

78. … miracles: unlikely

79. … love at first sight: not for myself for sure

80. … santa claus: why would i

81. … kiss on the first date: you do you

82. … angels: maybe bc of others experiences but i believe in demons more 

OTHER

83. current best friend’s name: i have a lot but nøname

84. eye color: brown

85. favorite movie: idk?? star wars i guess

[catstastic]

1-104 thanks

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?"that’s done!” -nancy drew

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?nothing lmao

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?if you’re talking hard drugs i would be pretty concerned

4. Is your last name longer than six letters?yes mhm

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?sober-ish

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?uh? at the time i thought i wanted them so yeah i guess

7. What does your last received text say?“i’ve always been curious actually how you felt about it”

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?um.....? like? a couple of times?

9. Where was your last kiss at?my room

10. When is the last time you saw your sister?never rip i don’t have one

11. What do you drink in the morning?water usually or sometimes tea

12. Where did you sleep last night?my comfy campus town bed

13. Do you think relationships are hard?i don’t think they’re supposed to be but i’ve also never been in one so i don’t know

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?probably something minor, so yeah

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?oh i would be so uncomfortable

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?sunny? it depends i like both

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?i’m sure i’ve met someone but i can’t think of anyone specific at the moment

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?sweatpants

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?i kind of hope so but honestly who knows

20. Does anyone like you?not that i know of

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?i kissed sara once so ya

22. Is the last person you kissed gay?i don’t think so but i also don’t know

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?lol unfortunately, yeah

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?i’m still considering getting a tattoo

25. In the past week have you cried?i cried last night after the episode of this is us

26. What breed was the last dog you saw? a yorkie

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?out of the shower

28. Have you ever kissed a football player?no? i don’t think so

29. Do you think you’re old?not really, no

30. Do you like text messaging?eh it depends. i’m really bad at texting so not really?

31. What type of day are you having?a very not productive one

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?yes

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?cold

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?yes

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?right now? a fling, but eventually a relationship

36. Are you a simple or complicated person?“why’d u have to go and make things so complicated”

37. What song are you listening to?i’m listening to alana present her spanish presentation

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?yeah usually if not always39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?yes40. What made you start liking the person you like now?i don’t rlly like anyone right now so nothin41. When did you last receive a text message?12:17 p.m.42. What is wrong with you right now?lol what isn’t43. How well do you know the last female you texted?pretty well, we’re close friends i’d say44. Does anyone disgust you?uh yeah45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?probably not but it’d really depend on who lol46. Are you in a good mood right now?i’m not in a good or a bad mood really i’m kind of like the sims when they’re “fine” and are just kind of half smiling you know47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?my roommates48. What color shirt are you wearing?light blue49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?not really50. Anyone you’re giving up on?almost tbh51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?eh not hate

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?yes53. Do you like rain?yes 54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?nope55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?who hasn’t 56. Do you like to cuddle?honestly i’m not sure i do lol57. Are you shy?a little yeah 58. Do you get along with girls?i think so?59. Have you dated the person you texted last?no lol 60. What do you carry with you at all times?my phone i guess 61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?you could pay me 50 dollars and i probably would 62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?i’d like to think i could yeah 63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?no 64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?yea thts cute65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?not really lol

66. How old are the last three people you kissed?uh???? 22? 23? 20? i really don’t know

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?    do them myself i am literally always doing my nails68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?neither really but i guess zebra    69. Do you have any stickers on your car? i don’t have a car *dabs*   70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?  luke bryan  71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone?    iPhone72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?never???    73. Do you like diet soda? what is the point   74. What color are the walls in your room?at home they’re teal and at school they’re kind of tan    75. Are you 16 or older?yes    76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?i used to but it got to be too extra    77. Do you have a job?no      78. What are your initials?EAM    79. Did you ever have braces?lmao yeah i did    80. Are you from the south?nope    

81. What does your last status on facebook say?    “hi friends and family. as you may or may not know, i have been captaining a relay for life team for the past three years at TCNJ. this is my last year participating in relay here, and i would really appreciate any donation, big or small. thank you again to everyone who has already donated, or who has donated in the past. live love relay am i right??

82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?  no lmao no thank you  83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?my mom     84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?i wish i did gymnastics    85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?i think it was the new harry potter movie?    86. Do you smoke?    nope87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?flip flops x 234092384    88. Is your phone touch screen?  yes  89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly? uh my hair is like a mix so usually wavy, but i straighten it a lot   90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?   no 91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?   pool 92. Have you ever made out in a car?  no  93. …Had sex in a car?    no94. Are you single or in a relationship?single    95. What were you doing last night at midnight?  sleepin  96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?    on new year’s eve in london 97. Do you like the camera on your phone?    yeah sure98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?  no  99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?    nope100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?    yeah lol101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?    nope102. Name your favorite Kesha song:    your love is my drug or blow or tik tok i love ke$ha103. Do you have any tan lines right now?    very faint ones yeah

104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?  i don’t own cowboy boots but also no no thank u

xoxo

[amlovhanasong]

DO ALL OF EM FOR THE "ASK ME THINGS" ONE

Holy shit anon… Why……. Okay here we go

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?

“Hi there Jeremy, Ivette and Robert.. This is how we ended up after studying all night I see?” (the last “person” I texted was actually a group chat…. haha)

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed? - we’re really really good friends (my ex-gf for 3 yrs). We still talk here and there

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care? - umm yeah….. I would encourage them to stop.

4. Is your last name longer than six letters? - Nope, it’s exactly 6 letters. Lol

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober? - sober.

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up? - oh yeah hun.

7. What does your last received text say? - “Enjoy, don’t drink too much.”

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed? - I don’t know. I was with her for 3 years so…. Haha

9. Where was your last kiss at? - lips

10. When is the last time you saw your sister? - April 23, 2017 :(

11. What do you drink in the morning? - coffee or tea

12. Where did you sleep last night? - in my hotel room lol

13. Do you think relationships are hard? - not really… I dunno. It depends 

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you? - no. I’m happy where I am at right now

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems? - none at all

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy? - RAINY

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you? - Yes

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants? - i’m wearing pajamas right now

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now? - hmm probably? I dunno. It’s actually good if I’m not so I can focus on med school :D (ye I decided to become a doctor lol)

20. Does anyone like you? - I honestly don’t know.

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S? - nope.

22. Is the last person you kissed gay? - yes

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand? - uhh yeah. This one girl in my class who talks a lot. ugh

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo? - yes I did but I don’t think I’m ever getting one since it wouldn’t look good on me.

25. In the past week have you cried? - oh fuck yes. I’ve been crying every night stressing out in paramedic school.

26. What breed was the last dog you saw? - hmm it was a Shiba and an Italian Mastiff

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower? - in the shower lol

28. Have you ever kissed a football player? - nope.

29. Do you think you’re old? - uhhhhhhh is 21 old? Haha. I don’t think so lol

30. Do you like text messaging? - hmm not really…

31. What type of day are you having? - I’ve been having a bad and rough and tough day for 2 weeks now and it’s not getting better.

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced? - nope and never.

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather? - cold.

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you? - yes, my dad and my step dad lol

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling? - relationship.

36. Are you a simple or complicated person? - uhhhhhh I think I’m simple lol

37. What song are you listening to? - right now I’m listening to Fake Happy by Paramore. GOD THEIR NEW ALBUM IS SO GOOD

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it? - yes…39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you? - oh yes.40. What made you start liking the person you like now? - I think it’s mainly because they’re a savage to me. Lol41. When did you last receive a text message? - like 2 hours ago42. What is wrong with you right now? - everything bruh. 43. How well do you know the last female you texted? - Hmmm I don’t really know..44. Does anyone disgust you? - not at the moment45. Would you date someone right now if they asked? - It depends. I only have one person in mind and if they ask then hell yeah lol.46. Are you in a good mood right now? - no.47. Who was the last person you talked to in person? - some classmates48. What color shirt are you wearing? - orange49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear? - yes. I heard someone mention Trump lol50. Anyone you’re giving up on? - I am about to, but I don’t really know.51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for? - No.

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t? - fuck yeah53. Do you like rain? - yes54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks? - not really. As long as I know who are they drinking with if I’m not around them.55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them? - yes.56. Do you like to cuddle? - yes57. Are you shy? - yes58. Do you get along with girls? - umm yes haha59. Have you dated the person you texted last? - uhh no60. What do you carry with you at all times? - my phone, wallet and eyeglass cleaner.61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you? - um yahh.62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months? - I’ve lasted for 3 years bro.63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship? - Yes I was64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute? - yes.65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week? - no

66. How old are the last three people you kissed? - 25, 24, 24

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself? - do it myself lol68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print? - leopard print69. Do you have any stickers on your car? - no but I’m just about to order a D.Va one! Lol70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne? - Lil Wayne71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone? - iPhone for life72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut? - damn like 4 years ago73. Do you like diet soda?  - NOPE74. What color are the walls in your room?  - white75. Are you 16 or older?  - I’m 21 lol76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?  - I watched some episodes but not all 77. Do you have a job? - Yes, I am a medic :)

78. What are your initials?   - GGHS79. Did you ever have braces?  - yes80. Are you from the south?  - umm if Southeast Asia counts then yeah, haha

81. What does your last status on facebook say? - “WTF JUST HAPPENED” and it was a Genji highlight I think? Haha82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?  - nope. 83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad? - None84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?  none85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?  - Alien Covenant86. Do you smoke?   - used to.87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?   - flip flops88. Is your phone touch screen?  - yes89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?  - straight 90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?  - yeah, haha. Back when I lived with my grandma (she’s deaf) haaha91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool? - I would rather not swim, lol. But I’d choose the pool92. Have you ever made out in a car?  - no93. …Had sex in a car? - um no94. Are you single or in a relationship? - Single 95. What were you doing last night at midnight?  - asleep, haha96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks? - When I went to Disneyland in LA back in 2015!97. Do you like the camera on your phone?  - heck yeah (iPhone 7 Plus)98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits? - nope.99. Have you ever passed out from drinking? - fucking yes.100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate? - yeah. We all do don’t we? Haha  101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?  - fuck no. I’m a lesbian so….. haha102. Name your favorite Kesha song:  HAROLD SONG103. Do you have any tan lines right now?  Yes :( but not from a bikini tho. Fucking Arizona is hot as fuck104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts? I already did. Hahahaha