#i want to use this style to make fake movie screenshots with them later

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top hat, white tie, and tails ~

commission for @superfan44 , who wanted to see James redrawn in another famous Fred Astaire photo :)c it was fun doing this style again

[lauras-collection]

More Than I Know [Part 2]

Tom Holland x female Reader

Masterlist

Summary: It’s time for your first official fake date.

Words: 2.4k

Warnings: swearing, nothing else I think (let me know if there is anything in there that I should add)

A/N: You guys, I am so excited for this part aaaah :D I originally wanted to wait a bit longer to post this but... I’m just too excited. I hope you like it as much as I do. My brain is already overflowing with ideas for the next parts and I really really hope it stays like that! (And I also hope this post is going to be visible to all of you unlike the previous part)

A little disclaimer, I have never met or seen or gotten in contact with any paparazzi ever so I have no idea how they do what they do. But again, this is fiction, so let’s roll with it :D

Prologue | Part 1

The thing was simple, you and Tom would be seen on a few dates, nothing special. You didn’t want to be too on the nose about the whole thing. 

Your sister’s wedding was still a few weeks away and you only planned until then, not sure what was going to happen after. Tom said he had to start promoting one of his movies in a couple months so you figured he probably won’t need the extra publicity anymore. You didn’t think the press would be interested in you for that long anyway so it was only fair that your arrangement would end then, at the latest.

Shortly after you and Tom had agreed on doing this fake dating thing, your phone blew up with messages from your friends. 

What the fuck Y/N?

your friend Marissa had sent in the group chat together with a screenshot of one of the numerous articles that featured the pictures of you and Tom. 

When were you gonna tell us about this?

It didn’t take long for your other friends to react.

Is this real?

I’m gone five seconds and this happens?

You move the phone over to Tom. “What am I supposed to tell them?” You scrunch your eyebrows together. You had dreaded this moment. 

“Maybe it’s time to think about ‘our story’, huh?” Tom asked and you nodded. You already knew that everybody at the wedding would want to know how you had met Tom and it’d be smart to think of something beforehand.

“Okay.” You moved your mug to the side so you could lean closer to Tom, afraid someone would overhear what you were talking about. “It’s probably easiest to stick to the truth as much as possible right? So we met here, by chance. And... I don’t know. You spilt coffee on me?” 

Tom raised his eyebrows, he was not convinced. “That just screams rom-com. How about...” He thought for a moment. “How about we stick even more to the truth. The place was packed and the only available seat was at my table.” He shrugged his shoulders. “We just say it happened a few weeks earlier, we’ve been seeing each other ever since and the rest is history.” 

You kind of wanted to tell your family this ultra-romantic story about how you met, but you figured Tom’s version, which was basically the truth with a few important details left out, would be more realistic.

“Yeah, that sounds reasonable.” You smiled and Tom returned it, raising his mug.

“Let’s do this.” You chuckled and raised your mug as well and bumped it against his. 

–  

The next obstacle to overcome was telling your mum. You knew she would be ecstatic but you were still nervous. You were going to lie to your mother –your whole family– big time. So when you stood on the doorstep of your parent’s house, you were nervous. You took a deep breath before opening the door, calling out that you were here. You heard rumbling from upstairs and not long after both your mum and Kate, your sister, who probably had been doing more wedding planning, came dashing down the stairs. You rolled your eyes at their eagerness. 

“Y/N! It’s so good to see you!” Your mum said as she engulfed you in a hug. “Now tell me everything about this boy.” As if this is a high school crush we’re talking about.

“Wow, will you let me sit down first?” 

You told them the story exactly how you and Tom had decided on it, sticking as close as possible to the truth.

“And why haven’t you told us sooner? Why did we have to read this in a magazine?” Your sister asked holding up a magazine that had been laying on the coffee table. You thought about it for a moment. 

“I just... I didn’t want to rush things, you know? No one knew about it except me and Tom. I guess we were still in that bubble.” You laughed awkwardly. “But then the media burst it, I guess. And now the whole world knows.” You shrugged your shoulders and hoped that your mum and sister believed you. 

“I understand.” Your mum nodded and with a smirk, she added “But now that we know about him we want to meet him. You should invite him over for dinner!”

“But you’ll meet him at the wedding.” You were starting to panic again. “I don’t even know if he’s going to have time...”

“I want to meet him before the wedding. Get to know him a little.” You nodded with a small smile. “I’ll ask him.” 

– 

A couple of days later you were waiting for Tom to pick you up. It was your first official fake date and you were nervous. You looked over your outfit once more. Usually, you were quite confident with your style, but this time you knew that your pictures were gonna be taken and spread over multiple online articles. This has got to do. You nodded at your reflection before leaving your flat. A black car was already waiting in front of the building and you saw Tom sitting in the driver seat his fingers lightly drumming on his steering wheel while scrolling through his phone with the other hand. You knocked against the window before walking to the passenger side, watching Tom lightly jump in his seat. He unlocked the door so you could enter, and looked at you with a jokingly scolding expression. You laughed as you closed the door and buckled your seat belt. 

“C’mon it was funny.” You nudged him lightly as he pulled onto the street. 

“Maybe a little bit.” His frown turned into a smile. “Okay, I thought I’d take you out for lunch, I hope you haven’t eaten yet?” 

“Honestly? I was so nervous I couldn’t even think about eating.” Your smile faded and a frown took over your face.

“No need to be nervous. It’s just me.” He smirked as he looked over at you. He could tell that you were uneasy. “Hey Y/N, it’s gonna be fine.” His voice was soft and you tried to convince yourself that he was right. It’s going to be fine. 

You arrived at a car park right by the Thames. After Tom parked the car he turned his body towards you. “Here’s the plan: the restaurant is right across the street so we won’t have to walk far. I doubt that there are any paps out there right now but just in case we should probably hold hands.” You nodded as he looked at you trying to figure out if you were still as nervous about this as you were before. “I’ll post an Instagram story when we’re there so there might be paps waiting outside when we get back. And maybe a few fans, too.” You nodded again and took a deep breath. 

“Let’s do this.” You looked at Tom with a determined expression before opening the door to get out of the car. Tom let out a laugh and got out as well. He waited until you had rounded the car and reached is hand out for you. You tried to discreetly wipe your hand on your jeans to get rid of the moisture and then took his hand. Tom had seen but just smiled and didn’t mention it, threading his fingers through yours. He squeezed your hand once so you’d look at him and send you a reassuring smile.

He led you out of the car park and towards the Thames. The restaurant was right at the riverbank and as you recognised it you got excited.

“Are we going to Coppa Club? I’ve always wanted to go here.” You smiled up at Tom and he returned it. The restaurant was known for the six igloo-like constructions right by the river. You had seen it on Instagram a few times and it looked really cool.

“We are. But sadly we will have to sit inside. I don’t want to risk us getting mobbed.” he pressed his lips together and then walked with you towards the entrance. Apparently, Tom had reserved a table for the two of you and even though you were a bit disappointed that you wouldn’t be eating in one of the igloos the interior of the restaurant was just as impressive. You were lead to a table in one of the corners of the restaurant, where you were still visible from the windows. 

“Do you think people will take pictures of us in here?” You asked Tom when the waitress had left. 

He shrugged his shoulders. “It’s possible.” He looked around the restaurant. “There are a few people here who might recognise me.” You nodded and picked the menu up from the table. Your nerves had settled a bit making you realise that you were actually pretty hungry.

You found something you want to order quickly, closed the menu and looked at Tom. His brows were drawn together in concentration, his eyes flickering over the menu. After a few moments, he closed it as well and his eyes locked on yours.

“You found something?” He asked and you nodded but before you could answer the waitress arrived with your drinks and took your orders.

“Are you still nervous?” Tom took a sip from his water.

“Not as much. That might change if there are really going to be paps when we leave here though.” You whispered the last part, looking around the place as if you were expecting someone with a big camera to pop out behind one of the plants.

“They usually don’t get too close. And I’m not that big of a deal.” You lifted an eyebrow. He’s freaking Spider-Man. “Hey, don’t look at me like that.” He laughed. “Really. I reckon it’s gonna be like last time and we won’t even notice them.”

“We don’t even know if it was a paparazzo last time. It might’ve been a fan. And earlier you said that you were afraid of us getting mobbed.” 

“Don’t think too much about it. Let’s just enjoy this lunch together, yeah?” His hand reached out for yours patting it in a comforting manner and then resting it on yours. He was looking at you with that soft expression again and without really thinking about it you thread your fingers through his, much like he had done it earlier, and you let out a breath. Tom’s thumb started to caress yours lightly and you got lost in the touch for a second. You tried not to think too much about the fact that just holding Tom’s hand calmed you down immensely while making your heart beat a little bit faster at the same time.

 You managed to get through lunch relatively calm even though you had to let go of Tom’s hand eventually. You had mentioned that your mum wanted to meet Tom before the wedding and he was immediately keen on meeting your family. He told you a few days where he was available at dinner time so you could run them by your family.

While you were waiting for your desserts, Tom posted to his Instagram story. You had both not been sure how much to show. Should you be in the picture? No, too much too soon. Maybe just your hand so that people knew you were there? Should he write something or would the picture suffice? You then both decided that he should comment on something on the menu or the table decoration and then have your hand in the picture as well. This way people knew that someone was with him, and it was easy to assume that this someone would be the girl he had last been seen with, you, but it wasn’t the main focus of the post. Tom also made sure that you could see part of the restaurant’s name. It was not a standalone restaurant there were several places you could be, the paps just had to guess.

After dessert, Tom insisted that he’s paying even though you told him that it wasn’t necessary. And then, sooner than you had liked, it was time to go back to the car. Tom took your hand in his, reassured you once again and then lead you outside. You had imagined a hoard of people and camera flashes, but it was like Tom had said earlier, it seemed like no one was around. While making your way towards the car park Tom pulled you closer and leaned down to you and for a second you thought he was going to kiss you. Instead, he moved his mouth close to your ear. “See it’s not that bad. You can’t even really notice them.” He murmured, making you look at him with wide eyes. You didn’t even have to ask the question. There are paparazzi here? He just nodded and put on a smile. You let out a sigh of relief before smiling, too. With your free hand, you grabbed Tom’s bicep, leaning your head against his arm for a moment. You were so relieved. When you rounded the corner you could see a girl stopping in her tracks with wide eyes. She was obviously a fan. She seemed to be about fifteen and what you presumed to be her mum was with her. 

“H-hi... T-tom?” She stuttered as she got closer. Tom then noticed her as well. He might have been too busy thinking about how you were holding on to him and how much he enjoyed it.

“Hi. How are you?” He smiled friendly at the girl and you could see that her hands were shaking. 

“I’m sorry to bother you.” She looked at you for a brief second. “But do you mind?” She held out her phone and Tom was quick to shake his head

“Of course not. D’you want me to take it?” He let go of your hand to step closer to the girl, who handed her phone over to him. You shared a smile with her mum while Tom took a picture with the teenager.

“Thank you so much!” The girl seemed out of breath, you couldn’t blame her. 

“No worries. Have a great day.” He smiled at her again and waved before taking your hand again. While you continued walking you could hear a muffled scream from behind you and you had to laugh a little.

“You just made that girl’s day, if not week.” 

“That tends to happen.” He shrugged his shoulders and smirked. 

“Calm down, movie star.” You chuckle and bump your shoulder against his. He looked at you for a moment and you couldn’t decipher the expression on his face. 

“What?” 

“Nothing.” His mouth curved into a soft smile before he leaned down pressing a kiss to your temple.

Okay what was that?

Part 3

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new york’s very own mckenna asher was spotted on broadway street in jimmy choo romy pumps . your resemblance to taylor hill is unreal . according to tmz , you just had your twenty-first birthday bash . while living in nyc ,  you’ve been labeled as being materialistic , but also devoted . i guess being a taurus explains that . 3 things that would paint a better picture of you would be wrists covered in makeup swatches , a perfectly blended halo eye ,  and never being seen without perfectly manicured nails . ( i once made a fake account to expose information about myself just to get more followers ) & ( cis-female & she / her  )  +  ( lia , 19 , she / her , cst . )

hello , loves ! it’s me , lia ( i also play margo ) back again with another trash child that i’m hoping you’ll all love as much as i do <33 i first came up w kenna many years ago and haven’t had the opportunity to write for her in a long long time , so i’m really excited to bring her here ! as always , if you wanna plot go ahead and LIKE THIS and i’ll happily come love you down . if discord is more your jam , hmu there too @ 𝐛𝐛𝐧𝐨$𝐚𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐥#1904 . love y’all !!! 💕💓💕

S T A T S ↴

-- * FULL NAME : mckenna sophia asher -- * NICKNAME(S) : kenna ( preferred name ), kenny , ken , mick -- * AGE : twenty-one -- * D.O.B : may 10th -- * ZODIAC : taurus -- * GENDER : cis-female -- * ORIENTATION : bisexual biromantic -- * HEIGHT : 5″7 -- * NATIONALITY : american ( has dual citizenship in america and wales ) -- * BIRTHPLACE : colwyn bay , wales -- * OCCUPATION : youtuber / makeup artist -- * TRAITS : devoted , ambitious , hard-working , materialistic , stubborn , patient , sensual , reliable , organized , possessive , imbalanced , attention-seeking

B I O G R A P H Y ↴

honestly i am........ too lazy to make this a nice bio so plz forgive me for settling on bullet points ,, but at least that’s less reading for you !!!!

mckenna’s father is from wales and works as a plastic surgeon for the rich and fabulous and her mother is from new york and works a beautician and stylist for celebrities . together they had 5 children in total , the kid in the very middle being kenna . the family spent most of her childhood living in wales before moving to new york just before mckenna started high school

all of her siblings are really talented . it must be in their genes or something to have an affinity for the arts . her older brother is in a popular band . her older sister is a principal dancer . her younger sister is an incredible painter . and her younger brother is like six so he’s still coming into his own but there’s no doubt that he’ll be a prodigy at something

and what about mckenna ??? well she tried following in her brother’s footsteps by learning a bunch of instruments but none of them clicked . after that she tried to take dance classes with her sister but it was clear to see that she had two-left feet . she could barely draw a perfect circle , so painting like her younger sister was out of the question too . eventually she tried to pursue an acting career , auditioning for tv shows and movies but never booking anything more than a handful of commercials

so she spent a majority of her life feeling pretty inadequate compared to her siblings . she just wanted to be good at something , anything really . and she wanted to be praised for it . luckily , she eventually found her thing . though it was sorta unconventional : kenna figured out that she’s good at makeup . it’s basically an art form in itself and since she had the time on her hands to practice , she got pretty good at it

she started posting her looks on social media , gaining a little bit of attention on her instagram and later even starting a youtube channel ( at the time it was called pinkglitter2234 bc she was like 13 and cringey ). doing makeup and making youtube videos was her new favorite pass time and pretty much all she did throughout high school . kids in her school started recognizing her as “the the girl who talks funny and makes youtube videos” ,, so that’s pretty cool ig

it really wasn’t until her senior year that her channel gained a serious following . by the time she graduated she worked her way up to 1m subscribers and just a few hundred thousand away from having 1m on instagram too . CRAZY . and since youtube had become a serious job to her that she wanted to continue doing , she figured that she’d take a gap year off just to focus on that and building her personal brand . so she moved out and got an apartment in the city , paid for all by herself ( though mommy and daddy’s money certainly helped furnish it with all her lavish stuff ) and got to WORK

that ONE gap year turned into a gap... three years ??? she never applied to university and honestly she doesn’t plan to anytime soon ! her social media career has never been more poppin’ tbh . she has like over 8m subscribers on her main channel ( now called makeupmckenna ) and just a little bit under that on her vlog channel . she’s had various partnerships with different makeup brands , colourpopcosmetics , morphe , and lancôme just to name a few . on her channel she also does fashion / styling videos , which has gained her attention from several brands that have sent her pieces to promote and invited her to see their shows at fashion week and whatnot . big money moves basically !!

okay now for her secret : basically ,, kenna is hard-working don’t get me wrong , but she’s also obsessed with increasing her following and is willing to do anything if it means signal boosting herself and becoming more successful . so basically , at one point she made a fake account that posed as one of her “haters” “exposing” her-- and since no publicity is bad publicity , it got more people talking about her and following her . she even made a sob story youtube video in response to the “hate” she was getting and the rumours that were sparking because of it . the account has since been deleted but that doesn’t mean that the screenshots of the rumours aren’t still circulating the internet . it’s been a few years since the “scandal” but that doesn’t mean that it still doesn’t get talked about from time to time

P E R S O N A L I T Y  &  F U N  F A C T S ↴

personality-wise : kenna is a sweetheart ! at least on the outside ! like she lowkey has selfish motives sometimes when it comes to gaining online popularity , but outside of social media she is genuine and goofy and a good friend i swear . would give you the designer clothes off her back if you’re close to her . also affectionate because she’s from a big family that actually has a healthy relationship with each other ( minus kenna’s minor jealousy she used to harbor as a kid... she’s kinda grown out of it now as a young-adult who’s successful in her own right ) so she loves to love . super materialistic though . loves shiny things and owning the newest trendy stuff . definitely thinks that money can buy happiness and she’s super stubborn so you cannot convince her otherwise . loves attention , will do just about anything to get it but if it doesn’t fit her “pristine girl next door” image then she’ll have to do it in secret . and since she has made a name for herself as being “innocent” , she doesn’t party too much . just not a big fan of that lifestyle

just bc she never went to college DOES NOT MEAN that my girl is dumb  .. she actually likes to keep learning new things by constantly reading and trying out new skills . she’s v much a jack of all trades but a master at none . minus her ability to beat her face and talk to a camera lol

she’s fluent in both english and welsh , and used to have an accent when she was younger but has since taught herself to sound super american . she thinks it makes her more appealing idk

very family orientated and keeps in close contact with her siblings and parents despite the fact that they live all around the world doing their own things

has collabed with loads of famous peeps not just for youtube videos but getting to do their makeup for gigs . she’s gotten to a point in her career where she’s able to bridge the gap between influencer and professional artist y’know what i mean ??

loves dogs . has a dog named tate who frequently makes appearances in her posts :)))

consumes an unhealthy amount of caffeine daily

doesn’t know how to drive . doesn’t even have a license or anything and who knows if she’ll ever learn tbh

she’s bisexual but has only come out to her close friends and family . hasn’t outwardly said anything to her following but they can probably make assumptions considering who she’s been seen getting close to . like it’s not a big deal to her , she likes who she likes , but also doesn’t think it’s anyone else’s business besides whoever she’s dating / sleeping with at the time

W A N T E D  C O N N E C T I O N S ↴

EDIT : i have in fact made a wc page so peep that here if ya want ! xox

[prorevenge]

The Mean Girls club gets destroyed

So a while back I had the joy of stopping around 5 girls who had been openly using and abusing people. Most of them ended up losing partners and almost all their friends one lost their job two went to jail and they all lost their social status.

So context, years ago I worked in a large corporate store, trust me you would know if I told you the name. Now during this time I was in a dark place emotionally for various reasons and was very much a loaner which led to me being a target for this one girl (let’s call her CS for cos-play slut) now I know it sounds terrible me calling her that but really it’s what she was and trust me as this story goes on you’ll see why.

Now she quickly befriends me and gets me to help with video editing and photo shots I say yes as at the time I was trying to get into content creation and figured it’d help and I was a very lonely depressed virgin at the time and any girl showing interest in me made my brain go crazy. Looking back I kick myself for letting her use me that way but I was stupid and didn’t know better. This girl used me for everything from making me edit videos for her and her friends totaling around 3 or 4 videos a day all with different styles and length to getting up early to help with shoots that had to be done at sun up to get “the magic hour”. (I know it’s a real thing but still not the best thing to spend your day doing when your days off are spent making videos)

As well as using my help for her online stuff she used me for a lot of other things rides to her “meetings” with potential photographers (she never picked her them she was just sleeping with them) to buying her movie tickets that’d she would go to claim being alone with me in a theatre made her nervous so I’d have to wait outside for then I’d have to buy her food on a daily basis at work then if we ever did anything outside of it.

Now I know this sounds like I was the worlds biggest cuck and yeah I was. I had no self confidence as previously stated was a virgin with very little ability to socialize and never learned to choose how and when to give my help. So I was an easy target for all this, my parents tried to warn me against it but i didn’t listen and even at one point told her I liked her only for her to laugh in my face.

This went on for months in that time I quit content creation but was still editing her videos and was always doing something for her. One day while she was having me buy her supplies for another cosplay we ran into another girl whom we will call RB (random bitch) she was nice enough very energetic at first and I felt like we could get along so we exchanged info and became friends on fb. Afterwards CS told me how she was in a relationship and not to try and hit on her not even talk to her because I gave off a “creeper” vibe.

I only mention that interaction before this next one because it is chronological and because it was the first time I can ever trace back to the two of them working together against me. So after that CS starts going after another guy not gonna give him a special name but let’s just say he was terrible I mean really bad. Him and CS meet up once bang them he tells her all these lies about emotional damage and how they have to keep things a secret but still wants to be together. She believes him but he ghosts her she gets worried and has me look into from my end with an old friend. Now here two things happen that to this day I’m happy happened because it let me later on get my revenge the first was I created a second fb account pretending to be a girl the next was CS gave me full access to her fb.

Now like I said this dude was bad news he was cheating on her didn’t even need to catfish him just sent him a friend request and got dp back. Then I learned from some friends he did this serially and then ran across a girl who after I asked her about him responded “that’s the man that raped me don’t contact me again.”

I gathered all this evidence and brought it to CS and she flat out refused to believe it was real claiming I had faked it and was just jealous of him and that she and I were never going to be friends again. I said ok and we stopped being friends.

Now then that was my interaction with CS, after we broke off our friendship I started messaging RB and we became friends little did I know the real story behind them. I’ll be quicker with this than with RB but to put it lightly she was worse she would constantly have me just give her money and buy her things like expensive things. I never felt like I could say no because if I did she would give a sob story about her sad childhood and me being a bleeding heart would cave.

This went on for two years during which time I got a lot better more self confident and a better all around person but i always would go back to my sad self when she would belittle me. Finally I had had enough I told her to stop messaging me and we weren’t friends anymore. She took it hard dragging my name thru the mud at the end of it I had one friend left.

Skip ahead two months and I’m feeling way better I’m smiling more often no longer wanna take my own life and am feeling great. But I was still upset about everything that had happened but couldn’t do anything that was until I got bored one day and was looking thru my phone and saw something interesting. CS’s account was still logged into my phone a second profile. On a lark I tried opening it it let me she hadn’t changed her password and had given it permission to just sign in.

I thought I was just gonna have a weird voyeuristic look into her life but what I found was even worse a fb group that was literally called “Mean Girls Club” in it I found 5 girls including RB and CS all talking about what they were getting guys to buy them and do for them. It was horrid to look at I scrolled up and up and up all the way to the first message and it went back years. I don’t know how but these 5 had been doing it for so long it was crazy.

It was then I started to form a plan. The first thing I did was screen shot everything and when I mean everything I mean I had thousands of pictures from this including but not limited to pictures of stuff they had bought or had bought for them. Nudes of their partners or of people they were interested in and then the biggest one a shared drop box folder filled with pictures and videos of them doing a lot of nasty stuff I mean really bad. Apparently this whole thing was set up so that none of them could stop nor back down at anytime due to the blackmail Dropbox and the fact the rest of the group would back the others.

I know this is crazy to understand but let me put it this way from what I gathered to OG group was a total of 8 girls and 1 guy the numbers that left all were told they would be ruined and boy was it bad. I read about them making some of the people leaving lose their jobs and families falsely accusing the one guy of rape of which if what they said was true he was forced to move to another state because of the rumors.

On top of that they ruined a local store making them go out of business and then getting another guy thrown in jail after they accused him of attacking one of them. I can list plenty of what they did that was bad but mostly all of it was them bragging about guys they were using for stuff and money and what they could get them to buy them. I of course was on there as was everything I ever bought them totaling around 5500 over two years. The two of them CS and RB were so proud of what they did.

I was astonished by what had happened and was honestly very hurt by it all I knew they were bitches but nothing of this level. So I did what anybody would do I turned them against each other. The first thing I did was use my fake profile to enter into the group chat under the guise of a friend of CS’s. Took some time and creative use of the two profiles but I did it then moved onto insight some war by messaging each of them about the others of the course of a month I had them all suspicious of each other with some he said she said then I struck with one reveal.

I sent RB’s bf a message from CS’S profile in sighting them to openly flirt then took a step back and told RB about it. All the while with my fake profile I told CS that RB wanted to burn her by sending out her blackmail then I messaged the rest relaying info on the upcoming conflict telling them to prepare to burn another person if someone else struck (think start of world war 1 but with 20 something girls). 3 hours was all it took from went that past message went out to the first “bomb” fell. It was glorious each one destroying the other telling significant others about lies cheating and theft. Jobs being called about misuse of company property and inappropriate behavior in the work place. Full on sex tapes were posted to tons of porn sites.

It was three months later that the dust cleared everyone but CS had deleted their social media accounts. It was then that CS started in on my fake account demanding for some form a of repayment stating she had never added me to the the group and that no one had had any dirt on me so I was unscathed. I responded with “Well let’s just say I’m a bitch, the names Karma.”

I deleted the profile and lost the login info for CS. I keep the Dropbox stuff though and screenshots since I’m sure if they ever put two and two together they could guess who I was. But now a full year later nothing.

I’ve not been able to know more then the basic repercussions of this sense I didn’t know the other three personally but RB ended up homeless for a few months before going to jail sense some of the blackmail was a video of her doing drugs while skipping a court date about drug use (she openly stated in the video the date and that the courts could suck it and told them later she was helping a friend go thru some hard time to get an extension) jail due to her breaking parole and lying to a judge. CS lost her day job and all but around 30 of over 5k followers as well as her bf who she was cheating on then he back up bf since she was cheating on him with another guy who was just in it for the sex. Last I heard she moved back in with her parents and can’t keep a job due to her running into people who know what happened.

TL:DR Got emotionally and financially used by two girls and then made their mean girl chat destroy each other’s lives.

PS if rslash is reading this hope you know you inspired me to share this because your vids are amazing.

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Why This Teen Walked Away From Millions of TikTok Followers

This is part of a special series, The Future of Fame Is the Fan, which dissects how celebrity became so slippery. It’s also in the latest VICE magazine. Subscribe here. 

Sixteen-year-old Ava Rose Beaune was hanging out at a friend’s house on an otherwise unremarkable mid-July afternoon when her cell service briefly shut off. She tried to text her dad, but it wouldn’t send—definitely odd, she thought, but not alarming.

Then people started messaging her: Did you see what’s on your Twitter? Your Instagram? What’s going on? She logged on to her social media accounts and saw that her new Facebook status alluded to suicide—but she hadn’t posted it.

“My whole family thought I was going to kill myself,” Ava said.

Suddenly, a man she’d never met was calling her parents, demanding to speak to her. He had control of all her contacts, texts, emails, and social media accounts. The next day, he texted her: I just want to talk to you. (Spoken and written quotes from Ava’s alleged stalker are italicized to indicate they are not necessarily direct quotes but are as she remembers them.) He called her, and she answered, begging him to do whatever he wanted to her Instagram account, if that’s what he was after. “Delete it. Delete it and leave me alone if that’s what you want,” she told him. You don’t want that, he said. “I do,” she replied. I just want to meet up with you and have sex with you, he said.

“That’s when I hung up the phone, and I was like, this is getting weird,” Ava told me. This stranger had managed to hack her accounts using a method called SIM swapping, in which he contacted her wireless service carrier and convinced them that he owned the account and needed them to transfer access to the SIM card to the phone in his hand—effectively taking over her digital life.

In screenshots viewed by VICE, the hacker can be seen posting a Story to her Instagram about being Ava’s new boyfriend, issuing rape threats, and writing things like “I can’t wait til I impregnate you and marry you. you only live 5 MIN away from me.” She got her social media accounts back in her own possession and resolved the problem with her carrier. “OK, this is, you know, the end, whatever,” she recalled thinking.

With more than 2 million followers on TikTok, Ava was a minor celebrity in her own circles. So, she said, she was used to men being creepy, or even hostile. This was extreme, she thought, but it was over.

But it wasn’t. This was only the beginning of weeks of daily harassment so severe it would uproot her life entirely.

As of this year, TikTok likely has more than 1 billion monthly active users, and the market research firm Statista estimates that adolescents between 10 and 19 years old make up 32.5 percent of those users. The spiritual successor to Vine, TikTok is a micro-video sharing platform that favors an off-the-cuff, do-it-yourself style: People of all ages lip-sync to movie clips and songs, mimic elaborate dances in their living rooms, and use filters to edit the 60-second videos into tiny works of art. It’s also something of a fame lottery.

All this manic, frenetic energy combined with massive audiences is addictive in the same way any social media platform is: with casino-style scrolling and a notification system and the looming chance at virality. Normal teens like Ava—who signed with a talent agency in January 2020—become voracious consumers as well as unstoppable creators, hoping to strike it big, get discovered, or at the very least, make it to the For You feed, where one video plucked by some mysterious algorithm from a user’s feed can get in front of millions of eyeballs instantly.

“I’d rather not give those people the satisfaction of being noticed.”

Despite all this, cyberbullying experts say that TikTok isn’t the worst social media app for harassment. “The way that TikTok is built reduces the likelihood of cyberbullying when compared to other apps,” said Sameer Hinduja, the co-director of the Cyberbullying Research Center. Features like direct messaging that only allow mutual followers to contact each other, and the inability to add images or videos to comment sections, set it apart from other apps. “To be sure, cyberbullying can manifest itself in hurtful TikTok videos directed towards others, as well as in comments and in livestream chats—but these possibilities are no different than on any other social media app,” Hinduja told me.

According to TikTok’s transparency report from 2020, 2.5 percent of videos the platform removed were for bullying or harassment. But there are some features unique to TikTok that make it prone to a different, more personal kind of harassment. “Duet” allows other users to repost your video with a split-screen video of their own. Most of the time, it’s used innocently, for singalongs or miniature skits. But some users say it opens a portal for disturbing abuse. In 2018, BuzzFeed News reported that people—often young children—would duet their videos with a video of them acting out suicide, putting plastic bags over their heads or belts around their necks, to show their disgust at the original post. And a Duet from a more popular account can send a wave of attention from their followers to your page, not all of it positive.

Nick, who runs a TikTok account with his five-year-old daughter Sienna (the family goes by their first names publicly, to protect their privacy), told me that they experience Duet-based harassment on top of the usual comment section cruelty. “Some users would duet our videos and say mean, nasty things that were just not true,” he said. “In the beginning, it made us second-guess the path we were going down.”

It hasn’t stopped since they started the account, in October of 2018—and they’ve since gathered more than 14 million followers. But they have gotten better at managing it, Nick said. “Sienna is luckily very intelligent and knows that this is not OK. I made sure to sit down with her, emphasizing how special she is and that people may not see that right away.”

Nick believes TikTok does a good job of handling harassment, and giving creators the tools to handle it themselves. “If there is consistent harassment from a specific account, I block and delete their hateful comments,” he said. “For the negative comments in general, I tend to just ignore them. I’d rather not give those people the satisfaction of being noticed.”

TikTok does allow users to opt out of Duets. But these are the features that foster that slingshot fame; opting out of them means opting out of your chance at going viral or just growing your audience.

Fatima and Munera Fahiye, who are sisters and TikTok creators with around 3 million followers each, told me that they also find the platform to be responsive when they need support. “There were multiple accounts on TikTok impersonating me on the app, and TikTok helped me by verifying my account to let people know that my account is the real one,” Munera said.

Whatever harassment they do receive—which often means racist comments—they say is outweighed by the support of fans. “I have been on TikTok for a year now, and I have not experienced any harassment, but after gaining some followers I have seen some mean comments about my hijab every now and then, but I try to not give it any attention, because the love and support that I am getting from my fans is more than the little hate, so it does not matter,” Fatima said.

The harassment that happens on TikTok doesn’t stay there, however. On Reddit, whole communities are devoted to catching women and girls on social media in the middle of wardrobe slips, where you can see down their shirts, up their skirts, or anytime they shift and move and reveal a glimpse of more skin. Standalone websites are made for this purpose, too, and for doxxing and harassing women who might have a TikTok in addition to an OnlyFans or other separate adult platform.

In 2020, a server on the gaming chat platform Discord took requests for TikTok creators to be made into deepfakes—AI-generated fake porn. Although child pornography is against Discord’s terms of use, even in the form of deepfakes, one of the most requested targets was only 17. A request for another deepfake noted, “by the way she turns 18 in 4 days.”

Creators also find their content, clothed as in the originals or deepfaked, reposted to porn sites. In concert, the people on each of these platforms work together to create an overwhelming environment of virtual assault for many young women.

Until TikTok, Ava had never really been into social media, she told me on a Zoom call in her parents’ house. She was taking a break from high school distance learning; this was her senior year, spent over video chats because of the COVID-19 pandemic. “I always told myself I’d never make a TikTok because my friends all had it and I was like, that’s so cringe,” she said. “Like, I’ll never start that. But they were like, ‘Come on make one,’ so I did.”

She said she made her first account when she was 15, and posted the usual stuff: trend dances, makeup videos. Within a few days, her audience went from the friends who talked her into joining to 150,000 followers—a leap in popularity that she still doesn’t entirely understand. The sudden attention startled her; she deactivated the account.

She accidentally reactivated the account later, and at this point, having gotten over the initial shock of attention, decided to give it another try.

A rock smashed through her mom’s car window with a threatening note tied to it: I want to take you and impregnate you.

Once Ava started posting new videos, the hateful comments started. “I thought that was like the worst it could get,” she said. “It was like, body shaming and hate—the body shaming especially never bothered me, and the normal hate comments were just like, whatever.” A few users created accounts to post rape threats about her, and this did disturb her, but she took it as par for the course as a young woman online.

That is, until one of her followers started stalking her and her best friend, Gabriel. That follower messaged Gabriel, mentioning her home address and demanding to know who she was dating. “So, we’re both kind of like laughing like this guy’s obviously just some weird fan,” she recalled.

I have something planned for Ava. You’ll see in the next three months. I’m planning something big, Ava says he told Gabriel. He hacked her phone three months later, on Gabriel’s 18th birthday. After that, the man texted Ava every day.

“It was stuff about how he wants to rape me, how he’s going to get me, how I can easily stop this—he was texting my dad saying, She’s not allowed to hang out with her friends, if she goes out I’ll know. Saying he’s watching over us and stuff like that.” Every time Ava thought the situation was as bad as it could get—that this man she’d never met was going as far as he could go—he went further.

Then a rock smashed through her mom’s car window with a threatening note tied to it: I want to take you and impregnate you.

Cyberbullying has proven long-lasting effects on teens and young adults. As Hinduja noted, studies show that it’s tied to low self-esteem, depression, anxiety, family problems, academic difficulties, delinquency, school violence, and suicidal thoughts and attempts.

“So at this point I was like, ‘OK, this is getting a little serious.’”

“Most important to me is how negative experiences online unnecessarily compromise the healthy flourishing of our youth at school,” he said. According to his and his co-director Justin Patchin’s research at the Cyberbullying Research Center, over 60 percent of students who experienced cyberbullying reported that it “deeply affected” their ability to learn and feel safe while at school, and 10 percent of students surveyed said they’ve skipped school at least once this past year because of it.

“That cannot be happening,” Hinduja said.

“In general, I hope people will remember that everyone is a human being just like them. We are all capable of feeling hurt and disappointment, and just because there are numbers and a platform attached to our lives doesn’t mean we are impervious to hurtful words or harassing comments,” Nick said. “TikTok is a space where everyone should feel safe to express their creativity, and in order to do that we need to be kind to others.”

Maxwell Mitcheson, Ava’s agent and the head of talent at TalentX Entertainment, told me that he’s seen harassment take a direct toll on young people. “A lot of creators are growing up in front of millions of people, and that involves making mistakes and learning and growing from them,” he said. “The hateful rhetoric definitely weighs on them; some don’t even look at their comments section anymore just to try and stay positive.”

“It’s the inability to make mistakes, being attacked for being authentically yourself, and the sudden lack of anonymity,” Mitcheson said.

Ava’s experience was on the extreme side, he explained, but creators at his agency have had instances of hacking and stalking, or fans randomly showing up at creators’ homes. “We’ve had to involve security and PIs before, but Ava’s was a situation that could have ended in tragedy if it weren’t for the Toronto police intervening.”

After the window-breaking threat, Ava said the police told her that she couldn’t stay at home. She went to stay at a friend’s house, but he still reached her there, she said. “He just kept going saying like, look at what you’ve done, this is all your fault,” she said. He sent her a private message that would delete after it was opened, so she recorded it using a friend’s phone:

I need you to accept the fact that I’m extorting you right now, you need to accept that this isn’t going to end no one’s gonna catch me, the police haven’t ever caught me when I did this before, accept it, give me what I want, I want you to meet up at this park right behind your house I want to do this this this this to you

if you don’t I will kill your parents in front of you in your living room and take you.

“So at this point I was like, ‘OK, this is getting a little serious,’” she told me.

She said she sent the message to the police, who told her whole family to stay somewhere else, hours away. They did, for two weeks. He kept texting her: are you going to be there Saturday you’re making the wrong decision you better answer me.

Eventually, Ava recalled, he was caught. He left the VPN he was using to mask his location off for a half a second, according to her—just long enough, she remembers the police telling her, for the investigators to capture his location data and pinpoint where he was texting her from.

Ava said that the police told her that when he was caught, they found six separate phones and a bunch of SIM cards in his possession—full of pictures and videos of Ava that he’d taken from her accounts. According to the Toronto area detective Ava and her family worked with, the case is still in the courts.

Talking to me now, over Zoom, in between classes and facing midterms, Ava seems fine. She’s able to recount this story in delicate detail, without flinching. She understands the gravity of what happened to her, and how it upended her life. Her family decided to move away, “to the middle of nowhere, pretty much,” she said.

But she is different now. She stopped posting to her TikTok to focus on her friendships and family, though she still posts sporadically on Instagram. She would like to be more active on social media, but she’s not pushing herself. She has anxiety that she describes as “really bad.”

“It’s really affected me, like, you know, just like not being able to live in your own home, and like, even when you are at home, not being safe… It’s really hard, especially when I was only 16 when this happened,” she said. “It is hard, and knowing that my parents were always stressed out and not being able to go outside and walk without feeling kind of scared…”

Before she stopped posting new TikTok videos, she tried to open up on the platform in videos about her mental health and her experiences. But people weren’t receptive to it.

“Especially when they’re like, Oh, a TikTok girl that all the simps love, or What are you complaining about, all these boys love you, kind of thing,” she told me. “I’ve been trying to go to therapy and trying to get over it, but when that kind of thing happens you’re not really the same afterwards. You have a different outlook on social media. You’re kind of scared of if it’s going to happen again. You don’t think those people exist until it happens to you, and then you’re like, wow, this is crazy.”

Online harassment has a silencing effect on people of all ages and genders, but women have it especially bad—and young women are pushed offline, out of the center of conversations and control of their own narrative, at earlier and earlier ages. As adolescents, harassment online makes them do worse in school, seek riskier behaviors, and contemplate or even attempt and follow through on self-harm and suicide. As grown women, this looks like anxiety, a lack of self-confidence, not sleeping, and stepping out of the online conversation altogether to protect their own mental health, and, in severe cases, the safety of themselves and their loved ones. When harassment is allowed to carry on, and women are shamed for seeking help, the damage digs deeper—and we lose those voices.

I asked Ava what she wishes more people understood—about her, about what it’s like to have a big social media following, about how it feels to have millions of eyes on you at such a young age. “I just wish they knew that just because you have followers, doesn’t mean you have this perfect life,” she said. “Just because boys love you, that doesn’t complete your life. When these kinds of things happen, you should be able to be open about it.”

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[lj-writes]

wrt your kylo theory about his connection to rey specifically point 3 i'm sure you've seen the visual guide (which pablo wrote) i(.)pinimg(.)com/originals/da/57/2f/da572fafdc45305512821cc17cac6720(.)jpg he "betrayed the other students studying with luke and is responsible for their destruction" i really don't think thats very ambiguous... i suppose its possibly that if rey somehow did destroy them that he might take credit for it when he turned to bolster his reputation a bit but idk (1/4)

Note: Since each part of this multipart ask asks a different question or makes a different point I will quote each part throughout the post, and append the screenshots after a cut for those who want to view the originals.

To preface, this series of asks is in reference to my recent prediction of what the twist in The Last Jedi will be. This post comes with a potential spoiler warning much like the original theory post.

On the first part, anon, your quoted passage actually gives me more doubts. If it’s canon that Kylo slaughtered the students, why put it in such roundabout terms? We don’t even know if the passage refers to ironbound canon or conventional wisdom in-universe. Even if it’s canon, betrayal and moral responsibility can refer to a lot of things from outright murder to giving information. If Kylo murdered the students, why not say so instead of using wording that is open to broad interpretation?

This wording could also work with a modified theory proposed by @tegdoh​ in this thread, where then-Ben unwittingly betrayed his fellow students to Snoke without meaning to kill them.

None of this absolves Kylo of responsibility, of course, especially if he covered up his role in the event and especially if he hid Rey away to avoid responsibility as I suggest. But the passage you quote, much like Han’s telling in The Force Awakens, does make me wonder if Kylo Ren as a school shooter is what we have been led to believe rather than what actually happened.

also stuff like the legends of luke skywalker confirm that luke was already travelling quite a lot after rotj. i think his temple/school was actually very informal and it was more of a community of people who studied the force together rather than luke as a pt style jedi master. this is purely my assumption but i always assumed he continued to travel and learn after forming the school, passing his knowledge on to his ��pupils’ (2/4)

Thank you for the information, and that’s a strong possibility, too. Like I have said, I am fully prepared to be (and actually hoping to be) wrong. I wasn’t saying the school, whatever its form, was definitely gone by the time of Bloodline, only that there’s no definitive proof that it existed at that point. It just seems odd that Luke and his apprentice were out of communication for such long stretches of time that it’s a source of distress to Leia.

Even if Luke was traveling a lot, it seems to me he should have been at least reachable if he was responsible for a school. And no matter how informal the community was there was at least a building that could be burned down and where the students could be found and slaughtered, suggesting some kind of fixed location that Luke needed to be in touch with.

Even if he didn’t have the kind of responsibilities that required his presence and contact, there is still the question of influence. Why had he faded almost into myth when by all rights he should have a couple of generations of students who kept his teachings alive?

(The rest under a cut for length)

also if rey was a solo why did han and leia send an infant to luke? i think it makes more sense that if she were at the temple it was because she was lukes kid and he left her with his students/extended fam while he travelled i’ve also wondered if kylo dumped her on jakku for whatever reason but if that’s the case i really don’t think he’s going to be played as sympathetically/heroically as your theory paints him (¾)

As stated in the post, the theory itself is largely agnostic on these details and can work with just about any parentage theory. She could have been Han and Leia’s kid visiting her brother, Luke’s daughter who lived there, a Kenobi scion or Random whom Luke took in and so on and so forth. It does have more emotional weight with the first two scenarios, however.

Does my theory paint him as heroic? Maybe he’s understandable as a response to trauma and manipulation, and sympathetic for that reason, but I thought it was clear that he is a very unreliable narrator and what he did to Rey was horrible.

I said in the post that abandoning Rey on Jakku was arguably abusive, but I take it back. There’s no argument, it’s abusive as SHIT. In my theory then-Ben took Rey’s fate into his sole purview, put her beyond all help by faking her death, and even tampered with her mind. That’s control, isolation, and removal of agency, three major elements of abuse.

Note that malice is not a requirement for abuse. Even if he had the best of intentions, even if his heart ached to pieces for her, good intentions don’t erase the impact on Rey in the deprivation, loneliness, danger, and trauma she suffered. Maybe he reacted badly in the first panicked moments after the tragedy, but there was no excuse whatsoever for leaving her there for the better part of a decade. And this isn’t even going into Ren’s later crimes committed directly against Rey, those she cared about, and billions of others.

don’t take this is harsh criticism i like the base idea of your theory i just think stuff like 'he had to kill han to protect rey’ is kinda garbage. imo rian is going to make him 'relatable’ but at the end of the day he’ll still be a villain. (personally i hope he kills snoke, take his place, offers rey a chance to join him and lose it when she rejects him). rian talks a lot of shit but i think kylo will be even more in the dark by the end of tlj, he’s leading those troops to crait after all 4/4

Never be afraid to criticize me, I enjoy challenges. I completely agree it’s garbage. The “had to kill Han" part was solely from Kylo’s warped perspective and it’s why I put “had” in quotes. What he should have done was seek the grownups’ help and not take matters into his own hands, especially in a way that irrevocably changed Rey’s life.

I also agree that whatever happens in the movie Kylo will still be a villain. Heck, I think my theory makes him even more of one, just one with human impulses and feelings that should keep all of us on our toes because no one is immune from doing evil with the best of intentions. And I like your speculation, too! Very reminiscent of ESB Vader, as I think the trailer was intentionally cut to be.

also if rey was so powerful and being manipulated by snoke and kylo was also being manipulated snoke when he came up with the jakku idea, why didnt snoke ever go get her? she’s clearly very powerful in the force, maybe even more so than kylo and we see in tfa and in tlj snoke has an interest in her. if kylo left her on jakku i think he did it of his own accord, not because snoke told him to. also if snoke was in rey’s head why would he lose contact with her just because she’s on a new planet?

Well, why not turn that question around–why didn’t Snoke get Kylo? There could be a lot of reasons, such as Snoke wanting to use her supposed death and the gnawing guilt of abandoning her as a way to turn Kylo thoroughly against his parents and Luke. Maybe she was too powerful, and Snoke feared he would not be able to control her without Kylo as leverage so he had to wait.

You do propose an interesting possibility, though, so here’s an alternate version of the theory: Maybe Kylo was the one who introduced Snoke to Rey, and when Snoke touched her mind disaster ensued. Maybe Snoke did want to get Rey right away, and Kylo wanted to protect her from him and prevent other such disasters. We know that whatever connection Snoke has to Kylo is not absolute–Kylo disobeyed direct orders in TFA and had his own agenda–so this may have been an example of such rebellion. I like this version better than the original, although it debunks parts of the original (such as Snoke alluding to Rey when he said Kylo would face a test with Han).

As for why Snoke couldn’t still get to her, there are two answers: First, because Kylo evaded him as discussed above, and second, because in this theory parts of Jakku have Force properties that confuse Force sense and/or signature. Maybe this was why Kylo stopped to stare at Finn after the massacre of the village, because he thought he sensed a Force signature but couldn’t be sure due to the area’s suppressive properties.

But why would Ben/Kylo continue to be in contact with Snoke if he knew Snoke was a bad guy? For one thing, Snoke by this time was effectively blackmailing him because it was then-Ben’s action that led to the students’ deaths, no matter how innocently. For another, I think then-Ben was jealous that Rey had captured Snoke’s attention so much, and it was as much an attempt to keep Snoke’s teachings and praise focused on himself as an attempt to protect Rey. This would give him very mixed motivations.and make him more of a bad guy than ever.

(This is NOT to say that Snoke’s abuse of then-Ben under this theory was Ben’s fault, or that Ben wanted it. Under this theory jealousy would be Ben’s response to the grooming, the desperate attempt to get his fix in a situation where he was increasingly being manipulated into dependence. Hurting Rey to get that hollow validation, however, is a wrongful response to the abuse. Again, this is all hypothetical of course.)

sorry my asks got so long winded! also don’t take this as me thinking your full of shit or that i hate your theory. i actually think the base idea is intriguing and wanted to discuss it a bit. sincerest apologies if my tone ever came across as inflammatory

No problem anon! I’m trained to take tough questions. I really wanted to discuss this theory too, so thanks for taking the time to send the asks. I enjoyed the conversation.

(Screenshots of original asks below.)

[allthecreepylittlethings]

Mein Teil: How an Internet Cannibal Inspired a Song

When it comes to controversy, Rammstein is no stranger. The German industrial metal band, who is actually more popular in the US than in Germany, has had a wide variety of songs that often cover dark subject matter as well as equally controversial videos to go along with them. From accusations of supporting Germany's dark history of Hitler's regime (they don't, by the way), to just general offense for the amount of nudity and sexual content they sometimes include in their videos, they tend to be an easy target for moral outrage. One of the difficult things about Rammstein is even if you get past the language barrier (assuming you're like me and are not fluent in German), there are times when, even translated, their songs can be interpreted in a number of ways leaving behind more questions than answers. And maybe that's the point, to force you to think, analyze, and draw your own conclusions. A lot of talented artists use this technique and forcing listeners to have to think is, in my opinion, one of the best contributions an artist can give to their audience.

There is, however, one particular song that is far more obvious in its subject matter and has a creepy story to go along with it. This is the true story behind "Mein Teil," which translates in English to, "My Part."

If you haven't heard this song, here's a link to the audio if you'd like to give it a listen first.

The lyrics of the song are through the eyes of a man who is willingly offering his body to a cannibal to be eaten:

"Heute treff' ich einen Herrn- Today I will meet a gentleman, Der hat mich zum Fressen gern- He likes me so much he could eat me up Weiche Teile und auch harte- Soft parts and even hard ones stehen auf der Speisekarte- Are on the menu..."

The song goes on with the willing victim describing the pride he's taking in the act and how happy he is just to be a part of it. There's also a line suggesting that he's being allowed a taste of himself and that he's enjoying it. As messed up as the scenario sounds, the idea wasn't just pulled out of thin air with the intention to shock for the sake of shock. This was actually a true story that did take place in Germany, and it all started with a disturbing ad posted on the internet.

Our story begins in 2001, when an ad was posted to a website called the Cannibal Cafe. The website, now defunct, was dedicated to those with a fetish for cannibalism and its users would either discuss their desire to indulge in eating another human, or share their stories of doing so and what their experiences were like. While there are many sites like this that are completely fake and intended to frighten anyone who happens to stumble upon them, the Cannibal Cafe was not one of those sites. It was all too real. The site has been shut down but is readily available on the Wayback Machine for the morbidly curious.

It goes without saying the warning on this page is warranted.

One of the most surprising aspects of the sites was this was not a community hidden in the deep web. This was a surface web page and easily accessible to anyone who wanted to find it.

The ad that began it all was posted by a user named "Franky," and was titled, "Search for Young Boys." In broken English and various typos, the ad stated, "If you are between 18 and 30 y/o and have you a normal build body, than come to me, i will butchering and eating your fine flesh. Please mail me your age, High and Wigth, and if you can with a pic." As disturbing as the ad is, probably worse is the fact that several men responded to it, all of them offering up their bodies for Franky to fulfill their own fantasies of being devoured. After screening through several candidates (upwards of 200), Franky found what he was looking for and invited the willing victim into his home.

"Franky," turned out to be a 42-year-old man from Germany named Armin Meiwes, and the man who would ultimately become his meal was a 36-year-old man named Bernd Brandes. Brandes, who was also from Germany, suffered from depression and, upon finding Meiwes' ad, felt he would be the right fit for the job. They exchanged emails for over a month, discussing the arrangements before finally setting a date.

(Left: Armin Meiwes. Right: Bernd Brandes.)

On March 9th of 2001, the pair met up at Meiwes' farmhouse where Brandes was fed sleeping pills and liquid cold medicine. Meiwes then set up a camera to record everything that followed. The act began with Meiwes cutting off Brandes' penis and broiling it. Brandes, who was still conscious, asked if he could try some for himself and Meiwes served him a piece, only for Brandes to complain that the consistency was too chewy to eat.

After this, Meiwes placed Brandes in a warm bath to bleed out while he read for over three hours and waited. Eventually, Brandes attempted to get up multiple times but collapsed from the amount of blood loss, ultimately leading Meiwes to stab him in the throat. After butchering the body, preparing it, and eating his fill, Meiwes packed away the rest of the meat and stored it away to be consumed later. However, an online friend of his later discovered he was placing new ads for more victims and alerted the authorities.

Inside of Armin Meiwes' house where the act took place.

By the time he was investigated, Meiwes had already consumed over 44lbs of Brandes' flesh and willingly confessed to what he had done, even stating that Brandes had tasted exactly like pork. Authorities uncovered what remained of the body inside a freezer as well as the video that had recorded the entire act. The video itself has never been made public and likely never will be, though some of the jury, as well as the journalists who had to watch it, reported needing therapy after to cope with what they had seen. Screenshots have allegedly popped up online since then, but their validity is questionable to say the least.

On January 30th of 2004, Meiwes was convicted of manslaughter and sentenced to eight years in prison. However the prosecution appealed the conviction, stating that Brandes was not mentally sound, making him incapable to truly consenting to his killing, and that Meiwes should have been convicted of murder, not manslaughter. Meiwes underwent a retrail, this time receiving a murder conviction, and was sentenced to life in prison.

While criminal psychiatrists stated that Meiwes had a "schizoid personality," they found no signs of actual mental illness. Meiwes has since expressed his deep regret for the killing and claims he hopes to write an autobiography in order to encourage people like him to seek out help before it's too late. Reportedly, since his imprisonment, Meiwes has become a vegetarian.

When the members of Rammstein learned of this case and that there was an actual video taken of the crime, they wrote the song, "Mein Teil," and later hoped they could use footage from the tape to incorporate into their music video. Unsurprisingly, they were denied access which left them to their own devices. Ultimately, it led to them shooting a video in a warehouse where they were instructed to do whatever the director wanted, each not knowing what the other was doing, and having all of it eventually compiled into what became the music video. The end result is an even mixture of confusing and creepy:

Something worth noting about the video, the end scene where the band is being walked like a pack of dogs was likely inspired by a scene from the disturbing movie "Salo: The 120 Days of Sodom," in which the imprisoned victims of the film are forced to crawl naked, on all fours like dogs.

If you're wondering if you should see this movie, the answer is no. No you shouldn't.

Despite not being able to create the music video they would have liked, Rammstein has had live performances of the song that depict the subject matter a little more clearly. And, true to their style, it involves Flake doing something weird and Till having an excuse to use a flamethrower. It's definitely worth watching sheerly for the entertainment value and a way to lighten up this topic in general:

To add an extra layer of crazy to this story, Armin Meiwes attempted to sue the band, claiming they had no right to make a song about his story without his permission. As of writing this, there are no available details on the lawsuit, but given that the song and the music video have never been pulled, it's probably safe to assume it was either dropped or never made it to court.

For those interested, Rammstein has written other songs inspired by true stories that are well worth researching and I may cover another one in a future post. They are far from the only band out there to have done this, but this just happened to be one of my personal favorites.

Sources:

Profile: Cannibal Armin Meiwes: http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/europe/3443803.stm

German Cannibal Armin Meiwes: https://www.bizarrepedia.com/cannibal-armin-meiwes/

Armin Meiwes on Wikipedia: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Armin_Meiwes

Manslaughter Verdict for Cannibal: http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/europe/3443293.stm

Rammstein Sued by German Cannibal: http://www.blabbermouth.net/news/rammstein-sued-by-german-cannibal/

Mein Teil (from the Rammstein Wiki): https://rammstein.fandom.com/wiki/Mein_Teil

[bittersweet-dan-blog]

i am bored and it have no friends so i’m doing this lmao also this is a gr8 way to stalk me so go on ahead idc

credit to: @luxet 

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1. spotify ofc 2. my room has to be clean or else i will actually go insane 3. my eyes are a hazel brown 4. not really? only because it’s really feminine. i mean, don’t get me wrong, gabriella is a beautiful name. but it’s not exactly the easiest to go by gabie as a transboy 5. complicated. i have an on-again-off-again girlfriend that lives in ireland ;; 6. sarcastic kinky existentialist  7. i have burgundy hair ( : ) 8. i don’t have a car  9. i shop at hot topic, spencers and books a million 10. my style is lots and lots of black. my style is very.. comfy? i wear lots of over sized jumpers and sweat pants, but i also wear really tight skinny jeans and loose shirts so... borderline emo? i guess??? 11. tumblr lmao 12. i have a twin size 13. yes. i have a one year old brother named benjamin  14. i would live in Нижний Новгород (Nizhny Novgorod, Russia). because i really love the culture and food and i speak russian so that’s a plus 15. i really like the filter where it makes everything blue and you have a flower crown and it’s all mystical and stuffz 16. i don’t wear makeup *;;* 17. i shower about 2 times a week 18. AMERICAN. FUCKING. HORROR STORY. sorry ( : ) 19. about a 7 in UK sizes 20. i am about 168 cm tall 21. sneakers. everytime i tried to wear sandals, my toes always got stepped on 22. yes  23. my dream date would consist of midnight drives with the radio blasting and a night filled with cuddles and kisses and movies and fairy lights and pillow/blanket forts 24. tbh nothing welp 25. i ‘ m     n o t     w e a r i n g    s o c ks 26. 2 27. well i mean, considering i’m 14, i don’t have a job exactly? i compete in figure skating competitions though so idk if that’s a job persay 28. like, -2 29. i was reading something and i ran into a wall. with my crush watching me. they laughed. i wanted death. right then and there. 30. i really like *don’t think this is weird* the smell of chlorine and the pool in general, and i was shopping with my mum when i found a candle that smells like that and !!! 31. alroy, benjamin, bryant 32. hazel, eden, january 33. evan peters 34. chloe grace moretz 35. evan petersssss 36. atm it is either the fault in our stars, my neighbour totoro, or the original spiderman movies lmao 37. yes i do. my favourite book is ‘faking normal’ by courtney stevens.  38. having intelligence is such a big turn on ngl 39. yes xD. my nickname is ‘dan howell 2.0′  40. i have been to the hospital at least 10 times 41. (1.) pillow talk by zayn  (2.) photograph by ed sheeran  (3.) goner by twenty one pilots  (4.) ode to sleep by twenty one pilots  (5.) sarcasm by get scared  (6.) psycho by muse *literally every muse song is gr8 tbh*  (7.) the sharpest lives by my chemical romance  (8.) nicotine by panic! at the disco  (9.) do it now remember it later by pierce the veil  (10.) i’ll sleep when i’m dead by set it off *once again, every sio song is amazing* 42. i take medicine for my extreme social anxiety 43. my skin is always dry because i take really hot showers and never use lotion afterwards because i always forget welp 44. my biggest fear is having someone being disappointed in me  45. maybe 1 or 2. but i’m probably going to have dogs. my mum is going to have granddogs. puppos. doggos everywhere 46. messy bun, fringe out 47. i live in a small run down flat  48. my role model is actually phil because i’ve always wanted a friend like phil but everyone that i meet just leaves?? but phil has always been my source of happiness since i was 8 so i am forever grateful for that.  49. ‘at least you didn’t fuck up your jumps’ my ice skating coach 50. ‘goodnight loser : p’  51. 6 52. it’s not really a car... more like a motorcycle.. a really, really fast motorcycle 53. it’s your demons your getting rid of, not mine. and honestly if smoking helps it, then go ahead. i won’t stop them. 54. i’m in secondary school but i probably won’t go to college 55. my dream job is to be an authour 56. suburbs in case there is a psycho murderer because in rural place, no one can hear you scream  57. ofc who doesn’t 58. i have very light freckles under my eyes 59. yes ^^ 60. not that many. most of my gallery is basically witty tumblr posts that i screenshots or photos of dnp that i screenshoted 61. nupe 62. yes :p i watch bob’s burgers a l o t 63. neither... i don’t know what wendy’s food tastes like, but if it’s anything close to mcdonald’s than no thank you... 64. barbecue sauce  65. i wear boxers and a loose t-shirt ; 66. no because i’m stupid 67. i play piano and i sketch in my free time 68. not well lol 69. i play ukulele, piano, and clarinet 70. the last concert i saw was twenty one pilots 71. tea 72. starbucks 73. it depends on the person i’m marrying.. 74. bm 75. mayyybbeee 76. black lmao 77. i miss my doggo :( 78. c l o s e d. the grudge isn’t going to get me tonight 79. nupe 80. when people look in the view finder of the video camera 81. my ‘friend’ marco 82. hazelnut 83. regular 84. chocolate 85. i am *ironically* wearing a ‘dan eclipse shirt’ that i made in 2012 86. my phone background is 2010 dan and phil in halloween costumes :’) 87. i’m pretty shy.. but also very loud and obnoxious so i mean 88. i love when people play with my hair tbh 89. sorta but then again i’ve never exactly met my neighbours 90. i wash my face at night 91. no 92. nuppers 93. i ate a really bland crumpet a few minutes ago 94. “though i’m weak, and beaten down. i’ll slip away into the sound. the ghost of you. is close to me. i’m inside out. your underneath.” -goner, twenty one pilots 95. winter  96. night 97. i really like dark chocolate 98. october because i like halloween ;; 99. cancer 100. my ex girlfriend

[yande-re-blog1]

A conversation with kitsunecutie/flowerpriestess

so, if you havent seen it, i wrote a call-out about kitsunecutie/flowerpriestess, who is sometimes better known as starblastingfuse or airipom, who had multiple call-outs written under each name. heres a link to the post that i wrote, if it gives you any indication as to what i talked to her about

context behind this: kitsunecutie never messaged me, but i saw her messaging people who had linked to my callout asking them to take it down and stop spreading lies. (one, two)

as the person who wrote the original post, i got annoyed that she wouldnt just message me, so i confronted her. and was immediately called racist.

warnings for below include:

discussions of pedophilia and sexual abuse

discussions of ableism

discussions of racism

discussions of an adult dating a minor

frustration

putting this under a read-more because it’s a shit-ton of screenshots. if you dont want to read the screen caps and my commentary, here’s a pastebin where you can read the entire exchange. whether youre reading the pastebin or the caps i have, i have omitted nothing. this conversation started monday at about 9 pm.

for the record, i never did call her white. i did state that i dont believe shes japanese, though, given the evidence i presented in my original post, as well as the call-outs others made about her. i told her this.

i dont know how being a trans girl means that you’re allowed to fetishize an entire race, but maybe someone can enlighten me.

also, for the record, some friends were using my laptop at the time to watch a movie, so i was using my phone to type things out to her. i dont know if capitalization+spelling+grammar was what she meant by ‘typing like an anti-sjw’, but like most phones mine automatically corrects for punctuation and the like.

i also still dont know why my typing style was relevant.

as a note, while i do care if she’s faking her race, it’s at the bottom of my list of concerns next to the fact that she sexually abused minors and told people that seeing black people made her feel as if she was going to be hit.

i dont know why the fuck she would be yelled out by an abuser if she owned up to her fucking actions. she also backpeddles this later.

yep. the people she abused are irrelevant.

the screenshots are in the original call-out post. i was curious about this ‘context’ i was missing.

so basically, the context was that someone had accused her (/an alter) of pedophilia.

i honestly dont know how she didn’t know where i was going, given that i made it clear that the best thing for her to do would be to apologize and acknowledge her actions.

i suspected that this ‘abuse’ was her getting called out for her actions.

more hiding behind alters to try to excuse her behaviors

turns out, i was right. she got called out and apparently lost friends because she was outed as a pedophile and told repeatedly to own up for her actions and apologize. she considers this abuse.

i thought she couldn’t apologize because she had an abuser who would get after her if she did?

so, she can’t apologize because she feels that apologies are fake. it doesnt matter that she wronged and abused people.

i was pretty shocked by this, given that i told her repeatedly that it was her victims that she hurt. i was pretty pissed at this point.

because me telling her victims that she’s sorry is really going to make things better for her. ok.

this started feeling like talking to a brick wall. i was very frustrated.

at this point, she ignored me. i let it go on for an hour.

another completely different excuse from the other two she already gave. but hey, it was something to work with, maybe.

this frustrated me again, because it felt very selfish. she’d sexually abused people and said some incredibly racist things, and she wasnt willing to even try because she would have a panic attack. im not downplaying panic attacks, because they are terrible, but this is someone who forced minors into sexual situations and then didnt even acknowledge that they were at fault.

again, was pretty surprised by this. i was happy that she was willing to apologize.

i was, indeed, wrong about this. the person in question was not a minor.

regardless, i still didnt blame them for being upset with her.

i make my intentions clear:

this was the end of the conversation until today. today, she messaged me in the morning with a couple new pieces of information

so, she was dating a minor when she was an adult. im unsure if this has been confirmed before, but there it is.

(as a note, im also schizophrenic. that may be what shes referring to in that last message)

she sort of dodged my question about her partner’s age, but it sounds like the age gap was rather large.

that was the end of our conversation for now. so, there is confirmation that she dated a minor while she was an adult and roleplayed sexual fantasies with her. she hasnt written out any apologies yet, but ill be keeping a lookout for that, too.