#i want to talk wifh yoh guys so much but i just never know what to say these days and im so sorry for fhat

[wollfling]

Being online lately has been just.. hard and stressful and I cant stand social media anymore but its the only way I get to see or interact with any of my friends. But everything is just so fast paced and bombarded with ads and constant talk about how to work with algorithms or whatever the hell I dont know. So much how to be successful how to do this better how to stop being bad and that thing constantly all of the time everywhere I go. I just want to be. I seen people talking recently abt "creator content" (i hate that word. Content creators) and how, art and writing and what not really is just consumed and forgotten about. I hate that. I wish we would slow down.

I know its looking at things through rose tinted glasses or whatever but I miss for example back in the day on deviant art like... when an artist you liked uploaded something after a month and being excited about it. And the social culture of adding things to galleries and having pieces that you loved easily accessible to took at and admire again. On instagram or twitter when I want to find something its a nightmare. Instagram has the bookmark option now, but that's private? And so its harder to find artists unless they are constantly uploading, and they need to rely on their followers to constantly share their work, its all just very. Too much. I am trying to return to instagram but scrolling on my feed is like, overwhelming.

But when I step away from social media I become overwhelmingly lonely. Which I know is a me problem, but I just can't find a way to balance any of it.