#i want to hug my professor no homo style

[yutadori]

anyway i think i'm going to give the tutoring job a try.... i was able to be crazy and talk about it in therapy yesterday and it was really relieving to be able to verbally express all of it.... my therapist was sooo sweet, at one point she was about to ask me a question but then she was like "wait wait sorry i'm impatient - " and i was confused for a second because she usually never says that and she was like "so do you know if you got the job???" and i was like ohhhh lol um yeas . i think . and she was soooo happy for me it was so cute she's so nice to meee )': but yeah i think i got it ? i was given the paperwork and everything... and at the end the coordinator shook my hand and told me she was looking forward to working with me 0: i guess it's more up to me from this point on whether i want to stay and that'll depend on how training goes.... i really hope i don't get insanely afraid and opt out because of anxiety u__u i think i have a few external factors / pressures (?) that will force me to tough it out, like how my professor is the one who recommended me and everything....

i think now that the anxiety has mostly passed.... i think i feel excited?? i'm also honestly quite happy about the fact that my professor believes in me ?? and thinks i'm smart??? or at least, skilled in english / writing???????? like that's so crazy sorry i'm still not over that i really haven't been able to completely grasp that . like that's CRAZY . that's soooo crazy what the hell . like what do you mean a cool nice smart adult who i just met in february thinks I'M smart?????? that's crazy . that's so crazy . like i'm so used to the adults in my life like my family + older relatives thinking nothing of me / thinking i'm dumb as hell but like . he thinks i'm smart???? wtf.... he thinks I'M capable of HELPING other people in their education???? wha.... what do you mean.....

idk it's nice . it's so nice actually . it's weird to say it but it makes me really happy..... to be recognized and acknowledged like this.... even if it ends up not working out, he still recommended me which means something.... gwah.... anyway . a part of me is still anxious of course and i'm definitely going to try not to let this get to my head and instead let it serve as something to look to and hold on to when i'm lacking confidence in myself. i definitely have a lot to learn in regards to english and writing and i'm really looking forward to doing more reading and learning... i might have to look up foundational english grammar shiet like clauses or whatever because i did not fucking pay attention in english in 4th grade lol

[tartareus]

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016. vanisher

VANISHER

here’s vanisher’s file. unlike most of my characters, vanisher is open and  lowkey selective. he’s a side muse that draws aspects of the movie and the comics.

fandom: deadpool ; xmcu

preferences: unplotted threads ; starters ; memes

shipping: semi selective

GENERAL INFORMATION.

full name: unknown ; goes by telford porter 

nickname:   vanisher ; ford ( only his friends call him that )

age:  38  \ verse dependent

date of birth: december 18th 1967

date of death:  presumed dead in 2018

place of birth:  unknown ; the USA

zodiac: sagittarius

gender: male

nationality:  american ( possibly with some german ancestry )

religion: none

orientation: closeted bisexual

relationship status: single  \ verse dependent

PHYSICAL ATTRIBUTES.

face claim: brad pitt ; alexander dreymon   \ verse dependent

height: 5'11

hair color: dark blonde ; brownish

eye color: blue / greenish

tattoos: a matching couple of tattoos “hugging” his ribs

distinguishing marks:   sharp jawline

clothing style: nothing fancy, practical clothes.

BACKGROUND INFORMATION.

spoken languages: english ; portuguese

financial status: mid to lower class

education level: unknown

occupation: x-force member ; thief ; drug lord and brothel owner ; adventurer

FAMILIAL INFORMATION.

mother:  unknown

father:  unknown

siblings: unknown

children:  none

BIOGRAPHY

he’s not sure when it came back, or if it had started to begin with, but Telford Porter was aware of his powers earlier than most mutants. growing up in an orphanage, he was always good at hiding from the staff - behind the doors, under beds. till the day he vanished.

his earlier life wasn’t stuff for stories, poor young boy goes to the city to try find a way to his life - something that would make him proud to say ‘ yes, i did this.’. but life’s not a fairy tale, and soon he falls into the underworld of crimes. he’s not cut for a life of begging, so he aims higher and higher - so high that his eventual fall is even greater. he was a strong teleporter, unbeatable. until he met The Professor.

Charles wiped Ford’s memories when the boy was twenty something, after a small but brilliant fight against the x men. without his memories, it took him years to realise the extention of his powers. during one of the many revolts at the prison he was in, he found himself in danger, only for something happen. suddenly, the guards couldn’t see him - as if he had vanished in thin air. controlling his breathing was the hardest thing he did, but he eventually manage to walk out of the prison in secret.

one would think his jail time had turned him into something better, but the contrary happened. still with no memories and learning how to control this new found ability, Vanisher took his crime life back picking up where he had left and started to track down his own past. 

he eventually found out the truth, and settled in a small town, waiting - practicing his abilities once again. in two years he becomes a drug lord of some sort and that’s where his story truly begins.

he is getting older but not wiser and, still he craves the same dream he had as a young boy - he wants to do something worth it. so he steals, now from his rivals (the bad guys, as he likes to think of them) to try and make it up for his past mistakes. it does little to no good.

he gets sicker and sicker - maybe it’s an effect of the excessive drinking problem he insists he does not have - and finally returns to the city, in one of his safe houses, well... not exactly a house. his brothel was a little slimy thing, but the girls ( his girls ) were nice and kind enough to help him.

he goes on with his life, more like a ghost than a man, till the day he comes across a sign - deadpool ( that sick fucker in the BDSM red suit that appeared on the tv news ) was pulling together a team of mutants. he doesn’t think much of it but heads inside that room anyway, refusing to show his face at first, just to be sure.

perhaps that one encounter with Xavier had an effect on him, but once he joins the team, he still doesn’t trust them to see him - after all, if they can’t see you, they can’t hurt you, right? he always hated flying and heightes were not his thing, but when Pool tells him to jump, he does it.... only to fall in his death - or so it was thought.

there’s something strange about time, he had to admit, it’s affect was never tangible and yet, it remained fierce and strong. when Red saved Peter, changing the timeline once again, Vanisher teleported himself to the nearest safe corner, barely alive. 

VERSES

as most characters found here, VANISHER is multiverse & multiship ; crossovers & ocs are more than welcomed !!

CANON VERSES

( VERSE 1 ) ---------- permits are for homo sapiens ; a quasi canon compliant from the movie and comics.

( VERSE 2 ) ----------   tba ; tba

( VERSE 3 ) ----------  tba ; tba

AU VERSES

( VERSE 4 ) ----------  tba  ; tba

( VERSE 5 ) ----------  tba  ; tba

( VERSE 6 ) ----------  tba  ; tba

EXTRA INFORMATIONS

as i write him, i’ll dump here some infos \ hcs that are important to know before approaching him.

the reason behind he is almost never seen is both because he is wary around people he doesn’t trust and because being invisible actually makes him spend less energy than being seen. in the end, it requires less energy to force his clothes to become invisible than to make himself visible as a whole.

bitter to no end, he does not care much about looks ( his own included ) or money itself. 

he can teleport up to 11 people with him, and is capable of partial teleportation ( eg: teleporting only his hand ) but in smaller ranges, he still has to practice that, though, as it’s limitations are still unknown to him.

he is proud to be a mutant and, for years, was a supporter to Magneto’s ideas. nowadays, he still is proud but human lives have started to matter to him.

he is a trained marksmen and a amateur technician; 

he possesses avarage strength and fighting skills of a man of his age and build ;  his overall stamina and speed when teleporting are, however, are heightened.

his teletransportation differs from Kurt Wagner’s. Vanisher uses a purely psionic ‘trigger’, that way no smoke or smell is seen. furthermore, he possesses an instinctual extrasensory ability that prevents him from materializing all or part of his body within a solid object, like a wall for example. he is capable of teleporting to any place within his teleportational range, whether he had seen it or not, without danger of harming himself.

Ford is depressed at his core, his favourite copying mechanisms are drinking and having sex - and both have lead him to become sick;

he does not use drugs ( aside from the occasional marijuana cigarette every now and then ), he sold drugs for long enough to see what could happen if he got addicted;

his favourite team member is Domino, she is rather amusing.

he once spent one year in Brazil to learn portuguese.

WARNINGS !

this character is selective. his views \ actions are not the same as the mun. do expect cursing, drug abuse \ mention, violence  and bad behaviour to be mentioned \ played here. as usual, everything will be tagged accordingly so you can blacklist. i will simply delete anon hate.

CREDIT

this character belongs to the marvel  universe and i claim no ownership or affiliation with the character and the faceclaims here listed above. however, i do claim ownership of my personal headcanons written here as well my interpretation of the character. all rights go the actual owners

*VANISHER icon credit: they were made by me ; psd by kingsleigh ( same psd used for all characters in this blog )