#i want to draw their gijinkas again i fear

[choryxi]

girlfriends.... fanny x leafy.... hehehehehe

the second image is a lil older but its ok i love them a lot

[starbitdrag0n]

Response to IzzyFredPony's debunk doc - Here's my point of view

After seeing the google doc made by the user IzzyFredPony, I've decided that it would be best to share my own side of the story, this includes what pushed me to quit her friend circle and so on.

I have been trying to move on ever since what happened and I need to speak up.

Izzy was the first to come and interact with me back on Deviantart. I then decided to move to Tumblr and that's basically where we started talking a bit more. I had made a post about creating my own server and this led to me joining hers afterwards. I thought she was really sweet at first, but something felt off. Before joining her server, she would ask for others' socials to check if they weren't ‘weird’. The server seemed nice, the people on there were kind, yet I could still feel that something was wrong. I had this constant feeling like I was walking on eggs, anything that could be said by someone or worded wrong could possibly create trouble (which happened at a moment but I do not want to come back to this drama). Anything that could be slightly ‘inappropriate’ could quickly blow out of proportion, at one point it even got me scared of sharing a drawing I made of my gijinka of Mercury;

My fears were fueled back when I vented in her server about someone cancelling a commission because I am friends with Frida. I remember panicking quite a lot when that happened and was also angered by how this what was supposed to be some private drama ended up involving innocent people and affecting others such as me in a negative way.

Knowing Izzy’s point of view about Frida was also scaring me, from my point of view she didn't seem understanding at all, I felt like my feelings were being dismissed. Since that day, I was always feeling out of place or in the wrong for having my own feelings and opinion on the situation. It left me scared of even gathering the courage to go and tell her how I felt about certain stuff, thinking she'd be dismissing my feelings again. With time and how those things has affected me, it made me question my friendship with those people in her server. Later on, I slowly stepped away, becoming pretty much inactive there, until I finally left because I was feeling unwanted and out of place. Other things happened with a friend that was in Izzy's server in the meantime, I ended up finding out they had talked behind my back, this pushed me to unfollow the group and remove them from my followers. I only did this for my own good and mental health and didn't mean to start any big drama after leaving. I later found out Izzy talked about it in her server, others joining in and adding more things about me. I did go to confront Izzy out of pure anger and shock, it was not very mature of me either, but in my opinion she could've simply come to me privately to talk things out instead of talking like this behind my back in her venting channel, she could've at least made the mature step of trying to talk things out privately in dms. This was also the day I took the decision to block the others that were in this server, not because I was angry at them, but to leave what has been hurting me personally and move on easily.

Yes, I may have acted in the wrong way due to my extreme meltdowns, and sadly when those happen, I have a hard time controlling the way I react. It makes me do things I later regret, such as me leaving the server multiple times. As for the comfort others were giving me, I did acknowledge it, but due to past experiences, both IRL and online, I've grown up having difficulty believing others and trusting people.

Then came the grooming accusations that were made by the user Bubbly-Peaches. For me, this was the point where things had gone too far, and I felt the need to try and speak up, in hopes to put an end to this. I never intended on doing this to hurt anyone else.

As those events accumulated with time, it eventually got too much for me and pushed me into trying to take my own life on the third of December (2024).

I wish leaving a group of people wouldn't have led to this, but it has gone too far.

[lesbiansonadow]

Okay. Chiro if she was a little fucking freak. I’ll explain all the headcanon stuff below if you care LOL..the self projection is insane

-gave him a mullet/longer hair. She deserves it. Also it’s naturally messy YESSS CHOPPY BANGS WE LOVE TO SEE IT GIRL🗣️

-either a scar or birthmark in the shape of sunrays over his eye. I think it’s interesting and it shows that he’s truly the chosen one or something idk. I’ll think of something interesting with it I just thought it looked cool (he probably puts makeup over it most of the time though)

-also a scarred eyebrow to match up with the birthmark thing

-the orange stripes on the mask are more shaped like a stream of tears if that makes sense ??? I always thought the stripes looked like a trail of tears kinda. And the spikes line up with the birthmark thing so I’m satisfied

-very raggedy scarf and clothes, VERY VERY heavily inspired off of her look in S2E3, I promise they weren’t that tattered originally though. I love tattered clothes like this sorry they look badass (once again this is why I say this isn’t a complete redesign because if it was they would not look like that. I just wanted to bc it looks cool)

-short sleeves and more sun symbolism on the sleeves, yay!

-wearing a dress (my gender-fluid chiro headcanon is REAL) and it’s meant to be styled the same as my silver antauri gijinka’s dress on purpose. On the orange inside part it’s supposed to look like sunrays (again)

-jinmay’s heart as a necklace. He wears it with pride

-baggy pants and combat boots combo my favveeeeee :3

-acne and a toothgap and (I was gonna add freckles but I feared it would be too much so just pretend freckles are there) because she’s still just 14 and most teenagers have acne!!!! we are wild with the self projection today

-actually somewhat muscular looking now

-her mask ties around in the back and for some reason I didn’t draw a side profile to show it but a long ribbon from the mask goes down in the back

okay that’s all it’s 2 am I’m going to sleep now