#i wanna post some art to help offset it

[gamebunny-advance]

Thank you, so much! I'm always happy to hear when people like the stuff I make, but I wouldn't say I'm the most knowledgeable about NSR~ ^^;

I'd say that @/anger-ey is much more detailed when it comes to NSR documentation ^o^. Even when I was actively collecting info, I was pretty sloppy with it and didn't really contribute to any archive, so my knowledge is pretty scattershot~

But she's got pretty much everything together. They've even corrected me and helped me sleuth out a few things multiple times, so if you're looking for pretty much anything official NSR, I'd go to them (though I'm still happy to help when I can).

I'm sure you can figure out a way to be resourceful and make it the best you can~ Your idea sounds like it would work fine, and I have seen other people hand make that style of charm with other materials, so I think it's possible to make some good homemade mini chips ^_^ (maybe I'll make my own Shellfish snack for Doll!Kliff to munch on~)

And yeah, Sayu is very cute~ As a connoisseur of pink and cute things myself, I'm also surprised that she's not even in my top 3, UmU. She's still great though~

And no prob~

Hm...

Ya know what would be a cool idea?

Making one of those candy shaker charms, but it's designed like the Sayu Shellfish packaging.

[konohamaru-sensei]

Because im predictable, gray/juvia: "I wanna waste all of my time with you.” 🥺

Merry Christmas Shore! I am very grateful that I somehow made it into your circle of 5 fairy tail fandom friends!! I really admire your art and the speed at which you create, i love that we have the same brain when it comes to shipping and just your general love for Juvia. I promised something fluffy for christmas to offset all the angst, but I'm not sure about the quality of what I wrote. I hope you enjoy it anyway <3

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Gray x Juvia

Post Alvarez lol i mean.

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“I’m going to buy a drink.” Gray pushed himself out of the seat he had been sitting in for what was the better part of the day. His limbs felt numb and every bone in his body hurt so much that he wasn’t sure if stretching them out even helped. He’d been perched up on that wooden bench so long that he never wanted to go back there again ever, even though he knew he had to.

Juvia gave him a nod and said nothing, which he took as her not wanting one herself. She’d gotten very quiet in the last hour. Also another reason he needed a drink: When Juvia gave up her always cheery attitude in favour of being sombre something was usually very wrong.

The first beer that was handed to him Gray downed in one go without taking a breath and then he ordered the next one immediately and watched the baffled barman fill his glass again. Then he walked back to the table, frowning at the look of the bench he had to force himself onto again.

They’d been out on this job for three days. A wizard who was rumoured to have stolen some valuable diamonds was supposed to come by this bar or sell here and the mission giver had tasked them to sit there and wait for the guy to come by. Gray had asked Juvia to join, because he didn’t think that making conversation with Erza or Natsu during a full day was a bearable idea. Juvia on the other hand was pleasant to be around.

They had spent their days sitting in the back of that bar, the cheapest seats at the very back where it was mostly dark, waiting for a guy to appear that never appeared. Each night Gray had to watch the tenants of the pub get drunk without being allowed to drink himself. After all, alcohol and fighting didn’t match well - unless you were Cana, but she had incredible resistance anyway.

Gray sat back down in the damned place and he had half the second drink down right away. “If the guy doesn’t show up tonight,” he said, “we will go back.” Abandoning jobs was not his style, but wasting his time wasn’t his style either. 

“What about the master?” Juvia asked and circled the table with her pointer finger. She looked dejected in a way that Gray hated, as if she was personally responsible for the misery of the last three days.

He emptied his glass. “Don’t mind him.” Gray shrugged. “I’d rather not get paid than be here for another 12 hours in this dark and uncomfortable and boring place.”

“I’m sorry, Gray-sama,” Juvia put the ends of her fingers together, “Juvia wishes she were better company.”

“What do you mean by that?” Gray waved to one of the staff to refill his drink and they did.

Juvia looked from the alcohol back to him. “Juvia is boring Gray-sama. That is why Gray-sama is annoyed.”

“It’s the guy that refuses to show up that annoys me,” Gray says decidedly. “You’ve not done anything wrong.” He tapped his finger in irritation and then sipped his beer again.

“But if Juvia were better company…” she murmured, “..maybe Gray-sama would be happier. Gray-sama asked Juvia to come along and now she is of no help.”

He let out an irritated grunt. “Nonsense,” he said and shook his head. “I don’t know how you always come up with this stuff.” There was already a considerable warmth in his chest and probably on his cheeks too. Surely the alcohol was getting to him. He downed the next drink.

Juvia looked at him as if she was trying to find words to say. The way she looked when she looked away from him, when she tried to do stay away from him if he was moody or angry, when she had somehow gotten it into her head that she was doing something that was wrong, he hated that look on her face. Juvia was the best when she was happy, when she was enthusiastic and a little weird. 

“Don’t make that face,” he said and put his head onto his flat hand to keep it upright. “I asked you to come, didn't I? If I were bothered by your presence I wouldn’t have asked you.”

She opened her mouth, but he cut her off. “Seriously, it’s pleasant to have you around, you have a nice- “ he gestured a little with his hand - “..everything.”

Juvia blushed, which somehow made the warmth at his core worse, so he waved for another drink. He already felt a little confused in his mind, like it was slightly clouded over, but drinking helped with the frustration of the day. 

Apparently having found her usual stride again with what he said Juvia moved closer to him and picked one of the strands of his hair away from the beer: “Why exactly does Gray-sama like hanging out with Juvia?”

Gray briefly closed his eyes and moved his head sideways into her hand so he could breathe in a little of the smell of the hand soap she was always using. He’d noticed it long ago, but he’d never been close enough to soak it in like now.

“You smell nice,” he said and by the way her fingers jumped away from his hair he could tell that his answer surprised her. He made a frowny face and reached for her hand again to put it into his hair. “I like when you do that too.” He looked at her and though she was slightly foggy, he could make out the red cheeks.

“You are always happy and positive and smiling - I like when you smile. Your powers are so compatible with mine so I like doing jobs with you and I enjoy every conversation we have with one another. “ He weighed his head. “But I also enjoy just being quiet around you. It’s pleasant to have you near me no matter what.”

He reached for one of the strands of her hair and turned it around his finger. “Gray…sama…” Juvia murmured in reply as if she didn’t quite know what to say to that onslaught of compliments.

His eyes shot up: “That I hate,l though.” Juvia blinked and he waved with his hand. “I don’t like how you are so formal with me. We’ve known each other for ages, hell, you’ve died for me, you should stop addressing me like I am a prince of some kind.”

“Well then, what if I call you dear then?” she asked slowly.

Gray grabbed the beer in front of him and drank half of it. Through his foggy mind the answer came much easier than it would have if he hadn’t been drinking. “Sure..” he said but didn't look at her. “Whatever you want.” His insides felt strange at this admission. He finished the glass for good measure.

Juvia let out a squeal and then, as if to test the waters, she leaned forward to his ear and slowly said: “Don’t you think that is enough drinks, my dear?” 

It was like a magic spell had been cast. From where her breath had touched his ear goosebumps spread all through his body to the tips of his toes. He hadn’t experienced this since the last time he had been actually cold, which happened so very rarely that he couldn’t even recall when that was. But here she had done that to him, just with one word alone. 

He buried his head forward into his arms, combatting the spinning of his head by having his eyes closed. Gray let go of the strand of hair he’d been holding and instead ran a hand through his hair to regain composure, but then he found her fingers already there. He’d forgotten he had put her hand into his hair in the first place.

“Dangerous..” Gray murmured and pulled away from her fingers. “You are a dangerous woman.”

Juvia leaned closer to him again. “Why? Do you not like it, my dear?” She made sure to make the last syllables very clear again. She stopped moving through his hair.

“No.” Gray said, decidedly and then slightly shook his head to invite her to continue what she’d been doing. “No.. it’s not.. Like that..” He didn’t know how to explain what confused him so much, so he just grunted in frustration and gave up. He buried his head deeper into his arms.

“Juvia thinks you had too much to drink, dear,” Juvia giggled and combed through his hair. “Maybe it’s time to leave.”

Somewhere beyond the fog, Gray knew she was right, but he found himself entirely unable to move. Too tired and comfortable with her body close, her smell in his nose and her hand in his hair. So he decided to pretend he’d fallen asleep, just to enjoy it all a little longer.

[chaosincurate]

Fall Out Boy Retrospective Part 1: Pre-Hiatus

Okay, I wanna come straight out of the gate with a couple disclaimers:

Music is subjective, I'm not claiming that any of my opinions here are the only valid ones out there. You may well be one of the people that believe that Fall Out Boy is as good as they've ever been, in which case, I'm happy for you, and I recognize that your opinion is as valid as mine

While I try to "put music over" in a sense, talking about it in the way I see as best for any reader's potential enjoyment of that music, I'm going into this project expecting it to get pretty cynical and bitchy in the second part. If you're the type to take criticisms of music you like as a criticism of you, that's fine, but the next post probably won't be for you if you also happen to like Fall Out Boy's later stuff.

I don't say that because my feelings are all that controversial (in fact, my more negative beliefs are very popular amongst music fans), I say it because I don't want to make anyone feel ashamed about liking certain music. I made this blog to help promote a love of music and recognize the subjectivity of art, while also hoping to help people find new stuff they might like. The idea of this post goes against most of that, but it's too damn interesting to me to not explore, so I thought those disclaimers were necessary to help offset that.

Now that that's out of the way, I wanna quickly go over why I wanted to do this. I've been flirting with the idea of making this post since I listened to their last album at the time of writing, So Much (For) Stardust, and that all ramped up when their cover of We Didn't Start the Fire came out. I've been frustrated with the trajectory of their career for a while, and that definitely accounts for a lot of my motivation for this post, but I also wanted to revisit the older stuff that I connected so well with when I was younger and see if it holds up to the slightly more discerning ear of a slightly older self. So, if that interests you as much as it does me, let's get into it!

Evening Out With Your Girlfriend

Before listening to Evening Out With Your Girlfriend: I'm not sure what to expect here. While I have at least some exposure to all of the other FOB projects, the only somewhat known quantity heading into this one is the song Calm Before the Storm, which I know, having listened to Take This To Your Grave, but expect to be slightly different here. So this should be an interesting listen.

After: For something to go wrong, it first needs to be going right, and while I'm confident that I will believe that to be the case at some point, I found Evening Out With Your Girlfriend pretty unspectacular. It's totally understandable here though. The context of this album is that it's a bunch of young guys trying their hand at pop punk that haven't quite found their identity yet, with only a handful of moments hinting at their potential at this stage.

The production, as you would expect from a first pop-punk album from an unknown band in the early 00s, is shoddy. Patrick Stump is doing an uninspired imitation of a snotty pop-punk frontman. The instrumentals are all pretty good and are consistently hinting at what's to come, but nothing quite sticks for me or feels all that special in and of itself.

I would honestly suggest that you skip this unless you're really into pop-punk or curious enough about how Fall Out Boy started to give it a go. I don't hate it, but I'd consider it forgivably subpar.

Take This to Your Grave

Before listening to Take This To Your Grave: Back when I listened to Fall Out Boy more regularly, I found that each time I listened to this album I warmed to it a little more, so I'm expecting this to be the album that comes off best from this listening project thing I'm doing. To be clear, I don't mean that I think it'll be my favourite of all their albums, just that this will be most improved in my estimations.

After: If I'm being honest, I was a little disappointed here. I was expecting to enjoy it way more than I did. That being said though, this is a massive improvement on Evening Out With Your Girlfriend, with improved production, a little more oomph to the instrumentals, and Patrick Stump mostly ditching that bad attempt at a snotty pop-punk vocal performance for a way more unique, soul-ish vocal performance.

They're definitely beginning to come into their own here, but they are still a ways off actually reaching the top of the pop-punk mountain that they are beginning to climb here, and showing their ability to reach that peak too, with songs like Calm Before The Storm that balance catchiness with bite impressively.

From Under The Cork Tree

Before listening to From Under The Cork Tree: It always used to be a coin toss for me when picking my favourite Fall Out Boy album, between Infinity On High and this. Having relistened to a couple Fall Out Boy albums now, and having spent a pretty notable amount of time away from the band, though, I'm expecting to like this less than I used to. I'd still be surprised if I didn't like it, but I'm expecting there to be a lot of lyrics that, as a teen I loved, but that I cringe at with a more mature eye. I'm also expecting to be way less wowed by the instrumental side of things, what with my experience with experimental bands broadening recently. I still think I'll really like it, and won't exactly feel ashamed to say I once loved it, but any more than that would be a (welcome) surprise.

After: Oh my god what an album this is! The quality of these albums really skyrocketed out of nowhere. The production goes from good to great here, the instrumentals are suddenly so much meatier and more complex in an easy-to-consume kind of way, the lyrics, which I expected to cringe at, hold up for me as the peak of petty and witty writing... I'm frankly a little embarrassed to have doubted the album.

I knew going into it I had a soft spot for songs like Dance, Dance (with that incredible bassline), and Nobody Put's Baby In The Corner (with all that clever lyricism), but a lot of the songs sprung forward from this listen as quality tracks that I always used to overlook, Of All the Gin Joints In All the World being the most obvious example. There wasn't a single moment of this album in which I wasn't really enjoying myself and kept on my toes. I wasn't expecting a lull-less album from this at all, but that is exactly what I got. Absolutely incredible.

Infinity On High

Before listening to Infinity On High: As I said in the previous 'before listening' section, this was always one of two consistent candidates for my favourite Fall Out Boy album, so my expectations for this one are high going in. That being said, after being so surprised by From Under the Cork Tree, I expect this to be a little less impressive to me. I imagine FUTCT will be my favourite Fall Out Boy album by the end of this project.

After: So I remember hearing that for a lot of people this was supposedly the point in which Fall Out Boy sold out, and frankly, I think that's insane, and that's what I wanna talk about first and foremost here. To my ear, this album sounds stylistically pretty identical to FUTCT but with an added layer of glitz and glamour, which doesn't exactly undermine the overall sound in any way that I can make out.

That being said, that layer of glamour did make this album fall a little short of FUTCT for me personally. It's not the case that I can't appreciate the direction they went (although Jay-Z's cameo was weird and is a baffling decision to me), it's just a case of personal preference, particularly in my case a preference for a slightly more down-to-earth style while still balancing that with good production, which I think explains my love for FUTCT.

Folie à Deux

Before listening to Folie a Deux: I remember this as a victory lap and a last hurrah for the musical movement Fall Out Boy pioneered, so that probably means more of the glitz that I personally had a slight distaste for on Infinity On High. That being said, I remember thinking very fondly of this album, and I think there would have even been points in time where I'd have considered it my favourite Fall Out Boy album. I'm totally clueless as to whether the excess will come across as justified or too cheesy to handle now I've (very slightly) matured, and I think that'll ultimately be the key factor in whether I enjoy this as much as I used to, or consider this the point where Fall Out Boy lost their spark. We'll see!

After: Well I remembered the excess correctly. There is definitely a different vibe around this album compared to Infinity On High though, one that I personally far prefer. Whereas Infinity On High gave off the impression that you were in a castle in a fantasy utopia, filled with the hedonism of people who were ultimately honorable, this is more a representation of real life hedonism, implicitly depicting people turning themselves to ash with hellish behaviour, tortured by a lack of meaning in their life, and dealing with it by chasing pleasure and narrowed consciousness by way of mind-altering substances.

It was an excellent homage to a dying genre, going out with all the self-awareness, self-deprecation, and fun immaturity that it began with. From here there would be some faint echoes of what was once the biggest movement in rock music at it's time, with My Chemical Romance releasing another album before they split, and Paramore carrying tiny fragments of the sound with them going forward, but for the most part the movement wouldn't make it into the 10s. That makes this album almost a grand eulogy for this emo wave of pop punk, and if you ask me, its a fitting send off.

Conclusion/Interlude

During this project, I have managed to gain some level of understanding for the band's change in style post-hiatus. Without entering too deep into part 2's territory, I felt that they lost their identity when they came back. Pete Wentz's lyrics lost their edge, the instrumentals didn't shift erratically anymore to keep up the excitement... It just didn't hit the same.

Maybe that'll change for me as I listen to the post-hiatus albums with as open a mind as possible in part 2, but that's besides the point. The reason I bring this up is to express that I understand why now, at least to some extent. That understanding came as I was listening to Infinity On High, listening to the band try to keep the sound fresh in ways that, at least for me, rarely worked very well and felt tacked on. It became clear that, if the genre was going to make it out of the 00s, Fall Out Boy, for all their ability, weren't going to be the ones to do it.

The interesting part about that is that I don't think it comes from a lack of skill. I think it comes from the fact they are effectively a min-maxed band built around that particular wave of pop-punk. The lyrics, the ADHD-informed approach to instrumentals, the mild tendency towards unclean and unconventional vocals, it all lends itself perfectly to this specific subgenre, and in any other, while some elements may work, but for the most part they're tripping over each other.

So, when they wanted to come back, now to a musical landscape that is hostile to that sound following nearly a decade of overexposure, they had to smooth off some edges to fit into a new mold. I still can't say I like it, but I can say I get it now.

This post has also allowed me to rediscover why I loved the three album run before the hiatus, which has definitely made the effort worth it.

[stranger-who-writes-fiction]

Aaaanyways, I wanna put on my comic-art-nerd hat and talk about panel-to-panel action in that Supergirl: Woman of Tomorrow preview because yes, I have been staring at it for days, and yes, I will continue to do so until it is released next month! XD

LET’S GO:

I apologize in advance for the funky formatting, there’s an art to tumblr text posts and I...have not mastered it. XD

It’ll go image, then analysis.

Also, just to be clear: I’m not doing this so much to be like, ‘WOW THIS IS GROUNDBREAKING, STUNNING, NEVER-BEEN-DONE!’ In fact, many comics do the things I’m gonna highlight/geek out over! Rather, it’s more about, like. Appreciating the construction of the pages, panels, etc.

Okay, so! Page 1, the SPLASH PAGE

Okay, so, admittedly, I don’t have a ton to say about this opening image, largely because it is one single illustration as opposed to a series of panels. But even then! It quickly establishes that we’re not on earth--the foliage, rock formations, and GIANT WOOLY FRIEND(?) give that away. Also! Said rock formations and wooly friend’s horns frame our new character RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE PAGE, letting you know that even though she is tiny, she is important. And, I will just say, I love the dust effects on the ground. The repeated semi-circle shapes evoke the feeling of rhythmic, galloping hoof beats, even without actual movement or sound. Lovely.

And now, PAGE 2!

So, I’ve highlighted panel 3, but before I get there! Panels 1 & 2 do such a nice job of giving us an idea as to the actual, physical size of these two characters, as well as the power dynamic at play. This random dude takes up the WHOLE DANG PANEL with his bulging muscles and is framed in an up-shot; in panel 2, Ruthye is not only shown from above--we’re literally looking down at her--she is also relegated to the bottom half of the panel. Additionally, it’s a great way to show the action of her turning to pull the sword from her belt, obscuring it from both our view and his, to bring out the ‘big reveal’ in the next panel.

Speaking of! Panel 3! Our establishing shot! We’re introduced to the full interior of this tavern. We see where everything is placed--walls, furniture, and perhaps most importantly, the various patrons!

Establishing shots are so important to have in visual media because they help us, the reader/viewer, to orient all of the various components within a sequence or scene.  

It’s also helpful for the artists because then they can better maintain things like screen direction and continuity.

If we don’t have a shot like this, then subsequent action can become confusing to the point of distraction.

YOU WOULD BE SURPRISED how often this is neglected or forgotten in comics! Scenes will change abruptly and it’s like, ‘wait, wait, where are we?’ 

ADDITIONALLY, the establishing shot not only gives us basic spatial information, it ~sets the mood~ XD Setting! Atmosphere! Genre! It’s all here.

I mentioned this in my prior post, that the art gives off some intense fantasy vibes, what with the organic shapes, rough textures, and color palette.

Folks who’ve read advanced copies have described the book as a fantasy/western; that extends even to the series title design! The designer revealed that the western look of the text is deliberate.

So A+ to the art team for NAILING IT!

Okay, on to page 3!

Not a ton of notes on this one, but that’s only because the prior page has done such a solid job of laying out the space, as well as the relationship between these two characters WITH JUST WITH THE ART. (Okay, okay, the words help too. XD) Once more, we see this big brute tower over Ruthye, panel- to-panel; he’s always ‘large and in charge’ regardless of the angle. Even in that final panel! Ruthye is the largest element because she’s closer to us, but the guy is still positioned ‘above’ her, literally talking down to Ruthye from over his shoulder. 

(And HMMMM. That unassuming stranger in the back there, underneath the lanterns that seem to act as an arrow pointing right at her...could she be...important?)

(Her tiny size would seem to imply that she isn’t...AND YET...)

PAGE 4!

MMMM them FRAMES within FRAMES!

Okay, but before I get into that, I do wanna briefly mention panel size and shape.

All of these pages (save for 1 and 7, which are full-page illustrations) pretty much stick to a very traditional panel structure. Each panel is completely enclosed, and there is zero variety in terms of shape. It’s all rectangles.

BUT. The size and orientation change--take, for instance, that ‘skinny’ horizontal panel up top, the way it perfectly suits the ‘shape’ of the elements/action being shown. It’s a close on Kara’s wrist/hand, reaching out for the sword in the guy’s belt. 

I mention this because often, writers don’t dictate stuff like panel layout in a script. They will give the artist the number of panels, and what needs to be included in each one, but the actual, overall organization of the page? Totally up to the artist.

So! Really knowing what you want to highlight and convey is key, because you can use the panels’ size/shape/relation to other panels to ENHANCE those images, like that sword grabbing up top!

AND! Another thing I love about that panel in particular is the way that Kara’s hand and the sword make a tiny frame for Ruthye! Who is, again, VERY TINY! 

I keep mentioning the size thing because it’s a nice bit of economical visual storytelling; the child character is going to be smaller than the adult characters anyway, but by calling attention to it repeatedly, we as the viewer are constantly reminded that this kid is small! She needs help! She needs to be protected! Which is like, the whole premise of the inciting incident. XD Good stuff!

(Also more dot eyes in comics that aren’t humor comics, please.) 

There’s another frame down in panel 3 as well! Evely uses this device several times throughout this sequence; it’s such a great use of the multiple swords in the scene, AND shows that she can really pack all of the characters in there without cutting any of them off/obscuring them behind various objects.

And like, NO TANGENTS, which takes some serious skillz.

ESPECIALLY when you consider all that beautiful linework. LOOK AT THEM INKS.

...In particular, look at them inks in panel 5! The shading on the booth is done in such a manner that the ‘grain’ of the ink defines the perspective. We’re looking down at Kara, from above. This is a helpful little bit of orientation, as there’s not a ton of room around Kara to have any other perspective lines to help sell the angle. 

ALSO, NOTE THE POSITION OF MR. BRUTE IN PANEL 4, AND THEN KARA’S EYELINE IN PANEL 5. It will be important in...

PAGE 5!

Allow me to explain:

In panel four on page 4, we see the guy reach for his sword, his body language revealing that he’s intent on moving towards Kara.

In panel 5 on the same page, we get that lovely down shot of Kara looking right up at us, the viewer. But also, the implication is that she’s ACTUALLY looking at Tough Guy, because in the next page, we see that he’s positioned himself right above her to swing that sword down!

(My apologies for the poor attempts at drawn annotations.) 

There’s no action lines cluttering up the beautiful art; Not-Conan’s hair, rather, acts as the action line/guiding ‘arc’ so that we can better follow the movement.

Kara, likewise, doesn’t have any action lines on her, but her posture and hair act as visual cues to tell us that she slides over in the booth, out of the way of the sword.

In particular, the way her right shoulder/arm draws closer to her body, and the way her left hand comes up to offset the way she’s now positioned, really sells the ‘slide’. 

More beautiful indicators of movement in panel 2; the hair, the action line on the sword, the torn fabric of Kara’s shirt.

Panel 3 brings more FRAMES WITHIN FRAMES! And, actually, as I’m looking at it? I think it could be argued that we actually have a FRAME within a FRAME within a FRAME!

First frame: Panel border, natch.

Second frame: Goofus’ sword, arm, and face frame Kara.

Third frame: Kara’s arm and sword work with Goofus’ head again to frame tiny Krypto.

LAYERS.

And now, a note about colors!

I said before that I love the palette at play. The earthy tones give the entire setting an organic feel--this is not a high-tech locale! We’re dealing with natural materials here.

BUT THEN THOSE BLUES!

Not only do we get that nice split complementary thing happening with the yellow, but it also signals the blue of Kara’s costume, a little hint of which is revealed in the final page.

And, like. It’s night time. XD

(I just gotta say, love the cold blue outside the window next to Kara’s table, contrasted with the warm yellow of the interior. Even though this is a bar, there’s still that element of like. Coziness.)

Also! Even though the overall palette is heavy on the yellows, Kara’s hair is more saturated and leans towards a warmer yellow, while the rest of the yellows in the scene are cooler. Thus! We have CONTRAST! Our eyes are drawn right to her.

And I know--I KNOW--that SG comics twitter already hates King because Kara’s DRINKING and personally I want more of the story/context before I pass any judgement but I must admit, the shapes? In panel 5? With Kara drinking in the foreground? 

I kinda love it.

Also mmmm-MMMM, more of them SOFT BLUES.

Okay. PAGE 6!

Now THIS PAGE is what inspired this whole endeavor.

Because, okay. If I’ve not made it clear by now: I read a lot of comics.

And I generally enjoy all of the comics I read!

But, what I’ve found lately, is that if I don’t enjoy a comic, it’s because I, as a reader, find myself confused by the art.

Confused as in, the art is hard to follow.

That can be because the color design/ink work doesn’t have enough contrast, or the composition is muddled, but most frequently?

It’s poor panel-to-panel action.

When there’s no flow/connection between what’s happening in one panel vs. another, suddenly it’s on you, as the reader, to do a lot more of the work as you go through the scene. And sometimes! We don’t even have enough visual information to DO that work!

So when I read this, I was like, ‘ah, thank you, an easy flow of action for my brain to appreciate.’ XD

AND SO. Panel 1! Same stuff we’ve been seeing! The ink work, hair, clothing details, etc. all work to show us which direction each character is moving. Kara’s arm and jacket all point to her slamming that mug in the dude’s face; dude’s sword serves as a GIANT ARROW illustrating the path of his stab.

Not much to say on panels 2 and 3 other than: FACIAL EXPRESSIONS! And also, HAIR!!!

PANEL FOOOOUR!!!!

Love. This. Panel.

Again, I really love that there are no action lines slapped on top of this gorgeous art, all of the movement is conveyed in the inks, body language, clothes, and so on.

Like. There’s a conscious decision, here, to not have Kara’s hair obscuring the dude’s torso, and that’s good! Because his belt/uhh...kilt? Skirt? Is showing us the speed and direction of his jab; if Kara’s hair were in the way, it would break up the flow.

BUT THEN HOW TO SHOW THAT KARA’S DIPPING FORWARD???

Note the ties on her cuff, and the inks on her jacket!

There’s nothing special happening with Krypto, BTW. I just circled him because he’s a Good Boy who deserves to be noticed.

Panel 5, more of the same, the inks telling us how these characters are moving through space. ALSO, the length of the lines conveys speed without needing to add something distracting/obscure the art with a ‘blur’ effect.

Final panel! I. LOVE. THIS.

Particularly the movement in Kara’s hair, just. Beautiful shape language.

But in addition! You’ve got that LOVELY line of action in Kara’s spine as she flips him over, the sword likewise curved in the direction of the throw.

And of course, the dude is crumpling in the appropriate direction, bent in the middle as he collides with the table to--quite literally--complete the circle.

Also, just. The characterization here, is PHENOMENAL.

People (read: irate fans on twitter) have expressed concern (read: complained) about Kara having a sword. Some have even gone so far as to suggest that Kara’s basically a murderer now, because she’s using a weapon.

Never mind the fact that in an episode of JLU, Supergirl used both a sword AND a gun to defend herself while in Skartaris because she had no powers. 

Except we see here that Kara DOESN’T USE THE SWORD to take the guy out, she uses his own force against him. She only uses the swords in the FINAL PAGE in a type of ‘yield’ fashion.

(This particular ‘fight’ sequence reminded me of Brainy’s fighting style in the show so of course that added to my overall enjoyment.)

Like, Kara’s got no powers here, she very well could have used the sword to defend herself, and would...kinda be justified.

But she didn’t! 

Like. Even drunk and therefore out of it, Kara 1.) Steps in to help that kid and 2.) doesn’t use superpowered lethal force on the guy. (I mean, she can’t use her super powers anyway, what with the red sun, but you get the idea.)

And like, the flourish there, of the arms, the way the jacket swirls around her, like a gymnast sticking the landing, GAAAAAHHHH I just love it. It’s great.

Okay, FINAL PAGE, #7:

I mean. What more can I say? EVELY AND LOPES, MAN.

Just some top notch art.

(Also get it guys, it’s a LITERAL shirt rip! XD)

(And look! There’s that tiny bit of blue!)

But anyways, if you’ve made it this far, I applaud you, and thank you for indulging my desire to just. Geek out over one of my favorite comic artists drawing one of my favorite comic characters.

And just to like, reiterate, I’m not suggesting that this comic is THE BEST EVER or that it’s going to redefine the medium, or anything. XD Everything I’ve mentioned here is...pretty basic storytelling mechanics. Watch any movie, and you’ll see all this same stuff at work.

RATHER, this whole post is more about...admiring two artists who clearly know what they’re doing.

And they’re doing it so well! :D

TL;DR: I’m so excited that the Supergirl book has Evely and Lopes, guys. So. Excited. 

[megucarecord]

Rating Genshin Impact Character Designs (Pt. 1)

Hey y’all! I’ve been thinking of doing this for a really long time and I decided to finally stop being lazy and do it. So this is going to be a review of all the playable characters in Genshin Impact from a design perspective. I don’t really have any prerequisites to make this list worth anything (unless you count one year of a fashion/sewing class in high school lol) but hey idk, seems fun?

Gonna be super long (10 characters) so putting everything under the cut.

Disclaimer: I don’t actually hate any of these designs, nor do I consider my opinions “fixing” them, this is just for fun. 

Character: Lumine

I have a lot of conflicting feelings about this design. The hair and basic build are fine, very generic but that’s unsurprising for any character that is working at least partially as a pseudo self-insert. The color scheme is also very bland - and is one of the reasons I originally thought that Aether was automatically Geo traveler and Lumine was Anemo traveler. I think that adding more colors would’ve been a good thing, but also would’ve required a revamp of the dress itself, so maybe not the most practical thing, even if I think the dress is a bit too busy. The biggest changes I would make would be to get rid of the fancy part of her stockings as well as the extra flow/ruffled back of the skirt, which is just a bit too much considering the top layer of the skirt is already quite detailed (in a very nice way) and that could’ve just been extended. I also have to admit that though the scarf is very impractical and showy, but it reminds me of a costume from a series I like so I actually like it a lot, although you could definitely term it unnecessary.

Rating: 7/10

Character: Aether

Okay ngl this character design kinda slaps. Firstly, I love that Aether has long hair, it’s a good contrast to Lumine’s cut (and contrast should be super important with characters that are siblings/parallels of one another) and idk long braids are kinda cool. I love that the outfit has distinctive colors, which give the character personality and keeps him from being washed out. The design is much more streamlined than Lumine’s, and although I’m not a huge fan of midrifts (a theme in this post I’m sorry) there’s not actually much I’d change in this design. Except maybe make the cape a scarf to better match with Lumine. This is definitely the superior design in terms of the siblings in my opinion and I think the lack of intricacy fits the image of “traveler” better. It’s not my favorite and there isn’t anything that really stands out in the design, but it’s really solid and I like it.

Rating: 9/10

Character: Albedo

This design has a lot of potential, but I think in the end it’s just a bit too busy (which will be a theme in this game haha). I like the hair - in general I’m glad Genshin isn’t scared to try a bunch of different lengths and styles on guys because if not everything would become painfully boring. I also like the clothes for the most part. The boots are especially sleek, and I like that despite being a Geo character they gave Albedo a bluer, darker color scheme. I think it fits with his mysterious sort of quietly menacing vibe (this man is Frankensteining something I know it). But it really starts to get a bit too much with the coat. I think he needed a coat, again it fits the character, he’s in the middle of a frozen tundra and he’s also a magic scientist man, he needs some sort of coat. But I think the chain and the strap across the front is a bit too much. If I were the designers I would’ve continued with a sleeker theme, make the sleeves longer, the gloves shorter, if you wanted some ornamentation maybe a pack of vials on his belt. Overall very good design, greater color scheme, too busy. Also can we appreciate his banner art? It’s so good I love it.

Rating: 8/10

Character: Amber

Okay first I’m gonna say her card art is super cute. Love the pose, love the style. All gut. Now let me say that this outfit had potential but then it sorta... fell flat. I like the color scheme for the most part, except the white cause idk white is boring and in the game it looks kinda latexy, but I understand wanting three colors and black might be too close to brown. That being said, I hate stockings. Stockings are just the worst, they’re impractical, hard to put on, uncomfortable, should only be worn with dresses. No knight of Favonius needs stockings. Might I suggest pants or shorts? Or like cool pseudo armor plates like with Lumine. Also though I do like the jacket and the leather stomacher design, I think a bomber jacket might suit the character better, because idk they’re cool and they make me think of Amelia Earheart, although that’s such a culturally distinct thing I can’t blame them for not thinking that way. Again the jacket is still very cool, love the stomacher, and love the cuffs.. The belt is lovely and like I said love the embossed designs, but ultimately this design is too impractical, and too bland to get away with being impratical for me. So... yeah.

Rating: 5/10

Character: Barbara

Barbara! Our fav crazy nun. First I’m gonna thank her for having an attack of pure magic then I’m gonna say I hate the color white apparently because I also didn’t like it here. I’m pretty sure she’s supposed to be a novice (could be wrong), so I’d flip the colors, have the accents be white and the main color navy. But idk that’s just me. Overall I quite like her design. It’s a pretty good balance between simple and detailed. I don’t even hate the stockings. I’d say the least good part is the top, the bow and the weird collar is just... ehh? but I don’t think getting rid of the collar would help though. I’d say ditch the bow, make the dress connect to the collar, keep the off the shoulders cold sleeves. I really like the ruffled part of the top skirt. Idk it’s the best part of the design. The hat makes her look like a nurse not a nun though. maybe make the hair ties for the ponytails little veils, might fit better. Overall mostly nitpicks, it’s a strong design.

Rating: 8/10

Character: Beidou

Firstly I’d like to apologize to the Beidou I pulled before never using her (forgive me ily); next I’d like to admit I don’t love her design. I haven’t really harped on the lack of armor on these characters - because I’m not sure how I’d integrate armor into all them without making them bland af, no one wants people running around in full plate armor how tf you supposed to climb in that - but I still wouldn’t’ve put her in a leotard and boots only when she’s a canonical fighter, without even the armor accents on most of the other character. I know that traditional qipao would probably be terrible to fight in, so I’m not going to complain about them slitting it - I actually quite like it I think it’s cool and sleek and fits her vibe - but I will complain about them putting her in a leotard underneath. As someone who dances I can assure you no one in their right mind would want to fight in a leotard, which yes I know isn’t the point and I can’t blame them for not thinking that way. Anyways, I think leggings/stockings and tall boots are quite cool so that’s prolly what I’d do, streamlines the whole design too, gives it a sense of connectivity (idk I’m weird and I don’t look at this character often so yeah). I like the top of her design, although I’d prolly replace the fur on the cap with a large collar, sort of pirate-y or Navy-like. Also let me just say I love the hair and eye patch. Fits her reckless sort of character to hate her hair whipping around, and the eyepatch really sells the concept of her having fought for years. The hand guards didn’t need to be flared, but I don’t mind them being there. Especially since handling a Claymore would definitely rip up your hands if you didn’t have protection. Also the boots though impractical are very cool so... yeah.

Rating: 6/10

Character: Bennett

One of my main team and prolly the closest thing I currently have to a DPS I have conflicting opinions on Bennett’s design. I think it’s a pretty good design all things considered. His belt and all his packs would be busy if you didn’t know Bennett’s character, but considering he’s a wanna be adventurer, I think it works pretty well. Although I don’t know why his extra belt straps are so long... or even exist?? Idk kinda weird. His top is... ehh? I don’t really like it, I think partially because I don’t think Bennett would wear a midrift shirt like this (midrifts where there shouldn’t be midrifts or, as I like to call it, being MagiReco-d) and partially cause the color, though understandable in such a busy design, is kinda bland. I think that’s why the collar works instead of being too busy, we needed some color. If I had to changed the design I’d get rid of the midrift and get rid of those weird extra belt things. Also that one random dagger star thing on one side of his blue collar is just so weird and random and like why does it exist? But overall I like the design, and it doesn’t bug me when I’m playing with him. I think it’s a good example of how busyness can accurately portray a character. Well done.

Rating: 8/10

Character: Chongyun

Another character who I own but have never played, though my friend has him on their main team and they look super cool. I’m not gonna lie I love this character’s design. Firstly the color palette is so good, the white feels like it works to offset all the blue hues - which I love that even the darkest parts of his design are blue not black - so it doesn’t feel bland or irritating, especially with the gold giving it a sense of luxury. I also like the choice to have a tunic that extends to the pants, I think having only white pants would be too bland - again white it a meh color for designs - so it really gives it some necessary details and color. I also like the jacket, again it gives the design a sense of detail while being simple enough not to feel like too much. Also I have no idea what the outfit would look like without the jacket and I have a feeling that answer would be Not Good, so... yeah. Some nitpicks; the left arm band thingie golden cuff is kinda too much and seems impractical and irritating. And... that’s it. I know the slippers are impractical, but I think they work, he is an exorcist not an adventurer after all. Overall, probably second favorite design in the game. Great job

Rating: 10/10

Character: Diluc

Give Diluc a high ponytail, I’m begging you. Lol anyways personal preference aside (which is impossible this entire post is personal preference) I like this design. I think the color works and the whole outfit is a good reflection of Diluc’s character, closed off, luxurious while also a bit ragged and uncontrollable. Yeah. I like it. I do think the thing chain accessory is kinda random, and I don’t think there’s anything about the design that knocks me off my feet, but I do really love the design overall. Also the gloves, good gloves. Suggestions? High ponytailed Diluc. Nothing else. Also though he’s not in this post I like that this outfit is very streamlined and simple compared to Kaeya, it’s a good portrayal of their differing views and opinions through fashion. Because unlike with the traveller siblings I think these brothers have a dynamic where contrast is better than parallel.

Rating: 9/10

Character: Diona

Okay so though I’ve never interacted with this character I skimmed the wiki and I love her backstory it’s hilarious. Also since I never interact with her I don’t have many opinions about her design except why does she only have one sock on? Honestly relatable moments. I think the extra ponytail is kinda weird and excessive considering the hat and I’d prolly make the hair orange to match the ears but overall very cute design. What do bartenders look like? Idk. Oh and also there are a bit too many colors roaming around, but I get it. Overall fairly generic but kinda cute. I still think midrifts are bad.

Rating: 7/10

And that’s it! I hope this didn’t come off as “lol these designs are gross and I’m superior and we should fix them” because no. No one should take any of these suggestions seriously. Except maybe the ponytail one lol. Anyways I hope at least one person likes this cause this took forever and I kinda burned out after a while. Next post if I make it will be interesting cause it includes my least favorite design. May you all have lovely playing and if you love a design I don’t honestly more power to you. Bye!!

[cruddyborderlandstheories]

Okay so I wanted to make a seperate post about this because it’s got me like  🤔 but i didn’t wanna get too off topic with my answer. context? The wonderful @luxury-of-insanity asked me to take a look at a pic of Tyreen he took during the We are Mayhem trailer. Here is the screencap he took for reference (because it’s infinitely higher quality than any of the ones I would take aha)

The topic was Ty’s tattoos and I noticed something really, really interesting here that I didn’t pick up on from the cosplay guide (like they were deliberately not showing where her tattoos end)

her tattoos stop before her shirt

she is clipping thru her jacket a little bit here lol but the point is, that big tattoo bit just cuts off before it goes under her shirt. Just like Troy’s don’t go down his abdomen

Now as I understand it there are a couple reasons why this could be:

there is an awesome theory that Siren tattoos get bigger and more expansive the more powerful (and, usually, the older, im guessing) a Siren gets

Ty has unique tattoos like her brother, where they are different because they’re twins (? or something??)

Ty got her powers from a non-natural source- eg she isn’t a natural/normal Siren

The tattoos are fake and the source of her succ power is something else entirely

idk what the right answer is, but I'm gonna try to go through these 1 by 1. the first one has been talked about in depth a lot (on this blog) so i won’t be addressing it here, but the others i’ll try to talk more about!

minor commander lilith spoilers below the cut

so before we begin, i just want to point this out. All theories aside and looking at the facts: every Siren we know of at least has chest tattoos. Barring Angel, because we can’t see, every known Siren has tattoos that extend down her torso.

At the moment, Tyreen is super covered up. Unlike Troy, we never see anything except her arms/head/parts of her thigh. We don’t know if her tattoos extend beyond her shoulder/arm. Personally? I wouldn’t be surprised if they don’t. Amara has her hip tattoos, but no leg tattoos, like Tyreen has no leg tattoos (you can see through the gaps in her pants)

it’s possible that Lilith is the exception (for any of the theories discussed) and the tattoos don’t normally extend down their left legs. We just don’t know for certain. I do think it’s interesting how covered up Ty is in general, considering every Siren we’ve met so far at the very least has shown off their chest/neck tattoos. 

Ty has unique arm-only tattoos like her brother, where they are different because they’re twins

Sooo the unique arm-only tattoos one. Not really much to say about this tbh? We know Troy’s tattoos 100% do not go further down his abdomen. 

Timeline wise, I really don’t think he gets the tattoos after Lily has her powers stolen, but I can’t say for certain. 

If it’s the case that his tattoos are 100% based off Lilith’s powers then idk if Ty having only arm tattoos would make sense. Maybe it’s because they’re being filtered through her powers that he only gets arm tattoos and not full tattoos? Maybe bc they are twins, Ty’s powers got split in the womb (explaining the only-arm tattoos) or whatever and they needed other powers to awaken (or heal, cause apparently he’s sick- that could be the tattoos) Troy’s or some shit. idk, just spitballing here. 

But yeah, looking at Troy’s tattoos and the way they don’t go down his abdomen, beyond his shoulder area, I wouldn’t be surprised if Ty’s don’t, either.

Moving on from that one mainly because I don’t have a lot to say due to lack of evidence/info on it lol

Ty got her powers from a non-natural source- eg she isn’t a natural/normal Siren

This theory i am a fan of and y’all know it lmao

There’s a bunch of ways this could have happened: they’re products of experimentation, maybe they met an alien that gave them the powers, it’s the product of a Vault (possibly the red Vault we see in the HBC).

For the first one, it’s possible it was a corporation, be it Maliwan/Atlas/Jakobs/Hyperion/etc. Maliwan and Atlas would be my first guesses, Atlas for reasons you guys already know and Maliwan because of their elemental focus (and for some reason being on Athenas/having Amara’s tattoos on a building in the Academic District?). Hyperion is also a strong contender because of their research with Angel, though I don’t know about this one... We know they’re under new ownership, and I can’t imagine Jack would’ve captured Lilith/been so protective of Angel if he knew he had another Siren. So I guess it’s possible they were created within the 7 years between bl2 and bl3... Jakobs I threw in cause they’re apparently having a hold on the story of Eden-6. Doubt it’s them, though. If it is i’m gonna be questioning everything i know lol

It could’ve also been Tannis, as we know she’s experimenting on Lilith and [Spoilers!] now has all of Jack’s research on Angel. I have been looking all throughout the Backburner but can’t figure out where she had been staying, so it’s possible she is staying somewhere off base until her and the other Crimson Raiders take to space. That would definitely give her some room to start some funky experiments. Though I am curious where she’d get the test subjects. Also, I just realized it’s possible she could set up a room like control core angel in order to capture the twins/Tyreen. I’ve seen it being discussed that she could also create the collar Jack made which has me like 👀. She could’ve also done her experiments between bl1 and bl2, which leaves her with 3ish years iirc. Though I don’t think she has a lot of info on Lilith before bl2.

It ALSO could’ve been a totally new outside force. Kinda would suck cause all the theories haha, but hey, it might happen. 

Oh part 2. It could’ve been some alien bullshit giving Ty Siren powers (not that... siren powers AREN’T alien bullshit already, but you know what I mean). We still don’t know what the Seraphs are, yet we’re supposed to fear their return. Well we know they’re able to create the Seraph Guardians (that drop Seraph Crystals), so maybe those were them experimenting with creating their own version of Sirens? Or maybe a rogue Eridian/Guardian (a smart one like the Watcher) giving out Siren powers to offset the balance of the universe (6 Sirens) for some reason (war is coming? maybe it’s a civil war between the Eridians). Or some new type of alien. We’ve seen so many new flora/fauna in bl3, I wouldn’t be surprised if they introduced a new race of aliens as well. (in this context I mean alien like... intelligent ones. at least on the rank of human. probably more tho, let’s be real). I also am looking at those demon dragon looking things, idk they seem really unique and I’m super curious to see how they come to play in the story. I wouldn’t be surprised if they were a product of an experiment as well. They seem to be inside an Eridian temple tho (I will make a post on this later prob)

part 3. kind of a play off part 2 but whatever. The tattoos came from a Vault. we see in the HBC wall art that looks like the twins opening a red Vault. I think this may be propaganda art and that it’s just part of the believer’s stuff, like “join our cause and this will happen!” as it shows the twins with boxes of food and guns and shit, but it’s possible that they’ve already opened it. Maybe Tyreen wants to absorb the powers of the other Vault Monsters because she thinks that will help her Vault-gifted powers grow stronger. We know as outsiders that all the Vaults lead to a huge power (Hector and also the website used to say “Universe-destroying power”), so maybe that power is super strong Siren powers? (full body tattoos hell yeah) Or can only be opened by all the Siren powers as a failsafe and that’s why Ty absorbed Lily’s... idk lol

Okay and my favorite one of all of the options we have:

The tattoos are fake and the source of her succ power is something else entirely

so. okay hear me out. I know her tattoos look like they’re glowing under the surface, but they’re super ‘perfect’ looking compared to the other Siren tattoos we’ve seen. Could also be a reason they’re products of an experiment, maybe these two theories tie together. (lol) My friend (@bonelesspotter​) also pointed out that it’s possible to use jellyfish to make cats glow in the dark. anyway. They also don’t seem to glow when she’s using her powers (which are black and red/orange instead of the normal purple/blue??) (also thank you for allowing me to see this @luxury-of-insanity) 

I made a post about the tattoos being fake as sort of a joke, where they saw how Lilith had a cult as the Firehawk (Ty does tell us to thank Lily for the ‘Firehawk’ powers) and decided to masquerade as Siren(s?) in order to build their cult up.

and it is slowly, slowly, looking more and more like the truth the more we learn about Ty lmao

I am gonna posit the idea that it’s not her tattoos that give her powers, but some other sort of technology.

possibly? hidden inside her glove??? idk

idk it just seems to clunky and BIG 

seriously, this thing is thicc, i could totally see some sort of drainage tech being hidden inside. I know Moxxi’s weapons have a lifesteal component, as do transfusion grenades, so it could be based off that. I point this out mainly bc Troy is a smart boy, it’s possible he built her something so they could pretend they were twin gods. Maybe his sword/mechanical arm will do something similar/give him his own set of ‘powers’? Or maybe those screws in his left arm could also do it, too.

idk, this is all me just speculating. I will not be surprised if she is an actual Siren, I just like being extra when it comes to theorycrafting. don’t have much to do for uhhh 90 more days, sooooo

i am also curious if her powers have something to do with the tablets with the crystals coming out of them considering her lifeforce suck makes statues with eridium-like crystals coming out of them

... maybe not. different shapes and all.

are they even the same ones as the ones on promethea?

hmmmmmmmmmmmm

i do think there’s something on that tablet(?) on eden-6 that we gotta uncover by breaking the purple crystals cause when moze does it she uses a special melee tool and breaking them doesn’t add anything to her inventory.

“let’s free you up”

but that’s getting wayyyy off topic. that’s all i got for tyreen today

byeeee

[knightofbalance-13]

https://rampantlytyping.tumblr.com/post/174581718969/for-fuck-sake

“Oh, it gets worse. Because I’ve read the archives of KOB’s reddit account. (Link here for reference, someone may wanna archive this in case KOB pulls a Delete Fucking Everything)

Never before have I seen something that would backfire so hard.

First of all, I’d recommend a look at the very first comment on that Reddit account, which was a screed about FatManFalling’s Volume 3 review. So much of modern KOB can be traced back here- has hatred of the word “the” and insistence on trying to replace it with “teh,” his long paragraphs, condescending attitude and personal attacks/insults (Also, for the record, “Fatass” is one of the worst mocking nicknames I’ve ever see on Reddit).

Actually-

https://www.reddit.com/r/RWBY/comments/5jdst1/cowardly_lion_taiyang_fanfiction/

This is. Thing is: this would HUMANIZE me. But god knows you can’t think of your opposition as human.

First is mischaractization.

Second is not a moral argument.

Third is conflating me being angry with who I am normally.

And fourth is downplayed since this whole post is nothing BUT a personal attack.

Also: Never said I was clever.

There’s also this post after Volume 4 which is basically “So the RWDE tag sucks amirite?”

No, the title is what I meant.

But a relevant comment that Caddeter and @psyga315 should see is this one. I’ll quote it directly, emphasis mine at the end:

Backfire in 3...2...1

“Now I know many of you are thinking “Why should I care?”

Well, because these people are in a dangerous mindset of ignoring everything that isn’t their opinion and warping that to justify their feelings.

I gave a comment on this journal pointing out the flaws in his work. The closest thing I said to an insult was saying that his usage of the term “man-pain” was stupid in any context. And when I admitted I wasn’t aiming towards him but his audience who weren’t sure about V3’s finale, he blocked me, deleted my comments (EDIT: he’s admitted to being wrong about teh previous two and has restored my comments. Still blocked but I have a way around it that he knows) and warped my words. Something he claimed Miles and Kerry did, minus the last part.

I ask of you: Say what you think about this. And not just the journal, what you thought of Pyrrha’s death. Not what he said, not what I said. But what you want to say.

Now GO!”

Now, if I was a generous man, this in context could be KOB asking for discussion on the Reddit.

I am not a generous man. To me, it looks like KOB deliberately inciting the Reddit post-Volume 3 (when they were most protective of RWBY as it was the last season that Monty would have definitely worked on) and encouraging them to dogpile the journal author.

Yeah...

Three things:

A. The time period this was made is post Volume 4, Not 3. So that’s bullshit.

B. https://www.reddit.com/r/RWBY/comments/5khw9y/my_thoughts_on_pyrrhas_death_rwby_and_rt_by_jswf/dbo9z0v/

Oh hey look, there’s someone disagreeing witrh me and I ENCOURAGED them. So that’s also bullshit.

C. https://www.reddit.com/r/RWBY/comments/5khw9y/my_thoughts_on_pyrrhas_death_rwby_and_rt_by_jswf/dboysk7/

Okay everyone, I have to ask that no one goes to the link and comments. The author is getting too stressed out by his debate with me and I don't want him to break.

So please, keep your discussions here.

Outright contradicted. Three strikes, you’re out.

And the worst thing? He had no empathy to the situation. Quote (again, emphasis mine):

“Well, don’t fight him. He’s…not right in the head.

Like I was arguing with him and he…wanted to kill himself.

And I didn’t even try being mean.”

Remember that in the Deviantart comments, KOB said that he could be “far far far crueler.”

As evidence by this post, where I am going to turn EVERYTHING against you. https://comments.deviantart.com/1/619991269/4290345087?offset=25#comments “*Sigh* Look, I never meant for you to get this stressed out. Hell, I understand where your coming from. Thinking about killing myself is such a common occurrence now I'm not even fazed by it anymore. So putting aside my feeling towards you and your conduct, I want you to listen to what i have to say: Your life matters. No matter what you think I've said, no matter what other people have said, no matter what you say, your life matters. You have friends and family who love and care about you and if you kill yourself, all it will do is wound those around you. It's painful I know but it's true. The best thing you can do is seek help above all else. Trust me, psychiatrists maybe be expensive by by divinty' sake they are miracle workers. And I know you're sick of hearing about this anime but really, look up Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann. That anime is a large part of why I get out of bed in the morning even thought I know there's a very good chance I'll choke to death on my breakfast, lunch or dinner or that my life probably doesn't mean anything in the grand scheme of things. It taught me to keep moving forward no matter what I lose or what I suffer because there is a light at the end of the tunnel. The journey is hard and long but it's worth it. I never intended on hurting you. Had I known you were this psychologically fragile or you were this invested in Pyrrha I would have said nothing. I understand where you are coming from and I'm sorry I did so much damage to you. I was wrong and you were right. Good day.” No empathy huh? “Also while I’m here, how about this long callout post about RWBY Analysis after she was angry at some art from Dishwasher that had Enabler undertones (complete with the classic “I used to respect you” card which you can always imagine someone saying within the context “I used to respect you when you agreed with me.”). And here’s her reaction, which should be recorded alongside the Great Fire of London as one of the greatest burns in history.”

Ah yes, a callout post...Where I didn’t call her out once...

But I guess the actual post looks pretty fucking bad for you (https://knightofbalance-13.tumblr.com/post/172361707730/httpsrwby-analysistumblrcompost172345982047) since it is short and-oh yeah-SHE WAS SLANDERING SOMEONE. Good job completely missing the point eh?

But sure Knight of Balance. Tell us all about how you never meant for any of this to escalate and how sorry you were. It’s not like your own accounts show you to be a liar who instigated a harassment campaign and showed no empathy upon hearing that it was partially successful. You can surround yourself all you want with your little cabal of white knights like Sunder the Gold and MageKnight who will go to bat for you when they can. You can claim all you want that what you do is a crusade to purify RWBY and Make The FNDM Great Again or some bullshit like that because you seem to think that if you kill RWDE, Miles will personally fly out to thank you for saving RWBY. And you can even run to other fandoms like Darling in the Franxx or FLCL where your name isn’t poison. But we all know what you are.

I didn’t mean for thing to escalate as evident by how I TRIED TO STOP IT,

No empathy when I actively tried to call him down MYSELF.

That sounds pretty fucking ironic  considering that you surround yourself in haters like Dudeblade and Cadder there who will never ever think to question you or themselves. But as for that Sunder thing.. Well I’ll get to that latter but let’s just say, it’s a show of self control how I’m not screaming my head off.

Oh and you’re any different? You probably think ‘I f I get rid of all the fanboys, M&K will HAVE TO listen to my obviously not biased criticism and I’ll Make RWBY Great Again! Then Monty Sempai will rise form the grave to thank me for saving his legacy!’

Please, I’d sit Miles down and give him a lecture on how a timeline is VERY important for a long running show and keeping time skips vague to ‘avoid plotholes’ would in fact make MORE of them. Though I’d probably force him to attend a writing class, Just because I respect the guy doesn’t mean I see him as flawless.

Yerah, doesn’t work when I did the EXACT SAME THING I did here in Franxx. I obviously do not care about my reputation worldwide.

Here’s the thing: I do not regret many things in my time on the internet. I regret not asking about internet customs so i could know things like alt accounts were a bad thing. I regret my raging outbursts at innocent people because I was an immature fuckhead. I regret interacting with RWBYcrit. ... That’s it. My fight against RWDE? My battle against shitty critics? I do not regret that one bit. I fought for what I believed was right and got to meet amazing people along the way. I think I’ve even grown as a person. So no dice bitch.

You’re a schoolyard bully with a stick and anger problems. You’re a child throwing a temper tantrum, unaware of how if Miles or Kerry saw what you’ve said and done, they’d be disgusted in you and would shame you for the world to see. You are nothing. In the grand scheme of life, this will be your legacy. You will never amount to anything significant in this lifetime, and your life peaked before you even hit your twenties. KOB, I really hope you realize how in just under two and a half years, you have made nearly the entire fandom hate your guts.

... And?

Oh you thought this was gonna hurt me? You think you saying I have anger issues is gonna hurt me when I’ve acknowledged that as one of my worst traits. You think telling me Miles and Kerry would be disgusted with me is gonna hurt me when I am not them, they are not me and I am fighting primarily for myself? You think you calling me worthless and saying I will never amount to anything in my lifetime when I’m a fucking existentialist AKA someone who believes that there is no inherent worth in life? Bitch, I say worse things about myself every day.

And the rest is either lies (the fandom as a whole, even on Tumblr, DOESN’T CARE ABOUT ME.) or shows you’re projecting onto me (’You’re a bully!’ says the bullies.)

Let me break this down: We all hate you on Tumblr,

God, stop projecting your ego onto me, I know the fandom as whole on Tumblr doesn’t care about me.

You haven’t shown your face on Twitter

https://twitter.com/KOB13x

Shows what you know.

and when someone cited you in a Reddit post, everyone warned them not to link to you because you’re a toxic influence.

Considering how you’ve been posting links throughout this whole post, why should I believe you if you suspiciously DON’T provide proof of this. And again: stop projecting your ego onto me.

For Christ’s sake KOB, FatManFalling can get his stuff posted on R/RWBY. It’s extensively mocked, yes, but it’s still allowed.

To the point it regularly gets kicked off reddit for having massive downvotes.

You’re so bad you haven’t even got that privilege. Let that sink in and realize what it says about you.

A. Proof

B. Not the same context.

And C. I don’t care.

Because this is coming from someone who tried throwing Sunder The Gold under the bus by saying he associates with me. DESPITE the fact that we haven;’t talked to each other in MONTHS. Why did you say this then? Oh right, Sunder is a fan of RWBY ergo he must be eliminated right? Because anyone who doesn’t conform to your fucking hivemind and treat the show AND ESPECIALLY the creators like shit is a heretic right?

That’s why I do this. Because you people are fucking AWFUL in every sense of the word. Everything you just tried to pin on me applies to YOU instead and then we can add on EVEN MORE and EVEN MORE DISGUSTING shit to that pile.I don;t like Steven Universe but I am JUST as disgusted by SU‘s fandom and it’s bullshit. This has nothing to do with RWBY anymore, this has to do with you people DESTROYING INNOCENT LIVES. That is YOUR legacy: the ruins of people’s lives and the destruction of a show people hold dear all because you decided to embody the WORST aspects of humanity.

In short: Fuck you.

Oh, PS:

https://knightofbalance-13.tumblr.com/post/162724070290/rampantlytyping-knightofbalance-13-hey

Guess you’re in the same boat as me eh?

[informedinterest]

MCSM - a more Real..

Author’s Notes;

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          t

         abus

         e)

Setting: Change to an ice 

land   

(A excessive 

    place   To keep the characters from being hateable from the             ,offset)

      Several          Char          had to be edited       slightly

The

 Orde

 r

 of

th

e

Ston

e,

Gabriel,

Magnus,

Eligard,

 United

   By

 Soren

Defeated

   the

   Ender

  Drag

      on

     Trac

          in

          g

         the

        word

          s

        wi

          th

         hi

          s

        fi

        n

        g

         e

          r

         “Right

            we

          shou

             l

             d

             b

            e

           going

             Now

              ,

                ‘’

            Shifted

           fro

           m

          th

          ei

            r

         perch,

            in

          Brigh

           t

           Light

            in

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            Of

Day

Gil,

loung

 in

 g

wi

 t

 h

 a

 cop

 y

 of

‘Gabriel and

a Guide

  to

defense,’

     Jess

     e

     Olivia

     +

     Axel

     Drap

     p

     e

     d

     wit

      h

    ‘Log

      ist

      ics

      fo

      r

      th

      e

     Loose

     assorted,”

        By

     Magnus

     Aiden

     a

      wkward

                  ly

       Propp

      e

      d

      Wi

       t

        h,

   “Action

    ali

   zatio

     n

    fo

    r

    th

   e

   il

begotten

~Eligard

   and

    hi

    s

    pre

    viou

    s

  dis

   card

    ed

   “Evaluation

    E

    valati

     on

      of

    Happ

     ine

     s

     s

     ,”

     By

    Soren,

    some

      where

   “Aw,

     I was going

    to

   read

    that

      ,”

    Petra

   (newly

   Reach

    in

    g

    for

   On

    e

   of

  the

 many

 stuffed

  book

 shelves

  wi

    t

    h

   “Tr

     e

      e

   Car

       e

     You

       r

    Guide

       to

      th

      e

     Geo

  phenomen

     a

     l

    ,”

    ,

  “

  ‘Iv-

   and the many uses of Po

     -‘

   (The book

    so scruffed into its corner

    that that’s all that could be

     re -

         ,

     An

      d,

        +

    “Adventure;

      Where

           to

         find

         ‘em

           ,

            ”

      “Not

        if

      we’re

      going

        to

     mak

     e

     it

     to

    th

     e

  con

  ve

   n

   tio

   n

   ,

   ”

  “Besides

     don’t

      you

    al

    ready

     hav

     e

   tha

      t

   c

   op

    y,

    ,“

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   but

    it’s

    a  

 go

  od

re

 a

 d

 ,

 ”

“Besides

it’s different from the

traveling

edition

   ,”

“Trav

 el

  i

  n

  g

edi

t

io

 n,”

 ,

Axel

sniffed

 ,

Lukas,

“C’mon

  five

  min

  utes don’t want to be

  late,”

 “Con

  v

  en

  t

   io

   n

   s

   ,”

   On

    groun

     d

    Jesse

       get

        t

        in

        g

       hi

       s

      pe

      t

      boar

     Reube

      n,

       for

       th

       e

       trek

       To

      be greeted by what seem

    e

    d  

      like 2 million Quest’N

     ‘answers

                posters

        with Gabriel‘s

            face

          posted

             on

              it,

          “This

              is

             th

             e

           bes

            t day

           of

            m

            y

            lif

            e,”

           While the others were there to roll

         the

             i

             r

           eyes

            except Lukas

            “leave

               it

              be,

               “

            “If it was anyone else

              -

           I’d have to

          carry them off the

          floor

           to,”

            ,”

           A

        “riv

         al

          ,”

       Te

        a

       m,

     Cordial

     en

       ough

      wit

      h

     Luk

     as

   “Tell

    Ethan

        I

      said

     hell

      o,

        “

     Not so much

      with

       th

       e

      rest of

     them

     “Our

   Invention

       Is

     Goi

        ng

         to

         be

       Grea

          t,

          ”

        “Our

          s

         wil

          l

          be

         great

           er,”

           “What

              got

                in

                 to

                 th

                 e

                 m,

                  “

                  ,

             “Ivor

             fan boys

                 ,”

               Axel

               Shrug

    ged,

“Oh

speak

  of

 the

Devil,

You might have some company as

 Ivor

  fan

 club

 le

 a

d

 e

 r,

Pet

 r

 a

  ,”

 “oh,

 The

  m

 agai

 n,

 ”

“Wh

 o

Cou

 ld

 n

 ’t

 al

  l

 t

 h

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books

 he’

 s

Written

abou

  t

 po-,”

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 in

 g

Into

com

fort

able

not

hing

As they made it to the

 bu

 i

 ld

zon

 e

And

 Olivia

  start

   e

   d

  draw

   in

   g

  u

  p

 sta

  t

 istics,

  for

  th

  e

 build

So you wouldn’t mind

  coming with me

 and

  helping me

   find him,

    would

      you

    Jess

     e,“

    ,

 “Um,

   Ye

   ah,

  Su

   re,

   We

  should

     be

   done

  here

  right,

 Lukas

    “

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 yelle

  d

 u

 p

t

o

Lukus

 Who

  gave

  hi

  m

  a

thu

 mbs

  u

  p,

 And away about

 Olivia who is staying behind to talk to some

   planners

“So what’s up with this

   Ivor

   guy

  a

  gain

    , ”

  I th

 “I’ve

 always

  be

   en

  m

  o

  r

  e

 in

ter

es

t

e

d

i

n

Ma

g

n

u

s,

I mean all the

scientific

 . .

stuff,

Realiz

   in

   g

  he

 had

 inter

  ru

  p

  t

  e

 d

  ,

  ”

Slyily

smili

 ng,

“Iv

 or

 is

 a

kno

wn

 st

 u

 d

  i

 e

 r

 of

plant

 s

 an

 d

the

 ir

essence

    ,

    “

   “An

apothecary,”

   “Not

   Quite

      ,-“

   “Huh

      I’d

    though

      t

     we

       ’

      d

     m

      e

      et

     h

      i

     m

      h

      e

      r

      e,”

   “Let

    me

    go

  chec

    k

   “Jesse

     stay

    here,”

    Please

    “ what

       are

       you

      doin

       g

      her

      e?

      “

    Iriat

     te

     d,

   “Mr.

   Ivor

   sir,

    I

  was

 hoping

  to

 give

 this

  to

 you

 be

 fore

the

sho

w,”

“Yes,

Yes-

Actual

  ly

glancing

  at

 th

 e

thin

 g

Mouth

 agape

 at

 th

 e

“Withe

  r

 Skul

  l,”

She

he

 ld

 in

h

 e

 r

h

a

n

d

s,

“ This

    is

..perfect,

   thank

    you,”

  “Hel

    p

   your

   sel

    f

   to

   t

   h

   e

  di

   a

  monds

    in

   th

   e

 ches

   t

 o

 ve

  r

ther

   e,

   “

“Sir,

 thes

  e

  aren’t

 diamonds,

   these

    are

 moissanite,

     .”

 “Maybe

     we

    should

     te

      l

       l

     hi

     m

    “Wh

       y,”

    “Because

       thes

          e

       migh

          t

         b

         e

      im

      por

        t

       an

        t

        t

        o

       h

        i

       m,

        ”

       “Don’t

        wanna

        mess up the

        show,”

          ,

       Petra

          &

      Jess

       e,

     Mak

       in

       g

       it’

     ba

       c

       k,

      an

       d

    Me

      e

      t

      in

      g

    A

     xl

      e

     the

      re,

     “ Axel

       wha

         t

       ar

        e

       yo

        u

       doi

        n

        g

      h

      e

       r

      e

       ,

       ”

       “Oh hey,”

       Munching on

         a bowl

          of

        pret

         ze

           l

           s

       “guys,

       Gabriel

         stop

         pe

        d

         by

        our

        buil

        d,

       sai

      d

       it

     was

    “Clas

     s,

     and

    gav

      e

     me

   “this

      ,

    [Sev

      eral chains with the words

       “back

         stage

        pas

         s

         e

         s,

         ” etc

         hed

          on

         th

         e

          m

         ,”

        “ Luk

           as

         wen

          t

          t

          o

         giv

         e

        yo

        u

      you

        r

        s

      J

     ess

       e,”

    “Gill

       is

     geek

       in

       g

     Out

    over

  Ga

   briel,

  Olivia’s

    tal

    kin

    g with some

    Pl

     an

      n

     e

     r

     s

     ,-

    “

   “Oh

    hey

   Petr

    a,

   I requested

    one

     for

     you,

    Though don’t think you need it since you’re a

    distributor

    an

    d

   al

    l,

   ,”

 Petra

  smil

    in

    g,

   sly

    ily

   tak

     in

     g

   ou

    t

   he

    r

“dis

 trib

  u

 tor,

  ”

 tag,

“Anywa

     y

  we

   can

   ’t

    sto

    p

     t

     o

      tal

     k

     no

     w

    a

     x

     l

     e,

     “

 “Hav

    e

   t

   o

  r

  e

 tur

  n

som

  e

th

  i

 n

 g

 to

 on

  e

  o

  f

 th

 e

guest

 s

 ,

 ”

 ,

“That

woul

 d

  be

 his

Room

,”

 Jesse asked quickly as Petra lightly pushed him forward (from be

   hind,

   as he slid on

     ward

      s,

       “Yeah, t

         ‘The door clicked

        sh

         u

          t behind

         th

         e

         m,

        A flight o

         f

       stai

        r

       s ,

     “Well,

       this

        is,

      ambitious

           ,

           “

        “Are you

         kidding

       having to build

          stairs

      all the way down in

         ice,”

         ,

        “ I had no idea that Ivor was such a

           builder

            architect

            ,

            ”

        “ It’s a shame it’s so

         Dark in here,”

        light

           ing up a

          light,

           As they made it through what

         see

         med to be

        big

        book

        shelves

         ,

        The li

       ghts

      flick

       ed

       on

     sud

     den

     ly

    Jesse  

   gras

    ping a

   han

   d

   on

  her

   mouth

  (For no

   part

   icular

   re

   a

   s

   o

   n

    ,

“ Nice

    to

   see

    me

   again,

     no,

     no,

      “

    ‘B

     e

      en

      a

      lon

     g

     tim

      e,’

      ,no”

      “FI

       nally

       out

       of your

      sh-“

       “Mr.

        Ivor,

         sir,

          “

      “Aagh,”

          ,

        Petra

        pe

         eping into the

        dar

        k

        nes

        s, of the

      di

      m,

        ly

        li

        t,

     dun

      g

      eo  

      n,

     “I’m

      her

       e

      to ask you about the

     dia

       Pe-

     moissan

       it

       e,

       yo

        u,

       gav

         e,

        me

             ,”

            -

        “It’s

          ,

          ”

       “Get

        Out

         ,”

       “But-“

      “Get out before I call

           security,”

           ,

          Petra

         Slink

          e

          d,

       Jesse

      follow

         ing

       quietly

       after

          ,

       “Well

        at least

        we got

        our

        an

        sw

        er.

         Come’ on let’s go join the

        others

         before the

           show

           st

            arts,

          “Jesse,

            I was lo

            ok

             in

             g

            all

           over

            for

            you,

             -“

          Lukas

          “Axel

         already

          ,told

            us

             ,

          ”Course

  he

 did,”

gruff

   ly,

  just

   as

  pana

   l,

Ivor

  “Finally out of the dark

 nes

   s of

  your

shadow

  ,”

“Now how about

            a real monster

and we’ll see how we measure up

   .”

“Ivor,

 th

   is

 really

  isn’t

  th

   e

  plac

   e,

   -

  or

  th

  e

  tim-

    ,

    “

   A

Compartment

 Reveal

   in

   g

   th

   e

Components

  for

   a

Wither

   ,

 Ivo

  r

 ad

 d

 i

 n

 g

 th

  e

 last

  par

  t,

   a

 “Wither

  Skull,”

    the

   Withe

      r

     Skul

      l ,

      th

      e

      On

       e

     Petra

        -

      The audience burst into applause as it st

      arted

    mo

      v

      in

      g believing it to be part of the

   show,

    Gabriel,

       tak

        in

        g

       out

         a

       wooden

        sword

        The

      Crowd

      Disperse

      as the

      Wither

      start

        e

        d

     at

      tack

       ing

     th

     e

     m,

   “Ivor

      That’s

    Eno

      ugh,

      Turn

       this

      thing

       of

        f,

     Lukas

   Confronted

     “Oh,

      I will

    One o’

     Soren,

      Once,

        hey

         it’s

         not

        work

         in

         g,

         Ivor pressing the button panicking

        ly,

      “Hey, guys

     what’s going

           on,

             “

          Axel

            joi

            ni

            n

            g

         th

          e

          m,

        at the cleared out

        con

        vent

         i

        on,

      “Ivor’s

       gon

       e

       Off

       the

      Wal

      l

     s

     And

   made an invention trying to

    kill

   every

    one,”

    Gill

   repli

   “Co

      ol

       ,”

    “ an

      d

     destroy,”

     “ Why won’t

       this

     stupid

      wire,”

      “Hm,

       Wire

         ,”

      “Axel

          ,”

       Oli

         v

         i

        a,

      “ I mean there was a

        wire on

        the

       table,”

       “Axel,

        what

        hap

         pen

           e

          d

          t

           o

          t

          h

           e

          w

          ir

           e,

       “Well,”

         Axel

        flush

         ing,

        “I um

         I

          took

           it,”

         “AXEL!!”

         “What they did say take

        whatever

         you

        wa

         nt

          ,

         ”

  “Wher

     e

     is-

     it-

     I used it to add

       another light display to the

            statue

            c-

            thing,

            “Well you

             might

  want

to get it

 now,”

Backing away from the

destruction

 on

  stage that seem to get

 eve

   r

 clos

  e

   r

    Stepping

      ove

       r the

   woo

   den

   sw

   ord

   The

  remote

   next

 dis

 regar

 d

   ed

   i

   n

frustration

  As they were driven back to the

 statue

  cr,

“Got

   it

   ,“

 “Hand

      it

    Gill

      ,

      ”

    Gil

       l

     Pas

      sin

      g

      i

      t

     to

    wh

     o

    gave

      to

   Jess

    e

   who

  Brok

   e

   it

 dow

 n,

   whil

   e,

   Olivia

   whisper

    ed

  instructions on how to

   put it

    together to Aiden

   Whil

    e

   Axel

      +

   Olivia

    play

     ed

   dis

   trac

   t

    io

     n

    “Done,”

      Tos

      s

      ed

      up

       to

     Lukas,

      Who

      went

        to

     pres

      s

       th

       e

    but

     to

     n,

   Only for

   Ivor to

   sn

   atch it out of his hand and do the

  Honor,

   And,

    It

 Didn’t

  wo

    r

    k,

  “So

 Losers

     ,”

    A

 Leather

 Jacket

  Rush

   e

   d

   by,

  “ Ethan,

       if

     you’re

      not

     goin

      g

      t

      o

      b

      e

    hel

     p

    fu

    l-

   ,”

Lukas

           snapped

             but they were already

      long

        gone,

        Trail

         ing

        afte

         r

        the

        m

        To the

      Edge,

     Ivor

    hauling

    Gabriel’s

  unconscious

     form,

  “I

    want

     e

    d

 to see him

   humiliated not

 dead

    ,”

  Gabriel

   stirrin

    g by the

  Edge,

Talkin

g

  to

 “Gill,

  you

  need

     to

    tak

     e

    t

    h

     i

    s

 emble

  m,”

Tak

  in

  g

  it

 ou

  t

  of

 his

coat

  ,

 “Fin

 d

  th

  e

 other

  s

   -

   ,

   ”

  Pas

  sing

   Ou

     t,

   And

    Gil

      l

    Run

     n

   ing off in the opposite direction with the

 wheel,

   It’s flashing a

    slight blue at Gill’

             s

             tou

            ch

           Befor

            e

            a

           brow

            n

          dot,

           around

          th

          e

        ri

       m,

      Mak

       ing a small

    streak

    pa

     t

     h,

     ,

    Shifting with the

  users

   stance to point in a

   certain

 dir

  ec

  t

  io

  n

Tak

 in

 g

Of

 f

Af

te

r

it

A

Broken

 Crate

 r

Wi

 t

  h

 h

  i

  m

  a

   s

   K

    i

    n

    g

    ,

    It was

   nearly

   im

   po

   s

  sib

   le

   to

 m

  a

   k

   e

   it

   t

    o

   h

    i

   m,

“Mag

    nus,

Ga

  bri

   el

 Sen

   t

   Us,”

 “ Gabriel

     huh,”

    Magnus

     hol

     ding up the

      tr

       in

      ke

       t,

     Before

        throwing him down the pile

          he’

           d

          jus

            t

         struggle

           d

           t

          o

        cli

          m

          b,

         On

         top of

         Gil

            l

        Who’d

         bee

         n

       s

        u

       p

         por

      t

       in

        g

       hi

      m

  “This.

      is

   point

    les

     s.”

   “He

      ’s

  Insane,”

    Jess

      e

  Admit

     t

    ed

 dejected

    ly,

  Shar

    in

    g

    a

   lo

   ok

   wit

   h

 Axe

  L

  ,

“Then

  we

sh

 ould

 mo

  ve

  onto

   the

   nex

    t

    one-,”

    Axel

   shook

     his

    head,

   “ We

    need

      to get

     this

    done,

    We’re

    stay

     in

     g

   he

     r

    e

   go

    on

   ah

   e

   a

  d

  ,”

Lukas

Speech

��less,

Before

Going

 On

ahead,

Aidan

 Wi

 t

  h

 h

  i

 m,

“Hm,

 Of

course

  I’ll

  go

 with

 you,”

Eligard

   far

 mor

 e

Co Operative,

 Soren

    “I

 should

   stay

    out

     he

     re,”

    Whe

     n

   The

    y

  got

   to

Soren’s

 hous

  e,

 “Soren and I .. didn’t leave things off

too

 go od

  last time

   I- we

   spoke”

     ,

   “It

 would

    be

 better

     if

  you

  go,

Soren, not so much..

.

   Having

    taking

       to

      knit

      ting

        a

       lot,

      And

  docu

  ment

    ing his

   rare

    animal

     fin

      dings

      Not p

       l

       ease

       d

       to be distur

       b

       ed

        b

        y

       t

       h

       e

       m,

     How

      eve

        r very excited to see

     Reuben,

       Jess

         e

          ’s

          pe

           t

           pi

           g,

          “Animal

           s,

             lovely

          creatures

              ,

             Don’t

             betray you

             and take your

             th

              ings

               ,

              I’ve seen

                 a few

               of course

             - but to see it

                   bonded

                     with

           a

       human,

           ,

         You

         must

          tell

          me

          the

          tale,

          Sitting with

          Soren

           and having

            tea

            I found

            Reuben

             (That

            ’s his

             name)

                           at the

                           place

  we

 built

 our

                       treehouse,

   ”

While

 So

 ren

                           knit

          Re

            ub

            en

             a

            ti

           ny,

        Sw

          ea

         te

          r,

        “Now

          back

            to

            the

           point,

             we

            could

             reall

              y

              use-

            appreci

               ate-

                ,“

            Soren’s

             fac

 e

chan

 g

  ing at his

change

  in

 words,

              “you

                 r

              he

               l

              p,

              ”

             “I want-

            to help you

            I really do,

              “

              Soren

               insist

               e

               d,

              “But the Order

                and

                   I, didn’t

                leave things on

                good

                terms,

  Hesitatin

   g,

 Cou,

 “Would  

   Reuben be

   t

    here,

       “

    Jess

     e

    Nod

    ded

    “And you’d be helping a lot of

      animals-“

    “Fine-

      I’ll

     go,”

      ,

   Jesse

    em

   er

    gi

    n

    g

  wi

    t

    h,

 Soren

  Only to find

    Aidan

  an

   d

   Eligard

     No

    Long

      er

     ther

      e,

    “They  

      went

     ahead

         to

         th

          e

       Temple

          ,”

       Lukas

        whis

         per

          ed

           Swa

            pp

             in

             g

           stories

          wi

            th

           Luk

            as  

 on

 th

  e

 w

   a

   y

   as        

    he

    le

     ad

    t

    h

     e

     m

      b

       a

       c

       k

        to

        th

        e

      Te

      m

        ple,

       The

      only

      thing

       left

      after

       th

        e

     Wither’s

     rampage

      “And

       our

       tree

      house

        is

       ri

       gh

         t

      ov

        e

        r

     th

      e

      r

     e,”

   Lukas

   poi

    n

    t

    e

    d

  ou

    t,

 Petr

 a

 sho

 w

  in

  g

  u

  p

  w

   i

   t

   h

   I

   v

   o

   r,

  And

  things

  clearly

   went

  down

    hi

     ll from

    th

    er

    e,

  Ivor,

  im mediately

   taking charge of the whole

  op      eration

 as        Soren

watch

e

d

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iat

 e

 d

  o

  n           th

  e

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    lin

    e

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  g

 t

  o

 g

 e

  t

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n

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 s

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t

h

e

sp

ar

e

tim

e

,

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dares-

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r

e

 n,

 “

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 pp

  ing the explosive behind his back as he went to

cuddle

Soren,

 who

 star

 e

  d

 blank

 l

 y,

“Soren,

 ‘how you been

  cute

   pig,

   Always

    a sucker for

    (cute

    animals,

       so

      how,

          “

      Holding up the emblem

      intimi

      datingly

                Sw

       “Al right,

        oh right,

        ,sure

            “

         Mak

            in

            g

            it

           b

           a

          c

          k

          t

          o

         t

          h

          e

                   Temple,

          to

        he

        ar,

      “It’s

      Done!”

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       raisi

        ng

         an

         ey

           e

         bro

          w,

          at

           leas

            t,

            “This will

 de

 activate

    the

   Wither

   storm,

     “

    “Once

        in

      walking distance so

       of

     course,

        ,”

     Shoving

        th

         e

      devic

         e

       of

         f

       on

     Lukas

      Who

      went

        to

       suit

        up

       as well as the rest of

      them,

 At the moment

arrived,

   “I’ll watch

     Reuben

    for

    you,

     “

  Soren

   Offe

    r

   ed

   Reuben

  Could take

       a pretty

    mighty

  pun

    ch,

   but saf

  er

 no

  t

  to

  risk

    it,

 “Sure

 Reuben

   likes

   you,”

   As

   he

  went

  through

      Sl

       ici

       n

       g

     Thr

      ou

      g

       h

      th

      e

     Wit

     her

     Spawn

    ed

    hord

    e,

   The

  Wither

   storm

   falte

     r

    in

    g  

    an

    d

   fall

    in

    g

  Com

     in

     g

    ou

      t

Rescuing those that the  

   Wither

    storm

      had

      cap

       tur

        e

        d,

       Inc

        Lud

          in

          g

        Gab

          r

          i

          el,

          Wi

           th

          Fro

           s

          t

          bi

          t

         e,

         Only

           for

             it  

             to

            star

 t

mov

 in

  g

 ag

   a

   i

   n,

   In

  three,

   “Run!”

    Luk

    as

    Wa

      rn

      e

      d,

     They ran, castle destroyed,

         and forced to find shelter in a

     cave

     “This never

       would’ve

      happened,

       “

      “Magnus please for once in your life shut your

     accursed

     mouth,”

     Soren

      snap

     p

     e

     d

 worriedly,

 “Eligard help me attend to

  Gabriel’s

   frost

   bite

     ,”

     -

  Into the Night

“Ivor,

 I can’t believe

  so such a fool

  hardy

   plan!”

  Wak

  in

  g

 up

Lukas

 an

 d

           dis

            turb

            i

           n

           g

          th

          e

       other

        s,

      Goin  

        g

       ou

        t

        t

        o

       ,

                  “I should’ve

                    stood up

                for

                m

                 yself

                 a

                  long time ago

Ivor

       Give me that

        in fernal device,”

      “ it need

        s

       morganite

         ,”

      “You use

       d

       dia-

      mond,

         ”

          as argument broke out

          Lukas,

            Petra coming behind

            Lukas after being treated

        for

         minor

          frost

         -burn

         Sm,

        “Looks like I actually

       wi

         ll have use of that

     mor

     ganite,“

  Petra crossed her arms clearly haven’t forgotten the abrasive

      behavior

        ear

         lie

         r,

      “Pl-

       huc

       ke

       d

     Morganite

      at

     h

      i

     m,

    “Yo

      u

    should

     pro

     bably

     destroy

      it

     fo

     r

   goo

   d

m

 easur

  e

   ,”

  Soren  

    giv

      in

      g

      Luk

       as      

       h

       i

       s

      s

      w

      or

      d,

   “Oh look at

    Soren can’t kill an

    ender

    dragon-

   O

    op

    s,”

   “Ivor, you have

   never,

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 helpful

    to

  any

  one

   in

  th

  e

 g

  r

 ou

 p

ever”

  “I-

 Mag

  nus

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  that isn’t

  true

  right

   buddy ,”

  Mag

   nus

  hid

   ing

  be

   hin

    d

 Sore

   n,

  Eli    

   gar

   d

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    s

     in

      g

     he

       r

     ar

      m

       s,

      “It’s

       time you leave

      Ivor,

        “

      Ivor looking at them before running

      into the Wasteland

      Of the

       ir

     ow

       n

    mak

     i

     n

      g

   “Come on we have inventions

      to make

     and things

       to

      rebuild

         ,”

      “Is it true that you didn’t

     slay

      the

     end

       e

       r

    d

    ra

     g

    on,

    “No,

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    dragon

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      d

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       o

     m

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    an

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    sl

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     ep,

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      h

      ea

      d,

      “Ivor’s

        ma-

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    invent,”

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         s

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          th

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         Jess

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        r

        s

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        Withe

            r

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           e,

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Reuben,

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Withe

 r

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And

Lukas

Aiden,

Olivia,

Jesse

Axel

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  l

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hero

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Axel

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count

abil

 ity

  ,

The

 End

[roman-reigns-princess]

Sugar and Spice (Roman Reigns): Chapter 1

Chapter 2 Read it on Wattpad Writing Masterlist

Summary: Aasha and Leati lives are intertwined; it began with a simple contract six years ago that led to love and romance. Although they now live together, they lead busy lives that ten to keep them apart for weeks on end.They finally get a week to themselves in one of their favourite cities, Rome, Italy. Aasha has a couple surprises prepared for Leati, but little does she know, he has a couple of huge surprises for her as well.

Warnings (for the fic over all, not specifically this chapter): cis-female OC, 18+, definitely smutty, daddy kink, schoolgirl kink(?), anal play, choking, age difference,  unprotected sex (wrap it up yall), maybe a lil bit of a breeding kink (dont @ me), possibly semi-public sex, idk if this needs a warning but I use his first name in this fic just cause i really love it?

Aasha (OFC) Face Claim: Alia Bhatt (but like thiccer, and w longer hair)

Word Count: 2813

A/N: I wanna thank @reignwithflair​ and @macfizzle​ for helpin me out w this fic, and giving me some bomb ass ideas. Legit had this fic in my drafts since like June, but thanks to them i finally got it started properly. I originally wanted it to be more focused on their sugar relationship, but i added too much romance so like idk what to even call this fic anymore im sorry yall

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Tucking her phone and room key into her purse, Aasha made her way to the elevator to go down to the bar in the hotel. Leati's flight wouldn't land for at least another half hour, meaning he'd probably get to the hotel in an hour.

She had arrived earlier in the day, and spent most of it preparing a surprise for him, going through the internet, and asking friends who had experience; she figured she'd treat herself a little before he got here.

She'd known for a while now that Leati had a thing for the whole school girl outfit, and Aasha had  been getting more and more curious about trying anal, though she hadn't said anything about it to Leati.

Over the past month or so she had been working her way up from the smallest anal plug, looking up how to do enemas properly, and talking to experienced friends. She'd also been putting together the perfect outfit for him, choosing each article of clothing separately to fit the idea she had in mind.

However, both their schedules had been too busy and they'd barely seen each other for the past 3 weeks. They were finally getting a whole week to themselves, and Leati suggested that they spend it in Rome at the renowned Westin Excelsior.

The Westin Excelsior was a stunning hotel that stood right in the middle of Rome; the architecture reminiscent of Ancient Roman palaces. The building itself was six stories tall, with a dome on top of one corner. Leati had, as usual, booked the biggest, most luxurious suite; the Villa La Cupola took up a good portion of the fifth and sixth floor of the hotel, including the dome.

Aasha's eyes nearly popped out of her head when she first walked into their villa. The living room was huge, decorated with a beautiful fresco; the velvety red curtains hanging from the floor to ceiling windows were drawn, allowing the sun to brighten up the room and warm up the marble floors.

It had its own kitchen, dining room, studio, and even a private gym, but her favourite feature was the Roman bath style Jacuzzi on the sixth floor that led to a terrace over looking the city, with St. Peter's Basilica in the distance.

The bedroom was another work of art; the floors covered with a beige and brown carpet that had red and peach designs curling across, matching the furniture, and heavy curtains.

There was a king sized bed pushed back against the wall, positioned so that the sun lit up the pristine white sheets; it was high enough that she needed to hop up onto it. The four posts around the bed were painted a bright gold that was offset by the gold patterned red drapes hanging off of them.

The rest of the hotel was just as beautiful, with its marble flooring, and artwork. She wandered around a little, admiring the beautiful paintings, and statues that decorated the different hallways before asking one of the staff to point her in the direction of the bar.

The bar was fairly empty, with only a small group of people occupying a corner of the room. Aasha hopped up onto one of the leather clad bar stools and ordered a cherry martini from the bartender. She thanked the bartender and gave him the room number to open a tab.

As she sat at the bar enjoying her drink, her mind began to wander back a few years to when she was in a similar place, waiting to meet Leati for the first time.

Aasha sat at the table of a fancy restaurant, her delicate fingers running up and down the stem of her glass as she waited for him. She had never been this nervous before, especially since she'd never done anything like this before either.

She was barely into her first year of college, and she was switching her major to photography, something her parents were not willing to financially support. Aasha didn't want to take student loans, but fortunately, her friend had told her about the arrangement she had with her sugar daddy, and Aasha had decided to give it a shot.

She had made it explicitly clear that she wasn't willing to do anything sexual for money; coming from a religious, Indian family, she had done barely anything more than kissing. She didn't really care about waiting till marriage to have sex, but she wasn't comfortable with the idea of having her first time be with some random guy who payed her for it.

It came as quite a surprise to her when Leati contacted her. She'd expected him to be less attractive, and much older than he was; granted he was about 10 years older than her, but he was only in his late 20s.

He had given her basic information about himself, and what he would want out of an arrangement, and they had agreed to meet face to face before finalizing anything. He was one of the founders of a major security company that often provided bodyguards to the highest ranking people, and he simply wanted someone to attend work functions with him without the hassle or drama of courting someone.

She was so lost in her thoughts that when a large hand gently gripped her shoulder she jumped, nearly knocking her virgin strawberry daiquiri over in the process; she looked up at the owner to find Leati Anoa'i looking down at her.

"Hi, you must be Aasha, I'm Leati," he said, flashing her a smile.

Her lips parted a little as her eyes drank him in, he was even more beautiful in real life, and certainly more intimidating if he wasn't smiling. He wore a grey suit with a red tie, his hair was slicked back into a bun, and he was clean shaven except for his mustache and goatee.

She blinked a couple times before realizing she was staring at him, she hurriedly stood up and held out her hand, a blush spread across her face as it finally occurred to her that she had no idea what she was supposed to do.

"I-um, yeah-it's good to meet you," she stuttered, biting the inside of her cheek for that. Her face turned redder as he chuckled and gently wrapped his hand around her fingers and pressed a light kiss on her knuckles.

"Pleasure's all mine, babygirl," he replied, letting go of her hand so they could both take a seat. "So, what would you like to eat?"

They spent the rest of the evening talking, and getting to know each other. He was one of three of the major owners of the company, he lived in Tampa about 45 minutes away from her, and he traveled a lot. By the end of the night, Aasha was relaxed, and comfortable enough around him to explain what she wanted, and what she was willing to do.

They didn't have any clashing needs, and he was more than happy to tell her that he'd draw up an agreement as soon as possible for the both of them to sign. He didn't seem to care that she wanted to keep their relationship platonic, but he did say once that if she wanted to go further he wouldn't be opposed to it.

Setting down her empty glass, she left a generous tip for the bartender, and slowly began to make her way back up to the room.

Over time her and Leati's relationship had evolved. They had become good friends, and she stuck with him through two attempted hostile takeovers by his partners even when he tried telling her he didn't want her caught up in that. He started bringing her to family gatherings, stating that he wanted his mother to stop bugging him about settling down. She got to know his family, his twin cousins who became his new partners, and even became close friends with his sister-in-laws, Trinity and Kecia.

As they spent more time together, she started to develop feelings for Leati, but her fear of rejection kept her silent, until one day she got a little too tipsy at an event and ended up confessing to him in the car.

Leati had a firm grip on Aasha's waist as they made their way down the steps of the hotel; he was glowering from the incident moments ago, one hand clenched into a fist at his side. Aasha couldn't help the shiver of fear that ran through her when she looked up at him, the only other time she'd seen him this angry was when Colby tried to wrest the company from Leati.

She'd known that this conference was a bad idea, she tried telling Leati that the McMahons would probably send Lopez as their representative to hopefully throw him off or simply to sew discord, but Leati's stubborn Italian pride wouldn't let him back down from this. To his credit, he managed to keep a lid on his emotions for most of the conference, that is until the farewell dinner.

Leati had left her alone momentarily to go to the restroom, which gave Colby the opportunity to slink up to her with that typical half smirk etched into his face. She gave him a polite smile and took a large sip of her champagne, not wanting to stir up any shit when they were so close to leaving.

"It's been too long, Aasha, you're looking good," she cringed as Colby's eyes took their time looking her over. "We never talk anymore, not even a Happy New Year text?"

"That's your own fault, Lopez," she glared at him, she wanted to get up and leave but there were people standing around the table, blocking her off; the only exit was past the man leering at her. "No one forced you to stab us-him in the back."

"Us? Did you guys finally hook up? Or is it still purely platonic?" he scoffed, not even bothering to acknowledge everything else she'd said.

"N-no, we're just good friends, something you obviously know nothing about," she bit back, taking another gulp of her drink.

"So you're not off the market? Cause I assure you, I can be a very good friend," Colby's smirk widened into a malicious smile as he leaned in, a hand coming to rest on her bare knee. She recoiled with disgust, ready to throw her drink in his face when she felt a  larger hand grab her arm, pulling her up and away from him.

She looked up to see Leati glaring at his former partner; Colby had the good sense to look somewhat scared as he stood up and subtly tried to back away. For each step he took back, the large Samoan took two forward.

"Hey, hey, listen, he's not worth it, let's just leave," Aasha pleaded, tugging at his arm. She tried not to shiver as he looked at her, his infamous volcanic rage simmering in his eyes. "Please."

"Fine," he said, giving Lopez one last scathing look before turning on his heel to march off with his arm around Aasha's waist. She texted the driver to meet them at the front as they made their way through the halls of the hotel.

They came to a stop at the entrance, waiting for the driver to pull up with their limo. Aasha turned to Leati, unbuttoning his jacket to slide her arms around him as she buried her face in the crook of his neck. A startled sound bubbled in his throat, but he hugged her back, kissing the top of her head. They stayed like that until the car drove up.

"I'm sorry," Leati said as he settled in next to her; she looked up at him in surprise. "I know you hate it when I get mad, I just couldn't stand the fact that he put his hands on you, I didn't mean to scare you."

"No, it's okay, you could never scare me, it was actually kinda hot," she mumbled the last part, her face heating up at the confession. She buried her face in his shoulder when his serious expression turned into a smirk. She arched into him as he slid a hand up her spine to grab her hair and pull her head back.

"You think it's hot?" he asked, a dangerous gleam in his eyes as he leaned in closer so that his face was inches from hers. "I-"

She cut him off with a kiss, her hands grabbing his shoulders to pull him closer. His arms wrapped around her waist, pulling her onto him so that she was straddling his lap. She teasingly bit his lip, eliciting a deep growl from him. She pulled away to look up at him, the both of them panting a little as they stared at each other wide eyed.

"I think I love you," she blurted.

Aasha chuckled at the memory as she walked into the VIlla; back then she had been mortified, but thinking back to it now it seemed rather funny.

Glancing at her phone she saw that she had 40 more minutes till Leati got there. It would be just enough time to shower, and finish the final steps for her surprise. She took a quick 15 minute shower, then hopped out to grab the lube and one of her plugs. She decided to go with one of the smaller ones with a pink diamond on the top because she didn't want to deal with any discomfort.

After working it in, she left the lube in the drawer of a nightstand by the bed, slipped on a shorter baby pink silk robe, and went back to the bathroom to dry off her hair. She finished just in time to hear the door to the Villa opening and closing.

"Aasha?" Her face lit up as she heard Leati's deep voice. She let out a shriek of happiness, rushing out of the bathroom to find him setting his bags down in the bedroom. She practically jumped into his arms, making him laugh as he picked her up with one arm; much to her delight he had grown his beard out, but it also tickled her skin as he buried his face in her neck. "I missed you too, babe."

"God you look so good, it feels like it's been forever, I hate being apart for that long, promise me we won't have to spend more than a week apart again, Lea," she mumbled, giving him a deep kiss to show him just how much she missed him; his chest rumbled against her as he chuckled at the nickname she'd used.

"I dunno if I can promise that, but I'm sure if you gave the Board a good talkin to, they'll see things your way," he joked, walking to the bed to set her down. She pulled back to give him a mock glare before grabbing the front of his shirt to bring him in for another kiss.

His large hands roamed over her thighs, pushing up her robe as he massaged her soft skin; her own hands were busy rediscovering his strong chest, enjoying the warmth that she had desperately missed over the past few weeks, when he pushed her back with a quick shove before dropping to his knees to push her legs apart. She was about to let him when she remembered that she'd prepared surprises for him.

"Wait! No, I, uh," she said, hurriedly sitting up and clamping her legs shut. Leati gave her the cutest pout as he stood up. "I'm sorry, its just I got you a couple surprises but I haven't finished putting them together. Why don't you go take a shower, I'll be done by then."

"I GUESS I can wait a little while longer," he sighed dramatically, giving her a kiss and a grin. "You better be done by the time I'm out, cause I'll fuck you right where you stand, got it?"

"Yes, Daddy," she said with a cheeky smirk as she pushed him towards the bathroom. He gave her one last kiss, and landed a smack on her ass before walking into the shower.

Aasha dug through her bag, pulling on the outfit she had put together; a white button up shirt tucked into a flow-y black skirt that barely covered her ass, white thigh high socks held up by black thigh garters, and a loosely tied black tie. She could hear her boyfriend getting out of the shower and turning on the hair dryer which gave her just enough time to brush her own hair out and pull it up into two ponytails.

She just finished tucking her brush away, and unbuttoning the top 3 buttons of her shirt when the bathroom door opened and out stepped Leati in nothing but a towel.

[xxsammysaurousxx]

04/01/2019

I could make a blog post with a kawaii anime picture and such like I usually do but I have a lot I want to write about so I ended up using my boyfriend’s computer.

I honestly haven’t been doing a lot lately since I’ve been back but spending time with the family and playing phone games. I have so many new and enlightening books I need to read, art that is yet to be made, and things that have yet to be written - like me writing in my actual physical diary which is so rare these days but of which I used to do every single day - but I lack motivation. I could blame it on my disorder. Or I could blame it on being a protagonist. But either way I need to own up to the fact that this is something I am struggling with as my own flaw and I need to put forth the steps to fix this problem because I don’t always want to be this way. Especially since I am an influence to my children. Really I know deep down this lack of motivation stems from my disorder and me not using my strength and assets adequately. I really need to get some professional help but it’s hard to find a health clinic like they had in the country out here in the city. You’d think they’d be easier to find... Maybe I’m just not looking hard enough.

Anyways aside from that things have been going really really really well on the whole relationship and family front. 

Sometimes I’ll still get paranoia and random intrusive and irrational thoughts but for the most part I just try to put them aside and focus on all the good I have in my life because it truly is boundless and limitless. Sometimes it gets so bad though. Like I will actually play out negative scenarios in my head. Kind of like I’m daydreaming but instead of fantasizing about delightful things happening to me I imagine the worst possible things that could happen to me, emotionally. Maybe that is an offset of my PTSD. Maybe the paranoia and delusional visions is my subconscious trying to tell me that I still hold onto fear of being pained again. This is even evident in my day to day life because sometimes I will become suspicious and weary of my partner cheating on me when really I do have so much faith in him and believe that he would never do that to me. But when I get these paranoid thoughts and delusions it’s a different me. Not the real me. And I have to remind this me that it’s all in my head and to have more faith that he wouldn’t do anything to hurt me because he truly does love me with all of his heart. Him and I have been through hell and back together and we are still together. We have both changed for the better for each other and through loving each other. 

Ugh there’s so much I want to document here. I am truly loving every single second of this life I am living with Bryan and our little family.

04/03/19

See this is exactly what I mean when I say it takes me forever to sit down and write a blog post. But I just found out I can write in cursive on here so that's pretty cool. I think the size of the font is kinda extra but I'm still going to use it cause I wanna. Anyways. I wish I could document all the moments happening in my life right now. There's so much beauty all around me and in my life every single day. It amazes me sometimes how blessed I am. And then of course Depression/irrational thoughts try to rear their ugly heads. But I have to remember the power and strength I have within myself and my God. There is nothing in this life I can not do. Anything is truly possible with this divine life path I have taken. I just must embrace the divinity of it.

As for my paranoia about my lover... It stems from my own insecurities as well as not being able to let go of the past. If I'm ever going to be truly happy with my man and in this relationship then I need to learn how to just let go of everything I've experienced in the past and just live in the present moment. Be here. Now. Because there is so much beauty in the present and I'm going to miss this one day.

I am going to miss this moment I am living in so much that I will look back on this blog and reminisce. Of when my son was so young - only 3 and a half months - and small and fragile...

How he plays with my hair and fusses when I set him down for too long and just wants to be held. How he holds onto my finger with his tiny hands and his adorable expressions and baby babble.

The other day B and I were taking Jedi somewhere and before leaving we looked into the car seat because the baby was giggling. He stopped when we both looked at him, looked up at us with his beautiful blue eyes, and laughed with us. It made B and I both so joyous. And this morning we were laying in bed with him as we do early in the mornings when he refuses to go back to sleep and he said "dada" and "yeah" & he also said "hi" this morning <3

And of course I'll miss how the first word he ever said was "mama" when he cries for me. This precious child of mine moves my heart to depths I never knew before.

And then my relationship woth B... It's truly the best it's ever been. I've never been so happy nor felt so secure in my whole life. I undwrstand him better especially about the whole not having sex thing because I can now harness my own spiritual energy when we are sexually stagnant. The love we share goes way beyond that of the physical and the relationship we share is truer than any other one ive ever been in. Sometimes I get crazy but I just need to learn to either be mindful of all the blessings and joy I have in my life or don't think at all.

Anyways we have shared a lot of beautiful moments these past two weeks we have been back together. I started playing Pokemon Go with him and we've caught a lot of beautiful sunrises together. The other morning I was looking at the game and B said excitedely "look babe!" & I dumbfoundedly looked up at the most gorgeous bright pink sunrise. It was definitely a good omen.

& This picture definitely does no justice but it will suffice~^0^

We also watched a movie I've been wanting to see on Netflix called The Dirt. You know, the one about Mötley Crüe. Legendary. Anywho I'm really glad we actually got to sit down and watch a movie together. We hardly ever get to do that because B doesn't really have the attention spam for movies, or so he says. He's just not a movie guy but he knows how badly I've been wanting to watch it with him and he canceled his plans woth his friend just to watch it with me. He's the best. He really is. And he deserves all of my love and faith. Unconditionally, just as my God loves me. <3 <3 <3

Oh yes, I'll miss this. The cuddles and warmth in the middle of the night. Being able to hold his hand whenever I need. Being able to talk to him about anything and everything. Going places and making love with him. But hopefully it never ends.

I believe in us. And our beautiful family.

~Xx Sammy Saurous RexX~

[howtobeaconartist]

Have you guys had to deal with online hate? I posted a comic type thing containing an opinion, and now I'm getting a lot of mean comments. Maybe Facebook is the wrong platform to use.. but I don't have much of a following at all and I just don't know how to attract people to my work on other platforms.

Nattosoup:  Last year, when I reviewed SketchBox and ArtSnacks, I saw a lot of blowback on my nascent Youtube channel.  I’d reviewed art supplies for years on my blog, and hadn’t really seen much in the way of engagement, and figured Youtube would be just as quiet. Despite the ugly comments (most making accusations that could be quickly disproved with one minute of Google-fu)  I opted to continue my work, and try to ignore those comments, and only focus on comments that provided valid critique, or uplifting comments.  I nurtured and responded to the comments that brought something into my life, and ignored the comments that made me feel like I was less.

If you do something meaningful to you, you’re probably going to see some dissent- try not to take it too personally.  It’s ok to disengage from Facebook for awhile (I’ve all but quit it), or to only post through an app or another service. 

To help offset how awful those comments on Youtube made me feel, I upped my online art community volunteer work.  More reviews.  More tutorials.  More engagement on Twitter.  More tutorials for How to be a Con Artist.  I tried to fill the hole with positive comments (which didn’t happen), but did fill the hole with accomplishing much.  This may not work for you- sometimes doing this gives me burnout and I have to disappear for awhile and focus on real life- real walks, real friends, real cats

Eventually the nasty comments will go away as you continue to produce work, and you’ll build up an audience of people who hopefully value the hard work you do.

Kiriska: In general, hateful comments have very little value and it’s best to just ignore them, delete them, or otherwise disable comments.

Occasionally, legitimate critique can be found underneath a “mean” tone. Sometimes it can be worth considering whether there’s any purpose to a comment other than tearing you down -- if yes, you can decide how to address the critique; if no, move on.

Being opinionated on the Internet has become increasingly “dangerous” in recent times, regardless of platform or subject matter. If you feel strongly about something, you need to be able to weather blowback from it. But if it’s something that’s not that important to you, it may be better to not posit the opinion at all. I’m not really a fan of “self-censorship” as it were, but sometimes you gotta consider if Specific Opinion is really the hill you wanna die on.

[jayvoicetrg]

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[theworstbob]

yellin’ at songs, week forty-two

10.25.1997 10.27.2007 10.28.2007

10.25.1997

81) "You're Not Alone," by Olive

Context matters. I react poorly to a lot of these European dance anthems. But real talk, if I heard this song in Eurovision, this would be extremely my shit. This song would finish fifth place in Eurovision and part of my shit is really loving the fifth place finisher in Eurovision. And this is at least somewhat subtle, it nicely builds to the moments of loud synthy garbage. I'm down with this! No, it's not good, but a song doesn't have to be good for you to like it.

95) "Sunshine," by Jay-Z ft./Babyface & Foxy Brown

How come there aren't any hip-hop love songs? Thre aren't any rap songs that begin by saying, "Yo, I'm takin' my best girl to the Japanese place downtown!" and THEN describe how big her ass is and how lovely her breasts are. There's been a long and steady devolution to this point where dudes are singing "I know you wanna love but I just wanna fuck" and all that, and I don't wanna seem like a prude, but songs about going out for sushi are way more interesting than breaking sex down into this animalistic transaction of pleasure from which no pleasure is ever actually derived because the singer is sad all the time and sex is meaningless.

97) "Pushin' Inside You," by Sons of Funk

OK. OK, I wasn't saying music wasn't crass in 1997. Of course there was shit going on, but you at least had counter-points to the more explicit songs.

98) "When Love Starts Talkin'," by Wynonna

Hey, remember the LeAnn Rimes song for a few hours ago? That was a lovely up-tempo hoedown, and I said I wouldn't mind to encounter it again, and guess what! I encountered it again, and I didn't mind! I love that 1997 put a fast country track with a dope female vocalist in my path! Good work this week, 1997, even if I don't have much to say about anything you offered. A B can win you most of these weeks, though.

10.27.2007

74) "As If," Sara Evans

So this week, Garth Brooks becomes the 37th member of the Decade Dance Club and the twelfth country dude, and the ratio is 12 country dudes to 2 country gals, and it's kind of weird that Keith Urban has made a decade-long career making perfectly cromulent songs that sometimes have a fiddle, but I haven't seen Sara Evans on this chart this year! This song is at least as OK as "Everybody." I wonder why Sara Evans didn't last in the country culture for as long as Keith Urban has! Very weird that country radio would just discard a woman, usually they treat women with a ton of respect and also as equals, it must absolutely be something she said. I am not going to look up what she said because I'm convinced it's her fault she couldn't find enduring success in a genre with as much equality as country music.

89) "Stay," Sugarland

The last country song had the phrase "blue jeans" in the first line and this song has the phrase "praying, PRAYING" in the second line and OK while modern music is all same-y and one song is indiscernable from the next at least it doesn't feel like pandering. You can make the argument that Post Malone is making an effort at honestly portraying his life (his "mood," as it were), and while his music is absolutely garbage, he's chosen a style of music he believes is consistent with his state of affairs and not the style that will make him most rich. I would have respected this song so much more if it were just an acoustic guitar and the vocals the whole time. What's that in the background, an organ or something? It's bullshit. It's dumb that you put it there.

91) "Clumsy," Fergie

I have made the argument before that Fergie's songs are actually good and that we have trouble separating art from the artist, have trouble considering "Glamorous" independent of the Humpsy context. I am not making this argument here. This song is horrible on every level. It's like someone half-heard an Amy Winehouse song in a grocery store and was asked two days later to write their version of that song.

95) "Pictures of You," The Last Goodnight

Real talk: I own this album. I have no idea why I bought it. I have no idea what about this song made me want to buy an entire album by this band. I think I just related to a dude with a mohawk making shallow pop music about how nice it is to remember someone you like, because hey that's pretty much me. "Yeah, man, I'm punk as fuck, I think capitalism is a failed experiment and I post on Facebook about Pokemon Christmas Bash."

10.28.2017

20) "Almost Like Praying," by Lin-Manuel Miranda ft./Artists for Puerto Rico

Help how you can.

55) "Pray," by Sam Smith

A MID-tempo Sam Smith song?! My stars! I didn't know he had it in him! Someone must have tricked him into eating a candy bar, or gave him one of those things that come from the granola bar companies that is real talk just a candy bar. "This is covered in chocolate." "It's Nature Valley, Samuel, a brand you can trust." And while he was in his sugar rushed state, they got him to agree to perform a song that had drums in it. Sam Smith: I don't go to church. A choir: NOOOOOO this song is stupid

60) "How Long," by Charlie Puth

It seems redundant that Charlie Puth is a thing while Maroon 5 is still a thing. My theory is that, when Adam Levine said "I hate this country so much" on a hot mic when his The Voice children were in a bad situation, Maroon 5 was Not A Thing for long enough that a new Chosen One was allowed to activate, and now there's two Maroon 5s wandering the earth and fighting evil with absolute peak sexiness. Is Charlie Puth hot? I think he might be hot in the sense that he's a music celebrity and there's a team of people making sure he looks at least acceptable when performing even mundane tasks like getting a Coke from a gas station, but would you give him a second thought if he were just a dude? Like, Adam Levine, you'd fuck that dude even if he weren't famous. You wouldn't give Charlie Puth the time of day if you didn't know his name from his dumb songs.

72) "Heaven," by Kane Brown

I'm back to being OK with this dude. His voice is pleasant, and I appreciate a small dose of sacrilege in a country song. I want this dude not to try for pop/country stardom and try for that Chris Stapleton stuff. Like, if this dude could add a convincing growl, he'd be unstoppable. But this needs to be the last time he makes a song like this.

91) "Dear Hate," by Maren Morris ft./Vince Gill

listen, country music, you can't say "Dear hate, I saw you on the news today" and then not name names. you also can't say "Dear hate, you sure are colorblind" and expect me to think you stand for anything. draw a line. tell me what you believe so i know if i can fuck with you. if you're gonna make a song called "Dear Hate," it's gotta do more than say "it'd be nice if people liked love!" it's "FDT" or nothing, y'all.

95) "Lights Down Low," by MAX ft./gnash

I appreciate that two young men with such different approaches to the caps lock key were able to bring their perspectives together for this song. This song was fine! I like that it goes somewhere and that MAX actually did things with his voice beyond lazily whisper over some EDM nonsense. I'd like to hear more from this guy, though I'm probably not gonna seek it out! He seems to really have a handle on how to make decent pop songs, and I'd like to hear what he does with less slow-jamzy stuff. Congratulations, MAX! You made me forget you put gnash on the track!

97) "Too Hotty," by Quality Control ft./Quavo, Takeoff & Offset

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy is this not credited as a collaboration with migos? did we all just sort of agree that migos isn't a thing and the three members are now only solo artists? This was about as good as any other Migos song. And that's fine! Migos is good! I mostly like what they do, I just, I'm just typing words. At this point, y'all give me trap, I'm just gonna type until it looks like there's enough words and decide the content is substantive. Here you go. Hot content, fresh off the fingertips.

Who won the week?

Uh... Honestly, this week was more or less acceptable for everyone. No truly standout tracks, but nothing I’d be angry to ever hear again. I think 1997 takes it because light-hearted Jay-Z is such a rare and delightful version of Jay-Z we don’t really hear from that much, so yeah, ‘97.

Current standings: 1997: 16 2007: 12 2017: 14 Next time: we consider the Dawson’s Creek theme song, we listen to four songs people made in 2007 because they were out of ideas, and I get to find out what Russell Dickerson is. What a dumb name! I know he’s not a country dude because there’s no way you’re making it in country with a name like Russell Dickerson, too many syllables.