#i used to worry these jokes were just making fun of 'sjw's but i feel like theyre atually being used to make fun of conservatives

[the-meme-monarch]

me at the woke church can i get an awomen. 🙏 can i get an anonbinaries 🛐

[catbountry]

Glancing over some of my older essays on politics, I’m kind of struck how, despite them not being written that long ago, I feel like I come across as a dumbass, or at least like somebody who thinks they’re much smarter than they actually are. And it’s weird, because most of my views are roughly the same; rather, it’s that I feel the way that they’re articulated comes across as too... I don’t know, smarmy? Smug, maybe? Lacking nuance. Blunt. Like I’m talking down to people. Obviously, this was never my intention, but it’s weird how something that was written while in my early 30′s somehow makes me wince a little... as I rapidly approach being smack-dab in the middle of my 30′s. God, I’ve been in my 30′s for almost 5 whole years now, fuck, where does the time go?

I think being able to come out of the other side of the Trump presidency in one piece has kind of helped add some much-needed perspective, at least for myself. I think the hypothesis that a lot of people who voted for Trump were desperate for some kind of change was proven correct when he failed to be re-elected due to his bungling of COVID, which, funnily (or not) enough, he almost could have looked like he was doing the right thing when he initially wanted to close the U.S. borders... except he’d been trying to restrict travel and close borders so often that of course nobody took such a suggestion seriously. And even if they had? Rich people still would have brought it over, because as we all know, rich people can just get away with all kinds of shit. Of course, once it actually hit, Trump really couldn’t handle the idea of looking weak at all, so instead, it was downplayed, joked about, not taken seriously, even though he’d been briefed that it was going to be really, really bad. And when he got it, and in private thought he was going to die? Well, once he beat it, of course he had to say it wasn’t so bad... even though it killed almost a thousand times more people than the 9/11 terrorist attacks. Most of them were seniors. I think that, as well as a general fatigue and disappointment over the lack of swamp-draining from those who weren’t fanatical devotees, probably sealed his fate. I admit, I wasn’t very sure Biden really had much of a chance for a long time... until COVID happened. But hey, at least we got our stimmy from Trump, right lads?

I’m still fully convinced that Trump never intended to win, and that his run was done purely for ego and financial gain, but his ability to effortlessly bait the media, as well as his unexpected exposing of the sham we all knew presidential elections to be, wound up rocketing him to success. Trump will no doubt go down as one of the most successful conmen in American history, one so slick he wound up conning his way all the way into the White House. The whole thing was like if The Producers was a presidential campaign, fascism included. Granted, I don’t think Trump was ever a true fascist; I think he wanted to be a dictator, but the actual job of being President was a drag. The cult of personality he accrued, however, was the biggest source of narcissistic supply that he’d ever experienced in his entire life. Hell, just being the literal President, the most important person in the entire fucking world, is a hell of a high that I don’t think he’ll ever really be able to reclaim. Trump’s going to be chasing that dragon for the rest of his life. Having “President” in front of your name is a lot nicer than actually, you know, having to be the President. I mean, look at how quickly Obama went gray. A lot of people are convinced Trump will run again in 2024, and I don’t doubt it, but unless something happens that completely throws us for a loop, I don’t see him being able to recreate the, er, “magic” of 2016. Everyone getting to see that, not only was his fanbase capable of having embarrassing public meltdowns just like the le epic triggered snowflake lib Hilary supporters, but that their meltdowns were even more embarrassing, and that they all looked like a bunch of fucking English soccer hooligans during the Capitol siege... well, I think that’s going to put off the swing voters, as well as the moderate Republicans.

Also, that Twitter knock-off founded by Trump’s aide, Gettr, being flooded by gay furries posting Sonic the Hedgehog foot porn? Feels like classic 4chan-style raiding. I approve. It almost feels like we’re healing, even if it’s just a little bit.

But what the fuck did we even learn from all this? What did I learn from this?

I don’t know. It feels like over the time I’ve been on Tumblr, what was once SJW became woke, and being woke has become very normal; so normal, in fact, that fucking massive corporations that use slave labor overseas will change their Twitter icons to rainbow every June because The Gays have become a safe, marketable demographic. On one hand, it’s nice to know that, at least in what I guess is considered the western world, LGBT people are more accepted now than they ever have been. On the other... god, it feels so cynical, doesn’t it? This is all very stream of consciousness, here. I don’t write very much on here since, surprise surprise, Tumblr’s been kind of dead since the porn ban. I still see people post, but it used to be that I couldn’t refresh my dash without seeing dozens of new posts. Now it feels like I refresh my dash and I’d be lucky to see a new post there an hour later. This is why I’m on Discord more. It feels like I have more productive conversations than I ever could on Tumblr or Twitter. Twitter is just... god. It’s like all the worst parts of Tumblr without the parts that made it fun aside from a few memes.

Sorry, I got off track there. The point I was going to make before is that, while I am still very firmly anti-censorship, I’ve managed to put myself in a position where it no longer feels like the stakes are so high. I can relax. I don’t have to feel like I’m on the defense the whole time as somebody grills me over some slip-up. I don’t use Twitter that much. When I do post something in response to somebody, I feel like I instantly regret it. I posted in response to some dumbass spreading a rumor that 4chan’s favorite Simpson’s meme about Sneed’s Feed and Seed is secretly ableist, and I got a response from some dude with an Umaru-chan avatar telling me how he’s proudly racist because he and his friends call each other slurs? Like bro, you’re posting cringe, you’re going to lose subscriber-

I don’t know what I’ve learned yet. Maybe that social media sucks and that chatrooms with friends are the superior way to communicate online. I tried out Telnet recently to go into some random IRC, that was neat. It just feels nice to not have to get into a fucking argument every fucking day over shit that doesn’t matter as much as people thinks it does, to not have to hear about every fucking time the President sneezes or farts. It’s not that there’s no longer anything to worry about; there is. I’d really like to see fellow lefties go after the handful of massive corporations that control the majority of the online experience, who censor not just all the racist white dude grifters in suits who all look suspiciously similar to one another, but us as well. I want to see us raise a bigger stink about the web being santized, sterlized, and gentrified to be friendlier to corporations who only want your precious data and eyeballs. Maybe without the constant distraction of Bad Orange Man, we could make that happen. Maybe.

Or maybe fucking Dream will breathe again and all the fucking children will piss their pants and clog up Twitter, fuck these kids, get off my internet, GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

[soyouareandrewdobson]

Doing something for fun: RPGs about broken anuses.

As promised, after the abomination that was the Sam arc, I am now going to write random posts about more positive/fun things. However, I also decided to add a little twist to them and correlate them in some way thematically to Dobson. E.g. by reviewing a game/show that does all the things Dobson hates/obsesses about/or fails at right.

 And my first entry in that regard is related to a videogame that came out a couple of years ago, based on a tv show Dobson claims to hate. South Park: The fractured but whole.

 Seeing how the game is 3+ years old at this time and there have been tons of reviews & walkthroughs showing how good and fun the game is, I do not really want to cover the plot and all the things that make it great in detail. Lets just say you can really feel that Parker and Stone were heavily involved in the writing of the game, as it is filled to the brim with references to the show and the typical satirical humor of it, that in parts manages to cross the line even further for me than the show. Right from the start you get a very dark but smart social joke and commentary out of the way, when as you set up your characters looks and the difficulty of the game, it is the tone of your skin that decides how hard the game gets. Meaning if you play as a black person, you are having a very hard time. It is not too preachy, just an acknowledgment that yes, in American society, blacks can have it harder compared to white people. Especially when living in a town like South Park, where social standing is pretty low and the police force is inherently corrupt and racist, doing something so outrageously to black people, I do not want to spoil it. Let’s just say it ends in a better Lovecraft joke than any of the shit SJWs did in light of censoring Call of Cthulhu board rpgs.

The overall plot is simple: While last time the kids played fantasy and things escalated quickly as they do in South Park, this time they play superheroes, with two fractions having formed: Coon and Friends vs the Freedom Pals and things escalating just as quickly. What starts off as the hunt for a missing cat to earn a 100$ reward Cartman wants to use to start a multi billion dollar movie franchise just like Marvel, turns soon into the player and his friends having to fight a real crime conspiracy thought up by one of South Park’s most nefarious characters, which also involves genetic mutations, time travel and eldritch horrors. Thankfully you, the “New Kid” from the last game, even after losing all your previous powers thanks to no one playing fantasy anymore, gain new superhero powers, make friends with the South Park kids again and even learn new fart techniques by none other than Morgan Freeman, that help you out along the way. All while also slowly revealing more about your backstory hinted on in the previous game and the tragedy of your dad having had intercourse with your mother.

 Being a South Park and RPG fan for years, I wanted to play this game for quite some time, but only managed to do so recently. And even if I spoiled myself massively over time with cutscenes and major battles online, this game is still fun (thanks in part also to the fact I watched the cutscenes years ago and by now forgot a lot of them).  The turn based battle system is way more interesting than last time by also depending on you positioning the characters on the field in a strategy based RPG style, there are lots of classes to choose and powers to combine (I myself going for elementalist, assassin, plantmancer and blaster currently) and you have a ton of allies in the game. The original cast of the four main boys, Jimmy and Butters has expanded significantly in this game with characters such as SUPER CRAIG, Clyde as the blood sucking MOSQUITO, Token as TUPPERWARE and Wendy as the social media huntress CALL GIRL (yes, that is her name) and they all are fun to interact and play with, with each one having their own unique sets of moves and finishers once again. Even outside of the battle, thanks to the writing, there are always great lines from them to get when interacting or taking missions from them. I especially came to love Tweek and Craig, who are not just decent fighters (Tweek in particular is a great elementalist) , but in this game are also now a couple ever since that yaoi episode from South Park. Helping them reconcile after a bad break up over the course of the game just feels surprisingly nice, mostly because unlike other LGBT celebrating media out there (Korra and She Ra  e.g.) none of the characters crosses some sort of moral line where you question why they deserve to be together (Hello, Catra), it is not heavily handed garbage fishing for brownie points and it is obvious through dialogue and actions they care for each other, even if they are at first going through a bad break up as only South Park could ridiculously portray it.

 Overall, the game is also surprisingly “inclusive” and socially relevant without being preachy about it, if you ask me. From the aforementioned skin color thing, to LGBT representation via Tweek and Craig, the police being involved in a plot that especially nowadays is sadly more relevant than ever (mind you, I do not believe that in real life all cops are bad, but in my opinion bad eggs on both sides certainly led to the current situation in the US and that is all I say) to the fact you can over the course of the game decide not just if you are playing as a boy or a girl, but even something in-between, a cis-/transgendered person and decide your race, religion as well as to whom you are sexually attracted to. Granted, I barely see how it has any bearing on the game’s plot, but I appreciate the following things: a) the inclusion of the possibility to decide on those factors itself, making creating your character even more fun (a basic right others demand for certain games nowadays in all the wrong ways) and b) that the game does not make the biggest of deals about it. See, I am under the impression that often times the most progressive and inclusive thing is to just let the story and personality of a character speak for itself, instead of the fact that it also identifies by a specific gender, sexuality, race or other allignment. In fact focusing on those things on a character only is something I consider ”positive stereotyping”, which for me is just racism in the opposite direction. And if you no think I am going off track here and need to be beaten up by someone who genuinely has some grip on pc culture, don’t worry. This game features PC Principal actually doing an ok job teaching you about microaggressions in his typical PC Principal manner, which in itself becomes a relevant move in future battles and is hilarious to watch. Speaking of the new kid, putting things like your chance to gender identify yourself with it in more detail (which you can also adjust again later on in game if you feel like it) aside, for a silent protagonist he/she/it can have a nice level of debt to it, if you look too much into it.

 Not only does it have a funny backstory explaining its fart and social media powers, there are recurring scenes of the kid’s parents being on each others throat and the kid just silently eating dinner for the night that genuinely feel sad and create sympathy in our little FartLord to the point you just want the kid to go out there, have an adventure and hopefully find a way to change its parents for good, cause it is obvious they love the kiddo, but damn do they need to cut off the substance abuse.

 Storywise you get something out of this game that is way more entertaining and hilarious than the last two seasons of the show combined (FUCK the season of 2019) and game content wise you are also rewarded with a lot of shit, just for exploring the town. Be it you finding hidden yaoi fanart that earns you money, your allies helping you solve puzzles that reward you with exp and new costumes to further customize your outfit, making new friends on Coonstagram by taking selfies with all the major and minor characters of the town, helping Big Gay Al finding his missing cats, stumbling upon Memberberries, forging new artifacts to increase your strength, finding summons… all stuff that helps you not just gain exp and become stronger, but also makes you enjoy going through South Park outside of the main story content. In fact I spend a majority of my first twelve hours in this game only wrapping up the prologue missions and first two chapter of the game, while otherwise talking with as many people in town as possible, exploring the stores and houses, doing side missions etc. just for the fun of interacting with the characters and the world they are part of.

 Now, how does all of that relate to Dobson?

Well lets see…

 Game based on something he hates that has however rightfully more success than he ever deserves, with lots of political commentary and satire for years in its humor? Check.

 Game itself having more of that commentary done right then Dobson in his own comics and story attempts? Check

 LGBT representation via Tweek and Craig as well as Big Gay Al that does not feel too stereotypical despite Al himself being extremely stereotypical in design? Check

 Some pretty decent/hilarious female characters in the game once you know them? (again, Call Girl and Classi, who fucks the L out of the A-S-S) Check.

 Being a style of game he hates for no apparent reason, but executed well (RPGs)? Check

 Thematically focused on superheroes, a trend he is obsessed about, but here both appreciating while also poking good fun at common tropes of it and the marketing of the MCU, in doing so just highlighting how much of a mindless consumer Dobson is? Check

 Being a game where you can also play as any gender and race and its not turned into a “groundbreaking” industry changing feature pandering to minorities that in the eyes of corporations are just a market to exploit, not people? Check

 Heck, if Dobson was not a biased idiot, the game would be perfect for him. It even panders to his toilet fetish in videogames.

 Kid you not: a mini game in the game itself features the possibility to go to every toilet in town and shit in it. The process of defecation itself being a rhythm game and you earning exp from it once you took enough dumps. And considering Dobson once spend hours in Skyrim looking for outhouses, that sounds right up Dobson’s back alley.

 Bottom line, this game is fun. If you like South Park, superheroes and RPGs, this game is perfect for you. And seeing how it has been a few years since it came out, I think it should be possible to get a cheap copy of it somewhere. Go on, play it. But always remember: Never fart on another dude’s balls. It is just not the polite thing to do.

[spottedderp573]

I don’t know if anyone will actually see this, but this is just kinda me venting a bunch before I go to bed.

It’s 12:23 in the morning. I hafta be up at 6, I have school. I haven’t missed a day, I’ve been working myself to the bone getting all my work done and even then it’s not enough. My courses are too difficult and too high level but I’m not allowed to drop. I’m expected to be able to do them because I was a ‘gifted student’ and I was smarter than the rest. Well I’ve peaked, there’s no where to go from here. I’m just.... burnt out and don’t know what to do. I have school in the morning but I can barely get out of bed. On top of that, I have just taken mental hit after mental hit. My one server of friends on discord just stresses me out because I’m never heard and belittled when I try. Even just today I tried to express my concern for them getting Cyberpunk 2077 because I can’t remember if any of them are sensitive to flashing lights. And I was belittled for it. I was yelled at and they just kept going on not letting me show basic concern for them. Their reasoning? “It has to have a warning in the beginning otherwise they’d get sued. I hate when people get worked up about the obvious things”. I brought up the beta testers and critics who has seizures, but I was brushed off saying ‘they needed to sign stuff to be a beta tester so it’s their fault and you’re making too big a deal out of it’ Was I wrong? I don’t know anymore but I just can’t keep doing this... what did I do wrong to warrant getting yelled at? Did I get worked up over nothing? I just... I hate second guessing myself on things I used to be so sure on, I feel like I have no where to be myself anymore. They keep making jokes I’m not comfortable with, stuff like ‘this is why women shouldn’t be able to vote.’ when I get worked up over something I deem important... I told them to stop but ‘it’s just a joke’ and ‘you’re such a sjw’....is there something wrong with that? I know I’m bad at reading social queues but that doesn’t seem like a joke, but hey what do I know I’m the dumb sjw who never has any valid facts ever and who shouldn’t be able to vote or make decisions on my own body (we had an abortion debate and none of them have urteruses,,,,I said that they shouldn’t really have an opinion because it doesn’t affect them and surprise surprise I was yelled at for having an opinion) I’m tired, I feel like I can’t be genuine with them or anywhere really....My best friend, the only one I used to be able to feel genuine with, has been offline all day after leaving all our mutual servers, haven’t been able to get a hold of her since like... noonish? I’m so worried, I know her boyfriend is also suicidal, just had to talk him down an hour ago.

It’s 12:46 in the morning, I’ve wasted lotsa minutes typing something no one will see and I have more. I’m not good with emotions, so why did I have to be the one to talk him down? It has to be me I guess, even though I am not equipped to handle that kind of thing and have no idea what to do at say cus what if I make it worse and I just,,,,can’t loose anyone, can’t feel that hopelessness again, not knowing if someone is alive after an attempt, I just can’t do it again. I nearly lost my good friend last year after they had been out for a week and all I got was a note, then they were out for another month, I didn’t know anything and it was scary and not something I ever wanna do again. That best friend I mentioned that I used to be able to be genuine with? She used to let me infodump all my ideas and AUs to her and she’d respond and give me feedback and it was so much fun and so soothing! But lately, I feel like she’s been ignoring me. She barely interacts with my ideas anymore and though I’ve tried to keep them shorter than I used to, I feel like I’m annoying her. Am I? Should I just stop? But then I’d have no one to give all my unfiltered and raw ideas too, there’s no one else I trust like that, no one else who I know can put up with all of me, the only one is probably ignoring me and it hurts so much but I’ll never say because I know she’s hurting too from other things and she probably has it worse because she can’t function most days and I can, so I have no reason to feel this bad because I know she feels worse all the time,,,, I just can’t keep doing this,,,,no I’m not suicidal and no I’m not planning on killing or harming myself but it’s just so rough sometimes and it feels like it’s all crashing down and there’s nothing I can do but plaster on a fake ass smile and try to keep people around me afloat even when I feel like I’m sinking like an anchor. I feel like I’ve missed stuff to vent about but I’m too tired physically and mentally to care.

It’s 12:57. I should go to bed. I have school in the morning.

[fourtccn]

actual advice to hs freshmen (from an upcoming senior)

so, middle school has passed. those were most likely the worst years of your life, and you’ve either been extremely excited or extremely dreading high school. from the depths of my heart, i will tell you this: no matter how hard high school is for people, it’s never as bad as middle school. you’ve made it through the tough years ! now it’s time to go through the last few years before you’re finally set free into the world. here’s some good ol advice that i wish i had and some of my friends had in freshman year

don’t be embarrassed of your friends. cliques are mostly a made-up thing nowadays in high school. if your friends have been there for you for the longest time, there’s no reason to be embarrassed of them ! my best friend screams when she sees me in the hall, and i used to be so embarrassed, but it was all for nothing ! you don’t wanna befriend people who don’t like your other friends, anyway.

do not be afraid to speak out against bullshit. unless you’re in a situation where you’re afraid the person saying the n word is going to physically hurt you, do not be worried to tell them your thoughts. they’re the gross one, and if they think you’re a “stupid sjw”, who cares ?? if people think you’re weird for standing up against racism, homophobia, transphobia, etc., then they’re the problem, not you.

remove toxic friends from your life. this is basically a general life thing you want to do, but i found i struggled with this the most in freshman year. if you don’t like someone, you don’t have to deal with them. it’s not mean to put yourself first.

on that topic, put yourself first. i’m serious. this applies to all factors of life. if your friend is upset, but you feel gross as well, it’s okay to put yourself first. if you’re not in the proper mood or headspace to do homework, not doing it once isn’t going to kill you.

do your homework, but you don’t always have to. what i mean by this is that homework will help you with your grade and probably in the class, but like i said previously, you are allowed to take breaks. if it’s not graded highly, it’s alright to take a night off ! no college or whatever you want to do after school is going to look at that and think oh no, they didn’t do their homework four years ago. bad student?!! homework helps you, but it’s okay to take breaks.

don’t be afraid to talk to teachers. i know, they seem so big and bad and scary, but they’re really just like us. by senior year, you’ll probably be joking around with them ! if you need a longer period of time to do something, just ask. more times than not, you’ll get an extension from a teacher ! don’t just turn it in late, because most teachers take points off if stuff is late or don’t even give credit at all.

it’s okay to change your schedule. if you don’t like it, there’s no reason on why you can’t change it. maybe it’s the teacher or maybe it’s the class in general—either is an acceptable reason. if you don’t like your teacher or class, you’re probably not in your best setting for learning and the class is going to be harsher than it needs to be.

show school spirit. for real. i hate the fact that i didn’t show spirit and would even make fun of the people who did in freshman year. unless your school is absolutely the worst, show spirit. dress up for spirit week. you won’t look like an idiot ! it’s super fun and the people who don’t just because they don’t want to are pretty boring people.

don’t take AP classes because you think you need to, do it because you want to. college level courses suck if you don’t like them. if you don’t like history, don’t take AP geography. if you don’t like english, don’t take AP english. it’s really that simple. don’t do it to look good, do it because you think you can and you want to.

do what you want, not what your parents want. if you’re in a situation where you can deny them and be alright, stand up for yourself ! you don’t have to take classes you don’t wanna take, and it’ll probably be better for your grade if you take a class you’re actually interested in.

disrespecting teachers for no reason isn’t cool. seriously. if they’ve done nothing at all, then don’t pull that shit. it’s rude. they’re just as human as you are.

take advantage of your counselors. if you’re struggling and can’t get to a therapist because you’re scared of it, don’t have the money, or your parents can’t know, then counselors are 100% an option that you should take. choose a counselor you trust to talk to. you can ask for a different one.

if you’re trans*, you can go to the bathroom in the nurse’s office.

you don’t have to start thinking about colleges. you have time. four years doesn’t sound like a lot on paper, but it’s a lot. you have summer times to figure that out. it’s okay.

you’re still discovering yourself. that’s okay. everyone in high school is still figuring it out. change your pronouns, dye your hair, dress the way you want. your life is yours, not anyone else’s.

stay safe out there, guys. it can be scary sometimes.

[evanthenerd83]

Blood And Ink: The Other Notes

It’s been a while since I last posted an update and the situation hasn’t improved. You guys and girls and ghouls should know why. Even if you just recently found this blog, you’ve probably seen the posts, the photos, and the glitched out text.

It isn’t exactly subtle in its goal. It hasn’t tried to hide from you all. It knows that you’re reading this and won’t stop drawing attention to itself until I do what it wants.

And I’ll get to that later.

So, here I am.

I didn’t use my laptop for a week after reading the second note. I kept it behind the bookshelf, unplugged and turned off. It wasn’t because of the note itself, though. I understood what it meant and while it was definitely unnerving, it didn’t really bother me that much. Something about my stories has inoculated me against real life oddities. Write enough stories featuring the paranormal and you get used to weirdness.

My autism might have helped, too. I tend to adapt easily to a schedule, especially at school, and I will ignore any difference present in the environment.

Of course, I might just be speculating. Or exaggerating. Or lying. I know how ridiculous that sounds, but I don’t have a better explanation.

Anyway, it wasn’t the note that unnerved me, but the fact that something had used my laptop without me knowing. That it knew me. My hobby. That it could communicate with me. And that it could leave me notes.

There was also the subject of whether it would leave me another one or not. I had no clue.

What could it do?

Could there be another note waiting for me?

I would stare at the bookshelf and the spine of my laptop. A part of me itched to turn it on while another was screaming at me to take a hammer to it. But I couldn’t really destroy it. Not without getting into trouble at least. My reluctance to satisfy my curiosity grew with each passing day.

I eventually started to make excuses. I had to work. I had to study for the EOCT in Economics. There were too many things I had to do. The week passed by fairly quickly though.

Finally, the break came around and I had no excuse.

The Thing started to move here. When I posted an update explaining how I had been taking a break from writing due to school, several letters were emboldened. They spelled something out. The word “lies”.

I didn’t know how to react to its assertion and decided to ignore it. But someone sent me an anon message. I got the notification on my phone.

“Are you okay?”

Once again, I brushed it off. I lied and said that I was fine.

In fact, I posted a selfie saying so.

A couple of minutes passed before I got another notification. Another anon message.

“What’s with the sickly photo?”

I opened the Tumblr app and came face to face with myself. A selfie that had been distorted to the point where I could make out each and every pimple in crystal clear detail. Shadow clouded. Gray. And underneath it were the words, “IM FiNE Im FIne iM fINe IM FINE IM FINE IM FINE IM FINE”, accompanied by a few tags.

“I’m fine”.

“Nothing to worry about”.

“Don’t worry about me”.

“Don’t you trust me?”

The Thing was taunting me. It knew that I was lying to you guys and wanted me to be ashamed. And its attempts were working. I felt sick to my stomach.

I was raised in a Christian household and I’ve always been told to tell the truth, lest I’d be damned to Hell. It worked for a while. But as you should already know, I lied about the weird text posts. And I kept on lying.

Another notification. Another anon message asking me about my health, this time a lot more reactionary. Some social justice warrior called me a heartless and disgusting person and threatened to report me to Staff. I assumed that someone who had suffered from depression had read one of my more graphic stories and been offended. I checked my blog.

But when I saw the post, I felt my heart drop into my lower intestine. The Thing hadn’t posted a picture. It had posted some text. I braced myself for what I could only assume was a demand.

It was worse than that.

“i did it. i opened my skin for the first time and it was excruciating. but it was also fun. pulling out my Bones and severing veins and siLencing my screaming nerves. this must be hOw he feels. this is wrOng though. i shoulDn’t be hurting myself for such An occasioN, no matter how exciting. but i’m just so happy. he’s starteD wrItiNg again.”

I wanted to scream after I read it. I wanted to die. The Thing was glorifying self harm and had decided to post its musings onto Tumblr, of all places. And it had done so on my blog.

My confusion turned into panic as I scrambled to throw out a decent apology. I brushed it off as a joke. A terrible, terrible joke. I knew that was another lie, but I had to do something to not be crucified by the hoards of SJWs who were knocking on my front door. It worked and nobody even noticed the tasteless portrayal of such a sensitive subject. I was relieved. For the moment.

I went into the post’s available options. I meant to select the delete option, but the screen flickered and I accidentally reblogged it. I had to issue another apology.

The Thing wasn’t done yet. It took me a while to notice them, but there were words in bold that were hidden in my apologies. The first contained “check the” and the second held “laptop”. Put those together and you get: “Check the laptop”.

Check the laptop.

My laptop.

It wanted me to check my laptop. I glanced at my bookshelf and shuddered when I saw the silver spine poking out of the darkness, just where I had left it. The rational part of my mind was in a screaming match with my curiosity. This could’ve been a trick. Another ploy to get my attention. But at the same time, it could’ve been a honest request.

My curiosity won in the end and I reluctantly pulled it out. Dust had settled around its screen and the battery was dangerously low, about twenty percent. I didn’t plug it up though. Didn’t really care.

It worked fine enough.

A familiar feeling raised its ugly head as I opened Notepad. It had been weeks since I read the notes, but I could still remember how uncomfortable they made me feel. The Thing knew a lot about me. It knew things that were meant to be private. It must have been stalking me.

There was a new file folder in Notepad. There wasn’t a title and it didn’t appear to be that big. Just a couple of gigabytes. I opened the file, coming face to face with six documents. Two of those documents were the first notes I had read. I scrolled down to check if the first notes had been deleted or just simply transferred or copied, but I couldn’t find the originals.

The third document was titled “I’m Sorry”. From the information displayed, it was created a day after I had hidden my laptop. My fear almost won the argument. All of the shock and confusion from earlier returned as a fire. But it was already too late for self preservation. I opened it.

“You’ve been gone for quite a while now, Evan. Is everything okay?

I’m sorry for making you upset. I shouldn’t have pushed you so far. You needed some time to get back into the groove. You weren’t ready. Hiatuses can be hard. I can respect that.

But you can’t just leave me alone.

Not like that.

You didn’t even respond.

Just understand.

I need you.”

The fourth was titled “Why”. It had been created a week ago. A very short note.

“Was it something I said? Why would you keep me like this?”

The fifth was titled “Remember Me”. Created six hours earlier.

“Did you forget about me?

Hm?

I’m sure you didn’t. You couldn’t have.

But I can’t shake the feeling.

Maybe I need to jog your memory.”

It was obvious what it meant. It had posted about self-harm in order to get my attention. All its other attempts had failed and it knew enough about Tumblr to fire a warning shot. And that strategy had worked.

I had denied its authenticity and accidentally reblogged it. Reacted to it. Surely, that was what it wanted from me.

But there was still one more note.

The sixth note was titled “Everything”. Created an hour before I had decided to check on my laptop.

“I hate you.

I've tried everything. Everything.

It doesn’t matter how many notes I write. You still haven’t realized how much it hurts.

You probably think that you can just stop and I’d no longer exist. Well too bad. I’m not going anywhere.

So what will it take to get you to write again?”

To write again.

I swallowed some spit. As soon as I read those words, everything clicked. Made sense.

It didn’t just want my attention. It didn’t just want me to respond to its constant inquiries and notes. It wanted me to write again. It was waiting for me to come up with another story or poem. All this time, after everything it had put me through for the last month, it wanted that?

I exited out of the document and closed the file folder. My head started to hurt.

I created a new document, stared at it, and typed a single word. A question.

“Why?”

[mannyatetheboogieman]

Life Update

Hey, y’all. Who’s ready to hear about how I got fired for “sexual harassment”? That’s right. Now all the crazy females can alienate me and kick me while I’m down because I can now say that I have sexually harassed someone as based on the fact that I was accused of it. I was accused of it on the SAME WEEK one of my friends opened up and shared how she has been a victim and a survivor of Sexual Assault. She’s an Actress and is always traveling so I see pictures of her all over the world with her BF. it’s nice. It crushed me when I learned that... then a few days later I was accused of Sexual Harassment. And I was fired after 2 years of having a clean record.

I used to be very active here. I’ve had a lot of problems. Being lied to by people that you thought cared about you (talking about one female that is demon spawn and got kicked out of her house by her mother) and only used you. Well, I ended up getting a Full-Time job. School? Nah. Just work your life away at an Amazon Fulfillment Warehouse. When I first started, I was a temporary associate and I still tried to get on here. Slowly, however, I started getting on here less. I worked REALLY hard to be able to be accepted and have a stable job for the first time. I was in shape, and it still kicked my ass. I was broke. The shoes I was using were completely worn out at the sole and were too small. My feet would go numb and I kept going. Finally being able to afford shoes, I started trying out new shoes to not be in pain at work.

Working at Amazon was tough. I didn’t really talk to anyone or accept anyone in my life from there until nearly a year of already being there. I started being invited to places with IRL people. Every night I went to work there, I hated it. My anxiety would always make me count minutes and even seconds making every moment feel like an eternity in an endless void. I cherished the small breaks. Talking to people whenever I could while not falling behind in my productivity.

There was a couple of times I almost got in trouble. Mostly, it was oversensitive assholes. I made a dyslexic joke while we were training to be trainers and they got all SJW with me; I had been mixing up words so I poked fun at myself and said, “if life gives you melons, you’re probably dyslexic.” So instead of just rolling with it because we were all veterans, they pretty much took me off the entire training program for almost an entire holidays season. Meanwhile, some of the trainers were sexually assaulting their trainees; one of my friends was victim to this, but more on that later. I don’t know who it was, but I was told it happened a week ago. The only person I can think it was that did it was someone that after talking, she wrote her phone number on my chest and told her not to do that because I didn’t know her well. The HR complaint was three things. Ready? Mentioning I was single, Deadpool, and International Women’s Day (in reference and out of context).

Being put into suspension, I didn’t make a fuss about it because I had nothing to worry about. It would also allow me to finally have some respite from work because I was going insane from the stress. Well, I received a phone call 2 weeks later and told that I wasn’t welcome back because I made someone “UNCOMFORTABLE”. I asked for an appeal and I was told I couldn’t. This happened November 6th, right before the holidays.

At the start of my suspension, I began to learn about things that happen within the walls of the building. How my friend had been touched and forcefully kissed by her trainer but she didn’t say anything because people liked him so she didn’t think anyone would believe him. This guy got promoted TWICE. I learned about how a guy put his fingers up a girl’s ass through her shorts and she complained with at least one witness and the guy is still there to this very day. One of the assistant managers would do creepy things like get a female associate to work with her in secluded places in the warehouse. Still there. Even having a fucking list is TOO long and the list goes on for a while, and that’s just shit I know.

I had never been drunk before until last year at the age of 28 because of my depression and existential crisis. I suffered with their shitty break policy. Bending to everything. I almost gave into the RAT race completely. I almost gave into the reality of me being a prisoner to the system. Making enough to stay and stay broke. Never traveling. I almost gave in. I stopped writing. I stopped enjoying being here. Working at Amazon gave me the opportunity to be generous and give back to those who have been kind to me. I tried to reach to everyone. I finally had a steady income. I worked hard. And it was taken away, even denying me my unemployment when all I wanted to do was clear my fucking name and go back to work. But I will never accept what that building did to me. I will never be grateful for that. I stayed way longer than I should have. My termination was, in the end, labeled as “misconduct”.

I wanted to be happy. I wanted to believe I deserved to be happy. So maybe it’s time I enjoy my sexless life and accept being the uncle that shows up to family reunions tipsy. I just ASSUME no one wants to have sex with me because I have never felt care before in my life, so even having someone to care for me would just be strange and alien to me.

So what now? Deep depression, thoughts of death for the past months and no income. I’m trying to do Lyft and get back into writing, but it’s the same trap. You start making money and you become entrapped by it. Maybe it was a set up as one of my friends was telling me to talk to people. But I can’t be sure of anything. Everyone tells me to fight back, but I don’t see a way. Also, I started streaming, but I’m thinking that’s not going to go anywhere, or my youtube channel.

If you think less of me, I don’t blame you. Definitely won’t be as low as I have begun to think of myself. Love others. Call someone you love and care about. Don’t give up. I had to get this out of me.

[ohkimani]

(ignore)

i try to be a good friend. i really do. im always running around all over the place for everyone doing what i can to make sure all of my friends are just fine but sometimes, like tonight at jessie’s birthday dinner, i was just so annoyed with......,,,,,myself. like it just seemed like i couldnt control myself for like two seconds. i was constantly talking and being flamboyant and just so out there and fucking obnoxious. i dont want to be that friend that’s making the most noise at the table anymore. i hate being the one who cracks a dark joke out of nowhere and everyone just gets super quiet and uncomfortable. i just wish i wasnt so.......,..much(??) i hate it. then why im not my loud obnoxious piece of shit self, everyone is like “what’s wrong why are you being such a bitch blah blah blah” and im like “okay yall literally give me side eyes or dont know how to react to my outlandish statements like all the time what’s wrong now that im not being ugly” you know? i just dont know who to be anymore and i dont know if it’s because i was around so many people i know again or if it’s because i really dont have any self control. i know i talk loud (when im not mumbling) because i have terrible hearing and cant really tell how loud im talking but i dont know if anyone else knows that or cares but either way that’s my fault. there were only 12 of us but now i see my social setting maximum capacity is probably like 7-8 people including myself. i just start trying too hard because im so overstimulated and excited about being around people i know. idk. it didnt make it any better that i thought i looked cute and then when jessie and i walked in, everyone talked about how much skinnier i looked but it’s jessie’s birthday you know? she spent hours going back and forth between her mirror and my room to pick the perfect outfit. i guess im just tired of being that annoying friend and no one ever tells me when im doing something annoying so im sitting there afraid to say anything because there’s a part of my body that’s like “shut the fuck up theyre tired of hearing about that. they’re tired of hearing from you. you’re tiresome. what the fuck are you even doing here.” maybe im falling back into that hole that i was in before but this always seems to follow some big gathering. i just get completely absorbed in all of the wrong i did that previous night and i isolate. like literally right now i dont think i want to go to class this week just because i dont want to see anyone and lose control over myself again because im literally like a fucking dog that sees you and ends up clawing your legs when they try to hop on you. i wish i just...had some sort of filter. like a friend of mine was passing around pictures of a transgender girl at our school and making everyone look at it and pick her apart. the one point in the night when i was serious was right then because that was fucking disgusting. so i told her how i thought what she was doing was wrong and that her gender or transition is no one’s business but her own. but she was just trying to justify herself by saying she has never been exposed to different types of people so she doesnt know how to handle it and what not but i just.....i couldnt deal with it,. then i could tell everyone else at the table felt awkward because i had said something but i was just as mad at them because they were the ones taking the phone from her to look at the pictures instead of refusing or knowing that what they were doing was wrong. so instead i look like the obnoxious SJW friend who always has to ruin everyone’s fun. that was exhausting and at that point i just proceeded to throw the rest of the night away. so i gulped down three more glasses of champagne and let myself go.....as usual. ive noticed myself depending on alcohol a lot more lately. not A LOT more but more than usual. i think it’s because ive found my taste in alcoholic beverages so i just continue to hunt after them like rosé and pink moscato and champagne. greta was talking about how i always drink her entire bottle by myself and as she was saying that, i was pouring myself more champagne. the thing is, im not even sure what im repressing so much now that i have to be some type of intoxicated every single night. it’s been at least 8 or 9 nights and i still havent passed on a drop of alcohol at least before bed. i mean when im with him, i just feel so outside of this world. like when we’re in my room and just being playful and he’s just being himself because im being myself, i dont feel all of the self-conscious and self aware things that go through my head like usual. of course i havent given him all of myself completely but i dont think i have to. i think we both have this unspoken understanding about our minds and emotions. we’re on the same level but he’s much better about smiling at everything meanwhile i contemplate the pleasure of death at least once a day.like fuck, i was sunbathing today and while greta was talking i was literally thinking about how i could kill myself without anyone finding me because im a little more than sure it woudlnt change anything. and i know everyone who says that just seems like theyre looking for attention and validation but it’s just like when mia asked me if there was anything stopping me from going through with it and i said ‘no’ then she asked if i cared about how my loved ones would feel and i finally looked up and made eye contact with her. i could tell she was already worried but when i said ‘why would i care if they cared if im already dead. i wont be able to feel or know anything.’ im still not sure what the point of this all is, honestly. i just tend to rant for hours now because i have no idea who would even care to hear me anymore besides medical professionals who are paid to listen to me. i dont want to be annoying. i just want to close off into a corner and never come out. i know i have to go to class tomorrow but i just already dont feel the strength in my soul to so much as look at another human being. it would be great to just not be seen for a few days honestly. of course i probably wouldnt be able to get away with that considering ‘tall and awkward’ has me on high alert and is down for what ever at any second. i wouldnt feel right just going missing like i usually do because now we have more of a connection than before. it’s also scaring me a lot now too because even as im laying here in bed, i can still smell him on my pillows. i tried to go back to sleep after he left today but i couldnt without his arm around me. that’s what scares me. depending on someone else for some sort of comfort or retreat. what happens when they leave? everyone leaves. i just know something is going to happen with him AGAIN that’s going to make me want to fling myself out of a window or something. then again, as they say, ‘third time’s the charm’. maybe time 3 around will be much better because it already feels better. my problem is feeling like im no longer allowed to say anything more than ‘hi” “bye” “oh really” im sorry” to people i see now simply because i dont want to inconvenience them and force them to be an open ear for me. he;s just too good to be true and losing someone like him at this point for me could be so fucking devastating. and i just mean if we ever ended up have to go back to square one as barely friends. i dont know if i could take that. i havent seen this boy since 10 AM and i feel like there is air blowing through my chest, you know? he’s just become such a great friend first and i know he feels it too. anyway time for me to stop being an annoying little fucking bitch cunt at this point im so tirred. dont read this.

[bluedino15]

Last , Last Thoughts on That Issue/ Why I'm just Disappointed in Both Sides

Disclaimer before I get stared: yup, I’m going back to THAT again. If you just want to see art on the Glitchtale tag and are sick and tired of this issue like I am, sorry for making you scroll a bit more so you don’t have to see this. I probably should just let this die because we’re pretty much off this, but I still see the occasional comment on twitch or on here, so I need to get this off of my chest. I’m going to try to not take a side, but if you’ve seen my other posts, you know I do believe that word could be seen as offensive, though not in context, but that it should be treated more carefully, and that I also do not hold much Ill will towards Cami (still slightly peeved) I will also have a section of this where I talk about not liking the use of SJW or triggered. But again, I’ll try being non-partisan here besides that.

I’m disappointed in both sides here. For people who found the use of the r-word offensive or troublesome, I’m disappointed in the lack of trying to peacefully reach out to Cami. It was clear she meant not to insult anyone mentally disabled and that she had no idea the word had a negative connotation in some parts of the world. Now, that wasn’t entirely clear when she first said the word and people might not know the word had no offensive connotation in Chile, but still, anyone who knows it as a slur should also know that some people use it like a standard Insult to mean idiot (such as younger kids do in America) because they are not aware of what it’s been turned to, and that the user is not trying to insinuate someone is a lesser being because they were born with a mental disability. So it was not right to say things like Cami was ableist (someone who hates the disabled) or that she was trying to be rude to anyone other than that kid. It also doesn’t help to get super angry and toss out other swear words like “fuck” or “bitch” left and right because it makes you harder to take seriously when you swear like a sailor while arguing with someone, and they are less likely to understand or want to compromise with you when you insult them. And finally, it doesn’t help to either a) try to act surperior or Talk down someone who you think is being a jerk because it makes you look egotistical, and b) don’t specifically insult Cami’s friends (however, overall being annoyed with people supporting Cami is understandable, which is what my next thing is about). Overall, if you act to rudely or intensely in trying to make your point or change someone’s mind, you only guarantee that people are less likely to agree with you, which means you are shorting your argument in the foot. And as someone who was making that argument, I’m really freaking angry at the people who made it impossible for the argument to go anywhere pleasant, and I feel sorry for anyone else who wanted to be civil while still disagreeing. While civility may not have changed anyone’s mind, it would have been better than what did happen, because now Cami’s probably never going to understand or empathize with people who don’t like the word.

Now, here’s my other point. I feel like Cami and some of her supporters got kind of–and yes, I will use this word despite the fact that it seems to piss off people on here–rude. Rude for understandable reasons, but still rude. It feels like, because There were people who were being equally rude at a stressful time in Cami’s life, she was too angry to be willing to compromise or be understanding. I just am bothered by the fact that everyone seemed to say stuff along the lines of “the word isn’t offensive at all to me/ check the context/ check the definition” and write it off there. And that’s what bothers me. People didn’t seem willing to understand that word really was seen as offensive to a decent amount of people. It seemed like Cami and a lot of her supporters felt that, if they couldn’t see offense in it, no one had a reason to get offended. And it’s fine that they Don’t get offended or see any problem with the word. But it would have been nice to see something like “okay, I still don’t think the word is offensive, but I understand why people are bothered by seeing it.” Instead, it felt like anyone bothered by that word was being treated like a baby who was calling Cami Hitler and saying the kid was better than her. So that led to some people immaturely using the word when being asked to stop, which feels like the verbal equivalent of a baby tossing their peas in their parent’s face when asked to eat them in terms of behavior. (I am not referring to Cami herself using it more because I get she only used it once, I’m referring to the fact that I saw other people saying that as if it made them comedic geniuses) there was also a few people saying stuff like “stupid Americans trying to make the world about them.” Forcing you to adopt the death penalty, use English, eat my food, or use the imperial system of measurement would be arrogantly forcing my culture on yours. Getting offended by something seen as an offensive word in my country which I have been taught not to use is the result of naturally carrying my national baggage onto an international stage. I’m not saying that means the American view that r-word is offensive is right, but if Cami makes the honest mistake of assuming the rest of the world doesn’t find it offensive, why can’t we make the honest mistake of assuming the rest of the world does find it offensive? Heck, asking “why is it like that in this country” instead of saying “this country is stupid then, because I know the way I grew up with is right” would allow for some discussion that lets us open to each other and increase our worldview. It would help you understand we don't just choose to get offended because we want to. Heck, maybe you have actually read about how the word became a slur and still think we're stupid. Fine. But at least don't write it off as us having no reason .

And here’s where I get to the part that I do become partisan. Why the hell is anyone who gets offended even when they aren’t personally insulted deemed an SJW these days? What the hell is wrong with worrying about someone else? I guess people would say “if they aren’t part of that group, they are misrepresenting it by trying to talk for them. Heck, I am a part of this group and I’m not insulted.” Five things: 1) what about people who actually, legitimately, understand the issue and want to defend that group. 2) how does not being part of that group stop me from having an opinion? 3) is it wrong of me to defend other people (and before you say “I could defend wrong” reread 1) 4) great if you aren’t insulted, but there are others who will be insulted. 5) defending a group does not mean you want attention, you can legitimately have feelings on an issue. This isn’t just applying to what happened with Cami. This is almost any freaking time I see someone use SJW, and I just happen to be here while I’m venting. SJW should be used for someone who is taking an issue where nobody has complained ever anywhere, making it an issue, and bringing nothing to back up their argument. That’s someone who you can be legitimately pissed off at because they want to make themselves a hero out of something truly meaningless to anyone.

Oh, also, for People who make the “Triggered” jokes. You know, that word refers to people who would actually have PTSD if they saw something that reminded them of an uncomfortable experience, like a soldier with PTSD hearing a gun or bomb. I get that a small number of people might appear to act that extremely. But getting offended by a word is not the same as that 99% of the time. And generally those people who get offended actually have a reason that it might help you listen to, instead of saying “lol, that person is upset, so I’ll make fun of them by doing something I know bothers them.”

Still I understand that she was angry, and already at a stressful time, and that there were people who were being too rude in their responses to her that word. They did not have the right to insult her like they did or act like surperior dickheads. And I understand why, emotionally, she would be unwilling to be less angry in her responses if a decent amount of the opposition wasn’t civil to begin with. And I get that I’m probably generalizing her reaction and I’m mistakenly assuming she didn’t literally mean people were calling her hitler. I was just bothered that some of her and her defenders counter responses seemed pretty rude and Inconsiderate. And that people who got angry at her were also inconsiderate by insulting her so rudely or acting like their position made them morally superior. It was stupid off them, and what lead to Cami insulting them in the first place.

And I don’t mean to imply Cami was weak for having an emotional response. Emotions are part of who we are. Obviously not everyone will be able to stay calm and fine at all times. Heck, I have one of the shortest fuses on the planet. I brought up emotions because I think people who chose to insult Cami were at fault for why she would be somewhat hostile.

TL;DR I feel like both sides here were not professional in how the r-word issue went down. I am Not expecting pure civility or happiness on the internet, and I understand not all arguments can be handled calmly and orderly, or that polite argument leaves everybody satisfied. I’m just disappointed because we could have still had that debate without drama or angriness, Even if we ended upcoming to the same conclusion as we did a few days ago. And sorry for anybody I might have thrown under the bus with a generalization, or if I assumed to much of the meaning behind what someone said. Also sorry if I ended up using loaded language in my argument or subconsciously made it anti-r-word usage despite trying to remain neutral.

Finally sorry for bringing this up if it starts the whole mess over again. If it happens, put the blame on me and my inability to not let shit die.

[opisafascist]

"I can't take criticism so I send out my minions from 4chan out to get you" blocklist

I’ll be honest, I do not get what are these peoples deal but they seem to always get on the bad side of everyone and they can get to this very contrarian personality from 4chan /v/ so I’ll just take that a hint to making a list of them, they aren’t fascists by any means, crypto-fascists at the least, but they often gobble up the worst of people from this website and have probably been co-opted by fascists multiple time because of their apatheticness and coyness, the whole “I’m not a SJW! I don’t like protesters, fighting for something is dumb!” kind, shit they aren’t even probably right-wingers so this is a very special blocklist because I keep seeing them on tumblr whenever something bad happens, in fact i see so many fascists on this site only follow these people, so it’s probably better to block them to cut off their social rings immediately. 

--The list that has probably already been made once--

moontouched-moogle - Not much interesting to talk about here they’re just this hive mind for /v/ people. They kind of helped me build this list a bit. 

thefeelofavideogame - This guy never catches a break of not minding their own business and can’t help but feel cynical about anything but just ‘vidya’

nentindo - This one deserves a special mention because they’re 15 years old so it’s better to just block them and ignore them in advance rather then let them act elitist, i mean jeez kid you’re 15 you BARELY experienced life yet. Like really this amount of them surrounding themselves by adults that don’t wish them the best is an unhealthy obsession for them at it is. 

inkerton-kun - Dontcha hate when a porn artist has to have a ‘personality’

steven-universe-official - Kind of like the grand papi of this gang, I don’t even need to tell people to block them because I think about everyone does already due them sending their weird combination of anti-feminist fans around sending hate to anyone that would do criticism against their shitty attitude, technically in the recent years they kind of toned down on going around spewing bullshit and being THE uncle tom but it’s good to double check

dream-cassette - Oh this one I’ve heard of the most! Used to make child porn by the name of hoshime, in the name of rule 34, along the lines she deleted her original blog because she believed the obviously fake “down with cis” situation was the biggest EXAMPLE OF BIGOTRY in the world and the not absurd at all rival towards inequality (ignoring how it works systematically) and ever since then she’s been hanging out with the anti-sjws. 

thathomestar - I think they used to be a 100% gamergater but then again almost everyone here on this list was at one point. They still have that suspicious aura of “all the misery in the world is the left-wing’s fault for fighting back against their human rights being removed rather than just submitting!”. Says everything that is politically incorrect is just a joke, might be just a weird case of /pol/’s law (haha, get it?)

mr-cappadocia - Also an infamous gamergater, they sorta hold a grudge so much against social justice they end up sounding like they’re high on sherm. You know those try-hards that sound REALLY hard to sound politically incorrect? Yep! They sound like that. I also recommend blocking leopirate too as they are also a hotspot for gamergaters. Both are pretty terrible Islamophobic people. 

takashi0 - The OG Anti-SJW Brony of Tumblr! What a title. 

shitpost-senpai - I don’t even know why this guy’s on this list they’re just a 100% obvious fascist to the point they won’t stop being antisemitic about everything but hey, I guess because they like anime and metal gear rising that’s enough for them to fit in this blocklist... They’re also constantly being reblogging by this social ring of people and could just be the reason why a sum of people don’t trust them. 

maoh - They hate it when people fight back against oppression in general, the old cuck-like mentality of “No, don’t do anything, don’t fight back and die and it will be a win!” without knowing that peaceful protest holds no consequence and allows fascists to do anything they want to do at any time while removing human rights. They’re very petty about god damn children rather than just let them be too. What kind of an adult is this? Kind of funny that they changed their description recently from “I dislike the left-wing of tumblr” to “zero tolerance for faux morality and art censorship”, dude got some brand new codewords to pass off “I hate criticism” and “I’m a nazi sympathizer cuck and I’ve been brainwashed by the enemy to say that violent dynamics, no matter how history shows the story otherwise, is ineffective in justice and is villainous, anyways let me just frantically love an anime where they beat someone up”. It’s basic praxis and how the world works! 

shameshack - Ey! the-cringe-channel, known for producing their own cringe content because for some odd reason they keep ignoring the academic values of things and brush ofF everything in the world as mindless paranoia but probably aren’t a very smart person themselves and would rather waste their life making fun of kids and fueling the quickly made anti-sjw blogs on this website that all have urls like “tumblr-is-dumb-because-i-hate-minorities”, out of everyone who acts coy about why people dislike them, this one acts the most coy out of them all, what a malicious kind of guy. I really don’t know if they legit don’t get how things work in the real world because they take silly things seriously and serious things as if they were silly. Have you ever tried living life once where you have to don’t have to keep insecurely looking down on others that are just harmless oddities to fuel your ego or what?

--End Of List-- 

Just copy and paste each url onto your blocklist if you wanna. 

Again I repeat these guys aren’t “fascists” and will deny they’re “anti-sjw” (Even though they don’t do anything to show for it besides say “Oh don’t worry we make fun of anti-sjws too! But we sound exactly like them when we go against our vague idea of social justice”), but fascists and crypto-fascists always seem to be around these people because they act coy about it all the time for the sake of being contrarians. They don’t want to care about them being followed by neo-nazis, just the power of having many followers that come straight from 4chan’s /v/! Almost the same as sympathizers.  

It’s the same odd link towards people who take video games and substancless anime too seriously and... Neo-Nazis, seriously what’s up with that? Anyways be careful when you criticize anime or them and don’t have them checked! 

Special mentions: KanColle fans I guess? Moe anime attracts a lot, and I guess that’s what happens when a medium genre is 100% bottom feeders towards substanceless girls just being cute, blogs with gray backgrounds, the nihilists that blog about trump jokes “ironically” (poe’s law), youtube celebrities, it’s more about ethics in games journalism and not objective game design. It’s not like they can’t be analytical ABOUT EVERYTHING right. Like how video game game design isn’t the only analytical theory in the world to take into consideration when criticizing media. Why is it always the gamers? 

Won’t say it again! Act coy about it all you want but take the loss because you guys have negative connotations and never really worked on it. 

This isn’t a “Reach” like a lot of you guys keep blaming it to be one or just belittle it as just “discourse” (the most thrown around word ever), the fact is just that you simply won’t accept the weight of your actions by either doing bullshit yourselves or allowing fascists to co-op your communities because you guys aren’t actively critical at all despite your contrarian image. 

Anyways this blog’s been moving slow (Which is good! Unless they've just been more secretive) to the point I gotta make a list out of these infamous dudes that i’m pretty sure everyone on tumblr already blocks or at least is suspicious about the people who reblog from them so i’m gonna go jack off to hentai rather than cowardly reblog ecchi to my blog to remind people I do indeed jack off to anime have no mistake about it. 

[charlierejouis]

Captain Marvel Q&A Review

I want to try something a bit different. Rather than straight review this movie, I want to talk through some questions people may have about the movie. Having seen it once, I’ll try to get to some questions and keep this as spoiler-free as possible. Here’s an example.

What was it like seeing Marvel’s first female-led movie?

Well, frankly I haven’t seen Elektra yet. I haven’t heard a lot of good things about it. It was made in an era when superhero movies aren’t at the same quality we know them to be now. After ranking the MCU films, I’m starting to get more interested in the films outside of the MCU, especially some of Marvel’s films outside of the MCU that doesn’t have Deadpool in them.

Jokes aside, let’s go!

Were you concerned about Captain Marvel going into the movie?

Yes. I tried to read one of the newer Captain Marvel comics and couldn’t get past the issue #0 of the series. Then seeing the trailers and semi-controversy surrounding the movie, gave me successively less hype over this movie that I genuinely wanted to like. The thing that gave me the most concern was meeting with Chris Claremont at NYCC and hearing him say that he was concerned about this movie. Though some of his complaints were about not getting his touch on Carol’s character in the movie, a good number of the issues brought up about Captain Marvel were the same issues other people have been voicing.

What are some of the issues people have with a Captain Marvel coming out?

Frankly, Carol’s not been doing so well in the comics department. Recently, Marvel Comics has been pushing her as sort of the face of a new era of comics. Since becoming Captain Marvel, though, she hasn’t had a series sell well or last long. Factor that in with another Civil War event that doesn’t put her in a good light, but still makes her out to be the supposed good guy, and it’s not surprising that Captain Marvel isn’t a hilariously popular character with a good number of Marvel fans.

What is your take on the politics surrounding the movie, up to its release?

Full disclosure, I don’t personally align terribly well with modern-day third/fourth wave feminism. I have a number of issues with both sides of the intersectionality arguments. However, I personally side more with the arguments against so-called “SJW issues”, especially considering many people making arguments against them are on both sides of the political aisle. Before seeing the movie, I feel like the idea that the making of this movie into a feminist battleground was a mistake. Not because I don’t think politics in movies is a bad thing, but because I was worried that this controversy was a way of distracting people from how good or bad the actual movie would end up being. I think that Brie Larson going after fans and critics was stupid before the film came out. People were not expecting this movie to do well the instant it was announced and her actions didn’t help to ease people’s concerns about the film.

And, after seeing the movie, how has this view changed?

I was not expecting this to actually be a feminist movie. Like, I know Brie Larson actually said that this was a feminist movie, but I figured that meant this was a good movie for women and girls to see come out on the day we celebrate them. No, this movie is, without exaggeration, a feminist allegory for women who live under the patriarchy. This results in at least some changes I know will piss fans of the comics off. However, I don’t have too much of a problem with the movie with that recognition in mind. I still think that marketing for this movie goofed up, but only in not giving us the best of Carol in the movie. Though, as an overtly feminist movie, I don’t think this will have as wide an appeal as it would if it wasn’t. Like, I wouldn’t be shocked if the upcoming Black Widow movie goes in a different direction and is considered better than this movie in any and all respects.

 Are there any things fans of the MCU/comics ought to look out for?

One big thing I can say is that Monica Rambeau is in this movie. In the comics, she was the first female Captain Marvel so it will be interesting to see how her future pans out across the MCU, especially with Miss Marvel in play. Ronan the Accusor and Coulson are in this movie, but they don’t play a seriously large role in this film. In regards to continuity, they do refer to the Strategic Homeland Intelligence, Enforcement, and Logistics Division as SHIELD in this movie, which kind of messes with Iron Man stuff. This movie also messes up some things with the first two Captain America movies and the first Avengers film. Also, the Marvel Studios logo is a tribute to Stan Lee and I’m glad that we got that.

What did you think of Brie Larson as Captain Marvel?

I don’t love Brie Larson as Captain Marvel in this movie. A lot of people say that she gets worse the more the movie goes on. To be honest, I think that she has some of her best moments as the movie goes on. However, I can’t say that this was a good performance for Larson as Captain Marvel. Interestingly enough, her best moments were playing off of other characters whom I considered to be more interesting than her. I don’t want to jump on it being her fault as she’s apparently won an Oscar a few years ago and I don’t love the directing or writing of this movie overall. Not to mention that this is her first time as the character. Maybe, under the Russos direction, she’ll improve in my eyes. Carol does smile when she sees Stan in his cameo and that made me like her a bit more.

Do you have any serious issues with this movie?

I have a lot of small issues with this movie. There’s one twist that everyone who’s seen this movie knows was supposed to be a joke. I’m not mad it happened so much as slightly annoyed by it. I don’t love some changes I hinted at earlier as one ruins a lot of potential for the MCU’s future, another feels like we were lied to by marketing for this movie, and others leave a bad taste in my mouth. Usually, my inclination is for movies to not spend more time than they need to do their thing, but this could have benefitted from having another half hour to tie up some loose ends or explore some issues presented within the movie.

Are there good things about this movie?

I love Samuel L. Jackon as Fury in this movie. We get to see him while he’s still a bit more optimistic about the world and it’s amazing seeing him play off of Carol. After the feminist angle of the movie is fully revealed, the movie becomes more fun to watch. A few expectations are subverted in ways that make sense for the movie’s bend and aren’t terribly unwelcome changes of pace. Apparently, they got the composer for Fortnite to write the music and she did a good job, though I doubt she’s getting an Oscar over this. And, I’ll say it again. I really, genuinely, and unironically hope we get a movie with Monica in the future. I don’t care that she didn’t do a lot in the comics. I want to see her do something in the MCU.

Do you need to watch this movie to understand Avengers: Endgame?

No. There is a bit of an explanation as to why Carol wasn’t a part of the MCU so far. We do see her give Nick Fury the pager he used in the end-credits scene of Infinity War. There’s a scene from Endgame that involves her, similar to how the end-credits scene of Ant-Man showed a scene involving him in Civil War. However, other than the assurance that she will be in Endgame, there’s not much of a connection to this movie and Endgame, at least so far as I can tell. To be fair, Marvel is trying to be as quiet as they can regarding this movie, considering how much it’s supposed to change about the MCU. Not getting a serious connection to it isn’t terribly shocking, disappointing though it may be.

Overall, how does this movie rank among the MCU?

Before watching the movie, everything I had seen and heard regarding the movie led me to believe this was going to be, at the very best, a movie just shy of my top 5 or, at the very worse, the next worse film in the MCU. I’m happy to report that, after my first viewing of this movie, it’s in neither extreme. I can’t say it’s outright the worst movie in the MCU, but it’s pretty close to it. For all the talk Captain Marvel being the strongest hero in the MCU, I can’t say I’m terribly impressed by her powers, considering I don’t understand how her powers work in the MCU. And, regarding Carol Danvers, she might actually be one of the worst people behind an MCU hero. For now, I’d say that it’s an okay film that’s close to being my least favorite film in what’s shaping up to be the best phase of the MCU. I may even consider it to be the outright worst film in the MCU.

Is it worth watching?

Ultimately, I had fun watching this movie. To invoke Digibro, it could have been much better, but it could have been so much worse. However, that’s because I already enjoy the MCU. I left the theatre and could barely explain why it was a good film for my Uber driver. No one whose I trust, of varying political views and allegiances to the MCU, said this movie was better than okay and many said it was below average. If you’re fine with your movies having more of a feminist angle, definitely give it a shot while its in theaters. Otherwise, you’ll likely have some fun with this movie when it comes out on DVD. I can’t really advocate watching this while in theaters.

If you have more questions for me, I’m planning to do a follow up where I get into more spoiler-related stuff. See you!

[sunnysynthsunshine]

Generalized Anger (more anecdotes of my problematic days)

I feel like some of my problematic actions before and after my “skeptic” days were caused by generalized anger.

where I did dislike a thing, opinion or person for a specific reason but because I was so cynical and angry at the time I’d just label them.

for example, in secondary school, I had this annoying horticulture classmate who was a bit of a fascist  he’d joke about jews a lot, he talked positively about nazi’s and while I at the time was a  centrist twat with an interest in researching that time in history it was more in a (researching about what that specific time was like outside of the military and political aspects) way compared to him who was into it in a facist way.

he would never shut up about his fascist ideas and views and this around the same time I was studying the play Blood Brothers for GCSE Performing Arts.

that experience was horrible, people wouldn’t go over the lines, drama was constantly happening, the lazy people were blaming me and the other people who were actually going over lines and rehearsing,bullying was going on and the teacher was doing nothing about it 

and it made me question whether I was even good at acting in the first place.

but the breaking point came one lunchtime rehearsal where we were arguing only for that classmate (who wasn’t in the performing arts class) to start tackling the other in a rough fight.

I had enough,I felt like Lucy in that elfen lied scene where her dog is tortured

Now even though I was a centrist idiot who couldn’t confidently figure out their own opinions yet and happened to be right wing.

Ever since childhood I’ve been an accepting person, anyone of any background, I’d accept if they were a nice person 

I was not a racist....however I was very ignorant, ignorant of what I researched, Ignorant of trump and I believed every word “anti-sjw’s” said even if it was false

that and I did happen to be in my phase of hanging out with problematic internet trolls.

 and I uttered something,I usually would never make death threats but I had snapped at that point, I’m not going to say specifically what it was because it was awful but I’m just going say half of it “...

Go Die in a (I think you can guess what)” 

that was the worst thing I had ever said, it was one of those “saying something you don’t really mean in a moment of anger” times 

Luckily I eventually moved on from that incident and the next year of GCSE Performing Arts involved a fun panto 

because of my hatred for people like that classmate and other classmates of mine with the similar behaviour  I would often insult them calling them “chavs”.

and while on one hand, it’s justified because that particular classmate was facist on the other hand if I was in my classmates' shoes (the classmates who weren’t facists) I’d be pretty annoyed at a tory girl constantly saying “chav” at me.

At the time I used it in a way to describe their personality, not their social class but eventually, I learned how it could be taken the wrong way  and stopped using the term altogether I’ve become more aware of social issues and I’ve realised a lot of that skeptic anti-sjw nonsense is rubbish and so is the class system.

At the time I was more interested in socialism and while I often mention being raised right-wing I didn’t find that out until recently.

I was just ignorant, stupidly edgy and because I’d blindly follow others I’d always go with others opinions (even if they were wrong) instead of my own

I know at times it’s annoying hearing me constant reference the (I used to be a tory!1!) thing but while I was into anarchism at that time I didn’t get really into it until last year and this year. it’s guilt and regret of my past mistakes but that was me then and the me now has changed and learned so much since then 

back then it was like there was two sides of me the side that would consume stuff without criticising it or would blindly accept something even if on the inside I disagreed with it 

and there was the shell, the vampire bat  shell who was shy, timid, cowardly and a bit sensitive but loved meeting new people,while my experiences of bullying and technically being a bully made me pessimistic and cold  there were some not facist people where my face would light up like sunshine when around them. my problem was that I always a follower, not a leader, I couldn’t stand up for myself without being mocked or worrying about what society thought. that made me easy for people to manipulate me without me knowing.

now to quote one of my poems

“there was always a timid free spirit under there now I look back at myself and sneer, I’m here”

I can move on, you can too, The World is full of facists but we can stop them

me and you 

[bluedino15]

One last thing on the issue of using the word Retard

Okay, sorry I’ve made so many comments, put down so many questions, and already made a post less than an hour ago, but I’m getting tired of this and want to get my last point out before I stop bothering with this.

I am a fan of the series Glitchtale and @camilaart. The effort she puts in is super impressive, from drawing and time, to thought and detail. Nothing I am about to say is intended to devalue anything Camila has made or continued to make, (heck, why would I still be subscribed to her on twitch (as BlueYoshi15) and give her money if I hated her?) and I will continue to be a fan of her unless she did something actually evil like murder.

I understand that you’ve been going through a pretty shitty Month. You have to deal with stupid asks every day, people rushing your work despite being told not to, and people who just insult you because they don’t like your series on a daily basis. In addition, you had someone upload your work without permission and in defiance of your requests, and then said person ended up getting your video taken down because YouTube doesn’t work. Your main source of revenue was practically taken away from you, which would drive anyone to a nervous wreck. People acted like the guy did nothing wrong even after you made several videos and posts explaining how terrible things were. You’ve probably gotten anxious because you have lost the motivation to animate for a while, which means no progress on episode 4 (unless it happens off stream). So I totally understand why you would not be in the mood to have someone get angry at you when you said a word that you know as being a standard insult.

The problem is that I think that anger has clouded your judgement. And I can’t exactly blame you for being angry beforehand, or for being angry or annoyed when some people go too far in their responses (such as that “lovely” fellow who responded to Jakei).

But there are some things I want to address. To counter some points I’ve seen put forth by yourself or others.

1) “other people On the internet like Markiplier or Pewdiepie say stuff like shit and fuck all the time and they get away with it”: the thing is that retard isn’t just a nasty curse word. It’s been morphed into a slur (more on that later), something which those you tubers generally stay away from (and if I recall, people lost their shit way more when PewDiePie made those anti-Semitic remarks, and have hated him for some of his older, vulgar rape jokes). If you said something like “shitfucktitscocksblowjobhellcrapinanashole” it’d definitely not be child friendly, but it would also be just be average cursing. The problem is that retard is seen as a semi-slur

2) “it’s the internet, I can say what I want”: I won’t deny that. But if you can say what you want, we at least have the right to try and request that you not, along with some reasons why. Is asking more than once too much? Maybe, but it can also sometime help clarify our point.

3) “what gives you guys the right to curse at me”: again, a slur is seen differently from a curse. Though that said, I think those guys who have no patience and act high and mighty compared to you, or the ones that just say stuff like "wow Cami, way to be a real class fucking act" are being self-righteous assholes.

4) “what’s so bad about the word “retard” if I just use it to mean someone of below average intelligence and direct it at someone specific”: as I’ll get into the next point, that word has a different connotation. Yes, the literal definition just means someone who isn’t as smart as the average person, and that kid certainly wasn’t smart. But in America, the word has an additional emotional attachment that has transformed it into a slur for people with mental disabilities. To Americans, Using it like an insult is like unironically using gay as an insult; it implies that it is “wrong” to be retarded even though that can’t be controlled. Some Americans today see it as targeting people with a mental condition instead of calling someone dumb. To make an extreme comparison, it would be like using Oriental. Technically, it means someone of Asian decent. Culturally, it’s been associated as a word meant to make Asians seem like a lower race of beings. Because of the ugly emotional attachment of the word “retard,” it can’t be taken easily be taken lightly even in your given context. I know how you meant for it to be used, but it won’t come off that way to everyone.

5) “Americans and/or SJW’s need to grow up and learn not everything needs to be how they want it.” I fully agree that The USA is terrible about imposing it’s culture on others. I also think that there are SJW’s who overreact to certain issues. But if being Chilean means the word means nothing to you and you shouldn’t be blamed for using it, then being American can mean the words means a lot to us and we can get upset. Do you have to take our view? No. But it feels rude when you give the impression that my country is stupid for having a culture that believes that word is offensive (though maybe I’m reading too deep). As for SJW’s, just be careful with that term. There’s a thin line between someone who’s overzealous and someone who has legitiment grievances with problems, such as people who might, say, try for equal race and sex representation in gaming

6) “I see people with autism who say they don’t mind at all that I used retard, so others should just grow thick skin, especially considering I wasn’t insulting them anyway”:Yes, I understand that you did not intent to insult people with mental disabilities at any point and that you hold no Ill views against them. But there are people who have been hurt by that word. I should know pretty damn well considering how kids in my troop made fun of me for having aspergers. Having a mental condition is horrible when there are people who do make fun of you for it with words like “retard.” So that word cannot be taken easily by everyone who's been bullied for it. Make a TRIGGERED joke if you like, but it really can be like that.

7) “that kid make my life hell and I need to apologize for using a word?”: no. That kid deserves jack-shit for what he tried to pull. It’s not that we’re worried about how he feels about being called a retard. It’s the casual use of the word that’s the issue for most. And also the fact that you defend using that word casually and seemingly haven’t shown any consideration for the points people who take issue make. But if you deserve maybe some explanatory words, he deserves a kick to the balls.

8) “If you knew the context, you would understand”: yes, you used the word to call a single kid dumb. But, as I detailed above, there are people who are uncomfortable that you used the word outside of it the manner it is considered acceptable (someone who clinically is proven to have a mental problem). I admit that I suspect that guy had a problem, but to call him retarded without knowing if he truly is clinically retarded or not seems wrong.

9) “apparently I need to be some bastion of perfection or else I suck.”: no, that’s not it. I don’t think any sensible person expects you to be perfect. But if they are uncomfortable with you using a word, they do have the right to ask you stop using that word because they don't like anyone, either a star or a random joe using the word like that. Whether or not you listen is up to you, but I don’t think it’s too high of an expectation

10) “You guys get angry at me for using a slur when there’s so much worse in the world? You have crappy priorities”: Pardon, but i don’t see how being offended by word use means I don’t worry about anything else. Heck, I’m a liberal American. I have a contractual obligation to get pissed at my government and country every day. But taking some time to write a post or response does not mean ignoring the rest of the world’s problems (though I personally have probably spent way more time on this then I should).

That’s my lengthy post. I probably assumed a lot of wrong stuff here, accused you of saying things you didn’t and gave some people who disagreed with you more credit than they deserved. I know that there are dicks who didn’t bother to try being tactful or diplomatic. And I also Don’t blame you for initially using the term, as you would have no idea of what it meant when you never heard of it’s reputation before. In addition, it was wrong of people to jump down your throats as if you intentionally wanted to insult others. I get that you wouldn’t be in a good mood to listen to them when some of them acted like assholes. I guess I just felt slightly bothered that you acted like people who disagreed with you had no reason to do so.

Also, while I don’t think you would need to scrub the word retard from you vocabulary, I do have to ask why being asked to use a different word in the future (such as dumbass) would be that bad. But I also understand that it would be annoying to have to subconsciously think of that every time you speak/type.

Look, I really don’t want to be rude or cause stress. it’s just that I see people who are acting as if you’re 100% right, and I can’t help but argue if I disagree.

TL;DR I feel like Cami acted as if there was absolutely no reason to even be a bit miffed, which I disagree with. That doesn’t mean she’s entirely wrong, but I want to try illustrating that there are reasons to not agree with her on this issue.