#i used to post a lot of my art online and ive kind of fallen off of that for a while

[quesucristo]

testing this out. hello :] this is joan doe, one of my characters from a TTRPG I'm in

[the-trth-untold]

now its ur turn. do all of the sweetheart asks.

god jsjsjhdjk im just letting u kno these answers r gonna be BORING but hhhh THANK U 

1. Talk about your first love.

i’ve never been in love, never been in a relationship before. BUT i can vaguely remember my first crush back in 2nd grade. all i can remember was that his name was kyle and he was the only boy who ever spoke to me and my brain just went !!! 

2. What’s the most beautiful song you’ve ever heard in your opinion?

Break My Heart Again - FINNEAS or What Was Our Love All About - Adrian Milanio and Marylou Villegas 

these are just two that i can think of there are A LOT of beautiful songs

3. How’s your heart feeling right now?

fine??

4. What kind of self care is your favorite to do?

i dont really do any self care things?? 

5. What’s your skincare routine?

i dont do any skincare routines either... ik im a monster

6. How did you get to be so beautiful?

u must be blind if u think that 

7. Do you have any stuffed animals?

i used to have over 50 stuffed animals, i would always place them all over my bed neatly but i got rid of them now :( 

8. Best trip you’ve ever been on?

Myrtle Beach, SC because it was my first vacation spot and i was so happy seeing two dolphins close to the shore

9. Favorite thing about your room?

the color of my walls and blankets lol mint green and peach colors

i dont have anything cool in my room

10. Opinion on love?

i mean, it’d be nice to experience it some day and i hope i do but right now im content being by myself

11. Are you affectionate?

if i know you very well i can be, if not im very awkward and will barely make any eye contact with you

12. Who do you look up to?

i look up to people who have struggled a lot in their life, people who can be optimistic in any situation

13. Favorite poet?

i dont read much poetry, but i loved reading some things Emily Dickinson has published

14. Song that makes you happy? How about one that calms you down when you’re in a bad place?

honestly any disney song makes me happy! im a huge disney nerd and listening to any of those songs makes me feel nostalgic.

when im in a bad place, any slow, ballad sounding song can calm me down

15. Do you play an instrument?

i played the flute in middle school but dropped it after less than a week LOL

16. Do you do art? Using what (pencil, watercolor, etc)?

i like doing digital art but im not good at it and i dont have adobe illustrator anymore so i haven’t done anything recently

17. Do you dance? What style of dance?

i cannot dance and no one will make me

IM TOO EMBARRASSED EVEN IF IM ALONE HAHAHA

18. What’s your zodiac sign? Do you believe in astrology?

im a libra

i somewhat believe in astrology, i know there’s more to it than just your sun sign and there are different placements that make you different from the stereotypical traits people use for each sign

a lot of the “things about each sign” can be used for anyone because the responses can be very vague and many people can relate to 

19. Favorite old film?

too many

the shining, the breakfast club, carrie, pretty in pink, etcetcetc

20. What’s your hairstyle?

idk its a mess

curly/wavy and i have hardcut bangs 

21. What weather is the most beautiful, in your opinion?

fall weather, where its like 50 F (or 10 C for all u weirdos out there), cold enough to put on a flannel and boots

22. What upsets you most about the world?

i only have two hands but there are so many cats and dogs. i cannot pet all of them. (IM SORRY THIS WAS UR ANSWER DASHA BUT IM KEEPING IT ITS SO CUTE AND FUNNY AND I RELATE)

23. Are you in love right now?

no

24. Do you have a crush? If so, talk about them!

i dont have a crush lol

25. Do you have pets? Talk about something sweet about them!

yes!!! i have two gorgeous puppies!!! if u wanna check them out u can follow my instagram i post them all the time @ the.moon.atomic

they’re such dorks but they fit my household idk how to describe it they just belong in my house hahha

26. Do you have a lucky number?

i dont really believe in lucky numbers 

27. Have you ever wished on a star? What about on a fallen eyelash?

no, and i never heard about wishing on a fallen eyelash haha

28. Do you believe emoji spells to work?

no???????? i dont even know what that is

29. Do you believe in magic in general?

no

30. What’s the most beautiful thing in life, In your opinion?

when people finally stop hiding their true selves, show their real smiles, and laugh so hard they snort 

idk i just love people, well, most anyway sjsjhzjdsk

31. Opinion on the color pink? What about baby blue?

love them 

theyre such pure colors and they just remind me of newborn babies hahaha

32. What instrumental sound is your favorite?

piano definitely

33. Do you like the sound of wind? What about the sound of rain?

yes! yes to both! i love rain more though, sorry wind

34. Who makes you happy?

my friends, family, and my mutuals 

35. What makes you happy?

listening to music

36. Imagine your ideal life, the life you wish to make, what will that look like?

ohh well i’d be living on germany for starters hahaha

id like to have my own house, maybe living with a best friend

definitely like 5784538902 cats and dogs, i love them 

at some point id like to have a relationship LOL

37. Do you wear makeup? If so what’s your favorite type of makeup or specific makeup product? Favorite store to buy makeup? 

only on rare days ill put on makeup, i only use eyeshadow, liner, and mascara and ive never gone to a store thats just for make up, i just go to a pharmacy lol

38. Do you wear dresses? If so what’s your favorite dress you own?

only if i absolutely have to, the dress i wore for my senior pictures is my favorite

39. Ever been heartbroken? How do you deal with it?

noo, ive never been in a relationship 

40. Who’s your closest friend? What do you love about them?

i kinda really dont have one, not irl anyway

@neo-bangtan @mini-pretzel are my closest friends online, i love everything about u guys

41. Introvert or extrovert?

introvert

42. Do you like MBTI? What’s your MBTI?

im isfj

43. Would you be a fairy, a mermaid, a vampire, a siren, or an angel?

uh idk?? i wouldnt want to be immortal so 

44. What’s the best song a friend has ever introduced to you?

acid jazz singer - the fratellis 

45. Parlez-vous français?

no my french sucks

46. Most beautiful place you’ve been to?

honestly i cant think of any place pennsylvania sucks ahhaha

47. Where/when do you truly feel at home?

home...... my bed...... LOL

48. Does smiling put you in a better mood? Try it right now, you’re smile is gorgeous!

only if im not looking at myself lol

49. Favorite shoe you own?

slip ons or my new balance 

50. Can you walk in stilettos? Do you like them?

N O i am so accident prone i can barely walk barefoot without tripping 

51. Do you feel loved?

kinda? sometimes?

52. How do you express love to those you care about?

just giving them a hug lol or saying i love you

53. Favorite term(s) of endearment?

no ones ever called me any but i like baby, im a simple girl 

54. Most romantic thing someone’s ever done for you?

nothing?

55. When is the happiest you’ve ever been?

meeting new people who share the same interests 

56. Are you happy right now?

im pretty neutral atm

57. What makes you smile?

really awful jokes that ARENT EVEN FUNNY AND TALKING DASHA AND KARINA 

58. Do you laugh a lot?

i guess??

59. What’s your favorite kind of aesthetic?

soft vibes i guess haha

60. Do you want to marry for love or for some other reason (like money)?

i dont see myself marrying but if i would it would definitely be for love

61. What would your dream wedding look like? Do you want to get married?

i dont really want to get married, most of the time it ends in divorce and theres just a lot of paper work and its a hassle i dont see a point in it 

62. Favorite flower?

hydrangeas 

63. Favorite artist?

edgar degas

64. Favorite music artist?

bts lol

65. How kind do you think you are? Is kindness important to you?

i try to be kind to everyone, i dont know if others perceive me that way but i think kindness is very important to me

66. Ever made a playlist for someone?

once and i loved it, pls ask me to make a playlist for u

67. Do you have anything you do to physically comfort you when your sad? Such as a favorite blanket? Or a relaxing bath?

music and a soft blanket 

68. Early bird or night owl?

early bird

69. Morning routine?

wake up, look in the mirror, look away from the mirror, go back to bed. (AGAIN THIS IS UR ANSWER DASHA BUT IM KEEPING IT HHAHAHAHA)

70. Night routine?

shower and watch netflix until i fall asleep

71. What is the most lovely quality a person could have in your opinion?

being humble

72. Do you cry often? Does crying help you get the emotions out? Do you feel better after?

yes yes and yes

im such a cry baby i will cry at everything if u yell at me or if disappoint u im so sensitive 

73. Do you like hugs?

yes but i dont receive many hugs

74. When was the last time you kissed someone?

never

75. Are you small or tall?

small, 5′4 or 164cm

76. Do you like wholesome memes?

who doesnt

77. Favorite thing about the past?

anything that makes me feel nostalgic 

78. Do you ever wonder about the future?

yes

79. Have you ever lived in a different country than you currently live in?

nooo

80. Do you like plane flights? Airports?

ive never been on a plane

81. Sunrises or sunsets?

sunsets

82. The beach or a forest?

beach

83. What time of day do you tend to be in the best mood?

when im sleeping lol

84. Do you push yourself to act together and in a good mood even when you aren’t?

i try to 

85. Favorite kind of tree?

what kind of question is this i dont know anything about trees

86. Do you care about the health of the Earth?

i want to but i dont do anything for it

87. What did you like most about your childhood, if anything?

fieldtrips in school

88. Do you read a lot? What’s your favorite book?

i try to read more, my favorite book is more happy than not 

89. What are you most nostalgic for at the moment?

disney, i just put my christmas tree down and the ornaments are disney characters

90. What’s your favorite personality trait you have?

honesty i guess?

91. List at least ONE thing you love about your appearance.

my eyes

92. When was the last time you truly felt calm, without much of anything to worry about?

after i bathe 

93. Do you worry a lot?

yes all the time

94. The dazzling lights of the city or the relaxing countryside?

dazzling lights of the city

95. Ever changed the shoelaces on one of your shoes? For what reason?

no 

96. Favorite pastry?

??????????? i dont know??????????

97. Do you like doing little acts of kindness?

YEAH

98. How’s your day/night going?

fine so far, i dont have to work today so im just chillaxing 

[thebellwitchblog]

Reasons why my life is a fanfic

I dated my roommate fall semester freshman year of college. I was literally the “And they were roommates” vine.

He was set to inherit part of his father’s manufacturing company, so I would have been pretty comfortable if we stayed together.

Said roommate then started dating the Resident Adviser (an upperclassman over our hall for those of you that don’t have them)

I then got said RA fired cause I'm petty and found out they started shit while I was dating the ex in question.

I got engaged early 2018 to someone I'd been in love with since I met them. But we were only marrying so I could have his health insurance. He didn't know I was in love with him. But then drama happened, so it got called off. 

I'm now engaged to the same friend again, but this time I'm not in love with him. (Edit: still in love with him just in denial)

New years eve party 2019 I finally got with someone I was interested in two years before and then realized he wasn’t that good.

While my mother was in the hospital I found the cute charge nurse for our floor on Grindr and hooked up. Then he caught feelings and I bailed.

Because of my mother being in the hospital among other reasons, decided to do the semester online rather than go back to campus, and a whole lot of fuckery ensued.

Such as reconnecting with three people I've almost dated in the past and finding out they're all still in love with me.

But not being on campus for a semester meant drifting from a guy I had been really interested in dating eventually. Still feel bad about that.

I once dated someone that went on to get... third place in a season of American idol? Then got blamed for them losing 😒😒😒 cause we broke up partway through the contest cause they were cheating on me. (I'm not gonna put their name or even gender out cause I'd rather not be connected to them.)

Also dated another person that a few years after we lost touch went on to be the bassist for a band that became reasonably popular for a bit before fading to obscurity.

My mother's family used to own all of the land that would become Austin, TX. And that was the poorer side of the family.

But because of cousins cheating my side of the family out of inheritances through the generations and then my mother's poor decisions we're now the poor family.

My grandmother's maiden name was Towles, which was originally Towle, as in Towle Silver. And that wasn’t even the main part of the family’s wealth.

A bit further back in my mother's ancestry are the Bell family. If you've heard of the Bell Witch of Tennessee, you've heard of my many times great grandmother Elizabeth "Betsie" Bell.

My mother was engaged to the then-heir-now-owner of Johnson & Johnson at one point.

Mother was a serial fiancee. She was engaged more times than years shes been alive (she's in her 50s) and hardly remembers any of them.

I've been engaged to... 3 different people? Only cause I usually jump ship before they get the idea in their head to propose.

My maternal grandmother found out that my grandfather had two different wives in other states (he worked for the railroad. Ended up being a multimillionaire before he died) and told him never to step foot in her city again or she'd take him to court for every penny he had (she was the first wife and had two kids by him) but refused to ever divorce him.

His horses were mentioned in his obituary but not my mother or her brother. I think only the two daughters he had by his most recent wife were mentioned out of all of his kids.

My mother's godfather was a hitman. And a few of her cousins were part of the drug side of the mafia. But we don't have anything to do with them anymore.

My mothers first husband was abusive. She hit him so hard with a frying pan that the vibrations in it caused her to drop it. The handle broke when it hit the floor.

She repeatedly beat the same husband's head into the bar of a fold out couch so hard that the bar went from bending slightly upwards to downwards.

Mentioned this in another post, but when I was kidnapped by my own father at the age of 6, my mother called said cousins and had new identities, jobs, and housing set up for us as well as transportation and an extraction team set to kill everyone and rescue me. Thankfully it didn’t have to come to that.

Going back to the Bell thing, supposedly my mothers family have been a long line of mediums, psychics, etc. At least one person in each generation is born with an innate ability to see/commune with spirits or get visions.

It's probably partially because of that I ended up practicing magic as well. Being a witch counts as a reason my life is a fanfic right? Lol

First time I went to a beach (while kidnapped, but before it was revealed I wasn’t going to be returned home) I got lost in the ocean. I was underwater for 10 minutes before washing up on shore perfectly fine.

I've fallen through two ceilings and been perfectly fine. One time I fell right next to a set of stairs. Is this plot armor?

Honestly the sheer amount of times I’ve come within a hair’s breadth of dying or, logically, should have died is insane and many of my friends now believe me to be immortal.

I wasn’t supposed to have been born. My mother was prone to miscarriages and due to scar tissue shouldn’t have even been able to conceive anymore. Plus she went into labor with me at 18 weeks, but they managed to stall it till I was born at 32 weeks. 

They thought I had cystic fibrosis when I was a wee baby and thus didn’t expect me to live. Turns out I just had really really bad allergies. 

Some people believe me to be the reincarnation of my grandmother. I look and act just like her, even have the same taste preferences for the most part, am named after her in two ways, was conceived a week or two after she died, and my original due date was her birthday. Which, just like when she was born, fell on mother’s day that year.

I was born in the middle of March in the American South. What began as rain turned to snow as I was born, and even accumulated enough for my elder siblings to go play out in it.

I have a collagen disorder that, while making me extra flexible, also means I'm prone to injuries, have a poor immune system, could spontaneously have an organ rupture, have spinal issues, bad knees and hips, etc. Also causes migraines and could be a possible cause of my mental illnesses.

Almost every best-friend I've had growing up had admitted to being in love with me. The other two or three admitted to crushing on me.

Despite being the exact opposite kind of person you would expect to be, I was at the top of the social ladder in high school. I was openly LGBT, an art kid, and one of the nerds, but because I was fairly charismatic and great at manipulating authority I had the backing of almost everyone both in the student body and the faculty. Anyone that had a problem with me couldn't act against me without having almost everyone turn against them. It was nice.

I have an unhealthy addiction to coffee. Surely that's a requirement for relatable fanfic protags.

[feliciaharder-blog1]

New Blog, New Year?

Greetings Earthlings!

👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽👽

First and foremost, THANK YOU for checking out my blog. It does mean a lot to me that you took the time to peek into the portal of my life here. The site is still fairly new, and I am experimenting with what type of content I want to present here. (AKA which personality of mine am I going to introduce). A lot of people have this ideal image of me, someone who comes across as a sweet, soft-spoken, baby-faced blessed angel that was sent from the heavens above. Which is all ENTIRELY true. However, like everyone else, there are layers to me that I do not tend to showcase to the general population. Again, I’m a little lost with how to start a blog so I guess I am going to just type this vomit introduction....

I guess let’s start with WHY I want to do this.  

PART I: WHY

The biggest risk is not taking any risk. -Mark Zuckerberg

Today, we live in a world that is all about social media, and it is a facet of both our personal and professional lives. To achieve my goals, it seems imperative for me to develop a strong social media network.

As the old saying goes “it’s all about who you know” and it is very important to know how to network in the film industry (or for any career for that matter). Today, we have such a useful tool for being hyper-connected with our fans. It is such an effective way of connecting with people all over the world, and it is easier to stay in touch and maintain the relationship you have with them. 

I would like to use this blog to market myself, showcase my work and use it as a platform to share my friend’s projects.

PART II: WHO IS FELICIA?

I yam what I yam, an dat’s all I yam, I’m Popeye the Sailor Man - Popeye the Sailor Man

(Haha, now the awkward part of trying to figure out how to modestly speak about myself……)

I would like to think that I am cool, comical, semi-collective yet a curious little cat. I am a dreamer with a caring heart. Currently, I am attending film school at Academy of Art University. One of the positive things about being young is that I have freedom for self-discovery. At this moment, I am starting off with a blank canvas as I begin my future endeavors in the film industry.  My mind and creativity require copious time for research, to be curious and to narrow down my aspirations. Finding my passion leads to motivation, which leads to dedication and success. 

When I was younger, I knew I wanted to pursue a career in the film industry, for I grew up in a world of timeless films such as Jurassic Park, Forrest Gump, Pulp Fiction, Clueless, Toy Story,  Austin Powers, Fight Club, and so much more. I was the child who checked out the soundtrack cassette tape to Lion King and later performed a whole play with my sister, stuffed animals and used the recliner chair in replacement for Pride Rock. I knew the passion thrived inside of me, I just needed to learn how to channel it and turn it into my ultimate reality.

PART III: THE FUTURE

I begin with an idea and then it becomes something else. -Pablo Picasso

As I continue my education, I cannot be retained of the idea of fear. Through experience, I know I will develop my own set of unique skills and someday will accomplish all of my goals. I must write as much as can. Write. Write. Write! The more prepared I am, and the more knowledge I obtain the stronger I will be when fulfilling my endeavors. I must learn to be collected when things go haywire and recognize people’s boundaries and be willing to speak up and note when things are not okay. 

My goal is to write the stories I want to share. I need to continue my curiosity of the world around me.  I want to be happy, strong, wealthy, trustworthy, respected, and unique. I yearn for the days where I wake up to a career that I have fallen in love with and go to bed with total utter depletion (with a smile on my face). I want to give myself totally to my work —mentally, psychologically, physically and have an ecstatic sense of having committed myself to my absolute limit.

In order for me to fulfill my goals, I must have an open-mind and indulge in my interests. I need to develop a personal identity and build my production with a brand signature. I must use my energy wisely and continue to learn and ask questions. I cannot be afraid to explore and take “the one less [road] traveled by [because it may make] all the difference” -Robert Frost

Nonetheless, a career in the film industry is my ultimate objective. I have an ambitious appetite for success and to achieve all my aspirations.

PART IV: THANK YOU.

To the world you may be one person; but to one person you made be the world -Dr. Suess

DAD: Thank you for always being my #1 fan, teaching me how to love myself and push for the things I want in life. I think I will be posting a blog dedicated to you later….there are too many things that I can say about our relationship….

JANETTE: Thank you for being a blessing in my life. I treasure the relationship I have with you. You are the person I seek for advice confidently knowing you will always have an answer. I have always looked up to you as a role model. You have taught me so much about what it means to be a woman.

MOM: Thank you for being a not-so stereotypical mother, in a funny way, you have taught me a lot. I would say the most important thing you have taught me is to not care what people think about you because at the end of the day you will always have your loved ones.  Thank you for having a wild side.

MEGHAN: I have come to terms that you are my partner in life. We may have our quarrels, but you never have made me question your love and support. Thank you for being part of my life even though you were forced to be my sister. As the Kardashians would say, “We are sisters by blood, but best friends by choice.” …..yep I just quoted the Kardashians…..

ELLEN: Can you believe we have been best friends for over a decade!? Our childhood friendship is the most mischievous beautiful memory. Thank you for always having fun with me and being there for the MANY stages of my life. Cheers to the many more to come!

JULIETTE: My awesome writing partner/ best friend. Thank you for being so committed to our dream. I am so lucky to have a friendship that meshes into both my personal and professional world. You make me feel strong, confident and driven! I am so excited for the many projects we have been working on! Ugh!! It has been quite the journey!

THALIA: To be honest, I don’t know what happened that made us become great friends. You and I are both strong powerhouses that are destined to kick-ass in the world. I love having you as a sassy best friend. Together, we embrace our inseparable weirdness. We are like two opposing poles of a magnet. Love you.

STEPHANIE H-T: Our friendship has reminded me to not judge other people. Our first interaction was more of us repealing each other and avoiding any real interaction (which is weird because we are awesome together). It wasn’t until a year later, we became friends, and I cherish our friendship very much. In many ways, you remind me of myself, but you are way cooler than I am. Also, Thank you for being Selena’s second mom. I am #soblessed to be your Maid of Honor! 

STEPHANIE M: You truly are a blessed angel sent from above. I have NEVER met someone who is so sweet, caring, and thoughtful. You can make the devil seem like a good person. You truly do have a gift. Every time I am blessed with your presence I seriously feel like all of my sins have been forgiven. You help me reevaluate my life and assure me to never give up! Thank you for being you.

MICHELLE: My goofy Michelle. Yes, you made it to the list (for now)…. Damn girl, I care about you so much. I love how open and honest you are about EVERYTHING! You are another friendship I cherish. You have taught me to not worry about what other people think….even though I sometimes get embarrassed by certain things you say. “We is closing”. Thank you for being my goofball.

TYLER: Thank you for being my rock in life and letting me take up most of the bed. We don’t have the perfect relationship, but I love our imperfections. That’s what makes us --well us. We are a little weird and do things differently, but I am not asking for the perfect fairy tale love story. I want to be with someone who accepts my flaws, challenges me, and supports my dreams. Thank you for being brave, loyal and understanding. I chose you and I will choose you all over again. I am so lucky to have a love story like ours. <3

PART V: GOALS/ 2017

You're only given one little spark of madness. You mustn’t lose it -Robin Williams

Short Term Goals:

Submit my screenplays into a contest

Adopt a Mentor

Produce more short films.

Finish writing feature films.

Finish writing my book with Juliette.

Keep developing new ideas

Create website/blog

Attend events that filmmakers, writers, and casting directors attend.

Engage with industry professionals online.

Add value to people’s lives.

Spend more time outside.

Be consistent.

Long Term Goals:

Start my own Production Company

Write, Produce, Direct my feature films

Win an Academy Award

Become a Showrunner

Win an Emmy Award

Become a Mentor

Add value to people’s lives

Keep developing new ideas

So, that sums up my first official post. I hope some of your are actually excited to see what I have to bring to the table. Like it or not, leave a comment and let me know your thoughts and what kind of content I should post.

Love,

Felicia

PS. I will be posting another blog about my trip to Bali! :)