#i truly cannot think about Hozier rn

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Not to be dramatic but I think my therapist is gonna have a field day with me on our next session

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about: *rosa samuels.

basics.

full name: rosalind florence samuels meaning of name: rosalind = ‘pretty rose’, florence = ‘blossoming in faith’ nickname: rosa, rosie by a rare few age: 21 date of birth: august 6, 1999 hometown: rochester, new york nationality: american ethnicity: honestly idk where the samuels r originally from bt they’re definitely whitey’s from europe gender: cis-female sexuality: bisexual spoken languages: english, fairly fluent in french and spanish as well profession: just a student tbh

appearance.

height: 5′9″ eye colour: blue hair colour: strawberry blonde voice: fairly deep and raspy i’d say........ soft spoken but loud at the same time idk hw she does it jst truly projects when she speaks its impressive tattoos: blue heart inside her ring finger, matching with lana and freya piercings: two piercings per lobe, right cartilage clothing style: big shirt big pant combo to the max. lots of baggy sweaters, usually bright, her fav is her rainbow turtleneck, likes baggy pants a lot too mostly corduroys, has a lot of overalls, doesn’t really like dresses or skirts in the slightest

health.

physical ailments: endometriosis neurological conditions: anxiety, ptsd allergies: dust sleeping habits: used to have a pretty regular sleep schedule Before everything that happened w tatiana now she’s a bit more as the kids say, self destructive but tries to get like at least a good 6 hours if she can exercise habits: she doesn’t rly at all unless it’s like when she attempts to roller blade or occasionally rides her bike but i dnt think she’s ever gone out of her way to exercise sociability: pretty fkin introverted n doesn’t rly like/wanna be around most people.......... she’s that friend where after a sleepover the next morning when the ppl hosting r like ok i planned a nice day fr us :D she’ll already b packing her bag like. i cannot. i will see u in a week. drink / smoke / drugs: yes / no / super rarely

personality.

positive traits: ambitious, daring, eloquent, genuine, humble, independent, meticulous, passionate, resourceful, tough, witty negative traits: abrasive, blunt, coarse, erratic, hostile, judgmental, overemotional, paranoid, ruthless goals/desires: she wants to be a prof really badly, really wants to know what happened to tatiana (rip sis), plans on traveling the world once she’s graduated hopefully with her best friends, she’d like to be more open and responsive to ppl one day bt . baby steps. fears: being vulnerable with people who don’t deserve it, the Male Gaze, men in general frankly >_>, living an unsatisfying life hobbies: rollerblading, painting, knitting, baking, singing<3 get it open mic night hosting queen, in the uni’s planet earth club, student government, thts all i can think of rn bye habits: lots of eye rolling (rude ass), purposely starts to stand with proper posture when she’s trying to ‘talk down’ to someone, plays with the tips of her fingers a lot, chews the skin of her bottom lip, also chews on pencils a lot when she’s deep in thought, openly flinches and/or glares when someone touches her that she doesn’t know well/likes

favourites.

weather: when it’s snowy but without wind chill so the air’s crisp and pretty from falling snow but not overly freezing colour: pink and purple music: a lot of alternative/indie stuff, hozier, florence + the machine, the 1975, also into boy bands/girl groups, spice girls, backstreet boys, one direction, a sucker for them all. movies: dramatic romances tbh, the twilight series being a big fav bc she’s a woman of taste food: stir fry<3, trying to become a vegetarian even tho she’s not even close to being one so she eats a lot of stir fry n will b like i love my vegetarian diet<3 then eat a cheeseburger 2 hours later drink: hot chocolate, red wine

relationships.

father: john samuels, he’s a pastor (blegh) but rosa’s a total daddy’s girl (hate that term jst gave myself the ick) n she knows it, grew up super close to her dad n their relationship is only jst starting to become a bit strained now tht she’s being a bit more adventurous and taking advantage of her freedom but they’re still pretty cool mother: i dnt think . james n i ever discussed wht their moms name is bt either way her n rosa r nowhere near as close as she is w her dad.......... her moms jst a bit disappointed shes not the Elegant Lady she expected of rosa n is a bit put off by her tomboyish ways bt their relationships more We Ignore Each Other than actual confrontations siblings: viktor<3 hey king, tatiana (rip queen) pets: i dnt think they hv any........... significant other: n/a family’s financial status: like pretty . middle class i think

extra.

zodiac sign: leo mbti: istp - the virtuoso enneagram: the investigator temperament: choleric hogwarts house: ravenclaw moral alignment: chaotic good primary vice: pride primary virtue: dilligence element: earth

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tags masterpost

someone asked me to do this and whoever u are im coming 4 u but here u go

* about--- tags i relate to similar: oh worm, worm, me, literally me, god me, me rn, same, relatable, mood, big mood, that’s a mood, yeah/ yup, me 2, me 2 buddy, hard same, god same, aesthetic, story of my life, who took this picture of me in my private home, picrew, how im tryna be, word, so true bestie <3, tbh, writing, drawing

* rip--- negative tag similar: lmao, the struggle, mental illness, ah., yeah., god, god., this is irrelevant, tw, alas

* the happening--- stuff about tumblr’s new “nsfw” ban, or whatever related: hellwebsite, tumblr, i hate this place, i hate this website, i hate this fuckin family, stop, no, tunglr.hell, tunglr dot hell, i hate it here, i fcuking hate it here, everything happens so much

* the end of times--- bad stuff happening in the world related: fuck that guy (trump), its guillotine time babey (eat the rich), good (sometimes good news), usa tag, texas, chicano tag, opinion on main, dear cia this is a joke, psa, political bullshit, what the fuck, yikes, jfc, the discourse, 9_9, politics, the protest, reagan hate blog, uspol, coronavirus, donations, that other thing i always yell about (american schoool system) , cannot emphasize enough how much i hate it here, new tags for individual debate and election cycles

* rekt--- someone got owned similar: get rekt, obliterated, absolutely obliterated, its what she deserves

* ha--- i laughed related: pft, i snorted, i snorted i’m/im sorry, legendary, im crying, holy shit, oh my god, iconic, truly

* i am in love--- something i liked a lot related: i love, clothes, jewelry, makeup, beauty tips, favorite, tunes, want, need, pls/please, goals, ideal, the fires of my jealousy cannot be contained, dance, nice, actual art, good lines, i love him, cool, tattoos, god i wish that were me, a friend

* fun fact--- a fact i thought was fun similar: history, science/science!, science?, useful, adult tag, that thing i always yell about, academic bugfuckery, mythology, folklore, greek mythology, how to, language, languages, tech, plants

* reference--- a general reference for something related: writing, writing reference, art reference

* cute--- something cute related: this is cute, dogs, cats, baby, birb, bun, pretty, flowers, shaped like a friend!!!!! (animals in general), pets, under the sea, a friend, my heart

* story time--- a story similar: kids, that thing i always yell about (yet again), this isn’t a story but i feel like it is, tell me a story, people, poetry, my writing, lines of a form fashioned

* amazing--- usually a meme this is a pure wholesome meme (bongo cat), why did fireflies become a meme, tbh, 2 tru, tru, art, cursed, kill me, ominous bullshit, i, the absurd, thank god, i love this meme, i love this post, i think about this post all the time, legendary, incredible, if i had to see this so do you, cursed, bless, ? , today (for all the daily/calendar-specific memes)

* fandom stuff (etc.): somebody once told me--- smashmouth/shrek related rollin around at the speed of sound--- sonic hey gamers--- stuff about video games in general, but mostly nintendo stuff reel talk--- movies disney--- disney stuff no capes--- super heroes venom 2018--- stuff about venom, 2018 undertale--- u get it probably lmao. deltarune lives here also poyo--- kirby! i love hozier honestly--- hozier’s shenanigans ghibli--- ghibli stuff books--- books billiam spearmint-- the works of shakespear, or something pjo--- percy jackson and related series night in the woods spop--- she ra tdp--- the dragon prince dp--- danny phantom atla--- avatar the last airbender, and the few korra things that don’t fill me with boundless rage war of stars--- star wars hp--- harry potter (now a hate tag) loz--- zelda (perpetually in my brain rent free)(mostly moved to @zelda-posting!) su--- steven universe spange--- spongebob gravity falls megamind over the garden wall alien meme--- anything about or in the spirit of the “what if humans were the space orcs” universe, ft stabby the roomba an idiot sandwich--- gordon ramsey currently in love with this stupid video--- bill wurtz childhood/ i love this show--- mostly cartoon stuff, may contain other things (edit: now there is a separate “cartoons” tag as well, for more recent stuff) dragons--- stuff about dragons rip vine--- vine compilations animation hollow knight twilight—- twilight, but i’ve never really watched the movies or read the books, so it’s just memes owl house 500 miles--- into the spiderverse kipo anime man bdg--- brian david gilbert unsolved--- shane and ryan my king arthur hate continues--- anything about king aruthur and also bbc merlin i love riverdale. i love it so much. i love taking shots thru it it is a superb drinking game--- riverdale, which i have barely watched spn--- supernatural but i never watched it. as w twilight: just memes fandom--- meta! talking about... fandom.

tropes

literature

misc.: village witch tag--- stuff about how i want to be a witch in the woods, or that general aesthetic don’t do drugs kids--- stuff about my experience doing stuff i probably shouldn’t what a wonderful world--- stuff i like about the world * --- something i, personally, have made, written, or commented on (edit: now subdivided variously, but all of them will have *) answered/mutual tag--- an ask that i answered/a mutual's ask i've answered/about mutuals war flashbacks--- triggered a memory god bless--- thanks thank you--- someone said something real well zap--- dash/rb game wizardposting--- just tumblr wizard things™️ sounds about right--- it sure does accurate/that's fair--- a horoscope or something that was on point double-dog dare you--- one of those ask prompts fuk u--- fuk u also/ so/ okay i’m done now/ anyways/ anyway/ well/ i mean/ like--- i probably rambled in the tags it got better/ did i put this here already/ again--- this is already on my blog somewhere but i lost it/i like this version better/i simply Love it that’s fair--- most of my tags are reactions. this is one of them testing 1 2 3--- a personality test usually tag--- a tag game this is a callout post/ this is a shoutout post--- drags and thanks @/ friends--- something i think someone i know would like sorry friends--- i do something badly and it’s probably inconvenient on it coach/ok/sure--- this is a joke but also a reaction stop dragging me/ don’t call me out like this/look/look.--- i was called out and i didn’t like it roygbiv--- LGBTQA+ stuff the saga--- ongoing drama or stories here on tumblr dot com my wife--- the moon (love letters--- art of her <3) hero/king--- someone who did something i like, support, or think is funny college/school--- stuff about college/school, or would be helpful to a college/school student we go forward--- postive stuff mental health--- stuff about maintaining a happy brain later--- something 2 come back  later to do--- see above puns how to--- tutorials etc words--- someone used words well, or just a word a like ah--- something nice hm--- a post that made me go hm 🔪--- stay away from me tag/ has a knife in it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯--- post that made me ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. sibling t—- a sibling mood or about my siblings a horse of course--- horses! will probably be ominous oh worm?--- worm on a string posts perfection--- frogs effervescent--- snails sewing tag--- all textiles/fiber craft spooky/its october--- halloween etc merry--- christmas i still don’t have a religion tag: anything about religious beliefs tags that i stole:--- i liked the tags from the person i reblogged it from/the source! they are not mine

that’s it and if i forgot something. pls tell me lmao. i forget about my tags all the time n i have NO idea how or when any of these will b used but this SHOULD help some w filtering. ideally. probably. godspeed out here tbh

[survivor-rebelsvsroyals]

EPISODE 4: PLEASE JUST GIVE US A SWAP-CHLOE

Why am I still here???

me when i read the challenge: omg i love flash games and states and sporcle, this is gonna be a delight!!! me after actually playing the fucking game: https://youtu.be/FveF-we6lcE

*later* 

love hozier so much. he’s the only thing keeping me alive rn. whilst i waste away. HEY AT LEAST I KNOW WHERE ALL THE FUCKIN STATES ARE RIGHT!!!!

Sooooo we finally get flash games. Of course I was asleep when they were being handed out so I ended up with fucking winterbells. Yeehaw I guess time to go let a million bunnies fall to their death.

okurrrrr. Incase we did some kind of swap I talked to Amanda and RTP about like becoming a trio and who they like so I can make sure I like them so we can all work together better in the future. According to both of them we all like the same people? Being Linus and Seamus. RTP suggested being a trio, maybe making a chat, and then also making a chat with the 5 of us in it which Amanda liked too. We'd probably have to wait until actual tribal to put it into motion. Also Dane suggested to wage 3 points on me cause he knows I'm good at flash games and I hate that he knows me cause I would've suggested the same thing If I was awake for that deadline. It's driving me crazy his dumb bitch ass is here cause I keep missing him.

also fuck this flash game i hate trex i don't wanna go to work i hope this score holds up.

I'm done. I literally just want to give up. I'm just sat here crying because it all feels so pointless. We're gonna swap, I'll get swapfucked and then that's that I guess. Won't have proved that I'm not a shit player lolllll guess that's maybe true. I've been doing terrible in challenges. I'm tired. I want to quit. This is all so fucking dumb.

wow i just told dane about how much i hate myself and he told me i was smart and pretty and amazing...i feel loved for the first time in my godforsaken life!!!! i hope he does not betray me bc i love him. hes my new best friend. dane if u r reading this i love u.

Shout out to all the other royals for DRAGGING MY ASS THROUGH THAT CHALLENGE, my score was humiliating compared to Raffy’s... I’m trying not to call attention to it, LOL. That is karma for me acting like him for that video challenge I’m sure 😳 Sorry my confessions are pretty boring these days... nothing new to report.

I cannot believe we lost again. I'm so over being on this tribe at this point. I just want a swap to happen, but that just means I'll be at the bottom with people I don't know. It's such a double-edged sword. At this point, I'll take whatever comes my way as long as I don't go to tribal for the rest of pre-merge. For this tribal, I think that Trace is the vote sadly. I really like him a lot, but he is outside all the alliances that were made. By voting Trace, I don't betray anyone and keep my hands clean with two different 5 person alliances. Also, Trace must feel like an outsider at this point so if there is a swap, would he be willing to vote with Rebels? I'm not too sure. I guess this is just the hand I was dealt, so I have to deal with it.

tribal number 4 ! woo ! love when i’m probably gonna get thrown under the bus for the vote when i had basically no say in my role in the challenge <3 honestly sick as fuck of raffy dictating everything but i’m not petty enough to vote him for it. dan might be but he’s too emotional for his own good i think. raffy is loyal to me. he’ll sink himself by being so loud later. if i swap with him, chances are the numbers won’t be on my side, and he’s someone that would alienate people much faster than i would. i’d be able to flip on raffy no problem. but in the meantime, he stays in my pocket and dan will have to suck it up ig! i’ve already lied to trace, he’s most likely voted against dan, he and i have no loyalty to each other, and he’s more likely to skate by utr in a swap scenario so he needs to go. i’m not worried about an idol play, obviously, but i can see there being something else. an extra vote or a vote steal or smth. i think i have enough of the numbers that it won’t matter but. definitely something to keep in mind.

So like.... a swap HAS to be coming up soon.. The royals won their 4TH immunity in a row and I'm extremely happy because i truly believe that the first time I don't have immunity, I will leave. HOWEVER, now I have very strong arguments if the swap is happening. There is a VERY tight 6 in the rebels tribe which i clocked since the second tribal that consists of Dan, Asya, Raffy, Chloe, Lachlan, and John. They have all consistently left Trace out of votes and they continue to vote as a 6 (even with a large majority as well. They aren't splitting votes and I'm more convinced that one of those 6 have an idol already due to them putting all their votes onto one person). These 6 do NOT plan on splitting up. I think my best chance would convincing the royals to just stick together for a little bit longer, possibly just to split up a couple duos in there. Just based off of the tribal council, Raffy and Chloe seem to be really close. Raffy is that annoying gay and Chloe is that white girl who think gays are an accessory so he's just YAS SLAYING HER LIFE OKUR! The other duo I think is Asya and Dan, those 2 have been known in the BB community to be relatively close so I wouldn't be surprised if they are working together this game. The only issue with splitting up Asya and Dan is that Amanda (a royal) is also friends with those 2 rebels. So my best bet is sadly teaming up with the two Ryans who have a very obvious F2 to get out Dan, and I know Ryan would be more than happy to get out Dan since Ryan M plays these games very personally and like Dan called him fat or whatever. However I told Ryan M to kill himself before so I might be his prime target before Dan.... so who knows !!!

This whole situation sucks. I really don’t want Trace to go home but there is literally nothing I can do about it. I floated Raffy’s name by Asya because I trust her the most and she just wasn’t into it. It would 100% be a crackhead move but I do trust Trace a lot.... and he’s just nice to chat with (and look at). Trace wants to do Chloe and honestly I trust her a lot too so I’m not willing to roll the dice and lose other allies if the Chloe vote doesn’t pan out. What will really shock me is if I’m booted tonight. That would be fucking hilarious. I feel weird in this game because we constantly have to go to tribal and vote someone out. Come swap time, we’re gonna be fucked no matter what. It’s all such a mess haha

Trace throwing my name to people as if they're actually gonna get on board with that. Lol ok sis you do you I guess. He's in my DMs like ooooh no I think I'm going home, but I fully know he's been messaging Raffy, John, Asya and Dan asking them to vote me and he thinks that he has the numbers for it skskks. Idk what the craic is, part of me is saying he's gonna be messy and pull an idol and I'm going to go home tonight even though he will have majority votes against him. Guess I'll be getting 17th all over again, how fun xoxo

*a little bit later*

I am for the life of me BEGGING that we have a swap next. Please please please can we have a swap. PLEASE JUST GIVE US A SWAP. I would like a SHOT at being immune for once.

*Chloe sitting on a rock as the camera man zooms in*

This round has fully caused me so so many emotions. Last night I just had a whole ass breakdown and wanted to quit because I just feel this is entirely pointless and no matter what happens I'm going to get swap fucked and I probably wont make it to merge. I still feel this way I'm not going to lie. I've entirely lost all hope, I could quit but I also feel like that in itself is pointless. I came here to fight and prove that I am in fact not a shit player, so, here's hoping I can manoeuvre my way through this somehow and come out the other end into merge at least, that would be nice.