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cellophobia · 8 days ago
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i have 4 minutes till i gotta go to bed
not every day is fantastic, but every day is enjoyable in some way. i genuinely did not think i would make it out alive a month and a half ago. i tried killing myself three times in 2024 because i was feeling so relentlessly terrible. i didn't think i could even experience satisfaction like this again tbh.
since getting off that medication and changing providers, i've been SO much better. i had a brief hypomanic episode which was intense but it went away on its own and i have felt so fucking normal since then. i am actually like almost completely sober for the first time in 5 years? and it's so easy? i'm spending less time scrolling, i'm able to soothe myself when i do feel bad, i am going to work and doing difficult chores and indulging in less impulsive, short-term pleasures.
i wish i listened to myself and got off those meds sooner. i missed out on a lot of life. i spent more than a year feeling fucking miserable and exhausted and inadequate and guilty. it was pure anhedonia and it was awful. i couldn't even fully enjoy my fucking wedding day.
i've had severe depression since i was 10 or 11 so i know the routine. like, the depression will come back eventually. but god, at least episodes END. and you know what, i'll fucking take it over the hell i've been through where there was no end in sight.
20 mins after my bedtime. lmao
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from-a-reckless-writer · 4 years ago
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here lads have an angsty supercorp soulmate story
It starts exactly 24 hours after Kara’s departure. 
It’s subtle at first. It actually reminds Lena of the first few days after they met. 
The slow but steady build-up of pain manifesting itself into little things; shaky hands, dizzy spells, chest pains. The pills help, of course. She’s already ingested 5 pills in the span of 3 hours and she’s contemplating taking more. Just to keep the pain—threatening to overtake her—at bay. But what good would she be if Alex finds her passed out on the floor? Veins chock-full of narcotics? 
So, she wills her hands to stop shaking and pushes on. She sends a text to Jess to send a shipment of pills to her home address; tells her to be discreet. 
She can do it. She’s done it before. She can fucking do it again. And she will bring Kara home. 
Because every moment that passes with them apart, means a step closer to Lena’s death. 
You might think she’s exaggerating, but really she isn’t. See, Kara’s her soul mate, not just in the figure of speech wax-poetic sense but literally Kara’s her soul mate. 
But her being a Luthor of course, soul mates wouldn’t come easy. None of it had ever been easy. Why would this one be an exception? It wasn’t unheard of, no, there were a few rare cases of it being recorded. Of course, Lena would be one of those people. Why wouldn’t the universe add shitty soul mate luck into the long list of misfortunes in Lena’s life? What’s one more curse, right? 
See, Kara’s her soul mate but...Lena isn’t Kara’s.
“You look like shit, Luthor. You’re allowed to take a break you know?” 
It’s Alex who breaks her out of her reverie. She prays to God that Alex doesn't notice her shaking hands. She’s well aware she looks like shit. She feels like shit, she doesn’t need Alex of all people to point that one out. But now, Lena notices that the whole place is empty, she didn’t even notice J’onn slip out. She didn’t even notice Alex coming in too, really. 
Brainy had long passed-out in one of the beds in the MedBay in the 2nd level of The Tower, Nia taking up the opposite bed. There was a brief moment when she walked in that made her feel tempted to occupy the third bed and take a break. But then, her chest tightened and a flare of pain lit up her whole insides, it was reason enough to keep her feet moving and back unto the computers trying to pinpoint Kara’s location. 
“I know,” she replies, “But it’s really not necessary, Alex. I’ll rest after.” 
She doesn’t need rest, what she needs is Kara to be here. 
She refuses to look at Alex, fingers flying across the screen. Alex shifts closer to her, lays a hand on her right arm prompting her to stop. Her eyes land on Alex's hand and continue up to Alex’s eyes. 
“We’ll find her, Lena. But you have to rest. I’m serious, Luthor. Come on,” Alex persists, wrapping her hand more firmly and tugging at Lena to follow her. 
She doesn’t say that rest will do her more harm than good. She doesn’t say that if she closes her eyes all she would see is Kara’s body floating all alone in space and the pain would start anew.
First, her chest and then travelling up the rest of her body until all there is is pain. 
She doesn’t say that she needs to work in order to distract her from the pain. 
Instead, she holds her tongue, lets Alex bring her to the 2nd level and tries to have the most fitful sleep of her life. 
***
It gets worse on the 5th day of the second week. It really isn’t a surprise considering this is the longest she’s had to go without Kara around. 
She’s taken mega-doses of painkillers in anticipation for today. Last night was a nightmare, she had to bite down on a hand towel as waves of pain assaulted her, again and again and again.
When morning came, it slowly subsided. Once feeling had returned to her legs she ran into the kitchen and swallowed 3 pills immediately. 
It doesn’t matter if she’s taken 3 or 4 or a whole bottle today, because it will just get worse and worse the longer Kara isn’t by her side. 
And so, she drags herself into The Tower again, because she needs to finally find a way to bring her back. 
She tries to ignore the tightening of her chest even though she’s really having a hard time breathing now. Not to mention the pain behind her eyes that is bit by bit making it difficult for her to coordinate with Brainy’s computations. 
She’s taken to keeping a bottle of pills on her person now. Opting to take them dry as if they were mint candies to keep her tongue moving while programming lines of codes. 
She thinks she’s still being subtle. 
Well, she is.
Until she isn’t. 
She crumples to the floor in front of everyone and a guttural scream of pain breaks free from her lips. 
***
When she wakes it’s to Alex sitting by her bedside. 
She lets out a groan in response to the sore feeling of her entire body. It’s like the time they were forced to do team building exercises all day in Mt. Helena and Lena nearly passed out. 
Alex hands her a bottle of water. She sips greedily before handing it back and wiping her mouth. 
“Hey? How you feeling?”
“Like I wanna die.”
Alex sighs and Lena intentionally avoids her eyes. 
“It’s Kara isn’t it?” Alex says and Lena doesn’t bother with lying anymore.
“It is.”
“How you survived almost two weeks away from her, I wouldn’t know. Two days away from Kelly—” Alex breaks off, inhales deeply and then sighs again, “That’s already torture for me.”
“I’ve had a lot of practice,” She retorts flatly, hands fiddling with the rough edges of the blanket. Alex looks like she wants to say something about that but Lena beats her there. 
“How?” She asks, gesturing to the IV drip. How am I not feeling pain right now? How am I still breathing? How am I still alive?
“The DEO created a special fluid for agents,” Alex reveals, “They distribute it to agents on field assignments. That way, them and their partners don’t die from pain. Good thing, J’onn had a stash hidden here, well, we always thought it would be for me and Kelly. Never expected you, Luthor.”
Lena takes that in for a moment. So, the DEO had a special formula of Dextrose to stave off the pain of soulmate separation and apparently she’s using up all the remaining bags of it. 
And it’s not even supposed to be for her. 
“Don’t worry about it. Brainy can replicate the formula.”
Worry must’ve shown on her face. So, she works on schooling her features again, she knows that Alex is itching to ask her questions but is trying to be polite. 
There’s really no use hiding anything now though. 
“K-Kara’s my soulmate,” she finally says out loud, and she’s always thought that it’s supposed to feel cathartic and freeing but instead it just feels heavy. 
“But I’m not hers,” she quickly finishes, better to rip the band-aid off. She briefly looks at Alex, whose face doesn’t give her anything; mouth a tight line and eyes shining with curiosity. 
She doesn’t know if Alex had ever had a conversation with Kara about soul mates before. Had they talked about it? Had Kara ever mentioned Lena acting too clingy whenever they don’t see each other for a short period of time? Had Kara ever told Alex if she would want a soul mate of her own?
But the look and silence from Alex’s side makes Lena refrain from asking. 
Instead, she starts to tell her how it had hit her the instant Kara walked in her office. How there was a zing! and her brain had immediately screamed HER. That’s the one. She’s the one. 
How when they met eyes and Kara had told her her name it felt like Lena’s soul finally found her home. 
“I asked for her name and I kind of thought she’d wait for me to get out of the office,” Lena trails off and Alex takes it for what it is. 
Their first meeting was all sparks for Lena but then, the conversation kept going and going and Clark had tried interrogating her and Kara didn’t do anything. 
Didn’t approach her afterwards, didn’t show any reaction that might’ve given Lena a clue that she felt the way Lena did. 
A conclusion was easily reached. 
Kara was hers but she wasn’t Kara’s. 
After the initial shock settled in, Lena set to work. Because that was what she did best. Work out a solution to everything and anything that poses a problem. 
How many people have dreamed about meeting their soul mate? How many years had Lena sat there hoping that tomorrow maybe, maybe she’ll finally meet them? She never expected this, never expected her soul to find a home that isn’t hers. 
Staying away from Kara was a non-starter, it’s only been a day since they parted but Lena can already feel the beginnings of pain. Slow but sharp shots of throbbing from behind her eyes then came the shaky hands then the dizziness and then— 
They became friends and Lena made sure Kara didn’t know anything about her growing need to be close to her; didn't let Kara know about the fact that the universe made Lena its most epic punchline yet. 
She agreed to scheduled game nights and movie nights and lunch dates. She never knew the pain of soulmate separation during those early days. Kara was always around; bringing her a salad, covering an L-Corp gala, crashing on Lena’s couch. 
“It was easy, you know? Kara was always there. What are friends for?” Lena mimics Kara and then repeats somberly, “It was easy, Alex.”
Or at least, Lena kept telling herself it was easy. She had it easy. She didn’t have to think about painkiller pills or cutting her business trips short—because the pain becomes unbearable too soon—like so many of her board members do. 
She had it easy with Kara, she can just call and she’ll be there. 
Until, Kara started going MIA. And for three days pain overtook her entire life. The pain made her unable to think clearly, the pills kicking in at the last minute. 
“You haven't been around. Supergirl's been there for me. Person who judges me on the very premise of my last name, but my best friend hasn't,” she accuses because Goddamnit Kara has no idea what kind of shit Lena had to endure with her going away with no warning. 
Logically, Lena knows it’s partly her fault. 
She knows that if she only just told Kara that she needs her to live, Kara would stay. But she doesn’t want anything to change. 
Of course, Kara would stay, it was the kind of thing a person like her would do. 
Kara would take care of her, whatever Lena needed she would give. 
But Lena didn’t want things that way. 
She wants Kara to want her the same way she wants her. 
But no, Lena’s not going to tell her that. She is never going to know. She will find an alternative. So, she injects as much venom as she can into that accusation, “B-but maybe it’s better if I leave.” 
She makes Kara leave. 
She just got her cure back and immediately Lena had pushed her away. The moment Kara stepped out of the door, a dull throb already kicked in her chest; as if telling Lena she was making a big mistake. 
She regretted that night so much, Jess had to drag her drunken body out of her office. 
Then it became normal again and Lena went back to not worrying about body pains again. 
Because a different kind of pain is trying to make itself known. 
A gaping hole in her heart that is entirely unrelated to the biological consequences of being separated from your soul mate. 
She was falling in love. 
She was falling in love and she wasn’t prepared for how it would hurt to have Kara not love her back. She can endure the physical pain, there are pills for that. 
But there wasn’t any type of medication to see your other half everyday and not have them see you as theirs. 
When Lex told her Kara’s secret. Something broke inside of her. Which was saying something, considering she was getting her heart broken every single day that Kara wouldn’t look her way. 
But to know how stupid she’s been? To realize that the flutter of her heart whenever Supergirl was near was her brain telling her it was Kara? 
There was no word for that. 
“I think, I kept rejecting the idea of Supergirl being Kara you know?” Lena huffs out, laughs drily, “Imagine how fucking painful it would be, Alex, if Supergirl was my soul mate. This person who didn’t trust me wholly, who lies behind my back, imagine if she was my soul mate? It would have felt humiliating. My body knew better, though,” she admitted sadly. 
“When Lex told me, all the little painful outbursts every time Supergirl flew away? It made sense. Everything made sense, but at the same time? Everything hurt too.”
She tried hurting her back. Created Hope. Experimented with Q-waves. Foolishly used Myriad. Teamed up with Lex.
But even through all of those? The separation pain never knocked her out. 
Even when they were fighting, Kara was still always around. Even when the world—the fucking multiverse got reset. The pain wasn’t enough to knock her out. Not like today. 
Because Kara was always lingering around convincing her not to join Lex, crossing paths in CatCo, flying into her home even if it was to call her a villain. 
All of those interactions were still sustenance for Lena. 
But this? This separation? This knowledge that Kara was somewhere out there, unreachable. That she could be lightyears away in space and it has been two weeks since Lena had last saw her, it has her every molecule shouting to go find Kara. 
“It’s never been like this before,” Lena confesses, “I thought I could do it without-”
“Help?” Alex supplies and Lena finally turns to her and she feels a hand squeeze her. 
“Yeah.” She mutters back softly. 
“Well, that’s where you’re wrong, Luthor. You’re part of the team now whether you like it or not. We are going to help you, we’re going to find a temporary solution for that pain and then we’ll get back to work and we’ll find Kara.”
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yurtletheturtlehenderson · 5 years ago
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Sick Day || Will Byers x Reader
Requested: "how about a will x reader where poor reader is sick so the boys decide to visit her and she’s acting really affectionate hugging will complimenting him trying to kid his cute cheeks even saying how much she likes him and coming back to school so embarrassed by that and scared of confronting the boys"
Pairings: Will Byers x Reader [you two are some shy adorable little babies]
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The egg timer that you had set went off with a shrill ring. Cringing, you sat yourself up, and reached over turning it off. You had set the timer as a reminder to take the horrific cold medicine and now it was time to take another spoonful. It was disgusting and it make you gag. But you had been recovering quickly so it meant it was working.
Your face was scrunched up in disgust as you poured the gross goopy liquid out into the spoon, and set the bottle aside.
You sharply exhaled, bracing yourself for the foul taste and closed your eyes. It was even more disgusting than the last time and you felt an involuntary shiver run up your spine. Fortunately, you remembered to set aside your favorite juice to wash it down with, learning from your mistake of taking a swig of water.
Setting aside the medicine and setting the timer for your next dose, you slid yourself under the blankets once more. Nestling yourself up in the caccoon of blankets and pillows you had made for yourself on the couch. After all, you had the house to yourself for the day and you figured it didn't hurt to have some entertainment so the TV was on, the remote next to you.
The cold medicine shortly began taking effect. You could feel your eyelids grow heavy, and the next thing you knew you were being pulled from sleep by a loud thud, followed by a string of hushed whispers.
This of course concerned you, given nobody was supposed to be home until eight PM, but felt relief wash over you when you recognized one of the voices to be Dustin's who was cursing under his breath.
"Shit. Shit. Shit. Dammit. Motherfuc-"
"Dustin!" Will hissed under his breath. "Shut up! She's sleeping."
"I'm trying to" you slurred.
Great. You forgot how drowsy and loopy you got on this stuff. It was was easy to forget since you had been home alone while on it. With nobody to interact with, it was harder to tell.
"Y/n. I'm sorry, we didn't mean to wake you." Will said quietly. "We just thought we'd swing by and see how you were doing. We even brought your stuff from school. I took notes for you, so,"
"Really?" You asked, now on your side facing Will, Dustin, Lucas, Max and Mike. "Tha- Thas'sweet, thanks" you cooed, your brain foggy from sleep and cold medicine.
Will chuckled weakly, a genuine smile on his face. "No problem."
Dustin, who was still hopping on one foot, grasping his other was taking sharp breaths.
"Dude, what is your problem?" Lucas asked.
"I stubbed my fucking toe!" He exclaimed.
Max chuckled and Lucas rolled his eyes.
"There'ssome ice in the freezer," you slurred.
"Thanks," Dustin said, hobbling off to freezer in the kitchen.
"Have a seat" you mumbled, and the party looked at one another and shrugged, finding seats scattered across the living room.
Will ended up taking a seat near you, in case you needed anything. Something you appreciated.
"I missed you guys," you pouted, and sniffled, a combination of the cold and your emotions. "So much,"
They gave each other a confused look and looked back at you.
"Man, she's really out of it, huh?" Mike said.
"No kidding," Max said.
"Give her a break, she's been out sick all week" Will said, looking at them.
You smiled tearfully at Will. "You're so nice!" You whined.
Will chuckled, knowing you weren't thinking clearly from the meds.
"Thanks, Y/n," he said kindly.
It was quiet for a short minute, nobody knowing what to say when Dustin came back into the living room with a small baggie of ice.
You giggled, smiling weakly and you called out enthusiastically your friend. "Dustybun!"
Dustin's frowned at the name given to him by his girlfriend, and everyone burst into laughter. "Not cool, Y/n,"
"I like her like this," Lucas said.
"I like you too, Lucas. You're cool." You mumbled, snuggling up to your pillow, thinking he gave you a compliment.
"You're pretty cool too, L/n" He chuckled.
At that moment, your stomach growled, loud enough for everyone to hear, and you frowned.
"Do you want me go get you some food?" Will offered.
Your eyes closed, you sighed contently. "Yes pleeaase," you drawled.
Will got up and disappeared into the kitchen.
"Could he be any more obvious?" Dustin whispered.
Mike elbowed Dustin, shushing him.
"What? Like she'll remember this." Dustin argued.
You had been zoning out and suddenly you burst into a fit of giggles. The others looked at you skeptically but you were in your own little world.
Mike shrugged. "That's fair,"
At that moment, Will returned with a small snack and a glass of water. He walked over to where you were sitting and set the glass of water down on the side table and handed you the food.
"Here you go Y/n"
You looked up at him, he was looking at you kindly, waiting for you to take the food.
You were focused on his face. More specifically his, nose. You slowly reached up and touched his nose. "Boop."
He gave you an amused look, and chuckled nervously.
"Um, do you not want eat right now?" He asked awkwardly.
"No, I'm hungry." You stated confidently, and you struggled to sit up and get comfortable.
Noticing this, Will knelt down on his knees next to you on the couch and adjusted the pillow behind your back.
Your head felt heavy when you sat up, and you realized how sluggish your limbs felt.
You frowned. "My head is so much!" You exclaimed distressed.
"What?" He asked confused.
"You heard her, her head is so much!" Lucas laughed.
"Yeah!" You said.
"My head is heavy, duh!" You sent Will a look that said 'keep up, man' and looked at the others, Lucas in particular like 'can you believe this guy?'
Lucas, who was now thoroughly entertained, nodded along with you, encouraging you.
"But it's okay," you patted Will's cheek. "It's a good thing you're cute."
Will turned pink, and looked to others for help, but they only grinned back at him, eyes widened slightly, obviously happy with where this was going.
"Um, thanks?"
"You're welcome," you cooed. "You're so nice, and cute, an-and nice!"
"Thanks," he chuckled weakly.
"Tha-that's why I like you so much, silly!" You said matter-of-factly.
Max who had already found out about your crush on the boy, bit back a laugh, feeling bad for you, but also reveling in the fact that this was happening.
Everyone else was just as shocked, no more so than Will though of course.
"Um, I- uh," He stuttered, his face now scarlet. "Why don't you just eat a couple bites, and uh, we'll let you sleep some more. We've kept you up long enough. Besides, you need the rest."
You pouted. "But I don't want you to go."
"Yeah but you need your sleep. This cold really did a number on you,"
"Ugh!" You exclaimed suddenly, startling the group, and you gestured lazily to the bottle of cold syrup. "I hate that stuff! It's nasty and it made my brain tired,"
You didn't know how else to phrase it, your entire brain felt sluggish and you were barely making sense of this conversation.
A look of disappointment flashed across Will's face as he looked at the bottle. It disappeared quickly and he looked back at you.
"Yeah, which is why you need rest. That stuff is super strong,"
"It super sucks," you retorted, giggling at your joke.
"Yeah, it super sucks." He chuckled, looking at you fondly.
Will stood up and the others followed suit. "Alright, is there anything else you need before we go?"
You blinked rapidly, your brain still catching up. "There is one thing?"
"Yeah?" He raised his eyebrows, waiting for you to continue.
"A hug goodbye?" You asked, looking up at him innocently, your eyes still droopy.
He seemed taken aback, but complied leaning down to hug you.
Arms outstretched you engulfed him in a hug and as he pulled away you took the opportunity to kiss his cheek, making a small 'muah' sound that the others noticed.
He jumped slightly, and stood up quickly. Looking at you with wide eyes as he lightly touched his bright red cheek where your lips just were.
You giggled mischievously. "Now you're gonna get my germs"
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It was Monday morning, and you were finally back at school. You were bummed that you didn't get to stay at home all day but you were relieved you didn't have to deal with that shitty cold that made you miserable.
Plus you would get to see your friends. You barely remember them coming to visit you, and just like that bits and pieces came flowing back. Your face suddenly went pale.
You told Will you liked him. You told your crush you liked him and doted all over him in front of everyone.
Yeah, no, you couldn't show your face to them ever again. You had to get new friends. Sure it would suck, making new friends was a chore and it would suck never seeing them again but that was the price you had to pay. It just couldn't be helped.
Too bad.
"Y/n!"
And now it was time to leave the country.
Cringing to yourself, you sharply exhaled and tried to physically relax.
"Hey, Will."
"Hi Y/n," He said shyly, shuffling on his feet.
"What's up?" You prayed he didn't bring it up.
"I just, I wanted to see how you were feeling. You seemed, pretty out of it."
You sighed, looking anywhere but him. You stomach had a flurry of butterflies.
"Listen, I'm really sorry. I understand if you want some space for a while."
"Y/n it's fine."
"No, it's not."
"It's forgotten. Look, I know you were on some pretty heavy stuff so, it's fine, really. So you kissed me, who cares?" He shrugged.
You eyes nearly popped out of your head and you grew nauseous.
"I what?!"
Will faltered, somehow going pale and turning pink.
"Yo-You kissed me. Don't worry though, it was just on the cheek. It's fine, really."
You backed up slightly, and turned to face the wall of lockers and buried your face in it. You wanted nothing more than the floor to swallow you whole.
Sure you were relieved to hear you didn't actually kiss him but hell, this was still ridiculously mortifying.
"Oh God," you groaned.
"Y/n," his voice was soft and for the forgiving but you hated the pity.
You only groaned louder and shook your head no hoping that would do something to ease the embarrassment.
"I can't imagine what you must think of me." You sighed, prying yourself off the lockers, but you still refuses to meet his eye.
"Well," he said, fiddling with his hands and looking down at his feet. "I thought- I thought it was kinda sweet."
Your mouth ran dry and you looked at him for the first time and ripping your gaze away from your shoes.
"W-What?"
Will smile shyly, and looked around a bit before looking back at you. He took a deep breath and spoke, the words spilling out of his mouth quickly. 
"What I'm trying to say is, I like you too Y/n."
Your heart started pounding, harder than it had been before if at all possible and a nervous but happy smile tugged at your lips.
"You do?"
"Yeah, I do." He smiled sheepishly and nodded his head. "In fact, everyone has kinda been teasing me about it for some time now," he laughed and you giggled along not believing this was happening.
Your eyes met and there was a silent but mutual understanding. He held out his hand, and looked to you fondly. The same look he had in his eyes when he saw you on Friday. A look he only gave you.
"Want to head to class together?"
You looked down at his outstretched hand and you took it, smiling brightly at him, finding it endearing how shy and sweet he was.
"I'd love to,"
A look of relief washed over Will and he beamed at you. Suddenly, his face scrunched up ever so slightly and you frowned. He brought his other arm up and sneezed into his elbow.
He looked back and you laughed. "Well, I guess you were right."
"What?"
"You did give me your germs." 
The words you had said to him days ago came back to you and you instantly felt guilty.
"Oh Will, I'm sorry!"
He began laughing and you couldn't stop the giggles that arose from your chest, finding the situation humorous. You were also just so relieved at how things smoothed over.
Will caught his breath and smiled genuinely. "It's okay. It's a good thing you're cute." 
You were taken by surprise at his boldness, but then you realized just what he had said. Having thrown your own words back at you from your drunken-like state and you laughed, running your free hand down your face.
"Oh God, let's just get to class" you giggled.
The pair of you started walking when he looked up at you. 
"In all seriousness, even if I do get your cold," He shrugged, smirking. "It was worth it."
The flurry of butterflies in your stomach doubled in numbers, and your heart fluttered.
It was now your turn to be a blushing pink mess.
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caroldthom · 5 years ago
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Hydroxycut Hardcore contains two of the brand’s official key ingredients. Caffeine (caffeine anhydrous) which is also present in many weight loss supplements and most of the hydroxycut range. Caffeine is a stimulant that raises your body temperature acting as thermogenic to burn fat. The other main ingredient Coffee bean extract (C. canephora extract) has the main component chlorogenic acid which is said to be the proven ingredient that helps you lose weight. I will look at this in more detail in a moment but first.
What are the Benefits?
Hydroxycut Hardcore claims to give you the following benefits:
Extreme energy and maximum intensity Hardcore weight loss Suppressed appetite
Can it Help You Lose Weight?
While there may be customers who have claimed some weight loss benefits. Proof is limited according to science and customer reviews. 2 studies of its key ingredients C. canephora extract suggested limited weight loss if you also go on a low calorie diet. I tell you more about the ingredients in the science and ingredients section.
What is the Science?
There are only two recorded scientific studies to back up the efficacy of green coffee the main ingredient in most hydroxycut products.
In one scientific study conducted in 2006, there were two groups tested. One group took in C. canephora robusta for 60 days and lost an average of 10.95 lbs, while the other group took a placebo and lost about 5.40 lbs. Both groups followed the same calorie-reduced diet.
You should be aware however that the weight loss is actually 5.5lbs and 2.5lbs when you take into account the placebo groups also lost weight. So one study showed the ingredient C. canephora robusta helped some people lose just over 2.5lbs in a month.
Ingredients
All products created by Hydroxycut have two key ingredients. These two ingredients are also considered as the most potent ingredients of all its products:
Caffeine (caffeine anhydrous) Green Coffee Extract (c. canephora extract)
Aside from these two, Hydroxycut Hardcore also contains the following:
L- Theanine – an amino acid, it functions as a building block of proteins. Inositol – helps breakdown fat. Cayenne Pepper – helps in thermogenesis. Yohimbe Extract – helps improve weight loss. L-Tyrosine – also an amino acid that helps reduce appetite and aids in weight loss. Trans Ferulic Acid – prevents weight gain. L-Leucine – a protein that helps regulate food intake and improve one’s energy level.
Side Effects
Keep in mind that 1 serving of Hydroxycut Hardcore capsule is equivalent to 3 cups of coffee. Since this product has a high dosage of caffeine, you have to watch out for its side effects:
Nervousness Restlessness Headache Anxiety Tremors Difficulty in Sleeping Increased heart rate
Furthermore more serious cases of health problems linked to the use of Hydroxycut Hardcore have also been recorded over the years. These adverse side effects include (but are not limited to):
Liver Damage Vascular disease Cardiovascular disease
How Can You Take the Supplement
As directed by the product itself, on your first day, you are advised to take only 1 capsule. This is to test your tolerance to the dietary supplement. On your 2nd and 3rd day, you are to take 2 capsules, once daily. On your 4th day and other succeeding days, you are to take 2 capsules, twice daily. Furthermore, you should also take note of the following:
You should not snack between meals. Do not take the supplement within 5 hours of your bedtime. You should not exceed 4 capsules in a 24-hour period. Drink 10 glasses of water daily.
As for safety purposes, this supplement is not for individuals who are under 18 years old. This product is also not intended for pregnant and nursing females.
Cost and Where to Buy?
You can buy Hydroxycut Hardcore on Hydroxycut’s official website. You can also purchase this product on the following websites:
Amazon.com Influentser.com Walgreens.com ProductReview.com
Customer Reviews and complaints
One verified reviewer from ConsumerAffairs.com had expressed her concern regarding the product giving it a 1-star review, according to her
“Hydroxycut hardcore – I’ve taken different versions of this pill. But this version is extremely dangerous. I stopped them after the third day, to try again to make sure it was these pills. Close to vomiting all of a sudden, thought I was going to pass out. Needed food immediately and didn’t care what I ate I was desperate to not feel so awful so quickly.” ~ Angela. Another 1-star review was also given by an unhappy customer on Influentser.com, in her product review, she stated that “I have been taking it for about a week or two now and i kept feeling nauseous all the time. I would vomit and couldn’t figure out what was going on. I know i need to lose a few pounds but not like this. I feel sick to my stomach everytime i take them…” ~ Brandy H.
Amazon reviews
You should be aware that there are many planted and fake positive reviews on amazon and the review below is just one example to see the full article on this shocking practise go here.
Ketoandcorvids 5.0 out of 5 stars Broke my stall! November 7, 2017 Size: 60 Verified Purchase This is one of the most effective weight loss pills I have tried. And I’ve tried a bunch! I am following a ketogenic diet, but my weight loss had stalled for about a month. The scale wouldn’t budge no matter what I did. 3 days into taking this product and I had finally broke my stall and dropped 5 pounds! I HIGHLY recommend this! Very impressed! 48 people found this helpful
SGeb92 1.0 out of 5 stars Not For Me… November 20, 2017 Size: 60Verified Purchase I really wanted to like this product because I’ve heard so many good things about it as well as read a lot of positive reviews. Unfortunately for me, I hated it. I only took one dose so I can’t give a full review, but I can tell you that I only took one dose because I felt like crap after taking it. 30 minutes after taking this product, I was left feeling very jittery, nauseous, and lightheaded. It was so bad that I had to take a nap. Now, keep in mind that I am sensitive to any type of caffeine or stimulant and I also suffer from anxiety so that could be why I had such terrible side effects from this. Like I said, I’ve heard many great things about this product, it just didn’t end up working for me. 7 people found this helpful.
Pros and Cons
Pros May boost your energy if you can cope with the side effects Sorry I could not think of any
Cons Packed with caffeine causing many side effects The other main ingredient green coffee offers limited weight loss
Final Verdict
Hydroxycut Hardcore is one of the most popular hydroxycut products but owes this success more to expert promotion rather than wonderful results or effective ingredients. Hardcore is stuffed with caffeine and many customers have complained about feeling “jittery” and having “heart palpatations” This supplement does not feature in the most recommended list of diet pills due to concerns about the side effects and poor efficacy.
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Hydroxycut Hardcore Guide
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Hydroxycut Hardcore – Review Guide
Everything you ever needed to know about Hydroxycut Hardcore 2020 (an independent review based on science). How quickly does it work? How does it compare to the best weight loss supplements on the market? What if any are the side effects and a lot more besides. The main hydroxycut guide can be found HERE and all the individual product reviews go HERE. For the privacy go HERE.
It is so damn tiring!
The constant dieting, succumbing having to trudge all back to the start line
The then your told you should exercise…. REALLY?
How many people do you know would cut their food down and then lob a big rucksack on go running around the park?
I don’t know about you but if i am on fire I don’t care how The flames are dowsed as long as I don’t feel shitty and waste my money.
The problem is diet pills are so health conscious now they have got politically correct! And if anything they are less effective than they were yesteryear.
I remember the days when people were happy to lose limbs to get a tight butt, The risk of death or your skin turning yellow was worth the beach parties and admiring looks!
I digress and perhaps exaggerate
Tumblr media
But it is true to say that the more potent diet pills of yesteryear have largely been replaced by diet pills that can help you lose 0.11111 lbs a year if you also run a marathon every day !
I have news for you all dieting pills have some possible side effects but FDA does a good job weeding out the harmful ones and list the prohibited weight loss pills.
Table Of Contents
What is the Supplement?
How Does it Work?
What are the Benefits?
Can it Help You Lose Weight?
What is the Science?
Ingredients
Side Effects
How Can You Take the Supplement
Cost and Where to Buy?
Pros and Cons
Final Verdict
DIET PILLS ARE NOT THE BEST OPTION!
We all know that a healthy diet, exercise and will power are best
BUT if you have no problem losing a limb and turning yellow we have listed The best POTENT pills to give you a head start in our main review.
So unto hydroxycut hardcore one of most popular hydroxycut products on the market is it best option for you? And more importantly did it into our prestigious list of best dietary supplements?
Let’s take a dip and find out.
What is the Supplement?
Hydroxycut Hardcore says it “DELIVERS EXTREME ENERGY & MAXIMUM INTENSITY” and AMPLIFIED THERMOGENESIS – (Invokes a powerful state of thermogenesis in the body to help fire up your metabolic rate). Which basically means in simple language that it is a stimulant fat burner that is high in caffeine.. Sounds a lot less sexy now doesn’t it!
How Does it Work?
Hydroxycut Hardcore contains two of the brand’s official key ingredients. Caffeine (caffeine anhydrous) which is also present in many weight loss supplements and most of the hydroxycut range. Caffeine is a stimulant that raises your body temperature acting as thermogenic to burn fat. The other main ingredient Coffee bean extract (C. canephora extract) has the main component chlorogenic acid which is said to be the proven ingredient that helps you lose weight. I will look at this in more detail in a moment but first.
What are the Benefits?
Hydroxycut Hardcore claims to give you the following benefits:
Extreme energy and maximum intensity Hardcore weight loss Suppressed appetite
Can it Help You Lose Weight?
While there may be customers who have claimed some weight loss benefits. Proof is limited according to science and customer reviews. 2 studies of its key ingredients C. canephora extract suggested limited weight loss if you also go on a low calorie diet. I tell you more about the ingredients in the science and ingredients section.
What is the Science?
There are only two recorded scientific studies to back up the efficacy of green coffee the main ingredient in most hydroxycut products.
In one scientific study conducted in 2006, there were two groups tested. One group took in C. canephora robusta for 60 days and lost an average of 10.95 lbs, while the other group took a placebo and lost about 5.40 lbs. Both groups followed the same calorie-reduced diet.
You should be aware however that the weight loss is actually 5.5lbs and 2.5lbs when you take into account the placebo groups also lost weight. So one study showed the ingredient C. canephora robusta helped some people lose just over 2.5lbs in a month.
Ingredients
All products created by Hydroxycut have two key ingredients. These two ingredients are also considered as the most potent ingredients of all its products:
Caffeine (caffeine anhydrous) Green Coffee Extract (c. canephora extract)
Aside from these two, Hydroxycut Hardcore also contains the following:
L- Theanine – an amino acid, it functions as a building block of proteins. Inositol – helps breakdown fat. Cayenne Pepper – helps in thermogenesis. Yohimbe Extract – helps improve weight loss. L-Tyrosine – also an amino acid that helps reduce appetite and aids in weight loss. Trans Ferulic Acid – prevents weight gain. L-Leucine – a protein that helps regulate food intake and improve one’s energy level.
Side Effects
Keep in mind that 1 serving of Hydroxycut Hardcore capsule is equivalent to 3 cups of coffee. Since this product has a high dosage of caffeine, you have to watch out for its side effects:
Nervousness Restlessness Headache Anxiety Tremors Difficulty in Sleeping Increased heart rate
Furthermore more serious cases of health problems linked to the use of Hydroxycut Hardcore have also been recorded over the years. These adverse side effects include (but are not limited to):
Liver Damage Vascular disease Cardiovascular disease
How Can You Take the Supplement
As directed by the product itself, on your first day, you are advised to take only 1 capsule. This is to test your tolerance to the dietary supplement. On your 2nd and 3rd day, you are to take 2 capsules, once daily. On your 4th day and other succeeding days, you are to take 2 capsules, twice daily. Furthermore, you should also take note of the following:
You should not snack between meals. Do not take the supplement within 5 hours of your bedtime. You should not exceed 4 capsules in a 24-hour period. Drink 10 glasses of water daily.
As for safety purposes, this supplement is not for individuals who are under 18 years old. This product is also not intended for pregnant and nursing females.
Cost and Where to Buy?
You can buy Hydroxycut Hardcore on Hydroxycut’s official website. You can also purchase this product on the following websites:
Amazon.com Influentser.com Walgreens.com ProductReview.com
Customer Reviews and complaints
One verified reviewer from ConsumerAffairs.com had expressed her concern regarding the product giving it a 1-star review, according to her
“Hydroxycut hardcore – I’ve taken different versions of this pill. But this version is extremely dangerous. I stopped them after the third day, to try again to make sure it was these pills. Close to vomiting all of a sudden, thought I was going to pass out. Needed food immediately and didn’t care what I ate I was desperate to not feel so awful so quickly.” ~ Angela. Another 1-star review was also given by an unhappy customer on Influentser.com, in her product review, she stated that “I have been taking it for about a week or two now and i kept feeling nauseous all the time. I would vomit and couldn’t figure out what was going on. I know i need to lose a few pounds but not like this. I feel sick to my stomach everytime i take them…” ~ Brandy H.
Amazon reviews
You should be aware that there are many planted and fake positive reviews on amazon and the review below is just one example to see the full article on this shocking practise go here.
Ketoandcorvids 5.0 out of 5 stars Broke my stall! November 7, 2017 Size: 60 Verified Purchase This is one of the most effective weight loss pills I have tried. And I’ve tried a bunch! I am following a ketogenic diet, but my weight loss had stalled for about a month. The scale wouldn’t budge no matter what I did. 3 days into taking this product and I had finally broke my stall and dropped 5 pounds! I HIGHLY recommend this! Very impressed! 48 people found this helpful
SGeb92 1.0 out of 5 stars Not For Me… November 20, 2017 Size: 60Verified Purchase I really wanted to like this product because I’ve heard so many good things about it as well as read a lot of positive reviews. Unfortunately for me, I hated it. I only took one dose so I can’t give a full review, but I can tell you that I only took one dose because I felt like crap after taking it. 30 minutes after taking this product, I was left feeling very jittery, nauseous, and lightheaded. It was so bad that I had to take a nap. Now, keep in mind that I am sensitive to any type of caffeine or stimulant and I also suffer from anxiety so that could be why I had such terrible side effects from this. Like I said, I’ve heard many great things about this product, it just didn’t end up working for me. 7 people found this helpful.
Pros and Cons
Pros May boost your energy if you can cope with the side effects Sorry I could not think of any
Cons Packed with caffeine causing many side effects The other main ingredient green coffee offers limited weight loss
Final Verdict
Hydroxycut Hardcore is one of the most popular hydroxycut products but owes this success more to expert promotion rather than wonderful results or effective ingredients. Hardcore is stuffed with caffeine and many customers have complained about feeling “jittery” and having “heart palpatations” This supplement does not feature in the most recommended list of diet pills due to concerns about the side effects and poor efficacy.
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Hydroxycut Hardcore Guide
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Hydroxycut Hardcore - Review Guide
Everything you ever needed to know about Hydroxycut Hardcore 2020 (an independent review based on science). How quickly does it work? How does it compare to the best weight loss supplements on the market? What if any are the side effects and a lot more besides. The main hydroxycut guide can be found HERE and all the individual product reviews go HERE. For the privacy go HERE.
It is so damn tiring!
The constant dieting, succumbing having to trudge all back to the start line
The then your told you should exercise…. REALLY?
How many people do you know would cut their food down and then lob a big rucksack on go running around the park?
I don’t know about you but if i am on fire I don’t care how The flames are dowsed as long as I don’t feel shitty and waste my money.
The problem is diet pills are so health conscious now they have got politically correct! And if anything they are less effective than they were yesteryear.
I remember the days when people were happy to lose limbs to get a tight butt, The risk of death or your skin turning yellow was worth the beach parties and admiring looks!
I digress and perhaps exaggerate
Tumblr media
But it is true to say that the more potent diet pills of yesteryear have largely been replaced by diet pills that can help you lose 0.11111 lbs a year if you also run a marathon every day !
I have news for you all dieting pills have some possible side effects but FDA does a good job weeding out the harmful ones and list the prohibited weight loss pills.
Table Of Contents
What is the Supplement?
How Does it Work?
What are the Benefits?
Can it Help You Lose Weight?
What is the Science?
Ingredients
Side Effects
How Can You Take the Supplement
Cost and Where to Buy?
Pros and Cons
Final Verdict
DIET PILLS ARE NOT THE BEST OPTION!
We all know that a healthy diet, exercise and will power are best
BUT if you have no problem losing a limb and turning yellow we have listed The best POTENT pills to give you a head start in our main review.
So unto hydroxycut hardcore one of most popular hydroxycut products on the market is it best option for you? And more importantly did it into our prestigious list of best dietary supplements?
Let’s take a dip and find out.
What is the Supplement?
Hydroxycut Hardcore says it “DELIVERS EXTREME ENERGY & MAXIMUM INTENSITY” and AMPLIFIED THERMOGENESIS – (Invokes a powerful state of thermogenesis in the body to help fire up your metabolic rate). Which basically means in simple language that it is a stimulant fat burner that is high in caffeine.. Sounds a lot less sexy now doesn’t it!
How Does it Work?
Hydroxycut Hardcore contains two of the brand’s official key ingredients. Caffeine (caffeine anhydrous) which is also present in many weight loss supplements and most of the hydroxycut range. Caffeine is a stimulant that raises your body temperature acting as thermogenic to burn fat. The other main ingredient Coffee bean extract (C. canephora extract) has the main component chlorogenic acid which is said to be the proven ingredient that helps you lose weight. I will look at this in more detail in a moment but first.
What are the Benefits?
Hydroxycut Hardcore claims to give you the following benefits:
Extreme energy and maximum intensity Hardcore weight loss Suppressed appetite
Can it Help You Lose Weight?
While there may be customers who have claimed some weight loss benefits. Proof is limited according to science and customer reviews. 2 studies of its key ingredients C. canephora extract suggested limited weight loss if you also go on a low calorie diet. I tell you more about the ingredients in the science and ingredients section.
What is the Science?
There are only two recorded scientific studies to back up the efficacy of green coffee the main ingredient in most hydroxycut products.
In one scientific study conducted in 2006, there were two groups tested. One group took in C. canephora robusta for 60 days and lost an average of 10.95 lbs, while the other group took a placebo and lost about 5.40 lbs. Both groups followed the same calorie-reduced diet.
You should be aware however that the weight loss is actually 5.5lbs and 2.5lbs when you take into account the placebo groups also lost weight. So one study showed the ingredient C. canephora robusta helped some people lose just over 2.5lbs in a month.
Ingredients
All products created by Hydroxycut have two key ingredients. These two ingredients are also considered as the most potent ingredients of all its products:
Caffeine (caffeine anhydrous) Green Coffee Extract (c. canephora extract)
Aside from these two, Hydroxycut Hardcore also contains the following:
L- Theanine – an amino acid, it functions as a building block of proteins. Inositol – helps breakdown fat. Cayenne Pepper – helps in thermogenesis. Yohimbe Extract – helps improve weight loss. L-Tyrosine – also an amino acid that helps reduce appetite and aids in weight loss. Trans Ferulic Acid – prevents weight gain. L-Leucine – a protein that helps regulate food intake and improve one’s energy level.
Side Effects
Keep in mind that 1 serving of Hydroxycut Hardcore capsule is equivalent to 3 cups of coffee. Since this product has a high dosage of caffeine, you have to watch out for its side effects:
Nervousness Restlessness Headache Anxiety Tremors Difficulty in Sleeping Increased heart rate
Furthermore more serious cases of health problems linked to the use of Hydroxycut Hardcore have also been recorded over the years. These adverse side effects include (but are not limited to):
Liver Damage Vascular disease Cardiovascular disease
How Can You Take the Supplement
As directed by the product itself, on your first day, you are advised to take only 1 capsule. This is to test your tolerance to the dietary supplement. On your 2nd and 3rd day, you are to take 2 capsules, once daily. On your 4th day and other succeeding days, you are to take 2 capsules, twice daily. Furthermore, you should also take note of the following:
You should not snack between meals. Do not take the supplement within 5 hours of your bedtime. You should not exceed 4 capsules in a 24-hour period. Drink 10 glasses of water daily.
As for safety purposes, this supplement is not for individuals who are under 18 years old. This product is also not intended for pregnant and nursing females.
Cost and Where to Buy?
You can buy Hydroxycut Hardcore on Hydroxycut’s official website. You can also purchase this product on the following websites:
Amazon.com Influentser.com Walgreens.com ProductReview.com
Customer Reviews and complaints
One verified reviewer from ConsumerAffairs.com had expressed her concern regarding the product giving it a 1-star review, according to her
“Hydroxycut hardcore – I’ve taken different versions of this pill. But this version is extremely dangerous. I stopped them after the third day, to try again to make sure it was these pills. Close to vomiting all of a sudden, thought I was going to pass out. Needed food immediately and didn’t care what I ate I was desperate to not feel so awful so quickly.” ~ Angela. Another 1-star review was also given by an unhappy customer on Influentser.com, in her product review, she stated that “I have been taking it for about a week or two now and i kept feeling nauseous all the time. I would vomit and couldn’t figure out what was going on. I know i need to lose a few pounds but not like this. I feel sick to my stomach everytime i take them…” ~ Brandy H.
Amazon reviews
You should be aware that there are many planted and fake positive reviews on amazon and the review below is just one example to see the full article on this shocking practise go here.
Ketoandcorvids 5.0 out of 5 stars Broke my stall! November 7, 2017 Size: 60 Verified Purchase This is one of the most effective weight loss pills I have tried. And I’ve tried a bunch! I am following a ketogenic diet, but my weight loss had stalled for about a month. The scale wouldn’t budge no matter what I did. 3 days into taking this product and I had finally broke my stall and dropped 5 pounds! I HIGHLY recommend this! Very impressed! 48 people found this helpful
SGeb92 1.0 out of 5 stars Not For Me… November 20, 2017 Size: 60Verified Purchase I really wanted to like this product because I’ve heard so many good things about it as well as read a lot of positive reviews. Unfortunately for me, I hated it. I only took one dose so I can’t give a full review, but I can tell you that I only took one dose because I felt like crap after taking it. 30 minutes after taking this product, I was left feeling very jittery, nauseous, and lightheaded. It was so bad that I had to take a nap. Now, keep in mind that I am sensitive to any type of caffeine or stimulant and I also suffer from anxiety so that could be why I had such terrible side effects from this. Like I said, I’ve heard many great things about this product, it just didn’t end up working for me. 7 people found this helpful.
Pros and Cons
Pros May boost your energy if you can cope with the side effects Sorry I could not think of any
Cons Packed with caffeine causing many side effects The other main ingredient green coffee offers limited weight loss
Final Verdict
Hydroxycut Hardcore is one of the most popular hydroxycut products but owes this success more to expert promotion rather than wonderful results or effective ingredients. Hardcore is stuffed with caffeine and many customers have complained about feeling “jittery” and having “heart palpatations” This supplement does not feature in the most recommended list of diet pills due to concerns about the side effects and poor efficacy.
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Just my thoughts on death note NETFLIX movie
So i watched the death note movie last night and GOOD LORD it was bad I mean if i had never seen the original I might have actually liked it but since I have there was so many plot holes and scences were missing most not even all of charters were off and a bunch of other stuff
(I’M CURRENTLY REWATCHING THE ORIGINAL SERIES )
Side note sorry for the spelling errors and missing words I wrote all of these at 12-3 in the morning
Holy shit this is so American right off the bat
3 cop cars lights blazing with in the first minute
Pft light Turner ( is he related to timmy Turner from fairy odd parents
Kay so misa is a cheerleader now ?kool I guess
Light Turner:that smart guy who dose other people’s math home work
Creeper stop looking at the cheerleaders creep
So misa is the head bitch of the cheer team?
In case if you forgot where the movie took place, there is a highschool/collage football team practicing with the cheerleaders neer by
Oh misa smokes now also during practice?also also where the hell did the cigeret come from and how is fit already lit?
Boy notices girl (I bet they are going to do it later on in the movie ()
“Fuck I think she likes me even though we probley never met before ” look
Edgy title sequences with flashing different colours
+ Roll credits
None of the T’s are side ways nor upside down
Oh shit rave time
Oh shit sudden winds
Did she inhale he cigeret ?
Oh geez the note book has fallen from the sky
Oh shit right its right beside me
Let’s grab it
Roll credits
Now it’s raining suddenly everyone run away
Bullies sucks
Classic I’m gonna beat up up and steal your money
Girl tries to be tough only to be pushed by the bully and guy yells out after catching her “DON’T TOUCH HER”
OH SHIT SMART GUY HAD BEEN HANDING OUT ANSWERS TO PEOPLE
smart guy tries to make the principal see the bigger picture of things for students
Why did light lose his mom at a young age
In the anime he had his mother why the odd detail of a lost one to justify the guy HANDING out answers to people and to be edgy ????
Kool girl can’t talk to the edgy guy of the school
Random ass jumpscare Falling asleep in detention cliques
Why did you have to push all the books off the desk you could have placed them on the desk either side of you? Also why all the books anyways ?
At least they kept the rules of the book right
Why dose the writing end here ?
Holy fuck flashing lights,damn it the power when out why?
WHAT THE FUCK MARBLES
Why are there millions of marble in here in a glass jar some where back there
“Anyone there” clique
What’s with the millions of jars in the front or back of the class??
WHAT or who knocked this over?
AH BIG SPIKY THING
HOLY FUCK IT LOOKED AT ME
*nocks a shelf down by falling into it from fear*
Random winds indoors
Locked door when shits going down clique
Light Turner is a little bitch
Screams for a whole minute quite to look at shit flying around the class room screams like a little bitch again
Oh shit everything stoped and this room is a mess I’m going to be untroubled for this
My Apple has been ate *dun dun dun*
Ah A DISIMBODY VOICE
Main character thinks they are sleeping in a odd senerior clique
“Eight foot demon lookin mother fucker” -light Turner
Was just freaking out a second ago but listens to what the “Eight foot demon lookin mother ” has to say and dose the thing he says to do
Oh shit that chick is getting bullied what do I do?
“Let’s kill them by writing their name in this ‘death note ”
God damn I know you want this person to die but by decapations that’s a little fucked up mate
I was right God damn, that’s disturbing! A fucking lader to the face , it didn’t even take the head completely off just where the mouth separates
Also the girl and that guy now needs some deep mentle health help now that shits gonna stay with them forever now
OH DAMN SON THAT’S NOT RIGHT
Oh shit I was talking to the demon lookin mother fucker and now he gone but the powers back on and the class room is a mess
-12 minute mark
Oh look the book I just used to kill that dude like just pick this back up and act like nothing happened
Awkward dinner with my father (OH shit wait where’s lights little sis?) With a earth quake happening at the same time
Mubble mubble? Mumble . Mumble mumble mumble? Mumble mumble? JUST SPEAK CLEARLY PLEASE
SO the mom got ran over and died and apparently talking about this makes light angry as hell?
Time to use the death note to write that guys name down or wait what don’t trust ryuk?
AH DEMON IN MY CLOSET
Let’s toss a Apple in here
“2 days? Wow your fingers are huge ”
Causal steals evidence from the folder of your dead mom’s case
Out of pure spite I’m gonna kill the one who killed my mother
That felt good
WHAT THE FUCK Hollywood I get it more blood the better but god damn vomitting blood after falling neck first onto a knife that’s just gross and yes shocking but ewwwwww
Fuck ryuk looks fucking creepy as fuck,
Also why is ryuk so sinnicual in this in the anime he’s just like to as you want I’ll be right here eating all of the apples
Let’s read this thing out in public no one will notice except my crush
Cheer leader girl is kinda messed up
Oh wow your name is Mia,U COULD HAVE KEPT THE NAME MISA
-22 minute mark
“ I can’t tell you what this is but if you really want to know lemme tell you all about it”
Girl thinks u are batshit crazy son
Out of everything they kept the hostage scene ???
Oh damn you killed a man I believe everything you say and do now
Back to the whole sub plot of mommy died now I’m emotionally dead inside and now I have this book I can feel something now
“ Let us make a new world light”
Takes the lady up to his room and I told you they were gonna fuck
“Lets kill every one bad to fine the good”
“ be named kira” “why kira ? What dose it mean ?” “I means light in Celtic or Russian like that ” ^— it means killer in the translation to English or to (*キラキラ*) shine/glitter in japanese you twat also Russian yes but it means like the sun And no way is it even close to having a Celtic background it’s Greek meaning lady
Okay they kept the prison scene but to a minimum
Why the fuck is L at the scene of the crime??? Why didn’t they cast him like the fans wanted, who cares about a diverse cast , we want the quirks of the actual charter to be shown
If they cut out the whole tennis since I’m gonna be sad and if they do the whole tough black guy thing I’m gonna be really upset with the character
What’s with the random ass song ???
No really wtf
A SINGLE SONG PUTS THE GREATEST DETIVE TO LIVE ASLEEP DON’T LET ANYONE KNOW ABOUT IT
WHERE’S MY OLD MAN WATARI WHAMMY ?
dose the dad even have a name or naw
Wahhh that was watari singing that random add song??? Why is he japanese he was a English gentalman(kinda)in the anime ????
WHAT NO WHY?
L IS A CLEAN FREAK NO CANDY IS SPLIT NO WHERE WHY YOU NO SIT CORRECT KNEES TO YOUR CHIN FEET ON THE FLOOR GOD DAME IT
but hey you have the room of which they meet in so I guess that’s cool or are you gonna gloss over that and not show the task force guys ?
Apparently talking about killing people gives Mia a boner good to know
NO TASK FORCE ? THE FUCK
JAMES TURNER WHY?????
OMG JUST EAT THE ICE CREAM YOU DICK
L WHAT NO THIS ISN’T HOW THAT HAPPENED THE PUT A FAKE
WHAT ABOUT THE SHINIGAMI EYES MOTHER DUCKED? WHERE S REM? MISA SHINIGMA WHAT ABOUT HER HUH? YOU MISSES A CRUSAL PLOT POINT DUMBASSES
ALSO IT WAS OVER A LEADERS CONFRENACE OF HEAD POLICE FORCE PEOPLE NOT A TYPICAL ONE COME ALL REPORTER MEET AND GREET
NO VOICE MODOFACATIONS EAITHER??? REALLY?
Hahaha they kept the stalking of light
WHAT THE FUCK happened
Let’s do all live interviews with a mass killer on the lose
Let’s drop all of the f bombs man screw ratings
WHO MADE RYUK THE GOD OF ALL SHINIGMAS? DID THEY NOT LOOK AT DEATH NOTE THIRTEEN? ALSO WHO MADE THIS BOOK?
LET’S JUST BE DICKS IN PUBLIC TO EACH OTHER
UM WHAT IS HAPPING
NO NO NO NO NO NO
THE DEATH NOTE DOSENT WORK LIKE THAT YO,U CAN’T KILL OFF THE ONE CHARATER THAT LEADS TO SOMETHING IMPORTANT ASLO MIA YOU MORE USELESS THAN THE CHARTER MISA AT LEAST SHE HAD THE SHINIGAMI EYES AND HAD A NPTE BOOK OF HER OWN AND ACTUALLY DID THINGS
WHAT THERE IS NO RULE 89 Its FAKE you idiot There’s only 6ish rules and they have the simplest of loop holds but misa can see them too she knows more than you do about the death note light Turner
Uh no what the hell is st.martains orphanage in Montauk IT WAS WHAMMYS ORPHANAGE IN LONDON ENGLAND WHERE MELLO,MATT AND N AND I GUESS BB LIVED AND WORKED ON BECOMING THE NEXT L BUT WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS SHIT
??? Rochester wards what the hell is that??? I mean yeah sure yeah you got that part right about becoming great detectives but it was only yo become a sucesor to L Because he had a few months to live or whatever the time ACTUALly was
????? Now this is bull shit locking children away to make them stay sane? To be come a great deftective and the rest of which you are saying is shit , La in his thirty or so cause MATT and mello and near are all in their 20s or a wee bit older
Fuck this movie man
L looks so week in this like yeah watari is basically L’S father and what not but the guy I know and looked up to is being please as a guy who can’t do anything for him self watari this watari that I get it but there are things of which I don’t get about this portrale why dose he sleep for — amount of hours when we takes cat naps through out the day OKAY THIS TAKES THE FUCKING CAKE L IS RESTRICTED BY A POLICE OFFICER THIS MAN KNOWS HOW TO EVERY FIGHTING TECHNIQUE LNOWN TO MAN BUT GOD FORBID A OFFICER TAKES HIM DOWN AND HEY LET’S TAKE THE MOST MENTAL STABLE MAN EVER AND TURN HIM INTO A NEVIOUSE MESS
SO WAIT NO TRAPS IN THE ROOM NO PENCILE IN THE DOOR NO GOOD FUCKING PARTS TO THE ORIGINAL YOU PEICE OF GARBAGE CREATER
THE ORIGINAL HAD A BETTER SOUND TRACK AND NOT SOME CHEEP OVER USED SCARY MOVIE BMG
THAT’S HOW WATARI DIES IN THIS SHITTY VERSION A SAD PATHTIC DEATH
WHAT THE FUCK there are no rules you twat
This movie honestly broke my heart turned L into a shallow mess of a characterwhich made him look so week skipped a bunch a details that made the anime what it was it slipped over MAT,mello and near and the final battle at the end misa sucked a lot the final scene really is the point where ryuk writes lights name in the book but booboo Mia had to write it and blah blah blah I AM THE FINAL BATTLE AND THERE IS 21:48 LEFT TO THIS SERISE WHAT THE FUCK IF GONNA HAPPEN??? WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENES
NO BOTH OF THEM DIES ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME THAT’S HOW THIS SHIT ENDS OH WAIT NO SINCE LIGTS PAPER GOT BURNT IN A FIRE MEANS THE BITCH OH LIGHT ISN’T KIRA BECAUSE HE SAW HIS NAME A PAPER AND THESE DOSNENT HAPEN BECAUSE OF THIS AND THAT YOU MESSED UP BIG TIME MOVIE ALSO FUCK THE THE RULE OF WHO EVER TOUCHES THE NOTE BOOK SEES SHINIGAMI
FUCK THIS MOVIE TO THE FULLEST EXTENT THIS DID NO JUSTICE YOU THE ORIGINAL THIS WAS TERRIBLE AND I VERY MUCHED HATES HOW THE ENDING TURNES OUT FUCK YOU ADAM WINGARD AND ALL THOSE WHO HELPEd make this
Side note
WHO the hell comes into someone’s house and is all like HI yeah I know I don’t live here but gtfo the adults need to speak
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Hydroxycut Hardcore Guide
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Hydroxycut Hardcore - Review Guide
Everything you ever needed to know about Hydroxycut Hardcore 2020 (an independent review based on science). How quickly does it work? How does it compare to the best weight loss supplements on the market? What if any are the side effects and a lot more besides. The main hydroxycut guide can be found HERE and all the individual product reviews go HERE. For the privacy go HERE.
It is so damn tiring!
The constant dieting, succumbing having to trudge all back to the start line
The then your told you should exercise…. REALLY?
How many people do you know would cut their food down and then lob a big rucksack on go running around the park?
I don’t know about you but if i am on fire I don’t care how The flames are dowsed as long as I don’t feel shitty and waste my money.
The problem is diet pills are so health conscious now they have got politically correct! And if anything they are less effective than they were yesteryear.
I remember the days when people were happy to lose limbs to get a tight butt, The risk of death or your skin turning yellow was worth the beach parties and admiring looks!
I digress and perhaps exaggerate
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But it is true to say that the more potent diet pills of yesteryear have largely been replaced by diet pills that can help you lose 0.11111 lbs a year if you also run a marathon every day !
I have news for you all dieting pills have some possible side effects but FDA does a good job weeding out the harmful ones and list the prohibited weight loss pills.
Table Of Contents
What is the Supplement?
How Does it Work?
What are the Benefits?
Can it Help You Lose Weight?
What is the Science?
Ingredients
Side Effects
How Can You Take the Supplement
Cost and Where to Buy?
Pros and Cons
Final Verdict
DIET PILLS ARE NOT THE BEST OPTION!
We all know that a healthy diet, exercise and will power are best
BUT if you have no problem losing a limb and turning yellow we have listed The best POTENT pills to give you a head start in our main review.
So unto hydroxycut hardcore one of most popular hydroxycut products on the market is it best option for you? And more importantly did it into our prestigious list of best dietary supplements?
Let’s take a dip and find out.
What is the Supplement?
Hydroxycut Hardcore says it “DELIVERS EXTREME ENERGY & MAXIMUM INTENSITY” and AMPLIFIED THERMOGENESIS – (Invokes a powerful state of thermogenesis in the body to help fire up your metabolic rate). Which basically means in simple language that it is a stimulant fat burner that is high in caffeine.. Sounds a lot less sexy now doesn’t it!
How Does it Work?
Hydroxycut Hardcore contains two of the brand’s official key ingredients. Caffeine (caffeine anhydrous) which is also present in many weight loss supplements and most of the hydroxycut range. Caffeine is a stimulant that raises your body temperature acting as thermogenic to burn fat. The other main ingredient Coffee bean extract (C. canephora extract) has the main component chlorogenic acid which is said to be the proven ingredient that helps you lose weight. I will look at this in more detail in a moment but first.
What are the Benefits?
Hydroxycut Hardcore claims to give you the following benefits:
Extreme energy and maximum intensity Hardcore weight loss Suppressed appetite
Can it Help You Lose Weight?
While there may be customers who have claimed some weight loss benefits. Proof is limited according to science and customer reviews. 2 studies of its key ingredients C. canephora extract suggested limited weight loss if you also go on a low calorie diet. I tell you more about the ingredients in the science and ingredients section.
What is the Science?
There are only two recorded scientific studies to back up the efficacy of green coffee the main ingredient in most hydroxycut products.
In one scientific study conducted in 2006, there were two groups tested. One group took in C. canephora robusta for 60 days and lost an average of 10.95 lbs, while the other group took a placebo and lost about 5.40 lbs. Both groups followed the same calorie-reduced diet.
You should be aware however that the weight loss is actually 5.5lbs and 2.5lbs when you take into account the placebo groups also lost weight. So one study showed the ingredient C. canephora robusta helped some people lose just over 2.5lbs in a month.
Ingredients
All products created by Hydroxycut have two key ingredients. These two ingredients are also considered as the most potent ingredients of all its products:
Caffeine (caffeine anhydrous) Green Coffee Extract (c. canephora extract)
Aside from these two, Hydroxycut Hardcore also contains the following:
L- Theanine – an amino acid, it functions as a building block of proteins. Inositol – helps breakdown fat. Cayenne Pepper – helps in thermogenesis. Yohimbe Extract – helps improve weight loss. L-Tyrosine – also an amino acid that helps reduce appetite and aids in weight loss. Trans Ferulic Acid – prevents weight gain. L-Leucine – a protein that helps regulate food intake and improve one’s energy level.
Side Effects
Keep in mind that 1 serving of Hydroxycut Hardcore capsule is equivalent to 3 cups of coffee. Since this product has a high dosage of caffeine, you have to watch out for its side effects:
Nervousness Restlessness Headache Anxiety Tremors Difficulty in Sleeping Increased heart rate
Furthermore more serious cases of health problems linked to the use of Hydroxycut Hardcore have also been recorded over the years. These adverse side effects include (but are not limited to):
Liver Damage Vascular disease Cardiovascular disease
How Can You Take the Supplement
As directed by the product itself, on your first day, you are advised to take only 1 capsule. This is to test your tolerance to the dietary supplement. On your 2nd and 3rd day, you are to take 2 capsules, once daily. On your 4th day and other succeeding days, you are to take 2 capsules, twice daily. Furthermore, you should also take note of the following:
You should not snack between meals. Do not take the supplement within 5 hours of your bedtime. You should not exceed 4 capsules in a 24-hour period. Drink 10 glasses of water daily.
As for safety purposes, this supplement is not for individuals who are under 18 years old. This product is also not intended for pregnant and nursing females.
Cost and Where to Buy?
You can buy Hydroxycut Hardcore on Hydroxycut’s official website. You can also purchase this product on the following websites:
Amazon.com Influentser.com Walgreens.com ProductReview.com
Customer Reviews and complaints
One verified reviewer from ConsumerAffairs.com had expressed her concern regarding the product giving it a 1-star review, according to her
“Hydroxycut hardcore – I’ve taken different versions of this pill. But this version is extremely dangerous. I stopped them after the third day, to try again to make sure it was these pills. Close to vomiting all of a sudden, thought I was going to pass out. Needed food immediately and didn’t care what I ate I was desperate to not feel so awful so quickly.” ~ Angela. Another 1-star review was also given by an unhappy customer on Influentser.com, in her product review, she stated that “I have been taking it for about a week or two now and i kept feeling nauseous all the time. I would vomit and couldn’t figure out what was going on. I know i need to lose a few pounds but not like this. I feel sick to my stomach everytime i take them…” ~ Brandy H.
Amazon reviews
You should be aware that there are many planted and fake positive reviews on amazon and the review below is just one example to see the full article on this shocking practise go here.
Ketoandcorvids 5.0 out of 5 stars Broke my stall! November 7, 2017 Size: 60 Verified Purchase This is one of the most effective weight loss pills I have tried. And I’ve tried a bunch! I am following a ketogenic diet, but my weight loss had stalled for about a month. The scale wouldn’t budge no matter what I did. 3 days into taking this product and I had finally broke my stall and dropped 5 pounds! I HIGHLY recommend this! Very impressed! 48 people found this helpful
SGeb92 1.0 out of 5 stars Not For Me… November 20, 2017 Size: 60Verified Purchase I really wanted to like this product because I’ve heard so many good things about it as well as read a lot of positive reviews. Unfortunately for me, I hated it. I only took one dose so I can’t give a full review, but I can tell you that I only took one dose because I felt like crap after taking it. 30 minutes after taking this product, I was left feeling very jittery, nauseous, and lightheaded. It was so bad that I had to take a nap. Now, keep in mind that I am sensitive to any type of caffeine or stimulant and I also suffer from anxiety so that could be why I had such terrible side effects from this. Like I said, I’ve heard many great things about this product, it just didn’t end up working for me. 7 people found this helpful.
Pros and Cons
Pros May boost your energy if you can cope with the side effects Sorry I could not think of any
Cons Packed with caffeine causing many side effects The other main ingredient green coffee offers limited weight loss
Final Verdict
Hydroxycut Hardcore is one of the most popular hydroxycut products but owes this success more to expert promotion rather than wonderful results or effective ingredients. Hardcore is stuffed with caffeine and many customers have complained about feeling “jittery” and having “heart palpatations” This supplement does not feature in the most recommended list of diet pills due to concerns about the side effects and poor efficacy.
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i don’t think these drugs are working (yet?)
i also don’t know how to make tumblr mark my posts in my local time even though it’s already set in the settings and it makes it harder for me to count for how many days i haven’t written for or honestly i just have a headache so i don’t feel like counting
or thinking, tbh
anyway all those days are a blur, with some exceptions, and honestly, i don’t think i’m doing any better
ok
day 11 was saturday, and i did spend most of it in bed/doing nothing, just as i wished. i’m pretty sure i did completely nothing on that day, which is why i didn’ t feel like i had anything to write about.
day 12 - sunday i spent at my parents and that was nice, all the kids around etc
my brother and his family just came back from africa and it was the first time we met after that trip, his daughter gave me a big hug and i have to say it caught me offguard, i never really expect her to miss me that much so it’s surprising in a really nice way though somehow makes me feel awkward?
then i took the two other nieces back home while my sister + O. + L. went to the cinema and i was supposed to put them to sleep. Lena came out of the bedroom like 15 later and said she has these bad scary thoughts about war and she knows they’re not ..smart? but she just feels really anxious
it made me sad for her in a “oh fuck, not that early : / “ way, she’s only 7 years old uhhh
but i managed to put her to sleep no problem telling her stories about some underwater scenery and creatures, no idea at which point she fell asleep cause  i just kept talking and talking and it reminded me of how i used to do exactly that - tell goodnight stories to my older siblings and not realizing they’re asleep and i’m talking to myself, only with them the agreement was that we would each tell a story...only i somehow always got first and they would always fall asleep.
why am i telling this to myself, i already know this story
i didn’t even get to watch anything on netflix other than a bunch of trailers, went back home with an uber and i remember that day i felt somewhat nice and i got money for babysitting which is kind of awkward cause i don’t think it’s right when it’s my family but i’ve become not just poor, i got to a point of not being able to afford catfood, so that + my parents giving me money too earlier that day at least made me feel a little bit at peace financially
day 13 was mun-day(ne) i’m pretty sure i did nothing
soo day 14 was tuesday and that would be yesterday? (i mean it’s 4 am now and it’s telling me it’s thursday and that’s fucking with my brain but ok)   my mom wanted me to go to the museum with her and i didn’t, cause Olga messaged me saying they’re coming to town and wanted to meet up. so i went and met them and just told my mom i won’t come because of that, i also got my period 10 min before leaving the house which made me leave it 40 mins later, had a really nice meal atthough they were already done by the time i joined and that makes me feel kind of bad (but i guess that’s silly cause if it wasn’t for my period i might’ve been on time?) i had a tempura sushi which was really awesome and matcha creme brulee which was really awesome too and i just kept talking about north korea docus cause my life is too boring but at least i watch a lot of youtube now so i can talk about that also went to a book promoting event with them at which i pretty much spent at least half of the time wondering if i should leave, cause a) i have social phobia especially at “official” events like this and somehow it doesn’t matter that it’s my friend who’s the speaker, bright lights + microphones + plastic chairs = NO for me, also i was getting cramps and took one ibuprofene after another while at the same time worrying how that’ll go with sertraline so i didn’t take that much of it, i also probably awkwardly talked about my experience with the psychiatrist and some stuff related to my mental health and i say awkwardly in the sense that i’m kind of worried it might have been awkward for d. to listen to it because i guess it’s not really a topic we ever talked about? aand today is day 15, feels weird that this tumblr exists for that long already. i’m starting to feel a bit anxious about how easily time slips through my fingers these days, i mean honestly i just do nothing most of the time and it’s not making me feel really great, + the increasingly fucked up sleep schedule is not helping.. anyway today was just shitty and i feel like i’m kind of getting worse
i’ve been crying, had cramps and headache too, took ibuprofene really late in the day aka at midnight just when i take sertraline, freaked about mixing them s o just took half although today should be the day i start taking the full dose, talked with M. or more like realized that he replied to me saying to him like 4 hrs earlier that i  had a dream about his kid, and it took him 4 hrs to get back to me and say sorry i forgot to respond to you
which somehow combined with him saying how he and his kid say nice things to each other a lot made me feel really really shitty and i started crying and so i decided i want to take this other fucking half of sertraline right now because i really fucking need it to star t working like asap, i know that period hormones are making me emo too but fuck, this shit isn’t working, i’m crying right now as i’m writing this, my dad was here too today and not really here i just met him on the stairs cause he brought me some food and went to the skating ring to celebrate hanuka and he wanted me to go too but i told him i felt bad
and i’m worried about him cause he said he’s not feeling well and obviously that’s making me feel more depressed too
i started thinking about j. at some point too, thinking about writing to him at some point of feeling really miserable and crying and then i’ve read his email again which obviously made me cry more, i still didn’t write to him though i don’t know what to say . i stopped myself thinking it’s a horrible idea, cause it honestly is, sure it seems good for a split second to whine to him cause at least he expressed caring about me but yeah i’m fucking SURE he would just love to me crying about getting heartbroken by another guy... and i just kind of wanted to tell him that i’m actually really, really not okay, since he’s wished me happiness multiple times in that email and it felt really genuine.. but it’s not really fair
plus it’s all still really confusing, what he is, was or should be to me, on one hand he seems genuine and genuinely caring etc, said sorry to me about many things, not like he has bad intentions, but then there’s this other thing in my head where i kind of know our relationship was toxic and he’s responsible for at least half of that, so... i kind of know i should stay away? though it’s becoming blurry lately, which i’m kind of afraid of, afraid that its because i feel lonely and want to feel cared for/taken care of
fuck i need to get out of this house really soon
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