#i thrive off the attention so god bless u

[legisaskerator]

For that “Get To Know Me Uncomfortably Well” ask game: 1, 13, 39, 48, 80, and 97!! There sure are a lot jeez lol

oh shit I wasn’t actually expecting to get any of these let’s GO

1, What is you middle name?

LMAOOO I'm not gonna share that simply cause it's easy to fake fraud stuff and I'm already pretty easy to google, but I'll tell you it's very basic. Not one that I like to share anyway cause it's boring.

13, What talents do you have?

I'm primarily a musician! I play by ear. Im also pretty alright at arts and crafts, im good at making things with my hands. Mostly impulsive stuff, but still. I used to be a really good rock climber (till my joints fell apart lmao)

39, . Do you have any scars?

Sooooo many. My disorder makes me scar super easily, so it's more, where am I not scarred? Some notable ones are, the one next to my eye, the big round on on my shin, the faint one going ALSO down my shin for like four inches, and the little tiny one In my eyebrow. The eyebrow one is more of a birthmark, I think? It's what mostly inspired me to shave a line into it.

48, Can you curl your tongue?

Yes, and a lot of other stuff too 😜

80, How many piercings do you have?

7 if you count the industrial as two!! Three earlobes, industrial, low helix, and my belly button (:

97 Were your ancestors royalty?

PFFF nah they built bridges in France and that's about all I know. My family recently did ancestry, it's very different then what we thought we were. Mom found her birth family and stuff, it was cool. I sure hope my family weren't royalty.

[enavance]

hi i’m here to once again start a discussion / meta about a song that i relate to cherry.  on this episode,  we’re pulling apart falling in reverse’s popular monster.  some of the lyrics are hit or miss because you know obviously this is based on ronnie’s own experiences,  but some of the lyrics are really suited to cherry and i’ll bold the relevant lines as i go or omit things as needed.

also holy shit this is like over 1600 words,  not including the lyrics of course,  and  . . .  congratulations if u read this jkbdfbkvd

i wake up every morning with my head up in a daze i'm not sure if i should say this,  fuck,  i'll say it anyway everybody tries to tell me that i'm goin' through a phase i don't know if it's a phase,  i just wanna feel okay, yeah i battle with depression,  but the question still remains is this post-traumatic stressin' or am i suppressin' rage? and my doctor tries to tell me that i'm going through a phase yeah, it's not a fuckin' phase, i just wanna feel okay

okay,  yeah,  i struggle with this bullshit every day and it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage it obliterates me,  disintegrates me,  annihilates me

cherry has always been hot  -  tempered since she was younger,  but now as she’s grown and grown into her role as the warrior of light and coupled with all of the things she has endured from the beginning of her journey to where she is now.  she lived a relatively peaceful life until imperial garlean forces invaded her village and uprooted her life and destroyed everything she once knew and forced her to make anew.  cherry struggles with severe depression and ptsd,  and much of that contributes to her trauma response and why she’s so quick to lash out in a form of a defense mechanism.

'cause i'm about to break down i'm searchin' for a way out i'm a liar,  i'm a cheater,  i'm a non-believer i'm a popular,  popular monster i break down falling into love now with falling apart i'm a popular,  popular monster

with everything cherry goes through,  it’s a wonder she hasn’t snapped completely yet,  but she has come so,  so,  so close so many times.  she is self  -  destructive in her coping methods,  whether intentionally or not.  sometimes she realizes and notices her harmful coping methods,  sometimes she doesn’t,  but her mindset is that if she’s not hurting anyone else,  it’s fine.

however,  what she doesn’t realize is that her distance and cold shouldering and keeping people at arms length is hurtful because people are just trying to be there for her,  but she won’t allow them to due to her debilitating fear of allowing anyone to come near her,  physically or emotionally,  and risk them forming an attachment to her and vice versa.

she doesn’t want someone to feel hurt or pain in losing her and having to mourn her.  cherry is a serial escapist in that she will disappear for months at a time and wander off looking for the most dangerous jobs,  not only because she needs the money and thrives off of the adrenaline and that she has an inherently reckless nature,  but it’s that deep  -  rooted self  -  destructiveness.

i think i'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze every wall that i knock down is just a wall that i'll replace i'm in a race against myself,  i try to keep a steady pace how the fuck will i escape if i never close my case? oh my god,  i keep on stressin',  every second that i waste is another second sooner to a blessing i won't take

cherry doesn’t see herself as a hero.  to a degree,  she understands that it’s not her choice whether or not she is seen as a hero.  other people will call her one regardless based on her accomplishments and achievements and decorated contributions to the preservation of eorzea and the shard as a whole.  as vain as she is,  and as much as she boasts of her strength as a warrior,  which she takes quite a bit of pride in,  she’s surprisingly somewhat humble when it comes to being seen as a hero that people look to for light in the darkness and idolize.  she just sees nothing special in it because of how many people still die,  how many things are still lost and destroyed.  her own pessimism stops her from feeling positively towards any association with being a hero.  she doesn’t want to be celebrated or praised,  but she won’t be mad if someone compliments her skills and says she’s strong.

cherry is an extremely guarded person and this is something i discuss at length with her keeping extremely tall and thick walls up to protect herself and the people around her due to her life experiences and the trauma she has been through from before ARR to where she is now post  -  SHB.  she’s afraid of letting anyone in.  she’s afraid of caring about people,  despite the fact that she does because deep down she is caring and kind and soft and she just can’t help herself.  she tries to convince herself that she’s not as close to some people as she thinks,  but she is and it would kill her to lose anyone else.  and deep down,  cherry knows that it’s much the same for her friends as well,  that it’s too late,  that they do care about her and someone will be there to mourn and grieve her and she hates that.  this is why she flinches at softness,  any soft gesture or touch or kindness,  even more so when it comes to romantic avenues.  she will run and run and run until she’s sure you’ve given up on pursuing her.  much of this is also tied into the fact that caring about someone is a weakness to a fault because an enemy can sniff that out and use that against her.  they could take someone that she cares about and use them as leverage or kill them or hurt them to get to her and she is so deeply afraid of that most of all.

cherry refuses help constantly.  she shoulders everything and is the first to volunteer to do anything dangerous.  she makes her own recklessly stupid and dangerous plans and rushes in headfirst without much thought.  she is stubborn and will insist on doing everything herself,  even the most menial tasks.  she doesn’t want to look weak,  not that she is or that anyone even thinks that of her,  but she doesn’t want it to appear to anyone that she has any weaknesses because she doesn’t want them to be turned against her.  she refuses help that would otherwise be blessings to make her life easier.

okay,  motherfucker,  now you got my attention i need to change a couple things 'cause somethin' is missing and what if i were to lie?  tell you everything is fine every single fucking day i get closer to the grave i am terrified,  i fell asleep at the wheel again crashed my car just to feel again it obliterates me,  disintegrates me,  annihilates me

cherry is as honest as they come.  perhaps too honest,  sometimes.  however,  when it comes to her own wellbeing,  she will lie to fool others into thinking that she’s fine so that they don’t worry about her.  she doesn’t want to be worried or fussed over,  and most of all,  she doesn’t want to add to anyone else’s stress or make them waste their time with her.  cherry doesn’t take very good care of herself,  physically or emotionally or mentally.  she barrels into danger without thought,  is impulsive,  extremely reckless,  and she doesn’t talk about her feelings to anyone or discuss the traumatic events that happened to her with anyone.  i think the only people she may have opened up to are haurchefant,  maybe thancred on occasion,  ardbert because she’s fine talking to him because her logic is  “  who is he going to tell  ?  no one else can see him,  ”  maybe aymeric but never wholly in detail,  and maybe estinien.  cherry is terrified of opening up to people.  she doesn’t care if people see her as being awful or anything,  but she’s afraid of being seen as vulnerable and having all of those parts of her open and raw.

she’s not actively suicidal or anything or ever thinking about dying.  in fact,  she’s deathly afraid of dying because of the people who care about her and because the fate of the world rests on her shoulders.  she doesn’t want anyone to ever feel the pain she did losing her loved ones.  she doesn’t want them to mourn her.  she doesn’t want to risk the dying of this star just because there’s so much at stake and so many people and the world depending on her success and her being alive.

still,  despite that,  despite knowing that and that being an enormous fear of hers,  that doesn’t stop her from being reckless.  she is extremely self  -  destructive and impulsive and doesn’t think too much,  if at all,  before committing to something,  even if it’s an extremely bad idea.  she does do harmful and self  -  destructive things just to feel things,  hence her being somewhat of an adrenaline addict and chasing danger and diving headfirst into fights or battles and facing off with dangerous people,  even if outnumbered.  she revels in danger and the feeling of adrenaline rushes and actively being battered and bruised in a fight.  she probably would crash a car,  honestly,  just to feel something that is beyond the despondence and depression that she’s come to know post  -  shb.

yeah,  here we go again,  motherfucker,  oh we're sick and tired of wondering praying to a god that you don't believe you're searching for the truth in the lost and found so the question i ask is,  yeah,  where the fuck is your god now? 

and by the end of shb,  knowing the things that she knows of hydaelyn and zodiark,  she’s extremely jaded and even more pessimistic than she was to begin with.  in the beginning,  she didn’t know what she was coming into,  when joining the fray with the scions and learning of her own abilities with the echo and hydaelyn’s will and her involvement.  as time passes and hydaelyn’s absence becomes more noticeable,  she begins to feel abandoned,  and she wonders if hydaelyn is simply content to allow the shard to die and with it,  its people. 

even upon learning of the mother crystal’s weakness in strength,  learning the truth of everything,  the forming of the worlds and hydaelyn and zodiark being primals,  she begins to heavily distrust hydaelyn and wonders if everything had been a lie.  what else had hydaelyn hidden from her  ?  what else was a lie  ?  cherry has never been religious,  not really,  and she wonders if the gods are really out there.  hydaelyn certainly isn’t the god they all thought she was     —     she is a primal.  they have placed their faith and worship in a primal who disappeared and left them in darkness and silence.

cherry is left in a pretty fragile state come the end of shb.  she has lost so much more,  and she feels as though she managed to accomplish nothing despite everything that she has had a hand in doing.  there is always something else,  always something more,  and she feels as though it’s never going to end and she is exhausted.  she will never tire of helping people,  not truly,  but she feels such an emptiness within her and i really think that losing anyone else important to her,  specifically people like thancred,  the twins,  estinien,  aymeric,  she is really going to spiral harder than ever before and i really don’t know how cherry would come out of it in one piece.

[xhuliotm]

。· . ˙ ☀   ⌈   tommy   martinez +   cis   male   +   he   /   him   +   the   firestarter   ⌋   yo   ,   have   you   meet   that   KOOK   ,   𝐱𝐡𝐮𝐥𝐢𝐨   𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐬   ,   yet   ?   —   no   ?   well   ,   to   give   you   a   little   heads   up   before   you   do   ,   they’re   a   TWENTY-THREE   year   old,   SOCIALITE   AND   BUSINESS   STUDENT      and   have   been   coming   to   coston   for   FIVE   YEARS   .   since   i’ve   known   them   ,   they’ve   reminded   me   of   𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐜𝐮𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠   𝐠𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐬   𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡   𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬   𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧   𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐥   𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬   ,   𝐟𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠   𝐚   𝐬𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞   𝐨𝐟   𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐞𝐜𝐭   𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐞𝐝   𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐬   ,   𝐭𝐨𝐨   -   𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐦   𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬   ,   𝐭𝐡𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐬   𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐧𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐜   𝐥𝐚𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐞𝐫   ,   𝐚𝐧   𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐩𝐮𝐭𝐞𝐝   𝐨𝐛𝐬𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧   𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡   𝐩𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫   𝐚𝐧𝐝   𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐬  .   usually   they’re   quite   𝑚𝑎𝑔𝑛𝑒𝑡𝑖𝑐   &   𝑓𝑎𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑑𝑖𝑜𝑢𝑠    but   just   make   sure   you   keep   an   eye   out   for   them   around   town   because   i   heard   can   be   quite   𝑚𝑎𝑐ℎ𝑖𝑎𝑣𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑎𝑛   &   𝑟𝑒𝑙𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑙𝑒𝑠𝑠   as   well   so   here’s   hoping   they   aren’t   the   ones   to   undo   this   whole   peace   pact   they   have   going   on   this   summer   .   but   just   between   you   &   me   ,   i   kinda   hope   it   all   falls   apart   .   the   rivalry   keeps   this   whole   boring   town   interesting   .

xhulio   is   the   result   of   both   parents’   third   marriage   and   is   the   youngest   in   a   legacy   of   five   children   with   nearly   a   10   year   age   gap   between   him   and   his   next   sibling   .   both   parents   being   immigrants   from   venezuela   ,   his   mom   built   a   hotel   empire   and   his   dad   was   an   ambassador   for   the   US   to   south   america   .   their   marriage   lasted   a   total   of   maybe   10   minutes   and   ended   before   xhulio   could   even   remember   .

his   parents   both   went   through   a   minimum   of   two   more   spouses   before   he   hit   middle   school   with   no   intention   to   slow   down   .   raised   by   nannies   and   seeing   his   birthgivers   on   the   odd   time   here   and   there   ,   his   childhood   was   the   typical   to   be   filled   with   material   goods   to   make   up   for   a   lack   of   parental   presence   —   and   to   be   honest   ,   xhulio   didn’t   mind   it   .   as   a   fiend   for   attention   however   he   could   get   it   ,   coming   to   school   with   the   newest   designer   coats   or   most   exclusive   video   game   system   made   him   something   of   a   god   among   his   peers   ,   a   sensation   that   became   buried   deep   into   the   recesses   of   his   mind   and   emotions   as   a   sensation   he   favors   .

a   perpetual   case   of   favorite   child   syndrome   ,   his   father   in   particular   noted   the   unbridled   potential   in   his   son   .   intelligent   ,   charming   ,   and   somewhat   of   a   bully   ,   he   saw   xhulio’s   aggression   as   a   tenacity   that   would   make   him   successful   in   his   life’s   approaches   beyond   belief   .   he   taught   his   son   how   to   use   his   charm   to   his   advantage   and   be   less   outright   forceful   about   his   engagements   ,   using   manipulation   rather   than   brute   force   to   make   his   way   into   whatever   he   wanted   ,   a   skill   the   boy   capitalizes   on   .

his   mother   babies   him   to   no   end   and   makes   him   a   brand   ambassador   for   her   company   ,   having   him   join   her   on   retreats   to   mingle   with   the   children   of   other   investors   .   xhulio   ,   dangerously   well   -   versed   in   how   to   get   what   he   wants   out   of   people   ,   makes   easy   work   of   flipping   each   of   them   to   bend   to   his   very   whim   .   living   the   life   of   a   socialite   ,   in   all   its   glitz   and   glam   ,   is   something   he   thrives   off   of   .   his   father   begins   to   try   and   one   up   his   mother   ,   bringing   him   along   to   government   functions   and   allowing   him   to   brush   elbows   with   senators   and   congresspeople   alike   .   luxury   on   his   mind   ,   xhulio   goes   for   an   ivy   league   business   education   that   makes   the   most   of   his   talents   .

his   mother   buys   out   a   small   hotel   property   in   this   beachy   town   called   the   coston   resort   and   brings   xhulio   along   over   summers   to   oversee   the   renovations   .   enjoying   the   terror   he   can   enact   in   the   town   with   little   to   no   consequence   brought   upon   him   ,   he   comes   back   along   every   summer   to   see   what   more   buttons   he’s   able   to   press   .   finding   the   divide   between   the   pogues   and   the   kooks   has   been   perhaps   one   of   his   favorite   pastimes   to   exploit   ,   seeing   no   reason   to   seek   peace   when   he’s   already   so   entertained   by   the   prospect   of   only   widening   this   riff   .   this   ends   in   an   even   greater   conflict   ,   when   he   gets   into   a   fistfight   last   summer   that   leaves   him   with   a   vendetta   against   the   pogues   that   he   thinks   rather   plague   the   area   .

he   is   one   of   those   obnoxious   smirky   boys   who   is   genuinely   convinced   he’s   a   blessing   to   the   earth   he   walks   on   .   an   entitled   af   childhood   will   do   that   to   you   :/   genuinely   is   of   the   mindset   that   the   world   is   his   and   other   people   just   habitate   it   with   him   .

well   aware   of   how   others   feel   but   just   cant   be   bothered   to   give   a   shit   about   literally   anyone   else   !   is   appallingly   self   -   interested   and   expresses   near   -   disgust   to   be   associated   with   any   form   of   expressed   sensitivity   or   insecurity   .   truly   believes   he   is   a   mini   god   on   earth   .

probably   just   genuinely   doesn’t   feel   sensitive   or   insecure   bc   he’s   never   been   taught   how   to   !   kwjehrwer

manipulative   as   hell   and   will   exploit   everything   around   him   to   get   where   he   wants   to   be   .   he’s   meticulous   about   how   he’s   percieved   and   doesn’t   like   being   seen   as   weak   or   disorganized   .   he’s   obsessive   about   upholding   his   reputation   and   holds   power   and   status   as   two   v   important   qualities   to   him   .   he’s   pretentious   as   all   hell   and   rather   spoiled   so   has   rarely   had   to   work   a   day   in   his   life   .

drips   w   sauce   and   we   hate   him   for   it   !

he   likes   material   goods   and   enjoys   his   lifestyle   less   because   of   the   actual   topics   but   more   so   because   he   gets   to   socialize   while   being   treated   like   luxury   .   his   lowkey   dream   would   be   a   job   where   he   doesnt   actually   do   anything   and   still   gets   2   live   like   a   prince   aka   trophy   husband   but   his   parents   are   too   up   his   ass   giving   him   opportunities   for   him   to   squander   them

likes   2   instigate   shit   for   fun   :/   genuinely   has   nothing   better   to   do

if   for   whatever   reason   u   can   get   past   the   whole   crazy   heartless   psychopath   thing   ,   his   pretentiousness   and   his   drive   mean   he’s   incredibly   straightforward   about   his   desires   and   pursues   what   he   wants   without   second   guessing   himself   .   he’s   generous   and   giving   when   the   mood   strikes   and   isn’t   above   showering   a   romantic   interest   with   lavish   gifts   and   non   stop   attention   even   if   they   show   0   interest   at   first   .   he’s   not   very   trustworthy   but   can   surprisingly   be   reliable   in   a   pinch   —   usually   just   when   it   benefits   him   best   tbh   .

inspired   by   klaus   mikaelson   from   vampire   diaries   and   mark   sloane   from   greys   !   talented   dancer   n   will   take   any   opportunity   to   show   it   ,   likes   2   make   people   intentionally   uncomfortable   bc   its   funny   to   him   ,   has   an   encyclopedic   knowledge   of   old   film   ,   loves   any   excuse   to   throw   a   huge   party   at   the   clubhouse   !

[apgujeon]

hi!! i saw your answer to an ask about jeongguk so i'm gonna have to ask you if you could please describe all the other members!! i'm especially curious on how jimin is irl, is he smol and what % of sexy, what % of cute

oh boy… here we go LOL. so below is a solid wall of text a small-ish desc of each member (except jungkook who i already wrote an essay abt here lol) and my reaction to seeing them irl akdkfksd

♡ to answer ur question, yes jimin is smol compared to the other members. imo, jimin was the prettiest out of all the members. rather than small, i’d say he’s really petite….. almost delicate? graceful? that same kinda aura a dancer has. his movements were so powerful and fluid. and he moves around alot when he performs, leaning back and bending forwards, body rolling everywhere. i rate him 45% cute and 55% sexy. bc he literally is sexy and cute at the same time. he smiles with that angelic face but does body rolls with his body??? no offence but thats cheating and i hate him. how dare he combine these two deadly attributes so well sdhfjd. he was SUPER SMILEY during soundcheck. after jungkook had wandered down the center aisle to where i was standing, jimin came over too. i think it was during namjoon’s rap in dope, he looked so impressed by how loud the crowd was when we chanted the fanchant parts and smiled SO BIG. mochi sexy is well and thriving ;_;

♡ namjoon is SO HANDSOME. he gave off this aura… like this imposing, suave af aura, idek if that’s the word to describe it properly. he’s intimidating, in a really hot way shdjjfdhddfdfj. just by looking at him and the way he holds himself, he looks like a leader, the kingpin. he’s rly tall, like we all know that, but OMG his legs are so long, plus since i were looking up at him, it gave him even more of an illusion of height. he’s so fucking charismatic when he raps omfg, like during cypher, he fucking killed his verse, tore it all the way up. his eyes sparkle so much when he talks and laughs, like during his ment, and he becomes so soft and giggly. he’s beautiful. he speaks so eloquently too and HIS VOICE. MY GOD. his speaking voice is so gorgeously deep i wanted to roll around in it forever. 

♡ when i saw seokjin on the screen for the first time during not today, i choked!!!! @stylists, thank u so much?? for styling his hair like that for the concert, i am forever in debt to you. seokjin’s visuals have always been a 12/10, but it doesn’t compare to seeing it irl. MY EYES LITERALLY WATERED DURING AWAKE…. i couldn’t really see him on the main stage so i was staring at the screens and HE LOOKED INTO THE CAMERA SO MANY TIMES with that longing, lingering gaze and exposed forehead and WOW BYE BITCH NO ONE SURVIVES THAT SHIT. he looked alot taller than i had thought too. but unlike namjoon, his aura was sort of princely. like, he had just walked out of a fairytale as the tall handsome talented prince. HE WAS SO FUNNY TOO OK. like his ment was fucking hilarious. and he kept messing around with jungkook during the soundcheck anjdjhshjdjhsdsdh. HE ALSO BLESSED EVERYONE WITH HIS FLYING KISSES AT EVERY OPPORTUNITY. to receive those kisses irl and not through a screen was truly smth ill never forget.

♡ ok, so imo, tae and jin are the visuals of this visual group called bts. they are just exceedingly good-looking. which is why, when tae walked out during soundcheck, i screamed so loud my throat went raw, bc it was just my initial reaction in order to overcome the shock of realising i was looking at the face of a god. honestly, i didnt even pay attention to the other members for a hot second bc i was too busy gaping at tae and yelling at my friend, “HOLY FUCK TAE IS BEAUTIFUL??????” just….his face is superior. jawline so sharp i wanted to get sliced!!!!!!!!! hes so charming too, he kept crouching down in front of the stage, resting one side of his face on his hand for a moment, looking into the crowd. but yeah, i just vividly recall myself losing all my shits when i first saw him lmfao.

♡ seeing yoongi irl was the most surprising i think. i know hes a cutie, but even when he was at rest in the concert, i kept thinking, “he. is. so. fucking. cute.” like…. idk what it was. it wasn’t even his height or anything, it was his face. HIS FEATURES ARE SO SOFT. nothing about min yoongi irl was harsh. imo he was the softest looking member. every time they stopped to talk or say their ments and it wasnt his turn, yoongi would be looking into the crowd quietly. i felt like he was trying his best to get a look at every single fan’s face, bc he was continuously staring at the crowd. there was always a very very slight smile tugging at his lips tho, but he was the quietest and calmest of all the members. WHEN HE DID SMILE BIG, IT WAS SO RADIANT. i took quite a few pictures of him smiling after his ment, bc it was a such a big joyous gummy smile and my heart with doing flips. 

♡ hoseok. wow. where do i begin. hoseok literally kicked my entire ass to the moon on every level except physical. almost all my friends came back from their concerts with the words, “hoseok is beautiful” hanging off their lips and i’m not joking……HOSEOK IS BEAUTIFUL. he had so much stage presence, like it’s overwhelming. every time he came to the front of the stage, my breath would hitch in my throat. CLOSE UP HE IS EVEN MORE GORGEOUS. like, his features are soooooo nice… his nose, his mouth…HIS SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! every time he flashed a smile at the crowd I GASPED. every. single. time. also, my favourite thing abt hoseok is how he SMILES SO MUCH during performances. it was the reason why mama was the best solo stage to me, he looked like he was having so much fun! HE’S A PERFORMER IN EVERY SINGLE WAY, a pro! hoseok was also really good at fanservice. he seemed to favour the front of the stage, doing his raps close to the edge etc, so lucky me!!! i got to bask in his presence at a closer proximity countless times ahshbhdjshjsdsd. so yeah if ur not already a hoseok stan, you will be a hoseok stan after u watch him perform live.

the one thing that was universal for all 7 members, was how PRETTY they were. when i tried to think of the right word to use, ‘pretty’ explained it the best. even though they were right in front of me, i was so shocked by how unbelievably pretty they were. they all look as if they crawled out of some unrealistic shoujo manga as the hot smart and talented boy the protagonist falls in love with. 

if u made it here, i’m literally clapping for u shdhsds im so sorry for my shit descriptions but I TRIED. im still exhausted so this is the best i could do atm 😬

[lingthing]

Tag!~

RULES: Always post the rules. Answer the questions asked, then write 11 new ones. Tag 11 people to answer your questions, as well as the person who tagged you.

Thank you for the tag, @ladywiltshire! ♥♥♥

1. Do you remember your first time watching or reading Fullmetal Alchemist? What was your first impression? I do remember! I was sitting on the couch playing a gameboy game while waiting for Inuyasha to come on (lol) and the first episode of FMA 03 started playing on adult swim. I kept looking up from my game to see what was happening cause it seemed pretty interesting. Since my attention was torn between the show and my game, I don’t really remember what my initial feelings were about it. My first impression was probably something like “huh, this is kinda cool.” Never could have imagined that it would go on to have such a HUGE impact on my life.

2. Tell us about The Fave™

/CRACKS KNUCKLES So if my icon and url and rambling tags that stretch on forever didn’t get the message across, my favorite character is Ling. Just about anyone who knows me here (or among my close friends irl) know how much I love Ling. He’s cute and funny and could easily be passed off as the goofy comic relief but he’s so much more than that.  He’s determined and loyal and he’ll do whatever it takes to claim the throne for himself. Not out of a desire for power simply to have it, but because that power is the key to securing a safe future for his clan. I just love and admire him so much, and I can only hope that some of his princely wisdom and compassion rub off on me u v u

3. Do you have a favorite fanwork? Fanfics? Comics? I have many faves! Just to name a few: - siruoa’s Emperor’s New Clothes amv which is beautifully animated with gorgeous art. A must see! - Nothing Gold; an EdLing fic that reads like a novel and crushes the heart like an anvil to the chest - The Roommate Agreement; a fic about Ling and Greed in a modern day setting with a bit of a supernatural twist - Blunt Force Trauma; a fic that plays out so vividly in the mind as you’re reading that it may as well be animated by BONES (oh, if only) GreedxDolcetto, DEFINITELY NOT FOR KIDDOS

4. Hit me with an analysis/opinion you have on the series or characters! I love the characters. All of them. While I have read that some find this to be a fault, I think that one of the absolute best things about FMA is the attention that every character receives. Every character gets a moment to shine. Even if they only show up for a couple chapters, they somehow manage to completely steal your heart. If even the side characters can be so lovable and such a delight to see, it’s no wonder that the main characters are so well developed and why they warrant such love and adoration from the fans. Hiromu Arakawa pulls this off beautifully.

5. Tell us about a project you have going on! Or if you don’t have one, maybe something you’ve always wanted to write or draw? I wouldn’t consider it so much a concrete, singular project. But I am always developing my own interpretation of Xing. It’s my baby. I have about twenty or so OC’s as a part of it- from the court officials to the royal wives to the citizens of Xing’s many provinces. I’ve written quite a bit about it with a dear friend of mine, but I feel that there’s always room for improvement! ‘ v ‘

6. Favorite opening/ending number and why? This is SO HARD. I can’t pick just one because I love them all for different reasons. So for now I’ll say my fave opening is Ready Steady Go. It takes me back to my early days in the FMA fandom and makes me so nostalgic. Fave ending number would be Motherland by Crystal Kay. I play it so much. It’s such a sweet, pretty song and I love the lyrics. (Plus the animation that goes with it is adorable! <3)

7. Tell me about a scene that really touched you or made you realize something about yourself. A scene that really touched me was the scene where Edward is in the Gate and he promises Alphonse that he’ll come back for him. You think that’s it’s going to be this cruel tease and that a glimpse is all the brothers get of one another but then Edward breaks through and calls out to Alphonse and GOD, the scene just ruins me.  Edward and Alphonse have such an amazing relationship and it’s so touching to see the brothers so devoted to one another.

8. OTPs! Who are they? Why are you WEAK FOR THEM? Edling’s got me WEAK. This pairing has a very special place in my heart because it’s a big part of how I actually met my best friend. But even on it’s own, Edward and Ling have a great relationship together. Even with just the friendship we see in the series, they come to care for one another greatly and there are just so many precious moments between them. Like Edward’s concern for Ling when Greed takes over his body, or the way he goes back for him when they’re stuck in Gluttony. They’re just a couple of dumb teenagers in love and I love it. GreedxLing is my damn aesthetic and I will never get enough of it. These two are so similar and yet so different and that’s what makes them mesh together so well. I always think about that scene during the attack on Central when they couldn’t tell if it was Ling or Greed in control because they were so in tune with one another. These two learn a lot from one another and seeing their relationship play out with each other gets me every time ;   ;

9. Funniest headcanon you’ve ever seen. Go! Trust exercises at Fort Briggs involving Captain Buccaneer trust falling onto soldiers half his size I’ll leave the results to your own imagination

10. What spurred you to join the fandom? I dunno if there was a particular moment where I “joined”, per se?? I’ve been around since ye olden days of quizilla and lemons and the FMA Banana Phone amv.

11. Have a fandom meltdown here and tell me why you love your fandom or show/comic so much! BOY, I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS I’ve been a fan of this series for so long. (To the point where I hardly remember who I was as a person before it???) It’s become practically synonymous with my identity in that everyone who knows me knows how much I love it. It’s so much more than “my favorite anime.” It’s what has been at my side growing up, my support in times of strife, and my biggest inspiration. I can say with absolute certainty that it has helped shape me into the person I am today, and that I am able to thank it for all the amazing friends I’ve made and the amazing experiences I’ve enjoyed throughout my life.  I truly don’t know where I’d be without FMA and I’m so glad that I still have the lovely people still participating in this fandom to interact with on a daily basis. I feel so blessed to be a part of this miraculously thriving community.

Yay, this was fun! And so very thought provoking too! Though I feel like I wrote a lot, lol And now I tag: @mollymerula | @captbuccaneer | @mellorad | @tiactus | @segaphantom | @lieutenant-sarcastic (Only if you’d like to, ofc. Please don’t feel pressured in any way! ‘ v ‘ )

Here are my questions for you! 1. How were you first introduced to Fullmetal Alchemist? 2. Tell us all about your child your favorite character and why you love them to pieces! 3. What are some funny FMA moments that get you every time? 4. What is your favorite fight scene from the series?  5. If you could make an FMA OVA, what would it be about? 6. Do you have any of your own FMA headcanons? Tell us about them! 7. Who is your favorite homunculus and why? 8. Do you have a favorite FMA au? If not, what’s an au you’d like to see or have come up with? 9. If you could live anywhere in the FMA-verse, where would you live? 10. Which FMA character do you identify with the most?  11. Why do you love Fullmetal Alchemist? What does it mean to you? Tell me everything! Go nuts! BE FREE, MY CHILD