#i thiught about putting in my stream title “maybe windtrace?” but decided to “speak it into existence” as they say. and it didnt happen | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

alchemiclee · 6 months ago

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why i'm always "too negative all the time":

me: what if this thing doesn't happen/goes bad?

everyone around me: stop being negative or it will be bad! speak the good into existence! be positive about it! being negative will make it a negative outcome!

me: ok :) it will happen and go well!!!

the thing: either doesn't happen or goes very wrong

me: wtf. you all lied to me

everyone:

me: ok so THIS this will not happen/go very wrong and i'm not changing my mind

everyone: no, the positivity-

the thing: happens and goes very well!

me: see! your positivity does nothing for me

everyone: you need to be positive anyway 🤪

if I don't reverse psychology the universe I get nothing good. literally every time I am positive, it goes bad. but if i'm expecting the worst, it goes very well! every time!!!!!!! I don't know why the universe made me opposite. it's not my fault. when a thing goes wrong I can always trace it back to me having hope or thinking it will go ok for once, every time. if I purposely make it a point to say it will be bad or something won't happen, it is fine. but people don't get this. it's not me. it's the universe. complain to it, stop telling me to be more positive!!!! it doesn't work 😭😭 tell the universe to be nice to me!!!!

#lee text #lee rambles #anyone else have this issue fhbdhdhdjsjen #i feel like im the only one that has this consistently happen to.........#a recent example: i searched for people to do windtrace with in genshin before it ended or someone to do it for me #finally on the last day i got a couple people to tell me i cam join when they do it that night. i was planning to stream #so i added it to my title that we'd be doing that. i waited and streamed for 6 hours and never heard anything from them #heard nothing the next day. no one else wanted to do it with me. then it ended #i thiught about putting in my stream title “maybe windtrace?” but decided to “speak it into existence” as they say. and it didnt happen #so i had it listed as a thing that was going to happen for no reason because my “positivity” made it not happen. see what i mean!!!!!!#thats just one small example. ive had this happen over and over many times #at what point does it stop being a coincidence?

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