#i think you could like me maybe... blargh

[hesitationamalgamate]

i wonder what my life would be like if you lived in state

[the-ellia-west]

Marokan & Fye's age is an issue for me...

Bc like... I kinda want them to be a bit between The Adults of the group and The Kids

I want Marokan to be close enough in age to the kids to be an obvious mirror of Ronan, as in, this is what he will become if he loses himself to the violence

Whereas Fye needs to be old enough for her... brainwashed obsession with you-know-who to not become too weird

But I also need them to be close enough in age so Marokan's little crush on Fye also isn't weird [Edit: Yeah I take this back - It should be kind of weird, to show off that they shouldn't be a ship, as well as showing that Eynalis' manipulation of his daughter really is that screwed up]

(You-know-who is 31, and Ronan is 17)

I... am struggling

Like... 21-23, maybe even 24 or 25 for Marokan works

And Fye being around the same ages is an ideal range 20-26

I kinda like Fye being a little older than Marokan (I'm gonna start calling him Maro)

However it could also go in reverse as Fye getting basically apologized to and blushed at by a guy she was previously taught to respect if Hella funny

Bc like, if he was older, she would start to bow her head to him, and then he would just start blushing his head off and bow to her instead and she would be SUPER confused, but if She was older, she would tease him like once offhandedly and he would become absolutely smitten instantly and believe he has no chance with her

Idk why tho

A Killer and a Torturer

My babies

I also think Maro having a crush on someone older than him is adorable, Fye gaining a healthy confidence, and Maro finally confronting his feelings

Which is also a Reverse Mirror of Rose for Fye and a direct Mirror of Ronan w/ Maro

PLS COMMENT YOUR THOUGHTS FOR THE VIBES THEY GIVE OFF AGE-WISE

@thewritingautisticat @yolbert @vyuntspakhkite-l-darling @ambersky0319 @lunaeuphternal

@an-indecisive-nerd @homelessnerd @vesanal @thebookishkiwi @write-with-will

@hihopelessromantics @pastellbg @seastarblue @i-do-anything-but-write @darkandstormydolls

@supercimi @blargh-500 @sunflowerrosy @corinneglass @carb0n-m0n0xid3

[megaderping]

Nothing drives me up the wall more in the Persona 5 fandom than when people act like they'd be so much better than Akechi in his position. "Well, I would know better!" Bullshit. You don't know that. Japan's treatment of illegitimate children is so heinous that I don't think it's easy for westerners to comprehend. As I understand it, when you turn 15, you're thrown out of the system. Akechi was... how old when he approached Shido? Ah, yes, 15. Likely, he'd been cast out to fend for himself when Yaldabaoth gave him the power (with very malevolent intentions). Shido has his cleaner and his connections. Even if Akechi quit, he wouldn't be safe in the real world. Maybe in the Metaverse, but how long could he even feasibly stay there before needing to eat and sleep? There are safe areas, sure, but those are hardly accommodating, and people severely understate the impact Shido could've had on his mental health once he did join with him. Look at Yusuke and Haru, both of whom were abused and neglected by their parental figures. Both of whom had difficulty even acknowledging what was wrong. Haru continued to downplay her father's crimes and atrocities as well as his abuse of her, likely in part due to her grief and in part due to her wishes for what he could've been. Trauma and mental illness as well as a lack of support systems can break people and push them to make reckless choices because they believe there is nothing else they are good for. The Phantom Thieves were lucky enough to have each other, and that saved them from going down a dark path. Any one of them could have and, hell, if Yaldabaoth had chosen Yusuke or Haru, for instance, there's no way Madarame and Okumura wouldn't have taken advantage of that power and made them do heinous things. Just... god. I really hate the armchair "well, I'm smart enough to know better and I would take homelessness over ~murder~." It's easy to say that when you haven't suffered years of neglect and presumably abuse in a society that sees you as less than human due to circumstances outside your control (e.g. being an illegitimate child whose mother did sex work) in a country that is opposed to adoption overall and just... Argh. And this all started because I tried to point out that, hey, maybe calling Shuake toxic in a server for a fic that is one of the big Akechi and Shuake fics isn't the kindest thing, tried to explain things, and it just blew up. While also pushing for why their preferred ship is better and like... god. I hate that so much. ._. Fastest way to turn me off of a ship is when really hostile fans use their preferred pairing to tear down one that I really like. Just... blargh. What a way to start the day.

[glassprism]

Do you have some least favorite final lair kisses or least favorite return of the ring scenes?

I don't think I have any least favorites because, for me, I don't think there's many ways to play this scene "wrong". Well, maybe during the kiss Christine could slobber her tongue all over the Phantom's face or something, but even then I wouldn't make it my least favorite, because it's entertaining! Heck, it'd probably be my ultimate favorite for the sheer hilarity.

The same goes for the returning of the ring scene; I'm pretty open to any and all interpretations, so short of Christine, I don't know, hurling the ring back at the Phantom's face whilst singing, "Sayonara, sucker!" I don't have any individual least favorites that I've seen. At worst, they're unmemorable, but that's also the majority of kiss and ring returning scenes.

No, I think my least favorite ring returning scene is from a specific production, and that is the scene from the restaged tours (the kiss scene is fine). If you don't know, in that version, after chasing Raoul and Christine out, the Phantom cries over his torn up music sheets (clearly the most important thing in his life) and sings, "Christine, I love you" to the audience. Unbeknownst to him, Christine has returned to his lair to return the ring, but the Phantom does not see her as his back is to her. Rather than facing him, Christine simply places the ring down on his table and leaves. The Phantom then turns around and sees the ring and cries some more, I guess, before diving under the bed to hide from the incoming mob.

And man, I just don't like this interpretation. First, it deprives us of that emotional, final face-to-face moment between the Phantom and Christine. Second, we lose out on the endpoint of the Phantom's arc from seemingly mystical, manipulative being to a sad, broken man; he's no longer the Angel of Music, no longer the Opera Ghost, no longer trying to force Christine's hand, entrance her into loving him, or manipulate her feelings, he's just a lonely man, telling her that he loves her. (Though the restaged tour overly humanizes the Phantom so much that it probably doesn't even matter much.) And third, Christine loses out on that final moment of choice, of agency. She doesn't get to look at the Phantom and decide, once and for all, "No, I can't stay with him, whatever I feel." Instead she avoids the entire moment, dropping the ring and fleeing. Her arc is all about seeing behind the Phantom's many masks and personas and finding the strength to face him, but then at this moment, maybe the most important moment of all, she's robbed of it. Blargh.

Anyway this turned into yet another "I hate the restaged tour" post so I'm going to stop. I actually do enjoy some aspects of it, I swear! But boy do I not like how they blocked some scenes.

[ropes3amthoughts]

Hey gang I wrote a short story about two girls having a sleepover together with only dialogue. The story isn’t that long to read, but because of all the spaces it makes a really long post, so I figured I’d put it under the cut. Hope you guys like it.

Sleepover:

You should shave it all off.

What?! But your hair is so pretty!

I’m kidding, I’m kidding. You can just braid it like normal.

Jeez, I thought you’d lost your mind.

Maybe I have. Blargh, I’m a zombie, brains, blehhh!

Eeeeeek, cut that out!

Ow, ow, ow! Ok, fine, I’ll stop.

Hey, what are you humming?

Oh, nothing, I just made it up.

It sounds pretty.

Thanks.

You could be a music artist. You could like write songs and stuff.

Mhm.

Hey, don’t give me that look I’m serious!

Your hair’s done.

It’s so cute! Ok, my turn to do yours.

No funny business. I gave you a normal hairstyle, so you give me one.

Whattt? I’m not gonna do anything.

Yeah, right.

I can’t believe that you think I’d do something like….this!

Hahaha! Noooo, stop that! I’m-hahaha-warning you, I have a pillow and I’m not-hahaha-afraid to use it! One…two…three! Hi-yah!

Agh, I’ve been hit!

Take that! And that!

Ack! Oof!

Wha-bam!

Blehhhhhh. I’m dead. I’m dead and you killed me.

Hehe, get off the floor!

I can’t believe I’m giving my evil friend who killed me a cute hairstyle.

Hey, you tickled me, you deserved it!

I literally did nothing wrong ever. You’re just so mean to me. It breaks my heart.

Yeah, right.

You say that, but what if I’m actually so heartbroken that I drank this like that dude who drank poison? You know, like in that book we’re reading in English class?

…Romeo from Romeo and Juliet?

Yeah, that one.

How did you forget his name? It’s in the title!

I couldn’t read that old-timey shit. It makes noooooo sense, it’s practically unreadable! I just looked up a summary online.

Come on, it’s not so bad.

Oh, fair maiden, thy haseth broken mine heart so I willith dranketh thy bleach.

That’s not even close! And put that down!

What, you think I’m actually gonna drink it?

No, but just put it down.

Ok, fineeee, princess Juliet.

Juliet wasn’t even a princess!

And ta-da!

Ahhhhh! I love it, oh my gosh! Thank you, thank you!

No problem.

Oh, hey, I just remembered there’s this new movie that came out!

What’s it about?

So there’s the girl and she’s going to high school like normal but then fairies show up and it turns out she’s actually half fairy and she didn’t even know about it and then she has to save the world from-ah, sorry, I’m spoiling it all.

It’s fine. Let’s watch that.

Yay! I’m gonna set it up, can you get some chips?

Yes, ma’am.

Pfft-you sound ridiculous like that.

Check it out.

Yessss!

Alright, I’m ready, press play.

Why do all high school movies start like this?

We’re not even two minutes in, you can’t judge yet!

Oh my god. Are they serious?

They don’t know!

Noo, don’t go with him! Girl, run!

She’ll be ok, she’s the main character.

Oh! Yeah! Kick his ass! Woo!

Shhh, you’re gonna wake up my mom.

Yay, beat him up.

Noooooooooooooo!

Come on, that was so obvious.

I’m still upset about it, though.

Shh, there, there.

I’m not that upset about it.

Wowwww, I see how it is.

Of course she has the rainbow magic.

It’d be boring if she didn’t.

Nuh uh! I think it would be cool if someone wrote a story like that. Imagine: what if the main character didn’t have all these crazy powers and they had to adapt to being in this magic society as an average guy?

You write that, then.

You think I can write?

I think you have good ideas, at least.

Any idea would look better than this.

You just don’t like anything, huh?

I like things!

Name one thing you like.

Easy! If you’re talking about movies then-

Is that ok? Are you comfortable?

Nope, my spine instantly fractured after I put my head on the pillow and these soft blankets whispered in my ear saying they’re going to kill me in my sleep.

You could’ve just said yes.

But I didn’t.

Goodnight!

Goodnighttttttttttttt-

Are you supposed to be a foghorn?

I’m an opera singer.

Pfft.

Don’t let the bed bugs biteeeeeeeeeeeee.

I want a refund.

No can do. Lalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

I’m going to sleep.

Ok, goodnight for real.

I love you.

[yuujispinkhair]

Blargh...I feel like I'm dying 😭 I'm on my period, cramping, feel sick to my stomach, and my body feels weak. I wish someone could take care of me for a change.

Maybe Yuuji? Sukuna could, but he'd probably pout a bit that I'm not able to baby him.

AAAHHH I am sending you lots of love and I hope the cramps will get better soon!! 💗💗

I definitely think that Yuuji would be such a sweet and loving boyfriend and totally take super good care of you!! He would be a bit clueless at first, because he grew up in a male household and I don't think Wasuke ever told him about menstruation problems lol, but Yuuji is eager to learn and to help, so don't worry!! Yuuji's got you!

Sukuna might make his usual teasing comments at first, but the moment he sees how emotional you are because of the hormones, he is quick to shut his mouth and instead do what he is excellent at: Taking care of you. He knows what he is doing, and a quick Google search tells him anything he didn't already know about menstruation. So you are in good hands! Especially because Kuna is very protective over you and loves to do all those acts of service for you.

I wrote some drabbles a while ago about that topic, maybe those can give you comfort too:

Yuuji taking care of you during your period

Sukuna taking care of you during your period

[gemwolfz]

going on an adventure because i went to a queer event at the student center and they had nail polish and i was like hey that sounds fun :) and all they had was gel polish right? and previously unbeknownst to me, gel polish is a whole ordeal to get off! so im having to make an emergency walmart run because my poorly-applied nail polish is driving me insane. keroro playlist carry me through this. maybe i'll get some normal nail polish while im there. the type that doesnt want to cling to you for dear life. maybe even a more keroroesque green. or something sparkly. like idk i think i could make it work im just losing my marbles because the gel polish has caused fucking textures augh blargh aughhr

[donnerpartyofone]

blargh.

Already debating whether this therapist is going to work out. Which is possibly a good thing if I'm resisting because I'm being challenged. But I'm concerned that her whole approach is doing "you are valid" on me. I feel like that's not really my problem, that I don't necessarily need somebody to tell me my feelings matter. I mean of course that's always a point of contention because when your feelings bring no particular consequences, then it can sure seem like they don't matter (because they really don't in any objective sense), but to me the more pressing issue is WHAT I'm having feelings about and how I grapple with that thing. You can tell me my feelings about X matter all day long and it's not going to affect what a hard time I'm having managing X in my life, and who knows maybe it will make things worse to get so excited about the validity of my feelings, I don't know if I like imagining just how much MORE anger/grief/resentment/whatever I could be experiencing if I got really into like celebrating the importance of all my feelings. Mainly though I don't think the central question of therapy, for me, is "Is it OK that I'm like this?" Frankly it has to be OK because I AM "like this", that part isn't really up for debate. I think I'm more interested in talking about WHY I'm like this, how do I make it more manageable, or maybe how do I get better at/more tolerant of the parts of life that are so hostile and alien to me. Like to use the easy example of whatever is going on with me cognitively--I'm chronically disorganized, I'm destructively clumsy, I get lost going to very familiar places, I have trouble with basic mandatory parts of adult life like filling out forms or whatever, none of this improves with practice/patience/assistance--you know, you can tell me all day long that I'm a good person and I still deserve to live, but that really has no impact on the daily suffering I experience while trying to do things. I mean what am I supposed to do about THAT, I ask you, being "valid" doesn't seem to help me cope. The valid part is just some sort of abstract concept that I can choose to subscribe to or not, like belief in god. Though actually belief in god can give you a sense of purpose, or a sense of the relative meaning of things; just liking yourself doesn't necessarily do any of that. I know plenty of people who seem to really love themselves and actually, they're just really easily insulted and entitled about everything. That seems to be not great for them or anyone around them.

This surface-level complaint is actually what caused me to quit therapy the first time; when I told that person that I was having a hard time just doing basic independent adult things, her technique was to try to convince me that I was NOT having a hard time with anything, I was just exaggerating (lying, or even hallucinating I supposed) because I have low self-esteem. Which created the incredibly destructive and surprisingly long-lasting habit of mentally cataloguing every single time I have trouble doing something, in excruciating detail, so that anyone I could tell would be forced to believe me. And actually, a lot of people don't believe me anyway, no matter what I say. Aw, there there. You're so smart though. You can do anything. Nothing is hard for you except self-acceptance. You are valid.

I'm trying to keep my mind on how desperate I felt when I decided to go back into therapy, and how hard it was to find any available therapist at all who wasn't working for a scammy startup and who wasn't a chirpy little baby who I would never be able to take seriously (or both). I'm not going to give up right away. But I cannot be paying someone to give me pep talks about how I'm OK, You're OK. I have to assert that I'm not in therapy just to be told that I'm still a nice person with good qualities, which has no effect on how hard it is for me to do things, and no effect on the CPTSD that changed my understanding of how the world works and created all sorts of maladaptive behaviors and thought patterns. There could be some value in just having an opportunity to say secret and difficult things out loud, to hear what they sound like. But I'm going to have to train this person to stop reminding me that I'm still a cool dude even if I struggle, because I don't really have a question about my value as a person. It's the struggle part I'm worried about, figuring out why it happens and learning how to cope with it.

I often bring this up, but there's an episode of [cancelled TV show] where [cancelled star] is forced to babysit for this narcissistic mom in his PTA group. Her little boy turns out to be totally demonic, eating raw meat and wreaking havoc; eventually the protagonist finds him in the tub, soaking in a pool of his own diarrhea. He explains, stone faced, that "Mommy says anything I do is OK because I love myself." That's how I'm feeling right now, like my problem is that I'm drowning in shit, and I strongly suspect that loving myself is not going to affect the level of shit that I'm in.

[a-dauntless-daffodil]

blargh blargh BLARGH. bloom into you rant touko my aro-coded theater queer im suddenly salty for you

the live reaction experience of getting to the last chapters of the Bloom Into You yuri manga as they were being released and thinking with increasing baffled passion that Yuu and Sayaka should've jumped from mutually respectful rivalry over how to best be a friend to Touko, to cozy not dramatic very competitive girlfriends with each other while their tall dark tragic theater girl realizes her one true love was the stage all along

Touko's story arc was so much bigger in scope than a confession of love to someone who's ancillary to all of it could ever satisfyingly wrap up (to ME) (my opinion means nothing except to me sself) she felt like a fully completed character with romance slapped on top last minute like a discount price tag sticker

her whole thing about being the one declaring her love and asking for kisses specifically with a girl who thinks she can't love anyone and then we find out Touko's been an actress this whole time not coping with grief by pretending to be her dead big sister only to find out said sister wasn't so extraordinary actually and Touko's perfect persona is almost nothing like her and Touko's need to do and be everything her sister couldn't is a whole thing

and who better to act out the quintessential highschool love and lust that you think you should be into but just can't bring yourself to try out, than with a partner who'll never be hurt by it not being real. What is more ace or aro than experiencing things you personally don't click with via a fictional character you can inhabit without worrying about long term real life consequences or connections to the real you, and finding out that it CAN be fun in that situation, with that distance

Touko's attracted to someone who says she can't fall in love and Touko makes that a requirement of their relationship that Yuu won't fall in love with her

(i know i know there's a Lot of reasons for her to do this i don't care im lost in the aro vibes)

but then Yuu does fall in love because whoops maybe she was gay this whole time after all and just didn't feel anything for the guy who asked her out

meanwhile Touko's long time bestie confesses HER love for Touko too

and im reading this screaming LET THE ARO-CODED GIRL ESCAPE THIS MADNESS LET THEsE TWO DATE EACH OTHER AND LEAVE HER BE!!!

by the end theater girl is out there moving past her trauma living her best normal girl life as a stage actress who's allowed to be imperfect off stage, and she has no idea her bestie had gotten a girlfriend until Yuu tells her

then a side story comes out and Sayaka the former Touko unrequited romantic suitor ended dating a girl who looks Exactly Like Yuu

in my head there's a sequel when they're in their thirties figuring out Hey Wait A Second with a dash of Maybe The AroAce Who Likes Having Girlfriends Was Touko All Along

(maybe Yuu and Sayaka should date about it) (maybe Touko can kiss her friends sometimes and go on dates with them for fun without it having to be romantic) (maybe Yuu's athletic childhood bestie meets the Yuu look alike and Sayaka finally gets one amicable fully mutual break up under her belt)

maybe my problem is that writers put so much effort into the pre-relationship but then treat the confession as the end, the resulting happiness a boring given, and almost never reward me with actually getting to see what the relationship itself looks like, when it's the whole thing I spent all this time waiting for and cheering on. Which makes the relationship feel empty and hollow (to me) compared to the other connections that DID get shown and established and grown into

maybe that's a silly thing to think about a highschool romance story.

maybe this is why im more and more only reading stories with relationships already established pre-canon so i don't have to worry about burning energy on something that won't make me go !!! by the end of it

maybe there's also stories where, even though the characters aren't officially together yet, they're still together enough for their dynamic to shift and settle into something that FEEELS like what they'll have for the rest of their lives no matter if they've confessed to each other or not

maybe bloom into you was very well made and STILL missed the mark for me so hard i stopped reading the entire genre, because if something THIS GOOD still could fundamentally not work for me, im just probably reading in the entirely wrong section of the romance isle

maybe i need to start sleeping again my brain feels like a gently poked sunny side up egg in a frying pan

[modern-inheritance]

Ait, animatic peoples and randos just here for the weirdass MIC/IC animatic. Here's the plan for the day.

This will probably change but I'm here for lunch and looking through the absolute MESS I made of my layers and folders while fretting over the run sequence frames so we'll focus there.

Eyeglow for Run2 and redo the motion blur with that added.

Run4, the final frame of the run sequence. Like, the whole thing of it. I already did the grid (i think? i fuckin HOPE–) yesterday so just need to trace, add background, ect. I'm sticking with the gradient for the background that was started in Run3, it looked really wrong with just the grass color.

think of something fun for feral!Arya to say when she's looking at the guy in Run4 because that's NOT going to be a smear/motion frame and we get to have anxiety about THAT because we're constantly forgeting that EACH OF THESE ONLY SHOW UP FOR 0.4 SECONDS.

Slash frames. Get some glow on them, clean them up. might do the paths trick but I prefer the sketch look. Motion blur? we're gonna be tinkering.

Past that, if it gets done today, then we can focus back on Murtagh's arrow cam sequence.

The Young Rider sequence, at least the door opening and Murtagh stabbing the guy, need to be remade in MagicPoser now that I have swords and stuff.

I'm gonna wait for the weekend to plan out/build the stuff for the intro with the mountain and all that.

do a few quick frames of Murtagh shooting everyone. easy shots, prob just an overview with each person 'HURK! blargh *faceplant*' from above. OO or maybe a few diff angles, quick to each–

Try not to panic about the dragon parts. If you have to, you can...you can try to export-import from MP to daz but that sounds like pain and tweaking it all in daz just with the dragon model sounds painful but not quite as much.

And yes. Yes we are going to start planning out Eragon's scenes. There's some finicky stuff I need to do with the final part of the Young Rider sequence, which could involve me doing music mashups and inserts again, but we'll cross that later. But there are indeed IDEAS for 'Oh My God He's The Most Powerful Man On The Continent and We Made Him Mad and Threatened The People He Loves and Protects that is not a human nor a man that is a fucking MONSTER–'!Eragon.

:3 because I don't think I've ever shown Eragon post war yet in an angry state. I'm a bit excited.

ooo. Do you think he's started trying to grow some scruff? Arya did find it a bit fetching on Fäolin, maybe he's gonna try and get somethin growing.... He still looks YOUNG, but he's in his mid 20s at this point, and while his growth and aging has stalled there due to his elf stuff now, he does look Man and not Boy/Teen.

hmmmm

I"m getting too detailed again alright i need to actually EAT MY FUCKING LUNCH WHY IS THERE ONLY FOUR MINUTES LEFT–

[apollotronica]

hiiiii... did you miss meeeee....

🌵 🌻🧃 🪐 🧸🥐 🍦 🦋 🥝 🐚

- 💌 (gas leak in my house) (everyone's ok but that was the main reason for my absence) (sorry!)

🌵- share the link to a playlist you love

erm i pnly have one big one I have like ones i dont listen to but . here

🌻- tag someone you appreciate but dont talk to on a regular basis

i could tag Everyone i consider a friend because i am so bad at talking to people but ermmmm @demdol @analogseeker @mukuberry @yurihifugen @librariansrose hiiiiii hugs you all

🧃- share some personal lore youve never posted about before

oh brother i post about everything thats ever happened to me . umm im very good with my toes Like i can do the same things with my feet that i can with my hands

🪐- name three good things going on in your life right now

ermmmm ummm UMMmmm 1 im going to thr mall today 2 i just got my discord account backc 3 Been having some interesting conversations lately which is always fun

🧸- whats the fastest way to become your mutual?

Ermmmm Ummmm eiyhet Ask . or follow me first and ill look thru ur blog for like 30 minutes until i decide if i wanna follow u back . idk shrug emoji

🥐- name one internet reference that will always make you laugh

Oh man . a lot of internet things make me laugh . any jerma bit honestly

🍦- name three good things about a character you hate

i havent really hated anyone recently . ermm . his face is . so flat. his voice is kinda funny . i guess hes good at brainwashing . nazu and prin know who im talking about i think

🦋- share something that has been on your heart and mind lately

I REALLY WANNA GO OUT IN MY HEELYS AND RIDE AROUND EVERYWHERE !!!!!!!!!!! BUT IT HURTS TO WEAR THEM FOR TOO LONG !!!!!!!!!!!!

🥝- do you lie a lot? whats the most recent lie you told?

i trll a lot of tiny little white lies i think ? Maybe ? i probably told a lie in this response . im bad at lying And telling the truth

🐚- do you like or dislike surprises?

honestly it depends on my mood beforehand . but i usually like them . Because i get bored being able to predict things . blargh

AND I DID MISS YOU !!!!!!!! HIIIIIIIIIII !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[the-ellia-west]

Oooohhhh wait I just had a fun idea

So...

Rose and Jak are siblings

But what siblings don't fight?

Especially considering their background

Even though he has Rose's loyalty bc they're family, I can totally imagine her getting angry with him the time or times he makes Morena cry or ends up intentionally screwing something up

I can also see Jak finally just breaking down at Rose when she stubbornly refuses to talk to him about her own problems or when she runs herself ragged for the group

Or even if they fight about Jak's habits or how they keep trying to make sacrifices for each other that the other doesn't want

I feel like generally these two would get along very well but they also have a lot to argue about as well.

Which could result in an Arc where they spend time apart from one another and end up both getting worse in their respective flaws before Finn has had enough of the fighting and demands they talk it out

They would probably make up by both breaking down crying and apologizing to each other

I can't decide if this would be before or after they learn that they actually don't know a lot about each other

Maybe this would be the beginning of the realization?

Rose: "Because you don't CARE! I've tried my fucking hardest to talk to you, to be near you, to be your sister and you just keep pushing me away! You don't help, you don't LISTEN! I reach out, you say 'maybe some other time'. I try to express my concern, you brush me off! I'M TRYING TO HELP! I JUST WANT TO PROTECT YOU!"

Jak: "Is that all you think about? Is THAT what you think of me? That I don't care? I knew it. Of course you do. Why wouldn't you? You told me you hated me then, why would that change? If I didn't fucking care, I WOULDN'T FUCKING BE HERE! All you can see me as is selfish! And you're right. I am. But have you ever considered why? ROSE I DON'T NEED PROTECTING!"

Rose: "Clearly you do. AND I DON'T HATE YOU! I NEVER HAVE, AND I NEVER WILL! YOU'RE JUST TOO WRAPPED UP IN YOUR OWN HEAD TO SEE THAT I LOVE YOU AND I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING FOR YOU! YOU'RE MY BROTHER! LET ME HELP!"

Jak: "And that's your problem! You would give everything for me, but what would you do for yourself? I don't care because I can't afford to. You care too much. You do too much. I DON'T WANT YOU NEAR ME!"

Finn: "Oh Realms..."

@an-indecisive-nerd @sunflowerrosy @urnumber1star @homelessnerd @vesanal @darkandstormydolls @supercimi @corinneglass @sm-writes-chaos @thebookishkiwi @blargh-500 @lunaeuphternal @write-with-will @yolbert @thewritingautisticat @carb0n-m0n0xide @theweirdbox123 @inspirationallybored @daringcrafter @elronthemage @storiesbyemma

[hummingbirblack]

Diaried all over my private Instagram story again. I wrote a lot and I like it all but I think my friends will find it annoying but I want to archive it sooo one second

I haven't served face since like 2022 also me and my brother's best traits complement each other but unfortunately my incel nature and lack of ambition completely tank any hope of me benefitting society with my sort of oxen devotion to labor. Nobody wants to be wifed up by a hikikomori

Sorry that was a slip of the tongue. I'm in love with myself I'm very sweet and dependable. And I'm funny. I bring an overly verbose and unnecessarily analytical vibe to the function that the hoes really fuck with and unemployment just means I'm always at everyone's beck and call which is nice when you need a spare body/soul. I can really shape up a cohort of aimless teenagers/young adults if necessary. I try to approximate a cornucopia as closely as possible but I'm still working on nailing my spiral triangle figure. I know All Music and get along with practically anybody on that basis. I am shaking terminally online himejoshi ass in the club

Be honest did I use too many Japanese terms on my story this evening

I was going to find a seph sama video but that felt mean. TWO AM !! TWO AM !! Excited for tomorrow

I forgot what else I was going to say it probably didn't matter GOOD NIGHT

WAIT I REMEMBER I had a dream that I ate the yogurt that's been in the fridge since before I moved in and it turned to putrid black sludge in my mouth and hands and lap and no matter what I did the stench of it wouldn't leave. Blargh

I can't stop talking. I know I talk annoying and mostly it's tolerated but what if I make some inedible error and the things you could excuse as personality quirks shift into leering impish habits that become impossible to ignore. That would suck. That would suck. Can we like pinky promise to each other that it never will happen. Also I tend to post things that I want to send to one person maybe two but it's so vulnerable. Single actors commit the terroristic act of rejection more freely

I'm hyper because it's TWO AM TWO AM and the vent is blowing cold air over me. I'm jittering like I have adrenaline but really my jaw is tight because of the shivers.

Seph sama has breached containment - off twitter and onto my story - I can't stop considering the difference between "weeb" and "otaku". In a month I'm doing three new things: living with people with whom I have no presumption of cultural similarity, working a real job, traveling by myself. These things are stressful because I feel like I'll have to act more competent than I am, and what if the critics aren't having my interpretation of the role. I love SOPHIE. I love my friends so much but the backdrop is always a fear of loss and it makes me behave oddly. This is going to be good to talk about in therapy tomorrow

Ok I’m done thank you. Still an attention whore hence why this is going here and not in my notes app or into a journal, although, maybe I’ll put it into a journal and delete this post in turn. How exciting. Good night

Can't sleep actually sorry I decided I would try to clear my phone of like long videos and I tried to and a lot of them are of people who haven't texted me back, or who I should have texted. I wish I had the balls and maybe the naiveté to beg for someone back how I want to. Taylor Swift in the background and a selective search for how many times we've said the word "cum" in a group chat that's 3 years old. A pile of leaves and a dog I haven't seen in three years. We never got to be on the same cornhole team and I asked the wrong questions before the movie. This is untenable what do you even do about grief you feel over someone who is in theory a phone call away

I wish I had a sign that you missed me too I think the reason I'm always telling everyone exactly how I feel is because I wish everyone would tell me how they feel in kind. I didn't know I was still in this much pain about it

The three people I miss most all have in common that I feel like they of everyone I know would respond MOST poorly to me literally getting on my knees and begging for them back in the sense that they're very cool/ suave/sophisticated about things of this nature and I'm kind of a dork with no prospects and also no tact. I fantasize about showy groveling but that would only make me feel better. The real underlying commonality is that I wasn't there for all three of you. I was so intimidated by the facade I placed in front of you that I didn't know how to be emotionally intimate when it mattered. And there's no real way to apologize

How do you take accountability for failing to know what to say, or for letting your insecurities keep you from being a good friend, or for being so disastrously insecure that you ended up splashing your shit on someone else ? I kind of feel like gatsby sometimes. I'm just a peacock I just want you to know I'm cool and so different and likeable now, not at all the walking bomb I was before

In a crown of candy in like the third or second episode or something Cruller talks about how in politics we play a game in which everyone knows everyone else is lying. And the rat race of college and graduate school is much the same. Sometimes I worry that I’m not passionate about anything at all because I don’t feel this burning, enduring flash of powerful desire to devote myself entirely to like one field forever. I have things that I want to achieve and I’m willing to work for them, but I’m not willing to pretend that I would achieve salvation through like a four year degree or even a career. The schools and jobs know that they’re good. There are passionate people but I can’t bring myself to lie and say I’m one of them no matter how steep the cost of my truth-telling

[dovand]

omg hiii :-) thank you for the tag! i’m taking “first lines” literally and doing the first couple lines in most of these, because I Can.

unnamed June 1967, trying to capture the heady sort of atmosphere of songwriting + drugs + swinging London + JohnandPaul all tangled up at Cavendish:

He doesn't entirely intend to, but at some point between trips and sessions and late nights on the phone itching to actually play together, John finds himself in Cavendish most nights. It's June, and hot, and the days are as long as they are sweltering, and John is as unmoored and as tethered as he's ever been.

post-1980 resurrection/ghost (haven’t decided yet!), where John starts showing up on the farm in Scotland:

Whoever said there’s Nothing after was wrong. He’d take it up with them, but, well—he’s in a place.

ot4 fic that maybe i will finish some day:

“No, go on, Haz,” John goads.

upcoming chapter of Jet:

“Come to Scotland.” John stops breathing for probably longer than is advisable. “What?”

(why can’t i get those to sit on the same indentation line thing. blargh) i fixed it

upcoming chapter of zoomer bugs:

“Could the Beatles be a polycule?” John… asks? It doesn’t sound like a request more than it does a bid for information. He shuffles around on the floor, puts his feet up on the coffee table, takes them down again.

this isn’t a first line, because this story isn’t actually written yet, but this is a salient bit from the outline of a “John overdoses; Paul freaks out & mother-hens him” idea. in my outline it’s one big paragraph but I’ve taken the liberty of adding some line breaks because I do not want to subject you all to my beautiful run-on dialogue-only paragraph.

"what about that american bird, then. the photographer. didn't she invite you to some thing tonight?" "she did, yes." "well?" paul shrugs lightly. "i told her i had other priorities." "what, me?" "yes." john sits with that for a moment before it gets too big to handle. he punches through the feeling: "y'know, i never asked for you to uproot your whole bloody life for me." paul doesn't look at him, just keeps folding his clothes, and says mildly, "and yet i did."

a completely separate resurrection fic, circa 1994 (again this is the first line from an outline):

John reappears in an almost frustratingly mundane way—Paul is at his dining table eating; one moment he’s alone, the next he is looking across the table at John. Older and greyer and longer-haired than he remembers, but unmistakably John.

I have no idea who I know on here that writes besides who’s already tagged above, so. If you see this and want to do it, consider yourself tagged by me? …also if any of those lines spark joy & you think I should actually write the rest of the story that goes with them… so do I! halp.

Fanfic Opening Lines

Thanks for the tag @crepesuzette2023 :)

Rules: share the first lines of ten of your latest fanfics (or up to if you have less!) & tag 10 people.

Where I would be: He is awake, and wishes not to be. (Beatles. Depressed househusband John befriends a lesbian folksinger)

Singing a song of ruin: Three in the morning on a New York late spring night. (Beatles. John tries to talk a stranger off a bridge)

Under his carpet: Linda is tired. (Beatles. The married life of Linda Eastman McCartney)

Time can do so much: Dragging this journal out again. (Mclennon. Derivative of @javelinbk's Heart of Glass - John's diary)

objet petit a: “I think you’ll probably be the least star-struck of all of us in this case, Ivana.” (Beatles. Paul in psychoanalysis after Linda's death, analyst's POV)

And from the not yet published WIP which doesn't have a title yet: Early in her life, Mary decided to work, and she never stopped. (Beatles. Mary McCartney-lives! AU)

I think most of the writers I'm a fan of have done this already so if so, consider the tagging a general shout-out :) @menlove, @milfpaul, @javelinbk, @oopshidaisyy, @pauls1967moustache, @sonder-writes, @monkberries, @forthlin, @dovand, @muzaktomyears, @chut-je-dors

[shima-draws]

I wanna. Talk. About my OCs

[muffinrecord]

Muffin, what do you think are the best and worst transformations?

Ohh that's a great question.

For transformation scenes, I prefer when an actual transformation occurs. I don't really like the ones where the emphasis is on the weapon appearing or just some pretty animation. Also, this goes without saying but I don't like fanservice in it. Lastly, I really like it when the video tells you a little bit about the character. I don't mean like... "this character likes books" or things like that, but stuff you can read into.

I'm just gonna go through the playlist...

Imo, Tart's is pretty bad. It's got some weird frames, it focuses a little too much on the weapon going from a banner to.. whatever, and her expression looks weird as fuck in the last shot.

Holy Alina's is great. It's a transformation but also insight into her state of mind. It's artsy and confusing and feels like a fever dream. I especially like the last couple seconds with the flash of light and dark (although I do wonder if this could possibly trigger a person with epilepsy or migraines? so there is that)

Seira's is bad. It has some REALLY questionable frames in it that expose her bare ass for no reason, and also imo it's kind of hard to tell what's going on in it. A shame because Seira is great.

Yozuru has a great one imo. It's artsy and I like the music. The transformation in the beginning is good but I love the layering and the final shot. It really brings to mind how Yozuru closed off an entire aspect of herself through her wish.

Swimsuit Mami's is good. I'm impressed they made a long-ass video about Mami in a swimsuit and none of it feels like fanservice.

(actually a lot of the videos from this time period are really well done imo).

Vampire Kanagi had a really artsy one.

Yuna has my favorite henshin of all time. It's just so good-- the music, the visuals, the character...

Hm... Let's go through em again.

A lot of the Suzune ones are pretty bad imo. Chisato and Haruka have awful ones from the fanservice alone. Tsubaki actually has a decent one though imo? I really like the detail where the flame forms in the shape of a flower for her.

Haregi Sayaka has one of the prettiest ones.

Moka's makes me laugh. I still remember a reddit comment that described her video as "hallucinating candy and almost getting her ass cut in half with her own axe"

Chika's is sooooo unexpectedly pretty??????

Sudachi's could have been so good if it wasn't for a few really gross frames. It has this unbearable sense of loneliness to me that's really beautiful, but the nakedness ruins it.

Jun's is. blargh.

Uwasa Sana has a beautiful one. That opening shot of her falling is great.

Alexandra is suffering.

Konoha & Hazuki's is fucking stunning.

Nayuta's is??? amazing??? with awesome music.

Hmmm... After Final Oriko, I can't really say I liked any of the henshins, up until Mikoto's maybe. Oh, and Dark Mitama had a good oneish. But you can def feel that the budget is being put into other areas. Some of them are decent (Urara) but rely on still shots for energy, some of them have good ideas but really fall on their face in terms of animation quality (Himena), and then some are just. why. (Swimsuit Madoka).

But I think criminally, some are just kind of forgettable. Rabi's is... idk it should have been better imo.

Granted, a bunch of earlier videos are kind of bland to me as well, but it's kind of a shame that the quality stepped down. However, like with Tsuyu's recent one, I think that even if you don't have a lot of budget, you can still make a decent transformation video. You just need to make good choices.

I think Mikoto has a better transformation than Infinite Iroha does. If you compare the two, Infinite Iroha has more stuff going on and actual animation while Mikoto has a lot of stillness, still frames, and zooms-- however, Mikoto's tells a story and teaches you about the character, and Infinite Iroha's is kind of boring. It also has some really interesting shots, like where she appears in handheld mirror. You can do a lot of reading into it, about who is "the real" Mikoto, if she's made up of many different faucets of herself or if it's something she's crafted, etc, but the point is that it's possible to do that with that video and not for Iroha's one.

Thanks for the ask!