#i think this is my first time drawing her actually? anw.

[mayoiayasep]

hori future design for the girlies birthday<3

[id: a pencil bust sketch of hori’s 10 years later design from the bonus horimiya chapters. she’s wearing a birthday party cap and is smiling while looking at something off to the side. end id]

[eggdrawsthings]

No wait Sol working at the Temple's library is actually so real and so fitting for him you are a genius!!!!!

SEE!! YOU SEE MY VISION!!! I'm speaking from my own experience too like, as a shy and introverted person, I love spending time at bookstores and libraries and museums. So the Temple's library would be a perfect place for young Sol to be in. Through training, he will be less shy and more proactive but gentleness and compassion are still his core personality. This will play into why he barely draws the saber unless necessary. Hell, there could be sth happened in his Padawan years that triggered this too. (though I love lightsaber in action, seeing the Jedi just use it to hack away any living creatures before trying to calm them or know what they are is so...🥲, even though i too would be fucking scared of giant flying cockroaches). But anw yeh, spending sm time in the library and training ground made him a book-smart and skilled at duel fighting person -> fitting to teach the younglings, but his knowledge is limited by the books and ppl he met -> his ignorance towards diff cultures that were not documented by the Jedi + restricted view towards other ways of using the Force. This is where Yord comes in since he seems to be the type that goes against the norm and learns weird shit, and he likes to go on missions a lot (the contrast between Tasi going on mission w Yord so early while Jecki was w Sol for a while yet that was her first on-site mission). Also since Jecki also always looks up to Sol, all of her moves mirror his, and even better cuz she's a smart kid and she improves his moves, and she also trains w Yord on the side -> leading to her success in combat. So when all 3 combine, they learn from each other and support each other, like a family wahooo

sorry for the rambling i was deep in the trenches when i was thinking about this AU. i think that's it tho i didn't spend much time digging more into it lmao

[enden-k]

it always makes me really happy to see artists that are more 'fandom-centric' by nature posting their OCs and other things along that line and getting positive feedback, which then in turn causes them to create and post more OC stuff tbh (this is meant 100% genuinely, i apologise if the way i phrased it is a little stilted or odd, i just love seeing non fandom content on my dash)

anyways, feel free to use this ask as a free pass to give us some random tidbits about your OCs and their stories! whatever is swirling around in there that you haven't been about to find a spot to talk about just yet would be great /gen

tbh i always drew my own characters and stories since childhood but started doing fanart when i joined my first big fandom back then (which was bleach in my teenage years); i kept drawing my own things until college between fanart here and there but the moment i made my art blog here i neglected my works more and more and did more fanart instead (for fgo back then). i havent drawn any of my comics again for 4 years or smth but now that my sister got back into hers again she motivated me to pick up my old stories again!!

i think bc ppl were so excited abt my fanart i always knew my own stuff wouldnt get as much reaction so i didnt even try and then just stopped working on it hhjhdfkj but yea, now that my sister gave me motivation and energy and now that i see ppl are actually liking my stuff its smth else aaaa. sry for rambling, i just wanted to clarify that im not fandom-centric by nature, it just happened over the time

anw idk what i should babble abt so uhhh have a fun fact:

not only is this specific story the first proper, planned through one i drew in my teenage years, its also the one that got me in trouble and caused a lot of serious pain bc my adoptive father snooped in my room back then and stole specific pages (like gore or smut scenes, yea i was edgy but also heavily traumatized and in a very bad place) and made up random shit about it to make fun of me, expose me by showing my friends and others and claim outrageous stuff. i tried to remake it later but always stopped with each version and never attempted to revive this story again bc it always filled me with shame and horror knowing he still owns these pages. me redrawing it now is lit the first time in YEARS that i touch it again and it feels very healing, like im seeing my teenage self again drawing this stuff with sm passion and not the person anymore who trampled on it and used it to cause me pain. bc that exact thing was what kept me from working on it again. i just couldnt do it.

(as usual w personal stuff, im just sharing this very dry like facts and i get uncomfortable when people send comfort so ye, reminder to not do that please)

[therealnuclearplatypus]

random solangelo hcs cuz i don't do much of those (have i even ever?)—

will :)

ayo okay so let's just start off by saying will ain't ur soft boi stereotype okay

my bitch is texas born n raised y'all, he gets pissed sUPER easily (he better get to go fuckin apeshit in the upcoming solangelo novel or im throwing hands). nico is made out to be the scarier one, but its only because the times his rage truly erupts in a way that terrifies are few and far between so they seem a lot scarier than they would be if he did it on the daily like will does.

ffs this boy snaps at people if they take too long to cut him a bandage like "sweet HOLY lawd I'll just do it myself next time" but doesn't actually

but he gets over his little hissy fits quite easily so that's fine

he got his tattoo from a sibling who's not a year-rounder and is training to be a tattoo artist. even though he was like, what, fifteen when he got it, his big sib didn't really care because will knows what he's doing

except not really, people forget he's human too, not just 'the medic' or 'the sunshine guy'

anw he showed it to nico all excited and nico almost drooled

will likes roller-skating, fight me👊

he also tries vaping one time and stops because he liked it so much he knew he'd get addicted

same as when he smoked weed once. also nico had gotten really worried when he'd heard and will didn't wanna make him worry

but then when they grew older they both ended up smoking pot from time to time anyways

nico :)

nico likes to read shakespeare. his favourite play is twelfth night because that is also my favourite shakespearean play i don't make the rules except i do

he also has a soft spot for romantic poetry. it pisses him off to no end when people say "oh, you like love poems? i didn't think you would like those kinds of things" because first off, why the hell wouldn't he? (he's secretly a hopeless romantic, much to will's delight). and secondly, he means poems of the romantic MOVEMENT. the romantic POETS. yeats, shelley, those guys. his personal favourite is keats, and his favourite poem is la belle dame sans merci. (this one is basically all me but im projecting onto nico okay don't judge me)

he occasionally writes poetry himself but never shows them to anyone, not even will. they're his own thing. will knows he writes them, but he knows not to ask to read them (as much as he'd like to) because they're nico's private space. (sorry, projecting again 😞)

one time nico was hanging out with drew in the aphrodite cabin (nico×drew friendship >>>) and she was painting her nails all glittery n pink, when she jokingly grabbed the black nail polish and painted nico's pinky. he didn't even flinch and she ended up painting all ten fingernails and that's how nico got into painting his nails

p i e r c i n g s !!

like, i. canNOT. stress this enough. he has like a bajillion on his ears, two on his lip, a septum nose ring, and he even dared to get one on his left eyebrow. will loves em

he lets his hair grow out a bit. not, like, reeeaaally long. just, wolfcut style, ig? and he ties it up in a smol bun or ponytail and will is LIVING for it

he also wears skirts from time to time, just for will. he also gets a moon tattoo on his left pectoral to match will's sun tattoo on his right pec

he steals will's shirts because what else are boyfriends for

he likes to draw but isn't very good at drawing people. landscapes, though? mary mother of christ hes talented at those. whenever he draws one from tartarus whoever sees them has to physically repress a shudder at their vivid detail

he has a gap between his two front teeth that was a lot wider when he was little but is still kinda noticeable now

solangelo :)

they're both little spoon and big spoon. they both need to protect and be protected.

they communicate in italian (nico is italian, italian is the language of music, yadda yadda yadda)

nico plays the piano and will can sorta twang the harp? so sometimes they just sit together and play and it brings them peace

they're both MASSIVE mcr fans shut up you know its true

so's thalia and percy too a bit so one time all four of em go see a concert and will admits that gerard way was his bi awakening and nico's like "i know that"

they watched glee and lowkey loved it but they like laughing at mr schue

they have matching heartstopper pfps on insta <33

nico has charlie and will has nick duhh

they also have matching bios! they change it often but it always matches :]]

they also match jewellery (im just manifesting couple goals for myself atp)

they watched young royals and now have a picture of august's head on a dartboard just so they can throw darts at him (nico occasionally throws knives)

when nico meets naomi he's initially really scared, but naomi ends up loving him to bits and tells will he's lucky they're dating or else she would've adopted him

they end up getting married at like 18-ish and go live in washington dc, because nico wanted to go back there, and will becomes a paediatrician and nico a professor of literature. they live with the most dramatic-ass fucking cat and a little daughter named bianca maria di angelo-solace :>

yeahh okay bye <3

[cantalooprat]

The Earth is Online

What I Liked

the two leads r so cute together... i lowkey love that their tower game synchronization was built upon the coordination theyve had when playing bridge

minimal romance but still spicy interactions!??!?!? i loved the way their romance grew, from initial distrust to "it's more important to find strong teammates than to go to an easier lvl of the tower" to "wait u seem kinda familiar, could u be..." to actually! falling in love! the romance didn't bog down the plot nor distract from it, but seamlessly integrated with the way the leads' dynamics work

in the beginning of them getting to know each other, when tang mo tried to ditch fu wenduo but fwd caught tm anw, then they entered an instance together... i think that's when i rly got convinced of their romance lmao, i love that the mc is a conniving little weasel

good plot, good worldbuilding, side characters r distinctive n carry their own motivations not necessarily centered around the leads. i remember feeling sad for the middle school girl? whose dad disappeared vs tang mo in their first game, n how she saw w her own eyes the killers who eventually got killed vs her, tm, fwd, n it was such a minor thing but i appreciated the author wrapping that plot thread up

they boned so tm can get fwd's power, which was... well the scene leading up to it certainly set the mood, anw i was grinning with delight when it was revealed boning was one of the ways to get the power which is like... cliched af but i was living for it

What I Disliked

the leads pull so many tacit understanding moments that it felt lowkey bs lmao

some of the instances r kinda hard to imagine by text, want to draw on paper but then idk if it's even right so in the end i just kinda go along w the ride not fully understanding what was going on

ending got kinda rushed? felt like the tower floor 7 endgame wasn't explored as thoroughly, and the origin of the tower was like "to test civilization", to which i went "wait its all honkai?" "always has been"

fuk the gun metaphors they used for the boning scene, it was so surreal i was like ??????????????????? why tf r they having a gun practice session in fwd's old room n then they mentioned tm's book starting to record fwd's ability n i was like ohhhhhh omg what a disaster description of the boning session. i laugh-cringed

Notes

it must be mentioned that i started teio bc i got artbaited on twitter, saw a pic of tm n fwd n thought it was orv fanart of kdj n yjh, n in a spur of orv-depression-induced impulse to inhale copium, started reading teio

teio is my first ever foray to danmei when i didnt even know wtf danmei was, n i gotta say it was an excellent choice, it rly hit all the right spot n felt like i encountered the right wn at the right time

idr exactly when i read this, prob like sep? oct? 2021

[empty-dream]

70-72 commentaries (No pic, spoilerific nonetheless)

The most important thing: S3E70-72 have no visual for Hockney's face. I, as a Hockney fan, can not deny my disappointment. Though his head from the back does something to soothe my ache.

I want to scratch Yasratcha's face so much.

So I googled and found that the name of the game, Gakjadosaeng (각자도생) literally translates into "Self-Help", and is an idiom meaning "Each one tries to make a way out of it." Fitting. Tho I’m actually surprised Yasratcha doesn’t name the game “Cat Game”

This entire kill-the-prisoners-who-just-wants-freedom-to-get-what-you-wish-for thing is not gonna do Bam good. It's foreshadowed already.

I have a feeling the special gift Yasratcha prepares in Yama's map are the same canine species as Yama. Either way, being Yama is gonna suck now.

I wonder what Evankhell's map is like since it's not shown. And also what's up with Kallavan's map, the goal is right in front of his face?

White: "I can't believe I had to get my feet wet." Me: I can't believe that's the first thing you say after 1 year hiatus.

White as an enemy is an anoying trash talker. White as an ally, however, is a satisfying trash talker. I forget if he's always able to honestly admit his pride gets hurt when someone blocks his sword, or if this is because of White's Clone effect on him? Last time I remember, as Hoaquin he exploded when Boro did it.

That Lyborick minion is so fucking unlucky to run into both Dowon and Karaka. This duo is not what I expect to find here but now I'm looking forward for their dynamic. She actually calls him "Kid." I know she’s ancient and all but. still. Karaka. A KID. LMAO.

I have no basis to say this but what if AA will face Maschenny's minions and they give hints about Maria and lit up the path to Khun Family Arc. I don't think said little brother is Ran, tho. The Wiki states Ran wants to kill Maschenny, and I feel like she is the type that will sardonically call any Khun male younger than her as "little brother."

Hansung really says "Me? Wanna be a hero? Nuts."

But anw, what is 'Where it all began?' Why is he "the only one mad for Jahad and the Great Families for turning their back against morals'? Am I forgetting something about Hansung's past or is it really not touched upon yet?

I still can't believe I start with "I hate Yu Hansung" and now I'm all "I love Yu Hansung."  Or the fact that Hansung, Karaka, White and Kallavan, all antagonists from previous long, long seasons, now are allied with Bam. What kind of fever dream is this.

Flash news: Yasratcha is into mixed furries.

*Haratcha spewing those words on Hansung* Me: Wow he really hates heroes huh *Haratcha's past is shown* Me: Wow he really hates himself huh.

So Haratcha's past is basically Elaine's but so much bloodier. And it's tragic in a different way because unlike Elaine's family, the Rashangs didn't start off such greedy bastards. They were just a good minority group that was being persecuted. But when they got to taste wealth, comfort and power for a bit too long, they became cruel and lazy.

And "How People Change" is a common theme in TOG. Just look at Bam in general, or Floor of Death arc with Joe, or Jahad and the Great Family Heads who, as Data!Eduan and Data!Jahad stated, were not like *that* before.

Haratcha's dying scene is unnerving because of how much this stays true. The ghosts (?) of the Rashangs are still so greedy. But when he offers them the only thing he has left, his mark, they just curtly say 'we have that already.'

His dying thought is correct: The Rashangs had no ambition. They never learned. They were given multiple chances to go back to living normally and safely, but they busted them all. They had passed the point of salvation because, as narrated, " They could no longer stand it if anyone had even a little it more than them. They developed a habit of demanding equality, but they made no effort to make things truly equal."

But that didn't go one way. Haratcha was the one enabling the Rashangs to depend on him and eventually leech him off. He said "I will give you power"; he never said, "Let's become strong together." He shot himself on the foot by becoming their wish-granting machine. Just like how he accused Hansung of doing, Haratcha was trying to be a hero for his marginalized people. But one fundamental mistake and several unfortunate things kickstarted his downfall.

Hansung himself also highlighted this. Hansung was not a hero trying to save anyone. He encouraged races trampled under Jahad to stand up for themselves, he made use of people, he left those dragging him. All of these were not things Haratcha did.

Said fundamental mistake, at least for me is that it got worse for Haratcha because unlike Elaine who still had her subordinate, he was alone. He was the lone leader of the group and the only one Yasratcha transformed into a feline. There was no one to raise with him nor to fall with him. No one understood what he really wanted, no one truly asked or argued more with him.

So when the pre-greed Rashangs worried about him and he waved them off with the words "Ask me anything, I'll give it to you!" they believed him and took it literally. After that he just kept giving and giving despite everything until it drained him and led him to kill everyone. And the reason why he couldn't be as harsh as Hansung is, why he is the wannabe-hero one, is because it was out of unconditional love that he did everything for his people.

(I'm just a fan of Hero Deconstruction so don't mind me spitballing about one minor character's past.)

By the way, SIU's narration and drawings to show Haratcha's past is insanely good and chilling. Right to the very end, it was *chef kiss* God I miss SIU so much it's so good to have him back.

[yudonomi]

Kingdom Hearts and Hetalia for the ask meme please?

blorbo asks

im gonna put a disclaimer that im still in the middle of 3D and havent played KH3, but hmm anw:

Kingdom Hearts

blorbo (favorite character, character I think about the most)

Axel, who got the honor of being my first ever dokidoki (2d or 3d or otherwise) right before he decided to burn himself up :/

scrunkly (my “baby”, character that gives me cuteness aggression, character that is So Shaped)

Namineee my sweet summer artist child who I projected onto before I learned what projection was

scrimblo bimblo (underrated/underappreciated fave)

She’s gotten a lot more appreciation now but Kairi used to a bit ignored and tbh I don’t blame them she barely shows up/does anything in the early games

glup shitto (obscure fave, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and I won’t shut up about it for a week)

me in the Days tutorial taking my sweet time so Zexy would stay around longer mmm

poor little meow meow (“problematic”/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave)

I got into this fandom in the late 00s where simply being female was sometimes a controversy for a character so Larxene lmao

horse plinko (character I would torment for fun, for whatever reason)

Roxas. Cuz Days + 2 wasn’t angst enough apparently

eeby deeby (character I would send to superhell)

mansexXemnas/Xehanort/Ansem/whatever the fuck he goes by these days idk someday I’ll catch up and understand for sure but not today

Hetalia

blorbo (favorite character, character I think about the most)

ErzsiErzsiErzsiErzsi bi awakening Erzsi

scrunkly (my “baby”, character that gives me cuteness aggression, character that is So Shaped)

Taiwan, who I'd been drawing with wavy hair for years before someone pointed out her hair was actually straight

scrimblo bimblo (underrated/underappreciated fave)

Belarus my problematic queen

glup shitto (obscure fave, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and I won’t shut up about it for a week)

Historical states who have since integrated into a ‘main’ nation. So like, Genoa/Bavaria/Hesse/Saxony/that sort? Mmm i eat that shit up

poor little meow meow (“problematic”/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave)

Rodi defense squad since 2014 I will defend you from so much mischaracterization

horse plinko (character I would torment for fun, for whatever reason)

Vino and Feli are taking turns rn (see: my most recent fic)

eeby deeby (character I would send to superhell)

Gil lmao bye

[elysianslove]

OH THEY'RE LIKE THIS....MATTE BRONZE-Y THING...you'd think with how much i draw i would actually know how to describe colors well but n o p e. but yeah that's how i'd describe it, my grandma saw it and was like "isn't this old, why does it look rusty" PLS

tsumu w glasses!!!!!!!!! is very hot!!!! sexy!!!!!!! i'm heating up just thinking about it!!!!! i was v thirsty for osamu today but then i remembered this and. and. 🥺🥺🥺🥺 tsumu 🤲 i want tsumie 🤲🤲🤲

also that sucks, esp since it was out of ur control >:( i'd be pissed;;; but also i hope you don't beat urself too much over it :( i'm sure you can still pull ur grades up next time!! also maybe ur profs should be more considerate in case things like that happen again </3 BUT YAY I'M GLAD IT WENT WELL FOR YOU!!! will u have time to rest a bit now?? hopefully u do, i feel like you've been pretty busy :o please do sleep once u have free time!!!!!!!!! make that headache go away!!!! shoo shoo

ALSO LIKE I SAID BEFORE PLS RANT AWAY...I LOVE READING WHAT U HAVE TO SAY!!!!! PLEASE KEEP DOING IT!!! and my day was,,,kinda okay, tho ngl i'm a bit irritated bc uh it's our first day holding classes for this one subject and our professor basically had us do a research paper 😃 which was due on the same day 😃 thankfully though i have great friends and it was a group project but still!!!!! it's literally the first day and we have other classes too, but we ended up using most of our time working on that 😔 it just sucks because i was looking forward to drawing today but alas </3

anw ily miss sal and i rly hope you're taking care of yourself!! this got super long again i hate myself omg 💀 —🦊

IM SORRY PLS I SAW THIS AND I THOUGHT I REPLIED BUT???? I REPLIED IN MY HEAD????? THE FUCK FHKSJHFKS ANYWAYS IM SORRY 

BUT 

pls your glasses sound so beautiful <3333 they’d go so well with tsumu, esp cause his eyes <3333 

but yeah that thing that happened w my quiz really did suck, but my professor is really kind and is trying her best to try to think up something to help us make this up somehow. ALSO ???? A RESEARCH PAPER??? DUE ON THE SAME DAY??? pls research is so hectic you never realize just how time consuming it is until you have to do it </3 so i feel for you, and i’m v sorry, but i’m still very proud you pushed through!!! and it’s okay, just give yourself a pat on the back for being hella productive n working on ur assignment <333

and i have been pretty busy :((( which sucks because i really really wanna write and come interact with you guys but by the time i’m done with all my work i’m literally zapped and drained of all energy and mental will to do ANYTHING it’s so exhausting i swear :( doesn’t help that i’m a huge workaholic that i can completely forget to do basic things to take care of myself like literally will forget that i haven’t eaten in over 15 hrs 🧍🏻‍♀️ PLS IM RAMBLING AGAIN IM SORRY 

anyways i love you so much more and i hope you’ve been taking care of yourself too!!! also never complain for any of your asks being long i love you and talking to you sfm >:( <3333

[nightfayre]

hi im the anon ! i dont remember what i said >

and I’m alarmed by the fandom mentality. Maybe HT means good - but how would we know? we don’t have access to his thoughts - but we must judge his actions, and his actions are for the least very troubling. It’s always abt coercing Mo and not respecting his boundaries. I see the trope “when she says no, she means yes” here and once again, the fact the fandom swallows it uncritically (bc HT is a poor, hot tortured boy) is alarming. Forcing Mo to wear his gift stinks of “this is my possession, don’t mess wt him” 2/5

Maybe im pessimistic n its actually to protect him by distance, but once again he totally disregards Mo’s will. What if he doesnt want to be protected ? what if he doesnt want to be an object to be pass around between self-entitled psychos ? The first step to protect and help someone is by listening to them. I hope Mo will react strongly and will tell HT that by saying this, he’s no different from She Li. And i hope that would provoke HT to self-reflect a lot - smth he lacks tremendously. 3/5

That being said i love HT and tianshan! And what i love is how realistic and flawed they are. Theyre both hyper violent, distrustful, and severly lacking in communication skills. Im thrilled to see how theyre going to evolve -for the better or the worse, both is good for me. But i’m very disappointed by the fandom reaction like “ooh how cute hes possessive it means love!” or “actually its not bad doing HT doing that bc his intentions are good”. 4/5

And I will be vry, vry disappointed if OX decides to follow this trend and to not show how this kind of actions is detrimental to their reliationship and use the tired and dangerous trope of “being violent means that you care”. I trust them to be more nuanced than that bc until now they are great at drawing grey relationship. So yea i hope next chapter, tianshan plunges (before being better). Anw sry for the rant, and plz continue the good work !! 5/5

phew. there’s a lot to unpack here – but I agree wholeheartedly with you. since this post is already kinda long, I will put my answer/explanation under the cut!

the parts that I bolded in your asks are what I intend to focus on in this answer. strap in, because this is going to be a long one. 

before anything, let me put a disclaimer: I love He Tian. I love Guan Shan. I love Old Xian. I love tianshan, and I love where they are headed in the manhua. does that mean I also love where tianshan are right now? no, it doesn’t. and I’m here to explain why I look forward to their potential rather than their current relationship’s dynamics.  

one of the hardest parts about being in a fandom is being able to separate fiction, reality, and morality. this is especially hard when a fandom is as old and endearing as 19 Days, and when you fall in love with & are rooting for all the characters. furthermore, 19 Days is not a tragedy. of course, when Jian Yi disappears, it will be tragic. but otherwise the majority of the manhua is a comical, romantic slice-of-life plot. as such, it’s easier for what would usually be seen as blaring issues/problems in tragedies to be disregarded for comedy or, in some cases, romance in a comedic, romantic slice-of-life. 

this is exactly the case with tianshan. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: He Tian’s current relationship with Guan Shan is not healthy. he doesn’t listen to Guan Shan. he doesn’t respect his personal space. he doesn’t know where to draw the line. he doesn’t know how to properly communicate with him, and thus resorts to violence or threats. tianshan just have a problem with communication. and, sure, maybe it can be chalked up to the fact that they’re young and stressed and don’t know any better. but that excuse is almost as bad as the “boys will be boys” excuse, and that doesn’t make it any better nor does it justify their actions. 

He Tian’s idea of relationships is so twisted, and as I talked about in a previous answer, it can probably be stemmed back to his trauma with the puppy Cheng took away from him. I won’t get too deep into that since I explained it in detail in that answer, but keep this in mind nonetheless: He Tian grew up in a family of violence, distance, miscommunication, and lies. it’s all he’s ever known, and that’s what he’s applying to his relationship with Guan Shan. does that make it right? no, absolutely not. but he’s learning. 

when Guan Shan had a panic attack at the restaurant, He Tian learned that people aren’t robots/pawns to use at his disposal and rather have their own strong emotions/backgrounds that shape them. thus, he brought Guan Shan home without a word. when he had his night terror and woke up to Guan Shan holding his hands, He Tian realized that there are parts of Guan Shan he still doesn’t know and, potentially, an aspect of their relationship that they’ve only started to uncover. thus, he thanked him without preamble and with a bowed head. 

what I’m trying to say is that He Tian does have good intentions at times, but not always. he’s learning as he goes, because god knows he didn’t have a family to teach him how healthy relationships should be. there probably is a part of He Tian that only wants to protect Guan Shan against She Li, but he certainly doesn’t show it in the right way. he acts possessive because he knows that if he doesn’t, he’ll lose what he loves (*insert flashback to the puppy*). again, does that make it right? hell no. jealousy and possessiveness are not cute and are entirely unhealthy in a relationship. the fandom should view them as such, but should also keep an open mind when considering He Tian’s background. 

and honestly, the reason why I’m focusing so much on He Tian right now rather than Guan Shan is because if it were up to Guan Shan, he would’ve dropped He Tian within the first few days (maybe even hours) of meeting him. but because of He Tian’s persistence, Guan Shan has no choice but to be involved with him and retaliate when He Tian verbally/physically/emotionally attacks him. nonetheless, Guan Shan has tried to walk away from He Tian on multiple occasions when He Tian’s teasing became too much, and on those occasions, He Tian has given in. (ex. I can’t find the exact chapter, but there is a chapter in which Guan Shan refuses to use He Tian’s fork to eat He Tian’s leftovers, and he gets up and says, “I’m going home,” to which He Tian replies, “Fine, fine, I’ll buy you new food.”)

so yes – tianshan certainly have flaws. He Tian holds too much power, and Guan Shan can’t catch a break. the fandom romanticizes their interactions, but if you take a moment to think realistically and recognize that character flaws are essentially bad but also critical for character development, then there is an even balance in the readers’ relationship with the manhua. don’t support He Tian’s violent interactions with Guan Shan and claim “omg He Tian loves Guan Shan sooooo much when he forces Guan Shan to do XYZ,” but rather support the fact that he hasn’t physically manhandled/harmed Guan Shan in many chapters. support and celebrate He Tian’s development, not his flaws. 

and as for what you said about Guan Shan telling He Tian that he’s “no better than She Li”? while I don’t think He Tian is truly as bad as She Li, I actually think that would be a painful, great, and pivotal moment in their relationship. after all, the most consequential scene in tianshan’s relationship thus far has been the kiss. at that moment, Guan Shan had told He Tian outright that he disgusted him and to leave him alone. since then, I don’t think He Tian has ever looked so… taken aback. unsettled. 

and guess what? their relationship has only gotten better since then, and He Tian hasn’t touched him like that again. 

I don’t know, anon. it’s a tough call. I think tianshan have a lot more chapters ahead of them, and I don’t think Old Xian will allow them to end on bad terms. actually, I don’t think Old Xian will allow them to end on the terms that they’re on right now. they can only improve from here on out, but how Old Xian will go about showing that improvement is unknown to us. there are many paths this story can take, but rather than worrying about what might happen, let’s focus on the here and now. let’s focus on the problems at hand, and let’s focus on the development the characters are undergoing. 

don’t ignore the wrongness/cruelty of characters’ actions, but don’t romanticize them either. if you do, you’re only doing a disservice to the character’s personality, existence, and the author’s intentions.

(and as for this newest chapter specifically: I see why people can get excited about He Tian telling Guan Shan to wear the earrings. He Tian wants to verify to both himself and She Li that Guan Shan is with him now. that Guan Shan is no longer under She Li’s control. who doesn’t love a little verification of their OTP’s relationship, especially when it involves an enemy?

but at the same time, it’s unhealthy. Guan Shan doesn’t have a say. he’s being handed around like an object. I don’t think this is pessimistic thinking; I think it’s the truth that no one wants to acknowledge/hear. but I’m not saying that tianshan is wrong in this chapter; I’m saying that He Tian has good intentions, but he’s not showing them correctly. and there will be a chapter in which he does show them correctly, but we must travel this rocky road before we get to that point. patience is key, and I cannot wait until He Tian and Guan Shan reach that moment of clarity. you can’t have light without the dark.)

[ted-hyung]

Can you write jaepil where Wonpil with jae because jae keeps on being mean to him/refusing his affection on camera (and maybe also off camera but idk bout that)

dude anon-sshi real talk; jae is more lenient towards wonpil’s affection if compared to sungjin smh i want to punch some sense to sungjin. anw what i’m saying is, jae openly laughs and mocks wonpil’s affection yet

gifs credit 1, 2.

honestly aksfkjaskjdfa. so i gotta twist the prompt a bit, yeah? tell me if you’ve read this then likes then reblogs lmao.

title: have you no idea that you’re in deep?

rating: G / word count: 1.8k / to celebrate jae’s upcoming birthday this one’s set on their upcoming Vlive “mama’s recipe” thingy / enjoy and comment on AO3 lol.

“everyone, right now we’re picking our teammates,” brian says to the camera to fill in the silence, “by drawing lots. it will be two versus three. so far, we have wonpil and jae-hyung picking two ends painted in red, and sungjin-hyung and dowoon with blue ends. now it’s my turn.”

jaehyung watches as brian, with what little variety show sense he has, carelessly picks the last lot with a loud exclaim. his end is painted in blue. sometimes, life just works in ways that jaehyung isn’t a big fan of.

he pretends to scoff at sungjin, dowoon, and brian team, bragging to the camera about wonpil who does the most cooking in their dorm anyway, meaning that he’s got some experience that’s not just ramyun or ordering seasoned fried chicken, nope, and at least wonpil is smiling and nodding like he’s satisfied by jaehyung’s acknowledgement—like he hasn’t been talking to jaehyung for approximately a week ever since that happened.

not that jaehyung himself tries to talk to wonpil, either, but you get the drill.

“eyy, still, our team has the mystery benefit because dowoon won the game!” sungjin laughs, crossing his arms. his apron has brown the bear from line messenger app. “PD-nim, may we know what’s the mystery benefit now?” he asks the PD, and apparently the benefit is unlimited phone call to someone’s mother whenever they’re not sure how the recipe goes.

“can we make overseas call?” brian widens his eyes, probably half for the camera and half genuinely hoping that he can call his mother in toronto.the PD shakes his head, smiling apologetically, and the whole studio goes ‘aahhh~’ and brian’s pout is definitely only a show for the camera.

dowoon raises his hand. “so what are we going to cook tonight?”

it’s bibimbap. that’s so easy even jaehyung thinks that he’s got the knack of putting boiled vegetables and whatever style meat on top of white rice and finished with soft-boiled egg and pepper paste.

except that there are a lot of steps to follow.

the red versus blue team are cooking side to side, and they have to finish cooking in just one hour. wonpil asks him if he’s ever cooked rice without rice cooker and jaehyung, for the sake of the fans, goes blank for a solid one blink of an eye to the camera. wonpil’s smile is helpless, and he’s giggling as he takes over to cook the rice manually, and tells jaehyung to start washing the vegetables.

first, jaehyung washes the carrots, complaining that they haven’t been peeled, then the bean sprouts, the spinach, and the shiitake mushrooms while wonpil measures the water needed to cook the rice manually. when he’s done with the rice and the portable stove is working its magic, he begins to mix sauces to marinate the beef.

only to pause after he puts a tablespoon of honey to the small bowl. “jae-hyung do you want cooked or boiled beef? wait, do you want to use chicken, instead?”jaehyung makes sure that he’s washed the shiitake mushrooms thoroughly before answering, “you’re making the sauce to marinate the beef, right? just don’t overseason it? i trust your judgement.”

wonpil nods, smiling, and then he’s explaining to the camera what other ingredients that he puts to make the sauce, spouting some cheesy remarks about wanting my days to try his cooking and winking cutely before the camera focuses to jaehyung.

“no one is really in charge of cooking in our dorm, but wonpil does it the most,” jaehyung says, peeking over wonpil’s shoulders and feeling the younger man stiffening upon their close proximity. “usually he cooks kimchi fried rice. but if we’re talking about ramen, dowoon cooks it the best. what? me? nah, i’m hopeless. i can fry eggs, maybe some instant pasta with their instant sauce. wonpil-sshi? what else can i help you with?”

“oh, would you please boil the vegetables and the mushrooms together?”“‘together’, like, together in one pot?”

“yes.”

“everyone, that’s how hopeless i am,” jaehyung confesses to the camera, laughing loudly at himself. “okay, i need water, right?”

wonpil is giggling again, his cat’s whiskers are making an appearance.

“boil the water until it bubbles, then adds two teaspoons of salt.”

“salt?”

“yes, jae-hyung, the basic seasoning for bibimbap’s veggies.”

“alright, chef.”

wonpil scrunches his nose and instructs jaehyung to just boil the spinach and beansprouts for one minute, two minutes for the shiitake mushrooms, and three minutes for the carrots. jaehyung doesn’t want to take any risk so he fishes out his phone and activates the timer.

but he seems to forget something.

something that the cameraman points out to him, asking him aren’t you supposed to slice the vegetables first? and jaehyung gapes, shocked, rendered to nothing thanks to his stupidity.

“really, jae-hyung?” dowoon clicks his tongue as he’s spying on the red team, one hand holding a big wooden spoon, doing nothing. brian and sungjin are also laughing at him, like they didn’t make two phone calls to sungjin’s mother for the past fifteen minutes to ask her to guide them step by step, then more.

wonpil is cackling. he has two hands covering his mouth and jaehyung is more relieved than anything else, because hey, at least i can make him laugh again.

“alright, everyone, don’t panic,” jaehyung recovers from his genuine shock to don the natural swag for the camera. he nods seriously as he takes a knife, and refuses to admit that he’s completely clueless; how the heck do you slice vegetables?

“hmm,” jaehyung hums, not really having to exaggerate his clueless expression and body language as his right hand is poised with the knife. “it’s like this, right?” he takes a deep breath and takes one big, cleaned carrot. he cuts it in half. but if he keeps going, the carrot will be sliced in circles and jaehyung is pretty sure bibimbap doesn’t have circled carrots. okay, maybe he should cut each into another half?

“jae-hyung?” wonpil asks, wiping his hands on the female white bunny apron he’s wearing, also a character from line messenger app. jaehyung’s is a tiny yellow chick, brian’s a blonde man with shoulder-length hair, and dowoon’s a bald, naked person. the aprons are all cute, unlike the vegetables that jaehyung has to tend to.

“yeah?”

“you’re bleeding!”

*

wonpil doesn’t usually say this, not even when he’s on the low, but right now he really, really kinda hates himself. the tears just won’t stop for some reason, and he was so distracted by jaehyung’s blood that he didn’t realize his fingers were sticky and peppery. brian says his eyes are swelling a little on the edges, puffy and teary, and more than anything else, not even how his face would turn out on cameras and on my days’ phone screens, he’s more worried about jaehyung’s fingers. the older man didn’t cut them deep, just a graze, really, but he’s been making wonpil sad ever since that happened.

the v live show must go on, though. sungjin volunteers to help and handles the vegetables with ease. jaehyung is frying two eggs as a side dish, and wonpil is still under the care of manager-hyung; an ice block is placed on his left eye.“you okay?” manager-hyung asks, sitting next to wonpil on the folded chair next to the PD.

“yes, hyung. i’m so sorry.” wonpil says, sniffing.

“it’s okay. five more minutes?”

“yes, please.”

five minutes are enough for wonpil to watch jaehyung laughing and talking to the camera. five minutes are a long time to remember what happened last week; the soft and pillowy feeling of jaehyung’s lips on his, the sharp alcohol breath and the tender hands on his cheeks. if wonpil concentrates with all of his might, he can feel the same electricity just by imagining those calloused fingers on his skin just like last week when, under the influence of one bottle of soju, jaehyung decided that it was the right time to kiss wonpil without any preamble, leaving wonpil questioning everything.

everything that includes, why, and other why why why that follows.why did he kiss me?

why didn’t he say anything?

why is he ignoring me?

why am i avoiding him?

why don’t i ask him why?

and the tears flowed because today is jaehyung’s birthday. birthdays are supposed to be special, yet wonpil just has to ruin it by crying uncontrollably just because jaehyung grazes his fingers with a knife. he’s 25 years old, for god’s sake, he looked even more bewildered by wonpil’s sudden crying rather than his actual pain.

“wonpil-sshi? whenever you’re ready.” the PD is smiling at him, his hat says ‘good day’ and wonpil is determined to make it up for jaehyung today.

who doesn’t even bat an eyelash when he bounces back to his spot, the only reaction he has is to tell wonpil to try the boiled vegetables, and nothing else, not until he’s placing a comforting hand on wonpil’s lower back and speaking in a softer, less show off-y tone.

“i’m sorry, jae-hyung,” wonpil mumbles, though it might be still recorded on the camera anyway.

“for what?” jaehyung mumbles back, not leaving wonpil’s side, his hand warming wonpil from inside and out.

“i ruined your birthday,” wonpil huffs, “the blood was too much.”

“don’t be silly,” jaehyung says, smiling, leaning down to whisper, “i’m sorry tho. i’m a coward.”

“me too,” wonpil agrees, and their moment is broken by dowoon reminding them with faux-concern that they only have fifteen minutes left.

surprisingly, the last fifteen minutes run smoothly. the rice is cooked to perfection and the too salty vegetables can be fixed with just soaking them in lukewarm water to rinse off the salty taste. jaehyung loves the marinated beef, and his fried eggs are looking great when they’re put as a garnish on top of their hot stone bowls. in the end, because of limited duration, they don’t hold a final showdown based on the PD’s voting and they all get to finish their bibimbap after saying goodbyes to the camera.

the hearts stopped at 2,739,023 mark.

in the van on their way back home, sungjin is sleeping on the front seat, and brian and dowoon are not much more awake than him on the middle, while wonpil and jaehyung are sitting just inches apart at the very back, their phones in hands, typing confessions that can’t be verbally said out in the open. wonpil asks a lot of whys, and jaehyung explains it’s because i��ve always wanted to kiss you but, you know, we live in a crowded dorm and, i don’t know, you have this vibe that i just—i just don’t want to taint you or something, wonpillie, what i feel for you is so strong sometimes i’m afraid it will consume you. me. i mean—

and wonpil shuts him up with a quick peck to his pillowy lips as he talks nonsense about what he’s feeling without knowing just how much his is towards him—and jaehyung is chuckling, it’s rumbling low like he’s either super amused and confused and wonpil reaches out to pinch his waist, prompting him to squeal and causing dowoon to wake up, whining at them to just get back to sleep.

[yoonminist]

crush stories p3 (💕tell me about your crush 💕) 

 my crush is another girl, she's short and athletic w/ real pretty green blue eyes, tanned and asks silly questions. we're kinda friends, i talk to her once or twice a week, but she's kinda probably really straight woops 

aww she sounds cute :’( having a crush on a straight girl is,,,, not the Worst thing ever but it rlly is unfair

 My crush is a year older than jm, sje has dark brown hair and eyes and she'sfar taller than me. She's a walking talking meme (like me) and a cosplayer and whenever I message her Ialways use a very Bad pick up line. She is a sucker for it. Ah! She also plays the piano and she's very good at it! And her voice is like the best baritone voice that I've ever heard (for a girl at least)! MUSIC COUPLE FOREVA WHEEEEE~ 

PLEASE tell me you’re dating lmao in any case if she likes your bad pickup lines then she’s so into you i love this

Omg I just remembered how I got my best friend into kpop! I just send her a pic of yoongi AND SHE WAS GONE!!!! She talked non stop about him like the cute little baby she is (honestly i know NO ONE who's cuter than her I know her since she's born she's the cutest and softest and prettiest baby ever i swear) she even named her fishes yoongi and jimin BUT JIMIN ATE YOONGI LMAO I'm honestly so proud of myself for showing bts to her she adores them so much

JIMIN ATE YOONGI IS THIS A SIGN jdnkjnefjknd im jk “she's the cutest and softest and prettiest baby ever i swear” bye that’s adorable

i once had this crush on my roommate, i thought she was straight but then she came out to me and said that she has a gf and thats ok w me, the problem was shes always naked when she comes back to our room after taking a bath(this culd be ff material)

omg if you want her to stop then tell her it makes you uncomfortable but,,,,, if you don’t want her to stop then LMAO 

my crush is basically jimin. he reminds me of jimin so much- short, looks similar (even the eye smile and laugh), energetic and caring to everyone. and um. not to b conceited but one of the reasons i love ym so much is i relate to yg a Lot so it freaked me out when i realised ym interactions are so similar to ours. when we were in high school he sat in front of me in class and he wld turn to glance like 20 times in 1 hr (yea i counted) but everytime i make eye contact he’d whip his head back and act like nth happened. he’d just… like hover? Around but when i look at him he dashes off. once he happned to sit next to me while i was drawing and it seemed like he was sleeping so i didn’t look, but after abt an hour i looked up to check the time. he almost slammed his head on the table i.. he was staring at me the whole time.. anw the thing was tht everytime he talked to me i end up being blunt and kinda.. ignoring him cos feelings scare me + when i try to talk to him he suddenly seems in a hurry to get away.. were in the same college now. we saw each other a few times but didnt approach. ystd i happened to walk the same way as him. i decided to say hi,,he asked me what im studying then ran off after i answered. it’s still the same. sry if this got long ive never gotten a chance to rly talk abt my crush .///. 

ooooh god i don’t know anything about stuff like this but it sounds like your being blunt kinda scared him off ?? from this alone he seems like the type you need to be gentle with so idk if you want to be close to him but if you do i’d suggest you keep making the first move and don’t ignore him like before so that he isn’t this shy around you anymore ,,, or maybe you just wanted to vent lmao w/e happens with this guy i wish you both the best !!

My crush amazing blue eyes and black hair. When she plays with her dog it brings out the prettiest smile. She liked me back (i didnt know she was bi too) at some point we started dating. She had complete control over my emotions i thought i was starting to fall in love until she broke up with me. It was awful. after months I still can't get over her. She started talking to me again but we're not together.We're just not meant to be I think :) I'd just like to meet her one day that would be enough

no!!!! don’t talk to her !!! take this from experience, i think the best way to get over someone is to get rid of them until you’re 100% ready to bring them back into your life again, as friends,,, even if it takes months she should understand but if you can’t do that then i just hope you get over her asap so that you can go back to being friends :’)

I actually denied that I kind of have a crush on this one guy that I met through another friend and I still do deny it because he's only into Asian girls and I'm Islander so it could never happen but honestly he's really funny and I don't feel all that awkward around him but there's no way he'd go for me. My friends, including the one I met him through, kinda ship us but I could never tell him because I'm the farthest from his type there could ever be tbh lmao

ohh hopefully he isn’t that shallow not to disregard a potential r/s just because you aren't asian but i GUESS it’s understandable if he’s asian too n it’s a family/cultural thing ?? i get the ‘denying your crush’ thing though askjdnjsjgkj hang in there hun it won’t last forever :’(

my crush has red hair and she's tall and gorgeous, we match so well, i know she likes girls too but im scared to try something. i was at hers today, and we ate brigadeiro and watched sense8 ahhh

THIS IS CUTE i'm not gonna force you to go for it but i hope one day It happens and you start dating ♡

I made out with my crush once while super high and then he helped me pee and that's about how romantic my story with my crush is 👋🏻

Who Said Chivalry is Dead 

Are we still talking about this crush thing? Because lemme tell you a story. I once had this crush (years ago). He is now my best friend's boyfriend. Lol tbh I'm not bothered but I keep laughing at how freaking cliche this is, it just seems like it came out of a fiction on wattpad. Most recent crush tho, well, he nearly accidentally killed me and my friend. Let's just say I no longer have a crush lmao. But compare my stories about my crush to others make me laugh. THE CONTRAST.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE NEARLY ACCIDENTALLY KILLED YOU COME BACK AND ELABORATE

[rosesanthology]

the ones that need therapy asap

Elvira : okay so she's as fucked up as aleksei so I like to think that they were buddies when he still lived in snezhnaya, she works for dottore in,,,,science stuff idfk, she helps him with delusion research and paperwork yk, but anw she's essentially makima if she was in genshin impact, very controlling, works in the shadows and EXTREMELY knowledge hungry, so much so that she stole a lot of important information from every region of teyvat (the knights of favonius, sirius's personal research on ancient magic, jiahao's personal library, the jade chamber of liyue, ancient texts about the beast tengu in inazuma, anw u name it she fucking stole it) and thats because she likes to play God :), basically when she stole sirius's stuff she learned about all the ancient evil gods and demons that he had to fight during the archon war and that he knew before that even, and she became absolutly obsessed, she then started a project of creating homunculi that would act as vessels for when she would reincarnate those ancient evil gods and demons similar to how makima wants to awaken the chainsaw devil iykyk

Claire : he was the first homunculus that elvira created to see if she could make one, elvira is very controlling and left him little to no choice in the experiments that she put him thru but he couldn't really say anything cause she'd usually just be like "im your mother its only right for you to do what I say :)" even tho she was beating the shit out of him, she was very emotionally manipulative with him to see how he would react to her ordering him around, when she finally deemed him a success of a creation she abandonned him (she works in one of dottore's abandonned factories to not draw attention on herself so she abandonned him in her old one), he was left alone for a long time and eventually found by treasure hoarders who were using the fact that he looks small and feminine to make more mora, it was fine tho because they usually just took him to places for him to dance in front of ppl (my son is excellent in ballet), eventually the treasure hoarders abandonned him in some woods too because he has to eat and sleep like a normal human too and they didn't want to care for his needs, he was found by a clock maker from fontaine who took him in, repaired him and became like his surrogate dad, he usually helps around in the guy's shop but he can also perform ballet around the city, he also obtained a hydro vision and learned how to wield a sword by then

Brynja/Astaroth : basically brynja is elvira's success in making a homunculus that also inhabits an ancient demon (in this case astaroth), he works for the fatui as a hitman and is a sword user, he has a pyro vision as well as a dendro delusion that makes them able to use poison, their name meaning armor, when they get serious getting close to them would result in getting severely burnt by the poison (just like the actual demon astaroth that u can't approach), they're mostly non verbal because of how elvira doesn't allow them to speak most of the time and just orders them around like a dog, they know snezhnayan sign language and use a notebook to speak the common language thru when outside of the region, they never question elvira's orders and always complete their mission , their first appearance in game would be during the windblume festival by trying to get rid of the traveller ig (in my self insert's timeline he'd try to kill wolf outside of mondstadt but would get stopped by wuxiang sealing him), they would get something like a hangout event and he would actually be pretty friendly despite the scary look or whatever, the important thing is that they will get killed by elvira because their sense of self got too strong for the demon to take over his body so by killing him shed force the demon out, it works and astaroth gets reincarnated and brynja's body except he denies knowing anything concerning brynja's memories which in the end makes astaroth a whole separate person

genshin impact ocs thoughts except I dont give context to anything :

my sona : traveller but somehow on harder mode, I need to change her name, trauma but at least she gets bitches, when in demon form she's 6'2,,,,much to think about, smart but not smart enough to realize her vision is a delusion by herself

Madeleine : milf who would have evolved into a gilf if I hadnt killed her, sexy eyepatch cryo vision, she's hot and muscular but also like,,,,typical russian strong lady stereotype, everyone who knew her real name is dead but it was unrelated to that fact, she actually was a claymore wielder, didnt get to know childe but she would have adopted him too, she was the one who used to sing the bayu bayushki song to my self insert whenever she had night terrors back in snezhnaya, gatekeep gaslight girlboss

Aleksei : evil. Gay gay homosexual gay. Pretty. That's literally the main things about him. Tbh the fact that his backstory links childe to my sona even before they knew each other was a really big brain move of me like,,,,somehow childe is the reason why everything that happened to her in fontaine happened

Juliette : performer in fontaine who has a crush on my sona,,,theres really not much to be said she's just a cute lesbian

Roxiu/Crimson Torment : sexy shapeshifter demon polearm from liyue, they use all pronouns depending on their mood, they can just appear in my sona's mind palace in human form, claims she cant control the sexy transformation but definitely can, surprisingly not an evil demon their power is just limited since they depend on the person they made a contract with, their end of the contract was always that their wileder survive long enough to use them to make them discover the mortal realm, very knowledge hungry which explains the fat crush on ningguang and zhongli from them

[killingdoll]

Warnings: spoilers, inappropriate jokes, careless language, messing up the order of events, the usual stuff

First, congrats to JoMo on a very successful episode. The Originals is getting better week by week, the storyline is intriguing and unpredictable, and frankly I don’t understand why some people are complaining it’s an uninteresting plot. Guess they’re just hard to please eh?

The opening scene treats us to a nice view of Charles Michael Davis’s muscled back. I mean, the night view of Nola is pretty and all but I’m mildly distracted by another view…

Just like Sofya’s attempt to distract Marcel from his distraught day, which is leaning towards success until…

… Vincent comes bringing more bad news. Way to go, Vince.

Last episode I thought poor Will was possessed by the blue light; turns out I was wrong and Will seems pretty willingly kidnap the kids. I’m getting vibes that this episode will be the last we see of him.

Yeah, this is the last we see of Will. Our token human is gone. Looks like we’re not going to have a Matt Donovan in this show, are we?

On the other hand, it’s pretty ironic and tragic that Klaus, who once saved Will from Lucien’s compulsion-induced suicidal depression, is the one to severe his mortal coil.

In the French Quarter, Klaus, Elijah and Hayley are bringing Hope to the old Mikaelson compound to meet with Vincent. What a shame to see the once-beautiful compound become a ruin.

Why are there so many crows gathering at the compound, waiting to be killed by mysterious force to form a circle around Hope?!

Anw, Vincent’s mojo isn’t working and Hope’s condition appears to worsen. I wonder why the way the Hollow affects Hope is a bit different from the other kids: she dreams of and draws the Hollow; she doesn’t have to be present at the scene of the ritual, she has visions of other kids and premonition of her dad’s possession. Maybe it’s because she’s very special and the Hollow wants something different from her? Taking over her body and powers, perhaps?

Anw it’s too early to say anything regarding the Hollow as we have just learned its name.

Honestly I have no idea why Klaus has to clean up the bodies of dead crows. It’s not like this place can get anymore trashed, right?

Multitasking huh?

So, not only witches are involved in this evil-mojo business but humans and wolves as well, just like Eva’s narration in the last episode stated. Now, here are some question that I hope will get the answer in later episodes: if this Hollow thing has been present in New Orleans soil since Vincent summoned it (he “gave it breath” right), how come it hasn’t been mentioned once during the course of seven years? And why is it suddenly and violently active now after having laid dormant for years? Whom can it affect? Witches, wolves and humans, but what about vampires? Can’t it reach vampires as well? And does it affect Nola-born individuals or any individuals standing on Nola soil?

Wait a minute, the reason why the Hollow is suddenly active may be because the link with the Ancestors was severed. When Vincent summoned it, the link was weak due to the Harvest girls stuff, so that thing sneaked in and got to Eva. Then the link got stronger and so it laid dormant until Vincent and Davina planted that witch bomb to destroy the link. Plus, that bomb was created by Eva and who knows, maybe she made it under the Hollow’s influence since getting rid of the Ancestors was what it wanted. Without them, it’s easy for this wicked thing to brainwash Nola citizens.

Well, that’s just my theory.

Elijah is particularly handsome in all-dark suit. Like every time he wears all-dark suit, it’s expected his suit will be ruined.

The scene where he blocks the bullets for Vincent and doesn’t even flinch is just too cool. I know he’s immune to bullets and all but it still looks so badass.

Elijah’s having some badass quotes this episode. I wonder if the scriptwriter(s) is secretly his stan.

“That’s quite the monster you got lurking in there. You want to see mine?”

“I will violate everything sacred under the sun in the name of rescuing my niece.” This quote gives me both thrill and chill because it’s not bluff or boast, just bare truth. For his family Elijah’s willing to become the Devil himself.

Nice to see Vincent and the Mikaelsons working peacefully together for the greater good.

I actually feel kind of… sorry for Lara. I don’t think the show means to make viewers feel for her; she has like 5–7 minutes screen time and bamf, drop dead minus the gorgeous. Maybe it’s just me, maybe the actress is really that good that she makes me feel for the wolf girl although I’m not sure if I write her name right. Lara or Laura?

But short-lived Lara dear makes two points before she’s off to wolf heaven. Let’s discuss them one by one.

Marcel makes himself the king and claims to protect the city and its people and maintain peace and such, and he makes good to his words; still, it doesn’t change the fact that Nola isn’t his to rule. In this aspect he’s exactly like his ‘family’ (putting it in quotation marks because Marcel’s vehemently denying it), especially a certain Hybrid whose main concern used to be getting as much power as possible (now it’s just his little girl).

Another wolf blames Hayley for abandoning her pack and choosing the Mikaelsons, leading to the wolf pack disintegrating. So your alpha failed you, you felt bitter, but hello, you’re wolves, get yourselves a new alpha. Aren’t wolves good at that? Choosing the strongest wolf to be their alpha?

Klaus and Hope’s bonding is getting better and better by the episode. He’s super determined to become the exact opposite of his abusive father, Mikael, and this is partly thanks to a certain brave bartender who was there to believe in the good in him and wouldn’t stop encouraging him to nurture it.

Speaking of Mikael, it looks like we get to meet the Destroyer in the next episode.

More Freya x Keelin vibes this episode. They’ll make a powerful couple with intriguing contradictions: the wolf and the witch, the young one and the ancient one, the scientist and the magic user, the lone one and the family protector.

Probably both

Freya’s impressing Keelin again with her magic.

Freya’s being the badass matriarch of the family and honestly, she’s the sister we want to have in our lives.

Klaus’s worried look when Marcel gets dragged into the magic circle. Despite everything the Hybrid still cares about his first child. I’m hopeful that somewhere along the season Klaus and Marcel will mend fences and Hope will get to call Marcel “big bro”. That’ll be very cute (except the tiny fact that ‘big bro’ and auntie Bex screwed each other once upon a time).

.. the Hollow gets to Marcel and Klaus. Nothing surprising because we’ve already been spoiled by the synopsis of the fifth episode. Of course Freya will save her little bro but let’s hope Marcel make it out in one piece too.

That Klelijah moment where they casually share a drink. It’d have been perfect if Elijah didn’t look so depressed. I mean, I don’t think I have ever seen ‘disheveled’ him like this, his shirt dirtied and untucked and him drinking straight from the bottle. There’s no question he would have done the necessary evils if Vincent hadn’t found the loophole, and after that he would have been gnawed by the guilt; even if he hadn’t done it, he is still much troubled. So, to people who wonder how Elijah-stans can still stan him after what he’s done, here’s why: he will do whatever necessary to save his family, and to him it’s the ‘right’ thing to do, but he won’t feel any good from it; instead he’ll be burdened by its weight for as long as it takes for a new guilt to step in and takes the old guilt’s place, and the cycle repeats. That’s the tragedy of his character. If you think he is remorseless, we are clearly not watching the same show.

Hayley’s armor-piercing question and her resolution for them to “do better” for the sake of Hope are much-needed for their relationship building. I’m all for a healthy, supportive and sympathetic relation where both partners are striving to help each other to become better.

Finally an auntie-niece moment to end the rant on a lighter note. Imagine how wonderful and badass it’ll be if by the end of this season, auntie and niece will join hands (figuratively and literally) and use their awesome magic (maybe channel some energy from their family) to kick this vile Hollow thing’s ass all the way to oblivion.

Looking forward to the next episode… and Mikael’s appearance.

[Rant] Keepers of the House – The Originals 4×04 Warnings: spoilers, inappropriate jokes, careless language, messing up the order of events, the usual stuff First, congrats to JoMo on a very successful episode.

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FOR.WARD.

I am interested in so many things in world. I adore too many things, I suppose. For me, BW effects create stories, but so do monochromatic scenes and colourful pictures. One thing that you need to do, is choose. When you choose, you define path, you declare commitment. Ain’t it sounds hard yet pretty?

Inside this immature mind, I am still arguing about life, where should I take it, what ingredients I need to prepare to make deep departure. dude, everything. 22 yo doesn’t even make you feel stronger or smarter somehow.

Enough for the prologue. Long story short, I’ve got to experienced working environment in my first ever office, an interior contractor company. Here, I eventually learn plenty of stuffs like how to manage a project from the beginning, its procedures, administrations, all about dealing and stuffs, even dealing with people (you may have no idea how differ people are, even if we are from the same environment). 

Here, I don’t think I’m gonna expand every itsy bitsy of bitter sweet story in here (in fact, there were not so many stories to tell tho. I was only there for only several months. What to expect?). This post is dedicated to the knowledge I earned, with the support from my working colleague. Such beautiful people, mind nothing but helping others (and finishing the projects, ofc), especially for those from project engineering and support divisions. Each individuals has their own unique character. They work with their own style. Some are sophisticated and organised, some other (such as me) HELLA MESSY. 

Working there, was a profoundly nice experience (did I said it like twice now? nvm). I tried to lean on no one (ended up asking even the smallest most stupid questions to anyone near me all the time), and be innovative, creative, and focus whatsoever. Most of the time I did pretty well tho. Yet sometimes, I look around and my imagination’s taking over. There, there, baby, I lost my focus. 

What’s filling my imagination? Dreams. Intention. Creative works. Researching. Writing. Reading. Creating. They kept pushed me away from screen and lurked beneath my skull. This might sounds too naive but I just feel like staying behind the screen for hours working with no free sketchy lines and urban exploration was (is) not really my thing. I am a goofy girl. I jumped around blatantly wondering how could people mind their own business without being interrupted by what’s going on outside and curiosity about complicated things in our social environment. They are so into what they are expected to do. I appreciate that. But I just can’t see it in me. 

My dream is to stay in the creative division, not particularly an architect (at least not for now), but I love designing, learning, analysing, and be a part of planning alongside with conducting. I am keen on managing pretty much everything. I want to have a gallery on my own. For sure, I was not gonna say that my previous working environment served me nothing, but it’s just me who happened to have less interest in what I was doing. Some others make it tho, to sit down nicely and be a part of the circle. So when I resigned, I was in between relieved and afraid. Afraid of always being unsatisfied and not wanting to sit down for a minute to learn about my peculiarity. But in the other hand, I feel like I should not disappoint more people in the future. So I went out, and hopefully would find what I really want in life, and how to get there. Like the GPS. Most importantly, I’d like to continue my degree, just because I need more time to learn and think about the world. And I need the media that could cover my intention.

I want to elaborate my gratitude to each person that I am close with, or help me quite as much in my office.

From the very beginning, I was supported and helped by a woman sit beside me, Mba Maya. At first our interaction was just me asking details of our job desc. I even asked how to use softwares we are gonna use almost everyday (don’t judge, I just don’t know whether I would have enough time to learn about it alone). So she taught me pretty much most of the things we need to do. But as the hype went by, she’s just as hilarious as I never thought she’d be. I mean, kinda cray but still in line. We played songs (from rock to ballad to hipster musics) and all. Brutally laugh on jokes about people and ourselves, and so forth. The list is pretty long tbh. At the end, she resigned before me tho, wanted (wanting) to prepare also bigger thing in life for her. So, yeah.

The second is the girl sitting next to mba Maya, her name is Mba Karis. She’s also from the same division, engineering. She is one of the few that is able to do more than what the others could do, could understand. Her experience in this place is a bit longer than the other. Not only me, sometimes other colleagues could refer to her when it comes to work. So, yeah, very helpful. Instagrammable fash-sesh I could say. Her daily outfit is always on point (ya ga mbak?) with a hint of something that’s always different. I mean, I’m so average in this and she was like, Pinterest. She’s befriend with like the girls squad in our office. Mba eti, mba fina, mba weni, mba yani. A glimpse of their character is that they already stay together since the beginning of their career in here (Lucky guess, I promise). They are a group of young women who are active, pretty much loud about themselves, play hard work hard kinda ladies (could stay all day-most nights-several weekends to get their work done). 

Next, mba Emir. She sat behind me. Meddok, that’s what I could say. I sometimes laughed because of her saying, but it didn’t seem like she even know what’s funny. She’s in the same team as me. So worked with same PM. I sometimes refer to her too, regarding the formats and standards required for our team. She’s now expecting her first child, and I hope that the baby’d be awesome! Good luck Mba!

Mba Mona. The first one to catch up with me after mba Maya. We interact pretty much about things. In my first several weeks, I tend to grab a lunch with her, bu Novi, and Kak Dimas. They seemed like they already explored the surroundings, especially for the food. Ayam dishes from here to there (once we should take angkot to get by, because of the distance), and so food. She, and bu Novi and Kak Dimas are nice too. The 3 sat nearby me, so they are also the victim of my noises and hyperactive motions. For this, I’m gonna say I’m sorry. Love you all, xoxo. On my last day, I got this froggy cup filled with tamarind candy from Mba Mona. TOO CUTE TOO LOLLIPOP! Thanks mba! (still can’t manage to eat them all ‘cause I often forgot to eat sweets).

Moving on, I should mention Bu Heni as the woman whom I always bother. Just. bother. Everything she did was tickling and I know i shoulda be more polite, but damn, I was never be the one who behave. I mean, I do behave in most days, but I giggle at things I know I couldn’t handle. Don’t judge, I ain’t crazy. It’s just me. Anw before I went too far on the description, I wanna thank her for giving me lovely broken necklace bracelet that looks fancy and cool in my wrist. I keep it in a safe place, I promise. I wear it too, sometimes, when the occasion is right. Bu Heni is a drafter, just like bu Novi and Kak Dimas. She’s all about autocad and drawings. Sometimes she’s mumbling global hits song, to help her focus. She wore headset most of the time. Young in mind.

Mba devi is also one of the most loyal employee. She does them all, supporting the PM so very much. I handed one of my project to her, and I hope she’d be okay. PROOOOOOOO *echoes*. One note, she’s also a friend of mba Maya, graduate from the same university, same major. So they went out together quite a lot.

Other than the above, there’s Bu rini (the head of engineering division), bu dian (also from engineering), bu siti (head of support division), pak ari (engineering, sit across across across me, so we seldom interact but when we talk, we fool cause we just can’t be serious), pak Iwan (sit next to pak Ari, anggota grup nasyid or islamic musical kinda thing. Gimana pak? HP nya udah di service kan ya?) and pak Johan. So many things I could actually say about them, but this post is too long already and I got too many targets to catch for now, so I couldn’t just express my gratitude to all one by one. Sorry, and thank you!

WELCOME, TO A VERY DIFFERENT SESH. YOU ARE ENTERING THE GATE OF LADANG PAHALA GGS. THERE WILL BE NO DESCRIPTION ABOUT THE PEOPLE BUT I HAVE PLENTY SHIZ MEMORIES AND PICTURES THAT COULD EXPRESS MY LOVE AND EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM. WE TALK TRASH BUT ALSO DREAMS, TALK WISELY ABOUT SOMETHING NOT WISE AT ALL, WE LAUGHED ABOUT THINGS THAT ARE NOT FUNNY. WE SMILE LIKE HOW WE SHOULD BEHAVE, BUT WHAT’S ON OUR MIND AND FACIAL EXPRESSION ARE NOT QUITE RELATED SO.........I MEAN, WE ARE NICE AND ALL, NOT TOO MENTION THAT WE NEVER PUT OTHERS DOWN. WHAT AM I SAYING I JUST MISS Y’ALL SO HERE’S PICTURES OF MOST OF US.

p.s : My phone had been unintentionally reset so there were only several photos remained.