#i think this arises from a feeling of inferiority. i get the vibe that ppl look down on me for being a square | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

microwaved-cheese-sandwich · 1 year ago

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id love more friends but honestly in groups of people my age i feel so out of place. i always feel so inexperienced and bland and vanilla. this is so dumb of me but i wish i had friends that were as straight-laced as me, ppl who go to bed at 8 and don't drink for fear of becoming addicted and like to roast vegetables and don't bully randos for fun and have strict adherence to general kindness. idk maybe ive just had a bad experience and a skewed sample size.

#idk #a lot of these feelings are probabaly ingrained WASP fears of drug use and promiscuity and crime #and im like #boo hoo scawwy cool kids with scary skateboards and scary cigarettes woooooooo #but also i wish so much of friend-making and adult life wasn't based on alcohol and picking on people #to be clear these are not moral judgements not personal preferences #ugh i could really do without people cooing patronizingly and pressuring me to do x when i said i havent done x #i think this arises from a feeling of inferiority. i get the vibe that ppl look down on me for being a square #theyre determined to quote ruin my innocence; like they have any fucking idea.#like i do all of the above because i havent explored alternatives and not because ive made concious decisions to care for myself #whatever #vent #autism squeaks

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