#i think the biggest thing i’ve ever stolen from school (accidentally) is a book or two or five

[granma-sweetie]

Eheh that’s better then me. I played it for five years in school, but then I graduated. I accidentally stole the school violin I used and haven’t touched it in months. I should probably do that-

LMAO THATS SO FUNNY MSJDKDJ yes probably jdnsn

[imaginedanganronpa]

How would the NDRV3 kids (minutes Gonta and Shinguuji of course) react if they somehow found out about the Shinguuji+Gonta/fem!SO bondage relationship?

I love that you guys are so interested in this pair! This Request is based on a series of imagines I’ve written, you can find those here! Enjoy! 

This isn’t that NSFW, but some NSFW themes below!!

Original | Part 2: Someone breaks into their home | Part 3: Kidnapping roleplay

V3 Cast Finding Out About Gonta Gokuhara x Fem!S/O x Korekiyo Shinguuji’s Bondage Relationship!

Kaede Akamatsu

Kaede would find out about your… special relationship bycomplete accident. Since she is close friends with Gonta, they talk in class frequently when they have downtime. Somehow, the topic of relationships came up in conversation and he started talking about you, accidentally mentioning Korekiyo’s name as well.

Confused, Kaede draws in her eyebrows and questions him. Korekiyo overhears this, and before he gets the chance to step in, Gonta realizes what he says and, well, he can’t keep his mouth shut.

She would immediately turn red-faced and become incredibly flustered, dropping her pencil and her bag frantically as she apologized, insisting that she didn’t mean to bring up any private ‘activities.’

When Kaede gets uncomfortable, she can’t help but to giggle, and she couldn’t hold them back. Korekiyo’s intervention only made her more uncomfortable and intensified her blush.

She definitely wouldn’t judge you, and would make sure that everything is consensual and healthy. Sure, Kaede would be shocked and unsure of how to react, but she would still be supportive of her friends.

She’s more embarrassed for her sake than yours since she feels like she crossed a line and heard some details about your intimacy that she definitely didn’t want to know.

It takes Kaede a long time to finally be able to look any of you in the eye again, quickly apologizing and blushing whenever she saw you three together… the image is burned into her memory.

But she won’t shame or belittle you. People like what they like.

Saihara Shuichi

Saihara would probably find out onhis own. He would be able to use his Detective abilities to analyze theirbehavior and tell that something was wrong. Since you were in a different class from Gonta and Korekiyo, he started to worry that something was happening between those two and wanted to warn you about it, like a good friend would.

He’s seen the two men flirting in class, but they always tried to hide it. Saihara could read them like a book, though, and he knew that if he was in your position, he’d want to know. Still, he was surprised that someone like Gonta would be unfaithful.

So, he approaches you after school one day before Gonta left and told you what he saw - about their quick touches and too close for comfort contact that certainly wasn’t just platonic.

As soon as he brings it up, you start blushing furiously. Not long afterwards, Gonta joins you and Saihara gives him a dirty look. You do your best to diffuse the situation, but things escalate from there.

Before the two can start arguing, you cut it off. “No, Shuichi! It isn’t what it looks like… I know about it and, well, we have a… relationship, strictly for intimate purposes and-”

That’s when he cuts you off, Saihara’s jaw dropping. Did he just hear you correctly? Oh boy, his Detective brain really over-thought the situation and now he’s embarrassed. 

Regardless, he’d be a little bit stunned at first. He was one of the biggestsupporters of yours and Gonta’s relationship, but he thought that this was abit too extreme for him.

It’s not his place to judge, he just sometimes wished he didn’t figure it out in the first place. Curse his talent.

Maki Harukawa

Maki finds out about your bondage relationship by complete accident and it was totally unintentional. She doesn’t try breaching people’s privacy by listening to their private conversations, but sometimes she catches wind of things she doesn’t want to hear.

The three of you gathered in the classroom before anyone else had arrived. Unbeknownst to you, Maki arrived a few minutes later and quietly sat outside of the classroom as she read a book.

You talked about your relationship freely since you didn’t think anyone else was around. Maki’s face twisted into a disgusted, perplexed expression as she wasn’t entirely sure she was hearing things right.

She slowly stands and peeks her head into the room to announce her presence, and the three of you stopped immediately, your faces turning pale. You could tell by her reaction that she definitely overheard what you were saying.

Maki would be grossed out, not fully believing what she heard. She recognized that that was a normal thing, but she didn’t expect that from you three, especially. (Well, maybe Korekiyo, but still.)

Gonta immediately tried apologizing to her and instead she dismissively raised her hand and started backing away, leaving the room and walking down the hall without another word. “I don’t want to know, don’t apologize, just keep that to yourselves.”

She then tells you to keep away from her and you can feel her judging stare once class started. Maki melted into her seat and desperately tried to forget about what she heard.

Ouma Kokichi

Since Ouma and Gonta are friends, he’d probably find out through him directly. Gonta doesn’t fully understand the idea of boundaries and, although sharing is caring, he doesn’t realize that some things are better kept to yourself.

“Hey, Gonta, how are you and (Y/N)?” Ouma asks positively, looking for any way to tease him. Although, it was a genuine question since he cared about the large man more than most of your classmates, he just liked giving him Hell if the opportunity arises.

“Gonta and Korekiyo are fine!” He responds with a cheery smile, mishearing the smaller man and not realizing what he said. This caught Ouma’s attention, who latched onto the misstep and questioned him.

“What did you just say?” A sly smirk appearing on his face. Just then, it finally hit Gonta and he tried to cover up the mistake.

“N-nothing!” He responds frantically, but that won’t cut it with Ouma. He started to pry, and you intervened and dragged your boyfriend away from him before he said anything else on accident. 

Regardless, Ouma is smart and he put the pieces together eventually. He was sharper than you’d like to admit, so he could instantly tell what was going on between you three.

He would probably start laughing uncontrollably, followed by a lot of teasing. Wiping a tear from his eye, he would pinch himself because he couldn’t believe it. From then on, you had to deal with plenty of snide comments from Ouma who clearly judged you, teasing and tormenting you as he used the relationship to blackmail each of you.

“People like freaky shit, what can I say?” He smirks, pretending as if he didn’t have some strong opinions, but you knew he did.

Himiko Yumeno

She had been trying to concoct some new ‘spells and potions’ that she insisted would work, and used Gonta as her voluntary test subject. Himiko told him that she had a potion that would get him to spill his deepest secrets, when in reality, she just liquidized laughing gas.

But Gonta didn’t know that and started to feel the side-effects very quickly. You were hesitant about Himiko’s so-called potion but you never thought it would actually work.

That’s when he started to ramble on about your relationship, dropping Korekiyo’s name, which caused suspicions to arise. Himiko tilted her head and questioned him, “Huh? Kiyo?”

“Yeah… Korekiyo, (Y/N) and Gonta have a special relationship…” You watched helplessly in horror as he spilled all of the details about the adult things you three did together.

Himiko quickly covered her ears and panicked, backing away from Gonta as she frantically tried to find a spell that would bring him back to his senses. She definitely wasn’t a fan and didn’t want to hear about that sort of thing.

“Nyeh! I wish I could cast a spell onmyself to forget I ever knew about this!” She exclaims as she runs around her Lab, trying desperately to find a cure. Himiko ended up convincing herself that it was all a dream, but you think she was just going into denial.

She started to laugh awkwardly since she got uncomfortable and refused to look at any of you for a long time after that. Anytime she was around you, she would blush and avoid eye-contact.

You felt bad, like you had stolen her innocence.

Rantaro Amami

Rantaro would probably makeassumptions and be able to put two and two together. He sees through all of the interactions between Gonta and Korekiyo, and can tell that something more is going on.

He would become protective over you, his brotherly instincts kicking in since he views you like he does his sisters. Rantaro would approach you and ask you directly if you knew about their relationship.

Your face was flushed as soon as he mentioned it, although you didn’t think Rantaro knew the extent of it all. Wordlessly, you nodded your head which caused some alarms to go off in his mind. 

He originally just wanted to make sure that Gonta wasn’t being unfaithful to avoid you getting hurt in the future, but now he’s curious.

Knowing how sly he is, you were certain that he would figure it out eventually. You’ve always been able to trust Rantaro, so you preface it by asking him not to tell a soul, and after he makes a pinkey-promise, you tell him the basics.

He’d be a little bit surprised at first, his eyebrows rising. “Really?” Honestly, he was at a loss for words.

He’s chill though. Rantaro isn’t the type to judge others for what they do behind closed doors and he would be extremely supportive of you. He doesn’t tell Gonta or Korekiyo that he knows to maintain your friendship, and he keeps your secret safe.

Rantaro simply makes sure everything and everyone involved is safe and consensual above all else, and that you were happy. Otherwise, why should he care?

That’s all that matters

Tenko Chabashira

Out of everyone, she’s one of the last people you would want to tell about your relationship. She doesn’t mind Gonta as much as other men since he strives towards being a gentleman, but it still took her a long time to accept him and your romantic relationship.

She didn’t need to know what you did in the privacy of your own homes. With that said, Tenko finds out accidentally.

She would overhear your conversation before school started one day as she passed by your classroom. You weren’t in the same class as the boys, so she was visiting you. It wasn’t strange to see Gonta in your classroom, but why was Korekiyo there?

Curiosity killed the cat, and Tenko lingered in the hallway to try to find out for herself. Needless to say, she heard some things she didn’t want to hear and caused a scene.

Tenko isn’t going to be the mostunderstanding. You try to settle her down and explain yourself, but she’s not listening.

She always found Gonta to be much more tolerable than most men, mainly since you convinced her that he wasn’t so bad. But Korekiyo… he’s always given her the creeps. Why him of all people?

“Two degenerate males?! How could you?!” She exclaims, pointing fingers at them. They both try to calm her down but to no avail.

She would come across as pretty rude, but in the end she just wants to make sure that you’re happy. And if you are then she can tolerate your after school activities…

Tenko just doesn’t want to hear about it. Ever.

Kiibo

Kiibo has a heart of gold and he liked all three of you, considering you to be his friends. He was the closest to you, though, and he liked hearing about your relationship with Gonta. He always wished he could love the same way humans could, so he lived vicariously through you.

On a slip of the tongue, you would drop Korekiyo’s name which caused some confusion. “Korekiyo? Don’t you mean Gonta?” The Robot asked with a very lost expression on his face.

You tried hiding your blush as you correct yourself, making up some excuse but Kiibo sees through it.

Between your panicky words and behavior and his functions that allowed him to easily tell when others were lying, he quickly realized why you said Korekiyo’s name but didn’t want to believe it.

Kiibo would be a bit blunt, to say the least, and ask if he was ever involved in your relationship. With a nod, you start explaining how he became a part of yours and Gonta’s dynamic and perhaps you were too specific with details.

Kiibo would probably panic and shut off, his eyes turning into static and his system becoming unresponsive. He just… stopped working. You freaked out and tried finding the switch to turn him back on or restart him, but he didn’t want to be bothered.

When he finally comes to, Kiibo asks you to never speak of those things ever again. That’s a promise you have no issue with keeping, and from then on he tried acting as though everything was normal.

But Kiibo can’t forget, he’s memory drive doesn’t allow it, so now he’s scarred for life. Still, he’ll do his best to be okay with it as long as everything was consensual, blushing as he spoke about it.

Miu Iruma

I mean… it’s Miu. 

She wouldn’t care about your relationship all that much and was instead more interested in your sex life, which isn’t surprising. Although she had good intentions and it was just sheer curiosity, she came across as a little bit too pushy.

She’d talk to you before class started, sitting backwards in her chair and leaning all too close as she interrogated you. “So, how’s Gonta?”

You didn’t pick up on her remarks at first until she started getting specific, asking about the different things you guys have ‘tried out’. Although you wanted to avoid answering such personal questions, Miu just wouldn’t let up. You give her a very vague answer and ask her to drop it.

Apparently you answer wasn’t vague enough and hinted at a third-party. She raised her brow and asked, “What do you mean? You don’t have threesomes, do you? Perverts!”

As soon as she said that, your face turned bright red. Even though she was joking, Miu could sense that she had stricken a chord and immediately burst into laughter. “No way! With who?!”

Your eyes subconsciously drifted over to Korekiyo without you even realizing it, and that sent her into an even louder fit of laughter.

Miu would love it, getting a real kick out of it and teased you. From then on, she made plenty of comments about your sexual relationship and would try checking up from time to time, though you didn’t really want to answer and she’s the last person you wanted to talk about this with.

“I didn’t know you were a bunch of freaks!” Miu exclaims, causing you to melt into your chair with embarrassment.

Kaito Momota

Kaito tends to have his head up in space, and he thinks he’s more of a ladies man than what he really is.

He would start by asking Gonta about yourrelationship, not intending to turn it into a sexual conversation at all. He was genuinely curious since Gonta was new to the dating world and Kaito was ready to give him some relationship advice. 

Happily, Gonta told him that Korekiyo already had that covered. Confused, Kaito questioned him and commented, “I never took Kiyo as being much of a savant when it comes to the ladies.”

Then, Gonta accidentally blurted out a rather incriminating sentence about your bondage relationship. The Astronaut didn’t catch it at first, but when it finally settled in, he was stunned.

“Wait, what the fuck?!” He didn’t intend to come across as rude, but he couldn’t hold it back. His face turned red and Kaito started to get more flustered.

Gonta frantically tried to apologize and asked Kaito to forget everything that was said. With a thumbs-up, he told him he would try and promptly excused himself from Gonta’s general area, needing to catch some air.

He would be as supportive as possible, but if the subject did arise then he would become a bit embarrassed. As confident as he was and as much as he thought he was an expert in this field, Kaito didn’t want to hear all the details about what you three did together.

Angie Yonaga

You always thought Angie was an oblivious ball of sunshine, but maybe she wasn’t as clueless as you pegged her to be.

She started making comments about sexuality and compared them to her religious beliefs. Typically speaking, Angie was quite accepting and didn’t really judge others based on what they did in their spare time. As far as she’s concerned, that was none of her business.

While lecturing Ouma about Atua and her morals, he brought the topic of sexuality up. Angie made a comment about how Atua doesn’t really care what people do with their bodies, and since you and your boyfriend were an earshot away, she suddenly turned to you and asked, “Isn’t that right, Gonta and (Y/N)?”

The comment caught you off-guard, and in a half-asleep daze you added, “and Korekiyo.”

Now Angie was the one who was stunned. She blinks a few times, her eyes widening as she made the connection and started asking you for details. As soon as you realized what you said, you blushed and tried to cover it up, but she wasn’t convinced.

"Oh, that’s so sinful~!” Angie says with a bright smile on her face, before adding, “Just remember, Atua is always watching!”

That sentence really got under your skin and caused you to roll your eyes. Angie didn’t really mind and found it more humorous than anything else.

However, she did offer to sit in on one of your sessions so she could paint you three in the nude - you definitely weren’t taking her up on it, though.

Kirumi Tojo

Kirumi is fairly old-fashioned and doesn’t talk about these kinds of things very often. They’re never brought up which is perfectly fine as far as you’re concerned.

Korekiyo recently hired her to help him clean up his place, so she’s been visiting him and working as his Maid for quite some time now. She didn’t mind, she was happy to help a classmate out. Both you and Gonta knew about this but never thought it would be an interference.

She stopped by that morning before you two showed up, but happened to forget one of her personal belongings in Korekiyo’s home. Since he had given her a spare key, she gladly let herself in and walked towards the bedroom where she left it.

Well, you know where this is going.

Kirumi cracked the door and just briefly saw the scene that was unfolding, stopping dead in her tracks as she gasped and covered her mouth, quickly shutting the door and frantically apologizing from behind it.

She became extremely flustered and her entire face was red, so Korekiyo comforted her as he loosely got dressed and excused himself from your session. You and Gonta, on the other hand, hid under the covers in embarrassment, hoping that she didn’t see too much.

Kirumi respects other couple’s boundaries and acknowledges that that is a normal part of life, so she doesn’t judge you too harshly. She was just more shocked and embarrassed than anything else.

She asks you to give her a warning next time and tries to forget all about it by the next day.

Tsumugi Shirogane

Tsumugi didn’t want to know, but things happen.

Korekiyo was holding a house-warming party and most of your class showed up. In his home, he had two closets: one where he kept the clothes we wore, and one for… other things.

Since she’s so interested in cosplay and fashion, Tsumugi couldn’t help herself. Korekiyo took you and Gonta aside while everyone else was in the other room to show you where he relocated your ‘things.’ 

And of course, she overheard him talking about it. Out of curiosity, she slipped into his room after you three parted ways to find out what the hype was about. She thought he was hiding something new and exciting, like a cultural costume of some kind, but no…

When Tsumugi peered inside the closet to see all of the assorted goods and items you used during your sessions, her jaw dropped and her eyes widened, a blush forming on her cheeks.

At first, she freaked out and caused a scene. Korekiyo promptly tried to shut it down before she brought anyone else’s attention to your secret relationship, so he had to cover her mouth.

After the initial shock subsided, Tsumugi got all hot and bothered. “I knew you were a freak Korekiyo, but wow!” She says with glazed eyes. It was a bit disturbing, to say the least.

She just had so many questions about your relationship and what you three did together! She was genuinely curious, but Korekiyo refused to oblige. It made your friendship a bit strange and she started giving you odd looks whenever the three of you were together, but was generally supportive. (Maybe a bit too supportive, at that.)

Ryoma Hoshi

You can usually talk about these kinds of things around Ryoma since he doesn’t normally pay attention. He’s typically off in his own little world, his mind wandering into new places.

Sometimes you forget he’s even there. Ryoma is so quiet and Gonta is so careless that he started to openly talk about your relationship, forgetting that he was sitting just an earshot away and could easily hear whatever was being said.

He doesn’t usually like to snoop on others, but he happened to overhear this particular conversation and Ryoma’s eyes immediately went wide.

He really didn’t know what to think, never suspecting you three of something like that. He turned his head to stare at you, and Gonta’s heart sank instantly after he realized that he was being too loud and abrasive.

Although you tried to step in and apologize before things got too out of hand, Ryoma wordlessly stood and gathered his belongings, instead apologizing for the intrusion and excused himself.

As you called out for him to wait so you could explain, but he raised his hand dismissively and started to walk faster. “I don’t need an apology or an explanation, I’ve already heard too much and I don’t want to know any more, thank you.”

“But wait!” You insist; Ryoma just wasn’t having it. “No, it’s really my bad, I shouldn’t have been listening!”

He insists that he’s supportive and that he doesn’t care, but anytime he makes eye contact with any of you, he starts to immediately blush and becomes uncomfortable.

- Mod Rantaro

[shellibisshe]

Literally just do all of the asks (besides the ones you've done already) I'm nosy and I'm love you >:O

ask and ye shall receive

long post ahead

2.) A picture of me:

3.) How many tattoos I have and what they are:

I have none :)

4.) Last time I cried and why:

literally yesterday. I made eye contact with my friend Jaylen who’s on the dance team for our band. it’s her senior year and she’s had a lot of health problems and yesterday was the last time she got to perform her routine for our field show

5.) Piercings I have:

none, not even my ears are pierced

7.) Biggest turn offs:

someone who says they’re open to other opinions but clearly isn’t. also someone who cries to their parents when someone is mean to them

8.) Top 5 (insert subjects):

I’ll do top five books;

1. Mosquitoland by David Arnold

2. Kids of Appetite by David Arnold

3. I Stop Somewhere by Te Carter

4. Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury

5. An Abundance of Katherines by John Green

9.) Tattoos I want:

maybe like,,, a tiny airplane? because i like to travel? or something small.

10.) biggest turn ons:

when someone is caring but not too much. when someone is open minded

11.) Age:

17 I’ll be 18 in like,,,5 or 6 months

12.) Ideas of a perfect date:

okay so listen,,, my family owns some property up in the mountains. so my perfect date would literally just be going and getting like fast food and then going up to that property to just sit and talk

13.) Life goal:

to become a psychiatrist

14.) Piercings I want:

none

15.) Relationship status:

Single

17.) A fact about my life:

I was raised partly in West Virginia by my dad’s parents but I live in Pennsylvania. my grandparents on that side would watch me during the day so my parents could go to work.

18.) Phobia:

Acrophobia

19.) Middle name:

Jae, after my dad

20.) Height:

5’3”

21.) Are you a virgin?

ye

22.) What’s your shoe size?

I have tiny feet,,, size 6/ 6 and a half. even 5 depending on the shoe

23.) What’s your sexual orientation?

bicurious. I’m not quite bi but I don’t think I’m straight either and I know that isn’t exactly what bicurious is but that’s the closest I can get.

24.) Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs?

nope

25.) Someone you miss:

my dad’s mom. she was really close to me when I was younger

26.) What’s one thing you regret?

trusting certain people

27.) First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive:

Ryan Reynolds

28.) Favorite ice cream:

coffee flavored Haagen Daz!

29.) One insecurity:

that whatever I make won’t be good enough

30.) What my last text message says:

“I’m going with Morgan at 4 to help her pick out table setting for her wedding”

31.) Have you ever taken a picture naked?

no I’m a good child (but ya know it’s your body you do you)

32.) Have you ever painted your room?

yes. both accidentally when I was little and on purpose when I got older

33.) Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex?

no

34.) Have you ever slept naked?

no

35.) Have you ever danced in front of your mirror?

nope I don’t like dancing

36.) Have you ever had a crush?

literally a thousand both real and fictional

37.) Have you ever been dumped?

nope I’ve only been in one relationship and I ended it

38.) Have you ever stolen money from a friend?

no but I’ve not paid someone back after they got me something and I’ve felt bad ever since

39.) Have you every gotten in a car with people you just met?

no

40.) Have you ever been in a fist fight?

no but I got really close one time because this giant dude in my grade threatened to punch me and I said “Do it you won’t” and spoiler he didn’t

41.) Have you ever snuck out of your house?

nope I’m too tired and clumsy

42.) Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back?

HAVE I EVER HAD FEELINGS FOR SOMEONE WHO DIDNT HAVE THEM BACK?? YES ALL THE TIME

43.) Have you ever been arrested?

no

44.) Have you ever made out with a stranger?

ew no

45.) Have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?

like,,, I’ve met guy friends to hang out with them

46.) Have you ever left your house without telling your parents?

no my mom knows my every move half the time

47.) Have you ever had a crush on your neighbor?

ew no all my neighbors are old white guys

48.) Have you ever ditched school to do something more fun?

no

49.) Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?

HECK YEA like two weekends ago I shared a bed with a girl in a hotel room

50.) Have you ever seen someone die?

no

51.) Have you ever been on a plane?

yes and I hate it

52.) Have you ever kissed a picture?

no

53.) Have you ever slept in until 3?

yes back in the day when I would watch Toonami

54.) Have you ever loved someone or miss someone right now?

yes

55.) Have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?

yesss my family used to have a trampoline that’s all I did on that thing

56.) Have you ever made a snow angel?

yes

57.) Have you ever played dress up?

yes

58.) Have you ever cheated while playing a game?

I cheat at the sims

59.) Have you ever been lonely?

yeeeeep

60.) Have you ever fallen asleep at work/ school?

yes and my teacher just let me sleep

61.) Have you ever been to a club?

no

62.) Have you ever felt an earthquake?

no

63.) Have you ever touched a snake?

no

64.) Have you ever ran a red light?

bud I don’t even drive over the speed limit

65.) Have you ever been suspended from school?

nope

66.) Have you ever had detention?

in like elementary school

67.) Have you ever been in a car accident?

a minor one, no one was injured. a college student hit me and my mom when we were in my dad’s huge ass truck.

68.) Have you ever hated the way you look?

yes

69.) Have you ever witnessed a crime?

no

70.) Have you ever pole danced?

no

71.) Have you ever been lost?

physically, mentally, and emotionally

72.) Have you ever been to the opposite side of the country?

no

73.) Have you ever felt like dying?

no

74.) Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

yes

75.) Have you ever sang karaoke?

no

77.) Have you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?

literally every day at lunch

78.) Have you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger?

no

79.) Have you ever kissed in the rain?

no

80.) Have you ever sang in the shower?

yes I ~perform~

81.) Have you ever made out in a park?

nope

83.) Have you ever glued your hand to something?

almost?

84.) Have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?

no

[cinnamon-puppy]

all the questions because 👀👀👀👀

I rarely follow through with these and for that I am sorry1. My Ex2. My Friends3. I don't really miss anyone anymore? Everyone comes and goes for a reason. But in regards to people who are gone forever, my mum.4. I don't really have anyone in my life that I want to get rid of.5. Emma, she helps me to be the best I can be.6. My Ex. She turned me into a horribly toxic person.7. I wish I could be honest with my family.8. I've had secret feelings for friends in the past but right now I only have feelings for one person and they know who they are because they're a dumbass.9. The world would be better off without people who enjoy the pain of others.10. I wish I'd treated my mum differently while I was at uni, and also my friends in my last year of school.11. The worst day of my life was the day my mum died.12. My greatest fear is turning into everything I hate.13. My biggest insecurity is either my face, my walk or whether what I'm saying is annoying as fuck to others.14. My biggest regret is that I devoted my entire teenage years to a total piece of human garbage.15. My ideal world is a world where everyone can be creative, money doesn't matter and everything tastes fucking delicious.16. My personal hell is being stuck in an office cubicle for eternity.17. My hopeless dream is to one day be a famous film director.18. The most embarrassed I've ever been is probably when I accidentally pulled my shorts down during a football match and showed my wiener to everyone present.19. The angriest I've ever been is the time I punched a doorframe out of place at university because my ex was purposefully making me jealous.20. The saddest I've ever been is the period of time right now. I've never known grief or sadness like this before. It's hard.21. The most scared I've ever been is when I was chased down an alleyway by a group of people with knives.22. The most hopeless I've ever felt is when I nearly killed myself at university.23. The most frantic I've ever felt is at pretty much every family gathering I've been to.24. The bravest I've ever felt is when I abseiled a 200ft tower when I was 10.25. The best case scenario for my future is: I get my book published, I do well in my career and get to my end goal, or my videos online take off and we go somewhere with that.26. The worst case scenario for my future is I lose everything I love and end up topping myself lmao.27. The most physical pain I've ever felt is probably from one of the times I self harmed at uni. I bandaged my arm for two weeks.28. The most emotional pain I've ever felt was watching my mum die. It felt like something was being torn away from me and everything inside me was on fire and frozen at the same time and I didn't know what to do.29. I feel like a hypocrite almost every day about something or other.30. I felt like a traitor when I started dating my best friends ex lmao.31. I felt like a hero when I was stood in my uniform at work and a five year old kid asked me for my autograph.32. I feel inhuman whenever I have an episode on a night out, I regress into myself and sit and watch people and stew in sadness.33. I felt like a failure when I was thinking of killing myself. I didn't feel anyone would miss me, that I wasn't worth a damn and I was never going to matter.34. The worst thing I've ever done was sleep with someone my best friend fancied like hell behind his back. And deny it when he confronted me about it.35. I'm proudest of making it this far in life and carrying on despite everything that's dragged me downwards.36. My relationship with my family is good for the most part...but it gets complex if I go into too much detail.37. I don't have a religious belief. But if believing in God helps you be kind and find peace then go for it.38. I'd rather not talk about someone I've lost.39. I've not really ever had anybody abandon me.40. I don't really have a desire that scares me? This question set is obviously made to out potential cheaters lmao.41. I wish I was capable of listening more and getting things right more often.42. I'm not really afraid of being capable of anything?43. I wouldn't change the life I was born into for anything.44. My worst heartbreak was when I found out my ex had cheated on me, and she blamed me for it all.45. My worst disappointment was probably when I nearly failed my first year of sixth form, or my final year film of uni...the team fucked that up bad.46. I've never taken a fall for someone really.47. I've never asked anyone to take a fall for me.48. The most physical harm I've done to someone is broken their nose.49. I don't think I've ever done serious emotional harm to anyone, not that I know of.50. I have self harmed, yes.51. I have attempted suicide, yes.52. I've stolen a lot of sandwiches and chocolate bars in my life.53. I've never cheated on someone.54. I have been cheated on.55. I took revenge on a few people at school by either punching them or ruining their relationships lmao.56. I've never seriously considered killing someone. But if I did...a few people come to mind.57. I've betrayed a few people who trusted me in the past and I feel awful about it.58. In regards to the supernatural, I think I saw a ghost when I was younger. My grandparents neighbour came into my bedroom and chatted with me for a bit...about an hour later my grandma came in and told me their neighbour had passed away yesterday. It was super weird.

[mylifeasavetstudent]

Nerves About Ross

6/22/17

I heard I was accepted 3 weeks ago, but I’m still waiting to hear about whether I start in September 2017 or January 2018. I should know within the next 5-6 weeks - which could give me only 3-4 weeks to get ready and move down there.

Trying to get my thoughts in order, here are some of the logical and illogical things I'm scared about in regard to starting Veterinary School and in regard to moving down to St. Kitt’s. I’m sure some are normal and shared by most students, but I’m sure some are me just being a whiny 23-year old New York girl.

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1) Packing. (Overpacking, underpacking, forgetting). How am I gonna fit everything in two suitcases? I plan to use vacuum seal bags and bring the two biggest overweight suitcases and a carry-on that I can. I just keep thinking about all the bulky stuff - kitchenware, bedding/pillows, shower/beach towels, steel-toed farm boots, shoes/clothes, toiletries, makeup/hair/cosmetics, electronics, books/school supplies. I went away to undergrad college about 30 minutes away and lived on an on-campus dorm/apartment for 4 years. However, I was in a big city, and could easily get anything I needed down the block. I was also so close to home, that I often went home on the weekends, and could pick up anything I needed. Also important to note that I could use Amazon, unlike St. Kitt’s. Every time I moved in/out, it took about 2-3 car loads of stuff!

2) Buying textbooks/school supplies.

I guess I should wait till I get to the island to get books? Do they have a school bookstore? Will other students be selling them? I worry if I wait till I get down there, I won’t be able to find them.

Should I order them in advnace and pack them? I worry this will take up too much space/weight in my suitcase. Should I order them in advance and have them shipped to St. Kitt’s? This would probably be super expensive, and what if they take too long to get there or go to the wrong location?

3) Buying a car (getting license/insurance/mechanics, etc.)

When should I buy a car? Second semester? I’m worried I’ll be taken advantage of and pay a lot of money for a really crappy car. I’m nervous about driving a dangerous car. I’m nervous about going through all the processes of getting a license, insurance, legally buying the car, etc. I love my US car and I’m gonna miss it and hate leaving it at home for a few years! I’m also terrified to find a reliable St. Kitts mechanic, since I’ve heard horror stories about being overcharged and taken advantage of. Mechanics who “fix” your problem, but purposely create more. Criminal mechanics who steal your car and sell parts. Agh.

4) The bus system/traveling.

Super nervous about figuring it out and navigating it while I don’t have a car yet. What if I get stranded in some bad area alone as the sun sets?!

5) Food shopping (bugs, giardia).

I've heard horror stories about food on grocery store shelves being rancid and expired. I’ve been told to check the dates on everything before buying it - even milk and cheeses. I’ve been told about boxes of pasta full of bugs and peanut butter full of worms. I’ve also heard there is giardia and mycoplasma in the tap water? Definitely scared of that. Is this true of bottled water or other drinks?

6) Bugs/centipedes/spiders/ticks.

I am terrified of bugs. The pictures I see of giant spiders, moths, and aggressive, hard-to-kill venomous centipedes in homes/beds/clothes give me absolute nightmares. I’m also scared of ticks and tick-borne diseases due to all the outdoor activity. 

7) Living arrangements.

The uncertainty here is killing me. I know I'll be living in a dorm my first semester, but that’s only 3 months. And will I be living alone? With 2 roommates? 3? How do I apply? I’m nervous to be living alone - but what if I get roommates I hate?

8) Wild animals/monkeys/sea animals/hiking.

Are there dangerous wild animals? What about the monkeys? What about in the ocean? Are there aggressive fish/octopi? Do I need to worry about jellyfish? Sharp sea urchins? I know there are a lot of great hikes - but I'm an inexperienced hiker. Do I need to be scared of animals on the trails? What about tick-borne diseases? What about being robbed/attacked by humans on the trial? Or getting lost in the woods with no cell signal? I don’t even know what clothes to wear or what hiking shoes ARE! HELP.

9) Personal Safety/Being burgalarized.

I’ve heard that as long as you are generally street smart, you should be okay. But I also hear horror stories of native drug deals gone wrong right near St. Kitts students - of guns shots and murders. I’ve heard of armed car jackings, robberies, rapes. I’ve heard of break ins and burglaries. Definitely nervous about personal safety. Even if just my STUFF is stolen - I’m so nervous I'll lose expensive items, as well as personal valuable like photos and class notes. I’m investing in personal property insurance that extends to St. Kitts, as well as external hard drives to copy all my stuff. Do I need to buy a pocket knife or mace or something?

10) Cell phones.

I still don’t really understand this concept. So I can bring my iphone, and simply put it in airplane mode and turn on the wifi? That way I can use iMessage, email, Facebook messenger, WhatsApp, viver, etc. for phone calls/text - but, it will only work when there is wifi around. This way, I won’t be charged an exorbitant amount for international cell service. Should I stop paying for my phone plan?

I’m also told you’re given an old block phone from Ross for calls to other students and businesses on the island. 

11) Massive debt.

Yep. Probably gonna be in $325,000 of debt and start at $40,000 a year while I have clients scream at me about how rich I am and don’t care about animals. 

12) Failing out. 

Definitely scared of vet school being “too hard” and failing out. I know I’m a good student and I’m planning to study my ass off - but this fear is still there.

13) Living on my own.

Like I said, I lived about 30 minutes from my house for four years in undergrad college. I could go home on the weekends, and ask my mom for help with anything. I lived on campus, so I had maintenance and security staff always present. I never lived off campus. I also lived with 1-3 roommates every year, and always shared a bedroom - so I was never completely alone.

14) Making friends and knowing no one.

Definitely a big fear - but everyone else seems to manage it, right? I guess when you’re all in a completely new country with no friends/family, everyone’s a bit more open. 

15) Logistics - setting up a bank account, loans, FAFSA, paying pills, receiving monthly loan allowals, visas, passports, customs, flights, vaccines.

SO MUCH TO DO. 

16) Rabies vaccine

It’s gonna hurt, isn’t it? What other vaccines do I need? Can I get them on the island? Is it cheaper?

17) My dog.

My dog is 13 with CKD. I’m terrified that when I get on that flight, it’ll be my last time seeing her. ):

18) Mail system.

Seems very complicated and expensive. I’ve heard people dig through your personal mail right in front of you. And SO. EXPENSIVE. Also gonna greatly miss amazon.

19) Disease (Zika, HIV, Lyme, parasites - vaccines)

Definitely scared of getting some crazy topical diseases that we don’t have up here in NYC. Definitely scared of parasites - is that gorgeous water there safe to swim in? Not just the oceans/seas, what about lakes? I don’t need some crazy vagina parasite swimming into me or accidentally swallowing some giardia. Or is just the drinking water dangerous?

20) The health system (getting insurance, birth control, allergy shots, hospital visits)

Trying to figure out how to continue my birth control and allergy shots while I'm down there. Apparently my birth control is $4/month over the counter down there. Apparently Ross Health Services can administer my allergy shots, but I’ll have to bring the refrigerated vials down from NYC with me, and have them changed out every 9-12 months. God knows how much that would cost to ship - might be cheaper for me to just fly up and back and get em!

Definitely nervous about the quality of health care and emergency health care down there. I heard chickens roam the hospital. Hoping to get all my general/preventative care done on my breaks back home. 

21) Being okay with “island time” (everything being closed)

I’ve lived my entire life in a busy city - nothing closes, ever. Weekends, nights, holidays - there’s always somewhere I can stop and get food/drinks. Adapting to there being no drive throughs or quick delis to stop into when I had 5 minutes before class is gonna be rough. And so is realizing that by 5pm on a Friday, I’m screwed until 8am on a Monday for any business I need to go to or contact. Especially dreading this with a car breakdown. 

22) Not being able to find things from the US (Certain drinks, snacks, cosmetics)

Again, this is just something I’m gonna have to adapt to - but I will miss it!

23) Deciding when I can afford to go home.

I have no idea if I should go home after every semester? Is that something people normally do? Or once a year? 

From what I'm reading on flight websites: It’s gonna be about a $400-600 flight ($1000-1200 round trip), take about 5 hours (10 hours both way) and need to have 1-2 stops. With the stops, it’ll be about 7-22 hours one way (14-44 hours round trip). Ugh. 

24) Not taking advantage of all the great opportunities/trips available. 

I’m scared I’m gonna be so overwhelmed with classes and exams, that I’ll miss out on some of the great extracuricular activities, clubs, sports, games, hikes, etc. Or the great “vacation” trips abroad available on breaks. 

25) Second semester - rent, laundry, landlords, safety, finding roommates.

Definitely scared of moving on to second semester and out of the dorms where I'll be pressured to find a safe, convenient, cheap apartment. I’ll have to move all my stuff (how? rent a car?), pay bills, pay rent, deal with a landlord, all for the first time in my life. And I’m definitely scared about picking the “Right” roommates to live with. 

26) Restaurant food/native food

How is the food there? I’m unfortunately not a huge seafood fan, but not averse to trying the native food. However - is it safe? Should I make sure I ask for no ice (water parasites)? Is there a possibility of undercooked meat/seafood or spoiled/expired meat/seafood? Is there a possibility of parasites in the food?

27) Hobbies

I’ve been going to school part time and working full time the past year, and I haven’t participated in any of my hobbies in over a year. I love learning foreign languages and I love horseback riding - and I haven't had time (excuse excuse) or money to do either. I worry this will just continue on in veterinary school, as I’ll be even more stressed, and have even less time and less money. Is there even any horseback riding availability down there? I mean, I can’t really pack all my language books (guess I can do a lot online), and I definitely can’t pack all my riding stuff (boots, helmet, clothes, saddle, etc. etc.)

28) Fun one: So when do I change my blog name from mylifeasaPREvet student to mylifeasaVETstudent? I also think I’m gonna start a website blog about life on the island - no only for future nervous students (like me right now) - but for my friends and family to see via Facebook. Don’t exactly wanna share all my tumblr info on Facebook! Best website for a blog?