#i think romanticizing voice leading will work

[kpoperotics]

Yeji's touch x Male reader

Yeji is your best friend, with benefits. She likes things slightly rougher than the typical romanticism. She loves taking your cum in her mouth.

You finally got back home from a tiring day of work. Yeji was inside the house behind the door waiting to see you after this long day. As you open the door you see her and she throws herself against you, hugging you at first but then taking a small step back to look at you.

"So how was your day?" Yeji asks.

"Everything was fine, thank you. It was another tiring day." You answer.

"Mmm I'm glad" She says. Her hands are already undoing your zip.

"So.. now that you're at home I can finally have you all for myself" Yeji says, her hands massaging your balls softly.

"You go straight today.." you say softly"

"I do" Yeji says. She then takes your hand and leads towards the couch, letting you sit. Once you're sat, she takes off your pants, running her hands on your hardening shaft.

"I want you so bad" Yeji moans, her voice breathy as she gets more and more turned on.

"Then, don't waste anymore time" You answer, and as those words leave your lips, she doesn't hesitate to take off your underwear too, letting your already hard length show up.

She takes it in her hands, stroking you softly yet passionately. She lets you feel her touch on you. She keeps going for a little, just enough to get more aroused, as well as wet.

"I'ma make you cum in my mouth today" Yeji says before taking the tip of your cock in her mouth, her lips hovering around your tip.

She slowly moves, up and down, in and out, nice and slow. At first.

Then, she starts taking you slightly faster but deeper, needing to feel you more in her mouth. You can tell she's been waiting for this for the whole day, and now she has you all for herself.

She bobs her head up and down on your cock and she moans while taking it, her moans sending you more shivers down your spine.

Yeji takes confidence with your big cock and her hands are now on your balls, massaging them just like earlier. Her mouth works on your cock tirelessly, up and down smoothly. She loves the taste of your shaft in her mouth.

She pulls away for a while from your cock, during that, she works on your balls, sucking each of them greedily, just as good as she was doing on your cock.

Yeji takes your balls in her mouth and suck on them eagerly, unable to stop tasting you. Some slurping sound escapes her mouth.

She then leaves your balls to take your length back into her mouth, sucking harder this time, not deeper but surely with more determination to have your cum on her tongue. She can't really wait to taste you, she wants you to cum in her mouth so bad.

Her effort is obvious, she's so determined and the sight of your best friend sucking your cock is too mesmerizing for you to resist. So you're undecided whether to let go and pump everything you've got in her mouth, or let her suck your cock some more.

You don't even have the time to think about it, even because your mind is clouded with pleasure and you can't think straight.

You're cumming, you're cumming so hard in her mouth. She gasps, moans loudly and rolls her eyes back as she feels your warm sticky fluid running down her throat.

She swallows every single drop of your essence, pulling away once you're done cumming.

"Wow, I made you cum pretty much, huh?" Yeji teases.

"You did-" You answer, still unable to think completely straight.

...The rest of the night it's you and her sleeping together after your tiring day.

[ozzgin]

OZZGIN!

May I request an idea/imagine?

It is about yandere! mental asylum patient and psychiatrist! reader, who is very practical and strict regarding her job, takes no BS from others. But, for some reason, she has a soft spot for yandere! mental asylum patient. The reason could either be he had a hard childhood in which he had to do what he had to do, which brutally killed his father, who used to abuse his mother and sister, but when the father tried to sell the sister into prostitution to buy more alcohol, all hell break lose. Psychiatrist! reader thinks what yandere! mental asylum the patient did was OKAY, and she wants to get him out of the asylum. They love each other deeply and would do anything, so far as to kill for one another. If you can, make it as twisted as you can. I live for some dark romance!

Please ignore my request if you are not able to do it. I completely understand. Thank you in advance! <3

Oh my, this request hits somewhat close to home as I have a friend incarcerated for similar reasons. I'm pondering the logistics behind this context you've provided, since murdering someone won't necessarily land you in a psych ward unless there are other symptoms that come with it. And so I've taken the liberty to expand the character's profile if that's alright. (Conveniently enough I still have my psychopathology lecture notes)

I want to add, however, that this story in no way romanticizes mental illness! If anything, one may consider it an opportunity to reflect on the fact that so many people struggling with disorders do not receive the proper care for it, or only do so when it's too late. Furthermore a medical professional should never, ever behave like this and whatever is written here should stay in the realm of fiction!

Yandere! Patient x Psychiatrist! Reader

Featuring a patient that's pushing the boundaries of your work ethic and might even succeed.

Content/warnings: female reader, detailed mentions of mental disorder, violence, obsessive behavior, breach of professional conduct

You roll up your sleeve and check your watch. He should be here soon. Out of habit, you shuffle the papers for a quick case review, even though you already know all the details by heart. You carefully set aside the patient’s MMPI and WHODAS entry assessments, then your first interviews. Your eyes briefly rest upon the resulting report you’ve comprised: Schizophreniform Disorder (Provisional) with good prognostic features; Diagnostic criteria consisting of delusions, disorganized speech (frequent derailment with episodes of incoherence, echolalia) and comorbid catatonia. Responds well to antipsychotic (clozapine 25mg/12 h) with no imminent need for dosage increase. As it currently stands, he will be fit for proper incarceration in less than 6 months. Is it something you agree with? Not quite. You’ve presented your case many times and it has always been met with pitiful shrugs and dismissals.

The door opens and you fix your posture, sweeping the documents back into your drawer. “And? How are you feeling today?” You ask, flashing a professional, cordial smile as the assisting nurse leads the patient to his seat and prepares her leave. “My chest hurts.” The man answers in a low voice, glaring at the nurse. He taps his foot against the plush carpet, seemingly restless. “How bad would you rate it? Chest pain is a somewhat common side effect of your medication.” You retort, following the movements of the woman finally excusing herself and exiting the room. Once you’re alone, the man’s shoulders droop and he visibly relaxes. “It’s not that, you know it. When can I touch you again?” He pleads, despair twisting his features. You tense up at the words. “Behave yourself. It hasn’t been that long.”

It’s not something you’re particularly proud of. In fact, you might even call it one of your great shames in life. You’ve always been a textbook professional, perhaps even too strict according to your coworkers and most patients. Not even in your wildest dreams would you have dared to imagine you’d violate the code of ethics by falling in love with your patient. But something about his situation stirred your sense of justice. Surely one cannot be punished for protecting their loved ones. The only criminal in the equation, at least in your eyes, was that joke of a father and he had it coming. So you found yourself wrestling against a blooming protectiveness and favoritism towards the young man brought here last month.

What would have normally compelled you into action had therefore been silently swept under the rug. Or even worse, you secretly indulged in it. A patient showing signs of affection towards you would instantly be transferred to a different psychiatrist. Yet you couldn’t put away the letters written by this one. Erratic, crumpled notes of “I love you” written countless times, pencil dug so deep it tore into the sheet. Bizarre illustrations that looked almost threatening. His elaborate delusions before medication was introduced, where he’d detail in grand narratives how you were fated for each other and nothing would stop him from having you sooner or later. You do not know what forces possessed you into this addictive plunge, but you’ve come to enjoy his violent, frenzied confessions. So much, that during one of the unsupervised meetings you let yourself pushed into the sofa as his hands tugged at your body in rabid need. It was so out of character that you wondered if it truly happened, though the bite marks and scratches on your neck and chest proved otherwise.

“Are they going to send me to prison?” He changes the subject and stands up, walking towards your desk. “Most likely. What you have is the result of a traumatic event, not a lifelong condition. Sporadic episodes that can be kept under control with antipsychotics aren’t enough of a reason to keep you in the hospital.” You press your legs together nervously and glance at him. “Can’t you just say it’s no longer working?” He suggests, kneeling before you and placing a hand on your thigh. “You know I can’t lie on the report.” You really don’t like it when he manipulates you like this. “Ah, yes, because lying is worse than fucking your patient.” He scoffs, annoyed. “Don’t threaten me like that”, you say as you turn towards him, but you’re stopped by the rough grip of his hand over your cheeks. “I’m not threatening you, I’m threatening everyone else. Listen, (Y/N), I’m not fucking around. I don’t mind pretending to be crazy if I have to. Will the meds still be working if I steal a shaving razor and cut the nurse open?” You try to open your mouth, but his fingers are pressed into your skin, locking your jaw into place. “I’m not going to prison. I’m not. Then I’ll never see you again and that can’t happen. You know that.”

Eventually he releases his hold, allowing you to speak. "I understand. Then there's no choice but to arrange your escape." You sigh, defeated, and he raises his eyebrows. "Won't that get you in trouble?" You chuckle at his statement. "Either way I'll be in trouble. You said it yourself. Might as well quit before I have to stand in front of the ethics board and have my license revoked." You'd prefer to keep the last ounce of pride if possible.

He sits on the floor and you notice his trembling hands. "Nervous?" You ask. "No. Just really happy. I'm not a bad person and you were the only one here to see it. But God, (Y/N), I'd kill anyone if it was for your sake. I can't wait to hold you whenever I want." He gazes at you as a smile widens on his face.

[simpfordemetri]

Felix Volturi Soft Alphabet

A - Affection (how do they show affection)

Felix was unsure of giving or receiving affection from you,everyone is small compared to him and the fact that you are human scare the shit out of him.

So literally baby steps,he knows how to be gentle but what if he accidentally hugs you to tight?

However he loves affection,he is all over cuddles,kisses,hugs and once you two overcome this insecuritie of him he will be all over you,lingerie touches and forehead kisses.

B - Balance (how do they balance you, work/school/life?)

He is the Volturi executioner so whenever there is a trial or a mission he has to be there,but i dont think the Volturi are busy ALWAYS 24/7,for me thats a bit of bullshit tbh.

He loves quality time and loves preparing dates for you,lazy days consist on you two talking abouy everything and anything .

C - Cuddles (do they enjoy cuddling? what positions?)

As i said,yes he does,he loves laying you on top of him as if he were a pillow,your personal vampire pillow.He doesnt really understand why you love so much having your head on his cheast as its hard but he lets you be.

D - Date (what was your first date?)

He loves taking you on dates,it could be any kind of dates,too fancy or a cute picnic.

Your first date were you two at night at the beach,you love the sea but because of the sun he cant go there until night,but to his surprise you were more than happy yo go at night.

E - Excited (how excited do they get when they see you/are with you?)

A big smile is draw on his face,he feels at home when he sees you and he wish you feel the same towards him,he wants to be with you 24/7,even if its doing nothing,for him its perfect just the fact that you are near him.

F - Fighting (what happens when you fight)

Hates fighting but at the same time i think he can be a bit stubborn,however he knows how intimidating he can be so he would never raise his voice at you,arguments are calm and he have the patient of a saint.If you screan at him he will just stay there listening until you are done ,his expression is serious and he hates when you do it because its honestly hurt him.

G - Gorgeous (pet names. what do they like to call you? what do they like to be called?)

He calls you by your name most of the time,he loves hearing your name and the way its rolls out of his tongue,however he knows how much humans likes pet names and he probably uses “love” too.

He doesnt mind if you have a pet name for him or not,but callim him “Fe” makes his dead heart beat.

H - Hi (first time meeting)

He were on a mission in America,the moment they were done and almost heading to Volterra he smelled your scent,running to drain you as your blood smelled too nice,just to look deeply into your eyes and everything “clicked” in his head.

I - Intimacy (how romantic they are)

He is but its not good at showing it you know?He is pretty awkward when it comes to romanticism,he is not used to it but wants to show you all the love he has to you.Its pretty amusing tho,he will be giving you a big bouquet of flowers but at the same time he is just handing you the flowers while looking at the floor feeling the most cringe person to exist.

J - Jealousy (do they get jealous? how do they react to you being jealous)

He is really jealous and is not shy about it,he is very vocal about how you are only his,the mere fact about you having friends its just hard to accept to him,his possesiveness showing in every action or word he says.

He can get pretty “snappy” when he is jealous and honestly you just have to deal with it.

K - Kisses (where do they like to kiss you/how often?)

Kissing you its his number one favorite activity,however your neck its his favorite place to kiss,he loves to leave tender kisses there and it doesnt necessarily lead to anything more.

He loves picking you up to kiss you,specially if you are smaller(which you are).His lips feeling so soft against yours and its just the perfect mix of emotions.

L - Love (when was the first time they said I love you or realized it?)

He knew it from the moment he realized he didnt want to drink your blood the moment he saw you,you were just a human but he wanted you alive,he wanted you by his side because he love you.

The first time he said it was by accident,you cracked up a dumb joke that made him laugh so hard that probably all Volterra heard it,just by how much fun he was having with you and how comfortable it was to be around you it accidentally slipped.

M - Moving in (when do you decide to move in together)

He took you with him,he gave you the option go if you wanted to,but you decided to stay with him so it was just perfect.

At first you did have your own room but it didnt take much to share room with him permanetly.

N - Newborn (their reaction to starting a family)

He is not too fond on kids and the idea of having a babie that could be easily crussed by him its not very entertaining.He does fantasize about having a family with you but that wont happen.

If he were also human he would totally 100% have a family,even a big one with you.

O - Open (how open you are with one another)

He doesnt talk much about his past because honestly he doesnt remember his human life,but he does share his private thoughts with you and expects you to do the same.

He is an open book to you,you are his mate and he doesnt have any secret keep to you.

If you dont open up to him its fine,but if something its really wrong and its clear that is bothering you he is not giving you the option to shut down,he needs to know.

P - Photos (what kind of photos you take of them/they take of you)

Dont understand technology because he doesnt know how to use a phone,i cant really see him taking photos of you with a phone,however he does have a camera and he hace plenty of pictures of you.

Does not like the idea of you having photos of him in your phone because if Aro finds out the anger of Aro will be direct to you and he does not want that.

Q - Quirks (what random habits do you have that they love or hate/vice versa)

He is fascinated by how your voice sound when you are excited about something,he already love the sound of your voice but hearing you so happy its really something else.

He really hates self jokes,dont joke about yourself,if you have to make a mean joke about someone please do it about Demetri,he will literally say that.

R - Recovery (how you help them after an injury/vice versa)

He can't get hurt,but i think vampires can get really tires mentally and he just need your cuddles,nothing more,he doesnt need a warm bath or anything,your warm against him its more than enough.

If you get hurt its really a different story,his eyes wide open looking at the injuries while screaming who the fuck did that.He will kill that person later that for sure but first he need to get you a doctor.

S - Solution (how they resolve fights)

If the calm talk he tried to have with you didnt work,he will wait until the night,but keep in mind that he will not let his mate go upset to bed,he will lay with you even if you try to push him away,once you are in his arms there is no scape.Smothered in love.

T- Touch (when they need/want your touch, what will they do? how often?)

Always,will feel his heart hurt if he does not at least have you around.He is not one for PDA but his arm is for sure on your back,guiding you if you two are walking.

In private he is all over you,its like he is touch starved,will literally beg for attention.

U - Up ( waking up with them)

He is always there when you wake up,morning kisses are a must with him and long hugs until you finally get in the shower.

He will have you some warm coffe by the time you are out of the shower and will wait for you to dress up.

V - Vacation (where they travel with you)

Rome.He wants to take you there and show you everything,while telling you stories about those place.

The trip will be romantic as hell,he will as well take you out every night to the most expensives and fancy restaurants over there.

He loves spending so much time with you far from the castle,just the two of you without vampires Kings getting on his nerves .

W - Wedding (how they propose/where you get married/honeymoon)

Honestly he does not like too much the idea of marrying.

He is very old and mates bond are something more stronger than marrying someone,so there isnt almost any chances of having a wedding with him.

If you do,he will tell you he considered you his spouse long ago and found amusing that you didnt know it.

X - X-factor (what about you captivated them?)

How small you are in comparison to him.He knows everyone is smaller than him but never thought much about it.

But just the fact when you two interlaced your fingers and how small and tiny your hand feels,is something that really get him on his feelings.

Y - Yawning (how they act when they’re tired)

He will literally pout,his eyes are looking at you intensely waiting for you to understand he wants your hugs and he wants them now.

His head will be up yours,your hands are tracing soft patterns on his back as you leave kisses on his chest.

Z - Zzzz (how you fall asleep together)

He loves having you in his arms while you sleep,hearing your heart beat and your soft snoring ,his head is probably resting on your chest because of this,his big arms wrapped around your body as he just wait until the sun came up.

If you talk or mumble something while dreaming he will find it the cutest shit ever.

[cycat-carisi]

Lonesome Superhero

Pairing: Gator Tillman x f!reader (not romantic)

Summary: Gator keeps hitting on you and you finally give him a piece of your mind. He's not the sweet boy you once knew anymore - or if he is, it's far too difficult to see.

Tags: No spoilers! Angst. Post episode 1 and 2.

Warnings: language, misogynistic themes from the show

Length: ~1.3k

A/N: This just popped into my head and I needed to get it out. Gator is despicable and unless he has some major character growth, I can't bring myself to romanticize him. I do think his character is super intriguing though. I hope we get to dive deeper into what makes him tick throughout the season. (:

(Plus, I have a theory that Gator may have unintentionally been a witness to his mother's murder as a boy...)

Fic below the cut or on AO3 here

It's in the way the frosted glass door harshly swings open that immediately lets you know who is behind it. There could only be one person who felt entitled enough to barge into a retirement home like he owned the place.

You swallow thickly. Not again.

Turning around from your medicine cart, you find him standing there in his camouflage cargo pants and a black t-shirt that is two sizes too tight. His hands perch on his hips as his narrowed eyes and cocky smirk aim in your direction.

"Gator, please. Not today," you speak coldly.

His smirk only grows. "Oh, c'mon, babycakes, you don’t know what you're missin'!"

"Gator!" you scold, trying to hush your voice in front of your patients. "Come with me, please." Anger bubbles up inside of you as Gator's face contorts into a triumphant grin. He saunters forward as you lead him toward the back entrance of the small facility.

In the shadow of the building, the fall air nips at your bare arms. The chill, however, is easily quelled by your boiling blood.

"How dare you come to my place of work!" You waste no time laying into the Tillman son.

Your ferocity catches Gator off-guard, causing panic to dart across his features. He takes a half-step back, pulling his head and neck along with it.

Oh, but you’re far from done with him.

"For weeks now, you've been popping up wherever I go, asking me to go out with you in the most degrading ways possible! Every. Single. Time. I have turned you down, yet you clearly cannot take ‘no’ for an answer! And now you have the audacity to show up at where I work and do the same? No! It doesn’t work like that, Gator. I worked hard for my career. I went to college, got my license, and came back here to help my community. I am respected in this building, and I will not tolerate you waltzing in here like God's gift to women and disrespecting me in front of my patients!"

Out of breath and seething, you continue to stare Gator down. He looks downright gobsmacked – a mixture of a wounded pup about to run and a cornered hound ready to bite.

The silence is deafening. You wait for Gator to snap back like he always does – some moronic comeback that's as pathetic as his barbed wire LOL tattoo.

And predictably, he does just that. "What the hell?!!" he cries out, stepping towards you and invading your space. The pungent odor from his last puff of vape wafts off his breath. "I'm the law in this town! I'm a winner! All you ever do is humiliate me! You're fucking awful!"

"I'm awful?!" you scoff, eyebrows shooting skyward. You're about to rip him a new one when you simply stop and shake your head in pity. "What happened to you, Gator?"

Once again, the Tillman son is rendered speechless. His dark brow pinches together in confusion. "Wha-?"

You seize your opportunity to dive a little deeper. "I mean, what happened to the Gator from middle school? The one who used to be my friend? The boy who was sweet and kind and would spend lunch hours reading comic books with me. It's like you suddenly woke up one day and decided to become an asshole, always acting out in class and purposely bullying other kids. Doing reckless shit because your dad could get you out of trouble. And now? I think you've gotten worse! Hell, Mrs. Lakeland told me that you all but pushed Gladys Baker out of the way at the corner store the other day. What the heck is wrong with you? Who do you think you are?"

"I - I -" he stammers, head spinning. Then Gator swallows, puffing up his chest. "I take what's mine! I take what I'm owed. I made it through police training. People in this town owe me their respect, so I take it as I see fit."

"Newsflash! That's not how you get respect, sunshine," you retort. "Respect is earned, and from where I'm standing, all I see is a pathetic man-child whose daddy got him where he is today. 'My father is the sheriff' are the magic words that force people to step out of your way. That's not respect; that's notoriety from being a grade-A asshole!"

Gator's face twists into a snarl while his fists clench and unclench at his sides. You've clearly hit a nerve.

Even though you’d love nothing more than to lay into him some more, you remind yourself that it’s notworth the fight. Instead, your chest constricts with disappointment. "I don’t get it, Gator,” you speak softly. “Why do you let your father run your life? He says to jump and you ask how high. When are you gonna wake up and realize that he's just using you?"

If it wasn’t clear that you’d struck a nerve before, it certainly is now. Gator’s combat boot strikes the gravel, sending up a cloud of dust and dirt, and his cheeks glaze over with a deep red flush. "I don’t – He doesn’t –" Lost for words, Gator simply clamps his jaw shut. He kicks at the ground again and throws his hands to his hair, letting out a frustrated yell.

You hop back in surprise; a fearful gasp escapes you at his sudden outburst.

Gator's head whips back up, and those dark eyes meet yours.

Middle school was a long time ago, yet Gator remembers everything. He remembers how nice you were to him; how one day you saw this quiet boy sitting alone at lunch with a comic book and decided to come over and ask what he was reading. He used to dream of being as invincible as the superheroes in his books – Gator's way of shielding himself from everything that he'd seen. But then you came along and somehow made him feel a little less alone. He adored you and your friendship, eventually developing a little crush. That was, of course, before Gator was taught that girls weren't supposed to like comics, that men lead while women follow, and that his father's word was absolute. If he pleased his father, any situation could go Gator's way. The power sought after by characters in his comic books was right at Gator's fingertips; all he had to do was prove to the senior Tillman that he was worthy. Nothing else mattered.

And now? Gator almost had it. He was so close to having his father's approval. He was certain of it! Why couldn't you see that? Why couldn't you see how awesome he had become? He had buried his crush on you away while you were at college, but now that you were back, there was no reason to hide that he wanted you. And there should be no reason why you wouldn't want him either!

Except…your words today hurt. They made Gator feel puny and pathetic. How could you say that he was just his father's pawn?! He was his own man! A tough and strong and important man in this town...right?

You watch as despair briefly flashes across Gator's face before quickly being replaced by aggravation. He grunts again prior to spinning on his heels and stalking off.

No! Gator is his own man, and you were just the type of woman his father had warned him about! His crush is stupid, and so are you...

As Gator storms off, his ears catch your quiet words laced with pity. "Silly me for thinking that the sweet guy who read comics with me would still be in there.”

For the first time since he was a boy, tears stab at Gator's eyes. He scrunches his eyes closed and shakes his head, instead focusing on the sound of gravel crunching under his boots as he slinks away.

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[em-prentiss]

get to know your moots

Thank you to @justwanted2dance for the tag💗

what’s the origin of your blog title? Emily prentiss :3 that's literally it, her name mashed together. Possibly the least creative thing I could've come up with but I was desperate for an ao3 account and couldn't be bothered to think of a new one for tumblr

otp(s) + shipname(s): Aaron Hotchner/Emily Prentiss (hotchniss), Daisy Johnson/Jemma Simmons (skimmons), Steve Rogers/Natasha Romanoff (romanogers), Natasha Romanoff/Maria Hill (blackhill), I feel like I'm missing a lot though

favorite color: Purple and blue :)

favorite game: Hmm, Mario Kart? I very rarely play any type of game

song stuck in your head: I knew it, I know you by gracie abrams

weirdest habit/trait? I don't think these are weird per se - maybe off putting lol - but peeling my lips and breaking down my nails (help idk how to describe it)

hobbies: Reading, writing, crocheting, painting and drawing (though it's been a while since those last two)

if you work, what’s your profession? I don't! I'm a full time student

if you could have any job you wish, what would it be? My inner child begs to be a baker/librarian though I know I've romanticized it beyond belief which would ultimately lead to me being disappointed lol

something you’re good at: Remembering stuff and crafts, I think. I'm good with my hands when I've had enough practice at something :3

something you’re bad at: Dancing, sticking to a routine, controlling my facial expressions

something you love: Cloudy weather and rainy days, hugs!!!, going to cafes with my friends, sweet treats, having a long drive when there's new music to listen to

something you could talk about for hours off the cuff: Oh jeez, my mind is so blank right now. Probably the feeling of nostalgia since I'm constantly drowning in it

something you hate: When people chew loudly or with their mouth open. Also having to repeat myself (this one is technically my fault, I don't like raising my voice, I'm a bit of a mumbler but damnn can you listen??)

something you collect: Mugs

something you forget: Putting food back in the fridge

what’s your love language? Physical touch

favorite movie/show: Shows: agents of shield, haikyuu. Movies: little women 2019, rogue one, princess diaries, the amazing spiderman, tangled

favorite food: cauliflower with bechamel (don't even try judging)

favorite animal: Cats!!!

what were you like as a child? Voracious bookworm, shy on my own but loud with friends (I'm still like this tbh)

favorite subject at school? Biology (up until a levels lmao)

least favorite subject? PHYSICS

what’s your best character trait? Uhh I'm not sure. I'd like to think I'm trustworthy? And pretty hilarious if I do say so myself

what’s your worst character trait? Way too caught up in others' opinion of me and never sure of myself, I'm also unfortunately quite lazy

if you could change any detail of your day right now what would it be? It's actually been such a good day today, so not much! Possibly getting to see my best friend because it's been a while

if you could travel in time who would you like to meet? My grandad (mother's dad), I think he would have loved me tbh

recommend one of your favorite fanfics:

-wrapped around your finger by @ssaemilyhotchner

-i hear her voice in the morning hour by @leavemurph

-reckless (just enough) by @eyesontheskyline

-someone to watch me die. by @criminalmindsgonewrong

tags if you feel so inclined! @leavemurph @twosignificantfigures @ssaprincess @duchessas @roseekara

[moondustinfj]

MBTI AND ENNEAGRAM ANALYSIS OF INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE CHARACTERS

Part 1

Louis de Pointe du Lac

Mbti

Introverted Intuitive Feeling Perceiving

Infps are highly idealistic, sensitive and driven by their values

Especially because their leading function Fi (introverted feeling) allows them to be in tune with their emotions. Very much so that they are driven by their inner compass. They have a clear sense of right and wrong and it's not likely or easy for them to change their mind about something, especially moral issues

Armand: I would have made this woman a vampire. But I thought it best you have a hand in it. Otherwise you would not give Claudia up. You must know you wanted it

Louis: I loathe what I did!

Armand: Then loathe me, not yourself

Louis: No, you don't understand. You nearly destroyed the thing you value in me when this happened. I resisted you with all my power even when I didn't know it was your force which was working on me. Something nearly died in me! Passion nearly died in me! I was all but destroyed when Madeline was created!

Armand: But that thing is no longer dead, that passion, that humanity, whatever you wish to name it. If it were not alive there wouldn't be tears in your eyes right now. There wouldn't be rage in your voice

Infps are very emphatatic and sensitive. They want to make the world a better place and they try hard to help others

"But why, with this passion and this sense of justice, do you wish to call yourself the child of Satan!" - Armand

Louis: I'm incapable of your detachment. I know what it is, and I do not possess it and I doubt that I ever will. I accept this

Armand: I understand. I saw you in the theatre, your suffering, your sympathy with that girl. I saw your sympathy for Dennis when I offered him to you; you die when you kill

They are introspective and they desire to find their meaning in life

"It's a terrible feeling, not knowing, not understanding, not being in control of your own destiny" - Louis

"I would have to know from what... from what it comes. Whether it came from other vampires...or elsewhere" - Louis

They focus on the big picture and are very intuitive

"No need to tell him what to observe, or what to remember. He always knew such things. Years ago, when I'd done the dark magic on him, I hadn't had to tell him anything; he had savored the smallest aspects of it all on his own. Then later he said I'd failed to guide him. Didn't he know how unnecessary that had always been?" -Lestat

With their strive for authenticity and their sensitivity, they look for ways to express themselves through art and stories

Enneagram

Basic fear: that they have no meaning or significance

Basic desire: to have their own identity and purpose, their meaning

Type fours are sensitive, self aware and reserved. They are also prone to be moody and self conscious. They can suffer from self pity and melancholy

Type fours see themselves as fundamentally different from other people. More than any other type, they are acutely aware of their weaknesses and defiances. They see themselves as uniquely disadvantaged or flawed

And because they see themselves as so different, they feel like nobody can see their true selves and therefore no one can love them for who they really are

"For the first time in my life, I was seen"

They might romanticize pain and bittersweet feelings

"I think to be this happy is to be miserable, to feel this much satisfaction is to burn"

Type fours often feel like there is something missing in them that others possess. This thing can't be properly identified but they feel like there is a hole in them that can not be filled

"If I ever thought we have souls, mine is gone forever"

So they feel like with this thing missing, everyone but them can fully understand who they are and their meaning

Type fours struggle to let go of their feelings from the past. They nurse their old wounds and hold onto their feelings about people who hurt them

4w5 (four wing five): The Bohemian

This subtype is combined with type five. So they're more reserved than the usual type four. But they're also more observant and speculative

"Louis, the watcher, the patient one, was there on account of love pure and simple"

Overall, infps and type fours are generally sensitive, creative, melancholic, empathatic, understanding, authentic, emotionally expressive and introspective people

"Louis, whose green eyes are soulful, the very mirror of patient misery, soft voiced, very human, weak; having lived only two hundred years, unable to read minds, or to levitate, or to spellbind others except inadvertently, which can be hilarious, an immortal with whom mortals fall in love" -Armand

" And it occured to me. If Louis does end his life, if he does bring his supernatural journey to conclusion, how will I ever answer for it to Lestat or Armand? It was the love of Louis which had at times crippled Lestat, and enslaved Armand" - David

"The first thing I'd ever noticed about him-well, after his green eyes that is- was his black hair. No, all that's a lie. It was his expression; the passion and the innocence and the delicacy of conscience. I just loved it!" - Lestat

"If I knew a mortal of that sensitivity, that pain, that focus, I would make him a vampire in an instant. But such can rarely be done. No, I've had to wait and watch for you. And now I'll fight for you. Do you see how ruthless I am in love?" - Armand

"Louis, my handsome Louis, in his dark wool and old fashioned high-collared linen, gazing down on us with a look of thinly veiled amusement, but with a secret in his hypnotic green eyes" - Lestat

[greenerteacups]

Have you watched Fleabag? If so- your thoughts?

Love it love it love it. The writing is phenomenal the acting is phenomenal and the first season especially has the electric energy of a creative doing her first major project and utterly firing on all cylinders. The characters are fantastic and I enjoyed every episode thoroughly. I'm picky about writing on television and the acting sold it completely even though it's a tragicomedy and toggles between moods very quick, I never struggled to understand what Fleabag's headspace was in a given scene. The Hot Priest is, of course, a wonderful character, and their relationship is deliciously interesting. I wish that fan content treated him more like the morally gray character he is on the show — the "kneel" scene is romanticized as a kink thing, which, IMO, it is absolutely NOT and it's actually one of the most funbad exchanges they have! it's about him using her confession of grief in order to indulge in his own vices of power and desire! It's the culmination of the Priest acting irresponsibly throughout the season as he leads her on, almost always under the assumption that he's eventually going to leave her, until he assumes a literal role as the voice OF God and immediately incites physical intimacy with her! It tells us so much about his relationship with sex (as does his brother's backstory in S2E1 and the fox motif). AND it's hot as fuck. All things can be true at once.

If I were going to nitpick — which is what I always do, when I love something and think it's the best — I would say the tonal shift between seasons makes me think it would have worked better as two different shows. I get the idea that the first one is about sitting with grief and trauma and not being the Perfect Healthy Survivor all the time, and the second is about the non-linear grieving process as we seek connections with new people, but the disjoint between the actual story of the first one and the story of the second one made me squint a little, like maybe we were missing some episodes in between the seasons. Claire and Fleabag end on an apocalyptically cruel fight where Claire throws Fleabag's trauma in her face and betrays her for her dirtbag husband, only for Fleabag to eagerly help and care for her through her miscarriage in the opening scene of S2E1. Is that an unrealistic depiction of a very complicated sibling relationship? No! But it shows how much better Fleabag is doing, mentally, between S2E1 and the finale of S1, that she's willing to put that kind of fight in the past without even bringing it up. Considering how slow and arduous her grieving process was in S1, that sudden leap towards emotional stability is jarring, like hitting a pothole. You can see how we got from A to B, but it doesn't feel smooth.

There's also the problem that Boo doesn't really come up in S2? Which is strange, since S1 is "about" Boo, insofar as it's about anybody except Fleabag? And I didn't want to rehash the beats of S1, but this is the problem of the tonal pivot I mentioned earlier — S1 is much, much darker than S2 is, and so there are certain elements of S1 that no longer seem to fit in S2. But these are bugs on the windscreen of a Ferrari, you know? You wipe 'em off and enjoy the ride.

[eisforeidolon]

Question: So when you were doing Big Sky, between you and the female lead there was a lot of like kind of back and forth on will-they-won't-they get together and then it got cancelled and didn't continue. When you take on your roles, do you consider the physicality and intimacy of the role with the fact that you're married? Is that something you take into account?

Jensen: Uh, good question. I haven't really been, I haven't really had a role or a storyline or something that has really challenged that -

Jared: [fake cough] Soldier Boy.

Jensen: Yeah, I mean - I will say this, my wife gave me really good advice for a couple of scenes with Soldier Boy. And some - not all of them made the final cut, there were more. [Jared laughs and nods] But I was nervous about it and I was talking to her about it and I was like oh man, this is, you know, I don't know what this is gonna be like. And she said this to me, she said, as nervous as you might be for this scene that you have to do today, imagine how much more nervous the person is that you're doing it with. This is a person that has just been hired on to do this one thing, you're gonna keep doing scenes - I'm gonna keep doing scenes, keep working and be on the show. So that really helped me kind of put things in perspective and then I then was able to kind of treat the situation much differently. That being said, I haven't been in like a big kind of like love relationship on screen in - probably since Eric Brady. So it's not something that I've necessarily had to give much thought to this point. But I'm sure if there is a role or a project or a storyline that presents itself in the future, then that's probably a conversation I'd have to have, with her. But the good thing is that she is, too, an actress and has done those kinds of scenes and gets it and understands that it is so choreographed, and so - the intimacy and the romanticism that you see on screen is nothing like that when you're shooting it. Every move, every head tilt while you're kissing, your every hand placement, all of it is so choreographed like a dance or like a fight scene that it kinda takes that emotion out of it a little bit.

Jared: I think - I don't know about Dee, but for Gen, when I have a like [finger quotes] intimate scene, or whatever? She's - I mean, we met when we were in our mid-twenties, she knows I have had exes, I know she has exes, so, like, the kissing on camera stuff? She's like, oh, I know how uncomfortable that is -

Jensen: Yeah.

Jared: She is less comfortable with me having a scene where I'm like, hey I love you so much. So if it's something like that she's like, [angry voice] I don't like that! Like the whole physicality thing, it's like, I know how weird that is, I know that nobody likes it, the crew doesn't like it, the cast is like this is awkward, like Hey Bill, you know Frank, and in your underwear or a sock -

Jensen: Yeah, you're like on a couch making out with someone and literally like four feet away is this [holds microphone stand like a boom mike, staring downward] - We rolling? Yeah, great.

Jared: Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Jensen: So it is not - the intimacy again you see, what you see on camera is not how it feels when you're doing it. So yeah I don't think that there's that worry from our wives necessarily. But that's a good question, yeah.

[lausterdomyamong]

Can we learn a bit more about your hsr sona? What is her relationship with Ratio like? What does she think of Aventurine? (Considering how him and Ratio spend much of the Penacony quest bickering). What is her general view of Ratios trip to Penacony?

This is going to be long, I haven't checked my inbox this past month — sorry for such late answer in advance !

Moving on, I'm glad you asked this question about my sona! There are many things to explore between her character and her relationship with canon characters which I'm not really daring to talk about that much. I have her info in Thai, but since I haven't write anything in english for a while now, this might came out a bit wonky with the wording and all, feel free to ask more after you finished reading it!

I'll call her Lauster while we're talking, so it's easy to read than call her my sona repeatedly– let's go.

My HSR sona + relationship with canon characters.

With Veritas Ratio, the very first time they met — they were classmates at Intelligentsia Guild. She wasn't the sharpest tool in the shed, thus meeting THE Veritas Ratio, making her feel admire as much as she despise to be on the same team with him, or opposite team, in any project. He was just that outstanding, so confident, so bright that she must close her eyes shut. Lauster hates how sharp-witted he is, hates how much he was so right about everything, hates how he never conceal or sugarcoating his words, hates that he constructively helping others. Slowly, that changes, after some times she spent with him, she feels genuinely attracted by said trait she sworn to hate so much.

She liked him first. She fell hard, she never knew how her heart would yearn for his voice, his stern look, his mind which never stuck to the past. She hated him before, but that changes. He was never selfish in her eyes, the egotistical, rude, and overly confident facade was just how people tend to literally perceived him just as that, it's not what he truly is. She didn't learn the hard way, because that was how Veritas always is. Not many people have such a tender and kind goal as his. To cure and help people to be free from their own idiocy, to be able to stand up on their own legs, even without any helping hand.

It was pure admiration that lead her up to this point, you can say that she is a Ratio defender, she literally is lmao. She is the epitome of hsr fandom if media literacy isn't dead — someone who doesn't judge Ratio by his cover and shallowly decided that was his whole character. Lauster has her own ego, one of them is to be someone who knows Ratio oh-so-well. But that kinda killing her too.

It wasn't completely one-sided. They dated at some point. Ratio does like her company, but he does think that she doesn't fit the life of a scholar, she is destructive to herself, too much of a perfectionist to the point that she suffered from her own idealization. He liked how she was a romanticism, it was interesting to explore her psyche as a person — surely noticed that she wouldn't survive a day in harsh reality, she will break, she feels too much, she would crumble from the inside out. You can say it is a opposite attraction, he is grounded to reality, where she is drowned in emotion and her own dream.

There were a lot of good time between tge two. But it was a sad relationship, honestly. She never once feel jealous of her love one's success. She truly is happy for how Ratio is thriving on his path, she was elated to be in his arms, to be lived by him, to see him persue his dream (that isn't to join Genius Society). But what killing their relationship is how her being a self-destructive perfectionist. She tried hard to be good on her works too, but there were too many external factors that keep her from being well, she tried not to a burden to him.

They loved each other, but they weren't meant to be. That realization hits Lauster first, it destroyed her. But Ratio view it differently, which is why he tried to help her, to grow, to be able to stand on her own feet again.

Then, stuff happened– she disappeared one day from Intelligentsia Guild. With thing left unsaid to each other, Ratio is striving to find her across the galaxy again.

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With Aventurine, to be honest, there wasn't so much depth I've been thinking about, they were civil and nice with one another. But one thing that is interesting to be reckon is Lauster actually hates the IPC. Her life on her planet was rough because of them, she hates their reputation, as she grew, she learned enough to acknowledge that IPC as a whole is awful.

But she does know the fact that Aventurine was a slave before, he doesn't have the choice to be engage in their system. He too — was a victim of IPC, she was well aware. So at least, on the first encounter where she met him, she was acting indifferent and being civil. She wasn't harsh or mean, but also not overly nice nor sending pitied eyes. It was a normal amount of kindness as one human shall receive. This is where Aven start to like her as a friend.

The two came around each other and form a beautiful friendship eventually. You can say that she is the only one who doesn't care (and I mean, her gaf is on vacation when she is with Aven) about his antics, even enable him to a lot of length. She doesn't really want him to buy her stuffs as a friendship reward. I can say they were really close friends where they can trauma bonding to a degree lmao.

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The last question is— to be honest, if she's still with Ratio at the time, she may wish him a safe trip only. Despite being someone who lives in the fantasy, she doesn't want to visit Penacony at all. While she was intrigued in the concept of it long time ago, she already mentally living in a dream every day, so she wasn't interested to physically be in one (not really but you get what I mean). Living in a dream was sweet, but she has been like that her whole life, she knew how tiresome it would be sometimes. (Yeah, she is neurodivergent.)

Anyway, thank you for reading such a long post! If you have question, feel free to slide into my ask box !

[the-coven-of-bookish-hoes]

Ancient Geek Review: Love in the Time of Cholera

7/10 Literary Masterpiece

It's no secret to anyone who knows me that I absolutely adore the genre of Magical Realism, especially when it is explored by Latin American authors. I had really only read one book by Garcia Marquez before, and that was One Hundred Years of Solitude. This book really reinforced my opinion about the beautiful style that Marquez writes in.

Without spoiling much, the book follows two main characters that were in love in their youth, with the male lead, Florentino Ariza, waiting around 50 years to be able to try again in courting the love of his life, Fermina Daza. Set sometime in the 1800's in a vague country that is most likely Colombia. I went into this book with the expectation of a wholesome romance between two older people, and instead I found multiple explorations of the grotesque and disgusting nature of love. Garcia Marquez compares the idea of love with many afflictions, including (as the title suggests) the putrid symptoms of cholera.

I love when an author does not shy away from disgusting depictions of life, but I will say that this book contains a lot of gross imagery including: death, violence, blood, disease, s*xual assault, r*pe, grooming, and racist ideals. I will say it is not for everyone, especially people who equate the voice of a character with the voice of an author. As the story progresses, we realize that the main characters are not as wholesome as they seem at first, and I personally stopped rooting for the male lead and instead was entirely focused on the gruesome depictions of life, which is what I believe Garcia Marquez intended. He talks about life in the 1800's as they were, without sugarcoating, and very explicitly addressing about the problems of a time many now romanticize (a time of cholera, a time of backwards thinking and civil war and violence.)

I will say, and it is something I will probably address in the future, when I make my analysis of the next book I'm reading, but Marquez has a very distinct masculine voice in his writing. This happened in One Hundred Years also, but Love in the Time of Cholera is just way more male-centered, and sometimes there are plots that involve violence against women that are described as love, sometimes even from the women themselves. I am still hesitant to interpret this, I think I would need a re-read of the work with annotations to be able to give a clear opinion about the voice of the male characters in the book, and the way that misogyny is prevalent throughout it. This can be due to the setting of the work, but I believe it's deeper than that, and that inherently, violence against women would change in connotation depending on the context of the novel and the author that is writing it.

Overall? The novel explores the meaning of love, whether it is an affliction that gets to us all, just like an impending epidemic, or if is a beautiful condition that improves our lives and makes a poet of us all. It explores themes of the self, identity, society, womanhood, sexuality, and the history that haunts that corner of Latin America. I very much enjoyed this book, and I recommend it to anyone who is willing to challenge themselves and see a different perspective.

[thequietkid-moonie]

The diference between love and obsession

[ YANDERE COMPARISON ] [ AA2153 ] [ Cells at Work! Code Black ]

⚠️ Yandere, I don't support nor try to romanticize this toxic behaivor, is just write it for entretaiment

My little mew mew ~ my little mew mew ~ i love so so so soooo much this guy, this is one of my favorite character in the whole series, between even both versions!!!

Hehe i really need more inspiration for this series <3

Despite the fact that for AA2153 everything has being crushed in a second by the reality of the world he decided that he will not give up, he will give his best for this world and for the people who lives in here

Falling in love wasn't expected but it isn't unwanted, for AA2153 love is a slow process, getting closer step by step as both work to survive, trying to have joy and find pride on what you two do to be able to wake up tomorrow and do your hard work once more

For AA2153 love is a hope but also a burden, its complicated because he lives in a really aggresive world so he would be constantly worried about you, it isn't that he underestimate you, he knows you for a while now, he have fallen in love with who you are, but is just that this world isn't exactly kind and he fears that one day he will simply not been able to see you anymore

Love for AA2153 is a burden because it makes him be constantly worried about you, even if you don't have a dangerous work he still can't not worry, and is also a burden because the simple thought of knowing that his work, as simple as it may seem, it helps you, it makes him want to wark harder and harder (even if he has to overwork himself) but at the same time contributes on making this life at least a little more bearable

Love gives AA2153 hope, it makes him hope that tomorrow will be better, even if it never happens and it feels like the world itself one of these days will simply colapse it still gives him hope, it motivate him to keep doing his job, even if you barely see each other during the day, barely having the opportunity to say a small hello thats enough because he knows you are still here

Maybe this love will lead him to nowhere, the posibility of this world colapsing before he even gather the courage to voice off his feelings is there, torturing him in the back of his mind, or maybe you even won't correspond this feelings but, even if thats the case and it would hurt him, at the end it will be fine, because this love make him feel like that, despite working in such cruel world it is still a live worthy of living, if he wasn't born he wouldn't be able to meet someone so amazing and wouldn't be able to contribute and work in this world, to share the burden with his co workers, with his friends, to help make this world a little less horrible

Love makes AA2153 happy, makes him feel motivated, makes him work harder but at the same time makes him feel alive, make him feel worthy of living because he can still find happiness, he finds reasons to keep working hard and even smiling

AA2153 has being lied, he has been told a cruel lie about this world before been forced to face the world, to adapt to the truth in just a moment and already start to do his job, is the only thing left for him and the only thing he can do after all

AA2153 was too busy to even think about the growing feelings inside of him, he was trying to get used to the rythm of the work as quick as posible that he didn't noticed how he started to follow you around, how he started to do what you asked and how you became everything in his mind

AA2153 obsesive love started by admiration, either because you had more experience or because you were better at the job, no matter who you were his mind found a way to put you above him, to make him think like you were better, like you were a good guidence, like if you were the only thing right in this world

The world you two live in is messed up, something as simple as living it hurts, is a pain, he needed something that he could relay on for the sake his own mental state, and that thing happened to be you, AA2153's obsesive love lead him to idealize you, to feel like you were the only ray of light in this world, the only thing that would be able to make this live worthy of living

AA2153's obsesive love blind him and make him feel like you are the one who works harder out there, someone who could do nothing wrong because this world is just messed up, anything you do is justified, he needed any kind of salvation and your kindness was exactly what he needed, even if you just pity him he accepted it, at this point he just thinks too high of you to realice how messed up his imagine of you is

AA2153's obsesive love blind him to the point that he doesn't even realice his feelings, the only thing that is in his mind and the only reason why he keeps working so hard is you but for him is completely normal, after all you are his ray of hope, the one that guide him and the one that makes his life tolerable, but is that same ignorance of his own feelings what makes him not so annoying

AA2153's obsesive is quite settle down, it can be easily overlooked until something happened to you, the bare posibility of something bad happening to you, the posibility of you leaving him all alone in this world make him lose himself, he won't be able to live without you! you are the only thing right in this world! he can't lose you! he can't let you let this world nor someone take you away from him, he tries to be reasonable to some extent but if he is pushed enough he will get violent, for once he will be more assertive and use what he have learned from this world to his favor, even if he has to end up with someone's life it won't matter, death isn't something strange in this world

[adistiany]

STUDIO CABANA: THE TWO SIDES OF LOVE

When we are in love, we will think it is the best feeling ever. The fuzzy feeling that tickles in the stomach, the warm burning sensation on the face and neck that we cannot control, and the skip of our shoes when we walk towards the person who has our heart in their palms.

That’s what Yukari Maki feels for Yuusuke Kusaka nowadays as she steps the stairs to the school’s rooftop. There, she sees how divine Kusaka is in her eyes; his features that are accentuated by the sun, the soft locks of his raven hair sway with the breeze, and, most importantly, when his eyes dart and lock eyes with her, she swears she catches sight of how his dark irises are glimmering like pearls from this distance.

When Yukari Maki falls in love, she falls hard to the point where she scrapes her knees for falling too hard. On the ground, she’s bleeding and winching in pain, not from the fall but from the realization that her heart will never beat in rhyme and sync with his, for his heart is clutched by another woman. This is a story of an unrequited love….

Studio Cabana is an on-going shoujo manga series written and illustrated by Uma Agri. The series was first released on 24 March 2021 and has been serialized in Pixiv Sylph magazine, published by ASCII Media Work. As for now, the manga has six volumes published in Japan, and sadly, the series has not been licensed in English yet.

The story of Studio Cabana begins with a diligent high school girl named Yukari Maki who keeps scolding Yuusuke Kusaka, the rumored delinquent classmate, for skipping class and school duties. One day, she uncovers that he is a member of a band when she follows him into a music studio called Studio Cabana, and she also discovers that Kusaka writes and sings a love song with such a lovely, melancholic singing voice. From that day on, she is enthralled right away by his presence, voice, and heart.

This manga doesn’t deserve my 3.5 stars rating because I still can’t get over the story and characters in it. I believe I have to change it to a higher number like 4 to 4.5 stars. Oh, but I digress. Studio Cabana is a shoujo manga that hits the nail on the head for me; something I’d been craving but didn’t know what it is before. It’s full of drama and pretty complex for a shoujo. Also, it’s a slow burn romance with a focus on the characters relationship and its development.

Studio Cabana does a great job of blending typical shoujo elements with dark and mature tones. We have soft and funny interactions between the protagonist and the male lead, and on the other side, we see the complicated love affair between the male lead and another woman. It’s like, one is a dynamic of sincerity and welcomeness, and the other is poisonous and destructive. One is showing the beauty of the world; the other is isolating the person from the world. One is pure love, and another is toxic love. To see two different sides of love in a love triangle is not something that I expected in a manga.

To shoujo demographics, love is sacred, love is everything that brings good and happiness. When a manga presents that love can’t be all sunshine and rainbows, and love isn’t shown in a perfect or idealized way, that shatters the concept of love in shoujo, in my opinion. It's not every day to see the portrayal of love realistically. In the real world, love can make people greedy, blind, and dependent on it. It’s such an interesting topic because love, as an abstract feeling, can be a very complex concept for humans. This manga addresses a deep subject that can be quite handful to write, but I’m glad the mangaka does it well.

As Nicole mentioned on her blog romancemangarecs.com in her review: “…Love isn’t romanticized in Studio Cabana. We see some difficult relationships, manipulative personalities, tons of emotion and struggles among the characters, and of course an unrequited love. The author explores a really important topic about relationships and the difficulty of leaving emotionally abusive partners.” I couldn’t agree more.

Obviously, the intention of the author is not always making it a sad, tragic, angsty love story. We get to see the main characters having their sweet moments together as they’re slowly progressing their friendship. It’s also a story about self-discovery, self-acceptance, and self-improvement. One needs to learn and grow before they can break free from toxic patterns and unhealthy relationship dynamics. One needs to learn and grow before they open themselves up to new possibilities in love and understand the true meaning of it.

All in all, Studio Cabana is a manga that surpasses my expectations. It's a compelling series that keeps me interested and captivated by the plot, themes, and characters. I can’t wait to see more of it, and I’m glad I discovered this manga. At the end of the day, it’s always stories that I didn’t expect to love!

[mermaidsirennikita]

ARC Review: The Nobleman's Guide to Seducing a Scoundrel by KJ Charles

4.25/5. Releases 9/19/2023.

Vibes: boss/employee, an Heir Hunt, a hero whose love language is hypercompetence, soft romanticism with just the right amount of angst.

After inheriting an earldom, Rufus finds himself in a dispute with his uncle--who brings up another snag in Rufus' inheritance, one Luke Doomsday. Rather than fight Luke, Rufus decides to hire him as his secretary and make him his ally. The allyship thing becomes rather complicated, however--not only because Luke is a part of a famous smuggling family, but because Rufus actually super wants to bone him. And Luke might be up to more than Rufus realizes...

KJ Charles is one of those authors with such a strong, distinct voice. That's consistent here, as is the rich setting and sense of subculture inherent in her Doomsday books. I think I might still prefer The Secret Lives of Country Gentlemen, but that's pure taste (and me being in love with Joss Doomsday). This was a more than worthy followup, and the boss/employee romance that everyone who's uncertain about boss/employee romances should read.

Quick Takes:

--Yes yes Rufus is Luke's boss, and this is something they actually talk about (and, in a very consensual and flirty and normal way) fetishize together. But rest assured, the power dynamics are fully acknowledged and confronted. Like, Rufus initially does feel a bit bad about lusting after his secretary, and he does make it very clear that Luke does not have to do anything he doesn't want to do. (Luke is... significantly less concerned.) I appreciated that.

I also appreciated that Luke points out that an official legal title does not necessarily... peak power... make? Which is a theme throughout this book. Yes, Rufus is an earl, but so many people look down on him despite his title because he is an ex-soldier and isn't able to read very easily, among other things. Yes, Luke is this lower-class guy who's risen up to become a secretary (in part because his cousin Joss Doomsday is absolutely railing a local baronet, bless) but the Doomsdays are also quite powerful in the era. Their power may not be "official", but it has a lot of reach that Rufus and his family can't quite grasp. So that does give Luke a bit more leverage in the relationship, and I found that so different from a lot of historicals that worship the title.

--Going back to reading being a struggle for Rufus... I loved how this was approached by the book. I never got the sense that Rufus needed to learn how to read more easily in order to be seen as a valuable person by anyone who mattered. Anyone who got on Rufus about this issue was an asshole. The main reason why he really "needed" to do anything was because he needed to know what he was looking at re: certain documents related to his responsibilities as earl. The problem was practical, versus being connected to Rufus's intellect in any sense; and it wasn't presented as him being this poor little lost boy, either. It wasn't condescending.

It did give Charles a great opportunity to weave in one of the most touching parts of the novel, however. So much of Rufus and Luke's romance is about the little things that they say and do for each other.

--There's a lot of cozy domesticity in this book? Much of it takes place on this estate that Luke and Rufus are trying to whip back into shape, and they spend so much time working together. You really get this lived in sense of their relationship, despite the fact that they haven't been together all that long.

--In a similar sense, this is one of those books where you just kind of feel like love creeps up on the leads in this very normal way. Like, there aren't a lot of BIG ROMANTICALLY CODED EVENTS (though there are a couple). Luke and Rufus falling in love is woven in throughout the story and in their everyday lives. Like, there isn't some big "omg I love him" moment; you just know that they have truly slipped into love together. It's really lovely and really quietly romantic, and I loved that.

The Sex Stuff:

KJ Charles writes sex in a way that is explicit, sexy, and like... often kind of funny? The sex in this one starts fairly early, which is something I appreciated about Country Gentleman and something I appreciated here. Like, they're definitely into each other by the time they start hooking up, but... they also just really want to throw down, you know? I loved that Rufus and Luke falling in love was aided by this sexual relationship between adults. This is very much one of those books where they're like "OH DON'T WORRY, IT'S JUST SEX, WE WON'T FALL IN LOVE!!!" Which I am trash for.

I really had a good time with this one. KJ Charles is just one of those undeniably strong writers, and I have to just give a blanket recommendation for her books.

Thanks to Netgalley and Sourcebooks Casablanca for providing me with a copy of this book. All thoughts and opinions are my own.

[zzencat]

Hii, can I know which Kpop idol my future partner/husband most resembles and I don't even know if it's possible to know from tarot cards, but I would like to know what is the academic status of my future husband? Meaning how educated are they??

🍭🔮🤎, ♑, SS

Thank you 🐭

Sending you lots of blessings and love 💕

hi SS!! i love that kind of question it’s interesting af hahah thanks for sending it in!! it’s pretty long but count it as your morning newspaper or bedtime story:

kpop idols your future partner/husband resembles (personality):

has leadership qualities and spends a lot of time alone

might be gullible or spends a lot of time browsing shopping catalogs (most of the time for retail therapy), falls in the rabbit hole of “oh that looks interesting too…and this one…hmm, do i need that one? i might need it…maybe…oh but this one-“ you get my point hahaha

^ but they have an innocence to it. like naiveness to things like that. they’re incredibly open minded, which pulls me more toward the possibility that they could be a leader of something

this person should remind you of an old friend, a very home-y and comfortable vibe — a person that would do anything and everything for you

like the leaders that engage with fans on their lives and get shy-ish easily

action oriented!! bro is productive af and creative. workaholic too

daddy vibes

this person…works wayyyyyyy too hard. they’re very hard on themselves and never rests. it’s like they have this never ending ambition to chase their dreams and goals, pursue their creative desires—it really sucks bc everyone can see it, how they’re trapping themselves in a cage that only they can get out of. if you tell them to take a break, they’ll look at you with bloodshot eyes (after like what, 2 hours of sleep for 3 days?) and a bright smile and they’ll be like “nah, im not even tired! i still have more to finish!” but in an optimistic voice still. they never wanna see you worry for them, but inevitably, you do. anyone with or without a brain can see how much heart they put into their work. 😔

and there’s a lion on my strength card —> could have prominent leo placements? but also lions are often called “king of the jungle” -> leader/leadership skills. they’re very strong people and don’t give up in the face of adversity. they stay strong in order to protect the team as well

i think they also romanticize the idea of how love is supposed to be so they’re are naive to it. they’ll get their heart broken easily and might get confused or thrown off guard when a conflict arises, and then they’ll try to win back the other person (which, let’s just assume is the toxic one for example). they’ll fall into this abyss of overthinking and feeding themselves negative thoughts — but that also leads us to another thing: they’re very prone to taking criticism to heart.

^^ relating to this point of the ceaseless abyss of ideas, they’re very introspective people. they often reflect on their actions and see what they can improve on. people who criticize them can’t even compare to this person’s own demons, living in the mind rent free. even though these people are extremely thoughtful and considerate of literally EVERYTHING that they do, they are very very veryyyy perfectionistic and negatively affect their self esteem. it’s a terrible cycle, and they might not ever take in a single compliment that they receive seriously, because they’ve been put in a position of too much responsibility, knowing how to decide for everyone else, except for themselves. (leads to lack of knowing your own boundaries and limits)

chances are this person has a younger sibling(s) and they’re the oldest, so maybe they felt a need to protect the people they love (esp in an abusive household)

this person throws themselves in the middle of the crossfire bc they’re like a shield with the mindset “if you’re gonna attack anyone, attack me” 😮‍💨

DOES NOT accept help easily. believes that they can do it themselves and don’t want to burden other people. (this is super frustrating tho)

some examples (male): rapmon from bts (damn i feel so old calling him that…used to call him that back in like 2016 omg), but like rapmon from the old days, not recent years; bang chan (skz), he gave me the most vibes; mark lee (nct) kept appearing in my head randomly when i first started reading your ask but i can totally see it; taeyong (nct. but not all qualities listed above), scoups (svt); hyunjae (the boyz. he’s not the leader but he displays a lot of leadership skills. i’d say a big difference is that he has wayyy better self esteem and is good at setting boundaries for himself and others)

academic status:

pretty unclear. they make a lot of money, but they either have gone to school (small hunch: had a prestigious/wealthy or nonconventional schooling, maybe even homeschooling) for only as much as they needed before leaving to start some kind of business venture before returning to school way LATER on OR they did enough to take over a family business. either way, family is involved in their continuing or discontinuing of school, but they’re apparently wealthy so they have no big worries about your fs’s job. something huge happened and the family was blessed with a sudden influx of money. whatever their education is, they have a lot of money at the moment as backup.

thank you for waiting so patiently!! i hope this clarifies things for ya :)

[masterjedilenawrites]

Dear Master Jedi Lena,

Happy Belated Blog-versary! I know it's long past Valentine's Day, but I was hoping, and only if you have time, may I please be set up on a blind date? I would like to meet a clone, but a gentleman with some compassion would do too.

I'm simple and, unfortunately, socially anxious, awkward, and quiet - I'm more comfortable in the background. I feel emotions intensely, which often leads me to trouble by being overly affectionate, but I'm lucky I'm hard to anger.

I tend to romanticize the world and love learning - mostly about how mechanical things work, and technology that can make life better. I also love propagating cuttings from the plants in malls, baking and enjoying desserts, and listening to music that feels like the colours of sunset and dusk.

I'm also shorter than the average girl, but the best thing about being 5'2” is that whenever I look up to someone taller, and depending on where shadows fall, the sun gives them a halo.

If you're unable, I understand. Thank you so much for your time and your fics. I enjoy reading them very much!

Sincerely,

Io

Sorry to keep you waiting, Io! I'm fresh out of clones at the moment, they all seem to be off on missions right now, but I do have a nice gentleman you may like instead...

Your date is...

✨Cobb Vanth!✨

This is a guy who clings on to those "old fashioned" values of treating a partner right. Calling you ma'am or sir, paying for your meal, insisting on helping you up and down steps, even if there's only one. He'll also ensure you stay well hydrated and protected from the sun; life in the Tatooine dessert is no joke. He finds himself blushing when you point out that the sun gives him a halo from your perspective. He'll think about that comment for weeks.

He's a tad self conscious that his small town may come across as dull to you, but there's also a sort of pride in his voice when you get him talking about it. You can tell he truly cares about all of his people. He does know a secret spot outside of town, a moisture farm with a thriving greenhouse underground. If he gets the sense you are enjoying this date, he'll ask if you want to stop by there on your way back to the space port. He loves the contented gleam in your eyes from looking at all the plants.

Cobb will have definitely fallen just a little bit in love with you. Though he gets annoyed when the townspeople tease him about you, he secretly hopes you'll be willing to come back to visit him and possibly even become his sweetheart. He knows he's just a humble sheriff, but he'd find a way to give you the galaxy if you gave him a chance.

✨

Blind Date with a Star Wars character masterlist

[mizcod]

I suppose it makes sense. Is that passive aggressive intonation or am I just crazy? Sarcastic sure, defense mechanisms in abundance. Self awareness hardly helps to address the root of it all. What is that root? To be a caretaker to two sisters now, a family in need and me, my inability to go without guilt into living my own life unless I am deemed by myself and those I love as doing enough to earn such a thing.

I'm too busy on most days. Busy not being home, lending a hand to sickness and failing health, to scarred hearts held dearly to my own. Or I'm at work, toiling away in an ever present anxiety that this too will lead to nothing. Some of the time, I isolate. To be alone and in peace, myself amongst my things, my little treasures and trinkets, my treats and concoctions, mixed drinks and compassion giving through an unseeing mirror those things that no one else can tend to. What I desire. Is it harsh to need so much recuperation? A burden on a tentative need to socialize, sure.

Why does it hurt when I'm left behind? Both in small and large ways. Cross country relocation or a trip to the shopping mall. A day out and a lifetime a thousand miles away all and both without me. I am the center of no one. Still I want to be someone's favorite. Is that wrong?

I fulfill this disconnected inhabitation with study on human behavior. Does it apply to this body of mine? Can I too be touched with wanting hand? Spoken to with eager voice? Held as if a treasure?

How many questions have I asked a quiet room? All I can do answer my own. Silence doesn't bother me as much as being alone. Yet it is a comfort, some of the time.

I don't think that I will find what I am looking for. I've no map for it. No guide. Why do I still want to sail? Is it the water or sky? Romanticized loneliness aside, it could be the air, of all things, luring me to tide.

Tomorrow I'll wake up early, go and buy myself ingredients to cook a simple meal. I'll tell no one and share it only with me, myself and I. Oh, and a half decent bottle of wine.