#i think it says more about me than anything else but that means i have to examine why i route all of this through ny'arlat :V
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Request: i love love love your writing and was wondering if youâd write a period hurt/comfort with james? i have really bad endometriosis, and iâve never really had someone take it seriously :( fainted earlier so iâm in pain rn and i just know james would be such a sweetheart
cw: modern au, reader who menstruates, very mild/vague description of cramps, male gaslighting/suspicion of female pain (what else is new)
James Potter x fem!reader ⥠895 words
âWill that be all?â The geniality in Jamesâ tone is starting to wane thin. He paces aimlessly around your flat, down the hall and into the bedroom and then back out again, footsteps meandering about the kitchen. âRight, yeah. No, Iâm quite sure sheâll be out all day.âÂ
James shoots you an exasperated look as he comes into the sitting room, and you manage a smile-esque grimace from the couch in return. Your boss is a piece of work, you know.Â
You hold out your hand for the phone. James shakes his head.Â
âNo, she canât come to the phone right now,â he says, sitting beside your curled-up legs. âSheâs resting. Did I mention she fainted a bit ago? Alright, yeah, just checking. Yeah. Yeah, okay. Iâll let her know.âÂ
You grimace again when he puts down the phone. Hanging up without telling the other person to have a lovely day is like Jamesâ equivalent of the middle finger.Â
âSorry,â you say.Â
âWhatâre you sorry for?â James gives your calf a gentle squeeze. âYour boss is rather pushy, isnât he? Shouldnât take so much to use a sick day.â
âI donât think he believes me.â You let your face mush deeply into a throw pillow. Thereâs a light sweat broken out on your brow, but you couldnât be more grateful for the sweltering heating pad held tight over your abdomen. âI couldâve talked to him.âÂ
James makes a face. âYou shouldnât have to deal with someone like that when youâre already poorly.â Â
âWhat did he want you to let me know?âÂ
âOh. Uh.â James seems as though he did not, in fact, plan to let you know, but now that youâve asked he canât avoid it. âHe said that he expects to see you in tomorrow. Weâll see.âÂ
You sigh. âI might be able to manage tomorrow. Or I might be a bit better, at least.âÂ
âWeâll see,â he says again, stooping to mush a kiss into the side of your head. âDonât worry about that yet, sweetheart. How are you feeling now?âÂ
âBetter than when I woke up.âÂ
âYeah?â James asks hopefully. Itâs a low bar, considering that early this morning the pain had been bad enough to cause you to pass out. But if thereâs one thing James can be relied upon for, itâs a positive outlook. âThatâs great, lovie. Is there anything you need?â
You shake your head, breaths shallowing as your cramps worsen. Nausea pinches the back of your throat. Jamesâ face pinches, too, as he sees. He rubs your lower back where the muscles tend to clench.Â
âIs there anything you want?â he asks instead.Â
It almost makes you laugh. Almost, but even thatâs enough to ease the pain slightly.Â
âNo,â you say, breathing out as the worst passes. James continues massaging your back. âThanks.âÂ
âMaybe we could try a walk later, if youâre feeling better,â he says. âSome light exercise might help.âÂ
âMaybe,â you murmur. Truly, the thought of leaving this couch anytime during the next week makes you want to sew yourself into the cushions. James probably knows youâre only humoring him, but he doesnât say anything. When you hug your heating pad closer, he spreads his palm flat over your back to transfer heat there, too.Â
You relax some when the cramp eases the rest of the way. âSorry. I donât mean to take over your whole day.âÂ
âSweetheart, why are you sorry?â James places his free hand over yours on your heating pad. Between that and the one on your back, itâs almost like a hug. âI know you donât want this to happen. And, honestly, Iâd rather have my day taken over by you than anyone else. Donât tell Sirius.âÂ
That coaxes a small smile out of you. James grins, leaning down again to plant a kiss on your cheek.Â
âIâm sorry youâre so miserable.âÂ
âIâm not miserable,â you say. âIâm with you.âÂ
James makes a horrendously fond sound, cuddling you close. âYou flatterer. I donât know where you find the energy to be so sweet during times like this.âÂ
You make it easy, you want to say, but James will only think youâre playing along with him and you want to say it when heâll hear the sincerity you mean it with. Instead, you intertwine your fingers with his and say, âIâve thought of something I want.âÂ
âYeah?â James sits up. He brushes a few strands of hair away from your face, mindless of your clamminess. You think that maybe the only thing bigger than Jamesâ capacity for love is how it feels to be at the center of it. âSome tea, maybe? That tumeric one helped a bit last time, remember?âÂ
âMaybe later,â you say, voice softening. âFor now, could I please have a kiss?âÂ
James blinks once in surprise, but then he grins. âAh, for the endorphins,â he says, already bending down. âGood thinking, angel.âÂ
âRight.â You donât know where he gets these facts. You suspect he scrolls through endometriosis reddit forums while youâre asleep. âYeah.âÂ
James makes it a kiss worth asking for. He keeps his hand flat over your back as he leans over you, the other cupping your cheek to encourage your face towards him. And when your lips part, you do feel a bit better. Itâs a magical cure-all, just like the fairytales say.
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Merely learning that there really are alternate realities is incredible; having the chance to explore one is even more so. Being invited by another version of myself to go to a multiversal conference of alternate versions of me? Now thatâs just too weird and fascinating to pass up. Even the simple fact that they somehow tracked me down and sent me an email from another universe has staggering implications.
The invitation came with a countdown timer, and instructions for building a teleportation beacon. It wasnât easy to build it in time; I hadnât so much as soldered a circuit together in over a decade. This project was far more advanced than anything I had ever attempted even before I got out of practice with electronics. Still, I found the instructions were incredibly intuitive, lending credibility to the claim that I was being invited by myself.
The morning of the conference, I wake up a bit sleep deprived, but ready to go: I finished the beacon the night before. I strap on my backpack and wait for the countdown to finish.
As the countdown reaches zero, I activate the beacon. Seconds tick by as I start to wonder, did I actually build it right? Is this all just a prank? Did I misunderstand what I was reading?
And about that time is when reality turned inside out.
Next thing I know, Iâm lying on the floor and hear a voice, both like my own and not. âHang on, is that a mammal?â
Sitting up, I look around what appears to be a room in an office building, and a dozen compound eyes meet my gaze. âSomething with an endoskeleton at any rateâ another voice says, coming from one of the many beetle-like people staring back at me. One of them approaches, and reaches out a hand of sorts. âAre you okay?â
âI think so, just a bit dizzy.â Taking the hand of the beetle-person in front of me, who is dressed in something that looks for all the world like a polo and slacks, I get to my feet. The hand is softer than you would expect for someone with an exoskeleton. âSo youâre sure Iâm one of you guys? Because seriously, this is-â
âReally weird, I know. But youâre from Earth, the same as the rest of us, just one where evolution took a different path.â The beetle-person steps back, looking me up and down now that Iâm standing at my full height. Iâm about a head taller than anyone else in the room. âA really different path.â
âBut how can we really be different versions of the same person? I mean, no offense, butâŚâ I gesture vaguely towards myself.
âFrankly, the fact that any of us could be âalternate versionsâ of the same person by random chance is unbelievable. The fact that our worlds have diverged so wildly, and yet converged again independently to form our ancestors and families, to say nothing of cultures and societies that are recognizable across timelines, is statistically so improbable that it shouldnât have happened even once. Yet it apparently happens all the time. Actually, part of the point of this conference is to try to figure out why.â
Another beetle-person perks up: âYou donât happen to be a paleontologist, are you?â
âNo, but I know the broad strokes. I imagine you have a few questio-â is about as far as I get before I break into a coughing fit.
Taking a moment to recover, I now know what it looks like when beetlefolk are worried. âAre you sure youâre okay?â says the one who helped me up.
The comment about paleontology gets me thinking. âThe largest insect to ever live on my Earth died out millions of years ago. Some say it could only get that large because there was a lot more oxygen in the atmosphere back then.â
âHow big was it?â
âSmaller than all of you.â
I try to focus on how I feel. My throat is tight and scratchy, and itâs getting harder to breathe. I hear the voices of my alternate beetle-selves around me, talking through the implications.
âMy Earth has plenty of mammals, it should be fine, right?â
âYeah, but they didnât evolve in a low-oxygen environment. That one did. What happens when a mammal gets too much oxygen?â
âI donât know, but itâs probably not good.â
After a momentâs pause, the one that helped me up quickly backs away from me. âSend it back! Send it back now!â
imagine if you teleported to a big multiversal hub of every version of you from every parallel universe and like 99.99% were just minor variations of some weird beetle alien and it turned out being a human made you one of the zany gimmick versions
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boyfriend!mark x reader
Fluff - 1,209 words
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You pull the "Do you love me?" card on Mark
You glance at the matching keychains, and immediately feel a sense of excitement. Theyâre adorable, and the idea of matching them with Mark makes you smile. With a skip in your step, you turn and look around the store for him.
âMark!â you call out, waving your hand as you spot him near the back, browsing through some jackets.
He looks up at you, a little distracted, before making his way over. âWhatâs up?â he asks, his voice light.
You hold up the keychain set with a big grin. âLook! Arenât they so cute? I thought we could get them. Weâd match!â
Mark glances at the keychains, then back at you, his expression turning slightly uncertain. âUh⌠yeah, I mean, theyâre okay, I guess.â
You raise an eyebrow, not quite ready to let it go. âWhat do you mean? Theyâre adorable! Donât you think theyâd be cute for us?â
He lets out a small laugh, shaking his head. âIâm definitely not matching with you with a keychain like that. I mean, itâs not bad or anything, but itâs just⌠not cute?.â
You sulk dramatically, pushing the keychains back onto the rack with a slight pout. âYouâre being so mean! I thought it would be fun, but you donât even want to match with me. Itâs just a silly keychain, but no, youâre too cool for it.â
Mark watches you for a moment, his lips curling into a small smile. âBabe, Iâm not trying to be mean. Itâs just thatââ He shrugs slightly. âItâs not my style, okay?â
You sigh loudly, crossing your arms. âItâs not fair! I just thought we could have something cute together, but whatever.â You tilt your head dramatically, glancing up at him with a mischievous glint in your eyes. âGuess Iâll just have to find someone else to match with.â
As Mark shakes his head and laughs, clearly not convinced about the keychains, you canât help but put on your most irresistible puppy eyes, leaning slightly forward. âPlease, Mark? Theyâre so cute!â you say, your voice soft and pleading.
Mark looks at you, but his expression is still firm. âI donât know, baby. Theyâre not really my thing,â he says, giving a small shrug. âI just donât think theyâre that cute.â
You pout, not ready to give up just yet. You take a step closer, narrowing the gap between you two. âCome on, baby, please?â you say sweetly, your tone now laced with playful charm. âJust this once? For me?â
He tries to resist, but the sight of you so close to him, eyes wide and sparkling, clearly has an effect. You can see his resolve weakening, but heâs still holding his ground.
Not giving up, you shift tactics.
You take a deep breath and step closer to him, making sure to make your movements slow and deliberate. Your eyes lock onto his, and you flash him your most irresistible, pouty expression, the one you know drives him wild.
You huff softly, intertwining your hands with his gently. You inch closer, tilting your head ever so slightly as if you were genuinely heartbroken.
âMark, Do you love me ?âyou ask in the most innocent, sweet voice, eyes wide, as if the question is nothing more than a simple curiosity.
Mark freezes, blinking a few times as his eyes widen in disbelief. âWait, youâre really pulling that card on me? You know I doâŚâ he mutters, the words barely escaping his lips.
You innocently tilt your head, your lips curling into a small, teasing smile. âWhat card?â you ask, pretending to be clueless, your voice dripping with sweetness. âIâm just asking if you love your girlfriend.â
His heart starts racing a little, and you can see him fighting to keep his composure. The way youâre looking at him, the way youâre holding his hands, itâs hard for him to focus on anything else.
You take a step closer, letting your fingers graze against his chest lightly as you smile up at him, all charm and sweetness. âWell, if you love me,â you say, your voice dripping with affection and teasing, âyouâd get them for me, wouldnât you?â
Mark lets out a deep sigh, clearly trying to resist, but the way youâre looking at him is just too much. His lips part as if heâs going to say something, but the words just donât come out. The puppy eyes are his kryptonite, and you know it.
âGod, youâre impossible,â he finally mutters under his breath, his resolve completely shattered.
As Mark groans in defeat, he grabs the keychains from the shelf, still trying to act like heâs not completely charmed. âFine, letâs get them,â he mutters, shaking his head as if heâs been completely overtaken. You can practically hear the smile in his voice despite his resistance.
You smile triumphantly, your eyes sparkling as you lean up to plant a soft kiss on his cheek. âThank you, baby! I knew youâd come around.â
,you grab his hand and practically drag him toward the counter, your energy matching the happiness bubbling inside you.
He just shakes his head again, but the soft smile on his face tells you that, despite the teasing, heâs happy to have made you so happy.
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Definitely NOT Invincible (Yandere Invincible & Reader)
Pt.5
Guys, I'm cooked. Anyways, thank you for all the kind words!!! Also Y/n's cooked too...anyways! Enjoy!
ALSO!! EVERYONE THANK @oof-spoof!! THIS SERIES IS NOW BASICALLY DEDICATED TO THEM!!! Thank you @oof-spoof for supporting me!
The group fell into a heavy silence, the weight of your words sinking in as if the world itself had pressed down on your shoulders. It wasnât just about stopping Omni-Man and Invincible or sending that crucial tip to the Guardians of the Globeâit was about surviving long enough to make any of it matter.
The irrefutable fact lingered in the back of everyoneâs mind, unspoken but looming: you might be killed again.
Your stomach churned at the thought, the memory of your fatherâs hand crushing your skull replaying in vivid, excruciating detail. The sound, the pressure, the blinding painâit haunted you in ways you couldnât even articulate. And if not that, then what? Would it be a more horrific death this time? Burned alive? Torn apart?
You looked around the table, the same realization written on the faces of your friends. Hallie was biting her lip, staring blankly at the table as her fingers drummed nervously. Connorâs jaw was clenched, his fists curled tightly on his lap. Weston was silent, his expression unreadable, but his tired eyes betrayed him.
Finally, Weston broke the silence. âIâll figure out how to send the tip,â he said, his voice quiet but resolute. His gaze shifted between each of you before landing back on his hands. âYou guys focus on keeping our⌠other obligation in check.â
Shit. Youâd completely forgotten about the Demogorgons. Those damn things hadnât been on your radar for the past few days, but they were still out there, roaming the town, lurking in shadows, waiting for the perfect moment to strike.
Judging by the groans and sighs from Connor and Hallie, theyâd forgotten too.
âEveryone still has their things, right?â you asked, already mentally cataloging what you had at home.
Hallie sat up straighter, brushing her hair out of her face. âGot my pump action and bolt action in my trunk and in my closet,â she said, her voice steadier than her posture.
Connor leaned back, rubbing his temples. âGot ammo and a G-48, Haymitch's axe, and the machete,â he listed off, his tone bordering on exhaustion.
âI still have the smoke bombs and my dadâs rifle he thinks he sold,â Weston added, his voice low but firm.
You nodded, storing the information away. âGood. Weâll need all that and more.â
The silence that followed was thick with understanding. Youâd fought these monsters before. Youâd survived the impossible. But this time, it wasnât just about survival. It was about holding the line, balancing the dual threats of the Demogorgons and the looming Viltrumite takeover.
"I say we prepare for the worst," you finally say, your voice cutting through the silence. "Stock up on ammo when you can, supplies, canned food, and whatever else weâll need. We have to be ready in case everything goes to shit again, in case⌠in case what we do doesnât workâ"
âDonât.â Connorâs voice cuts you off, sharp and sudden. âDonât say that, (Y/n).â
You flinch at the rawness in his voice, the sheer force of his words.
âConnorââ you start, but he barrels forward, his frustration spilling over like a dam breaking.
âIt has to work!â he says, his voice trembling. âIt has to, or elseââ He looks away, jaw tight, his hands clenching into fists. âOr else that means we fought for nothing. That means all those people who diedâwho are going to dieâdied for nothing. That means we came back for nothing.â
His words hang in the air, raw and painful. You feel them hit you like a punch to the gut.
Your lips press together tightly as you try to find somethingâanythingâto say. Connor was always the "strong" one of the group, the silent type, the brash one who rarely let anyone see how deeply he felt things. He was the backbone, the shoulder everyone else could lean on when things got tough. Seeing him like this, unraveling, hurts more than you want to admit.
âIâmâIâm sorry, Connor,â you finally manage, your voice barely above a whisper.
âNo, Iâm sorry,â he mutters, his eyes watery as he scrubs at his face with the back of his hand. His voice cracks slightly as he continues, âYouâyouâre just doing what you always do, trying to keep us alive. Iâm sorry.â
âPlease donât apologize, Con,â you say quickly, leaning forward slightly, trying to catch his gaze. âIâI get it. Really, I do.â
The tension around the table is palpable. Hallie and Weston exchange uneasy glances, their worry for Connor evident in the grim lines of their faces.
âConnor,â Hallie starts gently, her voice low and careful, ânobodyâs saying what happened before will happen again, butââ
âI know,â he cuts her off, his voice quieter now, almost resigned. He lets out a shaky breath and sinks back in his seat, rubbing a hand over his face. âI know. But we have to consider the high chance it will.â
The stakes couldnât be higher, and the thought of failingâof going through all of it againâwas unbearable.
But you didnât have a choice.
You glanced at each of them in turn, taking in their tired faces, the fear lingering in their eyes. They were your family, your only anchor in a world that felt increasingly impossible to navigate.
âWeâll make it work,â you say softly, your voice steady despite the storm inside you. âI donât know how yet, but we will.â
You donât know if they believe you, and honestly, youâre not even sure if you believe yourself.Â
Westonâs hand comes to rest on Connorâs shoulder, rubbing little circles in that gentle, soothing way he always did to calm the group down. It was such a Weston thing to doâhe had always been physical with his care and affection, expressing his love in small touches and gestures that reminded you all you werenât alone. You see Connorâs shoulders relax just slightly under Westonâs touch, though the tension doesnât completely leave him.
You shift closer, moving to sit beside Connor, offering your silent presence as support. Across the table, Hallie slides her water bottle toward him, her brow furrowed in worry. âHere,â she says softly. Her voice doesnât waver, but her eyes betray the depth of her concern. Connor takes the bottle with a small, muttered âthanks,â and sips from it, his gaze distant.
The weight of the moment settles over all of you, thick and suffocating. No one says anything for a while, and for a brief moment, the only sound is the distant hum of chatter from other tables in the courtyard.
Then the lunch bell rings, cutting through the stillness like a knife, signaling itâs time to go back to class. The sound sends a jolt through you, and you see the same dread reflected in everyoneâs faces. None of you want to go. Yet, there was nothing you could do.
You all stand reluctantly, gathering your things in silence. Before you split up, you squeeze Connorâs shoulder gently, hoping it conveys what you canât find the words to say. He offers a faint smile.
You walk into the crowded hallway, your mind scrambling as you try to recall your next class. What was it? You swear you knew just minutes ago, but now the information is gone, like a wisp of smoke slipping through your fingers.
You glance around desperately, hoping to recognize a familiar face, someone who might share the class with you. But the sea of students around you is a blur of faces you barely recognize. Who the hell are these people? You donât remember their names, their voices, their stories. Theyâre strangers, even though you know you should know them.
Panic creeps up your spine as you weave through the hall, your breathing growing shallow. Youâre losing it. Youâre losing yourself, and thereâs nothing you can do to stop it. The realization claws at you, sharp and unrelenting.
You hate this. You hate what this world, what this second chance, has reduced you to. What itâs reduced all of you to.
Your hands tremble as you tighten your grip on your bag, willing the shaking to stop, but it doesnât. You pass classrooms, peeking inside, hoping something will clickâa desk, a teacher, a face. But nothing does.
The hallways start growing emptier as students file into their classrooms, the bustling energy fading into a deafening quiet. You glance around, the panic tightening in your chest. Where the hell were you supposed to go?
Your mind scrambles, trying to latch onto somethingâanythingâthat will tell you your next class. The answer eludes you, slipping through your fingers like sand. You fumble with your phone, attempting to log into your student portal. At least that would show your schedule, right?
Except the password isnât auto-saved. Of course, it isnât.
You sit there staring at the login screen, willing your brain to remember your credentials, but nothing comes. Itâs just another blank void. Great. Now you canât even see your schedule, let alone your grades. Not that grades should be at the top of your concerns right now, but still, the thought gnaws at the back of your mind. Youâre so screwed.
You lean against a row of lockers, the cold metal biting into your back as you let out a frustrated sigh. What the hell do I do now? Asking the front desk for help is out of the question. Itâs the middle of the school year, and no one forgets their schedule this far in. It would raise questions. And why couldnât you just look it up yourself? The idea of facing that judgment makes you cringe.
No, you canât do that.
Instead, you resign yourself to staying in a random, empty hallway, slumping down against the wall. The quiet envelops you, a brief respite from the overwhelming noise in your head. You close your eyes for a moment, letting the silence settle around you. God, you didnât realize how much your eyes were burning, how much your body ached.
The idea of just staying here, hidden and still, is so tempting. Maybe you could just chill here for a while. Yeah, that sounded nice. Just a little break.
You donât realize how much time passes as you sit there, your mind drifting between the chaos of your thoughts and the exhaustion weighing you down. For a brief moment, you feel the smallest sliver of peace.
Until a voice shatters it.
âPlaying hooky, (Y/n)?â
Your stomach drops. No. Not him. Not now.
Markâs voice carries that unmistakable mix of smugness and sharpness, the tone that always made you want to squirm. âTch, Mom and Dad are not going to be happy. Especially after the last meeting your counselor had about your little habit of skipping classes.â
You open your eyes, and there he is, standing over you with a smirk that makes you want to curl in on yourself. His eyes bore into yours, sharp and calculating, as if heâs dissecting you piece by piece.
âW-what? When didâoh shit,â you stammer, the memory hitting you like a brick. Heâs talking about the meeting. Youâd skipped a bunch of classes last semester to deal with the Demogorgons. Sure, you kept your grades up, but that didnât stop the school from calling your mom. And to say she was upset was an understatement.
Markâs smirk widens as he watches the realization dawn on your face. âAh, there it is,â he says mockingly, leaning against the wall. âIâm sure Mom will love hearing about this. You know how she feels about second chances.â
You glare at him, the panic in your chest now mixed with frustration. âMark, Iâlook, just donât. Please.â
His expression softens, but only slightly. Thereâs still that edge to his voice, that unnerving mix of concern and menace. âDonât what? Tell her? Youâre not making this easy, you know. Skipping class, hiding out like this⌠Itâs like you want her to freak out.â
âI justââ You falter, your words failing you. The exhaustion, the stress, the sheer overwhelming nature of everythingâitâs all too much. You canât think of a good excuse, and Markâs gaze feels like itâs cutting through every lie you might try to tell.
He crouches down, leveling his eyes with yours. âWhatâs going on with you, (Y/n)?â he asks, his voice softer now but no less piercing. âYouâve been off. I know youâre not telling me everything.â
You look away, unable to meet his gaze.
Markâs words linger in the air like a trap, waiting for you to fall in. âAre you depressed or something? Maybe itâs a boy? I donât know, (Y/n), but somethingâs off. I know it is,â he says, his tone dripping with faux concern. âJust tell me. Tell your big brother, and I can make it go away.â
The irony of it all hits you like a freight train, and you canât help itâyou huff, then giggle, and then it all spirals out of control. A laugh bubbles out of you, wild and uncontainable, quickly escalating into full-blown hysterics. Youâre wheezing now, clutching your sides, and you know you must look insane. Maybe you are. How could you not be?
Itâs funny, really. The idea that he, Mark, could fix your problems. That he could âmake it go away.â Itâs laughable because a massive chunk of your problems is sitting right in front of you, watching you unravel with that same calculating smirk. How utterly absurd.
Your laughter devolves into choked breaths as your chest tightens painfully. The tears come next, hot and relentless, spilling down your cheeks. Youâre sobbing now, loud and ugly, your body shaking uncontrollably.
Markâs expression shifts, surprise flickering in his eyes. Then something darker takes holdâsomething intrigued, almost amused. He wasnât expecting this, but oh, was he glad. He leans in closer, his lips curling into a softer smile. There was something seriously wrong with you. He knew it now. And that knowledge only made him more eager to figure out what had happened to his weak, adorable little sister.
âOh, (Y/n),â he coos, his voice deceptively sweet as he cups your cheek with his large, warm hand. His thumb brushes against your tear-streaked skin, wiping away the evidence of your breakdown. His touch is firm but gentle, an unnerving mix of comfort and control.
You try to flinch away, your instincts screaming at you to get out of his grasp, but your body betrays you. Exhausted and overwhelmed, you slump into his hand, your head tilting slightly as if seeking solace. You hate it. You hate yourself for it. But youâre only human, and his warmth feels like the only anchor keeping you from completely spiraling.
âSt-stop this,â you choke out between sobs, your voice barely audible. âPuh-please.â
Mark tilts his head, his expression almost mockingly innocent. âStop what, (Y/n)?â he asks softly, his voice laced with feigned confusion.
âThis,â you gasp, your voice trembling. âThisâwhat youâyouâre doing. Please, itâit isnât fair.â
His hand doesnât move from your cheek, and his thumb continues its slow, deliberate motion, wiping away fresh tears as they fall. His smile softens further, but his eyes remain sharp, predatory.
âFair?â he echoes, as if tasting the word. âOh, (Y/n). Life isnât fair. You know that.â His voice drops lower, almost a whisper. âBut you donât have to worry about that. You donât have to worry about anything. Thatâs what Iâm here for.â
You shake your head weakly, your sobs growing quieter but no less intense. âYouââ
He interrupts you gently, his voice soothing but utterly condescending. âShh. Just let me take care of you.â
The words send a chill down your spine, the weight of his intent pressing down on you. You know thereâs no escaping him now, not when heâs latched onto you like this. Not when heâs decided youâre his problem to solve, his little sister to protectâeven if it means breaking you further in the process.
Markâs gaze lingers on your trembling form, his hand still cradling your cheek. He studies you with a mix of curiosity and calculation, the wheels turning in his mind as he contemplates your place in all of this. Maybe he could make something useful out of you. Maybe you could be shaped into something worthy of the Viltrumite cause.
But as he takes in your tear-streaked face, the way your body shakes beneath his touch, he doubts it. Youâre too weak. Too small. Too soft.
Itâs almost pathetic how fragile you are, how human you are.
Still, the thought lingersâwhat if? What if you could prove yourself? What if, against all odds, you showed even the slightest potential? Perhaps then he could convince their father to keep you after the takeover. It would be difficult, of course. Nolan had little patience for weakness, and you were the embodiment of everything the Viltrumite race despised. But if you somehow managed to prove your worth, there was a chance.
Markâs lips curve into a faint smile, the thought of sparing you for his motherâs sake bringing him a strange sense of satisfaction. You werenât ideal offspring, no, far from it. But you were her daughter. Debbie would appreciate having you around, heâs sure of it, especially when their father inevitably takes her away from Earth to shield her from the chaos of their conquest.
âYouâre lucky, you know,â Mark murmurs, his voice low and smooth. His thumb pauses for a moment, pressing lightly against your cheekbone as his eyes bore into yours. âIf it werenât for Mom, I wouldnât even consider giving you a chance. But maybe⌠maybe youâll surprise us.â
You blink at him, your chest tightening as his words sink in. âA-a chance? Mark, what are youââ
He cuts you off, his smile widening slightly, but thereâs no warmth in it. âYouâll see,â he says cryptically, pulling his hand away and standing to his full height. His shadow looms over you, and for a brief moment, you feel like youâre shrinking under his gaze.
âJust remember, (Y/n),â he adds, his tone shifting to something colder, more deliberate. âThis world isnât kind to people like you. But youâre lucky to have me. Iâll make sure you donât get left behind.â
The words feel like a promise and a threat all at once, leaving you frozen in place as he turns and walks away, his presence lingering long after heâs gone.
Youâre left alone in the empty hallway, your breaths shaky and uneven, the weight of his intentions pressing down on you like a vice. Lucky, he said. But you donât feel lucky. You feel trapped. And no amount of tears can wash that feeling away.
You sit there, slumped against the wall, trying to process what the hell Mark was talking about. âIf it werenât for Mom?â What does that even mean? Why would she have anything to do with whether Mark decided to âgive you a chance?â What kind of chance was he even talking about?
Your mind spirals as you try to make sense of his cryptic words, the unease clawing at your insides. The idea that your mother somehow factored into whatever twisted plans Mark had for you only made the knot in your stomach tighten. What was he planning? What did he mean by not getting left behind?
Your thoughts race, one question bleeding into the next as panic wells up inside you. You canât piece it together. You donât have enough information. But the way he looked at youâthe cold calculation behind his eyes, the way his words felt like a threat wrapped in false careâit makes your skin crawl.
You bury your face in your hands, your breathing shallow as your mind loops through the interaction. What the hell is going on?
Meanwhile, Mark is on his way out of the school building, his phone already in hand. He dials the familiar number, his expression cool and composed. The phone rings only twice before the unmistakable voice of his father, Nolan, answers.
âWhat is it?â Omni-Manâs voice is gruff, direct, as always.
Mark leans against the wall outside, his tone calm but tinged with a quiet urgency. âItâs about (Y/n),â he begins, cutting straight to the point. âThereâs something off with her. More than usual.â
On the other end of the line, Nolan sighs. His voice is bored, disinterested. âMark, your sister has always been like this. Emotional and a bit erratic. Itâs nothing new.â
Mark clenches his jaw but keeps his tone steady. âNo, Dad, this is different. Sheâs acting weirdâlike, really weird. Comeâon, Iâm sure youâve noticed how sheâs stopped constantly asking to go out with us? Or how everytime she looks at one of us, her heart rate always increases, hell, I could smell the adrenaline rush that gets triggered.â
Nolanâs silence stretches for a moment. âDad, why is she having a fight or flight, fear response triggered, huh?â
âOf course Iâve noticed, Mark,â Omni-man sighs out. âIf itâs worth worrying about, Iâll handle it. But until then, sheâs justâŚâ He pauses, and Mark can practically see the look on his fatherâs face. âSheâs still a human.â
Mark exhales sharply, but he doesnât argue. He knows better than to push Nolan when heâs like this. âFine,â he says, his voice tight. âBut if I find out something important, Iâll let you know.â
âDo that,â Nolan replies curtly, and the line goes dead.
Mark slips his phone back into his pocket, his expression unreadable. Heâs not entirely satisfied with his fatherâs response, but heâs also not surprised. Nolan has never had much patience for what he considers âmundane human nonsense.â If (Y/n)âs behavior didnât involve anything worthy of the Viltrumite cause, it simply wasnât a priority to him.
Still, Mark canât shake the feeling that thereâs more to this than his father realizes. And if Nolan wonât take it seriously, then Mark will.
#neglected reader#platonic yandere#yandere invincible#yandere omniman#yandere mark grayson#yandere nolan grayson#debbie grayson#mark grayson#nolan grayson#omni man#invincible x reader#invincible
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we're all bound to break. (chapter 3)
alexia putellas masterlist: here requests: here
based on this request: this actually came from my own brain for once lol
word count: 1,049k
summary: your aunt pays you and alexia a visit.
genre: angst/comfort warnings: mean aunt? death of parents, fighting with family members, grief, struggling, possibly very bad spanish (sorry! i try lol).
chapter 1: here chapter 2: here chapter 4: here
Your heart pounded in your chest as you stared down the woman who had dared to show up at the door. TĂa - your aunt. The one whoâd always been more of a stranger than family to you. The one whoâd only ever cared about your parentsâ money and now, it seemed, was here to claim what was left of them.
Alexiaâs eyes flicked nervously between the two of you, her hand hovering near your shoulder as if to stop you from doing something you might regret. You didnât care, though. Your whole body was consumed with the rage that had been building up for weeks now. The anger that had started as a small knot in your stomach, then festered into a full-on storm, and now, standing in front of you, was the person who had the audacity to add fuel to that fire.
âWhat the fuck do you want to take from me now, tĂa?â you repeated, your voice low but cutting.
The woman flinched at your words, but her posture remained stiff and composed. She was used to dealing with people who feared her, who catered to her every whim, but she wasnât expecting this. You could see the shock in her eyes as she straightened up, her hand clutching a small, designer purse. For a moment, she just stood there, staring at you as if you were the one who had overstepped, not her.
âY/NâŚâ Alexiaâs voice was soft, trying to calm the tension in the air, but you couldnât be calmed. Not now. Not when the woman had the nerve to show her face after what had happened.
Your aunt cleared her throat, finally speaking in a voice that was as cold as her expression. âIâm here because I-â
âDonât. Just donât,â you interrupted her, taking a step forward. âI know why youâre here. You want to make sure thereâs nothing left for me, donât you? You want to take whatever my mamĂ and papĂĄ had, whatever scraps are left. Youâre here for the money. What else?â
She looked taken aback by your directness but quickly recovered, her lips curling into something that wasnât quite a smile. âIâm not here for money, Y/N,â she said, her words deliberately slow and measured. âIâm here because you need to make some decisions about what happens next.â
You clenched your fists, nails digging into your palms as you fought to control the burning rage inside you. âWhat decisions? What decisions are you talking about?â you spat, your tone sharp.
Alexia stepped in then, trying to ease the situation before it escalated further. âChica, please. Take a step back. Letâs listen to what she has to say,â she said, her voice calm and reassuring, though her eyes were full of concern.
But you couldnât listen. Not to her. Not to anyone who seemed to think they had a say in your life now that your world had been turned upside down. Your gaze didnât leave your auntâs face as you spoke again, this time more quietly but no less firmly.
âLeave. Right now. I donât want anything from you. You donât get to walk into my life like this, pretending you care after all these years.â
The womanâs eyes narrowed, and you could see the anger beginning to build behind her cold facade. âYouâre going to have to face reality sooner or later, Y/N,â she said, her voice taking on a more threatening edge. âYou donât have anyone else left. You need to start thinking about whatâs next, because you canât live in the past forever.â
You took a deep breath, the words cutting deeper than any knife could. But you wouldnât let her win. Not today. You turned your back to her and walked toward Alexia, who had been watching the whole exchange in silence.
âCome on, chica,â Alexia said softly, her hand on your shoulder. âYou donât have to listen to her. You donât have to let her get to you.â
But it didnât stop the anger from bubbling inside you. Reality? Your reality was gone. What did she know about reality?
âYou donât get to talk about reality,â you muttered under your breath, your voice strained as you pulled away from Alexiaâs touch and took a seat on the couch again. âNot after what youâve put me through, not after everything youâve let happen.â
Alexia sat beside you, her presence a calming force as always, though she was visibly upset by what had transpired. Your aunt, however, didnât seem to care about the emotional toll this was taking on either of you.
âIâll be in touch, Y/N,â your aunt said curtly, turning on her heel to leave, her heels clicking loudly against the floor as she marched out the door without another word.
The silence that followed her departure felt suffocating. The room seemed to close in around you, and you could feel your chest tightening, the weight of everything pressing down on you. Alexia didnât say anything for a few moments. She just sat there, her hand resting on your knee, offering comfort in the way only she could.
You didnât want to cry. Not again. Not in front of anyone else. But the dam inside you had already broken, and all you could do was let the tears spill silently, staining your cheeks as you sat in the hollow silence.
âAmorcitoâŚâ Alexia finally whispered, her voice cracking slightly. âIâm so sorry. I know this is... this is so much for you to handle. But you donât have to face it alone. You donât have to carry this weight by yourself.â
You closed your eyes, letting the tears fall freely. You didnât have the energy to stop them anymore. The woman who shouldâve been there for you, your family, had just shown her true colours. And now, more than ever, you knew that you only had the team. You only had Alexia, Mapi, Ingrid, Lucy, Keira, and the others. They were the ones who truly cared.
Alexia pulled you into her side, wrapping her arms around you like a protective shield. You didnât have to say anything. She already knew.
And for the first time in a long while, you let yourself lean into that comfort, allowing yourself to be held.
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hiii hehe :3 first off i'm SOO sorry it took me this long to get around to it omg i really wanted to go into this with a #Fresh mindset and also school Just started and already is pummeling me into the ground but . it's saturday Monday. and i am Here now and i just cracked open a cold one (ginger ale) and i am Ready to get into it!!!!
Here, in the dark, there is just you.Â
banger first line btw its so telling... also i remember workshopping this first scene with you and i'm so glad this is what you decided on! it sets the mood perfectlyyyy it fits the perfect amount of humor (SHAKIRA WAITS FOR NO ONE!!!) and ambiance and the ENERGYYY of it is so good like Yeah this is an opening scene of a 2010s romcom! its likeee yeah even though you're in this club at fuckass o'clock the ghost of your mother and all your expectations still digs into you... you can never run away you can only face the things you must!!!! also another thing i wanna say is that its kinda crazy how short this scene is but there's so many things that it establishes like Man... That's good writing... yn who is forced to be everything she isn't and as a result she cannonballs herself into everything she Shouldn't be... just so she can have the feeling of being nothing at all.... yeah!!! oh to be young and wild and free . But what does it all mean for the future...
They stand tall in their planters, majestic and hairy with French lavender. Today you notice that the rightmost one's nose has been pruned off by accident, and he stands, snoutless, staring at his green brothers and sisters.Â
picture perfect palace hosting a picture perfect family but if you look close enough you see signs of the suffocation.. the overbearing preening.... WHAT DOES IT ALL MEAN!! also the part about y/n noticing the little details about the number of terracotta stones... its like Yeah it's probably bc she's been in this palace all her life but also its like. no one would pay attention to those things if some ounce of her didn't care. used to. etc.
Your father paces near the window, either wondering why you can't be softer, more pliable, like your older brother Jeonghan, or, alternatively, why one of the lions is missing a nose.
only the real ones know who jeonghan used to be... YOU WILL BE MISSED đđđđđ
"We have arranged for you to marry someone."Â And all at once, it seems as though all the air has been sucked out of the room. There's a sharp pain lodged somewhere between your chest, your stomach, and your unhappy liver. The larks sing emptily in the garden.Â
the pacing is sooo good here like yeah... top 10 announcements you won't believe! also the detail of the larks is so good it places you back into the palace setting and also it makes the palace seem so like. big. empty. just a bunch of air and space.
"Why?" you ask. Your voice wobbles, treading over that childlike waver you never learned to control. "Is this to punish me?"Â / She's right. She's always been right. Maybe not about the swimsuit, but you havenât exactly been the PR princess your family needed you to be. If anything, you would think it made Jeonghan look better by comparison, but you know that your parents would prefer you to make appearances in something other than Deuxmoiâs Sunday Spotted. But the royal charade never fit you well either; it clings and sticks and bunches up at the seams like a cheap Halloween costume.Â
this makes me sooo like. MY BABYYYYY.... the emphasis on like. you might be an adult but whenever you're dealing with your parents or anything royal it just feels like you're a Child all over again (childlike waver / cheap halloween costume)... i have nothing else to say that doesn't involve my own convoluted parental trauma but just know i #GetHer
You were so sore the next day, you were bed-boundâtruly a punishment worse than death, if not for another reminder that everything you do ends up hurting you a little.Â
OWIE.....
Past August, you don't think you ever got your brother back.
i loooove this relationship with jeonghan btw idk if i ever said this to you but its like. vulnerabilities in yn that show she isn't just being disobedient to Be disobedient and like. she cares!!!! she just copes bad and has no one around to help her... not anymore :( also this scene in general is just really good backstory without being too monologue-y which is something i am Always impressed by... Good worldbuilding. good dynamic.
Without thinking, you quickly push out the first excuse you have. "I apologize, I wasâ"Â
also i think its so interesting how like. before you know it's jihoon at the door you default to your more proper princess "I apologize" smth that like. Fits your position more even though on the surface level you've long given up on being proper or whatever impossible thing your mother expects you to be.... yeah. Trying is still somehow ingrained in your being
"You forgot your jacket," Jihoon replies.Â
unfortunately for both of us i endlessly need him. also reliable best friend jihoon meeowwww I NEEED YOOUUUUU. also yn's imposter syndrome and guilt complex is making me soooo sad....
You wish she was human for a moment so you could show her the crater-sized hole that "prince joshua google images" left in your browser history.Â
THIS IS SOOOFDMLDFK me searching up Joshua Hong boyfriend on pinterest to the same effect
The mental image of Joshua Hong being struck down by the first ten seconds of Throat Goat makes you laugh, but you still don't feel far away enough from the truth.
#foreshadowing
You knew you should have done better for your brother, but he didnât even feel like your brother anymore.Â
nooo..... fuck. also me reading this knowing full well What happened that day.... rocking back and forth chanting My Shaylaa....
So you press your heart to Astrid's mane, the pale moon high over the both of you, and you ride.Â
astrid who represents the last bit of your childhood and yourself and your Brother, all of which you wonder if you can even bring with you to acros, pressing your heart to her and all that she encompasses... Yeah
You choose to let it slideâyou have no choice, really. At least you have an ass.Â
#smallblessings
"Didn't know you had a choice."
ooohhhh he's soo.... ITS SO ARC WORDS!!! of course he would say that....
"I mean, I read an insane amount of Dan Brown," you reply. "Not many of us can say we've solved the Davinci code, you know."Â
this is actually the worst im clawing at my neck rn MDSFJSDFML is there any greater humiliation than someone not laughing at your jokes...... LAUGH WITH MEEEEE oh my god.... josh being hot and boring. the 10th circle of hell.
You glance to your right to catch a glimpse of Joshua. He smiles, a dutiful press of the lips, and you watch it ripple.
heol........... the first crack in his mask. hah... tfw you're so annoying u make resident stick-in-ass regret his princely duties
He's out of words, so he bends down to awkwardly pat you on the head, which, in all your years of knowing him, is the most affection he can muster. This is why you prefer horses to Jihoon for therapy, although you appreciate the effort.Â
he is SOOOOO..... I NEED HIM đđđđđ
You still keep your pillow pet on your bed (a horse named Robert).
i tried thinking of a horse pun with robert pattinson for a joke and the best i could come up with was cobert pattinson... robert trottinson... me when rob is destined to have bat puns no matter what . but anyway i love that yn is consistently a horse girl its so cute HSDFJLSFDKM
He's got a copy of Anna Karenina under his arm, probably to weigh the pros and cons of cheating on you. You don't blame himâin fact, maybe it would make your doomed marriage exciting enough to be tolerable.Â
THIS IS SOOOODSFMSDFLKJ aaron taylor johnson Where are you!!!
"Oh right, because this is where happiness goes to die, huh?" You snatch it back from him, feeling the knot of anger in your gut flare.Â
Oh that's not...... đŹ well Yes actually!
You sink into your side of the bed, a damask-woven vat of quicksand, and watch the spears of light dance on the ceiling.
imagery that fucks immensely..
The prince of Acros owning a book with the words "juicy", "mewling", and "best friend's brother" in the first fifty pages are enough to tide you over for the night. Probably the next week, to be honest.
prince joshua hong caught reading ICEBREAKER?!
"Is it too bright for you?" Joshua's voice, now tempered by the stillness of the evening, pulls you out of your thoughts. "I can turn the lamp off."Â / Joshua smiles, and this time, you think it's a real one.Â
also one thing to mention is that i love how after the truce is settled they're quick to act like. civilly/almost kind to each other like. they're both not Bad or intentionally hard-to-stand people it's just they're both put in impossible situations . a thin line between hate and kinship and love... etc etc etc. speaking of hate u are an expert at writing e2l banter the tension is palpable
"Any minute now," bitches Jihoon from the other side of the door.Â
HE IS SOOOSDFMDSFLK my favorite animal is jihoon being forced to do anything for the royal family. also you calling yourself a HARLOT is so funny. next up the list is calling yourself a reddit-approved hussy
Outside, there is a lone photographer. The sun, morning-ripe, reflects off his camera lens like a third eye. The lawn, freakishly green, sprawls out around you, and the blue spruce frames the scene, perfect by design.Â
your descriptions are SOOOO good like theyre so Telling without being too wordy or needlessly purple-y like just a few sentences from you and i am #In it
You can see why people dote on him so muchâhis cheeks get round, and his eyes magically gain the sparkles that people pay for on Facetune. God really seems to have wasted a perfect face on him.
the thought of being fake-married to him is making me rock back and forth like actually Oh my god.... i unhinge my jaw and swallow him whole with my 8 rows of teeth.
He's just like anyone else, you tell yourself. You're at the club. They're playing Everytime We Touch by Cascada.Â
CASCADA MENTION HELL YEAHHHH đĽđĽđĽđĽđĽđĽ
âShut the fuck up. Wait, is he actually coming?â âDunno. Wouldnât be very Mr. Worldwide of him to flake, though.âÂ
u are actually the funniest person alive. also i think its soooo like. even though you came back home to have semblance of your Old life back your thoughts inevitably drift to joshua again... trying to fit him into the familiar memory of your old life even though you know it's a little funny to imagine him with anything less than 100 year old wine in his hand... and when somi asks if she should invite him you say No even though you were clearly thinking about it . What does it all mean. the dichotomy of having a hot boring HOT fake husband... oh the terrors....
but you couldnât let him walk away from that conversation thinking wet dirt was a normal, socially acceptable, scent for a bedroom. (âIt said moss on the label! âSo, dirt. âMoss is not dirt. Maybe you need to go back to school.)Â
GWHMASFDLFSDK the parentheses format is so funny i'm stealing that /hj. also im soooo glad you added in this scene about seeing him half naked its so romcom-y... so shenanigans-filled.... pornhub title: HOT PRINCE WITH HUGE TITS CAUGHT NAKED!
Later, on the walk to the library, you reach for your lip gloss. Instead, you pull out q-tip number five and get mad all over again.Â
like she's so funnyydfmdflk she's sooo me.
"I just have to knowâhow did you guys meet?"Â
this entire exchange is so funny JSDFMLASDFK like i love when they're bickering and being annoying to each other i feel like they match each other so well also the little digs to each other to ruin each other's reputation... yn raccoon era. joshua stalker era.
Joshua doesnât reply. Out of the corner of your eye, you see his gaze has shifted. You feel it land somewhere near you, but youâre too engrossed in the race to investigate further. Perhaps heâs admitted defeat preemptively, wisely so. âYou know your stuff,â he murmurs, the clamor of the audience almost burying him.Â
oh man...... an ounce of sincerity is all it takes.... me when josh sees the girl underneath the Act.... starts howling.
You turn to Joshua and clasp his hands between yours, somehow less wooden now, and so, so human. The crowd cheers; they come alive.Â
OOOUUUUUUUUUGGGHHHH WOLF TEARING OFF HIS SHIRT JPEG.
also next scene with josh and his damn HORSE PUNS HES SOOOO ANNOYINGJFDMLDF but also this is the first time we're really seeing him not be prickly and testy and being Lame so its like. you show me your cards ill show you mine... etc. he's just trying to make you comfortable cause you really are a Team rn... oh man. OH MAN.
Youâre not asking for loveâjust a little bit of like. and, right now, you think you like Joshua Hong.Â
rubs hands together like a little fly... all according to plan. also theyre just soooo cute oh my god...
âDo you want to keep this?â Jihoon holds up a choker that resembles a jock strap. âWhen did you even wear this? It looks like a cat toy.âÂ
NOOOOOOO
âRight,â says Joshua, and when he gets up from the bench, he doesnât look back.Â
i have a lot of things to say about this scene and All of them are good... i remember the first time you brought up Piano as a scene and i was like. Wrinkles nose. at it because of my own personal experiences with piano being used as a cheesy plot device But i told you this then and im telling you this again Now i think its so well done... the dynamic between josh and yn is so well done like. they're just starting to blindly feel around how to interact with one another now that they're not Enemies but theyre still forced-to-marry but also like. they're also starting to be friends, even if josh was being a tad insufferable After the derby. like i love that they're both fumbling around at the piano and for Once in this palace yn is leading josh on how to do something right... yn teasing him all in good nature ("buddy, left hand goes here.") and josh giving himself the leniency to be a bit of casual when no one is watching ("aw, what?" he whines. "see, i told you i was no good. give me a second.") like its all just so cute. like watching two puzzle pieces spin themselves around trying to click. Pajama joshua is better than prince joshua... but even pajama joshua is thinking of duty... duty the knife and the wound... and Of Course josh brings it up when they're having a cute moment like OF COURSE!!! rubs my temples. yn trying to change the topic again. josh opening up again about wanting to play guitar because this is Pajama Joshua who doesn't know how to read the ledger lines and makes silly puns and not Prince Joshua who looks at you with a firm press in his brow... like everyone else with a crown... Man.
âThat's not really fair.â You absentmindedly play a few keys, all disjointed. âTaking guitar lessons doesnât make you a problem child.â âIt's not about that, though,â Joshua says. He's avoiding your eyes. âIt's everything, together. I couldn't just pick up a guitar and be someone else.â [...] âYeah, and you think I donât think about that every day? How, maybe, if I had done something different, then we wouldnât be here?â You feel stung. You donât know how to tell him that youâve been trying to figure out the same thing your whole life. If you were a better daughter, youâd have spared everyone the trouble. Unfortunately, youâd gotten it wrong so many times, you stopped trying.
FUCK!!! like this whole exchange is such masterful character building . joshua who doesn't know How to give himself leeway and does whatever mommy and daddy tell him because if he disobeys one thing then its like a slippery slope and all of a sudden he'll let himself think he can be someone other than a prince. vs yn who doesn't see the big deal because what's one misstep when her entire life is just one purposeful fuck-up.... but it doesn't even matter!! because even if josh was rebellious and learned how to play guitar and not piano and if yn was the good little princess her parents wanted her to be they would still be here!!! both at opposite ends of the spectrum. DUTY THE KNIFE AND THE WOUND!
like the whole scene is just so push-pull... conflicting coping mechanisms... they see each other but do they really. they see but do they understand... things to consider....... anyway this is my favorite scene. i love character building.
âYou ready to get stuffed?âÂ
GHWMAFSMLSDKVSLDFKSDVMLSDFK
âYeah, although on second thought, maybe itâs a bad idea to bring the girl whoâs gonna puke everything up anyway.âÂ
Just like me...
âNope.â You pop open your compact. âI have to change, and I desperately need to locate a coffee. I will suck a fucking bean off if i need to.â âI'm hanging up on you,â Somi whines. âIt's too early for you to be gross and late.â  âAs if you werenât talking about getting stuffed.âÂ
THEY ARE SOOO FUNNY like somi really is the star of the show... if this was in the 2000s she'd be played by judy greer
âDonât give me any ideas,â he replies. Under the bluebird sky of late morning, lips upturned and eyes bright, Joshua may be a sight you could get used to. Someday. âBrought you a coffee. I canât have you sucking off a beanâthe reporters would go crazy.âÂ
i love how his humor slowly gets more crude as the fic goes on HSDFJLSDFK like him laughing at you being the #top in the piano scene... JOSHUA HONG I KNWO WHAT YOU ARE. I KNOW THE PERSONALITY YOU'RE HIDING. also it's actually a skill to casually describe joshua in a way that is injected with so much Need but what else would i expect from husbandjoshi...
Instead, you circle each other in an unsure, clumsy dance. You canât quite get it right. It's all the same now. The bite of a horse saddle not made for your body, the glow of your heirloom ring, now cheapened by your graceless hand, Joshuaâs lonely, reaching palm as he disappears in the rearview mirror.Â
aw man... i always feel so bad for her like she's always trying... all she does is try đđđ like that thing about the jeonghan play too... she tries and its not good enough and so it gets discarded anyway because what good is trying when its not good enough... better to pretend to be perfect than to try and be yourself. and whatnot. my shayla........ what a sad notion... to be perfect and lonely...
You also learn that you, paradoxically, might not know how to love Joshua Hong, but you sure do know how to kiss him.Â
oh meow.............. MEEEEOWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.............. you don't need me to tell you how good you are at writing intimate scenes you already know.... i also don't have much to say btw you look in my brain and its like tv static and the rainbow bars bzzzzzt bzzzztttt bzzzzzzzzzt
ok. obviously i have more to say. I will see you on the next part.
title: royally screwed [m]
pairing: joshua x f!reader
wc: 30.8k in total; part 1: 15.4k, part 2: 15.4k summary: between remembering last nightâs party and pleasing your unrelenting family, you think being a princess is hard enough. then youâre thrust into an arranged marriage to royal darling joshua hongâstraight-laced, infuriatingly obedient, and everything youâre not. pretending to be the perfect couple? impossible.  notes: romcom + smut (part 2), modern royalty!au in which yn is the princess of cotria/joshua the prince of acros (both fictional), enemies to lovers, arranged marriage, quarterlife crisis/coming of age, very very slow burn. lots of swearing, lots of alcohol, lots of feelings. very special thanks to @meiozis for all their help with worldbuilding and @wuahae for bearing with me through the endless drafts, scene changes, second guessing, horrible word choices, etc. you are the only reason this got done, and i love you to the moon and back <3 [read part 2 here!]
Here, in the dark, there is just you.Â
The strobe lights press into your skin with all the brilliance of the sun, there's half a Modelo running down your leg, and you think you kissed the stranger behind you last week, but if you close your eyes, it's just you. No rules, no five second curtseys, no talk about the throne or whoever's ass happens to be keeping it warm at the moment.Â
Here, you're nobody, and it's perfect.Â
"I'm getting more champagne," Somi says, her voice careening over the music. "You sure Jihoon doesn't want any?"Â
You glance back at him. He's flattened up against the back wall, holding your purse, like a raccoon caught going through the trash. This is one of the many trials he's forced to endure for your entertainment, but it's his jobânot as your closest friend, but as your legally employed bodyguard.Â
"No, he's on duty."Â
"Right," she slurs. "Sometimes I forget you're a literal princess."Â
If only it were that easy. Five drinks in and you think you can still feel your mother's vice grip on your arm and all the little white crescents of her french manicure.Â
You love this songâat least, you think you do. You're too drunk to tell, but it doesn't matter. The dance floor is muggy, sardine-packed with one warm body after another, and it's heaven. The crowd moves, and you move with them. Shakira waits for no one.Â
Somi must have secured another bottle of Cristal already. Soonyoung, your other partner-in-crime, hands you a flute and you take it, the glittery foam already bubbling over the lip.Â
"Cheers." Out of his too-drunk mouth, it sounds like a new word altogether, but you bring your glass to his anyway.Â
Tomorrow, you have a meeting with your parents. This, unlike all of your other involvements, is actually important, they said, and their voices had wound around you like a snare.Â
When it gets late, Jihoon will sling your arm over his shoulders and haul you back to the palace, still tipsy and holding your stilettos to your chest like a shield. Tomorrow will come, and it's then when you'll have to try to be good. It's a useless, stupid affair, but you'll go through the motions anyway.Â
But tonight, there is you and the music and the wonderful laughter of your friends, and you don't have to be anything at all.Â
"Cheers," you tell Soonyoung, and you drink.Â
--
There are four large topiaries in the palace garden: all lions. They stand tall in their planters, majestic and hairy with French lavender. Today you notice that the rightmost one's nose has been pruned off by accident, and he stands, snoutless, staring at his green brothers and sisters.Â
You know this because this is the view from the study, and it has never changed. There is only one study in the east wing, and it is small and useless and the perfect room for your parents to sit you down and remind you that you do not, in fact, own a single thing about your own life.Â
There is nothing new about this ritual. Even as a child, when you were more desperate to please, you could never be the right kind of daughter to your parents or princess to your country. Again and again, you landed yourself here, in trouble once more.Â
So you stopped tryingâyou would find these four walls anyway, no matter what you did. Why not enjoy your Fridays instead?
By now, youâve memorized the carvings on the armrest of the chair youâre in (a knobby column, then underneath, the whorl of a seashell). There are thirty-four terracotta stones on the way to the fountain, all spaced perfectly apart, sanded down to the millimeter.Â
The scene remains unchanged. Your mother now stares down at you over the bridge of her nose, with that tight-lipped frown you've gotten so used to. Your father paces near the window, either wondering why you can't be softer, more pliable, like your older brother Jeonghan, or, alternatively, why one of the lions is missing a nose. Maybe both.
"Enjoy yourself yesterday?" your mother asks.Â
"Yes," you reply, out of other answers.
"Wonderful. Then our early morning briefing with PR was good for something. You should be grateful last night's pictures won't make it out of the darkroom."Â
Her voice, bitter and incisive, makes the hangover bubble up in your stomach. You and the tabloids weren't exactly on good terms, but it wasn't your fault so many people seemed to care about what you were wearing or who you were out with.Â
"What did you want to meet about?" you ask, hoping to change the subject.Â
You can't put your finger on it, but there's a cloying, heavy energy hanging on you. You feel as though you're on the precipice of something, although that could just be the consequences of all that Cristal ready to reintroduce themselves to your digestive system.Â
Your mother clears her throat.Â
"We have arranged for you to marry someone."Â
And all at once, it seems as though all the air has been sucked out of the room. There's a sharp pain lodged somewhere between your chest, your stomach, and your unhappy liver. The larks sing emptily in the garden.Â
"What?" Your voice sounds like it's unraveling somewhere in your throat. Quickly, frantically, you grasp at the faraway possibility that it can't possibly mean what you think it does. Marry? You canât even remember the last time you thought of going on a second date with someone. Now you might actually throw up.Â
"Prince Joshua, of the Hong family. The crown prince ofâ"Â
"Acros. I know," you interrupt, the words jumping out of you in shock and anger.Â
Of course you know who Joshua Hong isâAcros is a tiny, unremarkable country nestled into the border of your much bigger one, and Joshua their crown jewel. If you were the nation's problem, he was their darling. A bland thing to coo at when life got boring, the walking embodiment of a media training session. Smile and nod, smile and nod. He might as well be AI generated.
You wouldn't last a day with him. Not with your impatience, your opinions, or that loud mouth your parents always scold you for. Your mind swims with the mental image of the two of you on a gaudy parade float, doing that stupidly slow wave everyone seemed to insist on.
"Wonderful. So you'll pack a bag? The Hong family will be thrilled to meet you tomorrow," says your father.
"Why?" you ask. Your voice wobbles, treading over that childlike waver you never learned to control. "Is this to punish me?"Â
"My dear, your brother will be ascending to the throne soon," your mother answers, looking you dead in the eyes. "Itâs his face that needs to be on the front page, not you in another abomination of a swimsuit. The Hongs will keep enough of an eye on you.âÂ
She's right. She's always been right. Maybe not about the swimsuit, but you havenât exactly been the PR princess your family needed you to be. If anything, you would think it made Jeonghan look better by comparison, but you know that your parents would prefer you to make appearances in something other than Deuxmoiâs Sunday Spotted. But the royal charade never fit you well either; it clings and sticks and bunches up at the seams like a cheap Halloween costume.Â
"The Hongs thought their country would benefit from our money. It was an easy decision, really," your mother finishes, as if that makes you feel any less like a silly, bikini-clad pawn in a game of chess you never asked to play.Â
"Does Jeonghan know?"Â
"He sees its purpose,â your father says simply, like that was all that mattered. âYou will too, in due time.â
He nods solemnly, which is how he closes every conversationâjust another turn of the silent knife. As your parents turn to leave, their silken garbs trail behind them like ink in still water. Business as always, especially with you.Â
"Your brother will be coming home from his press tour this week," your mother says on her way out. "You mustn't ruin this for him. The car leaves for Acros in the morning."Â
There's a mean, barbed feeling in your heart. You don't know whether to scream or to cry, so you do what your mother taught you to do. You sit, stilled by a feeling of hopelessness, and let yourself be emptied.Â
--
When you were thirteen, you learned how to ride a horse.Â
Not the impractical, side-saddle way drilled into you when you were a little girl, with your skirt billowing over the fender and catching in the stirrups, but how to really ride a horse.Â
It was on a night much like tonightâindigo and starless. Your brother had climbed up the marble trellis, his teenage, noodle body a perfect fit for scaling the lattice, and threw a stone at your window, just like you had seen in the movies. Jeonghan was still young, then, rebellious and unchanged by the throne.Â
It was him who laced up your riding boots, hoisted you on your first horse, and pressed the reins into your palms. You remember the unforgiving hold of the leather saddle, not yet broken in. You were so sore the next day, you were bed-boundâtruly a punishment worse than death, if not for another reminder that everything you do ends up hurting you a little.Â
"It's great," Jeonghan had told you, breathless and haloed by the moonlight. "You can just ride. nowhere to go and no one to answer to."Â
You had spent the summer this way. Every night, you learned the sound of the forest at twilight, chasing Jeonghan's mud-splattered palomino. In the mornings, breakfast consisted of rubbing the sleep out of your eyes and whispering about whatever misadventure you had found yourselves tangled in the night before.Â
That was before he had come of age. Before your father gave him the Throne Talk, and before he was whisked away into endless meetings and etiquette lessons and parliaments. Your inside jokes became foul, overripe in his newly coached mouth. He even learned to play golf, and he hated golf.Â
Past August, you don't think you ever got your brother back.
You slide the oaken doors of the stables open, feeling your arms squeeze underneath your riding shirt. Here, itâs always quiet after sundown.
It hasn't changed since the day you first snuck in with Jeonghan. You let the green scent of the hay fill your lungs, the sleep-stir of the horses like music to your ears. Dokyeom has left the tack room open by "accident" once more, likely to avoid catching you picking the lock with a bobby pin like he had a few months ago.Â
"Hey, you," you whisper, coming to the stall of your own horse. Astrid, a bay thoroughbred, was Jeonghan's gift to you on your 18th birthday, a wistful reminder of a summer now past its prime. "No surprise here, but I had a really, really bad day."Â
Astrid, oblivious, noses at your palm in search of a nonexistent sugar cube. Somehow, this brings the anxious chatter of your mind to a crescendoâwould Astrid come with you to Acros? When would that happen? More importantly, when were you moving? You think of a too-warm summer morning, the ridiculous, oversized brim of one of your mother's sunhats, and a moving truck. That, and a country ready to delete you from its ranks.Â
It's now, with the bridle in your fists, that you hear the wheedling groan of the stable door as it slides open. Without thinking, you quickly push out the first excuse you have. "I apologize, I wasâ"Â
"It's me."Â
Jihoon.Â
You would tease him about his fear of poniesâperhaps it's because he is quite literally the same size as themâbut you think hearing another person tell you off would officially push you over the edge. You don't want to be dramatic, but you don't even know if Acros even had horses.Â
That, and somehow he's both the first and the last person you want to see. The guilt feels a bit heavier when you know his life is about to change too, in no small part due to your own failings.
"Jihoon, IâŚ" you start. Thereâs an apology thatâs been sitting on your tongue, one you havenât quite learned to spit up yet. You donât know who itâs forâyourself, or everyone elseâbut Jihoon interrupts you before you can finish your thought.Â
"You forgot your jacket," Jihoon replies.Â
For once, you can't read him. You wonder if he's thinking about if he'd get along with the other bodyguards, but, more likely, he's probably pitying you. You're the last person in the world that should be in an arranged marriage, and even someone who kills people for a living could tell.Â
"I'll be in the foyer."Â
You don't exchange any more words. Jihoon knows that there is nothing he can say that will erase what's about to happen, and like always, he is right.
After you saddle up, Astrid takes you to the forest like usual. Honestly, you've lost count of the times you've come out here to cry, usually about a boy you donât even like, or, worse, Jeonghan declining your weekly Facetime session again. But now, you think you both know this time is very different.Â
"Astrid," you groan. "Joshua looks like a Ken doll from hell. He probably pronounces tomato like tomahto and has a closet dedicated to his tweed collection. I can't marry him."Â
Astrid is none the wiser. You wish she was human for a moment so you could show her the crater-sized hole that "prince joshua google images" left in your browser history.Â
"Do you think he only listens to classical music? I think a Kim Petras song would kill him instantaneously."Â
The mental image of Joshua Hong being struck down by the first ten seconds of Throat Goat makes you laugh, but you still don't feel far away enough from the truth.
You remember your 21st birthday, a balmy spring Friday. Jeonghan had been helping out at the local youth theater, and the opening night of their production was coincidentally the same day. Jeonghan had never been one for theater (last time, he had fallen asleep during Mamma Mia, of all musicals). You knew the press turnout was expected to be huge, but the whole thing felt like one big charade to you.Â
So you had planned your big birthday bashâyou only get one 21st, after allâthat day. The paparazzi fell for it, hook, line, and sinker. Unsurprisingly, drunk, hot girls made for a better story than Greek theater.Â
You remember the raw, stinging look Jeonghan had in his eyes the next morning. He didn't even have to say anything, but you knew. The memory carves out an abyss in your chest. You knew you should have done better for your brother, but he didnât even feel like your brother anymore.Â
Still, actions have consequences, and this was a hell of a consequence. Even out here, the inconvenient reality of it seems closer than ever. but you're out of time. The night fades fast, especially ones like these.Â
So you press your heart to Astrid's mane, the pale moon high over the both of you, and you ride.Â
--
Late spring is kind to Acros.Â
The tulips push their bright heads out of the dirt, winking and blazing in the daylight, and the green fields stretch so far they look like water.Â
You had spent the car ride with your nose pressed to the window, watching all the sun-bleached buildings zip by. You mustn't ruin this for Jeonghan. It spins around in your head like an old pair of shoes in a washing machine.Â
Now you stand in the grand foyer, your parents on either side of you. Jihoon hovers behind, holding the overstuffed duffel bag you had rushed to pack this morning.Â
A hushed arrival such as this was unbecoming of your family, but it was necessary. your parents had stressed that the arranged part of the deal was not meant to be public knowledge because it was bad for optics. To you, the arrangement was actually the entire deal. That, and you and optics never exactly got along.Â
Waiting for Joshua and his parents gives you a moment to observe what could be your new home, although youâre still waiting for the miraculous plot twist that will save you from your fate.Â
That being said: youâve set foot in plenty of nice places, but if HGTV ran segments for castles, this would certainly be the blueprint. Itâs smaller than the palace in Cotria, but you like thatâitâs cozier, less cold-seeming.Â
The filigreed ceilings vault dizzyingly high, and the chandelier above the muraled walls is set afire with the noontime sun. the blushing azaleas cascade from their pots, and they line the hallways with joyous pops of white and pink. breaking the spell is the distant staccato of several sets of footsteps on marble, and you straighten your back, as if by divine command.Â
Three figures approach you: Joshua and his parents. Even from a distance, you can see the trained walk of royalty, their shoulders straight enough to hold water. Youâll give credit where credit is dueâthey look even less thrilled to meet you than you are to meet them.
Unfortunately, up close, Joshua is more handsome than the cameras would betray. He's taller than you had imagined, too. without trying, it looks like he jumped out of a shitty Disney movie, one where the prince says two words and still gets the girl. More than that, you notice how his face is like glassâunwavering, cruelly still. One wrong move, and you'd break him.Â
"Your highnesses," you say, lowering your head in a pronounced curtesy.Â
Joshua bows in response, like clockwork. He reaches for your hand, then brings it to his lips to kiss the back of it.Â
At once, you feel your hackles jump up, even though many a man has done far nastier to you. You canât tell what pisses you off more: a, the fact that he smells like a hotel lobby, or b, that he managed to get his mouth on you in less than five seconds.Â
"I'm elated we have the privilege of welcoming your daughter into our home," Joshua's mother says. Like him, she is staggeringly elegant and even harder to read. "She's beautiful."Â
Fortunately, she has picked the one compliment that your parents can agree on without lying through their teeth. You watch them laugh and titter amongst themselves, and it's now that you notice Joshua has been looking at you this whole time.
You think look is too kind of a word, though. It's something colder than that, more clinical, and you really don't like it. Your stylist had spent upwards of two hours today in front of your vanity this morning, mostly in a losing battle with a pair of fake lashes, and you wonder if one of them is crooked. That, or Joshua is similarly wondering just how he will endure a life wedded to you.Â
"Joshua, please," his mother chides, and you watch him almost immediately pivot towards her, like heâs on wheels. "Where are your manners? You should show the princess around. Get to know each other a bit before press tomorrow."Â
Press. Of course. Your least favorite word. You vaguely remember your parents mentioning it in the car this morning, but it must have gotten lost among all the other terrible things they'd told you.Â
Your head starts to hurt. Joshua keeps smiling at you, empty, doll-like.
"Yes, I'd love that," you say, feeling like a deflating balloon. You were hoping his company will be better than watching four grown adults fall all over each other, but you're starting to doubt that.Â
Joshua offers you his arm, and you take it anyway.Â
"We'll be off then," he chirps before bowing once more. His freakishly shiny shoe nudges yours to remind you to do the same. Begrudgingly, you listen, watching your shellacked, angry expression in the patina of his loafers.Â
Not a good start, but what did you expect?
You tamp down your irritation and let him lead you into the Great Hall. It's a shiny, golden tunnel, studded with glossy oil paintings of his parents, his grandparents, then the next set of old people before them. Their eyes stare at you, pools of hazy paint in their moon faces. You briefly imagine your painting up there, with Joshua's hand hovering meekly over your waist, unused to being more than two feet away from a woman his age.
"It's nice to finally meet you," Joshua says. "I think I've only seen you in pictures."Â
He's referencing the one of many âencountersâ you've had with the paparazzi, a la yesterday night. They take trashy photos, overexposed and grainy from the camera flash, with your ass most likely in the frame.Â
You choose to let it slideâyou have no choice, really. At least you have an ass.Â
"The pleasure is mine," you reply. "I believe you were at the cricket championships a few months ago, right?"Â
"Correct. Do you watch? I don't believe I saw you."Â
"No, but my brother was there." Your footsteps echo against the marbled walls. "Just trying to think of your last public appearance," you offer unhelpfully, since you and he both know those are few and far between.Â
"That's right. He mentioned you were busy," Joshua replies. "Glastonbury was that weekend, was it not?"Â
He's right. It was, but you don't like the insinuation he's making. You weren't at Glastonbury anywayâyour parents wouldn't let you attend, and Jihoon was unwilling to come up with a cover story for you. Because you would rather watch paint dry than attend another cricket game, you instead spent it with takeout and reruns of Rupaul's Drag Race.Â
"Can't recall," you answer. "Doesn't matter. I'm not one for cricket, anyway."
"Didn't know you had a choice."
You watch Joshua halfheartedly gesture to the Great Hall. The seemingly mile-long dinner table is empty now, save for a gratuitously piled fruit bowl.Â
Your country frequently hosts guests, but the Hongs are notoriously insular. You imagine the four of you, crammed together at one end of the table, making horrendous small talk every morning over wilted danishes and raspberry preserves. Somehow, your mood worsens even more than you thought possible.
"Can I see the library?" you ask in an attempt to pivot.Â
"Of course. Do you enjoy reading?"Â
"A normal amount." You pass by another set of windows and take note of the rose garden outside, verdant with the May sunshine. Astrid has a bit of a penchant for eating roses, which would definitely complicate your plan to smuggle her in. No matterâyouâve done worse. "I studied political science at university, so I got a healthy dose of it."Â
"Didn't we all?" Joshua chuckles.
He pushes the door open to the library, which is just as lavish as the rest of the palace. You wonder how well-worn it is, how many spines have creases in them, how many dedications were speckled with a funny annotation or two. But judging by first impressions, you wouldn't be surprised if all the books still had their dust jacket on.Â
"I mean, I read an insane amount of Dan Brown," you reply. "Not many of us can say we've solved the Davinci code, you know."Â
You hoped this would crack a laugh out of him, but his grin is thinner than an eyebrow from the 2000s. Truthfully, you would compare this conversation to a death by a thousand papercuts, but somehow that feels preferable to the guillotine of discussing the terms and conditions of your rapidly impending marriage. You feel as though that would be violating some rule you aren't yet aware of, and you're unwilling to endure the patent leather consequences of another faux pas.Â
"I've heard of it," says Joshua after much thought. "My parents were shuttling me between meetings and private lessons, so, unlike some, I was quite busy during university."Â
You're not about to explain that you were equally as busy as him. Something tells you that he'd be too prideful to believe you anyway.Â
"How difficult. Surely you were able to have some fun," you say, your voice betraying your distaste. "Or were you too good for that?"Â
Too far.Â
"I did what my position allowed," is Joshua's terse reply, and you know you've crossed a line. Still, it dazes you that the man standing next to you may have never done anything for himself in his life. Even Jeonghan did, before your parents really tightened the reins.Â
The air buzzes with a silence sharp enough to make you bleed. You wish literally anyone else was standing next to you, but you realize there are no more horses or emergency cabs or Jihoons to rescue you from this one.Â
"How about I take you to our room? I hope you'll find it comfortable."Â
You glance to your right to catch a glimpse of Joshua. He smiles, a dutiful press of the lips, and you watch it ripple.
--
"Jihoon, it is so much worse than I thought."Â
You sit on the plush carpeting of your bedroom floor, amongst your small disaster of things. Jihoon examines you, one eyebrow raised, as he leans against the bedroom door.Â
"He's not around, right?"Â
Jihoon shakes his head.
"I don't get it," you sigh. "I go out. I get drunk. I have a little fun on the weekends. I don't see how any of this makes me a bad person."Â
"You know how traditional your families are." Jihoon bends down to pick up a hair bow that jumped ship from the vanity. "It's just how it is."Â
"He treats me like some high school delinquent. I tried, but he has no sense of humor. No joi de vivre. I think he would actually explode if he knew I went out two days ago."Â
"Give it time," Jihoon supplies unhelpfully. "I don't know French, but he can't be that bad. You just met him."Â
âYeah. Usually thatâs a good thing. Iâve fucked people i know less about.âÂ
Jihoon shakes his head and laughs, one of those little cackly ones he reserves for your company.Â
"Well, you have been with worse," he tuts. "Definitely worse."Â
"Jihoon, be serious. This is the rest of my life we're talking about."Â
âI know." He draws his lips into a line, likely searching for the right thing to say. "This sucks. I wouldn't be good at this either."Â
"You're talking to me. I don't think there's a single royal thing I can do right."
He's out of words, so he bends down to awkwardly pat you on the head, which, in all your years of knowing him, is the most affection he can muster. This is why you prefer horses to Jihoon for therapy, although you appreciate the effort.Â
"I'd stay, but they want me to go to some meeting," he says, jerking his thumb towards the door. "I'll see you tomorrow."Â
So he leaves you, desolate and linen-covered. Back to square one.Â
The room seems to echo with how empty it feels. The bare walls are painted champagne, a rich, indifferent color. They soar to an arched ceiling lined with baroque crown moulding. There's a large window facing the garden, framed by deep green velvet. Atop the vanity cradled to the wall, the ivy of the wrought mirror curls at the edges, as if escaping. The chandelier hangs low, fat and pear-shaped, and its crystals douse the room in gauzy lamplight.
At least the canopy bed looks comfortable. It's the one thing keeping you from calling this place a veritable jail cell, which still seems like an understatement. For once, you miss your own bedroom. Granted, it didnât look much different on the surface. but despite all the paneling and the heavy velvet, you still like to think it had some personality. You still keep your pillow pet on your bed (a horse named Robert). The back wall is chipped from a Gossip Girl poster your mom made you take down. Â
Before youâre able to get too sentimental, the unwelcome sight of your future husband steals you from your thoughts.Â
"Evening," Joshua says, stepping into the room. He's so quiet, it takes you aback. "Still unpacking?"Â
"Sorry." You gesture around you. "I underestimated my ability to overpack."
"You should have told the staff," he says, surveying the damage. "Do you need help?"Â
"No," you insist. Somehow the prospect of him getting on the ground to sort out all of your things upsets you, even more than him touching all of your unmentionables. "No. Please. Just ignore me."
"Alright."Â
Joshua seems to take no issue with that, gratefully. He takes a seat on the chaise at the foot of the bed. He's got a copy of Anna Karenina under his arm, probably to weigh the pros and cons of cheating on you. You don't blame himâin fact, maybe it would make your doomed marriage exciting enough to be tolerable.Â
"PR event tomorrow," you start, folding up a nightdress. "Bet you're excited for that."Â
âAs excited as one can be before announcing their arranged marriage," he replies dryly. "But surely you have enough experience with the press for the both of us."Â
So thatâs how he wanted to play. Fine. You wouldnât let him walk all over you a second time.Â
"Well, I'd hope all those classes you took would be good for something."
"That's rich, coming from the case study on bad media training."Â
"Oh, please," you snap. "At least I know how to have a good time."Â
"I was having a great time before I was informed this was happening."Â
"Forgive me. I had no idea you were so invested in my personal life." You huff as you heave an oversized armful of clothes to the closet. âThink TMZ has any job openings?âÂ
"Very funny," he retorts. Joshua holds up a skimpy black dress that's fallen from your pile, one well acquainted with the midnight grease of one too many nightclubs. "You dropped this, by the way. I don't really think the nightlife here will be quite to your taste, though."Â
"Oh right, because this is where happiness goes to die, huh?" You snatch it back from him, feeling the knot of anger in your gut flare.Â
The room seems to pulse with an uncomfortable silence, red-hot with unsaid words. You recognize the all too familiar way Joshua sets his jaw back, and you're transported all the way to the study in the east wing, snoutless lion, terracotta steps, and all. Heâs not any different from anyone else, so youâre not sure why you expected anything else.Â
You do the only thing you can doâbite your tongue.Â
"Look," you finally say, gathering the wherewithal to call for a truce. "I know that we didn't ask for this."Â
Joshua laughs. Actually, it's the first time you've heard it since you've met, and it would be an otherwise tolerable, even nice, sound if it wasn't directed right at you.
"Right, because who doesn't want to have to babysit someone for the rest of their life?"Â
You take a hard swallow. You've both done enough damage for tonight, although you'd love to see his expression when you call him the live-action version of Frollo from The Hunchback of Notre Dame. Maybe another time.Â
Instead you think of Jeonghan, stuck in his meetings and sunk into this new, starched form of himself that you find difficult to recognize. Still, he's your brother, and you'd hate to see him suffer for it.Â
"Stop. I'll be good," you say. "I promise. I know there's a lot at stake for the both of us."Â
You can hear Joshua's long, drawn exhale. The furrow dug between his brows flattens out, and he seems to be reminded of everything they taught you both in Conflict Resolution 101.Â
"I apologize. I got out of line," he says. You watch the cogs turn on that unfortunately pretty face of his. You hope he finally reveals that he has a much better, kinder personality that he was waiting to debut, but he doesn't. Instead he picks up yet another fallen item from your stash and hands it to you (this time, a much more presentable blouse).Â
"I know we don't like each otherâ" You hold up a hand to interrupt him from lying to you. ââbut we can do our best for the cameras. Because that matters. Hate me all you want in private."Â
"Okay." He gives you a defeated look, which is all you suppose you'll get out of him today. "Deal."Â
That night, there are no more backhanded compliments, quips, or mean-spirited attempts at sarcasm.Â
You sink into your side of the bed, a damask-woven vat of quicksand, and watch the spears of light dance on the ceiling. If you had known your last outing was the one a few days ago, maybe you would have drank a little more, stayed out later. Maybe you wouldn't have even gone home.Â
Joshua has been reading on the other side of the bed, which seems like oceans apart. The metronomic turn of his pages would have put you to sleep if it wasn't for this new fear, a black, trembling one, that's now taken residence in your chest. It feels like you are further from yourself than you've ever been, and you don't know how to get back.Â
"Is it too bright for you?" Joshua's voice, now tempered by the stillness of the evening, pulls you out of your thoughts. "I can turn the lamp off."Â
"It's ok," you groan. "Can't really sleep. Don't worry about it."Â
He doesn't say anything. Instead you hear the oiled pull of the bedside nightstand before he places something on the bed beside you.
It's a book. Specifically, one of those trashy romances that they only sell at the airport because no one would be brave enough to read them anywhere else.
"It's no Dan Brown," he says. "Hopefully still to your liking."Â
You sit up against the headboard and flip through the pages. The prince of Acros owning a book with the words "juicy", "mewling", and "best friend's brother" in the first fifty pages are enough to tide you over for the night. Probably the next week, to be honest.
"Yes, indeed, your highness. Of the raunchy summer fling."Â
Joshua smiles, and this time, you think it's a real one.Â
--
You hate mornings.Â
You thought this one would be different, probably due to the fact that you would soon be standing in front of a few too many cameras to announce your tragic fate to the entire world. Unfortunately, it's like all your other morningsârushed, nauseous, and now with all the added anxiety of a semi-non consensual public appearance.Â
"Five minutes!" you holler as best you can, a hair pin wiggling in the corner of your mouth. Rule number one of a hard launch: don't be caught looking complacent. Even if the other half of the launch would rather be with anyone other than you.Â
Joshua's in the attached bathroom doing his hair. Like everything else he does, it is painfully calculated. He might be the only person in the world who takes "pea-sized" seriously as a measurement tool.Â
But even as he so carefully measures his pomade, pump by pump, you don't miss the way his eyes skim over your figure as you lean over the vanity chair to apply your lipstick. Maybe it's because your ass is practically vacuum sealed into your sundress, or maybe he's just looking for another fight to pick. Either way, there's a small part of you that takes pride in this, even if just a little.Â
"Ready?" Joshua asks, switching off the bathroom light. You hate to admit it, but he looks good in a sports jacket. You remind yourself that you had to literally rock-paper-scissors this morning to use the vanity mirror because you fogged the bathroom up after your shower. "It's not a pageant."Â
"Shush. You are so rude. Never interrupt a girl when she's getting ready."Â
In the mirror, you watch Joshua huff behind you. Then he procures a little black box from his pocket, and a crazy sort of feeling washes over you before you remind yourself to be normal. Ten-year-old you would have cried and threatened arson if she knew this is how you would eventually be proposed to, but you have no choice.Â
You're sure Joshua feels the same. He was probably hoping for something classic with all the works, and instead he's got a pissed-off Jihoon and you, internationally renowned harlot. Funny how things turn out.
"Any minute now," bitches Jihoon from the other side of the door.Â
You close your compact and turn around to face Joshua, who's still fumbling with the box.
"I'm sure this is not what you anticipated," he says, finally cracking it open. âButâ"Â
"No speech. Just put it on." You stick your left hand out, still glittery from last weekâs manicure. "Not like it means much anyway."Â
"Yeah."
And just like that, it is done. You feel the shock of Joshua's huge hands over yours, then the unceremonious bite of the cold band. He doesn't linger.Â
You hold your newly engaged hand in front of you. The ring must have looked better in the boxâon you, it seems out of place, gaudy, yet another thing you can't quite fit into. It squeezes your finger a bit, but it'll do.Â
"Ready?" he asks.Â
"Let's get this over with."
If romance wasnât already dead, then it died here, today, in your prison cell bedroom.Â
You have no time to lament this, as Joshuaâs already half out the door. Quickly, he seems to shed his foul, argumentative inside personality and slip into a second-skin, one that is more poised, gracious, and luminous.
Today's objective is supposed to be simple: friendly, premarital pictures to accompany a written statement to the public announcing your engagement. No paparazzi, no journalists. Still, you're starting to see why your parents decided it was a good idea to stick you with this guy.Â
In the foyer, your families await you. It's as if their gaze can slow timeâat least four people approved your outfit, and still, the weight of their eyes on you, ever appraising, is crushing. Immediately, your mother starts rearranging the strands of hair on the top of your head and fiddling with the sleeves of your dress, like you're some sort of doll.Â
"Come, come," a member of the PR team urges. "Everything is set up. We'll be quick."Â
There's a frenetic, tense energy over the palace. It's clear that this marriage is a gambit no one is happy with, and today would make it very, very real.Â
Outside, there is a lone photographer. The sun, morning-ripe, reflects off his camera lens like a third eye. The lawn, freakishly green, sprawls out around you, and the blue spruce frames the scene, perfect by design.Â
"I just need you to stand next to each other and smile," he says. "That's all, right?" he directs this towards your PR team, about seven too many for a task like this. One of them whispers something in his ear. Your parents watch from the shaded doorstep like wax figures in a museum.Â
You and Joshua stand shoulder to shoulder, yearbook photo style.Â
"Bit closer," the photographer calls out, and you smush yourself against his arm, close enough that you can appreciate he's got some muscle on him. "Alright. Hold still."Â
Click. You've always hated the flash, but you root yourself obediently to the concrete. Your cheeks hurt from smiling. Click.Â
Your mother interrupts her conversation with a staff memberâlikely haggling over the minutia of the statementâand says, "Look happier," as if you're in some dystopian advertisement for a new car.Â
"She's talking to you," Joshua says through the grit of his fake, pink smile.Â
"Right, because you're such a peach."Â
You just want to go back inside and have breakfast.Â
You place a tentative hand on Joshua's bicep and turn to him, beaming like you would at a hot bartender when there are five other people waiting for a drink.Â
There's a glimmer of surprise in his expression before he matches you. You can see why people dote on him so muchâhis cheeks get round, and his eyes magically gain the sparkles that people pay for on Facetune. God really seems to have wasted a perfect face on him.Â
"Move your hand up so we can see the ring." You obey, feeling the firm cord of his arm underneath you, and you wonder where the gym is in the palace. Joshua was certainly gatekeeping it from you. "Perfect."Â
You stand there, living your America's Next Top Model nightmare, before the photographer hits you with, "A kiss for the camera, yeah?"Â
All the blood drains from your face. You think you actually say Huh? aloud. Joshua opts to turn to his parents to intervene, which would be funny in literally any other scenario except this one.Â
"You heard him," his father replies. "Act like you're actually engaged."Â
Honestly, it was a fair request. No one wanted to take any chances. Plausible rumors of an arranged marriage would backfire spectacularly. Jeonghan wouldn't see the front cover of anything ever again, and the entirety of Acros would wonder just how deep in the shitter they were that Joshua was forced to marry you.Â
Your parents were already so far into the conspiracy, you overheard them talking about using unpublished paparazzi pictures and rebranding them as times you snuck off to see your unfortunate lover. Point taken.Â
"Okay, okay," you laugh nervously. "Of course."Â
You face Joshua, steeling yourself, and lean in. The world seems to fall away, but not how you likeâit feels as though you've been sucked out of your own body and dropped into a new one that doesn't know what a kiss is or how to do it.Â
He's just like anyone else, you tell yourself. You're at the club. They're playing Everytime We Touch by Cascada.Â
Soon all you know is the heat of your cheeks, the shaking flat of your palm over Joshua's shoulder, and the wet pressure of what feels like a pair of lips, soft but also very unwilling.Â
Click. Click. Then it's over. Everyone huddles around the camera, like animals to a watering hole. Shame, hot and heavy, seems to drape itself over you.Â
"Can we get one more?" the photographer asks.
Fuck. Your stomach drops. You can't even glare at Joshua.Â
"Sure thing," Joshua says easily, unaware he was the reason it went so badly in the first place.Â
You take a deep breath. You imagine a good Kylie Minogue song and a tall stranger with pecs that could fit into a bra, and your eyes flutter shut.Â
You decide to go for it this time. Unfortunately, you and your inept partner are on entirely opposite pages again, and you almost miss each other by a mile. When you do get it right, it's messy, two teenagers fumbling in a closet with the lights off.Â
Once everyone sees this massacre, it seems they resign themselves to the same conclusion you had long ago. Someone throws a thumbs up above their head, and everyone clears out so fast, it's like nothing ever happened.Â
Soon, it's just you, Joshua, and your mother with a red pen and the manuscript. Your heart is still buzzing in your chest, even though you and Joshua are now standing at a distance that makes you believe in the cheese touch again.Â
"Now that wasnât so bad," she says, before escorting the two of you back inside. Perhaps lying cushions the blow of a bad decision, but you're already in too deep. The script, the cameras, even your mother's glossy wordsâyour life is starting to feel like a permanent movie set, and you don't know how to clock out.Â
The first thing you do is take off the ring. It's starting to look more and more like costume jewelry on your untrained, bumbling hand. Even still, you can still feel its ghost on your finger, see the glare of the camera flash in the laser-cut facets.Â
Worse, you watch Joshua shrug off his sport jacket, likely wondering how exactly that went so wrong, and you can feel that same sensation, still warm, right over your lips.
--
"Save me, red wine, save me."Â
Home, sweet home. You're back in Cotria for the rest of the week. This morning's stint was the only thing you had on the schedule, and you told Joshua you had some business to attend to at home.Â
Said business was a Niçoise salad and half a bottle of wine, but no one had to know that part. Your struggle meals were your own business, and you think you will actually disintegrate on the spot if you have to sit through another conversation about World War II with Joshua's dad. The one you had at dinner last night was plenty.Â
The restaurant youâre at is a familiar haunt, but not too familiar. The ass-kissers and the groupies have gotten good at keeping their heads on a swivel, and youâre not exactly planning on another encounter with a camera. But here, the crowd is quiet enough, the food good enough, the service fast enough. Itâs enough, which youâve come to prefer.Â
That's the other thing about Cotriaâthereâs an overabundance of everything. Department stores, parlors, dog cafes, polished bars with overpriced cocktails. Itâs almost a rarity to find a place like this, quiet enough to actually talk.Â
"You must be in the fucking trenches," Somi says, shaking her head. "When's the press release getting published?"
"Next week," you groan. "The good news is that they want us to go to the derby afterward."
"Okay, miss horse girl," Somi says, clinking her wine glass against yours. "You betting this year?"Â
"No, I shouldn't." You shovel another forkful of leaves into your mouth. "But I really hope I get to watch it instead of pretending to like a guy the whole time."Â
"I didn't see you pretending in uni," Somi says, cocking an eyebrow up at you. "And those guys are ugly. This guy isn't."Â
"Okay, wait," you protest. "Ugly cute. Don't get it twisted. And they don't act like sentient wet paint. This guy sucks."Â
You're reminded of the moment before you left the palace this morning. Joshua saw that same black dress that he used against you make its way into your bag, and he gave you the dirtiest stink eye you'd ever seen.Â
I'm not above tattling. They were the first words he'd said to you after The Incident.Â
Good thing you won't have to, you replied. He didn't even see you out because no one was standing around to clap him on the back for being a good fake fiancĂŠ.Â
"Whatever." Somi picks a tomato off your plate in exchange for some of her fries. "I wouldn't mind it, is what I'm saying."Â
"You slept with the bouncer to get into Annabelâs."Â
"Fuck off. He was actually really good. Club entry was just a bonus," she laughs. "That reminds meâyou're coming to my birthday, right? Or do you have wifely duties now?"Â
"Of course I'm coming!" you insist, feeling the word duty hit like an actual bullet to your chest. "I wouldn't miss it for the world."Â
"Just making sure! You know I gotta have my people around."Â
You had known Somi since you were in diapers. She's the cousin twice removed of a baron, or a count, or maybe even a viscountâyou never were good at keeping track of those kinds of things. Even though you had seen her at countless brunches, coronations, and garden parties, you don't think you actually became friends until you ran into her at a college party in Mykonos. She sidled up to you, smelling like strawberries and the bleachy sting of hair dye, and handed you a cucumber margarita.Â
The beer here sucks, she had whisper-shouted to you, right over the shell of your ear. Wanna dance? You were inseparable ever since.Â
"It's going to be huge. There are, like, 200 people on the guest list right now. Soonyoung rented a villa, There's gonna be a champagne tower, and the music won't suck. Guaranteed."Â
"That sounds perfect," you sigh. "Please tell me there's gonna be a pool. I need to show off my new swimsuit."Â
"Duh." Somi rolls her eyes, glittery under her extensions. "The perfect opportunity to show the world that their hottest bachelorette is a bachelorette no longer. Also, we invited Pitbull.âÂ
âShut the fuck up. Wait, is he actually coming?âÂ
âDunno. Wouldnât be very Mr. Worldwide of him to flake, though.âÂ
Pitbull or not, you think of the heat of the strobe lights, the electric trill of the too-loud speakers. You're dancing in a dress that looks like a chunk of the moon, with the little neon ties of your bikini top peeking out the sides. There's a peach highball in your hands and no one is telling you what to do, how to do it, or that you're doing it wrong.Â
Then you think of Joshua. Maybe he'd loosen up after a few drinks. Maybe he'd dance with you, put those hands to use on your hips and kiss you like he should have earlier today. Maybe he'd even be good at it. The thought makes your cheeks sting.
âShould I invite Joshua?â Somi says, wrinkling her nose at how you immediately grimace. âWhat if heâs actually a blast?âÂ
"No! No. Absolutely not."Â
âWhat if heâsââ Then she drops her singsong voice to a whisper. âHung? Donât tell me you havenât seen those pictures of him in the Galapagos.âÂ
Unfortunately, you have. A lurid, glassy image of your soon-to-be-husband in a sleazy pair of swim trunks comes into vision. You push past the smile, the unfair pecs, and remind yourself of that horrible, self-righteous twist of the lips that he always has.Â
Yes, thatâs right. Thatâs the Joshua you know.Â
You grab the wine from her and drink it right from the bottle.Â
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Of course it had to be the one time youâre not late to an event that you forget you had swapped everything in all your purses around. You double check your bagâempty.Â
Youâre already down by half of your worldly possessions (still at home, your real home), and you probably left the other half on Joshuaâs bathroom counter. Yesterday, you got derailed mid-task by Joshua lighting the grossest candle ever. You never thought youâd ever fight over candles of all things, but you couldnât let him walk away from that conversation thinking wet dirt was a normal, socially acceptable, scent for a bedroom. (âIt said moss on the label! âSo, dirt. âMoss is not dirt. Maybe you need to go back to school.)Â
You fling open the bathroom door, still checking the pockets of your handbag, before you collide into a big, sopping wet wall.Â
âWhat theâ?â You look up. The wall is not a wall. No, in fact, it is your fiancĂŠ, bare fucking naked.Â
Your heart jumps up to your throat. It feels like you walked right into a porno, and you can hear Somiâs self-satisfied, witch cackle right in your ear. His dark hair seems to fall into his eyes just right, a nice change from how he normally gels it up, and you watch the beads of water from the shower, torturously glittery, run down his jaw, the hollow of his neck, right onto his chest.Â
Men should not be allowed to have bigger boobs than you, at least, not dowdy Joshua Hong, who normally has the sex appeal of an eraser. And God forbid your eyes travel downward and confirm Somiâs sick and twisted hypothesis, past the washboard abs, the v-line, the trail down hisâÂ
âSorry, did you need something?â You blink again and Joshua suddenly has a towel wrapped around his waist. And heâs eyeing you like you ate a million cloves of garlic and then proceeded to spit on him. âOr are you just going to stand here and ogle me?âÂ
âI wasn'tâno!â You start snatching things off the counter, anything really, and throwing them into your bag. âI just needed to grab stuff for my⌠my thing. Youâre in the way.âÂ
âRight, because you need four q-tips and my razor to read a childrenâs book,â Joshua replies, plucking the offending items out of your purse. âIt's almost 12:30, by the way.âÂ
âShit. Fuck,â you stammer. You canât glare at him anymore because you know where your eyes will end up and it is not on his face. âStop distracting me. Whatever.âÂ
âHave fun,â is the last thing Joshua tells you before you close the bathroom door, that portal to hell, right back up.Â
What you canât do is return the image of what you saw back to where it came from, the wicked, glistening form of Joshua and his B cup tits. He looked so good, it makes you angry.Â
Later, on the walk to the library, you reach for your lip gloss. Instead, you pull out q-tip number five and get mad all over again.Â
â
The car ride to the derby feels like your own personal Saw trap, if Jigsaw wore a ridiculous hat and was actually your mother.Â
Your engagement was announced to the public just a few days ago. It came with no fanfare, no warning. You were sitting on your bed, making your way through the smut Joshua called a novel, when the news app on your phone kindly notified you that you were now a taken woman.Â
To some degree, the media uproar fascinated you. The idea that people with actual journalism degrees were writing headcanons about your honeymoon when you hadnât even seen Joshua since The Bathroom Incident was surely entertaining, to say the least. But, like everything, the unsaid pressure of being a perfect princess, now part of an even more perfect couple, hangs heavy over you.Â
You remind yourself this is supposed to be fun. A real couple would be pawing at each other in the backseat, perhaps pregaming with champagne or fan-casting their pick for Spirit the horse. Instead, youâre stuck rehearsing your pitch to the reporters when they inevitably ask you about how the hell this happened. You wish you could tell them youâre not quite sure either.Â
Silently, you look at Joshua. Joshua looks out the window. The world rumbles under you.Â
[10:15 am, race 1]
The air seizes, swirls with clay-colored dust in the morning sun. The clubhouse is already heady with the low buzz of conversationâyou watch the freckled sunhats and oily toupees bob up and down in the swell of the crowd, deep in the morningâs small talk. You wonder how many of them are talking about you, given how recently the news hit. Youâre used to people ignoring your media appearances, not celebrating them.Â
Someone, tipping their head down to greet you, hands you a program. Joshua elects to tuck his in his back pocket. People donât come to the derby to watch the races. Instead, itâs an excuse to gossip, day drink, and gamble, which would ordinarily be a good time for you if you werenât overly invested in the racing circuit.Â
All the way from the entrance to your seats, you were met with a tidal wave of camera flashes, all hungry for a glimpse of your first public appearance as a couple. Alongside this, a decidedly worse flurry of congratulations paired with an overly familiar touch to the shoulder or a limp handshake. Joshua is quick to respond with either a smile or some trite platitude. Your least favorite: We couldnât be happier. Now heâs just lying for sport.Â
âWe should find the reporters doing interviews,â Joshua says the second his ass touches the chair, unfazed by the onslaught of perhaps a million different people. âThe Sun probably wants to talk to us.âÂ
Youâre not listeningâyou canât let on that this whole ordeal is mildly terrifying for you. He has enough reasons to dislike you, and stage fright wouldnât exactly be a good addition to the list.Â
The racehorses have lined up at the track, their manes catching the daylight like holy fire. You like the one on the end. He looks like Peanut, Jeonghanâs stubborn palomino.Â
Joshua says your name insistently, curdled with the annoyance that youâve now become acquainted with, and you catch a stray camera flash from the stands. You have an audience, and the audience demands a show, even if theyâre second-rate journalists like the scum from The Sun. Â
âDarling,â you reply flatly. âRelax. Let's enjoy the races.âÂ
The horses stretch their long legs, anxious for the thunderclap of the starterâs pistol. Joshua raises a tired eyebrow before the same realization dawns on him.Â
âAbsolutely.â He clears his throat. âDarling.âÂ
You wrap a hand around his armâsomehow he makes hand-holding seem like third baseâand watch his shoulders sink with a sigh, like you just popped him.Â
Likewise, your highness. Likewise.Â
A shot crackles through the air, and youâre off to the races.Â
[12:43 pm, race 2.]
"I just have to knowâhow did you guys meet?"Â
You know the duchess of Pemarlia to be beautiful and unashamedly nosy, and she has yet to prove you wrong on either account.Â
The last time you saw her was on the beach at Lake Como last year, where she spent the entirety of your conversation asking if Jeonghan was single (and peeking into your bag to see what brand of lipstick you were wearing). Like everyone, she always seems to have a look of appraisal on her face. What makes her different is that she never really bothers to hide it; instead, she wears it like an en-vogue accessory.Â
She eyes you with an intensity, sizing up your dress, your tawdry sunhat, your ring. You wonder if sheâd agree that marriage didnât look good on you, but any shorter of a dress, your mother would call you a stripper. And God forbid you leave the house hat-less.Â
Now sheâs no minotaur. This shouldnât be much of a problem, save for one very small issue: you actually hadnât planned your answer to this. You had quibbled over it briefly in the car, but you were too focused on your interview pitch to worry about minor gossip.Â
"Well," Joshua starts. Through his smile, you can hear the warning edge of his voice. âIt was quite ordinary.âÂ
"Actually," you cut him off. Not only would his version of this story be boring, it would also be horribly out-of-character for you. You did not come this far for your cover to be blown by Joshuaâs lack of imagination. "Josh's parents hosted aâ"Â
"Brunch," Joshua finishes. Whether his teeth are gritted because he's grinning or frustrated is none of your business. âIt was Easter brunch, wasnât it, sweet pea? Four years ago?âÂ
The pet name makes you want to puke. Now heâs just trying to piss you off, but you know this is his attempt to play along. He's annoying, not dumb.Â
"Yes, we sat across from each other.â You playfully dig your elbow into Joshuaâs rock-hard side. âHe was giving me the eyes the whole time.âÂ
You watch your hapless victim giggle, her spidery lashes wide with intrigue. Joshua is a little less pleased.Â
âIf you could call it that,â he replies. âI think you had chocolate on your nose.â
âWhich you so kindly wiped off for me, dear.â You try to peek around the flaxen billows of the duchessâs blowout to watch the horses behind her, but to no avail. âAfter a morning of staring, we had to do an Easter egg hunt, planned by Joshie himself. I had no idea he loved silly little games like that.âÂ
âIt's because people like the princess get so competitive,â Joshua says, with his laser beam grin boring into your eye sockets. âI believe I found you rummaging through the trash for eggs, like some kind of animal.âÂ
âOh my goodness,â the duchess laughs. âHow...charming.â Â
You feel your eyebrow twitch. Only youâre allowed to ruin your own reputation, but you suppose thatâs just another thing your horrible fake fiance gets to take from you.Â
âNot as embarrassing as seeing Joshua leer at me from behind the corner,â you retort. âHe was so enamored that when I invited him to join me, he got right down on his knees to look through the trash together.âÂ
âWell, did you find anything?âÂ
âYesââ
âNoââ
âWellââ
Fuck. Luckily, the duchess is either stupid or wildly entertained by the clown show playing out before her. Maybe both.Â
âCute,â she coos. âYou must have been too smitten to notice.âÂ
âAbsolutely,â Joshua says, as if there is a gun held to his pretty head. âAmong all the garbage and the girl next to me, I suppose nothing else really mattered.âÂ
âIf that isnât love, what is?â she asks blithely.Â
If only she knew.Â
[3:45 pm, race 3]
The sun descends on the stadium, swollen and yellow with the afternoon.Â
Last year, you and your friends had a betting ring set up during the racing circuit. Obviously, you had wonânot too hard when your competition included Soonyoung, who only bet on horses named after food (sadly, it was not Tater Totâs year). Somi was no better, and your brother thought every horse deserved a participation award.
This time around, things arenât so simple. But youâd hate to say that you spent a whole day at the track and didnât bet on a single race. Life could afford you at least one win for today.Â
Again, the horses take their positions at the starting line, wound up like a line of rubber bands. The air heaves with bated breath.Â
âJoshua,â you say, folding your hands in your lap as you find your target. âI'd like to propose a bet.âÂ
âYou must be a glutton for punishment.âÂ
You bite back a laugh as you watch your favorite horse, the palomino, ripple in place. Fans would call her a charity case, but you know better.Â
âPick a horse. Mine is number Three, in the blue.âÂ
âAnd if mine wins? Whatâs in it for me?â he asks. Still, he leans forward, corded forearms on his thighs. You watch him squint as he surveys the field with renewed interest.Â
âYou pick,â you reply. âChoose wisely. I personally cannot wait to call in a favor from you.âÂ
âThe chestnut one. Number Nine.â So he is competitive. âAnd likewise. Perhaps I'll hold it over your head until the wedding.âÂ
Before you can reply, you hear the starting pistol rip clean into the air. The racehorses surge forward, as if a silken ribbon through air.Â
âNine makes sense for you,â you say, eyes fixed before you. âHe's flashy, the crowd favorite. Spotless pedigree.âÂ
âI'm picking your punishment already.âÂ
âI didn't say he would win.â You feel the lilt of your voice rocking upward, the tremulous beat of your heart against your ribs. âYou see, Threeâs had a rough season. There she is, passing Four right now.âÂ
âNine is still first, though.âÂ
âItâs not about that,â you reply. âShe does this, she starts all the way out back and then flies up. No one suspects anythingâitâs like she likes proving people wrong. The first couple races of the season, she was just stretching her legs; they were small, small fry. Itâs this one that matters.âÂ
The saddles are just blurs on the track now. To the march of the hoofbeats, Three lunges past Five, Six. The crowd roars.Â
âThis will be her first win. I'm counting on it. Sheâs come really close before.âÂ
Joshua doesnât reply. Out of the corner of your eye, you see his gaze has shifted. You feel it land somewhere near you, but youâre too engrossed in the race to investigate further. Perhaps heâs admitted defeat preemptively, wisely so.Â
âYou know your stuff,â he murmurs, the clamor of the audience almost burying him.Â
âHow can I not?â Three coasts past One and Ten like sheâs flying, until itâs just her and unlucky number Nine. âOh my god. Go, go, go!âÂ
You and Joshua rise to your feet, as if drawn by a string, now wholly invested in the race.Â
âStill beating you, you know.âÂ
âNot for long! Come on!âÂ
You watch your darling number Three, against all odds, pull past Joshuaâs number Nine, burning a trail past the inevitable finish line.Â
From somewhere inside you emerges a joy that you hadnât felt since this whole ordeal started. You turn to Joshua and clasp his hands between yours, somehow less wooden now, and so, so human. The crowd cheers; they come alive.Â
[4:50 pm, races 4 and 5. mainly, the reporter from the sun.]Â
The smaller races take place shortly after the headliner, for better or for worse. This forces you to finally face the musicâthe music being a dull-eyed, greasy journalist ready to sink his teeth into the publicâs new favorite topic.Â
Joshua is a good sport about it, or at least, heâs good at pretending to be one.Â
âIt was great,â is his answer to a question you didnât hear. Youâre busy going over the parts of the script that you remember. Your media team spent the better part of the morning repeating it back to you, which was helpful until it wasnât. You werenât sure how to tell them youâve actually never been good at speaking to the press, since you had spent the better half of your life doing the exact opposite.Â
âAnd what did the princess think? Itâs not often we catch you for an interview, you know.âÂ
The eye of the camera seems to pierce through you. You can see your shellacked figure, long and distorted, in the reflection.Â
âIâum,â you swallow hard. God. Pull it together. You can already hear the lecture youâre going to get on the way home today. âYeah, big day today.â
âSheâs had to really rein in her excitement, you know,â Joshua adds, chuckling.Â
Briefly, you feel his hand brush against yours. Ordinarily, youâd pass it off as a fluke, but you feel the steady, insistent warmth of his palm again, first, to the inside of your wrist, then lower still. Before youâre able to really process whatâs happening, he then takes your hand in his all at once, as if to say, Iâve got this. Iâve got you.Â
You figure heâs cashing in his favor earlyâheâd much rather leave you out to dry, let you flounder a bit so you learn to read the PR memorandums the night before. I told you so, heâd say. Thatâs what everyone else would say, anyway.Â
âThe races are sure exciting, but I'm sure youâre even more excited about your upcoming wedding.â The reporter grins at you, as if he smells your fear. His hair looks like itâs glued to the top of his shiny head. âIf I'm going to be honest, you were one of the last people weâd expect to tie the knot this year. We are all dying to hear more.âÂ
What? You force yourself to breathe, feel the air fill your lungs, to avoid making an expression youâll regret.Â
âWell, yeah, I'm sure it looks like it all happened quickly,â you answer, feeling your tongue trip over the words. Mostly because it did, in fact, happen quickly, but you canât let them know that. âBut Josh and I feel strongly about, uh, this whole thing, andââ
âPlease, donât spare us the details.âÂ
Telepathically, Joshua squeezes your hand. This, you understand. Heâs telling you to lean on him, and you trust that.Â
âHold your horses,â he cuts in, almost too quickly, which makes the corners of your mouth twitch upward. He was definitely looking for an opening, but you, bizarrely, donât mind at all. He turns to you and smiles. âWhat's the fun without a little mystery? It's been a wild ride, but I'm loving every second of it.âÂ
Itâs this one, the lamest and most embarrassing dad joke of them all, that gets you.Â
You laugh: a real one, big, loud, and unafraid. It's here, caught in the glare of the camera flash, where you find yourself hoping, even just a little, that this wasnât just a favor, that this was a sign you could actually survive this arrangement.Â
Youâre not asking for loveâjust a little bit of like. and, right now, you think you like Joshua Hong.Â
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In the evening, you find yourself in the oaken parlor nestled away in the back halls of the Acrosian palace.Â
There's a piano there, gathering dust. It's a Steinway, spindly and chestnut, almost identical to the one you have at the palace in Cotria.Â
You and Jihoon had been unpacking your hodgepodge of things (unsorted, since the act of sorting would have forced you to stomach the fact that you were actually moving), when he had found your old lesson books.Â
You should break in that piano, he had said. Either that, or wait for your fiance to find you. He seemed ok at the derby today.Â
I guess.Â
What Jihoon hadnât seen was all the photographs you had to take after your interview with The Sun, where Joshua decided to remind you that you were supposed to hate him. By that, you mean that he managed to make every single one unbearable. (A tap of the foot: Stand up straight. A careful brush of the elbow: Letâs link arms. A discerning, tactful glance at your chest: Pull up your dress. That, or he was no better than the average man.)Â
You and he hadnât talked much after that. Hopefully, heâs fled to your cold, dark dungeon of a room to read, so he can finally leave you alone.
âRemember when your parents invited all their friends over and asked you to play?â Jihoon says, perched on the loveseat while he sorts through an old jewelry box.Â
âYeah, and I literally forgot everything?â you laugh. âFreaking Jeonghan had to check on me because I locked myself in my room for 24 hours straight. And then he had the nerve to laugh at me.âÂ
You thumb through the fattest book of the pile. The binding is soft; the pages now yellow and fuzzed over by time.Â
On page 5, Chopin's Waltz in A-flat major. three four time or whatever, you had scrawled in defiant red ink. Page 37, a thick black line through Debussy's name on Arabesque No. 1. This is because you would always laugh at it during lessons, and you wanted to save yourself the trouble.Â
âDo you want to keep this?â Jihoon holds up a choker that resembles a jock strap. âWhen did you even wear this? It looks like a cat toy.âÂ
You ignore him and start to play. You were never excellentâcompetent would be a better word. Still, it was enough for you. Soonyoung would ask you to play during drunk karaoke, and you could still keep up with Jeonghan when he played one of his overcomplicated duets.Â
Your hands remember the velvet thud of the keys, the glide of the pedal. When you turn the page, thereâs a scrawled in BITCH! next to a heavily circled allegro. Piano was one of the only things that your parents forced you to do that you actually liked. The kicker was that it didnât even do you any good. You werenât as talented as your parents would like you to be, meaning that, to them, you werenât talented at all.Â
Itâs then that your fingers slip, and you miss a chord. In your defense, you have a fresh manicure. Always blame the nails. Your mom hated when you kept them long, even more than your hardass tutor. Â
âThe prince is helping with the theater production this year, right?â Jihoon holds a single earring up to the light. You think you lost the other one in Ibiza last year. âYou gonna help out again?âÂ
âMaybe.â Another wrong note. Youâre losing steam trying to read all the ledger lines and your smeared, illegible writing next to them. âI don't know. He probably wonât even want me to. I'm choosing a different piece, by the way. Bored of this one.âÂ
The truth about your 21st birthday was that you did actually intend to spend it at the youth theater. It was your idea before it was Jeonghanâs idea, but, at the time, you both still were a package deal.
You were on piano; Jeonghan was on whatever else he pleased. He'd always been indecisive like that. At the bench, youâd hoist the little ones on your knee and regale them with the classical version of the opening song from paw patrol. Jeonghan stole prop masks from the back, mostly to hide behind the curtains and scare people, you included. Youâd both stay up late, paint spackled on your palms, trying to Michelangelo a backdrop with the combined artistic talent of a TI-84.Â
The production became your thing, just you and him, no cameras, no press releases, no parents. But like everything else, neither you, Jeonghan, nor anyone else was able to keep those inevitable truths apart. The set pieces were repainted in Italy, the finger-painted fields turned luminescent with varnish; the pins and needles in the costumes swapped with mother-of-pearl; and, finally, you, replaced by a classically trained pianist from Juilliard. At least he was hot.Â
Everyone knows the rest of the storyâthe red carpet, the empty seats, and the puffy pink balloons outside the mansion in Saint Tropez.Â
âOh please,â Jihoon wheedles. âYou and I both know he wanted you there.âÂ
âThen maybe he should have fought harder.â You flip to a random page, this one marked up in pink gel pen. You remember it bled through all the pages behind it, making it a pain to read but awfully funny during lessons. âIt doesn't matter. Thereâs probably wedding stuff i gotta deal with.âÂ
Jihoon lets you play this next piece uninterrupted. Itâs not that itâs a sensitive subject for youâthere were plenty of other things that filled the wedge between you and your brotherâbut it certainly didnât help.Â
You let your fingers wander over the stubborn keys. It feels good to play, even if youâre almost unforgivably rusty. You reach for the page, when you hear Jihoon again: âYou know, youâre allowed to come in, your highness.âÂ
Immediately, your hands freeze. Like a scolded child, you become aware of how your fingers teeter over the keys, the stumbling, awkward clacking of your nails, the one or two missed quarter notes from the last measure.Â
You turn to face the door, where Joshua stands, leaning against the frame like a sleazy model from an Abercrombie catalog. He probably came from the gym. Seeing him dressed down is still very weird, mostly because you canât decide if itâs because he looks good or if itâs because it reminds of seeing your teacher at the grocery store.Â
âAnyone teach you manners?â you ask, unsure if your hackles should be raised.Â
âNo, I was raised in a barn, just like those horses you like so much,â he laughs. âI didnât want to interrupt. Youâre not bad, you know.âÂ
âThanks.â You eye him skeptically. âThought you were gonna comment on the nails.âÂ
âDo you want me to?âÂ
âPreferably not, but itâs not like youâd listen to me anyway.â You look for Jihoonâs reaction, but he seems to have conveniently disappeared. âLetâs play a duet. Iâm cashing in my favor.âÂ
âSure,â Joshua replies. âI'm no good, though. Might be more of a punishment for you.âÂ
You slide over on the bench, and he sidles up next to you. He smells like Le Labo and sweat, the sting citrusy and bright, close enough to linger.Â
âNo good?â You pick up another fat book from the stack atop the lid: The Joy of Duets. âMe neither.âÂ
âYou have no idea,â he chuckles. âAnd trust me, I tried.â Â
âIâll do top?â you announce.Â
Joshua snickers, and you kick him under the bench (really, just a tap of your foot).Â
You spend the next two minutes tripping over a Schubert piece. Terribly, this is endearing to you. You make somewhat of a coupleâyou, with your horrible form, and Joshua, now squinting at the key signature like itâll make it easier to read.
âBuddy,â you exclaim. âLeft hand goes here.â Laughing, you reposition his hand mid-chord to an octave below. You feel it tense beneath you before yielding to proper technique.Â
âAw, what?â he whines. âSee, I told you I was no good. Give me a second.âÂ
You watch him puzzle over the next few lines, pretty brow furrowed. You conclude that Pajama Joshua is decidedly better than Prince Joshua. Heâs funnier, kinder, warmer. Even his hands feel softer.Â
âAlso, about earlier today,â you start. The words are starting to dry up on your tongue, but you figure Pajama Joshua is an easier target than usual. âI didn't know they trained you in stand-up comedy.âÂ
âWe laugh in this country too, you know.â When Joshua says this, he grins, bumping into your shoulder like youâd been friends for a long time. For once, it feels easy, natural.Â
âWell, thanks anyway.âÂ
âI couldn't leave my fiancĂŠe out to dry.â The word must sound ridiculous even to him, because he laughs just the same as he did when he unloaded his ridiculous puns onto the unassuming world. âNo really. Weâre in this together, unfortunately. Itâs my duty.âÂ
Duty, both the knife and the wound. You canât say youâre surprised heâs only nice to you out of obligation. So is everyone else, and you donât know why you thought itâd be any different, especially coming from him. Itâs not like youâre wearing your ring now either; you suppose youâre just as guilty.Â
âYou cross over here,â you tell him, changing the topic. You slide your hand over his, and it bends to you. âThumb under. Sorry, I couldn't help but notice.âÂ
âIt's ok,â Joshua replies. âI only learned piano because I had to. When I stopped going to lessons, I forgot everything. Now I feel like I put this piano to shame.âÂ
âReally? Not to stroke your ego, but you strike me as the type to be good at everything.âÂ
âNo,â he chuckles. âOnly when I have to be. I actually wanted to learn how to play guitar.âÂ
âNo way.âÂ
âYes way. I wanted to have one of those woven guitar straps, get a little pick collection going, be able to play any song from the Beatles discography. All the cliche stuff.âÂ
âWell, why canât you?â you ask. âMinus the Beatles thing. Pick better music.âÂ
âBack then, it never occurred to me. We all learn piano.âÂ
âThat's silly,â you blurt out. âWho cares?âÂ
âThat's a little rich coming from you.âÂ
You frown, feeling all the usual unpleasantries bubble up through your skin.Â
âThat's not really fair.â You absentmindedly play a few keys, all disjointed. âTaking guitar lessons doesnât make you a problem child.âÂ
âIt's not about that, though,â Joshua says. He's avoiding your eyes. âIt's everything, together. I couldn't just pick up a guitar and be someone else.âÂ
âSomeone else? You mean you? The real you?âÂ
âYes,â Joshua presses. âThat's the point. I can't just do whatever I want. Sometimes the real you is more trouble than itâs worth.âÂ
âSomeoneâs dramatic. If you do everything the same, nothing will change. Maybe getting into a little trouble isnât such a bad thing.âÂ
âForgive me,â he says, mid-chuckle. âYou wouldnât call this trouble?âÂ
Heâs got you there. Childishly, all your pride hardens to a lump in your throat, one youâve never learned to swallow.Â
âYour family needed our help too, remember?âÂ
âYeah, and you think I donât think about that every day? How, maybe, if I had done something different, then we wouldnât be here?âÂ
You feel stung. You donât know how to tell him that youâve been trying to figure out the same thing your whole life. If you were a better daughter, youâd have spared everyone the trouble. Unfortunately, youâd gotten it wrong so many times, you stopped trying.
What's worse is that he doesnât even sound madâyou watch his fingertips ghost over the keys of a C-scale, rhythmically, methodically. Piano scales, this marriage, everything: just things to do on his never-ending list.Â
A hesitant knock at the door interrupts any possibility of you coming up with anywhere close to the right thing to say.Â
âPrince Joshua, the king and queen need to speak to you.â Itâs an aide, probably sweating bullets deciding when and how they should intrude on this wonderful conversation of yours.
âRight,â says Joshua, and when he gets up from the bench, he doesnât look back.Â
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âYou ready to get stuffed?âÂ
Good fucking morning to youâSomiâs voice, fluorescent through your phone speakers, seems to be enough of an alarm clock for you. Joshua, in the doorway dual wielding a coffee cup and the morning paper, raises a tired eyebrow.
After the events of last night, youâd wondered if he would somehow disappear at nighttime in an effort to avoid his eventual fate (you). Instead, you found him on his usual side of the bed, drinking his usual mug of chamomile tea, in his usual silence.Â
You've heard that couples shouldnât go to bed angry, but no one said anything about indifferent. Then again, you and Joshua are hardly a couple.Â
âEw,â you laugh. âNo. Maybe? Should I be scared?âÂ
âAbsolutely. Youâre eating your weight in food today because I need your opinion on catering.âÂ
Smushing your phone between your cheek and your shoulder, you watch the mirror as your wavering reflection puts on a layer of mascara.Â
âFor your party?âÂ
âYeah, although on second thought, maybe itâs a bad idea to bring the girl whoâs gonna puke everything up anyway.âÂ
âMy IBS is none of your business. Besides, the real food critic is Jihoon,â you reply. âSometimes I feel like thatâs the only reason he still works here.âÂ
âYouâre coming in an hour, right?âÂ
You check the clock. No, you are not. Youâre only halfway through a full beat and if you donât get any caffeine inside you within the hour, you will commit a crime.Â
âNope.â You pop open your compact. âI have to change, and I desperately need to locate a coffee. I will suck a fucking bean off if i need to.âÂ
âI'm hanging up on you,â Somi whines. âIt's too early for you to be gross and late.â Â
âAs if you werenât talking about getting stuffed.âÂ
âWhatever.â Click.
At this point, you feel like Somiâs party is both the proverbial and literal light at the end of the tunnel. No expectations, no rules, and no semi-arguments between you and your doomed fiance.Â
Then you notice that Joshuaâs disappeared from the roomâhe probably couldnât stand listening to your end of the conversation. Briefly, you wonder where he is. Off running an errand for his dear parents, perhaps, or maybe at the gym you still havenât discovered yet. Even from the hefty distance he keeps you at, you can still appreciate a man who looks like heâs touched a dumbbell.Â
It's only when youâre halfway out the door, almost an hour later, juggling your purse and your phone and the distinct absence of a caffeinated beverage, that you find him.Â
âCome to ruin my day?â you ask, maybe three-fourths joking.Â
âDonât give me any ideas,â he replies. Under the bluebird sky of late morning, lips upturned and eyes bright, Joshua may be a sight you could get used to. Someday. âBrought you a coffee. I canât have you sucking off a beanâthe reporters would go crazy.âÂ
Jihoon, hovering by the car, chokes on his water.Â
âOh!â The surprise knocks the sound out of you. âThank you. Really.âÂ
âGladly,â he says, and he sounds like he means it.
He holds all your stuff as you clamber into the car, before handing it back to close the door for you. Youâll admit itâs nice, but as Jihoon starts to drive, you feel a familiar twist in your chest.
âInteresting,â he remarks. âDidnât know you were on a coffee order basis.âÂ
âWeâre not,â you answer. You pop the lid open. It's a cappuccino, made the classic way, milk foam bubbling out the top. Not your favorite, but itâll do.Â
More than that, itâs an olive branch. Yesterday did get weird, but youâre getting the impression that itâll always get weird. Undoubtedly, there is someone out there whoâll get Joshua. His schedules, his straight-backed obligation, the polished photo ops and the cappuccinos made to a perfect one to one to one ratio. You know this because this is the world you came from, one that should be home to you.Â
Instead, you circle each other in an unsure, clumsy dance. You canât quite get it right. It's all the same now. The bite of a horse saddle not made for your body, the glow of your heirloom ring, now cheapened by your graceless hand, Joshuaâs lonely, reaching palm as he disappears in the rearview mirror.Â
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On your arrival home in the evening, you return with two things: a few extra kilos and an absolutely horrendous copy of the Daily Mail, courtesy of Somi, who saw it at the grocery.Â
"Great showing from the couple of the year," you say, shucking your copy at Joshua. "It looks like we're in Shark Tale."Â
Even from a distance, the cheap ink-spackled cover shows more than enough. LIP LOCK FLOP!, it reads, although you wouldnât really call it a lip lock.Â
It was at the derbyâQuick, theyâre looking at us, you had said. Then what you would call a nunâs version of a kiss: you, already halfway out the door, and him, lips hesitant and pursed, as if he was asked to smooch his withering, dusty great-grandmother.Â
"I'm not even going to ask what you mean by that," Joshua answers, voice level. "It's not that bad."Â
He puts his book down to pick the magazine up, holding it at a distance like the image will jump out of the page and bite him. You see his expression flicker, and that's all you need to confirm your suspicions.Â
"Ok, it's a little bad." He places it on the nightstand next to him face-down. "It'll be alright. It's not like the wedding will be called off over one bad picture."Â
"You know that's not the issue." You sit on your side of the bed, about a full meter away from him. You kind of want to look again just to see how bad it is, but you're sure it'll be inescapable by the morning.Â
"Since when did you care what the press thought of you?"Â
"Since it mattered." You stare at your lap, eyes fixed on the too-new, wiggly hem of your pajamas instead of him. You can tell he's still looking at you, thoughâyou think those big, watery eyes have some sort of flashlights in them, and you don't like it. "It seems wrong if our mistakes take up space."Â
You hear him make a small noise of agreement. Joshua still won't admit that you're right, but you suppose you like that a little. At least he'll be stubborn about something, even if it's about clearly not liking you.Â
"What do you suggest?" he asks, putting his book down. âWe didn't choose each other, so I'm not surprised there's no attraction."Â
"Ouch." He's right, but you'd rather be the one saying it. "I'm a good kisser. You aren't."Â
"I'm just not good at kissing you," he retorts.Â
"Evidently." You shimmy towards his side of the bed, where the sheets are cooler under your thighs, the pillows still neatly arranged on the headboard. "What I'm saying is that we should at least try to look more realistic. Likeâ"Â
"Are you saying we should practice?" Joshua looks at you over the frames of his glasses, incredulous.Â
"Yeah," you say, now too far in it to back out. "Like exposure therapy. For unwilling couples."Â
The room gets quiet, as if it wasn't unbearably so before. You watch Joshua pick up his book again. He puts the bookmark in, two-thirds from the spine of the book so as to not ruin the binding, and places it over the doomed tabloid.Â
"Okay." To your surprise, he turns to face you. The lamplight catches the lens of his glasses and makes his eyes look warmer than they truly are. "How should we do this?"Â
The way Joshua's gaze settles on you makes you feel like you're being evaluated. An exam in Kissing 101, except the test would rather not have anything to do with you at all. For the first time in your life, you let your eyes wander to his lips, rosy and full, and you feel the pit of anxiety in your belly grow wider. Somehow he's managed to take all the fun out of one of your favorite activities, but you'll be damned if he walks away from this thinking it's you who's the problem.Â
"Just...let me lead," you say quietly, now leaning closer to him. You have to ease yourself into it. You let your body respond, feel the skip of your heart, a heady flush wash over your cheeks. He smells like spearmint and clover.Â
You've kissed a lot of people. None of this should feel new to you. His eyelashes skim against your cheek, and you can hear the breath he takes, quivering, gentle.
Despite all this, the first kiss is no better than any of the other ones. his lips meet yours, hesitant before they start moving. He's shy, and it would almost endear him to you if he wasn't so annoying. But then the charade is over. His nose clocks yours and it startles you both enough to draw away, ever so slightly.Â
"Not my fault," you murmur. You're so close, you can see your reflection in his pupils, glassy and dark.Â
"Thought this was practice," responds Joshua, unfazed.Â
So you lean in again, giving it another go. Two is betterâsweet and succinct. a first date type of kiss. You can taste the berry of your lip balm on him.Â
Then again, except this time it's him who goes in, chases your lips.Â
The scary thing is that you thought this would be much harder. You had stood in the bathroom, looked yourself in the mirror, and psyched yourself up to do the impossible.Â
But the moment you meet him, now so close there's no room to breathe, you feel an impenetrable, unshakable desire crawling up your bones. Your palm finds the flat of his chest. Even under the silk of his ridiculous pajama top, you feel the heat of his skin, the restless quick of his heartbeat, and your stomach flips.Â
Four, five. You're losing count. Joshua's hand trails up your arm to cup your cheek, and you'd be lying if you said you didn't feel your breath catch in your chest.Â
He's warm, so warm. When your other hand finds the back of his neck, he makes a small sound in his throat and you like it.
It's at this point you realize there is no point in pretending. Maybe you don't want to kiss Joshua at any other moment during any other day, but you do now. You really do.Â
When your tongue meets the seam of his lips, it feels all too natural. At first, predictably, he buffers a bit. For a split second, you envision him pulling away and saying you've gotten more than a lifetime's worth of practice in.Â
But he doesn't. Instead, an arm winds around your waist and that's all it takes for your body to stop listening to you altogether. Lips still connected, you lift yourself to straddle his lap, right over the folded up covers, and his hands, devastatingly strong, find your hips to keep you rooted there.Â
You're starting to think he isn't such a bad kisser after allâmaybe he really was holding out on you, but there's something weirdly rewarding about him waiting until he liked you just a little more. Whatever that means.Â
You learn that his hair is soft, really soft, at the base of his neck. You learn that he likes when you bite his lips and you learn that his spearmint mouthwash does, in fact, taste as good as it smells.Â
You also learn that you, paradoxically, might not know how to love Joshua Hong, but you sure do know how to kiss him.Â
--end of part 1--
[part 2 -> ]
#recs#other more miniscule commentary for certain scences were put in the doc when i read them the first time HAHAH so you've seen them already
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God I hope one day whatever Nonsense happens on the Everything Is Alright Nemesis someone runs up to sparked Megatron like "Lord Megatron you will not believe what happened in the 20 seconds we were left to our own devices-" and they run in and hes just
And the human is next to him in their own lounge chair also kicked back bc if its his day off its THEIR day off too. Like go bother someone else, if Starscream wants to be in charge let him take it for the day and lets see if he hasnt started peeling his own paint from stress. Shoo.
(Image is from the Go Go comics!)
Megatron was already over it even before he got sideswiped by this nonsense. Megatronâs a ticking time bomb at this point
Everything Is Alright Pt 117
IDW Starscream x Reader, Soundwave x Reader, Megatron x Reader
⢠Aware of the very judgmental look Soundwave is aiming at you as you just watch Star get scruffed by Megatron while your mate screams what youâre guessing is Cybertronian profanity and Megatron just laughs, youâre so tired. Sick of aliens and their stupid, alien bullshit. Something Soundwave seems to sense as he vents and just turns and walks away with you. âMegatron?â He prompts as he carries you and your shoulders creep up to your ears.
⢠Youâd denied him when heâd tried to fully bond to you and had fully bonded Megatron instead. Just when he thinks heâs figured out humans and he canât help but be a little hurt about it. âPlease, donât look at me like that, I was so out of it, itâs not like I had any idea what was happening,â you say and he caves at your angry, little expression, reaching to tap a servo under you chin. âYouâre going to go back and stop them, right? Soundwave?â No, heâs going to let them work it out. Itâs not like they can really hurt each other anymore anyway. Youâve effectively made it so neither can murder the other. Itâd be funny if it wasnât so horrifying.
⢠Apparently heâs not going to do anything about the fight, Soundwave seeming not at all concerned about it. âBig trouble,â Soundwave admonishes, a servo rubbing your jaw as he carries you back to his quarters. And you have no idea if he means accidentally giving Megatron Starâs sparkling, fully bonding Megatron, or passing out. Probably all three. Sitting on his berth with you and mass shifting, his arms curl around you. âWorried, little one,â he says, voice soft.
⢠Rumbling softly as you reach up to cup his face, a thumb sliding against his mask until he retracts it for you. Do you have any idea how much you scared him? That when Starscream had collapsed, heâd been afraid heâd lost you again. âSo Megatron is sparked now. Is that normal? You guys passing the spark?â You ask and he shakes his head. Because nothing about mating a human has been normal. Causing more chaos in the short time heâs known you than the Autobots have the whole war.
⢠So youâre a weird one off. Fantastic. And then the door is opening as Megatron drags Starscream in by a wing, your other mate still swearing as heâs shoved into the room and Soundwave vents tiredly against you. âLittle pet,â Megatron snarls, optics narrowed. âYouâd spark a mech and then abandon them?â Why? Why is it like this? Hiding your face against Soundwaveâs neck, you just want to cry. And Megatronâs still grinning that slightly mad little smile that makes you skin crawl and promises retribution at some point for what youâd accidentally done. Youâre starting to really hate aliens.
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#transformers x reader#starscream x reader#megatron x reader#soundwave x reader#soundwave#megatron#starscream
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21 QUESTIONS | Day 17
PAIRING bass player Hwa x interviewer reader
WORD COUNT | 1.7k
GENRE Smut
WARNING 18+ MINORS DO NOT INTERACT âźď¸
SUMMARY you went in praying for a smooth interview, but by the end of it Seonghwa seemed a lot more interested in interviewing you
MORE | Day 17 of the Groupie Love Series
Interviews with the press, the one thing that their group absolutely dreaded more than anything else. The reporters were always far too deep in your business and always asked questions that never seemed to draw a line between personal and professionalism. So Seonghwa had been quite surprised to see you walk in far more sophisticated and elegant than the past reporters theyâd talk to. He honestly found it amusing that you were taking it this serious, after all to him all you reporters were to him were grown adults with gossiping issues.
The moment you took a seat his eyes shifted to you from the couch he sat across from you. Taking in your frame from head to toe, he didnât know if it was the fact that you showed no interest in him personally or the fact that you dressed the complete opposite of the man that sat before you and the rest of the band, but there was something about you he looked. You looked like a forbidden fruit desperate to meet someoneâs lips, his of course.
âYou donât look like the type to be into rock bands.â
âAnd exactly what is that supposed to mean?â He leans in resting his arms on his thighs, seemingly observing you through lidded eyes.
âJust that you simply donât look like the type thatâd be into our music, in all honesty you donât even look like the gossiping type.â His eyebrows quirk up with intrigue as you scoff and roll your eyes at him, giving him a subtle attitude.
âWe just met each other today and you think youâve read me like some book?â
âJust simply making an observation, though if youâd like me to read you I wouldnât mind that.â Seonghwa chuckles as you roll your eyes at him once more, your conversation getting cut short as the rest of the band joins the two of you forcing you to stay the interview rather than completely give it to him for his narcissistic observations.
By the end of the interview all of them had cleared out of the room except for Seonghwa of course, having been too hung up on wanting to fix the earlier conversation heâd had with you.
âYou know my offer still stands.â
âAnd what is that offer exactly?â He simply grins as you respond to him with your back still facing him, your focus seemingly on your questions and notes you had jotted down during the interview.
âTo read you.â
âIf youâre so sure youâve got me all the way figured out then read me, because I can assure you you know nothing about me I can say far more about you or your little band than you could ever get right about me.â
âIs that right?â
âYou all have made it this far simply because of your sex appeal, the music was good at ghost but now all of you rely on the sex, drugs and afterparties. Youâre no longer legends because of the music but because of the good time you provide.â He slowly creeps in closer, caging you in between arms, his breath not on your neck.
âContinue, since you know so much.â It was obvious by the tone of voice that he was now annoyed with you, though what was worse for him was that he didnât know if he was annoyed because you had struck a nerve or because you simply hit the nail on the head. You on the other hand felt a heat consuming your body as he locked you in place against the table before you, his body a little too close for comfort, yet you couldnât get yourself to push him away.
âAnd you specifically, youâve been drowning yourself in alcohol, women, men. Ever sinceâŚâ you trailed off yet he knew all too well what you had been preventing yourself from saying. His hands squeezed your waist, nails piercing your skin as his grip tightened.
âYou know what maybe I was wrong, all you reporters are the same, you talk too damn much.â He presses you against the table, bending you over and shoving your face and chest against the table.
âI think itâs about time someone shut one of you up.â
His fingers traced the arch of your back until they were wrapped around your neck.
âAlways speaking on shit none of you know anything about.â You opened your mouth to speak but your ass being met by a harsh slap made a loud cry spill from them instead.
âWait-â
âWait what? Not done talking? After all that running your mouth you still have more talking to do?â He lands another harsh smack, then another.
âSpeak then, since thatâs your job. To run that pretty fucking mouth until ups tired of talking. Speak.â He was doing this on purpose, every one of his harsh spanks syncing perfectly with every time youâve tried to open up your mouth and speak.
âSo annoying, all of you. If you want to put your mouth to good use Iâll give you the perfect way to use it. You try to cover your mouth and ill call everyone back in here just to watch me fuck you, understand?â To his dissatisfaction you nod your head in response making him force your head back by your hair.
âSpeak.â
âI understand..â Though your voice was faint and far more soft spoken compared to before when you were reading him for filth, he didnât mind in fact he liked it that way.
his hands were now roaming your body while his mouth latched onto your neck. his fingers tracing every outline of your shoulders, back, arms, waist, and up to tangle into your beautiful hair. you breathed quietly; the pace of your breath picking up with heaves as his fingers traced your skin.
the warm, wet, heat in between your legs starts to pulse against your better judgement. Everything about this was wrong and made you feel desperate, yet you couldnât pull yourself away. You could hear the rustling behind you as he tugs at the waist of his pants. With one hand wrapped around your hair and the other on his belt he managed to free his cock from his pants. Despite yourself being covered you melted at the way it pressed against your clothed bottom.
his hands slip around your waist to find the bottom of your white button up, unbuttoning every one of them with ease as if it had been something heâd done time and time again. His hangs then slip to your waist, untying the ribbon that has kept your pants tight and snug on your waist, wasting no time shoving your pants and panties down to your knees.
âAll that talk about me and the women or men Iâve slept around with when you get this wet from me spanking you and bending you over.â He presses his tip against your core, sliding it around the wetness that was left from the mess in your panties.
âAn absolute whore.â
Seonghwa impales himself into you without warning. your hands quickly grasp at the table beneath you, nails digging and scraping against the hard oakwood. your body betrays you , giving into his satisfaction you let out a lewd moan. The sudden intrusion makes you cry out at the way he stretched you out.
Grabbing your wrists he forces both your hands behind your back, bonding them together in his own hands.
his hips pull back to snap back into you causing your body to jolt. He groans at the feeling of your warm cunt wrapped around him. you squeeze him just right, far better than any of the othe groupies or needy pick meâs heâd had previously. You hugged him just right, squeezed him tight enough to make him cum on the spot. He rolls his hips around, pushing his cock as far as he can into you until heâs completely bottomed out. His eyes rolling back each time he feels his tip kissing your cervix. The whimpers and pornographic moans spilling from your lips making his hunger for you more primal.
âyouâre so tight fuck,â he groans, his thrusts picking up. loud smacks of skin and the evident sounds of pleasure that spilled from your lips filling the room.
You let out small gasps of his name between each of your desperate cries of pleasure.
He yanks your head back staring down at your contorted face while his cock bullies into you with no resolve. your sobs and moans ring through his ears in a haunting melody that he knew heâd be thinking about again later on tonight. For a moment he heard you fall silent and a loud smack rang through the room as he smacked your ass.
âWhat did I tell you sweetheart?â in your silence, he makes a particular rough movement, shoving himself deeper than he had previously gone, enough to bruise your cervix and leave behind evidence that he had fucked you to the point of no return. you instantly let out a high pitched moan, mouth falling open and putting a smile on his face.
âGood girl.â his cock is pistoning in and out of your pussy over and over. his thrusts growing more erratic and desperate.
âFuck iâm so close. What exactly should I do huh? Should I fill you with my cum, sweetheart. fuck a baby into you.â you moan out, your nails digging into the desk and clawing at it hard enough to leave scratch marks.
âYouâd like that hm? Wouldnât you princess after all the only reason you got this job was so you could be close to people like me hm? Work your way to the top.â He chuckles and yanks your head back.
âFuck,â he moans, his thrusts are getting sloppy, simply chasing the feeling of being in climax.
â fuck, youâre going to have to take thisâ he moans loudly, his body pressing against your own. You almost instantaneously feel the warm, sticky liquid fill you up. The fullness of it all makes you hum in satisfaction, even if you knew there was a 50/50 chance youâd be regretting it all later.
The room falls silent other than the sound of both of your heavy breathing and him rustling to fix his clothes.
âAdd yourself to the list of people Iâve fucked since youâre so caught up on my count.â
His fingers gently trace over your waist as you fix your clothes and tie your ribbon back around your waist.
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synopsis: you love letting vi play with your hair, but all semblance of happiness is shattered when she finds a grey hair
pairings: vi x reader
Softly sighing, you tightened your arms around her waist, your head resting gently against her chest. Each breath she took, each beat of her heart echoed in your mind, lulling your thoughts and calming your mind as you let her body heat penetrate through the thin pajamas you both adorned. You loved laying like thisâlaying on top of her, her hands gently threading through your hair, the only sound in the room the soft breaths from her lips.Â
Her fingertips grazed your scalp, slow and soothing, as if she knew exactly how to untangle the stress woven into your thoughts. You felt her shift slightly beneath you, her lips brushing against your temple in a lazy, half-asleep gesture of affection.Â
âYouâve got something here,â she mumbled, her voice still heavy with sleep. Her fingers paused at the crown of your head, twirling a strand of hair. âHuh.âÂ
âWhat?â you asked, not moving from your spot, your voice muffled against your chest. You didnât think much of it. It was probably just another excuse for her to tease youâshe loved finding little quirks about you to point out.Â
âItâs grey.âÂ
You froze.Â
âGrey?â you repeated, lifting your head to meet her gaze.Â
âMm-hmm.â her lips twitched into a lopsided grin as she held the strand out for you to see. âRight here. Just one, though. I think itâs cute.âÂ
âCute?â you shot up, your heart racing as you scrambled off her lap and into a seated position. You tugged your hair forward, trying to catch a glimpse of this so-called intruder in the strands framing your face. âI have a grey hair!?â
âRelax, babe,â Viâs chuckle followed you as she leaned back on her elbows, thoroughly amused. âYouâre overreacting. Itâs one hair. We just fought a war, itâs probably from stress or something.âÂ
âOr something?â Your voice hit an octave you didnât even know you could reach. âVi, this is how it starts! One day, itâs one little grey hair, and the nextââ You gesture wildly, as though the mere idea of aging was too horrifying to put into words. âIâm old!âÂ
âOld?â Vi snorted, sitting up on her elbows. She reached for you, but you swatted her hands away as you stood, pacing the room. âSweetheart, youâre not even thirty. Youâre fine.â
âEasy for you to say!â You exclaimed, pointing at her. âYouâre Vi. Youâre going to be gorgeous forever. Youâre the same person who looks perfect even when youâve just woken up!â
Vi arched a brow, her grin widening as she leaned back again, clearly enjoying the show. âKeep going. I like where this is headed.âÂ
You groaned, grabbing a pillow from the bed and chucking it at her. She caught it easily, her laugh filling the room. âDonât laugh at me! This is serious! Iâmââ You paused, clutching your chest dramatically. âIâm having a quarter-life crisis.â
That did it. Vi couldnât hold back, laughing so hard her shoulders shook. âOh, babe,â she said between giggles, âyouâre really something else.âÂ
âThis isnât funny,â you grumbled, crossing your arms and flopping back onto the bed beside her. You stared at the ceiling, your thoughts racing. âIâm too you for grey hair. What does it mean? Am I stressed more than usual? Is it genetics? Is itââ
âItâs life,â she interrupted, her voice softer now as she rolled onto her side to face you. âItâs hair. Itâs not the end of the world, I promise.âÂ
Her hand found yours, her fingers threading through yours gently. âYouâre beautiful,â she said, her tone earnest. âGrey hairs, stress, wrinklesânone of it changes that. If anything, it just means weâve been through some stuff, you know?âÂ
You turned your head to look at her, her blue eyes bright with sincerity. âYou really mean that?âÂ
âOf course I do.â She leaned in, pulling you back onto her, pressing a kiss to your temple. âYouâre stuck with me, gray hairs and all.âÂ
You couldnât help the small smile that tugged at your lips. âYouâre such a sap.âÂ
âAnd you love it,â she teased, grinning as she reached up to brush your hair behind your ear, her fingers threading back into your hair once more. âNow, let me see if I can find any more.âÂ
You groaned, burying your face in her shoulder as she laughed, the sound wrapping around you like a blanket. Crisis avertedâat least for now.Â
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Jumping right back in to part 3!
Accurate depiction of me knowing what's about to happen to the readers dad. đđťđđťđđťđđťđđťđđť
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âGo, get out of here!â he shouts and waves you off. âWhat? What is it?!â you yell. He shakes his head, like heâs unable to answer your question. âRun! Run and donât stop!â
âSo thereâs a chance he could still be alive,â you say, in a brighter voice. Dean gives you a measured look, dragging a hand over his mouth. âLook, Iâm gonna be straight with you,â he says. âItâs been months, right?â You nod, though you realize what heâs saying. Donât get your hopes up.
I won't get my hopes up. I will be just as devastated now as when I find out that he is gone for good. đ
Also I love that you said her mother refused to "entertain anything else" because Dean's job description is literally "anything else" lol. And it really is a wonderful thing (not wonderful like good but you know what I mean) that Dean and the reader can further connect on. Her knowing what Dean really did for a living and him being brave enough to risk his life on the possibility of "a chance."
âI appreciate the thought, but trust me. Iâd rather you look out for you,â he says.
It's too late for that kind of talk sexy mountain man. You're stuck with her and she is not going to let you go that easy.
Am I trying to hide my emotions over Dean going into the wilderness alone to face a wendigo with humor? Yes, yes I am.
You try to fill up your time in other ways, like attempting, and failing, and trying again more successfully to make bread from scratch. You havenât binge-watched every season of The Great British Bake-Off for nothing.
It's a whole vibe đ
Side note: I did have to look up what nesting was in the A/B/O universe, but that is so cute. đ
After you manage to clamber back onto your feet using the crutches, you put together some supplies, including the extra med kit in case heâs hurt. (Or in case something happens to you while youâre out there.)Â This is a bad idea, you think, even as you heave on your jacket. Then, you hear the sound of a lock turning, before the front door shoves open.Â
Oh goodness, yes it was a bad idea and I am so happy that Dean showed up when he did, because my anxiety for this reader was THROUGH THE ROOF. I mean yes, go get your man, but gurl please it's snowing and you've got a broken ankle. At least catch a bear or something to pull you on a sleigh lol. đ¤Ł
Your lips tremble. As that horrible realization dawns, you break down into tears. You already know from his tone that your father was dead when he found him. Dean guides you down to him by your shoulder and wraps his arms around you. You bury your face into his neck, and your body shakes with quiet sobs.
See this is why I don't get my hopes up because OH MY SWEET GOODNESS I'M CRYING đ But at least Dean is there now to wipe away her tears. AND my tears will soon be dried with the fires of their passion so... LOL đ
He finally drags you to him in a kiss. Itâs heady and passionate, and also comforting. Your fingers wind into his hair, your nails scraping along his scalp. He growls as his arm tightens around your waist. You shiver in delight.
See I feel better already đĽ°
âDo you know what your scent is to me?â you ask, in a voice slightly trembling. You glance at the fireplace that has dimmed to embers. âItâs better than that fire at full blaze. Every time I went camping with my dad, thatâs what I loved the most. Sitting by that fire, talking, laughing, and for the millionth time, telling the story of when I gave my sister micro bangs in her sleep when I was ten.â
This is such a wonderful comparison to what it's like being around him for the reader. It holds the warmth and the feeling of home whenever you read it. I love it.
And also you know how much I love the continuing idea of Dean thinking that he's not enough and that the reader would never like him. I know that I always point it out when I read something of yours, but it really always fits him and you write it so well my friend đ
âLookâŚeven if thatâs true, you donât want this with me,â he says. His handsome face becomes marred by a frown, his brows knitting together. âI donât even own this place. Besides my car, I ainât got much of anything to give.â
I also love this bit, because Dean reduces himself to physical wealth here rather than seeing all the wonderful qualities of himself that we all love being something that he can give the reader. It really makes their connection all the more loving and real, because the reader isn't asking for Dean to give her things or to be rich, she's just asking FOR Dean. And I think it will be a beautiful and wonderful thing when he realizes that.
This chapter was so wonderful Alex! I loved every heart wrenching bit and I can't wait to read the next one my wonderful friend! â¤ď¸
Against the Wind - Part 3
Pairing:Â Alpha!Dean Winchester x F. Omega!ReaderÂ
Summary: You wake up in a strange alphaâs cabin in the middle of a snowstorm, all with a busted ankle. He holds shadows in his eyes, even though his hands are gentle. There are iron shutters around his heart, even though he saved you. You might just save him in return.
AN: Merry Christmas! I'm dropping this chapter a day early for you guys. Now, here's the full story, and what Dean is going to do about itâŚ
Jacklesverse Bingo24 Prompt: True Mates @jacklesversebingo
Song Inspo:Â âAgainst the Windâ by Bob Seger
Word Count: 3.8K
Tags/Warnings: 18+ only. Angst, mentions of blood, hint of spice.~
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Part 3: Nothing Left to Burn
âWe should start heading back,â you say, looking up at the mid-afternoon sky. It was starting to dip toward the top of the trees in the distance. âItâs going to take a couple of hours to get back before nightfall.â
âYep, itâs about that time.â Your dad groans as he starts to haul himself back to his feet, where you two had been taking a rest against a tree. âJesus, I need a new pair of knees. Help your old man, would ya?â
You smirk as you help the middle-aged alpha to his feet. His joints pop and his back cracks as he stretches his arms high.
âDamn, Dad. Youâre creakier than the trees,â you quip.
He tosses you a wry look. âJust you wait. In a few years, after wrangling a couple of pups, youâre gonna feel my pain.â
âA few years?â you laugh. âDid I miss the part where I actually met a decent guy, let alone one worth mating?â
âOh, youâll find him,â your dad nods, slinging his rifle back over his shoulder. âOr heâll find you, like your mother did with me.â
You follow his lead with your own rifle, falling into step with him through the forest clearing. Itâs a beautiful day in late November. Already you can see the edge of frost on the shrubs and half-barren trees. The ground is littered with dead leaves painted in browns, oranges, and dappled with reds.
âYou met her in college. Itâs not like you guys defied fate,â you say.
âYeah, but if she hadnât walked into my psychology class by mistake, and stolen my latte at the campus cafĂŠ, maybe you wouldnât be here,â he teases.Â
You huff and roll your eyes. Yes, your parents are a walking clichĂŠ. And by far, your dadâs the bigger sap.
âIâm telling you. Sometimes, the universe does us a solid,â he says, reinforcing his point with a literal pointed finger your way. You push it away from your face in exasperation.
âYou might wanna watch where youâre going,â you say, âbefore you roll your ankle on another pebble.â
âYou kidding me?â he exclaims. âThat thing was the size of my fist! Youâre lucky I didnât break an ankle. Make you carry me all the way back to the car.â
You snort. âRight. Think Iâll just leave you for the bearsâŚâ
You trail off when a sound reaches you and your father. The sound of leaves crunching in the underbrush, quick and light. Your fatherâs shoulders straighten with alertness, the alphaâs head cocking toward the sound.
âMaybe I spoke too soon about the bears,â you whisper. He shakes his head.
âNah, too light. Itâs probably an elk.â He tosses you a smile. âWeâll have one hell of a haul to bring home, plus a good story to tell your mom.â
Your mother, the vegan veterinarian?
âYeah, because she loves elk meat.â
âWould you quit being a smartass for two minutes? You go a little west. Iâll see where itâs at,â he says.
He quietly wracks his rifle and steps away from the clearing, farther into the woods. You do what he says, veering west. You donât see the elk, and soon enough, you donât see your dad either. You do hear a whistling on the wind, and the cold of it cuts right through your coat.
Unease prickles down your spine, though you donât know why.
âDad?â you whisper-yell, trying not to spook whatever animal might be out there.
A gunshot rings out, along with your dadâs voice in a shout. Your eyes widen in alarm, and you call his name, taking off in a run to find him.
You end up rising over a hill you hadnât crossed before, but you see your dad below; you recognize his bright blue puffer jacket that Mom got him for his birthday. You call his name, and he looks up at you with fear in his eyes.
Not for himself, but for you.
âGo, get out of here!â he shouts and waves you off.
âWhat? What is it?!â you yell.
He shakes his head, like heâs unable to answer your question. âRun! Run and donât stop!â
He moves further into the denser trees until you can no longer make him out. With a frustrated huff, you sprint down the hill and try to follow his tracks with your gun at the ready. On the wind, in the distance, you still hear his voice.
Until it cuts off abruptly, along with the terrible cracking of bone.
You gasp and halt in your steps. What the fuck was that?
Tears fill your eyes and blur your vision. Despite what you heard, you realize just how very alone you are in the clearing. Fear and adrenaline make your breath tremulous and shallow, but you canât just give up. You search for a while longer, making yourself hoarse calling out to your father.
No matter what direction you take, you never find him.
âI ran back to town to get the rangers,â you say, brushing a couple of stray tears from your cheeks. You sniff, licking your lips and swallowing a hard lump of emotion in your throat.
Dean continues to listen intently with his brows furrowed.
âIt was too late,â you sigh. âHe disappeared. They explained it away, thought a grizzly bear got him, but I know it wasnât a damn bear.âÂ
You shake your head as the tears come harder and faster, all over again. Deanâs jaw clenches in sympathy.
âNo one believed me about what I heard, not even my mom,â you confess. Your mother had been too distraught to entertain âanything else.â No matter how strongly youâd felt about your suspicions, you understood that she just wanted to put your fatherâs death behind her after his funeral. Part of you had stopped believing yourself.Â
A stronger part of you hadnât been able to let it go, however. So you had to come back here and try to find any trace of your father.Â
When you finally run out of words, you see the proverbial gears turning in Deanâs eyes.Â
âWhatâre you thinking?â you hazard to ask. You canât help but reach out and grab at his wrist. âDo youâŚdo you believe me?â
Deanâs gaze softens a fraction. He lays his larger hand over yours.
âYeah, I do,â he says. âIâm willing to bet on what took him too.â
He squeezes your hand before he lets you go and gets up from his seat. He soon returns with his fatherâs journal in hand. He reclaims his spot across from you, sitting close to your thigh on the end of the chaise. His gaze falls away from your face to the journal in hand, and he flips it open to a page he knows from memory. You suck in a subtle breath to steel yourself when he turns it toward youâto the very page that had given you nightmares the first night you read it.Â
Wendigo.Â
âNasty son of a bitch,â he says. âIt hibernates for decades at a time, but when it surfaces, it knows how to get through long winters like this. It takes a handful of people at a time, feeding on its victims slow.â
You feel sick at that, but still, his words elicit a sliver of hope.
âSo thereâs a chance he could still be alive,â you say, in a brighter voice. Dean gives you a measured look, dragging a hand over his mouth.
âLook, Iâm gonna be straight with you,â he says. âItâs been months, right?â
You nod, though you realize what heâs saying. Donât get your hopes up.
âBut thereâs a chance,â you insist, with tears in your eyes. Dean holds your gaze for a moment, and he nods. He squeezes your knee this time, then shuts the journal with one hand as he moves to stand.
You follow him on your crutches over to the kitchen. He pulls out a drawer and retrieves a folded-up map. Tossing the journal on the kitchen counter, he opens up the map and lays it out flat next to the sink. Itâs a map of the mountain, and the entire forest surrounding the mountain of Big Sky. Deanâs eyes flick up to yours.
âWhere did it happen?â
Dean has packed up his supplies and put on his winter gear. You watch him from the living room sofa, trying to hide your unease. You know heâs doing this for you, but thereâs part of you that doesnât want to see him leave, for his own sake, and selfishly for yours.
âTry not to go outside again unless you absolutely frigginâ have to,â he warns. âAnd if you do, donât go too far. Make sure you take a weapon, preferably a gun and a knife.â
âDean, I know,â you reply. You get up and hover by the couch while he finishes lacing his snowshoes and hooks his backpack on. Youâre unable to hide your concern.
âYou shouldnât be going out there alone,â you say.Â
Dean tosses you a grin. It has the shade of how he was with you before the âjournalâ incidentâself-assured, a hint teasing.
âDonât worry. This isnât exactly my first solo mission,â he says, though his devil-may-care attitude soon subsides into something more serious. âIf Iâm not back inside a week, you need to ration out the supplies here as best you can. That new meat in the fridge should last you a while.â
By new meat, you have to assume he means the bear.
âWhen youâre healed up, you can make your way down the mountain and back to town with that map I left for you. Kitchen counter,â he says.
Your frown worsens. You step closer to him with the pretense of closing and locking the front door for him after he leaves.
âDean,â you say, stopping him at the door. He turns to look at you over his shoulder. You hesitate, fidgeting slightly, but you gain your courage.
âIf you donât come back, Iâm going to find you,â you warn him.
Dean frowns. He turns to you fully and tilts his head as if to say, come again?
âNo, youâre not, Omega. You understand me?â
His terseness doesnât scare you anymore. You glare up at him, quite literally standing your ground.
âYou didnât leave me out there when you didnât even know me. You think Iâd do that to you?â you counter.
At that, Dean has to pause, tilting his head slightly. He almost smiles at your stubbornness, and just like that, his annoyance dissipates. It softens him, making him reach for your arm in an assuring squeeze.
âI appreciate the thought, but trust me. Iâd rather you look out for you,â he says.
Right now, you donât really give a shit about what heâd rather, but you donât say so. Itâs written across your face anyway. Deanâs mouth tugs at a smile.
âAll right, Iâm out,â he says. âSave me some of Yogi in there.â
You huff, but you shut the door behind him after he steps out onto the porch, down the steps, and beyond. You move to the living room window and watch him get farther and farther away from the cabin.Â
Despite the crackling fireplace, you begin to feel cold inside.Â
After the first three days, youâve managed to clean the entire cabin, top to bottom. With the ânew meat,â you make a large batch of soup to last you throughout the week. You freeze a couple of servings for Dean.
For when he gets back.Â
You try to fill up your time in other ways, like attempting, and failing, and trying again more successfully to make bread from scratch. You havenât binge-watched every season of The Great British Bake-Off for nothing.
Then you organize all of the alphaâs books by author. You wash all the laundry you can find and fold everything neatly on his bed, and you put away the couple of sweaters youâve borrowed from him into your own dresser.Â
On Day Four, you create a nest of pillows and blankets in the middle of the living room floor. In your anxiety, itâs a reflex you canât help. Your initial instinct was to nest in his room, but you thought that was too invasive of his privacy, so the living room was your next best option. At least his scent is still somewhat imbued into his favorite chair, and around his records. (You do steal another shirt of his to sleep with though.)
On Day 8, your worry becomes a living thing. You pace the living room and the kitchen on your crutches, probably wearing down the wooden ends of them while you debate what to do. Despite what Dean told you to do if he didnât get back, you know youâre not just going to leave him out there. But the reality is, you have a problem of mobility.
With a frustrated huff, you decide to try setting your problem foot down normally. Your ankle hurts, a sharp pain shooting up your calf and nearly sending you to the floor.
âFuck!â you gasp, both in shock and aggravation.
You know this isnât just a sprain. At best it could be a fracture, since no bone is protruding under the skin. It still means you shouldnât go after him either.Â
But youâll have to try.Â
After you manage to clamber back onto your feet using the crutches, you put together some supplies, including the extra med kit in case heâs hurt. (Or in case something happens to you while youâre out there.)Â This is a bad idea, you think, even as you heave on your jacket.
Then, you hear the sound of a lock turning, before the front door shoves open.Â
A yelp of surprise escapes you, though you soon realize that itâs Dean, looking worn down and ragged, but alive.Â
âHome, sweet home,â he says wryly, but he looks relieved to see you too.
You help him sink down onto the chaise, where he stretches out with a groan. He tips his head back on the cushion. His jacket is torn in a few places. Blood has dried on his cheek, his neck, and near his hairline, and you worry about where else he might be hurt.Â
You quickly go to the kitchen and pour a bowl of warm water and grab a hand towel. You bring it all back to Dean, where you set your supplies on the floor and sit down beside him on the cushion.
âAre you okay?â You try to calm down your racing heart (and the nauseous feeling in your stomach) as you help him work open his jacket, followed by his shirt. Discreetly, your eyes take in the expanse of his tanned skin and pebbling nipples exposed to the cool air, even with the fire roaring nearby.
âYeah, just peachy,â he says.Â
You smile a little. You take the towel, dampen it, and begin to clear the blood from his cheek, his neck, and the upper part of his torsoâeven his scuffed hands. Then you squeegee out the blood in the bowl and continue your task. Dean subtly watches you, his gaze a bit softer than usual.
He eventually looks you over with a frown as he takes in the way youâre dressed, and then the backpack by the door.Â
âWhat, about to go for a little afternoon stroll?â His sarcasm turns to annoyance. âDidnât I tell you to stay put until you can actually walk?â
Your mouth flattens into a line, but any anger you mightâve felt is waylaid by your relief. It brings tears to your eyes.Â
âI thought something happened to you,â you say.
Dean hesitates. Your hand has stilled on his chest. He softens a little more, grasping your hand in his larger one.Â
âIâm fine,â he says. âThe jobâs done.â
Your eyes widen. âYou found theâŚthing? The wendigo?â
His mouth pulls at a cocky grin, tempered only by his tiredness, and the way heâs looking at you. âSure did. Tried to take a chunk outta my ass, but a little aerosol deodorant and a lighterâs all you need to barbecue that ugly son of a bitch.â
You smile in amusement, but all too soon, it fades.
âDid you find my dad?â you ask.
Deanâs expression sobers as well.
âYeah, I think so.â His face gentles. âWas he wearing a blue puffer jacket?â
Your lips tremble. As that horrible realization dawns, you break down into tears. You already know from his tone that your father was dead when he found him.Â
Dean guides you down to him by your shoulder and wraps his arms around you. You bury your face into his neck, and your body shakes with quiet sobs.
âIâm sorry, sweetheart,â he murmurs into your hair. âBelieve me, I am.â
He holds you close, warm and secure. He allows you to stay there as long as you need, where you feel safe, even if this world has become a colder, darker place.Â
After a few minutes longer, your intense sobs begin to subside. You donât mean to, but you turn your nose into Deanâs neck, scenting him on reflex. It calms you down, but it has the unintended effect of arousing him. The alpha rumbles in pleasure.Â
You blink in surprise and lean back enough to see his face. Deanâs lips press together as he looks down on you; he seems embarrassed, but you also see the heat reflected in his gaze, so intense in those forest greens. Your face begins to warm in a blush.
He brushes your cheek with his thumb, collecting your tears there. You glance down at his plush lips again, your own parting with a breath. His hand moves to cup your cheek, framing the side of your face. PleaseâŚ
He finally drags you to him in a kiss.Â
Itâs heady and passionate, and also comforting. Your fingers wind into his hair, your nails scraping along his scalp. He growls as his arm tightens around your waist. You shiver in delight.
You press a hand to the center of his chest, giving you leverage to rise up and slide your thigh over his legs. There you sink into his lap. Your breasts pillow against his chest when you lay on top of him, your elbows digging into the cushion on either side of his head. His hands move down your body, feeling down your sides, squeezing your hips, and then your ass. You hum into his mouth and roll your hips into his. Already you feel him hardening through his jeans. Â
But somehow he breaks away from your kiss, even though your hands are still in his hair.Â
âSorryâŚwe canât do this,â he says, with difficulty.
He sits upright and nearly makes you fall over in the process. He grabs your arm before you tip over, but he keeps himself at armâs length from you after youâre forced to slide off his lap, sitting on the end of the chaise instead. Your eyes glisten with hurt and confusion.Â
âWhy?â is all you can ask.
He doesnât want to answer.Â
âDean?â you ask, inching towards him. He raises a hand to keep you at bay.
âJustâŚitâs not a good idea, okay?â he says, with the clenching of his jaw.
That cuts into you even more. Your heart pulses with pain.
âDo you know what your scent is to me?â you ask, in a voice slightly trembling. You glance at the fireplace that has dimmed to embers. âItâs better than that fire at full blaze. Every time I went camping with my dad, thatâs what I loved the most. Sitting by that fire, talking, laughing, and for the millionth time, telling the story of when I gave my sister micro bangs in her sleep when I was ten.â
You wipe a stray tear from your eye, but you respect the distance heâs put between you two.
âThe second I met you, I knew what this was,â you say. âI think you know it too.â
Dean shakes his head. His face betrays his wariness, his desire, and his obstinance.Â
âLookâŚeven if thatâs true, you donât want this with me,â he says. His handsome face becomes marred by a frown, his brows knitting together. âI donât even own this place. Besides my car, I ainât got much of anything to give.â
You shake your head in dismay. âI know thatâs not true.â
âIâm not bullshitting,â he says. âListenâŚIâve never had much. And what I did have, I found a way to lose. Iâve let my people down. Just about everyone Iâve everâŚâ
You canât help but reach out a hand for him, your heart hurting, but he leans away, pressing himself back against the seat. It cuts even deeper into you; now though, you wonder if itâs because he feels the same gut feeling you do when heâs this closeâclose enough to touch, but almost afraid of the burn.
âTheyâve been hurt, almost always because of me.â His voice shakes imperceptibly, with a wry, humorless turn of his lips. âSo take it from me, sweetheart. Youâll wanna steer clear.â Â
âDean,â you say. You expel a breath, digesting his words, while thinking of what you want to say.
âIâve never not felt safe with you,â you confess. âEven when I screwed up and drove you crazy, Iâm sure, I knew youâd never hurt me. The same way I knowâŚâ
You reach out a tentative hand to lay in the center of his chest, over his heart. Your thumb brushes the edge of his strange tattoo, over the dark ink in his skin.Â
âYouâre my mate. My one, true mate in this world,â you say, meeting his eyes. âAnd I want to know you.â
You see inner conflict in the depths of Deanâs eyes, dark green and troubled. You take a chance and lean in, brushing your cheek against his, nuzzling, laying a soft kiss to his cheek.Â
âOmega,â he warns, but the grit in his voice has little heat.
Or at least, itâs heat of a different kind, as his strong hands once again find your waist. They hold you still, but also hold you to him. Your gentle affection is making him ache, deep in the shadowy cavern of his chest. Heâd never admit it, but loneliness had set in there, burrowed deep with a stronghold on his heart. Without knowing, youâve been carving it out with those gentle hands.Â
You now slide your hands up his chest and over his shoulders, warm palms on his skin.Â
âAlpha, I want to know you,â you insist. Quiet, but steady, your voice is a mere brush of words near his ear, against his cheek. âPlease.âÂ
Deanâs brows furrow as he briefly shuts his eyes tight. With your whispered plea, the brittle chain of his restraint finally snaps free.Â
He cradles the back of your head and guides you back into a feverish kiss.
AN:Â Sorry to cut it off there lol, but the big (steamy) finale is coming up next week! Perhaps a little earlier than Friday. đ
Next Time:
âWere you nesting, Omega?â he teases, between the sinful meetings of his lips with yours. You hum your affirmation before his tongue swipes across your lower lip, seeking entrance.
You open yourself to him in more ways than one; you slip your hands across his naked shoulders and explore the smooth planes of muscle, the dips and softness in between. You encourage him to lower down, to cover you with the length and broadness of his frame. His weight is a welcome one between your thighs and against the softness of your body.
âWas worried about you,â you whisper a confession against his lips. Dean briefly pauses, meeting your eyes.
âThanks for waiting up,â he says, with a hint of a smile.
Your lips curve upwards in return.
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â in which you and Jungkook attend a concert together <3 (with friends)
wc: 3.1k
notes: in my universe BILLLIE is as famous as BTS <3, another group hangout yay ! , i decided to use KakaoTalk instead of iMessage bc for the life of me I can't find a good fake text app I actually like, fluff!!!
âYou guys should come along! Hyeonjae told me that Tag was told to bring as many friends as he wanted!â Eunwoo takes a sip of your hot chocolate as Areum explains the conversation she had with Hyeonjae a while ago. She said that on her way to this cafe they bumped into each other and got to talking.
Hitting Eunwoo on the chest for stealing your warm drink, you smile and Jimin replies, âWhat if he just wanted you? You guys were making heart eyes at each other that time at lunch. This could be his way of asking you out on a date,â Jimin finishes and you and Eunwoo agree.
Areum hides her face against her sweater sleeve and you all know sheâs blushing.
âWhat group is performing?â Eunwoo asks, âBILLLIE,â Areum composes herself and replies which causes you all freeze.
BILLLIE? Is she talking about the internationally famous girl group?
âWait, AreumâŚBILLLIE as in thinkinâ âbout you thinkinâ âbout me BILLIE?â you say singing a part of their song that got them to go viral in Korea, and later on, everywhere else in the world. She simply nods and you, along with Jimin and Eunwoo, stay still. Simply staring at her.
âYouâre saying we could get free VIP tickets to watch their concert because your boyfriendâs friend produced songs on their new album?â Jimin takes a breath after speaking so fast. You barely caught onto his words.
âFirst of all, Hyeonjae is not my boyfriend-â
âSo you say,â Jimin interrupts and Areum glares at him.
âSecond of all, yes. From what I was told, Tag was contacted by their company to produce a couple of songs on their new comeback album. I guess they got along with him so well they invited him to their concert here in Seoul and told him to invite all his friends,â she explains.
If Hyeonjae is going then that means Jungwon and Jungkook are going too. Youâre not one to miss a chance to spend time with your boyfriend.
âIâm in! I love BILLLIE. I also think that Hyeonjae and his friends are fun,â you say mostly referring to your boyfriend.
âIâll go. I have nothing better to do that night,â Jimin says quickly after and Eunwoo follows, âMe too. Whatâs better than going to a concert of a group you donât know too well,â
âWeâll listen to them in the car,â you say and he nods.
âGreat. Iâll text Hyeonjae that weâre all going,â
âYeah go text your boyfriend,â you tease and she rolls her eyes playfully before taking her phone out and texting him.
Eunwoo and Jimin get into conversation about how they really need more guy friends and you laugh for a moment before you realize you should tell Jungkook youâre going.
âWhat are you smiling about?â Eunwoo asks next to you. You quickly turn your screen off and put your phone back into your purse.
âNothing. I was just looking for outfit ideas on Pinterest,â you say and Areum chimes in, âWe should go shopping early in the morning. I donât have anything I like in my closet for the concert,â she says.
âShe just wants a new outfit to impress Hyeonjae,â Jimin mutters and earns a hit from Areum. As he hisses at the non-existent pain you think about tomorrow and how, if you plan it right, you could be right next to Jungkook at the venue.
Your shopping trip was 10% you actually looking for something cute and purchasing it and 90% Areum freaking out over what would look good.
âYou look pretty in that too,â you say as you lean against the wall of the fitting room as Areum goes through her 7th outfit option. She looked just as pretty in the other outfits but she was convinced that there was always a better outfit she would find.
âUgh what if Hyeonjae doesnât like it! I really like him, Y/Nâ she says and you sigh walking up to her, âI know you do,â you chuckle as she leans in for a hug, âAnd if he feels the same way you do, which he does, heâll agree with my opinion,â you say and she pulls away to look at herself in the mirror for the nth time.
âI liked the first outfit,â she says and you laugh as she begins changing back to the first option. Unlike Areum, you had already chosen a simple outfit for the night. You had texted Jungkook asking what he would be wearing and he told you something along the line of nothing special maybe just all black. You took that note and decided you would also be going in all black.
You had settled on a black lace shirt and skirt. Areum had convinced you to wear a bow in your hair because she thought it put the whole outfit together and you agreed. Purchasing a black bow at the last store you had visited.
The plan was to meet up with Eunwoo and Jimin at Areumâs by 6:30 latest and then meet up with Jungkook and his friends by 7:00 outside the venue. 2 hours before their performance because apparently, something Tag forgot to leave out, you were all going to be meeting them backstage before their concert. Something you got really nervous for.
It was roughly 4 by the time you and Areum got to her apartment because shopping is your favorite thing to do, besides Jungkook, and sometimes you find yourself getting carried away.
Dozens of shopping bags stood by the entrance door as you and Areum took a quick break from walking around all day and laid on her couch simply scrolling through social media.
It wasnât until almost an hour later that Areum received a message from Eunwoo saying he and Jimin were on their way that you both jumped up and started getting ready yourselves.
When the guys arrived they simply stayed in the living room waiting for you two to be done so they could be on their way.
âIâm so nervous,â Areum says as she adds the last bit of gloss to her lips.
âTo meet the girls or because of Hyeonjae?â you ask.
âBoth,â she replies and you giggle at her response.
âIs there a way we can rush this process?â Jimin says standing against the bathroom doorframe.
âRelax. Weâre basically done,â you say checking your makeup one last time before walking past Jimin to the living room where Eunwoo sat watching some movie.
âWell donât you look dapper,â you tell him before sitting on the other far end of the couch. He thanks you and you resume your activity of scrolling through your phone once more.
JK đ¤đ°: Photo
The notification distracts you from the cute cat video you were watching. You turn your body slightly away from Eunwoo and watch him to make sure he doesnât see your screen. When youâre sure he was too busy with the movie you tap on the notification and are met with the picture he sent.
Itâs clearly a group photo but he cropped it so he was only one in the photo.
You chuckle and heart the image before replying back that you guys will be on your way soon as well.
âAreum you look fine letâs go!â you hear Jimin say from the restroom and you laugh as you watch them exit the room. Eunwoo gets up and you follow behind.
âBefore we go we have to put batteries in these,â Areum placed four white boxes on the dinner table before sliding one to each of you.
âWhat are these?â Jimin asks opening the box.
âTheyâre lightsticks,â she replies walking to a nearby drawer and taking out a big pack of batteries.
âShe bought them earlier,â you mention and open your box and Eunwoo does the same. You each take four batteries and turn them on to make sure they work. You had purchased some cute cat ears for yours earlier in the day, so you made sure to put them on before you forget. When you all confirm they do work, you all make your way out the door and down to Eunwooâs car.
You sat in the back with Areum singing your hearts out to the BILLLIE songs playing from Areumâs phone that she connected the aux cord to. Jimin and Eunwoo just laughed and harmonized with you two every once in a while.
After a short 15 minutes of singing and dancing around you all get to the packed venue. Boys and girls posing in front of the place with their lightsticks and others buying merch on the side. You smile at everyoneâs eagerness as Eunwoo drives to the other side of the venue to a gate. The security guard asking them for a badge and Areum extends her hand over you and the man scans something on her phone screen before allowing you all to enter the gated area.
You look around and see Jungkookâs car not too far.
âKooâs car!â You exclaim and only realize what you had said after Jimin turned to look at you.
âWho?â
âJungkook,â you say trying to play it off.
âNo, you said Koo,â Eunwoo says with his eyes still staring in front of him.
âNo I said Jungkook. I just didnât pronounce his name entirely,â you reply trying to move on from the subject entirely. Not exactly a lie.
âSo defensive,â Areum laughs and Eunwoo finds a parking spot near Jungkook.
Youâre thankful they didnât say anything else afterwards and ply away at why you called Jungkook by his nickname. Whether itâs because theyâre excited for the concert or because they genuinely donât care, youâre grateful.
The four of you get out of the car and Jimin is the first to spot Jungkook and his friends. Hyeonjae spots Areum and waves her over and you all follow close behind. Tag is the first to say something.
âIâm so glad you guys could make it,â
âIâm just excited to see BILLLIE,â Areum replies and goes in to hug Hyeonjae. No one from either group says anything but, mentally, youâre all teasing the duo.
âWe should go. Their manager told us to be there in 20,â Jungwon says holding up a phone.
âWait! Before we go inâŚâ Tag holds up a handful of badges that state youâre all VIP guests. He hands them around and you place yours carelessly.
Standing next to you, Jungkook looks at the group who are all focused on themselves and takes the opportunity to fix your lanyard for you so itâs straight.
You look up at him and smile when he gives you a subtle wink and an air kiss that you return. You both walk behind your friends, you in front of him with your hand behind your back that heâs holding.
Tag leads the group through the door and a couple hallways before reaching a door with a paper that read âBILLLIEâ
You felt your excitement rise as you walked through the door, subtly letting go of Jungkookâs hand when the group huddled up again, you heard their voices.
âTag!â a blonde haired member exclaims and all the girls turned your way. Flustered, you take a small step back, Jungkook takes notice and makes a move to stand behind you before running the back of his hand up and down your back to soothe you. It works. It always does.
âIâm so happy you could make it!â Another member says walking up to the group. Tag reciprocates their hugs before introducing everyone. You all waved as your name was brought up and they all politely greeted you in return.
âI hope none of you mind youâre being filmed for our tour documentary,â the pink haired girl, Tsuki, warns you all but none of you pay any mind to the camera on you.
You decide to be brave and speak up, âHi, Iâm Y/N, as Tag introduced, and Iâm a really big fan of you guys,â you sort of ramble but calm yourself before you could continue. You donât miss Jungkookâs little snicker at you.
âWeâre so happy that you are-oh my god your outfit is so cute!â Tsuki says as she looks you up and down while you fluster up a bit. You feel your cheeks heating up.
âThank you,â
âYeah youâre even matching with your boyfriend! How cute,â another member, Sua, joins into the conversation.
âMy what-â
Before you know it the members are all staring at Jungkook who is stood behind you. He quickly straightens up as he senses his ears go red.
âOh theyâre not dating but these two are,â Jungwon laughs and point his fingers at Areum and Hyeonjae. He doesnât realize how thankful you are about him changing the subject so quick.
âReally?â quickly the members take interest and start to tease the two as you look up at Jungkook who looks like heâs trying to hold back a smile.
The rest of the time was spent talking with other members and taking pictures. You, Areum, and Sua decided to make a TikTok together as the others were in their own conversation.
The TikTok dance was fun and energetic leaving you three laughing like you had been best friends for years. Areum grabs the phone to rewatch the video you all made and Sua takes the chance to ask.
âSoâŚhe is your boyfriend isnât he?â
âHuh?â you look at her hoping she was joking but she wore a cunning smile. One that said she knew more than you were letting on.
âCâmon, you canât seriously tell me that heâs not your boyfriend or something when every single time I look his way his eyes are on you with a smile that tells me he would die for you,â
ââŚNone of our friends know,â you let out. Itâs not like this famous kpop idol would tell anyone, besides, it felt nice to tell someone!
âYeahâŚif your friends canât tell that youâre both in love with each other than you might want to buy them glasses,â she giggles and you join. Your flustered state noticed by Jungkook who turned to you the moment he heard your laugh.
âOkay we all look good in this and we totally pulled off that dance,â Areum returns back with the phone still playing the video.
After another 20 minutes or so the staff warned the group they had 40 minutes to change into their stage outfits and finish up anything else needed.
âBye! We hope you guys enjoy the show!â The members waved as you walked out of their dressing room back into the hallway and were being lead to another area by a staff member.
Again, you walked in the very back with Jungkook.
âYou look gorgeous tonight,â his voice was low but that just made the hairs on the back on your neck stand.
âYou look handsome,â the group turns a corner and you stop in your tracks hoping that you donât lose the group or that they notice you to missing.
You lean against the wall and pull Jungkook by the arm onto you in which he gladly leans in for a kiss. His lips always felt like home no matter where you were or in what situation you were in.
Pulling away from the kiss you both stare at each other for a moment before giggling.
âLetâs go before they realize weâre missing,â Jungkook says and you nod as you turn the corner to find the group not too far ahead and catch up completely unnoticed.
The staff lead you to an area where the stage was neither too close nor too far. It was closed off with security at the entrance for your safety.
The seating arrangement was almost perfect. Tag was in the corner with Jungwon and Areum sat between him and Hyeonjae giving Jungkook the perfect opportunity. He sat next to Hyeonjae and you took the seat right next to him. Jimin and Eunwoo on your right. You sort of hoped that you wouldnât be in the middle of your friends but this was good enough.
âCute light stick,â Jungkook points to light stick that wore the cat ears from earlier.
âThanks. Cute face,â you reply and he laughs resisting the urge to kiss you.
You watched as the eager fans walked, some ran, to their seat as you all simply enjoyed the time. You and Jungkook spoke and joked around as everyone else was in their own world. Tag with Jungwon, Hyeonjae with Areum, and Jimin with Eunwoo.
An hour later the lights dimmed and music started to play erupting screams and cheers from all directions including your group. The first song was a hyper one and you all stood on your feet as the girls walked onto the stage and started performing.
Waving around your cute lightstick and singing your heart out, you have the time of your life. You record videos of the them performing and turn the camera to you singing with Jungkook singing a repeating line. At one point, you and Areum stood in front of the group as your favorite song came on and the guys recorded you two. Jungkookâs frame was only focused on you.
You know what the best thing about concerts are? The dark. The way Jungkook can have his hand around your waist when your next to him and none of his or your friends take notice. The way you can hold his hand in the air with an excuse that itâs merely because of the song as you also take Jiminâs hand and wave it around. Only when you let go of Jiminâs hand, you donât let go of Jungkookâs.
It was possibly the perfect night. A lovely night spent with your friends and your boyfriend. You think back to the conversation you had with Jungkook when you first started dating. About how this should be a private relationship between you two. No friends or family. Perhaps you can tell them. You know Jungkook wouldnât mindâŚbut then again.
The thrill was also fun and exciting. Maybe one day, but not anytime soon. For now, let it be only between you and Jungkook.
Maybe youâll just tell them by sending them your wedding invites on a random Tuesday.
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Just Trust Me
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PAIRING: Simon 'Ghost' Riley x F!Reader
Part- 1
The ride home is quieter than usual. Simon, who typically fills the silence with small talk or offhand comments, stays focused on the road. You can feel the absence of his usual chatter, and the space between you both grows.
You bite your lip, trying to decide whether to bring it up. The missing phone. The app. Simonâs reaction could tell you more than anything, but you're not sure what you're hoping to hear.
"So, I think I lost my phone today," you say, casually, trying to gauge his response.
Simonâs hands tighten around the steering wheel, though his expression doesnât change. âLost it? Thatâs a shame. Where?â
You hesitate, thinking back to the sandwich shop. The moment you realized your phone was gone, it felt like it happened in slow motion. âIn the sandwich shop, I guess. It was just... gone.â
Simon glances at you briefly, his eyes cool, before returning to the road. âThatâs annoying.â
He says it with a certain calmness, almost as if he's dismissing it without making a big deal out of it. You canât quite place it, but something about his reaction makes you feel... uneasy.
"Iâll get you a new one," he adds, as if heâs solving the problem for you. âNo point in you going without one.â
You almost want to argue, but something holds you back. The way he offers to replace it feels like it should be reassuring, but it only adds to the sense that you're losing control over things you once took for granted. You nod, unsure of what else to say.
"Thanks," you murmur. But the words feel hollow.
The silence stretches on, the low hum of the car filling the space between you. You keep wondering if he knows. About the app. About the things you havenât figured out yet.
You glance at him, but his face is unreadable, his focus entirely on driving. It's as if the missing phone is nothing more than a minor inconvenience, and you can't decide if that should reassure youâor if it should worry you.
The car pulls into the driveway, and you feel the weight of the day pressing down on you. You know Simonâs going to act like everything is fine, that the missing phone is just another small thing to be dealt with. But a small voice inside you whispers that it's more than that.
You can't put your finger on it yet. But something feels...
You sit on the couch, your legs tucked beneath you, while Simon moves around the kitchen, humming a soft tune as he cleans up after dinner. The evening feels deceptively normal, his attentiveness wrapping around you like a warm blanket. He checks in with you oftenâbringing you water, asking if youâre comfortableâall while wearing the calm, steady expression youâve always admired.
Itâs what you should want, isnât it? A partner who cares, who notices even the smallest things.
And yet, you feel⌠off. Not because of anything heâs doing, but because of you. Because of your own thoughts.
You glance at him as he wipes down the counter, his movements smooth and precise. Memories of his stories about his time in the special forces flash through your mindâmissions in dangerous places, the constant threat of danger, the toll it mustâve taken on him. Youâve seen glimpses of it in the night terrors that wake him up, in the way heâs always scanning his surroundings when youâre out in public, in the way he canât fully relax even here, at home.
You understand why he might have done it. The app, you mean.
It feels foolish now, the way you reacted earlier when you found it. Simon has always been a good boyfriend, patient and attentive even when youâve struggled to keep up with his complexities. It makes sense that he would want to keep you safe, that he might need the reassurance of knowing where you are.
Heâs been through so muchâthings you canât begin to comprehend. After everything heâs seen, after all the chaos heâs lived through, is it so wrong that he wants control? That he wants to protect you in the only way he knows how?
You press your lips together, fighting back a wave of guilt. Maybe you overreacted. Maybe the app really is just his way of looking out for you.
But thereâs something else, something you canât quite name. A feeling deep in your gut that wonât go away, no matter how much you try to rationalize it.
Because if it was just about safety, just about protection, why didnât he tell you about it?
The question twists in your mind, and you hate yourself for it. You hate that youâre doubting him when heâs never given you a real reason to. Heâs been nothing but wonderful to you. Understanding. Patient. The perfect partner in every way.
And yet, the unease lingers, curling low in your stomach like a warning.
Simon turns to you then, breaking you out of your thoughts. âYou okay?â he asks, his voice gentle, concerned.
You force a smile, nodding quickly. âYeah. Just... tired.â
He studies you for a moment, his eyes searching yours, and you feel your pulse quicken. But then he nods, accepting your answer without pushing further.
âYou should get some rest,â he says, walking over to press a kiss to the top of your head. âIâll finish up here.â
You murmur your thanks, leaning into his touch despite the knot tightening in your chest.
As you retreat to the bedroom, you try to shake the feeling, to convince yourself that youâre overthinking it. Simon loves you. Heâs always loved you. And heâs been through more than anyone should ever have to endure.
But no matter how much you tell yourself itâs fine, that heâs fine, you canât ignore the small voice whispering in the back of your mind. The one telling you thereâs more to this than heâs letting on.
And the more you try to silence it, the louder it becomes.
The room is dark and still when you wake, the faint scent of cigarette smoke lingering in the air. You blink a few times, disoriented, before realizing Simon isnât beside you.
You sit up slowly, the silence pressing against your ears. Through the bedroom window, you catch a glimpse of him standing on the porch, his silhouette faintly illuminated by the cherry-red glow of his cigarette.
Simon doesnât smoke oftenâonly when heâs stressed. You watch him for a moment, his posture rigid, his shoulders tense as he stares out into the darkness.
A sense of unease washes over you, but you push it aside, convincing yourself itâs nothing. Heâs probably just thinking, you tell yourself. Processing whatever ghosts still haunt him.
But you canât shake the restlessness in your chest.
Sliding out of bed, you move quietly across the room. Your bare feet make no sound as they touch the cool floor. You donât know what compels you to move toward the closet, but something in the back of your mind whispers for you to check.
The closet is orderly, as alwaysâSimonâs precision extending to even the smallest details of his life. You scan the shelves and the small duffel bag tucked into the corner. Itâs zipped shut, but not fully.
Your heart pounds as you crouch down, pulling it open. At first, you donât see anything out of the ordinary: folded clothes, a shaving kit. But then your hand brushes against something hard and rectangular.
Your phone.
For a moment, you just stare at it, your breath caught in your throat. You pull it out slowly, your fingers trembling. The screen lights up as you press the button, and the app you found earlier stares back at you like a damning accusation.
Youâre about to set it down when a notification pops up.
A message.
From Gaz
Your stomach drops. You hesitate for only a moment before swiping to unlock the screen. The message thread opens, and your pulse races as you scroll through it.
Gaz: She doesnât suspect anything, does she?
Soap: Not a chance. Simonâs too good for that.
Simon: Just keep your end clear. I donât want any loose ends.
Gaz: Relax. Sheâs not like that.
Your vision blurs as you stare at the screen, your brain struggling to piece together what youâre seeing.
Sheâs not like that. Are they talking about you?
You scroll further, catching bits and pieces of their conversation.
Gaz: Howâs she holding up?
Simon: Doesnât matter. Everythingâs under control.
Soap: Yeah, but for how long?
The words feel like a punch to the gut. You donât understand the full context, but you know enough to realize that this isnât normal. This isnât right.
And then it hits you.
Gaz
Kyle.
The realization hits you like a ton of bricks. Kyleâthe same Kyle youâd known for years, your childhood friend. Heâd always been part of Simonâs stories, but you never knew he was the same person. You never knew that Gazâthe elusive, almost mythical figure in Simonâs pastâwas your old friend.
Your childhood friend. The same Kyle you ran into at the sandwich shop. The same Kyle who was part of Simonâs special forces team, whose codename youâd heard in passing but never connected until now.
Your mind races as the truth sinks in. This wasnât a coincidence. None of this was. Simon had been watching you from the start, and Kyle had been helping him. Every move you made, every step you tookâit had all been calculated.
You feel like the floor has been ripped out from under you.
You force yourself to put the phone back exactly as you found it, zipping up the duffel bag and closing the closet door. Your hands are shaking, your breaths coming in short, shallow gasps.
When you glance out the window again, Simon is still there, his cigarette burned down to the filter. He crushes it under his boot, the movement precise, deliberate.
In that moment, he doesnât look like the man you thought you knew.
He doesnât look like the comforting, loving boyfriend who holds you when youâre upset or makes you laugh when youâve had a bad day.
He looks like a soldier. A man trained to control every situation, to anticipate every threat, to eliminate every weakness.
And suddenly, you realize: youâre not his partner. Youâre just another piece on the board.
#call of duty#call of duty mw2#cod mw2#cod#simon ghost riley#kyle gaz garrick#ghost#simon riley x reader#john soap mactavish#andromeda pleiades
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my interpretations of all the love interests (kylar, whitney, sydney; part 1)
kylar
i always saw kylar as someone who was at their absolute limit before they met pc (or in careâs case, when they became obsessed with her). they had absolutely nothing else to live for before meeting pc. honestly i assumed that meeting pc saved their life, and that they were very very close to taking their own life right before their first meeting.
i always assumed this because of the degree of kylars obsession. i know that by the character itself kylar is a checklist of the stereotypical yandere but putting that aside for a second they also just have a really shitty life. once i learned about kylar lore i started to become even more interested in them than i already was before.
1) is an total outcast, not just in school but by the town itself
2) has no friends/ emotional support/ anyone to turn too
3) parents turned into monsters and they donât leave them/ cares for them/ protects them
4) bullied relentlessly at school
learning that not only put their behavior into perspective for me but also made me assume that the one and only good thing they have going for them is pc. like really, what else does kylar have to live for? much unlike all the other love interests. without the pc sydney still has their faith and parent and the temple. whitney has their status. eden is lonely but their life isnt terrible. i guess you can argue that robin also only has the pc and that their life is also shitty but i would say that kylars life is a tad worse.
everything that we find out about kylar is just so gloomy, so my interpretation of them is that because of their lonely, miserable life they cling to pc because pc is their only lifeline. they cant help but be completely obsessed with pc because, their literally all they have. kylarâs intense obsession and paranoia stems from fear of losing the one good thing they have left.
whitney
oh brother. okay iâll try to keep this one at a reasonable length. im a whitney hater through and through and ive stated multiple times on this blog but they are probably the li that is find most interesting. a semi whitney enjoyer. i see whitney as someone who cares about their social status more than anything else (and i mean ANYTHING) and will do anything to maintain it. also taking some inspiration from this amazing post.
ultimately my interpretation of whitney is someone who cares more about what people think about them (and their appearance) above all else. to quote another analysis, âaffection is tainted in dolville. it is a display of control, given by force.â in my eyes and like how the op says, whitney is probably the biggest manifestation of this. whitney is definitely the outwardly cruelest and most violent to pc, but its not because they hate them. its also not only because they like them. they remind me alot of eden if eden never grew up and learned how to be somewhat normal.
whitney treats pc differently from all their other victims. i remember vrel saying in a q&a once where the question was something like âwhy does whitney like pc so much?â and vrel answered âtheyre not sureâ. i think a small percentage of their behavior of pc can be chalked up to whitney not understanding what exactly their feeling so they just decide to be violent cause itâs their default response to most things. the other majority percentage can be for a mixture of contradictory reasons.
1) whitney cares about their social status above everything else
2) in my interpretation, whitney has arrested development, is emotionally stunted and most times can only understand that they need to be on top for everything
3) whitney is genuinely into pc for reasons they donât understand
all of these mix into how whitney behaves towards pc in game. i do think they atleast have enough self awareness to acknowledge that they do like pc, because they are capable of being normal or nice to pc on rare occasions. they can understand that pc is special from all their other victims but not identify why. nor do they really care about why because they probably would still torment them even if they understood.
last thing i would like mention is that on those rare occasions where whitney acts normal/ a little nice to pc are all when whitney is all alone. i dont go out of my way to encounter whitney so im not sure if they have normal interactions when their with their friends but the ones iâve come across are when whitney and pc are the only ones present. the way i interpret this too, is because again whitney cares about their social status more than anything else, and peer pressure influences their actions. if no one else is there to see them do it, then yeah, they wouldnât mind be being nice to pc once in red moon. (another thing that makes me assume this is their whole dismissal event which could be a post in of itself)
sydney
this one will be the shortest because i have a very solid image on how i see sydney. i think the reason why sydney is so malleable and impressionable is because theyre very lost when it comes to their image of themselves. not in a negative way, in a more neutral way, theyre constantly working and never really have any time for themselves.
i think the reason why unlike other liâs you can choose what sydneys becomes is because sydney doesnt have the willpower (or desire, even) to choose for themselves. theyre at such a lost for what to do for themself that they have to let someone else choose for them. and itâs not like pc is just anyone to them either.
pc is their dearest lover and its no wonder why they trust them so much. but to trust them to a degree where sydney would allow them to choose how to live their life makes me think that they must not know themselves very well, or that they love or even idolize pc so much that they have unwavering trust in them to know whats the best choice for them.
#dol#degrees of lewdity#sydney the faithful#kylar the loner#whitney the bully#wheewww that took awhile#but it was super super fun#i will probably add more to sydneys later on#i was able to get most of it done !!
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(You scared me) RHEA RIPLEY X JEY USO
Chapter 25
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Rhea was sitting in the passenger seat of the rental car. Damian got they were on their way to the Intuit Dome.
The music from her playlist blasting over the radio as she stared out the window
She felt nervous about what the day would bring.
This was her last shot at her title; if she lost this, then it was over. It was Livâs, and she would have to move on and accept it.
She turned to Damian. You think I can do it?
He turned down the music, looking over at her. Yeah, you're going to win.
And if I donât?
And if you donât, then you find something else, something better. Thereâs a whole new title to go after; thereâs Tiffy the Rumble. Besides, you never needed a title to be the best; you just are the best. Rhea
She grabbed his arm, laying her head against it. Thank you.
No problem. For the record, you're going to win.
She sighed. Itâs going to be a long day.
Yeah, it is, but I don't have anything to do, so if you need meâ
Iâll come find you, she cut in.
Thank you, and please donât just run off after your match with Jey.
I wonât. She chuckled, letting go of his arm. I donât think there will be any running off tonight.
He looked at her with a confused expression. What happened? What did he do?
Nothing; he didnât do anything! She said quickly. Heâs just got a lot going on with Roman right now, so weâll see what happens tonight.
She sank into her seat, resting her head against the window. She was a little worried about what might happen; this whole day could end horribly.
Not just could she lose her final shot at what was rightfully hers; she knew she took the first shot at Liv, but Liv took more than was fair, and now this was the end. What happens happens if she lost; it was over, and if she won, she was finally done with all of it.
Then on the other side she had to worry about Jey.
Not just in his match; she believed in him. He could handle Drew; she knew Drew pretty well from when he helped them out in war games.
She would bet good money on Drew letting his emotions get the best of him.
But then she could say the same for Jey; there was a lot on his mind right now.
She wasnât sure when they would talk to Roman, but if that was anytime before his match, whatever Roman says will affect him in the ring.
She kept making up different scenarios in her head of how this whole thing might go.
She knew some of the things Roman did, but she didnât know the full extent of said things until she got with Jey, and he told her.
He never said it exactly, but just the way he spoke told her enough about what happened when he was in the bloodline.
This was eating at him, and she couldnât help but feel a little responsible.
none of this wouldâve happened if she didnât make some big deal out of it If she didnât pick a fight with him about him not fucking talking to her, then they wouldnât be here. Jey wouldnât be going through all of this right now.
She let out a sigh, her breath fogging up the window.
God, she shouldnât blame herself; if she told him any of that, he would be even more upset that she ever thought, even for a minute, that it was her fault.
She heard the music stop, and all of a sudden, she picked her head up off the window.
The screen on the dashboard lit up with a text from Jey saying they made it to the arena.
He slid his phone back in his pocket as he pulled his suitcase out of the trunk before slamming it down.
He told Roman that they needed to talk sometime before he left.
He had gotten there a little early since he had to do something before the actual show along with the normal thing he always had to do.
This day wasnât all bad, though he not only was going to beat Drewâs ass, he also got the opportunity to walk out with Travis Scott.
So if shit went bad with Roman, at least he had that to look forward to, and he means Rhea winning what was hers, of course.
He pushed through the back doors of the arena. Waving at the security guards standing out front as he passed
He was excited for Rhea; she had this one. There was no doubt in his mind she was going to walk out tonight empty-handed. He had no doubt in Roman winning either; he believed in Solo; he was going to give him a run for his money. for sure
But Roman was going to win, and he didnât know if that was a good thing or not.
Solo may not have been the best, but he surely was as bad as Roman.
Everyone in Soloâs bloodline was there because they wanted to be, not because they were forced to be.
Roman has been drunk on power ever since he got it. Before he got it, he was now getting humble. He thought about all the time Roman got knocked on his ass while he walked down the long hallway.
Rhea was sitting with her eyes closed as she got her makeup done.
As the show got closer and closer, she could feel her nerves creeping up but also her adrenaline
If this really was the end, she was going to fight like hell to win. If Dom and Raquel felt the need to intervene, then she would take care of them to
Nothing or nobody was going to stop her from winning tonight.
Hey, babygirl, itâs good to finally see you. He sat down at one of the vanities along the wall.
She smiled. I wish I could see you.
You look beautiful, Mama.
And Iâm not even done yet. Claire chimed in.
Donât feed his crazy
Itâs not crazy if itâs true; you're beautiful, right?
Oh yes, you look beautiful, and you will only get more beautiful from here.
She laughed at both of them. Do you need something, love?
I just wanted to see you. I've been busy; I had to work the red carpet. You know he popped his collar.
Oh! I know, and I donât know if I appreciate you showing everybody whatâs mine.
People see all that all the time; it ainât new. Now all that other shit, yes, itâs yours.
As long as you know it, I would hate to have to show you, she said sultrily.
She smiled to herself when she heard him get quiet; she could feel Claire smiling back at her.
This wasnât the worst thing she had overheard in these chairs; shit, this wasnât the worst thing she had even seen in these chairs.
She heard him clear his throat as he stood up.
The devil is a lie, he said before walking by her.
She grabbed his hand. Hey, when do you need me? She said gently.
Um, after you get done here, if thatâs cool?
Yeah, of course, Iâll come find you. She brought his hand up, placing a kiss on it.
See you in a bit, Mama, he said, walking away.
I think I like him more than Dom. Heâs much better to look at, thatâs for sure.
She laughed, Ooh, by a long shot.
Ok, now stay still so I can finish.
It didnât take long for Claire to finish her makeup. A purple look with a black lip, as always. She already had on her gear, so she just needed to get her hair done, but she would do that after everything with Jey.
She met him outside the manâs locker before walking to Romanâs
She checked with him one last time if he wanted her there before they made it; he told her he wanted her there before knocking on the door. Heyman answered the door and let them in.
As soon as they walked in, the air was thick with tension. Roman was sitting back in his chair, manspreading, rubbing his wrist in his hand.
He had on his ring gear along with his gloves.
She had seen him before, but in this light he was even more intimidating than he was in the ring.
They sat down on the couch, his hand letting go of hers as he clasped his together.
Heyman sat down on the couch on the side closest to Roman.
She had forgotten how loyal he was to him; he found it a little weird then, and she still found it weird now.
So what do you want? Roman seemed already tired of this conversation.
Why lie if you already know about us, uce?
Because you wanted to tell me, so I let you.
He sucked his teeth. You let me?
Yeah, you made a big deal about telling me, so I let you
You could have told me after I told you.
Maybe I was, but you ran away.
He scoffed, I ran away? I walked away because you were being an asshole, uce.
He scowled. Jay I told you I donât care about all this he gestured between him and Rhea. I was just looking out for you.
Looking out for what? You haven't been here. What were you going to do, uce? You haven't even been here to handle your business, he said, annoyed.
Roman sat up in his chair, leaning forward, his arms hanging off his knees.
See, Jey, you always get caught up in your emotions.
He scoffed, Here we fucking go, he muffled under his breath.
This isnât about you and her; itâs about business.
What fucking business!? I donât work with your ass anymore; you donât get to decide what I do! Iâm a grown ass man; I can do whatever I want!
You donât act like one, Roman said weirdly calm. You donât get it, do you, Jey? Everything I do is to take care of you.
Bullshit!
He ran a hand over his chin, letting out a frustrated sigh. You can think whatever you want, but that's the truth: the Wiseman only looked into the her for you.
I didnât ask your ass to do that shit, uce!
Roman looked him dead in his eyes because that's what family does, Jey; they try to help each other even when they donât want it.
He ran his hand over his face. There you go with your bullshit again, Uce, he said as he stood up.
Roman stood up to meet him; he didnât say anything, just looked at him, and thatâs all it took before he started to avoid his gaze, finding anything else to look at.
I was just looking out for you, Jey. I just wanted to make sure you were happy, but all you want to do is fight. Iâm fighting for this family. In 20 minutes, we both agreed that Solo canât do that yet.
Heâs not ready, he said softly, but maybe one day youâll be ready. But if you keep acting like a goddamn child and picking fights, you wonât be, so get it together! He didnât yell or raise his voice; he kept his voice soft and calm, but the bass in it hit him in his chest.
I donât want to see you until you beat Drew, and if you lose, I donât want to see you at all.
He shoved him back, his heels hitting the front of the couch.
He didnât respond, just nodded before storming out the door, hitting the wall behind it.
Rhea stood up to walk out after him, but Roman stopped her, putting his arm across the doorway.
She looked up at him in his eyes. Move She said confidently, which seemed to catch him a bit off guard.
He eyed her down before moving his arm out of her way.
She walked out mumbling under her breath, as she did so, she walked down the hallway looking for Jey. She found him sitting on a crate with his head in his hands.
Baby, she put her hand on his back. She was about to ask if he was okay, but she already knew the answer to that question.
Baby, itâs fine.
He let out a breath through his hands. No, itâs not. I let him get to me, and now
Donât worry about that, my love; just focus on Drew. Thatâs all you have to worry about tonight.
She bent down in front of him, putting her hand on his knee. Okay?
Heâs moved his hands away from his face, looking down at her. I just need a minute, Mama.
Okay, I have to go get ready for my match. Itâs after his, so Iâll probably see you after yours.
Okay, he kissed the top of her head before she stood up, walking away.
He let out a deep breath, falling back against the wall.
He couldnât believe he let Roman get to him like that; it brought him right back to all the times before when he had put him in his place.
But now he was on the same level as him. Shit, he let him walk out last at war games.
But he so quickly brought him down back to the level he thought he belonged at.
It was funny, actually, that he thought they could have a normal conversation.
He was so damn confused why he was making such a big deal out of this for no fucking reason.
Itâs not like he told him to sit down and have a talk with her, but he wanted to bring her around without it being weird, but maybe he was asking for too much.
He cleared his throat, hopping off the crate. He needed to get started getting ready for his match, and sitting around thinking about Roman wasnât going to do that.
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Rhea ran to go find Damian; she finally got her baby back, and she was over the moon.
It didnât take long for her to find Damian; he was coming to find her as well.
She jumped up into his arms, her title hitting against his back.
So many emotions were running through her right now: happiness, sadness, just a mix of emotions.
I knew you could do it, he said, wrapping his arms around her to hold her up.
She could feel tears welling up in the corner of her eyes, tears of happiness.
She couldnât believe it that she was finally champion again, that the title was hers; she wasnât just holding it because Liv dropped it.
It was hers, actually hers; it was in its rightful place, and it was never gonna leave her again.
She hopped down, feeling off balance; her legs felt like they were going to buckle at any moment.
Damian grabbed her by her shoulders. You good?
Yeah, I think Iâm just in shock, she said with a nervous giggle.
Ok, here, sit down. They moved to the side of the wall. She slid down the wall, sitting on the floor.
He sat down next to her, putting his hand on her knee.
You see me out there? You see my new friend?
She said teasing him
You are never going to not rub that in my face, huh?
Nope, because I meet the Undertaker, she said in a sing-songy voice.
I hate you, he said, shoving her away.
She playfully scoffed. No, you love me, and soon enough weâre both going to have gold again.
She stood up off the ground. But for now you can hold mine if you want to fill the void.
I hope they lose your nameplates. He said, standing off the ground.
Oh wow, and I was going to let you do an interview with me, but
Oh come on, weâre going to be late, or do you want to go see Jey first?
No, heâs already set for his entrance. Iâll see him after his match.
Alright then, come on.
Jey walked through the curtains out of gorilla
He beat Drew; all that was behind him now.
He handled it just like he was supposed to.
He walked through the halls looking for where Rhea was.
He thought about going to see Roman, but that thought left his mind as fast as it came.
He found her with Damian, standing in front of a TV; she was bouncing off the walls.
Jumping up and down as the replay played on the screen
He sneaked up behind her, grabbing her waist, feeling the cold metal of her title under his hands.
She giggled, Hi, baby.
Hey, babygirl, you like my match? He asked with a smirk.
No! She hit him in his arm. You scared me half to death!
Okay, okay! Iâm sorry; I didnât mean to scare you, Mama. Iâm good, alright?
Ok, just donât do it again.
I wonât. He turned his attention to Damian. Sup, Uce? How you been? He said dapping him up
Good, just keeping an eye on this one, he ruffled her hair.
She pushed his hand off of her head. I donât need you to keep an eye on me.
Alright, you did good out there, man.
Thanks, Uce, finally starting to put all this shit behind me.
I'm going to put this whole thing with Finn to rest next week.
Look at that; we're all moving on to better things. Rhea chimed in, Who would have thought, huh? She smiled.
Speaking on moving on, he said, Looking at Damian, give us a minute, Uce.
Yeah, see you guys in a bit, and please remember you both are on the press show, he yelled as he walked away, making her laugh.
Yeah, yeah, he said, waving him off.
He turned his attention back to her. You look good with that title, babygirl.
It should. Thatâs where it belongs, love.
I like my woman with gold. He said, his hands wrapping around her waist.
Mmm, we still have work to do, baby.
So fuck the press conference.
I thought you were going to enter in the rumble tonight?
I can do that next week on Raw.
Or you can do it when youâre supposed to, or are you that needy baby?
He felt a shiver down his spine as her words left her mouth; she had a smirk on her face as she moved her hands to his waistband, pulling him closer. Do you need Mami that bad baby? Or can you wait like a good boy? She said with a pout.
He felt his pants becoming tighter as she slipped her fingertips into his waistband.
Iâll wait, he said, stumbling over his words.
She raised her eyebrow, waiting for him to finish his sentence.
He leaned closer to her, just inches above her ear. I can wait like a good boy.
His pants definitely felt tighter now he lifted his head up.
She had a pleased grin on her face. See, baby, you always make this so hard, she said with a giggle, sliding from under him and grabbing his hand.
Now letâs go find a place to watch the end of the show.
Damn you, you arenât going to give me a second girl all that shit you just pulled.
You started it, baby, and Iâll finish it later, but for now we have shit to do, so come on, she said, pulling him down the hall to where Damian went.
Fine, fine, but can we stop by the locker room right quick, though?
Sure, whatever, baby.
Jey slid the keycard into the lock, throwing the door open, not caring where their suitcases went.
as they stumbled into their hotel room, their lips crashing into each other
He closed the door with his foot; the light from the hallway disappeared, leaving them in the dark.
His hands grabbed at her waist, her title still around it; she pulled off his shirt, throwing it on the floor.
Her hands roamed his body, leaving a trail of heat wherever they went.
He pushed her up against the wall, beginning to take off her shirt; he tossed it on the floor before kissing and biting at her neck, pulling a moan out of her. She flipped him around, holding him against the wall.
They both took this opportunity to catch their breath, just the look of lust in their eyes.
Damn, babygirl, what you trying to do? he said in between his breaths
Mmm, I have a couple of things in mind. She said with a grin, moving her knee between his legs, pushing it against him.
Fuck Mami! his head hit the wall, his now aching cock trapped under her knee
You have been so needy lately, and I donât know why, baby. Her knee pressing harder against his cock
Shit, he said breathlessly, slightly bucking his hips.
God, baby, people would think I have touched you in weeks with the way you're acting.
Mami I didnât mean toâhis words died in his mouth as he saw the look on her face.
I want you to take your pants off and go sit on the bed while I do something.
He said, "Okay, letting a whimper leave his lips as she took her knee away, turned around to get her suitcase, but realized they were still in the dark. And get the light too, love.
She heard a click before yellow light filled their hotel suite. She chuckled seeing their suitcases just thrown in front of the door.
She rolled them into the living area in front of the coffee table, laying hers on the floor and unzipping it as she heard his shoes hit the ground.
She slipped off her shoes, then took off her pants, leaving her in just her bra and panties, her title hanging low on her hips.
She walked around the room diviner seeing Jey lying on the bed with his hands under his head, watching TV in just his boxer briefs.
She leaned against the column of the diviner, her hands behind her back, eyeing his body as he lay there, her eyes tracing over him.
His skin shined under the yellow light from the lamp on the nightstand.
She could see a few faint marks on his chest that were later turned into bruises. If she didnât know his body so well, they would go unnoticed due to all his tattoos covering his body.
She loved the way they looked; she followed them down the sides of his waist to the top of his underwear. There was a visual bulge in his boxers; they were high up on his thighs, showing off the rest of his tattoos. his legs hanging off the edge of the bed, his feet planted on the ground
His eyes finally flickered over to her, the air getting trapped in his throat.
She sauntered over to the bed, swinging her hips.
You turned on the TV?
Didnât know how long you were going to be
She crawled onto the bed.
Mmm, you look real good with that gold mama.
Thank you, she giggled, throwing her leg over his hip, straddling
Her fingers ran against his skin, giving him goosebumps as she leaned forward, kissing him.
Moving down his jawline and neck, leaving marks along them
Fuck, the cold metal pressed against his skin as she moved down his body; he winced as her hand touched his rib, subconsciously pulling away from her touch. Shit baby
Sorry, I didnât mean to love you. Are you hurt? She sat up, her hands resting on her thighs.
No, I mean, yeah, but Iâm not injured or shit.
But you are hurting? She said, eyeing the marks on his chest.
Yeah, just that spot, though these are just marks he gestured at himself.
So youâre ok? She said with a worried look.
He grabbed her hand, pulling her back over him, just inches away from his face. Iâm okay, Mama. Do you still want to do this?
Yeah, I just didnât want to hurt you.
You wonât Rhea. He said, hooking his finger under her chin, pulling her into a deep kiss, pushing her tongue into his mouth, making him groan into her mouth.
She grinded down on him, feeling him through the layers of cotton between them; she could feel the warmth between her thighs growing with each groan and moan that left them.
He grabbed her hips, pulling her down against him. She reached her hands behind his head into his hair.
You want me to take it off? He said, breaking their kiss, his hands going up her back.
Go ahead, she said, kissing and marking his neck.
He unhooked her bra. His fingers grazed her hot skin as he pulled down her bra straps, throwing it to the side.
God baby, you're so beautiful. his hands cupped her breast, causing the air in her throat to get stuck
She gave in to his touch, his big hands kneading her breast, his rough palms brushing against her hard nipples.
Her moans vibrated against his collarbone, going straight to his dick as he played with her
He moved his hands down to her hips under the leather strap of her title, grabbing her ass.
She pushed back into them. Take them off, baby. Fuck Mami, he groaned as she brushed against his hard, trapped cock.
She giggled as she brushed up against him again. I love those little sounds you make, baby.
He slipped her panties down her thighs, throwing them on the floor.
The cold air hitting her dripping pussy, she held herself up with one hand, using the other to tug down his boxers, his cock popping out over the waistband, falling against his stomach.
Oh, but Iâm needy, he grinned.
She smacked her teeth. Shut up; she raised her hips up, lining him up with her, his tip rubbing against her cunt.
He threw his head back, feeling her warmth drawing him in, but she just held him there.
Mmm, Mami he said, coming out like a whine
Tell me what you want, baby.
Fuck I want you please right there, Mami, please, please, please.
She slowly sat down, throwing her head back at the feeling of herself stretching around him.
Shit, baby, you're so fucking tight.
She took all of his length inside her; she always forgot how big he was until she had to take him, feeling him deep in her gut.
She put her hands on his chest as she began to move her hips, both of them moaning at the new sensation.
Fuck Mami! He grabbed her thighs, his nails digging into her skin.
She leaned forward, her hands next to his head.
God, baby, you are full Mami up so well, you feel so good; she felt his cock twitch at her praise.
You're such a little praise slut, baby, she said with a grin. You would do anything I asked if I told you you were a good boy, wouldnât you?
His nails dug into her skin deeper; his face contoured, his mouth fell open, but no words fell from it, just broken babbles.
God baby, I wish you could see yourself; you look amazing like this.
Every word that left her mouth was fuel to the fire; he couldnât even think of the sound of skin slapping skin filling the room as she moved her hips up and down.
He moved his hands up her waist, grabbing onto her title, his thumbs sliding under her title, touching her burning skin, his fingertips brushing against something.
Holy shit, baby! He shouted with one hand on her stomach and the other on her title.
She giggled, pushing her hair out of her face. I told you you were a big baby; she arched her back down. So big you almost split me in half the first time she whispered in his ear.
Fuck Mami, please, he moaned.
What love? She nipping at his ear
He sighed, Mami, come on.
Oh baby, if you can be needy, you can beg, so let me hear that beautiful needy voice of yours.
He threw his head back. Fuck Mami, please, just please
You can do better, love. Come on.
He groaned. Please, please let me cum. Mami, Iâll be good, so, so good, please. He gripped her hips tighter.
She felt the warmth in her stomach growing, her movements growing faster. Keep going, baby.
Please, please, Iâll listen. Iâll... Iâll fuck! Just please, Mami, I canât. Itâs shit! His words turned into a moan as she squeezed around him, her body shuddering as her orgasm rips through her. His following a second after
She fell down onto her elbows trying to catch her breath.
He brought his hand up onto her hair, pushing it out of her face. You good? He said in between breaths
Yeah, just need a sec.
He unclipped her title, pulling it out from under her, letting it fall to the floor. Here is that better?
Yeah, thank you. She kissed his cheek before raising up off of him with a gasp, lying down next to him.
What the fuck are we watching? She laughed.
I donât know; I haven't really been paying attention like that, babygirl, he chuckled, standing up. Iâll be right back.
Ok, will you get me some water?
Yeah, of course.
He walked into the bathroom, grabbing a towel, wiping himself off, and catching a look in the mirror.
His chest was covered in marks along with his neck. Damn, babygirl, you fucked me up!
He flicked off the light walking into the kitchen. He set the cup down on the TV stand before crawling back on the bed in front of her.
We should really start putting a towel down or something.
Yeah, we should, but will we?
Not a chance. He stood back off the bed, grabbing her cup. Here, babygirl
She sat up. Thank you.
You want to take a shower?
No, I will take a bath, though my body's still sore.
Ok, Iâll draw us one where he kissed her forehead before walking away.
They sat in the triangle-shaped tub, both at different points. bubbles covering them
Donât think I have taken a hot bath in years. Jey said his arms were lying on the sides of the tub.
Itâs nice, plus Iâm in it, so it helps her smile, her foot popping out above the water.
That does help, so what are you going to do now?
I donât know. Iâve been chasing Livâs ass for so long I donât really know whatâs next. I guess whatever comes my way. What about you? Who are you going to from when you win the rumble?
Donât know shit; I might not even win.
She playfully scoffed. She splashed him in the face.
Girl! He turned his head to the side.
Youâre gonna win!
Okay, damn girl.
Jay Iâm serious; you're going to win. Donât doubt yourself.
Itâs not doubt; itâs just I donât know, maybe itâs doubt. He rubbed the back of his neck.
You're gonna win, baby. I would bet good money on that shit; I would put my title on the line for that.
Ok, donât be crazy, Rhea. You just got that shit back; donât risk it.
Iâm not. Iâm just saying if you act like you already lost, then you're going to lose.
I know, I know.
So say it, say you're gonna win.
Are you serious?
Dead, she said, straight-faced.
He chuckled, Really?
Come on, what you got? She nudged him with her foot.
Iâm going to win the rumble. he said halfheartedly
Oh come on, you can do better; you just did a whole lot better. She said, her mouth curling into a grin.
Iâm going to win the rumble, he said this time with more confidence but still not good enough.
Aw, itâs cute that you call that conviction, and you were a heel for years.
He grabbed her hand, pulling her closer. Iâm gonna win the fucking rumble and beat both Cody and Guntherâs asses this time, saying it like he believed it this time.
See, I knew you had it in you.
He sucked his teeth. Girl, get on; he playfully pushed her back down.
She laughed settling back down against the edge of the tub Baby, can we talk about this morning?
He sighed, his body tensed up. He didn't want to talk about that shit.
Jey, if I knew that wouldâve happened, I wouldnât have told you to talk to him; I wouldâve dropped it immediately. She sat up, putting her hand over his.
Itâs not your fault, babygirl; heâs just like that.
I know just I wouldnât have pushed youâ
You didnât push me to do shit, Rhea. He shifted, running his hand over his face. I wanted to talk to him; I just needed a little help to get there. I told you Roman was an asshole.
Jey, thatâs not just him being an asshole; thatâs-
I know what it is; his eyes flickered away from hers. I know what itâs called; he hung his head.
Then why take it? She moved forward, his knees in between her legs. Why put up with it?
Because heâs family, and if you donât, itâs worse than what you sawâhis voice cracking just a little, or youâre out of the family.
She grabbed his hand. My love
Seeing all that happened today showed her why Jey acted the way he did, why he would shut down, why he was so scared to lose her, and why he never wanted to talk to Roman or get involved with the bloodline again in the first place.
It was all trauma. Roman broke him and then put him back together the way he wanted.
My love Itâs ok; I got you.
I know he put his hand over hers, gripping it tight.
I will never let Roman hurt you like that again, ok?
You canât make promises like that, Rhea. he said, shaking his head
Yes, I can, because I mean it. She lifted his head up to look at her; there were tears welling up in the corners of his eyes. I will never let anything happen to you, my love.
He looked like he believed it, but the look behind his eyes looked like he didnât want to trust it.
She brushed his hair out of his face. I love you, and I will always be here for you no matter what. You will never lose me. Do you understand me?
He nodded his head in response. Come here.
He said almost as a whisper, he moved his legs, making space for her.
She moved, sitting with her back against his chest, his arms wrapping around her, holding her close; she could feel his breath was a little shaky.
She knew his mind was racing; she rubbed his arm, her head falling against his shoulder.
I love you too.
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Woo this one is long but I think itâs well deserved since it was the first raw on Netflix
Also i hate to say it but the next chapter will sadly be the end of their story (who knows what will happen down the line) I will probably do a one shot here or there but as a series this is the end I hope yâall still rock with me after this is over đ¤
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So I lied
there's bits and pieces of the intro to the next chapter not here but enjoy this!
I am pushing to have a Tuesday/Wednesday release!
The forest seemed to hold itâs breath as the star gestured to the surrounding glowing trees.Â
âWhen the order was finally established, a primordial star gave up her spot in the sky, to stay on earth in order to guide the order and firmly cement its placement as the bridge between our worlds. It was a move that impressed the other stars, and to show their support for the newly found order, they made the Asterius that you saw in the market. One created and cultivated from the power of each court to symbolize its unity within the order.â
âWas there any particular reason why they chose a tree as a symbol?â she asked, as she stared at the glowing trees, gently swaying in the night breeze.
âYeahâŚbut whatâs with your tone? Trees are cool!â he frowned, almost sounding offended.
âTheyâre alrightâŚbut I mean why do stars take such interest in them if theyâre practically everywhere? Surely you guys must have cooler things than justâŚtrees!â
âWe do butâŚwe wanted to use something familiar to both worlds and besides, have you ever noticed that no matter how far into the heavens a tree can ascend it must always stay rooted to the earth to survive? It can never forget its origins, no matter how far or great it growsâŚâ he smiled thoughtfully as his foot scuffed against the ground. âIsnât that something?â
Asha slowly nodded, and turned her eyes upwards âHmm I guess it does sound a bit moreâŚfascinating when you describe it like thatâŚbut why do yours glow?â
The star hummed thoughtfully as he rubbed his chin, âWell, the short scientific and aesthetic answer would be bioluminescence to attract nocturnal pollinators. Plus you can always appreciate their beauty no matter what time of day. It makes the nighttime forests nicer, doesnât it?â
She nodded in agreement, âIt does. But whatâs the long answer?â
âWell,â he started as he straightened himself. âI donât know the details exactly but I think itâs also because of their connection to some greater network of energy both with each other and the world around them. One of my nannies would always tell me about it when I was little and couldnât stop climbing them but itâs pretty convoluted if Iâm being honest.â
âA network of energyâŚâ she whispered as her eyes trailed the treesâ glowing roots. âLike your energy?â
âSomething like that,â he shrugged before thoughtfully staring at the sky. âI mean they sort of come from our worldâŚso I guess it only makes sense that they would act like thatâŚâ
âYou know before you told me anyl of this, I never wouldâve thought that something as simple as a tree could hold so much meaning in the grand scheme of things,â she confessed. âSure there was the wishing tree, but that felt more like a relic than anything elseâŚnot some political cosmic display of diplomacyâŚâ
âYouâd be surprisedâŚthereâs a reason why most Asterius made today are no longer created by all four courtsâŚâ
âThey arenât?â she asked, a bit taken aback as the star shook his head.
âNo not anymore, not since Denebâs asterius came into the pictureâŚâ
âDeneb has an asterius?â
âMost members of the royal star families and high-ranking nobles doâŚbut few have a tree as controversial as hersâŚ.â he hesitated as if mentally debating something before he eventually nodded and turned to her. âAshaâ he stated suddenly as she straightened herself in preparation. âYou remember how when we were in the forest you told me that you knew that the crimson court hated Deneb because of your fatherâs writings, right?â
âRight,â she nodded, trying not to shift uncomfortably.Â
âDid your father ever state why?âÂ
âNoâŚhis master had been vague about the situationâŚbut from what I could tell, it seemed as if the bad blood between the two parties was a little more extensive than just the courtsâŚit seemed like it involved the council tooâŚâ
âIt did,â Cepheus carefully nodded. âBut did he say anything else?â
âWellâŚhe theorized that it was the result of some act of defiance she did a few years ago that involved her childrenâŚyou wouldnât happen to know anything about that, would you?â
âI do,â he confessed. âI donât know if youâll like the story but I suppose for you to understand anything Iâll need to give you a few detailsâŚâ
He gestured for her to follow as they slowly began to near the forest. âIâm not sure if Iâve told you this explicitly,â he started as the glowing trees and shrubbery began to surround them.  âbut the crimson court and cerulean court have always hated each other. Theyâve led countless wars and battles against each other long before the order, Deneb, and her children ever entered the picture.â
âWhy?â She asked as she ducked beneath a low-hanging branch. âWas it differing philosophies? Scandalous love?â She called after the star whoâd somehow managed to put a rather large walking distance between them. âCultural differences? Why did they hate each other?â
He paused as if listening out for something before she finally made her way to his side, âDiffering philosophies and a bloodthirsty competitiveness to conquer the galaxies,â the star frowned and abruptly looked away.Â
HadâŚhad he been ashamed of his courtâs past? She wondered before he quietly continued, âNevertheless it all seemed to come to a head when during one of these warsâŚthe council, being as senile as they are, had grown both tired and indifferent to the constant fighting. So they decided to exercise their powers to ensure peace would prevail, one that, unlike their past attempts, could not be so easily dismissedâŚâ The star sighed, slowly moving his hand as the air around his fingers began to glow a soft misty blue.Â
Soon the rest of the world followed, rippling and blurring, as she blinked, trying to rub the uneasiness from her eyes as her surroundings slowly began to come into focus as she looked around. They were still in a forest, that much she could be sure of as the familiar sight of large, thick glowing greenery greeted her.
But where the distant yet elaborate town of Banquo had once stood was gone, and in its place was a seemingly endless glowing body of water.Â
Were theyâŚat the beach? No this couldnât have been the beach, at least not one sheâd been familiar with. Her eyes traced along the light blue shoreline as she took one hesitant step forward before rubbing her eyes in disbelief.
The ocean was glowing. Real oceans didnât glow. But the feel of the calm sea breeze passing through her braids had nearly convinced her otherwise.
âWaitâŚâ she started, looking around. âIs this another illusion like what you did with the scrolls?â
âSomething of the sort,â the star smiled as he spoke from behind her. âAre you enjoying the view?â
She nodded, before looking around again, âYeah! ItâsâŚbeautiful -,â her voice trailed off as she took in the sight of the star whoâs skin was now a beautiful shade of cyan, while his hair was nearly white.Â
Was this what a blue star looked like? She wondered, as she looked him over and over again.
She wasnât sure how long sheâd been staring, but it was enough to earn herself an all too knowing grin as the star arrogantly extended a sapphire colored wing. âI was talking about the sea, but if you think Iâm beautiful as well, and wish to stare,â he humbly gestured to himself as another wing revealed itself. âthen by all means, my dear-,âÂ
âWhat?!â She scoffed, before waving her hands dismissively as she looked away. Thank God her blushes werenât visible. âHa! No! No way! I was talking about the beach! Not you! Itâs the beach thatâs beautiful, see?! Youâre justâŚblue!âÂ
âMmhmm.â He hummed teasingly as his now brilliantly blue colored iris seemed bright with laughter. âWell either way I hope you enjoy whatever view you choose to partake inâŚ.or indulgeâŚâ
âI bet you say that to all the girls, donât you?â she huffed and took a step back as she crossed her arms.
âOnly the ones with good taste,â the star lazily grinned, never breaking eye contact with her as he stepped closer to her. His grin only sharpened as she glowered. âThe ocean is that way, Asha.â
âI know that, you silly star!â She snapped and sharply turned to face the body of water, hoping to enjoy any semblance of peace she could get.
But alas, no peace came when she heard the kingâs voice echoing from behind her as he lightly laughed, âSeriously Asha? Beautiful?â The other voices joined in as she tensed, trying to steady herself with one breath after another.
âDonât get too attached Asha��Donât you remember what your poor old father wanted?â rang the kingâs voice in her ears again as she flinched. âYouâre not supposed to be a part of this world, remember? Much less enjoy it or the beings that come with it.â
She wasnât enjoying it. She wasnât! Sheâd only been stating the obvious when sheâd called the beach beautiful! She hadnât meant anything more than that!
âAsha?â called Cepheusâs voice as she broke into a cold sweat. The echoes of voices faded like smoke as she blinked. âAsha, are you okay?â
âIâm fine!â She blurted, perhaps too quickly to convince anyone before she gestured to their surroundings, âBut where are we exactly?â
âKepler,â he answered as his wings quivered at the passing breeze.
âKepler?â she narrowed her eyes. She couldnât recall hearing of a city or country named KeplerâŚunless- her eyes widened as she stared back at the ocean. âis this the ocean where you were before you heard my wish? Where you said that Deneb met her soul mate?âÂ
His smile grew as he nodded. âYes.â
Ah! So this was the place! He hadnât been lying when heâd called it beautiful, she thought as she looked over the shoreline once more. If thereâd ever been a place she imagined as the setting for a scandalous royal alien fairytale then it would be here. But speaking of royaltyâŚâWhereâs the castle?â
âThe castle?â
âYeah, the Cygnus castle? You know the one you told me you loved to visitâŚyou said you could see the waves from it, remember?â
âohâŚOH!â he blinked in surprise, before lightly slapping his forehead. âSorryâŚThat castle wasnât built yetâŚâ
âOhâŚâ she replied, trying not to feel disappointed.
âBut thereâs another castle and a human village not too far from hereâŚâÂ
âA human village?!â she gasped as he nodded. âThere are humans in space?! Why?!!â
âAtlanteans, astronomers, diplomats, smugglers, the sheer expansiveness of the universe- take your pick!â he laughed as he listed the reasons on his clawed fingers. âA lot of humans settled here for different reasons. But the one thing they all have in common is that theyâre well taken care of.â He hummed thoughtfully before lowering his hand. âYou know Asha if you ever decide to come to spaceâŚIâm sure the other humans wouldnât mind accommodating you and your family!Â
Asha frowned. âYou think I should stay with the other humans?â
âOf course! I meanâŚisnât that what you wanted?â
Well..yesâŚbutâŚshe hadnât wanted to do so without him.Â
She couldnât explain why, butâŚIn this strange world. In his world, he was her only piece of familiarity. Her safety. How could he be so casual about them splitting up?
âOh brother, do you hear this guy?!â the kingâs voice angrily called as his figure slowly materialized before her. His grip on his spear tightened as he rudely waved to the oblivious star. âUgh see whenever I tell you that age does not equate to wisdom, itâs because of things like this! You think heâd try to be a little less obvious about it!
âA little less obvious?â she wondered, as the king rolled his eyes before continuing,Â
âCâmon Asha! Even Dario would be able to tell you that going into space is not the wonderful fix-all solution heâs trying to sell you.â She grimaced, her gaze no longer able to meet his as he stepped forward and shook his head disapprovingly. âDid you really think things would be any different in his world?â
âI...I donât know unless I goâŚmaybe things could be differentâŚit could be a fresh start! Maybe I could help people!â she weakly thought in reply.
âFresh start?! Asha Those people live amongst stars- why would they bother to entertain anything you have to offer? You have no powers, no title, no wealth, or relevant skill for that matterâ
âI know butâŚI wonât know unless I tryâŚâ sheâd meekly thought as his cruel laughter filled his ears.
âTry? Asha, you havenât even made your decision to leave and heâs already decided to put you as far away from him as possible. Out of sight, and out of mind.â She could feel the ghost of his hand resting on her shoulder. âChanging environments isnât going to change anything, Asha, not when we all know that the real problem has always been you. See? It didnât take your little star very long to figure it out now, did it? Heâs not very different from me, is he?â
She bit her lip, feeling her fingernails slowly dig into the palm of her hands as her name echoed within her own ears. Maybe Cepheus had been calling her, she didnât know. She couldnât hear him over the sound of the kingâs voice teasingly asking her, âWhat? You didnât think he wasnât going to be embarrassed by you?â
âNo! He wasnât embarrassed!â she thought, clutching at the capeâs edges. âBeauty aside, his world was unarguably dangerous. Her father had almost been killed upon entering it, and now people with ties to it were trying to kill her! Maybe he was just trying to protect her, right?Â
âWhereâs your confidence?â the queenâs voice gently whispered. It sounded concerned, and maybe if sheâd been in a better state of mind, she wouldâve thought caring. âIf youâre so sure heâs looking out for you then why donât you tell him how you really feel?â
She could practically hear the grin in the kingâs voice as he quickly added. âOr are you just too afraid that heâll turn you down like the prince did?â
âAsha?â came Cepheusâs voice as she felt him grasp her shoulders. âAsha, are you alright?â
âI-,â she stopped, as a low growl reverberated overhead.Â
The growl hadnât been deafening, but something about it had felt wrong as if she were hearing the sound of a creature that never shouldâve existed in the first place.
Her eyes promptly darted to the cloudy yet translucent sky above, narrowly catching sight of something large swiftly disappearing into the clouds as another growl shook the ground.Â
She hadnât seen much of what it was, nor had she wanted to. But from what she could determine, its body had been all too similar to the Atlantean serpentine sheâd seen Allepac destroy.Â
Only this one had been far bigger and moreâŚorganic looking⌠like it was something more than just an instrument of warâŚ.
âW-what in the world was that?!â she cried, stumbling behind the star as her eyes refused to leave the sky.
âThe leviathan,â the star casually answered as he looked up at the sky.Â
âThe Leviathan?â she grimaced, quickly crouching behind the star as another growl filled the air. âUmâŚquick question...why is it growling like that? Better yet why is it flying?!â
âItâs probably determining whether or not to kill whatever it senses approaching.â
âKill?âÂ
âWith extreme prejudiceâŚâ the star cheerfully replied as if it were the most casual thing in the world. âthis could get very nasty very quickly.â
Why he was so calm about this was beyond herâŚsure this mightâve been an illusion but it was a rather unpleasant one! Then again, he had stated that a starâs true form was rather largeâŚwhat if heâd been bigger than the leviathan? Was that even possible?!
She hoped not, she thought, before a figure stepped out of the forest and approached.
To her surprise, it was a rather handsome man dressed in stately blue robes who looked to be somewhere in his late twenties or possibly early thirties. He appeared to be partially African, but she could tell through his white-colored dreadlocks, and crystal blue eyes, that he also carried Atlantean heritage, and just like any Atlantean sheâd suspected his appearance no doubt, betrayed his true age.Â
Sighing, heâd looked up and down the coast as if searching for something before he shook his head and withdrew a blue crystal attached to his necklace.
âOceans,â he grumbled and watched with disgust as the glowing waves crashed along the shorelines. âWhy did it have to be oceans? Does she have any idea how terrifying these things are?!â He sighed, shaking his head before he took one deep breath after another, and carefully kneeled, maintaining some distance from the water before he bowed his head and placed a hand over his heart.
 âOh patroness of arts, protector of the seas, the heart of the Kraieyek empire,â he paused, as the sound of the ocean filled her ears once more. A sound that was promptly broken by the string of curses that left his lips as he abruptly rose back to his feet before backing away.
She hadnât seen it at first until heâd moved, just out of reach of an emerging stream of water flowing upwards towards the beach. Such motion shouldâve been impossible she thought as the water began to slowly encircle itself, as smaller streams began to branch off, connect, and tangle into a pattern of sorts.Â
No sooner had the pattern formed than a figure slowly rose from the oceanâs depths. A multitude of brightly glowing cyan-colored eyes broke the surface. Water cascaded over her shoulders as she slowly rose to the edge of the shore.
To call her full height frightening wouldâve been an understatement, but seeing it now hadnât made it hard to understand why her father had reacted the way he did to the starâs heights.Â
The star that stood before the man couldnât have been any shorter than seventeen feet, as he bowed to her once more. Yet even despite her height, she was beautiful. Her skin was a pleasant shade of blue perfectly decorated with cyan-colored tattoos that spanned from her collarbone to her forearms and cyan-colored fingertips. Her four irises were a piercing shade of blue that sharply contrasted the dark blue of her scleras and the near whiteness of her hair.Â
âVitrius,â she softly spoke. All of her eyes focused on him as water continued dripping from her white hair.
âVitriusâ Asha whispered. As in Tau Vitrius?! Her fatherâs mentor?! This is what Tau Vitrius looked like? She hadnât expected him to somewhat resemble the Atlanteans so much given the disdain heâd shown for their dialect and its influence.Â
Wait, but if Vitrius was her astronomer, then that star could only be ââYour MajestyâŚâ he bowed, leaving Asha unsure whether she should have been more impressed by the starâs beauty or Vitriusâs fearlessness.
ButâŚshe had to admit, that save for the faded scars on her limbs and the weariness in her eyes, Deneb looked shockingly young. Maybe no older than seventeen or eighteen which was far too young to be a queen.Â
âI apologize for the informal setting,â she started, swiftly stepping by him. âHad I known youâd arrived so quickly, I wouldâve arranged for something a bit more formalâŚ.â Maybe Asha had been imagining things, but she couldâve sworn that Denebâs accent soundedâŚfamiliar.
âYouâve heard the news havenât you?â she spoke, breaking the silence once more as she turned to face him.
âYesâŚI believe congratulations are in order for your ascension to the throne,â Vitreous replied as he crossed his arms behind his back. âHeadmistress Karagash sends her regards.â
She darkly scowled, before stepping away with a scoff. âOf courseâŚ. I take it that your superiors were overjoyed at the announcement werenât they?â
âSome were,â Vitrius confirmed with a small nod. âBarring the headmistress of courseâŚbut it seems as if most are cautiously optimistic in the councilâs proposalâŚI know your feelings on the matter but there is no denying that your move is arguably as forward as it is backward. From the moment your sister abdicated, you were the only viable option to become Apsuramal.â
âYou're too optimistic Vitrius,â she sighed, sounding more exasperated than anything else. âAscension or not Vegaâs banishment was not necessary nor will it do me any favors in the near futureâŚâ
âWith all due respect my lady, sentiments aside, as high queen your power must be absolute and unquestionable. The situation that has brought us here is far from ideal, but even you must admit that banishing her will undoubtedly limit the options your opponents have to overthrow you, as thatâs one less viable figurehead that they can use to challenge you.â
âAnd with all due respect astronomer,â she spoke. The ground silently yet somehow softly shook with every step she took. âOptimism aside, it was a rather well-planned self-inflicted blow. As it currently stands I am a rather unpopular Apsuramal, and the banishment of not only a superior healer but an initially more popular contender to the throne will certainly do me no favors in the eyes of my detestors or the ones who have yet to make up their minds on the matter.â
She turned her eyes towards the horizon as she placed her arms behind her, briefly allowing Asha a view of the small but luminescent cyan scales that littered her forearms almost in the patterns of constellations. âIf I go through with the councilâs proposal then everything my people and ancestors have worked and bled for, what my mother died for, all of it will have been for naught.â
âNot quite,â he interjected. âPardon my optimism, but as bleak as the situation may be it has yet to become totally hopeless.â
âWhy do you say that?â she asked, as she spared him a glance.
âYou may not have been born destined to rule the throne, but it seems as if fate has proven otherwise. Call it an old astronomerâs superstition,â he shrugged as he walked towards her. âbut my masterâs always told me that things never happen without reasonâŚmaybe you cannot be the perfection that the court wants, but you can be their hope, and sometimes thatâs all people, or maybe even beings need.â
âDo you really think I could be the hope my people need even when my desires do nothing more than push us closer to the very same war we sought to end?â
âItâs possible⌠although itâs far too early to say for sureâŚbut even if they do not accept you as much as youâd like theyâll always need you. You are their Apsuramal. Their lifeline. They are a part of you just as you are of them. So neither of you can exist without each other, even while youâre still figuring things out.â
She said nothing as the waves continued to roll against the shoreline. Somewhere from above the Leviathanâs calls faintly echoed, as Vitrius cleared his throat, âYou donât have to believe me your Highness, but the worst thing you could do is to let your enemies know you have fallen apart. Not when theyâre still looking for the opportunity to strike.â
âYes,â she took in a deep breath as she nodded. Her posture straightened as she turned back towards the ocean. âFor now there is still timeâŚAnd with it, hopefully, opportunities as wellâŚâ
âDid the council grant your request for a second hearing?â he murmured thoughtfully.
âThey did. Of course, you know they were rather adamant about the marriage arrangement, regardless of whether or not I made any valid counterarguments. But thankfully the meeting proved to be quite useful inâŚother ways to say the least,â a ghost of a smile appeared on her face. âMortal word isnât the only one that spreads quickly.â
âOh?â he raised an eyebrow at her words before turning to her. âCare to share whatâs transpiring on your side of the galaxy?â
âMy informant has confirmed rumors about a certain diplomat of the Myrkadiusâ Deneb hummed before kneeling at the small patterned streams of water that promptly twisted itself into a small figure. âFrom what we gathered, her name is Alhena.â
âAlhena?â Vitrius repeated, looking somewhat surprised. âI didnât know she was a diplomatâŚâ
âShe isâŚYouâve heard of her?â
Vitrius nodded. âShe is a distant relative of the current Myrkadius I think. A remarkable singer as well. Maybe even too remarkable.â
âHmmâŚâ Denebâs eyes narrowed as with a flick of her finger, the water figure immediately froze. âFrom what I hear sheâs everything youâd expect in a silver star- ambitious, intelligent, manipulative, and whatnot, save for the one thing.â
âOh?â
âShe lacks significant physical power. Itâs the only thing thatâs keeping her from achieving a much higher status within her own court. But what she lacks in ambition, she certainly makes up for in charm and beautyâŚâ Deneb laughed, muttering something in a strange language as red slowly began to seep into the small water figure before it shattered.
âWell, if heâs going to be like that, you might as well take a lover too,â Vitrius replied without hesitation as she cast him an ever-so-questioning glance. âWhat?â he shrugged as Asha nearly choked in disbelief. âI said what I said.â
Asha could tell from the way Deneb simply stared in an almost apprehensive way that she was used to Vitriusâs strange advice, as she continued, âAffair aside, I received word that Vega has accepted the sanctuary the Myrkadius offered her upon her abdication and banishmentâŚâ
âSanctuary? SoâŚthat meansâŚâ
âYes,â Deneb sighed and closed her eyes. âWe finally know who she was with all those nights sheâd been absent. She was probably the informant for the spies the silver court had sent to examine our border territories.â
âThatâs⌠treason, isnât it?â Vitrius asked as she nodded and he grimaced. âGoodness. Thereâs never a peaceful moment amongst your kind, is there?â
âYou are one to talk,â Deneb frowned. âExactly how many wars has your species started over trivial matters?â
âThis isnât about us,â Vitrius retorted as Asha quietly conceded Denebâs point. âDrama aside, have you received any more intel from that other source? Perhaps they might know something given how they were the ones whoâd been rather quick to inform you of the Myrkadiusâs infiltration attempts!â
âNo,â she shook her head. âLatelyâŚTheyâve been strangely silentâŚâ
âWere you ever able to figure out who the source of that intel was?â
âNot yet. Iâve combed through all the spy networks in every corner of the universe, but it seems as if whoever it was spared no expense to ensure they wouldnât be discoveredâŚa calculated action no doubt, but if my suspicions are correct, I believe it originated from a different court.â
âThereâs only one other court that would bother concerning themselves with the affair of the silver onesâŚâ Vitrius added. âPerhaps you should look into allying with them.â
âThat might not be possible,â she scowled. âThe Solaris, no matter how friendly he may appear to be has always been rather adamant on staying away from us. Whether it be because of his friendship with the Nocturnes, or his partial ownership of the Terracotta court, my mother was never able to get anywhere when it came to attempting to secure an alliance between our courts.â
âBut that should be changing rather soon,â Vitrius spoke with a small note of hope in his voice. âI overheard that the Solaris had personally requested that none of the astronomers attend the Sentenga Solstice this time.â
âI take it most of you werenât pleased with that,â her eyes glowing rather smugly as Vitrius scowled.Â
âWhy would we be?âÂ
She chuckled. âWell if itâs of any consolation to you, Iâve heard the reasoning behind said the decision was on behalf of the Myrkadies and the Nocturnus, who by all means plan to be in attendance when the heir to the court is formally announced.â
âThe Nocturnus and Myrkadius are attending?! I thought the Myrkadius and the Solaris despised each other!â
âShocking isnât it?â Deneb smiled, evidently amused. âBut heâs done so under the notion of promising peace talks and alliances. All too coincidental, but I suppose from the view of the SolarisâŚif he were to establish a new level of tolerance between the two it would undoubtedly strengthen the councilâs faith and favor towards him, which is exactly what he would need given both the Nocturnusâs growing influence and the legacy he is leaving behind for his heir.â
âAgreed, butâŚdid he have to do that by excluding us?!â Vitrius huffed. âWeâve been working on facilitating their relations for millennials!â
âSo it seemsâŚâ Deneb calmly replied. âHe was after all strangely absent from the council meetings todayâŚ.Any idea on who the chosen heir will be?â
âIâve heard inklings of theories from my colleagues⌠most seem to be torn between Tomiolin and Rigil Kentaurus⌠Tomiolin is said to be rather studious and disciplined, whereas Kentaurus is said to be a bit moreâŚunfocused, but even then most canât deny that his charisma, sheer power, and superior skills as a healer and warrior almost make him the perfect candidate.â
Denebâs lip curled, as she scoffed, before asking, âAnd what of Proxima? Does anyone believe in his chances?â
âHe wasâŚconsideredâŚbut they didnât really want to entertain the thought as muchâŚapparently heâs a bit of an odd oneâŚâ
âIndeed,â she nodded as she stood. âHe is more crimson than anything else.â
âProxima is half crimson?â he raised a brow towards her.
âYes.â
âHow do you know that?â
âHis eyesâŚâ she whispered as her darkened claws grazed the side of her face.Â
âAre they the same as the crimson royal family?â She nodded, as her expression hardened and her eyes narrowed. âI seeâŚBut if your mother was interested in pursuing an alliance of sorts, did she ever formally introduce you to the three princes?â
âYes.â
âWellâŚâ Vitrius began. âWould youâŚever entertain the idea of a possible alliance with one of them?â
âNo.â
âNo?â he took a step back and looked her over. âAnd why not!?â
âFor as admirably disciplined and focused as he is, Tomiolin lacks any meaningful warrior prowess. Proxima is of crimson blood, and Kentaurus isâŚKentaurus.â
âMeaning?â
âHe is kind. Too kind, to be effective when in a leading role. Therefore he is not in the least bit desirable.â
âWell then, we are fortunate that you seek to make him an ally and not your husband!â Vitrius smiled as her gaze darkened. He mustâve seen the displeased look on her face as he cleared his throat before promptly adding. âI merely speak facts, Arided. You donât have to like your allies. But if you can tolerate each other more than any third party, then I think your alliance is safe.â
âBut even then, you forget just how crucial ownership of the Terracotta court is for both parties. Theyâve been taking care of that minor court for eons, no doubt with the plan of utilizing it to its fullest potential if something were to say unfortunately but not unexpectedly happen to another major court.â
Vitrius eyes widened before he firmly shook his head. âThey couldnât replace your people-,âÂ
âYouâd be surprised,â Deneb casually answered. âBut if they are in on it, then that limits my potential for any strong allianceâŚwhich brings me back to where I am nowâŚThe cerulean courtâs best healer now resides in the heart of any enemyâs empire, who strongly supports the crimson court, which very few would think of standing against.â She glanced over her shoulder at Vitrius. âAnd even though I exposed Vegaâs treason it has done little to sway my courtâs opinion towards meâŚif anything itâs only soured their opinion on the family as a wholeâŚso if I am not careful I may end up exhausting all of my options. And what then? Would this higher power that you think put me on the throne save me then? Or would it be to abandon me to the hands of my enemies?â she asked, as her grip on her forearm tightened.
âIâŚI do not know, my queen. I wish I didâŚâ
âI knowâŚI only wishâŚwaitâ her voice lowered as thunder rippled through the air once more, as both astronomer and starâs eyes turned to the sky.
Silence filled the air momentarily before the sound of thunder emerged once more, its pitch and volume heightening as it turned into a roar.
âDid you feel that?â she whispered.
âFeel what?!,â Vitreous retorted as he fearfully eyed the roaring waves>
âWhatâs happening?!â Asha shrieked, covering her ears as she turned to face Cepheus.
âYour Highness!â called one of the guards as several soldiers rushed to the shoreline. A few pointed their spears to the air, as several surrounded the queen.Â
âA powerful presence has been detected approaching the planet!â
âThis way your Highness! You must be prepared to evacuate if needed!â one of the guards called, as another roar pierced the air, this time accompanied by a bright beam of golden light as the clouds tore open revealing something that was headed straight towards the ocean.
In a heartbeat the queen was gone, sharply yelling commands as she headed towards the ocean where the object had disappeared.Â
âArided!â Vitrius screamed as he ran after her. âArided come back!â
His words were lost to the wind as three pairs of blue wings emerged from her back. She was a mere blur as she swiftly dove into the dark depths below.
And then everything was still.
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hannibal rewatching s1e9 trou normand THOUGHTS
Will going to Hannibal while he's losing time sort of means everything to me. Like Hannibal has officially successful made Will feel like Hannibal is his only support, his "paddle", so much so that even while out of it and losing time he winds up at Hannibal's office. And the ease with which he visits Hannibal in this episode, as if going to him after kissing Alana and having his feelings validated, his fears assuage has proven Hannibal reliable in Wills mind. Just delicious!! And I love that during that scene, Hannibal reaffirms he's there for Will "I'm your friend Will, I don't care about the lives you save I care about your life", and then not only undermining Wills analysis of his illness (since Will again brings up physical symptoms and the idea of a physical illness) but plants the seed in Wills mind that the more unstable he becomes the more violent he might become. Just like beautifully crafted manipulation.
And then immediately afterwards we have Will trying to apologize to Jack. the lack of general concern on Jack's behalf, saying losing himself is just what Will does without seriously considering the toll that might take. His tone is so paternally condescending, like Will is a surely teenager purposefully being obtuse. But the best part of the scene is Will lying to Jack. Hannibal has Will so convinced he has no one else, and he knows Jack will pull him from field work if he starts to slip, that realizing Jack didn't notice makes him lie that he's fine. I'm not sure Jack believes him but it gives him plausible deniablity and beyond that he can't demand Will get help if Will won't be honest about the ways he's struggling. Will lying to Jack, blatantly, in this small way is absolutely the red flag of "and he will lie to Jack again to suit his needs".
the moment between Alana and Will always leaves me conflicted. On the one hand, almost no one in Wills life is both honest with him and doesn't treat him like a child, and that's what Alana is trying to do here. She's upfront both about her feelings and why she can't act on them, treating Will like an equal for the maybe the first time ever in their relationship, even while telling him he's unstable. but I do think in a way it's cruel to say this to him. be upfront about his instability meaning you can't have a relationship? good. but the banter and the flirting, leading with her having feelings for him and not the rejection. She's trying to do the right thing, she's not being malicious, but Will is so desperately alone right now and it seems cruel to reject him after giving him hope again. Ultimately she's doing the right thing, and there's not really a good way to say what she did, but it makes me ache for Will.
the scene of Will confronting Hannibal about Abigail is like permanently imprinted on my brain. his anger, and its half at abigail having committed a crime and half that Hannibal helped cover it up and didn't tell Will. he's so betrayed by it all, and imo that's what he's really struggling with. He accepts both Abigail having murdered someone and Hannibal covering up so quickly, but the hurt remains. and then Hannibal lays it on sooooo thick "we're her fathers now". the logical part of me knows he playing to Wills paternal instincts towards Abigail to insure Will doesn't tell Jack and implicate him in a crime, but it's so heavy handed its like girl just get down on one knee already my god. and the reassuring touch after Will agrees to cover it up when Hannibal KNOWS Will is craving connection more than anything right now... it could actually drive me insane!!!!!
everything abigail is crazy making. the parental lecturing tone Will and Hannibal take with her, Will reaching out again trying to have someone in his life and having abigail reject that almost instantly where she doesn't shrug of Hannibal. her exposing nick Boyle and the conversations with Hannibal about it. even the way he hugs her after she admits to being the lure!!! it's such a strong moment for her, this true vulnerability she only shows around Hannibal. there's this small moment when she eats the meat for the first time, the look on Abigails face... I know that's also the moment she realizes that Will knows but the way it's shot makes it seem like she knows she's eating people. always the lingering shot on the food and her face after she takes a bite, and the way she fully pauses after the first bite. so good
I imagine as I get closer and closer to The Reveal, I'll have more and more to say, but these posts are truly getting absurdly long
#Hannibal#will graham#hannibal lecter#hannigram#abigail hobbs#alana bloom#jack crawford#trou normand
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