#i think im gonna go anyway. my mom said she'd go with lol

[teenagefeeling]

so my college's musical is this weekend and i wanna go see a couple people i know in it, but there's a problem. he transferred to that school last semester and somehow he seems to have gotten a lead role??? and so now i like don't wanna go but i also still wanna go and i don't want him to ruin it for me but if he's on stage the whole time then like honestly it might ruin it for me ughhHhHhhh

[arinmoss]

asked my grandma if i could move in with her since my mom is planning on moving to mexico and we have to leave out apartment in 3 months cause our landlords giving it to his son or whatever and like. she said no lol. she said no. lol. lmao even. she has a house. with like 3 empty rooms. lmao. lol even.

[just-some-random-blogger]

meow meow, lovely!! good morning!! omg online classes?? dk what about you but here it means time to sleep... hope they're going good. these pretty kitties TT with their tiny paws TT on their tiny faces TT pure art TT 'drink some water' if you knew how much water i drink... 'a libriarian in school i think her name was sonia with an i' idk but i think it's a different name. bc here 'sonya' is a short form of the name sofia or sof'ya (which are different names now but actually it's the same greek name...). and sonya is for sofia while the short form of 'sof'ya' is sofa. i had a classmate whose name is sof'ya and she'd gone absolutely furious when someone called her sonya and not sofa... i feel a little stupid telling you all this but hope it's interesting at least. i understand you made it not because of me but i was really surprised TT i've seen sophi's, sophia's and so on but not this form. 'because i have just always liked the way russian names sound. <3' oooh pretty. i'm katya, nice to meet you <з hope you like it too. 'it sounds very satisfying to me' omg i feel so proud TT i feel like a proud mom TT i'm actually in love with russian, not because i am myself but it's just so fascinating?? omg i've thought so many things in my head rn im gonna cry. 'boy names sound 'feminine' omg pretty TT actually sasha is also a short form of the girl name alexandra (which is just a girl name of alexander lol nm). we also have a short form 'shura' for these names which actually sounds even more feminine and has nothing in common with alexander(a). it is not really popular now bc of this all. AND misha is mikhail TT while dmitriy is dima. for some reason dmitriy is also mitya? ok it has its story but is also not commonly used now. 'cats are so weird and cute' i cried. YES THEY'RE SOSO AAAA I CAN'T MY HEART CAN EXPLODE BC OF THE LOVE I HAVE FOR THESE LITTLE CUTE FURRY BUTTS TT 'i think japanese comebacks are sometimes better than the korean ones' lol shhh don't tell them. but so true TT they're all so beautiful, so tender, so fascinating they feel more idk alive and less materialistic?? 'sometimes i have absolutely no idea what people are talking about' guess it doesn't depend on the music school... what are people talking about in general?? we all say nonsense 'what a rat test' no but it WAS a rat!! even my teacher said it was too difficult for us... and we're all so dumb so it's good. 'but not you youre so smart [hugs]' OOOOH thanks catmom TT [sending you billions of kisses bc you can't catch my cold but be careful anyway] 'praying for you' LOL yk what? today doctor has told me to lay down, drink warm liquids and PRAY ghfjjdjhhfjf. so thanks ig TT it doubles our power TT 'TACKLE WRESTLE SLAM DUNK' meowmeow TT you know i'm not gonna get better with these?.. but i'm kind and i love my catmom MEOWMEOW so have a nice day) good luck with the classes) love you!! take care <з guess i'm gonna go reread waiting for a lifetime rn instead of doing the study tasks, art is cruel. and AAAH !angry emoji! i hate english punctuation!! i want to separate everything with commas!!! stupid illogical english!!

HI BABY

these kitties remind me of my cats when they were born T_T they loved going into boxes

here they are T_T i miss them

omg online classes?? dk what about you but here it means time to sleep... hope they're going good.

HAHAHHAHAH i play genshin impact sometimes online HAHAH

these pretty kitties TT with their tiny paws TT on their tiny faces TT pure art TT

i love kitties so much <3

'drink some water' if you knew how much water i drink...

HAHAH TOO MUCH IS BAD YOU DONT HAVE TO GO OVERBOARD

'a libriarian in school i think her name was sonia with an i' idk but i think it's a different name. bc here 'sonya' is a short form of the name sofia or sof'ya (which are different names now but actually it's the same greek name...). and sonya is for sofia while the short form of 'sof'ya' is sofa. i had a classmate whose name is sof'ya and she'd gone absolutely furious when someone called her sonya and not sofa... i feel a little stupid telling you all this but hope it's interesting at least.

🤬🤬🤬😡😡😡😡😡😡 youre not stupid this was very interesting!!! i love learning about names and origins and etymology its so intruding to find out the basis of things <3. perhaps sonia is a different name. it's so interesting to find sonya is from sofia !!! theyre quite different but similar. and your classmate HAHAAHH T_T i get her AHAAHHA. i get annoyed when people get my name wrong too, but ive become more patient about it lol cos people are dumb /: HAHAHH

i understand you made it not because of me but i was really surprised TT i've seen sophi's, sophia's and so on but not this form.

im not like other girls im different 😍💅😌🤩 HAHAHAHAHH

'because i have just always liked the way russian names sound. <3' oooh pretty. i'm katya, nice to meet you <з hope you like it too.

OMG I LOVE KATYA MY CUTIE KITTY KITTY BABY GIRL UGH <3

'it sounds very satisfying to me' omg i feel so proud TT i feel like a proud mom TT i'm actually in love with russian, not because i am myself but it's just so fascinating?? omg i've thought so many things in my head rn im gonna cry.

same brain same thoughts one brain cell we share. go mom! be proud! HAHAH.

'boy names sound 'feminine' omg pretty TT actually sasha is also a short form of the girl name alexandra (which is just a girl name of alexander lol nm). we also have a short form 'shura' for these names which actually sounds even more feminine and has nothing in common with alexander(a). it is not really popular now bc of this all.

HAHAHAH i love it when names do that. my grandparents all have spanish names and some of them have nicknames that make 0 sense HAHAHAH AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH my grandma is josefina and her nickname is pining, which is like ??? pretty close because filipino nicknames but my grandma's youngest brother is horoio and his nickname is boyet????????????????????????????????????? ??????? im just very confused but i love it HAHAHAHH

AND misha is mikhail TT while dmitriy is dima. for some reason dmitriy is also mitya? ok it has its story but is also not commonly used now.

ok then HAHAHHA but the guy in supernatural misha collins is dmitiri so ??? i assumed AHHAH i like dima a lot though and mikhail <3 I LOVE MIKHAIL SO MUCH i love how it sounds UGHHHHH

'cats are so weird and cute' i cried. YES THEY'RE SOSO AAAA I CAN'T MY HEART CAN EXPLODE BC OF THE LOVE I HAVE FOR THESE LITTLE CUTE FURRY BUTTS TT

me @ cats

'i think japanese comebacks are sometimes better than the korean ones' lol shhh don't tell them. but so true TT they're all so beautiful, so tender, so fascinating they feel more idk alive and less materialistic??

aHAHHAH ok itll be our secret haha

'sometimes i have absolutely no idea what people are talking about' guess it doesn't depend on the music school... what are people talking about in general?? we all say nonsense

AHHA:LSHAS:LHA its a me problem babes HAHAHAH its what i get for playing genshin in class HAHAHHAHHA i also have a lot of classmates that do gigs/live performances and they know what theyre talking about but i dont have any of that experience so hahahah

'what a rat test' no but it WAS a rat!! even my teacher said it was too difficult for us... and we're all so dumb so it's good.

wERE ALL DUMB AHHAHAHHAHAH 😩😩😩✊✊✊

'but not you youre so smart [hugs]' OOOOH thanks catmom TT [sending you billions of kisses bc you can't catch my cold but be careful anyway]

(pedro pascal in this makes me 😨)

'praying for you' LOL yk what? today doctor has told me to lay down, drink warm liquids and PRAY ghfjjdjhhfjf. so thanks ig TT it doubles our power TT

'TACKLE WRESTLE SLAM DUNK' meowmeow TT you know i'm not gonna get better with these?.. but i'm kind and i love my catmom MEOWMEOW so have a nice day) good luck with the classes) love you!! take care <з

i love you SLAM DUNK HAHAHAHH i hope you also do good in your classes <3

guess i'm gonna go reread waiting for a lifetime rn instead of doing the study tasks, art is cruel.and AAAH !angry emoji! i hate english punctuation!! i want to separate everything with commas!!! stupid illogical english!!

T_T HAHAHAHHAHAHAH STUPID ILLOGICAL ENGLISH FR stop but pls dont let your studies go down the drain because of my fics T_T here are your angry emojis 😡😡😡😡🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬👺👺👺👺😭👹👹👹👹👿👿👿👿

bye bye baby love you

xxx

[masterserris]

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[freebooter4ever]

Hmmm memories. Grandma would love my tree.

I printed out a photo and mailed it to her in a christmas card but its not the same.

I was sitting in my chair and thinking about how i really should have a second one because it's extremely silly to have only one seat. Eventually i will expand my circle of friends, eventually im gonna want to invite people over who will not willingly sit at the bar for the whole time, i need a second seat.

But it also got me thinking about Grandma in ohio and her set up with two armchairs right next to each other in front of the TV.

When I was tiny, like really really little, like less than 4 feet tall little, I was terrified of the dark/sleeping alone. My one grandma (callyerdogsoff) helped out by recording a cassette tape of her reading my favorite books: "Sarah's Lion" and one about a ballerina. Every night I would play those on repeat over and over again until eventually I fell asleep and it would run to the end of the tape and then turn off.

My other grandparent's - the italian ones - solved this problem more directly. They would shove this ratty textured 70's lounge chair thing up against the end of their four poster bed and let me sleep there. The lounge chair had very boxy three sides and was flat and with the extra edge formed by the bed, essentially made a very large crib.

Now this was the house my dad and his three siblings went through high school in, so there were perfectly decent bunk beds in the boys old room I could have slept in one of those. But because I'd get scared grandma and grandpa always let me stay at the foot of their bed and fall asleep to grandpa's snoring.

Anyway, in october this year, the night before I took the flight back to LA, even though I knew I had to wake up at 3am, I snuck downstairs, through the farmhouse, and over to Grandma's little cottage, careful not to wake my aunt and uncle.

I knew grandma would be reading because of the number of times in the months after grandpa's death when I'd have to go take the book out of her hands and turn the light off after she'd finally fall asleep. And sure enough, she was in bed reading, and I crawled in on grandpa's side next to her, just to spend a little bit more time with her. And we were talking, and laughing about how both of us have queen sized beds now and neither of us use the whole thing - we have our 'side' and don't like to cross it. Grandma because from age 19 on she always had grandpa beside her. And me because im just used to having a twin bed, lol.

Grandma asked me if I wanted to sleep there next to her, and I declined because I knew I had to get up at an ungodly hour of the morning and I really didn't want to wake everybody on the farm. But also because it felt a little weird taking grandpa's spot instead of being at the foot of the bed.

And then she confessed something that just absolutely broke my heart. She said that sometimes when it's just her alone, in her chair in front of the TV, with the empty chair sitting next to her, she pretends like grandpa's sitting there and she's talking to him.

I have a lot of regrets about everything that happened after grandpa's death - i dont think we should have moved grandma from seattle that suddenly and quickly. She lost her entire support network and community AND her husband of over 65 years all in one go. And my aunt complains that now she won't socialize with anyone outside the family.

Grandma and grandpa had their first date when they were 14 and 17. And my bitter mother used to tell me that the only reason they stayed together was because they were of a 'different generation' and they secretly hate each other just like my mom hates my dad. But it wasn't true. My grandparents were in love up until the day he died - even when dying in the hospital while he was slightly delirious on pain meds grandpa was jorking about him and grandma 'necking'. And whenever the three of us went to the museum of flight during my visits back home from the burgh, grandpa and I would wander into the exhibits to look at the history. And grandma would sit in the main atrium to people watch and socialize. And grandpa would always make sure we checked in on her regularly because - as he put it - if he left her sitting there alone too long the old men would start flocking.

Anyway, I was just sitting there in my drawing chair tonight thinking about how I didn't even have a second chair let alone someone to imagine in it. And it also got me thinking about how much grandma would love my christmas tree.