#i think i'll hv to keep note

[clowncloud]

feel like i'm dying know that i aren't at least not yet unfortunately bc i'd really like to nvr have another panic attack again yh

[raat-jaaga-paakhi]

you mentioned harivansha and from what i know of scholarly stuffs it's much older than bhagavata purana so why do you think it isn't prominently considered for krishna's life? and what translations of harivansha do you use for your studies? i'm sorry if this seems too eager lololol

I'm answering this ask a year late, so I suppose that offsets your zeal (in a really horrible way)? This has been in my drafts, I just forgot about it entirely, thank you for coming to my inbox to remind me again. <3

Yes, Harivamsha was written much prior to Srimad Bhagavata Purana, and is considered some sort of appendix to the Mahabharata, which again is of greater antiquity. We can only speculate as to its relative lack of popularity, and I would like to mull over my own thoughts on this a bit more. I'll make a separate post, possibly. Let me just give a small introduction on the Harivamsha instead.

A Guide to Harivamsha

REFERENCES I USE IN MY STUDIES: (in no particular order)

1. Harivamsha Critical Edition (as edited by BORI, Bhandarkar Oriental Research Institute), EN-translated by Bibek Debroy.

Above-average translation quality. Compared to the others, the only benefit of this reference is that it lets one know what sections BORI cleaved—regarding which one must keep in mind that, as Debroy himself noted and as I observed in the course of reading as well, the editing of Harivamsha Critical Edition was in no way as well and expertly done as that of the Mahabharata Critical Edition (BORI).

2. Harivamsha Purana, Gita Press

The only complete and accessible translation (Hindi) of HV that there is. Great translation quality. You usually don't have to second-guess each line (like I have to, with No. 1).

3. Chitrashala Press edition of Harivamsa, Online EN translation by Desiraju Hanumanta Rao, A. Purushothaman & A. Harindranath. https://www.dvaipayana.net/harivamsa/harivamsa-cs-index.html

Very helpful, as you get the Sanskrit verses alongside the translated English ones, for comparison/tallying purposes.

4. Harivamsha Purana, EN-translated by M. N. Dutt (https://www.wisdomlib.org/hinduism/book/harivamsha-purana-dutt)

Most accessible translation; no big differences from No. 3 in interpretations. (I will take this opportunity to recommend Wisdomlib to practically everyone in this fandom.)

5. Krishna’s Lineage: The Harivamsha of Vyāsa’s Mahābhārata. EN translation by Simon P. Brodbeck.

Good translation, good language, immensely well-organised. Has family trees in a genealogical appendix.

GENERAL UNDERSTANDING OF HARIVAMSHA'S STRUCTURE:

The text is divided into 3 parvas, as follows -

Harivamsha Parva - This contains a lot of background information through the genealogies and stories interspersed in all the lineage talk. We get some important backstory for MBh, and we get some stories which you may find in most other Puranas. (Interestingly, this contains the Syamantaka incident. It was a really big deal, is all.)

Vishnu Parva - The main section of Krishna's non-MBh life-story, starting from his birth, the Mathura-era exploits (Kamsavadh, Jarāsandha's attacks), Rukmini-harana (my beloved), the Pārijāta story, and dealing with Pradyumna (his firstborn) and Aniruddha's (Pradyumna's son) lives as well.

Bhavishya Parva - The first chapters of this section are indeed about "bhavishya" (things that happen or "will happen" post-Swargārohana, prophecies about Kali Yuga, etc). Then there's a set of chapters that go into some of Vishnu's avatars (Varāha, Narasimha, Vāmana, in particular). These two sets of chapters are translated in almost all versions. Then comes the dicey part, the set of chapters translated only in Gita Press Harivamsha, and ironically, the most important part of Bhavishya Parva in my opinion (because it has major portions of Krishna's life-story. This section contains Paundraka's (and Ekalavya's) siege on Dwāraka, the killing of Hamsa-Dimbaka (Jarāsandha's closest allies that Krishna speaks of to Yudhisthira in MBh's Sabhā parva) etc. Invaluable for better understanding of Yādava politics, and kind of ties up some loose ends from MBh.

Lovers and collectors of obscure Krishna-katha (or even just Purana-katha in general), Harivamsha is the place for you! <3

[vagabond-umlaut]

Hiii Kit :))

What advice can you give to someone who wants to start writing? Could you share some tips

💕💕💕☮️

heyyy nonnieee :))

firstly, tysm!! i'm rly honored to know tht u approached a silly girl like me for writing advice, hehe [/genuine]

secondly, and coming to answer ur ask, hmmm... i think u got to be a teeny-tiny bit passionate abt ur writing, and a teeny-tiny bit crazy abt it too... if u deem an idea as good and if u hv the time and will to write then, js sit down and start writing!! don't think abt perfecting it in the very first go; it happens w time and practice and feedback from other ppl -> which brings me to my next point: hv good friends who r willing to give u kind but honest feedback on ur writing [I'M SERIOUSLY SO THANKFUL TO MY DEAREST MOOTIES & FOLLOWERS *mwaahh*]

also, try and keep a realistic goal for urself, like wht i do is -> if i write smthng and ik it's not too popular an idea, i'm like, "okay- if this gets so-and-so number of notes, i'll consider this as a HIT!" but if i write a more popular kind of idea, i'm like, "for this, i'll raise the target a little higher, and if it reaches it, I'M HAPPY!" — but then things don't work out always, and tht's okay. speaking from personal experience, it will not seem okay at first, but u will slowly accept it [my most fave fic is my biggest flop :))]

and last but not the least, don't write anything which does not give u happiness or if it makes u uncomfortable! THIS IS V V IMPORTANT!! write for ur fave character(s), write for ur audience, write for ur notes, BUT PLS DON'T FORGET TO WRITE FOR URSELF, BABES!! also, do not take shit from anyone. if u find anyone insulting or annoying u, js go ahead and kick them off ur friends' list!! creativity and a disturbed mind do not exist together

hope these tips help u, babes! AND WISH U ALL THE BEST FOR UR WRITING JOURNEY!! I'M SURE U WILL WRITE VERY WELL *mwah*

also, if u want any more help or advice, my inbox is always open! hv a wonderful morning/noon/evening/night ahead, sweetheart <3333

[ashsostrange]

bye i didn't even think ab the fact that miles was drawing gwen in different clothes 🤦‍♀️ they really had my boy embarrassing himself on big screens in 4K ULTRA HD.. wtv you call it. he ain't living this down. miles is def using the idea of gwen as an escape/coping mechanism and it's definitely nawttt healthy at all. like okay draw her once or twice every now and then, big deal. but yk it's bad when gwen just keeps flipping and FLIPPING and there's still more drawings, like please bro. enough. dare i say it's a teensy bit (extremely) strange that he's drawing her more than his dead uncle, not to mention that mural he made atsv where he had gwen in the center and aaron to the right. aaron is truly better than me bc if my nephew put a girl he barely knows over ME, the nigga that's been there for him his whole life, AND the nigga who showed him that spot nd helped him paint the first part of the mural, his ass would be getting haunted. get a grip lil bro. like atp i'm convinced these writers were smoking that good good when they wrote anything contributing to miles and gwen's relationship. yk they took that tolerance break while they were writing the rest of it tho 👎 also it's real damn sad, cz i think we all know margo is gna be the disposable love interest in order to "help miles realize he's in love with gwen." like ughhh boo throwin' tomatoes. she deserves sm better. the writers have a chance to use margo as the girl who helps miles differentiate love and obsession by making her the girl he actually loves, but they're not gna take it, obv. actually maybe they don't hv a lot of time since it's the last movie, but my point stands. margo could b so much more than just a filler but that's what they're gna reduce her to. the more and more i think ab it, i just can't see gwen and miles together anymore. whoever wrote the movie set ts up all wrong. is miles j gna push aside the fact that he would've never known that his dad was bout to bite the dust if he didn't follow gwen...? i don't blame her at all for not telling miles ab his dad cuz she was literally put in an impossible situation, but i feel like if we're being practical, if i was miles i would forgive gwen, but i wouldn't go back to being friends w her so easily. hell, maybe not even at all. i mean, this is gwen keeping the fact that miles' dad was nearing death that we're talking ab 😭 they can't bounce back from that so easily, regardless of the circumstances, even if she did make up for it by switching sides. ion know ab friendship, but i sure as hell wouldn't wna date sb who did that to me. like you said, miles did idolize her and that's why he was so disappointed. you don't know this girl frl nd ppl who fetishize interracial relationships are weirdos frl. ppl who fetishize certain races in general. and don't even get me started on the mfs who thinking ab nothing BUT race when it comes to romantic interests. for me, race never has and never will play a factor into who i do and don't like. it doesn't hurt to have a pref ig, but there's a line ppl need draw when it comes to it. now on another note, saying you won't date an entire race is outrageous 🙎‍♀️ anyway, a handful of these writers tend to b weirdos, so i wouldn't be shocked if that's what most of these black x white couples are a product of. esp since some of the writers are so bad at the execution. also, ppl need to break that stereotype talking about some "date within your race" like please grow up. it's 2023.

i need to stop chattin' now tho or i'll never sthu. there is still time to fix this!! all i'm sayin' is that i'll get in that writers room for free! 🙋‍♀️ no check needed

this part of my unpopular opinion thing with atsv is no hate to gwen i love my lil cracker it’s just that we rarely get black love in mainstream media and just poc love stories in general like it feels like they had to hint the romance because they knew it would get a certain audience to boost it….which is smart and i don’t hate miles having a crush on her but he literally barely knew gwen yet he became AND STAYED obsessed with her

also miles literally has some of the best, most beautiful, and strongest black women love interests in his comics and i can tell they been plotting astv since itsv because literally where did gwen x miles idea come from? it just seems so random cus THEY DIDNT KNOW EACH OTHER OR MAKE COMIC APPEARANCES W EACH OTHER ATP UNTIL AFTER THE MOVIE IM PRETTY SURE

and i love the spider gwen comics cus it’s literally a fresh of breath air where women aren’t always thrown love interests at to give their story “meaning” or just for girls sake cus women always obsess over men!!

isk i just feel like them being endgame does harm to both of them but that’s just me…..

[momokiiicos]

fuck. oh god i just finished watching VP ep 11 (yea im late ik) and im still REELING from it holy shit this might be the biggest roller coaster of any content i've ever been on

i literally cannot make head or tails of whatever the fuck emotions im feeling rn. this episode is like im staring in horror (in a good way) as it unfolds, unable to even breathe

first off. YOUNG GUIL??? LOOKS SO DAMN GOOD ??? ngl thats my fav guil look, no wonder saga fell head over heels for him. also the moment i realized the dude is young saga asdjfhsdk. and i mean like we been knew why saga is stuck over guil but man, that's rough buddy.

fr tho, ive been saying saga needs to get his shit fixed with the "i belong to no one" thing while everyone knows he's still pissed about guil, like man its ok if ur still not over guil yet but dont pretend ur not bc that's just hurting both mist and jack lmao

so im v glad in this ep he's able to start moving on!! bc when he told mist & co. "i met u all" i almost cried holy shit. and despite everything the song he sang for guil was so fucking beautiful asdjfhdsjkfh

and fuuuck even with everything that happened saga still encouraged ange (and OZ) to sing and apparently he offered to save yutaka's life like ??? holy shit. classic tsundere but like saga ily

there was so much going on so this is all over the place BUT ! that bit with eve and beth like ??? what is going on ??? i have so many questions ??? 1) ok so what IS eve and beth's relationship?? and 2) we still desperately need beth's backstory ??

and THEN !! bc i have jack tunnel vision, and by extension i love it when the twins interact (purely brotherly interaction!!!), gosh that scene with robin and jack having an actual meaningful convo fuuuuck. and while i was combusting the whole time watching jack (bc i love my hubby), im glad the scene reminded me of why i actually love him besides instincts alone. i always thought jack has much more wisdom in him than he seems and thinks through things much more deeply than assumed and i'm glad this scene shows us that a bit more. maybe in the future i'll go off on a more elaborate tangent on jack but that's for another day

bc fuck. we finally got sagajack crumbs in this ep. (note : before anyone yells at me for looking (dis)respectfully at sagajack, 1) i still dk how i feel about it and 2) i hv my own hc abt them that may be a little bit removed from canon) FUUUUCK when jack laid his head on saga's lap AHHHHHHHH

i love their dynamic. i just simply fucking love it

and also the low quality jack on the bridge lmao that's so fucking cute and for what ([whisper] for saga obvs)

and uhhhh,,,guil came back to life with the power of the moon ??? that's a whole thing. i'm glad OZ questioned it instead of treating it as something that just happens normally. from what i understand no one is giving their life away for guil yet so there's that. but like, why were they singing naked ??? (i thought that's dimitri's thing only lol

i think that's all for now. my mind is still reeling even now holy shit. and next ep is the last WTF?? im NOT ready for VP to end fuck. and next ep is titled "angelist" which basically means there will be expectedly a fuck ton of ange drama and im not ready

also we'll be getting a manga !! yay !!

god i can tell im gonna be so deep into the VP fandom for the foreseeable future. the start of the year i said sk8 saved me from the pits of hell. and now i think VP literally just roller coastered me straight back to hell then yeeted me directly into heaven and god rly just keeps ping-ponging me between those two. and in between these, sonny boy took me apart and put me back tgt and left a permanent hole.

2021 is rly just the year of original anime content huh. ik some ppl are hesitant on original content but when it fucks, it fucks u good

[qyuoza]

Limerence (KNY)

Genre: Angst

Warnings: None

AU: Non-idol!au, Highschool!au, Skater!au

Summary: The popular good girl Y/n of gayo high falls in love with the infamous bad boy Kanemoto Yoshinori, too bad he clearly shows that she is not his type at all and doesn't even want to be seen with her.

"Why me Y/N, you're not even supposed to be seen with me" Yoshinori scoffed as he sucked on his lollipop whilst leaning against the wall, skateboard perched against his leg.

"Laugh all you want, but believe me when I say that I want to get to know you more" I breathed out. Yoshi just laughed and I looked down onto the road of our neighborhood.

"You're too much of a goody Y/N, you should know your place and stop being such a pushover Choi" Yoshi placed his board down and skated off. I stared longingly at his disappearing form and sighed, am I really that much of a pushover?

I woke up this morning feeling very miserable and sick, but decided to just go along with my day, knowing this would all go away soon. "Good morning Y/N, get ready so I can take you to school today" My brother Youngjae came into the room and I smiled widely at him.

"Thank you oppa, are mom and dad still busy as always?" I said, gripping my comforter tightly. My brother and the maids practically raised us both, so I kind of had a grudge against our parents a bit. Youngjae just nodded sheepishly and I got the message and started to get ready for school.

On the way to school, Youngjae was belting out his vocals in the car and I was laughing my ass off because he looked so stupid. "Hey stop filming me!" Youngjae whined, and I laughed even harder.

By the time we even got to school, I spotted Yoshi talking to his friends at the school parking lot. I bid goodbye to my brother and said I'll be going home by myself later and made my way into my school. As I walked, Yoshi's friends started to make fun of me as I passed by, Yoshi just smiling with no remorse.

Keeping my head down, my friends suddenly ran up to me. "Y/N hey!" My friend Mashiho greeted, and trailing behind him was Asahi and Jaehyuk.

"Hey, you guys waited for me?" I smiled, and Jaehyuk nodded. We walked to our classroom talking like the usual friends we were and made plans for the weekend.

In the classroom, Jaehyuk, who was seated beside me, was talking to Mashiho and Asahi, who were conveniently sat in front of us. I just stared out the window, wondering how I can manage to get Yoshi's attention, even by just a bit.

"Y/N? Hello? Y/N?" Jaehyuk waved his hand in front of my face, and I snapped out of my thoughts.

"Sorry" I apologize, and awkwardly rub the back of my neck. "You're not thinking about him again are you?" Mashiho eyed me, and I nodded admittedly. Jaehyuk sighed from beside me and put his hand on my shoulder.

"Y/N, you can't like him forever you know, he already likes someone from what Ruto told me" Asahi said quietly, but Jaehyuk and Mashiho managed to catch what he said.

"Are you serious, he's so rude and insensitive not to consider Y/N's feelings" Jaehyuk shook his head, but I just smiled at him, not wanting to worry them even more.

"Don't worry about me, I'll find a way. For now, I can manage, don't worry about le too much guys" I smiled at them, and they just looked at me sadly.

Suddenly the teacher walks into the classroom and Jaehyuk quickly passes me a note, I stare at him oddly but reluctantly open it.

'talk later? i feel like u hv a lot on ur mind... :(' the note said, and I nodded at Jaehyuk giving him a thumbs up.

During our break between classes, Jaehyuk, Asahi and Mashiho decided to stay with me in the classroom to have a small talk.

"Y/N, I think you really need to take your mind off Yoshi, he doesn't deserve you and doesn't even bother seeing your efforts" Jaehyuk sighed, and Asahi nodded.

"Guys this isn't something that can instantly be accomplished you know?" I looked into the school hallway and sure enough, outside my classroom, there stood Yoshi talking to his usual crowd with Haruto. I noticed beside him, laughing along with their jokes was one of the Japanese girls in our grade, Akabane Yui.

"Y/N” Asahi said, but I cut him off, tears evident in my glassy eyes. Yui was practically Yoshi's type, not too girly, artsy, did alright in school and wasn't a pushover, basically the opposite of me. I was always known as the one with the perfect record after all.

At the end of the school day, I finally plucked up the courage to tell Yoshi how I felt to get all the burden off my shoulders, until I saw him talking to Yui at the gates.

"Yui, I really like you, and I was wondering if you would give the chance to go out with you?" Yoshi smiled at Yui, and it seemed like she agreed, because they both started walking home together. I fell on my knees, heart broken to bits and all the remaining feelings I had ever felt for him.

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[chelleztjs18]

Hello you 😌

I usually wake up around 5 am or 6am. Then nap and wake up again around 10ish to start work at 11 am.

hahahaha fine I'll be the right eyebag 🤣

It didn't end badly, maybe had some up and downs with my mental health, but hey I am still here yknow. We still keep in contact because the cats are our babies, so we have visitation lol kidding, we remained friends after. I think we are better now as friends, even though we've been together for almost 10 years, I think we rushed into it. Sorry for rambling.

I haven't read all of your oneshots yet. I think I've read 3 or 4 of your oneshots, then 1 or 2 of the series I am following. I made a note though to go back to your masterlist to read everything. I follow a lot of writers and bookmarked everyone's pages to remind me what to read hahaha

Wow thats a crazy story. Definitely understand that whole same sex thing not being accepted in your country. A lot of queer people are afraid to be out and about because it's frowned upon. That's tough to hear that you went through all that though. Love really does make us do stupid crazy things for the other person. Do you regret it?

Also, it is sad that she became toxic towards you at the end. So right now, you guys still talk? Does she still show toxic behavior or just being "nice" and treat you as a friend now?

I'm really not sure about my first love. I'd like to think it was the person I married but then again, there was someone before her that had my heart even though I didn't tell her that I like her.

Tell me a childhood memory that you always enjoy thinking about. Did you have a favorite toy or game?

- CuriousGeorge

Oh wow, thats early.. well my daughter sometimes wakes me up at 7am or 8 is the latest. So ur work time always at the same time? Or it's whatever time u want to start?

Haha yay! Deal, u r the right n im the left.lol.

Ah i see,, aw im so sorry that it effected ur mental health. I hope u r okay n better now? Im here for u if u need someone to talk with. 😊 10 years is a long time for a relationship.. But it's good that now u remain friends with her n even share custody of the cats 😊 as long ad u r happy thats what matters most.

Yeah it was hard. I met her in 2010 so it was like 12 years ago so it has passed time n im okay with it. I hv moved on but it seems that she hasnt. But i know for sure no matter what she does, i wont take her back.

At one point i kinda regret it, i wish i didnt know her but if i didnt meet her i wont know for sure that i'm into women n i wont experience a relationship or dating a woman. She still a nice person she is just lost n unhappy. I actually feel bad for her but she didnt listen to me.

She acts nicer now even sometimes she likes to brought up old memories with me.

Aaaww u never told ur first love? Was it like in young age? Wait, so u were married before?

I dont really rememver my childhood that well, i just remember bits n pieces. I remember i love my video game consoles i had through out the years. Haha. What about u?

Next question?

Cheerio!