#i think i will write service top keigo later

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oooh? care to share the service too thoughts? :)

my favourite service top in the whole wide world is asleep right now so i'm gonna talk about the service top shit she does so that she can find this tomorrow and yell at me for revealing our sex lives on the internet but genuinely i don't care

the concept of someone who gets off on servicing you is so fucking dear to me like i melt i burst at the seams thinking about it. when they beg to be between your legs for hours just lapping at your pussy when they hold you down until you're overstimulated and brainless and still keep going ohhhhhhhhhh my gawd i think that's one of my favourite things ever like genuinely. and the thing is they're not doing it for your pleasure. no. they're doing it for theirs. holy fucking mother of god. digging their fingers into your thighs and suckling at your clit and nosying against you i literally am going to short circuit

i also go absolutely insane thinking about hawks or tomura like that. big strong men reduced to wimps for their girlfriend, getting on their knees when she's throwing a tantrum, fucking her into the bed to appease her. because they know she's only acting out for attention. their little pillow princess. i can't rn this is so all over the place

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Namiya: Atsuya’s Background

I was talking to @HSJ_fanfic on Twitter and found out the movie basically skipped over Atsuya’s backstory.  His past was just alluded to some of his sad past in a couple lines of dialogue. So, some viewers may find Atsuya totally overreacting to what Shota said.

For the couple of people who may be interested, I have translated the section in the novel that dealt with Atsuya’s background.  (There was no information on Shota and Kohei, other than them being at the orphanage as well.)  Just in case, spoilers after the cut.

All rights reserved to Keigo Hagashino and Kadokawa Shoten and 皇冠叢書 for the Chinese translated version of 解憂雜貨店.  

I haven’t watched the movie yet, but they showed the scene we were talking about in the ZIP interview linked below.  Basically, the delinquent trio received a letter from Lost Puppy, who was contemplating giving up her office job and becoming a full time hostess* at a bar so she could make money faster. The actual scene in question starts at 7m20s, in case the link doesn’t take you there directly.

https://youtu.be/NZK-Ovidu3U?t=7m21s

The dialogue goes like this (paraphrasing from a Chinese sub done by Ginkyo320):

Atsuya: This woman is bound to be used and abused by all sorts of men, end up giving birth to a bastard, and the kid will not grow up to be anybody…

Shota: You are talking about yourself?

Atsuya: Huh? Say it again if you dare!

Shota: Don’t mix her up with your own mother. This girl is…

(Atsuya punched Shota. Kohei tried to stop them.)

Atsuya: You think that’s how it works? You think people’s destiny can be changed that easily?

That was pretty much all we found out about Atsuya’s past from the movie.  Still, you could infer that his mom basically abandoned him, and nobody likes to be reminded of that!

In the novel, you get more of the story.  In fact, when I was reading the novel, I was wondering if Lost Puppy was actually Atsuya’s mom. (She was not.) This passage happened after Lost Puppy replied that she would not give up her job as a hostess. 

Shota was thinking deeply as he write the response. Atsuya looked at him and thought back to what he just said.  Just now, he said that if Lost Puppy worked as a hostess for a long time, she would fall in love with a bad man, and give birth to a bastard child, causing problems for all those around her - In fact, he was talking about his mother, not someone else.  And because Shota knows about his past, he didn’t respond.

Atsuya’s mother gave birth to him at 22, and his father was a bartender at the same club, who was younger than her.  However, before he was born, that man disappeared.

After giving birth to him, she continued to work as a hostess at the bar. Probably because she couldn’t find anything else.

For as far as Atsuya remembered, his mom had a man in her life, but he never looked at this man as his father. And soon, this man disappeared without a trace as well. After a while, another man moved in. His mom would give him money and this man did not work. And like clockwork, this man also disappeared, only to be replaced by another man. There were a few more in between, but finally, that guy appeared.

That guy often beat up Atsuya for no particular reason.  No, he probably had his own reasons, but Atsuya was not privy to it. In fact, when Atsuya was in the first grade in elementary school, that guy beat him up just because he didn’t like Atsuya’s face. His mom did not protect him; she thought her son probably did something to anger that guy, that it was absolutely her son’s fault.

Atsuya was constantly covered with bruises, which he took care to not let others discover. Since he knew that if anyone in the school finds out, the matter would blow up and he would be in a worse situation.

When Atsuya was in the second grade, that guy was arrested for gambling. When the cops were searching their apartment, one cop noticed Atsuya’s bruises through his tank top. He asked his mom and his mom gave a really lame excuse, so her lies were exposed immediately.

The police notified child services and the staff arrived.

His mom told the child services staff that she could look after her own kid. To this day, Atsuya did not know why she said that. That was because he heard his mom told other people on the phone that she hated taking care of the kid, that she should not have given birth to her child.

The child services staff left. Atsuya started living with his mom alone, and he finally felt that he could put the abuse he suffered behind him.

True. He was never beaten again, but that did not mean that his life was normal. His mom was home even less than before, except, when she was away, she never bothered leaving food or money behind for him. Soon, Atsuya’s only sustenance was from the lunch provided by the school.  Still, he didn’t tell anyone about the hardship he faced. For reasons he could not comprehend; maybe he just didn’t want other people to pity him.

Seasons changed, and winter arrived. At Christmas, Atsuya was still alone. During winter holidays, his mom left home for over 2 weeks but did not leave a scrap of food the fridge for him.

On December 28th, Atsuya could not stand the hunger anymore, and he was caught stealing food from a nearby food stand.  From the day the school closed for winter holidays, he did not have a meal and he could not remember anything that happened, not even the fact that he stole food.  He was caught so quickly because he fainted from hunger while running away.

Three months later, Atsuya was sent to the orphanage.

Shota knew all about how Atsuya was abused, and novel Shota wisely kept his mouth shut.  But in the film, (perhaps they needed to up the drama) Shota brought up the taboo in the heat of an argument.  In some way, Atsuya would see this as a betrayal. He probably didn’t want to be reminded of the abuse, something he clearly repressed in his memories.  Perhaps, he also wished his life could be different, but was resigned to the fact that he would not be able to rise above this criminal life; something he feared more than his buddies.  So, he reacted like the hot headed guy he was… and punch his friend’s lights out.

Oh yeah, Atsuya was hot headed too.  Not sure if the movie got into that.

* I guess most people who checks out this movie would know what a hostess club is. Anyway, the hostesses actually work for the bar and their job is to drink and converse with the patrons, and they get tips from their patrons. Of course, they could provide additional services to selected customers, but those are probably off-book.  Lost Puppy was offered by a customer to help her open her own hostess bar if she agreed to be his mistress, so she wrote to consulting Namiya Zakkaten.  Since she wanted to do this job to make money to help her family, in Shota’s mind, she was different from Atsuya’s mom.