#i think he woukd decorate it

[karlkarlcarl]

sanah but i give him a tank

[tiutale]

"Galdor hand me that-no the-woukd you let me finish and stop grabbing random objects!" Glorfindel's amused voice barely made it through the din of the hall. Galdor laughed holsing his hands up in defeat.

The Main Hall was bustling with elves of every House Lord to cook to chamber elf helping get things ready for mid winter.

Egalmoth walked passed the two shaking his head. Arms laden with strings of flowering plants. Rog's booming voice cut through the laughing cries of Ecthelion as his ladder once more was bumped by a rushing elf. An elf who colored at Rog's admonsihment to be careful and apologized in deep bows to Ecthelion.

Turgon grinned at Idril as they both set up the tables near the east wall. Where the prizes for later games would be held.

"Galdor! Are you going to hand me that or simply play with it?!"

Galdor grinned and tossed it up to the menacing vanya. "One would think over the years we would find a way to decorate with less chaos." Setting his hands on another string and bracket he glanced up and moved to steady the ladder Glorfindel was on. "There now. Do not overstretch or you will spill yourself into my boxes here."

Glorfindel grinned down at him. "I have never fallen from-"

A shout and crash across the Hall cut off his words. Laughter errupted soon after and chaos of a less organised scene began to ensue. Rog's vouce cut through the din as both Glorfindel and Galdor watched with worry and amusement.

Ecthelion dangled from the wall he had been decorating holding to a sconce that thankfully held no torch. The ladder he had been on was lying several feet away with an elf half beneath it. Fabric was wrapped about both and two others were trying to figure out where the elf, ladder, and fabric could be seperated.

Rog was shaking his head. His smile was wide enough to tell no one had been injured. Egalmoth stood just to the right of Echthelion calling up to him what he said the two Lords could not hear.

Turgon and Idril were laughing off near another table.

"Should we assist?" Glorfindel asked a little worried that no one had tried to help their friend down just yet. "Ee do have a usable ladder."

Galdor pretended to think over the scenario. "Do we wish to endanger our ladder? They have proven untrustworthy of such a tool. "

Glorfindel laughed climbing down from his perch. "Then we shall have to surpervise them as one should do with errant elflings playing with tools they ate not grown enough to use."

Togethe they carried their ladder over to the other Lords and made short work of rescuing the dangling Ecthelion. A break had been called until the chaos had settled once more.

Midwinter in Gondolin alwaya proved to be something to remember. This year was proving to be one above all tha would remain in their minds for some time.

[blackfairy312]

What would their Mincraft houses look like? And what is their biggest fear? (Fnac3)

🔥answering more of theeeese heheeh

i actually had a minecraft house for Komi once but it's lost o an old computer that doesnt work anymore 😭 it was shaped after a Black Box from Evillious (her "heart") and had a few bedrooms upstairs for herself and her kids and a HUUUGE kitchen and a fancy bathroom and a greenhours and a nise backyard an then like, a secret evil basement . i wish i had pictures of it.

dawg if these assholes played Minecraft together it would probablt be a server Komi made and she only gave Antonio moderator permissions bc she doesnt trust the other two with that . Antonio woukd make a statue of Vinnie and set it on fire to piss Vincent off. Komi spends most of the time building and decorating things and organizing bc she likes being productive (or else she'll start doing crazy shit). like these assholes she works with would probably be too busy fucking around in the game to focus on what theyre doing so Komi would make one house for them all to live in and make rooms for them all . every time the guys come back to base they'll see Komi in the middle of putting a redstone contraption together and they'll drop styff off in chests and explore the base little bc there's new stuff Komi added and then they'll leave to fuck around again . AND SOMEHOW Komi will have full neatherite armor and shit . everyone like "DUDE how did you find the time for this?" meanwhile all Vincent Richard and Antonio have been doing have probably been like . Naming chickens "Bitch" and hangint them from trees to throw eggs at them and harassing villagers or hanging around the pillager mansion like idiots . every time they die they have to ask Antonio or Komi to /tp them to someone else so they can get their shit.

and biggest Fears ... i already said in another postbut Komi is afraid of getting attached to humans but like she always does that anyway. smeting about her immortality VS their mortality and how they're destined to die and she's destined to leave .i guess she copes with this by CLINGING onto the memories she makes with the humans she meets in the Multiverse . and taking some suveniors from each world. Actually she has the original Vinnie puppet ! she kept that .

Vincent's biggest fear is people finding out who he really is .. a Manipulator Mainsplainer Mansluaghter er . he doesnt want to lose everything he doesnt want to be a 'normal person' he WANTS TO BE SOMEBODY. his biggest fear is LOSING. thats probably why he cheats at hide & seek as Monster Vinnie in the final night.

Antonio's biggest fear is ending up like his dad . as he's been raising himself and his siblings and observing his parents he's made a mental note of his dad's behaviors and how he NEVER WANTS TO END UP LIKE HIM . you can think ofhis dad like Clay Puppington maybe ? idk i just saw a moral orel clip this morning and now im thinkin about that show again . NO SORRY I FORGOT ANTONIO IS A LOT LIKE KENNY MCCORMICK , his parents just arent crackheads they're alcholics . but Yeah Antonio is TRYING to get himself together but tbh Vincent being an awful boss is ADDING to Antonio's stress and its not good for his mental health at ALL. he was probably seeing a therapist and was going to AA meetings but then ONE DAY he got into a fight with Vincent backstage and he went home and spiraled again. undoing his progress. Ywah im projecting heavy.

Richard's biggest fear is probably something tamer than everyone elses . for now anyway he isnt really complex in my mind like the other Three are rn 😭😭😭😭 SERIOUSLY THE GAME GIVES ME NOTHING TO WORK WITH WHICH IS FINE B FNAC 3 HAS AMAZING STORY TELLING BUT IN THE CONTEXT OF ME TRYING TO EXPAND ON WHAT'S THERE I DONT HAVE MUCH FOR THE CAT ACTOR .

[bontens-new-executive]

hellooo,, i wanna join the 200 follower event for Christmas things i like is to exchange gifts with friends, i like to bake sweets and make holiday flavored treats, anddd Christmas crafts!!

alsooo my favorite thing about Christmas is cooking and sharing gifts,,

One of my favorite characters are suga! i just love how he's a complete sweetheart and he's honestly relatable. but honestly at the same time he can be chaotic whichhh ME TOO HONESTLY,, and i love how he's so caringg 😭

i also like oikawa because he's very ambitious and i love people that are passionate and he constantly chases his dreams, no matter what happens. also the duality of his personality; he can be the bully to the bullied LMFAO

mmm my last character would be kuroo! his nerdy personality but laid back demeanor is super dope! i would definitely be his friend,, and he's a great motivator imo. i also think he's very funny lol

this story can be gender neutral or fem reader idrc,,

anddd the time should be somewhere in the morning 🌅(*´ω｀*)

ALSOOO CONGRATULATIONS!!! I hope you continue raising the bar for yourself and reaching many more milestones ♡

much luv 🤧🥰🎉

Christmas and 200 follower event

Note: sorry for the wait but I hope u like that ☝

Requests Masterlist event Christmas playlist

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Sugawara - baking session

The second you bring up that you like baking or cooking, suga is already jumping up from his seat

He's so ready to bake with you

And it'll be super fun

Suga would let you read out what you need, while he runs through the kitchen to get the ingredients

He would make jokes to make you laugh, or do different silly but sweet things to make it a fun time

Instead of forming the dough like a normal person, he'd do some ninja hand moves and sound effects to make it "more special and cool"

Suga would absolutely wear an apron

And it's probably pink too

If he was to make a mistake he would try to hide it with a "nooo I did absolutely not drop that. Not at all" or he'd admit with a "sooo I might or might not have dropped something."

He will play around with some of the ingredients

He'd taste the food coloring and then regret it right after, "this is not as tasty as it looks."

Kuroo - (creative) crafting

You wanna make Christmas crafts? Kuroo is so here for it

He thinks it's fun to create stuff on your own

The fun time Being spent together only adds to it

You both would come up with diffrent ideas of thinks to make before you go shopping for the material that you need

Kuroo loves decorating these kind of thinks

While some might think it's childish, he thinks it takes him back to his childhood

It's just so relaxing to him

While decorating snd cutting out the diffrent forms, you both woukd have nice conversations with lots of laughter

Or watch some movie/series and discuss them

It would just be super relaxing with him

Kuroo would so prepared for this that he's even wearing fluffy socks and a soft sweater

Of course he would offer you to wear the other matching sweater

Oikawa - gifted sweets

"Exchanging gifts" screams oikawa

He'd make it a challenge of Who gets the best gifts

Since you like sweets, he'd try his hand at making them himself

Problem being, they're not turning out the way he wanted them to be

So he asks iwaizumi for help, which to iwa obvious doesn't help

Therefore he instead opts for buying you some sweets

He thought about asking you to bake with him, but that would mean he lost

And thats not like oikawa 

Whenever you two eat some or when you talk about your favorite sweets, oikawa pays attention

Which now makes it easy for him to buy the right ones

Exchanging the sweets, you can immediately tell that they were bought and not self made

Oikawa would try to deny at first but then gives in, admitting to his defeat (but only a little bit)

He just didn't want to disappoint you

[arhvste]

if you ask kuroo to think of a date idea, he’ll buy a paper mache volcano kit for you guys to make, and he gets so excited when you guys decorate it with the paint, miniature trees and rocks at the bottom, and gets so excited when you let him activate it, not even caring about the mess :(

he would :( but like i would get excited too cause that’s not something we would typically think to do,, he’d probably be stating all these facts he just knows off the top of his head,, i’m such a perfectionist i woukd totally be sat there putting effort in to make it look nice and i know this mf would say stuff like “you do know it’s gonne get ruined don’t you?” while i’m arranging trees and stuff ahah he’s so cute :( <3

kuroo hcs pls <3

[georgeweasleysbabe]

Hi! Congratulations on 100!! So exciting!! I was wondering if I could have a ship from the golden era? Thank you ❤️

my name is destini— i also go by desi, des, or dest. (she/her). straight. i’m 5’1, brown eyes, naturally brunette, but occasionally I dye it fun colors. i love to cook and especially bake. i love reading, movies (especially 80’s rom coms). i love interior decorating, and i am always just a tad extra for holidays and birthdays. gift-giving is my favorite, i love finding things that i think people i love will love. i’m a hufflepuff. i am a 6 on the enneagram. and an INFP-T. i’m definitely a homebody so i always imagine myself with a guy who will bring some excitement and adventure into my life even if i think i don’t want it (but maybe not too much tho). kisses on the nose are the cutest. i am still afraid of the dark. i can’t wait to be a mommy one day. autumn is my favorite season. rainy days are my favorite days. i love the color green. i am very sensitive— i cry a lot.. not just when i’m sad, but when i’m mad, happy, glad, lonely, if something is too cute or any emotion really and also if someone else feels any emotion.. haha.. i’m witty and can take a joke ! sleep is my favorite and if i were a fictional creature i think i’d be a pixie. some things i love: waking up before everyone else in the house, making people smile/laugh. when the temperature outside is not too hot or too cold. opening all the windows in the house to let in fresh air. cuddles. bedtime. treehouses. the smell of clean laundry. some things i hate include: bugs, anxiety, broccoli, feeling isolated, when people make me feel like i’m too much to handle. when people think i’m not strong enough to handle things because i need to cry about it to get over it.

hi des! thank you for requesting!! also “i can’t wait to be a mommy one day” literally made my heart burst🥺 hope you like ur ship<3

also this is the last ship i have in my inbox!! thank you again to those who participated!!

i ship you with...

Fred Weasley!

he woukd think you’re so cute

let’s start w hair dye

he loves when you dye your hair

bcs he thinks it’s fun

and one day he’d surprise you w a different hair color (on his hair shshsdhd)

it’d probably be the color green

yes it is the color green

he’d probably say

“i dyed my hair your favorite color!”

and you’d think it’s SOO CUTE

he loves watching movies w you🥺

and he loves reenacting it too

you’d be so embarrassed cz he’s literally a drama queen

and he’d exaggerate every scene

and you’d laugh SO DAMN HARD

he’d also love taking you on adventures

bcs that’s his jam

he himself loves adventures

he only goes to places you’d be comfortable going to tho

bcs he don’t wanna push your boundaries

aw

HE ALSO CANT WAIT TO BECOME A DADDY

I- that sounded kinky but

beware tho bcs he’d probably want like 10 children

but he wouldn’t care how mang children you guys would have tho

bcs he knows that whatever happens you will be there w him

and he’d be there w you

and ur children would be there as well

y’all would literally spoil ur children ssnsjweb

but fred would love that

bcs anything w you would be perfect

BUT SRSLY THO WHEN YOU SAID YOU CANT WAIT TO BECOME A MOMMY I WAS LITERALLY GOING “AWW OMG”

[ducktracy]

104. buddy’s lost world (1935)

release date: may 18th, 1935

series: looney tunes

director: jack king

starring: jack carr (buddy)

the first of the buddy cartoons that includes a shot of his smiling face (à la disney), a tradition that would be carried on with the beans cartoons and a handful of porky cartoons. though i suppose you could also count the numerous “bugs bunny in”s, too. considered the first entry of the dinosaur cartoons, a popular genre in the looney tunes universe, buddy and his dog bozo discover the “lost world”—a prehistoric haven whose novelty wears off rather quickly when its dangers are exposed.

buddy’s all set to disembark on his quest, his sail advertising “CAPT. BUDDY’S EXPEDITION TO THE LOST WORLD”. he greets a cheering crowd by shaking his fits proudly, eating up the attention. he starts the motor of his boat (meaning the sail is entirely redundant, which i love) and rockets off. unfortunately for his crowd, he forgot to untie the rope anchoring him to the dock. the entire dock plummer’s into the waters as his fanbase all try to swim to shore.

a nice back angle of buddy and his pal bozo riding in the boat, heading for land (buddy excitedly proclaiming “land, bozo! land!”). if i’m not mistaken (it’s been a few months since i’ve seen the cartoon), the same shot would be reused with porky in fish tales, another jack king short. a wave propels them to shore, the boat screeching to a halt. buddy and bozo disembark, bozo yapping happily while buddy unravels a map. he yells “oh boy, it’s the lost island! hooray! oh boy, oh boy, oh boy!” buddy sounds like an actual kid here. i‘ve seem a source or two list child actor jackie morrow as a voice credit for buddy, but i can’t attest to its validity. so, for the time being, jack carr will be a placeholder name until i figure out elsewhere (like the johnny murray/max maxwell situation with bosko and his changing voice, especially in his later WB cartoons)

elsewhere, bozo spots a pair of footprints. he sniffs them out, causing them to inch forward slightly. more sniffing, more inching. he follows the footprints through an area decorated thickly with trees, continuing on. the trees are no trees at all, but the legs of a massive dinosaur—good staging. the dinosaur angrily stalks bozo, who is stalking the footprints. only when the dinosaur snorts does bozo realize he’s being followed. terrified, bozo zips away, whirling past a woman jump roping.

in the midst of his panic, bozo comes across a caveman digging at the dirt like a dog. ...interesting. the caveman growls at his uninvited visitor, both of them circling each other on all fours. finally, the caveman dips into his hole and brings out a giant bone under his protection. the caveman runs away, and bozo, now curious, digs at the ground.

bozo finds a bone... and plenty of them. he unearths an entire dinosaur skeleton, getting trapped inside its ribs. he yowls for help, catching the attention of buddy, who had been wandering the island. he spots his shanghaied pooch and tries to tug him out, but to no avail. he meanders to the skull of the dinosaur, prying open its jaws and whistling for bozo to come to him. bozo gratefully darts out of the dinosaur’s mouth and covers buddy in thankful kisses.

back to the caveman/dog hybrid, who now has a tail? he didn’t before, which is odd. i wonder if that was an additive or a subtractive—was he originally supposed to have one and they forgot? or was one of the animators putting his own flair on things? he’s sniffing at some bushes, scratching behind his ear with his foot while buddy and bozo discreetly observe. unable to stand it any longer, bozo launches after the caveman, buddy chasing behind.

bozo and the caveman take their chase into a cave, buddy getting the short end of the stick and slamming against a rock that closes the entrance off. unbeknownst to buddy, a hungry plant licks its lips and looms behind him, a good setup as buddy obliviously calls for bozo as the plant comes in for the kill. buddy realizes he has company, but too late. the plant swallows him whole. buddy tumbles through its inside, a rather creative segue as he pops out of another plant attached to a cliff.

it’s just as well—buddy stumbles across civilization. the underscore for this scene is... confusing. it’s “lullaby of broadway”, from the musical gold diggers of ‘35 (not to be confused with gold diggers of ‘33. and, of course, the cartoon gold diggers of ‘49). it’s a catchy song, absolutely, but a song whose lyrics entail “the rumble of the subway train, the rattle of the taxis” doesn’t quite fit the mood for a prehistoric village. maybe that’s the point, though, and i’m just thinking too far into it. likely it was probably used as for advertising purposes for the movie, like a discreet merrie melody. the village is thriving, villagers playing croquet, with wishbones serving as the wickets.

buddy is mesmerized and takes a closer look, sliding down a tree trunk that actually turns out to be a happy dinosaur. meanwhile, three prehistoric caricatures of the three stooges pop up (wonderfully weird) and observe buddy. larry shushes curly, who sneezes, and the typical eye poking slapstick ensues. back to buddy, who feeds his dinosaur companion an apple.

larry devises an incomprehensible plan, sneaking away from the group. funny how larry’s the villain, you’d think moe would be the one. larry spots bozo, who’s tied up to a tree (did he escape?). larry unties him and ties him to what appears to be a giant mousetrap.

bozo cries for help, and buddy, still playing with his dinosaur friend, hears him and runs to the rescue. buddy attempts to free his pooch, but to no avail. instead, he activated the trap, metal bars enclosing the two as larry approaches his victims. moe and curly come sauntering over, larry signaling for them to push while he pulls. moe gives curly a sock in the head for good measure before pushing the cage.

who knew the three stooges were cannibals? buddy and bozo are in a boiling pot while the once happy villagers are chanting on the ceremony. we have a collection of gags to lighten the mood. after all, it is a feast! a man presses down on a dinosaur skeleton’s teeth, chimes reverberating against the ribs. elsewhere, two cavemen do a waltz, intermittently hitting each other on the head. the same gag would be reused in naughty neighbors, executed in a much funnier manner. probably the most amusing part of the cartoon (though porky’s poor attempts to harmonize with petunia in “would you like to take a walk?” is also a highlight). nevertheless, it’s still a funny gag.

buddy cries for help as the pot begins to stir, and his dinosaur friend hears his shrieks. i love the perspective on this shot. in motion, it’s a little wonky—as though they didn’t know how to truly commit to the perspective all the way through the scene. this is the best it looks in this single key frame (though i’m sure that’s also the result of a different animator for the inbetweens). i applaud them for trying. jack king’s cartoons aren’t my favorite, but i do like that he has an eye for cinematography, like a predecessor to frank tashlin. the dinosaur approaches the crowd, grabbing a caveman (who i think is supposed to be larry) and tossing him towards the camera, much to the delight of buddy and bozo. he tosses another identical caveman, a random rock appearing and disappearing from the scene.

the dinosaur dips its head into the pot and scoops up both buddy and bozo. buddy slides down the dinosaur’s neck and lands comfortably on its back, the dinosaur gingerly placing bozo beside him. buddy crowns the dinosaur with his captain’s hat, and we iris out as buddy gets covered in kisses by both bozo and the dinosaur.

as far as buddy cartoons go, this one wasn’t too bad! still rather mediocre, but less mediocre than others. i wasn’t too excited about this one, but i’m always glad to be proven wrong. having the three stooges as three cannibals was a very interesting plot point i never woukd have guessed in a million years. speaking of plots, the weird caveman/dog hybrid... i guess that was just there for the sake of being there? it felt too extended to be a gag, like a plot point in itself, but also feels too loose and discombobulated to the actual plot at hand. nothing very exciting in the cartoon, but it was cute. maybe worth a watch just because of how strange it is. i’ll always value absurdity!

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[tumblunni]

Today's random mood is soft thoughts about my headcanon of McKraken being Squisker's adopted nephew before things went wrong

* Squisker was the very beloved mayor of the springdale yokai realm, which i am choosing to call Springdoom until we get a canon name, yes. He was 100% a good dude and Mckraken falsely accused him of the crimes that got him imprisoned away in the infinate inferno, in an attempt at a coup to take his power and begin his anti human warfare. But also i think itd be saddest if Mckraken did genuineky care for his uncle, and he'd just become so carried away in his obsession for revenge that he started getting paranoid that all his loved ones were plotting against him. He's probably haunted every day by what he did and after his redemption the first thing he did was fight his way thru the inferno to set right what he'd done wrong!

* They first met when Squisker was just idly visiting the human world and stumbled upon a baby yokai all curled up and scared in the wreckage of a beach destroyed by an oil spill. Originally he just wanted to help the kid get to the yokai world and find a new family, but then the lil guy called him "unca" and his heart(s) were totally melted! It kinda helped give the old man a reason to live again, during a very melancholy time of his life.

* Imagine babby mckraken sleeping in the sink cos he is just a smol squiddy and does not understand fancy society yet. "But why would you have a tiny pond thats not for sitting in!" Squisker introduces him to the concept of beds and he's initially very suspicious of this strange land rock. But then he bounces up and down on it and its just like waves! Its a magical sea land hybrid!!

* Various funny circumstances of squisker being this fancy politician man and trying to introduce a feral sea child to high society. Even funnier if the rules of yokai high society are wildly different to humans, like you have to hold every single fancy fork simultaneously in your tentacles! Possibly some cute moment where the kid's innocent 'but why' questions get squisker to realize he's being all stuffy and fancy when its not really necessary, and maybe itd be fun to loosen up and enjoy himself?

* Melancholy episode where babby mckraken keeps trying to adopt fishies from the human world and bring them home to protect them. Squisker has trouble explaining that mortals cant survive for long in the underworld, which would require first explaining to this poor kid what death is and that he's dead...

* maybe possibly one of those fish does come back as a yokai decades later when mckraken is all grown up, and pledges eternal loyalty to him for the kindness he showed as a child? And thats the backstory of that one fish boat boss dude everyone forgets.

* Headcanon of maybe mckraken's signature inspiriting power is 'colourlessness' or 'nothingness'? He can drain energy out of stuff with his weird hand mouths and it turns black and white. And perhaps for maximum angst the reason Mckraken himself is colourless is because that day his paranoia overtook him and he betrayed his closest family member, he used his own powers on himself to erase his emotions enough to be able to silence those doubts...

* Alternative headcanon is just that turning colourless is somethibg that naturally happens to yokai who lose all hope. Supported mostly just by the fact whisper is a notable white yokai who isnt part of The White Yokai, and also his backstory form had more colour and that backstory was really damn tragic...

* Oh and Squisker only attacks you in the infinate inferno because he's gone mad from rage and grief and just attacks everything indiscriminately. This is actually canon to his japanese medallium entry! (Though him being a good guy before being imprisoned and him being a father figure to mckraken is all speculation)

* so imagine a post redemption mckraken teaming up with you to try and recsue his uncle from the prison he put him in, ans its super depressing when he gets to squisker's cell and sees he's so far gone theyre gonna have to fight him. And maybe some sort of scene of him shielding you from one of squisker's attacks and getting heavily wounded, to prove how he really is legit about earning his redemption?and its this moment of kindness that makes squisker recognise this is his nephew, and come back to his senses. And i can just imagine mckraken weeping because what right do i have to be forgiven? You stupid old man, youre way too naive! Sobbing and hugging him and in his eyes squisker can see the sad young child he adopted so long ago, finally free of the chains of hatred he'd destroyed himself with. And then theyd go back together to the town and of course all the citizens woukd be like HOLY SHIT SQUISKER'S BACK, WE'RE SORRY WE DIDNT BELIEVE YOU, OH GOD MCKRAKEN TRIED TO TAKE OVER THE HUMAN WORLD and they immediately wanna elect him back to his old position. But Squisker insists on letting mckraken back into the town and giving him a second chance as his chairman, as well as his nephew. Claims its just because 'oh well ive been gone so long, i need someone who knows more about modern politics'. And probably works his ass off to clear his nephew's name and convince everyone that mckraken did what he did because of his love for this city, even if it was wrong it proves that he has a good heart and you should let him have a second chance! Aaand its hard to disagree i guess when the guy most affected by mckraken's takeover is also the one arguing for his redemption! The whole time mckraken is probably grumping about trying to deny it all and being like 'no put me in the prison its what i deserve NO I DO NOT HAVE ANY REDEEMING TRAITS DAMMIT'

* anyway i just like stories about broken families trying again, even if they cant be exactly how they used to be, as long as they both want to be a famuly again then they can be something new thats equally as good.

* also cute squid dad slice of life adventures is probably the most blessed sentence in the english language

* imagine babby mckraken always hiding shyly behind squisker cos he's never met any other yokai before and he doesnt know how to make friends with the other kids. But i dunno, maybe squisker is like 'youre such a bright young child you can help the others learn to swim!' or some other case of finding something he's good at and encouraging it as a way to bond with others. Oh maybe Mckraken's cooking skills started with learning to cook with his uncle and bringing snacks to school and all the other kids would be jealous? So he just sorta ended up with a tendancy to make food for people, which stuck around even when he turned evil. Still gotta open every evil meeting with sake and sushi! Gotta nag your minions that theyre not eating enough and they need to take care of their health! Gotta spend eighty hours decorating an elaborate layer cake as stress relief from dealing with that lousy human kid. Now grab a plate and sit yer asses down, you damn layabouts! Youre gonna cherish every mouthful, god dammit!! Also he totally wears lil oven mitts on all his tentacles.

This has been a miscellaneous ramble of squid redemptions, goodnight y'all

[dammitadolfnomorecake]

DOTW 32 - Christmas chapter... how is this so short? I was thinking I should split it... before we get the really good Christmas ang... love going

Soooo. Taking care of things with Armin for Eren, might not have been exactly the way his boyfriend had in mind. He'd blocked Armin on Eren's account and deleted his messages, after sending himself that photo of Eren as a kid... before messaging the alpha himself. Without trying to divulge too much about his boyfriend's life, he explained who he was and who he was to Eren, and that he would like to meet with Armin to hear him out. Eren would be furious, but the idea of getting his boyfriend something of his mother's... he couldn't turn down the chance. With his work schedule it'd been two weeks since he'd contacted Armin before he could finally set a time meet with the man. Eren was Christmas shopping and decorating with Hanji, which gave him pretty much the whole day to meet with Armin, then do a little shopping for Eren. He'd tried to ask Eren what he wanted for Christmas in every way possible, that wasn't straight out asking him. The only problem with this was the fact Eren was adorably dense about it all. He'd casually asked Eren what he thought of a toaster he'd in some junk mail catalogue, Eren had then asked him why they needed a new one when the one they had worked just fine. His brat was perfect like that, he just needed him to not be quite so perfect. Walking into the small cafe, he was still dressed for work having come straight off his shift. His safety boots, and thick paramedic jacket completely out of place with the hipsters in their ugg boots and beanies. This definitely wasn't the kind of place he'd ever set foot in alone. His fingers itched to clean everything on sight and to give the damned "distressed" furnishings a proper coat of paint. A glance up the menu above the counter confirmed he never wanted wanted to set foot in here again. What the fuck was a beetroot latte? Why did people feel the need to fuck with classics?! It did his fucking head in. Casting a second glance around, he didn't see Armin. The blonde man hadn't arrived, which mean awkward sitting in this hell hole as he waited for him. Fuck. They better make a good cup of tea, or someone was definitely going to require medical attention. Served by a cashier who couldn't comprehend that he wanted a large black tea. Which was just tea. With no milk or sugar or anything fancy. And no, he didn't want a fucking environmentally friendly cookie shaped like a fucking reindeer... but he bought two for Eren, because Eren would have found them cute. He wasn't impressed at all as he took the first seat he could find that didn't look too hippy-ee. For a generation that was all about free will and complicated fucking names, they certainly loved shoving their own suggestions down people's throats. Nursing his tea, Levi would almost rather be at work than sitting in the cafe... even if December was the worst month for them. Other than people falling off their roofs while decorating, December had the highest rates of suicides. The month had only just begun and they'd already been called out to three... it was why he hated December, that and because of his birthday. Being born on Christmas Day meant his presents were always combined with his birthday... no one thinking that maybe two smaller presents would be better than one large combined one. Armin left him waiting for half an hour. It was easy to tell who he was the moment he walked through the door. The large box in his arms had "Eren" printed neatly on the side. Rising to his feet, his frown deepened when a black haired woman followed the tall alpha in. Armin hadn't said he was bringing anyone with him... and even if the logical jump was that the woman with him was the same girl from the photo, it still would have been polite to give him a heads up. Catching sight of him, Armin walked straight over "Levi?! It's nice to finally meet you. I'm sorry about the coffee shop, I just had no idea where would be best to meet" "It's fine. Why don't we take a seat?" Sitting and making sure the cookies were safe, Armin slipped into the seat opposite from him, the woman pulling a chair over from another table. Sitting down, she scowled openly at him, as if he'd done something wrong "Mikasa, you're being rude" "I am not. I haven't even said anything" "You're glaring at Levi..." "Stop acting like you two are friends" She definitely did not like him, at all "You, Levi. Where is Eren?" "Mikasa!" "Eren was like a brother to me, it's been 9 years since we heard anything about him!" "Eren was like a brother to me too, and Levi is his boyfriend. Levi, I'm sorry. I'm sure you must understand how hard it's been. Eren was a huge part of our childhood before he disappeared. Finding him again, I didn't mean to upset him. I was just so, so very relieved to finally find him" Oh great. The pair of them were already grating on his nerves. Armin seemed desperate to reconnect with Eren. Eren was desperate not to reconnect with him, and Levi was just desperate to get his hands on whatever was inside the box, and then get the fuck out. * Eren had no idea the headache Levi was suffering, instead he was Christmas shopping with Hanji. He'd already been warned that due to an incident between Titan, a Christmas tree and a set of lights... leading to a teeny tiny, slight electrocution, they couldn't have a Christmas tree in the apartment. Something he'd chosen to ignore. They could have a tree, but they didn't have to have lights... he liked lights though. Sometimes he'd see them through the windows while he walked to work. Then, on Christmas Day, he and Zeke woukd spend Christmas together. They'd watch bad movie, while cuddled on the sofa with popcorn. Zeke would give him some kind of practical gift, while Eren would give him money for something he wanted for himself, he'd always show him what he'd decided to buy the moment he got home after buying it. Eren wouldn't gift Reiner or Bertholdt anything, as they knew better than to give him anything either, Zeke wouldn't allow it. With Hanji pushing the shopping trolley, Eren had a partner in crime. One white Christmas tree, with shatter proof baubles and tinsel, took up nearly all the room, but he was ok with that. Christmas with his boyfriend was going to be different, especially since Hanji said they would be spending most of the day at her house for her familiar Christmas party. It wasn't that he didn't want to spend time with Hanji, Moblit and Erwin, he'd just planned something special for him and Levi. These plans had been completely crushed when Hanji had even informed him of the fact that Levi's birthday was Christmas Day, something his boyfriend had neglected to inform him about, so instead of stressing over one present, he was now stressing over two. Hanji had insisted he was fine just combining Christmas with Levi's birthday, but to Eren, it definitely wasn't fine. He wanted to celebrate both Christmas and his boyfriend's birthday with him. As two seperate events, on the same day. He knew exactly what he wanted to do with Levi, he just needed to find exactly what he was looking for, and thankfully Hanji needed frequent bathroom breaks... otherwise he would have died of embarrassment over picking out the right Christmas outfit. Hanji might be wise about many things, but no way in hell did she need to know he was picking lingerie out. He didn't even know if Levi would like it... he just... he wanted to be intimate with Levi again. He'd talked to Krista about it, and she'd said if it was something he wanted, and he was in the right mental state, then he should go for it. Of course she'd been much more delicate in her word choice, and she'd given a him a table looking thing to record his panic attacks on. He was kind of proud to say it'd been 10 days since he'd had a panic attack, and the last one Levi had calmed before it had even got all that severe. So, really, he hadn't had a major panic attack since hearing from Armin, and Levi had dealt with him. To him, it meant that maybe being intimate with Levi wasn't that far out of his reach. Even though she was pregnant, Hanji was still up for a little mischief. He hadn't been feeling too happy with the insane crowds in the shopping centre, yet he was having fun watching Hanji acting more like an omega than alpha, clinging close to his side and crying over everything adorable. Pregnancy really agreed with her. Her bump smaller than Marco's had been at the same time along in his pregnancy, but she'd assured him everything was ok, before starting to ramble about the few times she and Marco had met up a coffee without him... Hanji had talked about it like he'd known about it, but Marco had said nothing to him. At all. No invite. Nothing ... he was definitely on the outer circle now of the "mummy club" he definitely wasn't part of. Everyone had their own lives, and all he had was Levi. No. That wasn't the right way to say it... he was grateful to Levi, and he loved him, so it didn't matter that the only person he went out with these days was Levi... he'd thought he'd be spending the day in bed, because Levi was busy today with staff training after his shift, so Hanji had sprung all of this on him when she'd broken into their apartment this morning. He'd been wondering how he was going to find a gift for Levi when he was always with his alpha, so he just had to keep it all together for a little longer, than he could back home and surprise Levi with the Christmas tree. Levi was a practical alpha. Almost everything he owned had some kind of practical purpose, so Eren wanted to find something that wouldn't be practical. Something the alpha wouldn't buy for himself. He'd thought about buying his alpha a blanket for his ruts, something he could smother his scent in, to ease Levi's pain... but that might have been too cheesy, besides, there were plenty of blankets in their apartment that smelt like him. He wanted something that would remind Levi of him, without being too possessive or overbearing. He was his boyfriend, his partner. He didn't want to shackle Levi down. He wanted his alpha to always be happy. That was how he found a watch he really liked, while wandering around like a lost kid. It was kind of cheap, though expensive for him, but with its silver band, hands, numbers and trim, and emerald green face, it seemed perfect. With, Hanji having to pee again, he didn't have to listen to the pros and cons of buying Levi a watch. He decided to gift it to Levi for his birthday, rather than for Christmas. After hours, they finally finished their gift shopping. Swinging by Hanji's car to drop it all off, he then had Hanji come food shopping with him. He wanted to make Levi a birthday cake, though he'd lied when Hanji asked him why he was buying cake mix. Feeling self conscious enough as it was, Hanji didn't notice, filling the trolley with random things while telling him not to worry about it, as she always made Levi's cake. She might be their friend, but he was Levi's boyfriend. He should be the one making Levi a birthday cake. He wanted to. He wanted things to be perfect for Levi's birthday, before they headed over to Hanji's Christmas party. Getting a few more things to sell the lie that he was going to make a cake sometime in the near future, he was absolutely done with people by the end of it. The queues had been soooooo long when they'd entered, and seemed even longer once they joined. Given his size, and Hanji's own height, he knew they weren't invisible, yet because he was a lowly omega, people thought they would walk all over him, knocking into him with trolleys like he wasn't there at all. That was until Hanji started yelling at everyone around them. The pregnant alpha causing enough of a scene that everyone made themselves busy pretending that the pair of them didn't exist. Hanji's yelling might have been in his defence, but she could be fucking scary and despite how hard he tried to hold it in, fine tremors ran through his body. When the young guy serving them politely asked how their day had been, Eren could only squeak out something completely unintelligible, before clamming up completely while Hanji started talking a million miles an hour, leaving the poor guy looking like he regretted opening his mouth. He wished he had her confidence to deal with people in crowded situation like this one. With Hanji feeling tired, they headed back to the apartment. With their arms loaded with shopping, he was surprised to see Levi wasn't home yet, as the pair of them dumped everything on the sofa gracelessly. They'd spent hours shopping, and even allowing for the few hours overlap where Levi was still on shift, he'd expected his alpha to be home. Hiding the things he didn't want Levi to find in his bed, under the sea of blankets. He'd been avoiding looking inside his wardrobe since Levi had fixed it for him. Fixing it had been covering the whole inside of the wardrobe with wallpaper. The omega felt bad for his boyfriend. Levi didn't have the time to be wasting it on wallpapering, only for him to avoid his wardrobe completely. So maybe Krista's table would have been fuller if he'd been living a little more normally, but if he knew he couldn't currently handle it then wasn't it a good thing he was avoiding it? Making sure his bed still looked nicely made, Eren hummed to himself before heading back out to the living room. Sprawled across the sofa, Hanji was talking to Titan as if he were a baby. The fat cat glaring her right into the eyes "He's going to claw you" "He wouldn't, he's too fluffy and cute" Eren rolled his eyes, sitting down in Levi recliner and gathering himself up. Being on the recliner, he had no idea how Hanji was possibly comfortable. The Christmas tree box was getting crushed under Hanji's weight, as was the food shopping, yet he was more worried about her comfort... because she couldn't possibly be comfortable "Why don't you sit up properly?" "Why don't you tell me what you were smuggling into your room?" "I wasn't smuggling anything" "Mhmm, don't think I didn't notice those extra bags. Spill. What did you buy without me?" "Nothing" "So you wouldn't mind if I went and took a look?" "It's just some shopping for Levi and for me... and you know, you and the baby" Hanji lowered Titan, squinting at him suspiciously "I didn't see you get me anything" "Because you had to pee every five seconds" "That's not my fault!" "Is too! You could have waited" "Then you would have known what I'd bought for you" Hanji released Titan, brushing his fur off her stomach "Fiiiine. I'll forgive me if you feed me. Seriously, not having you around and helping out has sucked sooo much. Levi better be appreciating you" "You'd have to ask him about that one. And if you want to cook you something, you need to get off the food" "But it's comfy!" "Hanji, get off the food, or I won't cook at all" "You're so mean. I'm going to have to talk to Levi about this. Making a pregnant alpha move..." Despite her grumbling, Hanji was still smiling as she pushed herself up, freeing the food "Now I have to pee again... see, this is why I didn't want to move" Eren grabbed the bags of his food shopping out the pile "I thought it was because you were comfy" "There's that too" "Just go the toilet already..." "But the effort" Why was he friends with Hanji? She was completely mental... "Do you really want to explain why you wet yourself on Levi's sofa?" Pushing herself up, Hanji giggled "You'll protect me from him, won't you?" "Nope. I like the sofa, I'd rather it not be peed on. We had to deal with that from Titan" "It's hard being fat and floofy. You just wait until you're pregnant and have to climb up like every five minutes" "Titan's a boy cat. He can't get pregnant like an omega" Hanji waved her hand at him, walking off into the bathroom while Eren carried everything into the kitchen. Levi finally came home while Eren was cooking omelettes for Hanji. Hanji had insisted on throwing all kinds of things in them, leaving them too oily to form properly. It was more like scrambled eggs. Joining him in the kitchen, Levi wrapped his arms around him "Aww.. you two are so cute" "Shut up. Don't think I didn't notice that Christmas tree on the sofa. You know how I feel about them" Eren's heart dropped. He'd thought Levi might be open to it, given it was their first Christmas together... yet his boyfriend sounded pissed. He even smelt pissed... "Don't look at me shorty. That was all Eren" "Eren..." "Do you want eggs?" "What? No. I already ate while I was out. I bought you back something to" His anxieties decided to his him hard. Levi was made and he'd just said "out" instead of "at work", he didn't think Levi would lie to him... but maybe his boyfriend had found someone better... nuzzling his shoulder, Levi quietly asked "Eren, are you alright?" "I'm sorry... I didn't think you'd mind the tree without lights" He mumbled his reply, forcing his stupid tears to stay down "It's ok... I don't like Christmas trees, but maybe this year will be different? It is our first Christmas together" "What are you two whispering about over there? It better be about the eggs, because me and this little bean are starting" Levi sighed against him, his alpha releasing him to move over to Hanji "Eren's about to serve your damn eggs" "That's because Eren is awesome. He let me Christmas shop all I wanted, not like you" Levi and Hanji usually went together? Had he intruded on that? Was he supposed to have told Hanji no? Fuck... his anxieties were really starting to rise. He'd been shaken by shopping, but determined to keep it in. Now he was home in the safety of the apartment, his frayed nerves seemed determined to make him fall apart completely "When you're shopping you get in and you get out. You don't spend hours wandering" "If you don't spend hours wandering, you miss all the best bits!" Plating up Hanji's eggs, he couldn't stomach the idea of eating the small extra amount he'd made himself. He would have fled to Levi's room, but Levi was home now "You're not eating?" Hanji pouted at him "I'm not feeling great" Levi was by his side in an instant. Placing his palm on Eren's forehead, his boyfriend frowned "You don't have a fever" He should have lied or just said he wasn't hungry "Do you have a headache? Or do you feel all nucky in your tummy?" Levi shot a glare at Hanji, before looking back to him, waiting for an answer "I'm just tired. Sorry, Hanji. I think I want to lay down" "You did have a big day, sweetie, and Levi's here to annoy now. Go have a nap" Levi went to kiss his cheek, but Eren dodged him, fleeing to his room and away from the two stupidly medically trained alphas. Couldn't he just say he felt sick? Why did they have to ask what kind of sick? He was sure there were times when they'd just felt gross or didn't really want company, so why'd they have to make him feel even more anxious about everything. Locking his door, he toed off his shoes as he crossed to his bed, flopping down on the blankets before remembering he'd stashed stuff under them. Given none of it was breakable, he curled up on the covers feeling stupid. * Hanji decided to stay and annoy him for about an hour even he'd gotten home. Having spent more time with Armin and Mikasa than he'd intended, he now had precious few hours before his next shift. The pair had a never ending stream of questions over Eren and his life, while Levi had pretty much none of the answers. He didn't even know what his boyfriend's favourite colour was... Trying not to explain all the shit Eren had been through, he could only give them vague answers, which pissed Mikasa off. She and Armin were both ultimately disappointed and upset over Eren not wanting to meet with them. He didn't close the door completely on them, simply explaining that with the death of Zeke, no wasn't the right time. He was sure there would come a time when Eren would want to reconnect with the pair of them, and it was clear how much they'd cared for their friend. No normal person would spend 10 years looking for a missing friend, not when they probably couldn't even remember Eren properly. When he'd parted with the pair, Armin had handed over the box and Levi had forced himself to wait until he was in his car to check the contents. There had been a photo album at the bottom of everything and that had made the whole headache inducing ordeal worth it. Now he just needed to deal with the next issue... the Christmas tree glaring at him from the sofa. Titan loved Christmas trees, to the point when he'd lay in his back, swatting at baubles like nothing else existed in his world for hours upon hours at a time. For such a lazy cat, the effort he went to when it came to trees was kind of impressive. For a while he had a small tree forced upon him by Hanji, until he was woken one night to Titan almost screeching and found the Christmas tree light cord chewed. After finding the tom hiding under his bed, and glaring at the tree as if it had betrayed him, he'd simply decided no more trees for them. He loved his cat, so it'd been an easy enough decision. Besides, they were messy. The small bits of plastic leaves always fell to the floor, and when you swept under it, more would fall... like some never ending cycle of torture. But on the other hand. This was his first Christmas with Eren. Eren was probably missing Zeke more than ever, and he'd probably had some kind of tree while living with his brother. He intended this to be the first of many Christmas's with his boyfriend, so many it was time to just go with the flow? Eren didn't but any lights, so there was no risk of Titan electrocuting himself, and no risk of fire... it was just... The messy... plasticy... never ending snowing... plastic. If or when they had pups, he didn't want to be the dad that banned trees. Levi felt himself jump at his own thoughts. Did he want to be a dad? How did one even "dad"? He wanted a future with Eren, and Eren wanted kids... and he wanted kids with Eren... so yes? He wanted to be a dad? Feeling slightly overwhelmed, he left the Christmas tree box on the sofa and fled into his own room. He didn't know what warm families did for Christmas. Thanks to their jobs, Hanji's Christmas party ran from the time she got off work, all the way through to the following morning. That was everyone could stop in at some point for food and company... this year, he had to work but was working the day shift Christmas Eve, then Christmas night, giving him plenty of time to fuck up Christmas for Eren. With each of them caught up in their spiralling emotions, they spent the day locked away in their respective rooms, Levi only finding a few hours sleep before it was time to get up and get ready for work all over again. * Work had been horrible. Levi exhausted and irritable from it all, yet when he came home to find the apartment cleaned thoroughly, as well as dusted and Christmas tree free, he felt that irritation turn into sadness. He hadn't had a chance to talk to Eren about the Christmas tree issue, and seeing it gone from the sofa made him feel like a dick. He'd already decided this Christmas would be different. He wanted to make it special for Eren. It was time to form new Christmas traditions, and he was starting with the reinstatement of the Christmas tree. Clearing a space in living room, next to the sofa, he laid out a white towel. Eren had purchased a white tree, so the plastic mess it made wouldn't be quite so obvious. With no lights, there would be no trip hazards, and if the tree was to fall due to Titan, it wouldn't take anything out in its decent. Now it was time to find Eren. Usually his boyfriend wandered out on his own, but as he hadn't, the omega was probably sleeping in their bed. Deciding to shower before waking Eren, his boyfriend was sleeping in his own bed. Titan was pulled up against his chest, the pair of them spooned up and snoring. In the corner of Eren's room was the Christmas tree box, as well as what seemed to be a box of decorations and tinsel. Carrying it all out into the living room, it was finally time to wake Eren. It honestly felt like they hadn't talked in weeks. Work had been horrific, and not just from a lack of sleep. Two shitty alphas had gotten into a fight in the middle of a department store. One breaking the others nose... after being stabbed with scissors by the other one. Christmas always brought out the worst in people. Crawling into Eren's bed, Levi wrapped his arms around Eren. His boyfriend letting out a sleepy yawn before wriggling back into him. Kissing Eren's bare shoulder, the his boyfriend yawned again "Sleepy?" "Mmm... not anymore. How was work?" "Long. All I could think about was coming home to you" "I missed you too... I cleaned" Rolling in his hold, Titan meowed as he fell from the bed, but Eren was already snuggling back into him and didn't notice the cats rapid eviction "I noticed. Are you awake? Or falling back to sleep?" "Awake. You're just really warm and comfy" "If you're awake then, I've got a surprise for you" "A surprise? What did I do to deserve that?" "You put up with me" "That's not hard" Nuzzling into his neck, Eren was in no hurry to move. Pulling Eren up and rolling them over so his boyfriend was straddling him, Eren flopped down against him "Sleepy" Tickling his sides, Eren shot back up, laughing as he did "Ok! Ok! I'm awake" "That's better. I want to do this with you, before I fall asleep" "Do what?" "You're about to find out, hold on" Lifting Eren and carrying him out to living room wasn't nearly as coordinated or sexy as he'd hoped. He'd nearly tripped over his own feet trying to get him out of bed, before nearly smacking him into the doorframe. Finally making it to the living room, he dropped him down the sofa, where Eren let out a yelp "What was that?" "You try working a 12 hour shift with fuck all sleep" "Then why aren't we still in bed?" "Because I have something to ask you" "Yeah, what would that be?" Levi took a deep breath, trying to appear as serious as he could, as little revenge for Eren sitting there shirtless "We've known each other for a year now, and I could never have imagined how much you would come to mean to me. So I'm asking you, will you, Eren Yeager, please do me the honour of putting up this Christmas tree with me?" Eren gaped at him, before starting to laugh "You have no idea how happy this makes me. Yes, Levi. I would be honoured to put this Christmas tree up with you... but I thought you hated Christmas trees" Sitting down on the coffee table, Levi looked to the box "I was thinking that maybe it was time for a change. Time for some new traditions around here, for the two of us" Reaching out, Eren took his hand in his "I was really worried I'd fucked up... you seemed unhappy about it" "I was, until I thought about this all. It's our first Christmas together, so I want to do it right" "That means you're not mad?" "No, Eren. I'm not mad at all. Why don't you show me what we're working with" Eren had worked with a dark metallic blue/green, white and silver theme for the tree. He'd expected the omega to have selected every colour under the sun, but as the slowly decorated the tree, it came together beautifully. More over, rather than placing the baubles up randomly, Eren carefully placed each one, soothing Levi's need for things to be in just the right location. Once they were finished, Eren placed the silver star he'd chosen atop the tree, before wrapping his arms around Levi and kissing his temple "Thank you... you have no idea how happy this makes me" Having witnessed how intent Eren had been on making everything perfect, he had a fair idea. Eren had even scolded him when he'd draped tinsel around his boyfriend's neck, as it belonged on their tree, and not around him "It looks great" "It doesn't look great, it looks perfect" Snorting Levi returned the hug "You did a good job" "I know. So did you..." The cocky little shit... still, he couldn't help but smile. Maybe this Christmas was a sign that things had definitely changed for the better? He had a wonderful boyfriend. A cat safe tree, and someone waiting for him at the end of each and every shift "We should get a photo before Titan gets to it" "Mmm... let me just hold you a little longer" He might hate the Christmas season, but his heart swelled with love for Eren. He wanted to give his omega the whole fucking world "Photos, then bed?" "Mmm, as much as I'd like nothing more than to climb into bed and snuggle up with my alpha, you haven't eaten anything since you came home. I'll heat up dinner, while you take the photos" "Are you telling me what to do?" "I am, when it comes to your health. You work so hard to support us, I just want to show you how much I care and how much you mean to me" Maybe this was what a warm and loving family felt like? A tree decorated together, a happy alpha and an even happier omega. If he could spend eternity in one moment, it'd have to be this one. In the loving arms of his boyfriend.

[zebra-warrior]

Five things I'm greatful for and then some.

1. My parents. I honestly couldn't ask for a better set of parents than I have. As a kid we didn't have much money. My parents wanted to purchase a nice house to raise me in so I had the best environment to grow up in possible but in choosing the home they did everyting else was very tight but they never made it feel that way. Back in the day when crafting and building things were less expensive than buying them (boy have things changed with crafting) if we didn't have someting they would make it. I remember a lot of my friends would have birthday parties at places like Chuck E. Cheese, Magic Mountain, the Zoo or a skating rink. My parants didn't really have the money to do that and what they had they would have rather spent on a nice present for me so my mom would decorate the house and my dad would go out and mow the grass really short. They would dig holes in the ground and put PVC pipe in the holes that my dad would get at work from the dumpster and turn our back yard into a put put course. They would put up a vollyball net and crochet set and we would use big workshop vice grip clamps and turn them upside down as putters. The house they bought already had a swing set and swimming pool so I would have pool parties and with magic mountain in my own back yard. It was a lot of work but not a lot of money even though to me it felt like they spent a fortune. Everyone always looked forward to my birthday parties as a kid. They were always a bit hit. Not to mentuon sidewalk chalk was someting they also would splurge on so setting up the driveway with lots of fun stuff was something my dad liked to do. He used to like drawing with chalk as much as I did. As I got older they always made things work. When I began getting bullied at school I was switched to a private home school coop. Which my great grandma who was also the best grandma ever paid for knowing my parents couldn't and she couldn't stand seeing me hurt the way I was but my mom would drive me 35 minutes to school, drive almost an hour to work then after work wound drive almost an hour to pick me up and then 35 minutes back home every day for 3 years until I got my driver's license. She was so excited for me to get my license she took me a month early for my T

temps. I told her it was too early and she said it wasn't and whan I got there they said come back next month lol. I never wanted to drive. I was always afraid but she couldn't get me to the BMV fast enough lol. My parents also taught me a lot about the value of money and work ethic and now say they taught me too well because I'm known to shop for several months for something more costly that I need like contact lenses in order to find the best price, all coupons and all rebates and sales available. I got my first job at age 11 and was able to buy my first car myself, pay for college myself without taking out one loan and buy my first home outright and as a foreclosure to remodel and fix up how I wanted it to look. My second car was the only thing I've ever taken out a loan on. When I got sick and OSU tried to put me in a nursing facility my parents offered to help me sell my house and take me back in with open arms so I could be cared for in their home instead of a long term care facility. They still help me to this day cooking for me, driving me to appointments when I can't use transportation services, cleaning and helping me bathe myself. I now pay them rent and utilities as well as half of groceries and personal needs of my dog and myself not because I think for a second they would dump me into a long term care faculty if I didnvt but because it's the right thing to do. This ties in with family but I'm so very greatful and thankful to still have my mom. She was on life support after having her liver cut into during a botched surgery which resulted in a full blown liver rupture. It was the hands down the scariest moment of my life. We weren't sure she would make it and her doctors couldnt even give us that reassurance but she did everyting ahead of schedule and all I had to hold on to was her promise that she wasn't going anywhere. She kept that promises and on the day she was released the nurse that called when she began crashing came into the room shocked she was alive and admitted that she was sure my mom wasn't going to make it and that was the end for her. She was completely amazed my mom was still here. My mom was caught in the battle of her life, a battle she should have never had to fight and now has PTSD because of the experience but she's alive. My mom is here. I know a lot of adults have already lost a parent and I can't imagine the pain. Having my parants bring really the only family members I have a close relationship with and being my caregivers, I don't know what I wouls do without them. I would probably be in some nursing home somewhere without them. With my dad has Autism, though he was able to work, my mom paid bills, did most of the shopping as my dad can't use a debit card. But my mom does most of the money, paperwork and phone call related stuff for him so I can't imagine how life would even be able to continue without her. Or my dad. They both have two totally different rolls and being disabled I need them more than ever so I couldn't be happier this is in the past but couldn't be more upset or had to happen to begin with. In Ohio doctors are protected against medical malpractice and though she almost lost her life and will have life long physical complications and likely somewhat shorter of a life due to these complications she will never get the revenge she deserves and the doctor didn't even get a slap on the hand for what he did to her body and with now having PTSD, her mind.

2. Maggie: This dog has rolled with the punches and adapted flawlessly. She's my best friend and fur daughter. She picked up cardiac alert from my last baby Sandy and took to training to be able to use that ability as a career line a champ. I have seen her blossom from the puppy from heck. (no offend Ma-mag) but she would literally rip wallpaper off the wall with her teeth, it took 8 months to housebreak her and there was no such thing as no in her dictionary. She got into everything but I've since learned that was only because she was so intelligent and always curious because once she began training she excelled and grew into the most trusting and obedient dog I've ever had. Not only that but she thrived on structure. When working she walks on the leash beside me just fine but when I put her on my lap at that point nothing can stop her. She sits up all straight, sticks her chest out and thinks her poop doesn't smell. My lap is her thrown. I don't mind because she can alert just as well up there as she can waking, if not better because she doesnt have to try as hard to get my attention in loud and busy places. Not only is she obedient but when she's not formally working, even at 8 years old she's still very playfil and silly, always doing things to make me laugh or my heart melt. She's a velcro dog so I've always got a snuggle buddy and someone to keep me warm and my face coated in a layer if dog spit lol. I got her the day before I got my first pacemaker and she was the first one to sit at my bedside when I came out if surgery for my second one. As I went from a much closer to healthy individual who would take her on long walks and when stuck in a terrible relationship I would walk she and Sandy some days for several hours a day, sitting around the pond eating snacks, going into every store in walking distance that allowed pets and exploring the neighborhood to much sicker, in a chair with her only real walks occurring when she worked outside the home and a much more stagnant lifestyle Maggie never loved me any less, if anyting she loved me more because to my surprise she fell in love with my wheelchair and head over hills for my powerchair. When I turn my power chair on it makes a chiming sound and whan she hears that sound she makes a mad dash for the room I'm in begging for a ride. In her mind these changes in my life had made me no less the mommy to her as I was before. She is one person (yes I will call her a person) who I can count on to always love me no matter what. If it wasn't for her, I don't think I woukd he here. This conditon has made me want to go to bed and not wake up more than once and she's saved me every time and I can't thank her enough for being such a good girl.

3. My neighbor Pam has been my neighbor since I was 5 years old so she's been in my life most of my life and much more than any family member outside my household has ever been. She's basically my aunt or a second mom to me. As a kid she helped in reaching me the value of money and hard work my giving me my first two jobs at age 11. She has me clean her primates cages and prepare food for them not only teaching me the values of good, hard work but further fostering my love for animals. She's always had the primates as well as dogs and cats I would take care of when she was out of town. I was the first kid I knew to have a real job even if it was part time. It wasn't much later that I began babysitting her grandson who even now that he's grown and I no longer talk to him, I think if him as a little brother to me. He was the most well behaved kid I ever babysat and boy was it an eye opener when I started babysitting a lot of other kids in the neighborhood and saw how some kids can really act lol. Pam has always been there for me and my family. She would take me on summer trips sometimes like I remeber a trip to Wyndot Lake that really was a blast and she has always treated me like family. We have a key to her house and she has one to ours. When I got to the age I could stay home alone I never woried too much about if I couldnt find my key or the screen door was locked because I always knew she was just a short walk away if I needed help. She watchs our houses and we watch hers contacting each other if we see anyone or anyting unusual. She comes over each year for Christmas dinner and will occasionally surprise my parents by bringing over a soup she made or some cookies she baked and last summer sent a Chimney Sweep to our house because she knew my mom needed a break and we like to have fires in the winter but haven't had our Chimney cleaned in a while. For my 16th birthday she took my awe dry car to her business at the airport to clear coat it with the same material used to clear coat jets and whan I got sick I didn't have to worry because she is always nearby. Before I got transportation services she was always willing to drive me to my medical appointments and with Corona, she helped with shopping. Over the summer we could pick anyone in our family to go on a trip to the zoo with us my dad's last year of work and we chose my neighbors and had a great time. We may not be family by blood but my neighbor is my family. Not many people are lucky enough to have a neighbor they get along with or even care for yet ours is closer than extended family and for that I'm thankful.

4. My home. I couldn't be more lucky when my parents bought this house. It's almost as if they knew that when I grew up I would be in a chair. We live in a one story floor plan with a kitchen. That has an island in the middle so if I have someting I hand its still easy to just grab the counter and zip around in a circle to any part of the kitchen I need to get to. Before the passing of my grandma, she used a walker and wheelchair so my dad had already installed a ramp in our garage so I went into this journey with access to my home. My home is also set up so my dad found easily set up a ramp onto the back porch. I have always had a large bedroom, bigger than most people I know. It's similar in size to a master bedroom and being in a chair, thats very much a necessity now. In a chair you need a lot more room to navigate an area efficiently. Of course my home is far from perfect. The bathrooms are much too small to be truly accessable so I have to make due with what I have and my bathroom. Needs despiratly to be remodeled. Unfortunatly the bath tub that was put into my bathroom could quite possibly be the most unexcwssable bathtub for someone in a wheelchair in existence. I don't have a pull down closet nor do I have pull down cabinets in the kitchen or appliances I can easily use. I don't have a stove that rises and lowers or countertops that are at my height it an elevating powerchair to be able to reach those areas. Even the microwave is a Hazzard but as far as manuverability we have that. I can access every too. In our home except our basement and one part of a bathroom we have. It would be easier to menuvour here if my parants didn't have so mucb stuff and such big bulky furniture it I think that's also part of living with my parents. They have more life experience and more stuff but it's doable. Not everyone is lucky enough. After becoming disabled to have a home that's usable or has porential. Many were forced to move after getting sick or disabled. I was forced to move out of my home but my parents home is usable and I can't be more happy for this home.

5. Doctor Joseph and his staff. I went 30 years of my life unable to get help for this condition slowely robbing more and more from my body. When I came across Dr Joseph they were something I had never seen in the medical community. This was all new to me. I entered into a facility of four of the most caring and compassionate individuals I've ever encountered. I finally found a doctor who specializes in my conditon and he was just over a half hour away. But only was he familliar with the disease but also the comorbidities, Misconceptions, PTSD we have all faced from others who hold some form of medical degree and how we likely have no one to advocate for us and we have been on our own literally fighting through the pain and suffering. For appropriate medical treatment to only be dealt more pain and suffering. When he took me on I was the sickest I've ever been in my life and I so much pain I frankly can't believe I hadn't taken my life much before even hearing about him not only did he take me on as a patient knowing how big of a project I would be after over 200 doctors in the past saw me and just pushed me off but he never gave up, hasn't given up and I don't see him giving up on me in the future. His staff has fought tooth and nail with insurance companies on my behalf, files formal complaints about hospital care for me, brought me in on days they were fully booked to try to help me and spent weekends and holidays on the phone with my mom and the hospital angerly fighting with them to do the right thing and provide appropriate care. They may have not listened to him, learned to hate him and failed me terribly but at least I can't say my doctor and his staff didn't try. His wife came in on her day off to fight with my insurance company and they have helped me find the right goverment officials to contact with problems. The goverment officials may not have done anything but again, at least I can say they tried and that says a lot about a doctor. I. Not on the best treatment and the battle still continues to get me into a surgeon, gst testing completed and fight for more than the fifth or sixth best medication. They treat me no different than they would treat their own family members and that is something I've never seen in a doctor. I have seen improvement. It may not be as much as they would like but every bit of improovment is because the continue to fight to me, continue to teach me to advocate for myself and refuse to give up on me just because I'm a complicated case. I couldn't thank his office more for what they have done and continue to do each day.

I know that's five but just to list a few, I'm thankful for my late dog Sandy, my late Great Grandma, nature and other non harmful animals that cross my path, my local church, my online friends and the availability of support groups, the internet, with the virus I'm thankful for the new door that has opened for those of us who are homebound with all of these vertual tours and other New online resources that open the world up to us from our beds and couches, that I still have my mind, my manual and powerchair as I would have no way to access anyting, including my own house without them, the nice days after the ground has dried up and I'm able to roll around my yard and around the garden. To re-establish a love for crafting. My cricut and sewing machine and mich more. So just because there are things I'm very upset with in this world doesn't mean there aren't things I'm thankful for.

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