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skalidris · 1 year ago

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i love lxc for many reasons but i've never seen anyone express a reason for his relationship to asking questions/accepting answers (he does both, btw) that's even vaguely aligned with the interpretation i've come to prefer

#ok that's. hyperbole.#this is also ofc kind of speculative since we just don't get his thoughts #but xichen also thinks the world sucks and options are limited #like. he clearly deeply understands this. he acts and talks like someone who knows this.#and many contextual clues confirm this to be correct #i think for xichen tho that understanding manifests in an ideology of being as kind as possible #(similar to mingjue but.. more diplomatic)#and i think that makes sense bc if xichen turned his back on society #he'd be abandoning his sect who actually do depend on him #and for various reasons that's obviously unacceptable #the only way to resolve this conflict is then to believe it's possible to be somewhat good in society #(at least not.. all bad)#and in many ways what meng yao is trying to do is similar!#in that he's trying to do good in a broken system which is hard and has many costs #i think this is the most interesting interpretation of why xichen feels betrayed morally by the 'reveals' of my doing bad stuff #(and ultimately why he kind of was right to begin with)#also posits the fascinating option of...#he may not have ever pushed (e.g. regarding his mom)#bc subconsciously he knew/feared that he'd choose love over society #i think this is more believable than him doubting his capacity of still loving her!#that's what a-yao is afraid of. i think xichen would have the opposite fear.#and like i said the consequences of that choice--and he's seen them--are dire #and so it's in part this refusal to do this thing he's decided is harmful (prioritize his feelings over the well-being of the many)#that moves his hand in guanyin temple. epic. gamerful. i love you lan xichen

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