#i think IM in love with meetra

[thatwitchrevan]

happy midnight on valentine’s day, here’s Revan dancing with Meetra and Alek.

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The music was lively, spilling into the night along with the sounds of laughter and voices. Revan had to blink as her eyes adjusted to the light inside the pavilion, a stark contrast to the dark and velvety night. 

This all felt surreal, dreamlike. The war itself always found a new way to surprise and unsettle her, but it made sense. It felt like reality. This - the celebration, the dancing? She'd never done this before. 

As she fumbled down the hill, it occurred that getting drunk before arriving probably didn't help. She'd needed the alcohol to take the edge off her nerves, but she was unused to drinking, too, and even out of all her fellow Jedi she was easily the lightweight. It was a good thing she'd still worn boots, or she'd have slipped by now.

Revan reached the massive canopy and stepped into the light. She gave a second for her eyes to fully adjust, looking around. Everyone was here - Nastha and John were dancing together, Selena and Annie were sitting with Alek at one of the tables, the soldiers were largely drinking and playing cards, and the locals were leading the dance and going around to shake everybody's hands.

Revan analyzed, simultaneously looking for the most strategic use of her time and the safest place to melt into the background. She was putting a foot forward to slink to the seat beside Alek when Meetra appeared.

"You showed!" Meetra said. Her smile was warm but not as full as Revan remembered from more lighthearted days at the Enclave. She looked amazing, though, her curly hair back in a loose bun, wearing a simple but elegant green dress with a straight skirt and no sleeves. 

"Alek said you were nervous," Meetra added, tilting her head at Revan as if confirming to herself that Revan was in fact still nervous.

Revan shook her head. "I'm just not a fan of parties."

Meetra rolled her eyes. "Revan. We've never been to parties. You can only use that excuse on people who don't know you."

She took Revan's arm, gentle but firm, drawing her closer to Meetra and closer to the dance floor. "Be my partner?"

It was a simple request, one that offered no pressure to agree. And a large part of Revan still wanted to go hide behind Alek. But she felt that familiar tug at her chest when Meetra looked at her, big brown eyes warm and soft and stronger than any tractor beam. 

Revan sighed. "Fine. Just one dance."

Meetra giggled. "You say that, but I'll bet you five creds it's more." She pulled her friend out onto the floor, wrapping one arm around Revan's waist and taking her other hand.

Revan rested her free hand on Meetra's shoulder and let her lead, breathing out with a little relief that she didn’t actually have to know how to dance. She just had to follow Meetra, who was confident and graceful. 

It felt easy, surrendering to the rhythm of Meetra's steps and spins, being pulled along in her orbit. They were so in sync Revan didn’t even worry about anyone stepping on anyone's feet, and she could just focus on the weirdly nice sensation of dancing with her best friend.

Meetra smiled at her, and it truly met her eyes this time. "You're a natural, Rev."

It was Revan's turn to roll her eyes. "Please. I'd be useless if I wasn't out here with you. This is nothing like fighting."

"Mmm," Meetra said. "You can be pretty ungrateful at fighting, too."

Revan moved her hand from Meetra's shoulder to punch her playfully in the arm, Meetra laughing. Revan ended up loosely holding Meetra's bicep instead of replacing her hand on her shoulder. After a moment, she shuffles closer and leans into Meetra, head resting on her chest. 

"Thank you," Revan said. She didn’t need to say for what, because Meetra knew she meant everything. Meetra's hand moved up from Revan's waist to her back.

"You too."

They stayed like that for a few moments, swaying in a gentle embrace. Revan let herself relax, held up by her friend. Meetra's arms were strong, and she felt safe there. 

Meetra rubbed her back a little and then pulled back. Revan frowned briefly until she realized Alek was walking towards them. He stood next to the pair of them as they stopped dancing and smiled.

"Meetra, mind if I steal your dance partner?" 

Meetra grinned. She gave Revan a meaningful look and twirled her when she scowled. "I wouldn't dream of keeping her all to myself." 

Revan stopped spinning and grabbed Meetra's arms, pitching forward a little, still frowning, and she knew both her friends could probably sense how her pulse quickened and her nerves started squirming again, but she looked up at Alek and her frown turned into a nervous smile. 

Meetra released Revan's hands and instead gently cupped her face, stepping close to drop a light kiss on her cheek. She pulled back and met her friend's eyes. "This is our night, okay? We earned this. Enjoy it."

Revan nodded, and Meetra smiled and let her go. She squeezed Alek's arm as she passed. "Save a dance for me, Squint."

And then Revan was alone with Alek on the dance floor. Her blood froze as he looked at her, a tiny, hesitant smile on his face. She should be so used to him that a smile would no longer have any effect, but sometimes when she saw him it was like those early fluttery feelings all came back. 

He held out his hand to her, tilting his head down a little. “Do you want to dance?”

What could she say? Of course she wanted to dance. She took his hand. 

Alek pulled her in, one hand on her waist, just like Meetra. Her other hand rested on his bicep, and she took small, regular breaths to keep her nerves in check as they started to spin. 

The song playing now was a lilting ballad. It was in Ryll, as far as Revan could tell, but she wasn’t paying enough attention to understand the words. She was too focused on meeting Alek’s eyes and following his lead without stumbling - he was clumsier than Meetra, and his stride mismatched with hers. 

“Your outfit looks nice,” Alek said. “Though you do know there’s colors other than black, right?”

Revan rolled her eyes. Her outfit was pretty subtle, if pretty. The black jumpsuit had wide legs, making it look a little like a skirt but feel more like her robes. Meetra had helped her pick it out, and had given up pretty quickly on suggesting dresses. It had less to do with feeling self-conscious or even dysphoric - a word Annie had taught her, and one that she was afraid of - and more to do with wanting to feel like her. And maybe that’s what Annie meant anyway. 

Alek squeezed her hand, bringing her back to the moment. “Rev. Relax. We’re doing good.”

Revan sighed, making herself nod. She wasn’t ready to celebrate. She wanted to do all the fighting at once until it was over. 

Alek grinned at her, released her waist, and spun her. He kept going until she laughed, getting a little dizzy from the blur of the party lights around her. When he caught her, she was a little closer to his chest, forced to turn her head up a little to look at him. The glow of the lights bounced off his hair, fragments of it flecked in his blue eyes. 

He was lovely.

Revan gave in and enjoyed the dance.

[duelofthefatesmp3]

i DO actually wanna know how youd make kotor 3 !!!!!

this ask has been sitting on my inbox for so long on PURPOSE! i wanted some time to re read the revan book + watch some swtor gameplays so i could give a concrete answer about why the book and swtor arent satisfactory and what i would do instead (im not like. a storytelling god so i this is just my PERSONAL idea). under the cut!

to begin with, what's wrong with revan the book and swtor, mai?

i am very fond of swtor i think it was such a nice idea to have an "open" world game set in star wars old republic time. but ultimately, it was not a good conclusion to revan and meetra's storyline! now, i don't really know what happened in the development of the third kotor game (if there ever was a plan for one) but it's clear they dropped the ball on that and decided to start a whole different project. i don't think we can blame disney for that one, because it was announced on 2008, launched in 2011, and disney had just bought star wars that year. so who knows.

the thing is that it's painfully evident that a bunch of the story that was gonna be in the third game, ended up in the book + misc parts of swtor. much of the book feels like a gameplay.

now, it was clear when the book was planned that they wanted to keep revan's story open so when the game came out, they could have a cool Revan storyline so he could make a cool villain appearence and draw in some of that kotor nostalgia. which ehhhhhh. uh. i don't really think did any favors for revan's character. he didn't have a satisfactory arc (I'm not saying "a happy ending" because good arcs aren't always happy) but at least some closure?

revan went through many big events in his life. we didnt need to keep his ass in stasis for his fun villain moments 300 years later. we already had what we wanted from him: jedi turned sith turned jedi again to defeat a terrible threat. that was it we could have let it there and it would have been cool! but then they decided to drag and drag his story just to leave him right where he was before. he just suffered a little more in the in-between.

you could say he finally redeemed himself of all of his crimes this way, but wasn't that the whole purpose of the first kotor game (and would have been the purpose of the 3rd?)

swtor does not centre revan in his own narrative. he's a side character for the player to experience. and look, i get it, we've had a different protag on each game, why not have another one in this one. well, because the protagonist has no personal relationship with revan. meetra was one of his closest friends, and fought with him. there is a connection that can be exploited. but the swtor protagonist is just some guy 300 years in the future who happens to stumble into revan and his life. not even his descendants get to fully interact with revan.

also, there is the fact that revan is not the centre of the game itself, only of a particular storyline. and it's weird, because swtor could have happened without revan's involvement.

ms. meetra surik, ms. bastila shan, women of the world I'm sorry

so it's no news that star wars is misogynistic as fuck right. cause it is.

so you decide to make your gender neutral protagonist a guy. then you decide to make your other gender neutral protagonist a woman. cool. now let's guess who gets underdeveloped, turned into a plot device without reason, and promptly fridged in the most unceremoniously fashion just to fullfil some manpain moments. which one do you think got that treatment.

i know the revan book is supposed to be about revan, but why make meetra go through a whole arc just to undermine her character and turn her into the faithful servant of the guy? she leaves everything behind for him, sacrifices herself for him, hell not even dead is she not serving the guy. and she was the second game’s protagonist! she beat up a bunch of powerful people and now she’s just meh, there? she had so many interesting ways to interact with revan (meeting kreia, revan’s first master, encountering another force consuming entity, etc.)

meetra went through a whole arc about dealing with the guilt of doing something horrible and having the consequences of it cut her from the force. we see her broken, then slowly come back to the world and reconnect herself with the force, then stop running and face the consequences of her role in the war. thats such a cool character with tons of potential! and nothing happened!

then we got bastila who is. a whole deal. so you make her go through a “promising jedi who defeated revan, to questioning reluctant companion, to fell into the dark side, to was redeemed thanks to her bond to revan, who helped her come back because he’d been through the same experience” arc, and then you decide to push her to the side to have a baby?? which is... its clear that the writer didnt know what to do with her (or with the other characters outside of canderous) so hey, lets get her to marry revan and have a baby.

my ideal kotor 3

to preface, im not a game developer, so some of my choices could be stunted by what a kotor rpg can do lol. of course, it would follow the same mechanics and have the same format as the first two, because consistency!

the fun way to start the game, would be from scourge’s perspective. we get to play as a sith! i’d even say you get to change scourge’s name and gender and looks (i know sith have different looks)

in scourge’s storyline, we get from his arrival to normound kaas, to his talks with nissyris, to his missions working for her. in some of these, we can make scourge lean into the dark or the light side! fun! plus we get some exposition with dialogue options. it all continues untill we get to nissirys story about the emperor. we get a fucked up cutscene of his childhood and then BOOM when its over, we see revan waking up from a nightmare and their pov starts.

ok, as for revan’s story, since we’d have to pick it up from where kotor ended, i’d have a little cutscene of revan back into the ebon hawk, with bastila, and them telling the crew to take them to courascant. then cut to a council meeting where revan and bastila get scolded in private, then rewarded by the republic. i would also like to see some revan mournink malak’s death mayhaps. since he was their childhood friend and all.

i would 100% scrape the marriage and two years passed part. as the book said, the council had no use for revan aside from the legend(tm), so why would they stay in courascant. revan was very alienated from the jedi at that point, despite being back in the “light side”

then like, to revan asking around for meetra and other jedi from the mandalorian wars, we can cash in that atris cameo, then revan starts to have these visions about the sith emperor, and maybe we could get a playable dream sequence about revan’s fight with mandalore the ultimate (I KNOW I WOULD LIKE TO SEE IT.) and we get the whole exposition to mandalore telling revan that the sith are behind it all. i believe we should get a bunch of these flashback/dream sequences of revan’s past doing shit. cut to revan burying the mask in a planet, then back to the present. we see a bunch of mission and juhani scenes trying to reach him, but he keeps pushing them away. revan and bastila meet canderous, travel to the ice planet, meet clan ordo (god i love clan ordo) you get the whole quest, you decide weather to spare veela or not, maybe you get a cheeky mandalorian companion (force sensitive mando oh?) and leave canderous behind.

we can visit like, a couple more planets searching for clues maybe, etc. then when reaching nathema, you are forced to go alone as revan, get to explore nathema a bit (raiding ancient location yay) nathema as a location can be so fun because you can have it weaken you hp bar and also you cant use the force (which, in game is pretty cool)

then we get to scourge and nyssiris arriving to the planet, they fight but since theres two of them and revan doesn’t have the force, they beat the shit out of them, and while running away, they get in a fight with bastila and the companions in the ebon hawk (ebon hawk shooting game my hated). bastila manages to get a glimpse of revan’s thoughts before they take them away. but the ebon is so ruined it takes bastila, t3 and the mandalorian a while to fix it, and they get stuck into the unknown regions for a while. the ebon hawk is left in an outer rim planet with t3 fixing it, bastila and the mandalorian run back to the jedi council, only to get caught in the middle of the jedi civil war. we can have bastila choosing to hide in courascant and trying to make sense of what she saw, reading texts about the sith empire, trying to plot a course to where they took revan (more atris! but shes pissed at her now)

cutscene to meetra’s pov, leaving malachor v behind, getting calls from everyone at the hawk (atton my beloved) but just as she’s leaving she gets a force message from revan, calling for her to find him and sending visions of normound kaas. then, through her force bond with visas, she tells her not to go because they’re gay and in love and whatnot.

then boom, she gets intercepted by bastila’s ship, with the mandalore and the other mandalorian (yes i do love having a bunch of mandos on board) and they go on their way to find revan.

now i want there to be an underlying message of “we can’t take our friends with us because we have to do this ALONE we’re powerful JEDI we don’t need our FRIENDS.” meetra gets asked if she wants to bring any friends and she’s like “no. we have to do this alone.” along the game you get constantly contacted by other game characters, you get the chance to talk to them or ignore them.

so, we get back to nathema, and meetra has a whole “holy shit this is just like darth nihilus but ten times worse. but i beat darth nihilus. i can do this!” then she finds peace in this place without the force, we get a whole speech about how the odds arent against them, they find a way to normound kaas, and get going.

in normound kaas i thought about them getting a whole mission about how to infiltrate the citadel, only to get helped by scourge. he joins the party, we get a little flashback of all the years he spent trying to make revan remember and they storm the citadel. we get to fight the dark council members, fun! then we get to free revan and the game switches povs. bastila hands the mask to revan and he has a cool “yes im revan im pretty cool” then a nice heartfelt yet rushed reunion with everyone.

then have a small CONVERSATION WITH MEETRA where she talks about the sith triumvirate she defeated and revan is impressed with her and is like “we are the last hope of the jedi, we’ve learned to walk between light and dark, we’ve done horrors but we can still make things right, our experience has made us more powerful etc.

then they fight the imperial guard, ALL OF THEM, meetra revan and scourge make it into the throne room, they all fight the emperor. meetra shows the emperor that she has seen the void, she has cut herself from the force, and she’s not afraid of him, revan supports her, talks about redemption and hope  and NOW.

NOW. how the alternate endings could go:

if you decide to take scourge through the light side, he manages to form a forcebond with meetra and revan since they’ve both teached something about the duality of the force, they get 100% stronger, but its still not enough. UNTIL. a bunch of ships (jedi and mandalorian, even non republic ships) arrive to dormound kaas, the gangs from each game storm the room and together they make the emperor and his guard a bunch of punching bags. they beat him! (unknow to them, this was a backup body because the emperor can do weird shit like that, and has only debilitated his plan, but he’ll come back dont worry). then they fly back to the republic, to tell the chancellor about the sith threat, and preparations for the war begin. meetra and revan get to live happily ever after for a while, then they die away from the jedi or the sith (waaah im thinking about them helping canderous rebuild the mandalorians, and them doing it since they killed so many mandos in the war)

BECAUSE IN THE END KOTOR IS ABOUT LEARNING TO PROCESS TRAUMA AND RECOGNIZE YOUR MISTAKES AND LIVE WITH THE GUILT WHILST TRYING TO FIX THE MISTAKES YOU MADE ALONG THE WAY. AND ALSO TO HEAL FROM TRAUMA YOU NEED A SUPPORT SYSTEM SO EVEN THOUGH IT MAKES SENSE TO YOU YOU SHOULDNT PUSH PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU AWAY. AND THINGS AREN’T BLACK AND WHITE ITS COMPLICATED SO YOU DONT END UP BACK ON SQUARE ONE YOURE A CHANGED PERSON.

or

if you decide to dark side scourge further, he betrays revan and meetra, they all die, and the emperor unleashes his angry lightning or whatever on everyone + a bunch of visions of all the enemies of past mocking them, and their loved ones suffering. and since you’ve had that “im not calling my friends bullshit” no one comes, you die there, and the emperor is only stalled for a few years. swtor ensues. scourge becomes the emperor’s hand.

now you could of course bring revan and meetra up in swtor, but maybe only as force ghost guides, or have some of the other characters of the game have relevance (visas tries to heal the miraluka planet 2021)

WELL THAT WAS A LOT OF WORDS. HOPE THIS IS SATISFYING ENOUGH

[tarrevizsla]

9, Revan/Alek/Meetra/Bastila/Atton go

9. fake-married to for undercover reasons

oh my GOD did u remember me mentioning i liked this trope or

1. alek (god it is so easy to tell that i kin revan) because first of all i love him so it would be very easy to fake, second of all. wait. that's a thought. u know how revan and alek supposedly snuck on to dromund kaas after the mando wars. hm....

1a. ur (@/revanchxst)'s revan. she is very attractive and i would love to be in a fake romance with her also what if.... we were in a fake marriage.... and we were both revanchists 😳😳

2. atton because he lies good and i want to steal his jacket but i would not actually want to be with him for any sort of long term thing i just want the jacket

3. bastila because once again. i love her. but i feel like she would be a lot worse at fake marriageing than alek or revan because despite the whole thing through the first half of kotor i still don't think she can lie under pressure which brings us to

3a. my revan (zila). absolutely horrible liar. never ask them to go under cover they simply cannot do it!! they are incapable of lying!! it does not compute for them!!

4. meetra. she's a lesbian and im not a woman or a nonbinary person who feels comfy with that

[chubbyooo]

Echoes of Oblivion thoughts

i have a lot so get prepared

well that was very endgame wasnt it XDDDD

ok lets go beat by beat i promise ill get to everything

lovely of them to put T7 in danger what bastards

love kira and commander teasing Scourge about space issues

seeing the scions and the servants face of on whos the bigger fanatic fool was fun as ever

ok so here we are at the Revan one im sure made the fandom split like a melon, look i like SOR always have and this just feels right Revan should be involved especially when scourge is around too so I loved it

ok but the real shit was in Sateles mind so lets go

love love love the tenerbrae look glad they kept that under raps so it surprised us all 

the markings on him fucking rock what a stellar design

love how all three talk and act distinctly very into it

also very pleased that it’s clearly not tenerbrae but his last echo he made as a contingency

love the lack of memory clearly not the same concious form of Valkorion

loved the tennerbraeness of everything, Revan hanging out and fighting ith you was dope if you ask me

and then Meetra showed up too!!!! she always deserves more cred than she gets and she looked faaaaaaab 

and then Kyradia’s Dad showed upp!!!!!! he showed up and gave his daughter a pep talk she needed (definitely writing a fic of this btw cause like i need that personal touch and both my force users there)

But yes Darth Marr was there and it was cool af

nice to also see the Tiralls hanging around, I imagine I have the worse version of this as Kyradia’s canon universe is they’re all dead even tho the canon universe for my fic is they alive (hinge on Kavaraa) I imagine there’s a lovely scene of the brothers seeing each other but all i got was Senyas cold shoulder and me going bruh im big sorry that my bad

SO at the temple with Satele and she slaying as per usual and Tenerbrae is all like haha im unkillable and Satele is like psych your ego just got played

loved that she a smart lass

and then the moment where all the people he hurt appeared oh so good so so good

from the eternal empire to the people he’d killed to Syo Bakarn!!! nothing breaks my heart more than hear “all you manipulated” when Bakarn is there

you love to see it

ok Vaylin we gotta talk about this! I saw you glance at that body!!!! dont you think i didnt, why did they linger on it!!!! it’s cause she nicked it thats why!!!!! shes there at the end talking to Satele I’m fucking sure of it!!!!!

or ya know maybe not

loved to see the three forms of Tenebrae duke it out with every important character he’d hurt and see how we could destroy him for his hubris

so all in all

loved it, it was over the top, silly and grandiose but it felt like Tenerbrae got dunked on by everyone he’d ever hurt and that’s perfect

legit all i wanted was for Valks not to come back for good and i got that plus Kotor fan service and much swtor fan service so I’m gooooood

[kaiba-the-grumpy-dragon]

Hello, this is Meetra and this is my Forever Starter Call~!

This is a sideblog and I follow a lot of rp blogs on my main, so it’s hard for me to remember if I followed them because I could interact with them and for what blog. Aaaaand I have social anxiety so it’s somehow more easy for me to contact you if I know If you are ok with interacting with me!

Unfortunately, I can’t interact with everyone for my own mental health so liking this post doesn’t mean that we are going to rp soon necessarily. But that means that I know that you want to interact and that I may send you something if I find the strength :) (basically if I follow you and I didn’t interact with you yet, it’s because It’s hard sometimes for me to begin a thread, it’s not because of your muse or you !)

Of course liking this post doesn’t exempt you from respecting my rules so please read them ~

Please like/reblog  this post to allow me to:

Tag you in starters

Send you all the meme asks I want, not necessary for making a thread

Send you headcanons about our muses

Tag you in musing posts, posts that make me think of your muse or our muses

Answer to your open starters

IM / Message you 

If we ship:

forever love you

talking about our muses on IM with a lot of all caps

drawing our muses together tbh, smut included 

If one of those points bother you, tell me by IM

If your muse is from another fandom:

Like/Reblog this post

If I know the fandom and have an Aus for it, then no problem

If I don’t know the fandom but I am interested, I’ll contact you so we could figure out something!

Thank you all ~

[kaibab-the-grumpy-dragon]

Hello, this is Meetra and this is my Forever Starter Call~! (FSC o_o ? ) 

I follow a lot of rp blogs and it’s hard for me sometimes to remember if I followed them because I could interact with them or just because I like their blogs. Aaaaand I have social anxiety so it’s somehow more easy for me to contact you if I know If you are ok with interacting with me! 

Unfortunately, I can’t interact with everyone for my own mental health so liking this post doesn’t mean that we are going to rp soon necessarily. But that means that I know that you want to interact and that I may send you something if I find the strength :) (basically if I follow you and I didn’t interact with you yet, it’s because It’s hard sometimes for me to begin a thread, it’s not because of your muse or you !)

Of course liking this post doesn’t exempt you from respecting my rules so please read them ~

Please like/reblog  this post to allow me to:

Tag you in starters

Send you all the meme asks I want, not necessary for making a thread

send you headcanons about our muses

Tag you in musing posts, posts that make me think of your muse or our muses

Answer to your open starters

IM / Message you 

If we ship:

forever love you

talking about our muses on IM with a lot of all caps

drawing our muses together tbh, smut included 

If one of those points bother you, tell me by IM

If your muse is from another fandom:

Like/Reblog this post

If I know the fandom and have an Aus for it, then no problem

If I don’t know the fandom but I am interested, I’ll contact you so we could figure out something!

Thank you all ~

[jmkitsune]

1-100 (because revenge)

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora?

none, I have foobar and all my music is downloaded

is your room messy or clean?

in the middle, could be cleaner but not a disaster

what color are your eyes?

dark as fuck brown

do you like your name? why?

birthname- no

preferred- yes (hence I don’t like anyone knowing my birthname)

what is your relationship status?

single

describe your personality in 3 words or less

ambitious, lazy, idealistic

what color hair do you have?

auburn/strawberry blond

(Red hair)

what kind of car do you drive? color?

yeah no- don’t drive

where do you shop?

online

how would you describe your style?

rolled out of bed and making shit up as I go

favorite social media account

twitter/twitch

what size bed do you have?

futon so a twin

any siblings?

3 half siblings

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?

tony stark’s house

do I need to explain? look at that house, it’s fucking gorgeous 

favorite snapchat filter?

don’t use filters

favorite makeup brand(s)

don’t wear makeup

how many times a week do you shower?

every other day optimally (depression days make it like every two days or so)

favorite tv show?

if we’re talking shows that are still going-

archer, arrow, flash, legends of tomorrow and supergirl, star wars rebels and samurai jack

shoe size?

9 1/2

how tall are you?

5′7

sandals or sneakers?

converse or boots

do you go to the gym?

nah

describe your dream date

*shrugs* don’t really have one, never really “did dates” growing up so eh

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?

3 bucks

what color socks are you wearing?

white

how many pillows do you sleep with?

3 on my bed, two aren’t used those

do you have a job? what do you do?

long answer is I write/am independently publishing my first book while writing the second and third, I stream on twitch 5 days a week and edit said streams for YT, as well as clean a warehouse/office building once a week, then there is also the whole doing shit around the house cause yeah I’m domestic more than “work force” type

short answer- I am always doin somethin >.>

how many friends do you have?

when I count in my “still waking up” mind I think...14-18

whats the worst thing you have ever done?

depends on who you ask?

could be simple as a pun I told or I dunno I tend to think everything I do is the worst

whats your favorite candle scent?

eh I’m not REALLY a scented candle person

3 favorite boy names

don’t really have favorite names

3 favorite girl names

see previous question

favorite actor?

I dunno I like actors/actresses but don’t have favorites

favorite actress?

see previous

who is your celebrity crush?

don’t have one

favorite movie?

star wars or the MCU but more so star wars

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book?

the star wars EU (legends and canon)

percy jackson books

grisha trilogy

money or brains?

can’t pick, don’t see how one supersedes the other when both can change a person, so case by case or would simply say “why not both”

do you have a nickname? what is it?

JM

how many times have you been to the hospital?

uhhh not many, maybe like 3 or 4 times

top 10 favorite songs

really depends on the week seeing as I don’t NOT have my music always playing

do you take any medications daily?

nah

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)

uhh I think oily? I dunno really this is stuff I never really paid attention enough to for me to understand

what is your biggest fear?

lol XD hahahahhaaha

replacement

abandonment

not being good enough

going from cared for and watching someone get over me/sick of me

not being good enough

sensory deprivation

being a waste of space/time to someone

how many kids do you want?

next

whats your go to hair style?

rolled out of bed and went with how lazy I am for tying it up or not

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc)

eh it’s a mediumish sized house

who is your role model?

I couldn’t think of someone

what was the last compliment you received?

in relation to “if we were deities of some form or another” from Adrienne

you would be a super interesting not-god though seriously now that I'm thinking about it (-...-)   You do always tend to see the potential for good in humanity where I often only see the potential for more evil. But I do agree that humanity has a stubborn streak to rival your own - they don't give up and they don't quit and neither do you. I admit to a (slightly grudging) admiration in that regard. There's no wonder Deity!JM would much rather make his way among humans than sit in the clouds and listen to a bunch of powerful privileged beings and their constant bickering 

I took it as a form of compliment...or something

what was the last text you sent?

“good good, was gonna ask if you were/did do that already.”

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?

I was raised by a Jewish Mom/”christian” step dad so I was the kid in school who had that “secret jew pact” we couldn’t tell the other kids bout Santa

what is your dream car?

not really into cars, being in them gives me panic/anxiety attacks

opinion on smoking?

disgusting habit, wouldn’t ever do it, or date someone who does it

do you go to college?

could have skipped senior year to go...didn’t

*shrugs*

what is your dream job?

not needing to work to survive

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs?

retrofitted clock tower home

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?

don’t go to hotels enough to really consider this

do you have freckles?

used to have a LOT not anymore

do you smile for pictures?

I smirk at best

how many pictures do you have on your phone?

like 10, I delete selfies after uploading them and I don’t really get sent anything so

have you ever peed in the woods?

name a guy who hasn’t for one reason or another

do you still watch cartoons?

that’s like 75% all I watch

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?

neither

Favorite dipping sauce?

ketchup

what do you wear to bed?

whatever I wore that day

yes that means I sleep in like t shirt and jeans

have you ever won a spelling bee?

nope- never been in one either

what are your hobbies?

writing

 video games

music

staring blankly at a wall cause I’m unaware of anything else to do?

can you draw?

nope

do you play an instrument?

teaching myself over time (reteaching) guitar and  first time ocarina

what was the last concert you saw?

Papertongues, Neon Trees in Boston

tea or coffee?

coffee

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?

I live in New England, starbucks is the devil I run on Dunkins

do you want to get married?

I look at it this way- this is like asking “do you wanna be rich” ideally people either “yes or no” but it’s not a simple question, being married means so much it can’t be a “Yes or no”

what is your crush’s first and last initial?

moving on

are you going to change your last name when you get married?

*Shrugs* have no attachment to it BUT all my books will have it in the author name soo who knows

what color looks best on you?

I dunno

do you miss anyone right now?

sure

do you sleep with your door open or closed?

closed and locked

do you believe in ghosts?

you mean memories that linger in dreams/nightmares? sure

the undead? not so much

what is your biggest pet peeve?

I guess people invalidating what I say one minute if they don’t like what I say but then the next saying I’m SOO smart on something they agree with

last person you called`

....that was a LONG time ago, I barely call people

favorite ice cream flavor?

strawberry/vanilla

regular oreos or golden oreos?

regular

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles?

neither

what shirt are you wearing?

my gray monarchy card shirt that I like ALWAYS wear

what is your phone background?

Darth Revan is the normal background

Revan and Meetra Surik is the lockbackground

are you outgoing or shy?

shy as fuck

do you like it when people play with your hair?

only specific people are allowed to

do you like your neighbors?

I don’t go out enough to interact with them

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?

when I shower I do >.>

have you ever been high?

nope

have you ever been drunk?

yuuuup

last thing you ate?

uhh last night....so well technically YESTERDAY evening around...6 or 7ish had Denny’s with kyo and eden

favorite lyrics right now

little wonders by rob thomas I guess, probably not a good thing to pick a sad song lol

summer or winter?

uhh love winter aesthetic but hate snow

love summer for being able to have a nice breeze/cool nights but hate humidity

day or night?

im nocturnal as fuck so night

dark, milk, or white chocolate?

milk and white

favorite month?

don’t have one

what is your zodiac sign

Pisces - like I am the walking embodiment of the damn sign at times

who was the last person you cried in front of?

probably Kyo or Eden I think if we’re talking bout crying in front of in person and that was a while ago, like few years, normally people don’t see me cry

so Kate- revenge was made, but it took me like...10-15 minutes to answer so :D could have been worse