#i tend to overthink a lot which is why i often stick to tags so i don't derail the actual conversation in the posts

[anarchonist]

Really good politics *a little kiss on your forehead*

Awww, thank you! What a nice thing to say!

By the way, sorry to all who have sent me asks throughout the years and to whom I've failed to reply for some reason. I will try to do better in the future. Love you guys!

[sugdenlovesdingle]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

thanks for tagging me @im-overstimulated-and-im-sad

I love wasting time with these things when I'm supposed to be writing 😉

How many works do you have on AO3? In total 262, for tarlos 24 (and counting)

What's your total AO3 word count? 642,739 (holy shit)

What fandoms do your write for? at the moment just 911 lone star/tarlos, but I'm kind of looking into RWRB/firstprince, and depending on a certain mister R. Hawley, I might get pulled back into emmerdale/robron

What are your top five fics by kudos? I'll stick to tarlos for this or else it'll just be 5 robron fics Austin TX first responders week - TK and Carlos have to give a talk about their jobs at a school for Austin's first responders week. Filling in the blanks - a post episode/missing moment of Owen finding out what happened to Carlos in 4x04 See you later - Marjan going to say goodbye to a still recovering Carlos before she leaves in 4x05 - kind of a missing moment It started with a concussion - a meet ugly with Carlos literally running into TK while chasing a suspect Love and Lou - The Lou fic! Vet!Carlos AU meet cute with a little help from Lou I and II

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? Not as often as I should. I never know what to say other than "Thank you" and i just end up reading the comments 50 times over (and i save the emails from AO3) and I'm like I LOVE YOU PERSON LEAVING A COMMENT ON MY SILLY LITTLE STORY YOU MADE MY DAY - but only in my head because i don't want to seem too weird. Idk - I overthink things.

What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? I don't do angsty endings. Though PS I love you is a little bittersweet I guess. TK getting a letter from Gwyn on his wedding day.

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? All of them! I need a happy ending - always. But I suppose it was 'earned' the most in California where they both Go Through It before they get their happy ending.

Do you get hate on fics? I haven't on tarlos fics but I did get a hater on one of my anti chas robron fics once. I just deleted the comment.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Not really. I've tried... but it's just not for me.

Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? Not really. Unless you count the tiny blink and you miss it RWRB reference in Swing swing.

Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not as far as I know.

Have you ever had a fic translated? Nope but I've translated fics from German to English for a friend yeeeeeaaaars ago - for Luke/Noah from As The World Turns

Have you ever co-written a fic before? I have, several. For Luke/Noah from ATWT way back in the day. it was an Experience™

What's your all time favourite ship? I can't pick just one!

What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? Undercover Carlos - I really want to finish it but I'm so bad at multi chapter fics. I'm bad at planning and I lose motivation and everyone else loses interest. I'm going to try get back to it when I'm done with my flufftober fics (so somewhere next summer or so 🙃)

What are your writing strengths? Dialogue for sure. and cutesy oneshots.

What are your writing weaknesses? Describing stuff. Translating the "picture" I have in my head to words on 'paper' is The Worst. Also planning and plotting a story - I tend to make stuff up as I go (which is why I suck at long multichapter fics)

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? Don't do it unless you speak the language or know someone who does who can check it for you. Google translate is NOT your friend. A few words here and there (like the Spanish terms of endearment in tarlos fics) is fine, you can't really go wrong with that, but for more than that you need someone who actually speaks the language.

First fandom you wrote for? Luke and Noah - As The World Turns

Favourite fic you've written? For Tarlos I had a lot of fun with my Lou fic that I mentioned earlier and The perfect costume has done some interesting things to my insta algorithm, and The power of a muddy dog was fun because I like soft!TK with Buttercup. But all of my fics have *something* that makes them *special* to me.

If you've read all this... I'm impressed lol

tagging: @noxsoulmate @carlos-in-glasses @cold-blooded-jelly-doughnut @lightningboltreader @bonheur-cafe @sanjuwrites and and an open tag for whoever feels like doing this because I never know who to tag!

[dracothedeatheatingcupcake-ao3]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

So, I saw someone I follow get tagged to do this with an end note that anyone who wanted to could complete it as well. So… I did, ha. I’m not putting it in a read more, but be warned it is a bit long. Not super long for once, though. I’ll put a blank one in a read more at the end, though, if anyone else wants to do it. :-)

~XoX~

1. How many works do you have on ao3?

I have a total of 27 works published on AO3. :-)

2. What's your total ao3 word count?

Ah. It’s. Um. 2,094,546. I’m. Um. Not concise. A lot of that came from after the pandemic, since I wrote two 375k+ fics in the span of a month and a half respectively, and then a 400k+ fic that is an endless WIP now, sadly, all since 2020. Yeah.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

I’ve written for a lot of different fandoms. Let me take a look… Danganronpa, Gravity Falls, Supernatural, The Hobbit, Detroit: Become Human, Avatar: The Last Airbender, Super Mario, Batman (the Telltale games specifically), Harry Potter (back before JK went completely off the rails and showed her true colors), and The Avengers (Iron Man specifically, post End Game).

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Here they are in order from most to least, with the amount of kudos and the fandom: Luigi and the Beast (Mario): 1,771 A Pirate's Life (Gravity Falls): 1,290 The Problem with Perfection (Danganronpa): 1,259 Compatible (Gravity Falls): 996 Strangers to Suffering (Avatar: The Last Airbender): 648

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Uh. Not usually, no… I tried to with my most recent fic, but it just got too much. I always overthink my replies and they end up being overly long and needlessly complicated for a simple question or comment. I feel awkward just writing “Thanks for the comment!!!” though, so I often don’t. Also, I dislike how it makes it seem like I have more comments on my fics than I do, you know?

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Hm… probably A Pirate’s Life. I usually have happy endings to my fics, even the super angsty ones, but with APL, I had the main characters (Dipper and Bill Cipher… don’t judge me, there were a lot of cute fics for it back in the day that I liked. I also aged up Dipper a bit, so… yeah) go their separate ways in the end. It was a bittersweet ending, and I still stick with it. The characters as I wrote them would not have ended up together, but they do end up having mostly happy lives separately.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Hm… this is hard, since— like I said— most of my fics end happily. I can’t say which one ended the happiest, really.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I used to when I was younger and just starting out, and it makes me paranoid that every comment I get will be full of hate and derision. But honestly? I’ve not gotten any hate on any of my fics in years, especially the newer ones. I have gotten some people who say they didn’t like the direction a certain fic took, but since it was clearly marked in my tags, I tend to just shrug and ignore those. Most people aren’t harsh anymore, though.

9. Do you write smut?

Ehhhh. Yes, but only as a way to move the plot along. Not smut for smut’s sake, since it makes me feel awkward.

10. Do you write crossovers?

Not usually, but I did write a Danganronpa fic that was set in Hogwarts once (again, before J.K. Rowling went completely off the rails and I gave up on HP).

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I’m aware of, no. I did find one on Good Reads once, but I think someone just linked my fic? Not sure how Good Reads works, honestly.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I’ve had a couple people start translating a fic, but they never finished translating it.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No, and I don’t think I ever will. Not only do I not have anyone I’m close enough with to write a fic with, but I don’t think I’d be good at it. I can’t follow a plan to save my life, which I imagine would be frustrating for someone trying to write with me.

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

Ah, this I can’t really say… I have a lot of ships that mean a lot to me, and picking one to be my “favorite” would be too tricky. I like all of them for different reasons.

15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Oh boy. Luigi and the Beast and The Problem With Mondo. I desperately want to finish both fics, but I don’t think I ever, ever will. I legit cannot continue writing stories that I’ve stopped writing for longer than a week or two. It’s why my longest fics were all written in the span of a month and a half. If I don’t write that quickly, I never finish. -.-

16. What are your writing strengths?

I’m really good at writing emotions, I think. I do a lot of introspection and I have a fairly good grasp on my own emotions and my responses to my emotions, so I can write emotional scenes very well, I believe. I’m also decent with dialogue and descriptions.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Plot. Plot, plot, plotty plot plot. Anytime I try to write a story with a solid plot, it comes apart at the seams. Like I said earlier, I cannot follow a plan to save my life, and so I often will move away from any plot I thought up initially and end up somewhere very weird and bizarre. Or, conversely, I will figure out where I want the story to go plot wise only after I have been writing it for a little while, and so the plot feels weak and disjointed with the start of the fic. Either way, it does not make for a fun experience with writing. Which is why I tend to stick to basic plots with lots of dialogue and emotions.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I just use Google Translate… that’s what I did for Luigi and the Beast with the Italian.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Harry Potter, since I was a HUGE fan when I was in middle school. It’s actually what got me interested in fanfiction and writing in the first place, since before that I never knew fanfics existed and I didn't much care for creative writing in general. I first wrote a handwritten Rose/Scorpius fic during lunch in like… 7th grade, but only got a page or so in before scrapping it. Then I started writing Dramione on FF . net and never really stopped writing. I think I've written at least one fic a year since... 2013 I'd like to say? Wait... no, 2012. I looked on FF . net and it shows that my first fic was published in 2012, when I was the tender age of 14...

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

Honestly? I think it’s either Dance of the Robot (which is a fix-it fic for Avengers: End Game, where Steve goes back in the past and becomes Tony’s honorary— and somewhat distant— uncle. It explores their relationship when Tony is young and how hurt he is by everyone always ignoring him, especially Steve who avoids him because of like… timeline reasons. I really like this fic since it makes me feel a little better about the whole “Steve travels back in time to be with Peggy!!!” thing. I still think it’s stupid, but I like the idea of Tony and Steve having a familial relationship, even if Steve had to be distant for the timeline’s sake), or The Problem with Perfection (my Danganronpa fic. I go back and forth on liking this story, but ultimately, I am very pleased with how it turned out, and think that it is one of my few long fics that actually told the story I wanted to tell accurately and decently. Since it didn’t have too much in the way of plot, and since I discovered where I wanted to go with the story fairly early on, I was able to circumvent the usual downfalls I have with my other long fics). Both of these fics accomplished what I wanted them to accomplish, and I enjoy both of them in different ways.

Anyway, that took a while to complete, ha. Feel free to do this if you’d like!! :-D

Here's a blank version if you want to do it yourself:

20 Questions for Fic Writers

1. How many works do you have on ao3?

2. What's your total ao3 word count?

3. What fandoms do you write for?

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

8. Do you get hate on fics?

9. Do you write smut?

10. Do you write crossovers?

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

16. What are your writing strengths?

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

19. First fandom you wrote for?

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

[p4nkow]

Bijou

Hello everyone! Here’s a Roger one-shot which is nothing but fluffy fluff. It’s a friends-to-lovers kind of thing ‘cause I’m a sucker for it. It’s inspired by the song Bijou for obvious reasons.

Let me know what you think! My inbox and dms are always open!

Summary: Y/N is Roger’s best friend and roommate but after a gig everything changes. Basically that’s it. Oh, and it’s all thanks to Rudolf.

Warnings: none, I swear

Of course, it could be read both as Ben!Roger or as real life Roger. Also, gif not mine so credit to the owner!

You and me are destined

You'll agree

To spend the rest of our lives with each other

The rest of our days like two lovers

For ever - yeah - for ever

My bijou...

As far as you could remember, Marquee Club had never been as full as it was that night. It was probably due to the upcoming Queen gig, one of the first done under that name. Tim had dumped the boys for a band called Humpy Bong, of which Roger and Brian were very sceptic about, but right after they found Freddie and eventually John. Queen was born and their gigs were becoming more and more numerous. As Roger’s roommate and best friend it was your duty to attend each and everyone of them. You already knew Brian, he was one of your closest friends and his flat was right next to yours on Sinclair Road, but you had the chance to know Fred and John too. The five of you had become inseparable.

You made your way to the backstage with great difficulty, making your way through the numerous people.

“You‘re late!” Deaky put aside his bass to come and give you a hug. You pat his back as you hugged him back, murmuring against his shoulder “It’s bloody chaotic out there!”

“And bloody hot, too.”

“Ugh, you’re sweaty- get off.”

John chuckled as he leaned back, pointing out the point where the boys were. “Fred’s getting ready. We’re going onstage in ten.”

“Got it.” You nodded and you reached the boys, placing a kiss on Fred’s cheek and smiling at Brian. “Nervous, boys?”

“Always am.” Brian’s answer didn’t surprise you, you knew how much he tended to overthink and get nervous. Neither did Freddie’s. “I was born for this, darlin’.”

You knew he was just messing around but he really was born for this. Whenever he was onstage, he owned it. You’ve attended enough of their gigs to know that the audience had learned to love him, because he gave them what they needed. He always said that they were four misfits who played for other misfits and deep down he was right.

“I’m gonna be right at the front of the stage.”

“Will you take some pictures?”

You shrugged at Freddie’s question. “Sure, why not.”

“How many people are there?” Brian asked you with a shy smile, tightening his grip on his Red Special.

“The pub’s full. One can barely breathe out there.”

“Great” He murmured, reaching Deaky on the other side of the hallway.

Fred placed a kiss between your hair as he said “I’m gonna take my camera.”

“Wait, where’s Rog?”

“Out for a smoke.” You gave him a nod and you reached the back door, taking a deep breath before opening it.

You didn’t know why but you were always nervous around him. You had known him for years by know but over time you started to feel something more for him. Of course he wasn’t aware of your feelings and you weren’t planning on telling him the truth. You were okay with how things were developing and you were too afraid to lose him, so you stick with the best friend’s tag.

As soon as you opened the door you heard whispers coming from the dark, so you took a step forward in order to try to find him. “Rog?” No answer. More whispers and a chuckle. “Roger?”

And then you saw him. His hand was under some girl’s skirt and his lips were on her neck.

“Oh my god.” You covered your eyes with your hands as you moved back to go back inside. That’s when he noticed you.

“Y/N! Fuck, hey!” He quickly reached you, grabbing your wrist to make you turn towards him.

“I’m sorry, I wasn’t supposed to see that. Freddie told me you were-”

“It’s okay, sorry ‘bout that.”

“Oh god” You murmured, covering your eyes again as you couldn’t stop thinking about what you just saw. Roger chuckled at the sight of you embarrassed and took both of your wrists, moving them away from your face in order to look at you in the eyes. “Don’t be shy, bijou.” You tried not to pay attention to the nickname he had given you. Bijou. He called you that since the very first time you had met.

“Yeah, it’s not like it’s the first time it happens.” As his roommate stuff like this happened more often than you liked to admit.

You couldn’t help but glance at the girl leaning against the wall, who waved at you and said “Wanna join?”

“God, no.” You glanced back at Roger and you cleared your throat, trying not act like he hurt you. He did, and it wasn’t even the first time. It was obvious that he was a handsome, talented and smart man and the fact that he was slowly becoming a rockstar worked in his favour. All girls fell at his feet- you did too, but somehow you were the only one who actually knew him. You knew - and loved - the real Roger, not the rockstar facade.

“I gotta go back inside, Fred needs help.”

He looked at his feet and nodded, giving a quick glance at the girl in the back. “Yeah, ‘kay.”

And without saying anything else you went looking for Freddie. As soon as you got back inside the pub, you leaned against a wall and took a deep breath. Tears were about to run down your face but you forced yourself not to cry. You had to act like if nothing happened, you had to be strong. You noticed John looking at you from the other side of the hallway so you gave him a little smile and he waved at you. Right before the start of the show Freddie handed you his camera and during the gig you took a few pics of all of them.

Despite everything you were having a lot of fun. You danced and sang along with Freddie, showing Brian your thumbs up as soon as he spotted you.

You met Roger’s gaze a few times, but you always looked away. You couldn’t stop thinking about what you saw out of the pub and you couldn’t stop thinking to the fact that you wished you were that girl.

And you couldn’t ignore the fact this the girls surrounding you were crazy about him. Who wouldn’t be? He was extremely hot while drumming. He was irresistible with his long, brownish hair. His shirt was obviously unbuttoned, exposing his bare chest covered in sweat and the plenty necklaces he was wearing. He knew the effect he had on girls and he liked to exploit it.

You tried really hard to ignore him and towards the end of the gig you went to grab something to drink, taking the opportunity to take a seat and give your legs some rest. You were looking at the pics you had taken while you waited for your drink when you heard a voice behind your back. “I guess you know the band.”

You had never seen that man but you couldn’t deny he was a handsome guy. His blonde hair reminded you of Roger. You gave him a nod before focusing again on the pics.

“I’m Rufus.” He said, and you shook his hand as you answered “Y/N.”

“Is someone of them your boyfriend?” He sat right next to you and looked at you with a big smile. You shook your head, giving a glance at the bartender and hoping it wouldn’t take long.

“Nope, they’re just friends of mine.”

“Glad to hear that.” You smiled at him as Freddie said goodbye to the crowd. You knew it took them at least half an hour to load the van so you were glad you had a little company in the meanwhile.

“And why’s that?” You said with a smile, thanking the bartender as she handed you your drink.

“Because it means that a beautiful girl like you isn’t dating anyone.”

“I could still have a boyfriend” You said with an amused smile. You glanced to the stage but it was empty and you couldn’t find the boys anywhere. They were probably taking a few minutes off before packing.

“Do you?” Rufus asked you and you were about to answer when you were interrupted.

“You ready to leave, love?” Roger stood right next to you, his hand placed on your back as he looked at you with a little smile. Rufus gave you a confused look and you could easily understand why. Roger was acting weird.

“Are we already leaving? I thought you had to pack.”

“Brian’s taking taking care of it.” He didn’t glance at Rufus, not even once. His attention was all on you.

“Oh, ‘kay then.” You gave him a nod before turning to Rufus. “It’s been a pleasure to meet you.”

He smiled at you and stood up, as to show that Roger wasn’t a threat to him. “Could I at least get your number?”

“Sure, let me-”

“We really have to go.” Roger cut you off and he basically dragged you away from Rufus.

“Roger, what the fuck?” You shrugged his hand off you and took a step back.

“What?” He looked at you with a raised eyebrow.

“You literally dragged me away!”

“I thought you might need some help with him.”

He wasn’t making any sense. “With Rufus?”

“You even know his name?”

“Shouldn’t I?”

You puffed and walked away. Roger followed you silently but as he stopped right next to you, you could feel he was mad. “I though he was bothering you.”

“He wasn’t.”

“Good.”

“Yeah.”

You reached the boys, who were already packing. Clearly Brian wasn’t taking care of it, considering the fact that they were struggling to pack Roger’s drums. You kept quiet for a while as you waited for the boys the get ready. Roger glanced at you a couple of times but you were too mad to look back at him. How dared he? He could have his casual dates and shags and you couldn’t even give your phone number to a boy?

The boys sensed that something was wrong between you and Roger, considering the fact that the two of you usually would be messing around till Brian had to drag you home.

“You okay?” John asked and you gave him a nod. You could feel Roger’s gaze on you and you tried not to look back at him.

“Yeah, don’t worry.”

“Did he do something?”

“He’s been just... Roger, y’know.”

John softly laughed at you before heading back to Fred. As soon as they finished packing, the five of you headed to the parking lot.

“You comin’ home with me?” Roger asked and you shook your head.

“Deaky’s giving me a ride.” You knew he was hurt, and so were you, but you had to spend some time away from him.

You ended up arriving at your flat before him, so you decided to kill time by taking a shower. When you got out of the bathroom he was sitting on your bed, his elbows on his knees as he waited for you.

“Is that my shirt?” Roger gave a quick glance at your tee with a smirk on his face but you could tell that there was still something wrong.

“Yeah, it smells good.” You stood right in front of him with your arms crossed as you tried to find the right words to bring back the previous subject.

But Roger beat you to it. “Do you want me to leave?”

“Why would I?”

“You’re mad at me.”

“Hell yeah I am, but I’d never kick you out.” You met his gaze and for a brief second you even forgot why you were mad at him.

“What happened tonight with that girl- I swear it won’t happen again.” You were surprised by his words.

“It’s already happened before.”

“Yeah, but it won’t happen again. I swear it, Bijou.”

You gave him a nod and stood silent. You gaze fell at your feet- you couldn’t stand to be this close without touching him.

“‘m sorry, didn’t want to ruin your night.”

“Rog.”

“No, Y/N, I mean it. If that Rudolf-”

“Rufus” You cut him off, amused by his behaviour.

“Rufus, yeah. If you like him that much-”

“Rog, I barely know him.”

You both stood quiet for a while but he didn’t look away from you. His gaze made you feel nervous and your heart was beating faster than ever. You didn’t even know with what courage you said the following words, but you did. “Are you jealous?”

“I’m what?”

“Jealous.”

“I’m not jealous.”

“‘kay.” You could not say you were surprised. You knew he didn’t feel for you what you felt for him, but hearing those words was like a stab in the stomach.

“If you’re not, at least don’t ruin my dates.”

“Y/N-”

“Shush, let me finish.” Now you were mad.“I’ve spent years watching you date random girls without saying a word and now that I’ve finally found a guy who’s actually interested in me you literally drag me away from him!”

“For Christ’s sake, you should have seen the way he looked at you!”

“What does it even mean?”

You were both screaming at each other by now. “It was the way I look at you!”

“Roger” You said, speechless.

He cupped your cheeks and placed his lips on yours in an angry kiss. You put both of your hands into his chest, holding into his shirt, fearing that if you let him go you’d fall on the floor. You didn’t trust your legs at all at the moment.

You couldn’t believe it was happening, the situation had improved really quickly. He moaned against your lips, putting a hand on your back in order to get you close to him. Your hands caressed his neck and your fingers slipped into his hair. You were surprised to find out that it felt more right than you thought.

When he leaned back his blue eyes met yours and you couldn’t help but smile at him.

“I shouldn’t be in love with you. I shouldn’t jeopardise our friendship. But fucking hell, in am. I’m bloody in love with you and I’m bloody jealous of that Rudolf.”

“Rufus” You corrected him again.

“Whatever.” He caressed your cheek with one hand and you closed your eyes at the shivers that his touch was giving you.

“I was afraid you’d never say that, because I love you too. I have for a long time by now.”

“Were you ever going to tell me?”

“Nope. I thought you were happy with your rockstar lifestyle.”

“It includes you.”

“Yeah, but as your roommate and best friend.”

“You know me better than anyone. I want you to be my best friend, my roommate but especially my girlfriend.”

You tapped his lips with your finger, fighting to push back a smile at his words. “I’ll think about it.”

His smile grew wider as he hold you close. “Y/N” He said as a warning.

“Just kidding.”

“You’d better.”

“Do you ever think we’re destined? Maybe we met for a reason, that day at Uni.”

“Yeah, that reason was Tim falling on you on the stairs.” You chuckled at the memory of the first time that you met him.

“I’m serious, Rog.”

“Dunno, Bijou. All I know is I wanna spend the rest of my days with you.”

[honey-and-bi]

About me Tag (ig?)

Rules: Tag 15 people you want to know better.

I was tagged by: @prodgray ayyyy!! I agree about the squad!

Relationship Status: Single Pringle (thx to my friend for this name)

Favourite colours: Bright colours! Used to be red, but I tend more towards orange and yellow nowadays ^^

Lipstick or Chapstick: I should put on chapstick more often but I wear neither

Favourite Food: My grandparents’ paella and my mum’s cheese and ham pasta

Song(s) stuck in my head: “I Write Sins Not Tragedies” from P!atdD is stuck way too often in my head for my own good -_-

Last movie I watched: I just rewatched Spider-man: Homecoming to cope with having a crush on a straight girl again lmao

Top 3 TV shows: I don’t watch many shows? I stick to Doctor Who and Sherlock, but I’ll add the Simpsons as well ^^ I do want to watch Stranger Things and Sense8 tho!!

Books I’m currently reading: Too many to list, but mainly “L’extraordinaire Voyage du Fakir qui était resté coincé dans une Armoire Ikea” (”The Extraordinary Journey of the Fakir Who Got Trapped in an Ikea Wardrobe”) from Romain Puertolas

Last thing I googled: "To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before” bc I thought it was a series but then I read smth that made me guess it was a film and I wanted to check lol

Time: 17:51 (5:51PM)

How many blankets do you sleep in: One, but it has 2 layers that you can clip or declip to/from each other. I use the 2 layers during winter and the thin one during summer

Dream Trip: World. Trip.

Anything you really want: My mum finding the good one for her and my grandma staying healthy for a lot longer

Age: I’m only 17 and I only got a few dollars! ♪♫♪

Birthplace: Somewhere in Brussels

Current time: 17:55 (5:55PM) (Isn’t that the same question as “Time”??)

Drink you had last: Chicken soup >->

Easiest person to talk to: My 2 closest friends? It depends on the topic :/

Favourite song(s): There are a lot?? I’ll keep it as short as I can XD

Axelle Red - Naïve

SHINee - Tell Me What To Do

Day6 - You Were Beautiful (and all their songs tbh)

BTS - Young Forever, Run

Ed Sheeran’s entire discography

Jonghyun - Aurora

MGMT - Time To Pretend

EXID - Night Rather Than Day

Lee Changsub - At The End

BtoB - Yes I Am

NCT 127 - Touch (I’m a soft stan, I can’t help it)

Khan - I’m Your Girl?

Those are actually songs with a special memory linked to them mostly? There are litt so many songs I enjoy but those have something... different ^^

Grossest memory: When I was 11 or 12, my mum had bought a big ring that was as big a third of her finger. She never took it off and one day she hit herself. It hurted a bit but she didn’t pay much attention to it. It kept on hurting so a couple days later she finally removes the ring and she actually had a huge infection. She called me while sitting in the bathroom and told me what it was. She then proceeded to show me what she had and explained to me that I’d have to put disinfectant in the wound. I’m not grossed out easily but that was pretty disgusting.

Hogwarts house: Gryffindor with a dash of Hufflepuff but I’m too proud of a lion tbh

In love?: I keep on having crushes on het girls *shrugs*

Jealous of people?: Nah not really... I’m more the envious type tho

Killed someone?: Only in my head

Love at first sight or walk by again?: I have easily crushes but I don’t fall i love that quickly so walk by again fella

Middle name: Lea and Fatima :)

Number of siblings: 1 half sister and 2 half brothers + 3 step brothers (the joys of recomposed families)(don’t know how long the 3 step brothers will stick around tho)

One wish: Stop having abandon fear

Person you last called: My mum, just like every day. She’s the only person I call along with my grandma XD

Questions you’re asked the most: What I want to do as a job later and which school year I’m in :/ Crazy how people never ask the important questions

Reasons to smile: Music, The Doctor, Tom Holland and my friends (both IRL and online)

Song you last sang: I don’t know??? I listen to music 24/7 but I don’t remember what was the last one I sang along to?? Probably Vixx’ “Hot Enough”

Time you woke up: 9:30 but I stayed in bed until 10:00 huhu

Underwear color: Grey (I know, boring)

Vacation destination: I really want to go to Scotland??? Also Spain, Italy, Sicily, Greece?? Go and walk through smol streets or lay on the beach with a sandwich with tuna (childhood memories in Spain, at my grandparents’ haha)

Worst habit: Which one is worse between overthinking and procrastinating?

X-rays?: I had only one, when I was 5 I think. Was of my head, but I don’t remember why lol

Zodiac signs: Aquarius and that’s all I know

Tagging: @a-godchend @mawrklee @dreams-help-101 @my-woozi-happiness and @xxanimeliaxx Those aren’t 15 people I’m sorry -_-”

[frenchwithatwist]

If you're brave enough could you answer the questions 1, 3, 4, 5, 9, 10, 13, 19, 20, 26, 28, 29, 32, 26, 42, 45, 47 and 50 of the mbti ask list? 😇

Yooo dear bro, here are my answers :)

1: What is your type?ENFJeeeey with joy

3 Did you introduce someone else to mbti?

Hahaha you first, and also… almost my whole squad x) oh and everytime I tell myself “don’t be ‘weird’ ” during dates by asking them about mbti, but I always end up teaching them a course about cognitive functions haha

4 Do you type people/characters?

Nearly all the time haha when I watch TV series I’m like “hmm this is a typical infp/estj clash, that’s why they don’t understand each others”

5 Are you good at spotting certain types?

Especially the Idealists family to which I belong, most of my friends are either ENFP, INFP (you boi), INFJ or ENFJ so I start noticing common points between people hehe other wise I am good at spotting INTPs (they are often my crushes haha)

9 What do you think about mbti memes?

I live for them, didn’t you already know ? :p cf MBTI tag yoself in class with you

10 What do you like/dislike about the mbti ”fandom”?

I like the sense of “"belonging”“ to ENFJs, although sometimes MBTI aficionados (including me) tend to stick too much on the very characteristics of their personality types… it’s noteworthy to recall that those are only ideal-types, you are you (notetoself ahha)

13 Describe your type in 3 gifs

1) ENFJ and their bursts of emotions https://78.media.tumblr.com/00388b4d55badd539d39a39e2d342377/tumblr_inline_p7mogpWoA21sr9fer_500.gif

2) ENFJ and their motivational speecheshttps://encrypted-tbn0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcSwZm2Pv6aYiUJJT7MFOoHLVBR0fvpOZSY7E3ZtkseNm28cr3dxMw

3) ENFJ and their unapologetic dorky mind & how they are always ready to share intimate moments with their loved-oneshttps://78.media.tumblr.com/c0edc0a019c18f6bb8b1b7616bc105ed/tumblr_inline_neao1qSv1u1t2m9ry.gif

19 What is a stereotype about your type you disagree with?

That ENFJs forget their own needs: oh hell no, I see my social relationships like a two-ways fuel: I need to listen to my own needs to be present with others. Oh and that I tend to please everyone: yes I like to do what’s best but I learnt to invest my time and energy with people that value me. That and only that kind of person.

I also saw thay people tend to consider ENFJs as shallow. Well, um, I am often bubbly and enthusiastic but it does not impeach me to have such a rich inner world and start deep convos nearly all the time haha

Finally that I have laaarge groups of friends and that I get along with everyone. Well, yes I looove having different ‘types’ of friends from different horizons, countries, age etc., I find myself pretty at ease in a crowd of strangers although I prefer to hang out with one or two friends. Oh and I tend to feel reserved at first and I am very perceptive of people’s energies.

20 What is a stereotype about some other types you disagree with?

That INTPs are cold and distant. Yes they may appear as such, but oh my, once they open themselves to the world, it’s so charming to see how they care. (bits by bits okey haha)

That INFPs are too idealistic and never say no to anyone.Yeah sometimes and often they seem to live in a rosy world (which gets on my nerves sometimes haha) but as they get older, they tend to be more lucid about other people’s intentions and know their limits. (congrats for that boi)

26 What do you think about your opposite type (for example, estj/infp)?

ISTJ: “The Logician”: I must admit this is the type I have struggles building deep bonds with, as they are often too much in their heads and less emotional. But hey, not everyone sticks to the stereotypes.

INTP: pretty much my opposite but I tend to love being around that type, how they manage to match their intuition with a more rational mindset, something very soothing for my inferior function Ti cf when I overthink.

28 Do you find you have typical reactions to people of certain types/with certain functions?

Haha yeah especially when I am around P types, especially XNFPs: I tend to be the planner & organized one while they 'muddle through’, especially when it comes to organize a trip / take things in advance. I guess we just have to find a balance between the two :)

Oh and I tend to be more reserved around more extrovertedtypes, such as ESTPs or ENTJs, I guess it’s due to my high intuition, I tend to tune out from the world in those cases.

29 Describe the relationship between you and a person of another type in a gif

https://tenor.com/search/group-hug-gifs : When I meet my fellow INFP and INFJ & ENFP #LoveFamily 

32 What are some of your favourite characters of your type and what do you admire about them?

Oprah Winfrey, Barack Obama, Marie (a friend of ours, she’s famous right)Oprah: I am always mesmerized by her speeches, I feel I can achieve anything

Barack Obama: his natural class and charisma, so so inspiring.

Marie: how free and positive she is, while being super determined. Leading & reserved when appropriate, social but independent, organized… I found a similar person in that sense.

42 What are some words/phrases you associate with your/other type(s)?

My type (ENFJ) and 'famous’ words of mine:

“How do you feel about it (that situation, the energy you feel around this person..) ?”,

“Let’s get organized/plan our day”: Something I do more and more, I prefer to plan (at least in a basic way) so that everyone is on the same page and is happy. To my experience, nothing’s worse than missing an opportunity (can’t meet your friends at an event / miss your plane / miss being in the first row of a concert coz you haven’t organized yourself… grrr) Typical J function hehe

“My heeeart” (especially when I see people casually helping each others),

“He/she/them has/have such a beautiful soul”

“This feels right/doesn’t feel right”, while pointing at my lower stomach, basically my first brain #guts

“I have an empathy burnout”: when I helped people for too long, losing too much energy, worse when I don’t get feedback. Also works when I watch the news/feel other people’s pain, especially the 'weaker’ ones.+ a quote I just found “Life’s blows cannot break a person whose spirit is warmed as the fire of enthusiasm.” - Norman Vincent Peale

45 What did mbti teach you about yourself?

It taught me a lot about how I function, see things, communicate with others, underlined my strengths and weaknesses. It also enables me to understand other people better, at least considering there are very different personalities out there with different needs.

47 Say something nice to 3 other types

INFP: Thank you for being such a pure soul, always eager to see the beautiful side of life that you sublimate with your poems and your overflowing imagination. I love how light-hearted you are, while being super deep. I am fond of how you accept your surroundings without judging them, how you genuinely care, even for their most random thoughts and hobbies. I am proud to consider you as a friend. (Now… let’s focus on the plan, the process haha #typicalENFJ/INFP"clash”)

ISFJ: Thank you for being such a beautiful soul. I love how kind-hearted and loyal you are, how hard-working and dedicated you are to your surroundings’ needs. You are also super pragmatic & such a precious ear. You bring peace wherever you are. Although you think you may be 'transparent’ at times, I assure you you are noticed more than you think, you are the superhero in the 'shadow’ (cc my mom’s type).

ENFP: I love how spontaneous and free you are (at least you seem to be). This is very inspiring. I am a fan of how chill you seem to be, especially concerning your love life. I love how you want to keep your uniqueness, bring that fierce energy to every room you enter, make people feel at ease. This may sound like you are super shallow. But hell know, fellow ENFX, you have a super deep mind and knowing you better shed light on your inner complexity and high emotionality, your doubts and lack of confidence. Please keep on having those philosophical convos with me, keep on being that sweet hippy hehe (but please organize better when we go on a trip)

50 Make a mbti pun!:D

INTPs please bring me rational INTPeace of mind

INFPas ses devoirs (–> door)

SFR, elle est capable, LMPT mais pas devant tout le monde (ah bon, SFR & LMPT c'est pas MBTI ?)

That was punstatic, thank you my pantabulous friend

[isa-ly]

OH MY, WHAT’S THIS?

TW: mental health, therapy

Golly gosh, has she really gone and made yet another god damn blog? Yes. Yes she has.

Let me explain myself. I know this is probably like what, my tenth or eleventh online blog that I’ve made now? You would think that I would have a huge and dedicated reader base by the rate and ferocity I create these blogs with, but well, since I forget about every .tumblr.com and .wordpress.com after about a month or two, it comes to no surprise that these unattended digital corpse-pages don’t really have many readers. Should maybe give them a proper burial by hitting that delete button and letting them move on to the afterlife of 1′s and 0′s. But since I don’t even remember half the URLs I came up with, they’re probably just gonna keep peacefully existing in the graveyard that is the the forgotten blog section of the internet.

So. Why another one? Why add onto the pile of aesthetic yet virtually empty “personal” websites?

I’m just going to tell you what my therapist told me: “It seems like you have so many thoughts in your head, it probably feels like exploding.”

Don’t worry, I’m not saying that I’m Miss Big Juicy Brain and too smart for my own good – that’s not what my lovely therapist meant either. The reason she said that to me was because in our latest session, she had asked me to give her a quick rundown of what goes through my head whenever anything emotionally triggering happens to me. I had then proceeded to talk for twenty whole minutes (there go twenty whole bucks, thanks a lot, non-existing public mental healthcare system) about what happened in my old noggin whenever ~A Feeling~ occurred. And I described it in such excruciating detail that I think she stopped taking notes halfway through and just zoned out. Can’t blame ya, Kerstin, twenty minutes of incohesive rambling doesn’t really meet the expectation of a “quick rundown”. Sorry for that.

Anyway, we then proceeded to talk about overthinking, as we have done a million times before. And, as we have also done a million times before, we came to the conclusion that my inner monologue resembles a thirty-meter death-ride water slide, when it comes to the velocity and severity of how fast and far I tend to spiral with my own thoughts.

Now, don’t worry, by now I’ve been in therapy for long enough to know how to safely land back on the floor. However, I did agree with my therapist that my intense introspection does sometimes compromise me in my day to day life, as I will spend days on end in my own head rather than in the world that lies outside of it. That then usually leads to self-isolation and that, in return, leads to even more introspection. Hooray, to unhealthy processing mechanisms!

Alright, enough self-deprication. Basically, the conclusion I came to in that session, was that I’m pretty much the exact opposite of the “no thoughts, head empty” meme. For me, it’s more like “all thoughts, head explode”. And while I’ve been trying to get better at sharing face-to-face what’s going on in my head, I don’t always have the energy to text, call or meet friends and make my brain form words that my mouth then says out loud (which, I realize, is also known as talking). 

I have made progress in that direction but ironically, these thought spirals tend to be the exact reason why I sometimes get into the bad mindset of thinking “Ugh, why even bother sharing? It’s already exhausting enough to just think it. Talking and explaining will be even harder.” And I know that that is not entirely true but listen, change comes in waves and you can’t battle all your inner demons at once. It is important to choose your battles accordingly to your strengths.

So, that is what I’m doing. I am choosing a battle by making a compromise. And making a blog. 

God, how awfully millenial of me. What’s next? A TikTok account where I ironically document my panic attacks over the sounds of Jason Deulos’ ‘Savage Love’? (Hold on, just gonna note that idea down for later...)

Seriously, I realize that this has a certain bobo-esque, self-absorbed cringe vibe to it (did I really just say vibe, this is worse than I thought). However, I also care for and know myself well enough that I tend to downplay and ridicule the fact that I really do have a massive stick up my ass when it comes to talking about my emotions, my traumas and all those pesky, invasive thoughts. And that’s why Kerstin and me came up with the idea of me simply making a blog where I can dump all my thoughts whenever it feels like they are getting too much.

This is obviously not the first time that someone thought of jutting down what’s going through their head. I am self-aware enough to know that I didn’t invent the concept of writing about my life and inner turmoil. YouTubers and ex-Vine stars already did that before me, just look at the list of New York Times Bestselling Authors and you’ll see it for yourself. And if Gabbie Hannah can publish her own poetry book (never forget “Link ... in Bio”), I can damn well make another unknown blog where I share what seems to have gotten stuck somewhere on the way from my brain to my mouth.

Sorry, by the way, if nobody got those weird references. Whenever I’m not busy bashing my overthinking head against the metaphorical wall of fear of my sharing emotions, I spend most of my time watching drama channels explain why yet another book published by yet another unproportionally famous vlogger is yet again unsurprisingly shit. But that’s not the point of this first blog entry, so let’s let the money-hungry world of YouTubers performing figurative self-fellatio rest.

Bottom line: I need to get better at talking. To people other than my therapist, that is. Because frankly, if that poor woman has to listen to even more twenty minute rants of me dissecting my own broken psyche, she’s probably gonna quit her job and then I officially have no one left to chew through my issues with. And that would be quite unfortunate for everyone involved.

So, I want to practice. Try out the whole brain-to-mouth thing, but in a less confrontational way, by making it a brain-to-keyboard thing first. And not just that, I want to make an active effort in setting myself reminders that no matter how deep and lost I am in my own overthinking patterns, I can always put a stop to it and just spew it out onto virtual paper. To get it out of my system, manifest it into something more physical, read through it, recognize what’s lacking and what I need to change and lastly, editing it into something that makes more sense to me and also others. 

In summary, this is kind of just me making my own “How To Talk About Emotions – For Dummies” guide. I expect no one to read all of what me and my sore yet hyperactive mind come up with, but I still gladly invite you to, should you care to see what that looks like. I apologize in advance though, I do tend to over-dramatize and under-estimate the way and amount I write about most things, including my own feelings. 

But hey, maybe by writing this blog somewhat close to regularly, I’ll also figure out a way to talk about my emotions in a way that isn’t filled with unnecessarily smart-assy Big Dictionary Words and pop culture references barely anyone understands. Let’s hope for the best.

After it now took me exactly 1.291 words to explain what could have been explained in about two sentences, I’m finally gonna shut up. “Thank the Lord”, I hear you say. Or ... maybe that’s just my overthinker voice and fear of vulnerability that heard you say that? Kerstin would probably smile and nod proudly now. Gold star for me, yay. Just kidding, I never get any cool stickers for my achievements. Honestly, that whole therapy thing is way less fun than I thought it would be, I just want a stamp that says “Great job!” or “Super cool!” every now and then. Is that too much to ask? Okay, I think I see now what she meant when she said that I seem to secretly rely on the approval of others for personal successes so I can compensate the fact that I never give myself any credit for them.

Phew, that whole writing things down idea seems to already pay off. But okay, enough self-revelations for today. I have no idea how often I will actually write on here and even less of an idea what the topics will be. However, I will always include tags and trigger warnings, so that if there actually is someone who reads through it, they can know what each post is about.

So, yeah. That’s it for now. Brain-to-keyboard to you soon. (Get it, that’s my way of saying talk to you soon, because– okay, yeah, you got it. Right.)

P.S.: Yes, the name of the blog is a pun, let me live a little.

[languages-and-tea]

hey, how do i go about learning french & german? what resources do i need to get? thanks

Hello hello :)

Well, that’s a complicated question. Looks simple but it’s broad. If you really want to research the topic I suggest you go on Google or here on Tumblr too, and use the tags to find posts about that. Now, I’ve only really studied French and English, I just started German and I’m not doing much anyway, so I’ll stick to general advice that works well for European languages with a lot of resources like these two.

Phone or computer apps, like Duolingo, Memrise, Babbel, Lingvist (some are free, some aren’t; choose what’s best for you). Some I like for German are Lern Deutsch, or Ankommen. I didn’t really use apps for French since I focused on my tutor. Which leads me to…

… if you have the means, you can get a personal tutor. You’ll meet either at your place, her place, or maybe a coffee shop. Specially useful if you need to go fast, learn really efficiently, or maybe you’d like to have someone who you can talk to individually and without distractions. That’s what I did for French and I’m 100% sure that’s what got me to my goal. Beware, tutors can get expensive; that’s why I say “if you have the means. 

Group classes/courses, in a language school, your local university, or there may be even some public programs (that tends to be for unemployed adults where I come from). They are usually divided by levels (A1, A2, B1, B2,…) and each level could last a school year or two. There’s often an exam at the end of the course to test your level. Can be much cheaper than a tutor, and it’s good for those who like to learn in a group, where you can interact with others and not just the teacher. But it won’t meet your individual needs, it will follow a general program for everybody, which could be either too fast or too slow for you.

Grammar books and similar others, which can be huge and full of everything you’ll ever need, or small and have the basics. I like to have at least a small grammar book that I can consult if I don’t understand something. This is specially useful if you don’t have a tutor or any kind of teacher helping you. I’d also have a big one if you know you want to get to a high level in that language (maybe C1 or even C2), because it’s never a bad things to have such wealth of information available. Then books about verb conjugations, or vocabulary for example, can help you get a better understanding of the language, and again are really useful if you are studying it by yourself. Some I like for French are Bescherelle L’essentiel (not just grammar but a little bit of everything; it’s a classic between French people), Bescherelle Le vocabulaire (see a theme here? Get Bescherelle books as soon as you can read something that’s 100% in French) and I’ve heard good stuff about Easy French Step-by-Step, but find whatever suits you best and whatever books you find more interesting. Then for German I have Aprende Alemán en 7 días (but it’s in Spanish, so…) and I’ve also heard good things about the Practice Makes Perfect books for German (like this and this). Amazon is your friend for this.

Course books or books meant to help you achieve a specific level, like for French Entre Nous or 100% réussite. These are books usually 100% in the language you are studying and they focus on, for example, everything you need to know for the B1 level. They’ll introduce grammar, vocabulary, and all the things they think will are meant to be learnt for that level. They aren’t that expensive but I feel like without a teacher or tutor who can read and correct all your exercises, they might not be as useful. For German I know Menschen. You can also buy them to practice before you plan on taking an exam for that level.

BUT TUMBLR. The amount of resources you’ll find here is insane. You can find lists of resources for a ton of languages, and a ton of stuff specially for French and German. It’s gold.

Along the same lines, there’s a ton of free stuff: free online courses, websites full of info and grammar, YouTube videos and whole YouTube courses for a specific level (like this A1 German course). You just need to do a little research but you’ll never stop finding resources, believe me. 

I know you may feel like it’s bullshit advice but you need to do what’s best for you. I cannot tell you what to do. If I tell you to get a tutor but you hate the idea, or you don’t have the money, then don’t. You need to use the resources that sound best for you. Look, I see people memorizing vocabulary with flashcards and notebooks and everything, reviewing every day. I’ll never do that, because I hate it. I learn vocabulary as I go and if it’s not enough, poor me, but I’d never just sit down to memorize it; but other people like it, so the do it. You may love to watch YouTube courses, so you can watch them all. You may really like the idea of a group course, and you go and do that. Whatever is fun for you. There aren’t any laws, there is no single way fo going about this. Get inspiration from people here and find what you like to do. I know you may be thinking “but I’ve got noooo idea!”. Yeah, I know, but then you’ll just need to try. Start with the free stuff, and if nothing convinces you or you feel you need something more, think about the tutor, the courses, the books.

Don’t overthink it. You will anyway but I’m still gonna tell you. Do not overthink it. It’s hard to find the perfect resource that you just adore. It’s hard to feel ready. You need to start with whatever you got. Or you’ll procrastinate for months and months like me; don’t do that. Don’t wait for the perfect moment or for whatever you want you don’t have. Please, just start. You will NOT regret it. Do it for me and if you have more question or you need to rant about it, come back and hit my ask (or message me, whatever is better for you). I’m the kind of person who always has her phone next to her and feels the need to answer to everybody as fast as possible so, yeah.

Okay well, this isn’t everything, because that would have been a collection of novels, but it’s something and I hope it helps! Check this (x) post I wrote about ideas for language learning. 

[hephaestustestified]

answer all Questions for the Mun!

I’ll get my revenge Dirky.

Under the readmore cause i might ramble tbh.

What made you decide to roleplay this muse?

Well I was friends with Dan back when he first made the au and I always wanted to join, but i never could get a strong feeling for who or how. I ended up just... picking and doing a lot of research to try to figure something out I think. It took me months to make him.

Do you roleplay other muses?

Yup! Angel Kar for Gracestuck, Angel Dirk for an au I made, witch Hal, vamp dirk for the vamp strilonde au, Leo for PH, hero dave and hero hal for @rise-from-ashes-au that me and my husband made, midnight crew boss dirk i made to go with jays felt boss jake, apollo! signless, and a few muses in the works. if you want links always feel free to hmu off anon or in IMs.

Are there other characters you’re interested in rping or wish to?

I want to try the older strider guardians or eridan or gamzee. 

What made you decide on your URL name?

his name is hephaestus and hes a dirk alt. it wasnt very creative tbh but oh well.

What made you decide on your blog title?

its just the url in bigger text i think >.>;;;;;

Other characters/muns you’re interested in roleplaying with?

anyone really. g0reme is an interesting muse and i would love to interact with them but.... my anxiety kills me..... TTATT;;;

Do you overthink your tag descriptions or keep it simple?

i keep it simple. i used to over tag the life out of my dave and jake blogs but i sort of stopped caring tbh.

Text format or nah? What’s your opinion on that?

i personally dont?? id like to but its pretty hard. as long as its readable i dont mind other people doing it! it looks really fancy sometimes. 

Favorite three icons of your muse.

I don’t get to use the first and third often, if at all.

How do you feel about the interpretation of your character vs the fandom?

some people make very good dirks and can make very good believable au dirks. i especially love my sons @technologictempest interpretation of dirk and consider him something of an expert. other people tend to hugely misinterpret him and like make him very VERY unnecessarily aggressive or just....focus on only one aspect of him and its just.... eeeeeeeeh. 

What’s a thread you’d like to do in the near future?

im still lowkey hoping dan and lavi will let me kill heph and bring him back with amnesia. he’d get his memories back eventually but itd be sooooo much fun!!! itd be hella fuckin sad tho. 

Do you have fun RPing?

most of the time. sometimes it gets stressful and annoying, like when people cause a LOT of drama ALL the time. like something always has to happen to make the attention be on the other persons muse ALL THE TIME. the muse is ALWAYS the victim and never does anything wrong. it gets old. take a break. or when people turn a fun plot meant to stay between a few people into a full blown multiverse war with outside interference and start shitting on the muns it makes it really uncomfortable to be around sometimes. thats why i try to find the people who DONT do things like that and stick to them. rational human beings who know when to stop are great to rp with. its why i throw my muses at embellishedbookworm john a lot. hes an easy to talk to person and very understanding and reasonable. i mention him cause he sticks out the most rn but my other friends are also in the same category. i feel very bad for clinging to my friends tho. 

Three of your favorite threads

;u; i dont get to thread with heph a lot. if at all. please hmu with threads.

What’s an M!A that would be fun to try out?

already answered! :D 

What’s the relationship status of your muse? Single? Taken?

taken. definitely. technically he could date more people, but hes barely comfortable with two. adding more than that and hed prob develop worse anxiety. its totally ok for other muses to crush on him but it makes him feel bad and guilty for not returning their feelings. his self image also tends to get in the way of his love life. (as posei and hermes have found out)

Are you selective?

sort of yes. some aus i avoid, some muns i avoid due to past experiences, and some people i just dont follow back immediately or follow at all despite wanting to interact because of who theyre friends with (even if the people i dont follow are friends of mine). especially with hephs account i dont always follow back because i do most of my blogging from the tablet or laptop, which means i dont really want to be scrolling for 20 minutes to find a thread or interaction. i tend to mostly follow close friends or muses that interact on a semi regular basis. but im usually up for interactions if you just hmu in asks or ims.

Your muse’s theme song.

Good question. I have no fucking idea and im always open to suggestions. 

What’s your opinion on blog themes? How do you feel about your own?

I love blog themes and hate them. I hate finding themes for blogs, but i love looking at other people’s pretty blog themes. i think hephs is pretty decent? i had to have dans help with it tbh.

What’s something that would make you unfollow a mutual?

interacting heavily with mun who make me uncomfy due to the shit stunts theyve pulled in the past (whether the person interacting knows about the muns who make me uncomfy or not. ill usually warn the mun interacting with said jerks before unfollowing tho) or breaking a big rule of mine without asking or warning. i can handle certain rps as long as i have time to prepare myself (usually a few hours or a few days) but if its brought up without any time to agree or turn it down, ill prob unfollow after the first warning.

Three big no-nos to do or say to your muse. (their ‘berserk button’)

giving him shit for being a god (he mentions this regularly. a LOT of people in the past have accused him of trying to force them into worshiping him after he says hello to the point he no longer talks to new people if he can help it), or bringing up his unfaithful wife or try to harass people he cares about.

Three interesting little tidbits or facts of your muse.

hes actually gotten to the point where he feels very isolated (and resentful) in his forge and wants so badly to leave, but hes also afraid of being unimportant or seen as worthless unless hes working.

 hes actually very clingy and physically affectionate (posei and hermes tend to see this a lot, but bubbles also sees it when heph gets particularly upset or in a good mood). 

posei and hermes have the most unintentional control over heph tbh?? they can get him to do just about anything if they asked. 

Where are you typing right now and where do you usually type?

on my bed, and usually on my bed tbh. my laptop is falling apart and cant stay open unless propped up, so i stay in bed laid out on my stomach to rp from my laptop.

[tamaraneanpacifist]

— basics .

▸ is your muse tall/short/average?

Compared to human averages, he’s rather tall - as that’s simply how tamaraneans are. But for a tamaranean, he’s of pretty average height.

▸ are they okay with their height?

Sure.

▸ what’s their hair like? 

Red, up to shoulder-length, surprisingly volumious for such short hair, which is also why it tends to stand up a little where it ends and not simply hang down as gravity would demand it.

▸ do they spend a lot of time on their hair/with their grooming?

No. He uses his energy to clean the hair and at the same time remove all possible knots everyday at least once after getting up, but aside from that there isn’t really much he does with it. He always keeps it at the same length, cutting it with the use of his powers. As for other stuff, here also all that he needs is his energy. Radiating off a little of it removes any dirt or whatever, and is the fastest way to get going for the day.

▸ does your muse care about their appearance?

Not much. He tends to hide inside of his cloak anyway, and he doesn’t really care about much of how he looks. What he does care about is the length/shape of his hair though, he keeps it as it is because it resembles exactly the style that he remembers his father always had. (Actually Wildfire’s memory isn’t perfect about it, his father’s hair actually was worn a little longer than his own is. Also his father had a moustache, which Wildfire doesn’t aim to mimick as it would feel to much like trying to take his father’s place when all he wants is to pay his respect.)

▸ does your muse care about what others think about them?

For those close to him? Yes. He values them a lot and will definitely take any criticism he might recieve by heart. He’ll ponder about it a while and try to adapt to whatever he has been told should be different. For ones not known or not close to him? He doesn’t care what they might think of him. He tries to be nice and friendly, but if someone would rather see him as strange or introvert or whatever, he feels hurt by it but he won’t try to reason or explain that it’s not like he is.

— preferences

▸ indoors or outdoors? ||>> Indoors ▸ rain or sunshine?  ||>> Rain ▸ forest or beach? ||>> Forest ▸ precious metals or gems?  ||>> Gems ▸ flowers or perfumes?  ||>> Flowers ▸ personality or appearance?  ||>> Personality ▸ being alone or being in a crowd?  ||>> Alone ▸ order or anarchy? ||>> Order, to an amount ▸ painful truths or white lies?  ||>> Painful truths ▸ science or magic? ||>> Both is pretty much the same to him ▸ peace or conflict?  ||>> Peace ▸ night or day?  ||>> Day ▸ dusk or dawn? ||>> Dawn ▸ warmth or cold? ||>> Cold ▸ many acquaintances or a few close friends?  ||>> Few close friends ▸ reading or playing a game? ||>> Reading

— questionnaire

▸ what are some of your muse’s bad habits?

Hesitation, overthinking things, not sleeping enough, worrying a lot, isolating himself, trying to please everyone, shyness, blaming himself for anything that happens,

▸ has your muse lost anyone close to them? how has it affected them?

His parents. He only learned about it once he re-met with Starfire, and it was devastating to realize that he could never talk to them again. He couldn’t discuss if they’d still see him fit for being ruler, he couldn’t tell them how terribly he missed them and that the thought of returning home was all that kept him going for a while - every chance to ever speak to them again was gone.

And then there were the Shallas, the tribe of aliens that took him in after his capsule stranded on a planet. He had been sent away for gathering stuff, only to return to a village in ruins, with a single paper left as the only trace of the attackers, and on that paper stood information about him. Realizing that he was the reason for all these deaths, Wildfire broke down into sadness. He cried in the ruins of what once had been a village for two days or so, until the memory of his father flashed in his mind, how he told her of the important duty the young tamaranean would have to take someday, and that tamaran would be awaiting his return after years. Wildfire still feels very guilty about this, and there are ways to trigger these memories and feelings, but unless these triggers happen he considers himself as ‘over it’, trying to avoid the topic as much as possible without lying but not hanging back in it either.  

▸ what are some fond memories your muse has?

His first flight with his mother, talks he had with his father, the lessons he recieved from the beings that took him in, all or at least a lot of the ‘firsts’ he experiences now on earth

▸ is it easy for your muse to kill?

Skill-wise, probably, but in regards to mental, not at all. He doesn’t want to kill, he will try to avoid it at all costs, and as long as he is in control of himself he will never deliver a killing blow.

▸ what’s it like when your muse breaks down?

Again here will be a copy-paste from Star. For the anger-part, however: Wildfire will struggle against being overwhelmed by anger as long as he can. Counting to ten, breathing calmly, all of the methods you can think of, he will try them in an attempt to avoid falling into rage.

Anger-wise: Run, and pray some heroes are around to try and stop him. Like honestly, it’s not because of Wildfire himself, it’s how tamaraneans work. If they get so full of anger that you would call it a break down, I would call it a state of rage. The tamaranean is entirely focused on the source of the anger, stronger and faster and way more dangerous than before. No force, no hit, no wound can hold them back, they’ll keep steering towards their target with all their might, and even if they’d be badly wounded, they keep going as long as the anger stays present. Anyone trying to stand in their way would be pushed aside and not treated nicely, they don’t recognize friendly faces anymore, it’s all just surroundings to the focus they have and nothing else matters; and they keep going until either they are wounded enough to be almost-dead as then finally the state of rage ends, or their target is dead or too quickly brought too far away.

Sadness-wise: It’ll be dangerous for himself. It depends on the amount of sadness, and as such the heavyness of the breakdown. But there will be a lot of crying, maybe some angry smashing of the ground or some other piece of furniture or something too but that’s not really a very often-happening feature, and he’ll be on the ground. No more flying, no more using his powers, he’ll just be close to tears all the time and spend a lot of time crying. He’ll try to avoid doing it openly, as he doesn’t want to drag others moods down too, but once they show that they care and want to know what is going on he will truly appreciate it and freely express his worries. He’s not really capable of anything anymore, not focusing on a way to take or a destination to head to, no eating or drinking unless someone reminds him of it and sticks around long enough to see him doing it, all he’d think about is whatever brought the sadness and why it happened. If the sadness stays long enough as the very prominent emotion, he’ll fall sick, immovable and weak. In such state, a tamaranean is usually in a bed, and people try their best to get the mood up again. If it keeps failing, the tamaranean may literally end up dying from heartbreak.

▸ is your muse capable of trusting someone with their life?

Once he’s close enough to someone, yes. When Wildfire grows attached to someone, it’s much more than that, it’s a huge trust as well (at least from his side), and he would definitely then also not hesitate to trust them with his life. As long as that doesn’t mean putting them in danger, of course.

▸ what’s your muse like when they’re in love?

Flustered, confused, stuttering... he’ll have no idea what to do. He doesn’t want to leave the person’s side anymore, preferrably stay with them through the whole day AND watch them sleep, but sooner or later he has to accept that that isn’t possible. So he’d try to lower that ‘clingyness’, probably by visiting the other every few hours during their day and maybe also waking up a few times during the night to make sure the other is still alright too. He’ll love touch-y gestures, holding hands, hugging, simply cuddling and being close, any way of being physically close to the other is absolutely wonderful. He also enjoys talking, even about everyday stuff or if the other feels the need to vent about how ‘A said X but then B said and that’s totally wrong because in truth A and B are Z’ or whatever. He may not fully grasp all the details, but he’ll sure be a good listener and do his best to understand what’s going through the other's mind.

Tagged by: None, I saw it a few times on the dash and stole it!

Tagging: I have too few people I interact with on here, so I tagged on Star and that’s enough I guess!