#i taking posion damage by existing in the fenced yard

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not to be personal but im once again realizing how i need ti start changing my life i cannot do this forever i know i have time but i am not fulfilled. i need a new job and meet people who are in similar circumstances (and not christian moms) and have a good support system so i can move out so i can transition and have meaningful relationships and not feel lile everyone i meet is being held at an arms length because anything closer makes me sick because i know they dont think of me the way i want to be seen. my need for socializing sometimes makes me feel more isolated. in collage im reminded by nearly every conversation of my role in life by sex. men will not talk to you if you are not a man. girls will be overly friendly and make uncomfortable assumptions and playinto sexism and misogyny causally. im still referred to as both she and he. and i dont say anything. i cant speak about myself everything has to be about work and nothing personal this bodyis a machine. i know some of this js just sexism but sexism always emphasizes dysphoria because sexism and transphobia play into eachother . andtbh if there wasnt sexism there wouldnt be transphobia cause then truely it wouldnt matter anymore if your a girl orboy or nonbinary gay ass but whatever. i have a penis