#i switched my song to wannabe while writing these tags

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Fresh's Theme: YOO I'LL TELL U WUT I WANT SO TELL ME WH Swap: FML

art source comes from here, fic made by @gaylordscooter

[IMAGE ID: A digital drawing of Swap Sans, visibly tense and hiding behind a broken wall. The wall is an almost-grey blue, the background is a slightly bluer and darker grey, Blue's background color is blue, and Swap's outlines are a paler version of his background. Behind the wall are rainbow all-capitilized words that switch color each line break. The words read "YOO I'LL TELL U WUT I WANT SO TELL ME WH", the words a reference to the beginning lyrics in Wannabe by Spice Girls. The rainbow words are cut off by the bottom of the broken wall. Swap's thought bubble background is his outline colour, while his speech bubble font color is colored in his background color. His thought bubble just reads "FML" in all caps. END ID]

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100 Weird AU's? Yes.

So, I had these AU prompts on my phone for quite a while, and I was actually thinking about using them. And what better way to do it than using them with the Tracy's?

Reading and reading these prompts again (and under the gentle guidance of @willow-salix ) I thought that these prompts doesn't exactly match the brothers' everyday situation, but what if we push it past its limit? Yes, biting more that you can chew can be a little difficult, but I don't think it will be impossible. And that's where this challenge is born!

Get the Tracy's out of International Rescue's bubble and let them live an everyday situation as normal people! They can also be medieval nobles or even futuristic robots, the choice's up to you! You can choose from soo many things others don't even think about (and not even me, for a while)!

Many thanks to @tag2060 for the cover and @willow-salix for the support (both emotional and 'fic-ical'. I love both of you💚

NOTE: THESE PROMPTS AREN'T ALL MINE. I TOOK THEM FROM A GIRL I'M NOT IN CONTACT WITH ANYMORE, BUT I WAS TOLD I COULD USE THEM. ALL CREDITS FOR THESE AU'S GO TO HER, WHATEVER IS HER NAME (lmao). THE GOLD MARKED ONES (7, 11, 20, 23, 39, 47, 63, 64, 70, 83, 89, 91, 93, 96, 100) ARE ALL MINE, IN SUBSITUTION OF A FEW THAT WERE THERE, SO CREDIT FOR THE GOLDEN MARKED ONES GOES TO ME, BUT NOT EVERY ONE OF THEM.

NOTE²: SOME OF THE PROMPTS CONTAIN STRONG THEMES, LIKE DEPRESSION AND SEXUAL CONTENT. IF YOU'RE SENSIBLE TO THESE THEMES, DON'T DO THEM, NOBODY FORCES YOU IF YOU DON'T FEEL COMFORTABLE.

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To participate in this challenge, all you have to do is take one of the AU prompts from the list, one or more (or all) Tracy characters, and post your fic (can be a ficlet, or a series) under the tag #100weirdTracys and #100weirdAUs.

If you don't want to participate, please don't harass/bully me. I made this challenge just for fun, and I don't want for it to feel like something bad. In fact, I don't even regret doing this thing, even if it's strange.

Ah, I almost forgot: this challenge will be over in December, so you have 4 months to choose a prompt and make a fic about it. On December I'll review all the fics, but I'll always be reblogging and reading during these 4 months lol.

If you want to tell me something, hit me up on DM's! I hope you have fun with those prompts and those bois!

(づ￣ ³￣)づ(づ￣ ³￣)づ(づ￣ ³￣)づ(づ￣ ³￣)づ

TO RESUME:

• Swearing is allowed.

• You can write as many words as you want!

• Oc's and muses can pop in too!

• Make sure to tag your fic(s) under the '#100weirdTracys' and '#100weirdAUs' tags, so that I can find them easily.

• Always tag or contact me if you need help with anything! I'll be more than glad to help you!

• If you decide to do the mature prompts (19, 90, just to state an example) please refrain from using a too mature language and don't go further than making up. I don't like that kind of language, so it would be peachy to just avoid writing so they make wild sex behind a bush. Any kind of very mature fic or language won't be read by me, I'm sorry. You can still use those prompts, but don't work their bed life too much.

• Any dialect or first language apart from english is more than welcome in this yard! I would love even to read snippets of foreign language in fics, as long as there's a translation near it, but you're not forced to write in another language. If you don't feel comfortable doing it just don't do it, even if I'm telling you. (For the record, I love Irish so much I could listen to a person speaking this language for hours and you won't hear me complaining).

• I will accept this challenge in whatever form it takes, be it a fic, a drawing, a song, etc. I’m open to anything and I watch everything that comes before me!

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That said, you can find the prompts down here:⬇️

 #1 I saved you from drowning!AU

#2 I broke into your house at two in the morning because I was drunk and I thought it was my house!AU

#3 I am a door-to-door seller please buy something!AU

#4 I grabbed the wrong luggage at the airport!AU

#5 I know we hate each other, but a wedding would be more convenient for both of us!AU

#6 I accidentally poured you a love potion!AU

#7 I sent you 12 messages but you left me on read!AU

#8 I am your secret admirer and I leave you anonymous cards!AU

#9 Sorry, but I was first in line!AU

#10 We don’t know each other but let's pretend to be together because someone is bothering me!AU

#11 We pack up to do a funny trip but we end up in Bolivia without fuel!AU

#12 Locked in quarantine and we're bored! AU

#13 I do everything to find out the identity of this superhero and you try to mislead me because it’s really you!AU

#14 I got into a taxi just to find out it was already occupied!AU

#15 I called the wrong number!AU

#16 I got into the wrong car OMG I'm ashamed, but while you’re there why don’t you give me a ride!AU

#17 I found a wallet and my business is to find the owner and return it!AU

#18 I am a street artist and you complain that I play in front of your house at night!AU

#19 I caught you watching porn!AU

#20 We're two strangers that start chatting while waiting for the bus!AU

#21 Nosy and sloppy roommates!AU

#22 Old childhood friends who come back after years!AU

#23 I got shot to the arm/leg but you're there to save me and OMG ILY!AU

#24 We’re sitting next to each other on a plane and please don’t throw up on me!AU

#25 We accidentally switched phones!AU

#26 We are both contestants in a reality show and let's pretend to be together because the audience will ship us!AU

#27 I am a wedding planner and my ex’s wedding had to happen to me!AU

#28 I learned sign language to communicate with you!AU

#29 Professional model and novice photographer!AU

#30 Sorry I ran you over!AU

#31 We make out and then I find out that you are my roommate’s boyfriend!AU

#32 I’m quoting aloud the last book of a series and I’m spoiling you!AU

#33 It is a universally acknowledged truth that a bachelor with a large fortune must be looking for a wife!AU

#34 I am a Partisan and you are a fascist!AU(Italy during World War II!AU)

#35 I am the blood of the dragon!AU (Iron Throne!AU)

#36 Your dog is hitting on mine!AU

#37 I’m depressed and I decide to call a hotline!AU

#38 You are my soulmate but I am in love with someone else!AU

#39 Strange encounter at tattoo shop!AU

#40 On my mark, unleash hell!AU(Roman Empire!AU)

#41 I am an Elf, don’t look at me for ears I am ashamed of!AU(The Lord of the Rings!AU)

#42 Maybe my life should be more than just survival!AU(The 100!AU)

#43 I am an activist and I am trying to convert you to the cause!AU

#44 We are occupying the school but you are a spoilsport!AU

#45 All our friends are drunk and we're not!AU

#46 We’ve been together for three months and now you’re telling me you’re a werewolf!AU

#47 X has to go into a rocket to the moon and Y has to train X!

#48 Knight in shining armor and damsel in distress!AU

#49 We reluctantly team up against the zombie apocalypse!AU

#50 I’m a vampire and your smell is driving me nuts!AU(Twilight!AU)

#51 Monsters have attacked the Earth and the only way to save humanity is aboard giant robots piloted by two people who must maintain a mental union!AU(Pacific Rim!AU)

#52 My timer stopped as soon as I saw you!AU(Soulmate!AU)

#53 I need a lawyer and you are the best!AU

#54 I’m a Viking and I plundered your ship!AU

#55 I’m a classic dandy from the Regency Age and you’re just a silly girl from the lower middle class!AU

#56 I’m a policeman and you’re an intrusive journalist and I really shouldn’t give you any information about the new murder!AU

#57 You are a wannabe actress and I am a theatrical director who is losing patience and health!AU

#58 Due to a computer error, X and Y become college roommates!AU

#59 X wants to see the world of Y, how he lives and what he usually does, and ends up spending a night in prison!AU

#60 I attend the yoga course just to watch how flexible the instructor is!AU

#61 I am a bounty hunter and you are my prey!AU

#62 I am a secret spy and pretend to be your friend only to get information about your father!AU

#63 I discuss with you about a thing but you have in mind another!AU

#64 We are forced to be best friends just because our moms were best friends too but you're too bossy for me!AU

#65 We broke up but I never changed emergency contacts and now I’m in the hospital and they called you!AU

#66 I am an angel and you are a demon!AU

#67 I hit you on the balls during a game of paintball and oh my god I am so sorry!AU

#68 We live in a dystopian world where your partner is chosen by society!AU(Matched!AU)

#69 I’m a dragon trainer I’ll prove to you that they are peaceful creatures!AU(Dragon Trainer!AU)

#70 Date at japanese restaurant!AU

#71 You’re a cheerleader and I’m a punk and we live in two different worlds!AU

#72 I was a zombie and I was "re-animated" but you treat me like I’m still a monster!AU(In the Flesh!AU)

#73 I am your son’s teacher and I am calling to talk to you about his conduct, would he also come to dinner with me!AU

#74 I am an Achaean warrior and you Trojan and we are fighting the Trojan War!AU

#75 I met my asshole boss at the bar but I found out he’s pretty cool!AU

#76 It was not my intention to touch your ass, it’s just that the bus is crowded, it’s not my fault ok!AU

#77 I went fishing and accidentally fished a mermaid!AU

#78 I just committed a crime and I need to use you as a hostage!AU

#79 You’re the bastard who always parks in front of my door and in spite I’ll scratch your car!AU

#80 I accidentally went back in time and fell in love with you, too bad you’re a barbarian!AU

#81 I urgently need you to fix my computer but please don’t judge me for my chronology!AU

#82 I work on the cruise ship where you are spending your holidays!AU

#83 I'm out in the rainstorm without an umbrella because the weather forecast was sunny!AU

#84 I hugged the wrong person from behind!AU

#85 Celebrity on the run and ordinary citizen confused!AU

#86 Stuck in a ranch cleaning horse poop but it doesn’t matter because that cowboy is a badass!AU

#87 We got married in Vegas, but we’re total strangers!AU

#88 But, officer, I wasn’t doing anything wrong, I was just smoking a joint, want a hit!AU

#89 X is an astronaut and Y is a weird but funny alien that likes to scream, overreact and laugh!AU

#90 I slept with you for a bet but I loved it and I’d like to keep seeing you!AU

#91 I reveal to some friends that you wear boxers/underwear with green aliens on them but you're behind me and oh gosh total shame!AU

#92 Oops I accidentally entered a busy dressing room!AU

#93 You're a stranger but I keep crossing paths with you and I'm kinda confused right now!AU

#94 X is a medium and Y a ghost!AU

#95 X is a guardian angel and Y wants to die!AU

#96 X accidentally enters in a cat and Y has to rescue it from up a tree!AU

#97 X risks losing the house because Y’s company wants to buy the land!AU

#98 I’m an artist and I need a model do you want to pose for me!AU

#99 I’m not really sick but the new doctor is so beautiful that I found out I have a disease with an unpronounceable name!AU

#100 A strange job application!AU

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If you find them more practical, I also have some photos down here with all the prompts organized:⬇️

That said, enjoy! Hope it brings you joy and makes you happy while you do it!💙💚🧡💛❤💜💖🖤

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this morning i was going through this photo album from 2016 from when my parents visited Boston. i try not to cling to them in any manner. all my life i have rarely seeked them, i remember once when i was still quite young, my mother had once got unnerved by my sense of individuality that she angrily remarked, ‘you never speak. DN (my sister who lives in Bhopal) talks a lot, about everything’. she had seemed hurt that i ‘talk lesser’, that I ‘share lesser’.

the D in DN is short for Devaki which is my sister’s born-name. N is for Nandan which my mother added sometime during her toddlerhood, my mother would call her Nandu when we were kids. and as we grew older, sometimes as we would be hanging together, she would shout Devaki Nandan…Devaki Nandan from downstairs while also clapping her hands super-loud, and I would beg my sister to rush, mostly in self-defense, the recurring sound would cause hypersensitive ears to ache. i am thinking of all these today in fond reminiscence. I plan to surprise-call my mother this weekend. my sister too, but i call her more often, and frequent-check on my niece as well. one of these days, I need to reply-call my cousin Gouri, and then my favorite aunt Uma Mami too, i haven’t responded to either of them. I have no idea what Jaya Mami is up to, the last time i met her at a weekend lunch, she was busy planning a seemantham-get-together for one my cousins’ pregnant wife. i am not sure if she is in town, my phone is switched off. i also have to get myself to be in a mind space where I may sit and work on the brain-gut project, and slowly try to build on it by seeking help from Meera Mami.

back in 2014, i was collective-accused of being a liar, a wannabe-Brahmin. check this out, it’s not unnatural to relate to those from your mother’s side of the family, i was shamed for trying to pass of as Brahmin at the time. i was tagged Blue Jackal. at the time, i never thought much of it because that’s not what i had intended to do. only now i’m reliving those days, i shall write on this another time.

by end of august 2019, i am sharing thoughts solely here — @fanofStarc and balakrishnanM.tumblr.com. it may be easier to remain here if i’m not being hack-broadcasted. i find everything else overwhelming, from which i seek distance and space. on Mar. 31st, is when I truly realized that the Hack Broadcasting is influential…when you had shared Mamukoya’s നാരിയൽ-drink troll video. i was left sulking that they took BK. who is they? the world, in general. it has always been a tested-formula to gain collective society approval -- just show the തേങ്ങ of a woman who is boss—simply play to prevalent casual misogyny that seems unable to let a woman, just be!

and then by that evening i guess, you had shared this article  on how it’s all depressing overall. that day you had gotten 100 likes or so for the troll video, and it had made me wonder then…what would tick BK, wasn’t playing തേങ്ങ-udakkal-Boss and getting cheery validation from good society enough for your daily high? i had found your ‘flawed’ most interesting that day, and so catered to you on April 5th by sharing a Mammukka troll video song. when i think of the past one year i feel… it’s all at a point where i cannot say what is right or wrong or anything, but i would think now and then…because of these never-ending wars that keep going on, i feel only more closer to BK, i’m still comfortable around BK, i haven’t lost beauty around him and that’s categorically a truly, lucky thing that happened to me. so why would i wish to spend time trying to work out the nuances of the rest of it all, or be continually-forced to do so?

i’m keeping alive off of 2015, i’m in a space where I am able to find value, from drops of sustainability hope that i have around you, whatever be the name for it all. if this space wasn’t there, i would not be writing, i would have shut down shop. the zen-വാഴപ്പഴം  remark was an attempt at humor, i do not seek daily validations, whatever you have shared, or how you have been, or who you were, this past year, is more than enough for me to feel comfortable around you. my comfort is built based on everything from over a period in time.  

male privilege is when i do not know who your on-paper spouse is, or that people are not too curious what she has to say regarding every socmedia-activity of yours, it is when you are not glued along with your on-paper spouse and their opinion is not sought about everything regarding yours. i do not know if you have children, of if you are planning to have any soon. and as a woman, i’m perfectly fine with consuming zen-വാഴപ്പഴം that is shared, on your own volition, on social media spaces. male entitlement is not acknowledging these default-comforts that you maintain in life, not acknowledging that you are never on trial for anything, definitely not for over an year, and which tries best to decide everything on your behalf. prison mostly just enhances the traumatic, it doesn’t help evolve or sustain.

there is a scene in the film പേരൻമ്ബ്. a woman and a group of people bullies Mammukka’s character into giving up his lovely house that is in a serene ambience in the middle of nowhere, which he had bought solely to raise his disabled daughter. The gist of what they try to say to him is— hey we had considerate-offered you 1.5 million initially, but you had dismissed us off then….as if you are a പെരിയ പരുപ്പ് , how do you like lovely-bullying now?

Mammukka goes on to helplessly-sign-the-papers, everyone feel victorious about confiscating his house. soon after, calm has restored, and he & the woman are in a scene together.

W: നാങ്ക ഏൻ ഇപ്ടി പണ്നോന്നാവത് കേട്ടിട്ട് പോയിടുങ്കളെ, സർ.

M: ഉങ്കളുക്ക് എന്ത പ്രചനയുഇല്ലാത, അഴകാന ഒരു കുഴന്ത ഇരിക്കിറപ്പോ, എന്ന പോയി ഏമാത നിനച്ചീങ്കളെ, അപ്പൊ ഉങ്കളുക്ക് എവളവ് പെരിയ പ്രചന ഇരുന്തിര്ക്കും, വിടുങ്ക!

the woman and her husband mixed-emotion-watch as  Mammukka walks away from the frame.

W: അവർ റൊമ്പ നല്ലവർ, മാമ.

H: അപ്പൊ നമ്മ ആര് di? (so what are we? )

i enjoyed the writing there. i must have watched the film probably a month or two ago, but this scene stays in my mind. for a couple of reasons.

1. i think this is disability-friendly dialogue. both parties have their own sets of privileges in life, and the added difficulties from being disabled is acknowledged, the disability party is not expected to act ‘more inspirational’ by being eternally-patient regarding the many reasons of the ableist party. the disabled is allowed time and space to make peace with their disability, soak in their disadvantages, they are not force-prompted to cater to the external. and by acknowledging that niche, the life struggles of the disabled, the script allows dignity. it doesn’t try to dilute or under-value it. because it would have been easier to do the opposite and cater to the average movie-goer who is ableist, and thus probably raise more-awareness and more-empathy for disability. but by not spoon feeding, the writing doesn’t enforce disability on its audience, doesn’t make empathy a pre-requisite. it says, hey if you have it in you to care, it’s solely up to you to give it further thought.  

2. it doesn’t try to make Mammukka the resident നല്ല പിള്ള. there is no aspiration toward establishing a consensus on who gets to be morally superior or who has upper hand in the given context. yet, both parties choose their own ശരികൾ. as much as Mammukka is allowed to hold on to his indignation, the spouse of woman neutralizes any perceived moral high by asserting their side of ശരികൾ. he doesn’t wish to agree that Mammukka is a better-person, he doesn’t have the bandwidth in life to acknowledge the disability of the other party, he is occupied with his own problems in life. he asserts that their, seemingly, lower middle class life sucks just as much, even with ableist privileges, and in his eyes, playing bully on the disabled for survival is easy-justified.

i feel this writing respects the audience, i do not know who wrote it, but the script doesn’t give ‘the reason’ for the sequence of events. it challenges by asserting that it is okay to not know everything, the audience doesn’t get to presume and analyze, nor feel authority on the lives of others that they do not entirely know of.

these are words from the article you had shared : ‘I find that discussion depressing. Prudent and smart decisions don’t require full knowledge. They require that you assess the uncertainty and figure out its potential consequences. The uncertainty doesn’t mean that you simply cross your arms, close your eyes, and do nothing while you wait for complete certainty. In economics, you will be waiting a long time. I have loaded much into the term ‘prudent’, however. Designing activist policy prescriptions on the basis of a false pretense of knowledge can indeed be harmful.’

acknowledging false pretense of knowledge is good enough. thank you for listening to this podcast on sticky brain.  one of these days, i may expand on why deepika padukone is always a cool woman who stays a life influence, and yet how i know that i’m not a wannabe-Brahmin any longer in life, despite the many, data-psychoanalyzing. i may write about it here about in quiet confidence regardless of if i receive zen-വാഴപ്പഴം delivery.

also, because in ‘the contender’ which is an all-time favorite film, the female VP candidate character says - i will not answer questions. because it validates the asking of wrong-entitled questions in the first place, because the control-freak, half-truth സ്മാർത്തവിചാരം never seem to end. i agree that society is not the world in ‘the contender’ etc. still, i refuse to keep on catering to how things are right now. i refuse to engage with reasons for Hack-Broadcasting anymore, not after one whole year of social experimenting that refuses to consider how it is ill-affecting my health. let us be equally fair to all of us.

yet, you may be right too…as Tim Grover, trainer of Michael Jordan says, there may be nothing much, in the long run, that one person’s tiny ‘will’ can do against persistent, adverse ‘environments’. fine, then so be it! i shall switch my phone back on, and continue to live in the same spaces that i have been hack-violated, and stay imprisoned for sake of voyeuristic-TRP television show, if that’s how it has to be. maybe some day, എന്നെ തീർത്തും തോൽപിച്ച satisfaction കിട്ടി കഴിഞ്ഞാൽ, the world may lose interest and leave me alone, i can always remain in hope. and then i may begin to sustain, eventually. some day. 

ps. disability models, social and medical. “i do not hold the possibly-another-marriage-for-me-in-this-life outlook any longer. and, to feel ‘comfortable’ means that instead of shutting down entirely or reliving traumas or relapsing into dysfunctional every days, i feel up to practicing better at staying on the ground, just so life can be lived a little easier. i’m a writer-type, and to have niche spaces like @fanofStarc and balakrishnanM.tumblr.com,  where i may feel comfortable, to express thoughts with the world, on healthy enough days, make me quite the grateful Worm Menon.”