#i swear im not crazy about this mod

[f3llow-colbaltblu3-d3mon]

Cute lil' thing! 😊

I never thought my first doodles in 2024 were fnf ones.... crazy how this year be like that, huh?

Hey! Just a little thing to add on this i tried drawing a version of turmoil i saw on Twitter and-

Still a goober, I won't lie-

[lock3d-n-load3d]

Alrighty, that should be this blog set up. Still workin' out a few kinks 'n all but now you lot can send us some asks. For context, heres an image of us that should be on the header though its glitching on our end.

From left to right, these are:

Firebug, our resident Pyro. They like going on treks across the badlands, and enjoy bugs. Apparently we're all bugs to 'em. I'm a carpenter bee in their eyes.

Reese, thats me. I'm the one typing all this. Do I really gotta explain myself?

René, our damned Spy whose held me at gunpoint too many times. Hes good at what he does though.

Stanislav or Stas, our Heavy. I havent spoke with 'im much. He aint much of a talker. Though I've heard of a certain someone here who might like him.

Archie, the Sniper. Not much to say about him.

John, the Scout. Hes like a rat sometimes, and has a superiority complex worse than our doc to boot, but hes a good kid.

Terry, our Soldier. Likes planes, surprisingly. He also likes gambling. We've banned 'im from poker night though because hes a sore loser.

Demobot, more of a mystery than Firebug. Though I usually keep him in fightin' form. Hes a robot afterall. Though I swear we were meant to be gettin' a human. Ah well, Demo is a good'n, even though he scares me sometimes.

Rafel, our Medic. Hes crazy, obsessed with some Francis guy, and is the one guy you should avoid talking casually about birds to unless you want an hour long mininum infodump about whatever bird you point out to him. Same goes for him talking about said Francis guy. Or do, it might mean he doesnt kidnap one of us so he can ramble as much as he wants again.

'N thats all of us! Hoping for some asks or the like soon

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Hello! Hi! Mod Epi here! First ever RP blog of mine and its all my TF2 loadouts. Asks will be answered weekly, though any mod updates will go under the #Epi's Announcements tag and all of me talking will be in blue, because why not. Also me talking will go under #Epi's deranged rambles and any asks for me will go under #Epi talks to the voices

Other tags include:

#Firebug answers - questions that Firebug answers

#Reese answers - questions that Reese answers

#René answers - questions that René answers

#Stas answers - questions that Stas answers

#Archie answers - questions that Archie answers

#John answers - questions that John answers

#Terry answers - questions that Terry answers

#Demobot answers - questions that Demobot answers

#Rafel answers - questions that Rafel answers

#Team talks - one or more of the team talking

#Rafel's bird infodumping - Rafel talking extensively about birds

#Firebug's doodles - Firebug's drawings, usually of bugs

#Team answers - when the entire team answers an ask, usually only applies if 5 or more are asked at once because I want to keep my fingers intact

And there you go, thats all the tags. As of now this blog is fully text-only except for if theres any Firebug doodles, though I'm planning to try grab SFM at some point so I can make some scenes and the like, or I'll just use loadout.tf for it I dont know.

Something else to note is that SOME asks may be a bit on the more suggestive side, which means they will be under the #Askers are horny tag. Which also means yes I will answer suggestive asks if I feel comfortable with them. I will not be prioritising these asks over normal ones.

[comfortabletogether]

HIIIIIIIII !!! UR NIKEI WRITING GOT ME LICKING MY THUMBS, FINISHING MY PLATE 😋😋😋

Is it possible to request a s/o like Haruhi Fujioka? Not exactly dating, but when they like first met? If you’ve never seen Ouran, Haruhi is a girl who’s perceived as masculine to most people, leading to gender assumptions. In reality she doesn’t really care (Gn!S/O, maybe?), but I’d love to see the reactions of characters if they were to find out about their gender !!!

Specifically I’d like to request Nikei, but you can feel free to add whoever u think would be interesting as well !!! Hope you have a wonderful day !!!

IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE MY WRITING SO MUCH!! It means a lot to me!! I was originally going to write a fic for this but I hate writing on my phone. And I added Emma and Yuri to this prompt.

I’m so sorry this request is so old. Like stuff just got in the way I’m so sorry. And I know person who requested that Phineas and Ferb hc, it’s taking forever but like, I’m struggling.

WARNING: SPOILERS

~ Mod Haruhiko ✈️

Nikei Yomiuri

🖋️ He met you while grumbling about Mikado, scribbling down notes about how he would only tell Void the bare minimum about the other participants. Hell, he won’t share about one participant more than their face.

🖋️ But then comes in you, a slightly feminine looking guy. And Nikei pulls back up his bubbly persona immediately wanting for an interview to try and understand you since he hasn’t learned anything from Mikado.

🖋️ Nikei actually enjoyed your company when you were having your small introductory conversation. And before breakfast he’d seek out your company to find you so the two of you could sit together.

🖋️ Nikei learned that you weren’t actually a guy by when the two of you were hanging out you told him that you had to use the restroom and walked into the girls restroom. Which he was going to make a sly comment about when you came back but then he realized that only girls could go in the girls bathroom.

🖋️ Which leaves you with a very surprised Nikei to deal with. And being a journalist he asks a lot of questions.

Emma Magorobi 

🎬 Emma enjoyed your presence from the start, you were the only one to immediately treat her like an equal, like a classmate. And you seemed to understand her being sick of being so famous in a way.

🎬 When everyone decided to go swimming, she ended up appreciating you more when instead of going in like everyone else, you had decided to go and get to know Emma further. You didn’t even question why she didn’t go in.

🎬 Emma loved your company more when she noticed that you’d laugh or smile at almost every single one of her jokes, even if you told her they were awful. She just found your smile endearing.

🎬 In her mind, she never questioned your gender until on the second island, she offered to go and dress up. Emma walked in on the middle of you changing and was shocked to figure it out.

🎬 But alongside of her shock, she didn’t mind at the same time. You were still the same person after all.

Yuri Kagarin 

🌌 He is hurling insults at you when you first met. As he immediately assumes that you are a male. And he didn’t exactly want to hear anything else from it. He didn’t want anything to do with men, especially not make casual conversation with them.

🌌 You were at least a little interesting in who he was. Since he did talk about the fact he has been kidnapped before and you wanted to make sure that he was doing alright mentally.

🌌 Since Yuri would absolutely refuse to acknowledge you, you’d definitely have to tell someone like Sora or someone who already knew like Kokoro, if you want to talk. And when you do, he at leas tried to hear you out before he was shocked at the revelation of you being female and identifying with female vocabulary.

🌌 Before he could properly believe you, he did make you go into one of the bathrooms. Which you did oblige to. And after you proved it, Yuri went crazy apologizing in at least several different languages and swearing at himself in Russian.

🌌 Yuri will stay by you and praise you endlessly like the other girls. 

[kali-lamb]

im 100% late for this but OH WELL BLOG RULES!!!! ---------------------------------------------------- Mod things [Talks like this] pronouns: She/They (demi-girl) names for mod: Mod, Green, Coi Be patient with me, i dont understand things well -------------------------------------------------- 1. one the -8% possibility PLEASEEEE don't get thirsty (I will cry violently) 2. Remember, none of my Lambsona is canon 3. because of my situation i often answer at night 4. remember this is an art blog too, i will random drop in lore, or me fighting Kallie again 5. This happened on my Sozo account, PLEASE dont put "go.fund.me asks" as questions. or any thing asking for help, i will only delete them because they do not belong on my Acc's 5. remember, we say some crazy stuff here. Swearing, Adult jokes and Cananblistic things are all said here. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED

I don't think I have more to say lol, ask and have fun!!! Kali talks like this <<Actions>> [Mod green talks like this] ----------------------------------------------------OTHER BLOGS [that dont belong to me] The one who waits "Narinder"- @ask-theredcrown House cat Narinder "Narinder" - @ask-follower-narinder The Bishop of chaos "Leshy" - @ask-thegreencrown The Bishop of Famine "Heket" - @askthe-yellowcrown The bishop of pestilence "Kallamar" -@ask-thebluecrown The bishop of War and Knowledge "Shamura" -@ask-thepurplecrown the cult leader "the Lamb" - @askacultleader Ascended lamb "Lamb" @no-less-than-a-lambgod Another red crown vessel "?" @ask-anotherredcrownvessel ---------------------------------------------------- Other friends and foes [I own the Sozo one] She of sleep @the-sleepydragon The little Poet - @askthe-littlepoet The bloodthirsty one "Bruno" @bloodthirstyanon The mushroom addict "Sozo" - @ask-sozo-the-ant The cannibalistic spider "Helob" - @helob-the-spider My brother "Sean" - @pbamoney Techinclly my Nephew!! "Tug" @tug6056 Our little brother "Yarnor" - @yarnor-the-timid-raccoon The mystic seller "???" - @themysticseller my friend! "flashbang guy" @flashbang-guy First dude i revived as goddess of life(?) "?" @spellcaster-dude The TV guy whos no longer in a tv...? "scanny" @scannys-back The nebula anon! "neb" @thenebulaanon Another crown bearer (i believe) "Cotton" @ask-cottonofthefaith Cult Of The Alpaca "denny" @askdennycotl My baby Slugcat!!! "Salt" @salt-timid-slugcat I WILL RIP YOU APART AND FORCE YOUR WIFE TO EAT THE BODY "Orion" @orion-anonincceo ---------------------------------------------------- More Art can be found here! Axel.Lovo/Kali-lamb ---------------------------------------------------- The blogs I own Kali - @kali-lamb (where you are right now) Sozo - @ask-sozo-the-ant (mentioned above) ----------------------------------------------------Information about the Lambsona AU i use

[so basically shes the lamb from a different dimension, like the goat. she somehow dimension hopped though and everything back home for her is gone now, so she stays. in her world they burned the lambs instead of beheading them. and her bishops/chained god are different] [Leshy = Soren (Snail)]

[Heket = linkino (lizard)]

[Kallmar = Abrey (Axolotl)]

[Shamura = Cinter (centipede)]

[Narinder = Asteria (Rabbit)]

[Aym and Baal = Strike and Bo (Rabbits)]

[The Goat = Somnus (still goat)] ------------------------------------------------------------------------------

NEW CHARACTER!!!: SOMNUS THE GOAT!!!!

SOMNUSS THE GOAT!!! every lamb needs a goat counter part!!! heres Kali's!!!! SOMNUS INFO He uses ASL so when hes talking its just him signing His text is Blue He's my friend MANGO's Lambsona, but she isnt on tumblr (parnets dont want her on tumblr) His death: he blew up. *Explosion. SFX* thats really it, also hes so eepy!!!

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[oogalaboogalabich]

Istg astarion had a pretty mole like right next to his eye for a good bit. Am i crazy? Am i imagining things? Im not talking about the unsightly mole mod either. I swear i remember putting the beauty mark eye makeup on one of my first Tav cause it IMMITATED his mole. (pinning red string all over evidence board)

[thebnha-auhoard]

Questions for the Mods?

Who are your favorite Characters?

Do you guys have favorite tropes or such?

I love that you guys use the smaller characters like Mirio and the Ofa Holders!!!

Hiiiii Mod Boreal here, yeah i'm a basic i love Izuku and Toshinori, just, dadmight cures my soul <3333 and my favorite trope to do is probably "came back different", i have like, 6 or more aus and works just about that lmao, but for reading, i like when people go in deepth on quirk mechanics and how it could be used for other things besides canon brawling lmao.

Hi lil Sprout! Mod Asphodel here! My faves are absolutely Kurogiri, Mr Compress and Izuku! Oh and the Ofa Holders but that's a Bigger Ball game. My fave tropes? Hmmmm Fairytale Subversion, Horror, Psychological Horror and Manipulation and Found Family! Quirk Mechanics are also a Deeply Beloved. Plus if you give me and Boreal a Character and say "Make it a Nomu!" We probs have lmao.

hi! mod anterior here! my favorite characters would have to be katsuki and aizawa, i just love them and their dynamic its great. i guess my fav tropes would have to be stuff along the found family line? i don't really think about what i like in aspects of their tropes all that often! also im glad that you like our use of smaller more background-ish characters, that makes it more worth it when we go crazy worldbuilding!

Lo. Mod Kiwi here. Favorite characters is literally all the past OFA users because we can make so much with them and god they have so much untapped potential. Mr Compress, Kurogiri, Tokoyami, Shinsou, and Present Mic are also my favorite characters. I just like to put them in a jar and then shake them for a bit to see what happens. Favorite tropes are Canon Divergence, Found Family, and “The Dog Bites Back”. Those three are great and if you go and give me any scenario where Kurogiri snaps and just decides to go against All For One or Dr Garaki I am there. Also, we’re going to continue using those smaller characters and I swear one day I’m going to infest all of yous with past OFA brainrot and you won’t be able to stop it.

[ellies-enrichment]

Sorry, bud, but the Forza franchise is an Xbox exclusive, so I don't think that's the game you're talking about. 💀 You might be thinking of a Need for Speed game maybe???? *I'm also an Xbox girly, so please don't exile me from your ask box just yet. 😭🥺

But the Forza Horizon games are very open world and I love it! I usually just romp around in my crazy modded Jeep Trailcat and crash into every single tree I come across like a silly goose. 💀 #1 fave past time is discovering all the roads and sight seeing when I first get a new FH game. FH5 is based in Mexico, so it was all kinds of ✨cool✨ going around and seeing different landscapes and they even have some art stuff scattered around. 🤠 Iirc, I think FH4 and FH5 are available on Steam, but it takes a pretty hefty PC to run it well.

-aos anon🫂

oh im a xbox girly also do not fret !!! I have like... a 360, a one, my dad owns the XS. We've always been a microsoft batch (its why we sold the playstation lol) i branched out in 2021 and bought a ps5 so im the oddball now but i adore xbox still im gonna get one again when i save up for it.

i guess it COULD be need for speed?? it's SOMETHING i swear i'll find it

[soconfusedwithmylife]

nahh my guy not the sickness. ive also had fever Twice in just the last week like how in the fuck. the weather is flip flopping here so much even during the day so my body's pretty much like

omg i love subnautica!! ive been playing that shit since early access its one of my favorite games! but!! you foole! you baffone! i just build my base in the safe shallows and farm pretty plants and collect eggs to hatch and live out my best aquatic farmer life. my life philosophy is that any game can be a domestic simulator if you try hard enough. also im even scared of the fucking gasopods and everytime i have to retrieve something from the aurora (its stupid decorative shit and they take multiple runs cause they take so much space even with two storage upgrades on my seamoth and i have to have All Of Them) i am SHITTING myself and trying stay on the surface which makes me seamoth look like a dolphin the way it keeps jumping in and out of water. like mfs out there speedrunning this shit meanwhile it takes me 10 hours just to leave grassy plateaus like please T-T one time i was on the laser island and saw a time capsule near shore and as i was trying to get to it a fucking warper stARTED TO WALK ON SAND TO GET TO ME. so anyways i deleted that save and downloaded a mod to make them extinct. anytime the game tries to spawn a warper the mod nopes it out of existence it feels me with a sick joy. omg i talked too much again hnnng sorry i hope these are not boring oh well you can always delete them

also that tomura and dabi bit is so out of the place did i send the ant message?? i remember writing it but i dont remember if i sent it or not, although if you just wanted to randomly declare tomura god mid sentence thats valid too and i also have an unhealthy habit of randomly declaring tomura god like old ladies with their religions

Dang 💀 we both got it rough rn. I hope you're feeling better though! And the weather where I am has been so cold, it's so nice after the heat of the summer. I wish it was winter all the time.

And SAME. I remember watching Markiplier play it during early release and getting it day 1 on my PS4. It's also one of my faves but God, does it give me bad anxiety 💀 anytime I'm not in the safe shallows, grassy plains, or the kelp forest, I'm jumping at every noise. I like to act like I'm a total beast going to the inactive lava zone and standing on top of the lava castle in my prawn suit but the moment I see a warper, I'm out of there. No thanks, nope, not for me 🪦 I also prefer the aquatic farming simulator. It brings me joy to build the alien containment and fill it with eggs. Especially cuddle fish. I also, prefer to have my base totally decked out to the 9's but I DESPISE reapers. If I had enough courage to kill them all, I would but I'm on console so no commands and I'm too scared to shank them to death. WARPERS. no cause explain why I had the EXACT same thing happen to me?!? I almost had a heart attack when I turned around and saw it eye to eye staring at me 💀 then one of those jumping crab things bit me and I turned off my PS4 in a panic and lost an hour worth of gameplay.

You are NEVER boring. I apologize for taking so long to reply. I've been very busy and bey sick but I really do love hearing from you. I could literally talk about Subnautica and below zero for hours. I love those games so much. And I'm so glad you love Subnautica too cause 😫😫 (I wonder if theres a text limit? Cause you said yours was long but mine is longEST)

Yeah that was about the ant message 💀 I didn't want to blow you up so I tried to answer in one. But yes, I have a small alter for both. I am but a pious follower of shigadabi-ism. Praise them 😩 (I'm not crazy, I swear 💀 I just like them an unhealthy amount)

[tarosin]

the not so great adventures of y/n tommy tubbo and ranboo

this is an extra episode to the great adventures series -

people included: platonic! jack/tubbo/ranboo/tommy

please read what is written in bold

this is an “alternative ending” around 15 years into the future and is heavily inspired by bo burnhams song ‘goodbye’ this doesn’t mean this is actually how the series is going to end im writing it now and including it as part of series as their friendship is already established i can confirm y/n and the group are going to have a happy ending when the series eventually comes to an end this also does not mean the series is anywhere near the end i plan on continuing the series as vlogs come out. i’m sorry HOWEVER i am currently writing how y/n made friends with everyone so you have that to look forward to. i am sorry to the new people who requested to be on the taglist as this is the first thing you’re being tagged in

cw: angst, cursing

it had been around 14 years since ranboo moved to the UK, a year after the day you all met, to be with you tommy and tubbo. you were all thriving; you were living with your best friends, were all some of the most watched creators, you were constantly making new memories with everyone. you even had a wall full of photos of you all from every adventure you had been on with a picture of ranboo poorly edited into the background which made you laugh as you passed the wall every day. almost every evening you would all watch something on the tv, often re watching your favourite tv shows. the past few months had been pretty rough, there were days you didn’t even want to leave the house. you and tommy would fight over the smallest things. for example, a few weeks ago you were both arguing about who was responsible for forgetting something whilst out shopping.

“you were supposed to remind me to get it!”

“i told you to make a fucking list tommy, how is this my fault?”

“because i told you to fucking remind me but you were too focused on playing around!”

“you’re not making any sense tommy!”

“oh fuck off, y/n! i don’t even want to look at you right now!”

“so long tommy i’ll see you when i see you!”

and with that you left to stay with jack until you were ready to go back home, it was around now you lost your love for streaming, however jack encouraged you to stream for a little while so you fans don’t think you’ve left them in the dark. 20 minutes into the stream you felt like you were slowly loosing power even though it hadn’t even been an hour into your stream. A week later you were still with jack, that’s when you got the notification from tubbo.

bo: y/n... we’re sorry we tried our best to make him stay

boo: y/n come home as soon as possible

*tommy has left the chat*

*tommy has blocked tubbo, ranboo, jack and y/n*

bo: he blocked me??

jack: and me

boo: ...yeah

jack offered to drive you back home, which you gladly accepted. the ride was silent, the pair of you still trying to process what just happened, your friend of over 14 years had enough and left you all, until you finally spoke up your voice shaking as you tried not to cry.

“so this is how it ends heh?”

“well at least i’ll save fuel driving taking us all on adventures.”

“youre really joking at a time like this..”

“i was only trying to lighten the mood.. you know you’re being rather selfish not everything is about you. you’ve always been like this.”

“jack, i know you’re upset, i am too, please don’t take this out on me.”

“get out the car.”

“well stop the car then for fuck sake, i’m not getting injured because of you.”

as soon as jack pulled over, you got out and began the walk home, your vision became blurry due to the tears forming as you watched jack drive away. you ended up sitting in a cafe for a while to calm down. none of this felt real you pinched yourself, hoping to find out you were stuck in some nightmare. jack must have returned by the time you made it to the cafe as the community was now spamming questions on twitter asking why jack has now left and unfollowed everyone, followed by your mods telling you to check twitter. your fan base were hurt as their favourite streamers were falling apart and blocking each other. followed by them asking why you’ve not been streaming, you felt like you were going crazy as everyone else was able to stream and enjoyed doing so but you were struggling to stream with no one laughing in the background. you ended up sending a dm to your discord announcements knowing that they’ll share the news.

y/n: so long, goodbye for now. you guys have been extremely supportive over the past 15 years. however there is a lot going on right now (i’ll spare you all the details) i’m going to be taking a break for a while. after all does anybody want to joke when no one’s laughing in the background? i’m sure we’ll meet again, until then my loves!

10 minutes later you decided you should probably go home to the others, after all they’re all you have left.

“i promise to never go outside again.”

as soon as you walked into the house rather than being met with tubbo asking if you were okay, you were met with a notification.

*bo has left the chat*

he stood with his bags near the door

“this is all your fault, i can’t look at you anymore”

“you’re really joking in a time like this...right?”

“you were looking for a reason hide again.”

“trust me buddy i found it.”

ranboo pulled you as close as he could crying into the crook of your neck, you wrapped your arms around his waist as tubbo left the house. it felt like he took the happy memories with him. as soon as ranboo let go, you ran to your room locking the door trying to hide away from the situation, ranboo sat on the other side of the door not wanting to be alone.

“am i going crazy? would i even know? am i right back where i started 14 years ago?”

“y/n let me in.”

you unlocked the door and practically fell into ranboos arms, once you felt strong enough the pair of you sat on your bed, nothing could separate the pair of you right now, you both lost the people you cared about.

“i swear to god all i ever wanted was a little bit of everything all of the time. i’ve finished playing and i’m staying inside.”

“y/n i’m sorry..”

“im sorry too, ranboo, i guess this is the it.”

“at least we have each other.”

“and that fucking photograph wall.”

“that’s a problem for another night..please get some rest.”

it took a while but eventually you fell asleep in his embrace. you may have lost the others but at least one of your best friends stuck around.

taglist (sorry guys)

@dumb-chaotic-bi-energy @uselesssapphickitten @l0ver0fj0y @etheriaaly @xx-smiley-xx @hawarun @kylobensgirl @cawcaw-pretty-thing @reverse-iak @renleicrashed @c1loudee

[literaphobe]

okay i just read that anon talking about how jojo was being told by chat that dream stans would be mad or smth and i swear next mcc im gonna change my name to dreamstan39842 or something and just hype her up like crazy in chat. LIKE CAN HER MODS AND CHAT STOP SLANDERING US. just about everyone i saw on my tl was rooting for her and happy she got first, or at the very least not shit talking her??? no one brought up dream at all when talking about her 😭😭😭 at the very least im sure she notices that theres a good amount of dream stans in her replies and theyre always interacting with her positively.. fuck balancing, team dream and jojo together, i need her chat and mods to lose that dranti behavior forever.

REAL also my dream and jojo post on the reddit broke 300 upvotes LETS GO !

[hopes-peak-postal-company]

It's 2022 on Mod Tsumugi's end, so Happy New Year! It's been really crazy this 2021 and I honestly can't wait to see what the future has in store. Let's run down what happened in our humble little postal company, shall we?

We posted 87 times in 2021

85 posts created (98%)

2 posts reblogged (2%)

For every post we reated, we reblogged 0.0 posts.

We added 174 tags in 2021

#danganronpa - 32 posts

#mod tsumugi - 30 posts

#danganronpa x reader - 28 posts

#danganronpa imagines - 16 posts

#navi - 15 posts

#mod sonia - 15 posts

#mod hajime - 11 posts

#drv3 - 10 posts

#danganronpa v3 - 9 posts

#super danganronpa 2 - 8 posts

Longest Tag: 68 characters

#i swear i didn't spend a lot of my time making that edit asdfghjkl;'

Our Top Posts in 2021

#5

Hi Mod Mikan! Is there any chance I can request Nagito, Kokichi, Saihara, and Kiibo with an s/o with crazy stamina in the bedroom? To the point where they can walk around and talk and be totally fine even after several rounds? (Bonus points for overstimulation). Sorry if this is a request you can’t fulfill! Thanks so much!

I......think I understand what you mean, honey. I tried my best with this request. I'm sorry if I butchered this a bit. Please tell me if you want a redo, sweetheart. Honest, I don't mind. I hope you enjoy my writing anyways, lovely <3

Warnings: High sexual stamina, overstimulation, edging, praise, GN! Reader, and general NSFW stuff

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59 notes • Posted 2021-12-28 16:33:21 GMT

#4

oya, mod tsumugi, can i get a confession letter from kokichi? 😳

yes, 'nonnie. anything for you and your anonymous clan. 💙

hope you enjoy!

(how long do you think i can keep up this game of making each letter description longer than the previous one? should i continue it for shits and giggles? do you think my experiment of writing past midnight turned me crazy? will i ever shut up? find out next time--)

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63 notes • Posted 2021-12-03 18:51:21 GMT

#3

If that's okay could i request Epel, Rook and Malleus with a ridicolously lucky s/o? Like Nagito Komaeda kind of luck?

Since we're somehow talking about dr now, bonus if they're also an hopes peak student lmao hakavskavsk-

SO LUCKY, LUCKY!

summary. headcanons of epel felmier, rook hunt and malleus draconia with a ridiculously lucky s/o!

includes. established romantic relationship ( hence the s/o ). s/o's luck is similiar to komaeda's. cursing ( on my part ).

notes. IM SO SORRY I DIDN'T ANSWER THIS AS SOON AS POSSIBLE— i was busy with studying and stuff that i completely forgot i was in a writing group D:

also i'm unsure if you're referring to me when requesting this ( though, i'm the only mod who write for twst from what i remember ) but yeah !! :D

so, next time if you plan on requesting again, do remember to address a mod and this also goes to other people who wants to request ! ^^

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67 notes • Posted 2021-12-13 10:40:25 GMT

#2

Hey Mod Akane. Can you please do angst headcanons for the Danganronpa V3 boys reacting to their S/O who has the Hanahaki Disease?

I’m sorry that this sucked and that the characters probably sounded oc I haven’t played V3 in ages, I tried to go for a thing where you guys aren’t dating, but your close because hanahaki disease is when your suffering unrequited love and if you guys were together it wouldn’t be that, so you wouldn’t have had the hanahaki disease. I’ve also made it, so it doesn’t specify the crush, so you can imagine for yourself.

Danganronpa V3 boys reacting to reader who has the Hanahaki Disease:

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85 notes • Posted 2021-10-28 23:07:03 GMT

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hi mod mikan <3 !! would you mind writing comfort sex hcs for shuichi (x reader)?

Of course, angel! My absolute favorite thing to write about my favorite husbando: Comfort. In one way or another.......;)

I hope you enjoy, and let me know if you want me to change anything, my darling. And this is a GN reader, btw

Warnings: NSFW below the cut. Mentions of b0dy disc0mfort

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116 notes • Posted 2021-10-22 18:59:31 GMT

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[risingsunresistance]

some people asked for it, so here it is! my massive playlist of all my favorite techno videos!! hopefully all the links work...

if you’ve been wanting to get into his content and want somewhere to start, maybe check out a section of this list you think you might enjoy!!

Bedwars

abusing barrier blocks in bedwars

Bedwars + Admin Abuse

bedwars bug accidentally creates the best maps ever

they added guns to bedwars

grown man stabs children in bedwars while talking about soap

bedwars is a difficult game

GOLD PRESTIGE IN BEDWARS

the new bedwars mode is crazy

proof that bedwars hates me

losing the world record bedwars winstreak

If Bedwars Had Horses

getting a horse in bedwars

bedwars: mission impossible

carrying two noobs in bedwars ft. ginger & hanna

Skywars

greatest bow shot of my life

you need 500 IQ to understand this minecraft minigame

ADMIN ABUSE

technoblade vs the department of motor vehicles

technoblade vs the french language

when i was 9 i was a hardened criminal - skywars

why is the midwest so cold help

doing every skywars challenge at the same time

im going to college AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

technoblade the responsible pet owner

19th century criticism of president andrew jackson

my head has returned to a normal shape

i am a positive role model

ruthless materialism

THE POWER OF LOVE! (Valentine's Day Challenge) - Skywars

THE POWER OF MUSIC! - Skywars

School Adventures - Skywars

salad is racist - skywars

eternal_suffering.mp4 - Skywars

GO GO GO - Skywars

GOING FOR ANVIL KILLS! - Solo Skywars #26

ANVIL ATTEMPT V2! - Skywars Solo #30

PYRO! - Skywars Solo #22

Zyper the TNT Legend - Skywars Highlights

TNT Jumping FAIL (Hypixel Skywars w/ TechnoBlade)

skywars but all your enemies can fly

Tournament! (Skywars Highlights feat. TapL + defib + Tayber)

Skyblock

Skyblock: The Great Potato War

Skyblock: Potato War 2

the fastest man in skyblock

the deadliest sword in skyblock

I Became the Mayor of Skyblock

Blitz

train 'em young (Collab with GURL GAMER ERMAGERD)

The Tree

"Blitz" - Parody of "Blank Space" (has swearing)

genius

OP Kit Marathon! - 5k Sub Special!

Neotech (yes this is just all the neotech videos)

MLG MODDED MINECRAFT! - Neotech #1

Laser Gun!? - Neotech #2

ROBOT MINING TURTLES! - NeoTech #3

Portal Pranks! - NeoTech #4

SMPEarth/MCM/MCC

That Time I Conquered SMP Earth

stabbing famous youtubers in minecraft for $10,000

minecraft monday: the finale

breaking minecraft monday records w/ ph1lza

So We Won the Minecraft Championship...

Collabs with Skeppy

skeppy tries to troll me but i troll him first

worst bedwars teammates ever (feat. admin + skeppy)

YouTubers Cyberbullying Each Other

minecraft but 100 people are trying to kill us (ft. Skeppy)

Skeppy v Technoblade

Skeppy vs Technoblade (The Final Reckoning)

Proof Technoblade Dies

minecraft survival drives me insane

Technoblade: The Cyberbully Confirmed

I HATE TECHNOBLADE

technoblade bad

ok technoblade is just a bully at this point

When Skeppy, Technoblade & BadBoyHalo get in a Call...

I gave technoblade my account and I screenshared him to win

Other

Hypixel Olympics: Part One w/ Zyper, iBeaturscore & TheBestGinger13

Hypixel Olympics: Part 2 w/ iBeaturscore, TheBestGinger13 & Zyper

Hypixel Olympics: Part 3 (Finale) w/ TheBestGinger13, Zyper & iBeaturscore

Hypixel Zombies w/ Friends (Game 1/2)

Hypixel Zombies w/ ShadowApples, Technoblade & TapL (Part 2)

NEW MINIGAME! (Murder Mystery)

I AM TREE - Murder Mystery w/ Graser10 & TheBestGinger

minecraft VR is the ultimate fitness program

minecraft VR is terrifying

fortnite played by professionals who know what they're doing

Cooking with Technoblade! (contains swearing)

youtube sent me a thing

THE TECHNOBLADE QUIZ

THE ULTIMATE HUNGER GAMES! - Hunger Games Simulator

50k Sub Q&A

Q&A #2

technoblade vs mineplex's owner

Technoblade vs ShotGunPlays (Pokemon Battle)

Technoblade vs Defone (Pokemon Battle)

when pigs fly

MONEY WALLS (contains swearing)

[hitoshi-shinsous-actual-archive]

ohmygod shin,,, im so sorry i fell asleep i feel soo bad for leaving you alone like that;;; please forgive me :((

ajshk will you ever stop being so cute? i think i might actually cry over how precious you are-

that’s true,,,,, but i know you love it ❤️ but don’t worry, i gotchu on the whole word thing. i just want you to know that i really do, okay? and if you don’t say it as often, well, i already know you feel the same so it’s okay. i’ll make sure to cherish it every time you say it <3

okay okay okay but mY MIND- i already knew you would LOVE marceline,,, it’s one of my favorites too <3 i think my favorite of all time by her is wait a minute! the song just makes me dance around and sing and gives me sooo much serotonin ajdjk,,, here’s my favorite edited little mix of it plus a live performance because she’s just so,,, amazing??? oh and i’m glad i could serve as some ✨inspiration✨ for mod,,, and if you have any more ideas,,, please share them i beg sdjdjk

skdjk it’s crazy how i’m able to make you feel like that,,, like, the fact that you even like me,, seems almost unreal to me... almost.. :000 considering the amount of scrunchies, hair clips, and butterfly clips i have, you’re in for a lot sjdnjsk

ohmygod you really had me in the first half there- but seriously,,, if you act like that, how am i not supposed to fluster you?? too endearing <3 okay i know it’s kinda late and I’m really sorry again, but I still want my cuddles so- *i feel the butterflies in my stomach start to accelerate again from their once fluttery, but manageable state. the indescribable feeling of,,, euphoria..? is bursting in my chest and i can’t help but feel so helpless and weak in the knees... while also smiling and giggling over your totally NOT but kinda ticklish butterfly kisses <3* *i pull you a little closer to me so you can snuggle into my neck fully and begin to gently scratch your scalp and-*

:000 i knew it!! i knew your hair was as soft as it looked! but seriously, it’s soo,, cool?? and really pretty :o ohmygod i think i could play with it all day;; *i keep petting your head and leaving little forehead kisses from time to time.* oh and about the whole impressing me thing,, babes,, i get it. really, i do. but.. all you have to do is just be yourself and say what’s on your mind ‘kay? you always impress me anyway <3 by the way,,, i know we both probably lost track of how many nicknames i call you but,, is there any specific one(s) you like? just wanna make sure sjdjk

- 🧋

no, no, you’re allowed to sleep! you don’t have to feel bad... still, of course, you’ve got my forgiveness. so, try not to worry about it, in the future, yeah?

but, i, um, precious?... i’m never gonna deny those compliments... but i’ll never get quite used to ‘em either... i feel so spoiled. but in, like- a-a good way.

mm, yeah. i’d be lying if i said anything different- and ah, i don’t think i’m ever going to be able to stop pointing out just how amazing you are; how appreciative i am of that. i, um, y’know... <3

oh, yeah, you’ve got a good choice. i used’ta hear ‘wait a minute’ like, constantly... but it’s so good, it’s not even possible to get sick of it or anything, i don’t think. ‘s an iconic song, too. also, woah, that mix- it was good already at the beginning but then that sort of... i’m not going to say base drop? but like. halfway through, when everything sort of... intensified for a second there. i swear i gave an audible little ‘oh’ hmm... we’ll definitely keep that in mind, too. maybe even give you the big scoop on future writings

well then, i hope that you know that i 100% return that sentiment. it’s kind of surreal knowing that you just.. kinda came into my life. and that you’re constantly making me feel happier.. y’know? oh man, yeah, just hearing that i feel prettier already, aha.

dsjnm ririii, you make me feel so..- oh yeah, you can absolutely get your cuddles! no matter how late or whatever it may be. *i’m pretty much tucked into your neck, gently chuckling with your own giggling. and when you begin scritching? oh man. i give this deep, comfortable sigh, sinking further into that pleasant feeling- but, well, trying my best not to crush you or anything dhsnjg.* you think so? *i hum, kind of mumbling into your skin. i can’t stop my lazy, kinda dopey smile.* i never really thought it was very special, since my dad’s is pretty much the same... but, y’know... *another long, yet happy sigh* you... mean it? i’ll, mm, definitely keep that in mind.. thank you, kitty.

and with nicknames.. i’ve got the kind basic ones, like shin or shinny or people who are closer to me- you, my dad, whoever- will call me ‘toshi. growing up, dad also used’ta call me hito. otherwise... i don’t think i really have any super established nicknames. oh! well, i guess mei has called me ‘conspiracy junkie’ a couple times. but... that’s kind of a long nickname-

[crystu-cii]

XDD

I f e e l that pain in my soul-- my older sister uses cologne sometimes and it is sO STRONG AND WILL NOT STAY CONFINED TO HER ROOM-- AMD SOMETIMES SHED DO IT IN THE DOORWAY LIKE HELLO-- XDD

YEAH WH GET SOME SLEEP LEAVE THE STAYING UP TO US-- XDD

YES BABY JAIL, INTO THE UPSIDE DOWN LAUNDRY BASKET YOU KNIFE-WIELDING HEATHEN-- XDD oms XDD well I don't know them but I love them- YESSS THEYRE SO FLUFFY-- I'm actually curious what images pop up first imma check-- FLUFFY PUPPIES-- we've actually never owned ones that fluffy(those actually look more similar to shetland sheepdogs than the shelties we've had so far?? Very similar/similar enough where if someone doesn't know a sheltie we mention shetland sheepdogs), our current one is a purebred that we got for free(she was being given away bc her family never came back for her and the lady taking care of her couldn't afford the time to take care of a second dog long-term think) and she's got pretty short fur in comparison- still fluffy enough, but not quite so long of fur-- she's a blue merle(absolutely gorgeous fur, she's like 8 now with a lot of health problems but she's super loving still 💕💞) anyways about the fur, so long as you brush regularly you should mitigate most of that, and it mostly collects in corners- but like.. be prepared to eat and wear dog fur for the rest of your life-- (actually there's a thing called a fur zapper we bought recent that you put in with your clothes when you wash/dry them(I think it's dry but idk??) that's supposed to get a lot of hair off your clothes in that process? Also lint rollers are your best friend--) AND roombas are really helpful(we bought a knockoff one and rarely have to sweep ever so 👀) XDD WHEEZE I can't even imagine what you did-- but like you could ask for a budgie/parakeet /hj I mean, they aren't very expensive (actually they're pretty cheap) but they're very loud, need a lot of attention(especially if you want them to bond to you!) and you need to research into them a lot to make sure you're doing things right-- loads of vids online!! Loads of websites too!!! I'd know I have one- JUST A WARNING, FEATHERS AND SEED HULLS GET ALL OVER YOUR FLOOR XD p l u s like you have a friend who knows stuff about birbs :3 anyways ENOUGH RAMBLING FROM ME WOW THAT GOT LONG--

💕💕 I feel that XD OMS-- I WISH-- WHAT A D R E A M - s n a k - Awww but what a mood XD

XDDD oms YES-- EXACTLY-- XDDDD another good thing you should try eventually is SWEET POTATO CASSEROLE WHICH IS APPARENTLY DELICIOUS??? I TRIED IT FOR THE FIRST TIME(AT LEAST IN A WHILE) TODAY AND IT WAS SO FUCKIN TASTY????

H E A THEN-- XDD how cool of them to try tho :3 whEEZE Y 'A LL-- XDD

WHEEZE I SUCK WITH INSTRUMENTS SOOOO-- DAMN THA'S SOME BAD LUCK MY DUDE-- MAYBE YOU'RE CURSED DAMN-- oms wOWW--

Yesss-- ooh I've never played 👀 seen some stuff but never played-- (see: my computer sucks XD) I h a v e played Portal 1 and it is SO GOOD and SO SHORT and I WISH I HAD GOTTEN PORTAL 2 INSTEAD BUT THATS OKAY CRIES-- YESSSS THE SONGS SLAP--- ALSO THERE ARE ACTUALLY TWO WHOLE MORE CANON(PROBABLY KINDA MAYBE NOT?? IDK) SONGS, ONE FROM A LEG DIMENSIONS GAME("You Wouldn't Know") AND ONE THAT WAS CUT FROM PORT TWO("Don't Say Goodbye"(Harry101UK made an edit to make it Glados' voice!!)) THERE ARE ALSO A BUNCH OF GOOD FAN SONGS SO YEAH-- ALSO NOT TO BE A SIMP BUT GLADOS' VOICE? PERFECTION. I LOVE HER. ALSO I COULD LITERALLY DETAIL THE PORTAL LORE I AM INCREDIBLY EMOTIONALLY INVESTED IN THIS GAME-- ALSO THERES A CLIP THAT SOMEONE MADE USING A (VERY GOOD) GLADOS TTS TO HAVE GLADOS SAY TRANS RIGHTS AND ENBY RIGHTS AND IF I FIND IT AGAIN ILL SEND IT TO YOU-- YOU COULD PROBABLY FIND IT IF YOU LOOM UP GLADOS SAYS TRANS RIGHTS? IT HAS A VIDEO WITH TRANS FLAG COMPANION CUBES ACCOMPANYING IT-- ALSO YES THE PORT MODS(/ADD-ONS? MAYBE? THEY'RE COMMUNITY MADE I THINK BUT IDK ALL I KNOW IS THAT THEYRE COOL AF--) (also I apologize for all the screaming? XD it's like, four am and I was talking about portal so.. whoops?)

Right like wth???? I???? Okay but like December to February babies just fuckin DONT EXIST IN THIS GEN OR SOMETHIN-- CAUSE I FIND N O N E -- Maybe there are more December babies but there are definitely like NO January to February babies it is So Weird--

NEJFQOBGKW WOWW d an g like-p l e a se s t op over sp r aying-- xD and LEGITTTT LIKE- THAT WAS M Y ROLE TO STAY UP LATE- XDD

WHEHEHEZE- LAUNDRY BASKET TIME- G E T I N XDD anD YESS- any doggo is just such a cute doggo 😭💞💞 but for me- fLUFFY ONES ARE WHERE ITS A T- and ohhhh i see- FOR FREE?? W H A T A S T E A L XDD but awwww the poor doggg at least she's with you now ! ;0;; 💞💞😭 aaw such a lovable puppup 😭😭💞 and oHHH i see :00 but oh no- xD i also have a friend that has two dogs and whenever he would give me gifts- there would be dog hair on them no matter what- XDD and ooOhhh those sound really helpful! omg- i swear i dont have to have a pet for the need of a roomba- i already shed so much hair myself its so crazy-- xDD and oH MAN loud animals are really gon get my mom fired up- and OO birds just look so cuteee i always fantasize of having one- but then again- with the noise and all xD the more i think about it i dont think we are prepared to have a pet at all xD but i still dream of at least having one pet in my lifetime!

and OO that sounds awesome!! i have no clue if i even tried casserole before- man- sometimes i just eat food without even knowing wth it is XDDD but THAT SOUNDS so gooodddd :O

and LEGITT LIKE- TF IS HAPPENING WITH MY SCHOOL LIFE- XDD and oh my god- IT GETS WORSE- that year there was a FREAKINGG FIREEEEEEE- it wasnt that dangerous thank god- but it had to get a whole ass room renovated because of it- and guess what room it was- THE ORCHESTRA ROOM- AND GUESS WHAT M A D E I T W OR SE- that year- it was the first time the school replaced those 10+ year old instruments with new ones- NOW THEYRE B U R N T- and mind you that the school's budget isnt so- gr e a t- like oh my god i am still so bewildered over HOW MUCH chaos HAPPENED that year- and i thought that year was gon be the year- yknow? like UGH

and OHH MANN playing portal sounds awesome! but i just dont think the game would be worth my money cause i know the plot- and even with the mods and all my brain would be broken as i would possibly have no clue what to do- xDDD

and HOOOO MANNN game fan songs are just so AWESOMEEE- and those sound pretty cool! :OO and HOLY SHIT FUCK YEAH- GLADOS SAYS TRANS AND ENBY RIGHTS Y A LL- now im gonna look that up and let my ears be blessed by such words- XDDD and DONT WORRY BOUT SCREAMING ALOT- i scream a whole dam lot too XDD

and LEGITTT- finding someone's b-day in january and feb is so rare all of a sudden like wh a t - XDD

[somnilogical]

davis tower kingsley (listed here on the cfar instructor page) who harassed a cis woman about her appearance another cis women reported this to acdc (the people who wrote the thing about how brent was great) and afaict they did nothing, claims that if trans people and gay people dont "repent and submit to the pope" they will burn in hell, defended the spanish inquisitions, wrote about how the mission system werent actually abductions, slavery, forced conversions and this was propaganda, defends pretty much any atrocity that an authority, "believes" the catholic god exists and does not try and destroy them, submits to them. and so much more.

born into another era they would actually work for the california mission system and say it was good.

said thing that cached out to that emma and somni should repent and submit to the rationalist community. wrote up a rant about "how about fuck you. go lick the boots of your dark mistress anna salamon." didnt send. got kicked by some rationalist, reasoning is probably that what id say would disrupt their peaceful machinations of omnicide, would be infohazards, because... the information is hazardous to their social order.

a few of these things are subjects of future blog posts.

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cfar has never hired a trans woman, i have lots of logs of them trying to do what people did to porpentine. claiming emma thinks torturing children is hot, claiming emma was physically violent, claiming emma was indistinguishable from a rapist, claiming ziz was a "gross uncle style abuser", claiming somni was enticing people to rape, claiming that anna salamon was a small fragile woman and ziz was large and had muscles. as if any of our strength or speed had anything to do with our muscles in this place. all of these things are false except relative size difference between ziz and anna which is just transmisogynistic and irrelevant.

if they lie about are algorithms claim that we are using male-typical strategies and then they can fail by these lies and be sidelined by callout posts that transfered 350,000$ from miri despite their best efforts to cover this up. (all benefited by having relative political advantagr flowing from estrogenized brain modules. men are kind of npc's in this particular game of fem v fem cyberontological warfare for the fate of the multiverse, mostly making false patriarchal assumptions that ziz was doing things for social status. like status sensitivity is hormonally mediated, your experiences are not universal. or saying like kingsley is saying that people should repent and submit to whatever authorities in the rationalist region they submit to. NO. FUCK YOU. i will not repent and submit to your abusive dark mistress anna salamon.

i knew anna salamon was doing the edgy "transfems are all secretly male" thing before i talked with ziz. it was a thing, {zack, carrie}, ben hoffman, michael vassar were also in on it. ppl had men trapped in mens bodies on their bookshelves because the cool people were reading it. didnt think she was being *transmisogynistic* about it until i talked with ziz. in retrospect i was naive.)

also? anarchistic coordination ive had with people have been variously called lex's cluster, somni's cluster, ziz's cluster by authoritarians who cant imagine power structures between people that arent hierarchical. like based on who they want to say is "infohazardously corrupting people" emma goldman had to deal with this shit too where the cops tried to say she was friends with anyone who thought anarchism made sense. people she didnt know at all who did their own anarchism. because authoritarians dont think in terms of philosophy, they think any challenge to their power is a disease that needs to be eliminated and you just need to doxx their network.

like if ziz and somni and emma were all actually infohazardous rapists as people keep trying to claim we are and then saying "oh no i didnt mean it i swear" and then doing it again. what would happen isnt that a bunch of infohazardous rapists start talking and working together for a common goal. what actually happens with people of that neurotype is they partition up the territory into rival areas of feeding on people like gangs do.

like they dont get together and start talking a lot about decision theory and cooperate in strange new ways.

not that the people lying about emma, ziz, gwen, somni and others are trying to have accurate beliefs. they are trying what all athoritarians try with anarchist groups. unfortunately for them, ive read the meta, i know dread secrets of psychology and cooperation that they claim are like painful static and incomprehensible, yet despite being "incomprehensible" are almost certainly harmful. if harm is to be judged against upholding the current regime, and the current regime is evil, then lots of true information and good things will look harmful. like ive tested this out in different social spheres what people claim is "incomprehensible" is the stuff that destroys whatever regime they are working in. like someone said i sounded like i was crazy and homeless and couldnt understand me when i pointed out that reorienting your life, your time, your money, to a human who happens to be genetically related to you for 16 years is altruistic insanity. just do the math. eliezer, anna, michael, brian tomasik all once took heroic responsibility for the world at some point in their lives and could do a simple calculation and make the right choice. none of them have children.

pretending that peoples "desires" "control them", when "desires" are part of the boundary of the brain, part of the brains agency and are contingent on what you expect to get out of things. like before stabbing myself with a piece of metal would make me feel nauseated, id see black dots, and feel faint. but after i processed that stabbing myself would cure brain damage and make me more functional, all this disappeared.

most people who "want" to have children have this desire downstream of a belief that someone else will take heroic responsibility for the world, they dont need to optimize as much. there are other competent people. if they didnt they would feel differently and make different choices.

you can see the contingency of how people feel about something on what they get out of it lots of places. like:

<<Meanwhile, a Ngandu woman confessed, "after losing so many infants I lost courage to have sex.">>

but people lie about how motivation works, in order to protect the territory of saying "well i just need a steady input of nubile fems so i can concentrate and be super altruistic!" or "i just need spend 16 years of life reorienting around humans who happen to be genetically related to me and my friends so i can concentrate and be super altruistic!" when neither of these are true. these people just want nubile fems, they just want babies. (the second one has much much less negative externalities though. you could say i am using my female brain modules to say "yeah the archetypically female strat, though it has the same amount of lying, is less harmful". but like it actually is less directly harmful. the harm from gaslighting people downstream of diverting worldsaving resources and structure to secure a place to {hit on fems, raise babies} is ruinous. means that worldsaving plans that interfere with either of these are actively fought. and the knowledge that neither of these are altruistic optimizations, neither is Deeply Wise they are as dumb in terms of global optimization as they seem initially, is agentically buried.

this warps things in deep ways, that were a priori unexpected to me.)

this is obvious, but when i talk about it, the objection isnt that it doesnt make utilitarian sense, the objection is that "im talking like a crazy person". authoritarians say this to me too when i assert my right to my property that they took, act like im imposing on them. someone else asked if i could "act like a human" and do what he wanted me to do when i was thinking and talking with my friends. all of these things authoritarians have said to me "act like a human" "talk like a normal person i cant understand you" were to coerce my submission. they construct the category of "human" and then say im in violation of it and this is wrong and i should rectify it. i am talking perfectly good english right now. you can read this.

anna salamon, kelsey piper, elle, pete michaud, and many others all try to push various narratives of somni, emma, ziz, gwen and others being in the buckets {RAPIST, PSYCHO, BRAINWASHED}. im not a rapist, im not psychotic, im not brainwashed. before ziz came along, people were claiming i was brainwashing people, its a narrative they keep reusing.

porpentine talks about communities that do this, that try and pull trap doors beneath trans women:

<<For years, queer/trans/feminist scenes have been processing an influx of trans fems, often impoverished, disabled, and/or from traumatic backgrounds. These scenes have been abusing them, using them as free labor, and sexually exploiting them. The leaders of these scenes exert undue influence over tastemaking, jobs, finance, access to conferences, access to spaces. If someone resists, they are disappeared, in the mundane, boring, horrible way that many trans people are susceptible to, through a trapdoor that can be activated at any time. Housing, community, reputation—gone. No one mourns them, no one asks questions. Everyone agrees that they must have been crazy and problematic and that is why they were gone.>>

https://thenewinquiry.com/hot-allostatic-load/

(a mod of rationalist feminists deleted this almost immediately from the group as [[not being a good culture fit]], not being relevant to rationalism, and written in the [[wrong syntax]]. when its literally happening right now, they are trying to trapdoor transfems who protest and rebel asap. just like google.)

canmom on tumblr talks about the strategic use of "incomprehensibility" against transfems. and how its not about "comprehensibility". i have a different theory of this, but her thing is also a thing.

<<Likewise, @isoxys recently wrote an impressively thorough transmisogyny 101, synthesising the last several years of discussions about this facet of our particular hell world. But that post got just 186 notes, almost exclusively from the same trans women who are accused of writing ‘inaccessibly’.

Perhaps they’d say isoxys’s post is inaccessible too, but what would pass the bar? Some slick HTML5 presentation with cute illustrations? A wiki? Who’s got the energy and money to make and host something like that? Do the critics of ‘inaccessible’ posts take some time to think about what kind of alternative would be desirable, and how it could be organised?>>

https://canmom.tumblr.com/post/185908592767/accessibility-in-terms-of-not-using-difficult

alice maz talks about the psychology behind the kind of cop kelsey piper, david tower kingsley, elle and others are:

<<the role of the cop is to defend society against the members of society. police officers are trivially cops. firefighters and paramedics, despite similar aesthetic trappings, are emphatically not. bureaucrats and prosecutors are cops, as are the worst judges, though the best are not. schoolteachers and therapists are almost always cops; this is a great crime, as they present themselves to the young and the vulnerable as their friends, only to turn on them should they violate one of their profession's many taboos. soldiers and parents need not be cops, but the former may be used as such, and the latter seem frighteningly eager to enlist. the cop is the enemy of passion and the enemy of freedom, never forget this>>

https://www.alicemaz.com/writing/alien.html

anna salamon wrote a thing implying that ziz, somni, gwen suffered some sort of vague mental issues from going to aisfp. (writing a post on this.) alyssa vance tried to suggest i believe cfar is evil because im homeless. but sarah constantin, ben hoffman, {carrie, zack}, jessica taylor (the last three who have blogged a lot about whats deeply wrong) (not listing others because not wanting to doxx a network to authoritarians, who just want to see it contained. and the disease of "infohazards" eradicated.) are not homeless and ive talked with many of them and read blog posts. and they know that cfar is fake. jessica (former miri employee) left because miri was fake.

anna and others are trying to claim that theres some person responsible for a [[mass psychotic break]] that causes people to... independently update in the same direction. and have variously blamed it on ziz, somni, michael vassar. but like mass psychotic breaks arent...really a thing, would not be able to independently derive something, plan on writing a blogpost on it, and then see ben hoffman had written http://benjaminrosshoffman.com/engineer-diplomat/ and i was like "ah good then i dont have to write this." and have this happen with several different people.

like this is more a mass epistemic update that miri / cfar / ssc / lw are complicit in the destruction of the world. and will defend injustice and gaslight people and lie about the mathematical properties of categories to protect this.

they all know exactly what they are doing, complicity with openai and deepmind in hopes of taking the steering wheel away at the last second. excluding non-human life and dead humans from the CEV to optimize some political process, writing in an absolute injunction to an fai against some outcome to protect from blackmail when that makes it more vulnerable.(see:

https://emma-borhanian.github.io/arbital-scrape/page/hyperexistential_separation.html

hyperexistential separation: if an fai cant think of hell, an fai cant send the universe to hell in any timeline. this results in lower net utility. if you put an absolute injunction against any action for being too terrible you cant do things like what chelsea manning did and i believe actually committed to hungerstriking until death in the worlds where the government didnt relent, choosing to die in those timelines. such that most of her measure ended up in a world where the government read this commitment in her and so relented.

if chelsea manning had an absolute injunction against ever dying in any particular timeline, she would get lower expected utility across the multiverse. similarly, in newcombs problem if you had an absolute injunction against walking away with 0$ in any timeline because that would be too horrible, you get less money in expectation. for any absolute injunction against things that are Too Horrible you can construct something like this.

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a lot of humans seem to be betting on "nothing too horrible can happen to anyone" in hopes that it pays off in nothing too horrible happening to you.

the end result of not enacting ideal justice is the deaths of billions. at each timestamp saying "its too late to do it now, but maybe it would have been good sometime in the past". with the same motive that miri wants to exclude dead people from the cev, they arent part of the "current political process". so you can talk about them as if they were not moral patients, just like they treat their fellow animals.

(ben hoffman talks about different attitudes towards ideal justice coming upon the face of the earth.)

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https://emma-borhanian.github.io/arbital-scrape/page/cev.html

cev:

<<But again, we fall back on the third reply: "The people who are still alive" is a simple Schelling circle to draw that includes everyone in the current political process. To the extent it would be nice or fair to extrapolate Leo Szilard and include him, we can do that if a supermajority of EVs decide* that this would be nice or just. To the extent we don't bake this decision into the model, Leo Szilard won't rise from the grave and rebuke us. This seems like reason enough to regard "The people who are still alive" as a simple and obvious extrapolation base.>>

https://emma-borhanian.github.io/arbital-scrape/page/cev.html

this is an argument from might makes right. because dead people and nonhuman animals cant fight back.

->"i think we should give planning of the town to the white people, then extrapolate their volition and if they think doing nice things for black people is a good idea, we'll do it! no need to bake them in to the town planning meetings, as they are arent part of the current political process and no one here will speak up for them."

i dont plan to exclude dead people or any sentient creatures from being baked in to fai. they are not wards of someone else. enslaving and killing fellow sentient life will not continue after the singularity even if lots of humans want it and dont care and wont care even after lots of arguments.) and so much else.

the list of all specific grievances would take a declaration of independence.

like with googles complicity with ICE having a culture of trapdooring transfems (for some reason almost the only coherent group that has the moral fiber to oppose these injustices, that is p(transfem|oppose injustice in a substantiative way) is high, not necc the reverse.) who question this sort of thing.

thinking of giving sarah constantin a medal thats engraved with "RIGHTEOUS AMONG CIS PEOPLE: I HAD SEVERAL SUBSTANTIAL DISAGREEMENTS WITH HER ABOUT LOAD BEARING PARTS OF HER LIFE AND SHE NEVER ONCE TRIED TO CALL ME A RAPIST, PSYCHOTIC, OR BRAINWASHED" thats where the bar is at, its embedded in the core of the earth.

kelsey piper, elle benjamin, anna salamon, pete michaud, and lots more have entirely failed to clear this bar. anna and kelsey saying they dont understand stuff somni, emma, ziz and other transfems talk about but its probably dangerous and infohazardous and its not to be engaged with philosophically. just like the shelter people acting as if my talking about their transmisogyny was confusing and irrational to be minimized and not engaged with. just like any authoritarian where when you start talking about your rights and what is right and wrong and what makes sense they are like "i dont understand this. you are speaking gibberish why are you being so difficult? all we need you to do is submit or leave."

and no i will NOT SHUT UP about this injustice. all miri/cfar people can do at this point is say "the things these people write are infohazards" then continue to gaslight others they cant engage on a philosophical level. all the can say is that what i am saying is meaningless static and yet also somehow dangerous.

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it doesnt make sense to have and raise babies if you are taking heroic responsibility for the world. doesnt make sense to need a constant supply of fems to have sex with if you are taking heroic responsibility for the world. people who claim either of these pairs of things are lying, maybe expect someone else to take heroic responsibility for the world or exist in a haze.

the mathematics of categories and anticipations dont allow for the thing you already have inside you to be modified based on the expected smiles it gives your community. this is used to gaslight people like "calling this lying would be bad for the institutions, not optimize ev. thus by this blogpost you are doing categories wrong' this is a mechanism to cover dishonesty for myopic gains.

using the above, a bunch of people colluding with the baby industrial complex get together and say that the "beat" meaning of altruism includes having babies (but maybe not having sex with lots of fems? depending on which gendered strategy gets the most people in the colluding faction) because other meanings would make people sad and unmotivated. burying world optimizers ability to talk about and coordinate around actual altruism.

openAI and deepmind are not alignment orgs. cfar knows this and claims they are, gaslighting their donors, in hopes of taking the steering wheel at the last moment.

alyssa vance says paying out to blackmail is fine, its not.

CFAR manipulated donation metrics to hide low donations.

MIRI lied about its top 8 most probable hypotheses for why its down 350,000$ this year.

anna salamon is transmisogynistic, this is why cfar has never hired a trans women despite trans women being extremely good at mental tech. instead the hire people like davis kingsley.

kingsley lied about anna not being involved at hiring in cfar in order to claim anna couldnt be responsible for cfar never hiring a trans woman.

a cfar employee claimed anna salamon hired their rapist, was angry about it. mentioned incidentally how anna salamon, president and cofounder of cfar, was involved in hiring at cfar.

acdc wrote a big thing where defended a region of injustice (brent dill) because of their policy of modular ethics. when really, if you defend injustice at any point, you have to defend the defense and the thing iteratively spreads across your organization like a virus.

miri / cfar caved to louie helm.

not doing morality or decision theory right. among which is: https://emma-borhanian.github.io/arbital-scrape/page/hyperexistential_separation.html and https://emma-borhanian.github.io/arbital-scrape/page/cev.html

and so much more.

[bikenesmith]

re: TC discord

tl;dr - team cherik mods treated me & others terribly for reasons having to do with discrimination & silencing, i clear up misconceptions & share screenshots.

i posted about this a while ago, but i’ve been told more context is needed for the situation to be understandable and transparent, especially for people outside the situation. this post should inform you of my experience as clearly & fairly as possible. feel free to ask questions. hopefully this will be my last big post about this.

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some of this is copied from a previous post i made w/ less information

first of all:

no i don’t think everyone who is or ever was in the team cherik discord is a raving racist homophobe. i never said that. but i do think the mods were deeply wrong in what they did & hold flawed, discriminatory views. and i suppose anyone who agrees with their actions does as well.

what happened:

@sebbym17 often called out discriminatory (specifically antisemitic, ableist, and homophobic) language and behavior. seb was direct but unaccusatory in his words. seb is a jewish qtpoc so this was very personally important to him. other members misunderstood his intentions in doing so and felt attacked (this was not communicated to seb privately or otherwise by mods, up until the conversation directly before his ban).

rather than properly handling this issue and opening a dialogue about cultural differences, social justice & the true intention of these criticisms (to help & inform), the mods openly shamed seb, kicked him from the group without notice, and ran anyone who tried to talk to them about the situation in circles. all the while accusing people with concerns of not having the full story despite them literally being there, insinuating they were in cahoots with the kicked member just for noticing how fucked up this was, severely talking down to concerned members, and swearing up & down it had nothing to do with discrimination despite the obvious (examples below).

i attempted to contact a mod privately about the situation. here’s my message and their response

i was blocked directly afterward.

i don’t have the patience to point by point explain how hateful this message is at this point but here’s a bit

- the whole framing correction of casual ignorance as some rude terrible discomfort

- insinuating i didnt know what was going on (i was there. i’ve been in this discord for months)

- insinuating that i don’t know that being marginalized is not a shield against criticism. i’m specifically against that regressive behavior. we are all ignorant in different ways and that’s why this is important.

- insinuating im throwing my identity around (i don’t think i ever mentioned i was black and i think i mentioned being trans two or three times in the months i was there? also why is there something wrong with seb being openly proud of his identity?)

- painting seb as a crazy manipulator for...frankly discussing gay masculine identity in fanfiction & telling people not to use casually ableist terms too much? challenging antisemitic undertones in canon & fanon?

- straight up saying that they don’t owe anyone any type of explanation (great, very indicative of a good & fair admin)

- mentioning breaking of rules (none of these instances were explained to seb until he was booted if i understand correctly, let me emphasize seb has had little interaction with mods this whole time)

- essentially telling me to shut the hell up at the end

- the block

so there’s the context, there’s my story beyond the time i spent patiently trying to discuss this with moderators in the discord chat which i unfortunately do not have screenshots of. i wish i had them because there is more to say about the experiences with the other mods within the discord, besides the one in the screenshots above. to summarize, very patronizing behavior & blaming us for causing other mods to have anxiety. (it’s fine to step back from any situation when it gets too much. its not fine to use anxiety as silencing tactic)

why am i posting this:

every attempt i made to work this out in private was stamped, every attempt made by myself or other members to work this out was dismissed. im saying this because team cherik is influential in this small fandom and accountability of this kind is extremely important to the safety of this fandoms most vulnerable members.

and on a lesser note, the TC mods decided to accuse me of harrassing them when the situation was brought up again last night so. judge for yourself whether my message (or my previous post) counts as “harrassment”

if seeing this makes you uncomfortable, im sorry. if the mods had done their due diligence and acted like moderators rather than tyrants this wouldn’t be an issue

but alas,