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romanticviolence · 1 day ago

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#oh you know just laying in the bed she used to sleep with me in #eating snacks i have left from the weekend stay when she gave me some for work #looking at snap memories of her #in a pair of her sweatpants wearing one of her 'signature scents'#listening to flash by cigarettes after sex #wondering where it all went wrong #i want to die im so sad without her #i think about her no matter who im with or what im doing #i still want to cry all of the time #also sorry im posting she rambles here now bc i dont think she checks this blog #like. this is pining then huh?#i feel like such an idiot #ive fucked so much up and a lot has happened and it feels like its unfixable and like no amount of time will heal us #i wish she realized that i dont want that to be true and that all i ever wanted was her even when i broke up with her #it wasnt because i wanted to because there was love lost #i felt like i had to #before it got so bad it destroyed one or both of us #but now i feel like being broken up is destroying me #i dont know anymore its so complicated i just miss her so much and it kills me to know that she probably been hurting a LOT #but im also still so angry at her for the way she treated me and thats complicating things #bc its so much easier to focus on the anger but thats really not all thats there im also so depressed and heartbroken and i miss her #and i regret so much #i dont know im gonna go overthink and check my email some more #personal.txt

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lucabyte · 2 months ago

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Different standards

#didnt mean to do this one in quote unquote colour but it wasnt legible without it so. heres a treat i suppose #isat #isat spoilers #in stars and time #in stars and time fanart #isat fanart #isat loop #isat bonnie #lucabyteart #coughs up a lung. anyway. ramble time as per usual. this is what i was warming up for btw in case it wasnt obvious #besides being another entry in the 'letting bonnie read loop for filth on accident' series. this is mostly self indulgent musings on #headcanons (and i will just use that word here.) ive previously rambled about in other tags and posts #namely: in the scenario that loop integrates into the party as a New Person for quite a while before The Truth Come Out. i feel they have #a decent chance at really scoring a slam dunk in becoming a guardian figure for bonnie? loop's demeanor is already colder and a tiny #bit more level-headed than siffrin's in the way they seem to discuss bonnie with them. namely pointing out that bonnie #never really hated them. it seems to be one thing they're genuinely at peace with? they've seen by now the truth that bonnie #was just scared and upset. and likely now knows that what bonnie wants is to be treated with grown-up respect within reason. plus loop #already scores bonus points with bonnie since they didnt 1. fuck up bad like sif did in act 5 and 2. saved sif in the party's eyes #... but then when it turns out that this clean-slate relationship with a stranger was siffrin being deceitful? must have been odd.#bonnie seems to really dislike being lied to. the question is whether they'd see it that way? would they feel betrayed there?#anyway. this is set after all those emotions are at least settled some. loop able to be more physically affectionate... and yet #still not letting themselves be quite as close as they'd like perhaps. perhaps...#anyway translucent pyjamas because i dont care if you're comforting a crying child you've GOT to SERVE!!!#and also i feel like the party probably wouldn't let loop stay completely naked for that long. especially not post-reveal anyway

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ryllen · 1 year ago

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Apologize my humor is like this but i really had tear in my eyes because of how funny it sounds to me [x]

#spoiler #twisted wonderland #twst #malleus draconia #lilia vanrouge #fanart #twst yuu #twst mc #as someone who plays pokemon i can't let it go #i spent all those time cycling to try getting a shiny pokemon #and that exact cry brings such nostalgic feeling #i gave up bcs i found no shiny from hatching fsh #i still kinda want a black wooloo

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hinamie · 5 months ago

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fire nation festival wear aka a blatant excuse for me to push atla clothing design conventions to the absolute Limit

jjk atla!au with @philosophiums

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #fanart #jjk fanart #fushiguro megumi #itadori yuuji #kugisaki nobara #jjk atla!au #atla!au: art #atla!au: illust #atla!au: design #lmhs #yuuji #megumi #nobara #there i go again putting way too much effort into designs that will b featured in all of one (1) chapter probably #the first fire nation fit i did for yuuji isnt even fic canon btw for the majority of th time theyll just be in their earth kingdom clothes #and these r the only fire nation clothes they'll Actually wear fr a significant amt of time #so feel free 2 disregard th other fit i designed for yuuji in that ask because this is all i want to see him in Ever actually #no ankles no chest no toes showing my boy is FULLY clothed. not an INCH of skin exposed. no sinful clothing cuts here no sir #did i draw him buttoned up from head to toe out of spite? maybe :)#'fire nation is based on imperial japan' me: on it boss taisho era inspired festival wear comin RIGHt up #real talk though these designs put me through the Wringer cries combining those two influences ws so hard...#all 3 braincells working *nanami voice* overtime smh #imo the final designs still ended up being a far cry from atla canon but i cant be bothered anymore they look Fine its Fine #my kids r dressed 2 the nines and that was the goal

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deoidesign · 2 months ago

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when your main characters start dating after years of writing so they finally get to be like this

#rare WIP preview from me #this is in like. 10 episodes. lmfao #its been really hard working this far ahead #my editor isnt giving me any feedback and my friends are very busy so it's felt quite lonely #which is fine! for my friends I mean. but its my editors job to give me feedback...#but the webtoon editors are extremely extremely extremely overworked and my series is set to end so I understand its low priority #its not her fault its webtoons fault. however. its still demotivating...#oh well l m a o #I should be much further ahead ngl LMFAO I want like 12 done but I come back in 2 weeks.#we'll see #when I get really stressed out I go full gamer mode #and usually I'll sink like 60 hours (like 5 days) into a game and then I'm good and move on #but this recent game that grabbed me is. its too much actually #bit uncontrollable ngl I think its an ADHD thing I mostly have just quit playing videogames at all #cause its like yeah being stressed cause theres too much work to do is not going to be helped by losing a week and a half to a game...#and yet.#anyways the game is satisfactory #my friend bought it for me and we've been playing together #and our shared file has. 100 hours on it. and we still havent beaten the game #we're close to beating it and it's not like we're rushing or anything #cause its fun to fuck around and zap eachother or whatever #but it's got me doing math. the exact kind of math I love to do. optimization #and its reminding me yeah in another life id have been an engineer #I'm glad I'm an artist but its always weird like yeah this is easily a path I could have gone down #'artists hate math' speak for yourself doing math calms me down! I love math!#I love math and I love business. I'm almost the perfect artist but I hate advertising so. we can't have it all #anyways theyre so fucking cute its sickening. I love them so much. I could cry #WIP #lineart #time and time again

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the-bitter-ocean · 6 months ago

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(ACT 5 SPOILERS) Ageswap MDP Moments (RUH ROH)

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ganondoodle · 2 months ago

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(wip? possibly?)

this is a part of the painting that made me cry yesterday bc nothing worked, its not like i had it in mind, but maybe not all is lost yet

(OCs, at the bottom there, Zaphira she/her, and big lad, Shargon he/they)

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arttsuka · 3 months ago

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Based on somewhat real events

I spent way too much time drawing this...

But yeah, Ford finally saying thank you

A continuation (kinda)

#sometimes my skin smells too strongly and I hate it. I wanna crawl up and die. it's not that bad usually #only when I'm already overstimulated #there were 2 times where I was sick and I started crying and almost threw up because the smells were too strong #one time the smell of tge city. the other time it was roasted chicken. I still feel sick when I smell reheated chicken to this day #I'd love to have someone comfort me and rub my back in these moments but 1. I don't want anyone to touch me and #2. I feel like I don't deserve to be touched because it's an inconvenience to others #anyway enough about me. I am now projecting in these characters #I hate drawing their faces so much #gravity falls #stanford pines #ford pines #young stanford pines #stan pines #stanley pines #young stan pines #art #fanart #traditional art #comic #long post #watercolor #forgot to mention but I can't take a shower when the sun is still up except if I was swimming in a pool/sea. no specific reason I just can'#projecting to Ford because Stan would never feel like that :/ oh well #is this cringe? maybe. probably. do I care? no. not really #I'm self diagnosing myself with 'definitely something wrong but not further specified' because this can't be normal #btw sorry if this is disappointing. I tried my best (the first part is pretty neat imo)#wonder if anyone is gonna read all of these tags #is this the worst thing you've seen yet?#teen stan #teen ford

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nopefer-art-tu · 4 months ago

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Home is where I want to be, but I guess I'm already there

I come home, she lifted up her wings. I guess that this must be the place

I can't tell one from another—Did I find you, or you find me?

There was a time before we were born

If someone asks, this where I'll be

Where I'll be

#brokeback mountain #ennis del mar #jack twist #heath ledger #jake gyllenhaal #annie proulx #ang lee #cowboys #gay cowboys #cowboy #gay cowboy #gay #mlm #queer cinema #queer lit #hey...hi...hello...#i actually dont just talk about brokeback mountain all day long contrary to popular belief. sometimes i also make art #i actually started this back in december for bbm's anniversary and in that time i discovered i have a new adversary:#drawing grass #but it's finished... it's finished... i can rest easy now knowing that ive finished this art that has singlehandedly killed my creativity #the art that i have been screaming shitting crying about struggling with for 7 months now #which will only get like 9 notes max #but that's OKAY. i did this for me. i needed to be the change i wanted to see in the world(seeing ennis looking at jack like he's the sun)#my art #still brokeback posting

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chancheols · 18 days ago

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"I feel like I had nothing to hide. I didn't feel like I had to show you my good side. I feel like I can be myself around you."

#hwang hyunjin #han jisung #hyunjin #jisung #han #hyunsung #userlau #usersa #forhanji #hyunjinsource #staydaily #skzco #e01o #daily3racha #*hyunjin #*jisung #*hyunsung #a hyunsung video of all time. for the history books.#i'm going to be real i'm a little fatigued by the rap better dance better label lol but i get it and they still refer to themselves that wa #so i can't be too annoyed #considering how much i love the enemies to friends and/or lovers trope it makes sense that I love this duo in particular so much lol #them talking about how they almost physically fought with each other to crying over each other :))))))))))))) I'm fine who even cares #when i learn how to write captions it's so over #i definitely think i'll revisit this video again because they said sooo much that I want to immortalise on this blog #the caption being one of many such instances #anyways i am done being insane over them (a woman who is lying)

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fairyroses · 7 months ago

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He was about to kill you, Lex. Or divulge something you didn't want me to know.

— SMALLVILLE, "Forever" (4.21)

+ bonus from "Arctic" (7.20):

#smallville #smallvilleedit #svedit #lex luthor #jason teague #lionel luthor #clark isn't in these scenes but they're still very much #clex #sv 4x21 #sv 7x20 #dcmultiverse #my gifs #'why can't you see what's right in front of your face lex?' god. god. godddd.#I think there's a really interesting discussion to be had (with many potential viewpoints)#re: to what extent lex actually knew the truth either consciously or subconsciously at any particular time #and how much he was just in denial about it (and why)#I'm not really prepared to have that discussion in these tags but like #let's face it - lex figured out that clark had powers all the way back in 1x12 #just because clark convinced him he was wrong at the time doesn't mean he just forgot that whole thing #and yet it seemed like the more seasons went on and the more obvious the truth became #especially the fact that clark was so heavily tied to all the alien weirdness of smallville #the more lex seemed to (subconsciously?) push back against accepting or recognizing that truth #I mean that's literally what he's doing in the 4x21 scene with jason #so it's like he both desperately wanted to know clark's secret but also didn't want to know at all #and that's just SO interesting #I mean jesus the 7x20 scene is supposed to be peak evil lex and yet he STILL has to be pushed into accepting the truth #and he does so with his eyes glistening because yeah he wanted to know clark's secret once upon a time but he never wanted THIS #(remember when lex told jonathan in s1 that he just wanted clark to have a happy normal life bc clark was such a good person?#and then he's told in 7x20 that to save the world he has to KILL clark and take that life away from him hahaha [crying] it's fine I'm FINE)#wow I really said 'I'm not prepared to have this discussion' and then just. proceeded to have it anyway huh. lmao oops

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diathadevil · 1 year ago

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Day 7 - Scatter

His biggest fear.

(Bonus doodle underneath because I felt bad for Fakir so I ended up making this into a dream sequence comic :'] )

#fakiru week #fakiru week 2023 #princess tutu #fakiru #fakir #ahiru arima #ahiru #aaaAAAAAAHAHAHAHA I'M SORRY Y'ALL I MADE HIM SAD AND CRY but we needed more crying Fakir honestly let's be real let's be HONEST #you think I've seen enough of him being a wet sad pathetic man??? nuh uh I want to see him have recurring nightmares even years later #man probably still thinks all those times she's told him she loves him will bring consequences or something and she'll suddenly disappear #he fears she's gonna turn to dust one day even after marrying her and having children together #art #comic #digital art #fan art #anime

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shadystranger · 6 months ago

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throughout dean's death scene he tries to hide his pain from the rebar stabbing right through him. he keeps smiling and tries to joke as much as he can to lessen sam's sadness because sam keeps looking at him all panicked and crying

like dean plays his own death off to be as sweetly as possible to sam he tries to assure him, coddle him as if when they were kids and he'd try to make sam laugh to take his mind off everything terrible in their life

#samdean #wincest #spn #sam winchester #dean winchester #supernatural #if someone looks for me tell them im still here #...shitting bricks crying rivers #going insane bc i remember that time they were fighting and dean proceeded to make every joke in the book #the butt of the joke was even himself too and it was all just because he wanted to make sam laugh #this happened in like s6-s8 and i never recovered. it was after the amy thing when they were sitting in the fortunetelling cafe #mine

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nobodysdaydreams · 1 day ago

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I don’t know to what extent the “they added stuff to Wicked Part 2” is true, but if they did add stuff, I’m gonna need the Wizard to face the music a little bit more because his story ends with him believing he murdered his own child for the stupidest of reasons and that needs more attention.

Not only is he a deadbeat and a powerless con man, but he puts a hit out on his own long-lost daughter (the witch) who once looked up to him as a hero. He even sends a lost little girl (Dorothy) to do the job, since he’s too much of coward to face the witch himself.

Does he do this because Elphaba is trying to kill him?

No, he does it because she’s calling out his animal abuse and won’t use her own super powerful magic to help her old man trick people into thinking he’s cool.

Do they at least have an “I am your father moment” like in Star Wars?

No, in the musical, she never finds out (though that might be for the best), but when the Wizard does, he had the audacity to act shocked and sad even though he was getting with random women in his youth and giving them all mysterious green beverages so really this shouldn’t be surprising, statistically he likely had a kid out there somewhere and if he “always wanted to be a dad” or cared as much as he claimed, he really should have been on that. But he was only concerned with dodging the child support payments, and now he thinks his only child is dead because of him.

So does he at the very least clear her name, accept whatever punishment the people see fit for his crimes, hold a funeral for Elphaba, or perhaps try to finish what she started by beginning to make right or undo the horrible crimes that he committed?

Nah. He’s just like “welp. The jig is up, time to skedaddle” and sadly gets in his hot air balloon and regretfully lets the breeze blow him away.

Like, no. He should not get away that easy. I want his stupid balloon to crash in the middle of a field where Elphaba and Fiyero find him crying over her green bottle and are like:

“Let me get this straight. You’re swept away to a magic land. Your first move is getting with random women and giving them mysterious magic green liquids before you con your way into taking over the land and silencing all the animals by making them literal scapegoats. Then, you’re looking for someone to help you keep up your charade, and a person whose age + 9 months is equal to the amount of time that’s passed since you got with those random women and gave them green elixirs shows up, a green person, the only green person in this entire realm, who is insanely powerful in a way no one can explain, and it never, never, occurs to you to check whether or not this is your child!???”

The Wizard (through pathetic tears as he lovingly strokes the green bottle): “I said I was a sentimental man. Never said I was a smart one. Someone green’s age + 9 months = time since I last saw a pretty woman and gave her a mysterious green beverage is very, very hard math.”

Fiyero: “Are you sure you’re not the one without a brain?”