#i still never find my own art on google idek how you get to my blog that must have been a long journey 😭😭😭

[miutonium]

A few weeks ago i jokingly searched up professor utonium fanart and came across your page, and now i think about him 24/7. I blame you for making me simp for this cube man. (OK BUT ACTUALLY I LOVE YOUR ART A LOT??!? LIKE SRSLY KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK)

My agenda is slow but its working, we have now 4 Utonium stans that I am aware of and if I collect 7 more we can build a soccer team of Utonium stans

Thank you for taking my job because I need someone else to take mu role of thinking of this rectangular man 24/7, thank you for taking one for the team o7

But also aaAAAHHH A UTONIUM STAN! I FEEL TRULY HONOURED FOR MAKING YOU FELL FOR THE SQUARE MAN 😭😭😭 I hope you enjoy looking at all of the little meow meows drawing of him 🤧🤧🤧 thank you for the compliment I appreciate it so much and I will now draw more little meow meows for you and the 3 other Utonium stans 🥺💕💕💕

[hel7l7]

This may come across as a odd and out of nowhere question, but its something that ive been thinking about for a long time now and haven't really the chance to ask anyone of what I call on the same artistic vibe, but where did you get the courage/inspiration to post your art? Ive always wanted to post my own but ive always feared of my art getting rejected or worse stolen, its the main thing holding me back, and just wanted to know what your experience was like? Sry if this is too personal ily🥰

U can ask me anything and tbh I don’t think this is an odd question at all! So lemme type. 

Before I had this tumblr I had this vent tumblr on where I posted just random shit about everything that happened in my life. It was a very unhealthy and negative space for me. And when certain people violated my privacy I deleted the blog.  At that time, I think the blog had like 10 art pieces of mine on there. Maybe it’s still findable on tumblr - idek tbh. And those got quite a few notes already. While the blog had like... 400 followers or something.  So I think that made me gain some confidence. I liked the idea of posting my art online because.. I don’t know. It felt like some shout into the void. It wasn’t really something I decided to do. It just felt right and I did it.  Even if it was just for myself and no one would like it. With the collages I also feel less pressure compared to my “regular” art. I do this because if I don’t make collages -I feel like I go insane. I draw and paint (aka “regular art��  because I want to make something pretty. And that’s a difference. With this I care much less about what other people think about it. Because it’s what I felt and made when I needed it.  What also helped me A LOT. Is the anonymity. At this point I’ve let quite a few facts about myself slip and with that it’s less mysterious than it used to be. But when I first started I just didn’t answer any question that would be a little bit personal. I show my feelings and deep laying fears and thoughts. But everything about me as a person aside from that I try to keep from here. And that’s fine. I’m here to share my art - not my personality or my selfies.  That made it easier to do it. I did it for myself and not because what other people thought of it.  About your art being rejected. It’s going to happen. Not everyone is going to like it. People have different tastes and styles, and we can’t all love the same things.  But that’s okay. If you stand for the things you made, and you like it, then that should be the most important! (When I started this blog I never meant for it to become so big, I didn’t care what people thought, I didn’t care if people liked it.) Don’t make the audience the goal, do it for yourself! The rest will follow. You can’t chase the audience. It’s simply impossible. If the audience likes X and you want to move on to Y then you should be able to do that, because it’s what you want.  Art being stolen or used without permission. This too is going to happen. And it sucks. It sucks balls.  I wasn’t very aware of how and when this would happen. But after a while I got a few messages, people asking for prints, or commissions. I’ve made things for people without getting a payment or adres to send it to. I have my own prints on my walls because someone asked for them and then never replied. I have gotten messages from friends who saw my art on others people pages. I’ve googled my blog and found my art on places I didn’t put it. And this too happens...  Like I said.. when I started I never even thought about people liking my art. So I never thought about this either. But if you want to or can, maybe think of a watermark or anything alike. (I want to do it but I find it so much work and I honestly haven’t found the time yet. But I might make some.) Anyway, you can think about that.   The last thing I wanted to mention is that I must say that my mindset in art changed through this blog. And not always in a positive way.  With all things mentioned above, the good always outweighed the bad. I have gotten so many messages from people who I have inspired, or helped, or made feel less alone in their struggle, that I didn’t care about the negative. The stolen art, the criticism, the time it takes to keep up with this blog and the pressure I feel sometimes.  But on some days I find myself getting too obsessed with the numbers. The notes/followers. And that makes that sometimes I lose the fun in it. I notice it now though, when I lose myself in it. But I wish it didn’t matter to me like it did in the beginning. But that too is a process I will grow in. So.. I’m sure I’ll find my way in it.  okay - i s t g - this was the longest answer to an ask ever. and also the most chaotic one I think. 

I hope I answered your question - and if not message me again ;) because this was a bit of a ramble. 

Love

- B. 

p.s. Go for it, share your art with the world! 

[todokori-kun]

The

 queen is back and I’m so freaking happy <3

‘annoyed’ nothing you say is annoying ok, I’m actually just really relieved and happy that I’m helping in any way at all. Also you listen to my rambling all the time and you supported me with my anxiety (you have no idea how much our convos helped after I first saw a doctor about it and was feeling really confused about what to do) so ‘what did I do to deserve you’ is probably what I should be saying to you.

Tbh when things are as serious as you’ve described then you’re definitely not overreacting. Like I said before, I’m always ready to listen/talk when you need to. And you don’t have to stress about replies; I honestly don’t mind at all as long as you’re ok.

Thank you Queen Luna you’re the best ;-;

Also, good news and bad news:

Bad news- A bit after I sent the last message mom apparently found out about Tumblr and decided that I probably shouldn’t get an account here because of all the NSFW content. I get why she’s worried so I guess I won’t be getting an account here for a while.

Good news- HOWEVER, I was chatting with someone on ao3 and they asked if we could move our convo somewhere else. They recommended something called Discord so I got an account there. If you’ve never heard of Discord it’s basically a voice and text chat system usually used by gamers, but it seems to be pretty popular among non-gamers too. PMing is possible there :D (The only flaw is that you can’t send very long messages, so you have to send multiple short ones, which is a bit annoying…but otherwise it’s pretty neat so maybe we can try it if you’re ok with that?)

XD yeah that’s actually pretty accurate.

*reads Luna’s message*

*inhale*

UM. DO YOU HAvE ANY IDEA HOW AMAZING YOU ARE. LET ME TRY TO BE A GOOD, SUPPORTIVE FRIEND AND TELL YOU

Yep it was one of the grossest things that ever happened to me OTL I’m still swimming but I’m taking a long break right now- a break that started because my little sister broke her toe and we were basically stuck at home taking care of her (the pool is a bit far for me to go on my own so if mom’s stuck at home so am I), and then got longer because the pool’s old and some things had to be ‘fixed’, and then got even longer because my coach is getting married (just reread that and realized that I sound super annoyed, I’m actually not, I have no problem with my coach getting married XD). I’ll probably start again around next month, though :)

Thanks ^^

Oooh are you a comic fan??? I haven’t read any superhero comics because there seem to be so many AUs(?)/different timelines so trying to figure out where to start is really confusing, plus I actually sorta prefer manga/manhwa art styles (not that wester comics are bad- a lot of them have really good art too, I just personally prefer the manga/manhwa styles (especially for the panels). Also the ecchi-ish costumes/anatomy for almost every single female superhero gets a bit ridiculous sometimes lol). Some of them seem really fun, though, and I’d like to try them out someday…

It’s really cool that you’ve been a fan of T'challa for so long, it must’ve been even more exciting to see him in the movie :D

Imagine everyone watching The Winter Soldier together. Then the  'brainwashed bucky’ scenes start.

Illumi: *stares intently at the screen*

Illumi: I see no problem with this.

Watching Civil War and Leorio goes Dad Mode and covers Gon’s and Killua’s eyes when Hisoka starts making…innappropriate…noises during the fight scenes

(Hisoka low-key writing reader insert lemons about various MCU heroes. Most likely Natasha (because she’s a lot like Machi, his only female crush so far), Bruce (how Hisoka would love to unleash the beast), Thor (he’s a literal GOD imagine how badly he could mess Hisoka up *schwing*), Wanda, and Vision (he probably liked Loki too before Loki got beat up by the Hulk and Hisoka was like ‘oh I have a new senpai’)

Then Illumi gets Milluki (his tech genius little brother) to hack into Hisoka’s computer for info and is like 'what is this Hisoka I do not understand why you derive pleasure from this trash’)

Everyone thinks Gon should relate to Tony on a personal level but he doesn’t, because despite being a sunshine angel he’s also a freaking weird kid who doesn’t hate Ging. At all. (Though that might have something to do with the fact that he doesn’t even consider Ging his parent in the first place; he never even calls him 'dad’ or 'my father’)

Killua, on the other hand, relates to Bucky a bit too much and thinks HYDRA is basically the Zoldyck family.

Everybody’s Team Cap except for Illumi, who’s Team Iron Man (“Why would you want to break the rules?”), and then Hisoka randomly shows up like 'Team Hulk ;)’

Every time Howard Stark is mentioned everyone just stares at Ging, who shifts uncomfortably

(Yeah did I tell you about the time Leorio punched Ging for being a trash dad?)

OMG. Thank you for that. I’ve seen a lot of 'Hisoka as the clown from the 'It’ movie’ posts on tumblr but never any fanart for that idea. Run, Gon. Run.

I’m considering teaching myself to animate just to make those animatics XD

(Also, random thing: it’s Chuseok over here (basically like the Korean version of Thanksgiving, I guess?) and usually, people recieve money from older relatives during holidays like this in Korea. I got about 80 dollars (50 from my maternal grandparents, 10 from my paternal grandfather and 20 from my uncle) so I’m debating on what to spend it on: It’s either a tablet so I can learn how to do digital art (I’m thinking about polishing my drawing skills for a while and then making a webcomic. My parents support this so they’re willing to pay a little extra for a tablet) or a ukulele (I like the piano but I realized a while ago that it’d be great to have an instrument that I can carry around, so I did some research and the ukulele seems good. I really like the sound so I’m willing to put some effort into learning it). Idk which one I should choose, though. Technically the tablet should be my priority but I also like the ukulele…

(and idek why I mentioned this either, guess the talk about animating reminded me of the tablet lol))

I thrive on angst. Tragedy fuels me. (But tbh HxH is a LOT darker than I was prepared for. I’m currently shipping an ant king with a genius human girl and I know from spoilers that they’re both going to die)

Yeah, she’s alive :D but apparently Kaneki is now 'dead’ (though I don’t think he is really, if Ishida kills him off now (after all the stuff with Hide? All the character development Ken hasn’t gotten yet? When he still hasn’t talked about anything with Shuu or Hinami or even Akira?) and gives us a new protagonist or something I might finally rage-quit this series.

Or not, since with all the Touken stuff and Kaneki being sorta insensitive ever since he became the OEK…maybe a new protagonist is what we need?). I was liking all the parallels with Arima in the first series until this, because it was just…um. I think my main problem with the whole thing is the freakng PACING because it just feels so clunky and awkward. This is probably one of those chapters that will be really good if Ishida somehow manages to connect it with the next chapters and has everything make sense later, but if he doesn’t do it well it’s going to suck forever OTL

At least TG finally confirmed Naki’s death, though. I mean, the ideal situation for me is if he never died in the first place, but at least a confirmed death is better than Ishida suddenly bringing him back to life after that panel with Yamori. And his death scene was handled well. (Now please just tell me that he, Kanae and Hairu aren’t coming back as Kanou-Furuta zombies and I will be semi-satisfied)

Also AOT if you haven’t read the new chapter yet spoilers but

(The-Reiner-Eren reunion I HAVE WAITED SO. LONG FOR THIS

Also Eren’s grandad ;-;

And maybe we’ll finally be seeing Annie again soon since she’s been appearing in so many flashbacks and Reiner’s probably going to ask about her if he and Eren get to actually talk

Love those hints about something finally starting to change

ANOTHER PERSON FROM MIKASA’S CLAN? I hope we see this lady again, she’s lovely

I can’t believe how much the art has improved, it actually looks GOOD now 0.0)

Aw, that’s ok! I’ll be looking forward to seeing it when you get a new skirt :D

Yeah, I’m really excited for OC’s name too…must be something important if they’re keeping it hidden for this long. I guess it’s French (or a word from some other non-English language) since 'Ciel’ is French for 'Sky’…and it probably has a meaning related to the sky since they’re twins. Idk. Maybe it’s the word for 'star’ ('etoile’) since stars are also a big thing in this arc?

Looking forward to your reaction! I haven’t read the novel yet but from what I know it sounds great :D (also I cannot resist the L + Naomi duo even if they never actually interacted in manga/anime canon)

Btw, is it ok if I ask how far you’ve gotten with the DN anime?

(Also fun fact: Ryuk was originally designed to look like a handsome young man (an 'attractive rock star’, in the words of DN’s creators. You can find a pic of his original design on google). His design was changed because the creators felt like he was overshadowing Light XD

But also, I just found a post on tumblr that said Takeshi Obata (DN’s artist) mentioned that Ryuk’s face in canon could just be a mask to hide his true appearance…which means that he could technically still look like that in canon. Wow. I actually think I have the book where it says Obata mentioned that, I have to go and check it now lol)

Watch it if you dare and prepare to weep over all the wasted potential, because now that I read/watch more about it I guess the saddest thing is that it COULD have been great. I mean, like I said, the visuals are REALLY good, L’s actor could have been a good L if not for the bad script, Ryuk’s actor/design were also super great (it’s just his role in the movie and his motivations they messed up ;-;)…

I don’t watch Avatar (I’d like to when I have the time, though, because it seems like a great show) but I’ve heard of that movie and tbh I can’t even.

Ty :D (Ayy the queen said I’d make a cute Peridot *fangirls*

You’re also my closest friend right now and I love talking to you so much <3 thank you for everything Luna.)

See this is why you’re awesome. Thank you so much ;-; (and what, did Queen Luna mention me to her parents. Did I make a good impression. Omg. (jk, jk lol))

Also: I’d like to rec a song to you, it’s called 'Lovely’ by Twenty One Pilots :D

Oh look I actually replied within a week :’)

OK ILL START W DISORD BC IM EXCITE. I already have one, from a while ago, my # is 5773! So add me whenever you want ^^ ((But please just send me a short message here, cause I turned notifs off for it, so i can turn them on again ^^)) Well, uh, here’s the thing about short messages.  If a site/app has an instant message feature, you can bet I’ll be the one to split a sentence into 10 separate messages for dramatic effect… So, uh, prepare to have 42 new messages instead of like 4 waiting when you open the app ^^

I never ever ever have any problems with listening to you. I just appreciate you’re comfortable enough with me to be able to come to me. Honestly, I truly appreciate you in my life, especially considering that you can always reassure me with your words ^^ Truly a writer’s talent :p

Well, I’m going to a psychologist soon, so we’ll see what they’ll say. Idk tho, I dont think I even care anymore. I just want this stomach thing to pass as soon as possible.

Ouch, I hope your sister is better now… I’ve never broken anything so I wouldn’t know the feeling. Aww, coaches getting married is actually the cutest thing ever XD My archery coach got married a few years back and she was practically glowing.  Ah, if you don’t mind me asking, do you have a particular stroke you specialise in or do you just swim everything? 

I could say the same about comic/manga styles. Tbh, I don’t really consider myself a comic fan? When I was a kid, I used to buy the children’s comics to ward off boredom, but never really continued after I got into reading actual books. Black Panther happened to be among those comics and I remembered him when they mentioned T’Challa in CW. I wonder if i still have those old comics somewhere… But yeah, i was pretty excited when they mentioned him XD

That viewing actually sounds amazing… I get the feeling they’d all want to do an in depth analyzation of the characters? (But idk i don’t really know the characters that well) except for Hisoka, who’s probably just schwinging around being creepy per usual. I’m torn between wanting to read those lemons and just backing the fuck away…. Probably read like a paragraph and then set everything on fire. Yeah, that sounds good. 

I presume you’re not gonna watch IT? Random, but i thought of it bc of the fanart… Tbh I won’t watch it either. I’ve never watched a single horror movie in my life and i intend to keep it that way. Unless you count Coraline as horror, which I actually would in some ways? Idk tho, that movie traumatised me. Not even joking when I say I occasionally have nightmares related to it. Advice; if you haven’t, DO NOT WATCH CORALINE. Don’t be fooled by the fact that it’s a cartoon. I mean 9 is a cartoon, but it’s also freaking dark. HAPPY TREE FRIENDS IS A CARTOON AND I WOULDNT TOUCH THE VIDEOS WITH A 9 FOOT POLE.  Long story short, cartoons are not a joke.

For some reason I confused the Ukulele with a Lute and was like ‘I’m not gonna judge, but… why?’ then i actually googled it and realised I’m an idiot.  But, um, I can’t say anything other than it’s your choice and you should do whatever would make you happier? There’s that trick of throwing a penny in the air and if you’re disappointed when it lands heads/tails, you know you want the other one. Idk, tho, both options sound equally nice!

… HxH gets weirder every time you tell me about it

KANEKI IS WHAT NOW Um, okay then.... alrighty...

guess who dropped TG again

WELL FUCK IM SCREAMING ABOUT THE NEW CHAPTER WHOAH EREN’T GRAMPA WHOAH THE REUNION However, the best part is Reiner acting like a dad during the festival

Oooh Etoile would be interesting!

I’m still at the ep where L dies ;-; I haven’t had the time to move forward, so I’m hoping I’ll be able to watch some during this weekend

Well, uh. My mom came into my room while I was writing this and had to ask me why i was crying (I’m pretty sure she thought I was having one of my all-time-lows again). The reason why I was actually crying? The song. Words can’t express my gratitude. I’d download it, but tbh I feel like I’ll start ugly sobbing again every time I listen to it...

random note, i started going to school by train! It’s actually a lot nicer than the bus and cheaper XD Idk why i put this here but yay

[tibutabu]

Tagged by @libarebane​

Nickname: A few people who’ve known me for years occasionally call me Desu, don’t rlly have any others

Zodiac sign: fuck zodiac

Height: Around 175 cm-ish?

Last Thing You Googled: Copic Sketch

Favourite music artist: They come and go?? but I guess the ones I listen to the most at all times are Alaska Thunderfuck (I’m drag queen trash) and Slipknot?? (also feel like I need to mention Adam Lambert bc I grew up being Glambert trash and still think he’s rlly talented)

Song stuck in my head: Nothing rn, but earlier today it was Queen’s “Killer Queen”

Last Movie you watched: In full length? “November” I think

What are you wearing right now: my dark green at-home-T-shirt, black sweats (the worse of the two pairs I own) and a big fleece-ish jacket

What do you post: Things that I find aesthetically pleasing, occasionally fandom stuff & text posts, also I’m low-key hoarding pics to create OC aesthetics

Why did you choose your URL: I wanted it to be similar to the URL of my art blog, @kribukrabu​. Thought the name tibutabu fits me really well bc tibu = “chick”, like chicken baby, rlly cute n stuff, right? and tabu = “taboo”. If that isn’t me. Ja see oli parem kui libuläbu

Do you have any other blogs: an art blog, an old aesthetic blog that I don’t use that much anymore since I mostly dropped fandom/sjw-blogging and moved my aesthetic here, and a blog where I hoard references

What Did Your Past Relationship Teach You: love does not cure depression. But it can motivate me. and TALKING HELPS. TALKING CAN PREVENT UNNECESSARY ARGUMENTS. why don’t people want to talk

Religious Or Spiritual: Low-key spiritual I guess? just low-key, tho

Favorite Color: pastle purple

Average Hours Of Sleep: 7-8

Lucky Number: -

Favorite character: Pearl from “Steven Universe”, currently also Rohan from JJBA

How Many Blankets Do you Sleep With: mostly 1

Dream Job: something in a theatre

Time right now: 22:52

Last TV show I watched: “Rizzoli & Isles”

When I created this blog: autumn or winter of 8th grade... so 2011??

Do I get asks regularly: nope

Gender: idek. mostly sticking with just non-binary

Hogwarts House: the last time I made a HP house meme on deviantArt, it was Slytherin

Pokemon team: idk my phone was not compatible w/ the game so I’ve never played orz

Following: 132

I tag @peachytush @noize06 @the-straight-homo @meriancel, but others can feel free to “steal” this