#i started this in dec 2021 omg

[augustinewrites]

once shoko opens her door, you offer her a half-hearted smile and hold up your bottle of wine. if there’s one person you can count on to help drink your feelings away, it’s—

“i actually can’t tonight,” she sighs. “i have an exam tomorrow and i already had a few drinks so…”

“wait, shoko—” you catch the edge of the door, sighing as you admit, “i think satoru is cheating on me.” 

she pauses for a second, as if checking to see if you’re serious. 

then, “you open that up. i’ll get the glasses.” 

“thanks,” you grin, following her inside. 

“do you need anything else?” she calls from the kitchen. “a hug? baseball bat? an alibi?”

“no need for glasses, and we don’t need the other stuff…yet,” you grimace, twisting the cap off the bottle and taking a swig, kicking the door shut behind you. “and i don’t know for sure that he’s cheating, but he’s just been so weird lately.” 

“weird how?” your friend asks, pushing aside the textbooks she has open on the couch cushions before gesturing for the bottle. “it’s gojo, you’ve gotta be more specific.”

you hand her the tequila, shaking your head. “it was small things at first. showing up late for dates or just cancelling them. not telling me where he’s been all day. then last night i saw this text on his phone…”

shoko’s brows raise. “you were looking at his messages?”

“no!” you exclaim. then, when your best friend sends you a look, “okay, i didn’t mean to! he left his phone on the nightstand while he was in the shower and i looked at it when it buzzed with a text from someone named megumi.”

“oh,” shoko realizes, eyes widening. “that’s a girl’s name.” 

you both sit in silence for a moment, passing the bottle back and forth. your phone buzzes a few times in your pocket - undoubtedly satoru asking why you’ve been avoiding him all day - but you ignore it.

“let’s confront him,” shoko proposes once you’re halfway through the bottle. “find out once and for all.”

“okay!” by now, you’re buzzed enough to think this is a brilliant idea, standing on unsteady legs as shoko calls for a cab. 

_____

“hey,” your boyfriend smiles weakly once he opens the door. “wait, what’s shoko doing—”

“where is she?” she asks, pushing past the both of you to walk into his apartment. she begins flipping up couch cushions and checking behind curtains. 

“what’s going on?” satoru asks, letting you push him inside. he looks down at you, concern clouding his expression. “what’s she talking about?”

you’re not sure if it’s liquid courage or frustration that causes you to blurt, “are you cheating on me?”

“what? of course not—”

“then who’s megumi?”

“he is toji’s six year son!”

your eyes widen. shoko freezes, halfway through opening a cabinet. 

toji…had a son? “so he’s a— a—”

“he’s a zen’in,” your boyfriend confirms. it’s as if all the air leaves your lungs when he says that, catching in your throat. “his mom passed, and after toji…i couldn’t just leave him alone. apparently toji made some deal to sell the kid to the zen’in clan, and i didn’t want…so i filed for guardianship.”

“guardianship,” you echo. “you’re planning to raise the kid on your own?

“his sister too.” 

“i’m gonna go get a cab home. let you two talk,” shoko laughs nervously, speeding out the door. 

satoru walks over to the couch once she’s gone, sitting the edge and hiding his face in his hands. “i’d get it, you know.”

“get what?” you ask, sitting next to him.

“you didn’t sign up for this,” he sighs. “taking in two kids— it’s a lot. but i couldn’t do nothing. he’s going to need someone to help him. teach him. care about him. so he doesn’t end up like…”

he doesn’t finish his sentence. you don’t make him. even after a few years, the heartache of losing your friend causes a dull ache in your chest. 

though…he’s right that you didn’t sign up for any of this. kids were the furthest thing from your mind at this stage of your life, not to mention this stage of your relationship. 

but if satoru, who is barely an adult himself, can find it in his heart to do what you know in your mind is the right thing…

“then i guess it’ll make the next few years of our lives pretty exciting,” you sigh, resting your head on his shoulder. 

“our lives?” he repeats, sounding shocked. “you’re…staying?”

you draw back to meet his pensive gaze, though it melts away when you offer him a small smile. you see him in this moment. 

so you cup his face in your hands, thumb softly stroking his cheek. “you didn’t think i would want to stay?”

“i hoped,” he murmurs, lips brushing against the inside of your wrist. “but i didn’t know for sure.”

“well, i’m not going anywhere,” you assure him, kissing the tip of his nose. “even if you’re a monumental pain in my ass.”

[these-emo-thoughts]

2024 Drama Recap

I barely remember what I ate for breakfast yesterday but I really wanted to do one of these 🥹 I was a very bad drama watcher this year but am hoping to be better in 2025!! So here's my recap! 🥹

Dramas I completed watching in 2024 that aired in 2024:

Last Twilight (Nov 23 - Jan)

Pit Babe (Nov 23 - Feb)

Playboyy (Nov 23 - Feb)

The Sign (Nov 23 - Feb)

Cherry Magic Thailand (Dec 23 - Mar)

My Stand-In (Apr - Jul)

We Are (Apr - Jul)

The Sign Special Episode (May)

OMG! Vampire (May - Jul)

Wandee Goodday (May - Jul)

Love Sea (Jun - Aug)

Sunset x Vibes (Jun - Aug)

Uranus2324 (Jul)

Love Sea Special Episode (2024)

The Paradise of Thorns (Aug)

Century of Love (Jul - Aug)

Meet You At The Blossom (Jul - Aug)

This Love Doesn't Have Long Beans (Jul - Aug)

4 minutes (Jul - Sep)

Peaceful Property (Aug - Nov)

Jack & Joker: U Steal My Heart! (Sep - Nov)

Total: 21

Dramas that started airing in 2024 that I am currently watching:

The Heart Killers (up to date)

Perfect 10 Liners (5 eps in)

Pluto (1 ep in? 2?)

Dramas I started watching in 2024 and finished:

Cupid's Last Wish (air date: 2022)

Dramas I started watching in 2024 and did NOT finish (yet):

Battle of the Writers (3 eps in)

Love in the Big City (3 eps in)

Monster Next Door (4 eps in? 5?)

The Untamed (7 eps in)

Kidnap (8 eps in)

Dramas I rewatched in 2024:

Pit Babe. Rewatched about 2 or 3 times lol help I am TRASH

A Tale of a Thousand Stars (air date: 2021)

Faves?

I don't know if it's even worth doing a faves list because it's going to essentially be a mishmash of Pit Babe, AlanJeff, and OabPlawan (look, I just LOVE Sailub and Pon together and think they can kill any role they come across)😅

But I will do this!

Favourite characters of 2024?

Jeff (Pit Babe)

Joker (Jack & Joker: U Steal My Heart!)

Min (Kidnap)

Mhok (Last Twilight)

Cher (Wandee Goodday)

Favourite couples of 2024?

AlanJeff (Pit Babe) (Any surprises here? Sigh.)

OabPlawan (This Love Doesn't Have Long Beans) (LOOK I MENTIONED THE WHOLE SAILUBPON THING ABOVE IM SORRY OKAY?)

SanVee (Century of Love)

PhayaTharn (The Sign)

JackJoker (Jack & Joker: U Steal My Heart)

QToey (We Are)

MhokDay (Last Twilight)

FadelStyle (The Heart Killers)

All of the couples played by Freen and Becky in Uranus2324

Most tear-jerking drama/s?

LAST TWILIGHT, I CRIED A LOT AND STILL DO TBH

Peaceful Property, I also cried at this (especially the ForceBook episode... oh god, I needed to lie down)

Most intense drama/s?

Jack & Joker: U Steal My Heart!

My Stand-In

The Paradise of Thorns

The Heart Killers (we're only 6 episodes in but there's so. much. tension. everywhere.)

Most heart-wrenching?

My Stand-In... god the pain. The utter pain.

Sweet and easy watch/es?

Cherry Magic Thailand

Surprise love/s?

Meet You At The Blossom - especially the side couple!! (Que Siming and Jin Bao)

We Are - I wasn't sure how this was going to go but I really really loved it!

Hardest to finish?

Sunset x Vibes

'What the fuck is going on' drama/s:

4 Minutes lol

Playboyy

Hilarious lore?

OMG! Vampire

Most dramatic plot?

PIT BABE HELLO?????

Okay I think that's it for my wrap-up LOL I enjoyed this!!! I'm surprised at how much I remembered (thanks to My Drama List 🤣). Can't wait to do it all over again in 2025!! 🥹

EDIT!!

I forgot to add!!

Favourite villains:

Way (Pit Babe) 🥲

[cordiallyfuturedwight]

favorite k-pop group tag game!! thank you for tagging me @cosmicdreamgrl @jkvjimin & @hvseoks 🤍🤍

who is your favorite k-pop group?

bangtan, ofc

which member sparked your interest first?

jhope! i couldn’t take my eyes off of him when i watched performances! he glows!!!!!!

who was your first bias?

seokjin <3

what makes them your current bias?

is this question worded correctly? lol jin is still my bias (there was a moment after watching some run bts where it was yoongi but i returned to my roots). what makes me a jin bias? WELL [unfurls scroll] no i’m just kidding, i wish i was better at putting it into words let me try!!!!! besides being the most beautiful man in the universe, I love his sense of humor and I love someone who can make the people around them happy and find joy and laughter in all situations and I feel like he does that so well in this group. he’s also so unabashedly himself it’s refreshing, and i love that he’s a bit of a wildcard and honestly keeps a lot to himself, we love a mystery. he’s just the epitome of chaotic GOOD and works so hard and loves and cares for everyone so much…… seokjin is so comforting for me to watch because i see myself in him and i just have a lot of love in my heart for him okay???? 🥲 tldr; when i see him i get the zoomies

who is your bias wrecker?

yoongi and jhope

which members are you currently obsessing over that aren't your bias/bias wrecker?

taehyung (deep sigh)

when did you first discover this group?

dec 2021 is when i started going all in. for no particular reason, i just really enjoyed watching their videos and laughing with them during what was a hard time for me. i had bwl on old playlists at that time but didn’t dig any further back then, silly me lol

have you ever been to one of their concerts?

i was soooooo fortunate to be able to see yoongi twice on his dday tour 🥲 i had SO much fun at it too, i hope i can see the whole group one day 🥲 but my favorite part was getting to experience it with @aprylynn and also meet @kithtaehyung 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍 i love the connections the most and he gave us that thumbs up!!!!!!! like i just. screaming people with everyone in that room is high up on my favorite moments of life list

what are some of your favorite songs by the group?

omg, what would be my ult faves????? DIMPLE of course, ego, silver spoon, run BTS, mic drop, love maze, home, boyz with fun, life goes on, autumn leaves, spinebreaker (this should open the next tour imo) & cypher 3

i’ll tag: @livelocks @rjshope @ugh-yoongi @senor-hoberto @raplinenthusiasts @starcatching @vrainydays @lesbiansuga @sevencoloredstar @thisfuckingdeadlife @jinstronaut @epiphanytear @btsiu (& those mentioned 😘 & you if you’re reading this!!!!!)

[catladyrn]

Breathe, just.

First journal entry, yaaaay. Emotions wa nani. Wish I remember more of my Japanese ugh memory anyways HI. I was motivated to write an entry and I got my new journal out and WELP. Radial nerve palsy in R arm. 2021 was my L arm. Nerve damage yaaaay. Hoping it gets better soon, I can't write even with my brace on. This brace... omg I wouldn't be able to type without it. Was recommended by my OT and bought it, ooooomg. The one provided by my WC sucked arse, thanks but.... well thanks.

I feel anxious and been smoking this bubble hash (hot honey) hoping it would make it better and lift my mood. Abroad in Japan vlogs are playing in the bg. That or his fiancee's vlogs.

I was really hungry and ate one chocolate kiss. What happened to my appetite?? It's gone. My bf asked me the 2nd time if I thought about dinner. UUUGHHH I wished you asked me earlier when I was dyin'. I need to eat more, I am 99.2 lbs and I'm 5'2''. I'm familiar with this, I had an ED where I was really underweight and had to be hospitalized for a week about a decade ago. I have a therapist and I have a case manager, recovery support specialist, medical provider.

I'm not even going to bother reading what I wrote. This is for KLJDSLKFJDLKSF getting my feelings out. I do... feel a lil better. Time for a hit hold on. Damn I love my bong. Gonna really love the pink bong when it gets here. Gonna be a dab wig.

I love my bf. But damn, we are working on our relationship. I have bipolar 2, he has crohns. We are both recovering alcoholics. He was tapering from kpin, and he's completely clean! He... suffers a lot due to his crohns. And he has his mental health issues, and then me. I come with a... special family, drama b/w bf and fam due to fam excusing him of injuring me (I had a brain injury in Dec, don't remember the 2 weeks of being in the hospital and discharge). Thinking about what it was like in the 2 weeks I wasn't conscious.... and when I "woke up". I wish things were differently.... like my fam liking and believing my bf. He basically saved my life, he was there when I fell down the concrete stairs and ultimately the fall caused my brain to bleed. He called 911. He said I was in a daze then started screaming while I was bleeding. He said it was the worst time in his life, he was worried he would lose me like his best friend who died from a TBI. I was driven to the local hospital and I was getting worse so they intubate me and sent me to the university hospital about 1 hr 15 mins away. Then 2 weeks later, I became conscious. Thinking about it... it's depressing. My injury and the aftermath basically ruined my relationship b/w my parents and younger brother.

OK FIRST ENTRY DONE. Damn, I keep looking out the window seeing if my bf is here. Ugh. I need to stop being so codependent and be more independent! There's so much to improve on, read, study, learn, watch. I'm stuck in my head, I NEED TO BE IN THE PRESENT MOMENT. Mediated today. Still anxious but.... well. I felt a lil calmer after it so, yay? I like it though. Was a skeptic but now, doing.

IMMA END THIS and take another hit. It's gonna be a good evening, HERE THAT DEPRESSION??

It's gonna be a good evening.

[feuqueerfire]

I Told Sunset About You Live Blogging

I learned about this back in 2020, around the time 2gether was coming out or afterwards I guess? I had the trailer on my Watch Later because I heard about some gay series with the beautiful title and some appealing tagline. I hadn't even been into BLs or shows much back then and was still curious about it. Yet, it's nearing the end of 2024 and still haven't watched it.

I watched Billikin's How To Make Millions Before Grandma Dies in theatres a few months ago. I've gotta make some time to watch this, man. I don't know whether I'll be tempted to binge or watch 1-2 eps a day, maybe I'll try to savour it.

Ep 1 (Dec 23)

2021 - starts toward the end I guess, when Teh is applying for university

2016 - beginning of their friendship

ah, Oh-aew got offered the role in the school play instead of Teh despite not even having interest in it

Damn, this play is in Mandarin, which they don't speak? no translations? i didn't know kids did plays like that

The scene of Teh doing the moves behind the stage is so good

Ah, they become rivals as both want to be actors

Oh, they stopped interacting and seeing each other

So like 5 years later, he's trying out for university admissions right?

Girl, don't tempt me, if the girl is endearing enough, I'll start shipping the main male lead in a BL with a girl too (a la Love Mechanics with Vee and Ploy lol). Tarn seems cute

friends -> rivals but almost kinda enemies

Ah, another blow up

Dang, Oh tearing up almost

Oof, Teh was first on the list while Oh didn't get in... I guess this is where the studying part comes in that I'd vaguely heard about? Teh decides to tutor Oh to coach him getting in or smth?

Also for a second I was like is Teh gonna say the stuff he said in his interview about what he'd say to his friend? but maybe later on, since they didn't show it yet

They're kinda making up bit by bit but there are still barriers and hurt words from the past

They really do cry a lot. Billikin crying is mentioned a fair amount when it comes to this show but like I wasn't expecting them both to cry this much and this many times in ep 1 lol

Ep 2 (Dec 23)

Teh is so loved by his family, both his mother and his brother. But also where is that airplane ticket to?

Oh is first on the waiting list. hmm would anybody who tried to early admissions by auditioning actually give up their spot?

This recurring Rival Chinese word that Teh is/was obsessed with lol. Oh's "you meant me?" teasing is sooo cute

Rival page -> Intimate page turned

lol not the boob touching convo. meanwhile neither has touched any. delighted at both being virgins lmfaoo

will Teh postpone/cancel on Oh to hang out with Tarn?

cryingggg at Teh being so distracted by the open button on Tarn's shirt showing a sliver of her hibiscus bra

Tarn is so cute, I like her, I hope she's not too heartbroken by the end

tutoring seems to be going well

Teh is so up in his feelings about Oh inviting the whole group to what he thought was just going to be two of them hanging out + Oh telling everybody that's he's a virgin/chaste when he told Teh to not tell anyone. but he doesn't fully even understand why

ah, the Intimate Chinese word now is the focus

ahh Teh doesn't want to be just same as other friends to Oh, he doesn't want to be equal to their relationships. god this gayness

omg??? Oh telling Teh something top secret but it's literally that he likes Bas?!?!

Teh is sooooo excited for Oh and talking about how he'll help Oh lmfao oh girl just you wait

This lunch room scene with Oh and Teh communicating secretly and on their own wavelength about how Teh should get closer to Bas and Teh's fear of both being found out + rejection ahhh

lmfao not Teh saying that he'll be hitting on Oh-aew to observe Bas' reaction to figure out if he likes Oh. And his plan worked! cryinggg

their knee nudging playing in contrast to Oh's fear when trying to get his knee to touch Bas' at lunch and being unable to. like obviously this shows that Oh is more nervous about Bas and has romantic intentions while touching Teh is so much more comfortable and familiar

And now Teh is jealous lol

hm an IG story saying that Teh will be with Tarn every afternoon from now on? in a fit of jealousy? idk girl, are you abandoning tutoring Oh

girl and Teh doesn't even fucking mean it, he just wants Oh to see the story

omg lowkey got scared by the look Teh was giving Tarn

ahhh Tarn kissing him in the end, i love her

why is Teh being an ass to Oh again >:( I guess he's mad that Oh didn't check his story but c'mon

literally obsessed with Teh going all the way to the pier and waiting on the boat and riding the boat with Oh to the destination but not quite managing to speak to Oh. And Oh's the one who comes back to talk to Teh. just such a good way to show the warring factions in Teh's mind + how he's taking action but can't quite follow through with all of it

"Don't give my time to others" from both of them

Crazy, Teh now likes the coconut scent from Oh's hair even though he hates coconut and its smell

Why is everything from the cinematography to the storyline and pacing to the characterization to the acting so good?

Ep 3 (Dec 24)

Teh's newfound obsession with coconut lol

Ah, of course the 2 people who immediately see Oh's story are Bas and Teh

The difference between how Teh didn't want to wake up at 4am to spend time with Tarn vs calling Oh at 4

both Tarn and Oh getting jealous of the other and they don't even know lmfao

omg Oh almost trying the knee thing on Teh but not doing it and writing Secret in his notebook repeatedly

We'll get to see Oh being moody this episode I guess as he figures out that he likes Teh?

ah, Teh texts Oh telling him to let him know when he's home, something he used to only do for Tarn and Oh was kinda jealous about

Oh can't control his smile seeing his and Teh's knees touching

This piano piece as Teh unknowingly loses his mind over Oh sharing a room with Bas is so good

Teh watching Oh and Bas spending time

omg?! the way Oh left Bas' side to come to Teh but then literally kinda crawled the last two inches and was fed a chip by Teh... wild

damn, Oh. Tried to kiss a sleeping Bas but when Bas woke up and asked to spend Chinese New Years together was like hm it's not fun just us two, let me invite the rest of them too

Playing around at dawn and giving each other hibiscus woahh

Girl, you don't know if Bas really likes you?! Be fr, you're just doubting how much you like it

This is crazyyyy T: "You really like someone else? Who? Tell me!!" O: "I think you know." *silence* O: "You really don't know? But I think you do"

Oh asking Teh "and you? since when?" possibly in reference to Teh liking him back?! ah Teh says "I don't know. I just want to be close to you and don't want you to be close to anyone else"

Oh is so bold

noooo my beloved Tarn

I was eating, so didn't say much but oh wow, lots of time together + like kinda progress idk

i can't watch the back scratching and heavy breathing/smelling scene for real, it's currently playing in a little box on my screen because oh my god...

Teh has dodged several attempts at a kiss from Oh

Last ep neither consciously knew but this ep both know that they like each other.

Ep 4 (Dec 24)

I... am afraid to watch this because it is supposed to be sad I think?

ow, Hoon brought his gf and having dinner with whole family + Oh-aew

oh Tarn's translucent shirt which shows her bra today

ahhh her drawing the hibiscus

her pushing her hair back to show her chest/bra omggg okay

omg Teh doesn't even notice...

oh Tarn... :(

okay, Tarn's putting her foot down and putting distance between them okay

but we also have Oh and Bas

ah, the time and effort

dang, underwater kiss... i feel like I maybe knew about it? I'm still afraid for what's coming though, another hour of the ep left

Teh wants to be friends? girl

Feels like a breakup and they haven't even dated fuck thisss

Ah, the bra scene

OH POSTS A PIC OF HIM WITH THE BRA ON IG?!

Dang, telling him right before he's leaving, don't make him miss his flight to go to Oh or smth

girl... I'm scared that this man is not gonna do his confirmation

fuckkkk he didn't sign?! because Oh was 1st on waiting list? girl!!! okay can you still get in with exams, you haven't been studying bruh

Fuck, Teh's mother... T.T

Ah, and now is when Oh-aew watches Teh's IG stories

damn

damn

okay so is Oh still going to take the admission route instead of waitlisted method that Teh basically gave him. In that case, Teh can indeed get in again and get in while Oh doesn’t because for a while I thought since they go to different universities and Oh was given the spot, that means Teh doesn’t make it again. but not necessarily

Ep 5 (Dec 25)

Last episode…

deleted text history damn Teh

Teh blessing Philip but basically talking to Oh lol

Bas scaring me with his blessing

oh Bas why would you say that in public I’m paused right as Bas says I like you with his cute smile bc omg… how could this go well?

girl at the back is fujoing out though

Why is Bas literally confessing

Teh crying watching this confession and even Oh crying and it’s going on forever my goodness

Teh’s teary look of longing as Oh and Bas go outside to sort it out

exam day already

these loud ass fire crackers every damn time

no way their first conversation in weeks? is right before the exams and Teh also finds out Oh and Bas are together

what the fuckkkk he can’t handle it and is just crying instead of doing his exam?? TEH FUCK don’t fucking do this right now, pull yourself together

bro for a second i thought Teh did his answers wrong by 1

also v impressive if he managed to do 92 questions out of 100 if he literally had a crying breakdown at the beginning of the exam

Teh telling Hoon that he likes Oh-aew omg

ah, Hoon being so nice to Teh

girl don’t worry about telling your friends you’re gay and their reaction, they’re fine with Oh and Bas

one of the friends is literally muslim? omg

oh fuck Oh got in?! fuck… wait… wait wait wait ummmm

girl they’re taking so long to show, it’s obvious Teh didn’t get in

ah, second choice instead of first choice

Bas is literally sooo good and kind, I’m sad for him but I believe he can find somebody who loves him and whose first choice is Bas

ah finally they meet again

aw they made up

Overall:

One of the shows that has been on my watchlist the longest, since before I was even into shows or BLs. It was beautiful to watch and you could feel the effort and thought in the storyline and characterization and plot progression and the writing. Really well done, I thought they used their runtime very well. Emotional but I don't think that I'll actually think about this show or characters much. I didn't latch onto the characters or relationship as much as I hoped or other people seemed to but it's still well-crafted regardless.

Rating: 7/10

Things I knew about ITSAY:

some sort of academic rivalry but also tutoring. they're friends to lovers but also not friends

The scene of them in the swing/hammock on the beach but not much surrounding it

the ep 3 not-sex-scene sex scene lol I saw a clip on tiktok about the nuzzling and stuff and then later saw ppl mention ep 3 a lot when referencing it (or referencing something that I guessed was about that scene)

PP's character cries while holding a bra to his chest in a mirror

they don't end up going to the same uni? because seems like from the IPYTM convo that they're kinda LDR. And also either somebody gave up on their spot or didn't give up on their spot or smth like that idk fully

[fruitgummies01]

Omg what you said in the last paragraph is exact difference between jikook and taekook as bond. Of course three of them love eachother but each pair has different dynamics.

Jimin and jungkook although has many similar interests they still have things that they're different in from e/o. You know you have a friendship with someone where even the silence between two ppl is comfortable ig that's when you have reached that deep level of friendship. i have frnds i have known for some time although I'm comfortable with the i still feel the need to fill the silence with some talking or else it feels weird to me where as as i have frnds whom I'm way too comfortable with with whom i can talk for hrs long at the same time we can share comfortable silence for just as long without feeling the need to fill that silence. in Dec 2021 vminkook did live together where jm told us that jk goes to his room 3 times a day, sometimes he doens't do anything nd just stays in jm's bed for hrs it can even be 3-4 hrs long at a time. Jm does his things sitting on chair while jk stays in jm's bed. JK said he goes to jm's room cause it's the closets as if other members were living in another building lol(This was from their PTD concert in LA). Then jm said jk would even come to his room at odd hrs like 2AM when he's about to fall asleep, jk said cause he gets bore But wouldn't you expect him to go to other 5 members with whom he can atleast do fun activities rather than staying in jm's bed for hrs? And he used to spend all that time in jm's room AFTER practising for their concert, him nd jm used to workout together daily for all the days they stayed there, Then go for night walks as well, Then eat together before or after concerts (they do eat with other members as well, jk ate with tae nd one time with RM as well but usually jkk eat together even before this live they were eating together) and despite spending all this time together if you feel the need to go to this person's room these many times does that not mean you wanna be around this person? Even tae said that when he went to jm's room he thought it's jk's room Cause jk was the one who opened it means as usual jk was already in jm's room.

Jm and jk do share a very emotional strong bond, There's this radio interview from 2014 where they asked jk who's the hyung that gives him most comfort he picked jm. Mind you jm is the last member to join BTS. he joined BTS before 6 months of debut while as other members had joined before some 2 yrs. Nd jk was sent to America for dance for a month so basically jk has spent the least amount of time with jm than others before debut. Yet he picked jm. I'll admit that their friendship has never been the Rainbows nd sunshine since start cause no they grew closer gradually over the yrs. Jm was overly affectionate person with jk since start nd jk was someone who didn't know what to do nd how to react to all that. yes some of their early yrs moments would come off as rough but again as i said despite all that jm still was there to support jk emotionally that jk still would pick jm out of all members.

I thought what you said in last para matches with what op here said so I'd love to share this with you. https://www.tumblr.com/jeonscatalyst/759599693772832768/did-anything-about-jikooks-or-vminkook-if-that?source=share

They also has another post about it when someone asked them but it's too long but if u ever get time give it a read. This is by no means I'm trying to make u think one way or another about any pair cause at the end watching og content and forming ur own opinion is the key but i thought your opinion matched with this one hence why. of course there's no obligation for you to read that you can totally not 😅

https://www.tumblr.com/jeonscatalyst/759225673009266688/hello-i-am-a-taekooker-who-doesnt-lurk-in-other?source=share

I personally do not think anyone in BTS are dating e/o so u don't have to go there regarding jikook we can just enjoy the bonds. Sorry for long post and once again no obligation to read if you don't want it's all fine ☺️

All opinions are welcome, so I appreciate it. Reading about their early history always fascinates me. There's a part in episode 4 of Are You Sure that I find so interesting though. Jimin, Tae, and Jungkook are on the boat and JK is putting on sunscreen and starts messing around with Jimin, and Tae asks Jimin where is his pride at, to which Jimin confidently and comfortably says that JK is stronger than him and that he has no pride. And Tae says well even though JK is stronger than him, he wouldn't cower. And to be honest, I feel like that also helps to sum up the differences in their dynamics as well haha.

[stuckonmark]

i’m a new account too! this is so sweet that you’re doing this 🥹

- the first song i heard was regular back in dec 2018 (i think)? i liked the song, so i started listening to their music and have loved them ever since

- i found 127 first and i think my bias was taeyong and jaehyun first 😭 now my bias is mark (😈😜)!!! and jaehyun too. my biases in dream are mark and jeno!!!!

- this is the hardest question ever. i can’t pick. but let’s say recently i’ve been loving broken melodies, to my first, graduation, life is still going on, dive into you (omg these are all dream songs 😭)

- favorite albums (music): loved neozone and hello future!

- favorite album (concepts): for dream, (I LOVE THEM ALL) but if i had to pick, hot sauce, hello future, or we boom. for 127, neozone and favorite 😜

- favorite album (performances, overall): for dream, HELLO FUTURE CHANGED LIVES. that era and like hot sauce era just did something to me. it literally rewired my brain and made me the person i am today. for 127, i think neozone again (if you can’t tell i loved neozone..)

- i own way too many albums.. it’s insane. i think i have most of them, but not all of them. i think my fav album was we boom? the newer dream albums just got so big and kinda inconvenient for me 😭 but they still look great ofc. i think i just prefer the smaller ones and i just loved we boom’s concept

- my photocard collection journey WAS A RIDE. i started truly collecting back in like 2021-ish? i’m a mark collector and y’all should know how hard that is 🥲 i stopped collecting around 2022-ish and i basically collected all of mark’s photocards from his debut to favorite? yeah i got all of his in the span of a year.. BUT my favorite pc is the nct 2018 empathy of mark. MARK COLLECTORS KNOW WHAT I’M TALKING ABOUT BC THAT CARD IS LIKE THE MOST RARE CARD EVER. it’s my most prized possession 🥲

- i WOULD DIE if i went to an nct concert. they just don’t come anywhere conveniently close to me, so it’s hard for me to go AND it’s super expensive. but i’ve told myself that i HAVE to see them at least once in my lifetime 🥲

i loved this little tag! it was so cute and i had so much fun answering! <3

nctzen tag 2025 ⟡ ࣪ ˖

since it's a new year and i've been seeing new faces on here recently (myself included) i thought it would be fun to get to know each other more with some nct themed questions! (this can also be a fan check-in since it's the beginning of the year)

reply/reblog with your answers to as many of the questions as you'd like! can't wait to see everyone's responses ☺️

when did you first become a fan of nct? feel free to share how you became a fan as well

who was/were your first bias(es) in the group? who is/are your bias(es) now?

what are your favorite nct songs? if you listen to multiple units, you can list them as such!

favorite album(s)/project(s): for the music

favorite album(s)/project(s): for the concept

favorite album(s)/project(s): for the performances, promotion, overall experience as an era

do you own any physical copies of albums? if so, which is your favorite?

do you collect nct photocards? if so, which is your favorite?

do you own any non-album merch? if so, which is your favorite?

have you seen/are you planning to see the group/any units live? if so, share your favorite performance you've attended or one you're looking forward to attending!

anything else you'd like to share about your nctzen experience?

[waglifeornolife]

https://www.tumblr.com/waglifeornolife/735949019656978432/ugh-im-so-fucking-pissed-rn-highschool

Sorry that it is long <33

Okay so I thought I’d further justify my reasoning for trying to like get her back even further because I’ve done all my school work and I’m bored now. A bit of backstory(her and her boo are childhood friends and like they first went out for like a day in year seven and she has used this as the reason for most of the things she did with him and for him?

Okay let’s start off with the first crack in the glass all the way back in 2020.

I told her I had a crush on one of our guy friends and we would always discuss that and stuff. Long story short they went out until like nov/dec 2021. But I let it slide because I kinda just wanted to get through life at that point in time and also both him and her were my good friends back then.

Okay then let’s fast forward to like September 2021(IK timeline is a bit weird but they broke up quite a bit) and people were coming up to her asking if she liked this other boy who was like one of the “popular girls” boyfriend and she went no. SHE COULD HAVE LEFT IT AT “NO” but noooo she had to say liked someone else🙄🙄 who was also a “popular person” like wow well done. Also she’s like always been an attention whore. For example during all of this, she would always lock herself in the school toilet and fake cry and say she was cutting herself(the reason why I knew she was faking everything is because we all shared a pe changing room and like I’d like look over the bathroom stall to make sure she was okay and she would be fake sniffling). Like shes such an attention seeker ugh.

Anyways so let’s talk a bit about her boo.

They’ve known each other forever but like everyone and their mother would tell you that he is the worst creature to ever successfully sneak their way onto planet earth. And he is/was/is an awful person like he always slut shames people (including her) and like he’s been a bully like he bullied me but like I have too much on him now so he has to keep his mouth shut. And he made like a snap private story where he would always put a story after he’d masturbated and the private story only had girls on it. Um Yh hes like an awful person to other people as well but I could be here all day discussing him.

So back to her.

Let’s fast forward to middle/end of of 2022 she gets a crush on this girl in our school and they start chatting as friends. Turns out every secret she told that girl, she would tell the guy(okay I’m gonna give people code names now,the girl that I want to exposes code name is Benny,the girl she had a crush on is snake and lets call Benny’s boo boat) So Benny would tex snake but boat was tryna go out with snake and Benny at the same time so sane would tell boat what Benny said but boat and Benny were kinda texting flirting anyway.

So we all found out about what boat was doing so him and Benny didn’t text for a bit until like January this year (omg this is where it just started getting worse I still don’t know why she got with him or why so much fucking happened). So they started texting a lot more and we were all advising against it but she would always say “don’t you want me to be happy🥺” 🙄. So we just let it be(because they were a situationship and to be fair I kind of didn’t want to be friends with her at this point either because she’d already done soooooooo much in the past 3years I just couldn’t handle anymore). So in like July they met up at the park a few times and she gave him a handjob once or whatever and um idk what happened after that but her whole persona changed (you see ONE sock and you think you’re the fucking shit🙄) and she started acting exactly like him. She was taking cheap shots at everyone and she would tell us not to judge her for doing things and saying things but she would judge me and the rest of our friend group forgetting excited over things we were happy about (like Taylor swift or like getting grades or going out in a friend group) (OMG I FORGOT TO MENTION ON VALENTINES DAY WE WERE ALL SUPPOSED TO GO OUT TO DINNER TOGETHER AND WE BOOKED IT MONTHS IN ADVANCE AT THIS FANCY ASS PLACE AND SHE CANCELLED TO GO OUT WITH BOAT TO THE PAR FOR THIRTY MINUTES LIKE WHAT??). Anyways, like I was saying she completely changed and she didn’t really care about school and stuff anymore. And like her and boat when to the park again and she sucked him off this time (thing is she has this like whole thing where she makes it a big deal where she doesn’t want to do anything before marriage and she basically slutshamed people for doing things like that until she started doing them) but like after she sucked him off he was acting really weird like he was either acting super desperate over text or like constantly reminding her they weren’t actually together(he even said if she went to speak with him in school he’d laugh in her face) so I told her to stop seeing(for the billionth time) and to just swear off boys until exams are over but she just super angry at me and started yelling at me saying how I would never understand what they have and how it’s like (like I can’t understand a toxic situationship). And like she did end up “breaking up with him” but I new she was lying and she was because she told me they’d been texting that whole day and that she can’t let him go and that she loves him (I seriously wanted to laugh). But like I was vomiting and stuff one day so I couldn’t come in and I see a text in the gc telling Benny to “be safe later” and I was asking why she had to “be safe” and she said she was meeting boat at the park. And I had had enough at that point so I didn’t say anything until her boo was like sending rude things in the gc directed towards me and was saying Offenes or shit. So I confronted her about and she said “he didn’t know it would hurt you” and bullshit like that. She even confessed to writing some of the things. So I stopped being friends with her at that point but still had to hang out with her because my friends are(were now) her friends(they opened their eyes).

So she broke up with him (fr this time but I still call him her boo because she was just soo persistent on keeping him). But I found out like a few weeks ago that boat was actually texting another girl at the time that Benny and him were together but when I told her she already and was telling POPULAR GIRLS IN OUR YEAR EVERYTHING SHE WENT THROUGH BUT WITH LEAVING OUT DETAILS ABOUT HOW MUCJ HER EX FRIENDS WARNED HER TO NOT GO. Omg she had the never to come up to me to tell me that they told her the exact same things I told her and she listened to them. So like my friends (the ones that were neutral through this whole thing) were like discussing it too and we’re also like “Yh this is a bit rude” because they warned her too and she’s acting like they didn’t.

Extra reasons:

1)she’s a privileged little bitch who is super rude to her mother

2)she talks shit about everyone and has parasocial relationships with them and acts like she knows them

3) she literally said billions of times that she’s not straight but now she all of a sudden she is (because boys don’t really find it desirable if a girl is anymore) she also says that the girl she like is an exception and she only has wet dreams and fantasies about her and other girls but god forbid she ever got near one

3) whenever I’d try and bring up a serious matter that’s like happening in the world she would tell me that not everything is about race/politics

4)she gets “boycott fatigue” (I think that explains itself)

5)she always gossips like there will be no consequences

6)she’s a manipulative bitch

7)she’s super condescending

8)when she first gave head,she tried to pressure everyone else in our group to but nine of did. She knew I had this crush in some guy so when she got the chance she got someone to start spreading rumours around about that

9)she hates when people have friends that are outside the friend group that she doesn’t know

10) she’s made me lose loads of friends by playing victim in every scenario

11) she printed out a fake marriage certificate and tried to get our friend who’s a boy to sign it and she got pissed when he didn’t

12) she hyper sexualises boys in our year group and says all crazy things

13) she rats out people’s secrets for a little bit of popularity and attention

14)she openly makes fun of people for what they eat and wear

15)she’s just not the type of person people should have to deal with

babe, she sounds to toxic!! the ex too, i kinda feel bad for her when it comes to that but my god, i’m so glad you aren’t friends with her any more! it sounds to me that whatever you say to people, she’s gonna twist it and play the victim, so maybe confront her about everything you’ve told me first, make sure your friends are aware of what you’re doing and make sure they’re there, so that they can back you up, but make sure that the girl is on her own when you talk to her so that she doesn’t have an alibi to back up whatever she’d twist it into.

the girl sounds like a right bully, i had a girl similar at my school growing up, she was so nasty to everyone until a few of us eventually stuck up for ourselves and she realised that the person she’s trying to be isn’t a person that people like. bitchiness like that has no age limit so stamping it out now will be the best thing you can do 🫶🏼

[muirneach]

shoutout to everyone who didn’t follow me for quantum leap but this is one of the greatest shows ever created i dont care!!

[lovestay-remade]

going to live everyday like its december 31st

[seuonji]

HSHSHHS NO I GET WHAT YOU MEANT BUT IT WAS SO FUNNY😭 and omg qiqi? that’s kinda a slay to get a 5star quite early unless you hate her🕺 AND I ANSWERED YOUR QUESTIONS. ITS CURRENTLY 11PM BUT IDK WHAT TIME IT IS FOR YOU. and yess we twinning w the names😍🤍

i started playing dec 2020 cause my friends kept on bugging me to start but during that time i lowk had a life…but suddenly i didn’t so around feb 2021?? i got super into it!! (esp after getting keqing) but i stopped somewhere in june 2022 but i got back into it recently 😭😭😭

C6 bennett is…well i ocasionally main eula so if he’s c6 that’s the worst thing ever for me😭 i’m not the hater type but my gosh—

i main yanfei😍😍😍 but sometimes if a new char i want comes out i main them for awhile but i always go back to yanfei lol but recently i mained eula and rn it’s furina!! previously i mained noelle & keqing!

i have a bunch of 5 stars tho,, i’ll attach a photo of my chars under the cut!!

SCREW YOU WHY ASIA I PLAY ON EU 😞😞😞😞😞 IM LITERALLY A KAZUHA MAIN YOU COULD LOVE PLAYING WITH ME AND IM A CARAT ++++

‘SCREW U’ LMFAOO?? mb i’ll text hoyoverse and make them let me play on dual servers😞😞 (it’s like a citizenship💀💀) i would love to coop with u💔

AND STOPP i don’t main kazuha but he’s in every damn team i make like he’s srsly the best ever!

[inevitably-johnlocked]

Omg I just read Caught In the Act too and I love it! Now I'm in need of more parentlock or johnlock + kid fics (not necessarily their kid). Think you can help me out? Thank you, Steph, I really appreciate it!!

Hey Lovely!

Firstly, the series:

Caught In The Act Series by ShirleyCarlton (E, 9,217 w. across 7 stories || Est. Rel, Voyeurism, Character POV’s, Masturbation, Switchlock) – This is a series of six scenarios written from the points of view of six different people as they accidentally walk in on Sherlock and John having sex.

Secondly, using your ask to start a new list! Cheers! Hope you enjoy!

As usual, friends, please add your own recs!

PARENTLOCK Pt 3

See also:

Parentlock

Parentlock Pt. 2

Adoption

Single-Parent Sherlock

Sherlock Soft With Children

Parentlock with Rosie (Dec 2021) (Comm. Recs)

Evermore by SosoHolmesWatson (G, 2,068 w., 1 Ch. || Post-S4,  5-Year-Old Rosie, Love Confessions, Song Fic, Parentlock, Oblivious John, Pining Sherlock, First Kiss, Love Confessions, Fluff, Friends to Lovers, Disney Songs, Beauty and the Beast) – For the past years, John and Sherlock have lived at Baker Street again, raising Rosie together--as friends and nothing more. Ever since the little girl has watched her first Disney movie, she is obsessed with princesses. When John comes home one day, he finds his friend and his daughter in the middle of a reenactment of her current favourite. Part 1 of Made of Music

Permanent Fixture by vitruvianwatson (E, 18,836 w., 9 Ch || Post-S4, Parentlock, Slow Build, Friends to Lovers, They’re Good Parents, Blushing Sherlock, First Kiss/Time, Explicit Consent, Sexual Content, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Mutual Pining, Big Feelings, Crying, First Kiss, Fluff, Anxious Sherlock, Inexperienced Sherlock, Emotional Communication, Love Confessions) – Now, as Rosie sat curled up against Sherlock’s side, John watched and wondered exactly how he had ended up here. Domesticity had never suited him before, not at any point in his life. His disastrous marriage had been proof of that. But somehow, here in the warmth and safety of 221B Baker Street, here with Sherlock Holmes reading medical jargon to his daughter, Sherlock’s bony feet nudging against his leg, John couldn’t imagine anyplace that would make him happier. 

A Quiet Life by DiscordantWords (M, 25,176 w., 6 Ch. || Post S4, Retirement, POV Sherlock, Awkwardness, Established Relationship, Family Dynamics, Minor Character Death, Questionable Parenting Choices, Non-Linear Narrative, 20 Year Old Rosie, Meddling Mycroft, Pining Sherlock, First Kiss, Love Confessions, Angst, Sherlock Whump) – There had been three days of silence and a funeral. Sherlock had the terrible feeling that whatever happened next would depend, entirely, on him.

How To Unfold a Heart by elwinglyre (E, 25,477 w., 7 Ch. || Post S4 Fix It, BAMF John, Mentioned Eurus, POV First Person Sherlock, Case Fic, Fluff, Slow Burn, Topping from the Bottom, 3 Yr Old Rosie, Introspection, Sexual Fantasies, John Worship, Ogling, Hand Holding, Kidnapping, Domesticity, Sherlock Whump, First Kiss/Time, Doctor John, Caring John, Soft Sherlock, Sensuality, Touching, Crying, Love Confessions, Anxious Sherlock, Rimming, Toplock, Fingering, Bossy Bottom John) – To Sherlock’s dismay, John’s return to Baker Street with Rosie is only temporary. Sherlock’s daily visits to Regent Park with John and Rosie illuminate his lost childhood memories and missed opportunities. But with each trip to the park, Sherlock also feels a growing sense of hope. That is until the past horrors return unexpectedly in a cryptic note folded in the shape of a heart. To decipher the message, Sherlock must uncover the nature of the hearts around him, including his own.

Deck the Halls by itsalwaysyou_jw (T, 31,018 w., 24 Ch. || Advent Fic / Multiple One-Shots, Assorted Tags) – One Johnlock ficlet for every day leading up to Christmas. Who is ready for pining, first kisses, established Johnlock, and everything in between? This collection of stand-alone ficlets will have it all. 

Repairing the Broken Things by BakerTumblings (M, 75,252 w., 15 Ch. || S4 Compliant, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Medical Trauma, Hospitals, Big Brother Mycroft, Misunderstandings, Realizations, Severe Accident, John Whump, Pneumonia, Medical Procedures, Bed Sharing, First Time, Healing, Happy Ending) – "I'm calling today to notify you that there's been an accident."

Not Broken, Just Bent by Schmiezi (E, 87,585 w., 43 Ch. || Pining, Love Confessions, Rape/Sexual Assault, Torture, Hurt/Comfort, Heavy Angst, Villain!Mary, Suicidal Ideations, Main Character Death, Sherlock First Person POV, Parentlock, Sherlock’s Mind Palace, Grief/Mourning, Emotional Love Making, Possessiveness, Depression, PTSD, Kidnapping, Virgin Sherlock, Eventual Happy Ending) – "For a second, I allow myself to remember teaching John how to waltz. There is a special room in my mind palace for it. A big one, with a proper parquet dance floor. For a second, I go there. I remember holding him, closer than the World Dance Council asks for, excusing it with the fact that we are training for a wedding, not for a competition. For a second, I feel his hand on mine again, smell his sweat, hear the song we used. For a second, I allow myself to love him deeply. For a second, only a second, that love reflects on my face." Fix-it for S3, starting at the end of TSoT. Evil Mary.

Kintsukuroi by sussexbound (E, 91,823 w., 20 Ch. || S4 Compliant / Post-TLD, Grief / Mourning, PTSD, Internalized Homophobia, Therapy, Past Abuse, Alcohol Abuse, Nightmares, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Depression, Anxiety, Bed Sharing, Love Confessions, Cuddling, Suicidal Ideation, Masturbation, Minor Character Death, Sexting, Frottage, Inexperienced Sherlock, Rimming / Anal / BJ’s, Emotional Turmoil, Finding Each Other) – “I love you.” Sherlock sees the words hit John with almost physical force. He reels back a little, jaw twitching and eyes filling. “I love you,” he repeats, a little softer, a little more gentle, as earnest as he possibly can. Because they’ve been teetering on the brink of this thing for years, and it had become painfully obvious over the last few months that they were at a tipping point. This had to happen. Now it has. Now they can see where they end up. The tears in John’s eyes spill over, and he wipes at them angrily. “Do you even know what that means?”  

[cherriscoups]

One New Year

Pairing: Lee Know x YN (ft. skz, dori & ocs)

Word count: 1.4k

Genre: semi-angst (not really?), idk

disclaimer: post break up, 3rd person pov?, first fic I ever wrote so don't expect much

a/n: this was originally posted on my ig fan account on 31 dec 2020/ 1st Jan 2021. so this was from a very long time ago. I haven't written fics in a while and I thought i should repost this. this might not be a good fic since its was my first but it's a story that i hold dear to my heart. Anyways Happy New Year!

The carnival was flooded with laughter. Children and adults alike running around enjoying the rides and magic shows. Performers took the center stage, showcasing a work of art as the audience stared in awe. The sky was a beautiful shade of orange as the sun was setting. The carnival staff were getting ready to set up the lights for the night.

“Y/n wait up!” Doyeon’s voice echoed as she ran up to y/n. Jiwon & Doyeon had convinced Y/n to go to the New Year’s Carnival near their dorm. Y/n was known to be a studious homebody and her friends wanted to show her around the town during their college winter break. Fortunately, there was a carnival setup right next to their dorm and it didn’t take too much convincing to get her out of their dorm. 

New Year’s Eve. The day before a new beginning. There was going to be a light show of fireworks at midnight and everyone was thrilled to celebrate this day with their friends and family. Likewise, Y/n was excited to celebrate this day with Doyeon & Jiwon.

*at skz dorm*

*i would by day6 playing in the background*

"Lino hyung, why don't we go out today?" jisung was cautiously looking over at Minho who was mindlessly scrolling through his phone. 

The air in the dorm grew heavier each second he was silent. The boys had been trying to get him out of their house. even his cats were bugging him, trying to get him to move.

He just didn't.

He had been having dreams, no, nightmares of his ex. He didn't understand why. After all, it had been 3 years since they last saw each other. The picture of the mountain edge haunted his memories. He stayed awake to avoid that dream and lazed around the whole day due to exhaustion. The boys were increasingly worried for him. 

Dori, his youngest cat, sat on Lino’s lap. Jeongin took this opportunity to say “Hyung! Dori wants to bring you to the New Year Carnival!” The older boys stared at their youngest, except for Minho, who kept his eyes on his cat. 

Dori started to nod. It gestured to Jeongin and nodded. He smiled. That was probably the first time in the longest they’d seen him smile. He quietly asked, “Dori do you want me to go to the carnival?” To which the cat nodded. 

“Jeongin-ah, you should have used that technique earlier” Hyunjin laughed, finally feeling relieved to see his older friend smile. 

*at the carnival*

“Omg, i’m going to feel sick!” Jiwon wobbled out of the pirate boat ride while Doyeon and Y/n were laughing behind. “Wow, i’ve really missed out on a lot of fun stuff studying huh?” Doyeon and Jiwon were still in disbelief that this was Y/n ‘s first ever carnival but they were relieved to hear that this definitely won’t be her last. 

The sun had set and the sky was dark. The trio were excited to see the firework showcase that was about to happen in a few hours. They walked about, getting on the rides and eating snacks prepared by the vendors. They were ready to welcome the New Year and all that it had in store for them. 

*in the skz van*

“Boys, remember to wear your masks and caps. The last thing we need is to get swamped at a carnival,” Chan adjusted his cap as he looked over at Minho who was holding his dear cat. “I still can’t believe yall convinced me to bring Dori along!” The boys laughed. It had been weeks since they were all out together. 

“Woah! The lights are so pretty!” Felix and Jisung ran ahead of the rest and stared at the carnival entrance in awe of the light decorations. Minho let Dori walk and told the boys he was going to just follow the cat around. Seungmin kept an eye on him as he walked around with Jeongin. The boys split up in pairs or trios (and in Minho’s case, solo with a cat). They knew that it would be a lot easier for fans to recognize them if they were walking around as a group so splitting up was a good idea.

“Omg! Look! They are selling cotton candy there!” Jiwon ran up to the Cotton Candy stall. They all bought a cotton candy each. “I don’t even remember the last time i had this!” The girls were ecstatic over their childhood favourite candy. A few hours had passed since they arrived at the carnival. Everyone was waiting for the countdown for the fireworks.

Dori was running around, excited. ‘So you really did want to come here,’ Minho laughed to himself. He felt some sense of relief. It didn’t take long for him to forget that cruel dream he had been having. He was looking around at the decorations around him while trying not to lose sight of his cat. 

Dori was bumping into people and Minho kept apologizing while running behind the small young cat with high energy. At this point, the cat was sprinting and Minho was struggling to keep up. Little did he know, Dori was just following the sound of a voice it remembered.

The girls were chatting as Dori ran up and bumped into Y/n’s feet. Doyeon squealed, “It’s so cute!” Doyeon sat down to pet it, not noticing the look on Y/n’s face. Jiwon noticed it. “Is everything ok?” 

“Yeah, it’s just that this cat looks like…”

“Y/n?”

The girls and Dori turned around at the sound of Y/N’s name. Minho. Doyeon and Jiwon just stared at Y/n and Minho who were looking at each other in shock. 3 years. They weren’t together for a long time but they did love each other a lot. They both had broken up on mutual terms. He wanted to focus on work and she wanted to focus on her further studies. 

Seungmin and Jeongin started to panic and spammed the older boys about what they had just witnessed. Minho had only told Changbin about his nightmare but of course Changbin explained the situation to the boys so that they could understand him. They weren’t sure about what was about to happen but they knew for sure that seeing her would make him remember his horrid dream. 

“Minho?”

Seeing her made him anxious. He knew that the dream was stupid but he couldn’t stop worrying. He cared about her more than he wanted to. After all, they did break up. Y/n noticed the anxious look on his eyes and took a step forward. But then she stopped, after seeing him take a step back. As Doyeon got up, Seungmin and Jeongin walked up to them. 

“Please keep this a secret,” Jeongin hoped that Y/n’s friends weren’t the type to gossip or spread stuff. The last thing needed was dispatch being all up on Stray Kids lives again.

The rest of the boys ran up to the place where Y/n and Minho were. They tried to keep their distance but they couldn’t help but want to watch, even if it’s from afar. Minho tried to control his emotions but failed. He cried at the sight of her, wearing the same dress as their last day. The same one that haunted his dreams. Everything he had tried so hard to suppress was resurfacing back into his memories. 

The sight of Minho crying shook Y/n. She ran up to him and hugged him. She didn’t know about his nightmare but she knew something was wrong. Unbeknownst to Y/n, she started crying too. 

Doyeon, Jiwon and the rest of Stray Kids were shocked by what was unfolding in front of their eyes. The girls weren’t close to Y/n while she dated Minho and the boys had no idea they still loved each other. 

Minho had explained his dream to Y/n and the boys explained about Minho and Y/n’s past relationship to Doyeon and Jiwon. They all had left the carnival and were standing in the car park nearby. Many were gathered at the carnival and they all felt as though they were attracting too much attention. They all stayed to watch the fireworks. Minho was finally feeling relieved after spending weeks suffering from his nightmare. Minho and Y/n weren’t sure as to what was about to happen next, but at least they were by each other’s side now. 

© cherriscoups/mystayroha 2020 - all rights reserved.

[absolutebl]

This Week in BL - Buff Boys Shirtless

Dec 2021 Wk 3

Being a highly subjective assessment of one tiny corner of the interwebs.

Ongoing Series - Thai

Bad Buddy (YouTube) Ep 8 - Official secret boyfriends being adorable and getting exposed. I’m live blogging it here.

Not Me (YouTube) Ep 1 - oh goodie, Gun is crying already! You know he is the prettiest crier in the biz. Normally, I’m not a fan of the separated twins plot, it too soap opera, but this one seems like a serviceable (if patently absurd) execution. It’s generating lots of tension and Gun can handle the acting chops required. I’m liking it, but Not Me is NOT your mother’s BL, it is way more Manner of Death-ish (read: gay romantic suspense). But like with MaxTul I feel like I am in safe hands with OffGun so I’m happy to be taken for a ride. (That said it’s getting flack on 2 fronts right now: Thai government & international kpop dumbass fans, so I wonder if it might get pulled or delayed for edits.) 

Paint with Love (Gaga) Ep 4 - Yoon really is good, no matter who he plays against. This ep the leads got tropes like beach frolic, there’s only one bed, baby is a floppy drunk, and The First Kiss. Actually it was a REALLY good kiss and the first time I got any chemistry from Tae & Singto. Will that save the show? Maybe. A good kiss can do that, plus we get domesticity in the next ep. Meanwhile, Phuket beaches look hella clean after a year of lockdown. 

Loveless Society Ep 3 - the actors are doing their best but the sound, post production editing, and script = absolute pants. It’s not a matter of watching but surviving this BL at this juncture. 

Between Us (YouTube) special 6 - omg they dredged up the daddy/boy trope for us to chuckle at. These specials are the gift that keeps on giving. 

(Japan got the memo)

Ongoing Series - Not Thai

Utsukushii Kare AKA My Beautiful Man (Japan - Gaga) Ep 5 - it’s still great (if you like this kinda thing, which I do). I LOVED getting Kiyoi’s perspective at last. Still not sure if they are gonna end this one happy or not. The suspense is killing me. 

Kieta Hatsukoi AKA My Love Mix-Up! (Japan - Viki/Netflix) Ep 9 - we jumped right back into the cartoon high school slapstick that is Aoki + first love. There’s something about this show that pushes absurdity to the limit but also stays so genuine and earnest about the high schoolness of it all. It’s a balance only Japan seems to be able to hit, and not all that often. Again, we’re in Cherry Magic territory. Oh and a quite cute first date was had! 

My Type (Taiwan indie - hard to find) Ep 7-8fin - they just leaned all the way into the ultimate puppy/cat pairing. It’s adorable. The ending was charming. Like if Mr X and I got courage, cuteness, and no censorship, but still kinda old fashioned Chinese BL but with no problematic tropes. What a bit of unexpected delightful fluff. Thank you, as always, Taiwan. 7/10 RECOMMENDED but it is VERY short. 

Mr Cinderella (Vietnam - YouTube) Ep 3 - the side dish couple are shaping up to be super cute. Another one to add to the list of pining since childhood. Honestly tho, is this Cinderella, as they are laying it out? I mean, I think we all thought the doctor was the prince. I’m confused. Meanwhile, is “bisexual awakening musical montage” officially a THING now? I think it might be. 

In Case You Missed It

Until We Meet Again is now on Viki. I think Wabi Sabi must have cut a deal with Rakutan, I keep seeing more and more of their stuff pop up there. 

Korean BL/GL production house STRONGBERRY (who released 6 titles via YouTube & Vimeo in 2021 including one of my favorites of the year: A First Love Story) announced recently that if they reached 100K subs on their YouTube channel, their next movie will release for free there. They are very gentle with their channel and never clutter up my Subscriptions with unnecessary content. So yeah, if you’re at all inclined please sub them.

BL 2022 Gossip - Thailand

Physical Therapy dropped a trailer, stars unknowns, starts Jan 23, on One31 Thailand with reruns on AISPLAY & GaGa. When a physical illness leads two hearts to meet, a young man and a therapist heal each other.

Heart by Heart is coming from Half Toast Production, adapted from the y-novel of the same name, stars all unknowns, teaser here. (Original trailer staring Gameplay is here, it’s now with a different production company and new cast.)

Work From Heart announced, stars Love With Benefits couple Gameplay and Folk, from DV8. A romance between two men set in the office.

One Love is rumored in production, billed as a BL sitcom (read: pulp) staring unknowns starts Jan 23 on One31 no word on international distribution. Follows the story of two young men who never stop flirting with each other.

Once In Memory a new short series (microfilm?) from Mind Trio got a teaser. It looks like it might be sad. 

MaxTul are indeed co-posting stuff again to their various social medias, which would indicate they are filming something together. ALL HAIL THE KINGS. 

BL 2022 Gossip Elsewhere

Taiwan announced The Ghost and I Becoming Family for 2022, a movie about gay and traditional marriage with a police officer who creates a bond between a human and a ghost. Stars Lin Bo Hong and (I think) Greg Hsu. (Back into early Chinese BL territory - Mainland China used to LOVE a gay ghost.) 

More promo material and rumors of an idol star in Korea’s Love in Spring. 2022 historical BL from WATCHA (Light On Me) which has started filming. Adaptation is based on the webtoon Spring of Crush by Noh Myung Hee. Plot: Hye Seong lives disguised as a woman because he seeks to flee the country, until one day a Geum Seong discovers his secret and falls in love with him. 

H I S T O R I C A L!!!!!! 

Next Week Looks Like This:

Reminder: Kieta Hatsukoi’s final ep, Mr Cinderella, and (hopefully) Not Me drop over this weekend. 

Upcoming 2021 BL master post here. I keep a full record there of everything I announce.

Adventures in miss-captions: 

“Do not spill any bean to anyone.”

~ Paint with Love 

After studying Thai for a while now, I get why they struggle with English plurals, but I still find it amusingly adorable especially when combined with an idiom. 

This week’s best moments?

Paint with Love giving us Singto’s career best BL kiss? That’s unexpected. 

(srsly Pharm? what happened to you?) 

[sexyandhedonistic]

SUCESS STORY AHEAD ~

I've been working(loyally) on my SC since starting of 2022.

Things just go my way fr

ie. While finishing my assignment my pen runs out of ink n I tell my sub that it didn't so... within seconds it starts flowing ink like a new one.

I was telling my sister to get me socks from upstairs ( bc m too lazy to go) out of the blue my mom comes back home with a new pair of socks (that too pink uwu) time span was freaking 30 secs!

I'm Much much much more social in school.

Ppl approach me first n want to keep me close ( ie. Sit next to to me or smthn)

Randomly making my classes go off to online just for a day bc I didn't wanted to go school next day! ( time span of getting msg from school = 30 minutes)

I gave 3 presentation since 2022 n all of them have been excellent m getting a full grade guysss!!

The confidence I had before stepping in the room full of ppl waitting for my presentation was beyond amazing. No more anxious n suttering me.

Just randomly ppl telling me that I look so slim.

Last night our friend grp took sm videos n my legs looked Hella long n skinny!! Gigi Hadid who?

I legit had such a good day yesterday. All the laughing n fun it's Like my life has jumped from depressed n lonely to fun and centre of attention.

Not just yesterday but it's almost everyday since starting of 2022. Everyday is even more better.

In December I was so obsessed over getting in void. At the end of Dec I was like fkk this! N decided to to all in with my SC n know that I am GOD!! That's more that enough!

Did I get in void? Nope.

Do I care about it? Nope .

Things are just going so pretty for me I'm sitting here being all amazed y would I give 2 shots about a silly method.

Ohh yeah n then again overconsuming n not applying is another factor. Look ik as a fact now that I am god like there is no going back but sm days when m anxious (which didn't happen since Jan) I do come back to look at loa posts for sm motivation n it feels good to be reminded that yass it's all in my control. But I don't solely depend on posts to get me going. I rarely visit Tumblr tho.

Like legit I engraved it in my brain.. that I AM GOD, IT'S MY REALITY I CAN TAME IT, TWIST IT, BEND IT THE WAY I WANT! IT'S ME WHO'S IN CONTROL. THINGS HAPPEN FOR ME N NOT TO TO ME.

Dropping the victim mentality was one of the best things I did in my whole 18 yrs of exsistance. Taking responsibility for what happen in my life bc uk EIYPO !!

What happens if I see smthn unwanted in my 3d?

Methods I use: Lullaby & commanding

Everything that happens in my life is desirable. Each one of us manifests every mili second but I only manifest desirable stuff. Just in case if I see smthn I don't like. I don't necessarily ignore it I just give all the credits to 2021 me. It's the ol assumptions being reflected in my 3d. Nahh that's not me it must be her bc I've nothing but only dr!

Affrimation that basically did wonders for me were: I am who I want to be and I've all my desires.

OMG! YOU'RE THAT BITCH!

[simkngdan]

JUST A LITTLE BIT - 08 : riki you idiot.

wc : 581

dec 22, 2021. 8:07 am | location: belift lab high school

“riki hey!” jake greeted the younger, who was entering the key to his locker.

“oh, jake? ‘sup man?“ riki said in a state of confusion from jake’s unexpected presence.

“yo i was wondering if you could help me out a bit, it’s something that’s been bothering me for a little.”

“uhh, are you sure you want me to help?” riki laughed, “we just met so i’m probably not your best choice-“

“actually it has to do with y/n, so you’re the only one who can help me.”

riki stared into the older boy and quickly gathered his things from his locker, shoving them in his backpack, “oh y/n? actually, i think i should probably head to class, its starting soon. i’ll see you later!” he chucked and rushed away trying to avoid jake, failing quickly when jake grabbed his shoulder and turned him around.

“listen, i just need you to answer something really quick, i promise i won’t tell anyone anything.”

riki looked around frantically, searching for any sign that his friends may be around, “ugh fine. what’s your question?” he whispered, a sigh of relief coming from jake’s mouth.

“thanks man,” the older boy smiled, “ok so you know how in the groupchat, you told us that y/n had a crush on one of us?”

riki’s eyes opened up wide, regret washing over him from his previous statement as he suspected what jake would ask him, “yeah? i think.” he shrugged.

“did she ever tell you who it was? not that it’s any of my business, but i was just wondering because you know-“

riki dozed off in the middle of jake’s rambling, debating on how to answer jake’s question. should he tell him that she “likes” him? but what if jake confesses his crush on y/n, which he clearly has, and it turns into a big mess? maybe it’s better he keep it to himself, right? just blow it off, pretend she never told him who she had a crush on, and nothing will happen.

“she told me she had a crush on you.” riki blurted out.

riki you idiot, he mentally face planted himself.

“OH SHIT!“ jake yelled, drawing the attention of multiple classmates in the halls, one of them being isa who gave riki a “what the hell is he yelling about” look.

“yeah i got to go buddy. glad i could help!” he said, patting jake on the shoulder and walking away as fast as he could once more, escaping isa this time.

after arriving to his classroom, he let out a sigh and calmly collected himself before walking over to his desk. he sunk down into his seat, his hood over his head, wishing this day would end along with his misery. the bell rang loudly in his ears, as he sat up and felt a tap on his shoulder. he turned back and groned loudly at the sight of the person he last wanted to see right now, “y/n? why are you here? since when are you in this class?”

“uhh since the first day?” she said, shuffling through her backpack to take out her homework, “good morning to you too i guess.”

“good morning sorry, it’s just been a stressful morning.”

“oh damn, is everything ok? is this about the whole sunghoon thing? i didn’t mean for it to stress you out.” she said, concern deep in her voice for the boy.

“oh no. well yes, but everything’s fine. don’t worry about it.” he lied and he gave her a reassuring smile, turning his body to the front of the classroom and sinking down into his seat again, yeah this is gonna be a big mess.

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a/n: first written chapter OMG i actually liked writing chapters more than i thought i would IDK WHY I WAS RLLY SCARED TO WRITE THIS but anyways! i wanted to say that ik the y/n fanclub flame riki a lot but !! it is just like teasing between friends :) i just wanted to point it out bc i feel like it came off like they were being really mean to riki but it’s all just part of the story 😉😉 THANK U GUYS AGAIN FOR READING I HOPE YOU ARE SAFE AND HEALTHY <3

summary - if there were two things y/n and park sunghoon had in common, it was their love for figure skating and themselves. other than that, you could say they were born to hate each other. whether it was on or off the ice, the two were always at each others necks, trying to find some kind of competition. but what happens when y/n gets together with sunghoon’s best friend, jake, as a way to distract sunghoon and he starts to get… jealous? can sunghoon get y/n to love him back, even if it’s just a little bit?

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