#i started one for another fandom literally back in 2018 . and i put sooo much effort into it

[smoosnoom]

one day im going to snap and write a byler buzzfeed au

[motherofmymother]

Accidental Bonding Recs

These fics tend to focus on either characters who already pine for each other and then must hide it due to the forced intimacy, or characters that hate each other but come to understand one another, or a combination of both. Bonding through accidental Mpreg has its own section. Pon Farr also has its own section. If you like Star Trek, Pon Farr is basically canon fuck or die and forced bonding, so check that out.

·       Stiles, why is Derek Hale passed out on our front porch? By marguerite_26, mothlights (Teen Wolf, Explicit, 4K, 2013)

o   Stiles freezes, carton of milk half way to his mouth. He looks around the empty room, wondering if it has any answers. Derek Hale just passed out on his front porch -- sounds like one of the signs of the coming apocalypse.

o   [Magical bond, angst, scent kink, smut, emotionally constipated Derek]

o   Interesting concept of Derek’s wolf.

·       Bond by Bookkbaby (Supernatural, Explicit, 4K, 2013)

o   Castiel is injured, so Dean offers Cas some of his soul's energy. Things don't go as planned.

o   [Destiel, accidental soul bond, porn, soul sex, humor, Dean’s fragile masculinity]

o   Well written and sexy. Short, porny fun for the whole fam.

·       Marked, Bound Ever To Thee by kakaitalover (Dresden Files, Teen, 8K, 2015)

o   Mystic bonds just make everything awkward. Especially when they're triggered by rape flowers.

o   [no smut, focus on bonding tropes, kidnapping, telepathy sort of, magic, denial of feelings]

o   I just liked the tropey-ness in a more niche fandom. It’s no masterpiece, but it’s short and humorous.

·       omni gladio ancipiti by lifevolutionary (Supernatural, Explicit, 10K, 2010)

o   The archangel Gabriel had never chosen a Bearer for his sword. Until now.

o   [Sam/Gabriel, Destiel, fluff, humor, crack, minimal smut]

o   Gabriel’s voice is a perfect balance of snarky and irreverent. The little hints to deeper character feelz were just the cherry on top.

·       The (Mostly Accidental) Courtship of Dean Winchester by tuesday (Supernatural, Mature, 11K, 2010)

o   Angelic marriage rites were never intended to go quite like this.

o   [Destiel, Crack, humor, pining, Oblivious!Dean, emotionally constipated Dean, UseYourWords!Castiel]

o   This is a lovely, sweet, crackey little fic. I just adored it.

·       Bound to be Broken by EntreNous (Harry Potter, Explicit, 13K, 2009)

o   There is a way to break the accidental bond between Harry and Snape; it simply involves lots of sex.

o   [Snarry, fuck or die-ish, PWP, smut, hate sex, bickering, coming together, forced intimacy]

o   This almost belonged in fuck or die, but the sexual relationship is already started and there’s no angst about whether or not to do it. Rather, this fic focuses on the building intimacy between the characters so I put it here.  

·       ♥ Bonding Time by magisterpavus (Voltron, Explicit, 16K, 2016)

o   “Shiro, I fucked up,” Keith blurted, wringing his hands. Shiro paused mid-punch, shooting him a quizzical look. “What? What happened?” “I think,” Keith whispered, “I think I accidentally roofied Lance. With my dick.”

o   [Klance, pwp, smut, humor, accidental bonding, heat sex, sex marathon, mates, angst]

o   Magisterpavus is my favorite author of all time, and this is her most classic porn fic. It has a ton of sequels too that are all equally hot.

·       ♥ Twice as Much as an Earthquake by firethesound (Harry Potter, Explicit, 19K, 2014)

o   Accidental bonding. Breaking and entering. Conspiring, however unwillingly, in the strange one-man war Malfoy's waging against detention. This isn't the normal school year Harry anticipated having, but at least it's not boring.

o   [Drarry, getting caught going to bone-town, bickering, forced proximity, forced bed sharing, forced intimacy, smut, UST, humor]

o   This one has a sweet buildup of Harry and Draco’s relationship. How do I put this—they aren’t super angsty and hateful towards each other. Not to say that there isn't some wonderfully awkward situations going on and they do fight, but it’s more bickering and less I hate you. It’s a good fic is what I’m saying.

·       Eyes Like Stars by malfoys_cousin (Voltron, Mature, 21K, 2017)

o   In which Lance drinks too much alien alcohol, literally cannot get a grip on his embarrassingly huge crush on Keith, and accidentally ruins everything.

o   [Klance, accidental bonding, pining, sooo much pining, humor, drunk shenanigans, forced proximity, forced bed sharing, bickering, denial of feelings]

o   Classic accidental bond fic. Less angry/angsty and more humor/pining than some others, so if you’re tired of everyone being unhappy all the time, then check this out.

·       Grooming Instincts by jemariel (Supernatural, Explicit, 26K, 2018)

o   There's something going on with Cas. Dean is determined to help him through it, in whatever way he can. He might end up with more than he bargained for. OR: Dean helps Cas scratch an itch. As it were.

o   [wing kink the fic, oil gland kink, porn, humor, virgin!Castiel, pining, communication is a skill, that they don’t have, bonding, angel marriage: sort of]

o   Gets into glorious, glorious detail about the wings. Kinky as hell with that. Wing kink: the fic. You’re welcome.

·       ♥ Angels on the Moon by Writcraft (Harry Potter, Explicit, 27K, 2017)

o   The aftermath of the war is almost as difficult as the war itself, Harry is a mess and Severus is a reluctant survivor forced back to Hogwarts to recuperate from his injuries. When a brick-bonding spell goes awry, Harry and Severus are forced to confront hatred, misunderstandings and a new and unexpected intimacy which takes them both by surprise.

o   [Snarry, empathy, healing, magic, magic shenanigans, trust issues, Cranky!Snape, Post-war fic, forced intimacy, fuck or die-ish]

o   Snape is his best worst self in this fic and I just ate up his intimacy issues. The awkwardness of their forced intimacy is everything I could have asked for in an accidental bonding fic. The description of their magic mixing is lovely as well.

·       ♥ ♥ Better Than Dead by heartsdesire456 (Teen Wolf, Explicit, 27K, 2013)

o   When Stiles is gravely injured, the only way to save him is for Derek to turn him. However, Derek never did learn exactly what certain bites meant and, without this knowledge, he accidentally claims Stiles as his mate. Alpha werewolves mate forever. However...Betas don't.

o   [accidental!bonding, accidental!soulmates, mating shenanigans, so much angst, slow build, all the bonding tropes, emotionally constipated!Derek, emotionally constipated!Stiles, pining, UST, selfless!Derek]

o   I love the tension between Derek and Stiles here. So delicious. If you love clearly destined to be together, Stiles and Derek becoming friends through forced intimacy, then this is your fic. I still reread it all the time.

·       ♥ ♥ Shout it Out Loud by dreamlittleyo (X-Men, Explicit, 30K, 2011)

o   When Charles forges a telepathic link between himself and Erik, the two men find themselves bound together by more than just destiny. With the world on the brink of war, Charles and Erik struggle to cope with a psychic connection that may well be permanent.

o   [Charles/Eric, X-Men Origins AU, telepathy, emotional intimacy, healing, UST, soooo much UST, Idiot!Charles, minimal smut, fluff, angst, heart break]

o   This was an absolutely beautiful fic. You can feel their love for each other woven through every word and it’s just fucking gorgeous. I can't recommend it enough.

·       Lap Magnet by Prairie_Grass (Teen Wolf, Explicit, 30K, 2014)

o   Wherein an ill-advised floral arrangement leads to a whole new definition of obliviousness, accidental mate-bonds, and far more sex and tropes than one fic really needs.

o   [accidental bonding, soulmates—kind of, Smut, humor, but like so much smut, dubcon, Oblivious!Everyone]

o   Super well written tropey fun. Really well known fic, and if you like the accidental bonding trope with your porn and you haven’t read this, what are you doing with your life?

·       How High the Moon by kyliselle (Star Trek, NC-17, 39K, 2010)

o   After the destruction of Vulcan, Spock shielded his mind to protect it from his broken bond with T'Pring. Little did he know another bond had already formed in its place.

o   [mind meld, telepathy, Asshole!Spock, Oblivious!Spock, communication fail, so much angst]

o   Spock is almost too much as asshole here, but the concept is so wonderfully done and the tension so well held that I don’t care. As the original prompt asked for, this focuses super hard on the mental bond, telepathy, and all the yummy tropes. A must read for intimacy and bond drama.

·       Before the World Was Made  by daftfear (Harry Potter, Teen, 43K, 2014)

o   Draco has done everything in his power to leave the past behind him. He’s established himself a successful business and built a reputation around the quality of his work and the breadth of his knowledge. But when aurors show up at his shop one afternoon, seeking his expertise on a peculiar item of questionable origins, they completely overthrow the precarious balance in Draco’s life. Trust Potter to bring danger and destruction in his wake, along with a painful reminder of all the things Draco is trying to forget.

o   [Drarry, accidental bonding, forced proximity, gratuitous bed sharing, pining, communication is a skill, sex for reasons, healing, discrimination]

o   This is another well-paced, well-written, well-romanced fic. Harry and Draco’s dynamic is portrayed nicely.

·       ♥ In Evidence of Magical Theory by bixgirl1 (Harry Potter, Explicit, 44K, 2017)

o   When a hex meant for Draco accidentally catches Harry as well, they're forced to learn to understand each other in ways they previously might have thought impossible. In which Harry and Draco can't fight, so they fall in love instead.

o   [Drarry, bickering, UST, pining, snark, forced bed sharing, forced intimacy, mental connection, suuuuper UST, awkwardness, smut]

o   A classic accidental bonding. This fic has the best awkwardness from the forced intimacy and the slowly learning not to want to kill each other. The tropes are perfectly done here. This is one I’d recommend for anyone.

·       Distance Removed by General_Button (One Punch Man, Mature, 44K, 2016)

o   Pain along his wrist fizzled into existence and then, like a switch, exploded. Saitama stumbled back, fighting the urge to shout, and waited for it to fade. “What—sensei, are you all right?!” Genos was staring at him incredulously, his mouth agape.

o   [Genos/Saitama, forced proximity, shared physical sensations, healing, intimacy, friends to lovers]

o   This really captures the voice of the characters and show; the deadpan absurdity of them living their normal lives with all this fantastical stuff going on and Saitama’s emotional disconnect.

·       Once Upon a Time (A Fairy-Tale Love Story) by littlebirdtold (Star Trek, Explicit, 47K, 2013)

o   Jim finds himself in a parallel universe where the Milky Way is under the control of an alien race and ends up as a servant in the residence of the Royal House of Vulcan. As he starts adapting to his new life, Jim's curiosity fucks everything up—but hey, Vulcans shouldn't have told him that he isn't allowed to enter this wing of the palace; Jim has never been good at following rules.

o   [porn with plot, humor, power imbalance, communication is a skill, emotionally constipated Spock, asshole parents, telepathy, empathy]

o   Littlebirdtold has a very particular voice for Kirk that I don’t 100% love; it’s like he’s too driven by his dick. Her fics tend to conflate love with good sex. However, this is still very good, well-paced, sexy, and fun. I think my problem with her fics are personal taste because they are excellent, and clearly popular.

·       ♥ The Morning After by noodleinabarrel (Star Trek, Mature, 50K, 2016)

o   After a passionately illogical night of Romulan Ale and chocolate infused liquor, everything changes when Jim wakes with something other than a hangover filling his head. Something he's sure neither he nor Spock can handle. Because if Jim knows anything for sure, it's that his messed up thoughts belong nowhere near Spock's clean, ordered mind.

o   [accidental bonding, UST, pining, forced intimacy, insecure!Kirk, healing, Oblivious!Kirk, afraid of commitment, mind meld shenanigans]

o   This is a perfect example of an accidental bonding fic. Like this is what I would put as the picture in the dictionary. Needless to say, it’s very good.  

·       UST (An Unfortunate Series of Tropes) by ureshiiichigo (Teen Wolf, Explicit, 54K, 2015)

o   Stiles thought he and Derek were finally getting to be bros, and then Deaton had to go and ruin everything with his stupid spell.

o   [Tropes, so many tropes, soul bonding, accidental soul bonding, scent kink, pack dynamics, Oblivious!Stiles, EmotionallyConstipated!Derek, UseYourWords!Derek, gratuitous sandwich sharing, telepathy, smut, dubcon, consent issues, communication issues, doughnuts, UST]

o   This was written for a trope bingo and it is glorious for it. It’s a bit silly, but, like, in a good way.  The sexy bits are also very sexy.

·       Cursed Or Not by Ltleflrt (Supernatural, Explicit, 115K, 2014)

o   While experimenting with magic when he was a kid, Sam accidentally cursed Dean. Now, Dean is forced to wear a spelled amulet constantly, or he'll turn into a random animal. For a little over a decade, he's learned to live with the curse, and has even found it useful in some cases, but he sure would be happier without it. When he meets a witch named Castiel, he's offered a deal.

o   [Destiel, Witch!Castiel, Familiar!Dean, trust issues, minimal smut, UST, Sassy!Gabriel, accidental bonding]

o   This one is rather out of character; however, the writing is solid, and overall it’s a solid fic, but not if you’re looking for a great depiction of Dean. I think this is for people who want fluff and romance in their fics rather than angst. Which is probably why I wasn’t as into it, lol.

·       ♥ ♥ Mental by sara_holmes (Harry Potter, Mature, 187K, 2010)

o   Harry has had quite enough of sharing his mind with someone else, thank you very much. A miscast Legilimency spell says otherwise.

o   [Drarry, telepathy, humor, angst, pining, bickering, communication, smut, jealousy, super focus on the telepathy, mind meld, slow build, enemies to friends to lovers]

o   This is a classic. One of those perfect fics that you’re sad you can only enjoy for the first time once. It also deeply explores the characters, doing an especially good job with Draco.

[flames-bring-a-ton-of-ash]

Hey Ash! Can you please recommend me a few good slow burn fics that's like 100k? It doesn't matter which fandom :) thanks!

Okay, so I went through my bookmarks and such all over my laptop, because it actually was reminding me of older slow burns I loved and now I want to re read some of them. A lot of these are well over 100k. When I go for slow burns, I don’t play around lol. I also tend to prefer reading ships with 2 canon characters for slow burns, rather than OC characters, but that’s just a personal preference, so that’s why these are mainly ships. Enjoy!

Forward to a Time Past by Unbridled Brunette (~270k words, Buffy/Spike) This is a time travel slow burn, if you’re into that pairing. It’s AMAZING! Buffy goes back in time to Victorian London, when Spike is the still human, very shy, very virginal William. It’s brilliant. And it was the first fic that had me all in with the idea of an inexperienced man who is “taught” by the woman. It has that Pride & Prejudice vibe, where it’s scandalous to even touch bare hands, let alone make love to someone when unmarried, and I’m such a sucker for that. I remember being upset when I finished this story, because I knew I wouldn’t find a Spike/Buffy slow burn that I loved this much ever again…and I haven’t. 

You Know Better by @xteenwolfwritingsx (~77k words, Peter Hale/OC, Teen Wolf) This is hands down the best long Peter fic I have ever read! As I said, I don’t typically go for OC/you characters for longer fics, but this OC was so relatable and well-written, and I remember reading the first chapter of this and having to put my phone down, because I was just like, “Holy shit, I’m gonna become so obsessed with this story”. And I am. I read it twice in two weeks. I haven’t read the newest couple of chapters, purely because I know the author said that it’s going to be finished soon, so I’m waiting until it’s completed so I can go back and read it a third time from the beginning and take it all in, start to finish. The premise is that the OC/you asks Peter to teach her how to fight, so she’s not just the helpless human of the group. And oh boy…Peter as a fighting instructor…god…yea…it’s hot. I was about to scream waiting for them to finally rip each other’s clothes off, and god it was so worth the wait when they did! If you’re at all into Peter, read this! 

Your Hands Can Heal, Your Hands Can Bruise by blackestnight10 (~430k words, Daryl Dixon/OC) Sadly, this is not a completed story. And honestly, I don’t remember a lot of details about it, but it was the first long Walking Dead fic I ever read. It’s Daryl with an OC character, and the two things I do remember is that the OC kicked ass and yet was also likeable and intriguing, and that it was a torturous slow burn. I mean, it’s realistic to Daryl, because I don’t see him as someone who jumps in bed with anyone, so the author stayed really in canon with his character. And I stayed up late many a night devouring it. 

Spiced Molasses by MonDieu666 (~140k words, Daryl/Beth) - This one is a fantastic AU slow burn. Beth’s parents are assassinated, and she and her two siblings have to be put into protective custody in separate locations. Rick calls in Daryl, the irritable lone ranger agent, to watch Beth. Cue one of my favorite tropes: them stuck unwillingly in a tiny apartment together, at first not liking each other, where they dance around each other until finally giving in to their desires. It’s a fabulous story!

18 Miles Out by MonDieu666 (~190k words, Daryl/Beth) - I’ll admit that I don’t remember a whole lot of details on this one…but I DO remember that I wrote down which chapters the smut is in and kept it handy, because I went back countless times to re read those chapters, since they were so sexy. This author is fabulous for her longer Bethyl fics (she wrote the previous one and this next one, as well). 

Damaged Heroes by MonDieu666  (~135k words, Daryl/Beth) - I’m also struggling to remember the details of this one. I think I get this story and 18 Miles Out mixed up a lot, and it’s been years since I read them, but they were both fabulous and worth a read.

I’ll Be Yours for a Song by dynamicsymmetry (~380k words, Daryl/Beth) This is a breathtakingly beautiful AU fic. In the first chapter, Daryl drives down a country road and finds Beth walking, soaking wet, in the rain. He debates on if he should stop and offer her a ride, and when he does, it kick starts a romance that is just…ugh, so good. I will admit that I didn’t get the entire way through it (it’s a pretty long fic) because I kept getting side tracked by other fics, but it’s one that I still, even over a year later, keep open on a Safari tab on my phone, and I want to go back and re read it from the beginning at some point…maybe that’ll be my goal for the beginning of 2018. This author writes Daryl and Beth exactly how I picture they would be together. The hesitation, the fear of falling in love, the hurdles of their age difference (Beth is still in high school at the beginning of it, altho I believe she’s 18). It’s just magical. 

Howl by dynamicsymmetry (~383k words and still being written, Daryl/Beth) This is another story that I need to catch up on, because I’ve gotten way behind on it. It’s another AU, this time with Rick and the gang being werewolf shapeshifters, and Beth being…well…I don’t want to spoil the surprise, because that’s part of the mystery, is her discovering who she is and how she stumbles upon werewolf Daryl in the beginning. This fic hit some kinks I didn’t even realize I had…and I’m not ashamed to admit that I still have some fanart saved on my phone based off this fic, of Daryl in werewolf form banging human Beth XD

Eden by obsessmuch (~265k words, Hermione Granger/Lucius Malfoy) Sooo this story is FUCKED UP! I mean seriously, it is not for the faint of heart. I don’t think I’ve ever read a more angst-ridden fic in my entire life…but holy shit, I loved it. This is not a fluffy romantic type of slow burn, ohhh no. This is Lucius at his most vicious. He tortures the fuck outta Hermione in the beginning, and you hate him with a fiery passion, the same way Hermione does. And yet, this Stockholm-Syndrome type obsession starts between them, and forms into a fucked up version of love. Also, the ending…oh my god, I still sometimes sit and think about the ending. If you’re at all intrigued by the idea of a dark as hell fic that’ll chew you up and spit you back out with all the feels, give this one a chance. But don’t say that I didn’t warn you ;)

Chasing the Sun by Loten (490k words, Hermione/Snape) This was my first fandom ship, over a decade ago, and I just started diving back into it a few months ago, so I have a ton of long fics to catch up on. However, Loten currently is, and I think quite likely will always be, my favorite Snamione author. Both this fic and the next one on the list by her are my immediate recommendations for someone wanting to try out this pairing. She dives into the psychology of Snape in a way that is just…perfect. I don’t know how anyone can question them being together as a couple after reading both her long fics. The slow burn in this is slow…reallll slow, but holy fuck is the smut worth the wait. But it makes sense, because it starts out when Hermione is 15 or 16, I think (there’s zero romance or even physical awareness of each other until she’s 17, though, since that’s the Wizarding age of consent). It’s more a journey of their interactions together, and it’s honestly a beautiful story. It sticks to canon in the beginning, then goes off the rails, but in a way that I really enjoyed. It was Snape getting the part in the war and taking down Voldemort that he deserved, in my opinion. Loten also includes Crookshanks in her stories, and I really wish more Snamione authors would do this. The scenes with Crookshanks and Snape added so much humor and fluff to the story, both this one and the next fic. 

Post Tenebras, Lux by Loten (~310k words, Hermione/Snape) So, where the last fic was how Hermione and Snape would come together while she was still at school and during the war, this fic takes a look at how they would get together 10 years after the war is over. Snape has disappeared, most people think he died in the Shrieking Shack, even tho a body was never found…until Hermione literally runs into him one day, 10 years later, and it kicks start their interactions. Since the war is over in this fic, it is 100% character driven, and focuses solely on the development of the relationship of these two. If you need swash buckling action and a grand, dramatic plot like taking down Voldemort in a fic, this isn’t for you. But I LOVED it. It’s not as slow a burn as Loten’s other fic, but it delves into the post-war traumas and psychology of both Snape and Hermione in a way that had me hooked from the very beginning. It spans years of their relationship, and how they would develop not just from meeting to falling in love (like where most fics then stop) but beyond and throughout their entire lives. And, like Loten’s other fic, it gave Snape the true love and happy ending that I believe he deserves, and it had me grinning like a fool the rest of the day after I finished it. 

Pet Project by Caeria (~340k words, Hermione/Snape) This is quite the epic slow burn…I mean, when I say it’s slow, it’s SLOW (literally 95% of it is the slow burn). It had me so captivated, and I loved Hermione’s personal “mission” to try and show Snape that he had someone on his side..without him realizing someone was actually trying to be on his side. They were both so in character, especially while they were at Hogwarts. This is another one where she starts out as a student, but it’s once again not romantic or sexual until she’s at least 17. The part where she makes him magical sheets is a scene that will always stick out in my memory. As is the scene where they sit together on the staircase of Grimmauld Place. 

Okay, I’m gonna stop now. Those are the main ones I found when scouring my google sheets, laptop bookmarks, and bookmarks on sites like ao3 and FF. 

If anyone reads any of these and wants to discuss them, PLEASE feel free to message me! I LOVE discussing fics, especially slow burn fics that give me all the feels, so that I can squeal with someone else over the feels. 

[corasohn]

hey again :))) just catching up on things i was mentioned in sooo this one is the 11 q’s tag and its going under a read more since a few ppl tagged me :-o ! so @bakchangg @artfulkey @dearestjonghyun & @tuuzmorado thank you for tagging me 💗💓💗💞💗💕💕💞💗  

bakchangg’s questions

what was the last song you deliberately put on to listen to? peekaboo :3

what do you celebrate at the end of the year, if anything? nothing tbh we just watch the countdown and drink lol

movies or tv shows? tv shows

space or ocean? space !!!

do you have a favorite shirt? yes!!!! i love my girl power shirt or girls supporting girls shirt orrrr my black v neck

last game you played? uhhhh uncharted 

did you eat breakfast today? no :///

what is your opinion on socks? theyre nice i love the fuzzy ones in winter and i have pokemon/kpop/sailor moon/animal socks as well so!

whats something you absolutely hate? uncooked onions. godless.

do you think you read fast? kinda but i tend to re read if i go too fast cause then i cant fully understand, you know???

rain or snow? R A I N

bella’s questions

How much sleep do you get? What do you do when you can’t sleep? i dont get alot tbh i tend to stay up and overthink like many others ._. so i actually listen to my nighttime playlist or watch/listen to yoongis vlives/album reviews. His voice really lulls me to sleep soooo !! thanks yoong ^^ 

What’s your best feature (physical or mental)? my eyes/lips and how open minded i am, but ofc theres probably things im still closed minded about. So slowly im learning/understanding more

What are the top 3 things you admire about your bias and why? which.. one bella.... lmao ok uhmmm ill just go with onew. i admire how considerate he is and how he takes the role of being the oldest/leadr very seriously ;; i adore his understanding towards specific topics that are hard to discuss and his personality is just- he really makes sure youre ok and will always have a shoulder to cry on/friend to depend on :’) idk... hes my first bias and will always be number 1 tbh i just really love him. i want.. i need him to be happy. as long as he’s happy, i am too.

If you could tell your bias anything what would you say? @ namjoon, wear a dangly earring asshol*!!!!!

Whats an album that you haven’t listened to for a while but will always hold a special place in your heart? probably shinees hello or year of us. for hello, lucifer era was when i discovered shinee and hello is still my fav era. and for year of us i just.. really love y.o.u and it was a song that i had on repeat for  s u c h  a long time!!

Why do you study/work in the area that you do? right now im just attending college and just doing my best lol

If someone wanted to befriend you, what should they do/say? just say hi ghfjhdk you can literally talk to me about anything. me & @mimisgf became friends from talking about harry potter and the houses kjhgfkd not even kpop lmao. but then we discussed who in nct would belong in what house haha so yeah just send a message about anything really!

Out of the people that you know irl or online, who is the most similar to your bias and why? no one really lol but, me and my cousins/sisters just joke about my one cousin whos a virgo saying like “wow, you’re really like joon.. he’d do this...” “virgo antics” “you’re just as clumsy as joon lmao ” stuff like that but shes like “lol i know.” 

If you could drastically change one thing about your life with no negative consequences what would you change? my mom grandma/grandpa to talk to us in spanish and english ._. my mom wanted us to be bilingual or tri but my grandpa told her we didnt need to learn spanish and that we should just know english so... yeah.. ://

You have the opportunity to spend the day with your bias in your hometown. What do you do/where do you go with them? well for all 3 its the same but, specifically for nam i’d take him to this one huge parking lot that you can see a really nice view of the city or this tall hill in south sf with a great view as well ^^

Post a selfie (of yourself or your bias) that you love. :-)))))) this is a fav. its the first pic i saved of him :-D (wait. let me just say rn i emailed the pic to paste it in here & i expected to see only that pic but there was another one sent with it jhgfjldhf plssss wtf i didnt even choose the other one lmao😂😂😂😂  ill put the other one too... why not.)

[look at this loser. cutie ._.]

jenny’s questions

Who is your bias kpop group and when did you discover them? SHINee/Bangtan ! shinee, i discovered them when the lucifer mv literally dropped lol. And i found bts when no more dream mv was released. But i did see/watched that video of them acting crazy in their old studio where they always released their diary logs many times but i just didnt know how to search for them back then lol

What is your favourite hair colour on your bias? Provide example/s I will enjoy them. if youre a fan of pinkmon well.. :)))))) if not, welp, you are now! 

ok the last one doesnt really do justice but LISTEN!! its pinkmon.!

3. Who are your favourite vocalists? jonghyun ;; and luna ! 4. Favourite female soloist for research purposes… suran hyuna sunmi and ailee!!! dont make me pick only one :((( 5. When did you first get into kpop? 2009 but officially in 2010 6. Do you consider yourself a part of many fandoms? not really tbh, i mean, i stan but im not really part of alot of fandoms.. 7. Favourite none kpop hobby? i like to read up on astrology  8. What is the best book you’ve ever read? Why? probably the book of birthdays. ngl. it has so much info on zodiac signs and it tells you about your birth number, health, and realtionships with others ^^ 9. Is there any piece of art that means something special to you? i dont have one at the moment but i hope one day ill find one. art in general is really inspiring and beautiful. 10. Have you traveled outside your home country before? Where would you want to go? i have not, sadly T.T but id like to go to mexico or japan :D or soemwhere in europe! 11. If you could live in any other time, when would you? im actually ok with the time im in now haha i dont really wanna experience the past/future tbh.

lu’s questions

1. Post one of your most loved pictures of your bias and say what you like about the picture. 

ok it took forever to find it but its not really this picture... its another one, but in a different angle. Anyways this is one of my fav pics of namjoon cute :3 

2. Post one picture of your female bias and explain what made her your bias.

tbh it was both of these pictures that made me bias her even more but joy is my bias ever since i watched their 1st appearance on weekly idol. i thought id bias wendy when they debuted but its joy :D 3. If you could pick 6 idols to make a collaboration who would you pick and what song? hmmm i actually just wanted a btshinee collab but with more members this time ;; but i also would like to see rapline with stray kids rapline aka 3racha! and the song would be self-made. i would like to see what type of song theyd create together! ^^ like chan and namjoon working on song and changbin with yoongi sharing their lyrics with each other while hobi and jisung discuss the flow of the rap and more. it would be nice to see bts rapline give pointers/advice basiaclly share their wisdom with the kids :’) 4. What song was the catchiest for you this year? peekaboo 5. You favorite hair color in your biases (male and female)? Post pictures! refer to the picture of dark haired nam and icc era of joy lol those are my fav hair colors on them (but pinkmon is also a fav...) 6. Where would you travel for your dream vacation? mexico, somewhere in europe or in asia! 7. In your opinion what comeback was underrated? tell me what to do/just one day :((((( 8. What’s your favorite food? i... love all food.... 9. From your favorite kpop album this year, which song would you have picked as a title track or a second promotional track? bangtans gogo as a second promotional track tbqh!!! idk for a title track... dna was good. 10. What’s your favorite choreography of a girl group this year? hhhhhhhhh twice likey <3 11. Taemin’s MOVE or Sunmi’s Gashina? XDDDDDD BOTH!!!!!!! i cant choose o n e

thank you all for mentioning me ^^ & here are my questions:

Favorite outfit on your bias from any era ^^ pls put a few pics :D

A song or a video that helps you sleep?

What idol interation did/do you want last/this year?

Is there a favorite cover song you like from your fav group(s)?

What color do you think your bias looks the best in?

Top 5 songs that you have been listening to non stop in 2017?

If someone in your fav group can go solo or start a unit, who would you want it to be?

Any songs you want to rec others to listen to (kpop/non-kpop)?

Top 10 blogs you enjoy seeing on tumblr?

Your opinion on drop earrings/ripped jeans/chokers?

Whats one goal you wish to accomplish for 2018?  

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Annual Writing Self-Evaluation

*All answers should be about works published in 2017.

I was tagged by @londonfoginacup who is always enabling me to share more of my fic

1. List of works published this year:

I didn’t think I published any but 2017 was longer than I remembered (this Cupid!fic has taken over my brain) and I actually finished 3. Ish.

Let’s be alone together And they call it puppy love All the ways to say ‘I love you’

I’m saying ish because all the ways to say I love you is a drabble thing that I thought I’d keep writing on while I was doing other things and HAHAHAHA.

2. Work you are most proud of (and why):

It has to be LBAT because I started that fic in 2013 and well. Look where we are. I never would’ve finished it if it weren’t for @almostdarkobject and it taught me that I can write more than I thought I could and also finish a fic before uploading it. 

3. Work you are least proud of (and why):

None because all writing is good writing even when it’s bad writing

4. A favorite excerpt of your writing:

That’s like asking me to pick one of my favorite children (spoiler alert I do not have any children). So I decided to pick this moment because I think it’s very important that people realize that you can always redefine yourself and figuring yourself out can be an unending process and that’s all ok!

Liam opens his mouth to protest that, then bites his lip. He had thought of Zayn. Of the way he’d smile at him, tongue pressed to the back of his teeth. Of how everything had seemed less scary when Zayn’s shoulder bumped into his. “I’m just. We’ve never. I don’t have Zayn.” It sounds a bit hollow.

“But you like him, yeah?” Louis prompts softly.

“Well, yeah. Sure I do. He’s-”

“Yeah, yeah, he’s been a great friend. I’ve heard that. That’s wonderful, Li. But I’ve never seen you go starry eyed over Nialler. And unless you’re talking about me like I’ve personally hung up the moon and decorated the sky with stars, he’s not a friend in the way that I’m your friend.” Liam can’t really protest that, as much as he wants to. He loves Louis, there’s no doubt about that. But not in the way he loves Zayn. He doesn’t think he loves anyone in the way he loves Zayn.

“I’m not gay though,” he almost whispers it, so soft he’s not sure Louis has even heard it. He’s not sure he wouldn’t prefer that, if he’s honest.

“I’m not saying you are, love,” Louis’ voice sounds patient. “You don’t need to label yourself. You don’t even need to know exactly what it is you’re feeling. Just as long as you know that whatever you feel, it’s ok. It’d be ok if you did consider Zayn to be more than just a mate.”

Liam swallows, looks up at him. “It is?”

Louis nods, wraps his arms around him. “Yeah, Li. It’s alright. Whatever you feel, it’s always alright, yeah? Feelings are never wrong. They’re confusing and frustrating sometimes, but you always have the right to feel what you feel, yeah? No one gets to tell you that you can’t. Just because you’ve never liked boys before doesn’t mean that you can’t. Doesn’t mean that you can’t like Zayn. And even if you’ll never like boys again, that doesn’t make the way you feel right now any less valid.”

“Feels weird,” he hums, looking up at Louis. “Like. I never thought of myself as, y’know. I mean you’ve been with girls but you’ve always told me that you weren’t really in love. That you just weren’t ready to admit that you wanted to be with a boy instead.”

Louis looks somewhat amused. “Yea, but, Li, I’m gay. Liking Zayn doesn’t necessarily make you gay. You know that, right? That there’s more than just gay and straight. The way you felt for Dani was real, right? So maybe you’re bisexual. Or pansexual. Or maybe it doesn’t matter what you identify as. It just matters that you like him.”

Hearing it like this, it’s sort of soothing, in a way. Makes him feel settled. “I do,” he admits, wondering if maybe it should feel like a more momentous occasion. His very first crush on a boy. It doesn’t feel so scary though. Not unless he allows himself to think about the fact that Zayn is no longer a part of his life. Or that his silly crush might be unrequited. “Quite a lot, if I’m honest.”

He gets a hug from Louis in response, a kiss to the top of his head. “Alright then. So now that we’ve established that you quite fancy Zayn, what are we going to do about it?”

5. Share or describe a favorite comment you received:

OK so technically this is a comment from 2015 but it’s on the fic I finished this year so I find that it still counts. It’s a comment that hit me where it hurt but in the best ways. I’ve really struggled with the lack of visibility in fandom (feeling as though I’m writing for no one) as well as massive physical issues. This one comment is one I still think of at times. I wish I could hug this person for writing those wonderful words and I hope they know they made my existence better.

Your writing is just, suberb. And I don't know if your thumb / elbow (arm??) still hurts, but I hope it got better! And the fact that you might have written it while you were in pain, that's just, amazing. I don't know why people aren't commenting because WOW, you are just.

(Don't tell anyone I said this but -- you write better than some people who are super duper famous (as in other fans) IN MY OPINION OFC.)

I really hope you don't get discouraged in writing just because no one is commenting because YOU can write, and you don't need anyone telling you that you can because this is something you should remember that it's for yourself, not others (: !

I hope you're doing alright and will continue to write despite the lack of comments. You are amazing, and I'd be so so sad if you didn't write anymore.

You're one of the only authors, I feel, that are really unqiue with their ideas and just, the way you write and how you contine to write despite no one's comments, I'm just so proud of you, and so happy you're in this world, living, breathing, being HAPPY.

I am in love with you (just the to tiniest bit...just kidding -- a WHOLE CRAP TON) and your writing inspires me to write more and not care if people comment or kudos, because you reminded me that writing is to make me happy, that's its for me, and not anybody else.

Just, thank you. For existing, for writing despite the odds put against you.

You are so, so brave and lovely, I am so glad to have found you and read your works.

6. A time when writing was really, really hard:

All the time. But more specifically, after my forever cat died and I had to pick it back up. I wrote her into the story and I bawled. Unsurprisingly. 

7. A scene or character you wrote that surprised you:

Hm. Well. See. I have a vague sense of where I’m going and where I want to end up but everything in between is just word vomit sooo..

8. How did you grow as a writer this year:

I learned that I can write long fic. I also learned that I grossly underestimate how verbose I am and that 80k is not enough to write a fic in when I’ve been thinking about it for four years. 

9. How do you hope to grow next year:

Man I just hope to finish my fic and that people will like it. I’m 133k deep into a fic that I’m literally expecting one person to read so it’d be fabulous if I was proven wrong and I am happy to grow and accept my being wrong!

10. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc):

Holy shit ok so this is where I gush about my undying love for @londonfoginacup is it? I mean, what can I say?? None of this would’ve happened if it weren’t for her. She’s been reading along with me and helping me and also being a generally amazing person who sends great Christmas cards and who will be rewarded with a care package when I finish this fic because I adore you so effin much and this whole fic is for you. 

11. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year:

My cat died and showed up in Cupid heaven where Louis petted her and told her everything would be ok. 

12. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers:

Don’t post any WIPs. Finish writing before you upload. Get someone to read along with you if you’re heavily dependent on outsider input. Just. Don’t upload a WIP and then abandon it for four years. Never let Zayn leave the band and kill your muse. 

13. Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year:

Cupid!Larry. As @londonfoginacup said: 2018 is the year of Cupid!Larry. 

14. Tag three writers/artists whose answers you’d like to read.

If anyone hasn’t done this yet and wants to, consider yourself tagged because after this longass trip to memory lane (told you I was verbose) my brain is pooped.