#i should save these thoughts somewhere else but hnhnh will i rmemeber???? remember?

[tea-and-finalfantasy]

love my lil oc mieke (he/she/they) (feat. some selfship talk, nsfw)

who is pan + who i want to address with an undercurrent of lesbianism as well. something is occurring with them and i'm just here for the ride

his main partner is a man but i feel he expresses affection in some situations as a woman loving a woman. not all the time--as i think he falls more often for men? but that could also be the amount of men in base media in the first place--but some situations are very Tonight i am loving u as a woman or experiencing our deep comradery as a woman who loves u, a woman

he's almost exclusively a dom top, or would power bottom if he felt like receiving, but the singular instances so far where he has just a smidge of submissiveness to him--always in a social way thus far, where he's putting himself in a scene to do something but not to fuck/just to get himself to relax beyond workday responsibilities + beyond the responsibilities of a dom or top--always have an undercurrent of genderlessness, being referred to as a good boy or good girl as titles, not necessarily in line with a specific identity at the time/more in reference to all facets of his identity occurring at the same time

but he dresses exclusively femme and i feel like girl days for him are almost always occurring, even if simultaneously with boy days or with everything else, so i feel like he lapses easily into being a woman loving women even if it's joined by a lot of something else

like he is in lesbian situations! (cue the caleb gallo he's in this relationship!) (selfship ment beyond here)

like TECHNICALLY mieke is advisor 1 and zan is advisor 2 bc they're the two "having sex more often with each other" / i'm the asexual who's in this relationship

but zan's vibes are very much the "hi were u asking if i was free so u could have sex [+kiss? fall in love lol? i think i hc him as some kind of demi]" and i'm v much the "we're lovers!/he's our lover!" vibe of advisor 2

but anyways sometimes mieke feels like ok this OC in my brain is often in lesbians with me in some kind of way. in lesbians with me AND in cahoots with me where anytime we sense someone we think we could both dom, we're on them like a pair of wild animals