#i should probably try and find a new therapist but 😔

[fulloflovebees]

My anxiety is the worst its ever been since i moved out? I have no idea what has happened in the past year (aside from grad school) that has just. Made my shit peak like this

[smimon]

Omg asking asks, am grabbing this opportunity 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀:

🍫 If you don’t like cheese (will you give me yours or are you a fellow cheese enthusiast?)

🦋🌿🎵📷💌🙃🍪

🐶 dog or kitty 👀👀👀👀

🌸 tell me about your biggest compliment 👀👀👀

🐰

Sorry this is a bit much but I highlighted the ones you need to answer 👀👀👀👀👀👀😸 no pressure tho

Hiii thanks for the ask! Are you ready?! This got a bit long so follow below XD Let's goooo

🍫 Cheese or chocolate? - Cheese wins big time! I love all kinds of cheese and trying new cheese varieties! Unfortunately cheese isn't good for me and I can only eat fairly small amounts 😔 (small compared to what I would prefer, it's still more than average person lol) so after I try a bit of the cheese you can have the rest 😁

🦋 Describe yourself in three words. - Tough one! Should it be three separate words or a three-word sentence? Whatever. Maybe something like "artist", "stubborn", and of course "silly" 🤡

🌿 Describe your favorite outfit. - Okay in general I am not a fan of having an appearance and I feel the best when wearing cosplay, my favorite costume so far is White/Hilda from Pokemon Black and White 😁 But if I have to choose something more casual then it probably would be teal turtleneck, black waistcoat, grey skinny trousers and black boots 🤗 I'll see how I feel about my Berlin gig outfit but I haven't worn it yet so it doesn't count xD

🎵 Last song you listened to? - Mic Mac! 🙌🙌🙌🙌

📷 What’s set as your phone’s lockscreen? - Boo! My phone's settings are broken and I cannot choose any photo outside the default gallery! Boo! But I imagine it's this one:

💌 Do you talk to yourself? - It seems so! I only noticed like last month. Must be a side effect of isolation. And sometimes at work, when I'm very busy, I might start singing 😂 but I stop as soon as I notice lol

🙃 What’s a weird fact that you know? - Barnacles might look like molluscs, but they are actually crustaceans! The outer shell is formed from their foreheads and inside there is a little guy that looks like a shrimp 😁

🍪 If you were a cookie, what kind would you be? - Maybe a French macaron because I tend to be pretentious and difficult 😂

🐶 Are you more of a dog person or a cat person? - CATS ONLY! In this house we love and respect God's perfect predators 😤

🌸 Best compliment you ever received? - Oh shit I am so very bad at taking compliments 🙈 I guess there are two strong competitors. First, when my therapist of all people told me that I am doing well at university since I never failed an exam despite studying a difficult field. It made me feel proud because before that I only focused on how much I struggled. And the second one, when a certain someone asked me if they can get my art as a tattoo 👀🙈

🐰 What do you think says the most about a person? - I am not good at reading people, but I think you can tell quite a lot from how a person treats animals, especially cats. Will they mostly care about not getting fur all over them, will they play with the animal and show some feelings, will they maybe take a photo to show to their loved ones? I find that fairly interesting.

That would be it! Hope you are satisfied 😁 thank you for the ask! 🫡🥹🥹🥹🤗🤗🤗

[sukisoox]

I totally 100% but this actually made me come up with a concept about an au of Timmy in New Wish.

Timmy sees Wanda, Cosmo, or Peri one day walking with Hazel and Dev and thinks that they look similar.

Cue to him getting back home and seeing his kids (he had to move to where they are rn since Tootie died and he’s low on money 😔) so basically Timmy desperately trying to pull it together and be the best dad he could be.

When he wishes his kids good night he gets back to bed and starts to gain his memories back. Piece by piece. Once he gets his memories back he wants to find Wanda, Cosmo, and Peri but stops himself.

Wasn’t he the one that made their relationship worse? He can remember the fighting between Cosmo and Wanda. Did he cause that?

Slowly thoughts of guilt and self doubt come in but can at least be distracted by his kids.

Until he remembers that some buff fairy guy showed him a world where he never existed and how everyone else happier with him existing.

Did he ever saw Tootie-?

But after Timmy remembers mainly the memories of him “causing” everyone to suffer and stuff he kinda breaks. He needs to go to a therapist or something before he breaks. Again.

Cue to Hazel and Dev wishing to be therapists (mainly Hazel but Dev was dragged along) and having their first patient. Should be easy!

They read out the name “Timmy Turner” nonchalantly as in sync, Cosmo, Wanda, and Peri and stiffen in shock and nervousness.

Dev tries to demand an answer but Timmy comes in sweating like crazy as Hazel and Dev realize it’s their first patient.

Timmy rants in an almost crazed state of “Oh it was nothing!” and “I’m not even that hurt, you know?” while Hazel and Dev collectively becoming VERY concerned with this guy. And the fairies?

Oh boy, when you learn that your adoptive sibling/child has a bunch of trauma (that was previously hidden since I hc that after it’s a wishful life that Timmy became less caring and more depressed after literally being shown that he was supposedly the main cause of everyone’s suffering. He refused to tell anyone about this.), might have semi regained his memories, and blames himself for everything of course you’re going to feel very sad and upset.

Btw when Timmy refers to his feelings or the fairies he’s like, “Oh I feel they were like my other unofficial parents and they really saved me so much when I was younger. But I feel like that I caused their relationship to fall apart.” and with Peri “They also had a son that I named, I don’t feel comfortable enough to tell you his name since he probably changed it because of how idiotic it was. But I loved him like a true brother. I hope he’s doing alright now.” Never mentioning them by name so he doesn’t accidentally reveal anything (or he thinks). But always laughing it off while everyone else is very disturbed and concerned.

So that’s all for my ranting and tell me what you think in the comments or just reblogging this. Tysm for reading all of this (might edit to give more info)!

I’m surprised everyone forgotten all the drama Butch himself created during Danny Phantom and Tuff Puppy days were coming to an end or fact Butch loved the Cosmo as a bumbling idiot husband and Wanda as the nagging wife trope gag; most often the writers & artists had to fix up his mistakes and many would would complain how treble it was to work with him

It wasn’t Timmy Turner’s fault Wanda & Cosmo became this way butch just liked playing up dumb cosmo and nagging Wanda gag way too much

Half you sound like married couples blaming their kids on their marriage failure when it’s on the couple themselves when you blame Timmy Turner for Wanda & Cosmo relationship going sour in later seasons of the original show

Luckily these characters are all fictional characters but if they were real it sounds you’re all looking at a 10 year old child causing all the troubles he had to go through and was to blame for all the other characters around him when a lot of the adults around him were failing him;;

I believe it’s more Timmy’s human parents that caused the stress for Wanda & Cosmo I mean honestly they had to care for a neglected (as well as abused) 10 year old and try to teach him right from wrong because his Birth parents were not doing their jobs as his parents

Also there were times Timmy’s birth parents were treble to each other in the show and it would be Timmy who had to deal with the fall out and then Wanda and Cosmo would try their best to help Timmy through it

Also yeah I blame butch himself for things going the way they went and kinda glad he doesn’t have as much of control for fairly odd parents a new wish

[one-abuse-survivor]

Oh dang, it really sucks that you have to deal with such an amount of complex and conflicting emotions, and in such a short window of time no less (((( Remember to take it easy and not be hard on yourself during the following days, and know that there is a lot of support and love being sent towards you, even if you don't always see it!

Dissociation anon here, and it would be better if you answered this one quickly because guess who just got like twice more traumatised today? That's right, this bitch:D Essentially today was a boiling point of a lot of toxicity and grievances and now I'm left with the fallout. Some things happened, and my mother and brother got into a gigantic fight during which she kicked him out of the house and disowned him for good,,,, after which I had to sit in a car with her for two hours 🙂✌🏻 Have you ever had to conceal a panic attack from an abuser screaming at you in a i-will-murder-you absolutely off the rails anger issues way, while sitting next to them? Because that was an,,, experience I do not ever want to find myself in ever again, ever. So now I am worried he might kill himself (since he texted me things like 'I want to die" and "I want to kill myself" about half an hour ago) and also have to tiptoe around a pissed off abuser and deal with the rest of the family going what the fuck is going on while my mental health crumbles

The last time I was so affected by a situation was when my brother pointed a gun at me for the first time. Just,,,, I feel so damaged, like something inside me got permanently shattered after today. I can already understand that this will probably get me some new triggers and a lot more therapy to do in the future. So like, any words of support? Please? I'm running out of optimism here

On a better note, I turn 18 in a few days!! Me and my friend are going to celebrate by going to a gay bar for the first time, because you gotta celebrate pride somehow when just showing a rainbow flag in your country can land you in jail!! I do not know how to party or enjoy myself after today but I'm sure it'll be fine, last year I celebrated my birthday a day before having to face off a possible suicide attempt, after all:D

Hi again! Thanks for the kind words ❤️ I have no idea what my mental health is gonna be like the next few days, but I'll try to take things slowly. Luckily, I'm seeing my mother and the house tomorrow (in about 12 hours) and I have therapy two days from now, so I'll be able to talk with my therapist about it. I'll also spend tomorrow afternoon with my girlfriend and another friend, so I won't be alone in the aftermath.

I'm really sorry things escalated so badly with your family and you couldn't get away 😔 if you don't mind me getting a little bit personal, getting abused in the car is something I'm very acquainted with, and I know what you mean. For years, my mother would scream at me in the I-will-murder-you, off the rails way on a daily basis while she was driving me to and from school, and she wouldn't let me sit in the backseat, so I was right by her side while it happened. Riding in the copilot seat is still one of my biggest triggers to this day. And I'm really, really sorry this happened to you too. I really hope you never have to go through that again :(

I can't imagine having to worry about your brother and the rest of your family on top of all the abuse and trauma you endured today. Please, remember your safety should be your first priority. Other people's decisions and actions aren't your responsibility, and your brother texting you that doesn't mean it's your responsibility to stop him from hurting himself.

I know the feeling after an abuse episode where you just know you're going to develop new triggers from what happened and that it traumatised you. It can feel really hopeless, like the damage is permanent, as you said. And I'd be lying if I said you won't be dealing with the aftermath of this abuse for years, because it's been 4 years since I rode a car with my mother and I still can barely sit on the copilot's seat myself.

But it gets so, so much easier to live with. I no longer feel like everything inside me is out of control at all times, or like I'm an emotional ticking bomb always at the verge of falling apart into a million pieces. Everything no longer feels like too much. I don't feel like my own emotional pain will kill me. Most days of my life are normal days, and I don't even think about my trauma. And on the bad days, I know how to cope and make things better, and even when everything is too much and the horrible negative emotions take over me, the emotions aren't nearly as intense as they were when I was going through the abuse. And I know if I can feel this way now even though I used to feel permanently damaged and too far gone, you will feel this way one day too, nonnie. Everything won't always feel the way it does now. It's never too late for you to recover.

Happy (almost) birthday!!!! That's so exciting! I really hope you have fun with your friend and you can take your mind off your family situation for a few hours ❤️

[potato-jem]

yes yes i will, but my medications are working really well, so i shouldn’t need a second term!! my fingers are crossed regardless.

oh my god that’s so smart, i should try and not be so shy when i eventually go! what’s wrong with more tattoos? more tattoos = more happiness and more aesthetic i have a little list with ideas and placements and i will probably make a little pinboard on pinterest

praying to all the gods and charging all the crystals

i’ve been meaning to find time to do it for months, but uni and life have me in a chokehold :’). luckily i’m almost at the halfway mark, and i have no exams, so i will have more holidays!!!! i can’t wait to see how they turn out too!! and you’ll be the first person i show! i just imagine satan being like casey mcquiston, your punishment in the afterlife for traumatising people is you have to comfort those two people over there, and it’s just us in the corner sobbing while holding all of our copies of rwrb. and honestly, i’m glad you spoke to your therapist about it, i need to do that 😔

i’m honestly considering buying the new plushie from the same artist, it’s a fluffy bee cow

i like writing essays more than exams, but i do like research assignments more. i just handed in one today, and i’m starting off another one for tomorrow (yes my procrastination on this one WAS BAD, but work hasn’t been giving me much time to read the book i need for it) luckily the last two essays are together and my ideas for them are so detailed that they will take maybe an hour each to write :) i’m squeezing you really tight and i hope your day is going wonderfully <333

hello cece!!!

how are you my dear? i hope these past few days have treated you kindly. it’s been two days and i’ve missed you. as promised, here is a little recap of my trip!!

before my trip though, i took myself out on a date! i caught the tram all the way down the line and went shopping by myself. i bought a grand total of seventeen books :) (my arms were very sore) in one of the bookstores i went into, they have this thing where you can buy them wrapped, so it adds a bit of mystery. all you know about it is the hints and descriptions written on the paper. curiosity got the better of me, and i bought two. i also managed to find a lot of classics, including two works of oscar wilde, i hadn’t seen before. now i just need to buy myself a new bookshelf next time i go out…

so my trip! i went to sydney with a friend. i’ve never been before, and honestly, it’s pretty alright. i don’t think i could live there or go for any longer than i did, but it wasn’t too bad, considering all the bad things i have heard about it. we went initially for a concert on the saturday, but we were like “hey we may as well stay the friday night too.”

cece, when i say i had the best japanese i’ve ever had in my entire life on friday night, i mean it. we had gyozas, karaage chicken and a spicy pork ramen. i wished i could have finished it all, it was so delicious. we had to wait for a table for maybe half an hour, but it was sooo worth it. afterwards, we had their green tea ice cream, which was incredible. i would send you a cone!

the concert started at 7pm on the saturday, so we had the day to kill. we met up with my friend’s brother and his partner, and they took us around to their fav places. we went into the gayest cafe i have ever been to in my entire life. not one person in that building was cishet. rainbows were EVERYWHERE. the entrance was painted rainbow, little rainbow flags were hanging out the windows, they had the cute collectable spoons. it was adorable. we had paninis and tea, and i had never felt so at home.

after we ate, we went into this shopping centre into the coolest little bookstore. i bought two books and a little pin. i restrained myself, i was so proud. i was served by a person with the coolest mullet (i mustered the courage to tell them and they were so sweet). we also went to the lego store (i bought lego sunflowers for my friend’s birthday), it was just a really fun time

now the concert. i have never been to a concert before, but it was so so so fun. we had the best seats you could get without vip, and i’m talking perfect view of the stage. i was so tired after, but in a good way

well, now i am home and i’m so happy i went on that trip. i needed the break from work and uni, and i have another trip coming up too, so i should be less stressed throughout the semester :))

now, tell me how you’ve been, what you’ve been up to, i love hearing about your day :( sending you a big hug <3

Hello Nero!! <3

i’m sorry i’m late to answer, but i was on a little trip too actually!! and i’ve missed you so much in these few days!! i’ve missed out letters!!

oh my god nero!!! that date sounds amazing!!! i love that kind of me time so much!! and i mean, you got out of the shop with 17 books?? that’s literally the best way to spend a day!!! and i love those wrapped books where you can’t really know much about what’s inside, it’s so awesome when you get home and you unwrap them 🥺 and all the classics!! you’re definitely gonna need a new bookshelf but i’m guessing it’s gonna be worth it for all these new books!!

wait does sydney have a bad reputation?? i didn’t know this! but i’m really glad you liked it, even if not for more than a few days 😅 and it seems fair, i guess it’s a really big and chaotic city so it can’t be easy to live there.

but that japanese, oh my god i’m craving some too now!! it sounds sooo good!! i haven’t had japanese in so long, especially the green tea ice cream, and now i really really crave a cone, so i would gladly accept that one!!

nero i swear, every time you talk about these little cafes you go to you make me want to book a plane ticket to australia to come try all of them. and this one sounds so awesome!! gosh i wish i was there too to see all the rainbows and feel at home!!! it honestly sounds like the perfect queer cafe!!! why don’t i have something like that here too?? 😭 the urge to book a plane ticket is getting really strong, i’m not even kidding

nero i’m so proud of you, two books and a pin is so little!! i wish i had that kind of restraint. and what kind of pin did you get?? (i’m sorry i just have an obsession for pins). also, that is so sweet!! and now i’m picturing them with the coolest mullet, thank you for this mental image 😻

it really does sound like the best time!! the lego store also sounds so nice, i’ve never seen lego sunflowers but it sounds like the cutest birthday present 🥺

and the concert!!! your first concert is always the coolest experience!! definitely tiring too, but i’m so happy you had fun!! and the seats seem perfect!! i’ve never been to a concert where i had seats, i’ve always had parterre, but i’m so happy you could see the stage that well!! and who did you go see?? (if you want to say of course!)

uhh another trip? that’s great!! you deserve some little breaks like this with all that stress from uni and work!! i’m so glad you had fun and hope your next trip is as good as this one!!! <33

so as i said i was on a little trip too! i went to budapest, it was kind of a last minute holiday, but i had a lot of fun!! i’d already seen the city a few years ago but i loved it so much i was happy to go back. we just spent a few days there so we didn’t get to see the whole city, because it’s really big, but i’m still really glad i got to see some of my favorite places again!!

also, i went with my mum, who doesn’t speak english at all, so i was supposed to be in charge and talk all the time, and i was so worried because i can never talk to people, but i did it!! i managed to walk into restaurants and ask for a table or ask people for directions and stuff like that and everyone was just so nice!!

we went to the bastion which is my absolute favorite place and you can see the whole city from there, and we also did a little cruise on the danube at night so we could see all the city lit up and it was awesome!! and i got to eat some of that amazing food again!! they have a lot of fried and spicy stuff that is soooo good. i wish i could send you some of that too because honestly it’s amazing!!

i got back last night and now i’m super tired because of all the walking in the city but i’m glad i went too, it was a really nice trip!!

i’m sending you a big big hug and a forehead kiss <33