#i should know better than to trust the tumblr app

[bats-after-dark]

Not giving you a moment of rest, I apologize, but YES to your aftercare thoughts, but also I'm going to extend it, because Xiaobao is going to be on cloud nine for days and Huaien cannot compute it. It starts immediately after the scene, right before they fall asleep. Maybe Xiaobao is already drifting in and out of sleep, twitching a little, and Huaien is overthinking himself to death. Is Xiaobao twitching because he was tied up for too long? Is he hurt? Is he uncomfortable? Was Huaien evil? Is he—and then Xiaobao jolts awake a little and murmurs something unhinged along the lines of, "Huaien, could you spread my legs next time and tie them too? so I can't close them?" and Huaien's brain short circuits and Xiaobao falls asleep for real this time. Huaien soon follows.

The next day he catches Xiaobao touching and looking at his bruised wrists with a smile. And wearing his robes just a little too open so some of the marks left by Huaien’s teeth are visible. Maybe he strays in front of mirrors, water, and other reflective surfaces, too.

I want Huaien absolutely obliterated by how much Xiaobao loved it. The worst/best part is that Xiaobao isn’t even overdoing it to reassure Huaien, he's just Like That.

OH GOD I WROTE AN ENTIRE RESPONSE TO THIS AND TUMBLR MOBILE ATE IT. I will never learn. Big sigh.

Okay, so I think that Huaien never takes Xiaobao liking it for granted. It shocks him every time. The two or three days of Xiaobao drifting through his days pressing on his bruises and trying to catch his reflection make Huaien crazy. All he wants is to shove Xiaobao against various surfaces and fuck him again and he kind of can’t because Xiaobao is legitimately sore and bruised and needs a break after and Huaien just has to get on his knees to show his appreciation. Normally Xiaobao has the oral fixation, but Huaien will do his best to keep up when he’s not allowed to do anything else. (Natural Huaien tendency to want to be inside the Xiaobao at all times be damned.)

So the bruises: insane. Everywhere. At least one above the collar because Huaien needs everyone to know who Xiaobao belongs to (Huaien). Under his clothes, Xiaobao looks like something tried to eat him. There are bite marks and hickeys and fingerprints where Huaien forgot to mind his strength. Xiaobao looks like a mess. Until they fade, every time he undresses for bed, Huaien gets riled up about it. In my sappiest possible version of this, he kisses each bruise mark before bed every time. Actually no I think that’s just true. Sappiness be damned, they are like that.

Huaien makes it to Xiaobao’s belly, maybe his thighs, before the whimpering and begging gets to him, and he has to get his mouth on Xiaobao’s cock or he’ll die. (Also, bc I will always be that guy, I think Xiaobao being too tender to get fucked is how Huaien learns to eat ass. SEND POST.)

[konigsblog]

I think Tumblr is eating my requests again as per usual for Tumblr (esp app version but oh well) <3

I'd like to request some stepbro!Ghost because this idea of him being few years older and all serious and overprotective and he's practically growling at those nasty college boys saying how they only want to use you while knowing he isn't any better than them <333 dreamy sigh I want him so much

INTOXICATION (NON-CON), STEPCEST, RECORDING.

oh, stepbro!ghost is so, so possessive of you :( you're just his sweet, little stepsister – he can't let any other man fuck you! shouldn't you be fucking your older stepbrother? you trust him, right? why don't you spread your cunt open and allow him to ease inside and fuck you all nice and sloppily!!!

he saw you sneaking out the house after a family get-together in a dress far too skimpy and short for his liking. you know what boys are like, any opportunity they get and they're fucking their half-hard cocks into your wet, slick cunt!! calling you by another name.

simon steps in when he see's an older, grosa college male approaching you. he can sense he's drunk; with the way he's walking and the way his gaze lingers on your curves and cleavage... he can't just stand there and let his little stepsister get groped and touched all over :((

overprotective stepbro!simon pushing you down against the seat in the back of his car, your dress bunched up around your waist and your soaked panties ripped off. he can't control himself from rutting into you, maybe then you'll understand that you belong to him, that you should be fucking him and only him! his thick and veiny shaft thrusted into your dripping cunt, filling it with his size and groaning out breathlessly when you pulse and tighten around him!

“filthy fuckin' whore, eh?!” he smacks your ass, ploughing into your wet hole, folds wrapped around his thick girth as he smacks into you. you can feel simon's leaking tip prodding against your cervix; fucking his cock deep into your dripping pussy. the sounds of your drunken moans getting louder as your orgasm approaches :(( poor, drunk you is just so unaware of the flash on his phone, recording himself slamming into you...

[ritsufeet]

stay with me.

longing [ ft. m. kaiser ]

i don’t want u to leave… in which kaiser longs for you more than he thought he would.

k by cigarettes after sex heavily recommend to listen to while reading!!

all works from luvmouche & ritsufeet on tumblr.

𒁷 sfw, (forced to) made for ivelle (@n6gi)

𒁷 cw// hurt comfort(?), kaiser is too busy for u (dickhead), but it gets better i think, mutual longing, kissing smooch smooch, umm idk what else, kaiser tw🤓, “m” is his nickname given by the reader, rly short fic btw, slightly ooc kaiser but yk what idc!

i made this for ivelle this is literally yhe only bllk fic ill ever make (maybe) also i dont even like kaiser (kurona bwtter) i originally made this in my notes app i had to decide whether or not i eveb wanted to post this on tumblrHelp

synopsis: michael kaiser is a cruel, busy man—yet he finds himself pining for your warmth more than he expected.

not proofread!!!

kaiser, michael

your boyfriend, michael kaiser, who’s a famous, up and coming athlete, never has any time for you.

“i’m leaving, i have a meeting today.” he says, hurriedly pushing his shoes on with heavy sighs. you look at him and frown, “again? m, you never have any time for me anymore…”

“i know, but i’ll make it up to you, i promise. just not today, i’m busy.” he huffs, frowning right back at you, his blonde hair sways messily in front of his face and his fingers coming up to brush them up and out of the way again. you frown deepens and you sigh.

he looks up at you, his eyebrows furrowed. “what? what’s wrong with you?” his question only makes you sadder.

“can’t you stay?”

“no, i can’t. you know this. i said i’d make it up to you, didn’t i? trust my word.” you know this, you already know… but you can’t help but already begin to miss him.

he’s often gone for long hours, sometimes it’s more than just hours. it’s hard loving him when he’s absent majority of the time, and when he’s not gone, he’s doing something else that doesn’t involve spending time with you. what could be so important, anyway? of course, you love him, you love his career and support him with everything you can, but he could at least love you a little back.

you slowly walk over to him when he’s finished putting on his shoes. he looks at you with soft eyes, a face that he doesn’t show often. vulnerability that doesn’t come easily to him, something he only shows to you. “i’m sorry,” he says, his hand cupping your cheek. you relish in his touch, leaning into his palm. “i really wish i could stay too. you know that as well as i do.” he caresses your cheek, sliding his thumb over your skin.

“i get it… you should go, you don’t want to be late, right?” you look at him giving a reassuring smile. “i’ll be here, like i always am.” his heart aches as those words leave you, and the urge washes over him. he brings himself to your lips and kisses you—sweet, quick, and loving. he lets himself linger there for as long as he needs to. he doesn’t want to be late, yet he finds himself not wanting to move a single inch away from you. he wants to stay, wants to be here with you and the comfort of your kisses.

you pull away instead, you put your hand right above his—the one caressing your cheek so gently and longingly that you fear that it’d break his heart if he tore it away—and squeeze it. his face is solemn, his gaze wavering. he’s staring at you, but he looks away, as if hesitant to say anything. then, he looks at you again, and purses his lips. “..i love you.” your reassuring smile turns into a genuine one. “i love you too, m.”

he pulls you into a hug, holding you longer than just a few seconds, and he can hear himself the moment he decided to just go ‘ah, fuck it.’ a barely audible chuckle comes from his voice leaving you wondering what’s so funny.

“on second thought, i don’t think they’ll mind if i miss a day or two.” he says, smiling.

a/n: i hope ur happy ivelle. k bye im tired fuckkk

[reborrowing]

reaching out

i forgot how limited tumblr formatting is so hopefully this is readable. if not, it's kind of angsty nothing anyway part of Stranger Swap

Azalea Heeren

Her profile came up before Val could finish hopping across the screen to spell out her name. This wasn’t the first time they’d looked for her. The square framed icon stared up at them, the familiar face making their guts twist out of place. They missed her. They hated her. They needed her.

They crept forward and opened a new message. They’d gotten that far before too. This time, they were going to pace back and forth to type something out and send it.

It would be easier on a phone than the tablet, with all the buttons close together, but Phoebe had her phone with her on campus. Val wanted to do this during the day, so Zee would be awake, and they hadn’t exactly told Phoebe that they were searching socials for their old friend. And they’d had a fight about if Val should be online when she wasn’t even allowed to mention them and…Val just thought it was better if she didn’t know.

Z its Val, hi!

They sat on the edge of the iPad and waited. And waited. They finished darning their sleeve. They poked around a little more. Her profile said she’d been online. They went back to their unanswered message.

Um little Val that is Cookie

Three bouncing dots. Val watched them eagerly.

fuck off riley

What? I don’t know a Riley. This is Val

A long wait.

…send me a pic then.

OK one second

They didn’t like to keep pictures of themself, given the whole secrecy thing. And it was tricky to take a selfie—or any photo really—with the tablet. They couldn’t prop it up like they did the phone, not without help or building up a whole system. They had to fiddle with the app to remember how to set up a timer, then dashed to lean over the front camera and wave.

The pic was blurry and dark, but looked passably like Val. Presumably not so much like Riley.

Miles away, the photo loaded and Azalea shrieked.

IT IS YOU OMG VAAAAALLLL I WAS SO SCARED YOU DIDNT MAKE IT! Mulch never came back to tell me ANYTHING BABYYYYYYYY OMG!! IM KISSING YOU ALL OVER!!!

The messages kept coming, a lot faster than Val could hope to respond.

You’re not back at the house right? I’m not there, I moved out so it’s just dad…so I hope you’re still at that apartment Mulch had me take you. Either way I can come get you! Tess can probably give me a ride out there when her lab’s done—she’s nice, I’d trust her with you Not that I’m letting go of you again so soon, I’ve missed you so much!

Val paused, an “I miss you too” waiting to be sent. They did. They missed her terribly. They wanted to hear everything she’d been up to, to feel her laughter, curled up against her collarbone. They loved her, or they had. But the thought of her coming here, looming over them again, taking them away from Phoebe…it filled them with an unwelcome, all-new dread. They didn't want to see her again, they just wanted...something. They wanted her to know they were alive, at least.

The messages kept coming.

can I call or video? I know typing takes you awhile lol are you even somewhere you can talk? somewhere safe I mean? I’m so serious about coming to get you, just tell me when and I'll rescue you from the dust I’m sorry I couldn’t before

Val stared at the chat until it blurred out of focus, chewed their lip until they tasted blood. Their eyes were watery. They didn’t read the rest. They logged out and pushed the iPad away from them. They didn’t want to be afraid of her again. They liked the memory they had of her, probably more than they hated her. They could convince themself of that. They loved her, mostly.

But they were right the last time they had logged in: they shouldn’t have messaged her.

[deesseshesca]

Dang I like your aesthetic but you’re readings never resonate with me

First thing first ... thank you so much for the question. I hope you my answer resonate with you.

PART-1

I had to sit down and ask my spirit guides before I ask about you... what the heck is up with me ? You don't understand how grateful I am with your simple yet effective review. Another prove that sometime ''a wish come truth'' is not always something that feels good. Since I am who I am I crave genuine and you handed it to me. You don't understand how fixated on whether or not my reading resonate. I am not the type to care for number but you need to start some where. Than multiple well resected tarot reader on my timeline applaud my work. I knew I was not a scammer and y'all can sense that 2. Yet the people don't seem to love my blog (still the number (notes)). Change aesthetic and strategy it goes up. Somewhere I had to become more familiar with my own aesthetic and I actually had to learn how Tumblr works. I've spend over 5 years on this app yet a bitch did not even know how a like work. That's when I saw consistent growth (follower). Yet... no real review ... like what the fuck do y'all actually think of this blog. I ask but there's only so much I can force out of y'all.

Let me tell you why you guys may not resonate

I had a little meeting with my spirit guides ... if I don't sugarcoat for you ... I don't sugar coated for me.

Q1: Since is a PAC on a broad platform it will make sense that I just did not connect with their energy ?

Yes.

Q2: Maybe I did connect but never post it ? (I have so many PAC that I don't post... My spirit warn me that this shit is going to bite me back in the ass)

Yes.

Q3: I hate basic question, therefore I only welcome a certain collective which makes me loose connection with the rest of energy ?

Yes.

Q4: Since my description are extremely precise, some people may give up before even getting into the reading ?

Yes but Girl we been told you that would since the beginning.

Ok but than y'all send specific elements ... am I suppose to ignore it ?

Babygirl don't play dumb ... when you want to max out an audience you have to be broad.

But y'all know I prefer to be right than being loved.

There's she go again being stubborn where is not even needed.

Q5: If I follow my marketing degree and stop being stubborn will people resonate ?

YES!

Q6: Is the problem my tone of writing ?

Yes.

Q7: Should I fix it ?

Yes.

Q8: What does my audience want ?

They want a safe place in which they can come and grap some good advice. Don't get them wrong they love the detail, they are very intrigue by you. While reading you they realize you have a big lore yet nothing is coming out or you give off the vibe of a with in a forest (Yak... you know I hate camping-Girl is not about you !). You give the vibe of a big siter that been there done that, yet they have actually no real idea what u been through but they trust your advice. They love your advice is practical and empathic.

Q9 : If they love me so much ... why are we not as close as other community ?

YOUR NAGGNG PROBLEM. Every time they open a PAC, they have to get ready to be roast at 4 times, be call out of their name all the damm time and being drag through the woods like a useless doll. Sometime all that nagging ain't worth the good advice. Instead of acting like the cool cousin or anty. You out here nagging like a big sister that is never please. (First ... ouch I am a real life big sister that nag but I do it because I don't want them to fall for life illusion. I want them to be better and do better). Shesca that always been your problem (nah I don't feel like we are only talking about tarot no more ...) your need to protect often destroy. Because the same vulnerable soul that are coming for answer deserve also love, comfort and grace and not just protection. Some of them already know they mess up ... they don't need a ransom bitch on the internet to remind them. They want comfort. You need to learn how to love and protect.

CONCLUSION : (Hum.. I feel like a kid that just got yell at in the middle of the super market) This is definitely more than just tarot. WTF... not your message being life changing. Ok my Chérie D'amour, I commit to be more gentle and loving and just know that whatever I've done did not come from an evil place (just wanted to be a wake up call not a slap across the face) but because I actually am rooting for each one of y'all. Not me give lame ass apology like an abusive parent (wait... I knew this shit was more than fucking tarot). Let me prove it to y'all. Give me a second chance babe ... I will do better. Starting with you.

PART-2

Here is my apology (because when u wrote that, I know you were not waiting on some long ass sorry post and also because I am extremely grateful for your comments. You saved 3 hours of aesthetic changing because I though my blog was not cute enough and that's why people did not interact with me. Just found out I am just a scary bitch. Sorry y'all...)

What's your current energy ? (Only song for you love life came through)

You crave love. I am not even talking relationship wise ... I am more getting family wise. You come a rather abundant family. Never had a issue worry about basic needs and you probably did private school, honors program, trip once a year, your parent probably brought you you first car and there is not a single thing your dad ain't going to buy for you. Yet ... you hate the environment you been brough up in. They always arguing all the time. You hate loud noise. You are sometime force to chime in but all you are screaming about is wanting love. I'm hearing : Mom - You really had to take his side ? You: Mom ... really ... all I want is for it to stop. Y'all dread the holiday because is the same family dinner that always end up in a mess. Y'all love your family so much. You just wish they love you enough to love each other. The advice coming through is to let go. Even when they try to bring you in runaway or repeated over and over again that you don't want to take side or you can't take side. I'm going to be honest they argue so much that is not even about a specific issue is because everyone is so focus on their own pain.

Future energy

Everything is going to get better. There is so much love in y'all family. Y'all just need to learn to stop fighting each other but more the issue. When you are going to refocus your mind on the issue and not each other mistake and pain y'all will literally enter 10 pentacles phase. Which is the card for ultimate pro-active family bound that last generation. Side note maybe y'all have some ancestral karmic tie related to family that need t be heal. You are ask to keep a distance with pettiness and stay full of love.

What's current energy with your love life ?

You are mad that someday did not pick you. You are not giving me pick me vibe but I am getting you are a 10 across the board (that you is ... babe your body is tea, skin is clear, you have a job and go to school ... mamacita has motion) yet not only did they not choose you. They humiliate you.

Song : More than I should - Kehlani ft Jessie Reyez

Future energy love life

Somebody new is walking in your life in the next 2 weeks. Babe you are going to be on heat for that person. Don't worry because they will show they want you. Is not lust but is not love. Both of you are feeling the same thing but you are not going to be honest with your feeling. Preferring hiding behind games. The way they desire for you body, you touch is like a storm of passionate emotion where no matter what they do they are falling for you. Every time you text them, send a selfie, a voice note, touch them, look at them ... just exist they are fighting to sweep you off your feet and run away. They are always going to be with that one close friend. The reason you won't allow your self to fall for it is they have different background and look from you. I am getting a preppy, old money, sober Sally vibe from you. Meaning you may have grow up in a religious family in which a lot of expectation is sitting on your shoulder and who you are going to marry is definitely one of them. Maybe they come from a more open minded family. They may have tattoo, more darker aesthetic and don't have the social etiquette your parent put in you. You don't think less of them you just know that your family is not going to accept it. That's it. Usually I shuffle for more but spirit kept stopping me. You have to choose. You have to decide were do you want this to go. All I know is that they are always going to choose you. They are actually going to be the one waiting from an answer from you.

Song : Your stuck - Odeal ft Summer walker

On that note good night Chérie d'Amour and thank you for your bless message.

[dannielricciardo]

"Daniel and Max's relationship was never for public consumption" that wasn't the case when Daniel was defending Max day in and day out in 2021, it got him so much negative attention. I genuinely don't hate Max or anything but this has changed how I look at him. When they asked Max on Thursday he seemed to know Daniel's fate but he just said he should be proud. When they asked the exact same question to Seb when Daniel was dropped by McLare he literally laid into McLaren and said he deserved better and it cant end like this. Ultimately Daniel was kinder to Max than Max was to him, but that's who Daniel has always been and it hurt him in the end.

hella late reply because the tumblr app doesn't notify me about asks :^)

while I agree for a while it was a reverse situation (esp during 2021 it felt like no one in the paddock liked max bar Daniel) and that it was Daniels trust in people doing the right thing that caused this fallout, I think it's very much comparing apples to oranges.

Max unfortunately is not really a speaking out person, compared to Seb. Like Seb was the perfect GPDA president because he takes no shit and by the time he was asked about Daniel he was more or less established as someone who going to call out people and teams. We're witnessing Max's first attempt at this with the one line answers at the press conference, but you don't arrive at Sebs level out of the gate and I hope he will reach it some day.

More than that, max has a very different attitude towards the sport, he's not Nando - he's clearly views f1 as a phase before pursuing something else. In a way, when addressing daniels retirement, he's addressing his own view towards the future - he's had a career he can be proud of and feels accomplished, so he's measuring daniel up to that. and by max standards daniel has done well and will be fine, much like max views his own retirement.

[wolfislost]

Hello there, I dunno how to actually start this conversation but, you caught my interest since that otherkin training post

I just wanted to ask you, a fellow werewolf to another fellow werewolf, what things would you suggest me to do in order to feel more like myself?

It's been a long time since I've felt really *alive*, my actual self.

Every time I try to feel more like myself, I get hit with this pain... that I cannot actually be myself, I cannot transform, especially when I go in dark places, where I feel like I should run away in the dark, but I actually can't.

So, what would you suggest to help me feel better?

Going through your tumblr reveals certain limitations that have to be taken into account.

Limited access to gear, unknown proximity to nature, currently living with others.

I don't know what your relationship to your wolf is like, so I'll have to assume it's similar to my own.

Okay- all that boring admin stuff out of the way. Here are my suggestions:

Get Outside

It seems obvious but there's a method to this, even if you can't go as far as the woods- there is nature a lot closer than you think. For me that means stalking birds, feeling the rain on my face, and occasionally getting into stand offs with animals like foxes. I don't exactly recommend the last one since you guys may have significantly larger wild animals- but interacting with other species and experiencing the weather can be great ways to reconnect.

Lunar Tracking

The stages of the moon are a pretty important influence on me. They can trigger shifts, and sometimes alter my behaviour in the days around a full or new moon. Even if the moon doesn't cause the same reaction in you, it can be helpful to pay tribute or have a routine for full moons. I like to track the full moon on my phone's calendar, rather than using a separate app. It's really straightforward, you can just look up the last full moon and mark it as a repeat date every four weeks in your calendar. You can also do this with a physical wall calendar if you prefer. As for tribute or routine ideas, it can be a form of whatever hobby you prefer. You might listen to a specific song or playlist, draw what the moon looks like, make a journal entry to mark the occasion, or sing something. It's up to you, and should ideally be personalised. For you, that might mean a specific videogame at a certain time of day, since you enjoy those. The key here is to be intentional, and actively mark the day or time as something important.

Instincts

Not all of our instincts can be acted on. I think most werewolves can tell you that. That said, these instincts are a great way to get in touch with your wolf side. I think of them as my wolf communicating with me. Since I can't transform, it makes it even more important that I listen to my wolf when it expresses itself. That means finding safe ways to follow my instincts. That can mean stalking wildlife, feeling the wind on my face, winding down the window on a car trip, staring at the moon, stretching the parts of my body where the need to shift is felt the most, eating higher protein foods when I crave meat, and avoiding people or places that make the wolf uncomfortable. That last one is also just general safety. I trust my instincts, so if I see someone that makes that part of me uneasy- I follow that feeling. The more you follow those instincts, the easier it gets to "hear" them. Figure out how you can compromise with the wolf.

Social

Take this with a grain of salt, as it's completely up to you and your circumstances. It can be helpful to normalise your wolf among your human friends. This is NOT the same as coming out as a werewolf. People are remarkably accepting of my odd behaviours as long as they don't know WHERE they come from. When I get asked about my jewellery, I just say I like werewolves. It's true. It's not the entire truth, but it's enough that they can accept it and move on. I follow my instincts around friends. They make fun of me, but they also play into it- and they never look any deeper because it's "just what I'm like". You don't have to do this, but it's easier to stay in touch with yourself when you don't have to pretend around your human friends. I'm the same with my closest family members. If I'm going to spend a lot of time around you, I'm definitely not going to hide what I am for your benefit. You know what's safest for you, so again- grain of salt.

Clothing

Gear isn't all paws, tails, masks and fangs. All though I do love my fangs, they really help with the teeth shifts. Gear can also be something as simple as a comfortable shirt that matches your fur colour. It can be a bracelet that reminds you of the pine forests you call home. It can be shoes that help you walk on mud or dirt. It can be anything that makes your body feel more like home. I like to draw wolfsbane and lunar phases on my arms with pen or eyeliner. When I look at them i'm reminded of what I am. I have a full moon necklace, I wear leather bracelets. Find some stuff that you can wear without raising suspicion, and if it does then have a half truth ready to placate people. I suggest looking for materials that are comfortable and similar in colour to your fur. Grey and white are a fairly available colour combination, so it should be relatively easy. Jackets, shirts, trousers, t-shirts. Whatever you wear, I guarantee you can find a comfortable version that matches your fur colour. If not, you're also allowed to customize your clothing by hand. I have a brown jacket with a fur hood that I wear everywhere, no matter how cold it gets, because it's really euphoric for me. Find the right clothing for you.

Don't Panic

Sometimes it feels like our identity is slipping through our fingers. We can go through long stretches where we question if we made it all up. Don't panic if things seem more human than wolf at times. It's normal for your connection to your other side to fluctuate. For me- I know that the week of the new moon, and periods where i'm super busy with human tasks, lead to my wolf being more dormant. Let yourself ebb and flow. We're shapeshifters. Skin dancers. We're more song than stone.

Closing Thoughts

We're strange creatures in a strange world, but we don't have to surrender ourselves to it. If you need help or more ideas, or something in here needs tweaking to fit your life better- then send another ask or dm me. My blog will always be open to you.

[blackdollette]

hii! omg okay so i absolutely love your works and your writing style and i wanted to know how you started up writing on here because i’ve been wanting to for a while but have no idea how to start 😣

thank you so much for this question! I'm gonna answer it in detail and feel free to dm me if ur confused abt anything!

OLIVIA'S (almost) COMPLETE WRITING GUIDE!

the basics.

i'll start off really easy. to begin, find someone (preferably famous). if this person is in any films, watch a few to get a taste of a couple different characters. this will help you form a hyperfixation to a character. this will be who you write for. for me, it's rory culkin & spencer reid. from here, now we can get to the fun part.

your aesthetic.

your theme is the next thing that will draw in an audience. I'm completely aware of the trillions of different aesthetics in the world, but more popular ones tend to draw a larger audience (odd, I know.) currently trending aesthetics include 2014 grunge (shades of black, pink, and lots of soft filters), coquette (pastel pinks and soft cremes, can be followed with slightly disturbing content), and my favourite, gothic. (falls into 2014 a little. i include themes from my favourite album. music will draw in a crowd too.) but this part is extremely flexible, so choose any style that you want!

friends & your fandom.

one of the best things you can do to give your account a kick start before even starting is to make friends in a fandom. reblog fics you like, leave kind comments, "sneak" into dms and leave encouraging messages. this'll earn you some followers and supporters right off the bat. if you're comfy with it, tell your friends outside of tumblr to follow you too (but I totally understand where that can get messy, so no pressure.)

writing + visuals.

now we're getting to the good part. fanfics are categorized into 3 main parts: smut, fluff, and angst (all I'm sure you've seen on my page.) smut is sexual stuff, fluff usually has a more cozy atmosphere around it, and angst is all the gut-wrenching stuff that really tugs at your heartstrings. as you write for either one of these things, keep in mind that your visual should support whatever the theme of the fic is. idk how long you've been supporting me, but ever since the start (august 2023) I have included some sort of visual in my content. first I only used gifs and ordinary fonts, then I branched out and began putting together my own photos and making the title match. your visual will reflect the quality of your writing.

when writing for anything, second person is usually my go-to (you went to the store, you took a walk, etc). it is the most commonly used perspective and prevent any confusion for the readers. when writing smut, there are certain words and phrases that'll be good with readers, and some that won't. when referring to the vagina, "cunt" and "pussy" will do better than "coochie" or "bearded clam" (yes, I've actually seen that used in a fic). when writing angst or fluff, create a mood by using sensory words that paint a picture in the reader's mind. practice this by googling good descriptive words and weaving them into your fics. this'll boost your writing by a ton, trust me.

conclusion.

this was a lot to take in, I know. when I first started publishing fics on this account, my content was far from good, but I promise you will improve as you go. remember to pace yourself, don't force yourself to write if you just don't feel like it. any writer on this app will understand that feeling. leave your inbox open most of the time to receive good ideas from your supporters, but let them know if you ever need to close it because of an excessive workload. i don't know if you're in school, but finding a good balance between schoolwork and writing fics is a huge part of this whole thing too. thank you so much for the wonderful ask, and my dms are open if you have any more questions.

xoxo, olivia.

[gently-decaying-flowers]

Blake and Mateo’s Backstory

summary: Blake is a panicked guy who has anxiety and his parents are the best

Ch 2

At home, Blake disappeared to his room. Something about sitting with Mateo had him on edge. Why was he so distant?

“Blake?” His mother’s voice rang through the house. Knowing better, he padded down the carpeted stairs.

“Hey, what’s up?” His mom didn’t look up from her book, her smal rectangular glasses resting far too low on her nose.

“How was meeting Mateo? Danny told us all about it.” Blake leaned against the wall.

“It was fine. He doesn’t seem to like me.” She looked up now, taking off her glasses and placing them on the coffee table.

“He’s a sweet boy, I highly doubt that. Are you sure you weren’t doing that thing where you think you look nice but you actually look like this?” She contorted her face into a deep glare and Blake rolled his eyes.

“Yes, I was friendly and kind and even said goodbye and he just nodded at me.”

“Maybe he feels threatened by you?” Blake scoffed.

“Nope. I bet he just doesn’t think I’m good enough.”

“Prove him wrong then.” She said, rolling her eyes back at him. Blake thought for a moment, maybe that isn’t such a bad idea.

“Yeah alright.”

“Love you honey.”

“Love you too mom.” Blake replied, walking back to his room.

Danny sat on his bed, his legs politely criss crossed.

*Can’t I get three seconds of privacy?* Blake thought, holding back a massive sigh.

“What’s up Dans?”

“Mateo wants to meet up with you again.” He said, kicking his feet excitedly.

“Oh lovely.” Blake growled. Danny cocked his head to one side. “He just didn’t seem to like me much, that’s all.”

“Well he did mention something like that to me I guess.” Danny shrugged. Blake sat with him, making the mattress bounce.

“What did he say?”

“Just that he wants to make sure you’re taking care of me.” Danny said, standing up from the bed. Blake wanted to ask more, but his desire for alone time overpowered it. He let Danny leave, and flopped over face down in his pillow.

His phone buzzed loudly on his bed, causing his crisis to pause. An unsaved number had sent him a message. Ready to troll some scammers, he eagerly opened his messages.

[hi it’s mateo danny decided i should have your # ]

A million potential responses ran through his mind.

[👍]

He repeatedly knocked the heel of his palm against his forehead. Mateo read it, and didn’t respond. That’s probably for the better.

The rest of the night Blake spent zoned out in his room. He did things, cleaned up a little, scrolled tumblr, texted Leo. He opened his painfully awkward messages with Mateo a few times, only succeeding in wanting to make him throw his phone against the wall.

“Hey kiddo how’s it going?” His father’s figure filled his doorframe. Blake whipped around to look at him.

“Hey dad, fine. How was your day?”

“Eh- it was work. Mom told me about meeting Mateo.” Blake sighed.

“Yeah.”

“Trust me, building a friendship with him wouldn’t hurt.” His dad added with a smile.

“But dad-“ Blake whined, “He’s a jacked straight boy.” His dad snorted.

“Oh shush. He’s a good kid. He’s just protective of Dans, and it’s valid. Building a relationship with both Danny and him could help you out here.”

“I hate it when you’re right.” Blake groaned. His dad laughed lightly.

“Just think about it, love you goob. Want me to bring dinner up?”

“Nah, I’m not too hungry.” Blake admitted, thinking about college apps and his future had destroyed his appetite.

“Okay, just make sure you drink some water and keep yourself safe.” His dad sounded chill, but his brow furrowed with concern.

“I will. I love you dad.”

“Love you too.” He left the door slightly ajar and Blake listened as his muted footsteps faded out.

He opened his phone again. The soft sound of frantic typing was the only sound other than the quiet hum of the radiator.

His thumb hesitated over the send button for a second.

[Hey, would you wanna meet up for coffee with Dans and I tomorrow (he likes the pastries at the cafe on eighth street) We’re thinking of heading over around 9:30]

*sent*

[zumicho]

REE!!!!!!!

runs into room, trips, falls over and flops on the ground like a fish.

HI HRU!!! MISSED SEEING U ON THE DASH JSJDJS imagine me throwing confetti around rn bc i AM (in my head)

ANYWAYS I WAS THINKING OF HOW I NEVER REALLY WATCH ANYTHING AND LIKE I NEEDED MOVIE RECS AND THOUGHT OF U SO IF IT'S NOT TOO MUCH HASSLE COULD YOU SPARE SOME TITLES🫢🫢

about the grades; yesterday i found out i made the threshold for an A* by one mark (ashamed)

OKAY NEXT THING i hope ur okay w like.. a larger ask than usual but like!!!!!!! YEAH I HOPE WE CAN TALK MORE!!!!!!! BC UR LIKE SO wait im googling a word for this UR SO IMMENSELY EXTRAORDINARILY EXCEPTIONALLY EXTRAORDINARILY INTENSELY COOL and i just wanted to say that!!!!! like your blog and your writing it's so!! inspiring?? idk a girl sees you and a girl is like man i want to be cool and amazing like that

i am a girl btw.

OKAY LAST THING TRUST‼️‼️ WHENS UR BIRTHDAY IF UR OKAY WITH IT CUZ I HAVE THIS ONE APP ON MY PHONE AND IT SAYS CALENDAR AND I THINK UR BIRTHDAY SHOULD BE THERE

i apologise for being the extremely annoying creature that i am and also read and reply at your own pace and also like yeah!! stay safe and hydrated and don't pressure urself in any way love u BYE <3

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LONG ASKS IT’S THE CLOSEST THING TO A FT CALL ON HERE 4 ME <3 more under the cut so no one is annoyed enough to report my blog if that’s even a possibility lol

I’m okay for the most part ! me n tumblr are squaring up tomorrow tho… if u wanna watch the fight happen the fee is $5. I’d waive it just for u xoxo (in other words, I’ve been in over my head about a lot of stuff and disappeared again after disappearing 😭 oh well)

u thinking of me for movie recs is an honor & I will wear that badge proudly 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ lmk what you’ve liked and I’ll give you some !!!! but by default I’m obligated to say the breakfast club (it’s my all time favorite) 🤍

AND HEY !! THAT ONE MARK COUNTS TOO >:( I can be proud for u and I am, you put in the work and deserve all that you got

AASKDKJSNGKSJGNSKGKS people calling me an inspiration never gets processed for me … like that’s crazy 😭😭😭😭😭 hello? thank you??? for the record, I think you’re pretty neat too <3

my birthday is february 12th! when is yours?

OH OH OH AND DONT WORRY UR NOT ANNOYING AT ALL THIS MADE MY NIGHT < 3 < 3 < 3 please stay hydrated as well !! I hope things are looking up for u over there, and ur doing better than when I was last on here !!! ily lina !!!! let me know how you’ve been too !

[litfeathers]

Okay. Here’s what I am doing to avoid leaks:

1) Not going onto YouTube. My living room account is safe since it’s all stuff like…birds, nature, and science content. But I will not be going into the YouTube app on my phone, since it definitely recommends TOH stuff.

2) I am NOT going into any tags on Tumblr. And while I almost never go onto twitter anyway, I’ll be avoiding it completely now. I will also be avoiding tumblr’s ‘for you’ tab thingy.

3) TikTok will be a MAJOR problem. I don’t use it anyway, but if you use it…I would strongly consider staying off entirely until the 21st.

4) I might still write and post fic, but I won’t be seeking any out to read until the 21st. Unless it’s a direct link on my dash from a heavily trusted author who I know is avoiding spoilers.

5) I will be very careful with the tags and comments on reblogs. It might actually be a good idea to avoid your notes entirely if you currently have some popular posts floating around. And be careful when opening asks. Consider turning off anonymous asks, or you can even turn asks off completely.

6) I will be using my tumblr dash fairly normally. It is heavily curated, I have all necessary algorithm suggestions turned off, and I trust my mutuals and the other accounts I follow. Just make sure you have these settings turned off:

My main advice is to avoid tags everywhere, and for the love of god avoid anything with an algorithm if you don’t want spoilers.

There’s still a chance you might have an accident, but following these steps should severely reduce the odds that you will get spoiled. You can also take some extra steps like blocking certain tags on your dash if you’re extra concerned.

Dana and the TOH crew deserve better than this. And while I won’t cast judgement if you decide to watch early, DON’T TALK ABOUT IT PUBLICLY UNTIL THE 21ST. If you must talk about it, please do so privately amongst friends!!!

Okay I think that’s it. Stay safe out there. Have an angry Eda with a knife to cleanse your dash and fight the haters.

[boojangs]

I'm confused about the reblog post you shared, I've only been on this app for 5 weeks and I joined because I wanted to see extra stuff from my favourite authors off AO3, and while here I've found a few users who also post fics to tumblr only, but I've never reblogged anything because most posts I see have lots of likes and the reblogs are tag conversations. I didn't want to have those tag comments to users so I've never reblogged, I just leave a comment if I wanted to. And I've also liked over 1000 posts since being here so wouldn't that be spam if I reblogged everything I like?

I'm definitely more of an Instagram user, and very new to Tumblr so I don't understand the workings of it and I can admit that, but should I not be here if I'm not reblogging posts? The community here for Wenclair and fics is superior to Insta, and I'd like to stay but I also don't want to ruin the site for the people who have been here for longer because I don't feel comfortable sharing things. I guess I'm just not sure how to proceed now 😅

Well, darling, let me just say that I reblog infinitely more things than I like, because I want to know that my personal blog has all the stuff I like seeing on it. Tag conversations are fun for me personally, having grown with this app and have seen reblogged comments get tucked into the tags instead. Reblogs, especially of creations like art or stories, help spread awareness for those things! We all like some positive encouragement 🥰

Ultimately the experience is yours, and if you feel better dropping comments as opposed to reblogs, that's okay too! Just think of a like as keeping a secret only for you, and a reblog is shouting the news from mountain tops. Tumblr is a weird place, especially because it doesn't work like most other socials, and you really curate your own experience here. Do I see the same post reblogged several times when scrolling my page? Hell yeah, but that just means all my friends are talking about the same cool things. 😊

You won't ruin anyone else's experiences if all you do is like and comment though, trust me 🖤🩷

[txemrn]

Hii Em 💖

I wanted to ask you for some advice for one of my stories - it’s the story where Luna gives birth to her twins. But it’s the first time ever that I write a birth story though I won’t reveal any gross/weird details 😅

But since it’s twins, do you have any tips regarding timing the contractions? I’ve went online but…umm…let’s just say I’d rather ask my friends on tumblr 😅 I don’t know I fell more comfortable to ask you 🥰

I just don’t know how to put that into the story. Do I let Meilani Luna’s ob/gyn say okay this one lasted 30 seconds of something like that? 😅 Hope it’s okay I’m asking, and it’s not a too touchy or sensitive question for you 🙈

Thanks so much in advance Em 🥰💖

Eep! Is it time for our sweet babies to arrive?! I'M SO EXCITED! And I am so honored that you'd ask me about this! I'm kind of a nerd about this stuff... 😉

But before I dive in, remember this is fanfiction! I totally understand wanting to get things right (and I think it's our responsibility to do at least some research on things before we write about them--which you are doing), plus not to mention... the actual process... IT'S SO FRIGGIN COOL! 😍 But you're also not writing a textbook, so even if it's not medically perfect, NO DOUBT it's going to be a beautiful story. So, I don't want you to worry yourself too much about what's actually correct. 😘 BUT I am here to help where I can!

*This info is for fanfic purposes ONLY and should not be used for medical help; if you are ever concerned about your health and/or pregnancy, please contact your doctor

We measure contractions from the start of one contraction to the start of the next contraction (there are a lot of contraction apps that can help with this, and it's a great distraction for nervous dads/moms/partners). Generally speaking, labor contractions (painful, rhythmic tightening of the muscles in the uterus that cause the cervix to open) are 2-3 minutes apart (we tell our first-time moms to come to the hospital when their contractions are taking their breath away, lasting for a minute, 5 minutes apart for at least an hour [5-1-1]). As labor progresses, the contractions become shorter (relatively than at the beginning of labor), but are a lot more painful.

During the actual labor process, women are left on their own to... well, labor. lol As a nurse, I am there to ensure you and your baby are safe, so I will intervene when appropriate. Doctors are usually in and out as their schedule allows (and depending on the location, they're not even in-house). A lot of patients ask, "When is so-and-so coming?" and honestly, it's when you're baby is just about to crown (but we keep them up-to-date through phone calls and secure text messages. The doctor-nurse relationship in the ER and L&D is fairly tight; tons of trust).

Because a woman can feel the pain sensation SO MUCH better than anything we see on the monitor, there really isn't a need to tell a patient how long their contractions are (THEY KNOW lol, they don't want a reminder).

I think one of the most important things the healthcare team can do for each patient is to create a calm, positive atmosphere that empowers a laboring woman. Speaking can be so distracting, so I (personally) think the only times a voice should be used is to either give vital information, or to be used softly for encouragement, like, "Uh-huh," "That's it," "You are so strong," "Feel your body relax," "You're doing great, Mama."

Just in case you're wondering... a lot of doctors are on a time crunch: get that patient delivered. The prudent doctor, however, will allow a woman to labor. First babies usually take a while (the body has never done this before) and the cervix should be changing about 0.5 cm-1 cm/hr. A cervix should only be checked to assess labor progression (I recommend every 2-3 hours or if a woman complains of needing to push).

You probably already know this, but there are three main pain management options (pharmaceuticals) for labor (here in the US): an epidural (continuous infusion of medication in the epidural space in the back), patient-controlled nitrous oxide (laughing gas) and IV Pain medication. IV pain medication should be used sparingly because the only medication that will even touch labor pains are the same medications that can cross over and make for a sleepy baby (BUT they are safe in small quantities). Laughing gas is designed to help take the edge off the pain that burns out of the system very quickly, safe for mom and baby. Moms are able to stay mobile. Epidurals are designed to get women more comfortable, more in control with labor pains, but she is now committed to staying in bed.

Twins. Oh, twins. LOL Twins are an interesting breed (literally, it's "freak" thing that happens!). Contractions are the same. The only difference between laboring a single baby and multiple babies is where you deliver. As a mom goes complete ("10 cm"), it's important she is in a room that can quickly convert into an operating room (simple solution: transfer her to an OR to push). The reasoning for this is to prepare for Baby B. Just because Baby A comes out smooth-sailing does not mean Baby B will be easy peasy. Sometimes the baby can turn. Doctors are specially trained in various maneuvers to prevent this or even correct this, but in L&D, seconds = lives. Just to prepare, it's a good idea to have your anesthesia team and OR team ready for an emergency section. Also, a doctor will highly recommend an epidural for twins (the meds for a c-section can be used through the infusion line).

Whew... Did I answer anything you were dying to know? LOL Hopefully so. But seriously, if you need me to read over anything or if you have ANY specific questions, believe me, I'm not uncomfortable talking about this stuff. I would love to help sweet Luna (and Bryce) through the birth of their babies!

Just let me know! Happy writing! 💚

[phoenixiancrystallist]

Hey, just finished the story of In Tanta We Trust. In my mind, Frey is still in regular contact with the four other Tantas of Anthia and has to explain to them the events of ITWT. As if that wasn't enough, then she'll have to tell them about what Rheddiah's Tanta told her(and the fact that Rheddiah even has Tantas in the first place) and that she has to go to that place to meet with her. That conversation isn't going to go over well, is it?

Tumblr is a perfectly functioning website with a perfectly functioning app and absolutely did not eat my response to this ask SIX GODDAMN TIMES (three before I got smart and wrote all this out in my notes app so I could just copy/paste until it stopped arguing with me).

I honestly don't think Frey would be the one who initiates those conversations. She grew up bouncing from foster home to foster home, aged out of the foster system, and essentially had no one but herself to rely on for her whole life. And then she gets dropped into Athia with no one but herself and Cuff to rely on, and it took her a long time to actually rely on him.

So, I don't think she has the instinct to seek out advice—and to make matters worse, she also sorta kinda murdered the Tantas a little bit. Yes, it was the right thing to do, and no, they're not mad or upset about it, but I'd imagine she's still carrying some guilt around because of it (guilt that Cuff would absolutely prey upon, too). That's not exactly the kind of thing you can just get over, you know? It takes a lot of therapy and there's not a whole lot of that to go around in Athia.

Besides, the moment she starts thinking "maybe I should ask my predecessors for advice," you know Cuff is going to pull some "oh yes, let's go talk to the women I drove insane and manipulated you into murdering. That'll go swell" bullshit, or otherwise try to talk her out of it. She might decide to go talk to them anyway out of spite, or she might think he has a point.

But it does happen, one way or another—either of Frey's own free will or because Cinta's Momma Senses are tingling and she finds a way to yoink Frey into Svargana from beyond the grave. Say Frey does ask their advice and tells them a Tanta of Rheddah showed her the Gloaming and asked to meet her. Well, what I wouldn't give to be a light jellyfish hanging in the air for that conversation!

Sila I can see being all for letting Frey go, but cautions Frey that talking may not get the results she hopes for, and that she had better be prepared for a battle to the death if things don't go well.

Prav would be tentatively amenable to the idea of Frey going to Rheddah to speak with the Rheddig Tantas. She'd emphasize a need for diplomacy and compromise. Her ideal outcome would be a peace treaty between the two nations, or some other formal agreement that Rheddah will no longer seek Athia's destruction.

Olas... could go either way. Of all of them, I think she would be the most familiar with the Tantas of Rheddah, if only through her studies of history. (I also think she's the most likely to have spies set up in Rheddah, but that's neither here nor there.) She'd know better than any of them if the Rheddig Tantas are likely to kill Frey the second she steps on shore, or if they'd try to manipulate her and turn her against Athia, or even if they're completely benevolent and trustworthy. Depending on what she knows of them, she could be all for Frey meeting with them, cautiously for it, cautiously against it, or vehemently against it.

Cinta would be against it. As Frey's mother, her instinct is to keep Frey safe. As Tanta, she cannot recommend any course of action that leaves Athia defenseless—and as it stands, Frey is Athia's only defense. She is the only one capable of protecting the citizens of Cipal from the Break, and she is the only one who has any hope of standing a chance against another Rheddig invasion. What if this is a diversion, meant to remove Athia's only protector so the Rheddig can finally complete their mission of eradicating Athia? She can't accept that risk.

Ultimately, after a lot of heated debate where Frey loses her temper at the pointless bickering at least twice, and Cuff is spiritually eating popcorn and doing a one-wrist-idiot Statler and Waldorf bit the whole time, the consensus they finally arrive to is the Tanta equivalent of "ho don't do it."

So, naturally, Frey does it. How else would we have a story for the sequel we're never going to get?

[sesshy380]

I finally got my feedback sent on the horrid differences with the new dashboard UI aka. 'Twitterification' between two different sized displays.

I could only submit one image, so I sent the one that literally made me go into a claustrophobic panic.

I'm going to share those images below the cut (so I don't clutter peoples feeds)

Note: Red boarder images are from 13inch notebook, Purple boarder images are from 24inch gaming display.

For this first set I took a screenshot to show what I see with new UI and Tumblr Live unsnoozed.

See how not in my face the OnlyFans wanna-be's are on a bigger display?

Next is the same UI, but with Tumblr Live snoozed (as it should be).

The only difference I see is no more OnlyFans.

Next up, when it's been fixed with a third-party extension (which I should NOT have to use to enjoy Tumblr...I didn't use a single extension for Tumblr until the fuckening)

Much better. Still not perfect, and no idea why the order between the icons is different, but my brain doesn't scream nearly as much.

I'm sure some people can't really see the difference, with the exception of where the icon row is, but trust me...there's a difference. If you look at the little startup icons for my desktop, you may notice a similarity (aside from similar icon placement). You know how some people complain about the 'Feng Shui' of a room...I have that with my desktop. When I install a new program and there's a new icon, I have to maneuver things around until it feels 'right'. That's possibly and OCD-brain thing, but if I don't it's like that internal 'nails on a chalkboard' sensation. I DON'T LIKE IT (and I'm sure I'm not alone).

Bonus images: I was unable to submit feedback using my notebook.

Yup, the captcha got buried behind the boarder. I couldn't hit 'submit'.

'Why not just use mobile?'

I have the mobile app. I do use it for short replies/like/reblog. Longer stuff...no. I have lost majority of my fine-motor function in my hands. Typing on small device for more than a few sentences worth leads to locked fingers/thumbs and cramped hands. The notebook I have has a full-sized keyboard layout, meaning I have room to maneuver my hands (we don't talk about how often I use the backspace key because my hands refuse to press the keys in the correct order somedays).

[pan-magi]

Heads up that I won't have much to post for a while. I'm moving! Back home for a bit while I'm figuring stuff out (like not being broke). Before, when I mentioned my slow activity I left for a few years. Don't worry, I'm not planning on doing that. I have a backlog of... shitpost ideas, which I will post when I have time. If I have the sudden urge and energy to get some of my longer text posts done then I'll try to do them. Any edits and gifs though will be on the back burner for a while.

(That's the gist of it. If you want a mental health discussion and my general thought process on tumblr, read more if curious. It's more of the vein of "tumblr is an addictive website for me" than "this site is destructive and damning." jsyk)

I know I have it in my blog description that the blog is semi-archived. I have been doing my best though to at least post somewhat regularly. The rate for posting may not be fast per number of posts but for me working on them it is very time and energy consuming (yay executive dysfunction and undiagnosed ADHD woo). It doesn't help either not using Photoshop anymore making gifs is lot less streamlined (get all my necessary screenshots frame by frame and organize them -> edit each individually -> put them together with final edits to make a gif. All in 3 separate programs). My wallet appreciates the decision at least.

The thing is I put that in the description not for the lack of time I have to do stuff but the opposite. I have a lot of empty time to fill. Tumblr is one of the few social media sites I actually use and even with the ability to curate your dash (maybe in part because of it), it is easy for tumblr to be addictive without noticing it. That's with me not bothering with the app. I do check a lot with the mobile browser though. I knew with my attention span and how I tend to do or not get things done that being consistently active would not be the best for me personally. Not bad, per say, but not great.

I love you all. It's been great to see a few of my older followers still interact with my posts from time to time. It's nice to see new ones and the Magi fandom in general getting new people coming in, maybe just for the tumblr side or maybe new altogether, when the series has been complete for years. When I say tumblr is not good for me, I don't mean you. Lots of love for everyone /platonically, my aroace ass wants to clarify and add on a giant thank you for no aphobic hate by anyone here either. I would not have trusted to come out on tumblr even if I had my identity figured out when I was active before.

I do want to keep people satisfied. Analytics shouldn't matter on this hellsite, and they don't, not really. I don't care about what the number is but seeing any notes on my posts is a quick dopamine rush. "Yay, I made someone smile." If I have a free moment, I'm like "I should check tumblr," or "I should work on post for blog." I enjoy what I make and enjoy doing it. However, it's become more attempting to be active and getting something out there despite saying I will manage juggling all sorts of different stuff better. I'm not doing other recreational stuff I want to do. I'm behind on games, movies, books, creative shit outside of tumblr, watching Magi for at least the fifth time... If I have a free moment I'm "work on tumblr post."

It's dumb. I should be able to manage shit better. Again, ADHD. Or maybe it's something else. IDFK.

All this to say that I'm taking the excuse of moving to force myself out of the tumblr sphere. I won't have the time or energy to get larger time-consuming posts done. I might as well focus on something else when I have the opportunity.

I am not planning on disappearing. I do like it here. Stayed too long at the spa though and need to get out and get cool, fresh air. I have short, borderline/actual shitposts I want to get done, as mentioned up top. One may be up in the next week. Who knows though? I don't. What I do know is that if I post something over the summer it will be because it is something I want to get done, when I want it to get done. No rushing myself pointlessly. It will be little things though. Bigger edits and gifs aren't hard yet tedious and draining when I'll be buried in boxes and working on home repairs for the immediate future.

Everyone take care of yourselves out there. If you read all this, thanks! Now, I've spent over an hour working on this when it was supposed to take me 15-20 minutes, and I need to sleep lol.