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#said id draw things for my friends and my club and i havent yet even tho i said id be done by tomorrow#so many dishes in the sink.#i read the elan comic and i know that whatever ive experienced doesnt even come close to the fucked up shit that went on there#but there's a few parts where he describes the way people must think about him#and the self depreciation and the paranoia the thinking that people just hang around because they pity you struck a chord#i sabatoge my own relationships because i dont think im good enough for it anyways#operate on the assumption that everyone is just barely hiding their disgust for me#heard somewhere once that the mind isnt set in stone but is a dirt path and the longer you run your wheels over the same path#the deeper you settle into your rut your habits#and i can feel myself rubbing against the deep worn grooves of disgust for myself#how am i supposed to get anywhere if im not even in my corner? i dont know how to pull myself up out of where im at#i know im already a burden on a lot of my friends and acquaintances#im the one thats always showing weakness and has to be catered to amd taken care of#i know i amplify it in my mind and its not to the extent that my gut tells me it is but i know for sure its true#and it makes me a little nauseous thinking about asking for help#i know that the way for me to become more compassionate towards others is to resolve my own issues its so hard for me to be there#for others when i just. exist at a constant level of self hatred#i feel like ive regressed back to high school where people asked for help by sighing loud enough and hoping someone comes running#everything i try to say about why im doing it sounds so juvenile. i dont really have an excuse#i just. cant connect to people due to what i think is an abnormal amount of self hatred and underconfidence#gut any opportunities for friendship bc im too intimidated to look them in the eye and talk because they secretly hate me.#beat my crush out of me by reminding myself that he doesnt actually care about me and he's just a polite person#im pretty sure that i dont want a relationship even w people i crush on partly bc i like internalized that i couldnt be loved#or whatever. im scared of intimacy ya what else is nee#new
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And now... I introduce my best friend to Eclipse!
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[riley’s first appearance]
Friend: who's that
mike?
(the rest of the commentary for the movie is under the readmore!)
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[bella reciting the opening monologue: some say the world will end in fire…]
Friend: wow…drama queen
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[Edward and bella in the meadow]
Friend: is this real or is this more of her crazy headspace
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Edward: marry me
Bella: I have an English final
Friend: wow……. Rude
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[Charlie grounding bella]
Friend: charlie…. is the only sane character tbh lmfao
he knows an abusive relationship when he sees one
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[Edward sabatoges bella’s truck]
Friend: Y I K E S
A B U S I V E
this is not romantic lol
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Renee: I just want to make sure ur making the right choices for you
Friend: she's NOT
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[renee gives bella the quilt from all their trips]
Friend: awwww
except she's selling out her fam for bloodsuckers
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[all the cullens wait for Victoria in the forest]
Friend: is it whatshername
the redheaded bitch
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Friend: i'm just gonna say….alice and carlisle are the only valid vampires
Me: whyso?
Friend: idk anything about jasper and emmett, edward is weird, who else even is there
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Me: [pauses movie because a spider has appeared by my head and I’m freaking out]
[it lands on my laptop and I scream and close it]
Ok… we can resume
Friend: what happened?
Me: [explains]
Him: ? ? ? why didn't you kill it?!
Me: killing it requires getting close enough to touch it, and that's Too Close
i don't kill spiders
anyway
Him: what?!? lmfao
you don't kill spiders
Me: killing them is too scary
Him: i'd rather kill it and know it's dead than wonder where it is
wow
me: i just scream until someone else comes to do it for me
him: that's a lot to take in
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[jake confronting Edward about being on their territory]
Edward: I was trying to protect u by not telling u abt Victoria
Friend: mmmm yikes
bella just needs to move tf back to florida
this is….Too Much
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[bella goes to lapush]
Friend: tbh i like his pack
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Leah: if ur here to torture jake some more u can leave
Friend: oooooh
burn
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[movie introduces imprinting]
Friend: tbh i think that whole concept is insane™ and i dont get it
bc it like absolves you of your own…actions
& removes the other person's choice
it's really fucking creepy
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Friend: also it would be soooo weird to be able to read people's thoughts
Me: i know it would freak me out
i would hate being able to hear everything my packmates thought
Friend: i don't need anyone else to know how horny i am
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[Jacob arguing with bella about the cullens]
Jacob: theyre not even alive
Friend: "they're not even alive" y i k e s
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[riley creeping in bella’s house]
Friend: man i'd be sleepin with a shotgun lmfao
& like 12 dogs
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[Edward yelling at bella abt bella disappearing with jake]
Me: he’s so overprotective
Friend: she needs it tho
Me: because she's such a danger magnet?
Friend: um….yeah
& she is a fucking damsel in distress
she has no power of her own :((
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Friend: he's so…ugly
me: Edward?
Friend: yeah ……….
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[Jake appears shirtless]
Edward: doesn’t he own a shirt
Friend: “doesn't he own a shirt"
LMFAO edward voicing my thoughts
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[Edward kissing bella before passing her off to jake, who immediately hugs her]
Friend: the way they …. fight with each other by using her body :|
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Friend: what do native americans think of this?
Me: [explains]
Friend: so what is the redeeming quality of these movies exactly lmfao
Me: they’re… fun?
Friend: i guess
like indiana jones
racist trash, but fun(?)
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Me: I hate his sideburns in this movie
Friend: don't think they're that bad
his whole face tho is not great
especially pale af
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[nonconsensual kiss scene]
Jake: ill fight until ur heart stops beating
Bella: u wont have to wait for long
Friend: YIKES
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[Edward and Jake fighting post-punch]
Jake: she’s not sure what she wants
Friend: Y I K E S
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[Carlisle bandaging bella]
Friend: carlisle is so hot
i wanna marry dr. carlisle
the way he medicines everyone up…
wow
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edward is useless
seduce Carlisle
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edward's been alive 100 years and hasn't become a doctor??? c'mon
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[Rosalie killing her rapists]
Friend: LM FAO
love that
W O W
that's a more interesting story than bella's LMFAO
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[Rosalie trying to convince bella to stay human]
Rose: there’s one thing you’ll want more than Edward… one thing you’ll kill for… blood
Friend: ohhh….
SHE REAL
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Friend: & also bella's assumption that Edward is That Great
she's 18….. she hasn't even TRIED college boys
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has she even had sex with anyone, ever?
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Friend: Evil Dakota Fanning is ….. scary af
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Friend: i'll say what i want about stephanie meyer being a fucked up mormon…. but her music taste is p good
Me: she didn’t do the soundtracks
Friend: ummm…i remember stephanie meyer specifically thanking Muse in her books
in the "acknolwedgements" section
or did you, the twilight princess, not read that part
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[graduation party]
Friend: I feel like there should be a twilight spoof..
where a high school girl has to choose between dating a furry and a goth
bc that's what this feels like to me
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Friend: he freaks me out
the beefy one
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[training scene]
Friend: jasper's kinda sexy too
well, everyone looks good next to robert :|
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[jasper’s backstory]
Friend: jasper was a confederate soldier?!?!??!
what?? lmfao
confederate vampires? thanks i hate it
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Friend: didn't he have like a life and morals before becoming a vampire or
i mean i guess he's a confederate so maybe not but
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[jasper’s backstory]
Friend: he just listens to her lmfao
his Evil Mexican Bruja
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[about Victoria]
Friend: she should just make someone sexy a vampire and fuck them tho
she has the power here
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[about Jacob]
Friend: is there a REASON he never wears a shirt?
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[Jake trying to convince bella she has feelings for him]
Jake: you can love more than one person… like sam, Emily, and leah
Friend: thruple!
that's the only resolution here
jacob & edward need to fuck each other and get over it
there's too much tension between them
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Alice: you and Edward will have the house to yourself tonight
Friend: oooooo
Alice: you’re welcome
Friend: LMFAO
alice is a bro
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Bella [immediately after the scene with Alice]: hey dad, I was wondering
Friend: hey dad… i was wondering. do you have any condoms
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Bella: dad I’m a virgin
Friend: not for long….
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Friend: but like honestly it's all so deeply unclear to me
he has like no blood, right?
HOW does he get hard
Me: he’s always hard
Friend: i don't think that's how that works
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[Edward and bella in edward’s room]
Bella: I wanna ask u something
Friend: "can we fuck"
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Friend: i feel like "becoming a vampire" is just a metaphor for "losing virginity"
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[Bella tried to jump Edward]
Edward: bella…no
Friend: ???????????
they already kiss and stuff?????????
Me: yeah
i think he's worried he'd like. fuck her to death
idk… her vulva is delicate i guess
Friend: they could do some Other Stuff
Me: yeah i know
edward is just…. too old school to understand anything but piv
Friend: fuck her to death…with his flaccid vampire dick
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this is so………Weird
?????????? sex is not a sin
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[Edward talking abt how he would have courted bella in 1918]
Friend: ???????????? i dont believe that at all
people fucked in the 1800s
edward is a fucking weirdo
[Edward starts his grand speech]
Friend: Ew
this is…. a Lot
tbh it's Not Sexy that he can't adapt to a more feminist era
[Edward proposes]
Friend: this is…… a Lot
he Keeps Asking
[bella accepts]
Friend: she's only saying yes because she's horny!!!!
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Friend: also….tbh it's sad that these vampires have to deny their instincts and have no control over themselves
like ….maybe they should just be euthanized
Me: :O
Friend: is it fair to deny them their nature???
we don't force tigers to be vegetarians
what is the difference
Me: because… they're sentient and intellectual and can decide for themselves not to eat humans
Friend: i'm not sure i buy that
Me: you think they're not smart enough to make their own decision not to eat humans?
Friend: it seems like they have to be rehabilitated to deny a very natural instinct that they have no control over
are the cullens themselves a metaphor for mormonism?
Me: yeah but carlisle CHOSE a vegetarial lifestyle… no one forced it on him
Friend: i guess
but at what cost
lmao
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[tent scene]
Jacob: I am hotter than u
Friend: LMFAO
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Friend: why didn't they bring more blankets?????
how fucking cold is it
Dumbasses
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[Edward and jake arguing over bella]
Friend: idk bella….
i'd rather fuck a hot wolf than a freezing rock hard PussyDestroying Vampire
those wolves are HUGE…. huge dicks im sure
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[Edward talking about how he doesn’t want bella to be a vamp to jake]
Friend: i feel like they're Bonding
over their inability to control this woman lmfao
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[jake and Edward fighting over bella]
Friend: bella is not that interesting? ? ? ?
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Edward: if you weren’t trying to steal bella I might actually like u
Friend: wow
THIS is where they should fuck
t h r u p l e
look deep into each other's eyes
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Friend: she'd warm up if they were having sex
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[post tent scene]
Friend: she's not even wearing a hat rn
bella…what the fuck
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[Edward and bella talking about being engaged, jake overhears]
Bella: it’s the 21st century
Friend: yeah, it is the 21st century…. marry them both
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[bella asks jake to kiss her]
Friend: what the FUCK is happening
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[bella and jake making out]
Friend: she's not even wearing anything warm
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[battle]
Friend: carlisle…. kung fu master
Me: renaissance man
Friend: only breaks the hippocratic oath when absolutely necessary
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[confrontation with riley and Victoria, Edward trying to convince riley to turn on Victoria]
Edward: think about it riley.. .you’re from forks… you know the area
Friend: "you're from forks… who would want that"
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[Carlisle healing jake]
Friend: god…..my sexy, classy dad
… so smart….. so kind
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Bella: I’m not normal
Friend: bella….you are SO normal
the reason every middle school girl read these books and thought they were like bella is bc you are just THAT normal
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Edward: I guess we should start planning the wedding
Bella: no… something more difficult first… more dangerous
Friend: is she still talking about her virginity
#best friend movie night#eclipse#twilight#twilight renaissance#twilight saga#tts#the twilight saga#twilight revival#twilight in 2020#twilightenment#twilight: eclipse#let me know what you guys think of this format as opposed to the endless reblogging
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