#i rly appreciate everyone i interact w/ on here

[harrylights]

💕💖 2023 appreciation post time 💖💕

i was thinking of doing smth like this anyway but shout out to @enchantedlandcoffee for tagging me in their end of year post 🫶

i started becoming more active in the fandom at the very beginning of this year. i was so lost and isolated and depressed, and honestly finding community here helped give me the push i needed to start taking care of myself again and do some much needed healing. i’ve made so many friends, shared so many silly moments w lovely ppl and i truly cannot even begin to express how much it’s meant to me as the year has continued to go on. it hasn’t not been an easy year, honestly one of the hardest i’ve been through, but having y’all in my life to whatever capacity i’m lucky enough to have has made probably the most significant difference of anything apart from like therapy lmao, and i genuinely love u all so fucking much. i’m gonna start crying if i keep typing about it anymore lol but thank u so much to everyone i’ve met this year i cherish u all and i rly rly mean that ❤️ even if we haven’t interacted a lot i still appreciate u and i’m grateful to share this weird little space here w you

@28goldens @braverytattoos @walkinginsunflowers @quickpauseinconversations @heartshaped-lou @naomismcpherson @hazzasultimatekiwi @thedevilinmybrain @letmeadorelouis @zouisvibez @uwulouis @louisgayvodka @theirloveisgross @night-is-a-feeling @surrowndedbylights @holyshit @louisgrayhairs @goldenkinglouis @wecantalktomorrow @thequeerlibrarian @1ouis @alwayshazandlou @fadeintolight @505louis @medicinelarrie @louieshalo @gayscantslicetomatoes @redpantslouis @ayalabida @satelliteee28 @justanotherghostblr @larrrystrong @alphalouis @whatifai @hellolovers13 @lunarheslwt @greeneyesfriedrice @imogenleewriter @loustyles @voulezloux @rainbowbeanstyles @hl-obsessed @thechavier @wemadethishome @itsnotreal @louisarmpits @thebirdtatts @dip-lou-in-honey @magicalqueerenergy

💕💖 happy 2024 to every one of u 💖💕

[valentine-writes]

i just rly wanna luv u !

「 tws + notes: no tws, unserious asf, atsv ben reilly having kenergy (CREDS 2 @//KAIRISCORNER THE GOAT for this), ben is mad silly, reader is a spider-person, unedited, ooc (?) 」

↳ ft. scarlet spider/ben reilly

「 oblivious gn!reader, romantic relationship <3 」

author's note: im having so many thoughts about him in the movie always. bro had bare minimum screen time and i still go AWOOGA thinking of this stupid stupid guy </3 im gonna b real here, i luv my bitches silly!!! (*ﾉε｀*)

▸ you were teamed up w/ ben reilly on your first mission!!! this was the first time you ever interacted,,, which was. interesting to say the least

"scanning the area..."

"who are you talking to–"

▸ you just kinda have to get used to his narrating while you hunt down the anomaly miguel sent you two after. but!!! just because he's talkative (more to himself rather than you) doesn't mean he's incompetent

you end up locating it and capturing it in about an hour and a half. quick as hell.

▸ you seem to work well with him!!! progressively, you notice that you're paired up with him quite frequently.

this isn't strange– itz actually fairly easily rationalized this by the fact that you just seem to work more efficiently as a duo

▸ eventually, you two become friends and spend time together beyond just doing missions

▸ it's relieving for the rest of the spider society to know he does more than just ruminate over his harrowing past and distressing memories when he's not saving the multiverse

▸ but it becomes just... a little peculiar. you may be oblivious, but you're far from stupid. everyone notices how he's spending more time around you than anyone else– he follows you like a lost puppy

you ask him about this,, and he fervently denies it

"following you? pft. no. not even. you wouldn't get it–"

like... ok dude. um. anyways.

▸ you pick up on little things here and there, but you just figure the poor guy doesn't have a lot of friends.

▸ you are the only person who's allowed to call him "benny" (though he will feign distaste for the nickname, he letz it slide)

▸ you are the only person who distracts him from his dramatic monologues, the only one who draws his thoughts away from whatever he's brooding about

▸ you are the only person who he ever actively seeks out

"has anyone seen them today? they haven't been around–"

"searching for them... hm... nowhere to be seen... checking frequent hangout locations–"

▸ and all of a sudden, you're the only person who he wants to show off to. not like you notice this part. you just assume he's grown accustomed to talking to you about everything

"check it out. i've changed my arm routine."

and he's jus.. flexing.

you hit him w/ the "cool dude, it's really showing!!" and he immediately takes +5 dmg from u tugging on his heartstrings

▸ ur compliments just mean everything to him

▸ the littlest things about your appreciation get to him. even just you smiling because of him seems to make him a little weak in the knees though he tries not to show it too much

▸ he's... trying. again, he really isn't incompetent but sometimes he's straight up making himself a cringefail loserboy around you

"THIS ONES FOR YOU!!!!" tries to shoot a basketball into a hoop

it hits the rim hard

bounces back

hits him square in the face

he tried.

▸ so maybe you haven't noticed much. however, you've definitely noticed he's been trying so much harder around you. and though you reassure him always that he's just fine the way he is– he still always attempts to be more.

you don't understand why.

▸ "ben, this... really isn't necessary, y'know? you're cool as you are." you tell him. it seems like he's relentless in his quest to impress.

you make it simple:

"i like you." you tell him.

ben pauses, taking a moment to look at you. his gaze is focused on you, your face– he hears the sincerity laced in your words. he feels his face heat up just a little. "...really?"

you grin and for a moment, his heart skips a beat. he feels his breath catch in his throat

"of course! ben," you say, his name on your lips being akin to the sound of a choir of angels, "you'll always be my best friend, dude."

+50 dmg to ben reilly

he cries HARD that night into his pillow IAHWOEHDJW

▸ you two are free entertainment for the rest of the spider society. people are placing bets on whether ben's gonna stop pussying around or if you're gonna put two-and-two together before he actually confesses

▸ and they are DIVIDED abt how this is gonna end for you both

after all, you still seem to be absolutely clueless about the fact that ben was the one practically begging miguel to be teamed up with you on each mission.

▸ and now, he's REALLY trying

▸ shows up with your favourite flowers at your door

"oh!! benny, that's so nice of you! you really are such a great friend–"

+60 dmg to ben reilly

▸ "inadvertently" (aka: TOTALLY ON FUCKING PURPOSE) tries to cuddle up to you on the couch or put an arm around you while watching a movie

"are you cold?"

"no, i–"

"here, i don't really need this blanket anyways"

+65 dmg to ben reilly

+5 warmth

▸ STRAIGHT UP TELLS YOU HE LOVES YOU

"i love you too, ben! you're irreplaceable. the absolute sweetest friend i have."

UR KILLING HIM

▸ you two r just:

▸ atp the spider society is in SHAMBLES. it is no longer entertaining it is torturous watching ben reilly now lament over his "unrequited love burning like a wildfire in his heart" (his dramatic ass words probably) and you have no clue it's about YOU

▸ one day, he's decided he has to do something. he needs to make it completely and undeniably clear that he's in love with you.

-

you're hanging out as usual, in the cafe not touching the miguel burger that they're serving there for some reason becuz eating the face of your boss feels... wrong and he clears his throat

"no backing out now..." he declared to himself, narrating while sitting Right In Front Of You

he clears his throat, making you look up from your fries.

"so..." he begins.

"benny, what would you do if someone didn't like you back?" you suddenly blurt out.

he looks up at your face. you've been pouting this entire time, head held low as you pick at your food.

how did he not notice? his attention is constantly on you. he mentally beats himself up for this

in the anxiety of his plans to confess, he somehow completely disregarded how you were feeling. he was so in his head.

"switching directive–" he mutters to himself, now focused on what you wanna say.

you give him a weak smile. "look, i just... i dunno. maybe this is bad timing."

there's a beat of silence between the two of you before you speak up again.

"ben. i really like you. like... more than a friend. it hurts. so so much. because i know you only think of me as a friend and i just–"

everyone within earshot nearly explodes hearing this.

-

▸ like ok plot twist i guess. so the pining went both ways and you were both completely oblivious to it.

▸ the other spider-people who were betting on how this would end are all SHAKEN

but are also so relieved they don't have to walk past ben loudly declaring his anguish due to a broken heart

▸ ben is astonished by how you even thought that he saw you as just a friend. he did EVERYTHING to get through to you

but hey. something worked. finally, after the yearning, and the trying, and the fear of rejection– he finds himself on a date with you :3

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

hi, im a mutual of yours who is too shy/on&off tumblr to interact, but i do look up to you; and your blog and way of seeing things helped me in the past when i was struggling quite a bit.

Lately I feel as if im lost in life, lost my passions and floating aimlessly without a real goal, detached from the future etc. Do you have any advice? I appreciate ur view on things, hope this isnt overstepping 🌦🌈

hi its ok no pressure too interact w me ona personal level just cus were mutuals i enjoy the ambient bonds that can form on this website its why i stay ^^ and no it's not overstepping at a;ll sorry it took me a lil while to respond i was trying to think of good advice since i often feel lost too---

well firs t n foremost to give credit where credit is due, this bjork reddit AMA response really gets to the bottom of it , ever since i first read this here on tumbr a few years ago it really rly stuck w me:

the way this answer helped me is like, it helped me realize i dont need to be so regimented i dont need to put all this pressure on myself to create..All that does is feed into self inflicted guilt when i cant live up to my own expectations u.u you see for my whole life i've never been able to plan anything. yes i can think about the next steps i want to take, i can assemble a plan, i can see the logical way forward, but my moods. or like, idek. how to explain..

i cant force anything. if im not feeling it, i cant force it. ive STRUGGLED w this like i dont wanna be this way. because my feelings i cant predict. like for example i worked on music all winter because thats what i was feeling. then suddenly in march i just like, wasnt feeling it all of a sudden. As soon as it hit me i was like Fy767*T&UG*** because i didnt know when it was gonna come back. i still dont know!! im just trying to be patient waiting it out..in the mean time i have suddenly become enthused with drawing again after not ~feeling~ drawing for most of 2023. sometimes i go for weeks where i dont take a single photo and then suddenly it starts flowing again.. my website was also left untouched for most of 2023 until recently.

thats just one example of this repeating pattern in my life that i didnt understand for so long. theres years of my 20s where i couldnt feel passion for anything at all, looking back now i believe those times i was meant to be focusing on stuff in my psyche that needed healing to clear out some headspace for art. and this bjork quote put a lot into perspective it showed me how to reformulate my thinking to be more accomodating to my disposition. when i'm patient & kind w myself, take each day as it comes, let go of the imaginary pressure, let go of "the future", stuff starts to come thru easier.

and maube its gonna show up in ways you dont expect but its true that the mundane world offers so many ways to practice being creative & giving u stuff to weave into the art u want to create.. every water fall starts w a single drop its trueits true :] thats my advice i spose i really didnt meant to write this much but im boooored.. actually my nighttime boredom writing is one of those habits i never considered to b creative until very recently. there's so many small & automatic things we do that can lead to a meaningful life & purpose.

thanks for the question anon i hope this helps in some way , this is whats helped me but everyone's process is different. and i still have moments where im like WTFFF is happening but its easier to ride it out now. i wish the same for you just give it time <3 thanks again xPmd9

[dandyshucks]

i feel like i should say something, some kind of apology or smth, idk ^^;;

i would looove to say that i won't display symptoms ever again or that i'll "do better" to keep it under control but honest to god i am doing my absolute best already, and the only way i could do better w my current state is to get medicated but that's not an option rn (this small town only has one psychiatrist and he's ... not good at what he does. sigh). i will of course continue to try very hard and keep working on things the way that i can and look for new ways of tackling the brain scaries and coping with it!

my main way i've been dealing w trying not to display symptoms publicly is just to err on the side of extreme caution and try not to post anything here that isn't strictly "i love this fictional character teehee", but sometimes i feel stifled by that rule and want to connect w ppl on more than just "yayy my bouyfriend". like i want to be Me but ,, i think Me is probably just,,, not all that great ^^;;;; so i'm thinking maybe it'd be best if i just take a step back again and go on a mostly-hiatus for a while until i get the welfare and disability stuff sorted out (but that could take. several months. so idk 😭😭) bc its been rly having a bad effect on my mental health and stability, ack !!

i also feel like i need to tell everyone that they do not Need to interact w me or respond to anything i say ever, that you should only do so if u Want to, not because u feel Obligated to, but that implies that i would ever have the power over someone to be able to "make" them feel like they have to do smth and that in itself is an egotistical thought which is "bad". so. gestures vaguely at this paragraph. i just have to sit and hope that nobody feels like they Must interact w me in any way, but i do not know how to express it without sounding dismissive or ungrateful or presumptuous or egotistical. when i say "i appreciate this!" it's just that - i appreciate it, but i do not expect it, so please don't feel pressured ever!

anyways, i appreciate the patience and kindness ppl show me (though i do not expect it dsfjkl) and i will continue trying to keep the unwell brain stuff under wraps as much as i'm able to (and i absolutely understand if ppl cannot deal w that and leave! i won't be offended!). i haven't actually said sorry in this but do know i feel badly about it and i'm trying to figure out how to fix this so it doesnt happen more, i just dont know if a "sorry" is really any use here fdsjkl

[celestie0]

is it not kind of sad that mostly smut gets traction here, like your kickoff fic is so much longer and put together and it doesn’t get as much attention as it deserves

aww thanks dear i appreciate it! smut be hittin good tho LOL but yeahh hm i’ve noticed that too definitely! series tend to get less traction but i’ve noticed the quality of interactions is much higher bc people get invested in the story,, n it’s so lovely to get to develop that relationship w readers as story progresses ☺️

tbh i was hardly expecting much of a following for kickoff when i started posting it so honestly im just really grateful for everyone i rly couldnt complain 😭💕 you’re too sweet

[popponn]

hehe popon !!! i'm like trying my best to keep my eyes open bc i am v tired 😞 so i am apologising in advance if there are any grammatical mistakes in this chunk of text 🤞🏻😸 but hi lovely:

WISHING U A HAPPY BIRTHDAY, POPON !!!! i not sure whether it's like ur birth date where u live yet, but it is for me, so i hope this mssg is on time ! but happy birthday to one of the cutest, cleverest and sweetest yoichi kissers in the world 🫶🏻😽 isagi loves u sm and giggles and kicks his legs when u post him on ur blog (real. bro told me and i was "damn yoichi 🤨")

on my friends' birthdays, i usually write a letter and give them my thanks for a number of things. and i think the number one thing i wanna say "thank u" to u for is definitely our interactions <3 u have always been friendly to everyone who interacts w u, including me, and i reckon i'm rly lucky to met u this year !!! u're a kind soul w a lot of love to give, and i think that's why we all love u sm !!! and i'm super thankful for all the times u've visited my inbox/mssges 🫶🏻🫶🏻 it makes me happy hehe

i must also mention that i am so thankful that i was able to find "coincidences and flickers" one fateful day,, like that series has the potential to forever change me as a person and even make me become a temporary isagi kisser (never forgetting who i am 😤) <33 it was that series that helped me find ur blog and realise the insane amount of talent u have for writing !! my favourite writers on this platform often changes (sometimes it's a, or sometimes it's b), but i think u have a fixed position up there <3 i truly adore u and the way u write, so thank u for all the works u post 🫂 it's such an honour to be mutuals w a v skilled writer

i also wanna thank u for all the reblogs u make on everyone's works <3 when u reblog my fics w a bunch of tags, it truly makes me feel like that the effort i have put in didn't go to waste bc there was someone who appreciated what i wrote. also like,, the quality of my writing often fluctuates (😞💔), but u reblog them anyways, and i will ALWAYS thank u for that !! i love uuu (⁠づ⁠￣⁠ ⁠³⁠￣⁠)⁠づ🫂💞

oh, and, thank u for constantly feeding my reo delusions 😸😸 not sure if i'd love him the same without u telling me that reo loves me too lol 😽🧎🏻‍♀️

i do hope that everything will treat u nicely today !!! and every other day bc u deserve it <33 eat cake, laugh w friends and mb be silly for a little while—u're not a grandma yet, so have fun being in ur twenties, popon !!!!

love u always 🫶🏻☹️

(i hope u like words bc this was a bit of a read lmao)

SAKI IM SOBBINGGG???????? WHATT????? D: JESUS I WILL BE WORDY TOO!! HOW DARE U MAKE ME ALL SOFTTTT thank u so much for typing all this despite being very tired omg ;;;; im gonna bawl mom im so glad i meet saki the sweetest adgudk (also...my grammar is also a mess i hope this shall be forgiven as i am sincere ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡))

it already is!! :">> thank u for remembering it bae :""" and omg yoichi did all that? i get even more in love :(( pls tell yoichi i also kick and giggle when he breathes :(( AND HEY YOU ARE OVERPRAISING ME WHAT IF MY HEAD GET BIG [ahjussi voice]

saki :(((( im also very thankful i get to meet you this year ue ue ue ;;; i never thought i will ever talk to you (or anyone here at all tbh sksk) like i was very shy and hesitate a lot, but then you are there?? being so sweet friendly and welcoming ;;; like you are one of the reasons i'm here and i mean it??? like you are one of the person who gave me courage to be more friendly here too hehe <3 im so glad i meet someone as kind you saki <3

im gonna start blushing and bawling fr now. IM SO GLAD I MAKE THAT SERIESS ;;;;; (CHAPTER WILL COME SOON TRUST!!) hdfkdj idk what to say here before sounding like a madman so uh ;;;; pls know that i was so happy too when u commented and reblogged so positively ;;;;;;; ghjk saki your praises i think i read them over and over girly u r too sweet for me sometimes ;;;;;; ♡( ˘ ³˘)♥︎

okay channeling my coolness energy a bit, saki 🫵i like your writing GENUINELY!!! okay! so im glad you like the madman ramblings in the tags :>> and come on buddy fic writer to fic writer, it would be impossible to like everything we write SKSKSK remember that one time i immediately lose it after posting that rin studying fic. sigh. stupid ass me. BUT YOU AND EVERYONE WERE THERE AND IT SERVED ITS PURPOSE HOHOHO SO I TOO FEEL IT WASNT A WASTE HEHEHEHE

and i will keep feeding ur delusion get ready (❀❛ ֊ ❛„)♡ also quick mention real quick your cats are cool sunglasses or not

THANK YOU FOR THE WISHES SAKIII!!! omg :((( thank you so much for?? writing all these gosh uhuhuu i will reread this over and over again a lot of times today hehe (no matter how busy and hard it is to open tumblr today!!!) this make my day so much ;;;;;; uhuhuhu and aw <3 i will!!! i wanna make a grandma joke again but for today i will spare saki uwu

i love you always too!!!! 🫶🏻😤

[botseeksbot]

finished s7🖕

started off so so so good (so so so so so so good) but then it turned to suckkkkk . brocks writing just hasnt been great since s3 w a few good eps here and there but just turned to major suck when you see him w the ventures . guild operative and osi operative romance got too much screentime . still dislike 21 and i think him being the monarch's "best friend" just makes them boring . could have done smth irt him being alone w his wife gone and w a henchman he doesnt care for (<- the sudden jump of him loving 21 in s5 was so annoying) or smth . i feel the blue morpho could still work w that that would be fun a dedicated henchman working w a boss who will do whatever to rise to the top even if the boss doesnt like him . speaking of . total drop in the whole BM thing and kind of made it stupid to have him kill villains to rise the ranks but then they just have him do random ass jobs and hes level 10? kind of makes his whole speech in PfT in 6 abt GCI levels kind of stupid . the loss of focus on the ventures in general just does not appeal to me i like the monarchs and conjectech but im not watching the show for them . also did i mention how much brock sucks . should have been more focus in hank and dean esp of theyre gonna have deans speech in the finale (rly good actually did make me sniffle)

irt def more things to explore ik you are a gayboy . would have been interesting to see him come to terms w being a superscience experiment by bonding w jared bc i feel like jared would have some talk abt it not being so bad and bring up the positives (did like sirena's comment on the clone thing though) . rly funny he mentions jared in his speech but you never see them interact s7. his whole character has been a mess since s4 though (actually all the ventures have been but whatever) . this was a characterization that pissed me off though similar to his daddy in s4 for me . i like him missing hank and wanting to go back to being just them and him missing the compound . could have been really good if they actually focused on the family aspect of the show...!!! really wish they fucking did but they ruined my family...!!! that fucking osi dog...!!!

hank didnt really add anything im sorry that happened to you babyboy. hank gets focus but nothing really happens to him. not much to say but he was cute and sigh again a lot of missed opportunities for the Whole Reason I Watch The Show

rusty was more similar to his s4 character but not quite but still annoyed me except brock annoyed me more (major sucks btw) so rusty is safe from my wrath . idk where im going w this now . i wish it was more about the ventures . so many lost opportunities since s4 . everthing brock touched turned to suck i cant even appreciate him shirtless and bloody and killing people why are you such an osi doormst this season . brock sucks so much . rusty really adding nothing but was oh so perfect the 1st 3 eps . i want the family fuck off everyone else the monarchs should have stayed background/main antags or smth i dont need the focus same w billy and white my god i just want the ventures . so many things that could have been explored but werent so instead i have to see kimberly and the guild dude try to have a romance across several episodes w development and tragedy and everything but my ventures get nothing irt to any of them except ig deans speech that comes out of left field bc i havent seen the family interact in what feels like forever . also brock sucks

[indescriptequilibrium]

popsci is a horrid wasteland of mostly hastily scribbled together pseudo-scientific cash-grab self-help shit but if u rly overlook the whole genre u miss out on broadening ur ways of thinkin cuz there's no way u'll ever actually sit down in a class n learn of these concepts except thru cultural osmosis (tryin to sweeten the sting w/ optimism here lol)

anyway b4 u solidify ur view of the sacred inner workings of a human mind n infallibility of memory n rationality of any decision-making anyone has ever done u should rly entertain n educate urself w/ joshua foer's "moonwalking with einstein: the art and science of remembering everything" (horrid anglo publisher name but i prommy the name is actually more relevant to the topic than u'd think (finnish translation was just "kaiken muistamisen taito")) where he talks of memory thru the lens of memory competitions (remembering pi decimals doenst mean u dont forget to drink ur tea b4 it's cold) n daniel kahneman's "thinking, fast and slow", which i would force everyone to read if i just could. it has played a large part in making me who i am n informed me of the way i interact w/ ppl n make decisions (or so i hope). mostly it taught me the hard cold fact i had already suspected to be the case as a teen: economics is a fake science.

debated on mentioning it but i have looked all of this up so i'd hate to know n blindside someone: both authors r jewish n while foer seems to mostly just be interested in some philantropy to israel thru orgs that make no mention of the plight of palestinians on their websites, kahneman (on account of havin been born in tel aviv) served in idf's psychology department (of which he's critical about in the book (by the standards an israeli scholar can be critical of idf)). i'm not labeling them capital zed zionists but not much evidence to the contrary either. i think u should still be able to appreciate these books for their content, especially kahneman as he does give a somewhat critical view of idf as an organization from the inside (an increasingly rare thing). it's a very small portion of the book so make of that what u may. but i think neither of these succesful authors particularly need ur money so libraries n piracy r ur friends here. foer's book u can probs check out at a library (popular popsci bestseller), kahneman u probs have to pirate or wait for (or ask for my copy) since it's actually a book that economists n other social sciences students r required to read for entry exams n stuff n then discard n scrub any memory of out of their brains as the scourge of economics takes over like a parasitical infection that eats grey matter. go figure, life in cognitive dissonance etc

[binders-and-beanies]

Favorite orientation leader moments this year :)

-OLs being asked why they decided to become an OL and one girl said “bc my OL was awesome and I wanted to be that person for someone else” (I was her OL)

-my school does this candle lighting ceremony thing at the beginning of the school year where u light each other’s lil candles n it’s meant to symbolize like the passing of the torch from alumni/upperclassmen to incoming students. And the aforementioned OL was standing in between me and one of her students, so I lit her candle n then she lit the student’s candle n we both like burst into tears at the symbolism of it all. Which we then had to explain to the student n then jokingly harassed him abt being the next OL to continue the cycle

-my boss saying that im like the best at dealing w situations where i disagree w someone and that I won’t go along w smth that doesn’t sit right w me but i also know where to direct the energy in ways that can actually change smth

-my boss saying that when he’s speaking to us as a group he always looks for me bc he knows I’ll always give encouraging energy back

-the strengths based leadership training we do where u do all these activities based on ur top 5 strengths and how they work w each other’s :) it’s hours of talking abt things ur good at n how it shows up which is a confidence booster + my social work major ass eats it up like lowkey might have future clients do it

-the facilitator of the aforementioned training travels the world abt it and yet not only remembers me from last year but remembered what my strengths were + gave me a hug

-everything that’s physical like the ropes course and all the games that involve running around. Both leading and playing it’s so healing to do activities involving the body that are inclusive bc I don’t realize how much I want that until I have it

-also related to the ropes course: my coworker saying “I would trust this man with my life” after i saved them from almost eating shit

-“every time I talk to you I’m like damn I love that guy”

-literally going from day 1 not knowing each other’s names to day 2 psychoanalyzing each other and trauma dumping

-interactions w very cishet men that are gender affirming. Such as when I did well at smth physical and a dude said “bro you were cookin back there” I <3 rejoicing in masculinity w men who are very different than me without having to act like them. I told them that in those words too and they’ve acted increasingly dudebro with me ever since

-my students who followed directions from the literal minute I sent out my welcome email

-we get paired up with a “clipboard buddy” and decorate their clipboard that they use during orientation based on their interests. My buddy from last year is still using their clipboard i made them, and the one he made me is in my “sentimental items drawer”

-^ my clipboard from last year has finn adventure time on it and my clipboard this year has jake adventure time on it. Second one made by a different person who didn’t know about the first one

-the (insanely hot) DEI facilitator asked me how many tattoos I have and I said 55 and he said FUCK

-getting to talk abt disability during said DEI workshop and feeling actually listened to and appreciated

-told my boss I would love to do his job when he retires n he said my degree would work for that, if not here then at another school

-giving a presentation abt dyspraxia :)

-OL hunger games simulator

-we were all on a bus and I yelled “guys that’s my ex’s house” and everyone booed and gave thumbs down

-being a menace with a megaphone (singing badly)

-inflicting the cha cha slide and cupid shuffle upon my students + other cringey games where I get to make them run around and be stupid

-students who take an interest in having in depth conversations w me! Esp the undecided majors actually rly wanted my help in finding some sort of direction academically

-transfer studentsss I <3 them I remember feeling like there was no place for me here as a transfer esp bc of my age, and orientation kinda changed that n now I’m doing that for other ppl

-explaining smth to a student and assuring him he wasn’t the only one having that problem and he said “that’s genuinely a huge weight off my shoulders”

-showing ppl where their classes are!! Sometimes guiding ppl around can be awkward but other times it’s my fave way to connect n they’re so appreciative it’s like ah that’s why I’m here. Been thinking abt applying as a year round tour guide n one girl was so grateful for the help and the good vibes that I literally submitted the application during my break

-during final debrief someone said “I mean this with love. You all are the stupidest people I’ve ever met”

-my insanely cool boss telling me I did a good job n patting me on the shoulder. + his sappy farewell speech

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

ari!! i come here with a jar of honey 🍯 for no reason other than i find the emoji so cute 🥺 but i also have a little note for you!!! 💌

oh i am so thankful for you ari 🥺 you deserve all the love and praise i swear!!!! am so grateful that you're here, sharing your beautiful writings 🥺 they always feel like movie scenes to me and that's so !! amazing !! and the way !!! our characterisations agree each time 🥹 i swear it feels like braincells uniting everytime sdbfashfb you are also just the sweetest person ever?!?!? i am so thankful we are friends 🥺 you're always so supportive, replying to all my posts and everything!! your enthusiasm for things is infectious and i am always in awe at how you churn out banger fic after banger fic 🥺 truly!! u are so special ari!!

since this is gratitude themed, i also want to ask you!! what’s something you’re thankful for right now? 🥹 i hope this weekend is wonderful to you!! 🫶🏻

sel u r . the sweetest ever? on planet earth? im literally a pile of mush rn (here is a lil bee in return for the honey!! i think its so cute. hes munching on a flower 🌸🐝)

sel!!! T_T im always so in awe of how warm and kind you are!!!!!!! and how sweet you are to everyone you talk to!! you always take time to check in w ur moots and to thank everyone who comments on ur fics etc etc and its just. so heartwarming to see ;w;

we havent been moots for v long but its so so obvious what a genuine and warm presence u have <3 ur like a lil ray of sunshine!! ur fics r always so soft and lovely and they brighten my day everytime they cross my dash <3 n i can always trust u to get me on gojo and any of our other mutual blorbos … :’3 i rly do agree that we share braincells when it comes to jjk pshdjdj. ur gojo and gumi will never not be loved by me <33

all this just to say i appreciate u sm, thank u for this adorable note !! ill be keeping it close to my heart <33 T_T ily always!! 

…. BUT TO ANSWER UR QUESTION PSHDJDJ…. recently ive been writing a lot so im super thankful to everyone who interacts w my fics!!! (u included ofc <3 i still read ur tags on my gojo fics when i need a lil extra kick of serotonin!!) it gives me sm motivation to write and i feel like im so lucky w interactions on this blog!!! :’3 so im super duper grateful to anyone who reads my silly lil fics n even goes out of their way to let me know they enjoyed it :’’3 i think theyre the sweetest ever n i would lay down my life for themmm

im also currently extremely thankful to the mappa animators for feeding us every week <3 the recent ep hurt sm to watch but it was just. SO good. i rly hope they get the break they deserve!!! 

[lavellane]

i love my mutuals so much :(

[kalofi]

i still have 40+ asks in my inbox for drawing requests

knowing myself i will probably only get to like. 5. </3

[jinxviolets]

my darlings while i love being tagged in things, i am offering a small note to the world that when folks who don’t follow me tag me in their stuff it makes me feel like i am simply an avenue for notes & i do not love that 🥲

[wingedbeings]

aa tjeres stuff in tje tags thts meant to b like a notice tjing abt my presence here rn

[wabblebees]

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[oh-katsuki]

🎉 NEW GAME: Introduce your mutuals to everyone and what do you think of them? 🎉

oooo this is fun!!! thank you for the ask!! okay so i cant do all of them so ill just do a few <33 im sorry if i miss u, i love u all the same and so so dearly.

@mikaaberry - a beloved friend. weird but in the best way possible. she sends pictures of herself from an absurdly high angle like at least three times a week and its incredible. genuinely so supportive, i love her so much.

@juniverses - SHE'S A GUARD DOG. i swear to god ... her clit is always twitching. but she also thirsts w me the most in the groupchat about semi-niche characters and i appreciate that. she's so incredibly wonderful.

@planetsano - bria has such an incredible vibe. like her humor is so fucking good and like... her general energy is amazing. she gives off the vibe of like spongebob humor and cindy from scary movie and it's the funniest thing. i really fucking love her.

@honeyzawa - bea is actually fucking unhinged and its my favorite thing about her. she feeds my enemies to lovers slowburn fantasy except for the fact that we're not enemies and we're also in love. the very first person i interacted regularly with on tumblr and my first tumblr mutual back when i used my art account <33

@drakenology - daisy just fucking gets it. she matches a vibe perfectly and always brings the right energy to the conversation. i have an enormous crush on her but like... don't tell her that. It's a secret.

@ratsqueaks - okay so i literally just started talking to annie regularly very recently but she's been a mutual i really like to see on my dash. always keeps it very spicy bc i never know if I'm gonna get bullied or told that i am adored and i think we all need that in our lives.

@miekasa - this bitch is up my ass FOR EVERYTHING!! AND I WOULDN'T HAVE IT ANY OTHER WAY!! she once called me insane and i had to pause and be like "is it that obvious" (it is). very beloved and so so skilled. i adore her.

@ringpop-poppy - my beloved. my sweetest. my fellow batshit crazy sister. me and poppy feed the WORST energy in ourselves and make it so hot and sexy. she's a rabid dog when it comes to thirsting and her clit is on DIAMOND mode at all hours of the day. i love her and i love her brain and I'm rly happy to be her friend.

@bakemonogatarii - G is such a sweet person. we went to see the mha movie together and it was such a blast. genuinely unhinged but who isn't on this platform. she wants to swallow beefy men whole and i respect that so deeply.

@izuukii - i love scout very very much. they're so supportive and always check up on me and make me feel so seen and heard. my jshk mutual and the person i go to to discuss the emotional anguish that the manga puts me through.

@sems-diarie - i don't talk to sem NEARLY as much as i want to but I'm putting her here because i adore her writing and her general energy. she's someone i absolutely love to see on the dash and her energy is so positive and welcoming that it's really hard not to love her.

that's all i can think of off the top of my head at the moment. i love u guys a lot and u make being here so fucking wonderful. my experience on this app is better because of you guys and i hope ur all having lovely days/nights <333

if i missed you, please know that i love u just as dearly and want to kiss u all the same <333