#i remmeber going insane when i saw

[aduh0308]

Could you show the nsfw link please !

here !! (nsfw link ofc)

[ipegchangbin]

okay pookie give me a moment to BREATHE

POOKS‼️‼️ when u said that a new fic is coming soon, i didnt think that it would be THIS soon‼️‼️😨😟🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🫨🤧🤐😵

NO BC LIKE MY TUMBLR NOTIFICATIONS ARE FUUUUCKED UP 😡🤬🤬🤬 AND I HAVENT BEEN GETTING ANY OF UR NOTIFICATIONS‼️‼️😖😭😢😫AND WHEN I CHECKED MY LITTLE TUMBLR APP I SAW THAT U POSTED⁉️⁉️⁉️😀😀😀

OKAY POOKIE‼️‼️🙌 IM SO SORRY BUT RN IM PUTTING HEAVY LIFTING ON HOLD 💔💔💔😖😖 BC UR GIRL HAS NOOOOTTTT READ UPLIFTING YET IM SO SORRY‼️‼️😓😫💔😔😖💔💔😭🙏🙏

I WILL GET TO IT SOON I PROMISEEEE‼️‼️‼️🙏🙏😫

BUTT‼️‼️🍑

WHEN I SAW THAT MF ASK 😀😀😀

ABT CHEERLEADER HANNIE‼️‼️😀

Z NGEL I THOUGHT THAT WAS SOMEONE POSING AS MEEEE 😭😭⁉️⁉️

BC I DONT REMMEBER SENDINJ THAT⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ 😀😓⁉️😭🤯🤯🫨⁉️😟

BUUTTT‼️‼️🍑 IT HAAAD TO BE ME BC WHO TF ELSE WOULD KNOW I BROKE MY PHONE BC OF A MF BIRD⁉️⁉️😀😥😰😨🤯🤯🤯

ZZZZ I WAS SO FUUUCKING DRUNK😵‍💫😵‍💫😵🍻🍾🥂🥴🥴 LIKR I WAS SO CONFUSED WHEN I WOKE UP WIYH MY FUCKING 728 B.C. ASS OF A LAPTOPPPP⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️😭💀😭😭😀 I DIDNIT FUCIKING KNOW I SENT A WHOOOLLR LOOONG ASS ASK ABOUT PUSSY⁉️⁉️🙀😀😥😨🙀🙀😺 Z THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING‼️‼️😖😭😥😀😀😀😀🥊🥊🥊🥊 BUT NOT ON A KINKY LEVEL🥹😭😭😀😖😰😰 I APPLAUD 👏 U FOR READING THROGHT THAT ENYIRE ASK BECAUSE I COULD NOOOOTTT‼️‼️🤕🤕🔨IM SO EMBARRASSING IM SO SORRY😖😖😖💔🙏 BUT THE FIVE 5️⃣✋IMAGES OF MY ASK IS SENDKNG MEEEEE IT TOOK FIVR PICTURSZ 😭😭❓❓❓

BUT Z YOU DIS ME SOO MUXH JUSTICE‼️‼️🙌🙌🤧 THANK U BC UR WRITINF IS SOOOOO DELICIOUS ITS A CRIME‼️😡😡🤬😾

POOKIE I DONT EVEN KNOW WHER ETO START‼️‼️😓😓😥 WHERE DO I START⁉️⁉️😰😰😰

OKAY‼️ BUT THE VISUAL👁️👁️ OF HANNIE IN A MINISKIRT AND A LIL CHEER UNIFORM HAS ME FUCKING WEEETTTT🤭🥵🤯😻😻💦💦I NEED TO EAT THAT ASSS OUUUTTTT‼️‼️🙌🙌🍑😝💦🥰🥰

THE THOUGJT 💭💭OF HANNIE AS A FLYER WITH HIS WET PANTIES 💦 AND HAVING THE BASES AND U SEEING HOW MF WET🌊🌊🏄‍♀️🚣‍♂️ HE IS HAS MY BRAIN GOING HAYWIREEEEEZYWHBSIHB 😻😻😣😻🙌💗😫👁️🫠⁉️🫨❣️🫨🫨💕🫨‼️‼️🫨🥴🥴❤️‍🔥🫶🤧

AND PRESSING HIS VIBROATOR AGAISJY HIS CLIT⁉️⁉️⁉️ ZZZZZ YKNOW I LOVE CLITS‼️‼️‼️😫❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥😻AND VIBRATORS IM SO OBESSED SJAKKWKEN‼️‼️😖😖😖💗💗

BUT PUSHING IT INSIDE OF HIM THATS CRAAAAZYYYYYY🤯🤯🤯 Z UR FUCKING INSANE‼️‼️‼️😫😫💗I LOVE YOU‼️‼️🫵😻❣️ LIKE PUSHING IT IN HIM AND HIS PUSSY JUST FULL ON GUSHING💦💦😽😼🙀🙀 IS CRAAAZZZZZYYYYY‼️‼️‼️😍😍😍🫶 IM SO IN LOVR Z😫😫😫‼️‼️🙌🙌❤️‍🔥

AND HIM CALLING U CAPTAIN⁉️ Z…….DO I HSVE A CAPTAIN KINK NOW⁉️⁉️😀😀😀

POOKS‼️ “he soaks your hand in his wetness even through his pretty panties, apologizing slightly even if it doesn’t seem to stop.” STOP 🛑✋IM RUNNING FUCKIGN LAPS RN 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️💨💨💨💨 SOAKING UR HANDS THROUGH THE MF PANTIES⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️😀 HOW FUCKING WET IS HE⁉️⁉️⁉️😫😣💦I NEEEED TO EAT HIM OOOUUUUTTTTTT 😫❤️‍🔥🙁😜‼️‼️😝🫶😋I NEED TO FINGER HIM I JUST NEEEEED HIS JUICY MF PUSSSY‼️‼️‼️😝😝😼 AND ITS SO CUTE HOW HES STILL APOLOGIZING RVENTHO HE CANT STOP HIS PRETTY CUNT FROM GUSHING SIZHKWSMISKWNDJE 🥹🥹💗💗💗🥴😋😖🥹😣❣️🥰😊

“it sends him to a blissful place, and you can tell by the way he squirts out a little trickle of clear cum from his pussy.”

squirts.

SQUIRTS.

SQUIRTSSS⁉️⁉️

WHAT⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️😀🥊

I NEEED HIM TO SQUIRT💦💦 ON MY FACE‼️‼️ IN MY MOUTH😝‼️ANYWHERE OH MY FUUUUCKING GOD Z I NEEEED HIM😫🥰😫😖😣😫😫❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥‼️⁉️

“so he lifts his leg above his head, fully exposing his juicy pussy to you.”

BARKBARKABRAKBEARKBARK 🐕🐕🐕🔊🗣️‼️‼️🔊❤️‍🔥💯🐕🐕🔥🗣️🗣️‼️

I FUCKING NEED HIM‼️‼️🗣️🗣️💯🔥THE VISUAL IS SO FFUCKING CRAZY‼️‼️🤯🤯🥴🥴🤧 IDK WHOS WETTER💦💦 ME OR HIM⁉️⁉️⁉️BC GODDAMN I NEED TO BURY MY MOUTH IN HIS PUSSY😝😝😜😛😋😼💪😼‼️

“as if it’s hell sent from heaven, you eat him out while he’s stuck in this position.”

YESSMAAM LETS FUCKING GO‼️‼️🗣️🗣️💯🔥🔥IM HAVING SO MANY THOUGHTS RN ON THIS‼️‼️😁😁 I LOVE PUSSY SO MUCH‼️‼️😻😻ISTG I THINK IM PUSSYDRUNK 😖😖❤️‍🔥MY DREAM FUCKING HOME 🏠IS IN BETWEEN HIS LEGS 🦵🏠🦵I COULD LIVE IN BETWEEN THEM FOR HOOOOUUURRRSSS 🕖🕠🕚🕒🕧🕓AND EATING HIM OUT IN THAT FUCKING POSITION CRAAZZY BUSINESS RIGHT THERE‼️‼️😩😩😩❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 IM SO FUCJING INNLOVE I LOVE U‼️‼️😻🫵🫵

“the vibrator never stops whirring. your tongue is flicking his clit in critically hurried circular motions. then your lips lock in to suck his clit and it sends jisung over the edge. his walls are being used to the point he’s almost exhausted from pain, fatigue, exhaustion, pleasure, ecstasy.”

bye.

DECEASED.

THAT WHOLE FUCKING CHUNK OF TEXT IS A CRITICAL ATTACK TO MY FUCKJNG WELL BEING‼️‼️🤯😰😨😰😰I FEEL LIKE I JUST GOT THROWN OUT THE WINDOW 👶🥊🪟AND CRASHED INTO A BRICK WALL 🧱🧱💥💥💥WITH A FUCKING SHATTERED SKULL🤯🤯🤯💀💀 BECAUSEE WHAAAATTTTT THE HEEEELLLLLLLL⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️EATINF HIM OUT WITH THE VIBRATOR STILL INSIDE IS CRAAZZYY BUSINESS‼️‼️‼️🙌🙌 AND THE WHOLE FUCKJNG FLICKING CLITS AND SUCKING CLITS ⁉️⁉️⁉️😩😩💕💕💕OMFG Z HOW DID U KNOW I LOVE CLITS THAT MUCH⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️😰😰😰🤯🤯🤯🤯 I WANNA SPEND THE WHOOLE DAY MESSING AROUND WITH JUST HIS CLIT‼️‼️😫🤗🤗🤗😜😜 I LOVE CLITS‼️‼️‼️ I THINK THWYRE SO CUTE‼️‼️🥰🥰🥰 THE C IN CLITS STANDS FOR CUTE🫶 U CANT CHSNGE MY MIND😁😁‼️😋😋❤️‍🔥🔥😋😋

“please! i’ve been a good boy! please c-captain!”

IM SO FUCKING FERAL‼️‼️👹👹👹👹

WHAT THE FUCK⁉️⁉️IM LIKE A RACCOON 🦝🦝WITH RABIES👹👹 THIS IS LIKE A FUCKING TRIPLE 3️⃣ ATTACK 🥊🥊 TO ME “please” + “i’ve been a good boy” + “captain” WHAT TBE ACTUAL FUCKING HELL Z 🤯🤯🤯⁉️⁉️⁉️ARE YOU TRYING TO FUXKING KILL ME RN⁉️⁉️⁉️😀😀🔫IM FUCKJG COLLAPSING AND SINKING LIKE THR DAMN TITANIC‼️🌊🌊🚢🚢🌊SOUWJOANEJEJZKWNRH IM GENUINELY TWEAKING RN I NEED HIM SO BAD😫😫😫❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥‼️

“he creams all over your fingers and squirts all over your hands and face.”

creams.

squirts.

CREAMS⁉️

SQUIRTS⁉️

CREAMS AND SQUIRTS⁉️⁉️

ALL OVER YOUR FINGERS⁉️⁉️⁉️

ALL OVER YOUR FACE⁉️⁉️⁉️

HUHHHHHHHH⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️😀😀😀😀😀😀😀

WHAT TJE HELL‼️ IM GOING FUCKING INSANEEEW‼️‼️🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯WHAT TBE FUCK Z⁉️⁉️ GIVE ME A MOMRNT TO BREATHE☝️🫁🫁🫁EVERY FUCJING PARAGRAPH JUST GETS BETTER AND BETTER‼️‼️😩😩💕💕 HOW THE FUCK IS THAT POSSIBLE⁉️⁉️⁉️😀

I NEED TO START LAPPING UP ALL OF IT LIKR A DAMN DOG 😝💦🐕‼️‼️BC “his juices are sweet and savory”

WHAT.

BYE 🚪🚶‍♀️IDK ABT U BUT IM GOING IN FOR A ROUND TWO 😁😁👍HIS PUSSY IS LIKE A WHOLE DAMN FIVE STAR ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️GOURMET MEAL 🍽️ AND IM GONNA FUCKING GET A SECOND2️⃣✌️ SERVING🍽️🍽️😋😋😋‼️🙌

Z IM SO FUCKING OBESSESSED WITH THSI FIC‼️‼️🤩🤩💞I LOVE YOU SO MUCH💖💖💓 ALL THE KISSES TO U POOKIE 😽😽💋💋💋❣️🫶HOW DO U WRITE SO WELL POOKIE⁉️⁉️✍️📝 WHAT IS UR SECRET⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️🕵️‍♀️🕵️‍♀️🕵️‍♀️

WAAAAIIITT 🛑✋🚦WDYM U MIGJT MAKE SOMETHING SPECIAL FOR ME⁉️⁉️ FOR MEEE⁉️⁉️⁉️😀👈⏪ WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE SUCH AN HONOR⁉️🏅🎖️ ALL I DO IS DROP MY HORNY🦄🦄 THOUGHTS INTO UR INBOX✉️➡️📥📨 SO DONT DO ANYTHING I DONT DESERVE IT POOKIE😭😭😭😭🙏🙏

BUTTT🍑‼️ THIS FIC WAS SO DELICIOUS😋😋😋🍽️ IVE READ IT LIKE TEN 🔟✋🤚TIMES ALREADY😻😻TY FOR THE FOOD 🍔🍟🌭🍕🍰🥤🍽️ I WANNA SCISSOR ✂️👯‍♀️WITH HANNIE SOOO BAD AND HEAR HIM WHINE AND WHIMPER OHHHH MYYYY GOOOD Z‼️‼️😫😫😖IM GONNA START READING UPLIFTING AND HEAVY LIFTING SOON 🔜 SO BRACE YOURSELF FOR ANOTHER LONG ASK SOON‼️‼️😋 I LOVE YOU POOKIE😻😻🫶

POOKIE ANON I LOVE U 😭😭😭 sorry it took me a bir i forgot to reply SHHSHSHSSHDHHA

see thats why i hate tumblr notifs because i NEVERRRR get anything so i just turned it off (and i subsequently forgot to reply bc of that IM SO SORRY POOKS 💔💔) either way im so glad u check in on me and my content anyway ^_^ it means the Worldddd to me AND UR MESSAGES even if u send it on a fuckass laptop or not IDCCCC as long as ure here <33 yieee

and no rush + no worries not reading heavy lifting & uplifting yet!!! theyre both kinda long and just full of changbin filth HAHAHAHAH i understand but thank u once again for expressing interest in it 😁

ANYWAY BACK TO THE FEEDBACK THAT MATTERS!!!

u were the catalyst for cheerleader sungie…so i only have u to thank ☝️ ure a real one for suggesting him in his cute miniskirt and pigtails like the vision was visioning hard!!! AND YES FLYER HANNIE because everybody even his teammates have to see his pretty little pussy !!! ESPECIALLY CAPTAIN Y/N !!!

i played around with the captain petname becaude idk it was just fitting! and im so happy u enjoyed it cos i kinda ur enjoyment in mind 😁😁�� same with the vibrator shenanigans LMAO i thought it would be nasty and messy to shove the vibe inside and IM GLAD IT PAID OFF ><

seems like not only sungie is affected by y/n’s antics but YOU TOO ?!?! hannie squirting and creaming and gushing and bring ass wet and disgusting was something i wanted to achieve so 😋 LAP HIM UP RIGHT NOWWWW u deserve all that pussy juice

“MY DREAM FUCKING HOME IS IN BETWEEN HIS LEGS” I CANT STOP LAUGHING POOKIE ME TOO. lets be roommates (by that i mean taking turns eating hannie out) (also very very Happy that you liked the Triple Attack because they were very specific punches to the dick gut that i wanted to let out!)

and yes pookie!! after i go on this 5 day vacay im definitely gonna post smth for u >:)) STAY TUNED BECAUSE ILY !!!

thank u as always pookie anon 🫂 my anon of all time

[crowning-art]

Tgcf spoilers

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I am SO worried rn

jun wu is so powerful like how they gonna fight him??? Power of love???? MORE TRANSFORMERS?

Lmao I forgot about Ling Wen but now that He's back in the playing field...I CANT BELIEVE HE IS SUPPORTING JUN WU?? I DUNNO I THOUGHT HE MIGHT HAVE TAKEN A NICE ROUTE AT SOME POINT?

As said before, the ✨️parallels✨️ between Jun Wu and Hua Cheng are INSANE

The way he spoke to Xie Lian was still the same as before; warm, tolerant, composed, dependable, there were no changes. But the more he was like this, the more Xie Lian was confused and terrified.

Like again, Hua Cheng was described as all these things too and YET, it's NOT the same

Lmao Not hualian taking EVERY opportunity to act like shy newly weds, like yes, there is a grave situation, a plague is going to be unleashed but ummmm are u interested in going on a date with me later? 🥰😘😌😳😆

It makes me so so happy how easily Wind Master brightens the mood around everyone LITERALLY THE BEST

Xie Lian was speechless and choked out a laugh. “Can you not stand anyone?”

That line was directed to Hua Cheng. Shi Qingxuan replied, “He said: ‘Other than you, no.’ I say, Hua Chengzhu, that’s not very nice, I’m standing right here, yanno! You can’t stand me either??? What’s wrong with me???”

When this whole sequence started, I had my heart in my throat, cuz he has been hating Qi Ying VERY PASSIONATELY and there's no way he'll refuse Jun Wu's offer

However, Jun Wu replied, “That’s not necessarily true. There are many who know you. Even if they’ve never met you before, they know of you.”

Yin Yu was taken aback. “Really?”

“Because many know of your shidi,” Jun Wu said. “And when your shidi is mentioned, the subject of you would often be raised. The one that’s a foil.”

BUT HE DID!!! OH MY GOD!! I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS RN YOOOO ITS LIKE PARALLELING BEEFLEAF IN SO MANY WAYS T-T

Yin Yu finally couldn’t take it anymore. He clenched his fists tight, his knuckles cracking, and he whipped around. “I DO RESENT HIM! I DO HATE HIM!!! BUT, SO WHAT??”

Quan Yizhen was flustered and ruffled, speaking as blood spewed from his nose and mouth,

“Shixiong…”

“SHUT UP!!!” Yin Yu shouted.

Guys

Guys

THIS WAS MY FACE WHEN XIE LIAN REMMEBERED THE RING AROUND HIS NECK JSJDJXKDKXKD

I was like shoot oh God, if Jun Wu figures out the ring OH GOD I can imagine Xie Lian how everything must have changed for him after he realized what he was carrying with him....

This part! Buddy, my pal, my dearest Xie Lian....

The moment Xie Lian saw him, he felt him to be incomparably dependable, and there was nothing left to worry about!

I THINK THERE IS A LOT TO BE WORRIED ABOUT...

[tarlos911ls]

So. I wrote another thing.

Fandom: tarlos. 911ls

Words: 1,6k

Summary: Tk gets choked.

I wrote this bc i saw someone say they wanted to see tk get choked. This is NOT blatantly smut. That will come in part two probably tomorrow. It’s 6 am when i wrote this im sorry for spelling mistakes no beta. this is just me testing the waters bc i have never published smut. go easy on me

Ao3

“I need you to teach me to cook, Carlos” Tk Slumped back on the couch with a content sigh having just eaten one of Carlos’s home cooked meals. He could never turn down a Dinner invitation especially when Carlos was cooking. 

“Oh that can easily be arranged, Amor.” Carlos smiled as he walked over to the couch leaving the dishes on the table to be cleaned later. Right now he had more pressing matters. Those matters being, cuddling with Tk on the couch. He let out a heavy sigh as he plopped down next to Tk on the couch stretching his limbs out with a groan.

“Long day?” Tk asked turning his body to face Carlos leaning an elbow against the back of the couch as he held his head up with the palm of his hand. Carlos hummed in response, turning to smile at Tk. 

“It wasn’t that terrible but i went a little too hard at the gym today so i'm a little sore.” 

“ Ahh I see.” Tk slowly nodded “ That makes sense you're trying to catch up to me.” Tk teased as he flexed his muscles with a playful smile. Obviously both men were physically fit but it was no question that Carlos was bulkier. 

“Excuse me, Mr strand?” Carlos’s jaw dropped and his eyebrows raised in faux shock at Tk’s comment. “What are you implying?”

“Oh you know. That I'm stronger than you, bulkier, more assertive, more dominant than you. Obviously I am running the show here!” Carlos scoffed at Tk’s comments. Carlos quickly grabbed Tk’s legs and yanked him into a lying position on the couch moving to hover over him in attempts to wipe that smirk off of Tk’s face. 

“You think you are more dominant than me?” out of all the things that Tk claimed to be, dominant was the one that Carlos decided to single in on. Tk’s smirk grew more mischievous as he found more buttons of Carlos’s to push. The older male narrowed his eyes sizing up the man below him as he thought about his next move. 

“Hmmm. If you are so dominant.. What would you do if I just..” Carlos’s hand snaked up Tk’s body and grabbed his throat. Tk let out a sharp gasp as soon as he felt Carlos's strong hand against his throat for the first time. He let his eyes roll back in his head before he realized what was happening. 

“Please” Tk let out an involuntary whimper no louder than a soft whisper. Tk’s eyes widened as he quickly pushed the hand away.Wiggling out from under Carlos, he hurried to the kitchen in attempts to busy himself. It would have been easy to slip into a full submissive roll for the man if he let himself. But the idea of showing Carlos that side of him was a bit intimdating 

“ I’m gonna clean up the dishes!” He said a bit too hastily. 

“Uhm.. what was that?” Carlos asked stunned into his spot on the couch only turning his head to watch tk walk away. Tk began clearing the dinner dishes off of the table, scraping off what was left in the trash and piling the dishes into the sink.

“I have no idea what you’re talking about.” He mumbled casually like he didn’t just beg Carlos to choke him. Tk took a deep breath keeping his back to Carlos as he began vigorously washing the dishes. A smirk grew on Carlos's lips as he slowly sauntered over to the kitchen taking his time to take in Tk from behind. From The way those black jeans accentuated his full thighs up to the way his dress shirt hugged his perfectly toned back. Carlos’s tongue fell from his mouth licking at his lips almost hungrily as he stepped up behind Tk close enough for the shorter man to feel Carlos's breath against his neck. Tk bit his lower lip as he felt a hand snake up over his hip and around his waist pulling him back roughly so his ass was pressed up snuggly against Carlos’s groin. 

“Do you like being choked, Tyler Kennedy?” Carlos leaned in closer whispered right behind his ear. He kept his voice low, his excitement adding a bit of raspiness to his tone. The question sent a shiver down Tk’s, back dropping a plate in the sink as he grabbed for the counters ledge in attempts to steady himself. Carlos kept a tight hold of the man as he felt him wobble. Tk turned his head towards Carlos slightly keeping his gaze cast downward as he placed his free hand on top of Carlos’s on his waist. 

“I asked you a question?” Carlos took the opportunity to try out being more assertive with the younger male grabbing at the waistband of his pants turning him around quickly. He leaned him up against the counters ledge but kept his own footing so their chest pressed firmly together trapping tk there. Tk let out another sharp gasp, his eyes now staring up at Carlos. Instead of being shy about it like before he decided to face it head on fighting fire with fire. He wasn’t going to submit to Carlos that easily.

“Maybe. What does it matter to you?.” Tk shrugged leaning away just enough to cross his arms over his chest tilting his head to the side like he was squaring up to carlos. The question only fueled Carlos further. He knew Tk had a little bit of brat in him. He could have told anyone that from day one but getting to explore this side of him now was exhilarating. 

“Oh that’s how it’s gonna be huh?” Carlos asked, raising his eyebrows. Tk only smiled mockingly pushing all of Carlos's buttons. The pair stared at each other for a moment before Carlos took the opportunity to reach up and wrap his hand around Tks throat again. He kept the touch light at first only barely pressing his fingertips into his skin wanting to watch the expression on Tks face. Tk tried his best to seem unfazed, like this wasn’t driving him absolutely insane. Something deep inside of him was pleading to just drop the act and beg carlos to grab him tighter and fuck him until the only thing he could remmeber was Carlos’s name. But he fought it. Instead he held Carlos’s gaze as a smirk played on his lips. 

“Is that all you’ve got, Officer?’ Without any hesitation Carlos slid one of his legs between Tk’s thighs and pressed his own thigh up against Tk’s clothed dick already feeling him plump up in his jeans. 

“ Hmm.” Carlos hummed easily as his hand tightened around Tk’s throat. “Seems to me that you are already enjoying yourself, Tiger.” Carlos didn’t dare look away from Tk’s face watching as his eyes began to gloss over. He could feel the way Tk began to slump into his arms. He watched the way Tk’s tongue darted out licking over his lips as his head rolled back and his eyelids fluttered slightly. 

“ Fuck..” Tk mumbled under his breath as a soft moan rolled out of his mouth. His hands grabbed Carlos's sides tightly gripping his shirt until his knuckles turned white. Tk forced his eyes open to look up at Carlos trying to stay more alert. He still wanted to fight and give Carlos a run for his money but that little submissive part of him was slowly winning. 

“Now.” Carlos said again cocking his head to the side pressing his thigh against tk again. “I asked you a question. Do you like being choked, Tyler Kennedy?” Carlos used his full name again hoping it would give him an advantage over the other male.

“Yes.” The word slipped out involuntarily before Tk could even fully process the question. He moved a hand from Carlos’s shirt to the wrist of the hand that was again tightening around his throat. He dug his fingers into Carlos’s skin as he let out a drawn out whimper. 

“Say it.” Carlos ordered.

“Yes. Yes I like being choked.” Carlos took in a sharp breath in attempts to keep his composure. He liked being this authoritative figure that could get Tk to buckle under a strong hand and a stern voice. Carlos didn’t want tk to see how badly this was affecting him, how tk could easily get Carlos to do anything he pleased if he asked him in that breathy little voice of his accompanied by those pretty whines. Not yet anyways. 

“Tell me what you want, Tiger.” 

“Want..” Tk took in a deep breath and let it go slowly as his eyes rolled back into his head again not able to fight his need any longer. 

“ Look at me when you speak.” Tk let out a whimper at carlos’s words forcing his eyes open, purposefully batting his lashes as he looked up at carlos. Despite Carlos wanting it too seem like he was cool, calm, and collected, Tk could feel the way he grew harder against his thigh by the minute. Tk could see the beads of sweat forming at Carlos’s hairline. He was just as worked up as Tk was, going just as crazy. If Carlos was going to do this to him, Tk could throw it right back at him. He stood up a little straighter and stared Carlos down as he spoke with confidence. 

“Want you to fuck me while youre hand is around my throat, Papi. ” Tk smirked feeling Carlos's reaction with the sudden burst of tightness around his throat. 

“Bedroom. Now!” Carlos practically growled. Tk definitely wasn’t going to argue with that. 

[gayspock]

anyways forever late... bake off ep 5

- anyways idk ive been deprssed as FUCK again i havent been able to watch bakeoff . fucking mento illness. but anwyays here we go

- also . this is so premature. i saw ppl gushing abt peter again and idk im jsut filled with rage. idk wht it is abt him tht i hate SO much....... i think its just all the praise hes getting when tbh. i havent been wowed by anything hes done. no offence peter. u have a smug little face. sick of it all.

- wait.... was i mad bc he stole sb from sura in ep 1. i think so.

- probabyl that.

- god i miss sura im so mad shes gone im so SAD shes gone . fuck it all and i think i know who leaves this ep sick of how i get spoilt so easily i like the bakeoff page on fb and i rarely check fb just for my unifessions page and they always jsut post spoilers. tired of it.

-OHW AIT. I FORGOT. HERMINE IS STILL HERE. I THINK. I HAVENT HEARD WHISPER OF HER BEING BOOTED. i hope she stays omg i lvoe her so much

- ok so cornish pasties first off??? thts weird like. I GET IT but also u kno... how much variation cn they do on those??? other than pastry designs?? and even thn like.... the kinda pastry u use for cornish pasties puff up and lose shape easily like hmm and huhhh?

- oh

- wAIT YOU JSUT MAN... PASTIES IN GENERAL . LIKE WHY DIDNT U SAY THT. FUCKIN LAURA OUT HERE WITH A CHEESE AND ONION. am i stupid i thought cornish pasty specifically meant,.... well cornish pasty and i thoguth it did come with some slight variations but tht it wa smostly same y hence the confusion like

-  hermine it looks very delicious i believe in you

- im literally so sorry lottie i like u and ur cute but this is the most rancid british bullshit i have ever seen

- mashed potato in a fucking pasty im going to die with the SAGE an all and the gravy. i cna just FEEL it coagulating and clogging up in my mouth bc u KNO bitish mash is just. rancid. and all of that with fucking pastry encompassing it yuck . its like tht fucking pie bap from the wigan place where ur just fighting layers of stodge and shit .

- this truly is hole less. nobody who serves me this is getting any hole ever

- of course you’d think it would sound nice paul i swear to FUCK you’d eat fucking mud from the ground and  cry abt it being spicy u rancid little worm of a man

- nevermind i hate peter’s too

- literally FISH AND RICE it’d be so dry   . is this ONLY ME. IS IT ONLYme tht can imagine just biting into it and it jsut being......... flavourless and dry. am i insane. maybe i literally just have had bad experiences with haddock or whatever idk i dont remmeber wht tht shit taste like. rice is lush but idk abt it in a pasty like i really think u need sth else in there to help it or else its just so... idk man im just not sure if am a fan

- 4 MINUTE AD BREAKS. ARE YOU CLOWNS.... AM I AC CLOWNS. THIS IS SICK AND TWISTED, BAKE OFF.

- also fucking. there is something SO evil abt amazon releasing the corona flavoured adverts holllly shitttt<3

- cactulaly i like. get 0 exposure to adverts nowadays. i dont have a tv & i wouldnnt watch it if i did. and obvs mst of the time i have adblock on. so like.... so like.... i was PROTECTED but now i have 2 see all the rona based ads... oh  my GOD i hate it

- also what did i tell u peter. its DRY . ofc IT WOULD BE DRY. youve just got rice in a fucking pastry with FISH . IT’S BONE DRY. UGH

- LITERALLY WHY IS EVERYONE .... BC I SAW IT EVERYWHERE ELSE TOO. PPL ARE GOING ON ABT HOW PETER IS SO GOOD AT EVERYTHING WHEN LITERALLY. SINCE WEEK 1 WHEN HAS HE BEEN THAT GOOD? LIKE THEY ALWAYS HYPE HIM UP BUT THN DURING JUDGEMENT THEYRE LIKE “awh well its actually not tht good :(” BUT DONT MAKE A FUSS ABT IT

- (meanwhile not 2 call racism again but is aw a load of ppl blasting hermine and saying she was terrible... when literally shes been doin so well. she knocked it out the park again here. ofc she did<3)

  - OMG

- FOGGY

- also literally hwy are u all putting RICE in ur pasties like. tht might be a thing but surely you would need to compensate with a load of sauce and flavour like.............. another dude. the dude i keep forgetting . dave. is it dave. idk he is literally the one tht WILL NOT stick in my mind the most forgettable shaped man. sorry dave. angyways like i dont think itd be terrible but like i said doesnt i need... sauce   and a LOT of it

- HOLY SHIT THIS TECHNICAL IS A DISASTER

- IM EVERYONE JUST EATING HSIT

- GOD LINDA IM SO SORRY

- IM SO SO SORRY LINDA

- “NOT BAD EFFORT” HEY PRUE? THESE WERE THE FIRST ECLAIRS THAT WEREN’T

 -i i really hope hermine does well in showstopper she’s really on road to starbake

- CAGED TARTS. ME IN LOCKDOWN.

H.. HOW ARE OU PLANNIGN ION DOING THIS LOTTIE

literally i wish rowan was here JUST for this challenge  . he wouldnt be able to do it but, like, dave’s “louvre inspired tart” ......... we’re getting big rowan vibes from it all. he’d do something stupid and extra (or try to)

OMG

PASTRY SNAIL1 PASTRY SNAIL!

okay travis marcelroy (cant believe it took me this long to think of tht one) thats kinda funny

- UH HEY BAKE OFF ARE WE JUST GONNA KEEP SAYING THW WORD G*PSY? OKAY. I FUCKING GUESS

- “UPMARKERT TART” MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE<3

- oh no

- TRAVIS MARCELROY YOU R BOTTLE

- hey

bDONT SHOW ME AD S LIEK THIS I DONT LIKE IT I DONT LIKE IT SCARY

-  NMARC ITS SO PRETTY......

 - come on HERMINE PU;L IT HOME LETS GET YUO STARBAKER GIRL ITS WHAT YOU DESERVE

- THE

- IM

(starts to see red)

- linda im so so sorry. man. this sucks

- BUT LOTTIE POP OFF I GUESS

- they just RIPPED into travis marcelroy huh

- .

- L... LAURA?

- UOU GAVE S GTABRBAKER OTO ALRUAU?

- IM SEEING RED. IM ACTUALLUY SEEING FUCKING RED

- HERMINE...

LAURA CAME SO LOW DOWN IN THE FUKCING TECHNICAL

- HERMINE CAME SECOND AND SHE DID AMAZING IN THE SIGNATURE AND SHE DID SO WELL IN THE FUCKING SHOWSTOPPER HER BASE WAS JSUR A LITTLE THICK ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME ARE YOU ALL FOR FUCKING REAL WHAT EVEN WAS LAURA’S FUCKING SIGNATURE AGAIN ID ONT REMEMBER DO YOU KNOW WHY BCAUSE IT WAS FORGETTABLE, WORTHLESS, I SIMPLY DO NOT CARE IM LIVID WHO WHY WHAT AND WHEN THIS IS

- THIS IS JUST

- IM AT MY FUCKING WITS END

- YOU..........................................................

- HERMINE ROBBED. FUCKING R O B B E D. THIS IS FOUL THIS IS VILE IM LITERALLY ENRAGED IM SO MAD IM NOT FINISHINGT HIS EP I KNO LINDA EATS IT OF SHE DOES IM SO MAD IM SO MAD

[yesterdays-yesterday]

jared yi

the only boy i have perhaps ever loved. we met in september of 2016, and i didn’t think of him much. he had a shaved head, is short, and weird. but the next time i hung out with him was at the family retreat two months later. somehow we started that cute, energetic wave thing (along with tim & chanyung), and one night i sat to have dinner with them. i remember laughing so hard, trying not to show my braces. the hanging rope near our table looked like a noose. someone shared a story about a boy who ate a cheeto while running the mile. and the entire time, he sat right across from me. every time he laughed his white teeth would show, and i felt comfortable around him. later that night we all played mafia, and he actually chose to sit next to me. we talked and laughed, and it felt really nice. the next morning, i remember excitedly telling faith that i liked him. that was november 13th, 2016. as the retreat ended, i gave him a high five before he left, and it was one one of my greatest accomplishments. we had another nice interaction this one night—caya was playing poker and dad & i tagged along. it was at the book cafe, and around 12am me, faith, jared & sean decided to go to guiltea for boba. nothing special happened...but it felt nice. and when we got back, i sat next to him at the table while we played some card game. once again, more laughter as he and devon goofed off and combined the sign ILY and SAME. i don’t know when or how, but we got each other’s snapchats and facebook. we started talking, had a streak, always used this one cat sticker. i just love talking to him. i feel special, and somewhat honored (unfortunately) to speak with him. whenever we talked, it was insane how happy i became. i think i really did love him. i didn’t see him for 4 weeks, but we kept in touch. my infatuation with him grew so deep during that month. i can’t describe how much i liked him. i wanted to know every detail about him, every struggle, every victory, everything. so of course when the 4 weeks of no physical nearness ended, i became too in love to function. seeing him at church froze me; i stopped waving to him and talking to him. he probably was confused, or extremely aware of it. i remember i ran up to him asking what his favorite utensil is (after a night of planning), and his reaction melted me (he laughed). and then, i found out: he and esther liked each other. she actually told me in the van on the way back from geh, and i struggled so hard to suck in my tears. i got a ride back from sunnyd, and i silently cried the entire time. i texted emmy asking her to wait for me to come home—mom and dad weren’t there for some reason. right when i opened the door, emmy stood there, and i ran into her arms releasing my sobs.

it was a difficult night, and a difficult time. i skipped a class because i went to the nurse’s and solemnly laid down, only thinking about him. i cried a lot, wanted to stop going to church, and ran away whenever i saw him. my heart throbbed for a solid month, and still burst whenever i heard his name for another three. i remember he posted on facebook for my birthday, saying a simple “happy birthday fude”...which made me cry in my room alone. after that i thought i was over him; i could say his name and speak of him without crying. but then in july, while i was at faith’s house, i was talking about jared to her. and right when i talked about him, my phone lit up and—yep, he had texted me. my heart felt so jumbled and conflicted and i started crying again. that night, we started talking and we opened up (but we shouldn’t have). he told me about how he drinks and smokes, and how esther broke up with him. it was dumb of me to talk to him in that kind of state. he told me nice things about me which made my heart flutter again. he’s smooth. so yeah, we started talking again for a solid month. once, he offered to hang out at around 3am because i was at a church lock-in planning to stay up all night. and i accepted. i was so dumb. luckily he changed his mind, but looking back, that would have been so bad—a youth teacher and a youth student hanging out at three in the morning. so yes, my feelings for him returned...that is, until cmi! i tried talking to him because he was at ci, but he made no efforts. i looked at him in the eyes and thought: “hey. i’m over you.” so i was extremely happy and thought (key word: thought) i was completely over him. i even stopped replying to him, especially after hearing that he talked to hannah and yerin too. which kind of hurt. john happened...then daniel...then juan....but through those three, i still would catch myself looking for jared at church. my heart would pound if i saw him. my ears would perk if i heard his name. emmy became good friends with him though, and i was okay with it. but that leads me to now...

i know i don’t like him, and i know that i never will again. but i also know that i’m not over him, and i never will be. he has taken control of my teenage heart since 2016, and he’ll still have some of that until death. i mean, he was my first & only (so far) love. today i walked to my car, and another car coming my way slowed down. the windows rolled down, and jared looked out. i can’t explain his expression — but he seemed somewhat happy to see me. my heart didn’t skip a beat, and i didn’t freak out. but i smiled and the 15-year-old me gave a little dance. i loved jared yi, and i don’t anymore. but the part of me always will, you know? something about him just totally captivated me and shook my entire world. he was my world for a time. & although it broke into a million pieces and will never be re-esembled, i will always remmeber it and what it used to be.

i’ll remember my old, dramatic yet charming world, which was jared.

07.09.18 12:24am