#i recognise the irony in the guy with npd talking about how much hes scared about other people

[possibly-eli]

sometimes i remember the fucking. stupidly high percentage of trans suicides and just get really scared. like "oh. that includes me. that includes a lot of people i care about. theres a chance one of us will die and not be able to save each other. god what am i going to do". cause i dont know if you know this but like. i care a lot about my friends. i care about friends i dont talk to anymore, i care about friendly acquaintances, i care about nice strangers. like it matters to me. im terrified of losing the people i care about and god like. what do i do. what am i supposed to do

and i know ill stop thinking about it and go back to my standard train of thought and ill be fine again but for now im like. super scared. i dont know