#i reallyyyyy don't want to go through that again

[dragcnflame]

while i'm flattered that personals have started finding my account i'm going to request that you don't reblog things and keep likes to a minimum so that my activity doesn't get flooded please! it makes rping a little tough. please refrain from liking or reblogging my rp threads most specifically. thanks!

[inthedoghousern]

settle down

pairing: lando norris x fem!reader

summary: lando has always been a good friend of your brother, so you know he's off limits, but sometimes you just can't help yourself. guess you'll never learn. inspired by "settle down" by the 1975.

contains: 18+, cursing, alcohol/drinking/smoking, suggestive content (make outs!).

4.4k words

a/n: ok let me clarify: loosely inspired. this isn't reallyyyyy the 'storyline' of the 1975's settle down, but that's okay!

You're wearing your hair down and it slightly covers your face as you go to answer the knocking coming from your front door. When you open it, you're surprised to find your brother's best friend standing there. 

"Oh, you're early, no?" You ask, puzzled, while pushing your hair behind your ears. You knew your brother was throwing a party tonight, but that was in a little bit, and your brother wasn't even home at the moment. 

"He told me to come early to help set up. Whatever that means," he answers. 

"Not sure if he knows that because he's not here," you tell him. Your brother is an idiot. "Well come in I guess." You shrug and move to the side, motioning Lando in. 

You didn't really mind. Of course, you and Lando were friendly, considering he was so close with your brother. When you were younger you even hung out with the two of them a lot. As you got older, their racing and your school stuff just caused the friendship between you and Lando to be more casual. And it was fine. Sometimes schedules would work out and Lando, your brother, and you would cross paths. But for the most part, you just followed his life online like everyone else. 

Though you had to be honest, back then, Lando didn't seem to have much of an effect on you, but now as he stands in front of you, you feel a lump forming in your throat. When did he get so good-looking?

You don't know what has come over you as the two of you enter the house. You feel like falling all over the place. You two make your way to the living room and sit on the couch. It's silent for a moment before Lando speaks up.

"Where even is he?"

"Pretty sure he's stocking up on drinks for tonight. I don't know why he wouldn't have waited to bring you, or just like, tell you to come later." You shake your head. 

Lando laughs and shakes his head too and the silence returns. 

Now you ask a question. “Hasn't been just us in a while, huh?”

“It's been a minute.” Lando chuckles along with you, the silence now slightly less awkward.

You lean back on the sofa. “So how are you? I haven’t seen you in forever,” you ask with a smile. 

“I’m good, I’m good. Honestly, nothing too interesting going on.” He shifts on the couch.

The two of you sit in silence again, until Lando speaks up. 

“You're staying for the party, right?”

“Yeah. Thought I’d stick around this time.”

Lando tilts his head to the side. “Is that so?”

Your stomach does a flip. You try to shake away the thoughts entering your mind. He’s your brother's best friend, you've known him for years, you need to relax. 

“Mhm,” you hum in response. 

Lando looks down for a moment and then over at you. 

“When’s your brother getting back?”

“Not sure.” You open your phone and check his location. As you look away, Lando eyes wander to your neck, then your torso and legs, then your lips, all in the span of a few seconds as you sit on the couch next to him. He had spent countless hours with your family, sat and talked with you many many times. What a familiar face yours was to him. But today he couldn't help but notice something had changed between you. Was it all the time you had spent a part? Or maybe the fact that he's finally seeing you in person and not through a screen. Lando would never admit it, but lately he tended to linger on your social media posts longer than he should.

Lando meets your eyes again when you look up from your phone.

“Yeah, I have no idea, looks like he's still shopping. Do you want me to ask?”

Lando shrugs, a small smile playing at the corner of his mouth. 

“It’s alright, I was just asking.” He leans back again, stretching his arms over his head as he does.

You can’t help but look at the exposed skin of his stomach when his t-shirt rises. Your eyes glance down, but you look away as quickly and inconspicuously as possible. 

But Lando does notice your brief glance down and back up again. If you could see his expression, you’d notice it’s a mixture of amusement, and something else. He doesn’t say anything though. Instead, he leans forward, speaking slightly softer. 

“You know, I've missed seeing you.”

You can feel heat rising up the back of your neck. Still, you feel a smile tugging at the sides of your mouth and now the two of you are making eye contact. “Oh really?”

Lando can feel your breath on him. He lets out a small breath himself, letting out a shaky laugh. He looks you deeply in your eyes and brings his arm to the back of the sofa behind you. 

Time seems to move extremely slowly. The atmosphere is charged, your eyes locked on to one another. Lando holds your gaze for a moment, waiting to see if you have anything more to say. 

You lean towards him. He feels you press yourself against him. The two of you are so close together, you can feel Lando’s body heat rising, his muscles tightening.

He leans forward, brushing his lips against yours very softly.

You kiss him back. As you do so, Lando gently moves his hands to your waist and pulls you closer to him and you wrap your arms around his neck. The kiss continues and grows much more passionate. You feel Lando’s hands moving up and down your back, the two of you fully enveloped in one another.

Your position shifts, and now you’re sitting on his lap. Still connected in your kiss. 

Lando’s mouth moves along your jaw, “Fuck Lando,” you breathe out as he kisses your jaw and neck. Your hands are buried in his hair. 

Your words bring a small chuckle from him, and he smiles into your neck. He's finding himself so fixated on the girl with the soft sounds. Her hair all over the place. 

You're also fixated on this boy. Lando Norris. The guy you've known your whole life. The guy who's best friends with your brother. The guy who was off limits. He isn’t supposed to be the guy to make you feel like this, and yet, here you are, on top of him. 

Lando’s hands slide under your shirt as he continues to kiss you. 

The feeling of Lando running his hands all over you and his suffocating kisses are almost enough to make you forget where you are. Who you are. Almost. The illusion breaks when you hear a sound from outside. 

A car door shutting. 

The two of you freeze. As one, you both turn your heads. The sound is followed by footsteps. Heavy footsteps. 

It’s your brother.

“Fuck,” you laugh, panicking. You quickly slide off of Lando. 

“Goddamnit.” Lando shakes his head with a smile and sits back. 

You’re both a bit of a mess. You two are breathing heavily and you're flushed. Your hair disheveled. You’ve just barely finished fixing yourself when you heard your brother’s voice from the front door. 

“I’m back.”

“Hey!” You clear your throat. “Lando’s here." 

“Thought so, I saw his car in the driveway.” Your brother steps into the living room, a bag in his arm. 

“What’s up man,” Lando gets up. “You got more stuff in the car?” He asks your brother. 

“Yeah a few more boxes,” he responds. 

“Alright let me help.” They walk back outside together and you lean back on the couch, looking up and covering your face with your hands. 

You sit there for a moment, feeling a bit shaken. You feel a little dirty almost? But you can’t stop thinking about the way Lando kissed you.

You let your hands fall to your sides before the two of them walk back in. Your brother sits on the couch and Lando sits in a chair across from you. Just a few feet away. It’s like nothing happened. You know he can't be found with you.

Luckily, your brother is completely oblivious. 

“People should start getting here in like an hour,” he comments. 

You get up from the couch. “Alright, I’m gonna get ready then. See you guys later.” 

You rush upstairs and shut the door. Your heart is pounding, and you’re still in disbelief. As you lie down on your bed, your mind races with everything that just happened. 

You cannot let your brother find out.

He would probably kill you, or kill Lando. 

No, he’d kill both of you. 

-

You spend more time than you should getting ready, but you’re hoping to calm down a little. Eventually, you start to hear music from downstairs, and the bass shakes your floor. You also begin hearing the sound of voices and laughter as your brother greets people at the door. 

You take a deep breath as you look at yourself one last time in the mirror. Now or never. Just avoid him. 

You walk down the stairs and are immediately met with 'hellos' and 'heys' from different directions. You greet as you weave your way through the house, and finally, you get to the kitchen. You beeline to the fridge, getting a drink. 

“Hello helloooo,” you hear from behind. When you turn around you're met with your best friend. 

"Hey!" Her arrival is a breath of fresh air after feeling so out of sorts with Lando. She gives you a big smile and hugs you tightly.

“Thank god you’re here,” you say as you pull away from the hug. “Get a drink and then we need to talk. It’s important.”

Your best friend gives you a curious look, raising her eyebrow at you in surprise. She glances around for a moment and then back at you. 

“What is it? Is something going on?” People are in and out of the kitchen around you two. The house is getting busier and busier. You look around quickly and then whisper in your friend’s ear, “It’s about Lando.” 

“Shut the fuck up,” she whispers, a look of excitement in her eye and concern as well.

“Yeah, I know. Now get a drink and let’s get outside or something,” you laugh. 

“Are you being serious? Did you fuck Lando?” She leans in closer as if she doesn’t believe what she’s hearing is real.

“Shush! Oh my god come on.” You pass her a drink and grab her hand, pulling her behind you. 

Though, as you try to exit the kitchen people are also walking in, causing a bit of a standoff. And of course. It’s Lando and your brother. 

“Hey what’s up!” your brother greets your best friend. 

Out of you four, your brother is the only one who is out of the loop on the current... situation.

Lando directs a nod toward your friend but soon looks back at you. You're staring back. 

“Hi nice to see you both I was just going out for a smoke talk to you later goodbye," your best friend quickly rambles to the two boys, and then you both push past out of the kitchen. 

You can feel Lando's eyes on the back of your head as you go out the door.

-

You sit on the porch and she lights a cigarette, taking a drag, and then turning to you, “I can’t believe it. You’re not fucking with me right?” She says laughing. 

You laugh and put your head in your hands. “I’m being so serious," you mutter but then look up again. "But we didn't sleep together. It was just a... heavy makeout...? That got interrupted."

She starts laughing and you laugh with her, the two of you in disbelief. 

“Dude you can’t just hook up with Lando! Oh my god, your brother is going to freak out.” She says, still laughing. 

“I know. He cannot find out.” You smile and take a sip of your drink.

Your best friend looks at you over her cigarette, “…well, I mean, was it good?”

"It wasn’t bad…” you trail off with a grin. Your best friend smirks as you speak, raising her eyebrow and laughing out loud. 

“It wasn’t bad.” She repeats, and you can hear the amusement in her voice. 

“You’re a mess.” She says, and the two of you burst out laughing as if it’s not a big deal at all. She's right, you are a mess. You're avoiding him and yet wondering if he's talking 'bout you too. 

The two of you keep talking and drinking on the porch until your cans are empty. “Alright,” you say slapping your knees and standing up. “We should be social, and I need another drink.”

“You would be right," your best friend says immediately and gets to her feet. You’re relieved to have her with you, maybe she’ll help you keep your mind off of Lando and what just happened. And getting another drink wouldn’t hurt either. 

“C’mon.” Your best friend pulls you away from the porch and the two of you reenter the party.

-

You're back in the house and the night resumes. You have fun for a bit, talking to your other friends, drinking, and doing some shots. You know Lando is here somewhere, but you don’t know where and you don’t really care. Don't want to care at least. 

At one point, your best friend pulls you aside again, “I’m gonna have another smoke, you coming?” she asks. 

“Yeah sure, I could use some air.” You two go outside again. It's gotten later and you're feeling the cold air prickle against your skin. 

She lights her cigarette as someone else from the party comes out, and they light up too. The three of you talk for a while, but you're starting to feel too cold, and you're the only one not smoking. 

“Hey, I’m going back in,” you tell her. She nods, “Cool, I’ll see you inside later, I’m gonna chill out here for a bit.” 

You head back into the party, and once again it’s crowded: people are moving between rooms, there’s music blasting, and you can smell the liquor in the air. 

You're pushing through bodies as you walk through the living room. You pass someone and the two of your arms collide hard. You go to mumble a 'sorry', but you stop yourself when you see who it is. 

Lando. You both pause. 

You feel the heat coming off of his body and your chilled skin from the night air touches against him. You're cold and he burns. You shiver, unsure if it's from the temperature outside or the man standing in front of you. 

“Cold?” he asks leaning close so you can hear him over the music. 

You laugh, “I was just outside. Won’t take long to warm back up in here though.” 

He smiles slightly at you and nods, but the look in his eyes reveals he knows there’s more to it than that. 

You can still feel the heat coming off of him, and you don’t know how to avoid it. You’re trying to block out the memories of what happened in this living room earlier, but it’s pretty obvious the tension between the two of you is still there.

“Wanna go get another drink?” he asks. 

There’s a part of you that knows you should say no, but there’s also a certain adrenaline rush that courses through you in his presence. He doesn’t seem to care about the circumstances, and he’s actually making this interesting.

“Yeah, sure.”

“Let’s get a drink then,” he says, grabbing your shoulders and turning you towards the kitchen. You walk ahead as he follows with his hands on your shoulders. The sensation of him holding you makes your heart race, you feel like his touch could burn a hole right through you. 

You get to the kitchen and Lando lets go of you, making his way to the fridge, grabbing you both drinks. You sit on the counter as Lando stands in front of you with his own drink.

You take some time to just look at him, your eyes locked on his, and he looks right back at you. There’s this air of tension between the two of you and despite neither of you outright acknowledging it; you both know. 

“Having fun?” you ask him, taking a sip of your drink. 

“Yeah, I’d say so,” he teases you, taking one step forward so that he’s standing closer than he was before.

“Are you having fun?”

“Yes, I am,” you say looking down at him from your position on the counter. 

“Good.” 

It’s such a simple word, but the way he speaks it is almost provocative. Everything about him right now is like that.

You both sip from your drinks, and he’s so close to you that you feel like you could lean forward and kiss him without moving. The idea has you feeling a bit dizzy.

You don’t say anything and neither does he; everything between the two of you is so intense, so silent. You're losing your words. You two are speaking in bodies. 

You break the eye contact and don’t say anything as you put your drink down and get off of the counter. You and Lando are nearly pressed together for a moment when you get down, but you move to the side and start leaving the kitchen. 

Confusion is all over Lando’s face, he turns as you walk by. 

“Where are you going?” He laughs as he starts to follow. 

You start moving through the party to the stairs, and you don’t look behind you to see if he’s following. You know he is. As you get to the staircase you start climbing up and Lando's nearly on your heels with every step you take. 

When you reach the second floor and it’s dark and quiet. You open the door to your room and walk inside, Lando is right behind you as you do so. You enter the room and hear Lando closing the door and clicking the lock. The party is downstairs, and up here it’s a different world. 

You and Lando stand there for a moment, and the silence is deafening. You both know why the other came to this room and in the low light, he moves closer to you. 

You can feel his hand wrap around your waist slightly and he pulls you towards him. Lando smiles softly as you wrap your arms around his neck. Your fingers play with the hair at the nape of his neck, and your body is pressed against his. 

“You know…” he whispers to you, “I really would like to finish what we started earlier…”

“Or is the idea of your brother being downstairs too much?” he whispers softly, as his hands move to the small of your back, holding you gently and close to his body.

The air seems to be hot as you press yourself against Lando. Your hands wrapped around the back of his neck, the heat coming off of his body as he leaned his own against you. 

“I love the guy but I really wish he wasn’t here. Or that anyone was here,” his voice almost a whisper, “but I guess that means we have to be really quiet…”. 

You smile and shake your head, “I guess…” your eyes are flickering from his eyes to his lips. You shouldn’t want this, but you really do want this. 

Lando smiles back, his hand trailing your back slowly. It’s a tease and you know it. His one hand starts to move up your back, making its way towards the back of your neck, and he brings his free one to the side of your face. Your arms are still wrapped around him. He traces his fingers along your cheek slowly, and you feel your breath catch in your throat. 

Your bodies are close together and you can feel their heat against each other. The air is thick, and you know what needs to happen next.

You both lean towards each other and meet in the middle, finally tasting each other again. The kiss is filled with passion and you can feel his lips on yours, his tongue meeting your own.

Lando deepens the kiss and you're pushed back into the door. Pinned between his body and the wall. He doesn’t break the kiss and his hands slide down your body, moving down to your hips. 

Lando starts kissing down your jaw and neck again. There is an ease about the way he moves now, he can take his time now that you're behind closed doors. 

He makes his way down your neck, leaving a trail of kisses behind him. The feeling is electric as his hands rest on your hips still, his touch is soft and tender as he moves his lips back up and kisses you again on the lips.

The feeling of your hands in Lando's hair makes him grin against you. Your kiss becomes more passionate as you pull his hair, and you can feel touch of his hands beneath your shirt. Fingers against your skin. Your mind is hazy from the kiss and the alcohol but you let the feeling wash over you. 

He tugs at the hem of your shirt and pulls it off of you. 

You break the kiss finally and breathe in the heat of the room. With your shirt removed his hands trail the bare skin of your back and sides, and his lips trace your neck.

The heat is so intense it makes your body feel like it has a mind of its own.

You lightly push him off, towards the edge of the bed, with a laugh. He laughs with you and goes along with your push, sitting down. You see that he has a smirk on his face, and as you look him over he leans back on his hands and continues to watch you. 

The air is tense with a build-up of tension, waiting for the next move.

You stand in front of him and grab both of his arms, lightly pulling them up above his head. Lando chuckles softly at the move, and with your help, he lifts his arms fully to keep them there. 

You pull the shirt off of Lando slowly, revealing his bare chest. You can see his muscles twitch slightly from your touch.

When the shirt is tossed, Lando’s hands rest on your hips again, bringing you closer and pulling you down on top of him. 

He's watching you with half-lidded eyes, a soft smile on his face, and his hands slide up your sides and your back. The feeling is intoxicating, you feel your breath coming quicker and quicker as Lando’s hands make their way up your body.

You kiss him again, hands grasping his shoulders. Your bodies are pressed together and the heat of the moment is too much to resist. You can feel Lando’s hands all over you, caressing your shoulders and neck, and playing with your hair.

He groans as you grind against him, and he lets one of his hands move to the small of your back to pull you closer to him. Lando wants more of you.

Then

Suddenly someone is trying the door handle and there's knocking. You and Lando quickly break away from the kiss. For crying out loud. 

“For fucksa-“ Lando starts but you slap your hand against his mouth. 

“Settle down,” you mouth at him. 

“Hey, are you in there?” You recognize your best friend's voice from the other side of the door. You can feel Lando smiling into your hand. He shakes his head and leans into your shoulder. 

You clear your throat, “Yeah I’m in here!” you answer. You hear Lando chuckle softly but he keeps quiet as he is pressed against your shoulder. 

“Are you alright?” your friend asks from the other side of the door, “I’ve been looking downstairs for yo-”

“Yeah I’m alright” You interrupt. 

“Okay, well….” you hear your friend hesitate for a moment, “...wait. Shut the fuck up.” You hear her familiar laugh. 

“Do you have Lando in there with you?” she asks, her voice sounding louder, she must be closer to the door now. 

This question makes Lando laugh out loud. You hit his chest. He was the one who was saying we had to be 'so quiet' and now he just confirmed his presence.

You can hear your best friend laugh as well on the other side of the door, and you know she won’t stop until she hears you answer the question. 

“Yes, I do," you admit, “Now go away!”

Your best friend laughs even harder outside. “Alright alright. Bye. Bye, Lando. I’ll try to keep your brother away too, you're welcome!” She finishes and you can hear her leave. 

“She knows?” he laughs against your ear, “I thought this whole thing was secret…”

“Shut up. Be happy it was her at the door and not you know who,” you joke. 

Lando grabs your hips and lifts you off of him. In a few swift motions he has you lying on the bed and he’s on top of you. He leans down and kisses up from your collarbone to just under your ear.

“If we get interrupted one more time…,” he trails off into your ear and then pulls away looking at you. His face right above yours. 

You shake your head smiling, you run your hands through his hair looking up at him. 

Lando smiles back at you. You can see the desire in his eyes. 

You can still feel his breath all over you from his kissing just moments earlier. Your skin is sensitive from the heat, from him, and you feel a wave of goosebumps run up your body just from his touch. 

Lando leans forward and the two of you kiss again.

The bass from downstairs vibrates through the floor and drowns out the music, the voices, the party. 

Your head is spinning. This is so wrong. But also it feels sort of right. Whatever was happening between the two of you was going to make your life chaotic. But even so, the same thought keeps running through your head…

Now I just can’t stop myself around you. 

[yourstingrey]

do you think you could write a luke x y/n friends to lovers based on too sweet by hozier? Maybe have it be a little angsty like someone tells him he’s not good enough and so he distances himself. I really love your writing and feel like you would write it beautifully.

Too Sweet Pt.1

Thank you so much for this request I loved this idea its so cutie im so sorry it took so long for me to make but hopefully Ive done it justice this one is a bit short but I kinda reallyyyyy wanted to put it into separate parts (which i swear wont take as long but it will be longer cus i gotta get that juicy angst in better!!!)

Hot.

That's all I felt as I was training, That's all I ever feel when I train with Luke. Not because he’s insanely hot himself but he has to put his all into everything even if I ask for practice with sparing. I'm crouched down a bit less like a fighter's stance as Luke has already got me winded but I try to hold up my tough gaze as he stands in front of me mirroring my stance except he's not tired at all it looks like he has even lifted a finger but this is our third go and unsurprisingly he's won every time so far. “Y/N/N are you sure you don't wanna give up? I'm not sure I can watch your face get all sad when you lose again.” He’s smirking as he talks and for a second he puts his hand on his chest to fain sadness about me. In that split second, I take the opportunity to try to tackle him to the ground. 

He lets out a surprised Oof before he hits the ground I try to grab his hands to pin them down “I'm not so sure Luke I think you be pulling your sore loser face” Of course I didn't learn from Luke as my talking got me too distracted as Luke flips us over and now he's pinning me down into the dirt. He simply smirks and does a little tilt of his head pretty much signaling id lost. He stood before holding out his hand for me to get up which I gladly took from him. “Luke, I asked for practice. I thought you were going to go a little easy… I'm gonna have to sleep early or I'm gonna be so sore.”  Discomfort on my face as I brush the dirt off my shorts and shirt “About that…” Luke says with a certain tone I've learned means ‘I'm gonna try really hard to convince you to do something you're really not gonna wanna do’ “Oh god what is it, Luke…?” A mischievous look spread across his face “Apollo kids are having a small lake party tonight and I was thinking I could take you” I let out a taut laugh before squinting my eyes playfully at him “Weren't you already out partying last night! Chris was telling me all about it!” I watched his face flush a bit as he stood there watching me talk before stammering his words “Wait- when did you see Chris today I wasn't with you??” I narrow my eyes at him a bit “This morning I went on a walk and I ran into him yknow you're not denying it soooo i'm right you did go out…?”

He gets up from leaning against a pillar to come put his arm around my shoulders and start walking out of the arena “Well yes.. But! I wasn't hanging out with my best friend so that's why I'm telling you that you gotta come out this time!” 

“Luke you're always out so much lately don't you think YOU especially should rest, oh so great swordsman!” I clasp my hands to my chest whilst looking up through my lashes at him. He lets out something between a laugh and a scoff “You know that I do this all the time you're the one who always stays cooped inside her cabin almost all day usually!” Our steps absentmindedly got slower as we approached my cabin “I don't know Luke… I promised I was going to hang out with my siblings tomorrow and if I party with you I might forget or sleep in'' He opened his mouth to rebuttal me but I quickly cut him off “And andddd! You know I don't like to drink. I'm too nervous about being caught!” 

We finally got to my cabin but I stood outside because I knew Luke wouldn't be satisfied unless I let him try to convince me one last time. “For one, You see your siblings every day you live with them. Plus I know some of your siblings are coming tonight anyway!” I go to open my mouth ready to shut him down already but before I had the chance Luke swiftly made sure to playfully cover my mouth with his hand before tsking at me and putting his finger to his lips shushing me “Ahem as I was saying YN, I'll be with you the whole time you can rely on me the whole time, just go this once for me and if you hate it I'll never force you to come again!” 

He lowered his hand from his mouth to reveal my lips in an exaggerated frown. He let out a loud laugh before huffing out what sounded like ‘Oh c'mon now’ but it fell on deaf ears as his fingers went to my sides to get me to let out a laugh (well more than just one) I laughed so hard at his relentless tickles hunching myself onto him before we heard the laughs of my sibling behind and Luke turned back into a stoic statue practically I let my laughter die awkwardly as he separated from me. Rocking back and forth on my heels I look back at him “Well okay I guess I'll think about it… but this isn't a yes okay!!” He let out a small chuckle before slowly starting to walk backwards “I’ll see you later tonight” he flipped around completely to start walking away I let out a small laugh turning away to walk to my cabin door before something dawned on me, I flip around and yell back out to him “Wait Luke how will I know where to go!!” He turns back to me putting his hands behind his head with a sort of arrogant smirk on his face 

“Don't worry about it, I am a messenger aren't I?” 

[princelylove]

Hii, Your Highness, i'm really awkward but i really really reallyyyyy want to express my joy for your writting, i swear every word is just chef kiss and i i'm really nervous and writting this kinda fast so i don't get more embarrassed (and because i need to go rn to the hospital) forgive me for my lack of manners and ortography could i pretty please with the cherry ontopask for Diavolo with a darling getting him out of the death loop(? i just love desesperated man hxdbdmch

I love you your highness thanks ad i'msorry for my writting

Hii, sweetheart. Don't fuss. I'll still be here when you're back. Your continued praises can wait until you're fully there, and can focus on the only thing that matters. Me. Get to it once you feel better. ♡

When I went to the hospital a little while ago, I found comfort in the fact that the light in my room was broken. It soothed me. It was the middle of the day (actually, it was barely morning when I first arrived) yet it was hard to see my feet. The only light was from the hall, and the only noises were beeps and other patients complaining. It's nice to be alone, but not.

There's a possibility that 'Giorno' lets Diavolo out of the loops for amusement or because she needs the former don for something Passione related (GER wouldn't allow Giorno to know, but he's weak to "Pretty please?" and "I looove you."). There's also the possibility of a stand that can see into GER's world and can pluck out his victims, but it doesn't really matter how Diavolo gets out, just that he does.

Diavolo is broken after the loops. He's not the same man he was- king of kings, top of the world... it all means nothing. He's just not fully There anymore.

He barely eats, because it's pointless. He doesn't sleep because it's pointless. He doesn't get up and move because it's pointless. He can barely close his jaw or glance at movement in front of him. Giorno finds it amusing to make bugs land on his eyes since he doesn't flinch.

Diavolo thinks it's inevitable- maybe this loop is just longer. Maybe Giovanna is toying with him. He's seen Donatella, Trish, ...poor, sweet Doppio... you. He's been killed by the likeness of everyone he knows, twice. Maybe three times. The little sadist you call the boss is the actual devil, punishing him for what he's done- all of which he did to protect Doppio, and would do again.

To understand Diavolo, you need to understand everything he's been through.

When Diavolo and Doppio were children, the priest they called "Father" would terrorize them. He didn't understand the fact that they were two different people, and would try to exorcise the devil out of sweet, well-behaved Doppio.

Diavolo made sure Doppio wasn't there for it, most of the time. He took on the name 'Diavolo' naturally, as that's the only name he was ever called, even by Doppio- although Doppio was using it in the same way a child would say hello to an animal they didn't know the name of.

Diavolo, naturally, clung to his name and took on the role he needed to. Diavolo hides to keep Doppio safe, Doppio doesn't to keep Diavolo safe.

Giorno Giovanna represents just about everything Diavolo represses. Golden hair, an ethereal power- it's painful. He doesn't want to think about it. He burned that church, that town, that "Father." He thought God was done punishing him for being born, yet here we are, the child of God is punishing him again.

So what if he's sinned. So what if he's 'lesser.' You would do what you needed to do if there was precious life in your hands and it was begging you to protect it from harm.

But Giorno Giovanna knows nothing of precious life. She doesn't know the value, in Diavolo's opinion.

Angels don't know death. Death does not know angels. The devil shouldn't be interacting with this thing. Diavolo can't stand looking at her- ohhh, so pretty, fall into the clasp of saccharine words and promises made from the liquor of lust. What does he care. Choose her. It's just going to end again, again, again, and again.

Diavolo is normally paranoid, but post-death loops, it's much worse. He clings to you, and wants to just keep you in place until it happens. You're a small relief from eternal punishment, when the angel of death is so gracious as to bestow you to him. Just the sight of your face is enough.

When you're here for too long, he slowly checks his and your vitals, and waits for it. If you can pick up or guide his weight, he'll follow you, as long as it's "safe." No hallways, nothing outside. No sharp objects. Nothing outside of his safe room, no bathrooms.... Just right here, or on the floor, or something... just don't stray too far.

He doesn't really talk, but he says what he thinks he needs to. Talking is pointless, his voice is no longer silky and beautiful- now fried and dry, but he does have some things to say.

"I love you, don't move."

[andiwriteordie]

Yooo Lucas + his water ending + bloodbending was so interesting like dang okay. I really enjoyed the ethics of it like yeah it has this whole morally gray area bc it takes away others control but I could Help combat super bad ppl and also help save someone's life but also. Rough.

I also really liked how Jason is not just an evil crazy psycho like. Personally? I loved when Jason was just like. A kinda asshole dude but he was also not That bad like clearly he was just some generic white jock of a bully that would probably grow out of it when he was an adult (and after his girlfriend break ups with him) but he genuinely liked her gf ??? And he just went a little crazy after she was. Yk. Brutally (and super brutally) murdered. I liked the idea of one of the minor "antagonists" to just be some dude who didn't know the truth but kinda jumped to conclusions so he's a pain in their sides but also not. A murderer himself? And then he reallyyyyy went into the deep end with kinda suck so I felt nothing when he died but he could've been so good as a very morally gray character like wow

Anyways. Kinda like how in the atla au he's not a good guy + still a bit assholery but also not the Bad Guy so like yes 👌👏👏

part 1 | part 2

i love love LOVE lucas sinclair, ok? like he's just such a good character, and i also (obviously lmao) love the bloodbending ethics arc that lucas gets to go through as he also reconciles his feelings towards his waterbending being used for healing more so than combat and then bringing in the added layer of bloodbending into it!

JASON YEAH OKAY so jason annoyed me in the show because he took up too much time in my opinion, but i like the concept of him. i like the idea of a character who just doesn't understand and doesn't quite have the full picture, so he makes decisions in the show's canon that are really, really shitty. but also like? lowkey can't blame him for losing his shit after chrissy was murdered. he definitely should not have gone on some holy moral mission and hunted down eddie, but jason always interested me in how he was just a portrayal what the combination of ignorance and grief could do to a person. and then how he's so charismatic and able to rally people together through their fear? TERRIFYING. THE SMALL TOWN/SMALL MINDED KIND OF MENTALITY. SO GOOD.

in stranger things/atla world, i love thinking about where jason fits into lucas's arc after lucas saves max's life with his bloodbending. jason doesn't die in that battle (tbh i'll kill him off eventually, homie doesn't need to stick around), mostly to be a challenger of lucas's moral compass. because now, we have lucas sitting in the aftermath of this battle with the spirits, where max nearly died, and he has learned about the awful things that happened to el and will in their time away from hawkins. and lucas just... wants to cry. he feels awful. he never wants to be put in that situation again, because he's scared. he's scared that he's taken the first step down a slippery slope into something that will make him into a person he doesn't want to be.

it's one day, maybe a week or a couple weeks after the battle, that jason comes into max's hospital room and has a talk with lucas. they don't beat around the bush, and jason states the obvious: that lucas used bloodbending to save max's life. and lucas can't lie. jason was there. he saw it. so lucas just nods.

and that's when jason asks him how it felt—if he felt the power the moon had blessed him with that night. if he could feel the ocean in his veins and in max's veins. if he felt closer to his waterbending and to his healing that he'd ever felt before. and if it felt good.

the answer to all those questions is yes. the answer is yes, and lucas hates it, so he doesn't say anything.

but his silence speaks volumes.

jason begins to tell him that maybe this is a good thing. lucas is a great waterbender, and jason has seen that potential in him for a while now. and jason doesn't believe in all that spiritual mumbo jumbo—especially since the spirits are literally trying to kill all of them—but maybe lucas was given a natural inclination to healing for a reason. it's difficult to bloodbend, after all, but lucas was able to do it with ease—like a natural extension of his healing gift. so maybe, this is a good thing.

and the thing is, lucas has wondered the same thing. he has. he's stared at max's body—unconscious but alive—and has wondered what else he could do with his bending. if he could study this more, if he could learn it, could he save other lives? could he heal? is that even something that he wants? it shouldn't be, right?

and... and sometimes it's not. sometimes it's not, when lucas notices el doesn't use her waterbending as much anymore, the way that she used to shy away from it when they first met. sometimes it's not, when lucas notices that will gets tense around any waterbenders except lucas... because el and will... they don't know what lucas did to save max's life.

there are too many questions for lucas to deal with, so he just doesn't answer jason. and jason gets it, so he tells lucas just to think about it and to let him know.

and so, lucas is just left with all those questions and all those thoughts—none more prominent than one.

if bloodbending can be used to save a life—if he used bloodbending to save max's life—it can't inherently be wrong, can it?

[hotarutranslations]

Kajisak-san!!!!!

Evening

My second appearance on Kajisak Channel-san, Came true

🤯❤️

Thank you very much for this time.. Kajisak Channel-san, which I love, love.. Everyone that watched the previous video, Again, thank you very much All of the kind Kajisak Channel viewers I saw the lots of warm comments Everyone in the Kajisak Family Everyone in Team Kajisak I love the whole thing, and the viewers love it too..❤️

Also, viewing it from the same angle again, I can't believe it after all😭😭😭

I'm reallyyyyy happy about it..

I knew it was going to be released today, I was nervous from around 3:00PM,

I watched yesterdays video again today, Tonbo-san's Hanamaki, Yoshitomi-san's Hate Comments, A Small Room Where 3 Couples Talk About Whats Happened Recently

I spent the day with that line up

Recently, Looking over at Haru-chan.. Its a peaceful world, right..

Oda also said she watched it--🤤🤤

This time, somehow, Everyone in Kajisak Channel that is part of my daily life,

Everyone on the team, Especially at the beginning, with them surrounding me.. Kajisak-san Tonbo-san Yasutake-san Tsune-san Ryuuji-san Yoshitomi-san Kaketa-san were all there🫣 I could see them lined up no matter where I looked,

What is this…?

Thank you very much for the photo Its my wallpaper

(This photo was taken after Tsune-san had left for America⚠️)

At the 6th anniversary that'll be held on October 6th, Lets dance to Renai Revolution 21!

Thank you very much for thinking of me🕺

I gave them the choreography but, This time, did Ishida properly, function as a teacher…

They were saying, cute, cute, right… ← (Thank you very much for the subtitles…)

On the day of the shoot, there were various things unfolding before me, It was entirely fun and unforgettable…

But of course it was not just fun, They really took the practice seriously,

Even saying, "break!!" Everyone would return to the practice immidiately, Even though they practiced so much on camera, They were practicing the whole time off camera Thank you very much…🕺

Saying it was unforgettable, I can't forget the thins to reflect on😕😕

Awawaa, there are various things but…😕😕

With the topic of Tsune-san's right and left elbow.. If I had done it in a snappy way instead..

With Kajisak-san, When he asked me about a reward, nothing came out..

Uu…😕😕

But thats right, this time, Ishida, is watching the video properly this time! I feel gross but I'm doing my best to watch it

(Its so much fun that it would've been rude to not watch it)

Really, thank you very much, To everyone on the team that made it fun, and for editing it wonderfully!!!

There was also a talk about things I don't know in the opening too, I was happy about that, thank you very much Yoshitomi-san ☺️💛fufu

More than anything, I'm wishing for the success of the 6th anniversary event

At the venue that day, Live viewing, or streaming,

Renai Revolution 21 will flow through❤️

Look forward~~

The actual day is close, I want to go to Makuhari Messe I'll definitely go😕😕

As a fan towards the performance, I'm looking forward and will support them

Everyone, please dance with a smile!!!

I also mentioned my graduation in the video, Since with this timing,

Its like its part of the graduation fever,

I'm happy about it, Thank you very much❤️💙

Everyone! Watch the video! A lot ok!

Thank you very much for the ceremonial pitch, at Rakuten Mobile Park Miyagi⚾️

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I danced a lot on my own..

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[samswinchesters]

✨ let's play 10 Qs for GK! 🎆

1- fave character besides harvey/twoface? 2- fave harvey/twoface scene? 3- fave dynamic between 2 characters? 4- best character development? 5- most memorable line? 6- fave plot twist? 7- what did you think of twoface? 8- something you loved about the creation/design? 9- anything you would change about the season 1 plot or characters? 10- what did you think of the season 2 setup?

💌 thanks for sharing the love! #GothamKnights 🦇💋

SLAYYYYY i love quesitons about htingsss this is how i look rn answeirng these btw 👇🏽

in addition to harvey/two face (because he really was showstopper sawwy to the knights), but i reallyyyyy adore duela. not only was she hilarious, her character arc/development throughout the show was great. always enjoyed whenever she was on screen i was like omfgggg my bestie !!

where do i even begin......the one that sticks out in my little brain of mine is when harvey overdoses on his anxiety meds and meets face to face with harv/fugue!harvey. that was absolutely incredible and i replay that scene in my head like a rotisserie chicken bc those writers put their whole pussy into it

at first i was going to say duela and carrie because their dynamic was soooo much fun but after 1x13, harvey and duela pulled my heartstrings like damnnnnnn i did ackshully tear up at that monologue naurrr don't let my mutuals know that. honorable mention are the row siblings because WAHHHHHHH 🥺😭 they mean so much to me

i mentioned duela's development in my first answer and i am not very eloquent with words if we're being honest but the way that she gained a sense of purpose and wanting to actually help gotham through all the trials and tribulations that were thrown at her...really wish we got to see more of that

it's a toss up between "big dent energy" and "guess who rode of the bat wang" .....honestly anything that comes out of duela's mouth is funny as hell who let her be that way

hmmmmmmmmmmm my fave was def harvey being duela's dad. did i call it from a mile away? yes, but it was absolutely satisfying to be right. i actually cheered out loud and punched the air MWAHHH

gosh, when we finally got to see his whole entire face, that shit was absolutely terrifying in a good way. interesting way of how rebecca was the one to toss that acid on his face. sadly, as much as it was all scrumdillyumptious, two face had like a total of three minutes of screentime and we will more than likely never see him again....does anyone have james gunn's number i need to ask him for a favor,

im not following any of the cast and crew of gk pero i have seen some of their tweets and the level of dedication these people put into the show....anyways, everything was so well thought out,,,i nominate the bat cave that shit was really cool. loved the water concept since it wasn't done before in the dc universe

LOL ermmmm, *scratches neck* is this thing on.....NOT to be mean or anything but i wish there was more action. as much as i luv the pauses for breath, i also luvvv ffight sequences. also a part of me thinks the show dragged a little. i know it was only 13 episodes but 18 would've been better. and though i loved the funny bits, sometimes i wish the show took itself seriously. they tried to target to gen z but mannn, at times i had to kinda duck my head bc it was embarrassing and i'm not even gen z. idkk i cant be too harsh on the show bc they did what they could and i enjoyed it overall!!

where is the s2 blueprint ik they're sitting somewhere in the producers' houses....but yeah, i actually liked how gotham knights ended! it works well ffor a mini series. the ambiguity of it all is ripe with possibilities for the fans to gnaw on. turner being trained to become the next batman, the gotham knights putting their boots back on to save the city thinking turner is gone for good, harvey allowing harv to take over with the potential of becoming a major problem....tag me in any stories you write, you guys 👍🏽❤

[cookiewrites]

ok so hear me out, imagine that hyunjin just found out what are facesitting and facefucking and he REALLY REALLY REALLYYYYY want to try but he's kinda shy to ask, so he draw/paint the scene and then u just found his works of art by mistake, so why not realize his wishes??? i bet he will be soooo hungry for eat you out and soooo wild while fucking your mouth omv

okay so where as i have pretty strong opinions about which boys are doms or subs or switches, all i can see with hyunjin is someone who's desperate. he doesn't care who is in control, or if anyone is even in control, he's just desperate to touch you and be touched.

so like this, anon, fucking perfect. like of course, you'd gone down on each other before but he didn't think about it like that and minho is definitely the one who gave him the porn rec featuring this for the first time bc minho definitely casually sends porn to the rest of the guys but that's for another time

art in motion

wc: 1.3k oof, that wasn't the plan

cw: sub!hyunjin x afab soft dom!reader, oral (both receiving and giving), cum play, praise kink, pet names for hyunjin (jinnie, baby, pretty boy), little bit of overstimulation, not a warning but hyunjin is loud af

holding the sketchbook in your hands you smirk, not shocked a little at how dirty your boyfriend's art has become. the pages littered with sketches of various poses, far more intense than anything you and him had done in your relationship as of yet; and you were determined to change that soon, now that you knew exactly what he wants.

soon enough your boyfriend and you were making out, messy as always, as his hand starts to slip beneath your underwear, exploring your wetness in desperation to feel you. soon he's whining into your mouth, allowing you to pull away and begin your plan to act out all that's he's been dreaming about.

'hyunjinnie...baby'

you coo, your hand reaching out to run through his hair, lightly pulling it back to get a better look at his flushed pink face, his already perfect lips wet with spit and swollen. god, he was so pretty all the time.

'p-please, wanna touch you'

'i have a better idea, pretty boy, why don't you taste me?'

and the pitiful whine that leaves him makes you gush, a new wave of wetness leaving you as he starts to repeat small whispered pleas, attempting to push you to lie down to assume your usual position and that's when you stop him.

'no, baby, why don't you lie down? yeah? let me use that pretty face of yours?'

'fuck, okay, yes, fuck'

he replies as he moves to lie back, placing his head on the pillows and closing his eyes, just for a moment, trying to collect himself. this was almost all he had dreamt about for days and it was happening and if he didn't calm down he was going to cum before you did.

removing the last of your clothes, you take a second before crawling up the bed to sit on his chest, kissing him one last time before continuing your way up until you hovered your wet core above his lips. here you freeze for a second before you hear your boyfriend speak again.

'please y/n, please, use me, sit on me, p-please'

so you do, sitting down, your full weight pushing your core against him and he immediately moans, loud, the vibrations moving throughout you; making you moan in turn. a moan that gets louder and his tongue begins to explore; mixing between small teasing licks on your clit, and fucking his wet muscle in and out of you, making the mess between your legs worse. smearing it all over his face, and fuck he loves it.

and you had no excuse to doubt him, his loud enjoyment muffled by your tightening thighs, his large hands grabbing an ass cheek each as he pushes you down further - as if your whole weight on his face wasn't enough. the grabbing and pushing of his fingers alongside his tongue tasting you, and his nose teasing your clit all becoming too much and yet not quite enough.

so you began moving your hips, truly using him, and he immediately reacts, digging his nails into you and moaning even louder than before. you rocking against his face, rhythmically grinding to your release. and it came far quicker than expected, not realising how much his blatant desire was affecting you. it all just felt so good, it was amazing to be so wanted.

'g-gonna cum on your f-face pr-pretty boy-y, okay?'

you think you feel a nod but honestly, it's a little too late as you feel yourself release all over him. and fuck it felt good. really good. so good you, somewhere in the fuzz in your brain you question why you had never tried to do this before, as well as already planning to do it again.

as the last waves trickle through, you realise that you were probably crushing him. as you try to move away, your thighs shaking, trying to support your weight, hyunjin whines;

'i w-wasn't done, wait, please'

so you sit back down, letting him overstimulate you slightly as he swallows your cum, letting his tongue clean you up with big flat licks, humming at the taste of you. after a while his hands release from you behind, and you realise there will be a variety of bruises left there after tonight. but returning your thoughts to the present, he lets you move, and you straddle his chest, allowing you to see just how beautiful hyunjin was now.

his pupils blown, his face visibly wet, his lips red and puffy, and there is this dumb, spaced-out smile on his face. and before you can lean in to kiss him he speaks again;

'thank you, thank y-you y/n, th-thank you for using meee'

and that is what makes you even more certain about what you want to do next.

'you're so welcome baby'

'you did so good, you gonna let me reward you? reward my pretty boy?'

'a-all y-yours y/n'

'your turn, pretty boy, time to use my mouth.'

he gasps, the wide-eyed look on his face followed by some furious nodding, and him quickly following you as you moved onto the floor, knees connecting with the carpet. pulling himself out of his boxers, which are damp with precum, ruined after him waiting so long to be touched.

'fuck my face, jinnie, please, make me a mess pretty boy'

and with that he pushes his tip between your lips, which you easily open, welcoming his length into your mouth. rolling your tongue around the tip, it tastes salty and perfect and like hyunjin. it was addicting, the flavour of him.

slowly he eased his length further down your throat, as you hollow out your cheeks, doing all you can to take his whole length. and you do, somehow your nose buries itself in his public hair as he settles there for a moment, letting you adjust before pulling all the way back out so it's just the tip in between your lips again.

'you sure, baby?'

instead of pulling off and answering him verbally, you look up at him between your lashes, eyes already glassy and you nod as best you can, sucking on his head which makes him moan. his hand finds its way into your hair as he pushes back in, all the way, and pulls out again. starting a slow pace that steadily increases.

you see, hyunjin is always desperate, he's never been any good at delaying his own pleasure - which is why he always focuses on yours; making you cum once, twice, three times before even thinking about himself because he could cum from just being inside you most of the time. originally he was embarrassed about it, but you always remind him how much you adore his neediness.

soon enough his neediness takes over, roughly fucking himself in and out of your mouth. it had never occurred to him to use your mouth like this and he was so so grateful he was introduced to the concept because the feeling of your throat tightening around him as he went faster was addicting. the wet hole of your mouth similar yet distinctly different to that of your pussy, and he doesn't think he'll ever be able to pick between them but this right now, fuck, was everything he'd dreamt about - waking up next to you with ruined boxers he'd change in secret before you woke up.

's-so g-good f-for your p-pretty boy-y, y/n'

'y...you look so p-p-pretty'

't-thank you, thank you t-tha...'

and with this gratitude on display he pulls out and cums all over your face, this hiccuped 'thank you's suddenly turning into blind praise and your messed up appearance.

'f-fuck s-so beautiful'

'p-pretty... pretty-y'

you choose to push this a step further, reaching a hand up to collect someone of his cum on a finger and place it into your mouth. closing your eyes and sucking it all over, humming as you do, before pulling it out - showing him how clean it is.

'almost as pretty as you, baby'

[hella1975]

how do you think taob zuko/swt would react if ursa ever came back? I've only been briefed on the promise comics but they kind of... disgusted me???? Maybe the siblings and her do reconcile in a healthy way that I just missed but it felt like the story immediately forgave her just because zuko missed his mom... like don't get me wrong she had IMMENSE trauma but... I just don't think she should've come back into zuko and azula's life, ESPECIALLY with how shittily treated azula was and her little sister replacement "kiyi".....

(In my mind Ursa just doesn't come back, and I think it'd be a lot more healing for BOTH fire siblings to learn to move on, instead of being dragged right back to the woman who (not intentionally, which is....worse) caused them a lot of trauma. They deserve a fam like the SWT, and a knife wielding menace brother like Zi Se <3)

i completely totally agree with everything you said here. like i've talked briefly before about my stance on ursa and it ultimately comes to 'she is a very complicated woman who as a parent can't be simplified to just being 'good' or 'bad' as she did things that fall into both categories', but if we're talking about ursa as a figure in zuko and azula's lives as opposed to just ursa as a person? yeah i reallyyyyy think re-introducing her was yet another shortfall of the comics. like this woman was the only point of love zuko has from his childhood. she protected him when no one else did and she was a good parent to him while she was there and she did her best. of course there's fondness there, of course he wants to find her the first chance he gets if only to get some answers. but ursa's treatment of azula? ursa leaving zuko and azula behind with ozai knowing full well what that would mean for them? she saved herself, and since she was a woman in an abusive relationship, i can't begrudge her that, but she isn't getting any mothering awards for it. and if atla just left it at that, id honestly be happy with it. it's another layer of depth to that family's story and it makes ursa more of a tragic figure, but letting her back into the plot once ozai is out of the way? like she refused to suffer him herself and was happy to let her kids do it, returning to her life when the threat was out of the way? fucking off to start again somewhere else knowing full well her children were suffering directly because of her absence? actively choosing to FORGET THEM because she didn't want to suffer through that thought? like ursa didn't just abandon zuko and azula, she abandoned all possible pain and simply left them to fend for themselves. she didn't even have it in her to remember them. it's literally like she looked at that family and went 'well this didn't work out. im going to completely wash my hands of them and start again' and that's exactly what she did. re-introducing her to zuko and azula's lives does nothing for them. there's the closure of at least knowing what happened to ursa, but that's about it. i genuinely think knowing the extent of ursa's abandonment would make zuko and azula's trauma that much worse. without her return to the plot, ursa is this figure of brightness in zuko's life, a woman who used her final moments in the palace to save him and was forced to leave by a man zuko knows is The Bad Guy. it's simple. ursa is good, ozai is bad. it's so simple. ursa returning robs zuko of that simplicity, makes him realise that maybe NEITHER of his parents were good. and azula; ursa wasn't even good to her when she WAS home. azula already thinks her mother didn't love her, and to find out she didn't even love her enough to remember her? that she went off to have another daughter that she very obviously does love? it's salt in a wound and it's gratuitous and i just think at best it overcomplicates an already complicated situation, at worst it makes everything much more painful

[shu-sakamaki]

IM BACK 😃😃😃😃😃

I know that its the time when people are graduating or having their finals so good luck to everyone, congrats to everyone who got graduated and/or had great results and for the ones who failed this year, it's okay you can always do it again next year, you got this ! Also, happy pride month to all the beautiful people, this is our month, time to celebrate !!! ❤🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️

I wanted to share some body headcanons about Shuu because rejet didn't draw him nipples (immad) and admin is queen so headcanons, periodpurr 💅💅

- Shuu is beautiful we all know that and his beauty is INTIMIDATING, when he walk in the room people can't stop to stare at him because of how magnificent he is, even strangers and it's actually kinda annoying going somewhere with him and everyone is just staring at your man with their jaws on the floor.

- He really has the most gentle face ever created, his skin look really soft and dewy (and it's probably soft) he truly looks like an angel who try to hide between the mortals, sir look like he's about to give you a blessing (ah, the irony)

- I want to dwell on his eyes, so here we go. Shuu has the prettiest eyes of the family (dis ma opinion) not only he have a nice azure color who reminds people of a nice blue sky in summer or a blue topaz but his eye shape is so pretty, like really large almond shaped eyes, surrounded by a halo of thick and long blonde lashes and his eyes are luminous, he have the Komorebi Effect (Japanese expression meaning " for the sunlight as it filters through the trees" I see you mister light-catcher).

- He have a straight nose and it's the feature that stands out the less when he's in front of you but the most when you look at his profile , he may have a slight bump on his nose and it's a little pointier on the end(European nose coming thruuu) you just want to *boop* (I also headcanon him as doing a really cute nose scrunch when he's disguted or uncomfy but it's for another day)

- Moving on to his lips, his lips are not the biggest but they're not thin either and I imagine him with his lower lip being bigger and more pigmented while his top lip is longer and thinner. Also his lips are more of a purple/dark red-ish than pink because he's cold and unalive but there is still a tint of light color on the middle of his mouth. He have a deep cupid bow and the sides of his top lip are upturned which participate in giving him this cat-like and seductive look on his face. (And the smirk omg)

- the JAWLINE, he definitely have a chiseled "S" jawline (like the rest of his brothers lol) and you just want to *nom nom* on it especially when he walks and his *bouncy* hair is slowly touching the top of his jaw

- His Adam's apple is reallyyyyy prominent, just don't stare too much when he's swallowing something or he's gonna see you and bully you for the rest of your existence

-Big ass shoulder™️, they are really wide and muscular, he can probably carry a country on those, who knows and VISIBLE collarbones !!!! AND if he played violin consistently for a long time when he was young, that could also explain his wide shoulders.

- HE HAVE BACK DIMPLES. His back and torso are also muscular as hell but the thing is that Shuu is on the skinnier side and because he wears large clothes so you don't really expect him to be ripped (he is me saw), he possess really fine muscles (but don't make him angry he can crack skulls 😟). And it's pretty canon that Shuu is muscular because his mother made him train for years so he must probably know how to handle swords, bows and a whole bunch of weapons. ( and he got pink nipples don't fight me)

- Him and Reiji have thin waistline (thanks to Beatrix) but Shuu's is smaller because I headcanons him as slightly skinnier than Reiji (he's still stronger tho), so Shuu have slights and a lil bit noticeable indent in each side of his lil waist (perfect for someone's arms)

- We ain't calling him Daddy Long Legs for nun' he's like 80% legs and they are long and skinny but not so thin that it's disproportionate to his upper body his thighs and calves are also toned (and nice to look at) and he have the hollow along the length of his calves when your tense your muscles. His buttcheeks 🤌🤌🤌, firm, soft, finger-licking good and they bounce when you slap them. (Don't slap it unless he loves you and you know him really well the last bride who tried haven't been found yet)

(Now I ain't gon' talk about the little man between his thighs because yall need to discover it I'm not "unpacking" that yet 🤣)

I am done, have a great day everyone (or a good night) wish you all the best mwah

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((SEE! SEE!!! YOU GET IT!!!!! ALSO!!!!!!!!! Your comments are also what make these 500% times BETTER. I laughed at the bride one but also felt sorry for her! IS UNFAIR THE BOY HAS SUCH A SLAPABLE ASS AND WE ARE ALLOWED TO IT! HAHAHA!))

((I LOVE IT! I LOVE IT!

[*putting red lipstick cause of my Lips color comments*]

((BAHAHA POOR SHU))

Don't "Poor Shu" me now...

[*clean the excessive color off*] [*kissu kissu to spread the color*]

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[*happy*]

[sapphosvioletts]

✨vent time once again✨ sorry, my blog has literally just turned into a place for me to vent. i just don't really have anywhere else to talk about this stuff where i feel like i actually get it out and am at least heard by the universe or whatever lol like i usually just write everything in my notes app but sometimes i just dont feel really heard i guess it makes no sense i know shdjsks

and im also open to any advice here as well, part of the reason i'm posting this too

but why does everything in life always have to be so hard and confusing

i know i need therapy, like i really do but have pushed off even asking for a therapist for a long time. i'm finally at the point of getting more okay with it and even making a plan to ask and go to therapy. but i realized that the only reason i'm going, is because someone who is very very important to me is telling me to go. and one of the (many) issues that i probably need therapy for is to stop relying on other people. everything i do, i do for the people i love and trust. like the only way i have the motivation to do schoolwork is because of them, the only times i really eat are when they tell me to, i only try and have motivation to dance because i want them to see and be proud of me, literally everything i do is for others, and i rely too much on others. and i recently realized that i need to stop doing things because of others and do them for myself. but if i go to therapy, im not doing it because of me, im doing it because someone i care about wants me to. i want to get help and be better for them, as well as other people in my life so i'm not a burden, not really for myself. like yeah being able to solve some of these issues would be fucking amazing for me, but that's ultimately not the deciding factor of actually going or not, if that makes sense. so i don't know what to do now im just so split. and like therapy is therapy, whatever gets me to go is good i guess. but now i'm worried that when i go i'm just going to do whatever i need to please the therapist, because i was never really there for myself in the first place

and also another issue i really reallyyyyy need help with, are my attachment issues. i get attached to people, sometimes unhealthily so. it's terrible, it makes it so, so much worse when that person leaves, and its just unhealthy i guess. and i'm worried i'll get emotionally attached to the therapist. like i'll just be moving my attachment from one person to the next. and then because i'll be so attached to them that i won't be honest because i know they'll be disappointed in me. like anything i do that i know isn't what they want, im not going to tell them about it for fear of them being disappointed in me, losing them, getting mad, and really just putting it out there that i did something they don't approve of. so i just don't even know what to do anymore. i know i need therapy, but i don't know if it's going to even work for me, because i feel like i'm just going to ruin it. and i hate to give the person/people that i'm going for false hope that i'm getting better just because i'm getting therapy, and in reality it's not even doing anything for me. and then i'll have to tell them it's not working, and they'll all realize that i'm way beyond help if even a professional can't help me and then give up on me and leave too

well sorry for the rant as you can probably tell life has not been my friend recently lmao i wish i could get this blog back to normal for all of you, i feel really bad for it. but right now i'm really just trying to make it through the day, and even that is barely happening. but i'm trying to get back to this blog for all of you 💗 if you have any advice about therapy or something from your experience that seems similar to mine let me know! i probably won't be answering my asks for a bit just cause i really don't have the mental energy, but it's still really really appreciated right now <3

[mipadremadara]

if you don't mind me asking a lot about the fic thing, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 7, 8 and 9 (LMAO. all the list😂😂😂) for "Summer Nights"?? I REALLY NEED TO CAUGHT UP!!!! (You obviously can answer telling things about chapters I haven't read, btw, it's okay, haha). And if it's too much, you can answer just a few, hahaha. I'm just really curious because I reallyyyyy love the fic. ILY💖💖

Ahh thank you so much for this ask!!! Every time I get an ask from you my face immediately lights up ahaha. I'm so glad you like the fic??? Ahhhh! Ily too!! I hope you're having a nice day/night! I’ll only do Chapter 1 and 2 for now as to not spoil much! (I’m not sure which chapter you finished on haha.)

1: What inspired you to write the fic this way?

I really really really like stories that just flow. That literally drift. I have no idea how to describe it, but I also love poetry and I thought by kind of incorporating that and a sort of movie vibe to it it'd capture people's hearts the way it haunts mine at night hahaha. 

 2: What scene did you first put down?

It must be the scene where Naruto is sitting outside the porch and looking at the night sky. The title is Summer Nights, after all! It's supposed to hint at the fact that Naruto and Sasuke share the most tender moments at night.

3: What’s your favorite line of narration?

There's so many that I like tbh!! But here are some of my favorite ones without spoiling too much!!

Chapter 1:

The man knew Sasuke would get rid of every photographic memory of his past and there would be no remaining snapshots of his lifetime left. Behind the everyday smiles and poking around the playgrounds, fairgrounds, Sasuke never dwelled on the topics that resurfaced even the slightest of human, perhaps weak emotions. And so was the shameless irony, pouring out, like vomit. 

I wanted to capture the sense of lingering trauma that still haunts Sasuke everyday. No matter how life seemed to come to a halt, or how things seemed to finally settle down, the pain will always prevail. And in a way, Naruto is the same, even if he masks it well. I feel like this was never truly explained so I wanted to show that they are still hurting; the wounds that were meant to heal only left bitter scars in the end.  

Writing from Sasuke’s POV is always very emotion-centered. I’d imagine Sasuke, as shown in the fic, is a little more open, especially around Naruto. He let his walls down, although not by choice. He had to prove to Konoha he changed, but around Naruto, he can truly be himself.

The Uchiha was all tall, strong arms and long fingers. He fondled them for a passing minute, pressing the raven’s palms against his own. After the War, they grew quite intimate, and really, everyone talked about it. He always looked forward to touching Sasuke, even if it was small, feathery nudges - like holding hands or giving each other small hugs. It reminded him how truly privileged he was to be around him. He savoured those bosom jiffies, and that night was no different.

I really like the fact that their relationship isn’t driven by lust, but more so an understanding. There’s a mutual connection here; two boys going through absolute Hell and finally close to settling down after a rough battle against the odds. No one knows Sasuke the way Naruto does and vice versa, I think it’s quite beautiful actually! Sasuke allowing himself to become intimate again by taking these baby steps, such as touching hands and small hugs, it’s very healing for the both of them! 

They stood still in that bleached moment. The love, the joy; it was burning passionately, bringing nothing but bloom to the cheek; showing no reruns. The smile, he considered a gift.

I just really love this bit. Reading it always makes me so soft haha. I think it sums up their whole relationship perfectly. 

Chapter 2:

Sakura made him feel like an utter imbecile. Like a love-struck damsel in distress.

Here, what Sakura really sees isn’t Naruto, but herself. She knows what it’s like to chase after Sasuke, and as much as she loves the two of them, she doesn’t want Naruto to get hurt. I just think this line was really cool haha. 

People often told Sasuke how he blended into the background while Naruto stood out from the crowd when they were together. Maybe that was why everyone deemed him worthy of being the next in line. They were polar opposites; like warm and cold. Fire and water. They just didn't fit. Supposed everyone told them similar scenarios, but they did not care much about the public and its predetermined ideas of what was right and what wasn't. It was arguably, the most bizarre finger-pointing he had the displeasure of witnessing. But he guessed Naruto loved the attention.

I really like this line, and not just because of the imagery used here, but because it shows how others see Naruto and Sasuke’s relationship. And also, that short dismissive ending paragraph I found to be super effective. 

The other girl, Hinata, made an attempt to lean forward to catch Naruto’s gaze. It was what made everyone lean towards her, too, no less in a charming way that she perhaps knowingly radiated. It caused Ino to take a step back, and Sasuke must’ve stood there for a few moments, listening to the soft mumbling of her lips. They began to ask Naruto questions in low, hushed, thrilling voices as if not to let Sasuke know any of it. He knew the girl had lost her brother during the War (at which he had expressed his deepest sympathy), but he couldn’t shake off the feeling that maybe Naruto was being deceived by her shy persona.

I loved describing Hinata, but not for the reasons you might think. No one aside from Naruto has been described in such detail, but Hinata. It’s to show that Sasuke, since it’s from his POV, considers her to be a competition. He knows she knows that she can easily woo people to do her bidding, and considering her status, Naruto would certainly be charmed. 

Hinata’s own voice held a timid passion behind it; a pleasant, mellow tenor that was very subtle, especially in the way her every uttered word suggested something greater than her face might have unveiled. Her face - on the other hand - was lovely. Caring eyes and a caring mouth conveying nothing but a feeling of fresh honey and lavender. Her hands looked smooth to the touch when she grazed them against Naruto’s rather tacky ones; as if she had never worked a day in her life. He could tell Naruto enjoyed looking at her.

Again, Sasuke knows this persona that Hinata created was quite deceiving and had Naruto wrapped around her finger. That is what he thinks, and as usual, assumes things because Naruto and Hinata are close. I also really like her description here, it radiates such soft vibes haha. 

He marveled in the way his laugh carried throughout the day, forcing even the biggest assholes in the universe to crack a smile.

I really like this line because Sasuke is talking about himself here; that Naruto is always successful at making him smile. 

The attachment to the outside world and the growth of his dubious mind was what made Sasuke overthink certain situations. The way it tangled, twisted, and knotted. He wanted to fondle Naruto's hands, listen to his heartbeat as his eyes grew heavy.

Agape; the sign of unconditional love. For his one and only.

I mean? These lines absolutely slap I think haha. 

4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue?

I didn’t want to add too many so I just included a couple!

Chapter 1:

“You know, if you continue to frown like that, you’ll have lots of wrinkles in the future.”

I just love Sasuke’s attempt at comforting Naruto haha. 

Chapter 2:

“Don’t piss in my ear and tell me it’s raining, Sasuke.”

I just,, love this line so much. It always cracks me up hahaha. And of course, it’s Kakashi’s line. 

5: What part was hardest to write? 

Honestly? Probably the scene where they spar in the third chapter, as well as Gaara and Naruto's reunion! I loved writing it, but having to balance so much dialogue and narration was challenging.

6: What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics?

What makes it special, well, it's my first fanfic! I tried writing one for so long, about 4 years! And being able to finally write something and share it with others feels amazing and so relieving after so long. 

 7: Where did the title come from?

The title came from this song called Summer Nights by Siames! I think it suits Naruto and Sasuke perfectly! It's such a nice song, it always makes me cry when I listen to it haha.

8: Did any real people or events inspire any part of it?

Many, if not all interactions are based on me and my girlfriend's conversations! There are so many and she always points it out to me after reading the newest chapter.

9: Were there any alternate versions of this fic?

There was, actually! At first I wanted to write an AU canonverse version of the Akatsuki, where Naruto is exiled from the village and reunites with Sasuke. Because in this house we love evil Naruto and Kurama. But then I wanted to write something soft, something tender yknow? 

Again, thank you so much for asking!!! <3