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Dandys world hc becuz im too lazy to draw rn + haven't done these in a long time
- Astro has a tower stock of blankets, all of the same design but different fabric material. Don't ask him why, he just does
- Dandy is love starved as fuck after Gardenview's closure, he's used to getting all the attention and love so being revoked of all of it suddenly is not something he's used to and probably never will. It's why to me; he holds onto any sorts of friendliness and bonds from the other toons to keep himself sane
- Sprout can crochet, he learned it when his toon handler made his signature scarf. So whenever Sprout feels pretty nostalgic, he crochets. He doesn't really show his pieces to most toons though
- Boxten can straight up remove his key, specifically when he needs to sleep. He unintentionally scares his friends whenever he does this out in the open
- Finn sometimes rant about marine life, especially towards Shrimpo, idk why I just like to think Finn would rant about sea life at random ahh times
- I like the thought of the holiday toons being kept on the floor of their theme (aka; the christmas toons are sheltered on the christmas floor) rather then being in a dark basement or cell, not only do they have more room to run around but they feel at least more at home
- Looey is ace/aro to me and you can't change my fucking mind
- Toodles got her dog plush from Poppy
- Shelly has a lot of historical books in her room, from dinosaur to non-dinosaur related books and LOVES ranting about it to anyone who's willing to listen
- Connie likes eavesdropping on conversations, before and after gardenview's closure
- I like to think that toons would look up at the glass ceiling in the lobby a lot after gardenview's closure, specifically when it is morning
- Dandy still has all the gifts and letters he got from both his toon friends and the children, he wants to hold onto the happy memories
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No. 27 | "Don't cry, I hate it when you cry." PG6
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After yet another long day of work, you walk back through your apartment door and put your bag and coat on the hanger, tiredly wandering into the dining room and rubbing your eyes. You get the fright of your life, your boyfriend sitting at the table with a giant grin. After you calm down from the scare, you laugh slightly.
âDios mĂo, Pablo. Some warning wouldâve been nice.â He stands up and comes towards you, wrapping his arms around your waist.
âLo siento (iâm sorry), I wanted to surprise you.â âWell, you definitely nailed the âsurpriseâ bit.â you chuckle, laying your head on his chest. âI cooked for you. Your favourite.â Your eyebrows raise in surprise. âReally? Why?â âWhy not?â he shrugs, âYouâre my girlfriend, I love you, I wasnât busy, and I assumed you wouldâve had a long day, so I did something nice.â You smile slightly, âOf course you did. Youâre too good to me.â âJust as good as you deserve. Now, sit.â he pulls out your chair for you and more or less forces you down into it.
A plate of (your favourite food) is put in front of you, and you grin up at Pablo. âGracias, mi alma (thank you, my soul).â âDe nada (youâre welcome).â âSo how was training today?â you ask, looking at him as you both begin to eat. âGood, I think weâll play well in the game on Wednesday. Speaking of, are you gonna be able to come?â âI wish, and I hope so, but Iâd have to ask my boss to finish an hour early. And when sheâs the one approving it, thereâs a very small chance itâll actually happen. But if I canât be there in person, Iâll be secretly checking the score on my phone under my desk.â you smile weakly, you really are sick of your nightmare of a boss. Pablo frowns. âHow come everyone elseâs leave always gets approved, but never yours? How come she always gives you more work than everyone else? Does she not like you or something?â You sigh and shrug, âHonestly, your guess is as good as mine. It sure seems like she doesnât like me, but I have no idea why. I donât think Iâve ever done anything wrong or made a mistake around her.â Pabloâs frown only grows. âI donât understand why you even still work there, why canât you just find another job? Hell, why canât you just quit? Iâve told you before, I make more money than I know what to do with, it would literally be no problem if you stopped working, let me support you, and moved into my apartment with me.â
âBecause Iâd feel bad.â âWell, thatâs stupid. Why?â âJust because. You donât need to be paying for all my shit on top of all yours.â Pablo rolls his eyes. âYou aren't a particularly expensive person, Y/N. You rarely even let me buy you anything. You insist on paying for your portion of meals and always buy me far too much for Christmas and my birthday, etc.â âYes, because Iâm your girlfriend, not your financial burden.â âSpoiling the love of my life every once and a while is hardly a âfinancial burden.â Youâre being ridiculous.â âI donât want to argue with you, long story short, the answer is no. Itâs just one annoying boss, nothing I canât handle. And Iâm fine with working.â Pablo scoffs and the room is silent for a few moments. âLook, I only suggest it because I love you, okay? I want you to just be able to come to my games, home or away, and not have to know about it 2 weeks before so you can apply for leave, only for it to be denied by that demon of a boss you have. I hate that youâre always exhausted on all our dates because youâve had a long week, that you fall asleep so early that we never have time to do anything⊠fun⊠at night anymore. I just want you to be free and happy. Por favor? Para mi? (please? for me?)â
You look at him for a moment before looking down at your plate again. âIâll think about it.â
Pablo grinned again, he knew that was more a less an âOkay, fine, you win.â
âGracias. Te amo, mi vida (thanks. i love you, my life).â
Later that night, you guys were cuddled up on your couch, Pablo was watching the movie that was on the TV screen, and you were on your phone. Finally, he looked down. âWhat are you doing?â he asks curiously. You look up at him and grin. âSending in my resignation notice.â His eyes go wide and he sits upright, âYouâre kidding.â âNope.â âOh my god!â he breaks out into yet another grin, pulling you into a proper hug. âThank you, thank you so much,â he whispers into the skin of your neck. âWhy are you thanking me? It should be the other way around, youâre the one whoâs basically retiring me early.â you smile, and Pablo chuckles lightly. Eventually, Pablo calms down from his excitement a little and watches over your shoulder as you finish typing out the email. âI canât believe Iâm seriously about to do this.â you say quietly, your finger hovering over the âSendâ button. âNeither, but I promise, you wonât regret it.â he presses his lips to the top of your head. A few moments go by, and you still donât press the button. âAre you gonna send it, or what?â âPablo, Iâm scared,â you whisper, looking up at him, and he can see the worry and uncertainty in your eyes. His expression and tone soften, âWhy?â âI donât know⊠I just am.â âYou donât have to do this right now, you know?â âI know, but I want to.â âThen send it.â âI canât.â âWell, thatâs kinda stupid.â You thrust the phone into his hand. âYou do it.â âYouâre sure?â You nod. Pablo hits send, and just like that, youâve quit your job. You stare at the âSentâ message for a moment before bursting into tears, burying your face into Pabloâs chest. He shushes you gently, rubbing your back and repeatedly kissing the top of your head, before eventually pulling your head away so he can look into your eyes. âDonât cry, I hate it when you cry. Whatâs wrong?â he asks gently. âI- Iâm just so happy. Thank you, Pablo. Thank you so much for this opportunity.â you sniff, speaking shakily through the tears. âAnything for you, mi niña preciosa (my precious girl).â he murmurs.
âI love you.â âI love you too, mĂĄs que nada (more than anything).â
#pablo gavi#gavi#pablo gavi fic#gavi fic#obvithebestsoph!gavi#pablo gavi x reader#gavi x reader#fc barcelona#fanfiction#football#football fic#culer#PG6
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Hola, Indie! Espero que estĂ©s bien âșïž. Tengo una pregunta: cuĂĄnto tiempo te toma hacer los comics que responden las preguntas de tus fans y los "cortos" (como el que Leo fue envenenado por el beso de Karai, y el de Rapha buscando regalos de Navidad con Casey)?
Lo menciono porque hace un mes o dos puse preguntas para Splinter y Donnie y hace poco mandĂ© uno en cĂłmo reaccionarĂan las tortugas y Splinter cuando Abril comenzarĂĄ a salir con Casey por su relaciĂłn de hermanos y padre e hija, pero tal vez no fueron tan interesantes como para dibujarlos o comentar de ello.
No me molesta ni nada eso! Solo lo menciono đ
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Hasta hace unas semanas te iba a preguntar cĂłmo te organizas al hacer comics por semana ya que supe que lo hacĂas por tu cuenta, pero vi tu publicaciĂłn de tu decisiĂłn de dos semanas (un sĂĄbado no y el otro si) y respetarĂ© tu decisiĂłn ya que te ha ayudado descansar.
Translation from Spanish:
âHey Indie! Hope you're doing well âșïž. I have a question: how long does it take you to do the comics that answer your fans' questions and the "short" ones (like the one where Leo was poisoned by Karai's kiss, and the one where Rapha was looking for Christmas presents with Casey)? I mention this because a month or two ago I put up questions for Splinter and Donnie and recently I sent one about how the turtles and Splinter would react when April starts dating Casey because of their brother-sister and father-daughter relationship, but maybe they weren't interesting enough to draw or comment on. It doesn't bother me or anything! I'm just mentioning it đ
. Until a few weeks ago I was going to ask you how you organize yourself when making comics per week since I knew you did it on your own, but I saw your post about your decision of two weeks (one Saturday no and the other yes) and I will respect your decision since it has helped you rest.â
Iâm doing good!
Honestly depends, I can usually do those in about a day or so, but Iâve done some that take more like 2-3 days (like the one with Leo and Karai). I donât really do those anymore because Iâd like you guys to see how the comic itself evolves.
Iâve also had people express that since weâre getting into the real meat of the story that theyâd prefer I kept spoilers to a minimum or at least marked them as such so they can be avoided, which I 100% agree with.
If youâd like to request to see concept art of something specific then I can see what I can do, but as far as short comics go, it has little to do with time and interest and mostly to do with wanting you guys to experience the story as it comes out. :]
I organize everything the same way I did while I was doing once a week, Iâve just doubled the time I give myself to complete each task.
So now I give myself 2 days for sketching pages which includes paneling, rough dialogue writing and placement, and preliminary sketches of each panel (just to get the ideas down so I donât forget). Then the next 10 days I use to finalize each page with an average of half a page per day. Anything not completed by Thursday and Friday is put at top priority and I work to get it done before Saturday morning.
Good question! :]
#tmnt#q&a#indie tmnt#indieâs turtles#If you guys want concept art for something make sure youâre direct about it#if you just ask like âwhat would this character say if this character did this?â Then Iâm not gonna interpret that as concept art time#Just letting you guys know đ
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should've just let Vil be the one to fly, it would've gone SO much easier. đ
also HEY how are everyone else's pulls going, because I have had the most RIDICULOUS luck, seriously, halloween magic is 100% real
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#lost in the book with nightmare before christmas#hajimari no halloween#kicking around some ideas for scully's UM poster so i'll talk about all that when we get to it#in the meantime i just have to show this off because...seriously look at it#is the halloween pickup count cumulative?! because i only did two ten-pulls for jamil...#i've only done three ten-pulls total in this event and yet somehow ended up with leona and two consecutive jamils#now it would be extremely funny if i didn't get sebek when he's the one i want the most...but let me hope#(i choose to believe this is an apology from the universe for my lack of both fairy gala ortho and masquerade malleus)#(thank you universe)#anyway i realize there is some irony in bragging about my jamil pulls and yet drawing vil instead#but...i just really wanted to draw nightmare vil okay#i thought i had posted art of good ol' pumpkin-stroker jamil already but i think i might actually have just dreamt that#brb gotta get onto fixing this problem
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I was gonna post something about dreading how shit this week is going to be. But then I realized it's probably going to be shit until late January, so. Please pray for my blood pressure and health đ
#im really scared icl đ#also if i had to go through months of non stop political ads and texts and emails and anxiety and and and-#only for it to not end well. my fucking god.#aaaghhh it just fucking sucks election day really isnt a 'day'#its actually just. election year.#ive been consumed by it for probably at least half this year#but not only all that thats been going on#its gonna take days for them to count the ballots probably#and in that time theres gonna be like. 5 billion lawsuits. cause thats a thing apparently#and then all that shit is going to continue until what. January 20th?#no matter the result things are going to be chaotic i feel like#but truly i am desperately manifesting gaaaahhhh fuck im so done with all this#FREE ME PLEASE I JUST WANT TO BE FUCKING FREE#also fuck whichever guy put election day so close before thanksgiving and christmas#idk it all just really fucking sucks. this year hasn't been good for me#so i love that in addition to my already terrible baseline level of anxiety-#ive had another level piled on top of me#which can only possibly get worse đ#id almost prefer the political ads in perpetuity rather than actually face tuesday and beyond#god. fuck this.#i feel like im gonna have to knock myself out and not go online on monday and tuesday at this rate#how am i even going to get myself to sleep when theres constantly eternal doom hanging over me#catie.rambling.txt
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this is a test
#iâm bored i just wanna see how many words i can put in the tags like will it just keep going on forever or will they stop me like i know th#the tag limit is 30 ok so the iindividual tag limit is 140 characters thatâs actually so rude i wanted to keep going forever and see how lo#g this could be but i guess we can do this 30 times ok what the flip should i talk about hm i was playing the guitar today but i rage quit#ause the song was hard and hurting my fingers! ermmmmm it was sunny ok this is boring letâs think of more exciting things to type hmmm acco#ding to all known laws of aviation- jk iâm not doing the bee movie script but can you imagine i think that would be funny hmmmmm words i lo#e podcasts so bad thatâs a fact no one has ever know before my blog definitely isnât all about audio dramas the people are definitely not a#ready aware of this jesus christ this is only the seventh one of these this is actually quite a lot of space i underestimated how much i ha#e to type btw thereâs probably spelling mistakes in here somewhere or autocorrect has been annoying but i cba to retype anything so i donât#care lolllllllllllll how do you feel about oscar malevolent i feel a normal amount actually (lie) yk what i really miss sam and colin alrea#y like iâm actually not okay i really hope we hear from sam again in s2 and also colin ngl i hope ur in the computers soz or not dead miss#im like a bastard my paranoid it king ok erm im running out of things to say um heartstopper s3 was crazy good i cried lmao i love gay peop#e so much itâs crazy i hope it gets renewed for s4 i need to reread the comics lowkey and the books theyâre all so talented for being so yo#ng it scares me ngl !!!!!! the tmagp hiatus is getting to me slightly like february in reality is soon and not that far away for how podcas#ts go but seriously how am i supposed to live until then without knowing what happened. please colin be alive. ive only just realised i can#use fills stops. sorry thatâs made everything a bit messy. i shouldâve been doing this before. whoops. anyways. hi mutuals i love you all s#much i hope you enjoy my rambles and shitposts cause i enjoy yours very much! never think youâre being annoying i literally donât care be a#annoying as you want posts as much as you want i am ur biggest fan <3 im getting a bit fatigued from typing like my mind is blank basically#now itâs just turned into a. stream of consciousness but i donât really have any thoughts to put here idk if weâre halfway ermmmm omg itâs#lmost halloween how crazy is that time is flying by i kinda forgot it was october lmao. itâs wild how itâs basically almost christmas. like#what. thatâs illegal. how is it wintertime again. what the flip. i miss summer already take me backkkkkkk. i hope my phone doesnât crash or#smth cause iâve not saved this as a draft and i cba to do any of this again. maybe i should save it. ok i will when i reach the next tag bc#ok it stopped me but iâve saved it and holy jesus itâs a lot of text im just sat here giggling thereâs really no point to any of this other#than me being bored sooooooooooooooooo (imagine if i just did the letter o for every character wouldnât that be crazy) so wait thereâs 140#haracters and 30 tags so whatâs 30 x 140. someone hurry. i havenât done maths lessons in two and a half years iâve forgotten everything wai#let me get the calculator app ok im back it said 4100 characters so. i dont know how many words that roughly is but its. a decent amount. o#what the flip why am i wasting tag space with maths. i hate maths. my screen time has been actually soooooooooo bad recently like damn some#one put my phone in a block of ice please joshua gillespie style. my mind is running out of things to say. do i talk about myself. im james#im 18 which is weird cause wdym im an adult go away. ive run out of facts. i love podcasts and procedural dramas that stupid firefighter sh#w is my life unfortunately. i think chappell roan should be the queen of england instead of king charles. i dont like having a king cause#ho needs men in power not me. ok um this is the last tag equal rights for all. yolo. the time will pass anyways! thank u boredom ok bye gn:
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My aunt decided a good way to wish me a happy birthday would be to text me a picture of me & my dead dad from my 22nd birthday.
Like yay thanks, I totally wanted to be sad and missing my dad on my birthday. I definitely wasn't trying to do the "out of sight out of mind don't think about sad things" thing to get through it without crying or anything đ Definitely wasn't already struggling missing not getting a happy birthday text from him đđ
#and like I get that her intentions were good but i find it SO rude#why would you bring up something heart wrenchingly sad to someone on their birthday? Unless they've indicated to you that they want that#it wasn't even like it was a new picture/one she could reasonably believe I hadn't seen before#we literally used a cropped version of that exact photo for his obituary#she has done something similar with EVERY SINGLE holiday since he died#fathers day & his birthday & thanksgiving & christmas all of them we got texts like âi know how hard today must be!â#like uh no i was doing fine til I got your text actually cuz I was blocking it all out & now your text has forced me to think about it#we're not even that close? Like she legit had never texted me before my dad died#and the last conversation I had with her was her telling me that me needing help with things was co-dependence#rather than a legit need because I am disabled#and that keeping my curtains closed all the time was unhealthy#and when I tried to explain sensory issues she said that she 'gets headaches from the sun sometimes too but you just have to power through'#as if that's the same thing as sensory issues from autism#(which she is apparently an expert on because she is a nurse and has worked with a few young boys with autism)#like literally she claimed she knew better than my actual doctor who diagnoses autism for a living#or my therapist who sees me twice a week (whereas i speak to my aunt MAYBE once a year)#oh also did you know that I should totally be able to hold down a full time job?#because the 18 year old autistic boy she knows whose parents do literally everything to support him and who has zero other responsibilities#and a huge support network trying to meet his needs#well HE'S able to work part time at the movie theater#so obviously that means that I should be able to work too because we're all the same#yeah anyway sorry rant over#it just really upset me#also because I was so upset I forgot I wanted to go to the park on my way home from the weed store đ#beth posts
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so much
#so much has happened so much to say#friend who i spoke about in past REALLY pissed me off at my pole showcase#i do pole dancing and we had a showcase and ahe invited herself last minute on the day#which whatev u kno i was like ok shes making an effort to support me#then she goes and pulls me out of the crowd to tell me she wants to leave and my bf is gonna take her home#i was so upset cuz we had plans and i told her to her face what she did was rude#immediately starts back tracking. i dont trust like that.#it took me being visibly upset before you think about how your actions affect others??#not my bf telling u no he wants to stay bc i want to stay??#anyway fuck her. sick of puttng energy into her just to get disrespected again and again#back on my fucking no friends arc#but i love my bf. i really do.#i was upset w him too tbh but we talked it out and man is just a bit of a fucking pushover#i was like if youre not gonna defend and stand up for me i dont want to be with you. its important to me that i know youre on my side#i shouldnt have had to have handled that. you shouldve told her no and been done with it#and he said he did but i was like i had to come out. i had to say no. i shouldnt have had to have done that#missed out on the big group photo cuz of it#but pole is really fun my instructor reckons i can move to interprep abt halfway thru next term soooo exciting!!#i graded 2 combos yesterday#upside down flip both sides and climbing to the top of the pole#she got me to do a tuck spin too but i really need to work on my tucks#my wrists are instable so the tucks are extremely hard cuz if i fuck them up they HURT#lol#stefan is meeting my parents this week lol#and theyve invited him to christmas...#he doesnt like christmas and normally spends it w ppl w no families so idk if hell come#like truthfully i want him there but if hes not ready hes not ready i cant force him#i understand its a big thing and like overwhelming n what not#well see how he goes meeting them first#oh i love him
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School is starting tomorrow and since I'll be so much busier with it I've decided to take a hiatus from social media from now until I finish playing Echoes of Wisdom. I'll still be on AO3 as much as I can to read/post, (and I mean commissions still open because I need money). Except for my queue which should last through the hiatus.
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#temp pinned post#I'm hoping to be back for Halloween. Or AT LEAST christmas season.#but since I am doing this because I don't know how much gaming time I'll have we'll see#we'll see if this even sticks I might cave before it's done#well hopefully EoW won't take the ~3mo it took me to play ToTK last year. and I'll have the money for it right away not 6 weeks later#and. if any beloved mutuals want SOME way to talk. going on a lesser hiatus for discord if any ppl I talk to primarily on tumblr#wanna ask for my discord so we can be friends and potentially talk there. dm before ~9PM MST tonight bc that's when the hiatus REALLY start#if I remember though I am absolutely taking off those tags before I go on hiatus though
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Mint stole my heckinâ dog (Patreon)
#Doodles#Webkinz#Mint#This is why nobody likes you Mint <talking specifically about myself lol#The December event calendar really was stacked huh âȘ The lead-up to Christmas and then ending the year out with a week of Deluxe!#Almost makes up for how broken the first few days of the new year were lol#But yes! I collected enough medallions to get the Snowy Retriever Puppy! Of course :3#Smol did as well and we adopted them at the same time hehe#We'd been discussing names for a few days before we'd collected enough - she wanted to go a bit Lovecore and I was really struggling#I'd seen a few other Snowy Retrievers out and about from previous years' players - one in a Sans outfit!! So perfect#You can see I've tried my best to emulate the outfit there on Mini Mint in the last one in her icy bed hehehe#Blue hoodie - black white-striped basketball shorts - pink fuzzy slippers - white body with blue eyes - check#Incredible#But then no I had a 4th Wall Moment where Mint piped up that he would be the obvious match here thanks Mint#The white fur and light blue eyes and wintery theme - Mint would be one of the obvious choices and he Does look like that#So now she's Mini Mint and he has a dog#Can Mint please stop taking my shit for two seconds thank you#First Liam and now my new dog! Selfish#Tossed him into the Webkinzifier for penance lol not that he minds#He Would have heart-shaped heel-bottomed shoes just to sit there with#Unremovable just to spite me#Well anyhow âȘ Mini Mint is here now and she and Embroidery share a room and regularly snoot-boop#They're actually currently separated by a wall under construction lol when will they be reunited ahh#As soon as I have the ability to make more rooms you better believe I'm making a sensory deprivation chamber it's like All I want#Which kinz would Max be hmmm much research to be done
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every time it's the end of the year i feel like i'm going insane like the entire year just culminates into me just mcfreaking losing it on new years eve
#first of all i am so tired. my cat is on this horrible schedule where she wakes up at like 11pm and so i end up staying up to play with#her until like 2am bc im like she slept all day she needs to play which is fine but i get up at 7 every morning and so ive been doing this#for like 2 weeks straight and im so tired. so last night at like 1am i was just playing with her just sobbing bc im so tired#but i feel so guilty just going to sleep when she wants to play so im like im not just going to not play so im sitting my bed#throwing her stupid little yarn for her just crying and she's like :) watching me throw it back and forth im like ok.#but that's whatever bc idc i'll do anything for her#then since saturday there has been this Smell in my hallway and i have looked everywhere for it and i dont even know what it is#but it's like a sour kind of just really irritating smell and it's not strong but it just lingers#and ive searched EVERYWHERE. and nothing is wrong so now i'm thinking maybe#something died on the roof in my bathroom vent fan thing bc i leave my bathroom window open all the time but#last night it was almost completely closed bc it was cold last night and i was like ok yeah it's stronger in here now#so i just taped a trash bag over it to see if it goes away and if that's it then i have to deal with that#also im getting my period so i know that's why im upset at all#then i have a lost package that ive been waiting for since a week before christmas and i was like hey can you guys like help me find my#package like it's not the company's fault but i wanted to know if they could like idk contact the shipper or something#and theyre like oh it's just tracking error :) it's on it's way#like ok. it's in a city an hour away from me and it's been in limbo between ups and usps since the 19th so no it's actually not coming at#all i think but they keep blowing me off#then i have to go to the store right now and i know it's going to be so crowded and anyway ok im done dumping and complaining#i just feel like im drowning rn but im going drink so much champagne tonight and forget it all
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#holidays have not been what i hoped for so far đđ#well the first week was good but then i got sick đ#and it's been so awful#having a cough is literally the worst i couldn't sleep it was so bad#and i couldn't even enjoy doing anything really because you can't properly focus on the thing bc ur coughing non stop#i hate it sm#and today it was gone all day only that now it is back altough not as bad as before but still#it always gets worse in the evening#like help i just want this to end#what made it even worse i had real plans to study and now i barely got anything done đđ#and now i'm scared for exams bc i couldn't follow the plan altough i still have more than 2 and 3 weeks left#in my mind i already think i'm gonna do badly bc i need to study more i'm afraid#and i'm also upset at myself even though it's not my fault i got sick but i keep thinking i still could have done more ughh#to make it even worse i coudn't play tennis for a whole week and i was so looking forward to playing everyday (and improving) đąđą#i couldn't do any sports or see anyone i miss it sm#i hope at least in the new year i can do stuff again đ„ș#it was just the worst cold/flu and idk why whenever i get it it's that extreme đ”âđ«#or idk is it normal that you can't sleep bc of it ... i just don't wanna get sick again ever lmao it's the worst#i guess christmas was still nice it wasn't that bad then and it was a lovely day with my family :)#and our tree was really pretty this year and i'm really happy with my gifts and also those i gifted đ„°#the week before was good i did play lots of tennis and i went on a christmas market with uni friend and to vienna for a trip with my mom ^^#but maybe it was too much sometimes i wonder if i do something wrong or if it is just bad luck like i did train a lot#and i played a tennis match for my club and won against a higher ranked opponent so yay đ#and i played really well i feel like i once again really improved my level :)) but i did play kinda sick already so maybe that was rly badđ
#maybe i should stop doing that đ
but i didn't know it's gonna get this bad i just had the worst headache and sore throat#well ig i should have known but i also always feel like i have to play and i love matches and like my team needs me?#who else would have won that? i'm one of the best at my team and the others who are rly good weren't there that day so i felt responsible đ
#honestly my mom possibly she is also quite good but it would have been close and i wasn't sure so i played đ
#but i have done this too often by now... playing sick i really can't help myself đ€Šââïž
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definitely feeling overdramatic right now, but i am SO overwhelmed from the stress of that trip and everything that happened before it and everything i have going on between now and the end of the year, that i would like to not interact with a single nother person for two weeks minimum.
#irl⊠online⊠anything#i honestly think that would fix me#i just donât wanna see ANYone#i am soooooooo unhappy#like. not to be a huge baby but i really need support rn and instead iâm supporting everybody else#i am completely at the end of my rope though#i didnât know it was possible to be THIS done#just completely burnt out⊠i finally got there!#but instead i have to do fucking Thanksgiving tomorrow#and then work and do TWO programs on Friday#and then drive to North Carolina for the concert. and drive back#and itâs just like. Man.#i REALLY canât live like this#and do you KNOW how much i still need to get done before the end of the year?????#and iâm going to another concert next Thursday#and then i have a bird walk on Friday#and a Christmas party on Saturday#and ANOTHER bird walk on Sunday#just AHHHHHH. UGH UGH UGH#and thatâs not even discussing regular work and SCHOOLWORK and volunteer shit#just fuck#iâm so done#donât wanna do anything⊠donât wanna see anybody#i just want to move away and never speak to anyone again#fuck
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i had planned to finish the first draft of the smut wip by the end of the day but i just... do not feel in the mood for it today
#got some pretty shitty news like an hour after i woke up and i exist in a constant state of worry now#unfortunately not conducive to writing good smut#or really any smut at all#i wanted to get it up (ha ha) before christmas but yeagh idk anymore it may have to languish until the worry is done
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me on my patreon, facebook, art blog etc: christmas cards are gonna be late this year! they got pretty delayed for several unspecified reasons! I'm not going to say they're already in the mail but I'm going to maybe gently imply that they might be!
me in several private messages: hey what's your address
#could I have chased down changed/ unknown addresses before the art was done. of course.#but also. obviously not#for no other reason than âšwhat I'm like as a personâš#I spent most of this month overwhelmed and having catastrophic meltdowns but you can't just say that on facebook#we are collectively lucky there even IS a christmas card I really thought it wasn't gonna happen at all tbqh#justin's gramma at christmas on sunday: where's my card :c#me: haha well! they're a little behind (true)! the stamps got unexpectedly delayed (true albeit also lowkey my fault)!#plus we've been busy prepping for kitties (absolutely shameless scapegoating. I've been procrastinating that too đ)#I want to reiterate I'm VERY happy with the art this year and I'm very glad for my OWN sake that I went through with it#this is just funny to me tbh lmao#about me
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the newt joined a game jam. she's gonna be making a simple side scroller beat em up game where the goal is to reach Santa Claus before Christmas but also he's been kidnapped by evil snowmen. she doesn't think she'll be able to finish it but she wants to try
#sometimes i like to refer to myself in third person and idk why so i just let it ride#anyway rn I'm just settling on an artstyle#something simple and forgiving so i can have 4 frame animations and its fine#the hardest part will be coding enemies since I've never done that before#I've done so much movement that that part'll be a breeze lol#the theme is âmomentumâ and the necessary object is âcandy caneâ so I'm thinking magic candy cane used to hit enemies and dash forward#It would be a really short game cuz i want it to be on a timer#yknow like you have a minute or so to save Santa or Christmas is ruined!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#if i have time (probably not) i could make like a coin system that gives you the secret good ending#idk what that would be
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