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that-ghosts-art · 1 year ago

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“Come on buddy, don’t ya wanna make a lil deal with lil ol’ me?”

I’ve been on a bit of an equivalence high recently as anyone following me may have guessed haha ^-^

For anyone who’s interested I’ve written some of my thoughts on demon!Mabel below the cut :3

First things first let's talk about her style and general appearance, cause I feel like I’ve deviated a fair bit from the previously established fancy suit she’d been portrayed as having like Dipper.

My logic for the change (outside of wanting to try drawing something that isn’t a suit haha) is that I feel she would have more varietyin the outfits she wears compared to Dipper. Looking at the show Dipper was out there wearing the exact same outfit for an entire summer while Mabel (admittedly wearing the same type of clothes) had significantly more variety, wearing a different sweater every episode, some episodes even having more than one, and I feel this would continue to reflect here.

Dipper has his suit and doesn't venture much further then that if he can help it (obviously not to say he doesn't but you know what I mean). Mabel mean while would have a new outfit every day, multiple per day sometimes!

Most of the time I think she would default to a more punk, diy aesthetic because of the inherent creativity of it (which for a typically detail averse artist such as myself was certainly a decision haha), not to mention I can imagine Mabel being like “I’m a literal demon Dipper I gotta go for the outfits with the spikes and chains!”

At the same time she would definitely enjoy trying out a whole host of different styles (to a point though. Some just aren't comfortable, not any more at least, a part of her stolen away with the Transcendence).

I'd need to do some research into clothing styles to say specifically what else she would enjoy, but I can say it's a lot of black with small splashes and highlights of colour. She's also, regardless of style wear lots and lots of jewellery and piercings cause I think she’d like them :3

Switching things up a bit I wanna quickly go over her pins (ie, her queer identities). My hc for demon!Mabel is the same for normal Mabel, being bisexual with a masc preference, and a demigirl (she/her/they/them exploring and trying out various neo pronouns as she encounters them, rotating through them depending on her mood).

Slightly serious tangent, but I know the previously established lore for EAU was that she would be aroace, but in all honesty that never quite sat right with me. Like the only reason she, or subsequently Dipper in the main TAU canon, are aspec is because of the demon-ness, and while I love demons and the demonic as much as the next aroace person, and I adore representation of my identity, the implications aren’t my favourite in the world. Obviously no disrespect to the people behind that decision, (in fact I applaud them on exploring how a character like Mabel might react to people assuming she wants that in this lil fic here :3). Only the maddest of respect to the people who make characters the identities they want them to be :) I just wanted to address it for anyone who like me has read every bit of eau content they can get their grubby lil hands on and noticed that particular difference :p

Besides, this way we get to explore the logistical and moral implications of a character being allosexual while also being an incredibly powerful and immortal being, especially when you get into questions of how she ages herself compared regular humans :3c (I think I'll leave that for another post though haha)

On a different note, another design idea I had was that it'd be really cool if she had a dynamic and moving tattoo that would constantly change and show new (typically pig and star related) designs :) this definitely wasn't inspired by my own inability to come up with and stick to a particular singer design, definitely not.

I also thought it would be neat to differentiate the demonic aspects of her and Alcor's design by giving her feathered wings, rather than the typical bat wings. I mostly just thought it could be nice to try drawing something different, and while Dipper and Mabel are very close and have a fair amount in common they are still very different characters, so it would make sense for their demonic features to differ, even is only slightly. On that note I also gave her a pink outline to her pupils as inspired by this art cause I thought it was neat :3

Anyway I accidentally posted this before I was finished so Imma just take that as a sign to stop and put my other thoughts in a different post haha 😅

#art #my art #equivalence au #ghost chatters #tau #demon!mabel #mizar #I had perhaps too much fun with this pose and colouring haha #if you saw this in the seconds before I realised I has posted this before I was finished #no you didn't

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omentranslates · 1 year ago

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Owari no Seraph volume 31 author's afterword english fan translation

Hi hi hi! I'm a few days late, but since the volume itself won't be out in english for like a year hopefully I'm still good lol

For anyone who's curious now I hope this helps and thanks for reading!

"Afterword

I'm going talk spoilers a little, so people who skip to the afterword gotta back it up. Are you gone? Not yet? I told you to go back and read it!

As for everyone who's already read it, welcome to the new volume! Which is to say, I think this volume had a pretty sizeable lore drop. The fundamental basis of the work won't change volume to volume, but I really feel the beauty in them each being about their own battles. So then, we're returning to the modern day where all the paths converge, to see what all different choices will be made from within both the hope and despair that come with living only for the present! Starting from the next volume, things are really going to spark off, so I hope you'll all follow along!!!

There's also the matter, of course, of me attending the autograph event in Sapporo! It's been a while! I want to thank everyone, but as I say that I'm actually writing this afterword before heading to Hokkaido. Ever since I went on a weeklong roadtrip in Hokkaido, I've gotten excited whenever my plans take me back there. I'm also really looking forward to the day before because the previous and current manager have promised we'll eat some good food, but at that time I was asked by the previous manager to do my very best to take care of myself. If I'm going to be unhealthy, please do it the week BEFORE!

Will do! I wonder if it'll be easy or not! (lol). And thinking that gets us on the topic of musicians who play the big stages like the Tokyo Dome and how they might manage their health before that. I mean, the pressure must be incredible. To the point they'll do stuff like carrying a humidifier around with them, right? And here I am gulping down vitamin shakes in my pajamas, facing the desk tired out of my mind and with my heart racing from the caffeine. I really have to respect the type of person that can tackle the pressure of an outside-facing job.

Ok so, moving on, recently I've heard something I think is a matter of course, that if you don't tell the people you take for granted that you'll see all the time how much you appreciate and treasure them, they won't know, so I thought I'd take the opportunity to say what I mean quick. So with that, to all my readers, thank you for coming along up to this most recent volume! It's thanks to you all that I'm able to spend my days enjoyably.

I'd also like to thank Furuya-san for always providing the wonderful storyboards. Even though me and my late manuscripts cause nothing but trouble. Whenever I come up against a challenging situation, he's always saying "why didn't you tell me, we're friends aren't we?" and in those moments I'm completely overwhelmed with emotion. I'm excited to keep working with him. I think it's thanks to him that our team is so coordinated.

And I'd like to thank Yamamoto-san for the always beautiful manga. Even when I carelessly bang out grand scenes that are, to put it plainly, not made with artist's ease in mind, they always deliver. Or rather, it's their professionalism that makes me trust their ability to deliver that I'm always so thankful for. It's thanks to Yamamoto-san that Owari no Seraph shines the way it does. I think I've caused them some suffering with my late manuscripts, but I'll work even harder to do better from now on, so I'm excited to keep working with them as well.

It's already been 10 years for our team, out of the multiple tens of years humans tend to live. I'm grateful to everyone, and to that end I think it's a good idea to speak up and let them know. Truly, thank you so much. So with that, it's already time to put this next volume into overdrive. Everyone, please look forward to and support it!

Kagami Takaya"

#owari no seraph #seraph of the end #english translation #yeah sorry about that i got sick lmao

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paranoidandroidofficial · 6 months ago

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First Impression: My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy by Kanye West

[Alright, two notes before we start... you only have to pay attention to the first note, the second one's just a funny observation I made related to this specific review and the ones before it. First note: I didn't pay too much attention to the lyrics on this album. I know that in a genre where the lyrics are kind of the main appeal, reviewing an album without truly understanding what the artist is saying might be bad, but these first impressions are more casual, and casually, I normally gravitate towards the music first, so... sorry. I did pay attention to the production, which you will be hearing about. And second note: it's so funny to me that after reviewing 2 of the most acclaimed pieces of progressive rock ever made, the thing I decide to review next is fuckin' Kanye West. That's basically the equivalent of reviewing the entire Lord of the Rings trilogy, and then making your next review about The LEGO Movie; they're both great things, but a switch like that is fucking crazy.]

My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy is... well... it's certainly not a 6/10. I feel like it's just an 8/10. Here's why.

Like I said in my notes, I didn't pay too much attention to the lyrics on this album, so I don't think I can speak on those too much, but what I will say is that Kanye raps about himself a lot on this album, and not in a normal rap way like bragging or telling the story of how he made it from the bottom to the top, but in a kind of "I've got a lot to get off my chest" kind of way. If I listened to it again and focused on the lyrics more, I could probably pinpoint what I do and don't like about these lyrics, but at the moment, I only have a basic understanding of Kanye's words here, which I don't think is enough to speak on these lyrics in any meaningful way. I will say though, I didn't hear any goofy bars that ruined the emotion of a track, so I feel like the lyrics are mostly good.

I'll be honest here, and say that the production on this album is great. The beats on here are unique, and they sound really good. "Runaway" has a catchy beat, with that piano line forever looping over and over again. "POWER" samples the opening track to "In the Court of the Crimson King", with... varying results. The (21st century schizoid man) at the end of the chorus is fantastic, but the gratuitous panning on the sample during the "and they say, and they say" portion did not feel good. "Dark Fantasy" has a heavenly opening (after we hear something about twisted fiction or something idk), which transitions into a kind of traditional-ish hip-hop beat, which transitions back into the opening part. It's great. There wasn't a single song that had bad production, and besides the "and they say" part mentioned above, there wasn't a single bad moment in the production... but there also wasn't many super high points. There's Runaway, of course, and the opening to "Dark Fantasy", but after that... the rest of the production feels more "Wow, that's great!" and not "WAIT, DID HE JUST DO THAT?!". It's great but not mind-blowing, is what I'm saying.

And lastly, the features. For the most part, the features did good. They never ruined a song, and 1 of them took their respective song to the next level (of course, we're talking about Pusha T on Runaway, that man killed it there), but most of them were just OK.

The production made the album for me. Plus, since I didn't wanna pull a fantano and give this a 6, I decided to give it extra points for how solid it's tracklist is. The only 3 songs that I didn't think were that great were So Appalled (might just be because i kinda zoned out for that one sorry), and the closing duo of Lost in the World and Who Will Survive In America (mostly the latter track). The rest of the tracklist was great. It's an 8/10, but I gotta focus on the lyrics next time.

How Likely Is a Follow Up? 4. Like I said, I gotta re-do this once I do focus on the lyrics, but I might just do a second first impression-styled review once I do focus on the lyrics.

#music #album review #music review #album #kanye west #hip hop #my beautiful dark twisted fantasy #mbdtf

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gerogerigaogaigar · 1 year ago

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I spent almost five months listening to the Rolling Stone 500 greatest albums of all time list. That's 100 albums a month. Is that a lot? I have no realistic frame of reference. Music is basically all I do. As such I am absolutely certain that I know better than Rolling Stone What the greatest albums of all time are.

So I am frustrated by several things. One is the absolute dedication to just choosing their favorite artists and slapping the whole discography on there. We didn't need all those Beatles records, and honestly even though he is also one of my favorites I don't think we needed all that Neil Young. Another beef is their genre blindness. Electronic music and metal are full on ignored. The only electronic music in here was Daft Punk. The ultimate crossover artists for the house scene. And there were maybe four or five metal albums, but that's only if you even count Black Sabbath as a metal band. It is obvious they don't really respect these genres as being artistically valid.

Now let's talk about hip hop on this list. The thing that weirds me out is, well, they did a good job. Although they may have overrepresented Kanye. My edits are mostly little personal takes, although I have two specific albums that I think were grotesque oversights. The choices are good, but kinda paint by numbers y'know? They lack a personal flair. Gotta respect that Lauryn Hill in the top ten though that's a real honest to God choice. Overall a decent enough list for a basic bitch publication, but I think I listened to fewer albums that I hated when I was doing the 1001 albums you must hear before you die.

So for the future of my channel I think I will do a couple things. First I'm gonna make two more sorta 500 album related posts. One of ten albums that I think should have been on the list and then ten albums that had a zero chance of landing on any normal list but that I think are neat. After that I'm just gonna review new releases like a normal person. There's good shit coming out everyday after all. Anyway remember to smash that like button, ring the little bell and stay tuned for my next video.

#500 album gauntlet #state of the chamnel #i should be a professional reviewer #if fantano can do it so can i

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watchmegetobsessed · 4 years ago

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Mine Again - Harry Styles

a/n: this is something i just thought about after my nap today lol, so enjoy this treat, a classic exlovers to lovers fic!

pairing: Harry x Famous!Reader

word count: 3.4k

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Seeing an ex is never easy. Whether it’s by your choice or not. Working together with an ex is even harder and now you brought a situation on yourself where this is your reality.

Arriving to the studio of The Late Late show you immediately get escorted to your designated dressing room where a hair and makeup artist are already waiting for you. Today you are here to promote your new movie, Don’t Worry Darling with your onscreen lover, Harry Styles, however, what no one else in the building knows is that once the two of you were real life lovers.

Your romance blossomed during filming, having spent so much time together on set, it didn’t take long for a relationship to form between you and him, the chemistry you shared was immense and undeniable, anyone could see that and you felt like you were burning in a bonfire of the most intense feelings you’ve felt for any man. It was passionate and intoxicating, it felt like something that could only happen in movies, but it was your reality.

However filming ended and you were forced to go your separate ways, you both tried hard to keep what you had and though your feelings never changed, distance brought the worst out of the both of you. Six months after you became an item, you mutually agreed to break it off.

You haven’t seen him since then, meaning that it’s been five torturous months without having any contact with him and now that promo has officially kicked in, you are forced to travel around and make appearances with the man you love, yes, still love more than anyone on this Earth. Not even five months and absolutely no contact could change your feelings for him, however he might already be over you at this point, having forgotten about feelings and memories you still hold close to your heart.

How has he been doing? What is he like now? Has he been thinking about you? Does he miss you? What is it going to be like to see him for the first time?

The questions flood your mind as you sit in the chair and let the professionals work their magic on you, covering up the dark circles under your eyes that formed due to the sleepless night you had the day before, nonstop thinking about Harry and what it’ll be like to see him for the first time again.

After careful elimination, you choose a dress for the appearance, it’s tight and short, the fabric is covered in glittering sequins down your body and the long sleeves as well and while the dress covers a lot up from the waist, it makes up in the lack of length on your legs as the end of it barely reaches the upper part of your thighs, ending it black feathers that tickle your freshly shaven legs. The nude heels add even more to them, making you appear like you could hit the runway any moment when in reality you are not high enough to be a model.

There’s still some time until the taping starts, James drops by to say hello and tell you how excited he is to have you and Harry on tonight and you chit-chat for a little before you go to take a quick business call outside. When you’re done with that, you head back to your dressing room to take a few quick photos to post later, but right as you near your destination, a door swings open down the hallway and Harry steps out, wearing a black suit, of course, head to toe Gucci. The crispy grey shirt’s first few buttons are left undone, allowing you a glimpse of his toned chest and his necklace with the tiny cross pendant on it.

He looks good. No, he looks absolutely stunning, just like he always does and just the sight of him takes your breath away, forcing you to stop in your tracks when you lay your eyes at him. He spots you as well, stopping to take a look at you before you see a small smile on his perfect pink lips.

“Y/N, hi! You look… gorgeous,” he speaks up lowly, his eyes raking your body up and down.

“I, uhh—Thanks!” you breathe out, feeling already flustered. How are you gonna survive the interview, sitting next to him, talking about what it was like to play a married couple?!

His hand moves a bit and there’s a moment of awkwardness, neither of you really knowing what to do, last time you saw each other you kissed as your hellos, but now it’s not an option, obviously. At last, he moves forward and goes for a hug.

He envelopes you in his arms as you wrap yours around his neck, the warmth of his body bringing you a sense of home and it hits you hard how much you’ve missed him in these five months.

You swear he holds you just a second longer than what would be appropriate before his arms fall from around your frame and you force yourself to let go of him, though every fiber in you is protesting against it.

“How—How have you been?” he asks, his beautiful green eyes finding yours.

“I’m good. I’m good,” you nod. “What about you?”

“Same. Just the… usual stuff.”

“Writing music?” you ask with a soft smile. You still vividly remember those nights you spent together after a long day of filming, crashing at either his or your place and you often found him strumming his guitar in a corner, scribbling words down into his notebook. Sometimes he sang you the songs he came up with, sometimes he kept them to himself.

“Yeah, I’ve been writing a lot lately,” he admits with a shy smile.

Someone calls his name down the hallway and his head snaps up before looking back at you.

“I gotta go, but I’ll see you soon, right?”

“Yeah,” you nod, stepping aside so he can walk past.

“And you really look amazing, Y/N,” he calls after you one last time before jogging down the hallway.

You walk into your dressing room and shutting the door you lean your back against it, huffing heavily as you try to recollect yourself. Somehow, this encounter went really well, because the two of you were civil and respectful, but it was also a painful shock to see him in the flesh again. It was one thing to see pictures of him here and there, but actually meeting him, hugging him, talking to him… you need time to process it all.

Unfortunately, you don’t have much of that. Twenty minutes later you are walked to your spot behind the curtains from where you’ll walk out when James calls your name. Just as you arrive Harry appears as well, casually talking with one of the camera guys, having a laugh and just as he sees you, his eyes fall down your body again and you swear you see him gulp hard before turning his attention back to the man.

“Ready?” he asks upon walking up to you, a hand coming to rest on your lower back. Glancing over your shoulder you look down at his hand, lips parted at the feeling of his welcoming touch. He sees your glance and pulls his hand back quickly. “Sorry, it’s a habit, I guess,” he mumbles, blushing softly.

“It’s fine,” you smile. Of course it’s fine, for what you care, he could throw you over his shoulder like a cave man and run out of the building, you wouldn’t say a word. You want his touch on your body, you’ve been craving it since the moment you last saw him, but are you even allowed to admit it? You have no idea what he is thinking or feeling, you can’t just come right at him like that.

Harry fixes the lapels of his suit jacket, but what he doesn’t see is that the collar of his shirt is kind of stuck under the jacket.

“Your shirt is… let me fix it,” you breathe out and he turns to face you, letting your delicate hands fix his outfit, perfecting the look to the tiniest bit. “There, you look great,” you smile, your hands sliding down his chest before they fall to your sides again.

“Thank you,” he nods smiling back at you before offering an arm that you take gladly. He knows how much you hate high heels and that you are always scared of tripping and falling and being the gentleman that he is, he’ll be the support you need.

The taping soon starts and the two of you stand patiently behind the curtain as James introduces you.

“And now, please welcome the stars of the upcoming hit movie, Don’t Worry Darling! Ladies and gentlemen, Y/N Y/L/N and Harry Styles!”

The crowd starts clapping and cheering as the curtain moves and the two of you walk in, arms linked and Harry makes sure to slow down when you walk down the few little stairs. James welcomes the both of you with two kisses before everyone takes their place, James behind his desk, you and Harry sitting on the couch.

“Thank you so much for dropping by tonight, guys!” James smiles at the two of you.

“Thank you for having us,” Harry nods with a soft smile.

“You both have been guests on the show separately, but tonight you are here as a pair, since your latest movie, Don’t Worry Darling is hitting the theaters this weekend. How are you feeling about that, excited to see the film finally?”

“Very excited,” you nod with a smile. “I can’t wait to see the final version, because obviously we only know the version we envisioned while filming, but the actual movie is going to be something else.”

“Y/N, your role in the movie was originally handed to Florence Pugh who had to step back because she broke her arm,” James points out and you nod.

“Yes, I stepped in her place just about a week before production started and if I’m being honest I was scared that people would prefer to see her in the role, but I had a talk with her actually and she said she helped Olivia, the director to pick out the person to take her place and she said she instantly knew I would be perfect for it, so I trust her.”

“That’s amazing to hear, that the two of you didn’t have any rivalry going on,” James enthuses.

“She actually visited set a few times,” Harry chimes in and you nod.

“Yeah, we had a great time together.”

“Sounds like a lot of fun, the three of you together,” James chuckles. “So, the two of you play a married couple in the film and if I’m not mistaken you didn’t know each other beforehand. Was it hard to get into the roles with not much background on each other?”

“We met up a few times before filming started to get to know each other more and I think we hit it off right away, so it wasn’t hard for me,” Harry speaks up and you nod along.

“It was obviously a little different situation than when you meet someone and become friends, because as we got to know each other more, we had to go through scenes that were meant for a couple that was already years into their relationship, but I think it strengthened our friendship,” you answer, hands laid flat on your bare thighs.

No lie has been told, everything you said was the truth. You just left out the part where you become real life lovers and started dating a month into production.

“Y/N, you’ve been acting for a while now, have quite a few roles under your belt, what did you think of Harry’s acting?”

“I think that he is a wonderful actor and I hope people will give him his much deserved credit for it. He is often still seen as just a silly singer from a former boy band and they don’t take him seriously when he really is a very talented man. You’ll see in the movie as well, his role was a tough one, needed a lot of work and a wide range of emotions, but I think he did an amazing job.”

You dare to glance at him at the end of your little speech and for a moment you forget about the audience, James and the cameras. He is looking at you with so much gratitude and thankfulness. You remember every talk you had where he opened up to you about wanting to be taken seriously in the acting business, that he is not trying to be just a joke and another failed attempt of a singer to try himself out in movies. He told you how scared he is of not being good enough when you saw him every day on set and you were blown by his eternal talent and special take on his role. He deserves to be praised, he deserves every bit of it.

“It was easy, I had a great partner to learn from,” he smiles softly and you feel the heat crawling up your neck.

“You two really have the chemistry we’ve heard so much about, I can’t wait to see it on the big screen!” James sighs. “Tell me a little about what it was like to film? You guys spent a lot of time together, must have made a lot of memories.”

You take a deep breath as all those memories mentioned flood your mind. You had the best time of your life not just with Harry, but with the whole crew. Leaving after production was wrapped really broke your heart.

“It didn’t even feel like working,” Harry starts. “We always joked around, had lunch or dinner together, we were like a big family. It was so nice to have so many amazing, talented and hard-working people around you all day.”

“The jokes never stopped,” you add chuckling.

“I wish I could have been on set!” James laughs wholeheartedly. “That didn’t happen, but we have a little something. The crew has put together a short BTS video of the filming, so let’s have a look at that,” he announces and the video starts playing on every screen in the studio.

It’s a short little montage, but it captures the vibes of filming just perfectly. Clips shown from set are not just of you and Harry, but all the other cast and crew members. Goofing around, having lots and lots of laughs, dancing on set, which happened quite often and just all of you having a great time. Some of the slips however pain your chest, the ones of you and Harry.

This was very early into your relationship, no one on set even knew you were together, but seeing yourself on the screen you can’t deny the sparkles in your eyes every time you were around him.

A clip shows the two of you between two takes, doing a goofy dance in the kitchen of the home that was used as the set of the house of your characters, you are both wearing your costumes, Harry looks great in his suit and your long retro dress is flowing around you with every movement you make. He grabs you by your waist and spins you before you end up in his arms laughing crazily, you were so happy, so carefree. You wish you could go back to that moment…

Another footage was taken in your trailer when Harry took the place of Clare, your makeup artist and tried to do your eyeliner but miserably failed. In the video, he is gently clasping your chin, angling your face for himself as his other hand is working on the line, but it’s wobbly and way too thick, so you both end up just laughing when you check yourself in the mirror.

And there are some small moments of the two of you, moving around on set, lying in bed between takes, sitting in your chairs while eating, just tiny memories you still cherish so much and wish to live through again, but it’s the past. And it wouldn’t hurt this much if you knew Harry from the video was still yours.

When the video ends you need to blink a few times as your eyes have watered a little. You catch Harry’s gaze and he looks worried, he clearly wants to ask if you’re okay, make sure it was just the sentimentality of the moment, but he doesn’t have the chance, the cameras are still rolling.

“That looked like so much fun! Next time make sure to invite me on set too!” James jokes and you force a laugh out of yourself.

A few questions are asked about future plans and just generally about your careers before the taping finally ends. You thank James for the invite again and a photo is taken of the three of you, you standing in the middle with the two men on your sides. When everything is settled, you head to your dressing room, using the chance to slip away silently while Harry is still chit-chatting on the set.

In the comfort and silence of the dressing room, you lean onto the vanity, staring at yourself in the mirror, finding it ironic that on the outside, you look perfectly fine, healthy and pretty, but on the inside… you could scream. You miss Harry so much, you hoped that your feelings for him have toned down a little over these five months, but it was just the same if not even worse.

A faint knock is heard on the door and you quickly fix yourself before calling out to the person outside. The door opens and for your surprise, Harry steps inside, closing the door behind him.

“Hey, you disappeared so fast,” he softly says.

“Yeah, I’m just… a little tired,” you lie, though you know exactly he can see right through you.

“Y/N, I saw that look in your eyes after the video…”

“What look?” you ask with a huff. “What do you want me to say, Harry?”

“The truth,” he answers. “I’m not James, don’t bullshit me.”

“You want the truth? I’ll give it to you, but don’t blame me if it’s uncomfortable for you,” you chuckle bitterly, throwing your hands into the air. “I’ve been miserable, Harry. I miss you so fucking much, seeing you today was like Hell. I really thought it would be easier, but now I’m stuck with going from one interview to the other with red carpet events all around the world, seeing you every day when I terribly miss you and it fucking sucks, because you might not even feel the sa—“

You don’t get to finish, because Harry crosses the distance between the two of you, his hands grab your face and pulls you into a hard and passionate kiss. His lips move perfectly against yours and it feels like he is trying to squeeze every missed moment from the past five months into the kiss, making you melt into his arms completely.

He is everywhere. He is all you can taste, you breathe him in, his hands are everywhere on your body and your chest is pressed tight against his as you wrap your arms around his neck, locking him into your embrace. Your tongues dance, teeth tugging and pulling on lips, it’s a whole mess, but it’s the most perfect mess you’ve ever been. He takes your breath away completely and you don’t even want it back if it means you can’t have him.

Harry pulls away first, both your chests heaving wildly from the heavy make-out session and he looks down at you with hooded eyes.

“If you think I haven’t missed you like crazy… you can’t be more wrong, baby. I couldn’t stop thinking about you, I wanted to call you a thousand times and beg for you to come back to me, but I thought you already moved on.”

“Moving on?!” you huff with a tired smile. “Harry, I could never…”

“Alright, then I’m not letting you go again. No way you are walking out of this building without being mine again.”

A shiver runs down your spine at his words as you pull him down for another kiss, needing to feel his lips on yours.

“I never stopped being yours,” you whisper against his lips and he moans weakly before crashing his lips against yours again.

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elocinnicole · 2 years ago

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To Be Loved

Pairing: Rafael Casal x OFC Black!Reader (Lena Ellis) Rating: All can engage Summary: Rafa and Lena tried their best

It seemed like they were on different rhythms trying to catch the same beat but never quite being on key. With Rafa’s becoming busier and busier with his rising stardom and Lena’s increasingly popular talk show. They were finding it hard to have time for one another and it added a sharp note to their relationship.

“Okay so tomorrow we’re talking about the new Beyonce song and that Verzuz battle. We’re gonna play some games…” Lena zoned out as her cohost, Riley, listed off the agenda for the next taping of their show. She found herself doing that lately, her mind was elsewhere these past few days. She felt it, she knew Rafa could feel it too. They’ve been different. Nothing that will cause any animosity but enough to to drive a wedge between the two. They’ve been known as the couple that’s always in-sync with one another. Finishing each other’s sentences, having similar answers to various situations and scenarios. Even down to sometimes binge watching the same show or streaming similar artists on their respective streaming platforms.

“Lena, Lena!” Lena jumped and quickly took herself off of mute.

“Sorry, I’m here. What was the question?”

“Is someone distracting you?” The other cohost, Shamari, asked suggestively, Lena feigned laughter

“I asked you if you watched the Verzuz battle?”

“Um, yeah, I watched it with some friends.”

“Okay, so we’re gonna let you lead that topic.”

“Is that all guys? I have to get ready for some event with Rafa.”

“Yeah, we’re all done, you go do relationship shit with your boyfriend.” Riley joked making Lena playfully roll her eyes.

“Bye guys,” Lena waved before ending the Zoom call. She huffed looking at the time on her MacBook she didn’t feel like going but she had to support him. Despite the fact that he hasn’t been to one taping of her talk show but she’s not going to dwell on that. She has to start getting ready. Lena frowned, now that she thinks of it, she hasn’t heard from Rafa since he left this morning. She called Rafa to find out where he was and after one ring was sent to voicemail.

“Okay, so you’re wearing Oscar de la Renta, and the jewelry is Bulgari.” Lena’s stylist listed off who she was wearing, but the only thing on her mind was the nausea that was steadily growing as soon as Jason came to the hotel.

“Lena, you okay?”

“Yeah, I’m fine. I um, haven’t been feeling well lately.”

“Bitch you not pregnant are you?”

“No, I’m not pregnant,” Lena smiled sadly

“Oh shit, I’m sorry were you guys trying or something?” Jason said quickly

“Oh no, no, it’s just nothing. I’m fine Jason, really.” Jason gave her a questioning look before continuing fit her dress.

“What time are you guys supposed to be leaving?”

“In an hour,” she said dryly

“Where’s Rafa? He’s still gotta get dressed, the pants need to b hemmed,”

“I don’t know, that seems to be the case recently,” Lena said venomously, just then the sound of the door opening and closing could be heard from the bedroom of the hotel room. Rafa came rushing through the door, hair, and clothes disheveled.

“Babe,”

“Can you get dressed? We have to leave in an hour.”

“Lean,”

“Can you get dressed? We have to leave in an hour.” Lena stressed Rafa sighed heavily and eyed Jason.

“Your tux is in the bathroom, please be gentle.”

“Yeah, sure.” He mumbled brushing past Lena and straight to the bathroom.

“You guys okay?” Jason asked hesitantly

“Do you think we can take the dress in a bit up top? It’s a little loose.” Lena asked avoiding the question.

After Rafael got dressed Jason quickly fixed the hem of the suit before going on his way to check on another celebrity he was styling for the same event.

Lena fixed her hair in the mirror of the hotel lobby, not once has Rafael commented on her outfit. Usually, he can’t stop showering her with compliments and affirmations but nowadays it felt like pulling teeth to get him to smile at her. It’s not all on him though, she could say the same. She can’t remember the last time she said something nice about him. Seems like all they seem to do is argue and fuck.

Rafael jogged out of the hotel bathroom, the usual smile that was present in his eyes wasn’t there. There was nothing, emotionless like he was operating on auto-pilot.

“You ready?” He asked

“Yeah, I just saw the car pull up.”

The car ride to the red carpet was an awkward one, when they used to talk to each other and sneak kisses and subtle touches were replaced with silence and sitting on opposite sides of the car. When they finally reached the red carpet Rafa escorted Lena out of the car and they immediately put the mask on, they were both actors so it wasn’t hard to pretend for a few hours.

“Rafael! Over here,” A journalist called over, they both approached the journalist, phony smiles plastered on their face.

“How are you doing today?”

“I’m doing great, so excited to be here.”

“Lena, I first want to say you look amazing, who are you wearing?”

“Thank you, I’m wearing Osca de la Renta and Bulgari.” She said pleasantly. The interviewer asked Rafael a bunch of question about his various current and upcoming projects. The interview about almost over when the journalist asked one more question

“Okay, so we’ve all been wondering. Do we hear wedding bells in the distance?” Lena glanced at Rafael wondering how he was going to answer this question. If they were asked the same question last year then they both would’ve leaped at the chance to answer it.

“Um, uh you know I love Lena very much, she’s a beautiful person inside and out but only time will tell.”

‘Time will tell.'? That’s all she meant to him, if she could she would walk right off that red carpet and go back to the hotel. The journalist awkwardly laughed

“Well, that’s all we have time for. Thanks for stopping by.”

Rafa and Lena continued the night not really talking to one another only when needed. After the movie, they went straight to the after-party. In hindsight, they should’ve gone back to the hotel.

Lena sat in the lounge area of the party waiting for Rafa, he needed to use the restroom before they went to find their table. She checked her phone and noticed he’s been gone a long time, maybe there was a long line. Lena looked up from her phone when she heard footsteps approaching her. There was Rafa, but he had a drink in his hand. For him.

“Where were you?”

“After the bathroom, I went to get a drink,”

“You couldn’t text me if I wanted something.”

“Oh, um, my bad.”

“It’s fine, I’ll get one.” Lena stood and walked past him without as much as a second glance. Lena managed to squeeze her way to the crowded bar and waited to be serviced.

“Hey, can I get another Moscow Mule and add this lovely lady’s drink to my tab.” Lena’s head shot up when he realized the man next her was referring to her.

“I want a Moscow Mule,”

“Make that two, Moscow Mules.” The man said flashing his pearly white smile at Lena, making her blush. She had to admit he was very good looking and if she’s being honest, it’s been a while since Rafa’s looked at her that way.

“Thank you,” Lena smiled graciously

“You’re very welcome,”

“You’re either single or your boyfriend is dumb as hell.” The taller man joked, pulling a chuckle out of Lena

“I have a boyfriend,”

“Damn, if my girlfriend looked like that in that dress you’re wearing, she’d be on my arm the whole time. Shit, we’d probably never made it here in the first place.”

“Well, I’m here aren’t I?”

Rafa felt like shit, he could’ve at least bought her a drink. He sighed heavily leaving the table to try and catch Lena at the bar so he could pay for her drink. When he got to the bar area, he saw Lena engaged in conversion with some corny-ass dude. She didn’t need him to pay for her drink, after all, he scoffed before going back to the table.

“Thank you for the drink,”

“You’re welcome…” The man trailed off, wanting to know her name

“Lena,”

“Lena, the name certainly fits.” He said charmingly, his hand grazing her elbow

“Thank you…”

“Derek,” He smirked

“Have a great night,” Lena said walking back to find Rafa. When she got back he was nowhere to be found. She pulled out her phone and called him, after a few rings it went to voicemail. It was probably hard to hear over the music.

She walked over to the venue and finally saw him at a table, by himself. She thought they were going to find their seats together. She rolled her eyes in annoyance she couldn’t wait for this night to be over. When she sat down, she noticed the slight seat adjustment he made. Choosing to ignore it, she cleared her throat.

“Why’d you leave? I thought we we’re gonna find our seats together?”

“I wanted to place my dinner order, I didn’t do yours, I didn’t know what you wanted.” Lena exhaled sharply, growing annoyed with this attuned he had.

“That’s fine, I’ll order it when she comes back.”

It was now after midnight and Lena wanted to head back to the hotel. After they ate dinner, Rafa left the table to talk to some people in the business, which was hours ago. If she wanted to be alone she would’ve stayed at the hotel. Sighing, she grabbed her purse and went to look for her boyfriend. She found him by the bar talking to a mutual friend of theirs.

“Hey, Lena! Rafa didn’t say you were here.” Lena held back the hurt, he didn’t tell his friends she was here.

“Hey, nice to see you, Rob. Um, Rafa, can we go? I’m getting tired.”

“Uh, I’m not ready to leave yet, Lean.”

“I know, but I’m tired. I gotta do a taping tomorrow.”

“Well, you can go if you want. You have a hotel key right?” Lena gave a tight-lipped smile, fighting the urge to argue back with him.

“Yep, I’ll see you later.” Lena turned on her heels and stormed out of the party. Luckily, the streets were littered with taxis, and she didn’t feel like waiting for an Uber or Lyft.

It was well after 2 AM when Rafa came back to the hotel, he stopped upon entering the room. Lena sat in the living room of the suite, still in her dress but her bags were packed.

“What’s this?”

“I think,” Lena choked up, why was this suddenly so hard to say. She had been practicing in her head over and over how she would say this. Now her throat had closed up and her brains couldn’t form the words that she so desperately wanted to say.

“Lena, I know I haven’t been the best person to be around but we just gotta work at it. Maybe we can go to counseling or something.” Rafael kept listing everything that they could do but Lena just wanted him to stop.

“Rafael,” she finally said, like a string snapping, Rafa stopped all at once.

“Lena,” he breathed

“We haven’t been us.”

“What do you mean?” Lena sighed so he was going to make her say it like he’s been wanting oblivious or at least pretending.

“Please don’t make me say it, we both know…”

“Know what?” Rafael pressed

“Rafa, I-I think I should get a room…tonight.” Rafa clenched his jaw, something he only did when he was angry. He ran a hand through his hair.

“Is this about that guy from the bar?” Rafa said accusingly

“What?”

“I saw you and that guy at the bar you was all giggling and shit.” Lena scoffed she can’t believe he’s doing this right now.

“You don’t get to do that to me. What the fuck was ‘time will tell' about?”

“What the hell did you want me to say?” Lena opened her mouth and quickly closed it, not wanting to say anything that she would have to later apologize for.

“No, Lena, be honest with me. What did you want me to say?”

“Anything!” Lena sighed heavily as she rubbed her temples, this is the exact opposite of how she envisioned how this conversation would go.

"Come on Lean, you haven't been supportive of me these past few months." That made her raise an eyebrow

"Excuse me?"

"Ever since we've moved to LA, you've been dragging your feet and acting like you don't want to be here."

"Don't do that! Did you forget that I'm on a talk show? So I'm sorry I'm not waiting on my knees for you when you get home at night."

"That's not what I said!"

"You didn't have to say it! Let's not forget before the red carpets and hotels I was the one holding us down on my teacher's salary. Who was the one who stayed up late helping you out of your writer's block? Helping you write material, giving you ideas! So don't try to pretend I haven't been less than supportive because when no one else was there, I was there before that blue check was added to your name."

"I'm sorry," Rafa took a step toward Lena but she put her hand up. Not trusting herself if she'd allowed him to touch her, knowing how she melts into his embrace

"Please...just...don't," Lena said, voice wavering. Rafa walked over to her and placed her hands in his, rubbing small circles on the back of her palms. “I don’t want to give up on this…us, it’s Rafa and Lena. It's always been the two of us.” “Well, maybe it’s time for me to be Lena and you…” she trailed off, Rafa didn’t hold back the tears that brimmed his eyes. They touched foreheads, their lips ghosting over each other’s, barely touching.

“You know I love you?” Rafa said his voice wavering, Lena nodded her brain telling her not to say it back.

“Lena, you know I love you?” Rafa grabbed her chin, making her look up at him.

“I love you too,” she whispered back. Their lips met in a gut-wrenching kiss, they knew this would probably be the last time they’d be in each other’s arms. As much as it broke her heart, she backed away first before it got the chance to go any further.

“Goodbye, Rafa.” Lena grabbed her bags and hastily made her way to the door.

“Take care of yourself, Lena.” Lena gave her boyfriend of four years one last look before walking out and closing the door behind her. Leaving behind probably one of the greatest things that have ever happened to her.

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shinidamachu · 3 years ago

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I agree with all you said! Also, I really don’t think Inuyasha is as ignorant as he likes to give off sometimes. He’s been alive for a long time and I don’t think he’d be that oblivious to sex, not because he’s had it or is super interested in it, but because he’s probably picked up on a lot (I can only imagine what hanging out with Miroku without the girls would be like). And we all know he likes looking at Kagome naked. Like you said, he was the one who came on to Kagome and was essentially the pursuer, despite his usual awkwardness. He confessed his love for both Kikyo and Kagome when he courted them. The boy is brave and shoots for 10s, just look at his record lol Not to mention all the girls (and boy) that were hot for him throughout the show. Even in canon he has a ton of sex appeal.

I’ve seen some people say it’s ooc and cringe when writers/artists make him out to be some dirty talking dom that’s confident at sex and he would be more timid and perhaps selfish, but I don’t see see their point, even if we’re just going off of canon. He IS dominant. He’s dominated through sheer will at times, it’s just who he is. He never plays to be second best, and I don’t think sex would be an exception. He’s arrogant, but he’s actually extremely thoughtful and uses his power to protect and provide for the ones he cares about, especially Kagome. He mostly shows affection through actions, so I wouldn’t doubt he’d place a high value on physical intimacy and making Kagome (or any partner) feel good and loved in that sense. Not to mention how energetic, playful and open (when he’s comfortable) he is. And his foul mouth and rude ways 👀

My boy can FUCK, is my point lol. And yes, his hog is huge.

Definitelly agree that he must have unintentionally picked up on a lot of stuff about sex, I mean, not even Shippo, who was just a little kis, was totally oblivious to sex.

Not only does he enjoy see Kagome nakes, as much as he tries to deny it or be respectful about it, but he also canonically had dirty thoughts that one time she cuddled up to him for protection.

As for Inuyasha being dominant, I love that as much as the next person and this is exactly what he is, most of the time. But just because he is dominant in every other aspect of his life, doesn't necessarily mean he would be dominant when it comes to sex too. Sometimes you gotta let go of control at little. Maybe sex is the way for him to do that.

I mean... He sure took his sweet time letting Kagome be on top of him here when he could easily have removed her at any moment if he really wanted to:

There's also the "tell me... to sit" bit. So even if he is dominant, I like to think he also loves letting Kagome take charge. And I think she did, especially in the beginning of their physical relationship, since he would probably still have some intimacy issues and wouldn't want to hurt Kagome or condemn her to be the "half breed's" wife.

But once this is out of the way and he no longer feels akward about it or like he has to hold back...

She's in for the ride of her life.

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hyenahunt · 3 years ago

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Shu Itsuki - 3* Feature Scout: Heard All About You

Writer: Yuumasu

Season: Summer

Characters: Shu, Jun

Proofreading: 310mc (JP) & hyenahunt + FleetingMelody (ENG)

Translation: hyenahunt & FleetingMelody

Shu: Oshi-- Non, I do not ever recall being such a thing where you’re concerned.

Location: Starmony Hall Common Room

Shu: ...Phew, I’ve finally arrived at the dormitory.

Despite it being for the sake of our performance, transporting this much luggage every single time remains a hardship.

However, I see no alternative. Should even a single implement from this trunk be missing, Valkyrie’s artistry would be incomplete.

Mademoiselle: “Say, Shu-kun. Before going to our room, why don't we have the croissants we just bought?”

“There’s nobody else here, so we can take it easy!”

Shu: You certainly have a point, Mademoiselle. I can warm the croissants in the oven, and we can partake of some beverages as well.

I shall head to the kitchen to make the necessary arrangements. You may remain here and wait quietly.

Mademoiselle: “Got it. Take care, Shu-kun♪”

Jun: (...Whew, managed to nab a convenience store lunch that some famous chef had a hand in.)

(I went all the way out just to get it, so there'd be no damn point if I came back empty-handed.)

(I had a time going up and down a dozen places thanks to that, though. Oh well, food tastes best when you're hungry.)

Alrighty then, time to dig in!

...Wait, huh?

(There're quite a few big suitcases sitting around. Not to mention, isn't that doll...)

Ooh, you've gotta be the rumoured Madonee-san. 'Sup~

Jun: ...?

No reply, huh... Heeey, Madonee-san~?

Are you not feeling well? Hellooo~?

Shu: —Just what do you think you’re doing, boy?

Jun: Waaagh?

Ahh, aren't you the Oshi-san I've heard so much about?

Shu: Oshi-- Non, I do not ever recall being such a thing where you’re concerned.

Jun: Right, sorry 'bout that. My name's...

Shu: There’s no need to introduce yourself, Sazanami from Eden. Despite me never once asking, Saegusa has spoken of you regardless.

However, what I know of you begins and ends with the fact that we belong to the same agency.

That aside, what business do you have with my Mademoiselle? And what, praytell, have you “heard so much about” where I’m concerned? Has someone been spreading rumors around?

Jun: Woah, what's with the rapidfire questions...

I've just heard about you from Kagehira-san, Oshi-sa... I mean, Itsuki-senpai.

Shu: Kagehira, you say? Then, have you and that child been mingling with each other?

Jun: Yep. Or to be precise, we really only just started talking recently.

I had a chat with him while he was stuck planning for his next performance or something, and we wound up hitting it off pretty well.

It's pretty funny how all that Kagehira-san talks about is Oshi-san this and Oshi-san that. Well, not that I'm in any position to talk, myself.

But yeah, even though we haven't had a chance to meet 'til now, I've heard so much about you that I feel like I already know you, Itsuki-senpai.

— Whoops, sorry to keep you standing around talking. Your croissants are gonna get cold.

I was just about to dig into my own lunch. D'you mind if I join you?

Shu: Do as you please. I have no right to limit your actions.

Jun: Cool, thank you very much.

Shu: ...On that note. What kinds of things has Kagehira been saying about me?

Jun: Hmm, you curious? He's said so much that I don't remember every lil' thing, but...

He's told me that he really respects you, that he aspires to be like you, and —

That he wants to become such an artist that you'd feel no shame standing beside him... stuff like that.

Shu: ...Hmph. That’s easier said than done. For all that, he'll hardly gain a thing from being all talk and no action.

Well, then. We're done with our meal, so if you’ll excuse us.

Jun: Ahh, please hang on just a sec. I'm gonna be done in a sec, too.

All that luggage over there's yours, yeah? I'll help you take it to your room.

Shu: You will…?

Jun: 'Course. I'm used to lugging Ohii-san's stuff around, after all. Though um, I know it might be a lil' much to ask, but in return...—

Itsuki-senpai, you're the one who makes all of Valkyrie's outfits, right? Wouldja teach me how to repair stuff like torn sleeves and side seams?

I've got an outfit I like that's just a bit frayed, y'see. Since I'm not gonna use it anymore, I feel a lil' awkward asking CosPro staff for help.

So I wanna patch it up on my own, instead. It's got all these memories tied to it, too, so it'd be nice if I could fix it up into a good condition for storage while I'm at it.

Shu: I see. That reasoning does sound like an acceptable exchange to me. It’s always beneficial to look after your belongings.

However. If you desire to be taught by yours truly, I refuse to compromise, regardless of who you may be. I suggest you prepare yourself.

Jun: Haha, ready whenever you are. Man, you're really just as Kagehira-san says.

Shu: ...What, exactly, did that child say?

Jun: That Oshi-san won't permit even the tiniest of mistakes, and he's that strict with both himself and those around him — but when it matters most, he's a kindhearted person who'll offer a hand out to you.

Though well, according to him you've been so kind lately that he's actually been feeling like something's missing ♪

Shu: ...Kagehira is getting rather impertinent.

I shall need to educate him properly so as to avoid anything about me being blown out of proportion!

Jun: ...Madonee-san, he's just hiding his embarrassment, isn't he?

Shu: Sazanami, don’t you dare speak to Mademoiselle without permission!

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✦ all ✦

#jun sazanami #shu itsuki #enstars #ensemble stars #enstars translation #type: idol story #era: !!#hyenahunttl

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jess-the-vampire · 3 years ago

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honestly i’m not even sure i should be talking about it, i guess i just feel better to mention it then bottle it up to people who might be wondering

personal stuff under the cut

i’ve had some people recently try to send me moringmark comics, or link me to posts that he’s made and so on and so forth and it’s cool and i appreciate it cause i love when people send me to new works and stuff.....i just wish i was able to really respond to them like i can with others.

mark blocked me guys, at least here on tumblr (Everywhere else i’m fine for some reason), i can’t view any posts of his and haven’t for awhile.

While we were friends a few years ago, but things have changed since i was helping him with his star vs comics.

back a few years ago when mark’s tumblr got randomly deleted, i was trying to contact him to make sure he was ok and nothing happened and all that and....ever since then he’s never spoken to me.

He kinda...ghosted me, and he has since then.

this was our last exchange:

I never got a reason why, one day we were talking fine and the next he was well....not speaking to me. I didn’t want to spam him so i would try again every few days, then weeks, then months....just with conversation starters....nothing accusatory, i just wanted to check up on him and everything.

I tried contacting him on other Sms and everything but i never got a response, and for awhile i thought maybe he was busy and i was kinda sorta bothering him so i gave him space and tried again months later.....and yeah, he never said anything.

i tried sending him apologies if i said something wrong, i tried asking if he wanted to talk and see what was happening, i was willing to accept if maybe i had said something hurtful and he no longer wanted to be in contact with me.

Because maybe i did at one point and if i did i wanted to own up to it to him because i liked being his friend and wanted to keep being his friend.

but as far as i can tell we had nothing but polite conversation with each other.

And after awhile it started to feel, at least to me, like he was purposefully shoving me to the side and ignoring me. First he stopped following me, then he had a whole comic about the art programs he was using which felt awkward to me because i was actually the person who introduced him to medibang

not that i needed to be credited for it, obviously, i guess it just felt weird at the time when he mentioned how much he loved it and then just never mentioned i had been the one to introduce him to it. It only came off as weird as it did because i was being ghosted, i probably wouldn't have cared at all if we had been still in contact.

it kinda makes looking at any comics i ever do get to see of his surreal, because i think to an extent “i helped make this.”

I guess it hurts more now looking back, because now i just kinda feel.....used.

Because i never was told why i was being ghosted i’ve been just kinda left to speculate what i did, and sometimes when you’re left thinking like that your mind makes you wonder if he was never my friend in the first place.

or if i felt differently about the friendship then he did.

i helped with ideas for his star vs comics for awhile, got him into a new art program, then all of a sudden he just.....pretended i didn’t exist....it’s...y’know, sad and makes you think.

And it’s upsetting too because i had a very positive experience working with mark briefly, talking about the show and ideas for projects, when this happened i was heartbroken.

Also he never really finished that specific comic so i don’t know if i should be credited for the help exactly, i don’t know if he ever got to most of my ideas.

at most i helped him find artists and their ocs for him to draw and that was the biggest contribution i had that i can at least recall.

Point being tho, it felt hurtful to me, because of course it feels hurtful to feel like you made a friend and helped them and then they pretend you never existed.

But even after this had been happening for a few years i still was giving him the benefit of the doubt because i still wanted to think i was misinterpreting the situation and maybe i still am....

but when i found out he blocked me now as well, i gotta admit, i lost faith on that.....

i only mention all of this at all, because i used to say i really respected mark like a lot, as a creator in the star vs fandom, and that’s still not entirely gone either....but i have to admit....i’ve soured on him....a lot since this happened.

i don’t want anyone going after him or anything (Though i doubt he’d listen to it anyway he’s got so much on his blog it’d drown in the notes, but still, don’t), i just wanted to address why you’ve never seen his content on my blog despite us being friends awhile ago, why i barely talk about him, why i may sometimes get uncomfortable when he’s brought up.

it’s been pretty upsetting tbh, because friends turning on me is something i’m uncomfortably used to happening and it gives me serious anxiety about me being a bad friend or hurting ppl because i’ve had so much bad experience with friendships with rather toxic ppl.

honestly if mark showed up today in my dms and said something to me and why he did all this i’d probably forgive him if he had a reason and i was just being silly or something. But because of how limited the information is for me, i’m sadly left to think of the worst and there’s not much here making it any better.

he’s a very creative guy and he does deserve his following.

but as is, i just wanted to address that our relationship as friends has changed a lot since i talked about it last and why things may seem off these days so people can get a better grasp on what happened.

i feel it’s better i address it then not address it.

the guy doesn’t owe me anything, i just felt personally betrayed as a friend that i at least wasn’t given an explanation for him cutting our relationship how he did.

it is how it is tho, he may never contact me again, especially now that i know he blocked me, and it does make me sad tbh. I did like being his friend and i wish we were still friends, but this seems to be out of my control, he pushed me away and blocked me for whatever reason and i’ve just had to deal with it.

i’ve been trying to move on from it, i have not attempted to contact him in over a year at this point, but it’s hard to avoid thinking of it when he’s as popular as he is.

but i hope this helps give you all an understanding on things and why we don’t seem to be as close as we used to.

#jess's random posts #jess rambles

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here2bbtstrash · 2 years ago

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jack in the box thoughts if u care. warning this got long as hell and obviously i am reading potentially sus english translations soooo take all of this with many large pinches of salt. JUST LET ME LIVE, I LOVE TO ANALYZE SHIT OKAY.

god i really love this intro a lot. it's giving audiobook in the car lmao but i do think it's the perfect introduction to the concepts of the album for those who are maybe unfamiliar

"hope gave people the will to carry on living amidst the pain and strife" no lies detected

okay but his TONE on pandora's box and the way his voice gets more and more intense it's like.... you can hear the pressure of all of it building. omg. ALSO THIS FUCKING CHORUS.

fucking hell i love this style of music for him it puts his unique and versatile voice on display so well. nothing to distract from it.

more dance break ✨✨✨ still such a banger ugh

OKAY THE BEAT OF STOP..... and wow these lyrics. "there are no bad people in the world" i'm sorry did y'all hear that???? pretty sure jung hoseok just said transformative justice???? abolish prisons and policing?????? ahem sorry i'll stop

AHHHH I WASN'T READY FOR = (equal sign)

HE SAID TRANSCEND/BEYOND GENDER..... I'M ASCENDING......... i'm ready for the post-gender future,, hoseok take me with u 🥺

oh my god his VOICE and the VIBE of this chorus...... give it to me 90s fantasy!!!! I NEED MORE HOBI FALSETTO ALL THE TIME WHY HAS HE BEEN HIDING THIS FROM US i'm driving directly to hybe to FIGHT SOMEONE

music box: reflection ...... *chuckles* i'm in danger (DO IT HOBI UNLEASH THE SLEEP PARALYSIS DEMON DO IT DO IT)

oh my artistic analysis ass is LIVING for this directly after equal sign so much to fucking UNPACK abt the concepts of equality vs. like, actual justice OOH OOH OOOOOOOH

damn i literally just had to take a breather when what if... started. no offense to those who love it but sooome of the lyrics in equal sign rang a teensy bit hollow to me (i am sooooo over the 'we are one race 😌 the human race 😌' crap ya know,, although there were definitely a lot of great parts abt respecting differences/not needing to all be absolutely the same in there too! i am not dragging the song lol!!!)

and for him to turn around and slap us in the face with THIS?????? oh i am RIGHT THERE WITH U HOBI omfg. like IT'S NOT THAT SIMPLE....

HE REALLY SAID MAYBE IT'S ABT MY PRIVILEGE AND NOT JUST MY WILL OH MY GOD. KING SHIT.

"I wonder what hardships and ordeals mean to you Since you only walked up intact stairs" !!!!!!!!!!! JUNG HOSEOK

holy fuck i need someone to come hold my hand. i may not survive to the end of this album.

god this idea that it's so fucking easy to talk abt hope and optimism (and yes, equality!!!) when you live a privileged life. i'm literally about to fucking cry. i love it so much i cannot BREATHE.

thank god for the whiplash of safety zone i need these tears to go back up into my eyeballs lmao

ooooof these lyrics tho. i have so many feelings abt celebrity/idol culture and gosh i just wanna give him a hug. it's gotta be so hard to feel like there are so few people you can trust and be entirely safe around or even just points where you feel like you can actually REST (my trauma brain sure knows that firsthand 🤪 and honestly i'd imagine being an idol impacts the brain similarly to complex trauma..... i am js,, we can unpack that later if y'all want)

"I like animals better than people these days" - felt, hobi, felt.

future is such a cute lil bop aaa! i appreciate him reminding us that HE needs to be given hope too 💜 AS I CANCER I CAN RELATE TO ENDLESSLY GIVING.... you gotta help yourself before you can help others babe!!!!

this song is so lovely ~ it's giving positive nihilism ✨ and that sometimes it's okay to take the next step even if you don't know what's coming and you're scared. i hope he feels this way about the hiatus honestly 🥺 babe absolutely deserves it

ugh and arson as a closer feels so damn correct. i watched the MV already so it's not my first time hearing it but this after everything else we just went through...... it's so fucking perfect. burn down all the shit that no longer serves you.

and i also just love the metaphor of everything he's been through being like arson bc it's like, sure, "i set the fire".... but obv he (and all of bangtan) had NO IDEA it would get as big as it has (like any out of control fire).... really i'm sure they felt like they *had* no control after a certain point. seriously the perfect metaphor for it. uncontrolled burn that eventually either has to burn out or keep going and engulf the mf world. and i trust them to make the right choice. 💜

damn alright well. i have tears in my eyes still. what a fantastic fucking album. i am so proud of / in love with this man. and 'what if' is OBVIOUSLY my favorite song it's not even fucking close sdjfkljsf

DAMN LOLLAPALOOZA MIGHT ACTUALLY KILL ME

#mposting #hope u enjoyed my essay✨#it got unhinged once what if.... came on #i'll never be over that song holy shit

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infinitegalahad · 3 years ago

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GENERATION KILL: COMFORTING THERE PARTNER

"This is just me formally submitting a request for that gk boys offering their own forms of comfort fic/ headcanon/ thoughts wtevr. Lol just as a reminder. 😀"@theboardwalkbody

Gif Credit: @ymagor

A/N: You're wish is my command, homes❣️ Here's a little change of pace! @theboardwalkbody inspired this post (and asked it!), so thanks for the Inspo friend! 🤩 I'm doing this for BoB and TP because I'm going through a slight writer's block and instead of thinking about long descriptions, I just wanna so head canons that get a little out of hand. I hope this isn't too ooc😔 Reader has *inserted mental illness* btw, it's up for interpretation! ALSO GN! READER! Enjoy!

Taglist: @theboardwalkbody @contrabandhothead

Masterlist

NATE FICK-

Nate's a calculated person. He can see the patterns in people, things, etc. Like how his father's eyebrows wrinkle when he's excited, or when his mother likes to prep a meal from vegetables to the main course. So when you're happy, sad, whatever-he knows it, and you don't even have to tell him.

He'll come home and see you. He knows that you've heard him calling you're name, but you don't move. He looks all over the house and finds you inside of your tub, just sitting there with no response. The water is running, and your clothes and hair are soaked.

So in an attempt to not disrupt your peace, Nate climbs in and sits next to you. You look over and he's stares at you. Just as your about to speak, he beats you to it.

"I'll get you a towel and some clothes."

And then, he just leaves. You hear the door quietly shut, and you blink for a few seconds. What the hell just happened? It snapped you out of your depressive trance. Now instead of feeling sad-you just were confused.

So you hear the door lightly open again and then close. After a few more minutes of soaking, you get out and see a towel and a set of clothes that are most certainly not yours. It's Nate's Dartmouth Lacrosse sweater and a pair of underwear-he knows you too well.

So you exit the bathroom and you see Nate, putting two cups down of you're favorite tea

And he's got that face. You know the face were he's like ☹️

"Hey, c'mere."

The two of you climb into bed with eachtoher. He throws one of those ugg blankets over you. You rest his head in his chest and he pats your head. There's a silence, until Nate says, "Do you wanna walk about it."

Normally, you'd say no and he'd read you a book you're reading or hold you as you cry, but this time, it's different.

"Yeah, I do. You won't judge, right?"

Nate tilts you chin up, and he's got a tired smile on his face.

"Why would I?"

BRAD COLBERT-

Brad may appear horrible with emotions and reading the room...in which he isn’t

Okay, scratch that. He tries to understand them, it’s just hard for him to give advice and use words to comfort you. He feels like he’s walking on glass, But sometimes, you just need him psychically more then anything.

When you storm out of a room when Chaffin makes a comment on your weight, Brad takes a few minutes to think what he should do.

Normally, he’d just leave you be, but he’s gotta do something. Getting up, he follows you down the hallway. You’re not far, and he’s calling you’re name.

You stop in the hallway, wiping the tears coming down toye face. Brad turns you around with his hands on your shoulder. He’s got a blank face on as he looks at you, seeing your red face and the tears.

While you sob and stutter, he fixes the collar of your shirt, tucks your hair behind your ear, which is normal. He likes to neaten you up to make you feel better.

But he starts to use his thumb, wiping the tears coming down your face. You shocked as he cups your face, making you look into those icy cold eyes. He looks like the Iceman, cold and emotionless, but what he says very Brad.

“You’re beautiful.”

Then he pulls you into a tight grasp. He’s a whole foot taller then you, and you like the way he snakes his hands around his waist and slightly lifts off you your feet. His sheer presence is intimating, but for you; comforting.

RAY PERSON-

THIS MAN. although a hick with a big mouth, he does know when to shut up and can read you’re emotions like the back of his hand.

He can just see the sadness swelling in your eyes and the way you pick at the foot at your plate and avoid all of needs for cuddles in bed. Heck, it’s making Ray sad.

So he does what he does best-not shutting up, well-about things he likes about you.

“Man! Look at my hot girlfriend/wife! There reading books by the liberal media, total smartie here! Oh! And they have a degree from-“

Ray will also beg for to your attention and follows you around like a puppy. Like you’ll be sitting on the couch and he’ll come rest his head on your lap. You ignore him, but he starts to twist and quote random movies so you finally give in.

Is Ray annoying? Yes. But did he make you smile? Also yes.

Also Ray is a cook, and knows all of your favorite meals. Of course, he sets the table, lights a few Mantown candles (yes there real google them), and comes to serve your meal with two plates.

“The most beautiful man/woman I have ever seen, the love of my life, the apple of my eye, the Avril to my Bizzy D-you’re hot pockets.”

It makes you laugh, which makes Ray happy. He feeds off of that attention. You sit in Ray’s lap, eating hot pockets, and watching The Best Damn Tour. You lean on Ray’s shoulder, and he leans right back.

POKE ESPERA-

Alexa play Whatta Man’ by Salt-N-Peppa BECAUSE! WHAT! A! MAN!

Poke is one tough mofo. He embodies the meme of “Good morning to my beautiful wife/husband and child everybody else get fucked”.

But like every baddie; baddie’s gotta have soft spots for there bitches. He has two; you and his daughter. And oh god he’s love the two of more then anything in the world.

Poke knows you and his daughter well enough. His daughter first notices that your not as enthusiastic and bubbly, and then she tells Poke. But Poke already knows because he’s observant and very in touch with his emotions.

So when he’s a work; he thinks and does a lot of self reflection. He wonders why you’re upset. Did he cause it? What can he do to make it better? He asks all the guys for advice, and even his own daughter.

An idea strikes! Poke’s got a lot of anger, so his therapist told him to express his emotions by journalling. But Poke learns that it helps him get everything out of system, so he’s a secret writer. Heck, he even likes poetry; and would kill anyone if they’d find out.

While off at work, small letters start to appear across you’re house. Some are long, some are short, but there sweet and make you’re day.

“I held the stars in my arms wen I held you”

“I can’t wait to kiss you.”

“Your eyes stole all of my words away”

And the covers of the notes are done by Poke’s daughter, covered in glitter and Lisa Frank stickers.

You confront Poke about this “mysterious pen pal” and Poke is like “I mean, your lips do sound tempting”

You know it’s Poke, and he knows it, but there’s something about the mystery that is very romantic.

WALT HASSER-

Here comes our favourie country pumpkin

Now let me say. This man LOVES you more then anything the world

Doesn’t wanna show you off (but he does)

So when you’re the slightest bit sad, Walt is even sadder then you are

Walt is someone that lives to receive attention, and also he’s someone that likes to give it. Especially to the love of his life!

Walt gives you things you actually need, and nothing that is materialistic. Growing up, his parents had a healthy relationship, and the apple clearly doesn’t fall far from the tree.

Waits on you hand and foot. A back massage? Done. A fuzzy blanket? Right on it! A specific burger from a joint that is thirty minutes away at three in the morning? Walt’s driving like a manic just for you. You have the man’s undivided attention.

“Walt?”

He stops whatever he’s doing and runs over, getting on his knees, “Yeah, what’s up baby?”

“Can you sing the song? Y’know, our song?”

Walt nods his head, now an eager puppy, and gets his gutair to play the song he wrote especially for you. And this is making me realize how painfully single I am oh my

RUDY REYES-

Rudy has an iv of respect woman/men juice. He always understands the assignment-and desires extra credit.

So whenever you’re down in the dumps, Rudy will drop everything and drag you into the car to go walk on his favorite trail. It’s ten miles long, but Rudy is a fitness freak.

First, you hate doing it. But the more you talk these long walks, the more you begin to enjoy it.

Sometimes there silence. Rudy won’t speak force you to talk. Talking is stressful, and Rudy will wait until you’re ready. The two of you holds hands, and Rudy has such a calming presence. It’s really hard to get angry at him.

You finally speak and tell Rudy you’re problems, and he listens and doesn’t interrupt. He’s got a hand on you’re lower back, or on your thigh. He’s basically you’re emotional support teddy bear and will always be a lending ear, or a total cuddle monster.

Rudy has the best advice as well. It’s always some yoga shit, but damn, those breathing exercises do actually help.

EVAN “Q-TIP” STAFFORD-

Oh Q-Tip. My feral goblin son😭

I love him, but sometimes-things can fly over his head.

But when you start to ignore him and hide away from him, he begins to notice. And he HATES IT.

Like Christianson will ask him if he’s okay and he’ll literally quote a 2pac song and be like,

“I would drop all my girls for you, Walk barefoot 'round the world for you, Fly around like the birds for you, Thats why I wrote these words for you..”

Lilley is like “Brah we gotta help a homie out”

So the three stooges create Lovegate. The mission? to make Q-Tip’s partner happier.

Q-Tip is very artistically inclined. So with Christenson’s editing skills and Lilley’s camera, Q-Tip writes you a song and does a whole music video.

The man rents out a movie theatre venue just to show you. Of course, you’re blown away. It’s horrible and you can taste the autotone, BUT IT’S THE EFFORT THAT COUNTS. and q-tip has that smile on. you know what i’m talking about!

Doc Bryan walks in on the two of you making out and is pissed since all he wanted to do was see the re-screening of Bridemaids but NO, Q-Tip just had to rent out a theatre to show his partner a music video about them and then make out.

He see’s Lilley, who’s recording and asks to interview what Doc’s opinion on the music video, and this is what he’s says.

“I think my ears bled, but thank fuck those two aren’t acting like emo’s.”

DOC BRYAN-

The gif has a purpose. Trust me. SPEAKING OF THE MAN OF THE HOUR

Bryan, like Poke, is a very observant guy. He’s an angry motherfucker, and even a little insensitive, but ever since dating you; he’s tried to change.

He hates the world. People are shitty, and it makes him feel shitty that you’re sad because when you feel shitty, he’s in a shitter mood then he’s usually in

Knowing that his words might sound a little harsh, Byran knows how to distract you. Without words. After all, he didn’t work out for nothing.

Long hugs are you’re thing. The two of you will run into eachother, find a private place, and he’ll just wrap his arms around you. His big arms are protective, and he’s warm, and you just sink into him.

Sometimes, you’ll fall asleep. Byran sometimes will fall asleep with you, other times he’ll gently lay you down and put a blanket with a gentle forehead kiss.

When you cry in his arms, he’ll wipe the tears away. He can feel them against his arm, and he doesn’t know what to do. Crying girls/guys are not his speciality.

But when you squeeze his arm back, to let you know what your there and that you love him, Byran will freeze. He has no idea what to next with words. He’ll put his hand over yours, and turns out; it works well.

After this is all over, he’ll check up on you and ask you simply if you’re okay. You respond with a smile. Byran isn’t one for smiles, but for you, he shows a subtle smile back. Just to let you know.

#carrie writes #carrie’s headcanons #generation kill #nate fick #brad colbert #ray person #poke espera #walt hassar #rudy reyes #evan stafford #doc bryan #generation kill x reader #generation kill headcanons #generation kill imagine #hbo war

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your-nerd-is-showing · 4 years ago

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Gaara x Reader: Desert Flower

I simp for many many anime men Naruto will always be one of my all time favorite fandoms! Especially Gaara 🥵

Credit to Artist

You were walking down the street with Temari and Kankuro on your way to buy dinner for you and Gaara.

“So (Y/N) are you ever going to tell Gaara how you feel about him?” Asked Temari

You looked at her shocked. “But-but how d-did you know?”

“Come on (Y/N)!” Started Kankuro. “It’s obvious! Both Temari and I see the way you look at him. You’re in love with Gaara aren’t you?”

“Shhhhhh!” You turned bright red and sushed Kankuro as if Gaara was listening. “Ye-yes I’m in-in l-lo-love with G-Gaa-Gaara.” You stammered and looked at the ground as you twiddled your fingers. “But I don’t think he feels the same way.” You sighed and hung your head in defeat.

Temari and Kankuro looked at each other and laughed.

You looked up at them and got a bit angry. “Hey now! What’s so funny!” You shouted in a huff.

Kankuro patted your head. “Silly (Y/N), I think Gaara has the same feelings for you.”

You looked at Kankuro with question “What makes you say that?”

“We know our brother very well.” Started Temari. “He never lets anyone in…. We’re his own siblings and we only know some of the pain he holds inside…. You’re the only outsider he has ever trusted (Y/N)…. The fact that he made you his right hand and head of his security shows how much he trusts you…. You wandering into our village and meeting Gaara was the best thing for him…. Ever.”

“Oh my I was only seven when I wandered into the Sand Village so eleven years ago because I’m eighteen now…. Actually today is the day I met Gaara all those years ago….”

“Wait you were seven and you made it through the desert from the Mist Village?”

“Yes I was wandering the desert for about a week or so if I remember correctly. When I came upon the village Gaara was outside the walls, he looked at me very confused that a little girl just came out of nowhere from the cruel unforgiving desert. I simply walked up to him and asked if he would be my friend.” You smiled. “And he said yes. I feel like in a way he respected me from the beginning because I was so young and survived a week long journey by myself. Watching him over the years he truly tried to make connections with the people of the village but everyone was so scared of him.” A tear slid down your cheek. “In a way I knew how he felt…. My clan we were trained to be human weapons from a very young age. I was an outcast from the time I was born… my parents showed me no love no compassion…. I hated it! I just wanted to be loved like a child should! What my parents put me through no child should have to endure. So I left I wanted no part of my family and I got as far away as I could….” You started to cry a little. “seeing the same pain in Gaara’s eyes…. I just wanted to take his pain away….. I want…. I want to show him what it is like to be loved unconditionally by someone…. What it means to be something precious to someone…. He deserves someone who can give him the world….” You paused and smiled at the siblings. “I want to be that person.”

“Wow (Y/N) you have some pretty intense feelings for Gaara…. I knew you loved him but I didn’t know it was that deep.” Said Kankuro.

“All that and so much more….” You paused again. “But I’m too chicken shit to say anything.” You sighed in frustration. “Temari, Kankuro do you have any suggestions to give me the courage I need?”

Temari smirked and pulled a bottle of sake out. “Why yes I do! Here!” She handed you the bottle. “Drink this at dinner tonight with Gaara.”

You looked at her confused. “Sake? What’s this going to do?”

“Liquid courage as I call it!” Kankuro said.

Temari nodded in agreement. “Bring this along with his favorite food to eat for dinner and let the sake do the talking.” She smile and winked at you.

You looked at her wide eyed. “Really you think this will work?”

“Without a doubt!” Replied Kankuro.

You hugged the siblings. “Thank you so much for this! You two are the best! I still gotta go get dinner for Gaara and I! I’ll catch up with you two tomorrow and let know how things went!” You waved goodbye.

“Good luck!” They said in unison.

You made your way to the market to get Gaara’s favorite food, salted tongue and gizzard. “Yuck I don’t know how he eats this stuff!” You said as you stuck up your nose. You bought yourself pork dumplings and hurried your way back to Gaara’s office.

You knocked on the door as you opened it. “Gaara I’m back with dinner! I ran into your siblings and they gave me a treat to share with you too!” You smiled at Gaara as you held out the bottle of sake.

Gaara let out a small snort. “They really are trying to get me and (Y/N) together aren’t they…. To go to the extent of getting my favorite bottle of sake….” Gaara thought to himself.

“Gaara?” You said breaking his thoughts. “Are you all done with your paperwork?”

He looked up at you. “No…. Not quite yet…. Why do you ask?”

You poured both you and Gaara a shot of sake. “I don’t want your dinner to get cold silly. I got your favorite! Salted tongue and gizzards.”

Gaara looked at you and smiled a small smile. “She’s so thoughtful.” He thought to himself.

“Thank you (Y/N).”

“You’re very welcome.” You smiled at Gaara and cheered him as you both took a shot of sake. “Yum this stuff is pretty good.” You said as you poured another shot for the two of you.

Gaara let out a small chuckle. “You don’t drink often do you?” He asked.

“No this is actually my first time drinking…. What about you?”

“I don’t drink often but when I do it’s this sake. It’s my favorite.”

You smiled and cheered him again before taking the shot. You felt your head get warm and fuzzy as your cheeks flushed a light pink. You let out a small cute hiccup. “Woah I can feel that already.” You said before you hiccupped again. “Come on Gaara let’s eat I’m sure you’re just as hungry as me.” You tugged on his sleeve trying to get him to come sit on the couch with you.

“Hold on a minute I’m almost done.” He replied as he locked eyes with you.

“Okay I’ll go set the table for us then.” You started to walk to the table but Gaara stopped you. “Nani? What is it Gaara?” You looked at him with question as you sat on his desk.

“No stay here…. Next to me (Y/N).”

Your cheeks turned to a shade of red. “O-okay….” You sat there and stared at Gaara as he finished up his paperwork.

“There all done…. Let’s eat.” He put his paperwork away and followed you to the couch.

“I’m sorry it’s not homemade but you know that I don’t like to leave you alone for long. I did go to your favorite place though.” You said as you set out the food.

“No its fine I really appreciate everything you do for me (Y/N).” He looked at you and smiled slightly.

You smiled back. “Good I’m glad…. You know Gaara I would do anything for you….” You blushed and quickly took a shot of sake.

He looked at you shocked. “Y-you would?”

Your eyes widened as you blushed more and nodded your head. “Yes I-I would.”

Gaara took your hands in his. “Thank you (Y/N) that means a lot to me.”

You were at a loss for words and stuck in a daze when Gaara held your hands.

“(Y/N)? I-I….” Gaara stammered as his cheeks flushed pink.

You inched closer to his face. “Yes? What is it Gaara?”

Gaara took a deep breath in and composed himself before taking another shot. “I-I….” He sighed.

You cupped his face with your hand. “What is it Gaara?” You asked him as you searched his eyes.

“I think I need to drink more before I say what I want to say.” He poured you and him another shot. “Here.” He handed you the sake.

You smiled and cheered him. “Let’s eat!” You said as you dug into your dumplings. You looked at Gaara and he just stared at his food. “Is something wrong? Did it get to cold?”

He shook his head. “No…. It’s not that I’m just not hungry. My stomach is doing flips right now.” He took another shot of sake.

“Are you okay? Do you feel sick?” You asked concerned as you held your hand to his forehead to see if he had a fever.

“No I don’t feel sick…. I’m just…. I’m just nervous.” He took another shot.

“Nervous about what?” You looked at him confused.

“(Y/N).” He held your hand and brushed your cheek with his other hand.

You turned about eight shades of red. “Ga-Gaara wh-what are you doing?” You downed another shot.

He leaned in closer to you. “I want to be with you (Y/N)….” Your eyes widened in wonder as those words came out of Gaara’s mouth. “I want to feel the warmth of your breath on my skin…. I want to feel your heart race when I touch you…. You make me happy in a way I can’t explain…. When I am with you everything just makes sense…. You have seen me at my absolute worst and you never left my side…. You were never scared of me…. You are something so precious to me. I can’t…. I can’t imagine my life without you in it…. You helped pull me out of the darkness and set me on the right path…. For that I want to give you everything (Y/N). I-I’m in love with you.”

You looked at Gaara longingly and couldn’t stop smiling. “G-Gaa-Gaara…. I-I feel the same w-way….” You cleared your throat. “Ever since I have known you all I ever saw in your eyes was pain. I never got scared of you because you acted out because of that pain…. That loneliness…. I know what it is like to be alone and seen as a weapon…. As a monster…. All I’ve ever wanted was to take your pain away. You deserve to be loved unconditionally Gaara. You too are something very precious to me.”

Gaara pulled you in close and kissed you passionately. You locked lips and searched his mouth with your tongue as he explored yours.

You broke the kiss and couldn’t stop smiling. “Gaara I love you too.”

He smiled at you as he leaned in for another kiss, he wrapped his arms around you and pulled you onto his lap. You lifted your leg over him and straddled his waist. Gaara broke the kiss and rested his lips near the nape of your neck. You shivered with pleasure as you felt him lightly nip at your skin.

“Mmmmm Gaara….” You moaned out.

“Do you like that?” He asked.

“Mhm….”

He bit your neck a bit harder this time making you moan louder.

You let out a small gasp as you felt a growing bulge between his legs. “Is he…. Getting turned on?” You thought to yourself. “I mean I’m pretty turned on myself right now….” Suddenly your thoughts were interrupted when you felt Gaara’s hand slip under your shirt. You looked at him shocked and raised an eyebrow. “Can I help you?”

He looked at you with pleading eyes. “I think you know what I want my love and I think you want it too.” He grabbed the bottle of sake and poofed the two of you back to his house.

You were now on his bed and Gaara was on top of you. You looked at Gaara and you could feel the heat rising on your skin. He leaned down and kissed your neck as he untied your shirt. You could feel your body getting hotter as you felt his soft lips move from your neck and down your torso. He stopped and smiled at you.

“Are you enjoying this (Y/N)?” He asked.

Your breathing was a bit heavy. “Y-yes very m-mu-much so Gaara. I-I want more….”

He smirked at you. “Your wish is my command. Here sit up a bit.”

You did so and he removed your bra. His green orbs widened in wonder as he looked at your perfect breasts. He licked his lips and started softly groping them.

“Ohhhh Gaaraaaa.” You moaned out. Your eyes closed and you felt the warmth of his mouth on your nipple. You squirmed in pleasure as he gently nibbled and sucked on it. You felt his hand move down your body, he stopped right at your womanhood and gently rubbed the outside of your pants. “Ohhhhhhhh!” You moaned again. “Gaara?”

He stopped nibbling on your nipple and looked at you. “Yes what is it?”

“I-I want to give you pleasure too.” You looked up at him innocently.

He smiled at you. “Very well.” He got off of you.

You smirked and tackled him as your lips crashed into his. He was taken by surprise at the sudden aggression but he liked it and let you continue.

Your soft lips gently kissed Gaara’s as you unbuttoned his jacket. You looked down in amazement and ran your hands over his perfect abs. “Gaara you’re so handsome.” You cooed. You gently nipped at his neck and a small moan escaped his lips. You giggled. “You like that don’t you?”

He looked at you and nodded. You giggled again and bit his neck a bit harder making him moan louder. You kept nibbling his neck as you fumbled to unbutton his pants. Success you got them undone. Gaara pulled you off of his neck and his face was redder than his hair. You looked at him confused. “Why are you embarrassed Gaara?”

“I’ve never been touched like this before its all so new to me…. All these feelings and emotions pouring in at once….”

“Do you want to take control again? Will it make you feel better?”

“Yes I think it will.” He replied as he placed his hands over yours and helped you pull down his pants and boxers.

Your eyes widened in wonder as you saw his rock hard member pop out of his pants. Your small hands gently grabbed his shaft and you started to move your hands up and down.

He tilted his head back and let out a low groan. “(Y/N) this…. This feels so good please…. Don’t…. Stop…..”

You smirked and slowly lowered your lips to his tip. Your breathing got heavy as you wrapped your mouth around his head and started to suck.

Gaara gently grabbed your hair as you bobbed up and down. His breathing got heavier as you picked up the pace. “Ugn (Y-Y/N-N).” He moaned out as he released himself inside your mouth.

You were taken by surprise by his sudden release but continued to lick until everything was clean. You released yourself from his member and innocently licked your lips. “Mmmmm Gaara you taste good.” You smiled at him.

He smiled back and leaned in to kiss you. “Now its my turn to pleasure you (Y/N).” He gently pushed you down onto the bed and pulled down your pants. “(Y/N)…. You’re so beautiful.” He said as he licked his lips before going down on you.

“Ohhhhhh G-Ga-Gaaraaaaaaaa!” You moaned out as he swirled his tongue around your clit. You let out a small yelp as he entered you with two of his fingers. “Th-this fe-feels a-am-amazinggggg!” You moaned as you gushed into his mouth.

He licked up every last drop and looked up at you. “You my love taste delicious.” He made his way back up to your lips ,kissed you long and passionately.

You kissed him back and wrapped your legs around his waist feeling his member becoming hard once again. You wiggled your hips making his tip rub against your clit. You broke the kiss and looked at him with pleading eyes.

He raised an eyebrow. “What do you want me that badly?”

You looked at him innocently. “You have no idea how badly I want you Gaara…. Please take me…..” You whispered into his ear.

He smiled at you. “Your wish is my command.” He held you close as he entered you slowly.

You breathing got heavier as he entered you. You clung to his muscular back and let out a yelp from the pain.

He stopped. “Are you okay? Am I hurting you?” He asked concerned.

You smiled at him. “I’m fine Gaara the pain will only be temporary…. Please don’t stop….”

He obliged and entered you the rest of the way. He gently started to thrust in and out of you. Gaara picked up the pace as he hit your G-spot perfectly.

“G-Ga-Gaaaaaraaaaaa!” You moaned as he went harder and faster.

Suddenly he slowed down as he savored all of it. “I-I want to make passionate love to you (Y/N).” He said as he kept at a steady pace.

You smiled and moved in perfect sync with Gaara. You grabbed the back of his head and made contact with his lips once again. In and out in and out he thrusted his hips. You wiggled around for you were in pure ecstasy.

Gaara readjusted himself and lifted your legs up to get better leverage. He thrusted harder and harder.

“Oh-Ohhhhhh m-my k-ka-kami-s-samaaaaaa!” You screamed out in pleasure. “G-Gaara d-don't stopppppppp!” You moved your legs so your feet were resting on his chest, he readjusted with you and went in even deeper. You moaned and gushed everywhere.

Gaara pulled out and went back down to lick up all the juices. He nibbled on your clit while he slipped two fingers in.

You arched your back and couldn’t stop moving around. Suddenly you orgasmed and gushed all over Gaara’s face.

He cleaned his face off and was about to enter you again.

“Wait Gaara I want to get on top…. Can I?”

He smirked at you and nodded. “I like the sound of that.” He said as he laid down.

You got on top of him and rubbed your clit on his member, gushing all over the two of you. “Ohhhhhh Gaaraaaaaa!” You lifted yourself up and slowly slid down onto Gaara. You bounced up and down trying to get a motion going. Gaara held onto your hips and helped you get back in sync with him. “Ohhhhh baby I-I love you so-so much Gaara!”

“Ugn I-I love y-you too (Y/N).” He moaned out as he thrusted harder making you bounce wildly up and down on him. Harder and deeper he went you could feel yourself reaching another climax.

“G-Gaa-Gaara I’m-I'm go-going to cu-cummmmm!” You moaned out as you reached your orgasm.

Gaara thrusted a few more time and grunted as he reached his second climax. He smiled and kissed you as he pulled out.

You broke the kiss. “Oh my Kami-sama th-that was amazing Gaara!”

“Yes it was.” He pulled you in closer. “You’re mine forever now (Y/N).” He kissed the top of your head.

“Promise?” You cooed.

“I promise my beautiful desert flower.”

“I love you so much Gaara.”

“I love you too (Y/N).”

You rested your head on Gaara’s chest and fell asleep to the sound of his heartbeat.

You woke up the next morning still cuddled up to Gaara. You smiled and kissed his cheek.

He stirred and slowly opened his eyes smiling at you. “Good morning beautiful.” He cooed.

“Good morning handsome.” You replied back before tenderly kissing him. “Shall we shower and get ready for the day?”

He nodded in agreement.

You pulled Gaara out of bed to go shower. You both quickly got showered and dressed.

You and Gaara headed out and spotted his siblings up a head.

“Hey Temari! Kankuro! Wait up!” You yelled to them as you grabbed Gaara’s hand and ran towards them.

“Hey! Good morning (Y/N)! Good morning Gaara!” Replied Kankuro. “So last night was pretty good huh?” He asked smugly.

You turned about eight shades of red. “B-bu-but how d-did you k-know?”

“(Y/N), I’m pretty sure the entire village knows…. You do not know how to be quiet do you?” Replied Temari as she shot a look at Gaara.

You got even redder. “Meep….” You were at a loss for words.

“If she isn’t screaming my name am I really doing it right?” Said Gaara smugly.

Your jaw dropped as Gaara said that.

“Wait did my little brother really just say that!?” Said Kankuro shocked.

All Gaara did was have a huge smirk on his face.

~End

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Danganronpa request can a reader who is really kind and a sweetheart adopt the warriors of hope and helpem to forget they traumas and also can the reader beat the hell up the warriors of hope parents after everything they done to those innocents children's please

Of course, my darling! I love the WoH so much- I adopted them too, they're your adoptive siblings now so you all gotta get along ok-

These are probably gonna spiral into parenting headcanons because I cannot help myself- just let these kiddos have a happy home life man- :(

TW for mentions of abuse. It's nothing explicit, but it can be upsetting to some. Please be cautious.

Anyways, let's get started!

- 🌸🍭mod mikan🍭🌸

S/O adopting the WoH!

Now, we all know these kiddos had a bad time.

They were all abused in different ways, neglected, put down to the lowest point they could be.

Junko was like a light at the end of the tunnel for them, a savior - someone who cared, someone who they could trust, someone who loved them. But it was all lies.

She didn't care.

They couldn't trust her.

She didn't love them.

But then, you came around. At first, they thought you were like every other demon; evil, cold and uncaring.

And yet, there was this warmth radiating off of you... Almost like another light they could chase to get to true joy.

After Komaru and Toko defeated each of them, they felt lost. What were they supposed to do now that their empire has failed? Were the adults going to punish them, by abusing and taking advantage of them even further?

The group wandered the streets of Towa City, alone, hiding from every adult they could see and fending for themselves.

However, they stumbled upon you and Komaru. You two have been actively looking for them after finding out they survived.

But the reason why you were looking for them, was pretty unexpected.

You wanted to take them in as your own. They were just kids after all, no matter how much they tried to make themselves seem bigger. You wanted to help them, teach them that not everyone will hurt them, because they deserve to be loved like any other child does.

And so, they went with you. Very reluctantly mind you, but they didn't have much of a choice.

And as time went on, they opened up to you, one by one. And soon, you guys became like a happy family.

Somewhat dysfunctional, but still happy family.

Ok so, origin story's out of the way, now let's get in a bit deeper-

Parenting the Warriors is pretty hard- they each have something about themselves that you need to keep in mind.

And besides, taking care of 5 children wouldn't be easy even if they weren't traumatized-

You have to be patient, warm and kind to them, and to you that's no problem!

I would imagine Masaru would be the first to let his guard down around you, because he could tell that you weren't a bad person from the start.

He would start to admire you greatly, seeing you as the only cool adult around!!

He's always trying to impress you or get your attention because of that. And you always give him praise, telling him he's the most awesome kiddo ever!!

He always gets a bit bashful when you do, scratching his head as an "awhh, shucks!", escaping his lips.

He's very fond of you! He wants to do the things you do, like trying out your hobbies or imitating your mannerisms. He just wants to be as cool as you are.

While it is cute, you have to teach him that he's only the best when he's himself!

Kotoko was probably the second to open up. The first thing she noticed is that you never, ever used her trigger word in a sentence, not even on accident. You always used words like "soft", "tender" or "mallow", maybe even "delicate".

Not me looking up synonyms on thesaurus.com rn shHDHS

Like Masaru, her initial gut reaction always told her you were a good person, but the walls she had built up just couldn't let you in right away.

And when she does get comfortable, she becomes super clingy. She's almost as fond of you as Masaru is, honestly-

She always goes to you for any sort of help. She feels like you're the only person she can trust 100%, whether it be with her feelings or some other problem.

You're like- the only person who she's super nice to all the time. She used to be like that with Monaca, until you took them in.

Actually, speaking of that, they completely stopped literally worshipping Monaca's every move once you entered their lives.

Now, next up is Jataro. He initially thought you hated his every move, and that you only took him in because of pity.

But, you were proving him wrong every day. Going out of your way to talk to him, being so incredibly kind that it made his heart hurt.

You always help him out with his art! He loves when you sit down and paint, sculpt or draw with him, even if you're not artistic yourself. He feels like he's wanted, and all of that self-hatred almost completely washes away.

The biggest moment was when you finally convinced him to take off his mask. And when he did, you could tell he was way happier.

You two burned the mask together, leaving that part of his life behind you and turning over a new leaf.

And because of your influence, the rest of the kids are way nicer to him as well now!

Nagisa was the fourth one to take his guard down.

He saw how much Masaru, Kotoko and Jataro trusted you, and after observing you further, he began to see why.

He was always very distant from you, and you respected that. So, you were pleasantly surprised when he suddenly started going out of his way to help you, talk to you or spend time with you. However, you never questioned it, which made him relieved.

It's like you two silently agreed that you were cool with eachother.

He's very mature for his age, so he's the first one to try and help you with regular day-to-day tasks, even without you asking for said help.

Mans over here about to start doing your taxes HDHDH-

You always tell him to chill out, but he insists. He knows how much trouble he and his adoptive siblings are making for you, and it's his own way of thanking you.

Now, Monaca's a little interesting.

At first she was only pretending to care about you, like she did with the rest of the Warriors, but after a while she genuinely grew to love both you and her siblings.

She doesn't like the fact she cares one bit, but she can't help it.

She still has very manipulative tendencies, but you always see through them and her lies. You call her out on it, but never berate her.

She's very kiss ass-y, I guess?? Always complimenting you for the smallest reasons and calling you sweet nicknames.

She sometimes just wants to make you mess up to try and get herself to stop caring-

Like whenever a problem comes up, she always goes, "S/O can fix it!😌🙏 Our (affectionate parental term) dearest can do anything!🥰💞" and the rest of the kids are like "yah!!💖💕" because they love and support you while you're just there like🧍

Because no you can't rebuild the economy do you look like bob the fucking builder-

AnywaY their parents are already dead, so you guys beat up H*ji instead. :)

Ah, family bonding time. 💕

And done!! I love these little spawns of satan so much you guys don't even know- this was literally so fun to write that I think I got carried away a bit hshGhd- I hope this is ok!

Make sure to wash your hands, stay hydrated, take any meds you may need to and stay safe! You were so brave, have a lollipop! 🍭

#nurse!🍭#mod nurse🍭#mod mikan🍭#danganronpa x reader #danganronpa ultra despair girls #ultra despair girls x reader #masaru daimon #kotoko utsugi #jataro kemuri #nagisa shingetsu #monaca towa

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