#i really need to comment on fics more bc these are all bookmarked but..yeah im so shy and not sure what 2 say

[zannolin]

hey!! hope you’re doing well! i’m the person who wrote the narnia fic “first love, never die” and i just wanted to recommend a few fics that inspired me and made me INSANE. after ur comment i just. kept thinking “wow zannolin would probably love those fics i read last year….” so eventually i caved and here i am

number one for peter ptsd: “golden child, lion boy” by theandrogynousdragon . WHEN I TELL YOU I CRIED. you would love it, he’s so fucked up and full of anger and angst and suffering. the concepts in this fic made me ILL. oh god… i just reread it and i wanna read it again already i feel sick i feel crazy

next, a longer fic that’s still not too long with a similar past and present format to mine, with more caspeter and !!!!!!! really good sibling interactions and grief. “keep the faith” by adrianicsea . i’m gonna be ill. it’s super super good and beautiful and the sequel is excellent too and edmund-centric. also edmund is trans and that is explored and !! so good. it’s an angsty character-study disguised as a caspeter fic. the author has a few other posted narnia fics but i don’t think ive read all of them yet…. but i bet they are amazing. definitely recommend checking them out.

and finally we got “our battle cry shall be: ‘at least our leader means well’” by paperclipbitch . mainly caspian-centric, got some caspeter, and goes thru caspian’s life and angst and issues. also deals with the bitterness between caspian and peter and explores their characters. very good

there were some other recs but i checked ur bookmarks before sending this and you had already bookmarked all of them!!

also i saw you posted a narnia fic while i was in the car on a long trip and when i tell you i YELLED. i was like “i need to read this” and my mom was like “girl you have a project due TOMORROW !!” and i was like. i knowwwww :( so anyway !!!! i looked at the summary and i can already tell it’s gonna fuck me up….. i’m so excited. wait for an incomprehensible comment. idk when bc im busy asf rn but like. watch out. sleep with one eye open etc etc

hope you like this fics if you read them!!!!! hope ur having a great day :D

omg hi hello how does it feel to be the person singlehandedly responsible for dragging me down into caspeter hell?

i have actually read that last fic there i believe but these other two ooo i'm making such eyes at them i can't wait til i've got a min to do some reading *rubs my hands together evilly* and ahem yeah i went through like the entire caspeter tag. it was a thing.

i hope you have fun whenever you do get to read the susan fic (so sorry about everything in advance) but you'll be pleased to know i am currently 7k strong into a proper caspeter fic as well right now so that'll be coming someday soon! so YOU sleep with one eye open etc etc ;)

thank u for the recs and for writing the fic ever <3 i sure am having a great day rn and i hope you are as well!

[sanchoyo]

1??

1: are there any fics that you wanted to leave multiple kudos for, and were disappointed when you could only leave one?

oh MAN don’t open up those flood gates jkhfskj literally every fic I enjoy I get sad I can’t leave more than one. I feel like this question is a roundabout way to ask me to rec some Good Fics (or not, but ur getting some) so. like. here u go heres some of my fav bnha ones (I always assume thats what ppl are asking abt but if you want diff fandom ones, ask me. ive been reading fic for yrs and can 100% recc u some other fandoms lol) 

go read this is home by @greymob​ for gud self insert (and, about the only bnha self insert I like so much to single out to promo bc im extremely picky lol) its sososos cute n all my fav elements are in it, this fic made me so happy I was in a good enough mood to DRAW something (which. I haven’t done in like. months so. yeah its that good) thats what ive been obsessed abt currently, and i dont. READ shigaraki self inserts usually bc I dont vibe with how hes characterized. this is a very rare rec

just general ones I love:

yeah ok i don't know what a 'good' person is but do you have any suggestions by cirket (this one is shigahawks, also twice lives. nice)

sundry by surely_silly (this is a oneshot collection but really good)

Inescapable by Starship_Phoenix  (all might and tomura just talking. like. this could be a genre of its own these are my fav types of fics lol)

The Prestige by pariahpirate  (mr compress and hawks have a Past. so cute and should b canon)

(okay..looking thru my bookmarks I realize about half of them are from pariahpirate...hm. just go read any of their fics, actually, they hit so many of my fav things/tropes. also anything by AMournfulHowlInTheNight , but I feel like everyone recommends them, just bc they are SO quality even if I don’t even care to read abt the kids personally?? the dfo content. the drama. OR OR ANYTHING BY write_your_way_out  too actually)

  i'm lost but i don't know why by takamicchi (I won’t spoil it but theres time travel, all might, hawks, and endeavor. the ship is shigadabihawks :-) )

The Phoenix by domestichobgoblin (another shigadabihawks!!)

Smokescreens and Ashes series by Kendrick_Harlow (very dabi centric but, most lov fics tend to be..which is why theres so much of him on this list despite him not bein my 100% fav,, this is a very very good family lov series tho)

Remembrance by Barid (Finale)  (afo takes in both tenko and hana)

Twice the Wife by ohmytheon  (twice is a chaotic housewife ??? this one made me die laughing but also. cute)

the ‘ when i try to get through (on the telephone to you) ‘ series by  Origamidragons (todoroki family centric/ dabi and fuyumi centric rly tho. my heart. hurts) 

Embers to Ashes by Museflight, ohmytheon  (dabi as a todoroki centric fic. very sad :( )

dabihawks:

Take My Hand by All_My_Characters_Are_Dead  (hawks has a kid, dabi knows)

the ‘but i am still hopeful’ series by knlalla  (some nice dabihawks / redemption (sort of?) arcs all around, very very good imo and fits my fav tropes. really checks all my boxes)

(No Fun) Nova by pariahpirate  (dabi is a hero and Gets Hawks Ass (very funny and original concept also luv dabis hero name)

a soft place to fall by flooruh  (UGH MY HEART)

Take the Stars, Darling. They Were Meant For You by astralluna  (they are just talkin and it hurts)

To Nurture a Phoenix by ryusei (seiyuna) (just. read this one ajkshkfj)

love has conducted us unto one death by aradian_nights  (1 of my absolute favs. I cry a normal amount)

premium dadgiri content: 

The Face of a Family by sandcastles (kurogiri is just like ‘ya the lovs a family what of it. so cute)

breaking through the storm clouds by alana_me , (kurogiri time travels (1 of my fav tropes) and takes baby tenko in b4 afo can get his grubby hands on him, only 1 chapter is posted but its SO GOOD already,, so cute )

Something Still Remains by Origamidragons  maybe not so much dadgiri but,, kind of? kurogiri brings child tenko to aizawa

we don’t belong to no one; that’s a shame by AllISeeAreKingsAndThieves  (kurogiri agressively Dad-ing tenko and hana while slowly realizing Somethings Up about all this, also, nb kurogiri. nice)

the ‘do not stand at my grave and weep’ series by  SalviaOfficinalis (went in laughing at the first fic bc its crack, went out sobbing at the others in the series. 10/10 my heart hurts) 

all in a day's work by makurophage (kurogiris just a good dad we stan forever. so cute.) 

UH I KNOW theres MORE but going thru my bookkmarks heres what I found,, the fact I don’t have any really spinner or shig centric ones here is so embarrassing but also I’m very picky (also-- theres not a ton?? I should..make an attempt to find more if anyone wants to rec ME some, I like..toga, spinner, or shigaraki centric ones...also no ragdoll centric ones?? smh im embarrassing myself now)

BUT YEAH all good fics ^^^ 

[purplepalmdelight]

why life is still okay (rambling fic rec pt. 1)

firstly: shout out to @trulyalpha for apparently owning my entire bookmarks page on ao3 (bc i only realised all my favourite fics were written by the same person,,, yesterday. bc im really smart like that) anyway breakdown of why she’s a stoncy saving grace thanks!!!

you ease my mind, you make everything feel fine.

(https://archiveofourown.org/works/13842039)

yes this fic is from 2018. yes i read it every other week. it’s good for the SOUL. jonathan getting taken care of is always just such a good and sweet concept (maybe it’s my intense, undying love of him, but he deserves to be taken care okay) and. okay i’ll admit, sometimes i forget how fucking FUNNY this fic is, but it’s genuinely hilarious, okay? you gotta trust me on this. it makes me cackle at inappropriate times absurdly often. ("Hi." "Hi." "I want you, you fuck." is a top line. i laugh so hard every TIME.) all three of them are so incredibly in character, and somehow this NAILS the fact that they’re all massive disasters pretending to be confident. and i’m not someone that reads ~smut~ often (though it’s more mentioned than described, very non-explicit) but this didn’t make me even the least bit uncomfortable. it felt very natural and in character and made me laugh as much as the rest of the story. all in all, i always come away a little more in love with the characters, and that’s a really precious feeling.

you could be the one to make me feel something

(https://archiveofourown.org/works/14269476/chapters/32912745)

i take back everything i’ve ever claimed. this IS the funniest piece of writing i’ve ever read, and it WILL remain so, probably until the day i die. i honestly... barely have words. my expectations were high when i started it, but in retrospect, they were LEAGUES below what i got. the characterisation, the progression, the dialogue, the story; from the overarching aspects to the tiny details, it’s impeccable. i genuinely read this twice in one day, and then again the next. every single part of it is so good, but in terms of FAVOURITES... the christmas section. hilarious. down to its bones, well crafted and heart felt. it hits me right in the chest every time. the story, from the beginning, has me just as in love with nancy and steve as jonathan is, and as everything grows more intense, so does my investment. it pulls me in and doesn’t let me go until it’s good and ready to see me leave. again, the sexy aspects are so in character and natural that it’s uncomfortable or weird to read and instead just leave me grinning like an idiot. also ( “It did frustrate me, in more ways than one. It’s also a weird plan, like … did you expect me to be so overwhelmed by the power of a boner that I’d just admit my feelings?” is SUCH a funny line, i think about it literally every day. literally. every. day.) the characters are afraid to be messy, to make mistakes, and they all feel so ALIVE that when i leave the story, i feel like i’m leaving a friend. it’s honestly beautiful and honestly breathtaking. this story is better than a lot of published books, honestly, and i’m so grateful for it. so thank you.

i crash my car ‘cause i wanna get carried away!

(https://archiveofourown.org/works/17131202)

...you really wanted to make me cry, huh? i cried out of grief, yeah, out of the depth of nancy’s guilt and the pure rawness of her mourning, but i also cried out of catharsis as she came to terms, and out of laughter a few times. the bit about total eclipse of the heart as a motif was... that was so well done. i hate drawing comparisons, so please understand that this is criticism of a concept and not a particular story, but in so many stories then nancy’s grief feels... trivialised? that’s not quite the right word. romanticised, maybe. as someone who has lost a friend in the past, it’s just... it doesn’t feel realistic? and that’s okay, because it’s hard to nail something you haven’t experienced, and i wouldn’t wish the experience on anyone. it’s just that stories like this, where i can really resonate with nancy and follow the journey of her recovery WITH her are so rare. this story is a gem, it really is. i don’t love it for all the same reasons as the others, but i love it fiercely all the same.

there’s nothing magic going on, and then along came you

(https://archiveofourown.org/works/14994137)

sure, you could be the one is the funniest fic i’ll probably ever read, but nothing magic is such a close second. it’s laugh-out-loud, get-tears-in-your-eyes, fall-out-of-your-chair, and it’s also so goddamn SWEET i can hardly stand it. of the several fics i generally group together in my head (nothing magic, you could be the one + its sequels (might have to make an individual post about this series), laugh until we think we’ll die, and got nothing for you; all very similar, yet incredibly unique) nothing magic is the shortest, but that doesn’t mean it compromises on quality, oh no. it just means i can read it quicker, and therefore more often! when it’s late and i’m tired and i need a laugh to calm down before i sleep, i generally go search this fic up. remember when i mentioned the whole “being just as in love with nancy and steve as jonathan is” thing? it’s like that except... almost funnier. in you could be the one, it’s just that the story naturally tugs you into adoring these two messy, silly, sweet, amazing young adults, because how could you not? how else could you possibly feel? but here, they are genuinely just... that funny. they are actually just so funny that you as a reader click with them and find yourself grinning like an IDIOT because oh my god you’re disasters. maybe it’s the inherent relatability of a tired highschooler trying to make it through the summer and hating his job along the way, but this fic hits right in the heart every damn time.

got nothing for you other than love

(https://archiveofourown.org/works/17596658)

"You trust me," she says.

They both know it's a fact, not question, but he still says, "Of course."

and

By then, his shell wasn't something he could step out of. It was part of him. But that was okay. He didn't need more. What he had was enough.

He always did have trouble with wanting more.

and

"Hey, babe?" Nancy turns her head to look at Steve, touching his shoulder. "Can you buy me a drink?"

"Sure thing. What d'ya want?"

"Surprise me. Not like that time we were here and you snuck out the store, went to a smoothie stand, and came back with a mango smoothie."

Steve grins. "But I did surprise you."

and

"Do you have food in the backseat?"

"The sandwich has only been there for like, two weeks—"

and

"Ugh. Too much cheese. I'm lactose-intolerant, remember?"

"False, you're not intolerant of anyone except people over the age of fifteen with bowl cuts and guys who wear shorts in the winter."

and

"Where are you off to? I'm your only friend," Kali says, frowning.

and

"You good, man?"

"Yeah," he says, his throat dry, "I'm great."

"Yeah, you are," Nancy says, and he is. He is.

and i can’t continue because that’s, like, barely halfway into the fic and i’ve already skipped so many of my favourite lines and i would have to skip so many more. you see what i mean about sathana being funny as hell? and like all the others, it’s not just the humour here. i mean... it is, because it’s SO FUCKING FUNNY I LITERALLY CANNOT SAY THAT ENOUGH but the reason it’s so funny is because it’s so candid. it’s so smooth. the whole thing flows. you’re not left feeling that you’ve missed a piece or that anything was sacrificed; you just feel like you’ve read something incredible. this fic is an experience of its own that i honestly have never experienced before. it’s sweet, and it’s gentle, and it’s just so overwhelmingly good that i don’t think i’ll ever quite get over it. in short? it’s a blessing. my expectations were high, but holy fuck did you blow them to bits.

one more favourite line:

Things are ending, things are starting, and everything looks bright. It won't always be that way. The sun's got to set at some point. But, gazing up at the sky, at the pink bleeding into orange, Jonathan figures it'll have to rise again. No matter what happens, these two things are constant.

"Hey, you look awfully lonely," Nancy calls out, walking towards him, reaching out to him with the hand not in Steve's.

Well. Maybe not just those two things.

that scene, in general, is beautiful, and it wraps the story up on such a genuine note. it feels like a film with how clearly i can picture it. it feels like no fic i’ve ever really read before. it feels... good. i guess i don’t really have the words. it just feels so good.

as an overall statement on why i call her my favourite author... it’s the realism. maybe that’s surprising, considering how many times i said “funny” or “hilarious” in here, but in the end, i wouldn’t be so attached to her work if it didn’t feel so real. i can open a tab and instantly get transported to a home i’ve never lived in. it’s comfortable. it’s sweet. and the dialogue/banter is always perfectly crafted. there’s just never really a downside to her fics, honestly. even if i wanted to search, i don’t think i’d find one. not even one of those “their only problem is that there’s not more to enjoy” kind of comments, because every single one feels perfectly crafted in its own right. it doesn’t need more or less. it stands for itself and it’s goddamn good at it.

i didn’t anticipate having to do multiple parts on this post, but- surprise surprise- i haven’t even gotten to my favourite one yet! so yeah, pt. 2 will be written after i finish the history essay trying to murder me, god knows when that is. in the meantime, please go give her some love and adoration. she deserves it.

[inyoursheets]

writer asks

tagged by the wonderful @bourbon-ontherocks, @mego42 and sorta by @sothischickshe whose attempt to tag me made me laugh 

ao3 name: 

nomind. im not even sure why at this point

fandoms: 

ive only published good girls fics on ao3, but there may or may not still be some terribly written unfinished hp fics (probably x reader) made by thirteen y/o me floating about online somewhere.

number of fics: 

i keep thinking the answer is like, three, but it’s actually five. that’s how memorably my fics are lmao

fic i spent the most time on: 

oh, for sure my latest, warm water. ive never spent this much time plotting, editing, thinking things over. as evidenced by the rest of the fics ive published lol

fic i spent the least amount of time on:

i thought it was maybe the spanking fic but that one actually sat unfinished in my drafts for a long time now that i think about it, bc it wasn’t gonna get its own fic, it was supposed to be part of chapter two of the never have i ever fic . i think it was how do i even... say that? bc once i knew what i was trying to say with it, it got real easy to write, but im not sure! 

most hits:

this is so funny bc i had no idea -- i expected the answer to be warm water, but that one is just barely third, almost fourth! the winner is actually my super self-indulgent never have i ever fic that i can’t believe so many people fuck with, some time in your sheets

most kudos:

now that one is warm water

most comment threads:

also warm water! and everyone is so sweet! but also so frustrated! which is very fair haha, im frustrating myself by writing this tbh. but i think the frustration is gonna be worth it. i hope?

most bookmarks:

once again, warm water

highest total word count:

warm water and im very excited about the fact that i've only published like, half, and i still have to write a couple of scenes, some of which i expect to be pretty girthy. im so happy i finally managed to start a (proper) multi-chapter fic.

favourite fic i wrote:

i think either how do i even... say that? bc the subject matter matters to me and actually grew out of my own need to process some things -- verbalizing what you want during sex is scary ok! -- and i think people also took it that way? there have been some really kind comments on it, specifically about the message i was trying to convey/stumbled upon while writing, so that is wonderful! i actually never responded to any of those comments bc i suddenly got self-conscious about author comment etiquette and im thinking it would look weird to do so now, but i am really surprised and humbled by them!

 or warm water for reasons im not gonna go into until ive finished it, but yeah, it gets a special place in my heart, too, trust me on that. it also unfolded in such a great way as i was writing it, it really took a different turn from what i had originally planned out, which has been such an interesting process and it really made me feel joy to be writing again, you know? when characters/scenes just sorta take over? so it’s been definitely the most enjoyable to write i’d say. but also the least haha, which makes it so special.

fic i want to rewrite/expand on:

i feel like my very first fic could lend itself pretty easily to being expanded and becoming a proper AU, it would be pretty hassle-free to continue, but i don’t know if that’s a path i wanna go down. maybe some time in your sheets bc i did weave in that they’d been fucking regularly and i kinda liked their dynamic there, but my goodness, it’s so plotless! all my smut fics are so plotless! technically even the spanking fic could like, get another chapter of more spanking, but what would be the point? 

maybe how do i even... say that? would be the most interesting to continue, to see how beth learns how to vocalize her wants and needs in bed, how she grows in that, but idk if i am equipped to write such a thing. hmm. im gonna think about it, after i finish the beast that is warm water.

share a bit of a wip or story idea you’re working on:

so ive got some dialogue between beth and stan sitting in my drafts bc i love a beth/stan friendship, but it didn’t fit in anything else i wrote, nor will it fit with an AU like warm water. im excited to use it one day, not bc the dialogue is any good (it honestly wouldn’t surprise me if literally none of the actual dialogue ever makes it to the actual fic) but i love the vibe in that scene. they discuss d*nsie, so unfortunately that fic must include that douche canoe, so that’s sad

what i also have is a barely-there rough draft/idea for a beth/rio/rhea threesome fic (mostly inspired by one particular sex position i wanna see them in) that is gonna take a while to actually write bc as @foxmagpie has pointed out it’s really hard to try and make that not be completely ooc, and i think im not gonna start until finish warm water.

and that’s that! im tagging @missmaxime @fairhairedkings @sothischickshe (who i now realize probably already did this?) and @sdktrs12 if you feel like it!

[throwing-summers-at-the-walls]

Hi, i hope you are feeling good! Im better than yesterday so i can finally answer you. First of all: i am so happy that you shared your fanfiction! i had a great time reading it! Im always open for more recs. Maybe your all time favorites? Or if you know some good h/c these are always welcome :) And YESSS please send me a link to your fanvids. -- yeah 13rw was super cursed. haha i also watched season 1 but thankfully i was able to sto watching becaue i could feel it making me feel bad (1)

I agree the suicide scene was just cringe (but i think i remember reading somewhere that they cut it out? idk) and overall this show just gave me the feeling that there was no hope and things are always getting worse instead of better and i hated that. but enough of that cursed show. can i just say i really admire how open you are about your feelings (like being suicidal and that) i realy, really admire this about you. i have so much respect for you that you can just share your feelings here (2)

I have never heard of ace attorney but that story you described sounds really good. and i get reading sth that isnt good for you and still doing it (because im a dumb bitch too :D) -- okay i might accept that Root will never grow on you (but i thought so too and look at me now :D) but i havent fully given up yet :)-- yes thats the girl. i think it was really sweet when she said that to Shaw. and i think Shaw appreciated it that someone tried to figure her out instead of just writting her off (3)

Shaw is really cool and definately also a badass and in combination with John its just great! but you will have to suffer trough some Shoot.  but maybe, maybe you will end up not hating Root. hope dies last (idk how the saying goes in english, sorry). -- Did you ever ship Caresse (in a romantic way)? cause sometimes i do and sometimes i dont and i get so confused about it :) but i think most of the time i like them more as friends. anyway her death really sucked and you are right with (4)

her death and them losing the library it felt like a different show (i mean i guess it was a different show then). i kinda get your feelings about the destroyed library because i also really loved it (and im really bad with change) but i dont think it affected me as much as you. but yeah i still missed the library very much. and while the subway is a really cool new place its not the same. (also the subway is super dark cause its underground and idk it just makes the whole thing less homey) (5)

Yes he is everything! such a great, interesting character and i wish there were more John-centric episodes! (like ones that explored his character more). that was one of my biggest dislikes of the later seasons that John wasnt featured as much anymore. i think he chuckled a few times in the show but a real laugh? i cant remember one :(  -- He did promise Joss to talk to Tyler so @show were is that talk? -- if seen the vid its awesome! thehiddenmemory has some great poi vids! (6)

yes i think so too. Like Grace would probably be relived and thankful that Harold is still alive and maybe they would even try again but eventually she would figure out that she cant trust him after lying to him for so long or sth like that and Harold would ofc realize that he is in love with someone else now. And then he finds out that John is still alive but stayed away cause he didnt want to get in the way of Harold/Grace. But then Harold comes back. And when they meet again John is like (7)

you came back for the machine? what about Grace. But Harold tells him he came back for John not the machine and then they kiss and have a happy live with Bear (sorry i got a little carried away here :D). -- Yeah Zoe is really hot and she needed more screen time! -- i hope you have a good day and i hope i havent messed up the numbers on the asks! :)

Hi ! I'm finally free from the resits, I hope you're doing okay with your thesis 💛

Sorry for replying late, there was the exam resits, and I read a bunch of fics, then I fell into pokémon and started bingewatching it. (Also I had a breakdown during therapy today so I'm gonna finish writing my answer to distract myself - it's been sitting in my drafts for so long rip)

Thank you !! It was a very personal thing, I'm really happy you liked it !! Your support and your comment made me thrive 💛💛

Tbh I was surprised to see it get kudos given that the only intended audience was my self projecting ass 🤣

So, my fav fics (my fav fic ever is in French, rip to y'all bc it's so good):

I am, I am, I am by RavenWhitecastle

Actually check the entire series this work belongs to: The Sinner and the Saint. I haven't finished it yet but I love it (I just skipped the explicit fics bc I don't like smut or sub!John)

Breaking All The Rules by talkingtothesky

Outsider Perspective by Neery

A Really Private Person by astolat

Hamartia (the hero's fatal flaw) by astolat

If Only for Tonight by spacemutineer

From Here, Where? by AKMars

Stroll by TheaNishimori

and the world was gone by lunarcorvid

a light that never goes out by vindicatedtruth

Limitations. by Michaelssw0rd

Reel you in and spit you out by Michaelssw0rd

All I Want For Christmas Is You by richmahogany

By What Power I Am Made Bold by brinnanza

Aftershocks by darringtons

At Certain Hours It All Breaks Down by nogoaway

construction of a kingdom by the_ragnarok

You Take Me Higher Than I've Gone by talkingtothesky

All Together Now by beadedslipper

I'll Let the Waters Still by brinnanza

Birthday Tradition by talkingtothesky

Things My Father Taught Me by KRyn

Truth is in the Eye of the Beholder by infiniteeight

Better Luck This Time by Lisztful

Motivations by JenNova

What's On the Table by cortue

In Another Life by Della19

I Thought We Already Were by talkingtothesky

Misunderstandings by thisstarvingartist

This is already fucking long omg so for the h/c: my bookmarks filtered with Rinch and h/c

Here's my playlist, it's mostly Rinch, but there are a few not Rinch vids, plus some scenes I like

This is long enough already, so it's time for a read more. Also, warning, we be talking about suicide

The portrayal of suicide is cringe most of the time anyway. If my suicidal ass can find a list of suicide methods and their lethality in 2 mins on Google you'd think writers who are supposed to do some research would be able to find them too but no they're like "ah yes slicing wrists" even though it's literally the shittiest method 🙄 (I just don't understand why slicing wrists seems to be such a popular method in the collective imagination ? It's weird.) At least in 13rw she took aspirin and cut herself vertically instead of horizontally but still, no hesitation wounds, and she dies even though she only got 4 wounds iirc ? I know more about jumping off bridges than slicing wrists, but it kinda sounds like bullshit to me. Also Netflix once suggested "beyond the reasons" to me, it's a sort of discussion with the cast and crew of 13rw and the only thing I remember is a moment of intellectual masturbation abt how they "opened a discussion abt suicide" 😬😬😬

They may have cut it out it's not impossible, idk I didn't hear about it, but it's not like I look for info about this dumpster fire lol. Maybe they faced backlash ? Wouldn't be surprised given how shit the show was. And yeah it has a hopeless vibe, I mean that's how it be when you're suicidal, but I didn't like it either.

You're sweet 💜💜 it's interesting that you find it respectable or admirable, I don't have an external point of view, so I'm just like 🤷 it is what it is. I understand where you're coming from though, I guess it's still quite a taboo subject, and suicidal people don't always feel comfortable talking about it, so me throwing around that I jumped off a bridge must be surprising. I'm detached enough from my suicide attempt that I'm able to talk about it without much of a problem, and I'm not really suicidal anymore.

Dumb bitches unite 👏👏👏 we be out there reading shit we shouldn't read

Yeah I think it's nice how the show didn't portray Shaw as a bad person for not having "normal feelings". Well, hope makes one live as we say in French (idk the English saying either lol) but don't hold much hope about me liking Root lmao

I used to ship careese bc they kissed in the crossing, but then I read some Rinch fics and I just ended up falling into it to the point where I stopped caring about careese. Now I think their relationship works better as a friendship.

Yeah all that change really puts me off... It just gives me "bad spin-off" vibes. Especially since there is less John :( and less Rinch :((((

Lmao yeah I just have a lot of feelings about early poi hgkfglrk. Also :/ I'm sad about the subway being less homey pls I just want happiness ?? I swear this show destroys my heart on top of owning my last braincell (brb changing my blog title to this lmao)

Mood I need all the John-centric eps, give me m o r e characterization and development and backstory and feelings hhhhhhh. I love him so much I just wanna spend more time with him. And that's what fics are for ! Yeah thehiddenmemory is so talented ! Astolat made some good ones too, on top of writing really good fics ! (Our fandom has been blessed with the presence of one of the ao3 founders hell yeah)

Also, remember how we talked abt the poi subreddit ? The other day I left a comment on there, wild I know. It wasn't a discussion about the last seasons though, I'm not crazy, it was about the impact poi had in our lives so I said it literally taught me English. Who knows maybe sometimes I'll comment again lol. I just don't wanna meet one of those people who prefer late poi over early poi.

Allow me to uuuuh write something based on what you said. Don't ask me how John survived with no major injuries, my man got that Thick Plot Armor alright. Hope you appreciate me getting carried away sjdkdksk it's kinda rushed and the first part isn't that good bc idk how to write Grace I'm just here for that sweet sweet Rinch stuff

Harold is eating breakfast with Grace in her kitchen – he can't think of her home as his home – when his phone vibrates. It's a text from the machine. It's a surprise, she barely contacted him since... He blocks the thoughts and the images coming to his mind. The machine sent him a picture. When he opens it, his heart misses a beat. Right here on his screen is a silhouette he thought he would never see again. His phone vibrates again. Another picture, this time it's unmistakably John, wearing his signature suit, Bear next to him. Transfixed, he stares at his phone until he feels Grace gently touching his arm. She goes straight to the point.

"Is it John ?" He looks up in confusion, but before he can say anything, she adds, "I hear you call him in your sleep every night."

"It's him, yes." He doesn't want to explain. He only wants to see John, to touch him, to tell him how much he loves him.

"You should go back to him. I like you, Harold. I am deeply relieved to see you alive. But I've been thinking, and... It's not working. This, us... You aren't really the man I fell in love with, the man I grieved... I can't trust you anymore." She doesn't say 'You lied to me' but Harold hears it all the same.

~

Harold sits on their bench. The machine indicated John often comes here. Soon enough, his arms are full of Bear, and John is standing in front of him.

"John. How are you ?" he asks when Bear finally calms down.

"Busy. And you ?"

Harold eyes him suspiciously – John once said he was busy when he was bleeding and way too close to death – but he seems to be well.

"I'm fine." He doesn't have time for awkward small talk." I thought you were dead. Why didn't you contact me ?"

"The machine told me you were with Grace. I thought you wanted to come back to your previous life. I didn't want to crash into it and ruin what you had."

Harold wants to be angry at him, but he understands. He did the same with Grace.

"You would never ruin anything. Besides, my relationship with Grace... didn't survive my lies. She's very dear to my heart, but she's a part of my previous life, as you said."

"So you came back for the machine, and the numbers, like the good old times ?"

Harold gets up from the bench.

"I came back for you. You are an important part of my life. The most important part."

John smiles, finally. He takes a step towards Harold, they're so close they could kiss. Harold reaches out, grips his shirt and slowly inches closer. He's still afraid of being rejected but John wraps his arm around him and kisses him. The kiss is over too soon. John's smile is even wider when they part.

"You're the most important part of my life too," he says before kissing Harold again. "You will stay ?"

"Always."

Damn I live for sappy Rinch stuff.

Bitches decided that Harold saying "always" is peak Rinch. It's me I'm bitches.

Also ofc I had to make a reference to number crunch, who do you think I am

Anyway. I hope you have a good day ! 💛

[bleusarcelle]

listen up, listen up!

 that’s totally a song from tangled before ever after, no shame

I promised (?) a fic rec because I have read such good fics recently and I wanted to share bc these fics deserve so much love goddamit.

May I Have This Dance? by @subtlehysteria  

fic: cinderella au based on kiilea’s art. smitten fucking keith. smitten lance. deceased me.

ramble: god, you guys, every word of this fic is magic and beauty itself. I fell in love with every single sentence and Lance is just so damn pure and kind and he’s the best Cinderella, I love him. don’t get me started on Keith, because that boy is so damn gone and smitten it actually hurts and they dance and they are so happy and they forget where they are and they just have fun and god, the author did such an fantastic job on showing their feelings and - JUST READ IT.

It has a part two that honestly? fucking bless?? thank youf or my life and for smitten keith? i lvoe youu?????

partners by @mightaswellcry

fic: post season 6. lance and krolia chat. quiet soft confession klance. shy dorks on a pool. soft keith. getting together.

ramble: hoenstly? the ending was the tip that convinced me to bookmark it. I dont bookmark every fic I read, but damn, this one? this one was really gooddamned precious, especially the quiet soft confession? that was more of an action thatn words? and it was really damn good? loved it. booked mark it. 

Wedding Day Disaster by @l-x-ie

fic: wedding klance. best woman pidge who does her best. smitten keith. tired shiro. poor lance. best wedding sheningans ever. canon verse.

ramble: i have no words for this fic, but imma try. this fic is fucking glorious and so damn funny. it’s a wild ride from start to finish and the squad can’t catch a damn break. it’s great. and like, after all the problems? all the unexpected shit that life threw on them on their WEDDING day and yet these two asshole dorks just smile and are so damn smitten bc they jsut want to marry the other so fuck the universe. and the author does such a good job on moving the story forward smoothly enough ‘til the end and it feels so complete and closured and I need a goddamned honeymoon fic sequel.

moonlit delusions by @jilliancares

fic: werewolf lance. oblivious lance. pining keith. dumb lance.

ramble: jillian u goddamned genius i love you with 76% of my heart. 

All Right by @sunflower-le-tournesol

fic: roadtrip gone half wrong. grumpy klance. but then smitten lance bc he’s a good bean who is in love.

ramble: i recently read one (1) fic of this author and ended up reading the rest of their story in one fucking night. I still feel bad that I couldnt ramble a comment in all of them but it was so late i wasn’t fuctioning. anyways the fic. it’s sooooooooooooo short but so damn GOOD and precious. it’s like, I just love keith’s character here? and the way the author allows us to see keith through lance’s eyes it’s just...really fucking talent, i lvoed it, it was subtle but so improtant and good. reeeeeeeeaaaaaad it.

there, there by koganewest

fic: klance fight. klance makes up.

ramble: it’s really refreshing to see that despite them being in love, they are still humans and they still make mistakes and they are STILL a couple whoo go through fights because they are needed to build the relationship in a healthy way. I really like to see those sides of their relatioionship, and this author did really good on that aspect. both of them were on edge, oen of them was trying to comfort, the other took it the wrong way, buttons were pushed, angry words were said but int he end of the day, they care, they careso much and it’s so good to see that.

Calling the Shots by Ninja_Librarian

fic: nurse keith. nurse keith. nurseeeee keeeeeith. and lance.

warning: background shidge. 

ramble: funny af???? development of their relationship good af???? growing slowly as friends so good??? and then keith feeling guilty but he can’t go back now lmao. and then the CONFESSION O H MAN, WHY. it was so embarassing and i re read it like eight times lmao. really good, loved it.

can't buy me love by @jilliancares

fic: ice cream truck lance. mechanic keith. it was destinated.

ramble: JILLIAN YOU GODDAMN GENIUS I LOVE YOU. no but for real, this was super creative, lovely and so damn pure. one of my faves.

Cereal Sweepstakes and Other Bad Ideas ft. Lance McClain by  ruralfishingcat

fic: skydiver instructor keith. oblivious lance. slow lance.

ramble: oh man, this is just super good and so enjoyable. lance’s entire dinamyc with his friendsis really pure and his personality its so wild but like, lance, ya know? love him. he was such a dork, and so embarassing. and everyone knowing about their mutual pining but them? fucking dorks. like they honestly thought “oh first meeting this asshole? its fine im never going to see him again” YOU THOUGHT WRONG BITCH, HE’S YOUR SOULMATE.

an apple a day by  Kima

fic: sick lance. caring keith.

ramble: i’m just so in love with this fic. everytime i re readit im like ....oh yeah this is why i book marked it. it’s really gentle and the dinamic between the team its really comforting and fun. and keith’s super awakard but he cares and he tries his best and it’s just really damn good. 

[thechampagnelovers]

As if I could feel you need somebody to motivate you, Beer nony is back once again to tell you I believe in you and your fic! It can take so much time and it can be so exhausting and I feel the pain of stringing it all together... I believe in you!

Other than that I have to say... my last ask really wasn‘t my brightest moment but I am happy people seem to like me? Not everybody can have a beer nony because I am exclusively yours but if anybody wants some anonymous love from me, call upon me here and I‘ll hop over to your blog. 😌

I need to tell you, you always make me laugh so hard oh my god! That Zarry and Jail comment? And I don’t even wanna start on how I cackled about the masturbation comment hahaha. Personally I am more of a using it to sleep kinda gal hahaha.

I‘ve had insomnia for the better part of five years so I should be used to it but it still suckkks. Maybe something to tackle this year and maybe get some guidance on what to do. I just always thought it couldn‘t be fixed after like tea and pills didn‘t work... We‘ll see.

Thank you for my daily education. 💆🏾‍♀️ I should read up on this I feel really uneducated!! Isn’t it creepy how there is still and always things you have never heard about and until you die there will always be things you will never know about? Just thoughts that fuck with my head. :))) Facebook marketplace - a thing I have never heard of hahaha. What is that??

Yeah white men and their ✨ sexism ✨ (as you so beautifully put it) is something that genuinely unsettles me. Tell me if it gets somewhere (fingers crossedddd, not sure I‘ll get my hopes up).

Oh what I wanted to throw your way: I am such an idiot I had Atlas At Last im my bookmarks and didn‘t even recognize the title ahsjsks I apologize! I will give a review when I am through, it is next on my list and something I am sure to enjoy (pansexual characters, Queen, and roadtrips? Yes yes yes)!

And lastly the album will be out in approx. 6 hours and I can‘t wait! I love that we have the same song too but when it comes to ot5 (single and group) I am somehow incapable to find my faves? Especially like as group I always say i.e. top 5 and then I remember that banger and I switch it around and then I‘m like fuck but I need the other one and then I remember this song that makes me cry and I am like???? I can‘t decide I hate it. 😭😭😭 Maybe you can start and I will try my best to keep up!

thanks love <33333 i really want to write this, maybe as a break from the big project i'm working on, but writing detective stories (or as i found out, what i’m working on is called a “cozy mystery”) is way harder than i had thought at first. but i know something good can come out of this so fingers crossed

people love you nony, and who wouldn’t tbh?? and i love to hear im exclusive but i don’t mind sharing, everyone deserves a beer nony <3

sdksklfj i’ve used it to sleep too, but it usually wakes me up more than anything. I’m sorry to hear about your insomnia tho, like if pills and tea and masturbating didn’t work then it must be something else :( hope you can find something to help you, and i really wish i had more advice here

ugghhh i knoooow, that’s why i like internet sm, if it wasn’t for this hellsite and youtube videos i would be even more of an idiot than i already am lol but it’s okay not knowing about everything too, so dont worry much, the fun part is learning stuff (i’m such a nerdddd)

facebook marketplace sdfjsjdkj is hell, basically. yk that horrible instagram update where you can “shop” now? it’s the same thing, literally, that’s where it comes from bc facebook owns instagram

hopefully the book is good, and i want to like it bc i like the author. i take sexism very lightly in books because i always give the authors the benefit of the doubt yk? like, they must have a purpose, a reason why they’re writing this character the way they are, to prove a point. for example like lolita, the dude is disgusting but that’s the whole point, reading all those horrible things from the criminal’s pov. that’s what makes you think and reflect. but sometimes the sexism has no purpose and it’s there because a man wrote it lol

ohhh please i want to hear all your thoughts about it! it’s truly probably my fav fic ever, the dynamics, the setting, the music, the characters. i love me some good ot5 dynamics (as everyone who follows me and reads my shitty fics know) and this fic has one of the best i’ve read. it’s also not that long which is something i appreciate because i can’t read lol

also fhsdjkjdsk i loooove that, and totally get it because they truly have so many bangers and hits. okay i can go first then, my top 10 1d songs (in nor particular order) are: love you goodbye, ready to run, where do broken hearts go, diana, fireproof, what a feeling, AM, alive, why dont we go there and i would i couldn’t do a top 5, it was too hard i want to hear yours

[hallelujuh]

2017 fic roundup

i wanted to blab abt my stories

fics written in 2017: nine words written in 2017: 78,242

Your 3 fanfics with the most comments in 2017:

one by one, into the dark

home

i’m your heaven, i’m your hell

Your 3 fanfics with the most kudos in 2017:

one by one, into the dark

worst

home

Your 3 fanfics with the most bookmarks in 2017:

one by one, into the dark

home

i’m your heaven, i’m your hell

Your first fanfic of 2017:

Worst, posted on the very first day of 2k17.

Your last fanfic of 2017:

Hoodie, posted on the very last day of 2k17.

Favorite opening lines from a fic in 2017:

Kyle's got his fake ring on again. He put it on during the car ride, while listening from the backseat to Tweek and Craig discuss what they wanted to have for dinner. He'd felt it in his pocket and decided he needed a piece of his old life back. He missed New York; missed a home where his demons weren't everywhere he looked.

from one by one, into the dark.

i think this paragraph really sums up the lonely, withdrawn person i tried to write kyle as in this story. in the show, kyle loves his friends, but he’s got this,,,aloofness to him. like he feels a bit removed from them. a lot of fics decide this problem goes away by high school, but i wanted to make it get worse as he gets older, until he’s a hardened shell of his former self. but i try to balance that with moments of fragility, bc in canon, he’s very emotionally available, especially with stan. but he’s also a naive child, and being hurt repeatedly will toughen you up until you lose parts of who you were. and i wanted that evidenced clearly here. i’m not trying to be pretentious lol, but i put a lot of thought into this fic, and the ring’s supposed to be a metaphor; it represents this fake happiness that kyle’s let himself associate with his other life in new york. when he has the ring off, he’s confronting the unfinished business he’s left dormant for a decade and a half, and when he puts it on again, he’s choosing to shove it into the closet again (heh double entendre). he’s being overwhelmed by his loneliness, but he’s such a workaholic he normally doesn’t even notice. he’s created this empty but simple life for himself, and idk, this snippet just kinda shows how conflicted he is, how pissed he is that he’s had to leave the easy life behind.

Favorite ending lines from a fic in 2017:

"We're not ghosts," Johnnie corrected. "We're Afterlights." At the kid's confused look, Johnnie began to walk, tugging his new friend along by the hand with him and feeling like he might cry. "C'mon. I'll tell you all about it."

from fade from youth.

real proud of this lil series. i feel like i gave a lot of depth to 2d characters, and i’m happy about it, ‘cuz they deserve that. i really love this line in particular because johnnie’s been alone with himself and his feelings for so long, and now he’s got someone to really be with, and i think it’s beautiful <3

Your favorite character to write for in 2017:

shit....probably kyle??? oboitd let me explore kyle in ways i never have before (that sounded strange...) and it was a really interesting experience that let me appreciate him more. same for stan, probably. and cartman’s always fun. also...i liked writing johnnie-o and zin in my skinjackers soon-to-be trilogy. but yeah, final answer, kyle, cuz i spent a lot of time w him.

Your favorite pairing to write for in 2017:

kyman bitchhhhhh you know it

Your proudest fic from 2017:

oboitd!! easily. i’m so beyond proud of how i’ve grown as a writer and as a world-builder. that fic is highkey my pride and joy.

Your longest fic in 2017:

also oboitd haha. 47k words baby!!! so happy with it lmao.

Any goals from 2018?

ima finish some old drafts, finish oboitd (two more chaps!!!!), and start to write sw fic!! i wanna do gingerpilot - originally i wanted to do kylux, but i have too many issues w/ kylo lmao, so i think im gonna try to work on some poe/hux fic instead. i’ll figure it out haha. also - im gonna quit letting writing be a chore! it should be fun and voluntary, not stressful and obligatory. i gotta work on that.. 

[backonefish]

ANNUAL WRITING SELF-EVALUATION 2016

@paynner tagged me in this (i hope this is still her name :p). And I’m super excited to do this even if I really don’t have much to say. But anywho, here goes.

1. List of works published this year: 

A Whole New World

In a World Like This

(it hit me the minute I posted my second fic that both the titles were incredibly similar and it was too late too change. Le sigh. Tis life)

2. Work you are most proud of (and why):

I know IAWLT was the more popular one, but I’m quite impartial to my first one, AWNW (what the hell are these acronyms? Is this what I get for naming fics after song titles?). It was the first one I wrote for the 1D fandom and it kind of took a life of its own. The minute I saw the prompt, the plot fell into place and I loved being able to write all the Disney into their banter. It was just so much fun to write. I don’t think I’ve written anything that has been that much fun and I kept having to tell myself to focus on actual life and not write.

3. Work you are least proud of (and why):

Um… neither? I know I’m more proud of AWNW, so ergo, the other should be my least. But I really loved writing both and I’m quite proud of both. I mean they’re not literary masterpieces, but I liked them enough to publish… Having said that, there is still stuff I would like to change.

For AWNW, I still feel like the bet was a little too rushed and forced. I had to keep re-writing that part and wished I could’ve fleshed it out more. I also feel like I suck at endings, bc I get super into developing the plot and once I figure out how to end it, I rush into it so quickly and just want to be done. And then when I go back, I wish I had a full more bodied ending. I dunno if that makes sense, but it’s something I need to work on.

4. A favorite excerpt of your writing:

Can I pick two? I’m going to pick two. Both are from AWNW. (this part turned out to be quite long. sorreeee)

“I Just Can’t Wait to be King” is what wakes him up on Wednesday. It used to be what woke his parents up every day when he was a child and the Lion King was the best thing ever. Except he’s no longer a kid and karma’s a bitch.

Today when he drinks tea, he covers Simba’s face with a strategically placed thumb. He places the mug in the sink once he’s done, only to double back and place a kiss on Simba’s face. It’s really not Simba’s fault that his neighbour is an asshole who can’t respect sleeping hours.

That night, Louis stuffs his ears with cotton and hopes for the best.

---

On Thursday, hopes come true. For the first time that week, Louis is woken up by his alarm. Not some –

The angst filled notes of “Let it Go” comes thudding through the walls. Never mind then. Hopes are meant to be dashed.

---

It’s Friday and “Tale as Old as Time” is playing through his walls and really, being woken up every fucking day by a piano playing, Disney loving neighbour, is a tale as old as time. Tomorrow is Saturday. Surely, his neighbours understand the sanctity of a Saturday.

---

Surely he has been more wrong in his life? It’s currently 7:20 and Louis is lying in bed listening to a much improved version of “A Whole New World.” Neighbour #2 is getting better at this. Too bad the same can’t be said for Louis’ sleep.”

K, So I loved this bit bc I was quite proud with how things flowed. It was one of the first ideas that came to me about the fic and stylistically, I enjoyed the movement from one day to the next and the chance to incorporate the Disney songs into the transitions.

And

Perhaps he too should write a poem.

He pulls out a blank sheet of paper and chews his pen.

Harry. He’ll write a poem for Harry.

Hair that shines like a princess

No. He scratches that out and starts again. It’s still too soon.

Skin as soft as a petal

Hair as shiny as the sun

Eyes so – what rhymes with petal? Metal? Nettle? Kettle? Ah, yes. That will work.

Eyes as green as my kettle

Harry, you are my number one.

Dimples as deep as the sea

Lips that make me want to come

Heart as pure as can be

Harry, you are my only one.

Perfect. Literary genius, he is. This is Pulitzer Prize worthy. He rewrites the poem carefully on a fresh sheet of paper and then decorates it with hearts and flowers. He spends the rest of the day in eager anticipation for when he gives the poem to Harry.

Ten pm finally rolls around when Harry texts Louis to say that he’s home. Louis bounds over eagerly, knocking obnoxiously until Harry opens the door.

“Here,” he bypasses Harry’s greeting to thrust the poem taped to a bouquet of flowers he’d picked up on his way home.

“Lou,” Harry breathes, caught off guard, “What is this.”

“I wrote you a poem,” Louis points at the paper, rocking on his feet impatiently. “Read it.”

“Okay,” Harry says, floored. He places the flowers on the table and carefully pulls the poem free. He reads silently, lips mouthing along the words. When he’s done he looks at Louis, eyes wide and slightly teary.

“This is the nicest thing anyone’s done for me,” Harry says, voice wavering slightly.

“So you liked it?” Louis asks, shy all of a sudden.

“I loved it. Your kettle is very green,” Harry agrees.

Louis nods. He’s quite proud of that line. Harry reaches out to cup Louis’ jaw with one hand, poem still clutched tightly in his other.

“Your lips make me want to come too,” Harry whispers, leaning down.

This is my other favourite bc its so absurd. The poem is so bad. I love it. It’s crazy and stupid. It was the most ridiculous thing I could write and I did write it and it just worked with the nature of the fic. Also I could easily picture Larry being this ridiculous about shit (*cough* the wind makes nice waves) and being so in love with each other that they can’t see how bad it is. So yeah. These two pieces.

(also wow, apologies for all the grammatical errors in AWNW)

5. Share or describe a favorite review you received:

Ahhh, I love every single kudo, like, bookmark and comment. I’m still flabbergasted that someone would take the time to appreciate my fic in any sense. So thank you.

If I had to pick one (im sorry if this is cheesy) but I loved the comment paynner left on IAWLT. I wrote it based on her prompt but never in a million years would I expect her to leave such a heartfelt comment on my fic. Like, she picked excerpts she liked and commented on it, promoted it on tumblr and then even proposed to me (I said yes). It honestly doesn’t get better than that. Forever grateful.

6. A time when writing was really, really hard:

Oh… um right before I started writing Larry. I used to write for other fandoms and stopped bc I was no longer inspired? And just real life got in the way and I didn’t see the purpose of writing anymore.

7. A scene or character you wrote that surprised you

This is super tough. I want to say the Harry and Louis I wrote for AWNW. They’re both so ridiculous and over the top. I never imagined writing them like that and it actually working.

8. How did you grow as a writer this year:

Well one, I started writing again, and two, I’m writing RPF and AUs which I never imagined id do. But moreover, I wrote more comedic, light hearted fluff. I used to write angst bc I get angst and it was what I always wrote. So coming back into a completely different genre was nerve-wracking but also so much fun and quite rewarding. I got to be sillier in my work, insert more of my thought process into the characters, and actually create worlds.

9. How do you hope to grow next year:

I want to return to angst next year, and write a longer fic. Mainly, commit to something long enough to actually write it. The last time I wrote a multi-chaptered fic, I was so tired by the end of it and was the worst at updating. So yeah, commit to writing, create a proper schedule to write, and all that jazz.

Oo I also really want to develop my side characters more. Make them more well rounded and bodied and more central to the plot.

10. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc):

Can I just say all the authors in this fandom have been a huge inspiration. I’ve been reading fic for the past year and a half and I’m always so incredibly floored by the variety, talent, and uniqueness of each fic. So, yeah, a huge thank you to everyone who has written.

I will pick out three (bc I love doing things in threes) who have definitely been a positive influence.

Zarah5 (I hope that wherever she is, she’s doing amazing.) Stylistically, the way she writes… wow. The ability to convey emotion and fears through actions and dialogue only, is so unique and I’m in awe of how she does it. Her plots are so detailed and nuanced and just pull me under (see what I did there? I can be punnier than harry). Also her sentence structure? She embodied the characters as the narrators so well and utilizes that into unique sentence structures. I’ve yet to see someone who can write in such a manner.

@alienproof so I’ve commented on chelsie’s work about how she creates atmosphere. You read her fics and you’re instantly pulled into the mood of the world. Finding Lou? The Wonderlands? Omh, the wonderlands. Guys, you don’t understand how much I love that fic. I’ve never waited that eagerly for a fic update in my life. Her Louis and Harry are so much older, but so well written, their fears and motives and dynamic. And the atmosphere. It always boils down to the atmosphere and I love it.

@paynner . duh. I adore her writing. ADORE. Her fics are the best pick-me-ups you could ever need. They’re so funny, so smutty, so unique. Also she’s this plethora of prompts and every time I come across one of them, I’m like ooo I want to write it. Obviously, I went and wrote one. So, literally, she’s been the most positive influence. But yeah, I love her mind, I love how well she writes and I LOVE how somethin’ bout you was so different than her usual style of writing but it works so well! I remember only realising who the author was bc princess isn’t subtle at all, but otherwise I got so sucked up in the world and the plot and the unique way the love/hate dynamic worked that I couldn’t even tell it was her. Oh, also – how the hell did she manage to write so much in a year? 

You people amaze me. And make me think, hey i should give this writing thing a shot too.

11. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year:

Lmao, my love for BSB? Im still amazed that I was able to insert them into a fic. I literally wrote three dates for Harry and Louis in IAWLT bc I wanted to write about the Backstreet Boys and then I went and named the fic after their song. Sue me, I’m trash for them.  

12. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers:

Write what you want. Write what’s fun. You’ll enjoy it more than if you try to write what other people want to read. Also write for fic exchanges bc it puts you on a deadline and provides you with prompts and gives you an automatic audience. (I guess this is mainly for newer writers, but I really have no new wisdom for experienced, established authors… )

13. Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year:

Oh… finishing for sure. I’m working on a med school, friends with benefits fic, set in Canada which is multi-chaptered bc why not bite off more than I can chew. The entire thing is planned out, but I’ve been stuck on the third chapter and life is a thing that refuses to be ignored… so yeah. Lets see. But I’d like to get it finished this year.

keep everything crossed

14. Tag three writers whose answers you’d like to read. ;)

@donotdialnine and @juliusschmidt who I’ve recently been reading again. So much love for their work. And @sadamenoito bc i’ve read all her fics a few too many times. Dunno if you’ve done it already, but if you haven’t….

*All answers should be about works published in 2016. Also, you can skip any questions you hate or don’t want to answer, but please leave them on the list so that others can do them if they want. :)