#i really hope i can get my autism assessment done in july or august and then i can maybe not do classes in the fall | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

autumnoakes · 6 months ago

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i hate that people seem to value my potential worth with a bachelor's degree ("you'll make more money!" as if my degree program isn't one of the least useful degrees if you're not going into med school) over my mental health. as if monthly OCD-induced and autistic meltdowns aren't bad enough.

it's not like i'm a semester or two away from graduating. i have a couple YEARS left. i'm still technically in my third year in my degree. i can only manage 3 courses at the very most and any more causes me to burn out and my executive dysfunction plummets

#vent #this isn't even mentioning the fact that i NEED. to get out of this house #it feels so selfish to say that but i live with people who either can't or don't want to actually learn #to better themselves #so i live with an extremely ableist person who would rather call my grandparents lazy over acknowleging the fact #that my grams does indeed have several disabilities that cause chronic fatigue and pain #or yells at her (autistic) son because he interrupts her in conversation and doesn't ask about her day #like.... sorry your rsd is so bad you have to passive-aggressively mention how you feel like no one cares #but don't be surprised when you move to the US to be with your partner and you never hear from your son again #not unless YOU call HIM #i can't tell my mom this because this is her sister i'm talking about and those two are so close #i kinda just want to sink into the void rn. i don't know what to do #i really hope i can get my autism assessment done in july or august and then i can maybe not do classes in the fall #i need to speak to a councellor and then my academic advisor #but i think i have enough courses to graduate with my associate's degree #and then i can go to the employment services agency for help finding a job #because it's. it's bad right now #long list of jobs i've applied for and it's like they haven't even reviewed my application #only one of them just went 'nope' and i was like 'okay cool thanks for the email you did not send'#edit this woman is also dating a trump supporter so like

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