#i only block anons who send genuinely rude things or want to bitch me out for how I run my blog so I'm hoping it was just they're out vibing

[butmakeitgayblog]

I thought we had buried the demon with the cursed asks about the wings

Those fucking wings will haunt me for the rest of my life, I give accepted it at this point. It's probably poetic justice for, ya know, all the angel smut and blasphemy. My bad

[mandaloriandin]

I swear to God some of you need to fucking go outside. Touch some grass. Maybe read a real book and quit consuming fan made content bc y'all are too fucking comfortable with the anon feature.

Since some of you apparently are so fucking confused, I've made a handy list of fun facts here for you!

Fun fact: Fandom content creators make things for fun in their free time! Many of them actually have real jobs they get paid for, and actual lives outside of your screen. They share their work because they are fun, lovely people who want to bring people some joy! You are not entitled to any of their stuff and its irritating and rude to pester people about updates

Fun fact: Using! Exclamation! Marks! Does! Not! Make! Your! Rude! Message! More! Friendly!!!!!! Hope this helps!! :) :)

Fun fact: Some of you people are so rude and bitter, that it wouldn't surprise me if you've never been in a relationship before, on account of nobody wanting to be around your stinky bitch ass for that long. For your benefit, im gonna let you in on a little secret about real-world relationships: people use pet names! Shocking, I know! But its real I swear. Source: I have been in a few relationships myself. Pet names like sweetheart, babygirl, beloved, my love, smart girl, baby, etc. Are all things people actually use in real life and are not in fact, derivatives of 1 specific fanfic writer. In fact, this might shock you, but even that specific fandom creator is using a real world endearment! Is your mind blown? Its okay, take a minute to absorb that.

Fun fact: You trying to "defend" your fave writers by sending hate to other writers even though their stories share nothing but a reader insert and 1 character is annoying as hell. A lot of writers on this site within a fandom are actually friends with each other and fucking hate that shit. Quit comparing works. Quit telling people their shit is similar when it isn't, quit being dickheads. If you aren't gonna leave a nice comment then fuck off.

Fun fact: On that note, even if the fics are similar, unless its straight up plagiarism then you don't need to comment on it. Did you know that basically everything is a derivative of everything? There are only so many characters in a fandom and so many tropes. You're gonna get repeated themes. Just shut the fuck up about it and enjoy the content. If you truly and genuinely do think someone is plagiarizing another creator's work, send the original creator a private message saying you just wanted them to be made aware and then let them take it from there. If they disagree, leave it. If they agree, let them take the lead and don't just go attacking people.

Fun fact: If you read any of this and thought "huh, I do that" then you need to go re-evaluate, fuckin learn to think critically, and maybe fuckin chill out a little. They're fictional characters, my friend. Its not that deep. Please put down your phone for a bit and go outside. And if you still feel like being a dick, well then make like a dick and get fucked :)

To all my favourite lovely and wonderful content creators: please take care of yourselves. Never feel pressure to update things or post more or interact if its too stressful or you're too busy. Your mental health comes first and we all understand! Also, be liberal with the block button. Delete rude asks. Never feel obligated to keep people around if they're making you feel like shit. Your actual nice fans understand, I promise.

[whumperooni]

I'd love to be mutuals with you but now really sure how to approach you off-anon.

I've been holding off on answering this one because I'm not quite sure how to respond without coming off as rude or bitchy or grouchy or stuck up or just straight up ridiculous

So pretty please take this as a general answer for everyone wanting to be moots and not just you, okay? I promise it's nothing personal (specially since you're a nonny and idk who you are anyways)

tldr; I'm a bad moot and if you wanna be a moot it has to happen naturally

But

I'm a terrible mutual, tbh. My online presence is flaky at best and I rarely look at my dash. I'm happy to chat with my moots if they reach out and I'm happy to interact with them...but I don't really approach them and I go through long periods of time where I miss their content because a) I'm too busy to be on tumblr, b) my fixations have shifted and I don't wanna interact with stuff that's not centered on them, c) I'm feeling particularly tired and/or angry and I'm off tumblr because I know I'm going to lose my temper and lash out at someone.

I try to be nice to people and I try to keep an open mind and I really try to let people do their own thing even if it bothers me. But the thing is?

I'm not a super nice person. I have a minimal tolerance for bullshit and I have a problem with general fandom fuckery. (Like across all fandoms- not just here)

I get angry at fandom and I get angry at my dash and I get angry at myself and, honestly, my presence in fandom is more like a stray cat that wanders in when they're bored or hungry and leaves when I grow bored or irritated by whatever drama is going on that day. I'm selfish and standoffish and, honestly, jealous of a lot of things and people too.

They're not awesome qualities to have in a moot. They're not awesome qualities to have as a person. I try my best to maintain a more positive vibe but, really, it's not always strictly genuine.

And the thing is? It gets tiring trying to pretend that I'm not rolling my eyes at every post on my dash. I'm too old and tired to pretend to like people that get on my nerves. I don't follow those people. I try not to interact with them. I blacklist their tags and I'll block them if they really get under my skin.

I monitor my circle and I do it in a way that's strictly selfish. I refuse to follow someone who sends me into a rant every other day and I'll absolutely dump a mutual if seeing their posts starts to get under my skin. I've done that before and, honestly, it hurt to do that because I did enjoy their content a lot and I thought that we could actually be good friends....I just didn't enjoy them or entertain those daydreams anymore once they decided to dump me like a hot potato.

I've been on all the sides of being a moot- bestie moots, enemies to friends to moots and back to enemies, casual headcanon exchanging moots, the moot that's been dropped because the other found more popular friends + more clout, and the moot that's dropped the other because they started shit talking about things that are Extremely Personal to me and I wasn't about to deal with that.

It sucks being a moot with someone only to find out they've dumped you. And, honestly? That's a veryyyyyyyyy likely possibility when it comes to being moots with me? Which I hate because people don't deserve that and hurt feelings suck and I don't want to upset anyone if I don't have to. But the thing is? I have to monitor my experience on tumblr or I will spiral and become miserable and nuke my chances of being welcome in fandom during an inevitable, public meltdown.

And that means....well that means that things just have to happen naturally?

(God, I'm so sorry I'm rambling but I'm trying so hard to explain myself)

Like. If you come to me and you're like "I wanna be mutuals with you. I wanna be friends" then I'm going to recoil- especially if we've never interacted before. For one, something like that is supremely uncomfortable to me. How can I say no without coming off as a bitch? It feels like a trap- even if it isn't, even if it's purely just enthusiastic and sincere- and I'm a prickly, hermetic person by nature who literally talks to one person irl on a daily basis...who also happens to live with me and is my boyfriend.

I don't seek out friends. I don't seek out relationships. I don't try to make something happen when it comes to people? It just...idk man I have to let it happen naturally or eventually it's gonna blow up in my face because I will feel restless and trapped and resentful. (Even if you literally do nothing wrong. Please understand that I'm a kinda shitty person, I work two jobs and I'm always stressed, and I'm bipolar and unmedicated. Please understand that I try and I'm not using these as excuses but just stating facts- my mental and emotional state are often shit and I lash out at people once my stress becomes too much...which is often these days. That this has happened to me before and I know myself and I'm trying to be truthful and not set up any rosy expectations just to disappoint anyone)

Like...if you still wanna be a moot, all I can say is to just...interact with me? Maybe I'll check out your blog and vibe with what I see????

But there are layers and layers of why I'm Not a good moot and there are layers and layers of reasons I'm not going to follow just anybody just because I'm asked.

I...I don't know. I don't know how to end this and I don't know if this makes any sense at all or if it's too much explanation or not but...

Just...don't have any expectations when it comes to me. I'm making no promises to anyone and I'm trying to be transparent.

I won't be mutuals with someone just because they want me to be. It's gotta happen naturally or it won't happen at all.

And I am sincerely sorry if it causes hurt feelings or if it comes off as rude or mean or bitchy or something. Rejection fucking sucks, you know?

But I have to look out for my mental and emotional health and, unfortunately, that means setting boundaries and limits and monitoring my experience very carefully.

So...yeah.

I'm sorry. I know this is probably super unsatisfying and I'm deeply apologetic over it.

But...yeah. That's that and I'm going to shut up now.

(Sorry)

[babbushka]

Please read the whole thing ❤️

Hey everyone, Zannah here. 

I’ve taken some time and stepped away from this platform after all the drama that happened a month or so ago, and in that time I’ve been doing a lot of thinking. Thank you all so much, for your kindness and support in allowing me to unplug for a little while, I really needed that break just for my own sanity. I hope that in this time, you all have been doing as well as you can in this very stressful year. I’d like to take this brief moment and thank my most dear friends who have been my rock. This experience has shown me that good friends, truthful friends, are hard to come by. If you have them, please make sure they know how much you love them.

You know, I’ve been on this platform for just about ten years. For a few of those years, I’ve been here in the AD community, and I can honestly say I’ve never had a more negative experience in my life, from the actions that I’ve witnessed and experienced. I stayed away from people I didn’t like, I didn’t read fic I didn’t like, I avoided content and artwork that upset me, because I’m an adult. And foolishly I was expecting others to do the same, because as I always say, your internet experience is up to you to cultivate. You are responsible for no one else’s actions other than your own.

I’ve dealt with people coming into my inbox condemning me for the way I interpret fictional characters from day one. I’ve dealt with people calling me slurs and names, telling me to kill myself, telling me they were going to kill me themselves, that I deserve awful unspeakable things, for not agreeing with the way that they interpret a fictional character. Those were all easy to ignore, because they were always, always either about my Jewishness, or about the Jewishness of my characters, and I have no time for bigots, I just don’t.  

People got angry with me for having boundaries in not wanting to write certain things, or for not wanting to write them in the specific way that they wanted me to. People got angry with me for being frustrated, that time and time again I was being treating as some writing machine and not a person, by them not giving me the basic respect of checking the small list of tropes and themes I’m uncomfortable writing which I’ve made so accessible every time. Time and time again I became frustrated, being asked questions that I’ve made clear on so many occasions, that I was uncomfortable answering, or held negative opinions of.

And that was frustrating, because it was a level of entitlement I’d never seen before – people wanted my writing, but only if it satisfied their needs with little regard to my own feelings, and called me a bully when I didn’t comply. Still, it was just about the writing, and I could ignore that.

But then, strangers started getting angry with me because I had blocked them for whatever reason from seeing my content. Strangers got angry with me for standing up for myself when people tried to pull stunts in the inbox. When people asked me for advice or my opinion on a whole assortment of topics, they said I was being a bully because they didn’t like what I had to say. A difference of opinion is not a personal attack, but it seems as though many people haven’t grasped that concept. People said I was betraying others’ trust by answering anonymous asks on the internet, something that has exactly 0 risk or stakes in sending. People said I was a bitch when I tried to offer genuinely constructive and critical responses. People got angry that I blocked their IP address for sending me unwanted, anonymous, negative hot takes that I didn’t ask for, nor that I cared about. People said I never took accountability for anything, when in reality they just wanted me to change my mind about certain topics, and got angry when I held true to my convictions. 

I hope you can all imagine why I didn’t respond pleasantly. Like every content creator on this website and on any website, we don’t owe anyone anything. I don’t owe anyone anything. I don’t owe anyone writing, I don’t owe anyone answers, I don’t owe anyone attention or time. And something that I’ve learned most of all, is that I don’t owe people the pleasure of indulging in flame wars that get brought to my feet. I am not interested in wasting my time trying to defend myself and my good name, against people who have already made up their mind about me from a few misunderstandings, a single interaction, or a one-sided and angry perspective. I’m not interested in wasting my time over things that I know in my heart, aren’t true.

One thing people sometimes tell me, is that I was “rude to a perfectly genuine anon.” I would like to say this; there is absolutely no way for me to know the intention of any anon, other than the way the message comes across. And I’ll be the first to admit, often intention is misinterpreted! When that happens and the person reaches out, I always, every time, have apologized. And just as easy as it is for me to misinterpret someone’s genuine ask as rude or offensive, it is easy for my genuine responses to be interpreted as rude or clipped. Tone is difficult over the internet -- tone is difficult in text where these people are anonymous strangers and I have no idea who they are or with which intentions they’re coming from. 

That being said, people can still say hurtful things without the intention of doing so. People have said unintentionally hurtful things to me, and I now realize that I have said things which have been hurtful to others. Good intentions mean nothing, when real hurt and pain is caused. To those people, I would like to give a genuine and sincere apology. I hope, as all I can ever do is hope, that folks here know I never come from a place of malice. Moving forward, I will do my best to respond in ways that I hope will come across as respectful as possible, even when disagreeing. I believe the only legitimate form of apology is changed behavior, and I intend to make that change so that this space can be more inclusive and welcoming, as I have only ever wished it to be. 

Because, well, I like to think that we have made a welcoming and inclusive space, a space where we are able to respect one another’s boundaries. I am just one person, just a girl with a blog on the internet who has tried to forge a community of peers and friends. I am not a politician with a PR team approving my every post, there are no mods here to help me interact with you guys. I’m just a girl who writes fanfic and posts it on the internet. I write fanfic that makes me happy, that I’m proud of, for me, and I am happy to share it with you. Especially because through that fanfic, I’ve met incredible wonderful people, and I’m thankful for all of you.

Through having this blog, I’ve met people that I consider to be lifelong friends -- people that I plan on building a future with, and for that I’m forever grateful. I’ve met people who have become inspired to write their own fanfic or start their own blogs, and even when it’s a subject matter that’s not something I’m interested in or one that I personally don’t like, I have always, always been encouraging. Because this is a hobby, this is something people should be doing for fun, because they want to, and no other reason. So when I see claims that “I’ve forced people to quit writing” or someone saying “I quit the fandom because of you”, I know that that’s simply not true. The only way you quit writing is by not writing anymore. It may feel better to blame someone for the reasons why, but no one can make you do anything except yourself. 

Similarly, I’ve seen people saying that I’ve “ruined their favorite character” and to that all I have to say is what I’ve always been saying; if you don’t like my writing, you don’t have to read it. If you don’t like my interpretation of characters, you don’t have to consume the content I put out. If you don’t like my opinions, you don’t have to follow me. People don’t “ruin characters” for anyone else, when you simply avoid the content you don’t like, and focus on (or make) the content you do like.

Have I been confused when someone shares my story with a tag that didn’t make sense and so I reached out to them privately to address the issue? Yes. 

Have I expressed my negative feelings about fics and the trends of fandom in the comfort and boundaries of my own blog, in posts that I remove when I felt that they no longer were worth keeping up? Yes.

Have I expressed my concerns regarding certain tropes, themes and kinks, opinions formed by my own firsthand experience with them, coupled with the potential damaging effects they may have on a young and impressionable audience like some of those in this fandom? Yes. 

I don’t deny any of these things, because I am not ashamed of any of these things. You don’t have to like it, but that does not make me a monster, nor does it make me a tormenter of this fandom as I have been called.

Tormenting people in fandom is making long scathing posts publicly blasting someone because you’re angry that they blocked you. Or making long public callout posts to warn others in the fandom of my many crimes – crimes which actually aren’t crimes at all – and whipping up a frenzy of frothing at the mouth hate. Or reblogging a post and hijacking it with long commentary about something that has nothing to do with you in an attempt to shame the original poster. Or getting screenshots of private conversations where someone is joking with a person who they once thought was a friend, that are taken out of context and framing them to fit a narrative you’re spinning against them. That’s torment.

This fandom has the most vicious and warped mob mentality that I have ever seen. I’ve seen it in the treatment of Adam and Joanne, I’ve seen it in the treatment of John Boyega and Kelly Marie Tran. I’ve seen it in the treatment of other bloggers, and well, I can say I’ve seen it and experienced it myself. I worry for the future of the fandom, when this sort of behavior is rewarded and celebrated, because people are so quick to simply agree with someone’s impassioned anger instead of thinking critically for themselves.

However (and this is the ‘but’ of the whole post), I cannot make this post and make all these statements without saying that this community has also been a place of kindness and support and acceptance, and I’m genuinely touched by everyone who has ever gone out of their way to talk to me. I thought long and hard about deleting this blog. I thought about just packing up and leaving our corner of the web, or moving to other platforms. I even put out a little announcement on my ao3 that I was done, I was out of here. But it didn’t sit right with me. It didn’t feel right to abandon all the incredibly beautiful, talented, welcoming, supportive and kind people that had found some peace in this corner of the web. I was absolutely blown away by the sweet messages that were sent to my inbox, and my DMs, the posts that were circulated written by friends and strangers alike literally brought me to tears. 

I know that many people here do not like me, and want nothing to do with me, and that’s okay. I know that my content is not for everyone, my opinions are not going to be lined up with everyone else’s, that’s okay too. People have not liked me from the beginning lol, that’s nothing new to me. I have always said, that I would continue to write even if no one read my stuff, and that’s still true. You are in charge of your internet experience, follow the people and consume the content that makes you happy, and block out the things that don’t. 

If you are reading this and you are one of the kind people, one of the supportive and understanding people who are on my side, I cannot say thank you enough. The time I took away made me realize that there are much larger problems in the world than strangers on the internet having negative opinions about me, and that kindness will always be more powerful than hate. The community we have built together means more to me than the bullshit other people try and start.

So, all of this is to say, that I’m back.

Some things are going to be a little different around here; I’m very very sorry I know I said I would never do this but I’ve turned the anonymous function off for the time being just for the sake of my sanity, and I’ve updated my FAQ. Writing will no longer be posted directly to tumblr, but rather a redirect link from AO3 will be posted making all tag-list requests null and void.

But other things will remain the same. We’re still going to have sleepovers, I’m still going to accept prompts (but please give me some time before we get back to sinday, as I’m still in a little bit of unease about all of this). I’m still going to be talking about my personal AU, and I’m still going to be uploading fanart and gifs and memes and shitposts and answering your questions and giving you the love you all have shown to me over the years.

If you’ve made it this far, thank you for giving me the time to say my peace. I know it’s a long post, but I’ve been sitting on these thoughts for quite some time, and I’m relieved to finally express them. Please know that my posting this isn’t intended to stir up anything, or cause any drama, or relive any pain. 

I just missed you all very dearly. I hope that we can move onward and upward together, a babbushka 2.0 of sorts. It’s an exciting time to be in this fandom, and I am looking forward to experiencing everything together.

I’m sending you all of my love. 

[hatsukeii]

can i request a tsukishima scenario? When he is feeling sad so his fem! S/o pampers him with kisses in his face and hands, and maybe cuddles 🥺🥺

*cough angst with fluff ending *cough

I have to make it up to you guys for the last Tsukki angst right?

Before slamming another multitude of depressing scenarios but don’t worry about that for now.

lol I genuinely love this prompt so much though, tysm anon!

Always, I’ll care//Tsukishima x Reader

Word count: 2000+

Warnings: Mild swearing, mentions of divorce, mentions of anorexia, ✨cyberbullying✨

Summary: Tsukishima’s been out of it for week but you can’t seem to pinpoint why, until he finally reaches out.

Yeah, you were absolutely certain that something was up with Kei at this point. There was, without a doubt, something that had been bothering him terribly. Whatever this thing was, it was draining him of his usual spirit. The usual glint of mischief that sparkled in his eyes has been gone for weeks, now replaced by a dull golden. He hasn’t bantered with any of his teammates throughout the last few practices, he hasn’t made an extra effort to make you feel short, nor has he reached out to anyone at all. His sharp tongue was gone, along with his usual tendencies to taunt other students. You haven’t been able to reach him in what felt like forever. He hasn’t replied to any of your texts, hasn’t walked you home at all, nor has he invited you over for your study dates. This felt weird. This didn’t feel right at all. This wasn’t the Kei you were used to, but at the same time you had no idea what you could do to make him feel better. He was too closed off for his own good, keeping everything to himself and letting his worries eat him up from the inside.

You heaved a heavy sigh, shoving your books into your locker. He had ignored your text again. This was the seventh one in a row that he had left on seen. Everyone who knew him was worried, especially you and Yamaguchi. He refused to tell even Yamaguchi what was up with him these days.You two had all the reasons in the world to be extra wary of his mental state. “(Y/N), you don’t think he’s okay either, do you?” The freckled boy mumbled next to you, grabbing his notes from the locker next to yours. “No, he’s definitely not okay. Constantly having his headphones on is never a good sign. The last time he was like that was when his parents got divorced.” You slammed your locker door shut as hard as you can, earning quite a few glares from other students that were startled by the noise. “Jesus, I haven’t been able to reach him for weeks. What the hell happened?” You pressed your forehead to the locker door, squeezing your eyes shut. “He’s been out of it at practice too. Tsukki almost never misses his blocks against anyone, but he’s been doing terribly in practice. Coach Ukai had to put him on the bench last week. What’s up with him?” Yamaguchi recalled, shaking his head a bit. “Hell, as if I’d know. I’ve been trying to check up on him for weeks, but he’s left all of my texts on read.” You removed your head from the metal door, before heading to class, where you had to deal with a dead silent, gloomy, angsty Tsukishima for about an hour, before school ended. 

You were curled up on your bed, a million thoughts rampaging through your mind, every single one of them being about Kei. It’s been half an hour since school ended. You walked home with Yamaguchi. Tsukishima was nowhere to be found. It was as if he had abandoned you two and left on his own. No, scratch that, he probably did leave alone. Was he doing okay? What happened to him? Did he fail a test or something? Oh no, did his parents get back together again? Even worse, did he get invited to his dad’s wedding with his new wife? Or maybe he was just fed up with you? Wait, what did you do? Did you piss him off? Oh god, it must’ve been the time where you forgot to bring him that strawberry shortcake you promised to make him. Or was it that time you were late for your date and he almost didn’t make it in time for the premiere of that new Jurassic Park movie? Your train of thoughts was rudely interrupted by the ringing of your phone. You lazily slapped a hand across your nightstand, grabbing your phone from the charger and pulling it towards you. Your eyes widened at the contact that was shown on the screen. You sat up at an inhumanly speed, accepting the call as you brought your phone to your ear. “Kei?” “(Y/N), can you- can you come over? Please- please come over.” He was audibly sobbing, tiny sniffs making their way into his sentences. “Oh-oh god, yeah, of course, I’ll be there in five, stay put, don’t worry.” You changed into a random pair of sweats, and took off to Tsukishima’s house, grabbing a bunch of candy and some shortcake on the way, just to make him feel a bit better.

You slowly creaked open the door to his room, taking a peek. The blond haired boy was sitting in front of his laptop, a hand over his mouth as tears slowly dropped onto the keys. His eyes were bloodshot, presumably from all the crying. His phone was in his other hand, the knuckles of his fingers white from gripping the piece of technology so tight. Your heart clenched at the sight. It was as if an entire army fired arrows at your heart simultaneously, and all the arrows managed to pierce through that pulsing lump of muscle. The boy, that you cared for so dearly, was breaking down, and no one knew except for you. “Kei....” You opened the door a bit more, lightly treading on the wooden floor of his room as you approached the taller male. “Am I worthless?” The blond whimpered out, his eyes never leaving the screen. Your gaze landed onto the computer screen. You gave out an audible growl after reading what was shown on the monitor.

From: Unknown

To: Tsukishima Kei

Dear Tsukishima,

I hope you know that you’re the reason your parents got divorced, you little shit. I wish for no one to ever love you. Everyone that dates you should only date you out of pity. You’re worthless. No one truly cares about you. You could kill yourself and no one would notice, you anorexic blond bitch. Stay your ass scrawny while everyone buffs up xx

Sincerely, Your dad- oh wait you wish, he probably can’t even remember who you are

Your face darkened at the disgusting email that was sent to your boyfriend. How dare someone say such hurtful things to him. Tsukishima sighed, his head hanging low. “You can’t even answer it. I already know I’m worthless, I don’t need you to rub it in either. I thought you could help.” Your head snapped towards the blond, misbelief and rage shining through the look you gave him. “Kei, how long have you been receiving emails like this? Why didn’t you tell me-” “Just answer me first.” You were taken aback by his tone. It was hurt, definitely, but almost in a hopeless way. You brought your hand up to cup his tear stained cheek, drying it with your thumb as your other hand went up to ruffle his hair. “How could you ever be worthless? Even if everyone else thought you were worthless, I’d still think you’re the most precious thing in the world, and you better not let anyone tell you otherwise.” Tsukishima let out a strained sob, nuzzling his face into your warm hand, before taking a deep breath. “This person, whoever it is, they’ve been sending me these emails for a few weeks. At first, they weren’t that bad, but then it started to get personal. They attacked my family situation, my relationship, and my body.” Your nose scrunched up in disgust. “What kind of sick freak attacks someone’s family situation?” The blond shakily sighed. “Apparently this person.” You shook your head, shoving your face into your hand. “We all know they got divorced because your mom caught him cheating. It’s clearly not your fault. You dad was in the wrong and you know it.” He sulked a bit, before continuing. “Well they’ve also been calling me anorexic for weeks.” 

Your eyebrows furrowed at this new information. Never in a million years did you think Kei would think so heavily of his own body image. He always struck you as a carefree, unbothered person. Who would’ve known he was so insecure underneath it all? “Kei, why didn’t you tell me about all this?” “I didn’t want you to worry. I thought I could deal with this on my own, but then they started bringing up by dad and me looking anorexic. Apparently I’m too skinny for anyone to appreciate. No one wants an anorexic person. I’m not even anorexic but I’m getting offended by this. I can’t help being lanky you know.” You heaved a dry chuckle. “Seriously? Body image issues? Tsukishima god damn Kei look at yourself and tell me you have a terrible body. Do it.” He was visibly shocked, looking down at himself. “Exactly. You can’t.” Your hand went down to grab his, pulling him on his feet. You pulled his sleeve up, giving his shoulder a tiny peck. “Look at you. You’re built like a whole ass Greek God. You’re like lowkey ripped, how in hell’s name did you manage to believe in that asshole’s emails?” Next, you led his hand to your face, giving each finger a kiss. “Somehow your fingers are still intact for me to hold, even after winning so many sets with your insane blocks.” You let go of his hand, slowly trailing your fingers along his face. “Your eyes are deadass the most perfect thing. I don’t think I can enjoy the sun anymore, your eyes are enough for me to get mesmerised in.” You pulled his face down, giving both his eyelids a tender peck. You squeezed his cheeks, before squishing them between your palms. “You may be lanky and muscular, but your cheeks are still as squishy as ever. I love squishing them so much, they’re like a baby’s cheeks.” With that, you gave both his cheeks a peck, before finally moving to his forehead, giving it a gentle kiss. “Right here, is where the magic is put to work. Everything you’ve been through, learned, felt, all stored right here. Your mind is quite the battlefield, constantly giving you conflicting thoughts about yourself. You’re still dealing with everything that’s been thrown on you. From your parent’s divorce, to your brother’s lie, to the shitty emails. But that mind of yours, also managed to find a way to block THE Ushijima Wakatoshi. It’s aced so many exams for you, it’s helped you get to me, and it’s helped you make up those snarky one liners that you love to use so much. I know what I say might not make any significant difference, but I just want to let you know how I feel. I think you’re a complete badass, a hotshot middle blocker, and one of the hottest people I’ve landed my eyes on. So many people care about you, so please never render yourself worthless. Please.” At this point, Tsukishima had stopped crying, now looking at you with wide eyes. “How could your words ever be insignificant to me?” His arms were instantly wrapped around you, pushing you into his chest. It was dead silent in the room. You could hear his heartbeat in your ear. “Thank you... so, so much.” His voice cracked a bit as he whispered. You moved your head up, giving him a soft, but passionate kiss, keeping your forehead in contact with his. “You don’t have to thank me, I was only stating the truth. Plus, you better report that asshole to the school, they’re gonna get what they deserve when the teachers find out who it is.” He pulled away, grabbing your hand and lacing his fingers with yours. “Why do you care so much anyways? You sent me like seven texts in a row at school. You should be pissed at me or something. I did leave you on read for weeks after all.” You laughed heartily, before drawing circles on his hand with your thumb.

“Always, I’ll care, dumbass.”

Is this fluffy enough for you guys? Probably not considering it’s still like part angst lmao but idc have fun reading it the angst will be back in a bit my dudes and I’m about to make Tsukishima suffer again I’m sorry I love him too but like I crave angst xx

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[ill-be-istj-if-no-one-else-is]

I did my best to put it in some kind of order but it got messy and I'm helpless about what I should write even after having read the FAQ and more than 20 pages of your posts so bear with me, please. The more I studied the functions, the less I know. So I'm really annoyed when people do things in a certain way because that's how it was done - there's nothing wrong with sticking to tried ways but everyone should think why they do it instead of mindlessly following a set path. (1/???)

A note to readers: if I may ask, please hold back your own sarcasm and such.

I don’t explicitly set a length limit anywhere for asks as most people stop at a fairly reasonable 5 or 6 - I’ve gotten extremely long asks only a few other times and those were mostly overnight for me so I didn’t get to weigh in in medias res, so while this person definitely needs to work on editing there’s some good content. Had there been anything egregiously offensive, ignorant, or annoying I’d have been much more brusque or I’d just have blocked them; this was a genuine misread of the situation. It’s really hard for me to define what’s good to send for typing; it’s very much a case of knowing it when I see it and I know that can be difficult for some people to interpret. Answer is below the jump.

Hi anon,

I may have had some mild fun at your expense; when I see someone is 10 messages deep and talking about Mamma Mia I have to say I have concerns about their ability to decide what is relevant information.

Anyway I’m going to answer this piece by piece. This will not be my, uh, least snarky answer; the cost of doing business of mbti typing with me for no money is that I like to enjoy myself. But I will attempt to also provide a good faith answer as you have some solid examples within all this.

I did my best to put it in some kind of order but it got messy and I'm helpless about what I should write even after having read the FAQ and more than 20 pages of your posts so bear with me, please.

As you can see I will not really bear with you but I do appreciate you doing some research

The more I studied the functions, the less I know. So I'm really annoyed when people do things in a certain way because that's how it was done - there's nothing wrong with sticking to tried ways but everyone should think why they do it instead of mindlessly following a set path. (1/???)

I feel like people use this sort of language to be like “please don’t type me as a high Si user” when in fact this is EXTREMELY high healthy Si user. Thought it could be a lower Si user as well. Anyway, moving on

For example, it's sad how many people believe in God just because thats how they were raised without actually reading the Bible (no hard feelings to believers, I also believe)

I’m...not going to unpack that

I like to speak out loud some ideas with no thoughts of acting on them but some people tend to believe I'm dead set on the idea and it causes some misunderstandings. Also, I have at least 6 back up plans for my future in case some of them won't fly. (2/???)

Here’s the deal when people say they’ve studied EVERYTHING and then ramble on for a long time and can’t type themselves I often suspect the issue isn’t that they don’t know MBTI but that they need to learn themselves. Contingency plans tend to be Ne-Si; speaking out loud with no plans to act is pretty normal.

I plan on going to a country abroad in 2 years from now and I've already made plans what I want to see there. I have a list of places I need to visit arranged in order so I could visit as many places in the most effective way because I don't want to waste my precious time spend there. I also enjoy telling people about my plans of going there as it makes me really excited. The unknown excites me and I enjoy wandering around a city I visit for the first time because I don't know it.

I can’t type off of this specifically yet but it’s interesting because you have extremely detailed plans (more of a sensing thing) but for a trip that I can’t imagine you’ve finalized if it’s that far off.

Wandering around cities is great though, I agree with you there.

I'm also really good at remembering routes and getting to the destination. I like figuring out how to get there.

Maybe immature Si user actually? Getting really indignant about poor use of Si, plus that bit about the bible I said I wouldn’t unpack sounds like it could be as well especially if paired with Fe and/or Christian views of religion.

I'm a bit reserved at first as I need to test the waters before I decide I like someone. It takes me sometime to warm up but I actually enjoy small talk and feel tempted to speak to a cashier at shop or a fellow passenger at bus which isn't as socially acceptable at my country so I don't really do this - I don't want to come across as a weird person but at the same time, (4/???)

I'm not really bothered to play a social game and I often seem to be rude (resting bitch face, actually I'm not judgmental and I'm quite chill about most of things). I know in mbti e vs i isn't perceived in a traditional way but I identify as ambivert as most of people, heh. My introverted friends say I'm an extravert but extraverts find me a quiet girl. I'm also 9w1 if that helps.

Yeah I’m thinking ISFJ now honestly, not wanting to violate social norms, introverted but enjoys small talk, and 9w1 goes with ISFJ a lot.

I've been also always thought to be a smart one who knows a lot of stuff about many things (5/???)

I could say I'm a walking contradiction as I mentioned in my previous post btw I'm sorry I asked you to type me with a vague info, this time I put a lot of effort ♡ Oh god please don’t say you’re a walking contradiction, I truly believe your intentions are good here and I do not hold this against you but that phrase is what guys who think they’re going to make it in a band despite having no talent say in their tinder bios.

At first I was sure I'm Ne/Si but now I see a possibility of being Ni/Se.I often forget what I'm supposed to do as I've just done because I had this super relevant thing to write but I forgot, damn it.

You seem very nice and perhaps just sort of young so I would suggest...writing this in advance instead of stream of consciousness which might help you organize your thoughts and edit yourself a little? I’m writing this response in advance. Like 90% of my answers I write in a Google Doc and then paste it into the Tumblr askbox later. It’s great.

(6/???) I'm getting lost in the numbers

Hard same.

I'm also quite stubborn and I'll study a thing as long as it's needed for me to fully understand it - it drives me crazy when I study for an exam, I ask my friend for help because I don't understand the concept and she tells me I don't need to understand it, I just need to memorize it.

Sounds very much like Ti here, which fits the earlier typing of Fe-user.

I do things for 101% or I don't do it at all.

I’m guilty of saying this too; I think many people see this quality in themselves unfortunately and I’m not sure it ultimately means much.

I also have a friend who helps me to stay grounded as she remembers some stuff for me and I'm pretty sure I'll be lost without her (7/???) I didn't think I wrotesomuch

yeah...about that.

I'm quite oblivious on daily basis, I went through school hallway and didn't notice a big ballot box. I only notice things when i want to and it's not a natural thing for me. But when I do pay attention, I'm sometimes mischievous on purpose and enjoy pushing buttons of others. I work on not doing it, I promiseI have a great talent to focusing on irrelevant things and I struggle to do well in my infp teacher classes - even though I know I need a shitload of details from readings (8/???)

So here’s the thing: I really don’t think you use Ni. First of all, the stream of consciousness thing tends to be something Ni users don’t like to do in my experience: they like to edit. They also just...don’t sound the way you do? Like this is rambly but it’s coherent in a way an INFJ ramble of this nature wouldn’t be. You could be an INTP actually with rigid low Si and Fe instead of immature higher Si though. But I’m pretty confident at this point you use the Fe-Ti and Ne-Si axes.

One thing I do find funny, even though I suppose I set people up for it, is when I get asks that are like “here is the detailed description of when I didn’t notice a detail and here is what I didn’t notice”. Like, we do all miss things and while it’s more common in intuitives, my legally-blind-without-glasses Si-dom mother does this too because she can’t see for shit, so.

to do well in exam, I always choose things that aren't relevant to her. She's an excellent teacher and I enjoy her insights. As for Ni/Se, I'm amazed how many things my peers do without thinking about consequences. For example, I wouldn't drink till I'm unconscious because I know I would upset my parents. I perceived it as ni, might be wrong though.

You are wrong in that this isn’t Ni, it’s called basic self-preservation. I’ve gotten extremely drunk from time to time in my life but I have never gotten drunk to the point of involuntary passing out because that is when you fucking die. Your instincts are correct here, your reasoning about your parents is probably Fe, but your decision itself is not Ni.

(9/???) Now, I'm geniually sorry I wrote so much even though I'm not usually but this case is special

I appreciate the apology but this is something I often observe with people who use Fe: they’ll apologize several timesfor long asks or asks that ignore the FAQ or whatever, but like, they still do it. I’ve had to have this conversation IRL with Fe users actually, of “I’m really not looking for an apology, I’m looking for the thing you’ve apologized for to stop.” That is a whole other post about communication though that I may make tomorrow.

I'm also really into helping others[(what contradicts with my mischief, here we go again (I didn't like the 2nd part of mamma Mia as much as the first - it was too sad, I cried in the cinema and the holiday-happy-vibe was missing, it's off topic, isnt it, the second part is called mamma mia: here we go again and I liked the first part so much I watched it like 20 times and know all the songs by heart)] (10/???)

This was the point where I decided to start fucking with you and to turn off anon, not going to lie, because I hadn’t read the rest but I saw 10/??? after an off-topic post about Mamma Mia and was like “okay we’re going to finish it now”

Anyway from this whole thing I cannot decide if you are an ISFJ or INTP, but I’m going to guess INTP as the 9w1 might be what was making me think high Fe before.

[terrible-roleplay-experiences]

Hey guys.

So. 

This is going to be a long post.

I’m only going to say this once. And it makes me kind of frustrated that I have to say it at all but here we are.

I know Admin Spice has addressed this multiple times on this blog, but I feel like it needs reiterating. 

I get that some people send asks to this blog and are trolls. So they’re really rude and send hate because, you know. They’re looking for a reaction or attention and this is the avenue they chose to get it (for some reason that is absolutely beyond me). I know that this is the internet, some people are rude/hateful/inflammatory just for the sake of being those things. I get it. It’s something that’s an unfortunate part of our reality now. 

So I get that I’m “feeding the trolls” by saying this. However, Spice is allowing me to function simultaneously as a moderator and the admin of this blog while she’s gone. So I’m allowed to do what I feel is necessary on this blog.

I like to have open discussions with people, even and especially if they disagree with my opinions. Spice is the same way. I think it’s nice. It’s also fine if you don’t like me, or you don’t like Spice, or you dislike both of us. I’m not offended if you feel that way and neither is Spice. 

We don’t mind interacting with you guys, but if you send an ask calling one of us a whiny bitch, a victim, or anything else of that kind, your IP address is getting blocked and redirected. I think it’s unfortunate that there is continued hate and harassment against Spice as she’s worked to change how she responded to asks. I’m not saying she’s above criticism - nobody is, you could criticize me too - but seriously, you guys. She’s gone. She’s not going to see you being ridiculous and rude. 

I know that Spice vented to me several times about being harassed. She thought it was several people at first because it seemed so constant, then eventually realized it was either one person whose tone changed depending on his mood, or two people who were tag-teaming with the harassment (the tone seemed to sometimes vary/was inconsistent when she pieced all the messages together, along with the reblogged commentary).

I don’t know why this person or people STILL have such a grudge against Spice. I’m not sure why you wouldn’t just get get off anon and talk to one of us about it. She never wanted to interact with the person because of the harassment. And she did genuinely want to understand what that person’s problem was (or those peoples’ problem). 

We talked about it at length in private, several times. Spice kept saying, “it’s harassment, but what if I offended the writer of a prompt? Is that why they keep sending me shit?” She did want to get it resolved and she thought several times about having a conversation with the person who made several tumblrs with the sole purpose of reblogging several of her recent posts with the same inflammatory message. I’m sure you can find the tumblrs I’m talking about if you go through this blog’s archive. 

However, Spice was also worried that it would just aggravate the problem, and that even if she did reach out, the person/people wouldn’t stop. 

And it’s not like they ever really came off anon, did they? If you make a blog with the url being “patheticspice” or “gofuckatree”, you’re still hiding. You’re still making a sideblog, or a main blog whose sole purpose is to be aggravating and send rude messages. 

I say all this because it’s not something I tolerate. I don’t care if you’re being a troll. I don’t care if you’re being serious. Don’t ever think it’s behavior I’m going to tolerate. Especially when you’re being rude to a friend of mine. Your IP address is still getting blocked. I will not entertain your messages. 

-Mod Strawberry

[postyxmendes]

Yk girl this whole mess wouldn't even have started if you didn't go around bashing and insulting your own anons and then claim it to be your humour smh no but you brought this upon yourself fr.

And let's ignore that part, this wouldn't ever have gone this far if you didn't reply like a bitch to anons who called you out and didn't bring races in to this. Your WHOLE ask tag rn is just childish replies to hate and even to those who were supportive of you and asking you to block the anons. Don't whine and act surprised now that you've come to your weakest point of giving up on these anons, you wouldn't have cone to this point if you only blocked the "only one anon"

this thing started because i told y’all know to bring up that girl and when i said “it’s a hate crime” and “did you just mention a kkk leader to me” you took that as rude but little do you know how for real triggering the shit she’s done can be, so when you’re ready to admit that you let me know. you keep saying you’re “calling me out” calling me out on what you haven’t made a valid point all you do is deflect the fact that you for 4 days now have come into my inbox calling me out of my name telling me to get help whatever that means and trying to paint me as some angry person when i’m not, and literally no one is whining i’m just trying to have a conversation with the respectful anons i got before this because they seem like they genuinely want to talk about it nobody’s “giving up” you’re being a weirdo if you stop sending ask i won’t have try to keep explaining the simplest things to you

also don’t ever tell me i shouldn’t bring my race into this i’m a black woman in America everything is about race because guess what, while you probably have white privilege everything here is rooted in racism

[yoon-ity]

i'm anon from earlier: i don't actually mean to trivialize your experiences by, i suppose, kind of hypocritically criticizing Your wording. i apologize for that. my ask was more coming from a place of... a lot of these people are young, and only have their own experiences to inform their words, and while you don't have to hold their hand or baby them, i do think you catch more flies with honey in some of these cases. esp when we might not know their own identity and ideology surrounding it /1

i know i got heated too. it IS important to talk about sensitivity esp rn: my ask comes from more of a place of practicality, and bit of a bleeding heart bc i know how it hurts to hear harsh words, even and esp when they make good points... and i think it can be hard to be heard, if we're all yelling. and it just. hasn't felt good watching all the fighting. i'm sorry again for kind of jumping down your throat there, i hope this better explains my POV. i hope you have a better day, take care /2

No of course you didn’t “mean” to, no one “means” to do anything, but your intentions behind what you decided to say yesterday doesn’t matter to me. I don’t care what your intentions were, your actions still trivialized me and my family’s experiences as minorities. I acknowledge your apology, but I don’t accept it at all, and nothing will change my mind on that. Of course you didn’t know my race or sexuality or whatever my mother had to go through as an Asian woman, but would you have even apologized to me if you didn’t know of these experiences? 

You wanted me to apologize to someone because I was upset about them comparing rarepair shippers to the struggles of minorities. You told me to move on from this as if they didn’t just compare people getting hate messages to the oppression and racism my mother has to experience, to the struggles of other races. People are dying because of their color of their skin. It isn’t just some fucking random anonymous hate. People have lost THEIR LIVES just because they existed. These are not the same, and the fact that the rarepairers were compared to minorities was disrespectful. 

If I was a cishet white man, would you even consider sending an apology regarding your hypocrisy? If I was just standing up for minority groups if I was from a position of privilege? 

The answer is no, you wouldn’t. You feel bad because I shared with you the struggles my family had to go through. You told me to block and move on and act like Jay didn’t undermine the struggle minorities like my mother go through. Even if I wasn’t a minority, why should I just ignore how they tried to make that comparison? It’s a disgusting belittlement of the struggle minorities go through on a day to day basis. 

I will not accept your apology. Your intentions do not excuse your actions, and I will not see it as such. 

a lot of these people are young, and only have their own experiences to inform their words, and while you don't have to hold their hand or baby them, i do think you catch more flies with honey in some of these cases. esp when we might not know their own identity and ideology surrounding it

First of all, you phrase this as if they are a child and I am an adult. Let me get this straight for you: TimeturnerJay is an adult. I am a minor. We are both writers. They are literally older than me, and most likely has more experience than me concerning life and figuring out their identity/ideology. I shouldn’t have to be the one to have to coddle Jay’s needs. 

Not to say that Jay should be holding my hand or babying me, but my point is: they are an adult. They should know better, and should know of the current political crisis. They knew what they comparison was implying, and they still said it anyways. 

Here’s the thing though. They can go and compare their experience as a minority to whatever the fuck is going on with the rarepair shippers, but the way they phrased/worded it was extremely belittling for other minorities that have been oppressed, especially regarding race, because I was informed that Jay was comparing their experience as a member of the LGBTQ+ community to what is happening to the rarepair shippers. 

Again, they can compare their experience to that all they want. I don’t care. My problem is that they said, “You’re systematically hunting down and persecuting a minority of your group.” And when Nabbbal called them out for comparing fandom shippers to the actual oppression of minorities, they then said that they were aware of what they said, and that they weren’t going to apologize for their comparison. Nabbbal asked them to rephrase it and to reword it. Jay has not reworded it, and they have not responded to Nabbal since. 

We both have every right to be offended and hurt by this, but I know Nabbbal was just pointing it out. Personally, I was hurt by this, and only replied once I wasn’t in an extreme place of anger. Yes, I used harsh words, but that does not mean I was angry in the moment that I wrote my response. 

If I wrote my response to Jay when I was angry, it would’ve been nonsensical at best, and even more so rude and offensive at worst.

Jay has said they knew what they were saying, knew the implications of this, and has not apologized or reworded it upon the request of a minority. 

i know i got heated too. it IS important to talk about sensitivity esp rn: my ask comes from more of a place of practicality, and bit of a bleeding heart bc i know how it hurts to hear harsh words, even and esp when they make good points...

Do not compare me to you. 

You got angry at me because I called someone a bitch and you told me to get over myself. I was upset because someone wanted to compare these rarepairers to the actual oppression and struggle of minorities. We are not the same, do not act like our anger came from the same place. You told me to block Jay and move on from this, as if they weren’t trivializing the experiences of minorities, intentional or not. Just like you did to me yesterday. 

I’m not going to coddle you for being a bleeding heart because chances are you’re older than me too. I don’t care about your sensitivity, nor do I care about anyone else’s. You are a stranger to me. Even if I do know you, you are hiding your identity by being anonymous. I don’t know you. 

If you can’t handle hearing or seeing harsh words, then you should not be participating in discourse because not everyone is going to coddle you and your bleeding heart/sensitivity. 

I am not an empathetic or sympathetic person. I am not going to empathize or sympathize with you because you can’t handle a few harsh words on the internet that wasn’t even directed at you. 

Stop trying to explain yourself to me. You’re phrasing your words and talking about being a bleeding heart and framing yourself as if you didn’t trivialize and belittle my experience as a minority too. You are as much as an asshole as I am, but at least I have the balls to own up to it. 

Whether intentional or not, you’re doing the exact same thing Shane Dawson did when he would tell people he was an empathetic all the time. To deflect and manipulate people into think that he was a kind, sensible person who could do no wrong, which is how he managed to get away with so much, for so long. 

You are doing the same thing to me by “apologizing” for your actions with excuses. What am I supposed to say or react to this information? What was your reason for telling me this in the first place? It makes no sense, especially since you came back to me to apologize and explain yourself. Which I never asked you to do. Again, you came to me, apologizing and bringing up all this bleeding heart stuff and how you just can’t stand to see that. 

You saying that turns it back to me, and would then, theoretically, lead to me apologizing to you, despite the fact I have no will or reason to apologize to you. You disrespected and trivialized me and my family. I called you out. End of story, yet you’re telling me things that would make some other people apologize for no reason. 

and i think it can be hard to be heard, if we're all yelling. and it just. hasn't felt good watching all the fighting. i'm sorry again for kind of jumping down your throat there, i hope this better explains my POV. i hope you have a better day, take care /2 

You are under no obligation to witness the discourse. It’s just like you said, you can just block and ignore it. So here are a few questions you should ask yourself, anon. 

Why did you not block me and immediately ignore it? Why did you think that you were in a position of power to tell me what to do, while not having to do the exact same thing?

Why did you attack me, and then immediately apologize the next day when I told you my mother almost died? That she could be assaulted at any point because she’s Asian? 

What exactly are you apologizing for and why? Are you apologizing for you hypocrisy or are you apologizing because I called you out for doing the exact same thing Jay did?

Why did you feel the need to tell me you had a bleeding heart and that you’re sensitive regarding other people? 

If you didn’t feel good watching all this fighting and yelling, then why did you proceed to do the exact same thing to me? 

Are you trying to explain yourself to me because you feel like I genuinely misunderstood you, because you weren’t thinking straight, or are you explaining so you don’t seem like that much of an asshole? 

Once again, your apology is not accepted. You disrespected me and my family’s struggles, while hiding behind your screen while being anonymous, no less. And your apology to me was STILL anonymous, while still being riddled with excuses (bleeding heart, not wanting to see people fight, sensitivity, etc). 

Do you think that matters to me? An apology from a complete stranger that I will never know who disrespected and belittled me and my family’s struggles? Who tried to tell me what to do? You came to me and told me what to do, while ignoring your own advice, and CONTINUING to ignore your own advice even after you had some clarity.  

I never asked for your POV, I never asked for an apology, yet you still gave them to me anyways. 

I am not your friend. I do not know you. Do not phrase your words like we are. 

Do not contact me again. Any further asks and messages from you will be deleted. 

[tbhstudying]

honestly seo ur so nice and awesome i cant even fathom how u get so much hate like what the heck,,,everyone stop hating on her she is a pure bean™

omg,,, this is too kind ;; honestly, idk why people feel the need to send those sorts of messages, but eh, it’s alright ;u; i can always block them if they’re exceptionally rude. thank you so much aaaaa !!

an anon said:seo i'm so fricking sorry you're getting all this unnecessary negativity in your asks!! you deserve the world and more!! you're a great studyblr and person and so many people love and care about you!! i want nothing but the best for you seo!! we don't know each other but i'm always gonna be sending nothing but positive vibes your way!!!💖💕💘💗💞💓💞💗💖💘💕💖💘💞💓

asdfghjkl i may not know who you are, anon, but i’m sending you tons of good vibes and wishing you the absolute best in life!! thank you

@hajimeiwaizoomi said:Hey, I noticed that you've gotten a lot of hate as of late, and I just wanted to say, I hope you have a great rest of your day, and don't let people who waste their time insulting others on the internet (with anonymity) get to you ❤️

first off, i love your username. second, thank you so much :”) i really do appreciate it aHH i hope you have a brilliant day

@crossdressingtimelord said:Just sending some general positivity your way. Looks like your blog has gotten good and popular enough to attract some bitter critics. Congrats I guess? Cheers :)

thank you!! ahaha that’s actually quite a positive way to think about it :”) i hope you have a lovely day!!

an anon said:Hi Seo! I just wanted to say to ignore those rude anons! Your blog is amazing and you deserve all of the followers you have! 💙

thank you thank you thank you :”) i love you, anon ;u;

an anon said:Just because I see a little bit too much anon negativity around here: I love your blog and adore your style. Anon messages should only be used by secret admirers tbh, not by hiding haters xx secret admirer

aaaaa thank you for taking the time to send this, secret admirer anon :”) also, what a nickname it makes me think of those classic romance novels and roses? sending you lots of virtual roses, anon!

@studyinorsk said:Hi Seo!! see there's a bit of drama going on and I just wanted to let you know you have my full support - if you need anything I'm only an ask away!! You're such a lovely person and such a big inspiration to me♡ Keep your chin up!!

thank you sdjdskds thank you for your kindness and your support and i’m running out of words but just,,, thank you from the bottom of my heart

an anon said:ASKDJOWND HATERS BACK OFF MY PRECIOUS SEO

AW THANK YOU ANON BUT REALLY, YOU’RE THE PRECIOUS ONE HERE :”)

@lightbeanvibes said:hey seo, sorry you're getting a lot of bs in your inbox. just want to remind you that there are ppl on here cheering you on in your endeavors and who genuinely enjoy you and your content. sending love ❤️✨

aaaa hello hello! thank you so much and don’t worry! things are dying down and i can always block if people decide to send more anon hate in my inbox :”) thank you thank you!

an anon said:what the foozballs is wrong with that anon hater. please reveal urself before saying hate (im sorta of being hypocritical). But seo hasn't done anything to u. Please be kind :) it takes too much energy to actually hate why waste ur time doing it.

okay this may seem very ignorant of me but.... what are foozballs? anyhow, thank you so much and no worries, anon :”) i keep anon on for people who don’t feel comfortable off anon! and yes, idk why people seem to waste their time sending hate when they could be doing something better with their time ahaha thank you!

an anon said:wtf ANON HATER! can u stop caring about this weird theory u have. Seobean is the nicest bean and I have proof but i don't need to prove u wrong cuz ur an asshole.

aaaa thank you for your support ;u; you’re too kind, anon ;;

an anon said:'I'm right you are a bitch' that's such a disgusting thing to say to anyone?? Let alone someone as sweet as you, Seo Grow up anon

asdfghjkl !!! anon !! you’re the sweet one here!! thank you so much

[herkingdomcome]

all the odd numbers :|

honest meme // accepting only the even numbers apparently

What would prevent you from following someone?

Well immediately if they have no rules then I won’t follow unless they’re someone I know or follow on another blog. For oc’s no bio. And if both of those things are there then I really look at the mun’s vibe in the rules. If they post call outs a lot and things like that then I’m not here for it. If I read some of their writing and it feels like we won’t mesh then I won’t follow. 

What current rp trend do you hate?

Uuuuuh I dunno, I’m not a fan of like the super tiny stuff or when the links mesh into the blog to the point where I have to go full Nancy Drew to find them. Or like the super aesthetic writing because sometimes that can be really hard for me to read. But yeah tbh I don’t care much about trends as long as shit is readable and accessible like do whatever makes you happy lol.

Do you prefer interacting with male muses or female more? Why?

I genuinely don’t have a preference. I think all muses can bring something unique and fun to the table regardless of how they identify :3

What’s your opinion on call out posts?

They suck ass. While I do think some can be necessary like warning people about someone who is predatory and genuinely harmful, I think there was a minute there where it just became a way to bitch about people you didn’t get along with. I had one done about me, though it was more of a long vague, but it was like four paragraphs saying I was ungrateful literally because I politely let them know that I wasn’t sure how to reply to their starter but I’d still be happy to write with them. Which was just such a shitty feeling. So really I think a lot of them are just unnecessary. But I am okay with the ones that come with genuine warnings because we all know tumblr won’t do fuck all about reported people lmao.

What is your opinion on exclusivity? Do you practice it? Why / why not?

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with it. Some of my muses just connect so deeply to another one that writing with a duplicate would just feel wrong. It does kind of suck in smaller fandoms. Like I had a muse I wanted to write and legit most of the blogs I found in that fandom were exclusive with the same one of that muse and it was really unwelcoming. But at the same time I can’t fault anyone for doing what they want to make their experience the most fun it can be!

What do you know now about rp that you wish you knew when you first started?

This is a weirdly hard question… I guess…I dunno I can’t remember specifically but I was told by an ex friend all of these etiquette things that really were just kinda bullshit. So it made my initial experience kinda stressful. Sooo yeah I’d just wanna know that it’s not so uptight and rigid lmao.

Have you ever thought about leaving rp? What caused it? What changed your mind?

I actually did leave for a while. Someone decided to be really horrible to me because I wasn’t smiley and friendly to them after they’d mugged me off. That whole experience was so painful and stressful that I couldn’t open tumblr without feeling like I couldn’t breathe. So I left. It wasn’t fun and I no longer felt safe. And it was the best decision I could have made because when I did come back it was on my terms, there was no pressure, and I felt a lot better. I did end up having to leave again though because of real world stuff and I did’t know if I’d be able to come back which sucked. But I was able to and honestly I’m happier than ever and feeling so much better about being here :3 ( mostly thanks to @manichaeisms who’s the fucking best even tho she sent me all of these which is rude af )

How has rp changed you personally?

I don’t know. I mean I think it’s given me a good outlet and space to explore which has made me a happier person. Especially when my mom passed away, the whole world felt broken, but I had a place to turn which was really important. And now it’s still a really good outlet because my life is so weird and I don’t get out much but I have such a lovely place to turn and it’s given me the chance to meet quite a few wonderful people. So yeah, happier, it’s made me happier lol. 

Have you ever sent a message to yourself on anon? Why?

Nah, I can’t even really imagine doing something like that. Plus I think if I did do it I’d then just be so panicked that someone would find out it would just be a stressful ordeal. And like…so embarrassing?? I dunno, seems like a silly thing to do lmao.

Do you delete anon hate or post and address it? Why?

Well thus far I’ve actually been quite lucky not to receive very much. I can’t remember what the first time I got some was, but I’ll never forget someone being a dick to me because I said Lev Grossman isn’t great at writing people. Even though I did say he was great at world building. So I did reply to that mostly because it was like just so ridiculous. And then they forgot to hit anon on their last message and outed themselves which frankly was funny karma. So I guess if it’s something that’s not like just cruel hate I’d probably post and address it. As for cruel hate I’d like to think I would delete it but I guess I won’t really know until faced with it.

Have you ever followed someone because you felt like you had to, not because you wanted to?

Kind of? I mean if it’s a small fandom and I’m writing a main character from it then I’m more likely to follow. But I’m not like that anymore. If I followed you or followed you back it’s because I have a genuine interest in writing with you.

Have you ever stolen something from someone else?

Absolutely not. I’ve had little things taken and that felt like shit I can’t imagine doing that to someone. It’s a shitty practice and I just don’t understand people who do it tbh.

Are you open to duplicates? Why / why not?

I absolutely am! I completely understand why people feel insecure with them, and even I do sometimes as well. But I think it’s so rad how so many people can write the same muse and still bring something different to the table. And I’m 110% here for twin au’s and shit like that because it’s just fun to bond with someone over their good taste.

Do you follow people even if they don’t follow you back?

For a bit. But like I take not following back as a sign that they don’t wanna write with me which it totally fine. I’ll unfollow though because I’m not writing with them which like I would assume people would do the same with me as well so it’s not a big deal at the end of the day.

What is your opinion on “reblog karma” and do you practice it?

I have pretty mixed feelings about it. Personally I believe that if you can send in a meme then you should if you’re gonna reblog it. Otherwise just reblog it from the source. But also it’s not like I’ll unfollow or freak out if someone doesn’t send it in. Though I do follow that, if I can send it in then I will. 

Is there something you don’t know the meaning of but you haven’t asked anyone because you think it’s supposed to be general knowledge? Was there ever something you had to ask someone to explain?

I’m sure there has been but I can’t think of it rn. Most rp terms my friend kind of just laid out for me in the beginning so I wasn’t too lost. And google usually has my back as well. But since nothing has happened super recently I don’t have a proper example lol.

How do you feel about personal blogs following your rp blog?

I don’t love it. But I’ll usually just soft block and move on. It’s nothing against personals, they just don’t know the etiquette usually, and also don’t necessarily think to look at rules or anything like that because most personals don’t have rules the way rp blogs do.

Do you read other people’s threads or do you only read your own?

Sometimes I read other people’s but not all the time cause keeping track of my own threads is hard enough with trying to keep track of other’s to see what’s going on lmao.

How do you feel about tagging triggers? Do you tag them? How do you determine what is triggering content and what isn’t?

I think it’s great. I do my best to tag them but I also don’t think I post too much that’s triggering. The only things I won’t tag are ones that are common to my muse. Like alcohol and drugs wouldn’t get tagged because it’s something that a muse partakes in. But again, I’m not reblogging stuff like that very often. And if someone asked me to tag something specific that doesn’t appear often and I missed then I will happily do my best to do so and remember in the future that someone needs it tagged.

[bubbakanoosh]

rant ramble

I haven’t rambled in a while, mostly because I turned off the “anon” feature on my tumblr.   People don’t want to send me a note and call me an asshole anymore now they can’t hide their identities from the world.  Anywho, I don’t even know where to start with this, I just have so much shit on my mind, I don’t know where to begin.   I have had the shittiest few weeks and I am walking that fine line of losing my shit on someone.   I am stuck on a fucking train once more, and I swear to fuck there is a women clipping her nails on this train.   HER FUCKING NAILS!!  I already told her to stop, because no one else has to balls to do it.   I asked her if she was homeless, because that could be the only possible reason she is clipping her nails on the fucking train.   My stupid rental car wouldn’t start this morning.   Yeah, I am driving a rental….I got rear ended on Easter weekend, so yeah Jesus and I have something in common: our easters kinda sucked.  But yeah, I got rear ended by this Mad Max looking motherfucker truck.   Fun time.   And because it was the holiday, my insurance and the renal car agency had a failure in communication, by that I mean my insurance company never told them I was coming.   So after a few hours of playing it cool I finally got a rental while my car is getting fixed.   A fucking honda civic, like fuck me.  As I told a few others I feel like a white teenage girl driving this piece of shit, I can’t even.  But I am waiting to get my car fixed, and for whatever reason the part is on back order so I am stuck driving this piece of shit for who knows how long.   Civic Nation is a horrible place, and I hate it here and yeah. I am sore.  I am working on my basement, turning it into a finished display of awesomeness and I am doing this all by myself.   I am pretty handy, I like you to know.   I am not just a pretty-ish face, I know what the fuck I am doing.   And between that and the accident, I am sore which makes me, well, more “charming” than usual. Oh, when I say “charming” I mean “smartass”. For the record, little miss nail salon is still clipping her nails.  I swear to god, if she takes off her socks and shoes and starts clipping her toenails I will go ballistic   No question, I will go ballistic on her and possibly beat her with her own shoe..

So, my threshold for stupidity is at an all time low… I can’t really deal with it.  And when I say stupidity i mean people, family, work, drama, people, the fucking works.  Speaking of work, it has been stupidly busy.  Like really really really busy.  I have been dealing with lawyers all week, and you know what? Lawyers are assholes.  Some of you may laugh at the irony of that statement, but seriously they are.   I wonder what those fellows are saying about my chaming self.   Also speaking of work, I had this more fucktarded conversation yesterday.  So we have an in-house courier to take shit around to other offices and whatnot so we don’t have to pay for a service.   I had a cheque that needed delivered and I called the courier guy to my office to pick it up and take it a few blocks away.   I said to the guy “better watch it, it’s pretty torrential out there” and he looks at me with a blank stare then said “what?”.  I replied with “it’s storming out there, we are haveing torrential rain outside”, whch he comes back at me with “Oooh, gotcha… I just never heard torrential used in that way before”.   Its at that point in time I do a double face palm and rub my face letting out a long ass sigh.  Maybe I have lived with my head up my ass for most of my life, but I want to know what other use of “torrential” he has heard.   Torrential level cheese on my nachos, please? Fuck, can you imagine? I could use that right now.

Anyways,  usually I hide it pretty well most days, my prickish nature/anger for stupidity, but as you see I am having a little trouble with it. Or maybe I am not, I dunno.  I have been called sweet, or a sweetie, once or twice in my life… and you know what? I am.  I’m so sweet like a nice bon bon.   But I am also a fucking prick. I am quite the sarcastic bastard.   I guess is its the Hyde to the sweetie Jekyll, maybe it;s a gemini thing… I dunno.  I hide it on here for the most part, I think there are times it slips through.   Do you know how many posts a day I like and write a comment on to reblog but instead of hitting sent I just cancel?  A lot. Why do I delete them? Well, I fear I may get some stupid PM or whatever wishing cancer on me (yeah, that happened).   I think people take this shit way to seriously, and fine do that.   But you need to chill the fuck out at the same time, you know? And while we are on the stuff that annoys me on tumblr, inspirational quotes bug me.   There I said it, and please don’t get offended because I don’t like them..  Don’t get me wrong, there are some I like, they aren’t all fucking poppycock or anything, but yeah… they bug me.   Maybe it’s because I think people post them to get likes rather than actually believe what the quote is saying. We all post shit for the likes, so don’t tell me you don’t It’s like on facebook, someone makes a post bout thee most lovingest spouse and how they are lucky they are to have him or her.   You know they are just typing that shit either a) convince others they are the happinest couple in the world or b) convince themself they are that happy.   When I was with my ex, back when we actually spoke hahah fuck, anyways, back when we actually spoke I asked her if we are weird because we say Happy BDay and Valentines to each other face to face and not facebook to facebook.   I honestly started to think maybe I am the odd one, then I deleted facebook and all was right in the world once more.   Those posts on facebook, I dunno, they didn’t feel genuine.   And that’s the vibe I get from some of the shit people post,  It just leaves a bad taste in my mouth and I am like ugh.   And then I write comment or something and stare at it and then cancel.   Maybe there are posts out there that I just don’t cancel? Maybe there are posts out there where I really am an asshole and the anons were right? I think some of you take your blog way too seriously, and yeah.  I dunno, maybe I am the weird one, maybe I don’t take my blog seriously enough? Maybe my “How I Tumblr” jokes are spot on? As in, I have no clue what i’m doing. Things that make you go hmmmm.  Oh, while we are talking about the inspirational stuff, if you see one that is a quote from “anonymous” well, that’s me.   I said all of those.   I am not one to seek fame and glory, because I don’t need it, but I need to bring it up.  Why? Well, some of you are throwing around my wisdom all willy nilly and shit.   

So the other day someone was ranting to me about tumblr and I was like YES!! Okay, that is a lie, there were two separate people ranting to me about tumblr and I was like YES!! EXACTLY!!  And I brought up my scenario about something and what pissed me off.   Then I explain what pissed me off more, and that was the fact I noticed the thing that pissed me off in the first place..   I hated myself for noticing this little, I dunno what to call it, quirk? This little quirk that I see.  Noticing the quirk pissed me off more than the quirk itself.   In fact, the fact I was pissed off at the quirk pisses me off now.  It’s stupid and I hate myself for hating it so much..   I am not going to get into what the quirk is but I noticed the same thing on twitter when I was on there and it just got stupid and I quit that.   By the way, everything that happens here with cliques and crushes and Doms and subs, that’s all on twitter.  I think cliques and shit like that is worse over there.   They have theme days over on twitter, where someone will come up with a start of a joke like, I dunno let;s just use “yo momma”.  So one person will send a message, or a group of people will send a message and say at 7pm EST you will start using the “yo mama” joke format and tweet shit.   Me being me I was like “yeah no” and shit just went down hill from there.   I got blackballed for not being a fucking lemming.  My twitter was HungoverLawyer.  Oh, you may have seen me reblogging a tumblr called HungoverLawyer, that’s me in case you haven’t figured it out.   Follow it, you can be one of the 10 who are, it’s an elite club.   I actually have another blog I created but I never ever used yet called Bubba-Answers-Stuff.   Basically that blog I answer others peoples questions they get asked them.   One day I was browsing my feed and I saw someone answer an anon and, well, I personally felt I could answer it better.   That answer was mediocre at best, imo.   But, it was around the time I got the cancer remarks in my inbox so I just put it on the backburner.  Maybe I will start it up, why not right? Anyways, I quit twitter over the stupidity that was over there.   The stupidity outweighed the fun.  Tumblr is pretty fucking dumb, but not nearly as dumb as twitter was. I am not going to quit tumblr, not that any of you are worried or anything, if you are well… that is pretty sweet actually.  If you are not worried, well, that’s okay… I will just cross you off my Christmas card list, so fuck you.  I kid, I kid.  You are still on the list, fuck.   I am an asshole with a heart of gold.  Did I mention I am really sweet? So, yeah, I ain’t leaving tumblr.   You’re kinda stuck with me, at least for the time being. I just dislike when a distraction is no longer a fun distraction. I don’t know why shit bugs me but it does. Maybe it is me taking this way too seriously. Maybe I’m the fucking problem? Holy shit. I just had a fucking ephiphany, wow.  I am not bitching about you, I am bitching about myself? whoa, fuck.  Nah, am fine.  You are all good.  Cept the fucktard who used to send me rude anons, you can choke on a bag of dicks.    Maybe I just need a stiff drink.   I have pizza waiting for me when I get home, and a couch.   Seriously, I am going to get undressed and eat pizza on my couch in my underwear.    Soak that in, ladies.   I know, my nipples are hard at the thought also. Anywho, I am at my station.

[bisluthq]

Why are people on this blog so dumb? It’s like they have 0 reading comprehension. They are probably the idiots who think “the curtain is fucking blue” when reading books. Can’t read between the lines nor can they make actual connections. I never called myself a kaylor because I am not one. Not a “raging” kaylor either. It implies I have an emotional connection to Taylor swift or who she dates or I ship people. I don’t ship people, which I have explained before and I gave the clear definition of shipping (wanting 2 people to date ≠ believing 2 people dated) Which I don’t care about I just see the facts. Tily is dumb theory that Cambrian Era created to get more views on her podcast that only brain dead losers listen to. Toe makes no sense and kaylor only lasted until 2019. Karlie is a loser who scrambles to bait unhinged kaylors who are so far off in reality they are crazier than Cambrian Era’s Tily nonsense. Karlie is a mother and a billionaire but she’s still giving the crazies reasons to be more crazy which is 1) disgusting and 2) manipulative esp since so many unhinged kaylors are teenagers and see her as a role model. Joe is still desperate to be Hollywood’s leading man and Taylor is still depressed no matter how much you all want to believe she’s happy and “begging” Joe for a ring which is so pathetic.

Bestie u believe in Kaylor so like idk you’re a Kaylor. You don’t like my blog, you don’t like me, you seem to feel the right to police people on how gay they are and what they can and can’t enjoy, you never make any sense, and you’re rude af. I’ve tried blocking you tbh before like the other day when you were being nasty (assume that was you because I think there is just one persistent “Gnat” anon) but it’s… hard to block anons clearly.

Dude - believe whatever the fuck you want. Be a flat earther for all I care. But why… must you keep coming to tell me? That’s the part I’m confused about. Just fucking BLOCK ME. My anons and I will be out of your life. It’s SO SIMPLE. Just don’t engage with content you don’t like.

People keep trying to talk to me about Florence and I kinda shut it down each time because I actively dislike her relationship. I don’t want to talk about it. I’m not gonna engage with content I don’t enjoy.

You enjoy like a Realistic Kaylor thing. That’s cool. Make a blog, or find blogs that also like that, and vibe there.

Idk how to tell you this but you’re not smart or special tbh. You’re just an asshole who is somehow desperate for validation from people you don’t even like and that’s like weird to me?

Also no one here has said Taylor is “begging” anyone for anything. She’s a Boss Bitch tbh. Not a depressed loser on Tumblr like you and I are anon. But here’s the one thing I have over you - I try make people happy. I try make people laugh. That’s one thing I am genuinely good at and it flatters me that there’s a collection of people every day scattered around the world who get to smile once in a while because of me. That, in turn, makes me happy. My anons try make me smile by sending dumb jokes they think I’ll like and often they succeed. We’re like a weird little family.

I would recommend you find your own little weird online family or at minimum just start following content you enjoy and BLOCK. MY. BLOG.

[ofsingingviolas]

I have a Stalker || Dear Athena

Hello, my dear. 

Guess what? I don’t know if I told you about the girl who came into my ask box, asked a question without context about my beliefs, then unfollowed me? After that, her mutuals started making posts about me. Never mentioning me by name, but calling me homophobic, a moron, hateful, and a few other nasty things. 

I made two posts. One said, “I don’t understand why people unfollow me, for things I never even post about.” To which I was told that I was terrible for making lgbt people ‘feel like they have a false sense of security when I secretly hate them’… the girl who was attacking me used to be one of my favorite mutuals. Also, I never posted about my stance with the lgbt community because it didn’t matter on a PJO blog… That’s partially what they’re mad about. I’m apparently a liar. 

I began to get anons, calling me a horrible person, a bitch, and a liar. Of course, they also called me homophobic and claimed I was using Christianity as a crutch to spread hate. 

I had never spoken about the topic until she asked me. I didn’t want to lie to her, but I’m not going to hide from my beliefs. You know that. 

My other post was directed at the people making posts about me. It was a call-out to stop vaguely posting about me and talk to me directly. The Original girl seemed to let the subject drop. While a certain person (of whom we have spoken about before) began answering asks and basically rallying people against me. (Though they claim they would never do that.) They called me a moron, said I deserved 0 followers, said I was hateful, and a terrible person. This person had already blocked me weeks before, making vague posts about me back then too. 

Frustrated, I made a post on my personal blog. I believe it was along the lines of “why are you going to ask me things when you know you won’t like the answer?” 

While answering one of the anons, I made the mistake of mentioning my personal blog where I post my Christian and political views. Three people came onto my personal blog and began sending me cruel messages there. By now, I had told a friend what was going on, and he went to the person posting crap about me and spammed their ask box. The person posting crap about me just got amused, thinking it was me. 

By then I’d had enough. I posted an apology for my passive aggressiveness, but not for my beliefs. About five people blocked me. Three of them former mutuals. But the iconic thing is- the original girl who came into my ask box and started this didn’t block me. I had assumed she did. But no. 

Now, months later… I accidentally ended up at her blog, and look what I found. 

#this person i’m almost starting to deeply hate is also racist#and homophobic#and transphobic#and generally a complete dick disguised as a sweet person#god why#it pisses me off so much that she calls herself christian#but she isn’t even close to being actually good#i am an atheist#but my family is deeply catholic#my mom has a degree in teology#so trust me when i say i know the bible#and i know what jesus said#and it wasn’t what she is saying#nghhh i hate her so much

… She not only is still posting about me. But because I do not post anything about my beliefs on my pjo blog, this means she has been looking at my personal blog for reasons I cannot fathom. This was May 7th. 

But that’s not all… 

you can see that i’m still pissed at a thing that happened a while ago bc literally all of my blogs have switched from casually gay to Super Gay™. no one ever will be able to see my blog and think “hey how nice this is a fellow straight i can talk to about my prejudiced bullshit ideals” the amount of lesbianism will drive them away first

#also friendly reminder that if you follow me and/or are my mutual #and you also happen to believe i’ll go to hell bc i like girls #you must unfollow me right now #i do not have time for your thinly disguised homophobia

This was May 11th. 

What I find amusing about this post is the fact I knew she was a lesbian when I followed her. Months ago. I never treated her any different than my straight followers. Why would I??? I don’t treat lgbt people different. I don’t agree with them. That doesn’t mean I hate them.  (I unfollowed her after she came into my ask box. We have had no contact in months- except for her spying on my personal blog apparently.) 

How do I know she has been on my personal blog? 

#she is even islamophobic!!!#ugh#tbd

May 14th. 

I had not posted anything about Islam for at least two days. Meaning she actually scrolled through the blog. 

She’s stalking my blog and trashing me.  

Now, I have some points I would like to make. Because frankly, I am frustrated, amused, and generally shocked. I had completely moved on and never mentioned anything. She is stalking me. 

In reply to her first post about me. 

“Is also racist-” 

Please point me to where I have been racist. Also, note that I am a POC. I know that people of color are racist too, but I believe she assumes I’m white. Because I don’t think black people are oppressed by the government? Sure there are racist people who are wrong and should be held responsible for their actions. But as a whole, POC aren’t oppressed by a nation or by whites. 

“homophobic, transphobic-”

I can’t really deny this one. Though I despise what the words imply. They imply that I’m afraid of them because I do not understand them. They imply that I hate them. I. Do. Not. Hate. Them. Disagreeing with someone does not imply you hate them! I disagree with Mormons. I disagree with people who think it’s okay to watch the movie before the book. I disagree with people who think it’s okay to have sex before marriage. That does not mean I hate them. 

“and generally a complete dick disguised as a sweet person-”

Okay, I understand that you thought I accepted the lgbt community as this wonderful thing just like the rest of Tumblr. But besides the day that people were actually attacking me, when have I ever been a d*ck? I was passive aggressive that day. That was wrong of me. But I was also being attacked. You and your friends obviously have no problem with trashing someone that disagrees with you. I have left you alone, and yet you’re stalking my blog and making horrid posts about me behind my back. You seem sweet until someone disagrees with you. How am I the one being the terrible person here, Darlin? 

“It pisses me off that she calls herself a Christian…” 

No no, I AM a Christian sweetheart. Why does that make you angry? Christians are not supposed to get along with everyone. 

“Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a sword.” - Matthew 10:34

“but isn’t even close to being actually good…” 

Well, obviously I am not good. 

“And Jesus said to him, “Why do you call me good? No one is good except God alone.” - Mark 10:18

Christians aren’t good. We strive to live according to the Word of God- imperfectly. But, I don’t think good is what you really mean. I think you mean nice or accepting or -dare I say it- tolerating. If that’s your intention, then you are right. I do not change my convictions. But when- when before you came into my ask box did I treat you unkindly? When have I treated anyone rudely?

“I’m an atheist- but-”

No, no, no ‘buts’… You lose your right to a ‘but’ when you admit you’re an atheist and have not asked me anything about my belief (other than one question about hell) -therefore have a bias and most likely do not properly understand what I believe. If you are not open to talking to me about it, do not tell me ‘but’. Also, if you are an atheist, why does my saying I am a Christian offend you? You do not even claim to believe as I do. How are you upset? Is it because I do not meet your standards of what a Christian is supposed to be? You are not my standard, Darlin. 

“My family is deeply Catholic-”

Hon… Catholics don’t believe the same thing as reformed Protestants… They’re so so different… Also, this shows that you may not know the history of the church or anything other than your family’s Catholic beliefs… Why are you making yourself a standard of what a Christian should be? Also, what do your family’s beliefs have to do with me or this conversation? Unless they taught you what Reformed Protestants believe in detail, I do not see the connection. 

“My mother has a degree teology. So trust me when I say I know the Bibile…” 

Okay, this one I’m 90% sure is just a typo- but it’s theology….

I have three pastors I have classes with- seminary graduates. Three of my teachers have degrees in theology. My dad didn’t study theology in college, but has two books bigger than Order of the Phoenix on Reformed theology, and has read countless other smaller books on the subjects… He’s no pastor… but my dad knows his stuff. 

But I still don’t see how this applies to the situation. You claim to be an atheist. Are you trying to compete with me? To prove you know more about the Bible than I do?

“I know what Jesus said, and it’s not what she says-” 

…. Obviously. Obviously, it’s not what I say. Never listen to my opinion of what Jesus said. I’ve only posted actual bible verses. I’ve posted what the scripture says about itself. 

(Also it’s kinda a known fact in the church that Catholics don’t read the scriptures personally- but I’m not sure how true that is for her family since her mom has a degree- but still… she’s an atheist I have my doubts…)

Another thing, Hon. Your mother has a degree. You don’t. Have you studied as much as she has? Have you dedicated time and work into learning what the Bible truly says? Or do you form opinions based off what you hear your mother say? Have you been through lessons and classes and genuinely tried to learn? To understand? 

My guess, because you are an atheist, is no. 

Also, I would like to point out that I have studied scripture since I was a child. I’ve had many different teachers with degrees in theology, Bible studies with my father, personal classes with the pastor’s wife who taught me and my best friend and equipped us well enough to write six essays which I then had to read in front of my church elders confirming that I know what I believe and that I am a full member of my church. 

I know what I believe, Hon. Don’t worry about that. I’m grounded. I’m also being taught personally by my pastor every Wednesday night.

“She is even islamophobic…” 

Well… Yeah. I disagree with Islam. That’s kinda a given. We’re two separate religions based in two separate gods, with two separate messages. 

There were literally wars because Christians and Muslims don’t get along. 

I’m not saying I hate them. Once again, disagree and hate are two separate things. But I do strongly disagree with everything about Islam. Frankly, I don’t understand how you are their ally, considering Isalm is the religion that says to kill all homosexuals. Also, you consider yourself a feminist, and Islam thinks a woman is equal to a dog. Have you every looked into their beliefs? I’m not talking about this stupid “accept everyone” American stuff - which is not true Christianity or Islam btw - but what they actually believe? My guess is, no. You haven’t. 

What was she trying to accomplish? Why is she so mad? 

Why is she still stalking me???

She’s this mad, and I haven’t spoken to her in months. 

I’m… actually amused.