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Simple Math / Part Nineteen
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Ghost/Soap/female reader AO3 - 3.2k words Tags: 18+ mdni. nurse!reader. Pregnancy and things that come with it. PTSD, anxiety, despair, depression. A lot of internal monologue.
âI need to borrow your car.â Marshallâs eyebrows shoot straight up into his hairline.
âExcuse me?â
âYour car.â You spit, barely containing the tremble in your voice. Your throat is tight, hundreds of thousands of pounds sitting on top of your chest, crushing you, your heart. âMarshall-â
âIâm confused why you think Iâd let you borrow my car.â You pinch the bridge of your nose, the thin shred of patience youâve been holding onto finally ripping apart.
âI have put up with you for years. I have dealt with your shit, your relentless pursuit of anything that walks, your lack of interest in your own patients. I have covered for you. I have babysat for you. You owe me.â He blinks, and then pats his pocket, scrutinizing your expression.
âAre you okay?â You glitch for a second. The orchestrated denial, evasion slips away as you grapple with his question. Youâll never be okay. Never.
It snaps back like a rubber band. Like a backhand across your face.
âIâm fine.â Youâre not fine. Youâre drowning. Youâre at the bottom of a well, stone walls cracking and crumbling at your feet. âKeys.â He drops them into your outstretched palm with a sigh. âYou can pick it up at the south station in a few hours, okay?â
âAre you sure youâre alright?â
âYesâŠâ A plan is still rapidly taking shape, forming from bits and pieces of roads laid out before you. âMy mother is sick, and not answering the phone. Iâm worried, trying to get over there as soon as I can.â He nods, unphased by the glaringly obvious hole in your lie.
âOf course.â
You have no one to blame but yourself.
The girl in the mirror blinks back at you with judgement in the quiet of the bathroom. She regards you with disgust.
Foolish.
Hot water flows over your knuckles, your palms. It burns, too hot to be sensible, scorching your skin.
Itâs pain you deserve.
This is the only time youâll give yourself for now, the only time youâll break until itâs safe again.
You shatter to pieces. You scream into your hands, sobs cracking your ribs, cleaving you apart.
It was all a lie.
And youâre the one who fell for it. Youâre the one who believed it was real, that they were true. You believed you could walk in the sun, and you only have yourself to blame.
You try to burn their faces from your mind, incinerating your memories to ash. Johnnyâs eyes, his easy smile, the lilt of his accent when heâd say your name. Simonâs low murmurs and comfort in the dark, the way they molded themselves around you, held you.
They tricked you, but they made it so real, so believable. So sweet as they wrapped you up in a web, dripped poisoned honey into your mouth from their own.
Lies. Theyâre full of lies.
Steam rises from the bowl of the sink, and you look yourself in the face again. You stare at the woman who allowed herself to be manipulated, who gave herself to two people who only sought to harm her.
But-
They gave you a gift, didnât they? They gave you this chance.
Your palm hovers over your stomach, and you fill your lungs with oxygen.
Get it together. Get yourself together.
Your world crumbles beneath your feet, but youâve done this before. Youâll do it again. Better, even, now with the stakes so high, higher than you could ever imagine.
You can do this.
Deep breath.
The foundation of your resolve cracks when you step through the front door and Penny comes padding down the hall with her arms up.
You meet her in a crouch, letting her cuddle you, small fingers twisted in your scrub top. âHey Penny girl. Howâs your day, huh?â She signs something and then points to the living room before smiling.
âBocks.â
You retreat into yourself, burying the lump in your throat, swallowing your tears. âI love you; you know that?â You lick your thumb and wipe the corner of her mouth. âSo much.â Lou clears her throat from the hallway, watching with a strange expression.
âAre you alright?â
âYeah, just tired, and forgot my work backpack.â You had forgotten how easy it is, to lie. How easy the mask slides on. Itâs almost nonchalant, a practiced art.
You retreat upstairs before she can question you further.
In a sewn in pocket of a backpack shoved under the guest bed, is a cellphone. Itâs a flip phone, old and clunky, always charged, but almost always off, except when itâs needed. Programmed with a single contact, a pre written text already in the drafts.
Iâm moving again. Iâll keep you posted.
The response is always the same. Be safe.
There are too many items in your life now. Too many objects, too many things, and too little time to pick through them.
You stick to your rules. Pack light and easy. You can replace anything left behind once youâre somewhere safe. Nothing frivolous, self-indulgent, or even sentimental.
Itâs tempting to take a permanent marker and scribble fuck you across their bathroom mirror, tempting to take a knife to the mattress and slice it to shreds. Itâs tempting to rip their clothes to pieces, to soak their life in lighter fluid and strike a match. The anger pulses in your veins like poison, knowing you could never.
Even now, the idea of them hurting makes you feel sick.
Fool, youâre a fool. A silly, stupid girl who got caught up in a fairytale with no sense to save herself.
You take one last long look at the bed. The bed where you thought you were safe, the place where your nightmares eventually turned to dreams.
Tears burn at the back of your eyes, and it takes everything you have to stay upright.
Phillip terrorized you, beat you black and blue, stole your future, your life-
but it never hurt as bad as this.
Marshallâs car is, of course, is expensive. Something out of a fancy television commercial. Itâs comfortable, fast, and drives smoother than butter.
It reminds you of Phillip. Of all the luxury and riches surrounding him, the mile high leg up he had since the day he was born. His entire existence carefully crafted and honed into something out of a nightmare, the mask of a monster slipping on and off as easily as yours.
You used to wonder if money really did buy happiness before you met him, and then you learned. Some people crave more. Some people crave violence. Destruction.
Thereâs no happiness for those who are rotten to the core, their souls as dark as night, their desires putrid and inhumane.
You never saw it with them, in them. You never felt it, the way you felt it in Phillip. They fooled the wariest heart.
Will your child be like them? Deceitful? Evil?
Will it be nature versus nurture?
The first piece of the puzzle is figuring out where to go, how far to run. You need a city or a town big enough to hide in, a hospital thatâs in desperate need of nurses, and a flat thatâs available immediately. No smaller islands in case you need a quick escape, no countries where you may struggle with the assimilation. Accessible by train. Primarily English speakers.
You briefly dream about something tropical and warm with a beach before you shake the thought loose in favor of the city thatâs always been on your short list.
Edinburgh.
Itâs painfully kismet, knowing youâll bring your child to one of their fatherâs birthplaces, fitting in a sick, senseless way, but you have no choice. You vetted the city in the past, scoped out appropriate neighborhoods, chose a potential workplace. Itâs been at the top of your list.
Itâs the logical option.
The air is cold. It stings the tip of your nose, your ears, isolates your exhales and turns them into white puffs of fog. Your jacket is too light, too soft for this kind of weather, representative of all the clothing you have in your backpack, and your wallet weeps at the idea of a brand-new wardrobe.
Still, you donât cry. The tears donât come, theyâre held back by an iron clad dam, an impenetrable fortress built around your heart. People move around where youâre stuck still on the platform, a round rock in the middle of a river, surfaced smoothed by the repeated flow of water.
Thatâs what you are.
A smooth surface, a still pond, a tranquil lake. Cohesion in its ultimate form, hydrogen bonds clinging to one another, casting a tightly knit net of water molecules over the whole of your being. Lies upon lies meshed to create perfection, an unblemished nurse, an agreeable personality, an overall uninteresting but more than perfunctory person. Forgettable.
Step off the platform, into the street. Slip beneath the surface, swim to the bottom, pack yourself away and assume your new life, new name, new existence, the glass surface hiding a turbulent sea.
Things fall into place. You get hired on the spot and find a great apartment almost immediately. Better than great, if youâre honest. Itâs a generously sized two-bedroom, freshly painted, no landlord specials in sight.
âWhat do ye think?â You wince. The accent pulls a string, tugs on a chord buried deep.
âIâll take it. I can give you three monthsâ rent up front,â you survey the locks, âif you can add a deadbolt.â The door only has a keypad lock, the fancy new kind touchscreen kind. You donât trust them. The wires are too easy to manipulate. He cocks his head.
âShouldnae be a problem.â Heâs looking closely now, too closely, and you flash a smile.
âThanks. Iâm a bit paranoid, you know? New city, canât be too careful.â
âOâ course.â
âSo⊠how far along are ye?â You choke on the dry piece of scone in your throat.
âSorry?â
âThe bairn?â She points to your belly, and you shift the hospital issued zip up hoodie over your waist. Her face softens. âDonât worry, I willnae tell.â You havenât disclosed the pregnancy to your boss yet, trying to wait it out as long as possible to prevent getting fired, still holding onto hope that no one will notice. Itâs common practice, something women around the world try to manage, tiptoe around until the last second. Sisterhood, you guess.
âAlmost twenty weeks.â
âAbout halfway then.â Her name is Ally, you think, or with an ie, Allie maybe. Sheâs a float, the worst position in the hospital, and your envy is nowhere to be found. Youâd rather work peds than be in her shoes.
âYup.â The p pops on your lips apprehensively. Being noticed is a problem. You canât lose this job, not after the all the energy and effort youâve expended to make this place home. The apartment youâve slowly furnished, the babyâs room youâve now painted, all the broken pieces starting to fall into place.
âBoy or girl?â
âI donât know.â You manage a weak smile. âIâm gonna wait, I think. Leave it as a surprise.â She claps her hands.
âThatâs the best! I have two and did it the same way. Itâs so fun.â The conversation wanes, her expression shifting into sympathy. âIf ye ever need anything, Iâm around. Okay?â Your jaw clenches.
Itâs a reminder of how alone you really are. How you have no one to depend on, no one to go to, nothing holding you up. The extension of a helping hand almost brings you to tears, and you whisper with true gratitude.
âThank you.â
You lose hold of the strings stitching you together as you stare at parts and pieces spread out around your knees, screwdriver abandoned, instructions crumpled up and tossed to the corner.
The ache in your heart is physically spreading. Itâs crumbling your weary bones to dust, zapping your strength and resolve away until thereâs only despair, desperation left in its wake. You press the heels of your hands into your eyes, trying to stem the loss of the control, the tears slipping down your cheeks. âI canât do this.â
Itâs the first time youâve admitted defeat, and your arms fall limp before wrapping around your belly. âI canât. I canât do it.â The words are stifled by gut wrenching sobs, the wave of hopelessness washing over you like a wall of water intent on destruction.
How will you do this alone?
âIâm sorry,â you murmur, slowly stroking over the curve of your bump, rocking back and forth. âItâs just you and me little sunbeam, and I- I donât know how to do this. Iâm going to mess it up.â Thatâs the crux of it, the heaviness weighing on your shoulders. Youâre going to fail. You donât know how to be a mom, you never imagined doing all this alone.
You wish they were here, you want them here, against all better judgement, and as you lay down on the carpet in the babyâs room, you close your eyes and allow indulgence, a fantasy where youâre not alone. Where youâre curled up on the couch between them, safe and warm. They tell you they love you, assure you how good of a job youâre doing, how wonderful of a mom youâll be. A dream where they would hold you, wipe your tears, hold their hands to your belly to feel the baby kick. Youâd experience all the firsts together, watch Penny become a big sister together, go through all of the highs and lows together.
The fantasy falls away as the cold creep of dread drags you back to reality.
They donât love you.
They never did.
Your dreams are just that, dreams. Made up nonsense that never existed in the first place. Â
Something is wrong.
His knees flex on the bench, attention fixated on the giant sliding doors at the entrance of the hospital.
Heâs unsettled. Itâs a rare feeling, but Phillip fucking Graves appearing in the hallway today like a nightmare that never goes away has thrown him off kilter.
âHave a man in surgery here. Flown in on a medivac this morning.â
He threw a barb at Johnny immediately after, a comment in jest, but there was something unusual about the glint in his eye.
It was a shine Simon recognized well. The ripple of a hunter, on a scent track of prey.
Youâre ten minutes late now, but itâs not unheard of. You rarely, if ever, get out on time.
It never concerns him, except for today. A cloud lingers overhead, caliginous and heavy with rain, waiting for the right moment to change everyoneâs day, to spoil it all.
Itâs a bad sign, and he doesnât know why.
When the clock hits twenty minutes past, he texts you.
No response.
He texts again.
No response, again.
When he calls, the phone doesnât ring. He tries a second time, and then a third, before shoving it into his pocket and stalking inside to the information desk, conveniently placed right in front of the double doors.
âI need a visitor pass.â He towers over the poor girl behind the counter, and she blanches. âFor the ICU. I have a family member up there.â
âO-okay.â
Thereâs only one person at the nursesâ station, a man, a doctor, who is regarding him with cold curiosity as Simon comes striding over, your name on his lips.
âWait⊠youâre one of the boyfriends, right?â His tags reads âMDâ with his first initial and last name. J. Marshall. He holds his hands up in surrender. âI donât know where she is. She ran out of here hours ago.â
âWhat?â
âYeah. Asked to borrow my car and everything, said sheâŠâ Heâs still talking, but nothing is registering. Thereâs a high-pitched frequency ringing in the back of  Simon's head, a whine turning to a roar, a tinny sound making the backs of his eyes hurt.
He leans into Marshallâs face, grabbing him by the collar of his shirt. âWhere did she say you could pick it up?â
âS-south station. Get the fuck off me-â Simon shoves him backward, sending him flying on the rolling chair he was lounging in. âIâm calling security!â
âDonât bother.â Simon doesnât look back. By the time the call connects, heâs already on the first floor and almost out the door.
âShe came home in the middle of the day.â Johnnyâs pacing, hands in his hair, ignoring Simonâs pleas to sit down, calm down. âLou said she seemed off.â
âSomething must have spooked her.â He accedes, staring at a spot on the wall, trying to put it all together. You wouldnât have run without a reason. After everything, after all this time spent together, building trust, building love, a relationship, itâs the one thing he knows for certain. Youâre in danger, he can feel it.
Johnny stumbles, careening to the side, and Simon darts forward, tugging him into his chest, nose in his hair. His breath catches, once, twice, before it breaks into a wet cough, a cracked cry caught in his throat, crestfallen and agonized, and Simon tries to soothe him. âWeâll find her.â They have to, thereâs no other option, no other paths that donât lead to you.
âSheâs out there alone,â Johnny shakes his head, âsheâs in danger, she must be.â He knows it just as Simon does, knows you like he knows each line in Simonâs palm.
âWeâll find her love, we will.â The rest of it hovers in the air between them, the painful acknowledgment that maybe theyâre not so different from your abuser, maybe theyâre no better than the man who brutalized you. Theyâd chase you across oceans, across the globe to bring you home. Theyâd use all their resources, manipulate systems, act with violence, to see you again. To hold you.
âWhat if she doesnae want us to find her? What ifâŠâ
âThatâs not why she left.â Simonâs resolute in his denial of the possibility. You havenât run away from them. You ran from something, someone, hunting you. âWeâll fix it.â
Itâs been six weeks since theyâve seen you.
Six weeks since theyâve seen your smile, the thing they worked so hard to earn, the curve of your lips that you graciously gifted them along with your trust. Six weeks, since theyâve heard your laugh, held your hand, rolled over and felt the heat of your body between them in bed.
The hallway is full of doors, but none of them lead to you.
Their smart girl, so clever, a fox in the woods, a master of camouflage, of stealth. Or, as Kate said-
your girl is ghost. This kind of wipe work is professional level⊠are you sure sheâs a nurse?
In these moments, the quiet dark ones where Johnny stares at the ceiling in bed, he wonders if youâre more. If you held out on them, this whole time, if thereâs something else.
Itâs ridiculous, he knows that, but the ache in his heart demands answers, explanations, things he canât provide.
âClose your eyes sweet boy.â Simon kisses his neck, thumb stroking circles into his collarbone.
âSheâs out there somewhere, Si, on her own.â His voice cracks, Simonâs arms tighten.
âI know.â A phone buzzes on the nightstand, and Johnny jolts, heart leaping in his chest.
Itâs a text from Kate.
>Finally got the footage.
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You have poor eyesight
Vi, Caitlyn, Jinx, Ekko, Viktor, Jayce, Mel
A/n: Really rushed with this lol but it should be fine. Bon appetit!
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Vi
Vi would tease you lightly, calling you "four-eyes" if you wear glasses or joking about how "the world looks better blurry anyway" if you donât. But itâs always said with a grin that lets you know she loves you just the way you are.
If you struggle to see something, Vi would be the first to step in and help. Sheâd guide your hand to what youâre looking for or describe things in vivid detail, making it fun so you donât feel self-conscious.
She loves holding your hand when you're navigating unfamiliar areas, making it feel less like a necessity and more like an excuse to stay close. âStick with me, short-stack. Iâve got your back.â
On lazy days, sheâd trace your face with her fingers while you lie together, her voice soft as she murmurs, âDoesnât matter what you seeâwhat matters is what I see, and thatâs someone amazing.â
During tender moments, sheâd lean down and say, âGuess itâs lucky for me you didnât see someone better,â before kissing you deeply.
Caitlyn:
Caitlyn would be the most practical about it, immediately asking if you need updated glasses, a new prescription, or anything to help. Sheâd even offer to bring you to Piltoverâs best optometrist.
If you ever feel embarrassed about squinting or losing your glasses, sheâd cup your chin and kiss you softly, whispering, âYouâre beautiful, no matter what you see.â
Sheâd make sure everything in your shared space is organized and accessible for you. If you have trouble finding something, Caitlyn would quietly place it in your hand with a soft, reassuring smile.
During late-night talks, sheâd lean in and kiss you gently, her voice soothing as she says, âYouâre all I see. Nothing else matters.â
Caitlyn would take pride in making sure you never feel limited. If thereâs something you canât do because of your eyesight, sheâd offer a solution or alternative with a warm smile and unwavering support.
Jinx:
Jinx would definitely make a big, dramatic show of it. Sheâd wave her hands in front of your face, asking, âCan you see this? What about this?!â just to make you laugh.
When youâre struggling to spot something, sheâd hop on your back and point things out like a pirateâs lookout, making it a game to cheer you up.
If you wear glasses, sheâd insist on decorating them with stickers or doodles, saying, âNow youâll be cool AND functional!â Sheâd giggle while planting a quick kiss on your lips.
Sheâd secretly learn what frustrates you most about your eyesight and try to fix it in her quirky, Jinx-like way. Canât see far? She might rig a telescope gadget for you, proudly presenting it with a kiss on your hand.
On days when youâre down, Jinx would surprise you with a flurry of kisses, peppering them all over your face until youâre laughing and feeling loved again.
Ekko:
Ekko would always notice when youâre struggling to see something, immediately stepping in to help with an encouraging smile and a cheeky, âI got you, babe.â
If you bump into something or get flustered, heâd grin and say, âYouâre cute when youâre clumsy,â before kissing you gently to soothe any embarrassment.
Heâd tease you lightly about your poor eyesight but would always make it clear he finds it endearing, pulling you in for a kiss and saying, âYou see just fine where it matters mostâright here with me.â
Ekko would love playing little games to cheer you up, like making a guessing game out of blurry objects or using his time manipulation to "rewind" your stumbles into something graceful.
Heâd keep his arm around you when you're out together, using it as both a guide and a silent way of keeping you close. âYouâre safe with me,â heâd whisper, leaning in to kiss your temple.
Viktor:
Viktor would carefully modify things in your environment to make them easier for you, like adding soft lights or adjusting your work tools. âA small improvement,â heâd say, his voice full of quiet pride.
If you wear glasses, Viktor would always take care of them for you, cleaning or fixing them without a second thought. âYour vision matters to me,â heâd say, pressing a gentle kiss to your knuckles.
Heâd encourage you not to see your eyesight as a weakness, softly saying, âWe all have limitations. But you overcome yours beautifully,â before kissing your forehead.
Viktor would love moments where you rely on him to guide you, using it as an excuse to hold your hand or pull you close.
Heâd craft personalized solutions for any frustration you have, making sure you never feel like your eyesight limits your abilities or independence, always ending his gestures with a soft kiss of reassurance.
Jayce:
Jayce would constantly reassure you about your eyesight, saying, âIf anything, it just makes me want to take care of you more,â before sweeping you into a warm hug and a kiss.
Heâd invent practical yet adorable solutions, like a glasses case with your favorite design or a magnifying gadget you can wear around your neck for convenience.
If you ever bump into something or squint at something too long, Jayce would chuckle and ruffle your hair, saying, âYou know you can just ask me for help, right?â before guiding you.
Heâd love making you laugh when youâre frustrated about your vision, pulling you close and joking, âGood thing Iâm here to be your eyes AND your muscles.â
During quiet moments, Jayce would hold your hands and kiss each one, looking into your eyes and saying, âYou donât need perfect sight to see how much I love you.â
Mel:
Mel would handle it with quiet grace, always ensuring you feel comfortable. Sheâd notice the things you struggle with and adjust without making a big deal out of itâlike moving a book closer to you or pointing out details you might miss.
Sheâd gift you stylish, luxurious glasses or accessories, always making sure they feel like a part of your personality rather than a necessity.
When youâre squinting at something, Mel would smirk and lean in close, her breath brushing your skin as she whispers, âNeed a closer look?â before kissing you sweetly.
If you ever feel frustrated, sheâd sit beside you, gently holding your hand and saying, âLet me share my vision with you. Together, we can see the world clearly.â
Mel would use your eyesight as an excuse for more intimate momentsâholding your face in her hands, guiding your gaze to hers, and kissing you softly to remind you that youâre loved.
Requests may be sent through the ask box. SFW only.
@self-aes request: Good day. I want to write a headcanon about a reader with poor eyesight/wearing glasses. How characters from arcane will interact with him. I want to see Vi, Caitlin, Jinx, Ekko, Victor, Jace, Mel. Sorry if you see any mistakes (English is not my preferred language, I checked with a translator)
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I'm too tired to write a proper RPG
Grab the first dice that comes to hand. Roll it. Put on a song or other audio track (ideally one you're well familiar with) that lasts for as many minutes as the value the dice shows, then lie down and close your eyes for as long as the song lasts. You can choose to continue resting once the song ends. You win if you fall asleep.
This is okay to archive off-site. I haven't actually put this thing through the word counter, but there's no chance it's more than 200 words.
In general I feel that "putting on a timer for the specified duration" is a bad idea, because what if it's really loud when it goes off and it startles you, what if it's really quiet when it goes off and you don't notice it, but "putting on music that lasts for that specific duration" avoids both problems. Especially if you know it well, so you don't even need to be paying attention to know how much time you have left. This works for anything you need timed, like "how long you're going to force yourself to spend working on the thing" or "when you need to start getting ready to leave".
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This is the submission thread for the 2024 event, running from November 1st, 2024 through November 30th, 2024. Submission guidelines can be found in this blog's pinned post, here.
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I think a big misunderstanding is the power people give Curly to actually change things about the way the pony express operates or couldâve done things on the Tulpar.
We are talking about a company that docks pay for bad synergy despite mandated psych evals that should tell which staff members would work well together, only allots for 5 hours of sleep despite having literally no other tasks to truly do and locks all resources behind the access of one person. The last one is likely to manage resources and make it easier to justify collective punishment and blaming one person for it; someone needs something in âexcessâ or the captain gives in? Itâs all on them your pay is docked. Instant resentment.
Itâs insidious how the company works, itâs by design to distract you from coming after them, to force tensions to line their own pockets. With all the restrictions and forced interactions, altercations are bound to happen. 5 hours of sleep a day, limited sources of entertainment, no real tasks⊠the monotony alone would cause bad cabin fever, mix that with just only one absolute mediator and you get the exact environment that allows shit like in the game to happen.
The idea he could just complain and try to throw his weight around to get them to dig into their pocket for the crews comfort is laughable and misses the predatory and dehumanizing aspect of capitalism the Pony Express represents. Curly was and is still just another asset to them. Being a top show pony doesnât mean heâs anywhere close to the actual top. He is the top of the working ladder, not whoeverâs in corporate, he wouldnât even be on the bottom step unlike what Jimmy perceives. The resounding recommendations he would get are almost mocking as they throw him out like nothing just like the rest. Being a shitty fucking company, how much do you bet theyâd mean anything anyways, especially since he wanted to leave the field all together.
He made a fuss and they didnât listen, he says he shouldâve done more but you can tell he knows it wouldnât have changed anything. Jobs like this are willing to make a sacrifice if it means even a penny more. Curly makes a bigger fuss they likely wouldâve just found an âunrelatedâ reason to fire him, hired a more pliable guy or, terrifyingly, promoted Jimmy. The company was failing, going to shut down whether anything happened on the ship or not. But knowing that they were shutting down and that everyone, including him, would be out of a job with this being their last paycheck, he had to factor in not destroying the last bit of their financial stabilities combined with every other issue on the vessel and his own. He gets another cryopod or locks and then he has to break to them that they are not only fired but there will be substantial cuts to their paychecks due to the âupgradesâ (things that already shouldâve been in place on their part) on top of anything else that could be docked along the way.
You can blame him for saying it so early into the trip but then again, if he mentioned it later whoâs to say it wouldnât have been worse? On the capitalism side alone how would people in a galaxy away from home, out of a job and already stir crazy react? Donât get me started on how Jimmy would have reacted if he realized he only had two days left to fix what would be a very hard to miss âproblemâ in his headâŠ
I canât even consider explaining this as devils advocate because itâs just facts of the world we and they live in and factors that heavily affected the situation. People are just so quick to make claims on the ease of the choices when P.E literally makes it hard to choose to do anything but suck it up.
#this is also like a sort of point that while I wanted Curly to do more for Anya I realized he would have to jeaporsiE the crews safety in#some way like if they needed the cryopods one person would be left without one and like it would be curly heâd offer but donât think any of#them would be happy or feel okay with letting him die over a rapist? he kills Jimmy and now he has to stand trial and be arrested for murder#because itâs not self defense or manslaughter like they could obviously lie but he wouldnât let them do that in case of a sort of black box#or guilt on their mind specifically with Daisuke who would likely be kept out of the loop not to mention itâs a dead body with a limited#likely recycled air supply so again heâs getting tried for murder and they are down a cryopod#not to mentions again the fact that you need a copilot like I know like aviation law and shit is crazy and like not common knowledge#but you bed a second set of eyes or someone to trade off with so you donât loose ur concentration or doze and crash#like they donât just sit their and do nothing like Jimmy probably did some of the time cause Curly likely didnât want to make him#cause like pissed off and spiteful Jimmy manning the controls even if just helping is not something he wants to deal with and risk their#lives but i digress I genuinely think the biggest flaw of Curlyâs in the situation is being a man who could not handle or understand the#emotional gravity of what Anya experienced especially at the hands of someone who he was also#emotonal/mentally mistreated by and wanted to so badly to believe was his friend and improving#like he did not offer her enough or the proper emotional/physical security he couldâve as a captain nor friend but in that it goes right#back to the systems at play that make it so he isnât meant or supposed to understand so it canât be perpetuated and blah blah blah how many#times do I have to explain systematic oppression to certain groups in this fandom and it isnât cut n dry of good guys bad guys and victims#as outliers of the tow categories l#mouthwashing#captain curly#mouthwashing game#curly mouthwashing#the pony express#The Tulpar
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Guess who just finished acrane and is writing this with actual tears on my face!!! I need some Vander fluff- i think i will emplode- it doesnt even have to be anything specific i just need comfort after that shit storm đ
Yes my child. Mommy will make good on your request.
And donât even get me started on S2. I canât bring myself to watch it yet. Iâm still not even over S1 and I KNOW for a fact itâs not even as sad as Iâve learned S2 is.
But shhhhh, Mommyâs got you. Hereâs the fluff you asked for.
Piltoverâs Got Nothinâ On You | Vander Fluff Flash đșđ€
(GIF cred: me <3)
Pairings: Vander x GN!Reader
Pronouns: No pronouns used.
Rating: Slight NSFW because Reader and Vander are presumably half naked in bed, so 18+!! MDNI !! You WILL be blocked
Word Count: 524
Summary: Vander is enjoying a nice cozy morning with you, and reminds you exactly how he feels.
Tags: A little spicy, just because itâs a little maturely themed if you whip out a magnifying glass, Fluff, Tooth Rotting Fluff, Domesticity W/ Vander, OoeyGooeyRomance
Notes: None, just enjoy. Take a breather. đ€
âWould I lie to you?â The question hung in the air, light yet loaded with meaning. It was enough to send a familiar flutter through your stomach, a soft, nervous twinge that made your heart skip. The sensation was strangely uncomfortable, yet in the most endearing wayâlike a gentle reminder of how much he could still make you feel, even in the simplest of moments.
You lay atop the man you were speaking to, both of you bare-chested, the warmth of your skin pressing together in an effortlessly comforting way. The coolness of the morning air was a distant contrast to the heat between you, a calm presence that made the moment feel serene to say the least. His steady breathing beneath you gave the moment a gentle rhythm, and for a while, there was nothing but the simple unspoken connection between you both before you responded.
âMaybe. Depends.â You tease, your words playful but laced with a hint of mischief.
His response is immediateâhis large hand slipping into yours with a quiet sense of contentment, the warmth of his grip grounding you. Thereâs a comfort in the way he holds you, as if, in this moment, the world outside doesnât matter. His touch speaks volumes, the unspoken understanding between you both more powerful than anything words could convey.
âSomeone clearly thinks highly of me,â he teases back, a playful smirk tugging at his lips. Before you can answer, he leans down and places a soft, lingering kiss on your forehead, his touch tender and full of quiet affection. The sweetness of the gesture catches you off guard, a simple act that somehow feels like the most genuine expression of his feelingsâa quiet reminder of how deeply he cares.
You smile, a soft laugh slipping from your lips.
âAll I was saying is that, as much as Piltover has its minor flawsââ you begin, your voice light with amusement as youâre stopped short.
âAppalling flaws, really. Humongous, towering flaws,â he interrupts playfully, his tone teasing as he presses a gentle kiss to the back of your hand, still held firmly in his.
You canât help but laugh at his wit.
âYes, huge, appalling flaws. But despite all that, Topside is stunning at night. The lights here are beautiful, too, but nothing compares to the glow of Piltover.â You add, trying to make your point clear: a cityâs beauty can stand on its own, no matter what darkness might lurk behind the scenes.
He regards you for a long while, his gaze lingering on your face with an amusement that never quite fades. The seconds stretch on, almost too longâwhat might seem like a few moments in the worldâs rhythm becomes an eternity in his eyes. Each shift in your expression, each subtle change in your posture, draws him in, holding his attention as if time itself has slowed. And yet, even as eternity unfolds, itâs still not enough. To him, no amount of time could ever truly capture all he wants to see.
âThat may be true,â he says, his voice steady, the smirk never quite leaving his face.
âBut Piltoverâs got nothinâ on you.â
#Vander fluff#Vander x reader fluff#Vander x reader#arcane fluff#arcane x reader#arcane x reader fluff#arcane x GN!reader#Vander x GN!reader#Vander x GN!Reader fluff#Vander arcane#vander x reader arcane
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Blurb idea - reader being really busy with work & leah feeling a bit neglected. Reader feeling terrible when she finds out & spoiling leah
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Youâre typing furiously, barely looking at the screen, your mind racing ahead to the next three deadlines. The dining table is no longer for dining; itâs a graveyard of coffee mugs, half-eaten biscuits, and Post-it notes that say things like âURGENT!!â and âRevisit before Friday.â
Leah walks past, deliberately slow, like sheâs waiting for you to notice her. Sheâs wearing your favourite hoodie and a pout that could rival a Labrador thatâs just been denied a treat.
You donât notice.
âBusy, are we?â she says, voice laced with enough passive-aggression to fuel a reality show reunion.
âMhm,â you hum, barely registering her presence. âJust a few more things to finish upâ
Leah doesnât respond. She stands there for a moment longer, then sighs dramatically before retreating to the sofa.
Itâs only later, when you shut your laptop and stretch, that you notice the tension in the air. Leah is curled up, scrolling on her phone with the energy of someone purposefully ignoring you.
You approach cautiously. âHey. Everything alright?â
She shrugs, not looking up. âFineâ
Thatâs a lie, and you know it. The fine that means absolutely not fine but Iâll let you figure it out.
âLeah,â you say, sitting down next to her. âWhatâs wrong?â
âNothing,â she says again, but the pointed way she keeps her eyes on her phone gives her away.
âLiarâ
She sighs again, setting her phone down with exaggerated care. âYouâve been glued to your laptop for two weeks. I feel like Iâm married to an Excel spreadsheetâ
Your heart sinks. âOh, babe. Iâm sorry. I didnât realiseâŠâ
âItâs fine,â she says, but itâs not. âI get it, youâre busy. Youâve got work. Itâs importantâ
âNo, itâs not just that. I shouldâve made more time for youâ
She shrugs, clearly milking this moment of guilt for all itâs worth.
And thatâs when you know you need to fix it. Properly.
The next day, Leah wakes up to breakfast in bed. Not just any breakfastâher favourite. Pancakes, syrup, fruit arranged in a smiley face that looks like you tried too hard. Thereâs coffee too, in her favourite mug that you normally avoid using because itâs âaestheticâ and not dishwasher-safe.
âWhatâs all this?â she asks, sitting up and eyeing the tray with suspicion.
âAn apology,â you say, setting the tray down carefully. âAnd a promise. No work today. Just you and meâ
Her face softens immediately. âReally?â
âReally,â you confirm. âIâve cleared my schedule. And booked us a massage. And weâre going to that tapas place you love for dinnerâ
She grins, looking far too smug for someone who was dramatically sulking less than 24 hours ago. âI knew guilt-tripping you would workâ
You laugh, shaking your head. âUnbelievable. Iâm trying to be romantic, and youâre gloatingâ
âDonât ruin the moment,â she teases, taking a bite of the pancake. âBut if you really want to make it up to me, you can clean the kitchen after thisâ
You groan, but you know sheâs joking. Mostly.
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"it's really me. is it really really really you?"
some yj19 konbart for @superfamilyweek day 2: across space or time/friends & teammates (kind of ended up fulfilling both??)
#âi ran back and forth and back and forth in time to find *you*â okay well what if i screamed#bisexual sunset reunion beloved <3#sometimes i think about kon never being able to return to his home reality and then i need to lie down#this look was so banger for him btw. he needs some spikes and patches on his newer superfam jacket tbh#god i love him god i miss him#i haven't drawn them in soooo long. i'm ready to return guys...#kon el#conner kent#superboy#kon kent#kon el kent#young justice#bart allen#impulse#impulse dc#young justice 2019#konbart#superpulse#bartkon#dc comics#superfam#superfamilyweek#fanart#young justice fanart#young just us#art#my art
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no, they didn't kiss, but i think what we got was a much more intimate display of affection than any amount of physical love. viktor admitting that in every single universe, in all timelines, jayce is the only one capable of calling him back from his mistakes, the only one capable of saving him. destined to destroy and destined to save. i need to lie down i think
#i could go on about this for hours#gay people win again#fuck your doomed yaoi MY doomed yaoi is doomed in every universe#i can't do this anymore#jayvik#arcane#jayce talis#arcane jayce#viktor arcane#arcane spoilers
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hii i love your writing soo much your so talented!! could you write eddie and reader fake dating (their both best friends btw) and their doing this because it was eddieâs idea to make chrissy jealous but secretly the reader is in love with eddie and when eddie finally gets with chrissy the reader distance her self from eddie and eddie realizes that chrissyâs not what he expected and at the end eddie and reader gets together itâs a bit long sorryyy thank youuuđ«¶đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶
cw: hurt/comfort
You won't lie, you've been crushing on Eddie since long before you even became friends. So when he suggests that the two of you fake date, you jump at the chance, because if you can't actually date him at least, you'll know what it's like.
He's doing it to get Chrissy's attention and you can't even be mad at him because Chrissy is sweet and pretty and you unfortunately totally understand the appeal. And the worse part of it all, you think, is that they would actually look so cute together.
You always see them giggling in the hall and you don't even know why Eddie needs you. You wish he would leave you out of it, but you agree because he's your best friend and you're madly in love with him. You'll do anything for him and you're surprised that he doesn't ever use that to advantage. That man has you wrapped around his finger and he's so totally oblivious to it.
The whole thing is pathetic, actually. Because after the whole arrangement is over, Eddie will hopefully have a girlfriend, but what do you get? The satisfactory of a job well done? That doesn't exactly seem fair to you, but you suppose it's what you deserve for being a coward and not telling Eddie how felt when you had a chance.
"Act like you love me. She's coming," Eddie commands, pulling you out of your thoughts. Little does he know that you're not acting.
He grabs hold of your waist and pulls you closer to him, whispering compliments to you as he plays with your hair. And you hate how much you're eating it up because absolutely none of it real. You think he should be an actor because the way he's speaking sounds so genuine that you almost believed him at first.
Out of the corner of your eye, you see Chrissy approaching the two of you, her signature bright smile on her face and Eddie's totally going to blow the whole thing because of how obvious he is. The way he looks at her as if she's hung the moon is borderline pathetic.
"Hey guys," she greets and you turn to her, not even having to fake your smile because you actually genuinely like Chrissy. She's nothing but a sweetheart and she's one of the few girls at school that you would consider one of your friends.
"Hey," you smile back.
"I'm having a party tomorrow night and I was wondering if you guys wanted to come," she says and you have to be the one to reply since Eddie seems to be hypnotized by the girl.
"We'll be there," you tell her and her smile brightens.
"Perfect," she nods and then heads down the hallway. As soon as she's out of earshot, you turn to Eddie, smacking him on the shoulder.
"Ow," he winces, turning to glare at you. "What was that for?"
"Could you be any more obvious? I swore I could see you drooling."
"I wasn't drooling," his eyes narrow even more.
"Well you might as well have been. Come over tonight because clearly we have a lot to practice." Eddie rolls his eyes but agrees, especially because he always ends up at your house almost every night anyway.
You pace back and forth in your room, feeling nervous to see Eddie for the first time in your life. You can't believe you actually suggested that you practice. You don't exactly know what you meant but that, but all you cant think about now is roleplaying being a couple and that makes you anxious for some reason.
The door to your room opens and there Eddie is, looking like he walked straight out of your dreams and you honestly can't seem to pull your eyes from him. You hope that he doesn't notice, but also know Eddie's always so caught up in his own head that he doesn't notice little things like that.
"So," he sighs as he sits down on your bed and you hate how you're imagining yourself straddling his laps, kissing him stupid, only stopping so you both can catch your breath before going in for more. You know it won't happen, but a girl can dream.
You sit next to him and even though you've sat this close more times than you can count, your heart is suddenly pounding in your chest and you really hope that Eddie can't hear it.
"What did you want to practice?" He asks and you wonder when his face got so close to yours. You can see every single detail on his face, those damn Bambi eyes and his pretty lashes that he can bat and get you to do anything he asks. His pretty, pink lips that you so desperately want to kiss. His hair that you're itching to run your fingers through.
"Let's roleplay," you reply, thinking on the spot since you didn't actually plan anything out and were just pulling things out of your ass.
"Roleplay?" He asks then a smirk plays on his lips. "Kinky, I like it," he winks and you feel your face flush. He always knows what to say to embarrass you and you hate it.
"Shut up," you shove his shoulder. "You know that's not what I mean."
"Relax, babe. I'm not kink shaming if that's what you're thinking."
"Can you be serious for once in your life?"
"Sorry, sorry," he apologizes as his face softens. "I was just trying to lighten the mood since you seem so tense. What's got you so worked up?"
You, you want to tell him. You're so close to laying it all out on the table and tell him the truth. That thinking about him being with Chrissy is breaking your heart and that you're the one he should be with. But you know you have no right to tell him who he should or shouldn't date, so you stay quiet.
Eddie can see that you're staring at his lips and he just smiles at you, finally catching onto why you invited him over. He's surprised he didn't see it sooner. He kind of feels like an idiot for not catching on as quickly as he should have.
"I see what this is about," he smirks knowingly and he can't help but chuckle when he sees your eyes bug out.
"You do?" You ask with a gulp and he doesn't know why you're so nervous. It's just a kiss and nothing else.
"Of course." He's laughing now and you want the floor to swallow you whole. "You think we should practice kissing."
That's not at all what you had in mind, but there's no way you can tell him he was wrong. And you're also not going to miss an opportunity to kiss him.
"And I agree," he nods, leaning even closer, this closest he's ever been to you that doesn't include cuddling.
He slowly reaches up to cup your cheek, gently rubbing along it with his thumb as his eyes bore into yours. Your heart pounds in your chest as you lean closer to him. your eyes fluttering closed as you do so.
"Tell if I do something you don't like," he says softly and you almost shiver as you feel his breath fan across your lips. All you can do is nod and you feel him keep your head steady as he cradles your head in his hands.
Eddie's lips capture yours and your hands rest on his thighs, scooting closer to him as your brain short circuits. You can't believe that this is happening, and the thing is, you don't even care if it's not real. You're just so caught up in him that it doesn't even matter.
He pulls away before you're ready and you can't help but stare down at his kiss bitten lips, deciding that you could do that for hours and never get bored of how his hands and mouth are so gentle with you.
But you want him to be a little more rough. You want him to stick his tongue into your mouth, to nip at your bottom lip, to give you a hickey that's damn near impossible to cover up with make up.
Eddie wants to stop there before he gets carried away, but he can see how hungry you are for more. You look like you want to devour him and who's he to tell you no?
"I think we should practice a little more," he says and you're nodding enthusiastically.
"I agree," you continue to nod and Eddie smiles as he leans in again, more rough this time and he can't help but notice how your fingers are digging into his skin through his jeans.
His hands move to your neck and his thumbs rest on your jaw, tilting your head back as he licks into your mouth, his tongue tangling with yours and in one swift motion, he moves you so that you're straddling his waist. Your hands are in his hair and if it goes any farther, you'll be at the point of no return.
Eddie's hand move down to your waist and slowly travel up your shirt, but they stop, resting on the small of your back, deciding not to go any higher even though he really wants to. He has to remind himself that it's just kissing and nothing more.
You both pull away when you're out of breath and in that moment, Eddie's not thinking about Chrissy at all. He's thinking about you and how pretty and sweet you are. And how he wants to spend the rest of the night right there, kissing you until the early hours of the morning then cuddling in your bed, fully intending on staying there for the rest of the day watching cartoons and kissing even more because now he's addicted to the feeling of your lips on his.
"I could do that for hours," he tells you, his pupils blown. His hands are out from under your shirt and they're rubbing up and down your back so gently.
He has to know what he's doing to you, right? How he's hurting you because you think you've been so obvious about your feelings for him and now it feels like he's toying with you. But you know Eddie would never do that and it's clear that he has no idea how much you're in love with him because he's oblivious to everything in that department.
Heâs looking at you like you look at him and Eddie doesnât know what heâs feeling but itâs odd. He thinks heâs starting to see you as more than a friend, which was honestly a long time coming. He thinks heâs always been in love with you but was too scared to admit it to himself because one, youâre his best friend, and also because heâs not used to people reciprocating his feelings so he doesnât think thereâs a point in telling you the truth.Â
He wants to run, but he stays and you let him wear a t-shirt that heâs left there and the two of you go to bed wrapped up in each otherâs arms, talking about everything and nothing until you eventually fall asleep, the two of you knowing that your friendship is never going to be the same.Â
ïżœïżœHow do I look?â You ask as you emerge from the bathroom. Youâre wearing a black party dress and as soon as Eddie sees you, he swears that heâs died and gone to heaven. But if heâs being honest, he doesnât even want to go to the party anymore. He just wants to stay there and maybe kiss you some more. Okay, definitely kiss you some more. But you seem so excited so heâs going to go just for you.
âYou look-â he cuts himself, trying to come up with what adjective he wants to use. âFucking amazing,â he decides on as he takes you by the hands, pulling you to him as he presses a kiss to your lips.Â
âEddie,â you say as you pull away. âThereâs no one around so you donât have to pretend.â
âWho says Iâm pretending?â He smiles, pulling you in for another kiss before he lets go of you so you can finish getting ready. He doesnât even know if heâs interested in Chrissy anymore, but heâs trying to convince himself that he is because itâs easier that way. If the two of you were to get together and then break up, he doesnât know what heâd do if he lost you. Youâre the most important person in his life and he wants you to stay in it forever.Â
So the two of you show up to the party hand in hand, making sure to be all flirty around Chrissy. You still donât know why youâre doing this. Why couldn't he just ask her out instead of talking you into this elaborate scheme? Itâs not only unfair to Chrissy, itâs also unfair to you. It doesnât even seem to be working as she flirts with Jason over by the punch table.Â
Everything shifts, though, when Chrissy announces that itâs time to play âSpin the Bottleâ. Your stomach churns as Eddie pulls you over, forcing you to sit right next to him even if it means that he probably wonât get to kiss you. He wants to keep you by his side the entire night, not wanting to let you out of his sight.Â
You feel so sick as the game starts and itâs Eddieâs turn to spin the bottle. You almost donât want to watch, but you canât draw attention to yourself so you watch the bottle spin round and round. It seems that the universe has a sick sense of humor because it lands on Chrissy. Of fucking course. Eddie crawls over to her and you can see them whispering about something, smiling at each other before they both go in for a kiss.Â
You donât stay and watch, physically unable to as you rise to your feet, hurrying to the bathroom because thereâs no way you can be there anymore. You tried to be happy for Eddie, you really did. And you hate yourself for feeling so hurt and betrayed because all of it was fake and Eddie still has no idea that youâre in love with him.Â
So you lock the door and sink to the floor, leaning against the tub as you bring your knees to your chest, crying into them, thankful that the loud music is drowning out your sobs. Thereâs a knock on the door before whoever is on the other side wiggles the door knob. God, could this night get any worse?Â
âItâs occupied,â you say through sobs but your ears perk up at the familiar voice.Â
âBaby, itâs me. Can you open up?â Itâs Eddie. Whyâs he at the door? You figured heâd be making out with Chrissy somewhere. You ignore him, not wanting him to see you like that and bury your face back into your knees, more sobs raking through you.Â
âHoney?â He asks, his voice nothing but soft as he knocks on the door lightly. You get on your knees to unlock the door then turn away, not wanting him to see how horrible you probably look. But he gets on his knees in front of you anyway, his smile falling as he sees the mascara tears dried on your cheeks. âOh, baby,â is all he says, so much sympathy in his voice as he reaches up and wipes away makeup from your face.âWhatâs with the tears, hm?â He asks, his thumbs rubbing back and forth across your cheeks.Â
âItâs nothing. ItâsâŠstupid.â
âIf youâre upset about it, then itâs not stupid.âÂ
Eddie being so nice to you is making it really hard to be mad at him. You want to, but you canât. And you know that you have no real right to be mad at him anyway. He has every right to be with Chrissy and you just have to be okay with that.
âWhy are you even here? You got Chrissy so why arenât you with her? That was the whole point of this whole thing, right?â
âIt was,â he nods. âBut last night made me realize something.â
âYeah? And whatâs that?â
âIt made me realize that youâre the only one I want to kiss.âÂ
You freeze as soon as the words leave his mouth. Thereâs no way you heard that right. Your mind is just playing tricks on you. It has to be.Â
âBut-â you try to argue, but you just end up furrowing your eyebrows in confusion.Â
âI know it doesnât make sense,â he chuckles. âBut I think Iâve always been in love with you and I was just so scared of losing you that I didnât want to pursue it. What you saw was Chrissy and I just playing the game.â
âThen what did you say to her before? I saw you whispering.â
âShe told me not to screw things up with you. Someone told her about you and I fake dating in order to get her attention and she said that she was flattered. And that was when I realized that I didnât want her anymore. All I could think about was you. And sheâs with Jason now so itâs not like it matters anyway.â
This all feels like a surreal dream, but you can feel Eddieâs hands on your cheeks so thereâs no way that it can be. Itâs real. Itâs what youâve been wanting for so long and now you have it. All you have to do is tell him you feel the same way and that will be that.Â
âBecause I love you, y/n. I want you and only you. IâmâŠIâm yours if youâll have me.â
âYou love me?â You ask, your mind still not grasping whatâs going on.Â
âMore than youâll ever know, baby,â he says as he goes in for a kiss, pulling you into his lap as his arms wrap around you so tight as he doesnât plan on letting you go. Youâre his now and you will continue to be until you take your last breaths. And thatâs exactly how you want it.
#stranger things#eddie munson#eddie munson x reader#eddie x y/n#eddie munson x you#eddie munson fluff#eddie munson x fem!reader
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Triangle. Bush. Bettie. I need a lie down in a dark room!
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âź IâM A LOSER BABY SO WHY DONâT YOU KILL ME HCS
synopsis: in which i give you headcanons about our favourite complicated â couple. â
pairing: loser!chris sturniolo x mean girl!reader
disclaimers: mentions of drugs [ both mild and hard ], mentions of sex, angst, swearing, the whole nine yards.
âź mean girl!y/n who keeps a secret collection of chrisâ clothes tucked away in a box in her closet, she pulls it out after every fight they have and falls asleep in at least one article of his clothing.
âź loser!chris who keeps a picture of reader in his wallet, itâs of her getting ready for one of her familyâs parties, she had sent it to him on snap and he screenshotted it and printed it out.
âź mean girl!y/n who has harboured a crush on chris since their first meeting in the high school hallway.
âź loser!chris who, surprisingly, doesnât text nearly as much as y/n does, he prefers talking over facetime or phone call because he adores her voice.
âź mean girl!y/n who needs to fall asleep on the phone with chris if, for whatever reason, she canât get to his place or wherever heâs crashing for the night, and this still happens even when theyâre mad at each other, itâll be tense and awkward and a bit uncomfortable, but they still fall asleep on the phone together nonetheless.
âź loser!chris who is smarter than he seems, heâs good at reading people, after years of dealing drugs and running product to sketchy people in even sketchier areas of town, he can figure out when someone is or isnât who theyâre pretending to be, and he can figure out their motives from a mile away. he doesnât let on that heâs good at reading people and he lets people believe heâs dumb as rocks, because it tends to give him the upper hand when he needs it.
âź mean girl!y/n who is actually very intelligent in her field of interest and major, which happens to be business & management, and she discreetly takes online courses, but she doesnât let people know.
âź loser!chris who is actually a major film and photography geek. he spent a lot of time with nick in the photo lab and joined him on any photography projects nick took after school. and he also enrolled in film courses when he finally decides to go back to get his diploma, and ends up going to community college, which grants him the opportunity to start filming and doing videography for his friends in the music industry. [ future concept ]
âź mean girl!y/n who helped out at the humane society on weekends early in the mornings during high school. itâs how she adopted her french bulldog named mocha, but she claims to have bought her from a prestigious breeder her family knew [ she doesnât support breeders or puppy farms, but to maintain her higher status image, she went with a lie that her family and friends would accept ]
âź loser!chris who has a journal filled with pictures he and y/n took together, alongside little writings about each picture, pages with dreams about her, stories about her, and every single thing he knows about her.
âź mean girl!y/n who talked horribly about chris to her friends, in front of him, at the first party they hooked up at. it was after they hooked up, and her friends had noticed their state and the fact they had come down sort of at the same time and joked about them hooking up.
âź loser!chris who has two cats, an orange cat with bright green eyes named matcha and a calico cat with blue eyes named spot. he â adoptedâ them both with y/n, [ realistically he was skateboarding home from a deal ( both times ) and they followed him home, ] and y/n named them.
âź mean girl!y/n who frequently dates guys of the same status as her to appease the gated community she lives in. it breaks chrisâ heart every time, but she tries so hard not to give into what her heart is telling her to do.
âź loser!chris who genuinely canât wait for the nights he and y/n agree to spend together, he doesnât do much aside from dealing, working at the skate shop, and partying. he looks forward to spending time with y/n more than anything, in his mind, despite how toxic and unhealthy it may be for him because he knows that sheâs only using him, any sort of time and moments spent with her, is better than nothing at all.
âź mean girl!y/n who actually gets excited every time she agrees to spend the night with chris, she fools herself into thinking itâs because sheâs getting dick and drugs, while ignoring the true reason why.
âź loser!chris who helps out at the local homeless shelter, secretly paying his dues to the kind owner that helped him out when he couldnât keep couch surfing.
âź mean girl!y/n who regularly donates whatever she can to the homeless shelter, under either a fake name or anonymity.
âź loser!chris who hates homemade chicken noodle soup unless itâs made by his mom.
âź mean girl!y/n who has a deep love for mary-lou, and has a tendency to turn to her about things sheâs uncomfortable telling her step-mom.
âź loser!chris who is extremely close with karina, y/nâs closest friend, after he was recommended to her by y/n.
âź mean girl!y/n who hates the texture of pickles, but orders them on all her burgers because she loves the taste and will pick them off.
âź loser!chris who will eat the pickles even though heâs not the biggest fan of them, because he knows that she hates wasting food.
âź mean girl!y/n who actually isnât mean at all once you get to know her beneath the surface, she just keeps up the persona and image she developed in high school because it got her places and sheâs actually just a deeply scarred and insecure girl who is scared to lose her status and has never healed from the things sheâs dealt with.
âź loser!chris who see a future with y/n, and decides to tell her one night, theyâre bother fully sober, and it just slips past his lips.
âź mean girl!y/n who panics when sheâs hears this and tells chris that she doesnât want that, that she doesnât want a future together, and chris kicks her out, telling her theyâre done because he canât keep waiting for her.
âź loser!chris who spirals after breaking up with y/n officially, and gets himself back into dealing, but this time it doesnât go as smoothly as it had in his past, to the point where he gets into a physical fight with his supplier, and even lands himself in jail after being caught with a kilo of coke, and he thinks that this is it for him, that heâs stuck there for the foreseeable future, but the judge somehow, some fucking way, for whatever reason, decides to grant chris a pardon, with the condition of bail and community service.
âź mean girl!y/n who pays chrisâ bail, dropping the money without hesitation, and she steps into the cop shop with an irritated sigh, and when chris turns the corner, sheâs stomping up to him and shoving him back before pulling him into a rough kiss before saying âif you wanted me back, you couldâve fucking said so instead of landing yourself behind bars, again, you idiot.â
STARS CORNER finally some loser!chris content, also some clarification, this type of âloserâ is based off the loser guys i went to high school with and dated myself, itâs not based off the geeky type of loser obvs.
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max verstappen knew what he liked. while he usually put the front as a heterosexual man, he had always been a little more fluid about his sexuality outside of the limelight. he had kissed many men in his life as with women, even those who were neither men nor women. kissing was fun, sex was fun. and he wasn't going to limit himself to one set of tools to get the job down. a cock down the throat could be as delightful as sinking into a sweet pussy.
so it was more of a surprise for you to receive max's advances than it was for him to give them.
you remembered when you grandmother told you that she was concerned about you transitioning because you may "never find love" and you told her that it didn't matter. cars were your love, you didn't need a person to fill that gap. so when you met the three time world champion as the new mechanic for the 2024 season, you honestly didn't think too much about wooing him romantically.
but, max was wooed by you. especially when he saw that your lockscreen of your phone was a picture of your two cats, and when he brought up his cats, you just lit up. max liked that you treated him like he was a person. and you simply said, "mate, i'm pretty certain they don't let robots drive these cars." then slapped him on the back, "but i will make you bleed red if you total my car." then flashed him a smile.
you remembered the first time max kissed you. the dutch grand prix had been a total success and within the quietness of the garage post-race with the trophy max had won near by. he took you by the waist and kissed you. he'd later admit that he wanted to do it right on the track.
"do you kiss all your mechanics like that, verstappen?"
"no, only the ones who allow me to win." you two had spent almost the entire season bitching about red bull. max wondered if or when he eventually jumped teams, if he could take you with him. as he held you in his arms. chest to chest.
you admitted close to his ear, a little insecure, "i hope you know. i've built myself... i was born a girl, but became something more. different." then tried to pull back, fearful of his response. you weren't trying to trick him, you'd rather have it on the table.
but he pulled you back in, his blue eyes on you, "you act like i don't know what transgender people are, mechanic." he said as he leaned you back a little, to get a fuller look at you, "you act like i've never been to bed with one."
"i don't want to be a one night stand." you said, your hands on the front of his polo shirt. his hat long hit the floor in the heat of the kiss. you swallowed, "i won't be a toy, verstappen. i have too much respect for myself."
he chuckled, "that's what i like to hear." he held you around the waist and you kissed once more. he could feel the rise in his blood pressure. while you could've easily done it in the garage, max gave you the address of where he was staying and the lie to tell security.
the mechanics team were in another hotel, but if you wore your red bull branded uniform and had your mechanic's pass then you'd get in easily. they'd never suspect that you'd be intimate with the star of the team. and you did just that. even flashing a smile at security before you headed up to the elevator. they didn't even ask questions, which made your life easier.
you found max's room and he happily brought you in. but once the door was closed behind you. his strong arms were around you. he smiled at you, happy to see you. you carefully touched his face, part of you believed this was a strange dream after too many rum and cokes. but as you felt his facial hair under your hand, this was all painfully real.
"do you want this?" he asked.
you nodded and responded with a question of your own, "do you?"
his smile grew a little more, he leaned in closer to you. you only now realized how blue his eyes were, "since the moment i saw you come to the garage. you were more impressed with the car than with me... i found it endearing." he chuckled.
you held his face with both hands and gazed at him, "yeah, because it's a piece of shit car for a champion. it's like giving the king aluminum instead of gold."
he laughed before he leaned in for a kiss. you held his face close to yourself and you felt something bloom in your gut. eventually you got your worn sneakers kicked off and the jacket of your uniform off. it left you in a white t-shirt and max started to strip as well. you eyed his form and he eyed yours.
you felt his heated gaze linger on your chest for a moment and without thinking you crossed your arms across where your top surgery scars were. it was habit at that point.
max was in just his jeans and socks. he reached for your arms. feeling your warm under his palm as he carefully moved your arms away. he wanted to admire you, all of you.
"must've felt very different after the surgery." he said as he held your wrists, his eyes gazed on the fading scars. he was in no way to judge about scarring. at least yours were for something worthwhile, to change yourself in such a fundamental way, "was it scary?"
you shook your head, "no... i wanted to do everything afterwards. my doctor basically put me on bed rest because i was trying to push myself too hard. what was a four week recovery turned in seven."
he placed his hands on your flat chest and could feel the slight raise of the scars under his palms, "you push yourself too hard."
you swallowed, feeling the heat in your cheeks, "if you want to be the best. you have to do more than your best." your gaze met his. it felt so painfully intimate. this wasn't just sex in a hotel room, this was intimacy. max wanted more than your body, he wanted to know all the nooks of your soul and what inhabited them.
he leaned in once more, "we have that in common." before he kissed you once more. his kiss was sweeter, an assurance that you and your body were nothing to be ashamed of. if anything he admired it, even though he couldn't relate to the feelings you carried. he could at least understand the guts it took to go through it.
to become more than you what was given to you. it endeared you to him as you broke the kiss and continued to get undressed. the more of your bodies exposed to one another, the hotter the room got. even with the air conditioning rattling in the room. you could feel the heat between you two.
max sighed, "i don't have condoms... i can pull out or we can do something else." he explained as he got into the bed with you. both naked. his broad hand grazed across your body.
you responded and placed his hand on your lower abdomen, right before your pussy, "hysterectomy. six months before i started. are you clean though?"
he replied, "yes. been a long time since i've been with someone anyway." he was telling the truth. since you started at the season, everything had become a blur with you and the championship being a central focus.
his pointer finger trailed across the scar for a moment before he took your face in his hands and kissed you once more. you could go on about the shape of your face, but in his hands it felt very small. you hadn't realized that max verstappen had paws instead of hands. the thought made you giggle a little into the kiss.
he pulled away and looked at you before he laid you out on your back. he asked with a small smile, "what are you laughing about?"
you looked up at him and said, "didn't realized that formula one drivers had such big hands. every seen them up close like this before." then yelped a little when max grabbed you by the hips and pushed himself up against you.
he curved his back over you and maintained eye contact, those blue eyes were swimming with lust, "well. it's good you haven't seen others this close up. i might get a little jealous."
you looked away for a moment with a stupid grin on your face, "okay, flirt. why don't we get to it before i melt into this bed." then a soft moan left your lips as he rubbed his cock up against your wet cunt.
he admired you for a moment, hoping the image of your naked body stayed with him for weeks to come. you looked masculine. he wasn't going to say "technically" it's not having sex with a man. you were a man just as much as he was if not more. you had to create your manhood and you made it to perfection.
"i want you." you said softly.
he leaned forward and kissed you gently on the lips before he eased his cock into you. he replied with an equal softness, "i want you too, mechanic." the nickname made your ears hot as he moved against you. he thrusts were gently but gained a steady momentum.
you held onto the covers under your back and let him move against you. once you got a hold of his rhythm, you were able to meet his movements as well. the kisses you two shared grew hot as max planted both hands on either side of you and moved.
you two were moving against one another, locked in a heated kiss. the bed shifted slightly under your movements. max was thankful that were was not a bed on the opposite side of the wall. and that this place had enough insulation to keep your noises muffled.
the last thing he wanted was your integrity to come into question. that you only got to where you were because of your seductive ways. the noises between you two were soft. there was no need to rush, the race was over and tomorrow you'd be on the flight to the next one.
he took your hands and held them by your head, which kept you two close but also allowed him to keep you pinned under him. when you broke the kiss, you rested your forehead against his. the noises were harder to keep under wraps the more you moved. the pleasure felt like fireworks in your brain.
you moaned a little bit before you said, "i was thinking something stupid."
max chuckled his sweaty forehead against yours, "tell me."
"i realized what your eyes remind me of." you admitted softly, "i couldn't quite pin it after we met." you were breathing heavily as you locked your fingers further with his.
"and what do they remind of you?" he asked, curiously. he had heard people refer to them like the ocean, the sky after a store, the definition of blue.
you replied, "home. the lake near where i lived. not scary like the ocean. familiar like the lakes i grew up near."
max had no words, he simply laid another kiss on you. his hands grasped your tightly as you two moved together more. the pace quickened and max knew that he wanted to be in your life for a long period of time. he wanted you to be his home.
you moaned against the kiss, feeling the heat leap in your belly as you felt closer to orgasm. you came first with your lips against his. your back arched but your hands were pinned to the bed. it felt good as pleasure rushed to your brain.
max broke the kiss and continued to move against you. he let go of your hands in favour of your hips where he bounced your further against his cock. it made crackles of pleasure appear in your brain. and he was no better, his heavy breathing and occasional moan fueled his need to finish. and when he did, he did so inside of you. max never thought too much about the surgery you had, but he was thankful for it tonight.
he stayed inside of you for a moment as he cooled down before he left a kiss on the corner of your mouth. full of such tenderness as he pulled out of you and ran his fingers through his short hair.
you laid out next to him and heavily panting, feeling so vulnerable. he stayed closer to you, eventually pulling you to him and resting his chin on top of your head. you got comfortable against him.
"if you have any questions, i can answer them... about the whole trans thing." you swallowed, even now you felt embarrassed bringing it up. you felt it was a mood killer.
he took you by the chin and made you face him. he smiled down at you. he asked one question, "are you happy? did you get the life you wanted?"
you nodded in response, "everything and more." and that was enough for max. anything else you felt the need to tell him would be told with time, after all, max expected to be in your life for many years to come. both as his mechanic and lover.
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max would only come clean about the relationship two years later. the end of his contract with red bull and a final championship was enough for the driver to retire peacefully. and when he retired, you retired and you made a home in monaco.
the coming out post set the internet ablaze. especially given how long you two had been together. wasn't anything too special, just a small collection of photos that he had taken over your time together. like the time you wore his helmet in 2025 with a big thumbs up. and that time you thoroughly messed up a birthday cake for him, and with the camera in your face, he rubbed the icing off your cheek. the one that really captured eyes was the one that a friend took of you at a house party when max came to visit your home country, with his legs over your strong lap and his lips against your face. you were smiling like the sun. being the center of a media storm was only braved with max by your side. at one point turning your phone off and throwing it onto the couch. his kisses were still loving as always, his words soft, and his affirmations of your gender were often so sweet that you'd cover your face in embarrassment.
you were always comfortable with the idea of not meeting your 'other half', you had been given a second chance at life once you came out. and if no one could accept you then so be it. but as you laid out on the couch laid out against your boyfriend with sassy at your side and your cat between the crook of your knee, you felt loved. <3
a/n: i do write for masc readers as well, both cis and beyond. just not as often because many request femme readers. but if an idea is cooking in your head. hit me with it!
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EPISODE 3: A TASTE OF HONEY IN DEFEAT
satoru thought he would have no problem winning a bet he proposed, but a month is too long to go without a taste of anything this sweet.
themes/content: smut. edging, handjobs, mean-ish dom!reader, satoru being whiney lmao, premature ejaculation + he cums inside, light bondage (satoru receiving). (wk: 2.1k)
a/n: this is part of @luv-lies no-nut-november collab!!! so excited to have been a part of this, hope you all enjoy >:3
âYou know I trust you, but donât you think the ropes are a bit much?â Satoru giggles as you tighten the final knot around his wrists, shoulders bulging and arms stretched overhead.
âI know you trust me - itâs you Iâm worried about, âToru.â
âWhat, worried I wonât be able to keep my hands off you?â The smirk painting his features veers into a grimace as he winces, straining against the tightening rope.
âNo. Iâm worried you wonât be able to keep your hands off yourself.â
Pink lips draw into a pout. âAw câmon, you know Iâll be good! Iâm the one who made this bet in the first place, remember?â
You hum as you tug his hands down, testing the strength of the woven cerulean adorning his skin. The headboard shakes with the movement.
âAnd yet, you were so willing to break the rules.â
It had been quite a sight, truly - your dear Satoru, splayed across the bed, whimpers and moans falling from his lips like honeyed rain. They landed heavy in your ears, sticky and sweet. When the door creaked open, he made no effort to stop the fervent motions of his fist up and down his cock. He was flushed from head to toe, too lost in his own pleasure to recognize the sound of your footsteps approaching. It was only when your hand rested atop his that he jerked up, clouded eyes turning apologetic.
âI know I wasnât supposed to, I know, I just couldnât wait-â he had babbled.
âItâs okay,â you purred, rubbing soothing circles into his skin. âBut you knew the deal, remember? Iâm the only one allowed to touch you this month, right, Satoru?â
âI know, I know, Iâm sorry-â
âAnd how close you were to cumming, too.â
âI wasnât going to, I swear-â
You hummed and squeezed his base, earning a gasp. âYou know itâs not good to lie, either. Remember, you made this bet, sweetheart. Were you really so willing to throw it all away? To lose?â
âI wasnât going to lose, I promise, I just needed something-â
He was getting worked up, panicked thoughts racing through his mind. He braced on his forearms to sit up, but with a purposeful push you guided him back onto the sheets.
âItâs okay, my love. If my poor baby is so needy, Iâll take care of you. Iâll give you something.â
His eyes widened when you pulled the ropes from under the bed, eyeing him like your next meal, a starving predator ready to pounce. And here was your prey, so ready for the taking, offering himself to you as a good piece of meat should.
And now, heâs tied up like one, too.
âI wasnât even going to break the rules,â he whines impatiently.
Sitting back, you admire your work: your strong, determined Satoru spread and waiting. Trailing a finger down his stomach, his skin burns hot in its wake.
âThatâs certainly not what it looked like to me.â
âI-â
âBecause to me, it looked like you couldnât handle going even a month without touching this needy little cock of yours.â
He pouts. âIâm not little,â he huffs.
A giggle bubbles from the back of your throat, bouncing past your lips.
âAnd besides, I can handle it, I swear! I made it almost the whole month, I did, I just-â
Tilting your head, you gaze down at him. âWhat, got too desperate? Poor Satoru, âThe Strongest,â couldnât even follow the rules of a bet he made?â
Blue flashes against white as he rolls his eyes. One hand ruffles his hair, cooing down at him.
âItâs okay, baby, Iâll make you beg to break this silly little bet of yours.â
âWhatever,â he scoffs, hiding the way pink creeps up his neck and decorates his cheeks, stained like flower petals. Heâs soft like them, too.
A light chuckle lands in the air when your palm grazes up his length. He twitches in your hold, warm skin on warm skin.
âH-hah, see?â His mouth hangs open between the words. âTold you I could handle it.â
Itâs gentle touches at first, to ease him into it: slow strokes, light fingers. And yet, heâs still wrapping his throat around whimpers.
âAw baby, I havenât even done anything yet.â
Your lips curl into a smile, breath hot behind them. The words come out syrupy, dripping in sugar (and Satoru has always had a sweet tooth). His stomach aches in hunger - hunger for your hands, your body, your control. Whatever you plan to do to him, heâll swallow it whole, bigger and bigger bites until his cheeks swell and all he can taste is you.
The grip around his base tightens, running up and down. Something about your skin is so much softer than his, untainted by the cruelty he lives through, only dirtied by desire. It spreads over his skin, glistening white and sticky.
When whines begin to twist through the silence, his eyelashes fluttering to bat away the impending tears, he doesnât have to say it - heâs close.
Just as his muscles begin to tense, you rip your hand away.
Thereâs a choked little cry he lets out, hurt like an animal you spared from death. One that was ready for it, for the warmth and comfort it provided.
âWhyâd you stop?â His voice is strained already, a high-pitched draw across his vocal cords. His eyes are sparkling and wet.
A peck to his cheek sends shivers down his spine. âBecause youâre not supposed to finish, remember, silly? Iâm just helping you hold up your end of the bet, after all.â
A sound like untuned violins, haunting and beautiful all the same, plays from his throat. You giggle at the music.
âCâmon, Toru - you wanted this, remember?â
âI know,â he grumbles, scrunching his nose. âFine, fine, do whatever you want.â
You smile.
(You would have anyways)
Your gaze falls upon the aquamarine rope, the matching eyes, before trailing back down his steadying chest.
It stutters when your fingers trace up the veins of his cock.
It heaves when you cup a palm around his balls.
You squeeze.
âF-fuck,â he groans, hips lifting off the bed.
Thereâs a word living at the tip of his tongue, its shape burning into his mouth.
Harder.
Luckily, you know your Satoru - you know what he thinks, feels, wants. And as a lover should, you happily oblige.
The sound he makes is garbled and choked, utter nonsense. It came straight from the depths of his body, a pure animalistic response, one he couldnât have controlled if he tried.
Already, heâs beginning to tremble in your palm - itâs getting easier to do this, make him shake like a lost leaf floating through the autumn air, held captive by the gusts of your wind. Up and down, he travels with you, because of you.
Again, you pull your hand away.
Again, he whines.
âNoooo,â he mumbles, more to himself than anything. It was automatic, the expression of displeasure, ripped from him with the loss of your warmth on his.
âWhatâs wrong baby? You want me to stop?â Itâs more fun when he has an out, when he could say no and chooses not to. When he wants this just as badly as you. âYou know you-â
âNo.â It's more breath than sound. âNo, please. Keep going.â
And as a lover should, you happily oblige.
Precum drips down his length, covering him in remnants of desire. They cling to his skin like silky webs, woven from devotion and need. Each slick pump of your hand up and down creates more and more and more, a beautiful pearl at his slit forming one moment only to be spread by your circling thumb in the next.
Each time you reach his base, you squeeze. Each time you reach his tip, you twist. In this dance you both twirl and breathe and feel in beat, holding on to one another with sweaty hands and tired muscles.
âRemember, you can give up whenever you want,â you coo, the sweet glue of a trap.
But Satoru doesnât dare taste, doesnât dare step inside - he knows better.
(Right?)
âIâm not - fuck - giving up.â He tries to throw you a smile, but it lands at your feet.
Fists clench into each other, nails digging into his palms. You almost feel bad, the way heâs beginning to writhe within the ropes. It must hurt, you think, the texture soft but never soft enough - itâs nothing compared to you. In spite of his anguish, he knows better than to give up this easily. You havenât even really begun, not yet.
When his eyelashes flutter closed, you know to pull your hand away.
Heâs getting more subtle, the only sign of his impending pleasure a soft flicker of white and blue. But you recognize it, of course - his pleasure lives everywhere in him. In the way his breath catches, in the way his skin burns hot, in the way he gets all too loud or all too quiet.
Thereâs barely a sound this time. Instead, he just frowns, displeasure spreading across his sweet features. His lower lip sticks out, and he stares at you with cloudy eyes.
âI know, baby, I know. But this is what it takes if you want to win.â
The words donât ease the growing ache in his core, but your voice does. Every vowel blurs the pain, every consonant gives him something to cling to. Heâll climb himself out of insanity on your breath.
Again, you wrap around him and drag him closer to the edge. Unable to pull his gaze away, he stares down it, looming, waiting. The free fall must feel nice, the wind against his skin, for a moment before he hits the ground. But with a firm hand on the back of his head, you just hold him there. Itâll be his choice whether he decides to jump. Or rather, when he decides to jump.
Another choked groan leaks from his lips when you pause. There are no words left for him to say, nothing but the agony of desire. He shakes his head, squeezing his eyes shut as if itâll make the leap any less tempting.
Hushed whispers, not quite praise, tingle his mind. Little hums of âI know,â or âthere, there,â dance from your throat, and he writhes.
Distress always looked so pretty on him. Pretty tears, pretty red cheeks, pretty pouts and pretty cries. Perhaps itâs a curse that he looks like a fallen angel when he weeps - if he looked more grotesque, you wouldnât feel the urge to bring him back into the jaws of pain.
But he lets you comfort him nonetheless, preen his wings and kiss his tears.
This time, when you stop, he thrashes. His skin burns, crisp like it had been warmed by the sun for too long. Everything is too tight, his hands, his arms, his shoulders, his stomach. They need to be loosened; they need to be released.
âPlease.â
Itâs so quiet, itâs almost not a word, just little sounds from his tongue.
âWhat was that, baby? I couldnât quite hear you.â
Tears stream from glossy eyes when he looks at you. His lips quiver as he speaks.
âPlease, I wanna cum. Please.â
The smile spreading across your face is cold and knowing; he looks beautiful as he falls.
âI know you want to, but-â
âI lose.â Heâs panting, gasping through the plea. âI lose, I give up, I donât care, just, please.â
Hot tears melt beneath your thumb as you swipe them away. His mouth hangs open, as though he could swallow the air, hold it inside him and let that ease the aching. But the only thing that can help him now is you, the only thing he can stomach.
âOkay, baby. Iâll take care of you.â
A loose smile flows across his face, easy like gentle waves lapping at the corners of his thoughts. The sentence itself barely makes sense to him at this point, garbled in his lust-clouded mind. But he knows youâll help him now; he welcomes the push over the edge.
Straddling his lap, you guide him to your entrance. Sticky and hot, he presses into you. Just as his tip enters your warmth, he hurls himself into the wind.
Everything in his body trembles, muscles tightening and contracting out of time. Eyelashes flutter, whimpers dance like petals as he comes undone.
The only thing he can do is twitch inside of you, pearly strings pulsing with each erratic breath.
Finally, he opens his eyes to find you smiling. Warm lips press along his cheeks, dried tears salty on your tongue.
âWell, you certainly lost this time,â you hum, resting your forehead against his; he looks at you like you created the earth itself, your breath in the wind and your heartbeat in the sun. âBut thereâs always next year, right?â
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alphabet fluff w/ jason todd :)
affection: how affectionate are they? how do they show affection?
jason peter todd is soooooo affectionate. when he loves, he loves. he shows his affection through acts of service. growing up he gained praise by doing things so itâs ingrained in his brain to do things for someone. itâs obviously different when it comes to you because he does it out of love and not obligation. if youâre feeling sick, heâll make you soup and bring it to you in bed. someone harrasses you in the street? suddenly they go missing!
body: what is their favorite feature of you?
your eyes. the eyes never lie, plus he knows how to read a personâs body given his job. the way you look at him like he hung the moon and stars never fails to calm his nerves.Â
comfort: how would they help you when you feel down?
as said before, acts of service. he will do everything and anything in his power to make you happy. if all you want is him to skip patrol and lay in bed for 48 hours straight, heâll call someone to take his shift. (batfam takes his shifts willingly because they love you too and if you need jason then theyâll cover.) heâll engulf you with open arms and open ears.
dreams: how do they picture their future with you?
i hc he has attachment issues, once you guys have a strong and solid bond, thatâs it for him. he doesnât know what the future holds and his occupation giving him tomorrow is a blessing in itself, so once heâs sure of you you are all he wants and needs. i donât know if he would ever want to leave gotham given his passion to protect it but i think he would want a house, a solid place to go home to. reluctantly, he lets bruce guys help you guys build your dream house in the safest area possible.
equal: are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?
he needs someone who can support him as much as he supports you. he canât have someone so dependant on him, his job does that enough. youâre his safe space, he wants to be able to come home and not talk or decompress alone without hurting your feelings. itâs a 50/50, until one of you needs to pull more weight so the other can breathe.Â
fight: would they be easy to forgive you? what are fights like?
it depends on how bad the fight is, sometimes you both have to sleep in separate rooms because of how stubborn you or both of you are, but tension never lasts more than a day. heâll always forgive you though, always (unless you cheat on him or intentionally hurt him) because youâre his baby and heâs been through a lot so he refuses to lose you over things you guys can both fix. you have to have an open mind as well though! like stated before, it's a give and receive relationship, you need to want him as much as he wants you!
gifts: how do they feel about receiving/giving gifts?
heâs soooo shy, to know heâs being thought of? for you to give him something just because makes his heart beat so loud. i think because of his financial issues growing up, gifts are hard. he likes to save money and he does things to show you love with what he has (like skills), so to be given gifts makes him feel so full. you like to buy him wonder woman merchandise and he cherishes it. hell, you could give him a rock you painted and heâll treat it like gold. itâs all because you gave it for him. you did something for him!
his love language may be acts of service (on top of physical touch), he still gives you gifts but things like just because flowers, or silly knick knacks that he saw you stare at too long (i love trinkets so thatâs me projecting). thereâs a cafe on the other side of town but youâre busy working? heâll surprise you at work during your break with your treats. this man loves you!
honesty: do they have secrets that they hide or do they tell their s/o everything?
obviously he doesnât go around telling everyone heâs red hood. so for a while he keeps it from you, being careful to keep you out of public eye so you arenât a target. when your relationship becomes more serious then heâll sit you down and confess. (i love the concept of his s/o already knowing because red hood always appears by them when theyâre out in public. youâre alone waiting for the bus? oh look! red hood!) heâs very nervous to tell you because he does kill, he has done some bad things and he loves you very much (please donât break his heart.)Â
he squishes you in a hug when you accept his true identity and gives you a device that allows you to contact him whenever you have an emergency.Â
(you had a feeling since he made sure your apartment was very secure early on into your relationship, he taught you some self defense. oh and donât forget the knife you found behind your tv.)
insecurity: is there anything theyâre insecure about in your relationship?
his scars. (me personally, i could never care about a personâs scars. itâs sad people think theyâre ugly.) he has a really hard time coming clean about what his chest looks like and how it happened (i like the concept of him having an autopsy scar.) it takes a really long time for him to not only show you but allow you to come close to him in that state. youâre completely understanding and always respect his boundaries.Â
you reassure him that you love him for him and not his looks, but you remind him daily that heâs very handsome. coming back looking completely different does a lot to oneâs perception of themself.
even when dating for a few years, you know better than to stare to long at his scars. it has nothing to do with him not trusting you, but mentally for him itâs hard to swallow. the first time you traced his scars and kissed them he cried because you touch him with such gentleness even though the scars are there because of pain. Â
jealousy: do they get jealous easily, how do they deal with it?
very jealous! not insecure but just possessive, you are his and his only. heâs very tall so no one tries anything with him around anyway and if they do then.. heâll deal with them later!
you told him to always tell him how he feels but he makes it obvious when he pulls you in front of him to shield you from the world.Â
he knows when to hold back though, he knows youâre strong and capable, he just wants to protect you as much as he can.Â
kiss: what was your first kiss like?
like him, the absolute sweetest. it was on your second date, you mentioned how you loved to look at the stars but never went stargazing so he made his personal mission to do so.Â
he drove you to a secluded area on his bike, a blanket on the ground and two lanterns. he also packed a few drinks and snacks for you both to enjoy. as the sun set, the moon lit up the sky and the stars twinkled around it.Â
yes he is that boyfriend to look at you instead of the view because to him you are the universe.
itâs nearing 10pm and it starts to get cold, you gives you his jacket even though he told you it would be cold, and as he looks at you he starts to close the gap, âcan i kiss you?â you answer by putting your hands on his face and meeting in the middle to a sweet kiss. you kiss until the crickets start to get too loud around you and he kisses you again before parting to go home.Â
love confession: how would they confess their feelings?
he confesses his feelings through acts so you have to be the one to actually say something. jason knew he liked you after your first date but he hesitates, heâs not afraid of being rejected (he is). he always walks you up to your door and waits for you to get inside before leaving, or pulls you towards the other side so he closest to the road. he confesses his love in the way he always picks you up from work, how tight he hugs you after a hard patrol. despite how rough his hands are, he holds your face softly when he kisses you. when you finally tell him how you feel heâs internally jumping with joy, he grabs your face again and smashes your lips together.Â
âiâve wanted you for so long.â âwell why didnât you say something silly!â âi wasnât sure!â âweâll work on that togetherâÂ
marriage: do they want to get married? how do they feel about it?
he doesnât need a certificate to know youâre the one he wants to watch every sunset and sunrise with but if you want a wedding then heâll help plan it with you. itâs not something that scares him, he just doesnât think about it. having anything traditional and normal is a long shot for undercover heroes but for you heâll try.
nightmare: what is their greatest fear in your relationship?
judgement, loss. losing you, in death or you not loving him, makes his blood run cold anytime the insecurity slips in his mind. he can get quite worked up if youâre reckless, he scolds you for not being aware of your surroundings or not having secure locks to your home.Â
heâs also terrified of judgment, he craves to be seen and loved wholly with no conditions.Â
obvious: how transparent are they with their feelings?
in the beginning of your relationship heâs pretty dodgy, he hides his feelings because he doesnât want to be a burden and bother you. heâs used to having to do things alone, he knows he can. you have to remind him a lot that heâs not a bother and that you do what you do because you love him. you learn how to clean his wounds and sew for the nights when things hurt to much to do alone. it hurts your heart to know how often heâs had to bear things alone so you make sue he knows that with you around heâs never alone.
over time heâs more honest, he relies on you like a lifeline.Â
pet names: what kind of nicknames do they have for their s/o?
youâre his sweetheart!! his baby! the love of his life!! his honey!
he definitely likes you tease you though, calling you sugar, or pumpkin.Â
quality time: how do they spend time with you?
dates when he doesnât have patrol that night, heâll take you out for lunch or drive around the city. at night, when heâs off, gets off patrol early or just needs a breather, you both lay on the couch in the living room. you make him a warm cup of tea and let him lay in your lap as he reads, your hands in his hair, weaving through the soft strands. the tuft of white hair is your favorite, you like to twirl it in between your fingers. he enjoys the quiet with you, its comfortable and he can feel any pressure and tension leave his body as you caress his face.Â
if you like to binge shows or do little crafts heâll join or you continue reading, making sure a part of him is touching you in any way. if youâre on the floor doing crafts, heâll have his leg stretched out and touching your side, if youâre watching tv heâll have you in his lap. sometimes youâll both wake up on the couch or heâll carry you in the room.
romance: how romantic are they? what do they do to make their s/o happy?
i like to think heâs a romantic, or tries to be. give him a break, he died at 15 and woke up years later. heâs getting the hang of life again so romance doesnât come easily but from what heâs seen on tv and in books he tries! he holds your hand or puts an arm around your shoulder and brings you close when you guys are out in public, he opens every door for you and pulls out your chair. if you open your own door he closes it and reopens it lmfao.
you like to push his buttons a bit by opening your own door or pulling out his chair. itâs cute how he huffs and pouts.
support: how do they show support to their s/o?
he will cheer you on and support you on any goal you have! he gives advice, asks the batfam (not bruce lmao) if they know how to help or achieve such a goal. he helps you out if you need money even though you tell him not to, he does anyway.
thrill: do they like routine or prefer trying new things every so often?
with his job, i think some kind of routine would be good for him. he doesnât have to be alert or left wondering, he comes home and youâre home as you said you would be, youâre in the shower after getting off of work and youâve amazingly prepared dinner.Â
he wakes up and you tug him to sleep in longer, sometimes you exercise with him but he doesnât force you to of course.
i think he would really need stability.Â
understanding: how do they show theyâre understanding of their s/oâs needs?
like stated before, he shows his understanding in the little things he does, he always gets them what they want or need even if his partner mentions it one time. if you want some space heâll give you that but not without making sure you stay safe and take care of yourself!
he cooks for you both to make sure you eat! he needs to stay fit and healthy and with you in his life he makes sure you stay healthy too!
value: how important are you/is your relationship to them?
your relationship is the most important thing to him. he could be in the middle of a shootout and if you call him heâll quickly reply, âiâll call you back in 15, okay sweetness? yes dear iâll be safe. i love you most.âÂ
weird: any quirks?
sometimes his eyes glow green đ
xoxo: favorite place to kiss? how do they hug you?
he loves to kiss the pulse point on your wrist and neck, itâs his reminder that youâre here with him. it grounds him and he loves the feeling of your heart beating faster when heâs near.
especially when you guys are sleeping, he kisses your neck a lot, he loves how soft the skin is. (you will in fact wake up with marks on your neck, bites and or bruises.)
he likes to hug you and your your head to his chest or blanket around you from behind. if youâre cooking he drapes himself over you and will help you or just poke and tickle you until you shoo him away which causes him to whine, âyou hate me, my girlfriend hates me.â
yearning: how do they handle missing you?
not well! he makes it everyoneâs problem, the other robins always texts you pictures of him brooding around the manor because he has to be away from you. you have an entire album and collection of him sadly pushing his food away like a child or sprawling on the couch.
his ears turn all red when you show him the pictures and he claims itâs photoshop until you pull up the video dick sent you of jason talking about how much he misses your cooking and the blankets you always had on the couch.Â
he gets irritated at not seeing you, being a little more brutal when against villains, sadly wrapping his hands in bandages because you usually do it for him. he ignores the glares damian and tim give him for being a sap.
zzz: what are they like to sleep with? are they the big spoon or little?
he runs cold surprisingly, but you enjoy it. you fall asleep very fast because of how refreshing it is to lay on a cool and soft surface. you never have to kick the blanket off at night because of him.Â
he is the little spoon! he loves to be held and cradled! his favorite sound is your heartbeat, he knocks out instantly, nightmares donât happen when heâs wrapped in your arms. of course there are nights when you canât escape his hold but you like it that way anyway.
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INJURED HEARTS / paige bueckers
Paige bueckers x injured!fem!reader
Synopsis: After an acl tear, y/n is out for the season. She finds solace in the main star, Paige.
NOT PROOFREAD !!!
The gym was buzzing with excitement. The sounds of sneakers squeaking against the court as you sat alone in the sidelines. Not really pay attention to the game, everything had felt distant to you. The dull ache in your knee, a constant reminder of what happened a few months ago.
Paige was The Star of the court. She had it all, the skill, the confidence, everything. Everyone had loved her at Uconn. She was everything that you wanted to be. Everything that you couldn't see yourself being. You'd been playing for years before but as you watched other players, the confidence wavered just a bit.
Watching the team play felt like a slap in the face, how the others moved on the court, every shot, every steal, everything was smooth and they played so well together.
The game was nearing the end, the score being a tie. Paige had just sunk a three-pointed, making the crowd go absolutely wild. The opposing team rushing to get the ball and going down the court, but they were too late. Game over. Uconn had won again.
You just couldn't shake the burden of being a failure, thinking you would never be as good as them. All because of an ACL tear.
As the crowd cheered, Paige kept looking over to you. She finally caved in and jogged over to you on the bench, taking the seat beside you and giving a soft smile.
"You good?"
"Yeah, just watching the game. Congrats on the final point, Paige." You smiled at her, a lump in your throat as the constant feeling of being a disappointment kept coming back.
She didn't answer right away, her hand coming to rest on your knee, squeezing gently. "Come on, don't lie to me, Y/n. I know you are. Don't think so badly on yourself all because you're not playing, weâre still doing this together. So donât shut yourself out, okay?â
Your heart ached for a second, you bite your lip and nod towards her. For the first time since her injury, you let yourself believe.
The locker room was loud, everyone cheering and talking above one another, as you were sitting on the side with your leg propped up. Paige was staring at you from where she was sitting. She made her way over towards you, slipping into the spot next to you as her hand moves to your thigh.
For a moment, it was silent before Paige started speaking. "I'm proud of you, ya know? You are apart of this team, whether you're playing or not. We all need you here. I need you here."
Your heart ached for a second, you stared at Paige for a few seconds. "I love you so much, Paige." The two of your hands intertwined, Paiges' thumb stroking the back of your hand as she smiled.
Before you know it, Paige is leaning forwards into you and her lips are on yours- soft and light, her hand coming up to rest on your cheek.
The two of you part, slightly breathing heavily as your foreheads rest together. "I love you too." Paige murmured against your lips, before smiling and pressing against you again, the team being forgotten in the background.
a/n: This was really short, i apologize!! I did only erite this in like an hour last night. please reblog and comment !!
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⥠Nine Lives - LH 44 âĄ
Summary: Movie night with you and Lewis leads to yet another silly love declaration from the both of you.
Author's Note: This was a request that asked for a fluffy Lewis fic so here is my attempt at some extra fluffy stuff! Hope y'all like it. Feedback is always appreciated <3
WC: 964
CW: fluff, this whole thing is basically the nine lives song from webkinz so there's no originality i'm sorry đ, roscoe mention
It was movie night and it was your turn to pick the movie. Well, itâs been your turn to pick the movie. Usually, you and your boyfriend, Lewis, will alternate who gets to pick the movie to make it fair, but the past 5 times, itâs been Lewisâ choice.Â
You pointed out the other day that it was meant to be your turn since you hadnât been able to pick one in ages, to which Lewis argued that the both of you had been mutually agreeing on movies which is a flat out lie. While you do enjoy watching his favorite movie Cool Runnings, it was getting to a point where you got annoyed every time the opening scene played.Â
The alternate choice Lewis would give sometimes was Frozen and you could no longer let it go and love was soon gonna be an open door that would be shut in Lewisâ face.Â
After some bickering, Lewis finally let you pick the next movie. You had decided that you were going to make him watch your favorite movie of all time, The Three Lives of Thomasina. You had watched the film for the first time as a child, and since then, it always brought you a sense of joy and comfort.Â
The two of you prepared for your movie night by doing the usual, setting up a fort built out of couch cushions, pillows and blankets. Tonight you added some fairlights for some extra flair and in celebration of it finally being your turn to pick the movie. You had also gone out earlier in the day and bought a ton of snacks just for tonight, as well as ordering some takeout.Â
Once everything was set up, Lewis, Roscoe, and yourself got settled and comfortable in your little fort. You and Lewis immediately dug into the food as you clicked play on the tv. Donât worry about Roscoe though, you had prepared a special, vegan meal for him so that he was included in the family activity.Â
When the opening scene began, Lewis was already, jokingly, sighing exasperatedly, rolling his eyes an excessive amount of times. His arms folded across his chest with a playful smile playing on his lips every time he complains about the movie, side eyeing you from time to time to watch your reactions to his antics.Â
Half way through the movie, you and Lewis are cuddled up and the food has been run through. As the movie continues playing, a question pops into your head.Â
âIf you were a cat, would you live them all with me?â you asked curiously.Â
Lewis looks down at you, brows furrowed a bit as heâs unsure where this question came from. Then he smiles, loving all the times you would ask him questions like this. They were just silly questions asked for fun and out of curiosity, but they were also ways he could profess his love to you in new ways.Â
âIf I had nine lives, I would live them all with you. We would go on more adventures than we do now. I would take you on a trip around the world on a sailing ship. It would be a simple boat built just for two and weâd set sail, just me and you. We'd go round and when weâd reach our destination, weâd start over. Youâre the only one for me, darling. Canât you see?â he tells you.Â
âI can. For life two, we could build a home with lots of kids and garden gnomes. We would listen to the pitter-patter of feet running up and down the street.â you tell him, eyes sparkling like the night sky that shines over the two of you through the window.
âFor number three, itâd be like now. Iâd work a lot because thatâs what I was always taught. But weâd buy all the things weâd need for a healthy family. And for life four, you would read because you love to. Youâd have your own library that I built just for you. Every now and then, Iâd look for your face among them.â, he rubs his thumb on the bare skin of your hip and continues, âFor lives five, six, seven and eight, we would try and alleviate the sounds of suffering and the cris of hunger, pain, and forlorn eyes. Weâd help people everywhere.â
Your heart is beating warmly in your chest, being reminded of all three love you and Lewis share for not only each other, but for the world that brought you two together.Â
With a deep breath, you finish the story, âFor life nine, we would be somewhere on a pair of rocking chairs. Weâd be happy, slightly grey. If youâre lucky, Iâll bake a cake. And when I wish on a star, I will wish for nine more lives, cause nine lives would not be enough with you.â tears are now streaming down your face.Â
Lewis holds the side of your face, wiping away the tears with his hand. He pulls you close to him and presses a kiss to your head, then moving to capture your lips in a soft and comforting kiss. He keeps you there for a moment, reminding you that you are his and he is yours. When you pull apart, Lewis is looking at you with admiration and love in his eyes.Â
âYou are my one and only love.â
Roscoe lets out a little whine, to which you and Lewis laugh at.Â
You sit up and pull Roscoe to sit between Lewis and yourself.Â
âHow could we forget you, Roscoe? Youâre the best thing to ever happen to us. My beautiful, beautiful boy. You would join us for all our lives as well, cause we wouldnât want to do it without you.â
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