#i need ti go to bed vut im not tired and im si stressee and i dont knocw what ro do mm

[bokuwadekinaiko]

i apologize if this post is badly written it's nearly midnight abd im extremely distressed n frantic rn

i don't really seeothrr people as people. i dont feel real empathy when i hurt people and just feel a stale anger towards everyone i meet

i didnt want ro admit this or ever say it because it makes me sound like im some kinda maniac or freak but its true . the part ofmy brain thats supposed to feel empathy for others just doesnt work in ways it should. i dont feel remorse reeally went i hurt peoplemosty just more anger and fear that theyll hurt me or abandon me or sumthin. i feel incredible anger towards everyone automatically and feel like im always one bad interaction away from ansolute ly snapping . i have vilolent introseve thpughts spmetimes and scare myself i think. imy lsat post was about how i dont really feel love i guess and maybe this is connected. i dunno. maybe

this isnt a selfishity thing i thinkbecause . im not extempt. i don't recognize myself. i don't rrally see myself as a person either and i. i dont like myself either. everything in this post apllies to myself too yeah.im just feel angry. so muchall the time

i guess lucky for the people around me im too mych of a coward to actually try and hurt others / myself in any real way. but lgod knows i want to. what i wouldn't do without inhibitions

what i wouldnt do