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Book - The Princess and the Shadow

Chapter 11: Lovers

The woman moved forward, dragging her feet to the stairs with three steps. She came down and gestured for Ina to follow her. Ina and Masayasu exchanged glances, she knew that he had not trusted that woman, perhaps because of her timely gesture, completely changing her personality in the face of pleasure, money.

Ina followed the woman down the stairs, followed by Masayasu and Ryouma, they did not understand why they came down, but they would follow the rules of the woman. Ina went forward holding her bow, and placing the quiver on her back. She glanced toward the building.

It only had the ground floor, but it long and beautiful. The courtyard was filled with small stones and one had a stone path that led to the entrance. She could hear the sound of a shishi odoshi, a small Zen fountain, coming from behind the ryokan, the Inn. The sun was soft, and came through her ears to bring tranquility to her heart.

"I will show you the Inn. Here you can see that it is a beautiful ryokan, it was built by my parents and I inherited this."

She spoke quickly, seemed excited about having visitors who paid well. Ryouma watched her, he had never stayed there, so he did not know that woman, but she looked strange in his eyes. If she was a mercenary, a woman moved for money she would pass on information directly to the castle just to get money. He did not like that idea. He looked at Masayasu and thought maybe he'd already thought about it.

The woman turned to Ina and smiled at her by gesturing with her hand to follow her, she climbed the stairs again and Ina went behind, taking off her sandals as she did. But Ina took the sandals in her hand, this was confusing and she only wanted a room to rest. Ryouma and Masayasu did not go up, they decided to follow the two of the Inn's courtyard, so they would not have to go up and take off their shoes.

Ina looked at the two of them a little confused about that woman. The woman moved forward dragging the tabi socks onto the wood floor and then opened the shoji doors of a room and looked at Ina with a smile. Ina can see her gray eyes, her expression was not old, but she sometimes acted like one, she tried to smile at her.

"This is a magnificent room with a view the courtyard of the Inn, here you can have the morning sun in your room." she said.

"We want more hidden rooms, in the background. I wish rest."

Masayasu spoke sharply and the woman looked at him and frowned, she did not like his behavior, and still had not been able to see his face but saw the katana and wakizashi stuck in his hakama, then quickly she understood that he was a samurai. She bowed in apology and turned to close the shoji doors and walked again

Ina looked at Masayasu, he lifted a little of her face so she saw that he was watching her, he preferred privacy, it was better a room behind the Inn, not one that looked directly into the courtyard and entrance of the place. She understood, then followed the woman.

They skirted the Inn, the building was beautiful compared to Ueda's houses, the Inn was not only more beautiful than the castle, but after the castle was certainly the most beautiful building in that place, and that seemed to be the pride of that woman, or desire to get money from travelers.

"Breakfast is served between 7am and 8am in the morning, lunch is served at midday, you will have the right to an afternoon snack and sake, dinner is served at 7pm and curfew is 8am. Do not make noise after 9am, the village is very quiet."

The woman murmured and finally after turning another turn the Inn showed two rooms in the back and opened the door to show Ina, she liked it, got the afternoon sun and had a pleasant smell and flowers. Masayasu and Ryouma followed closely and looked toward the room. The woman looked at Masayasu curiously.

"The ofuro is on that side."

She pointed to a shoji door in the background, the rooms she had shown were close to the ofuro, which was comfortable for a shower and a nap after that tiring trip.

Masayasu glanced at the room Ina chose, she glanced quickly at him and smiled warmly. The woman noticed and then looked from Ina to Masayasu.

"I hope you guys do not make noise, I do not like rowdy couples here." she mumbled. "Well, if you have any doubts and need anything, call me, my name is Kirisu, or talk to my daughter, Nadeshiko."

After grunting a little, she made her way back, dragging her feet. Masayasu stared at her as she slowly walked away and then looked at Ina and walked towards her and placed the her trink in the engawa and sat down on the stairs to take off the tabi boots. Then he climbed up and picked up the trunk and carried it into the room.

Ina watched his gesture, Masayasu was quiet, but she knew it was because of the woman's presence. If she valued money above all else, she would surely pass information on them to anyone who paid.

She looked at Ryouma and saw him take off his sandals and choose the next room. He looked at Ina with a big and cheerful smile. He knew there was concern at that moment, but he just wanted to rest a little and then talk to them about that woman.

"Let's rest first, then we'll talk about..." Ryouma looked around and swiveled his index finger to signal that he was talking about the Inn. "...this."

"Yeah, rest, shower and dinner, we talk later, okay?"

Ina smiled at Ryouma and saw Masayasu coming back for his tabi. Ina bowed a little to Ryouma and walked towards the bedroom that would stay with Masayasu and closed the shoji doors behind her. Ryouma stared for a while, but knew what they needed and privacy. He then went to his room.

Ina left her sandals on the floor next to Masayasu's tabi and then looked around. The floor was tatami, beige and beige walls as well. The wood inside the room was also dark, not just the outside area. There was a small closet where she had to keep the rode and sleeping items.

Ina saw that there was a chabudai, a low table, of dark wood and four zabuton, that is black cushions. The room smells of flowers, so her eyes went through the place and she could see that there was a yellow ominaeshi arrangement in a corner, near the chabudai.

Ina put her bow up beside the closet and set the quiver together. She picked up her bag and left it on the floor and saw Masayasu open her trunk to get only a kimono for him.

"I'm going to take a shower, I feel like I need one."

He stated and looked at Ina who walked up to him with a gentle smile.

"It's okay, I'll organize things out here and then I'll take my shower."

Ina spoke as Masayasu stood up. She took Katana and wakizashi out of his hakama and looked up to find his blue eyes. He looked tired, he really deserved a break. At last she took the hat off his head and smiled.

"Go, for now we have quiet, then we need to talk about this place."

She spoke in a low voice and saw Masayasu just nodding and turning his back and following towards the shoji door. Ina stared at him, he could finally rest a little, his wound would appreciate, and his body would surely be happy.

Ina began to lower herself and began to take things out of the trunk, she folded the hakama carefully and took the kimono and hung on the kimono holder she had in the room, both her and Masayasu's. She kept the other clothes in the closet, and other items too, she wanted it to look like a comfortable and friendly room. Even if they were to spend little time in the place.

Ina then crouched down before the trunk again, touched the kimono she would wear to sleep, and slid her fingers through the cloth. A smile appeared on her lips, she knew what she wanted. She got up with her kimono in her hands and walked to the shoji door and opened it, after leaving the room she closed the door behind her and looked around, but saw or heard no one, only the Ryouma's voice muffled singing inside the room himself .

She walked through the engawa toward the ofuro and still looked back over her shoulder before opening the shoji door and seeing Masayasu inside the wooden ofuro. She slid and closed the door behind her as he watched her in silence. For some reason he imagined she would search for him.

Masayasu saw a smile on Ina's lips, it was a mysterious smile. Then he saw her put her white kimono on the wooden stand near the ofuro and begin untying her hakama. He watched it with a watchful eye.

Ina released her hakama and simply dropped it on the floor, she looked at Masayasu and then making a move with her hands on her shoulders, she slid her kimono back, letting it drop and leaving her body completely naked. Masayasu observed that beautiful body, every Ina's curve. She had a perfect body, full of curves, her white skin, her beautiful legs and big breasts, not so big but enough to take his breath away.

He continued to watch her approach slowly, her movements were soft but sensual, and put one leg inside the ofuro and then the other and then lower down to feel the cold water on her skin. She felt a shiver as the water touched her skin, but that was not a big bother.

She saw Masayasu glance at her without turning those blue eyes away from her face and her body. She smiled up at him and slid close to him, sitting on his lap and touching his chest with her hands and sliding gently upwards as she wrapped an arm around his neck and touched his face with her free hand.

Her breasts touched his muscled chest and she immediately felt an arm of his wrapped around her waist and his free hand slid down her arm and back. Masayasu saw a seductive glow in those violet eyes and so full of life and desire for him.

"You're even more beautiful than I imagined..." he said in his low voice.

A warm smile appeared on Ina's lips, along with a slight blush on her cheeks. She had never been with a man, but she wished she was with Masayasu. She felt a shiver run down her body as she felt his fingers slide down her arm skin and then her back.

Ina slowly brought her face closer to Masayasu's face, he smiled a little and looked at her lips and then felt her heart shaped lips touch his in a kiss full of fondness and tenderness.

Ina broke the kiss gently and pulled her body away a little and touched his chest and slid her hand down, feeling his strong and beautiful muscles. His skin was cold, perhaps because of the water. The water of the ofuro made her breasts partially sampled as they were sitting. He felt a shiver run down his skin at the feel of her touch, a touch of a warm hand, a touch he had not felt in so many years.

Masayasu's hands began to slide down the skin of her arms and her back, Ina felt her whole body shiver with these soft touches as she looked into his eyes with her lips slightly open. He slid his hands up her thighs to feel her in his hands, strong and beautiful.

Masayasu watched Ina's face, so beautiful, so sensual in her way. She took his hands on her thinghs and placed them on her breasts. She let out a soft moan and smiled at him. Masayasu let out a different gleam in his gaze and then gently pressed her breasts, watching her face contort with pleasure.

With his thumbs he played with her hard nipples, sliding gently around and over them. Masayasu heard another soft moan from those beautiful lips and Ina closed her eyes as she bit her own lower lips. These touches were making her body warm, a warmth coming between her legs.

Masayasu could not resist and grabbed Ina's back and brought his face close to her neck and gave a soft bite. A small moan escaped her lips as she closed her eyes and clutched at his shoulder. It was a unique sensation, her whole body seemed to respond to his lips to his bite.

He waited for this moment these days, he wanted to feel her body, her skin smooth...even after the trip he could still feel some of her scent of white carnations. His lips slid down her neck and throat with kisses and soft bites, then slid toward her shoulder.

Ina looked at him. Masayasu was the first man to touch her body, the first and only one if he wanted it that way. Her body burned in a mad passion for him, it was as if her body had a magnetism with his and she could not move away from one another.

Masayasu grabbed Ina's back again and tilted her back a little, his lips tracing the path to her breasts. Ina felt her whole body shudder, she felt an enormous excitement, especially coming there from under her body up. As she felt Masayasu's lips kiss one of her hard nipples she widened her eyes a little and let out a low and soft moan.

She wanted to feel his lips go through her body more often, perhaps entirely in another time. It was a wonderful and exciting sensation...that pleased her body. She wanted to feel those hot lips on her body more and more times....

"Aaah....Masa...yasu...sama...."

Masayasu looked at her, he felt her body get hot, he relished causing new sensations in Ina's body, he would cause others more now as he wrapped his lips around her nipple and sucked. Ina closed her eyes and let out another groan, grabbing the Masayasu's nape and biting her own lower lip to avoid another groan.

Ina could feel Masayasu's tongue slide on her nipple and he nibbled a little, she tried to avoid a groan, but it was impossible, her whole body now seemed sensitive to his touches. But she did not mind, actually she liked it. Then suddenly he lifted his face and stole a kiss full of passion, it was as if she did not know that man before her, so much passion, so much desire...

She tightened her arm around his shoulder now and kept her hand on his nape, gripping hard as his tongues slid into each other's mouth in a sensual dance.

They seemed to gasp with excitement, the kiss grew deeper and full of passion. A Masayasu's hand sliding down Ina's warm back, feeling how his touches could shiver her whole body. So beautiful... so hot... His body could not bear to stay away from her body...

The longer the kiss remained, Masayasu could feel his whole body respond with the kiss, with Ina's naked body in front of him, that moment would be special, though he was never a romantic man, he thought it would be special anyway.

The kisses intensified, Ina nibbled on Masayasu's lips, and she felt he did the same, it was such a sensual kiss, so private between them, no one needed to know that Masayasu had his intense side.

When they broke the kiss, they looked into each other's eyes, panting, trying to get air, an air they almost lost completely in that kiss full of passion. Ina saw fire inside those blue eyes and she touched his chest again and slid her hand down, reaching for his abdomen, then she touched his hard member and saw in Masayasu's face that he could not take much more.

Masayasu looked breathlessly at her, his lips half open, the touch causing sensibility throughout his body, especially in his member, that she had agilely touched perhaps to verify how he was.

She slid the tongue by her own lips as she stared at him, then lifted her own hips a little to let his member into her. Ina grabbed Masayasu's shoulder and groaned as she felt his member slip into her. Masayasu let out a small moan from his lips, grabbing at Ina's back as he stared into her passionate gaze.

Both started and moved their hips, while Ina held Masayasu's face in both hands and nibbled on his lower lip. Masayasu slid his hands down her back and tried to concentrate so as not to make a sound with his lips. Ina gently pulled his lower lips with her teeth as she looked into his eyes.

He began to increase the speed of the movements and Ina followed the same rhythm of that body, she began to moan, the sound that came from her lips made that Masayasu wished that moment had not end.

Masayasu then saw Ina's breasts move with the movement of their hips, swiftly, he brought his lips to the other breast and wrapped his lips around her nipple sucking. Ina quickly grabbed his hair and tilted her back and head a little, as one more moan echoed in the ofuro.

His tongue slid down her nipple and then he climbed up to her neck with kisses and gently biting her skin. Masayasu felt Ina wrap her arms around his shoulders and lean her breasts against his chest, she clung to him as the movements of their bodies accelerated, and she had lost control of their groans, her face contorted with pleasure. Each soft moan caused more desire for Masayasu's body.

She could feel their bodies as one, Masayasu inside her, she knew he could not hold on for long, she could hear his moans too, although she realized he was trying to control himself, he seemed to have freed himself with her, at least with her.

Masayasu slid his hands down Ina's back to her butt and squeezed tightly. He felt every movement stronger and full of passion, he wanted it, she wanted it. It was a passion that came from below to the top of their bodies naked and united.

He could hear her moans in his ear, she was teasing him even more... so he could not keep the fire from that passion he let himself be led by that moment.

Every moan, every movement, their bodies were one, warm, full of passion and desire. Ina had leaned her face against Masayasu's face and closed her eyes as she moaned in his ear, just trying to keep the moan low and soft so as not to attract attention.

That feeling between her legs, inside her, it was as if it had consumed her whole body, so she felt she could not take it anymore, but she seemed to feel that he did not either.

With stronger and faster movements of her hips, Ina clung tightly to Masayasu's back and moaned a little louder, tilting her head back a little, and he leaned his face against her shoulder to stifle a moan of greater pleasure of both...

So this was the feeling of the passion between a couple. Ina smiled breathlessly, opening her eyes slowly, if she knew how it felt, she would have surrendered to Masayasu longer.

Masayasu gasped at Ina's shoulder, she touched his hair as she stared at him. She knew he was trying to get air just like her. What was all that? He had allowed himself to be driven by his passion and desire for her. Ina appreciated that.

She slid her fingers through his wet hair. Masayasu looked up and met Ina's face and smiled a bit, finding a naughty smile. She had surprised him, a good surprise, an unforgettable surprise, that she should not stop at that moment.

Masayasu slid a hand to Ina's back and with his other hand gripped her nape and brought her face close to his, stealing another passionate kiss. That moment had been special to her, he was sure of it, and he could not deny that it had been special to him as well.

Ina let herself be led by that passionate kiss, after what had happened that kiss was just another complement of a wonderful day that still wanted to pass next to Masayasu.

Passionate and intense kisses, a wonderful sensation between their tongues dancing sensuously, then gently they broke the kiss and exchanged glances. Nothing needed to be said, but Ina wanted to say something to Masayasu.

"This moment was really special...You are a special man to me.."

She whispered and touched his cheek and began to caress softly, still looking into his eyes. She had a soft countenance, but still fond of him.

Finally they had broken all the barriers between them, now they could feel their feelings for each other intensely, they had freed themselves of any tension or doubt between them.

Masayasu touched his thumb to Ina's lips as he looked at her, at her beautiful and smooth face, she seemed calm, she had come determined for it, was not afraid to give in, and did not seem to have felt significant pain, it only meant that she longed for it.

"Did I hurt you?" he asked.

"Not..."

She whispered with a warm smile and then laid her head on his shoulder, wrapping her arms around his neck, while Masayasu hugged her tightly. Now there was no turning back, they had completely given in to these feelings, and he did not regret anything.

Ina then lifted her face and looked at Masayasu with a happy smile.

"Let me wash your back and your hair."

She put her hand on his cheek and kept smiling. Masayasu smiled at her. She got up and approached a small bucket where there was a bushing. She also took a small glass, took off the lid and used three drops in the water.

Masayasu stared at the glass in her hand, he had not understood what it was, but quickly felt the Ina's scent in the water, the essence that she carried, white carnations.

Ina saw her blue eyes understand what she had put in the water and then she crouched and stepped behind his back and knelt, put his black hair over his shoulder and begin to pass the bush on his back.

"Is your wound okay?" she asked as she remembered the wound.

Masayasu let out a small laugh and looked over his shoulder at Ina.

"It's okay, do not worry, I did not get hurt by it."

Ina can see his ever cold eyes now softer, maybe she had broken the last barrier to access his heart, he now had assumed his feelings completely for her. He had assumed to himself that he would stay with her, no matter the obstacles and the consequences of it.

Ina smiled warmly as she saw those blue eyes now alive, she wrapped her arms around his neck, touching in his chest and leaned against Masayasu's back and hugged him from behind, kissing his shoulder. She cast a warm glare at him as Masayasu smiled at her. He was in love and had no back.

"Inahime ... could you tell me a little about your father?"

Masayasu asked softly touching her arms, her soft skin was chilled because of the water, it would be nice to have a hot bath, but he knew that to get it in that place would have to pay more.

Ina met Masayasu's eyes and let a smile appear on her lips, then quickly she slipped the sponge back into his back, but she looked at his face again as if teasing him. He stared at her over his shoulder.

"Are you afraid of him?" she asked.

"It's not really scary...I need to get ready when we get back to the castle."

Masayasu answered, and Ina thought about it a little before answering.

"He can be gentle and hard sometimes, depends on the occasion and depends on the person." she paused. "I think we'd better keep our relationship a secret for now, try to win his charisma and trust him first, then reveal our relationship."

Ina looked at his face and saw that Masayasu looked very serious, he was worried about it and she understood his concern, but they could not be afraid all the time, they needed everything to look natural.

"I know that before you I am letting my feelings appear, but before him I will not allow him to perceive what I feel for you."

She slid the sponge down Masayasu's shoulder and arm as he looked into her face, she seemed very confident about not showing feelings, but would she really be capable of it? Does it seem natural as if the two were just princess and bodyguard?

Ina noticed his gaze as if he had been reflecting on what she said.

"If by chance he finds out about us somehow I'm going to defend you. I will not allow him to hurt you. He may not accept you at first, but then he will need to accept, there is no way he can deny it, that is my decision, I do not want another man by my side, I do not want another man touching me, just you, Masayasu-sama..."

Her eyes grew softer now and she giggled as a slight blush appeared on her cheeks. Then she bent and brought her lips to his ear to whisper.

"And after today....I desire to feel your body more often...."

Masayasu heard the whispered words in his ear and then smiled. He had aroused all desire in her. He quickly turned to face her and then pulled Ina to sit on his lap, making her a little surprised, but then let out a funny laugh.

Both looked into each other's eyes, she wrapped an arm around his neck and touched his chest, over his heart with her free hand, feeling the strong beats of his heart. She smiled fondly and then they brought their lips together, Masayasu placing his hand on the Ina's nape and pulling her face close.

Other Kiss. A completely passionate kiss. Ina again feeling her whole body ablaze. How to control this? Was that possible? Or every time Masayasu touches her from now on would she feel her body this way?

Ina put her hand on Masayasu's face and continued to kiss his lips, their kisses growing deeper, their tongues playing and dancing together. Then he broke the kiss when he realized that he was getting aroused again, it was hard to contain himself at that moment, Ina had completely awakened his desires for her.

He noticed her eyes fixed on his, so soft, so beautiful, there was a purity in those eyes, but also a flame of desire. She slid her hand down his face and touched his lips with her index finger, looking at his lips with desire, an intense gleam in her gaze.

When she looked up to meet her blue eyes, a tender smile appeared on her lips. He was really astonished at how strong and tender she was, fearless and soft at the same time.

"I love you....Masayasu-sama..."

She whispered looking into his eyes, her heart pounding so hard it seemed determined to leave her chest. She saw him touching her hand and kissing the palm of her hand as he looked into her eyes.

"I love you too...Inahime..."

A growing smile appeared on Ina's lips, Masayasu realized that there was a sparkle in her eyes too, she was happy, he was happy too, after all this time he had found love, true love, an eternal love. He would fight for this love.

Ina noticed in Masayasu's gaze that there was a different glow, she did not know what he was thinking, but she knew that that glow should have been with the moment, maybe it was his demonstration of happiness.

For her they could stay longer in the ofuro, but it was necessary to take a shower, or this cold water could illen them. Ina knelt down in the ofuro and leaned out to pick up a bottle made of bamboo beside the ofuro. She took up her nose to sniff and looked at Masayasu who was still watching her.

"Aloe vera. I'm going to wash your hair and give you a full bath, so you wash my back." she said.

"And your hair."

Masayasu said touching Ina's hair and let go of the hair. He watched her long black hair fall into the water, he knew she needed to hide those hairs, but he was sure she had thought about it.

Ina felt her hair free for the first time after days, it was a relief, though she was used to keeping her hair tied up, it was good to let go of it sometimes. She saw Masayasu contemplate her long hair and then she smiled at him.

"That'll give you a little work." she said.

"I do not care, we're showering together, and it's only fair that I wash your hair since you're going to wash mine."

He replied with a slight smile and then turned his back to her. Ina put a little aloe vera in his hair and began to rub slowly, feeling the strong smell of the aloe vera. But it felt good to smell like that.

Masayasu felt the full of aloe vera, the Ina's white carnation scent was lost, but he was sure he could still feel it after the shower, when he could have more time with her in the room.

He realized that he was wanting more time with her, this was something that a few days ago he would not have wanted or even thought of, but now he could only think to stay with her. Hear her laughter, see her beautiful warm smile, feel her caresses and her sweet kisses. He smiled a little at the thought of it.

Masayasu then felt Ina use her hands to throw water on the top of his head, he plunged in closing his eyes and ran his hands through his hair and then sat down running his hands through his hair and then down his face. Ina watched his gesture.

"Next time let's wash our hair before going into the ofuro, so we can just relax a bit and finish the bath in here."

She spoke and then saw Masayasu turn to her and just nodded.

"Turn around, let me take care of your hair."

Ina smiled at Masayasu and then turned her back to him, he put some aloe vera in her hair and beginning to rub it, feeling the strong smell of aloe vera.

It was different washing her hair, he had never done it before, never showered with anyone before, Ina was a good company in the bath, Ina was good at so many other things that he could not name everything at that time.

Masayasu started throwing water with his hands into Ina's long hair, but she did the same as him and dive to get the aloe vera out of her hair. She slid her fingers through her hair as she sat down and looked at him over her shoulder with a warm smile.

He saw that smile and smiled at her, touching her shoulder with his hand and sliding the back of his hand down her shoulder, down her arm, sliding smoothly, he still wanted to feel more of her soft skin, now very cold because of the shower .

He bent and kissed her shoulder fondly as she closed her eyes with a smile. After a tiring trip, full of surprises that was the first moment she felt her heart really at peace, beside him, feeling his touches.

Masayasu wrapped his arm around her waist and pulled her closer to him, he nibbled on her shoulder and Ina smiled at that gesture. Now she knew it would be hard to keep the hands away from each other, that feeling inside her heart was growing stronger, she knew it, and she was sure he thought the same way.

"Inahime...I swear to you...."

He began to whisper giving kisses down her shoulders, sliding his lips to her neck, in which she tilted her head a little to the side to allow him to do as he wished while she touched his arms around her waist fondly.

"...nothing will get you out of me. Nothing. I swear to you..."

He whispered and Ina opened her eyes and smiled at his determined words, she was sure that this battle against her father would not be easy, but that Masayasu was determined to take the risk with her.

Ina felt a shiver through her body with Masayasu's kisses on her neck, she was amazed at that new sensation, her beloved kissing and touching her body.

Then she and he were surprised when the shoji door of the ofuro was opened. Ryouma looked at them and Ina quickly shrank with a flush appearing on her cheeks, Masayasu instinctively covered her breasts with his own arm and stared at Ryouma with a cruel look. He had frowned and stared at Ryouma in silence.

"Ooops!"

Ryouma raised his eyebrows at seeing Ina and Masayasu together in the bath, but he could not lose the chance to let a naugthy smile appear on his lips.

"Sorry, I did not want to mess up, I did not know you were here. I...I'll wait for you to finish."

And saying this Ryouma bowed exaggeratedly pretending he was being polite and slid and closed the shoji door. Masayasu growled a little, Ina was embarrassed by the moment, she did not care that Ryouma knew about her with Masayasu, but she did not want to be seen that way.

"We'd better leave and stay in the room, he's behind the waiting door."

Masayasu grunted and Ina looked at him and nodded quickly. He was right, in the room Ryouma could not enter without warning, after all it was her room and he would not be invasive in this way knowing that she would be with Masayasu.

Ina rose and carefully left the ofuro, followed by Masayasu. She took his white kimono and dressed him carefully and looked at his wound quickly, just to make sure he had told the truth and that the wound was well. She tied his kimono and then she dressed her own kimono, and was a little surprised to see Masayasu's gesture, he helped her to dress and tied her kimono to her. Her eyes watched him fondly and a smile overflowed her lips.

Ina stared at Masayasu, he had completely changed with her, was more at ease, and that was all she wanted. She smiled at him, meeting his blue eyes.

"Thanks." she said.

Masayasu took the bottle with the Ina's white carnation essence and opened the shoji door and found Ryouma behind the door. He quickly looked at Masayasu with a naughty smile, Masayasu understood the reason immediately, but ignored it. Ryouma nodded slightly at Ina, who still had a slight blush, and did not look at him, but headed toward her room.

"Be more careful, you have bothered me enough, mercenary!"

Masayasu spoke in his sharp voice and then turned his back to Ryouma and followed Ina into the room, entering just behind her and closing the shoji door quickly behind him. Ryouma laughed a little, he really was happy because the shinobi had given himself completely to this love, but now everything would be more dangerous for him.

Ina took the essence bottle from Masayasu's hand and went to save it in the trunk. She then saw in his gaze that he had bothered with Ryouma. She left the bottle on the trunk and picked up the comb and walked over to him and grabbed his hand with a warm smile, she wanted to take that expression off his face.

"Come on, let me to comb your hair. Forget him, we're alone here, just you and me again."

She spoke and Masayasu stared at her for some time and then allowed himself to smile, he did not have to ruin the mood between them because of Ryouma, she was right. He let himself be led by her and sat down on the floor and she knelt behind him to comb his hair.

Masayasu was not accustomed with such care, during all this trip she had taken care of him, since he was injured, and somehow he liked it, he liked her simpler gestures such as combing his hair or helping to get dressed. He could feel his heart warm with that feeling, she warmed his heart with any gesture from her.

Ina slid the comb carefully into Masayasu's hair, untangled and combing. He could feel the care not to pull his hair. He smiled a little and decided to tell her something, maybe it was fair to tell. Part of himself, part of his past.

"I've never had anyone take care of me like you care."

He spoke and Ina smiled warmly at his words.

"Even in the past. when I was a little older than you, I had just completed eighteen years old I had finished my training as a shinobi and started to conquer my own missions alone. I had a youthful love."

He spoke and Ina stopped with the comb and listened to what he meant. He noticed that she was still and then he looked at her over his shoulder.

"I lived with her for 6 months, she did not know I was a shinobi and died without knowing."

He spoke and Ina's violet eyes widened when he said she died. Masayasu turned to touch Ina's face, looking into her eyes. He saw the shock in her eyes.

"I went on a mission, she thought I was traveling with a friend to do work in the city and back two or three weeks later." he paused seeing at the sad look in Ina's eyes.

"When I came back I found her murdered. I believe it was looters who entered the village, because I found all of the village dead when I came back."

Ina covered her lips with her hands, her eyes filling with tears, she did not expect to hear that Masayasu had a wife and that she was brutally murdered. Death and more death. His life was full of death. She could understand why the lost souls spoke to him, he lost many loved ones and killed people. His life only had deaths.

"She was expecting my son when I left for the mission, so after that I did not get more involved with women, I blocked my heart and decided to live my life as a shinobi, that's all."

Masayasu saw the tears in Ina's eyes and then he slid his thumb to fill as they began to flow down her beautiful face. Although he had been talking about his past there was no pain in his eyes or in his face, but Ina could feel the pain he might have felt.

"I-I'm so sorry..."

It was the only thing Ina's voice managed to say choked with tears. She saw a smile on Masayasu's lips. He looked serene, he seemed to have left the past in the past, she could see it in his smile. But did this happen after he met her?

Now she could better understand his personality, not only because he was a shinobi, but because of the many losses he had in his life. And she could understand why he feared so much to find looters, he feared they would kill her, as happened to his late wife.

"It's okay, this is almost ten years old, it's part of my past, I can not change it, but I'm living in the present, and my present is with you."

He took Ina's hands from her lips and touched her lips with his thumb as he looked from her lips to her eyes. His eyes seemed gentle, though they were always cold, before her it seemed softer, warmer.

"Do not cry, you are all I have and I will not make the same mistake, I will not lose you for anything in this life."

Masayasu said this to Ina and then smiled a little at her. Loading by tears, Ina threw herself into his arms and hugged Masayasu tightly. The tears streaming from her sad eyes for knowing that he lost so much in his life, parents, wife, son...

But she could not stop crying with happiness too because he had chosen to live, to live with her, to live that love with her, to take risks at her side, that was all she needed to know, nothing more.

"Do not cry, Inahime..."

He hugged her and touched her wet hair with his hand. He stroked her beautiful and heavy hair.

"I needed to say this, maybe it's not important, because it was a youthful love, it's different from what I feel for you....but I wanted you to know that I'm not going to leave you, and that you're the one I want by my side."

Masayasu spoke in a way that Ina was surprised, he had been so sincerely kind, showing a part of his heart that he would not allow anyone to access. She pulled her face away a little to meet his eyes and tried to smile, her heart had a mix of good and bad feelings now.

Ina held Masayasu's face in both hands, she did not know how much he had suffered in his past, but she wanted to make him happy and that's what she would do. She smiled warmly at him.

"I'm not going to leave your side either, no matter the consequences. You're the one I want by my side, so believe me...I'm your ally and you can always trust me."

Ina said leaving a smile to appear. Masayasu smiled a little and then brought his lips to her forehead and kissed, then looked into her bright eyes again, still wet with tears.

"I know, I trust you."

He spoke, seeing a tender smile appear on Ina's lips. But he did not want this moment of peace to be destroyed by his past.

"Let me comb your hair."

Masayasu spoke and took the comb in Ina's hand and saw that she was surprised. He laughed a little at the sight of such surprised eyes.

"What is it? I can do to comb your hair."

Ina chuckled and then turned her back to Masayasu and looked at him over her shoulder.

"I want to see that."

Masayasu touched Ina's long hair and began to untangle carefully so as not to hurt her. Ina smiled as she realized his care. She was enjoying those moments alone with him, to know a little more about him.

It was good to hear about his past, but whenever he brought something from his past it was a pain. She could understand why he became so cold and harsh with people, it was his way of dealing with life after losing so much.

Ina felt her hair being carefully and slowly combed and then saw Masayasu looking towards the shoji door, she looked at the door as well.

"Excuse me. I am Nadeshiko, Kirisu-san's daughter, I brought the afternoon snack, it's late afternoon, but I heard you came to ryokan less than an hour ago. You must be hungry. And I brought tea to the samurai, my mother told me that he is sick."

A female voice sounded from the other side. The voice seemed soft as a breeze. Ina pulled her hair forward to hide a little and then looked at Masayasu quickly.

Masayasu took a scarf from the chabudai and tied it over his nose and mouth. Ina realized he wanted to pretend he was sick. Then he nodded at her toward the door.

"Come in." Ina said.

The door shoji slid a young woman with her late twenties entered wearing a sky blue kimono. She looked at the couple, and bowed quickly and then smiled at them and came in with a tray.

She knelt down and set the tray before Ina and Masayasu and went back to the door. Ina realized that she was different from her mother, seemed nice and discreet. She wore a bun and a white handkerchief in her hair.

Nadeshiko went back to the door and knelt down and bowed again and smiled at the couple. She had gray-blue eyes and a look soft and gentle. Ina realized that she was a very beautiful young woman.

"What you need can ask me, not my mother, she has a temper at times."

She smiled and Ina smiled back. Nadeshiko looked really nice, but since she was Kirisu's daughter she should not trust so easily. Masayasu just watched Nadeshiko come in and out with cold expression.

"Thank you, Nadeshiko."

Ina smiled at her again and the girl slipped and closed the shoji door and then got up and walked out of the engawa. Masayasu waited for some more time in silence just to see if the girl had left and then took Ina's hair and went back to comb.

"Do you suspect her?" Ina asked.

"Yes, she may be like her mercenary mother, or she may be a kunoichi."

Masayasu replied and Ina quickly raised her eyebrows in surprise. Nadeshiko? A kunoichi? She did not know many kunoichi in her life, she knew more shinobi, but Masayasu should recognize or at least suspect one.

"Why do you think she can be a kunoichi?"

"Even though she was friendly and smiling, her eyes stared at you, I do not know if she was studying you or she wanted to be sure who you were."

Masayasu answered and Ina touched her lips with her index finger to think about it. She knew that although she was in simple clothes her posture might reveal something about her, but she could be a simple girl and hoped that Nadeshiko had noticed that.

"But if Nadeshiko is a kunoichi it means she must pass information to the castle of the Sanada clan."

Ina spoke and then turned to Masayasu to look into his eyes as she pulled the scarf from his face. Her violet eyes showed a huge worry looking into his blue eyes.

"That can be dangerous for you."

"I know, her contact may be Sasuke, if he knows I'm here this can end the mission, so I'll wear that scarf on my face while I'm here on the ryokan."

Masayasu spoke with a fixed stare at Ina. She nodded, agreeing that it was the best way to handle this moment. If in ryokan had a kunoichi they would need to be attentive with the conversations, any information could reach the ears of the Sanada clan.

Ina looked at Masayasu and realized that his blue eyes seemed to reflect on having a possible kunoichi nearby. Even if Nadeshiko was not they should be suspicious that she could pass information to Sasuke, that was something they should consider.

She looked at the tea and then took the teapot and poured tea on the kobachi to Masayasu, he looked at her gesture, but she took the kobachi and sniffed the liquid just to be sure what was there. She felt only the scent of tea and then looked up at Masayasu.

He took the kobachi and also sniffed to see if there was poison, he knew Ina had checked, but all care was short.

While he was testing the tea, Ina served sake for him in a masu and took to the nose to fill, the sake seemed normal too, this seemed paranoia, but they had to be careful what they could eat or drink, at least until they were sure about who were really Nadeshiko and her mother, Kirisu.

Ina handed the masu to Masayasu and took her tea and took a sip. She started to eat using a pair of hashi, so she brought a sushi to Masayasu's lips. He opened his lips and accepted the food.

He chewed looking at her, so beautiful...a few minutes ago they had completely given up the passion they felt for each other. Ina noticed his gaze wandering over her, then quickly she touched his face worried.

"Are you okay? Are you thinking about your past? I'm here with you, you're not alone. No longer. You have me."

Ina spoke as she caressed his cheek with care, her violet eyes filled with concern. Masayasu realized that he had brought concern to her heart with his story, so he touched her face and smiled a little at her.

"I'm fine. I'm not thinking about my past, I'm thinking of you."

Masayasu spoke and a faint blush appeared on Ina's cheeks, she caught sight of those bright eyes as he looked at her. She smiled warmly, then let herself drift into the moment, drawing her face closer to his, her eyes glaring warmly at his, her lips parted.

Masayasu slid the hand that was on her face to her nape, he wished he had more of that moment of the ofuro with her, he wanted to feel her lips and her body again, but he also needed to keep his feelings calm, he could not let his body dominate his mind.

Their lips touched a passionate kiss, Ina slid her arms around his neck and felt him pull her into his lap. She allowed herself to be drive by him, their kisses getting more intense and deep, their tongues into a full hot dance, filled with desire for each other.

They broke the kiss and stared, still a little breathless. Their kisses were starting to have a greater urgency for each other. Ina laughed and leaned her head against Masayasu's shoulder, hugging him tightly.

"I've never dreamed of true love, it's always been something far from my life and thoughts, but now I have you and I long to live everything this life can offer me, by your side."

She lifted her face to meet Masayasu's blue eyes. He smiled a little at her, wrapping arms around her back, even now, in front of love, she does not dream, just hopes to have more opportunity for life to live next to him. She was a brave girl, he valued that much in her.

"Let's eat and lay down, this is our first night in Ueda, perhaps the only one really at peace, so let's rest early, we need to wake up refreshed."

Ina spoke and then saw a gleam in Masayasu's gaze and realized what he wanted. She laughed again, covering her lips with one hand.

"I understood your look, Masayasu-sama, be more careful, I know you wish for a night of love."

She spoke with a glare at him and a mysterious smile. Masayasu laughed a little, then smiled at her.

"I can no longer disguise this desire for you."

He spoke and Ina started eating again and looked back at Masayasu with a playful smile crossing her lips.

"You do not need to disguise when we are here, here I am your wife, Chie and you are my husband, Otsu, I want to have many nights or moments of love with you, many...."

She whispered the last part of the sentence and Masayasu spent some time looking into those violet eyes so full of life, he could easily say that he was bewitched by that young Hime, first taking his heart, now controlling his desires. But that did not hurt his pride, actually Inahime was his pride.

Again she began to serve food to his lips and sometimes softly kissed his lips. Masayasu thought that despite all the tension of thinking that he would have to face Ieyasu in the future, every moment was valid next to Ina, he did not regret anything at her side.

They finally ate, Ina was already kneeling again on the tatami and drinking green tea, she looked at Masayasu taking sake, it was good to have some comfortable and peaceful time. But her mind was already working with the idea of a spy inside the ryokan, if Nadeshiko was actually a kunoichi Ina would have to interpret her role as a merchant's daughter all the time.

"What are you thinking?"

Masayasu asked as he noticed her gaze wandering in nowhere as she sipped tea. She looked at him, her eyes meeting his. Her lips touched the kobachi, she took the last sip of tea and placed the kobachi on the tray.

"I was just thinking about spies around us. I'm going to play Chie at all times, to talk to you away from our room, maybe I'll use some codes."

Ina said looking at Masayasu and when she saw him serve sake again, she took out the tokkuri, that is the sake bottle from his hand and also the masu and placed they on the tray and smiled at him in a warm way.

Masayasu watched as Ina got up and walked into the closet and grabbed the items to arrange the futon for them to sleep, it was not night yet, but they would not sleep immediately anyway.

He watched her care in arranging everything, unlike any Hime that requires anyone to view them or organize their things, Ina had no problem doing so, in fact it made her surprise even more. She was an onna bugeisha, and even as one has her servants who do it for her and dress her, but here, in Ueda, she was just a simple girl. He smiled at that thought.

Masayasu got up and went to help Ina with the futon, she looked at him and smiled cheerfully, problems and thoughts about the mission were to wait, that day she wanted to have only one thought: Masayasu.

She came up to him and untied his kimono, opening it and touched his muscled chest with her hands. She slid through every muscle, he had a perfect body, although she always found scars on his body as she slid her hands.

He watched her with bright eyes, she could seduce him with so little, with such simple gestures. He touched the tie of Ina's kimono and he started to untie, she looked at his hands untied and then looked at his face and smiled warmly, she wanted to see his eyes watching her body again.

Masayasu opened her kimono and looked at her body, beautiful and perfect, there were no scars or marks, if she hurt herself in battles no marks remained, or maybe her armor had protected her body. He touched her face and she smiled tenderly.

Masayasu thought it was impossible for him to have control near her, not while they were alone in this way, he just wanted to feel their bodies again, and that was what he would do at that moment.

He wrapped his arms around her waist and back and brought his lips to hers as Ina wrapped her arms around his neck and looked at his lips, longing for that kiss, another kiss, surely he could not take it any longer, after that kiss their bodies would yield the passion again.

A kiss, now more ardent than before, full of urgency and passion. Ina grabbed the Masayasu's nape as their tongues played together, dancing with excitement. As they kissed, Masayasu laid Ina on the futon and bent over her, their bodies touching.

A soft moan escaped from Ina's lips and then Masayasu broke the kiss plus slid his lips down her neck, Ina just tilted her head back, grabbing at his hair and smiled feeling her whole body ablaze again. She longed for this moment again.

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Masayasu woke up and sat up quickly. It was night now, the room was in total darkness. He saw Ina sleeping quietly beside him. He covered her naked body and covered part of his own body as well.

He stared at her, sleeping soundly, relying on her safety. Perhaps she was fully aware that he did not sleep very well, so she trusted him and allowed herself to sleep through the night.

He did not want to wake her, she needed to rest, this trip had been really tiring, even more so for his wound that now just hurt a little, but maybe it was for the effort he did a little earlier with Inahime.

Masayasu heard a soft sound in the engawa and stared at the door. His hand slid up to his bag, from there he took off his holster with kunai and continued to stare at the door, his fingers already touching a kunai prepared to throw depending on whoever was behind the door.

"Handsome...."

A voice came from behind the door and Masayasu did not need to think too much about who he was, Ryouma. This mercenary never gave up. He frowned, his fingers still touching the kunai.

"You're awake that I know. Can I come in? I need to share something with you."

Ryouma whispered behind the door, his voice sounding urgent, and strangely trying to be discreet.

"Come in, but do not make a sound, Inahime is asleep."

Masayasu spoke in his low voice, but his tone was now cold and dry. He watched the door slide slowly with care, Ryouma entered the room and looked out still, for both sides on the outside, and then slid the door shut behind him.

He realized that the room was dark, but he could see well in the dark that did not make any difference to him. He approached silently from Masayasu, the shinobi staring at him suspiciously with this nightly visit.

Ryouma saw Ina asleep and then sat next to the futon and saw that Masayasu was half naked, a naughty smile appeared on his face instantly, he could not hide it.

"Oh good looking, good thing you're happy with Milady. I give my congratulations! But I did not come here to talk about her."

The mercenary looked toward the door as if waiting for something. Masayasu looked at the door and raised an eyebrow, then stared at Ryouma.

"There's no one there, say it or go away."

Masayasu spoke quietly and Ryouma looked at him and nodded.

"Nadeshiko...."

Ryouma started talking and Masayasu did not change the expression, but it seemed that Ryouma was finally being of help in some way, at least it was what it seemed.

"...I saw her talking to a man. I did not see his face, but he wore black like you, had a little messy hair and a red lock of hair."

Ryouma spoke in a low voice and looked at Ina, he did not want to wake her, it was not necessary at that moment. He looked at Masayasu who was now with his hand on his chin thinking, he knew who the man Ryouma was talking about.

"Sasuke..." Masayasu whispered.

Ryouma sighed, he had suspected, but did not know Sasuke, but when he saw Nadeshiko talking to him his instinct said it was a shinobi.

"Did you hear what they were talking about?"

Masayasu asked in a low, still cold voice. Ryouma shrugged.

"A little, they were in a dark part of the courtyard, Nadeshiko was whispering to him, I could only hear that she said that travelers had arrived and that one of them was apparently samurai."

"I suspected Nadeshiko from earlier when she came here. I think she's a kunoichi, if she meets Sasuke she may just be an informant, but my instinct says she's more than that."

Masayasu told Ryouma, who was watching him silently, if Masayasu suspected it was because she probably showed some gesture that he would recognize.

"I can help."

Ryouma spoke with an ironic smile appearing on his lips. Masayasu saw that smile and raised an eyebrow. What kind of help was Ryouma suggesting?

"Give me one day, I'll flirt with her, I'll seduce her and give you whatever information I can get."

Ryouma spoke and Masayasu sighed, he feared that this was the help, it seems that Ryouma only managed to get information using seduction, but if he trusted it maybe it was his skill.

"Ok, one day only. If you can not get information, then unfortunately I'll have to attack her directly. Sasuke already knows we're here, she's told of a samurai, maybe Sasuke still does not know I'm here, if he knows this can be a big problem. And be careful what you tell her, if she's a kunoichi will try to take information from you, remember you're Ryu, Chie's cousin, I'm Otsu, her husband."

Ryouma rested his hands on his thighs and nodded a few times. He knew he needed to be careful with the beautiful Nadeshiko, she could be poisonous, and not sweet like most women who cross his path.

"Hey handsome. Tell this to Milady only when she wakes up, I do not wish her to have a bad night's sleep, that's her first night here, and maybe she does not have any night like that here. Take care of her, she really looks happy at your side."

Ryouma said looking at Ina asleep. Masayasu stared at Ryouma with a frown, his lips creasing.

"Are you done? Go on, I'll still try to rest a little longer."

Masayasu spoke in a rough tone, his voice low and husky as his usual voice was.

Ryouma looked at Masayasu and leaned forward with an ironic smile appearing on his lips.

"It seems like you had a lot of fun today with Milady, so just relax, you seem to be angry at everything, she wants you, just you, so you do not need to be jealous of me."

He winked at Masayasu, letting another wry grin run down his lips. Jealous? Masayasu frowned.

"Who's jealous here?" He spoke in a dry tone. "If you do not have anything useful to talk about, get out! She needs to rest, and I need to rest too!"

Masayasu showed so much coolness in his tone that Ryouma realized that he was really serious. But he loved to tease Masayasu, it was great fun.

"Sleep well...with Milady..."

Ryouma said wryly and winked and quickly got up and went to the door, Masayasu staring at him cruelly. His blue eyes were cold as a glacier at that moment.

Ryouma wanted to laugh, but that might disrupt Inahime's sleep, he just smiled wryly and slid open the shoji door, left and closed the door behind him.

Masayasu still stared at the door for a few more minutes, Ryouma always irritated him and as much as he did not want to demonstrate it was visible. He looked at Inahime, she was still sleeping, he would not disturb her in trouble that night, he would tell Nadeshiko and Sasuke about her when she woke up.

He lay down beside her, turned to her side touched her hair and caressed, as he looked at her face, then he wrapped an arm around her body as he watched her beautiful face sleep soundly. So serene, he did not have that choice.

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trishgibsontx · 8 years ago

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how I discovered my greatest joy when I was completely broke/in housing court, my “loved ones” abandoned me, and I had no idea where my life was going.

photo by my beautiful patient Babita Patel

it was one of the most difficult of times for me.

since high school, I would always describe myself as driven by my own passion, even when that passion didn’t work out. in fact, my passion didn’t translate well or at all in the outer world hundreds of times. and I mean it – hundreds of times. business ventures I wanted to start with others failed immediately post-college, I trusted the wrong people, blah blah blah. I always kept going anyhow. when the title of this blog post hit me in real-time, I had trouble accessing my drive and passion. because my life was in total shut-down mode. I was being told something by the Universe, but I couldn’t hear it so clearly.

there I was, nearly 10 years post college, and post corporate America in which I had had a “socially acceptable” job for a number of years in the finance sector. had I stayed, I would have made a lot of money. the month I left corporate for good, I had a serious job offer on the table. it was for a then-cutting-edge financial media company that actually went public just a few years later. the offer was me in at the ground level with a quarter of a million base. who knows, maybe I would have been a shareholder and cashed in when the company sold. I said no. I chose, instead, to continue working toward creativity and human service. this was a struggle, internally, and externally (always late on rent), but I was…HAPPY. then, I don’t know if it happened in one day or one week or one month, but making it on my own came to a close. a shut-down. it lasted on and off for about 2 years.

this 2 year period was nearly comical given all that I had done/”accomplished” in the past; because absolutely no one wanted to hire me for work. at the onset of this 2 year period of destruction, I had begun it with my own freelance company. I was also working several odd jobs as well. I worked part-time at a boutique dress shop in the east village. I lived on my favorite block. I rented out my 6×10 living room slash kitchen that was taken up by a twin bed, so that I could make my rent. I made concessions my friends cringed at. I played in a rock band and tapped into my creativity which was lovely. I worked on indie films in multiple roles. some of those films totally screwed me financially or otherwise. in fact I think there were about 3 horrible indie film experiences. several of them are not even on my resume. I organized major events (for film projects) and got stiffed on being paid. I quietly (and for free) did consulting readings for various people and practiced energy work on them – but I was too scared to come out of that closet publicly. I didn’t know how good I actually was, even though I had an inkling. it was more of the fear of being public than anything else.

then, suddenly, all of the side work stopped and no one wanted to hire me. NO ONE. I had thousands of email records, applying for various roles in absolutely every industry one could imagine: medicine, finance, administration, education, fashion, hospitality, beauty. usually the feedback was “you are overqualified” or “we don’t understand your focus”. quickly and surely, there was no money left for rent. my landlord showed up at my door when I had someone there for consulting work and asked for rent. I didn’t have it. it was awful.

housing court sucked, royally. hardly anyone I knew socially, except some family members, knew I was there, and I was too ashamed to tell. I was a white American woman with an education — how dare I end up there! — that is the response I was expecting (and the response I did in fact receive from some people), and in a way, I believed that I had no right to be in the position I was. I had skills…I spoke several languages…I was resourceful. yet, something was crashing. finally I stopped working at the dress shop and I couldn’t even afford to eat. that dress shop was my lifeline, and some asshole coworker (who admittedly thought I “had it all!”) set me up by repeatedly saying I left the door unlocked after my shift. it was her life’s dream, one day, to become a retail store manager.

one day, during my usual coffee shop job solicitation email binges, I met with a consultant friend of mine. I told him about what was happening and the shame was too great to share the whole story. but I said I might be in trouble with paying my rent, and that “things were slow”. he said “stop telling people everything is ok. tell them what is happening”. I thought, what a novel idea. it had been ingrained in me that if I wasn’t serving someone ELSE, or their needs, I did not even exist. so it was hard to say the truth. 5 minutes after my consultat friend left, the very next person who contacted me was someone I had been fond of and very supportive of over the years. he was nearly a quadriplegic. I never saw him like that. we would go out for drinks and I would push him around and he told me that I made him feel like he could walk. this person messaged me on facebook and said “hey, how are you?”. I told him. that I was facing housing court next week and I was in back-rent for 5k+. he said “no problem, you can be my muse and do some copy editing for me. I’ll pay you x per hour and take care of your housing court bill”. I said no immediately. the relationship I had with people “helping” me had always been a strings-attached scenario. never had anyone helped me just to actually help. I had also never borrowed money like that before. so I was scared that there was some agenda. I thought, what could this person possibly want? he can’t walk. we are friends. ok, I will say yes. it took me until the day OF court to say yes. he had already offered a handful of times. I knew part of my lesson in the situation was to accept help. I had always been made to feel as though I was a burden for needing ANYTHING, so this was hard. after I said yes, we went out for drinks. my “friend” proposed I take him to strip clubs and share sexual acts with him. part of me understood him, and part of me was destroyed. of course I would not entertain that. I saved our correspondence “just in case”. it took me longer than I thought it would to pay him back, and he became angry, abusive and stalkerish.

I continued to do as much side work as possible to eat and keep my phone on. I also realized, I was working for free most all of the time. I put my heart and soul toward productions, seed ideas for productions, I gave away free healings and consult, and more. I was an idea machine and I was not monetizing it. I didn’t realize at the time that it had everything to do with being afraid to monetize for my time. it was also an old pattern of being used and taken advantage of, but I did not see it. and I never ever saw myself as a victim. I hated victims or victim mentality. I actually still have little patience for that. so I suffered quietly. some side work, like assisting a wonderful voice teacher with her business development, was all I had integrity-wise and monetary-wise. I am grateful to have had Lynn Singer in my life during that time. I would go up on her beautiful doorman high-rise rooftop in Chelsea and imagine I was the person I am TODAY.

I kept looking for “real” jobs. I came up empty. I began walking the hyper pit bull that belonged to my next door Vietnam vet neighbor who could barely walk. he lived in one of those AMAZING old loft duplexes with a garage in the east village. I would clean his apartment, which was covered in dog urine and the scent of death from the previous owners of like 1975 – seriously, the entire front part of the duplex was still an old office from the 70s! he never cleaned it because it had belong to someone else. who apparently died. probably in that very room. one day I realized that he thought we were dating. he would pay me 100 bucks a visit and one day he tried to kiss me. I wasn’t afraid of him because he could literally not walk. but it just…no. God bless him. I stayed friendly. I didn’t go back. I sent holiday cards and called him once in a while. he was a special soul.

during much of this, I was ironically in surrender mode. I wasn’t crying. I didn’t complain at all. I knew in my core something spiritual was taking place within me, if only I could keep listening. I went to bikram yoga every day and did the work study program for free classes. I had a huge bag of oatmeal, a huge bag of pasta, and running water. I was good! I rented out my “living room” right next to my tiny bedroom to nice people I found on Craigslist as much as I could. finally, I decided that the only way I could feel of value was to volunteer, but in an actual volunteer position — not a working-for-free while being taken advantage of position. a REAL volunteer job, where the energetic balance was reciprocal. I knew also, that balanced energy monetizes in some way, and ultimately takes care of us. I began mentoring and creating curriculum for handicapped children and adults. I would ride the train to Brooklyn each week, and it was 90 minutes each way.

I will never forget one of my first days on the job. as I rode that train all the way out to the Hasidic parts of BK, my body began to buzz. head to toe. I began to burst with unconditional love in my heart. I wanted to cry, but with joy. when I would get to the classroom, I would teach different subjects with the resident psychologist. we got along amazingly well, and the mentally and physically handicapped children and adults took a special liking to me. one day someone in class learned how to write three letters freehand. they felt like they won a Pulitzer. their joy was palpable to the point of their own tears. I felt like I was choking to maintain my composure. THESE PEOPLE GAVE ME SO MUCH. more than I had ever been given in my entire life. things like this continued to happen. the buzzing high I got on the train increased, and I realized what the Universe was trying to tell me throughout the roughly 2 year period of my life’s collapse (again – it had collapsed before! just not to this degree in the physical world): “put your healing and consulting skills on the map. put it online. tell people. come out of the closet. if you do not do this, we will keep challenging you”. I was so afraid of how I would be judged, because this was the truest part of me. the ONLY part of me that actually mattered to me.

one day, as I sat in the middle of my living room with a broken laptop and no TV, in dead silence, with my cats, I asked — screamed — out loud, “what do you want me to do!?”. I knew. and yet I was scared. but I had no choice. the hundreds of emails per DAY that I was sending out went unanswered. the Universe didn’t care if I could make 6 figures plus based on my “degree”. it didn’t want me in a box, even though I was trying to fit. it didn’t want me producing film at that moment. it wanted me in my purpose, and I was too exhausted to question it anymore. I had a book called “Living In The Light” by Shakti Gawain, that was recommended by my then-new-friend Vanessa. she is now a holistic nurse or doctor. in the book, I landed up on one line that said something like “everything we need to take care of ourselves in the physical world is ALREADY WITHIN US”. it hit me that my degrees, my blah blah blah, meant nada. it was ok to “come out” with my inner gifts and behind the scenes work, and it was ok to monetize it. I marinated on that for a few weeks.

I thought of the palpable, life-altering joy I felt on those long train rides to Brooklyn, and how spirit literally entered my body. I thought of the dozens of screw-overs in film and entertainment, and other jobs I tried to do for people who lived only on ego. I thought of how my “best friend” at the time abandoned and criticized me for being “selfish” because I wouldn’t visit her out of state, and how other loved ones berated me via email and phone for being in the position I was. I thought of how I didn’t fit in anywhere, it seemed, and how no one even wanted me to wait tables (I had littered ALL of downtown with my photo and resume and hospitality experience). I thought of how I had stuffed my resume, photo and cover letter in every mailbox in my neighborhood that I could find, hoping someone would call me for work. I had tried everything, and nothing was changing — except somehow the increased awareness of INNER HAPPINESS (which had, obviously, nothing to do with my circumstances) and message of purpose (healing and consulting others).

in the midst of all of the above, I tapped into a joy that is ironic considering how awful things were. I was like a rubber band being stretched in both directions: on one end, my physical and “on-paper” life was a disaster — and on the other hand, I WAS SO FUCKING HAPPY (people actually thought I was a millionaire and would ask me for jobs, all during this time). I didn’t even know why I was happy. but it shot straight from my core on a daily basis. there I was, at the bottom of the barrel of life, no friends nearby, pretty much zero support, I felt like a loser, I thought the world hated me, everywhere I turned there was a villian or monster looking to take me for a ride, I could barely keep the lights on, I had nothing — except myself. and those train rides. and that joy that I shared with people who didn’t share some of my outer blessings, but they shared my inner blessings: natural love and joy. they were not driven by appearance or money or reputation. they just wanted to learn the alphabet. I learned, once and for all, what it was to just breathe and be so incredibly thankful for that. I maintained that gratitude for a ridiculous amount of time. and my life was never the same.

and so one day I put my practice on a crappy wordpress site with just a phone number, no photo and no bio… and the rest is history.

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Chapter 31: Couple

"I will show you the Inn. Here you can see that it is a beautiful ryokan, it was built by my parents and I inherited this."

"This is a magnificent room with a view the courtyard of the Inn, here you can have the morning sun in your room." she said.

"We want more hidden rooms, in the background. I wish rest."

"The ofuro is on that side."

She pointed to a shoji door in the background, the rooms she had shown were close to the ofuro, which was comfortable for a shower and a nap after that tiring trip.

Masayasu glanced at the room Ina chose, she glanced quickly at him and smiled warmly. The woman noticed and then looked from Ina to Masayasu.

"I hope you guys do not make noise, I do not like rowdy couples here." she mumbled. "Well, if you have any doubts and need anything, call me, my name is Kirisu, or talk to my daughter, Nadeshiko."

Ina watched his gesture, Masayasu was quiet, but she knew it was because of the woman's presence. If she valued money above all else, she would surely pass information on them to anyone who paid.

"Let's rest first, then we'll talk about..." Ryouma looked around and swiveled his index finger to signal that he was talking about the Inn. "...this."

"Yeah, rest, shower and dinner, we talk later, okay?"

Ina put her bow up beside the closet and set the quiver together. She picked up her bag and left it on the floor and saw Masayasu open her trunk to get only a kimono for him.

"I'm going to take a shower, I feel like I need one."

He stated and looked at Ina who walked up to him with a gentle smile.

"It's okay, I'll organize things out here and then I'll take my shower."

"Go, for now we have quiet, then we need to talk about this place."

Masayasu saw a smile on Ina's lips, it was a mysterious smile. Then he saw her put her white kimono on the wooden stand near the ofuro and begin untying her hakama. He watched it with a watchful eye.

"You're even more beautiful than I imagined..." he said in his low voice.

Ina slowly brought her face closer to Masayasu's face, he smiled a little and looked at her lips and then felt her heart shaped lips touch his in a kiss full of fondness and tenderness.

"Aaah....Masa...yasu...sama...."

She tightened her arm around his shoulder now and kept her hand on his nape, gripping hard as his tongues slid into each other's mouth in a sensual dance.

The kisses intensified, Ina nibbled on Masayasu's lips, and she felt he did the same, it was such a sensual kiss, so private between them, no one needed to know that Masayasu had his intense side.

Masayasu looked breathlessly at her, his lips half open, the touch causing sensibility throughout his body, especially in his member, that she had agilely touched perhaps to verify how he was.

He began to increase the speed of the movements and Ina followed the same rhythm of that body, she began to moan, the sound that came from her lips made that Masayasu wished that moment had not end.

He could hear her moans in his ear, she was teasing him even more... so he could not keep the fire from that passion he let himself be led by that moment.

That feeling between her legs, inside her, it was as if it had consumed her whole body, so she felt she could not take it anymore, but she seemed to feel that he did not either.

So this was the feeling of the passion between a couple. Ina smiled breathlessly, opening her eyes slowly, if she knew how it felt, she would have surrendered to Masayasu longer.

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