#i need answers and baekhong

[weirdhunterangel]

Queen of tears better answer each and every question they opened up with no loose ends and give me fluff and soft baekhong. I do not care if that damn finale is 3 hours long.

[dllamarama]

Episode 5 Queen of Tears BaekHong recap

Scene: Night at the Yongduri

It has been too long since they smiled and laughed together. Hyun Woo realised that this was probably the first time they were sitting and laughing together after their long period of cold war. His expression was bittersweet at the realisation, a guilty one. Hae In finally got a sense of having a family that actually cared. She was touched by his family's effort to find her. The kind of warmth that she had never received from her own family.

Hair dryer scene is melting me and obviously Hae In too. Why does a married couple look so awkward and careful while touching each other? They are making me pull off my hair with their push and pull. Hyun Woo was getting worked up when Hae In mentioned that the life line on her palm is too short. He is now rooting for her to live instead of dying; you are going in the right direction Hyun Woo, keep going. When Hae In asked Hyun Woo to accompany her to Germany in an unsure tone, now I believe that she really was unconfident about her relationship with Hyun Woo. When we go back to the second episode from Hae In’s POV, she was rejected by Hyun Woo when she asked him to go to the hospital, which probably stayed with her. So now, she can no longer be certain of Hyun Woo’s feelings towards her. But thankfully, Hyun Woo’s answer makes her relieved that they are still one team.

Almost kissed. They were swept in the moment with raw emotion after being able to slightly open up to each other, but of course Baek Hyun Woo had to ruin it. His conscience is back along with his denial. Just admit that you wanted to kiss her damn it! But the thing is, our Baek Hyun Woo knows for a fact that it won’t end with a kiss. That’s why he preferred to stay outside and clear his head. He can’t think straight at home because he can’t stand to sleep in the small bed with Hae In. But now, it has changed from the last time they had to share the same bed. The last time, he was scared if Hae In jumped on him, this time it was himself he was scared of. He can no longer remain level-headed with Hae In in the same room and he is not ready to face the reality while also making a mistake of kissing her when he does not fully understand where he currently stands in their relationship. Admitting it means that he has to admit all the sketchy things he did behind Hae In. He will need to face the consequences of his action and the reality of Hae In’s illness. He no longer has the confidence to continue with his divorce plan and hating Hae In (I believe it was a tear of regrets he shed in front of the supermarket), because he already saw past her strong woman façade when she broke down in front of him.

Our baby 1031 is their weakness and their key to happiness. First of all, Hae In really needs to take the blame for this; clearing up the baby’s nursery without talking to Hyun Woo first. Hyun Woo also needs to take the blame for this; moving out of their bedroom out of anger and also not talking things properly with Hae In. So many things could have changed if they take the time to communicate properly with each other. But both of them are grieving for their baby, and things happened. However, Hae In words hurt; it hurts so much for us and imagine the effect on Hyun Woo. He is much more sensitive than Hae In and he is someone who needs to grief in the open while Hae In is used to bottle up her feelings. The words that she chose to say at that moment were “get on my nerves” and “we don’t need it anymore”, while answering a business call. Hyun Woo was dumbfounded, disbelief, hurt and most importantly grieving for the fact that their baby was connected with those hurtful words by Hae In, but she continues to respond to the call instead of talking things properly with him. The tears that he almost shed were held back when he saw that Hae In no longer cared. He was sad for their baby when he made that drastic decision to use a separate room. They should be grieving for the loss together, but they did it separately. Hae In was not as cold as the word that she chose when we saw that she was deeply affected by the loss as well and believes that it is her fault for the miscarriage and doesn't deserve to be sad.

Scene: Umbrella and wet shoulder

Hae In insisted that she didn’t wait for Hyun Woo the previous night and that it was because she just couldn’t sleep and it is definitely not because of him. Hyun Woo just accepts her words and believes it, he said he knew that Hae In would never wait for him. But, Hae In was offended by the statement where he is agreeing to her argument. We knew later in the series that she actually has always been waiting for Hyun Woo before going to bed, but Hyun Woo won’t know or notice it because he believes in whatever that Hae In said to him. Hae In doesn’t like to admit things and always wanted to be seen as nonchalant and that is exactly what Hyun Woo believes. HE IS SLOW. When Hae In notices his wet shoulder, she is again mad at him. For not holding the umbrella properly, the effect of this statement would only irritate Hyun Woo and make things harder for him to get her meaning. She needs to spell the word for him to make him understand her feelings because he is stooopid. If she could just be honest, she will spend less time getting angry at him for not understanding her double meaning. She didn’t understand that Hyun Woo was not observant and couldn’t understand cues or her opposite actions and words.

Scene: Alone in Germany

After a series of misunderstandings (manipulation by YES) and not COMMUNICATING, Hae In went to Germany alone. Baek Hyun Woo’s auto-pilot mode is switched on again. He did his old habit when Hae In was going outstation, celebrating with Yang Gi. He could have followed Hae In right after but I think he wasn’t capable of making that decision. He was not ready to accept that he catch feelings for Hong Hae In, the woman that he planned to divorce. Where does he go from there? After he finally saw Hae In’s honest feelings from the interview, he was finally able to make the right decision. All along the universe has been sending him signals, remember the leaves? They are telling him that divorcing Hae In is not a choice. But all that he needed was not the universe sign, he just needed one thing; Hae In’s honesty.

That is his only reason to go to Germany, which is to find her and be with her during this challenging time. Her honesty means the world to him; they could have reconciled faster had they been talking with honesty all along without hiding anything from the other. When he found her at Sanssouci Palace, he finally accepted defeat to his feelings for her. He still very much loves her. Somehow, his ideal type never changed. He likes someone that is soft and delicate that he needs to protect. He saw that when he started to like her when she first kicked the photocopier (because he worried about the photocopier at first and then worried about her), he was affected when SHE is the one that is getting in so much trouble during her internship and saw it again when she started falling sick from the terminal illness. I think it was the same when he saw her sitting alone on that stair while resting her feet. Something just breaks inside him to see her like that. Because behind the strong woman facade, she has always been the same Hae In that he fell in love with. He was just too blind and stupid to ever noticed that, because they were lost during his struggle with her family’s interference. They finally start to talk honestly with each other, having the catching up that has been overdue for 2 years. Hae In finally tells him that she always wanted him by his side and Hyun Woo finally knows that he had been wrong about her all these while. She had never wanted to be alone and was always waiting for him to come back to her again.

Summary:

We always knew the reason of their marriage going downhill, they fall apart because of their poor communication skills and their pride. But having to seen the glimpse of baby 1031, it made things clear for us. While Hae In was hiding behind her mask, Hyun Woo wasn’t willing/incapable to break past her mask and cause the misunderstanding to deepens. They are not trying to understand each other, instead they are taking out their frustration to each other. During the flashback, we saw Hae In talking to the phone yet again instead of talking about her real feelings about the miscarriage with Hyun Woo. And to know that all along, Hyun Woo only wanted honesty from her. He would stay by her side had he knew the honesty in Hae In. It was exactly the same situation that happened in the 1st episode when she choose to answer the call instead of arguing with him, and I imagine it was always like that throughout the marriage. In a way, I think that it is one of Hae In’s ways to avoid their issue or her coping mechanism when she is not ready to accept the reality and another way is that she just treats everything else as seconds after her career. We can see that Hyun Woo was not done talking to her yet in the flashback but Hae In is already getting back to the call and making it clear on her part that she is done talking. It is not up for discussion because she already made the decision, I know for a fact that Hyun Woo was retreating because he doesn’t want to argue with the decision because deep down he knows that Hae In is also sad and arguing would only make him say the words that he will regret. But her words lived with him throughout their marriage, that hurtful words is slowly making him believe her as someone she is not.